CHAPTERXLIII。
THEMASTERFULMASSEUSE。
Mynextquotationswillsufferaprocessofabridgment。Iintendthemtopresentthesubstanceofthreeletters,reducedasfollows:
SecondExtract。
Weakashemaybe,Mr。PhilipDunboyneshows(inhissecondletter)thathecanfeelresentment,andthathecanexpresshisfeelings,inreplyingtoMissHelena。Heprotestsagainstsuspicionswhichhehasnotdeserved。ThathedoessometimesthinkofEuniceheseesnoreasontodeny。Heisconsciousoferrorsandmisdeeds,which——traceableastheyaretoHelena’sirresistiblefascinations——mayperhapsbeconsideredratherhismisfortunethanhisfault。Bethatasitmay,hedoesindeedfeelanxioustoheargoodaccountsofEunice’shealth。Ifthishonestavowalexciteshersister’sjealousy,hewillbedisappointedinHelenaforthefirsttime。
Histhirdlettershowsthatthisexhibitionofspirithashaditseffect。
Theimperiousyoungladyregretsthatshehashurthisfeelings,andisrewardedfortheapologybyreceivingnewsofthemostgratifyingkind。FaithfulPhiliphastoldhisfatherthatheisengagedtobemarriedtoMissHelenaGracedieu,daughterofthecelebratedCongregationalpreacher——andsoon,andsoon。HasMr。
Dunboynetheelderexpressedanyobjectiontotheyounglady?
Certainlynot!HeknowsnothingoftheotherengagementtoEunice;andhemerelyobjects,onprinciple,tolookingforward。
\"Howdoweknow,\"saysthephilosopher,\"whataccidentsmayhappen,orwhatdoubtsandhesitationsmayyetturnup?Iamnottoburdenmymindinthismatter,tillIknowthatImustdoit。
Letmehearwhensheisreadytogotochurch,andIwillbereadywiththesettlements。MycomplimentstoMissandherpapa,andletuswaitalittle。\"DearestHelena——isn’thefunny?
Thenextletterhasbeenalreadymentioned。
InthisthereoccursthefirststartlingreferencetoMrs。
Tenbruggen,byname。SheisinLondon,findingherwaytolucrativecelebritybytwisting,turning,andpinchingthefleshofcredulouspersons,afflictedwithnervousdisorders;andshehasalreadypaidafewmedicalvisitstooldMr。Dunboyne。HepersistsinporingoverhisbookswhileMrs。Tenbruggenoperates,sometimesonhiscrampedrighthand,sometimes(inthefearthathisbrainmayhavesomethingtodowithit)onthebackofhisneck。Oneofthemfrownsoverherrubbing,andtheotherfrownsoverhisreading。Itwouldbedelightfullyridiculous,butforadrawback;Mr。PhilipDunboyne’sfirstimpressionsofMrs。
Tenbruggendonotinclinehimtolookatthatladyfromahumorouspointofview。
Helena’sremarksfollow,asusual。ShehasseenMrs。Tenbruggen’snameontheaddressofaletterwrittenbyMissJillgall——whichisquiteenoughtocondemnMrs。Tenbruggen。AsforPhiliphimself,shefeelsnotquitesureofhim,evenyet。NomoredoI。
ThirdExtract。
Theletterthatfollowsmustbepermittedtospeakforitself:
Ihaveflownintoapassion,dearestHelena;andIamafraidI
shallmakeyouflyintoapassion,too。BlameMrs。Tenbruggen;
don’tblameme。
OnthefirstoccasionwhenIfoundmyfatherunderthehandsoftheMedicalRubber,shetooknonoticeofme。Onthesecondoccasion——whenshehadbeenindailyattendanceonhimforaweek,atanexorbitantfee——shesaidinthecoolestmanner:\"Whoisthisyounggentleman?\"Myfatherlaiddownhisbook,foramomentonly:\"Don’tinterruptmeagain,ma’am。TheyounggentlemanismysonPhilip。\"Mrs。TenbruggeneyedmewithanappearanceofinterestwhichIwasatalosstoaccountfor。I
hateanimpudentwoman。Myvisitcamesuddenlytoanend。
ThenexttimeIsawmyfather,hewasalone。
IaskedhimhowhegotonwithMrs。Tenbruggen。Asbadlyaspossible,itappeared。\"Shetakeslibertieswithmyneck;sheinterruptsmeinmyreading;andshedoesmenogood。Ishallend,Philip,inapplyingamedicalrubbingtoMrs。Tenbruggen。\"
Afewdayslater,Ifoundthemasterful\"Masseuse\"torturingthepooroldgentleman’smusclesagain。Shehadtheaudacitytosaytome:\"Well,Mr。Philip,whenareyougoingtomarryMissEuniceGracedieu?\"Myfatherlookedup。\"Eunice?\"herepeated。\"WhenmysontoldmehewasengagedtoMissGracedieu,hesaid’Helena’!
