thought,asIclosedthefifth,andopenedthesixthandlastdrawer。
Thesixthdrawerwasatonceasurpriseandadisappointment。Itliterallycontainednothingbutthefragmentsofabrokenvase。
Iwassitting,atthetime,oppositetothecabinet,inalowchair。Inthemomentaryirritationcausedbymydiscoveryoftheemptinessofthelastdrawer,Ihadjustliftedmyfoottopushitbackintoitsplace,whenthedoorcommunicatingwiththehallopened,andMajorFitz—Davidstoodbeforeme。
Hiseyes,afterfirstmeetingmine,traveleddownwardtomyfoot。
TheinstanthenoticedtheopendrawerIsawachangeinhisface。Itwasonlyforamoment;butinthatmomenthelookedatmewithasuddensuspicionandsurprise——lookedasifhehadcaughtmewithmyhandontheclew。
\"Praydon’tletmedisturbyou,\"saidMajorFitz—David。\"Ihaveonlycomeheretoaskyouaquestion。\"
\"Whatisit,Major?\"
\"Haveyoumetwithanylettersofmineinthecourseofyourinvestigations?\"
\"Ihavefoundnoneyet,\"Ianswered。\"IfIdodiscoveranyletters,Ishall,ofcourse,nottakethelibertyofexaminingthem。\"
\"Iwantedtospeaktoyouaboutthat,\"herejoined。\"Itonlystruckmeamomentsince,upstairs,thatmylettersmightembarrassyou。InyourplaceIshouldfeelsomedistrustofanythingwhichIwasnotatlibertytoexamine。IthinkIcansetthismatterright,however,withverylittletroubletoeitherofus。ItisnoviolationofanypromisesorpledgesonmypartifI
simplytellyouthatmyletterswillnotassistthediscoverywhichyouaretryingtomake。Youcansafelypassthemoverasobjectsthatarenotworthexaminingfromyourpointofview。Youunderstandme,Iamsure?\"
\"Iammuchobligedtoyou,Major——Iquiteunderstand。\"
\"Areyoufeelinganyfatigue?\"
\"Nonewhatever,thankyou。\"
\"Andyoustillhopetosucceed?Youarenotbeginningtobediscouragedalready?\"
\"Iamnotintheleastdiscouraged。Withyourkindleave,Imeantopersevereforsometimeyet。\"
Ihadnotclosedthedrawerofthecabinetwhileweweretalking,andIglancedcarelessly,asIansweredhim,atthefragmentsofthebrokenvase。Bythistimehehadgothisfeelingsunderperfectcommand。He,too,glancedatthefragmentsofthevasewithanappearanceofperfectindifference。Irememberedthelookofsuspicionandsurprisethathadescapedhimonenteringtheroom,andIthoughthisindifferencealittleoveracted。
\"_That_doesn’tlookveryencouraging,\"hesaid,withasmile,pointingtotheshatteredpiecesofchinainthedrawer。
\"Appearancesarenotalwaystobetrusted,\"Ireplied。\"ThewisestthingIcandoinmypresentsituationistosuspecteverything,evendowntoabrokenvase。\"
IlookedhardathimasIspoke。Hechangedthesubject。
\"Doesthemusicupstairsannoyyou?\"heasked。
\"Notintheleast,Major。\"
\"Itwillsoonbeovernow。Thesinging—masterisgoing,andtheItalianmasterhasjustarrived。Iamsparingnopainstomakemyyoungprimadonnaamostaccomplishedperson。Inlearningtosingshemustalsolearnthelanguagewhichisespeciallythelanguageofmusic。IshallperfectherintheaccentwhenItakehertoItaly。ItistheheightofmyambitiontohavehermistakenforanItalianwhenshesingsinpublic。IsthereanythingIcandobeforeIleaveyouagain?MayIsendyousomemorechampagne?
