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  Therewasnothingforthemtosay。Theyhadspentthelastpennyoftheirsmallchange;

  therewasnothingleftbutgold。Thedayoflove—tokenswaspast。Theyhadnowonlytheirheartstogiveeachother。AndEmilbeinggone,whatwasherlifetobelike?Insomeways,itwouldbeeasier。Shewouldnot,atleast,liveinperpetualfear。IfEmilwereonceawayandsettledatwork,shewouldnothavethefeelingthatshewasspoilinghislife。Withthememoryhelefther,shecouldbeasrashasshechose。Nobodycouldbetheworseforitbutherself;andthat,surely,didnotmatter。

  Herowncasewasclear。Whenagirlhadlovedoneman,andthenlovedanotherwhilethatmanwasstillalive,everybodyknewwhattothinkofher。Whathappenedtoherwasoflittlecon—

  sequence,solongasshedidnotdragotherpeopledownwithher。Emilonceaway,shecouldleteverythingelsegoandliveanewlifeofperfectlove。

  Marieleftthestilereluctantly。Shehad,afterall,thoughthemightcome。Andhowgladsheoughttobe,shetoldherself,thathewasasleep。Sheleftthepathandwentacrossthepasture。Themoonwasalmostfull。Anowlwashootingsomewhereinthefields。Shehadscarcelythoughtaboutwhereshewasgoingwhenthepondglitteredbeforeher,whereEmilhadshottheducks。Shestoppedandlookedatit。Yes,therewouldbeadirtywayoutoflife,ifonechosetotakeit。Butshedidnotwanttodie。Shewantedtoliveanddream——ahundredyears,forever!Aslongasthissweetnesswelledupinherheart,aslongasherbreastcouldholdthistreasureofpain!Shefeltasthepondmustfeelwhenitheldthemoonlikethat;whenitencircledandswelledwithInthemorning,whenEmilcamedown—

  stairs,Alexandramethiminthesitting—roomandputherhandsonhisshoulders。\"Emil,I

  wenttoyourroomassoonasitwaslight,butyouweresleepingsosoundIhatedtowakeyou。Therewasnothingyoucoulddo,soI

  letyousleep。TheytelephonedfromSainte—

  AgnesthatAmedeediedatthreeo’clockthismorning。\"

  VI

  TheChurchhasalwaysheldthatlifeisfortheliving。OnSaturday,whilehalfthevil—

  lageofSainte—AgneswasmourningforAme—

  deeandpreparingthefuneralblackforhisburialonMonday,theotherhalfwasbusywithwhitedressesandwhiteveilsforthegreatconfirmationserviceto—morrow,whenthebishopwastoconfirmaclassofonehundredboysandgirls。FatherDuchesnedividedhistimebetweenthelivingandthedead。AlldaySaturdaythechurchwasasceneofbustlingactivity,alittlehushedbythethoughtofAmedee。ThechoirwerebusyrehearsingamassofRossini,whichtheyhadstudiedandpractisedforthisoccasion。Thewomenweretrimmingthealtar,theboysandgirlswerebringingflowers。

  OnSundaymorningthebishopwastodriveoverlandtoSainte—AgnesfromHanover,andEmilBergsonhadbeenaskedtotaketheplaceofoneofAmedee’scousinsinthecavalcadeoffortyFrenchboyswhoweretorideacrosscoun—

  trytomeetthebishop’scarriage。Atsixo’clockonSundaymorningtheboysmetatthechurch。

  Astheystoodholdingtheirhorsesbythebridle,theytalkedinlowtonesoftheirdeadcomrade。

  TheykeptrepeatingthatAmedeehadalwaysbeenagoodboy,glancingtowardtheredbrickchurchwhichhadplayedsolargeapartinAmedee’slife,hadbeenthesceneofhismostseriousmomentsandofhishappiesthours。Hehadplayedandwrestledandsungandcourtedunderitsshadow。Onlythreeweeksagohehadproudlycarriedhisbabytheretobechristened。

  TheycouldnotdoubtthatthatinvisiblearmwasstillaboutAmedee;thatthroughthechurchonearthhehadpassedtothechurchtriumph—

  ant,thegoalofthehopesandfaithofsomanyhundredyears。

  Whenthewordwasgiventomount,theyoungmenrodeatawalkoutofthevillage;

  butonceoutamongthewheatfieldsinthemorningsun,theirhorsesandtheirownyouthgotthebetterofthem。Awaveofzealandfieryenthusiasmsweptoverthem。TheylongedforaJerusalemtodeliver。Thethudoftheirgal—

  lopinghoofsinterruptedmanyacountrybreak—

  fastandbroughtmanyawomanandchildtothedoorofthefarmhousesastheypassed。FivemileseastofSainte—Agnestheymetthebishopinhisopencarriage,attendedbytwopriests。

  Likeonemantheboysswungofftheirhatsinabroadsalute,andbowedtheirheadsasthehandsomeoldmanliftedhistwofingersintheepiscopalblessing。Thehorsemenclosedaboutthecarriagelikeaguard,andwheneverarest—

  lesshorsebrokefromcontrolandshotdowntheroadaheadofthebody,thebishoplaughedandrubbedhisplumphandstogether。\"Whatfineboys!\"hesaidtohispriests。\"TheChurchstillhashercavalry。\"

  Asthetroopsweptpastthegraveyardhalfamileeastofthetown,——thefirstframechurchoftheparishhadstoodthere,——oldPierreSeguinwasalreadyoutwithhispickandspade,diggingAmedee’sgrave。Hekneltandun—

  coveredasthebishoppassed。TheboyswithoneaccordlookedawayfromoldPierretotheredchurchonthehill,withthegoldcrossflamingonitssteeple。