Philip,whatdoesthismean?\"Mrs。Tenbruggenwassoobligingastoanswerforme。\"Somemistake,sir;it’sEuniceheisengagedto。\"IconfessIforgotmyself。\"Howthedevildoyouknowthat?\"
Iburstout。Mrs。Tenbruggenignoredmeandmylanguage。\"Iamsorrytosee,sir,thatyourson’seducationhasbeenneglected;
heseemstobegrosslyignorantofthelawsofpoliteness。\"
\"Nevermindthelawsofpoliteness,\"saysmyfather。\"Youappeartobebetteracquaintedwithmyson’smatrimonialprospectsthanheishimself。Howisthat?\"Mrs。Tenbruggenfavoredhimwithanotherreadyreply:\"Myauthorityisaletter,addressedtomebyarelativeofMr。Gracedieu——mydearandintimatefriend,MissJillgall。\"Myfather’skeeneyestraveledbackwardandforwardbetweenhisfemalesurgeonandhisson。\"WhichamItobelieve?\"
heinquired。\"Iamsurprisedatyouraskingthequestion,\"I
said。Mrs。Tenbruggenpointedtome。\"LookatMr。Philip,sir——andyouwillallowhimonemerit。Heiscapableofshowingit,whenheknowshehasdisgracedhimself。\"Withoutintendingit,Iamsure,myfatherinfuriatedme;helookedasifhebelievedher。OutcameoneofthesmallestandstrongestwordsintheEnglishlanguagebeforeIcouldstopit:\"Mrs。Tenbruggen,youlie!\"TheillustriousRubberdroppedmyfather’shand——shehadbeenoperatingonhimallthetime——andshowedusthatshecouldassertherdignitywhencircumstancescalledfortheexertion:\"EitheryoursonorI,sir,mustleavetheroom。Whichisittobe?\"Shemethermatchinmyfather。Walkingquietlytothedoor,heopeneditforMrs。Tenbruggenwithalowbow。Shestoppedonherwayout,anddeliveredherpartingwords:
\"MessieursDunboyne,fatherandson,Ikeepmytemper,andmerelyregardyouasacoupleofblackguards。\"Withthatprettyassertionofheropinion,sheleftus。
Whenwewerealone,therewasbutonecoursetotake;Imademyconfession。Itisimpossibletotellyouhowmyfatherreceivedit——forhesatdownathislibrarytablewithhisbacktome。Thefirstthinghedidwastoaskmetohelphismemory。
\"Didyousaythatthefatherofthesegirlswasaparson?\"
\"Yes——aCongregationalMinister。\"
\"WhatdoestheMinisterthinkofyou?\"
\"Idon’tknow,sir。\"
\"Findout。\"
Thatwasall;notanotherwordcouldIextractfromhim。Idon’tpretendtohavediscoveredwhathereallyhasinhismind。Ionlyventureonasuggestion。Ifthereisanyoldfriendinyourtown,whohassomeinfluenceoveryourfather,leavenomeansuntriedofgettingthatfriendtosayakindwordforus。Andthenaskyourfathertowritetomine。Thisis,asIseeit,ouronlychance。
Theretheletterends。Helena’snotesonitshowthatherprideisfiercelyinterestedinsecuringPhilipasahusband。HervictoryoverpoorEunicewill,assheplainlyintimates,beonlycompletewhensheismarriedtoyoungDunboyne。Fortherest,herdesperateresolutiontowinherwaytomygoodgracesissufficientlyintelligible,now。
Myownimpressionsvary。Philiprathergainsuponme;heappearstohavesomecapacityforfeelingashamedofhimself。Ontheotherhand,IregardthediscoveryofanintimatefriendshipexistingbetweenMrs。TenbruggenandMissJillgallwiththegloomiestviews。IsthisformidableMasseuselikelytoplyhertradeinthecountrytowns?Andisitpossiblethatshemaycometothistown?Godforbid!