Pleasesayyes!\"
\"Athousandthanks,Major。Nomorechampagneforthepresent。\"
Heturnedatthedoortokisshishandtomeatparting。AtthesamemomentIsawhiseyeswanderslylytowardthebook—case。Itwasonlyforaninstant。Ihadbarelydetectedhimbeforehewasoutoftheroom。
Leftbymyselfagain,Ilookedatthebook—case——lookedatitattentivelyforthefirsttime。
Itwasahandsomepieceoffurnitureinancientcarvedoak,anditstoodagainstthewallwhichranparallelwiththehallofthehouse。Exceptingthespaceoccupiedintheuppercorneroftheroombytheseconddoor,whichopenedintothehall,thebook—casefilledthewholelengthofthewalldowntothewindow。
Thetopwasornamentedbyvases,candelabra,andstatuettes,inpairs,placedinarow。Lookingalongtherow,Inoticedavacantspaceonthetopofthebookcaseattheextremityofitwhichwasnearesttothewindow。Theoppositeextremity,nearesttothedoor,wasoccupiedbyahandsomepaintedvaseofaverypeculiarpattern。Wherewasthecorrespondingvase,whichoughttohavebeenplacedatthecorrespondingextremityofthebook—case?I
returnedtotheopensixthdrawerofthecabinet,andlookedinagain。TherewasnomistakingthepatternonthefragmentswhenI
examinedthemnow。Thevasewhichhadbeenbrokenwasthevasewhichhadstoodintheplacenowvacantonthetopofthebook—caseattheendnearesttothewindow。
Makingthisdiscovery,Itookoutthefragments,downtothesmallestmorseloftheshatteredchina,andexaminedthemcarefullyoneafteranother。
Iwastooignorantofthesubjecttobeabletoestimatethevalueofthevaseortheantiquityofthevase,oreventoknowwhetheritwereofBritishorofforeignmanufacture。Thegroundwasofadelicatecream—color。TheornamentstracedonthiswerewreathsofflowersandCupidssurroundingamedalliononeithersideofthevase。Uponthespacewithinoneofthemedallionswaspaintedwithexquisitedelicacyawoman’shead,representinganymphoragoddess,orperhapsaportraitofsomecelebratedperson——Iwasnotlearnedenoughtosaywhich。Theothermedallioninclosedtheheadofaman,alsotreatedintheclassicalstyle。RecliningshepherdsandshepherdessesinWatteaucostume,withtheirdogsandtheirsheep,formedtheadornmentsofthepedestal。Suchhadthevasebeeninthedaysofitsprosperity,whenitstoodonthetopofthebook—case。Bywhataccidenthaditbecomebroken?AndwhyhadMajorFitz—David’sfacechangedwhenhefoundthatIhaddiscoveredtheremainsofhisshatteredworkofartinthecabinetdrawer?
Theremainsleftthoseseriousquestionsunanswered——theremainstoldmeabsolutelynothing。Andyet,ifmyownobservationoftheMajorweretobetrusted,thewaytotheclewofwhichIwasinsearchlay,directlyorindirectly,throughthebrokenvase。
Itwasuselesstopursuethequestion,knowingnomorethanI
knewnow。Ireturnedtothebook—case。
ThusfarIhadassumed(withoutanysufficientreason)thattheclewofwhichIwasinsearchmustnecessarilyrevealitselfthroughawrittenpaperofsomesort。Itnowoccurredtome——afterthemovementwhichIhaddetectedonthepartoftheMajor——thattheclewmightquiteasprobablypresentitselfintheformofabook。
Ilookedalongthelowerrowsofshelves,standingjustnearenoughtothemtoreadthetitlesonthebacksofthevolumes。I
sawVoltaireinredmorocco,Shakespeareinblue,WalterScottingreen,the\"HistoryofEngland\"inbrown,the\"AnnualRegister\"
inyellowcalf。ThereIpaused,weariedanddiscouragedalreadybythelongrowsofvolumes。How(Ithoughttomyself)amItoexamineallthesebooks?AndwhatamItolookfor,evenifIdoexaminethemall?