  Masswasateleven。Whilethechurchwasfilling,EmilBergsonwaitedoutside,watchingthewagonsandbuggiesdriveupthehill。Afterthebellbegantoring,hesawFrankShabatarideuponhorsebackandtiehishorsetothehitch—bar。Marie,then,wasnotcoming。Emilturnedandwentintothechurch。Amedee’swastheonlyemptypew,andhesatdowninit。

  SomeofAmedee’scousinswerethere,dressedinblackandweeping。Whenallthepewswerefull,theoldmenandboyspackedtheopenspaceatthebackofthechurch,kneelingonthefloor。Therewasscarcelyafamilyintownthatwasnotrepresentedintheconfirmationclass,byacousin,atleast。Thenewcommunicants,withtheirclear,reverentfaces,werebeautifultolookuponastheyenteredinabodyandtookthefrontbenchesreservedforthem。EvenbeforetheMassbegan,theairwaschargedwithfeeling。ThechoirhadneversungsowellandRaoulMarcel,inthe\"Gloria,\"dreweventhebishop’seyestotheorganloft。FortheoffertoryhesangGounod’s\"AveMaria,\"——

  alwaysspokenofinSainte—Agnesas\"theAveMaria。\"

  EmilbegantotorturehimselfwithquestionsaboutMarie。Wassheill?Hadshequarreledwithherhusband?Wasshetoounhappytofindcomfortevenhere?Hadshe,perhaps,thoughtthathewouldcometoher?Wasshewaitingforhim?Overtaxedbyexcitementandsorrowashewas,theraptureoftheservicetookholduponhisbodyandmind。AshelistenedtoRaoul,heseemedtoemergefromthecon—

  flictingemotionswhichhadbeenwhirlinghimaboutandsuckinghimunder。Hefeltasifaclearlightbrokeuponhismind,andwithitaconvictionthatgoodwas,afterall,strongerthanevil,andthatgoodwaspossibletomen。

  Heseemedtodiscoverthattherewasakindofraptureinwhichhecouldloveforeverwith—

  outfalteringandwithoutsin。HelookedacrosstheheadsofthepeopleatFrankShabatawithcalmness。Thatrapturewasforthosewhocouldfeelit;forpeoplewhocouldnot,itwasnon—existent。HecovetednothingthatwasFrankShabata’s。Thespirithehadmetinmusicwashisown。FrankShabatahadneverfoundit;wouldneverfinditifhelivedbesideitathousandyears;wouldhavedestroyeditifhehadfoundit,asHerodslewtheinnocents,asRomeslewthemartyrs。

  SAN——CTAMARI—I—I—A,wailedRaoulfromtheorganloft;

  O——RAPRONO—O—BIS!

  AnditdidnotoccurtoEmilthatanyonehadeverreasonedthusbefore,thatmusichadeverbeforegivenamanthisequivocalrevelation。

  TheconfirmationservicefollowedtheMass。

  Whenitwasover,thecongregationthrongedaboutthenewlyconfirmed。Thegirls,andeventheboys,werekissedandembracedandweptover。Alltheauntsandgrandmothersweptwithjoy。Thehousewiveshadmuchadototearthemselvesawayfromthegeneralrejoicingandhurrybacktotheirkitchens。Thecountryparishionerswerestayingintownfordinner,andnearlyeveryhouseinSainte—Agnesenter—

  tainedvisitorsthatday。FatherDuchesne,thebishop,andthevisitingpriestsdinedwithFabienSauvage,thebanker。EmilandFrankShabatawerebothguestsofoldMoiseMarcel。

  AfterdinnerFrankandoldMoiseretiredtotherearroomofthesaloontoplayCaliforniaJackanddrinktheircognac,andEmilwentovertothebanker’swithRaoul,whohadbeenaskedtosingforthebishop。

  Atthreeo’clock,Emilfeltthathecouldstanditnolonger。Heslippedoutundercoverof\"TheHolyCity,\"followedbyMalvina’swistfuleye,andwenttothestableforhismare。

  Hewasatthatheightofexcitementfromwhicheverythingisforeshortened,fromwhichlifeseemsshortandsimple,deathverynear,andthesoulseemstosoarlikeaneagle。AsherodepastthegraveyardhelookedatthebrownholeintheearthwhereAmedeewastolie,andfeltnohorror。That,too,wasbeautiful,thatsimpledoorwayintoforgetfulness。Theheart,whenitistoomuchalive,achesforthatbrownearth,andecstasyhasnofearofdeath。Itistheoldandthepoorandthemaimedwhoshrinkfromthatbrownhole;itswooersarefoundamongtheyoung,thepassionate,thegallant—hearted。

  ItwasnotuntilhehadpassedthegraveyardthatEmilrealizedwherehewasgoing。Itwasthehourforsayinggood—bye。Itmightbethelasttimethathewouldseeheralone,andto—

  dayhecouldleaveherwithoutrancor,withoutbitterness。

  Everywherethegrainstoodripeandthehotafternoonwasfullofthesmelloftheripewheat,likethesmellofbreadbakinginanoven。Thebreathofthewheatandthesweetcloverpassedhimlikepleasantthingsinadream。Hecouldfeelnothingbutthesenseofdiminishingdis—

  tance。Itseemedtohimthathismarewasfly—

  ing,orrunningonwheels,likearailwaytrain。

  Thesunlight,flashingonthewindow—glassofthebigredbarns,drovehimwildwithjoy。Hewaslikeanarrowshotfromthebow。HislifepoureditselfoutalongtheroadbeforehimasherodetotheShabatafarm。

