Artfulasshewas,Mrs。Tenbruggenfailedtoconcealamomentaryexpressionofreliefwhichbetrayeditself,partlyinhermanner,partlyinherface。Shehadascertained,toherowncompletesatisfaction,thatmyspeedydeparturewasaneventwhichmightbereliedon。
\"ButIhavenotyetansweredyou,\"sheresumed。\"Totellthetruth,Iameagertotrymyhandsonyou。Massage,asIpracticeit,wouldlightenyourweight,andrestoreyourfigure;Imayevensaywouldlengthenyourlife。Youwillthinkofme,oneofthesedays,won’tyou?Inthemeanwhile——yes!Iamhereinmyprofessionalcapacity。Severalinterestingcases;andoneveryremarkableperson,broughttodeath’sdoorbythedoctors;arichmanwhoisliberalinpayinghisfees。ThereismyquarrelwithLondonandLondoners。Someoftheirpapers,medicalnewspapers,ofcourse,declarethatmyfeesareexorbitant;andthereisatendencyamongthepatients——Imeanthepatientswhoarerollinginriches——tofollowtheleadofthenewspapers。Iamnowormtobetroddenon,inthatway。TheLondonpeopleshallwaitforme,untiltheymissme——and,whenIdogoback,theywillfindthefeesincreased。_My_fingersandthumbs,Mr。Governor,arenottobeinsultedwithimpunity。\"
MissJillgallnoddedherheadatme。Itwasaneloquentnod。
\"Admiremyspiritedfriend,\"wastheinterpretationIputonit。
Atthesametime,myprivatesentimentssuggestedthatMrs。
Tenbruggen’sreplywastooperfectlysatisfactory,viewedasanexplanation。Mysuspicionswerebynomeanssetatrest;andI
wasresolvednottoletthesubjectdropyet。\"SpeakingofMr。
Gracedieu,andofthechancesofhispartialrecovery,\"Isaid,\"doyouthinktheMinisterwouldbenefitbyMassage?\"
\"Ihaven’tadoubtofit,ifyoucangetridofthedoctor。\"
\"Youthinkhewouldbeanobstacleintheway?\"
\"Therearesomemedicalmenwhoarehonorableexceptionstothegeneralrule;andhemaybeoneofthem,\"Mrs。Tenbruggenadmitted。\"Don’tbetoohopeful。Asadoctor,hebelongstothemosttyrannicaltrades—unioninexistence。MayImakeapersonalremark?\"
\"Certainly。\"
\"Ifindsomethinginyourmanner——praydon’tsupposethatIamangry——whichlookslikedistrust;Imean,distrustofMe。\"
MissJillgall’severreadykindnessinterferedinmydefense:
\"Oh,no,Elizabeth!Youarenotoftenmistaken;butindeedyouarewrongnow。Lookatmydistinguishedfriend。Iremembermycopybook,whenIwasasmallcreaturelearningtowrite,inEngland。Therewerefirstlinesthatwecopied,inbigletters,andoneofthemsaid,’DistrustIsMean。’Iknowayoungperson,whosenamebeginswithH,whoisonemassofmeanness。
But\"——excellentSelinapaused,andpointedtomewithagestureoftriumph——\"nomeannessthere!\"
Mrs。TenbruggenwaitedtohearwhatIhadtosay,scornfullyinsensibletoMissJillgall’swell—meantinterruption。
\"Youarenotaltogethermistaken,\"Itoldher。\"Ican’tsaythatmymindisinastateofdistrust,butIownthatyoupuzzleme。\"
\"How,ifyouplease?\"
\"MayIpresumethatyouremembertheoccasionwhenwemetatMr。
Gracedieu’shouse—door?YousawthatIfailedtorecognizeyou,andyourefusedtogiveyournamewhentheservantaskedforit。
Afewdaysafterward,Iheardyou(quiteaccidentally)forbidMissJillgalltomentionyournameinmyhearing。Iamatalosstounderstandit。\"
Beforeshecouldanswerme,thechaisedrewupatthegateofthefarmhouse。Mrs。Tenbruggencarefullypromisedtoexplainwhathadpuzzledme,atthefirstopportunity。\"Ifitescapesmymemory,\"
shesaid,\"prayremindmeofit。\"
Ideterminedtoremindherofit。WhetherIcoulddependonhertotellmethetruth,mightbequiteanotherthing。
CHAPTERXLVIII
THEDECISIONOFEUNICE。
EUNICEranouttomeetus,andopenedthegate。ShewasinstantlyfoldedinMissJillgall’sarms。Onherrelease,shecametome,eagerfornewsofherfather’shealth。WhenIhadcommunicatedallthatIthoughtitrighttotellherofthedoctor’slastreport,shenoticedMrs。Tenbruggen。Theappearanceofastrangerseemedtoembarrassher。IleftMissJillgalltointroducethemtoeachother。
\"DarlingEuneece,yourememberMrs。Tenbruggen’sname,Iamsure?