MajorFitz—Davidhadspokenofaterriblemisfortunewhichhaddarkenedmyhusband’spastlife。Inwhatpossiblewaycouldanytraceofthatmisfortune,oranysuggestivehintofsomethingresemblingit,existinthearchivesofthe\"AnnualRegister\"orinthepagesofVoltaire?ThebareideaofsuchathingseemedabsurdThemereattempttomakeaseriousexaminationinthisdirectionwassurelyawantonwasteoftime。
AndyettheMajorhadcertainlystolenalookatthebook—case。
Andagain,thebrokenvasehadoncestoodonthebook—case。Didthesecircumstancesjustifymeinconnectingthevaseandthebook—caseastwinlandmarksonthewaythatledtodiscovery?Thequestionwasnotaneasyonetodecideonthespurofthemoment。
Ilookedupatthehighershelves。
Herethecollectionofbooksexhibitedagreatervariety。Thevolumesweresmaller,andwerenotsocarefullyarrangedasonthelowershelves。Somewereboundincloth,somewereonlyprotectedbypapercovers;oneortwohadfallen,andlayflatontheshelves。HereandthereIsawemptyspacesfromwhichbookshadbeenremovedandnotreplaced。Inshort,therewasnodiscouraginguniformityinthesehigherregionsofthebook—case。
Theuntidytopshelveslookedsuggestiveofsomeluckyaccidentwhichmightunexpectedlyleadthewaytosuccess。Idecided,ifI
didexaminethebook—caseatall,tobeginatthetop。
Wherewasthelibraryladder?
Ihadleftitagainstthepartitionwallwhichdividedthebackroomfromtheroominfront。Lookingthatway,Inecessarilylookedalsotowardthedoorthatraningrooves——theimperfectlycloseddoorthroughwhichIheardMajorFitz—DavidquestionhisservantonthesubjectofmypersonalappearancewhenIfirstenteredthehouse。Noonehadmovedthisdoorduringthetimeofmyvisit。Everybodyenteringorleavingtheroomhadusedtheotherdoor,whichledintothehall。
AtthemomentwhenIlookedroundsomethingstirredinthefrontroom。Themovementletthelightinsuddenlythroughthesmallopenspaceleftbythepartiallycloseddoor。Hadsomebodybeenwatchingmethroughthechink?Isteppedsoftlytothedoor,andpusheditbackuntilitwaswideopen。TherewastheMajor,discoveredinthefrontroom!Isawitinhisface——hehadbeenwatchingmeatthebook—case!
Hishatwasinhishand。Hewasevidentlygoingout;andhedexterouslytookadvantageofthatcircumstancetogiveaplausiblereasonforbeingsonearthedoor。
\"IhopeIdidn’tfrightenyou,\"hesaid。
\"Youstartledmealittle,Major。\"
\"Iamsosorry,andsoashamed!Iwasjustgoingtoopenthedoor,andtellyouthatIamobligedtogoout。Ihavereceivedapressingmessagefromalady。Acharmingperson——Ishouldsolikeyoutoknowher。Sheisinsadtrouble,poorthing。Littlebills,youknow,andnastytradespeoplewhowanttheirmoney,andahusband——oh,dearme,ahusbandwhoisquiteunworthyofher!A
mostinterestingcreature。Youremindmeofheralittle;youbothhavethesamecarriageofthehead。Ishallnotbemorethanhalfanhourgone。CanIdoanythingforyou?Youarelookingfatigued。Prayletmesendforsomemorechampagne。No?Promisetoringwhenyouwantit。That’sright!_Aurevoir_,mycharmingfriend——_aurevoir!_\"
Ipulledthedoortoagainthemomenthisbackwasturned,andsatdownforawhiletocomposemyself。
Hehadbeenwatchingmeatthebook—case!Themanwhowasinmyhusband’sconfidence,themanwhoknewwheretheclewwastobefound,hadbeenwatchingmeatthebook—case!Therewasnodoubtofitnow。MajorFitz—Davidhadshownmethehiding—placeofthesecretinspiteofhimself!