  WhenEmilalightedattheShabatas’gate,hishorsewasinalather。Hetiedherinthestableandhurriedtothehouse。Itwasempty。

  ShemightbeatMrs。Hiller’sorwithAlexan—

  dra。Butanythingthatremindedhimofherwouldbeenough,theorchard,themulberrytree……Whenhereachedtheorchardthesunwashanginglowoverthewheatfield。Longfingersoflightreachedthroughtheapplebranchesasthroughanet;theorchardwasrid—

  dledandshotwithgold;lightwasthereality,thetreesweremerelyinterferencesthatreflectedandrefractedlight。Emilwentsoftlydownbetweenthecherrytreestowardthewheatfield。

  Whenhecametothecorner,hestoppedshortandputhishandoverhismouth。Mariewaslyingonhersideunderthewhitemulberrytree,herfacehalfhiddeninthegrass,hereyesclosed,herhandslyinglimplywheretheyhadhappenedtofall。Shehadlivedadayofhernewlifeofperfectlove,andithadleftherlikethis。

  Herbreastroseandfellfaintly,asifshewereasleep。Emilthrewhimselfdownbesideherandtookherinhisarms。Thebloodcamebacktohercheeks,herambereyesopenedslowly,andinthemEmilsawhisownfaceandtheorchardandthesun。\"Iwasdreamingthis,\"shewhis—

  pered,hidingherfaceagainsthim,\"don’ttakemydreamaway!\"

  VII

  WhenFrankShabatagothomethatnight,hefoundEmil’smareinhisstable。Suchanimpertinenceamazedhim。Likeeverybodyelse,Frankhadhadanexcitingday。Sincenoonhehadbeendrinkingtoomuch,andhewasinabadtemper。Hetalkedbitterlytohim—

  selfwhileheputhisownhorseaway,andashewentupthepathandsawthatthehousewasdarkhefeltanaddedsenseofinjury。Heap—

  proachedquietlyandlistenedonthedoorstep。

  Hearingnothing,heopenedthekitchendoorandwentsoftlyfromoneroomtoanother。

  Thenhewentthroughthehouseagain,up—

  stairsanddown,withnobetterresult。Hesatdownonthebottomstepoftheboxstairwayandtriedtogethiswitstogether。Inthatun—

  naturalquiettherewasnosoundbuthisownheavybreathing。Suddenlyanowlbegantohootoutinthefields。Frankliftedhishead。

  Anideaflashedintohismind,andhissenseofinjuryandoutragegrew。Hewentintohisbedroomandtookhismurderous405Winches—

  terfromthecloset。

  WhenFranktookuphisgunandwalkedoutofthehouse,hehadnotthefaintestpurposeofdoinganythingwithit。Hedidnotbelievethathehadanyrealgrievance。Butitgratifiedhimtofeellikeadesperateman。Hehadgotintothehabitofseeinghimselfalwaysindesperatestraits。Hisunhappytemperamentwaslikeacage;hecouldnevergetoutofit;andhefeltthatotherpeople,hiswifeinparticular,musthaveputhimthere。IthadnevermorethandimlyoccurredtoFrankthathemadehisownunhappiness。Thoughhetookuphisgunwithdarkprojectsinhismind,hewouldhavebeenparalyzedwithfrighthadheknownthattherewastheslightestprobabilityofhisevercarry—

  inganyofthemout。

  Frankwentslowlydowntotheorchardgate,stoppedandstoodforamomentlostinthought。Heretracedhisstepsandlookedthroughthebarnandthehayloft。Thenhewentouttotheroad,wherehetookthefoot—

  pathalongtheoutsideoftheorchardhedge。

  ThehedgewastwiceastallasFrankhimself,andsodensethatonecouldseethroughitonlybypeeringcloselybetweentheleaves。Hecouldseetheemptypathalongwayinthemoonlight。Hismindtraveledaheadtothestile,whichhealwaysthoughtofashauntedbyEmilBergson。Butwhyhadhelefthishorse?

  Atthewheatfieldcorner,wheretheorchardhedgeendedandthepathledacrossthepasturetotheBergsons’,Frankstopped。Inthewarm,breathlessnightairheheardamurmuringsound,perfectlyinarticulate,aslowasthesoundofwatercomingfromaspring,wherethereisnofall,andwheretherearenostonestofretit。Frankstrainedhisears。Itceased。Heheldhisbreathandbegantotremble。Restingthebuttofhisgunontheground,hepartedthemulberryleavessoftlywithhisfingersandpeeredthroughthehedgeatthedarkfiguresonthegrass,intheshadowofthemulberrytree。

  Itseemedtohimthattheymustfeelhiseyes,thattheymusthearhimbreathing。Buttheydidnot。Frank,whohadalwayswantedtoseethingsblackerthantheywere,foroncewantedtobelievelessthanhesaw。ThewomanlyingintheshadowmightsoeasilybeoneoftheBergsons’farm—girls……Againthemurmur,likewaterwellingoutoftheground。Thistimehehearditmoredistinctly,andhisbloodwasquickerthanhisbrain。Hebegantoact,justasamanwhofallsintothefirebeginstoact。Thegunsprangtohisshoulder,hesightedmechani—

  callyandfiredthreetimeswithoutstopping,stoppedwithoutknowingwhy。Eitherheshuthiseyesorhehadvertigo。Hedidnotseeany—

  thingwhilehewasfiring。Hethoughtheheardacrysimultaneouswiththesecondreport,buthewasnotsure。Hepeeredagainthroughthehedge,atthetwodarkfiguresunderthetree。

  Theyhadfallenalittleapartfromeachother,andwereperfectlystill——No,notquite;inawhitepatchoflight,wherethemoonshonethroughthebranches,aman’shandwaspluck—

  ingspasmodicallyatthegrass。

  Suddenlythewomanstirredandutteredacry,thenanother,andanother。Shewasliving!