Elizabeth,thisismysweetgirl;Imentionedherinmyletterstoyou。\"
\"Ihopeshewillbe_my_sweetgirl,whenweknoweachotheralittlebetter。MayIkissyou,dear?Youhavelovelyeyes;butI
amsorrytoseethattheydon’tlooklikehappyeyes。YouwantMammaTenbruggentocheeryou。Whatacharmingoldhouse!\"
SheputherarmroundEunice’swaistandledhertothehousedoor。Herenjoymentofthecreepersthattwinedtheirwayupthepillarsoftheporchwassimplyperfectionasapieceofacting。
Whenthefarmer’swifepresentedherself,Mrs。Tenbruggenwassoirresistiblyamiable,andtooksuchflatteringnoticeofthechildren,thattheharmlessBritishmatronactuallyblushedwithpleasure。\"I’msure,ma’am,youmusthavechildrenofyourown,\"
shesaid。Mrs。Tenbruggencasthereyesonthefloor,andsighedwithpatheticresignation。Asweetlittlefamily,andallcruellysweptawaybydeath。Iftheperformancemeantanything,itdidmostassuredlymeanthat。
\"Whatwonderfulself—possession!\"somebodywhisperedinmyear。
Thechildrenintheroomwerehealthy,well—behavedlittlecreatures——butthenameoftheinnocentoneamongthemwasSelina。
Beforedinnerwewereshownoverthefarm。
Thegoodwomanofthehouseledtheway,andMissJillgallandI
accompaniedher。Thechildrenranoninfrontofus。StillkeepingpossessionofEunice,Mrs。Tenbruggenfollowedatsomedistancebehind。Ilookedback,afternoverylonginterval,andsawthataseparationhadtakenplace。Mrs。Tenbruggenpassedme,notlookingsopleasantlyasusual,joinedthechildren,andwalkedwithtwoofthem,handinhand,apatternofmaternalamiability。Idroppedbackalittle,andgaveEuniceanopportunityofjoiningme;havingpurposelylefthertoformherownopinion,withoutanyadverseinfluenceexercisedonmypart。
\"Isthatladyafriendofyours?\"sheasked。\"No;onlyanacquaintance。Whatdoyouthinkofher?\"
\"IthoughtIshouldlikeheratfirst;shewassokind,andseemedtotakesuchaninterestinme。Butshesaidsuchstrangethings——askedifIwasreckonedlikemymother,andwhichofuswastheeldest,mysisterormyself,andwhetherweweremyfather’sonlytwochildren,andifoneofuswasmorehisfavoritethantheother。WhatIcouldtellher,Ididtell。ButwhenIsaidIdidn’tknowwhichofuswastheoldest,shegavemeanimpudenttaponthecheek,andsaid,’Idon’tbelieveyou,child,’andleftme。HowcanSelinabesofondofher?Don’tmentionittoanyoneelse;IhopeIshallneverseeheragain。\"
\"Iwillkeepyoursecret,Eunice;andyoumustkeepmine。I
entirelyagreewithyou。\"
\"Youagreewithmeindislikingher?\"
\"Heartily。\"
Wecouldsaynomoreatthattime。Ourfriendsinadvancewerewaitingforus。Wejoinedthematonce。
IfIhadfeltanydoubtofthepurposewhichhadreallyinducedMrs。TenbruggentoleaveLondon,allfurtheruncertaintyonmypartwasatanend。ShehadsomevileinterestofherowntoservebyidentifyingMr。Gracedieu’sadoptedchild——butwhatthenatureofthatinterestmightbe,itwasimpossibletoguess。Thefuture,whenIthoughtofitnow,filledmewithdismay。Amoreutterlyhelplesspositionthanmineitwasnoteasytoconceive。
TowarntheMinister,inhispresentcriticalstateofhealth,wassimplyimpossible。MyrelationswithHelenaforbademeeventoapproachher。And,asforSelina,shewaslittlelessthanameretoolinthehandsofherwell—belovedfriend。What,inGod’sname,wasItodo?