Ilookedwithindifferenceattheotherpiecesoffurniture,rangedagainstthefourthwall,whichIhadnotexaminedyet。I
surveyed,withouttheslightestfeelingofcuriosity,allthelittleeleganttriflesscatteredonthetablesandonthechimney—piece,eachoneofwhichmighthavebeenanobjectofsuspiciontomeunderothercircumstances。Eventhewater—colordrawingsfailedtointerestmeinmypresentframeofmind。I
observedlanguidlythattheyweremostofthemportraitsofladies——fairidols,nodoubt,oftheMajor’sfacileadoration——andIcaredtonoticenomore。_My_businessinthatroom(Iwascertainofitnow!)beganandendedwiththebook—case。Ileftmyseattofetchthelibraryladder,determiningtobegintheworkofinvestigationonthetopshelves。
OnmywaytotheladderIpassedoneofthetables,andsawthekeyslyingonitwhichMajorFitz—Davidhadleftatmydisposal。
Thesmallerofthetwokeysinstantlyremindedmeofthecupboardsunderthebookcase。Ihadstrangelyoverlookedthese。A
vaguedistrustofthelockeddoorsavaguedoubtofwhattheymightbehidingfromme,stoleintomymind。Ilefttheladderinitsplaceagainstthewall,andsetmyselftoexaminethecontentsofthecupboardsfirst。
Thecupboardswerethreeinnumber。AsIopenedthefirstofthemthesingingupstairsceased。Foramomenttherewassomethingalmostoppressiveinthesuddenchangefromnoisetosilence。I
supposemynervesmusthavebeenoverwrought。Thenextsoundinthehouse——nothingmoreremarkablethanthecreakingofaman’sbootsdescendingthestairs——mademeshudderallover。Themanwasnodoubtthesinging—master,goingawayaftergivinghislesson。Iheardthehousedoorcloseonhim,andstartedatthefamiliarsoundasifitweresomethingterriblewhichIhadneverheardbefore。Thentherewassilenceagain。IrousedmyselfaswellasIcould,andbeganmyexaminationofthefirstcupboard。
Itwasdividedintotwocompartments。
Thetopcompartmentcontainednothingbutboxesofcigars,rangedinrows,oneonanother。Theundercompartmentwasdevotedtoacollectionofshells。Theywereallhuddledtogetheranyhow,theMajorevidentlysettingafarhighervalueonhiscigarsthanonhisshells。Isearchedthislowercompartmentcarefullyforanyobjectinterestingtomewhichmightbehiddeninit。Nothingwastobefoundinanypartofitbesidestheshells。
AsIopenedthesecondcupboarditstruckmethatthelightwasbeginningtofail。
Ilookedatthewindow:itwashardlyeveningyet。Thedarkeningofthelightwasproducedbygatheringclouds。Rain—dropspatteredagainsttheglass;theautumnwindwhistledmournfullyinthecornersofthecourtyard。ImendedthefirebeforeI
renewedmysearch。Mynerveswereinfaultagain,Isuppose。I
shiveredwhenIwentbacktothebook—case。Myhandstrembled:I
wonderedwhatwasthematterwithme。
Thesecondcupboardrevealed(intheupperdivisionofit)somereallybeautifulcameos——notmounted,butlaidoncotton—woolinneatcardboardtrays。Inonecorner,halfhiddenunderoneofthetrays,therepeepedoutthewhiteleavesofalittlemanuscript。
Ipouncedoniteagerly,onlytomeetwithanewdisappointment:
themanuscriptprovedtobeadescriptivecatalogueofthecameos——nothingmore!