Oftheotherlettersinthecollection,Ineedtakenospecialnotice。IreturnedthewholecorrespondencetoHelena,andwaitedtohearfromher。
TheonerecenteventinMr。Gracedieu’sfamily,worthyofrecord,isofamelancholynature。Afterpayinghisvisitto—day,thedoctorhasleftwordthatnobodybutthenurseistogoneartheMinister。Thisseemstoindicate,buttoosurely,achangefortheworse。
HelenahasbeenawayalltheeveningattheGirls’School。Sheleftalittlenote,informingmeofherwishes:\"Ishallexpecttobefavoredwithyourdecisionto—morrowmorning,inmyhousekeepingroom。\"
Atbreakfasttime,thereportofthepoorMinisterwasstilldiscouraging。InoticedthatHelenawasabsentfromthetable。
MissJillgallsuspectedthatthecausewasbadnewsfromMr。
PhilipDunboyne,arrivingbythatmorning’spost。\"Ifyouwillexcusetheuseofstronglanguagebyalady,\"shesaid,\"Helenalookedperfectlydevilishwhensheopenedtheletter。Sherushedaway,andlockedherselfupinherownshabbyroom。Aseriousobstacle,asIsuspect,inthewayofhermarriage。Cheering,isn’tit?\"Asusual,goodSelinaexpressedhersentimentswithoutreserve。
Ihadtokeepmyappointment;andthesoonerHelenaGracedieuandIunderstoodeachotherthebetter。
Iknockedatthedoor。Itwasloudlyunlocked,andviolentlythrownopen。Helena’stemperhadrisentoboilingheat;shestammeredwithragewhenshespoketome。
\"Imeantocometothepointatonce,\"shesaid。
\"Iamgladtohearit,MissHelena。\"
\"MayIcountonyourinfluencetohelpme?Iwantapositiveanswer。\"
Igaveherwhatshewanted。Isaid:\"Certainlynot。\"
Shetookacrumpledletterfromherpocket,openedit,andsmootheditoutonthetablewithablowofheropenhand。
\"Lookatthat,\"shesaid。
Ilooked。ItwastheletteraddressedtoMr。Dunboynetheelder,whichIhadwrittenforMr。Gracedieu——withtheoneobjectofpreventingHelena’smarriage。
\"Ofcourse,Icandependonyoutotellmethetruth?\"shecontinued。
\"Withoutfearorfavor,\"Ianswered,\"youmaydependon_that。_\"
\"Thesignaturetotheletter,Mr。Governor,iswrittenbymyfather。Buttheletteritselfisinadifferenthand。Doyou,byanychance,recognizethewriting?\"
\"Ido。\"
\"Whosewritingisit?\"
\"Mine。\"
CHAPTERXLIV。
THERESURRECTIONOFTHEPAST。
AFTERhavingidentifiedmyhandwriting,IwaitedwithsomecuriositytoseewhetherHelenawouldletherangerhonestlyshowitself,orwhethershewouldkeepitdown。Shekeptitdown。
\"Allowmetoreturngoodforevil。\"(Theevilwasuppermost,nevertheless,whenMissGracedieuexpressedherselfintheseself—denyingterms。)\"YouarenodoubtanxioustoknowifPhilip’sfatherhasbeenwonovertoserveyourpurpose。HereisPhilip’sownaccountofit:thelastofhislettersthatIshalltroubleyoutoread。\"
Ilookeditover。ThememorandumfollowswhichImadeformyownuse:
Aneccentricphilosopherisascapableasthemostcommonplacehumanbeinginexistenceofbehavinglikeanhonorableman。Mr。
DunboynereadtheletterwhichboretheMinister’ssignature,andhandedittohisson。\"Canyouanswerthat?\"wasallhesaid。
Philip’ssilenceconfessedthathewasunabletoanswerit——andPhiliphimself,Imayadd,roseaccordinglyinmyestimation。Hisfatherpointedtothewriting—desk。\"Imustsparemycrampedhand,\"thephilosopherresumed,\"andImustanswerMr。