Atdinner—timewefoundthemasterofthehousewaitingtobiduswelcome。
Personallyspeaking,hepresentedaremarkablecontrasttothetypicalBritishfarmer。Hewasneitherbignorburly;hespokeEnglishaswellasIdid;andtherewasnothinginhisdresswhichwouldhavemadehimafitsubjectforapictureofrusticlife。Whenhespoke,hewasabletotalkonsubjectsunconnectedwithagriculturalpursuits;nordidIhearhimgrumbleabouttheweatherandthecrops。Itwaspleasanttoseethathiswifewasproudofhim,andthathewas,whatallfathersoughttobe,hischildren’sbestanddearestfriend。WhydoIdwellonthesedetails,relatingtoamanwhomIwasnotdestinedtoseeagain?
OnlybecauseIhadreasontofeelgratefultohim。Whenmyspiritsweredepressedbyanxiety,hemademymindeasyaboutEunice,aslongassheremainedinhishouse。
Thesocialarrangements,whenourmealwasover,fellofthemselvesintotherighttrain。
MissJillgallwentupstairs,withthemotherandthechildren,toseethenurseryandthebedrooms。Mrs。Tenbruggendiscoveredabondofunionbetweenthefarmerandherself;theywerebothskilledplayersatbackgammon,andtheysatdowntotryconclusionsattheirfavoritegame。Withoutanywearisomenecessityforexcusesorstratagems,Eunicetookmyarmandledmetothewelcomeretirementofherownsitting—room。
Icouldhonestlycongratulateher,whenIheardthatshewasestablishedatthefarmasamemberofthefamily。Whileshewasgovernesstothechildren,shewassafefromdangersthatmighthavethreatenedher,ifshehadbeencompelledbycircumstancestoreturntotheMinister’shouse。
TheentryinherJournal,whichshewasanxiousthatIshouldread,wasplacedbeforemenext。
Ifollowedthepoorchild’saccountofthefearfulnightthatshehadpassed,withaninterestthatheldmebreathlesstotheend。
Aterribledream,whichhadimpressedasenseofitsrealityonthesleeperbyreachingitsclimaxinsomnambulism——thiswastheobviousexplanation,nodoubt;andarationalmindwouldnothesitatetoacceptit。Butarationalmindisnotauniversalgift,eveninacountrywhichpridesitselfontheidol—worshipofFact。Thosegoodfriendswhoarealwaysbetteracquaintedwithourfaults,failings,andweaknessesthanwecanpretendtobeourselves,hadlongsincediscoveredthatmynaturewassuperstitious,andmyimaginationlikelytomisleadmeinthepresenceofeventswhichencouragedit。Well!IwasweakenoughtorecoilfromthepurelyrationalviewofallthatEunicehadsuffered,andheard,andseen,onthefatefulnightrecordedinherJournal。GoodandEvilwalkthewaysofthisunintelligibleworld,onthesamefreeconditions。Ifwecling,asmanyofusdo,tothecomfortingbeliefthatdepartedspiritscanministertoearthlycreaturesforgood——canbefeltmovinginus,inatrainofthought,andseenasvisiblemanifestations,inadream——withwhatpretenseofreasoncanwedenythatthesamefreedomofsupernaturalinfluencewhichisconcededtothedepartedspirit,workingforgood,isalsopermittedtothedepartedspirit,workingforevil?Ifthegravecannotwhollypartmotherandchild,whenthemother’slifehasbeengood,doeseternalannihilationseparatethem,whenthemother’slifehasbeenwicked?No!Ifthedepartedspiritcanbringwithitablessing,thedepartedspiritcanbringwithitacurse。