Turningtothelowerdivisionofthecupboard,IfoundmorecostlycuriositiesintheshapeofivorycarvingsfromJapanandspecimensofraresilkfromChina。IbegantofeelwearyofdisinterringtheMajor’streasures。ThelongerIsearched,thefartherIseemedtoremovemyselffromtheoneobjectthatIhaditathearttoattain。Afterclosingthedoorofthesecondcupboard,Ialmostdoubtedwhetheritwouldbeworthmywhiletoproceedfartherandopenthethirdandlastdoor。
Alittlereflectionconvincedmethatitwouldbeaswell,nowthatIhadbegunmyexaminationofthelowerregionsofthebook—case,togoonwithittotheend。Iopenedthelastcupboard。
Ontheuppershelfthereappeared,insolitarygrandeur,oneobjectonly——agorgeouslyboundbook。
Itwasofalargersizethanusual,judgingofitbycomparisonwiththedimensionsofmodernvolumes。Thebindingwasofbluevelvet,withclaspsofsilverworkedinbeautifularabesquepatterns,andwithalockofthesamepreciousmetaltoprotectthebookfrompryingeyes。WhenItookitup,Ifoundthatthelockwasnotclosed。
HadIanyrighttotakeadvantageofthisaccident,andopenthebook?Ihaveputthequestionsincetosomeofmyfriendsofbothsexes。ThewomenallagreethatIwasperfectlyjustified,consideringtheseriousintereststhatIhadatstake,intakinganyadvantageofanybookintheMajor’shouse。Themendifferfromthisview,anddeclarethatIoughttohaveputbackthevolumeinbluevelvetunopened,carefullyguardingmyselffromanyafter—temptationtolookatitagainbylockingthecupboarddoor。Idaresaythemenareright。
Beingawoman,however,Iopenedthebookwithoutamoment’shesitation。
Theleaveswereofthefinestvellum,withtastefullydesignedilluminationsallroundthem。Andwhatdidthesehighlyornamentalpagescontain?Tomyunutterableamazementanddisgust,theycontainedlocksofhair,letneatlyintothecenterofeachpage,withinscriptionsbeneath,whichprovedthemtobelove—tokensfromvariousladieswhohadtouchedtheMajor’ssusceptibleheartatdifferentperiodsofhislife。TheinscriptionswerewritteninotherlanguagesbesidesEnglish,buttheyappearedtobeallequallydevotedtothesamecuriouspurpose,namely,toremindingtheMajorofthedatesatwhichhisvariousattachmentshadcometoanuntimelyend。Thusthefirstpageexhibitedalockofthelightestflaxenhair,withtheselinesbeneath:\"MyadoredMadeline。Eternalconstancy。Alas,July22,1839!\"Thenextpagewasadornedbyadarkershadeofhair,withaFrenchinscriptionunderit:\"Clemence。Idoledemon鈓e。
Toujoursfidele。Helas,2meAvril,1840。\"Alockofredhairfollowed,withalamentationinLatinunderit,anotebeingattachedtothedateofdissolutionofpartnershipinthiscase,statingthattheladywasdescendedfromtheancientRomans,andwasthereforemournedappropriatelyinLatinbyherdevotedFitz—David。Moreshadesofhairandmoreinscriptionsfollowed,untilIwaswearyoflookingatthem。Iputdownthebook,disgustedwiththecreatureswhohadassistedinfillingit,andthentookitupagain,byanafterthought。ThusfarIhadthoroughlysearchedeverythingthathadpresenteditselftomynotice。Agreeableornotagreeable,itwasplainlyofseriousimportancetomyownintereststogoonasIhadbegun,andthoroughlytosearchthebook。
IturnedoverthepagesuntilIcametothefirstblankleaf。
Seeingthattheywereallblankleavesfromthisplacetotheend,Iliftedthevolumebytheback,and,asalastmeasureofprecaution,shookitsoastodislodgeanyloosepapersorcardswhichmighthaveescapedmynoticebetweentheleaves。
Thistimemypatiencewasrewardedbyadiscoverywhichindescribablyirritatedanddistressedme。
Asmallphotograph,mountedonacard,felloutofthebook。A
firstglanceshowedmethatitrepresentedtheportraitsoftwopersons。
OneofthepersonsIrecognizedasmyhusband。
Theotherpersonwasawoman。