Gracedieu’sletter。Write,andleaveaplaceformysignature。\"
Hebegantodictatehisreply。\"Sir——MysonPhiliphasseenyourletter,andhasnodefensetomake。InthisrespecthehassetanexampleofcandorwhichIproposetofollow。Thereisnoexcuseforhim。WhatIcandotoshowthatIfeelforyou,andagreewithyou,shallbedone。Attheagewhichthisyoungmanhasreached,thelawsofEnglandabolishtheauthorityofhisfather。
Ifheissufficientlyinfatuatedtoplacehishonorandhishappinessatthemercyofalady,whohasbehavedtohersisterasyourdaughterhasbehavedtoMissEunice,Iwarnthemarriedcouplenottoexpectafarthingofmymoney,eitherduringmylifetimeoraftermydeath。Yourfaithfulservant,DUNBOYNE,SENIOR。\"Havingperformedhisdutyassecretary,Philipreceivedhisdismissal:\"Youmaysendmyreplytothepost,\"hisfathersaid;\"andyoumaykeepMr。Gracedieu’sletter。Morallyspeaking,Iregardthatlastdocumentasaspeciesofmirror,inwhichayounggentlemanlikeyourselfmayseehowuglyhelooks。\"This,Philipdeclared,washisfather’sformoffarewell。
IhandedbackthelettertoHelena。Notawordpassedbetweenus。
Insinistersilencesheopenedthedoorandleftmealoneintheroom。
ThatMrs。GracedieuandIhadmetinthebygonetime,and——thiswastheonlyseriouspartofit——hadmetinsecret,wouldnowbemadeknowntotheMinister。WasItoblameforhavingshrunkfromdistressingmygoodfriend,bytellinghimthathiswifehadprivatelyconsultedmeonthemeansofremovinghisadoptedchildfromhishouse?And,evenifIhadbeencruelenoughtodothis,wouldhehavebelievedmystatementagainstthepositivedenialwithwhichthewomanwhomhelovedandtrustedwouldhavecertainlymetit?No!lettheconsequencesofthecomingdisclosurebewhattheymight,Ifailedtoseeanyvalidreasonforregrettingmyconductinthepasttime。
IfoundMissJillgallwaitinginthepassagetoseemecomeout。
BeforeIcouldtellherwhathadhappened,therewasaringatthehouse—bell。ThevisitorprovedtobeMr。Wellwood,thedoctor。IwasanxioustospeaktohimonthesubjectofMr。
Gracedieu’shealth。MissJillgallintroducedme,asanoldanddearfriendoftheMinister,andleftustogetherinthedining—room。
\"WhatdoIthinkofMr。Gracedieu?\"hesaid,repeatingthefirstquestionthatIput。\"Well,sir,Ithinkbadlyofhim。\"
Enteringintodetails,afterthatominousreply,Mr。Wellwooddidnothesitatetosaythathispatient’snerveswerecompletelyshattered。Diseaseofthebrainhad,ashefeared,beenalreadysetup。\"Astothecauseswhichhaveproducedthislamentablebreak—down,\"thedoctorcontinued,\"Mr。GracedieuhasbeeninthehabitofpreachingextemporetwiceadayonSundays,andsometimesintheweekaswell——andhasuniformlyrefusedtosparehimselfwhenhewasinmosturgentneedofrest。Ifyouhaveeverattendedhischapel,youhaveseenamaninastateoffieryenthusiasm,feelingintenselyeverywordthatheutters。Thinkofsuchexhaustionasthatimpliesgoingonforyearstogether,andaccumulatingitswastinginfluencesonasensitivelyorganizedconstitution。Addthatheistormentedbypersonalanxieties,whichheconfessestonoone,noteventohisownchildrenandthesumofitallisthataworsecaseofitskind,Iamgrievedtosay,hasneveroccurredinmyexperience。\"