  Shewasdraggingherselftowardthehedge!

  Frankdroppedhisgunandranbackalongthepath,shaking,stumbling,gasping。Hehadneverimaginedsuchhorror。Thecriesfol—

  lowedhim。Theygrewfainterandthicker,asifshewerechoking。Hedroppedonhiskneesbesidethehedgeandcrouchedlikearabbit,listening;fainter,fainter;asoundlikeawhine;

  again——amoan——another——silence。Frankscrambledtohisfeetandranon,groaningandpraying。Fromhabithewenttowardthehouse,wherehewasusedtobeingsoothedwhenhehadworkedhimselfintoafrenzy,butatthesightoftheblack,opendoor,hestartedback。Heknewthathehadmurderedsomebody,thatawomanwasbleedingandmoaningintheor—

  chard,buthehadnotrealizedbeforethatitwashiswife。Thegatestaredhimintheface。

  Hethrewhishandsoverhishead。Whichwaytoturn?Heliftedhistormentedfaceandlookedatthesky。\"HolyMotherofGod,nottosuffer!Shewasagoodgirl——nottosuffer!\"

  Frankhadbeenwonttoseehimselfindra—

  maticsituations;butnow,whenhestoodbythewindmill,inthebrightspacebetweenthebarnandthehouse,facinghisownblackdoorway,hedidnotseehimselfatall。Hestoodliketheharewhenthedogsareapproachingfromallsides。Andheranlikeahare,backandforthaboutthatmoonlitspace,beforehecouldmakeuphismindtogointothedarkstableforahorse。Thethoughtofgoingintoadoorwaywasterribletohim。HecaughtEmil’shorsebythebitandleditout。Hecouldnothavebuckledabridleonhisown。Aftertwoorthreeattempts,heliftedhimselfintothesad—

  dleandstartedforHanover。Ifhecouldcatchtheoneo’clocktrain,hehadmoneyenoughtogetasfarasOmaha。

  Whilehewasthinkingdullyofthisinsomelesssensitizedpartofhisbrain,hisacuterfacultiesweregoingoverandoverthecrieshehadheardintheorchard。Terrorwastheonlythingthatkepthimfromgoingbacktoher,terrorthatshemightstillbeshe,thatshemightstillbesuffering。Awoman,mutilatedandbleedinginhisorchard——itwasbecauseitwasawomanthathewassoafraid。Itwasincon—

  ceivablethatheshouldhavehurtawoman。Hewouldratherbeeatenbywildbeaststhanseehermoveonthegroundasshehadmovedintheorchard。Whyhadshebeensocareless?

  Sheknewhewaslikeacrazymanwhenhewasangry。Shehadmorethanoncetakenthatgunawayfromhimandheldit,whenhewasangrywithotherpeople。Onceithadgoneoffwhiletheywerestrugglingoverit。Shewasneverafraid。But,whensheknewhim,whyhadn’tshebeenmorecareful?Didn’tshehaveallsummerbeforehertoloveEmilBergsonin,withouttakingsuchchances?ProbablyshehadmettheSmirkaboy,too,downthereintheorchard。Hedidn’tcare。ShecouldhavemetallthemenontheDividethere,andwelcome,ifonlyshehadn’tbroughtthishorroronhim。

  TherewasawrenchinFrank’smind。Hedidnothonestlybelievethatofher。Heknewthathewasdoingherwrong。Hestoppedhishorsetoadmitthistohimselfthemoredirectly,tothinkitoutthemoreclearly。Heknewthathewastoblame。Forthreeyearshehadbeentryingtobreakherspirit。Shehadawayofmakingthebestofthingsthatseemedtohimasentimentalaffectation。Hewantedhiswifetoresentthathewaswastinghisbestyearsamongthesestupidandunappreciativepeople;butshehadseemedtofindthepeoplequitegoodenough。IfheevergotrichhemeanttobuyherprettyclothesandtakehertoCaliforniainaPullmancar,andtreatherlikealady;butinthemeantimehewantedhertofeelthatlifewasasuglyandasunjustashefeltit。Hehadtriedtomakeherlifeugly。Hehadrefusedtoshareanyofthelittlepleasuresshewassopluckyaboutmakingforherself。Shecouldbegayabouttheleastthingintheworld;butshemustbegay!Whenshefirstcametohim,herfaithinhim,heradoration——Frankstruckthemarewithhisfist。WhyhadMariemadehimdothisthing;whyhadshebroughtthisuponhim?Hewasoverwhelmedbysickeningmis—

  fortune。Allatonceheheardhercriesagain——

  hehadforgottenforamoment。\"Maria,\"hesobbedaloud,\"Maria!\"

  WhenFrankwashalfwaytoHanover,themotionofhishorsebroughtonaviolentattackofnausea。Afterithadpassed,herodeonagain,buthecouldthinkofnothingexcepthisphysicalweaknessandhisdesiretobecom—

  fortedbyhiswife。Hewantedtogetintohisownbed。Hadhiswifebeenathome,hewouldhaveturnedandgonebacktohermeeklyenough。