IdarednotconfesstoEunicethattheinfluenceofhermurderess—mothermight,asIthoughtpossible,havebeensupernaturallypresentwhensheheardtemptationwhisperinginherear;butIdarednotdenyittomyself。AllthatIcouldsaytosatisfyandsustainher,Ididsay。AndwhenIdeclared——withmywholeheartdeclared——thatthenoblepassionwhichhadelevatedherwholebeing,andhadtriumphedoverthesoresttrialsthatdesertioncouldinflict,wouldstilltriumphtotheend,Isawhope,inthatbraveandtrueheart,showingitsbrightpromiseforthefutureinEunice’seyes。
SheclosedandlockedherJournal。Bycommonconsentwesoughtthereliefofchangingthesubject。EuniceaskedmeifitwasreallynecessarythatIshouldreturntoLondon。
IshrankfromtellingherthatIcouldbeofnofurtherusetoherfather,whileheregardedmewithanenmitywhichIhadnotdeserved。ButIsawnoreasonforconcealingthatitwasmypurposetoseePhilipDunboyne。
\"Youtoldmeyesterday,\"Iremindedher,\"thatIwastosayyouhadforgivenhim。Doyoustillwishmetodothat?\"
\"IndeedIdo!\"
\"Haveyouthoughtofitseriously?Areyousureofnothavingbeenhurriedbyagenerousimpulseintosayingmorethanyoumean?\"
\"Ihavebeenthinkingofit,\"shesaid,\"throughthewakefulhoursoflastnight——andmanythingsareplaintome,whichIwasnotsureofinthetimewhenIwassohappy。Hehascausedmethebitterestsorrowofmylife,buthecan’tundothegoodthatI
owetohim。Hehasmadeabettergirlofme,inthetimewhenhislovewasmine。Idon’tforgetthat。Miserablyasithasended,I
don’tforgetthat。\"
Hervoicetrembled;thetearsroseinhereyes。ItwasimpossibleformetoconcealthedistressthatIfelt。Thenoblecreaturesawit。\"No,\"shesaidfaintly;\"Iamnotgoingtocry。Don’tlooksosorryforme。\"Herhandpressedmyhandgently——_she_
pitied_me。_WhenIsawhowshestruggledtocontrolherself,anddidcontrolherself,IdeclaretoGodIcouldhavegonedownonmykneesbeforeher。
SheaskedtobeallowedtospeakofPhilipagain,andforthelasttime。
\"WhenyoumeetwithhiminLondon,hemayperhapsaskifyouhaveseenEunice。\"
\"Mychild!heissuretoask。\"
\"Breakittohimgently——butdon’tlethimdeceivehimself。Inthisworld,hemustneverhopetoseemeagain。\"
Itried——verygently——toremonstrate。\"Atyourage,andathisage,\"Isaid,\"surelythereishope?\"
\"Thereisnohope。\"Shepressedherhandonherheart。\"Iknowit,Ifeelit,here。\"
\"Oh,Eunice,it’shardformetosaythat!\"
\"Iwilltrytomakeiteasierforyou。SaythatIhaveforgivenhim——andsaynomore。\"
CHAPTERXLIX。
THEGOVERNORONHISGUARD。
AFTERleavingEunice,myonedesirewastobealone。Ihadmuchtothinkof,andIwantedanopportunityofrecoveringmyself。Onmywayoutofthehouse,insearchofthefirstsolitaryplacethatIcoulddiscover,Ipassedtheroominwhichwehaddined。
Thedoorwasajar。BeforeIcouldgetbyit,Mrs。Tenbruggensteppedoutandstoppedme。
\"Willyoucomeinhereforamoment?\"shesaid。\"Thefarmerhasbeencalledaway,andIwanttospeaktoyou。\"
Veryunwillingly——buthowcouldIhaverefusedwithoutgivingoffense?——Ienteredtheroom。