Beforethedoctorleftmetogotohispatient,Iaskedleavetooccupyaminutemoreofhistime。Myobjectwas,ofcourse,tospeakaboutEunice。
ThechangeofsubjectseemedtobeagreeabletoMr。Wellwood。Hesmiledgood—humoredly。
\"Youneedfeelnoalarmaboutthehealthofthatinterestinggirl,\"hesaid。\"Whenshecomplainedtome——atherage!——ofnotbeingabletosleep,IshouldhavetakenitmoreseriouslyifI
hadbeentoldthatshetoohadhertroubles,poorlittlesoul。
Love—troubles,mostlikely——butdon’tforgetthatmyprofessionallimitskeepmeinthedark!Haveyouheardthatshetooksomecomposingmedicine,whichIhadprescribedforherfather?Theeffect(certain,inanycase,tobeinjurioustoayounggirl)
wasconsiderablyaggravatedbythestateofhermindatthetime。
Adreamthatfrightenedher,andsomethingresemblingdelirium,seemstohavefollowed。Andshemademattersworse,poorchild,bywritinginherdiaryaboutthevisionsandsupernaturalappearancesthathadterrifiedher。Iwasafraidoffever,onthedaywhentheyfirstsentforme。Weescapedthatcomplication,andIwasatlibertytotrythebestofallremedies——quietandchangeofair。IhavenofearsforMissEunice。\"
WiththatcheeringreplyhewentuptotheMinister’sroom。
AllthatIhadfoundperplexinginEunicewasnowmadeclear。I
understoodhowheragonyatthelossofherlover,andherkeensenseofthewrongthatshehadsuffered,hadbeenstrengthenedintheirdisastrousinfluencebyherexperimentonthesleepingdraughtintendedforherfather。Inmindandbody,both,thepoorgirlwasintheconditionwhichoffereditsopportunitytothelurkinghereditarytaint。Itwasterribletothinkofwhatmighthavehappened,iftheall—powerfulcounter—influencehadnotbeenpresenttosaveher。
BeforeIhadbeenlongalonetheservant—maidcamein,andsaidthedoctorwantedtoseeme。
Mr。Wellwoodwaswaitinginthepassage,outsidetheMinister’sbedchamber。Heaskedifhecouldspeaktomewithoutinterruption,andwithoutthefearofbeingoverheard。IledhimatoncetotheroomwhichIoccupiedasaguest。
\"AttheverytimewhenitismostimportanttokeepMr。Gracedieuquiet,\"hesaid,\"somethinghashappenedtoexcite——Imightalmostsaytoinfuriatehim。Hehaslefthisbed,andiswalkingupanddowntheroom;and,Idon’tscrupletosay,heisonthevergeofmadness。Heinsistsonseeingyou。Beingwhollyunabletocontrolhiminanyotherway,Ihaveconsentedtothis。ButI
mustnotallowyoutoplaceyourselfinwhatmaybeadisagreeableposition,withoutawordofwarning。Judgingbyhistonesandhislooks,heseemstohavenoveryfriendlymotiveforwishingtoseeyou。\"
Knowingperfectlywellwhathadhappened,andbeingoneofthoseimpatientpeoplewhocanneverenduresuspense——IofferedtogoatoncetoMr。Gracedieu’sroom。Thedoctoraskedleavetosayonewordmore。
\"Praybecarefulthatyouneithersaynordoanythingtothwarthim,\"Mr。Wellwoodresumed。\"Ifheexpressesanopinion,agreewithhim。Ifheisinsolentandoverbearing,don’tanswerhim。Inthestateofhisbrain,theonehopefulcoursetotakeistolethimhavehisownway。Prayrememberthat。Iwillbewithincall,incaseofyourwantingme。\"
CHAPTERXLV。
THEFATALPORTRAIT。
IKNOCKEDatthebedroomdoor。
\"Who’sthere?\"