Herfacewasentirelyunknowntome。Shewasnotyoung。Thepicturerepresentedherseatedonachair,withmyhusbandstandingbehind,andbendingoverher,holdingoneofherhandsinhis。Thewoman’sfacewashard—featuredandugly,withthemarkinglinesofstrongpassionsandresoluteself—willplainlywrittenonit。Still,uglyasshewas,IfeltapangofjealousyasInoticedthefamiliarlyaffectionateactionbywhichtheartist(withthepermissionofhissitters,ofcourse)hadconnectedthetwofiguresinagroup。Eustacehadbrieflytoldme,inthedaysofourcourtship,thathehadmorethanoncefanciedhimselftobeinlovebeforehemetwithme。Couldthisveryunattractivewomanhavebeenoneoftheearlyobjectsofhisadmiration?Hadshebeennearenoughanddearenoughtohimtobephotographedwithherhandinhis?IlookedandlookedattheportraitsuntilIcouldendurethemnolonger。Womenarestrangecreatures——mysterieseventothemselves。Ithrewthephotographfrommeintoacornerofthecupboard。Iwassavagelyangrywithmyhusband;Ihated——yes,hatedwithallmyheartandsoul!——thewomanwhohadgothishandinhers——theunknownwomanwiththeself—willed,hard—featuredface。
Allthistimethelowershelfofthecupboardwasstillwaitingtobelookedover。
Ikneltdowntoexamineit,eagertoclearmymind,ifIcould,ofthedegradingjealousythathadgotpossessionofme。
Unfortunately,thelowershelfcontainednothingbutrelicsoftheMajor’smilitarylife,comprisinghisswordandpistols,hisepaulets,hissash,andotherminoraccouterments。Noneoftheseobjectsexcitedtheslightestinterestinme。Myeyeswanderedbacktotheuppershelf;and,likethefoolIwas(thereisnomilderwordthatcanfitlydescribemeatthatmoment),Itookthephotographoutagain,andenragedmyselfuselesslybyanotherlookatit。ThistimeIobserved,whatIhadnotnoticedbefore,thatthereweresomelinesofwriting(inawoman’shand)atthebackoftheportraits。Thelinesranthus:
’ToMajorFitz—David,withtwovases。Fromhisfriends,S。andE。
M。\"
Wasoneofthosetwovasesthevasethathadbeenbroken?AndwasthechangethatIhadnoticedinMajorFitz—David’sfaceproducedbysomepastassociationinconnectionwithit,whichinsomewayaffectedme?Itmightormightnotbeso。Iwaslittledisposedtoindulgeinspeculationonthistopicwhilethefarmoreseriousquestionoftheinitialsconfrontedmeonthebackofthephotograph。
\"S。andE。M。?\"Thoselasttwolettersmightstandfortheinitialsofmyhusband’sname——histruename——EustaceMacallan。
Inthiscasethefirstletter(\"S。\")inallprobabilityindicated_her_name。Whatrighthadshetoassociateherselfwithhiminthatmanner?Iconsideredalittle——mymemoryexerteditself——I
suddenlycalledtomindthatEustacehadsisters。Hehadspokenofthemmorethanonceinthetimebeforeourmarriage。HadI
beenmadenoughtotorturemyselfwithjealousyofmyhusband’ssister?Itmightwellbeso;\"S。\"mightstandforhissister’sChristianname。Ifeltheartilyashamedofmyselfasthisnewviewofthematterdawnedonme。WhatawrongIhaddonetothembothinmythoughts!Iturnedthephotograph,sadlyandpenitently,toexaminetheportraitsagainwithakinderandtruerappreciationofthem。
Inaturallylookednowforafamilylikenessbetweenthetwofaces。Therewasnofamilylikeness;onthecontrary,theywereasunlikeeachotherinformandexpressionasfacescouldbe。
_Was_shehissister,afterall?Ilookedatherhands,asrepresentedintheportrait。HerrighthandwasclaspedbyEustace;herlefthandlayonherlap。Onthethirdfinger,distinctlyvisible,therewasawedding—ring。Wereanyofmyhusband’ssistersmarried?Ihadmyselfaskedhimthequestionwhenhementionedthemtome,andIperfectlyrememberedthathehadrepliedinthenegative。
Wasitpossiblethatmyfirstjealousinstincthadledmetotherightconclusionafterall?Ifithad,whatdidtheassociationofthethreeinitiallettersmean?Whatdidthewedding—ringmean?GoodHeavens!wasIlookingattheportraitofarivalinmyhusband’saffections——andwasthatrivalhisWife?
Ithrewthephotographfrommewithacryofhorror。ForoneterriblemomentIfeltasifmyreasonwasgivingway。Idon’tknowwhatwouldhavehappened,orwhatIshouldhavedonenext,ifmyloveforEustacehadnottakentheuppermostplaceamongthecontendingemotionsthattorturedme。Thatfaithfullovesteadiedmybrain。Thatfaithfulloverousedtherevivinginfluencesofmybetterandnoblersense。WasthemanwhomIhadenshrinedinmyheartofheartscapableofsuchbasewickednessasthebareideaofhismarriagetoanotherwomanimplied?No!