\"Whenyounoticedmykeepingmynamefromyou,\"Mrs。Tenbruggenbegan,\"whileSelinawaswithus,youplacedmeinanawkwardposition。Ourlittlefriendisanexcellentcreature,buthertonguerunsawaywithhersometimes;Iamobligedtobecarefuloftakinghertooreadilyintomyconfidence。Forinstance,I
havenevertoldherwhatmynamewasbeforeImarried。Won’tyousitdown?\"
Ihadpurposelyremainedstandingasahinttohernottoprolongtheinterview。Thehintwasthrownaway;Itookachair。
\"Selina’slettershadinformedme,\"sheresumed,\"thatMr。
Gracedieuwasanervousinvalid。WhenIcametoEngland,IhadhopedtotrywhatMassagemightdotorelievehim。ThecureoftheirpopularpreachermighthaveadvertisedmethroughthewholeoftheCongregationalsect。ItwasessentialtomysuccessthatI
shouldpresentmyselfasastranger。Icouldtrusttimeandchange,andmymarriedname(certainlynotknowntoMr。
Gracedieu)tokeepupmyincognito。HewouldhaverefusedtoseemeifhehadknownthatIwasonceMissChance。\"
Ibegantobeinterested。
Herewasanopportunity,perhaps,ofdiscoveringwhattheMinisterhadfailedtorememberwhenhehadbeenspeakingofthiswoman,andwhenIhadaskedifhehadeveroffendedher。Iwasespeciallycarefulinmakingmyinquiries。
\"IrememberhowyouspoketoMr。Gracedieu,\"Isaid,\"whenyouandhemet,longago,inmyrooms。Butsurelyyoudon’tthinkhimcapableofvindictivelyrememberingsomethoughtlesswords,whichescapedyousixteenorseventeenyearssince?\"
\"Iamnotquitesuchafoolasthat,Mr。Governor。WhatIwasthinkingofwasanunpleasantcorrespondencebetweentheMinisterandmyself。BeforeIwassounfortunateastomeetwithMr。
Tenbruggen,IobtainedachanceofemploymentinapublicInstitution,onconditionthatIincludedaclergymanamongmyreferences。KnowingnobodyelsewhomIcouldapplyto,IrashlywrotetoMr。Gracedieu,andreceivedoneofthosecoldandcruelrefusalswhichonlythestrictestreligiousprinciplecanproduce。Iwasmortallyoffendedatthetime;andifyourfriendtheMinisterhadbeenwithinmyreach——\"Shepaused,andfinishedthesentencebyasignificantgesture。
\"Well,\"Isaid,\"heiswithinyourreachnow。\"
\"Andoutofhismind,\"sheadded。\"Besides,one’ssenseofinjurydoesn’tlast(exceptinnovelsandplays)throughaseriesofyears。Idon’tpityhim——andifanopportunityofshakinghishighpositionamonghisadmiringcongregationpresenteditself,I
daresayImightmakeamischievousreturnforhislettertome。
Inthemeanwhile,wemaydropthesubject。Isupposeyouunderstand,now,whyIconcealedmynamefromyou,andwhyIkeptoutofthehousewhileyouwereinit。\"
Itwasplainenough,ofcourse。IfIhadknownheragain,orhadheardhername,ImighthavetoldtheMinisterthatMrs。
TenbruggenandMissChancewereoneandthesame。AndifIhadseenherandtalkedwithherinthehouse,mymemorymighthaveshownitselfcapableofimprovement。Havingpolitelypresentedtheexpressionofmythanks,Irosetogo。
Shestoppedmeatthedoor。
\"Onewordmore,\"shesaid,\"whileSelinaisoutoftheway。I
needhardlytellyouthatIhavenottrustedherwiththeMinister’ssecret。YouandIare,asItakeit,theonlypeoplenowlivingwhoknowthetruthaboutthesetwogirls。Andwekeepouradvantage。\"
\"Whatadvantage?\"Iasked。