Onlytwowords——butthevoicethatutteredthem,hoarseandperemptory,wasalteredalmostbeyondrecognition。IfIhadnotknownwhoseroomitwas,ImighthavedoubtedwhethertheMinisterhadreallyspokentome。
AttheinstantwhenIansweredhim,Iwasallowedtopassin。
Havingadmittedme,heclosedthedoor,andplacedhimselfwithhisbackagainstit。Thecustomarypallorofhisfacehaddarkenedtoadeepred;therewasanexpressionofferociousmockeryinhiseyes。Helena’svengeancehadhurtherunhappyfatherfarmoreseverelythanitseemedlikelytohurtme。Thedoctorhadsaidhewasonthevergeofmadness。Tomythinking,hehadalreadypassedtheboundaryline。
Hereceivedmewithaboisterousaffectationofcordiality。
\"Myexcellentfriend!Myadmirable,honorable,welcomeguest,youdon’tknowhowgladIamtoseeyou。Standalittlenearertothelight;Iwanttoadmireyou。\"
Rememberingthedoctor’sadvice,Iobeyedhiminsilence。
\"Ah,youwereahandsomefellowwhenIfirstknewyou,\"hesaid,\"andyouhavesomeremainsofitstillleft。Doyourememberthetimewhenyouwereafavoritewiththeladies?Oh,don’tpretendtobemodest;don’tturnyourback,nowyouareold,onwhatyouwereintheprimeofyourlife。DoyouownthatIamright?\"
Whathisobjectmightbeinsayingthis——if,indeed,hehadanobject——itwasimpossibletoguess。Thedoctor’sadviceleftmenoalternative;Ihastenedtoownthathewasright。AsImadethatanswer,Iobservedthatheheldsomethinginhishandwhichwashalfhiddenupthesleeveofhisdressing—gown。WhatthenatureoftheobjectwasIfailedtodiscover。
\"AndwhenIhappenedtospeakofyousomewhere,\"hewenton,\"I
forgetwhere——amemberofmycongregation——Idon’trecollectwhoitwas——toldmeyouwereconnectedwiththearistocracy。Howwereyouconnected?\"
Hesurprisedme;but,howeverhehadgothisinformation,hehadnotbeendeceived。ItoldhimthatIwasconnected,throughmymother,withthefamilytowhichhehadalluded。
\"Thearistocracy!\"herepeated。\"Araceofpeoplewhoarerichwithoutearningtheirmoney,andnoblebecausetheirgreat—grandfatherswerenoblebeforethem。Theyliveinidlenessandluxury——profligateswhogratifytheirpassionswithoutshameandwithoutremorse。Deny,ifyoudare,thatthisisatruedescriptionofthem。\"
Itwasreallypitiable。Heartilysorryforhim,Ipacifiedhimagain。
\"Anddon’tsupposeIforgetthatyouareoneofthem。Doyouhearme,mynoblefriend?\"
Therewasnohelpforit——Imadeanotherconciliatoryreply。
\"Sofar,\"heresumed,\"Idon’tcomplainofyou。Youhavenotattemptedtodeceiveme——yet。AbsolutesilenceiswhatIrequirenext。Thoughyoumaynotsuspectit,mymindisinaferment;I
musttrytothink。\"
Tosomeextentatleast,histhoughtsbetrayedthemselvesinhisactions。HeputtheobjectthatIhadhalfseeninhishandintothepocketofhisdressing—gown,andmovedtothetoilet—table。
Openingoneofthedrawers,hetookfromitafoldedsheetofpaper,andcamebacktome。
\"AministeroftheGospel,\"hesaid,\"isasacredman,andhasahorrorofcrime。Youaresafe,sofar——providedyouobeyme。I
haveasolemnandterribledutytoperform。Thisisnottherightplaceforit。Followmedownstairs。\"
Heledthewayout。Thedoctor,waitinginthepassage,wasnotnearthestairs,andsoescapednotice。\"Whatisit?\"Mr。W