  VIII

  WhenoldIvarclimbeddownfromhisloftatfouro’clockthenextmorning,hecameuponEmil’smare,jadedandlather—stained,herbridlebroken,chewingthescatteredtuftsofhayoutsidethestabledoor。Theoldmanwasthrownintoafrightatonce。Heputthemareinherstall,threwherameasureofoats,andthensetoutasfastashisbow—legscouldcarryhimonthepathtothenearestneighbor。

  \"Somethingiswrongwiththatboy。Somemisfortunehascomeuponus。Hewouldneverhaveusedherso,inhisrightsenses。Itisnothiswaytoabusehismare,\"theoldmankeptmuttering,ashescuttledthroughtheshort,wetpasturegrassonhisbarefeet。

  WhileIvarwashurryingacrossthefields,thefirstlongraysofthesunwerereachingdownbetweentheorchardboughstothosetwodew—

  drenchedfigures。Thestoryofwhathadhap—

  penedwaswrittenplainlyontheorchardgrass,andonthewhitemulberriesthathadfalleninthenightandwerecoveredwithdarkstain。

  ForEmilthechapterhadbeenshort。Hewasshotintheheart,andhadrolledoveronhisbackanddied。Hisfacewasturneduptotheskyandhisbrowsweredrawninafrown,asifhehadrealizedthatsomethinghadbefallenhim。ButforMarieShabataithadnotbeensoeasy。Oneballhadtornthroughherrightlung,anotherhadshatteredthecarotidartery。Shemusthavestartedupandgonetowardthehedge,leavingatrailofblood。Thereshehadfallenandbled。Fromthatspottherewasanothertrail,heavierthanthefirst,whereshemusthavedraggedherselfbacktoEmil’sbody。

  Oncethere,sheseemednottohavestruggledanymore。Shehadliftedherheadtoherlover’sbreast,takenhishandinbothherown,andbledquietlytodeath。Shewaslyingonherrightsideinaneasyandnaturalposition,hercheekonEmil’sshoulder。Onherfacetherewasalookofineffablecontent。Herlipswerepartedalittle;hereyeswerelightlyclosed,asifinaday—dreamoralightslumber。Aftershelaydownthere,sheseemednottohavemovedaneyelash。Thehandsheheldwascoveredwithdarkstains,whereshehadkissedit。

  Butthestained,slipperygrass,thedarkenedmulberries,toldonlyhalfthestory。AboveMarieandEmil,twowhitebutterfliesfromFrank’salfalfa—fieldwereflutteringinandoutamongtheinterlacingshadows;divingandsoaring,nowclosetogether,nowfarapart;andinthelonggrassbythefencethelastwildrosesoftheyearopenedtheirpinkheartstodie。

  WhenIvarreachedthepathbythehedge,hesawShabata’sriflelyingintheway。Heturnedandpeeredthroughthebranches,fallinguponhiskneesasifhislegshadbeenmowedfromunderhim。\"MercifulGod!\"hegroaned;

  Alexandra,too,hadrisenearlythatmorning,becauseofheranxietyaboutEmil。ShewasinEmil’sroomupstairswhen,fromthewindow,shesawIvarcomingalongthepaththatledfromtheShabatas’。Hewasrunninglikeaspentman,totteringandlurchingfromsidetoside。Ivarneverdrank,andAlexandrathoughtatoncethatoneofhisspellshadcomeuponhim,andthathemustbeinaverybadwayindeed。Sherandownstairsandhurriedouttomeethim,tohidehisinfirmityfromtheeyesofherhousehold。Theoldmanfellintheroadatherfeetandcaughtherhand,overwhichhebowedhisshaggyhead。\"Mistress,mistress,\"hesobbed,\"ithasfallen!Sinanddeathfortheyoungones!Godhavemercyuponus!\"

  EndofPartIV

  PARTV

  AlexandraI

  Ivarwassittingatacobbler’sbenchinthebarn,mendingharnessbythelightofalanternandrepeatingtohimselfthe101stPsalm。Itwasonlyfiveo’clockofamid—Octoberday,butastormhadcomeupintheafternoon,bring—

  ingblackclouds,acoldwindandtorrentsofrain。Theoldmanworehisbuffalo—skincoat,andoccasionallystoppedtowarmhisfingersatthelantern。Suddenlyawomanburstintotheshed,asifshehadbeenblownin,accompaniedbyashowerofrain—drops。ItwasSigna,wrappedinaman’sovercoatandwearingapairofbootsoverhershoes。IntimeoftroubleSignahadcomebacktostaywithhermistress,forshewastheonlyoneofthemaidsfromwhomAlexandrawouldacceptmuchpersonalservice。ItwasthreemonthsnowsincethenewsoftheterriblethingthathadhappenedinFrankShabata’sorchardhadfirstrunlikeafireovertheDivide。SignaandNelsewerestayingonwithAlexandrauntilwinter。

  \"Ivar,\"Signaexclaimedasshewipedtherainfromherface,\"doyouknowwheresheis?\"

  Theoldmanputdownhiscobbler’sknife。

  \"Who,themistress?\"

  \"Yes。Shewentawayaboutthreeo’clock。I

  happenedtolookoutofthewindowandsawhergoingacrossthefieldsinherthindressandsun—hat。Andnowthisstormhascomeon。I

  thoughtshewasgoingtoMrs。Hiller’s,andI

  telephonedassoonasthethunderstopped,butshehadnotbeenthere。I’mafraidsheisoutsomewhereandwillgetherdeathofcold。\"