\"Don’tyouknow?\"
\"Idon’tindeed。\"
\"NomoredoI。Femalefolly,andaslipofthetongue;Iamoldandugly,butIamstillawoman。AboutMissEunice。Somebodyhastoldtheprettylittlefoolnevertotruststrangers。Youwouldhavebeenamused,ifyouhadheardthatslyyoungpersonprevaricatingwithme。Inonerespect,herappearancestrikesme。
Sheisnotlikeeitherthewretchwhowashanged,orthepoorvictimwhowasmurdered。Canshebetheadoptedchild?Orisittheothersister,whomIhavenotseenyet?Oh,come!come!Don’ttrytolookasifyoudidn’tknow。Thatisreallytooridiculous。\"
\"Youalludedjustnow,\"Ianswered,\"toour’advantage’inbeingtheonlypersonswhoknowthetruthaboutthetwogirls。Well,Mrs。Tenbruggen,Ikeep_my_advantage。\"
\"Inotherwords,\"sherejoined,\"youleavemetomakethediscoverymyself。Well,myfriend,Imeantodoit!\"
Intheevening,myhotelofferedtometherefugeofwhichI
stoodinneed。Icouldthink,forthefirsttimethatday,withoutinterruption。
BeingresolvedtoseePhilip,Ipreparedmyselffortheinterviewbyconsultingmyextractsoncemore。Theletter,inwhichMrs。
Tenbruggenfigures,inspiredmewiththehopeofprotectionforMr。Gracedieu,attainablethroughnolessapersonthanHelenaherself。
Tobeginwith,shewouldcertainlysharePhilip’saversiontotheMasseuse,andherdislikeofMissJillgallwould,justaspossibly,extendtoMissJillgall’sfriend。ThehostilefeelingthussetupmightbetrustedtokeepwatchonMrs。Tenbruggen’sproceedings,withavigilancenotattainablebythecoarserobservationofaman。Intheevent,ofanimprovementintheMinister’shealth,IshouldhearofitbothfromthedoctorandfromMissJillgall,andinthatcaseIshouldinstantlyreturntomyunhappyfriendandputhimonhisguard。
IstartedforLondonbytheearlytraininthemorning。
MywayhomefromtheterminustookmepastthehotelatwhichtheelderMr。Dunboynewasstaying。Icalledonhim。Hewasreportedtobeengaged;thatistosay,immersedinhisbooks。TheaddressononeofPhilip’slettershadinformedmethathewasstayingatanotherhotel。Pursuingmyinquiriesinthisdirection,Imetwithaseveredisappointment。Mr。PhilipDunboynehadleftthehotelthatmorning;forwhatdestinationneitherthelandlordnorthewaitercouldtellme。
Thenextday’spostbroughtwithittheinformationwhichIhadfailedtoobtain。MissJillgallwrote,informingmeinherstrongestlanguagethatPhilipDunboynehadreturnedtoHelena。
IndignantSelinaadded:\"Helenameanstomakehimmarryher;andIpromiseyousheshallfail,ifIcanstopit。\"
IntakingleaveofEunice,Ihadgivenhermyaddress;hadwarnedhertobecareful,ifsheandMrs。Tenbruggenhappenedtomeetagain,andhadbeggedhertowritetome,ortocometome,ifanythinghappenedtoalarmherinmyabsence。
Intwodaysmore,IreceivedalinefromEunice,writtenevidentlyinthegreatestagitation。
\"Philiphasdiscoveredme。Hehasbeenhere,andhasinsistedonseeingme。Ihaverefused。Thegoodfarmerhassokindlytakenmypart。Icanwritenomore。\"
CHAPTERL。
THENEWSFROMTHEFARM。
WHENInextheardfromMissJillgall,theintroductorypartofherlettermerelyremindedmethatPhilipDunboynewasestablishedinthetown,andthatHelenawasindailycommunicationwithhim。IshalldoSelinanoinjusticeifmyextractbeginswithhersecondpage。