Minewasthebaseness,minethewickedness,inhavingevenforamomentthoughtitofhim!
Ipickedupthedetestablephotographfromthefloor,andputitbackinthebook。Ihastilyclosedthecupboarddoor,fetchedthelibraryladder,andsetitagainstthebook—case。Myoneideanowwastheideaoftakingrefugeinemploymentofanysortfrommyownthoughts。Ifeltthehatefulsuspicionthathaddegradedmecomingbackagaininspiteofmyeffortstorepelit。Thebooks!
thebooks!myonlyhopewastoabsorbmyself,bodyandsoul,inthebooks。
Ihadonefootontheladder,whenIheardthedooroftheroomopen——thedoorwhichcommunicatedwiththehall。
Ilookedaround,expectingtoseetheMajor。IsawinsteadtheMajor’sfutureprimadonnastandingjustinsidethedoor,withherroundeyessteadilyfixedonme。
\"Icanstandagooddeal,\"thegirlbegan,coolly,\"butIcan’tstand_this_anylonger?\"
\"Whatisitthatyoucan’tstandanylonger?\"Iasked。
\"Ifyouhavebeenhereaminute,youhavebeenheretwogoodhours,\"shewenton。\"AllbyyourselfintheMajor’sstudy。Iamofajealousdisposition——Iam。AndIwanttoknowwhatitmeans。\"Sheadvancedafewstepsnearertome,withaheighteningcolorandathreateninglook。\"Ishegoingtobring_you_outonthestage?\"sheasked,sharply。
\"Certainlynot。\"
\"Heain’tinlovewithyou,ishe?\"
UnderothercircumstancesImighthavetoldhertoleavetheroom。Inmypositionatthatcriticalmomentthemerepresenceofahumancreaturewasapositiverelieftome。Eventhisgirl,withhercoarsequestionsandheruncultivatedmanners,wasawelcomeintruderonmysolitude:sheofferedmearefugefrommyself。
\"Yourquestionisnotverycivillyput,\"Isaid。\"However,I
excuseyou。YouareprobablynotawarethatIamamarriedwoman。\"
\"Whathasthatgottodowithit?\"sheretorted。\"Marriedorsingle,it’sallonetotheMajor。Thatbrazen—facedhussywhocallsherselfLadyClarindaismarried,andshesendshimnosegaysthreetimesaweek!NotthatIcare,mindyou,abouttheoldfool。ButI’velostmysituationattherailway,andI’vegotmyownintereststolookafter,andIdon’tknowwhatmayhappenifIletotherwomencomebetweenhimandme。That’swheretheshoepinches,don’tyousee?I’mnoteasyinmymindwhenIseehimleavingyoumistressheretodojustwhatyoulike。Nooffense!Ispeakout——Ido。Iwanttoknowwhatyouareaboutallbyyourselfinthisroom?HowdidyoupickupwiththeMajor?I
neverheardhimspeakofyoubeforeto—day。\"
Underallthesurfaceselfishnessandcoarsenessofthisstrangegirltherewasacertainfranknessandfreedomwhichpleadedinherfavor——tomymind,atanyrate。Iansweredfranklyandfreelyonmyside。
\"MajorFitz—Davidisanoldfriendofmyhusband’s,\"Isaid,\"andheiskindtomeformyhusband’ssake。Hehasgivenmepermissiontolookinthisroom——\"
Istopped,atalosshowtodescribemyemploymentintermswhichshouldtellhernothing,andwhichshouldatthesametimesuccessfullysetherdistrustofmeatrest。
\"Tolookaboutinthisroom——forwhat?\"sheasked。Hereyefellonthelibraryladder,besidewhichIwasstillstanding。\"Forabook?\"sheresumed。
\"Yes,\"Isaid,takingthehint。\"Forabook。\"
\"Haven’tyoufoundityet?\"
\"No。\"