ellwoodwhispered。Inthesameguardedway,Isaid:\"Hehasnottoldmeyet;Ihavebeencarefulnottoirritatehim。\"Whenwedescendedthestairs,thedoctorfollowedusatasafedistance。
HemendedhispacewhentheMinisteropenedthedoorofthestudy,andwhenhesawusbothpassin。Beforehecouldfollow,thedoorwasclosedandlockedinhisface。Mr。Gracedieutookoutthekeyandthrewitthroughtheopenwindow,intothegardenbelow。
Turningbackintotheroom,helaidthefoldedsheetofpaperonthetable。Thatdone,hespoketome。
\"Idistrustmyownweakness,\"hesaid。\"Adreadfulnecessityconfrontsme——Imightshrinkfromthehorrididea,and,ifI
couldopenthedoor,mighttrytogetaway。Escapeisimpossiblenow。Weareprisonerstogether。Butdon’tsupposethatwearealone。Thereisathirdpersonpresent,whowilljudgebetweenyouandme。Lookthere!\"
Hepointedsolemnlytotheportraitofhiswife。Itwasasmallpicture,verysimplyframed;representingthefaceina\"three—quarter\"view,andpartofthefigureonly。Asaworkofartitwascontemptible;but,asalikeness,itanswereditspurpose。Myunhappyfriendstoodbeforeit,inanattitudeofdejection,coveringhisfacewithhishands。
Intheintervalofsilencethatfollowed,Iwasremindedthatanunseenfriendwaskeepingwatchoutside。
Alarmedbyhavingheardthekeyturnedinthelock,andrealizingtheembarrassmentofthepositioninwhichIwasplaced,thedoctorhaddiscoveredadiscreetwayofcommunicatingwithme。Heslippedoneofhisvisiting—cardsunderthedoor,withthesewordswrittenonit:\"HowcanIhelpyou?\"
Itookthepencilfrommypocketbook,andwroteontheblanksideofthecard:\"Hehasthrownthekeyintothegarden;lookforitunderthewindow。\"AglanceattheMinister,beforeIreturnedmyreply,showedthathisattitudewasunchanged。Withoutbeingseenorsuspected,I,inmyturn,slippedthecardunderthedoor。
Theslowminutesfollowedeachother——andstillnothinghappened。
Myanxietytoseehowthedoctor’ssearchforthekeywassucceeding,temptedmetoapproachthewindow。Onmywaytoit,thetailofmycoatthrewdownalittletraycontainingpensandpencils,whichhadbeenleftclosetotheedgeofthetable。
Slightasthenoiseofthefallwas,itdisturbedMr。Gracedieu。
Helookedroundvacantly。
\"Ihavebeencomfortedbyprayer,\"hetoldme。\"TheweaknessofpoorhumanityhasfoundstrengthintheLord。\"Hepointedtotheportraitoncemore:\"Myhandsmustnotpresumetotouchit,whileIamstillindoubt。Takeitdown。\"
Iremovedthepictureandplacedit,byhisdirections,onachairthatstoodmidwaybetweenus。Tomysurprisehistonesfaltered;Isawtearsrisinginhiseyes。\"Youmaythinkyouseeapicturethere,\"hesaid。\"Youarewrong。Youseemywifeherself。Standhere,andlookatmywifewithme。\"
Westoodtogether,withoureyesfixedontheportrait。
Withoutanythingsaidordoneonmyparttoirritatehim,hesuddenlyturnedtomeinastateoffuriousrage。\"Notasignofsorrow!\"heburstout。\"Notablushofshame!Wretch,youstandcondemnedbytheatrociouscomposurethatIseeinyourface!\"
AfirstdiscoveryoftheodioussuspicionofwhichIwastheobject,dawnedonmymindatthatmoment。Mycapacityforrestrainingmyselfcompletelyfailedme。Ispoketohimasifhehadbeenanaccountablebeing。\"Onceforall,\"Isaid,\"tellmewhatIhavearighttoknow。Yoususpectmeofsomething。Whatisit?\"