  Ivarputonhiscapandtookupthelantern。

  \"JA,JA,wewillsee。Iwillhitchtheboy’smaretothecartandgo。\"

  Signafollowedhimacrossthewagon—shedtothehorses’stable。Shewasshiveringwithcoldandexcitement。\"Wheredoyousupposeshecanbe,Ivar?\"

  Theoldmanliftedasetofsingleharnesscarefullyfromitspeg。\"HowshouldIknow?\"

  \"Butyouthinksheisatthegraveyard,don’tyou?\"Signapersisted。\"SodoI。Oh,I

  wishshewouldbemorelikeherself!Ican’tbelieveit’sAlexandraBergsoncometothis,withnoheadaboutanything。Ihavetotellherwhentoeatandwhentogotobed。\"

  \"Patience,patience,sister,\"mutteredIvarashesettledthebitinthehorse’smouth。

  \"Whentheeyesofthefleshareshut,theeyesofthespiritareopen。Shewillhaveamessagefromthosewhoaregone,andthatwillbringherpeace。Untilthenwemustbearwithher。YouandIaretheonlyoneswhohaveweightwithher。Shetrustsus。\"

  \"Howawfulit’sbeentheselastthreemonths。\"Signaheldthelanternsothathecouldseetobucklethestraps。\"Itdon’tseemrightthatwemustallbesomiserable。Whydoweallhavetobepunished?Seemstomelikegoodtimeswouldnevercomeagain。\"

  Ivarexpressedhimselfinadeepsigh,butsaidnothing。Hestoopedandtookasandburrfromhistoe。

  \"Ivar,\"Signaaskedsuddenly,\"willyoutellmewhyyougobarefoot?AllthetimeIlivedhereinthehouseIwantedtoaskyou。Isitforapenance,orwhat?\"

  \"No,sister。Itisfortheindulgenceofthebody。FrommyyouthupIhavehadastrong,rebelliousbody,andhavebeensubjecttoeverykindoftemptation。Eveninagemytempta—

  tionsareprolonged。Itwasnecessarytomakesomeallowances;andthefeet,asIunderstandit,arefreemembers。Thereisnodivinepro—

  hibitionforthemintheTenCommandments。

  Thehands,thetongue,theeyes,theheart,allthebodilydesireswearecommandedtosub—

  due;butthefeetarefreemembers。Iindulgethemwithoutharmtoanyone,eventotramp—

  linginfilthwhenmydesiresarelow。Theyarequicklycleanedagain。\"

  Signadidnotlaugh。ShelookedthoughtfulasshefollowedIvarouttothewagon—shedandheldtheshaftsupforhim,whilehebackedinthemareandbuckledthehold—backs。\"Youhavebeenagoodfriendtothemistress,Ivar,\"

  shemurmured。

  \"Andyou,Godbewithyou,\"repliedIvarasheclamberedintothecartandputthelan—

  ternundertheoilclothlap—cover。\"Nowforaducking,mygirl,\"hesaidtothemare,gather—

  ingupthereins。

  Astheyemergedfromtheshed,astreamofwater,runningoffthethatch,struckthemareontheneck。Shetossedherheadindignantly,thenstruckoutbravelyonthesoftground,slippingbackagainandagainassheclimbedthehilltothemainroad。BetweentherainandthedarknessIvarcouldseeverylittle,soheletEmil’smarehavetherein,keepingherheadintherightdirection。Whenthegroundwaslevel,heturnedheroutofthedirtroaduponthesod,whereshewasabletotrotwithoutslipping。

  BeforeIvarreachedthegraveyard,threemilesfromthehouse,thestormhadspentitself,andthedownpourhaddiedintoasoft,drippingrain。Theskyandthelandwereadarksmokecolor,andseemedtobecomingtogether,liketwowaves。WhenIvarstoppedatthegateandswungouthislantern,awhitefigurerosefrombesideJohnBergson’swhitestone。

  Theoldmansprangtothegroundandshuf—

  fledtowardthegatecalling,\"Mistress,mis—

  tress!\"

  Alexandrahurriedtomeethimandputherhandonhisshoulder。\"TYST!Ivar。There’snothingtobeworriedabout。I’msorryifI’vescaredyouall。Ididn’tnoticethestormtillitwasonme,andIcouldn’twalkagainstit。I’mgladyou’vecome。IamsotiredIdidn’tknowhowI’devergethome。\"

  Ivarswungthelanternupsothatitshoneinherface。\"GUD!Youareenoughtofrightenus,mistress。Youlooklikeadrownedwoman。

  Howcouldyoudosuchathing!\"

  Groaningandmumblingheledheroutofthegateandhelpedherintothecart,wrappingherinthedryblanketsonwhichhehadbeensitting。

  Alexandrasmiledathissolicitude。\"Notmuchuseinthat,Ivar。Youwillonlyshutthewetin。Idon’tfeelsocoldnow;butI’mheavyandnumb。I’mgladyoucame。\"

  Ivarturnedthemareandurgedherintoaslidingtrot。Herfeetsentbackacontinualspatterofmud。

  Alexandraspoketotheoldmanastheyjoggedalongthroughthesullengraytwilightofthestorm。\"Ivar,Ithinkithasdonemegoodtogetcoldclearthroughlikethis,once。Idon’tbelieveIshallsuffersomuchanymore。Whenyougetsonearthedead,theyseemmorerealthantheliving。Worldlythoughtsleaveone。