\"Youwillsympathize,Iamsure\"(shewrites),\"withtheindignationwhichurgedmetocallonPhilip,andtellhimthewaytothefarmhouse。ThinkofHelenabeingdeterminedtomarryhim,whetherhewantstoornot!Iamafraidthisisbadgrammar。
Butthereareoccasionswhenevenacultivatedladyfailsinhergrammar,andalmostenviesthementheirprivilegeofswearingwhentheyareinarage。Mystateofmindistrulyindescribable。
Griefmingleswithanger,whenItellyouthatmysweetEuneecehasdisappointedme,forthefirsttimesinceIhadthehappinessofknowingandadmiringher。Whatcanhavebeenthemotiveofherrefusaltoreceiveherpenitentlover?Isitpride?WearetoldthatSatanfellthroughpride。Euneecesatanic?Impossible!I
feelinclinedtogoandaskherwhathashardenedherheartagainstapooryoungmanwhobitterlyregretshisownfolly。Doyouthinkitwasbadadvicefromthefarmerorhiswife?Inthatcase,Ishallexertmyinfluence,andtakeheraway。Youwoulddothesame,wouldn’tyou?
\"IamashamedtomentionthepoordearMinisterinapostscript。
Thetruthis,Idon’tverywellknowwhatIamabout。Mr。
Gracedieuisquiet,sleepsbetterthanhedid,eatswithakeenerappetite,givesnotrouble。But,alas,thatgloriousintellectisinastateofeclipse!Donotsuppose,becauseIwritefiguratively,thatIamnotsorryforhim。Heunderstandsnothing;heremembersnothing;hehasmyprayers。
\"Youmightcometousagain,ifyouwouldonlybesokind。Itwouldmakenodifferencenow;thepoormanissosadlyaltered。I
mustadd,mostreluctantly,thatthedoctorrecommendsyourstayingathome。Betweenourselves,heislittlebetterthanacoward。Fancyhissaying;’No;wemustnotrunthatriskyet。’I
ambarelyciviltohim,andnomore。
\"Inanyotheraffair(excusemefortroublingyouwithasecondpostscript),mysympathywithEuneecewouldhavepenetratedhermotives;Ishouldhavefeltwithherfeelings。ButIhaveneverbeeninlove;nogentlemangavemetheopportunitywhenIwasyoung。NowIammiddle—aged,neglecthasdoneitsdrearywork——myheartisanextinctcrater。Figurativeagain!Ihadbetterputmypenaway,andsayfarewellforthepresent。\"
MissJillgallmaynowgiveplacetoEunice。Thesameday’spostbroughtmebothletters。
Ishouldbeunworthyindeedofthetrustwhichthisaffectionategirlhasplacedinme,ifIfailedtoreceiveherexplanationofherconducttowardPhilipDunboyne,asasacredsecretconfidedtomyfatherlyregard。Inthoselaterportionsofherletter,whicharenotaddressedtomeconfidentially,Eunicewritesasfollows:
\"Igetnews——andwhatheartbreakingnews!——ofmyfather,bysendingamessengertoSelina。ItismorethaneverimpossiblethatIcanputmyselfinthewayofseeingHelenaagain。ShehaswrittentomeaboutPhilip,inatonesoshockinglyinsolentandcruel,thatIhavedestroyedherletter。Philip’svisittothefarm,discoveredIdon’tknowhow,seemstohaveinfuriatedher。
Sheaccusesmeofdoingallthatshemightherselfhavedoneinmyplace,andthreatensme——No!IamafraidofthewickedwhisperingsofthatsecondselfofmineifIthinkofit。TheywereneartotemptingmewhenIreadHelena’sletter。ButI