  EversinceEmildied,I’vesufferedsowhenitrained。NowthatI’vebeenoutinitwithhim,Ishan’tdreadit。Afteryouoncegetcoldclearthrough,thefeelingoftherainonyouissweet。

  Itseemstobringbackfeelingsyouhadwhenyouwereababy。Itcarriesyoubackintothedark,beforeyouwereborn;youcan’tseethings,buttheycometoyou,somehow,andyouknowthemandaren’tafraidofthem。Maybeit’slikethatwiththedead。Iftheyfeelanythingatall,it’stheoldthings,beforetheywereborn,thatcomfortpeoplelikethefeelingoftheirownbeddoeswhentheyarelittle。\"

  \"Mistress,\"saidIvarreproachfully,\"thosearebadthoughts。ThedeadareinParadise。\"

  Thenhehunghishead,forhedidnotbelievethatEmilwasinParadise。

  Whentheygothome,Signahadafireburn—

  inginthesitting—roomstove。SheundressedAlexandraandgaveherahotfootbath,whileIvarmadegingerteainthekitchen。WhenAlexandrawasinbed,wrappedinhotblankets,Ivarcameinwithhisteaandsawthatshedrankit。Signaaskedpermissiontosleepontheslatloungeoutsideherdoor。Alexandraenduredtheirattentionspatiently,butshewasgladwhentheyputoutthelampandlefther。

  Asshelayaloneinthedark,itoccurredtoherforthefirsttimethatperhapsshewasactuallytiredoflife。Allthephysicaloperationsoflifeseemeddifficultandpainful。Shelongedtobefreefromherownbody,whichachedandwassoheavy。Andlongingitselfwasheavy:sheyearnedtobefreeofthat。

  Asshelaywithhereyesclosed,shehadagain,morevividlythanformanyyears,theoldillu—

  sionofhergirlhood,ofbeingliftedandcarriedlightlybysomeoneverystrong。Hewaswithheralongwhilethistime,andcarriedherveryfar,andinhisarmsshefeltfreefrompain。

  Whenhelaidherdownonherbedagain,sheopenedhereyes,and,forthefirsttimeinherlife,shesawhim,sawhimclearly,thoughtheroomwasdark,andhisfacewascovered。Hewasstandinginthedoorwayofherroom。Hiswhitecloakwasthrownoverhisface,andhisheadwasbentalittleforward。Hisshouldersseemedasstrongasthefoundationsoftheworld。Hisrightarm,baredfromtheelbow,wasdarkandgleaming,likebronze,andsheknewatoncethatitwasthearmofthemighti—

  estofalllovers。Sheknewatlastforwhomitwasshehadwaited,andwherehewouldcarryher。That,shetoldherself,wasverywell。

  Thenshewenttosleep。

  Alexandrawakenedinthemorningwithnothingworsethanahardcoldandastiffshoulder。Shekeptherbedforseveraldays,anditwasduringthattimethatsheformedaresolutiontogotoLincolntoseeFrankSha—

  bata。Eversinceshelastsawhiminthecourt—

  room,Frank’shaggardfaceandwildeyeshadhauntedher。Thetrialhadlastedonlythreedays。FrankhadgivenhimselfuptothepoliceinOmahaandpleadedguiltyofkill—

  ingwithoutmaliceandwithoutpremeditation。

  Thegunwas,ofcourse,againsthim,andthejudgehadgivenhimthefullsentence,——tenyears。HehadnowbeenintheStatePeni—

  tentiaryforamonth。

  Frankwastheonlyone,Alexandratoldher—

  self,forwhomanythingcouldbedone。Hehadbeenlessinthewrongthananyofthem,andhewaspayingtheheaviestpenalty。SheoftenfeltthatsheherselfhadbeenmoretoblamethanpoorFrank。FromthetimetheShabatashadfirstmovedtotheneighboringfarm,shehadomittednoopportunityofthrowingMarieandEmiltogether。BecausesheknewFrankwassurlyaboutdoinglittlethingstohelphiswife,shewasalwayssendingEmilovertospadeorplantorcarpenterforMarie。ShewasgladtohaveEmilseeasmuchaspossibleofanintelli—

  gent,city—bredgirlliketheirneighbor;sheno—

  ticedthatitimprovedhismanners。SheknewthatEmilwasfondofMarie,butithadneveroccurredtoherthatEmil’sfeelingmightbedif—

  ferentfromherown。Shewonderedatherselfnow,butshehadneverthoughtofdangerinthatdirection。IfMariehadbeenunmarried,——oh,yes!Thenshewouldhavekepthereyesopen。ButthemerefactthatshewasSha—

  bata’swife,forAlexandra,settledeverything。

  Thatshewasbeautiful,impulsive,barelytwoyearsolderthanEmil,thesefactshadhadnoweightwithAlexandra。Emilwasagoodboy,andonlybadboysranaftermarriedwomen。

  Now,AlexandracouldinameasurerealizethatMariewas,afterall,Marie;notmerelya\"marriedwoman。\"Sometimes,whenAlex—

  andrathoughtofher,itwaswithanachingtenderness。Themomentshehadreachedthemintheorchardthatmorning,everythingwascleartoher。Therewassomethingaboutthosetwolyinginthegrass,somethinginthewayMariehadsettledhercheekonEmil’sshoulder,thattoldhereverything。Shewonderedthenhowtheycouldhavehelpedlovingeachother;

  howshecouldhavehelpedknowingthattheymust。Emil’scold,frowningface,thegirl’scontent——Alexandrahadfeltaweofthem,eveninthefirstshockofhergrief。

  Theidlenessofthosedaysinbed,therelax—

  ationofbodywhichattendedthem,enabledAlexandratothinkmorecalmlythanshehaddonesinceEmil’sdeath。SheandFrank,shetoldherself,wereleftoutofthatgroupoffriendswhohadbeenoverwhelmedbydisaster。

  ShemustcertainlyseeFrankShabata。Eveninthecourtroomherhearthadgrievedforhim。

  Hewasinastrangecountry,hehadnokins—

  menorfriends,andinamomenthehadruinedhislife。Beingwhathewas,shefelt,Frankcouldnothaveactedotherwise。ShecouldunderstandhisbehaviormoreeasilythanshecouldunderstandMarie’s。Yes,shemustgotoLincolntoseeFrankShabata。

  ThedayafterEmil’sfuneral,AlexandrahadwrittentoCarlLinstrum;asinglepageofnote—

  paper,abarestatementofwhathadhappened。

  Shewasnotawomanwhocouldwritemuchaboutsuchathing,andaboutherownfeelingsshecouldneverwriteveryfreely。SheknewthatCarlwasawayfrompost—offices,prospect—

  ingsomewhereintheinterior。Beforehestartedhehadwrittenherwhereheexpectedtogo,butherideasaboutAlaskawerevague。Astheweekswentbyandsheheardnothingfromhim,itseemedtoAlexandrathatherheartgrewhardagainstCarl。Shebegantowonderwhethershewouldnotdobettertofinishherlifealone。

  Whatwasleftoflifeseemedunimportant。

  II

  LateintheafternoonofabrilliantOctoberday,AlexandraBergson,dressedinablacksuitandtraveling—hat,alightedattheBurlingtondepotinLincoln。ShedrovetotheLindellHotel,whereshehadstayedtwoyearsagowhenshecameupforEmil’sCommencement。

  Inspiteofherusualairofsurenessandself—

  possession,Alexandrafeltillateaseinhotels,andshewasglad,whenshewenttotheclerk’sdesktoregister,thattherewerenotmanypeopleinthelobby。Shehadhersupperearly,wearingherhatandblackjacketdowntothedining—roomandcarryingherhandbag。Aftersuppershewentoutforawalk。

  Itwasgrowingdarkwhenshereachedtheuniversitycampus。Shedidnotgointothegrounds,butwalkedslowlyupanddownthestonewalkoutsidethelongironfence,lookingthroughattheyoungmenwhowererunningfromonebuildingtoanother,atthelightsshin—

  ingfromthearmoryandthelibrary。Asquadofcadetsweregoingthroughtheirdrillbehindthearmory,andthecommandsoftheiryoungofficerrangoutatregularintervals,sosharpandquickthatAlexandracouldnotunderstandthem。Twostalwartgirlscamedownthelibrarystepsandoutthroughoneoftheirongates。Astheypassedher,AlexandrawaspleasedtohearthemspeakingBohemiantoeachother。Everyfewmomentsaboywouldcomerunningdowntheflaggedwalkanddashoutintothestreetasifhewererushingtoannouncesomewondertotheworld。Alexandrafeltagreattendernessforthemall。Shewishedoneofthemwouldstopandspeaktoher。ShewishedshecouldaskthemwhethertheyhadknownEmil。

  Asshelingeredbythesouthgatesheactuallydidencounteroneoftheboys。Hehadonhisdrillcapandwasswinginghisbooksattheendofalongstrap。Itwasdarkbythistime;

  hedidnotseeherandranagainsther。Hesnatchedoffhiscapandstoodbareheadedandpanting。\"I’mawfullysorry,\"hesaidinabright,clearvoice,witharisinginflection,asifheexpectedhertosaysomething。

  \"Oh,itwasmyfault!\"saidAlexandraeagerly。

  \"Areyouanoldstudenthere,mayIask?\"

  \"No,ma’am。I’maFreshie,justoffthefarm。CherryCounty。Wereyouhuntingsomebody?\"

  \"No,thankyou。Thatis——\"Alexandrawantedtodetainhim。\"Thatis,Iwouldliketofindsomeofmybrother’sfriends。Hegradu—

  atedtwoyearsago。\"

  \"Thenyou’dhavetotrytheSeniors,wouldn’tyou?Let’ssee;Idon’tknowanyofthemyet,butthere’llbesuretobesomeofthemaroundthelibrary。Thatredbuilding,rightthere,\"hepointed。

  \"Thankyou,I’lltrythere,\"saidAlexandralingeringly。

  \"Oh,that’sallright!Good—night。\"TheladclappedhiscaponhisheadandranstraightdownEleventhStreet。Alexandralookedafterhimwistfully。

  Shewalkedbacktoherhotelunreasonablycomforted。\"Whatanicevoicethatboyhad,andhowpolitehewas。IknowEmilwasalwayslikethattowomen。\"Andagain,aftershehadundressedandwasstandinginhernightgown,brushingherlong,heavyhairbytheelectriclight,sherememberedhimandsaidtoherself,\"Idon’tthinkIeverheardanicervoicethanthatboyhad。Ihopehewillgetonwellhere。

  CherryCounty;that’swherethehayissofine,andthecoyotescanscratchdowntowater。\"

  Atnineo’clockthenextmorningAlexandrapresentedherselfatthewarden’sofficeintheStatePenitentiary。ThewardenwasaGer—

  man,aruddy,cheerful—lookingmanwhohadformerlybeenaharness—maker。AlexandrahadalettertohimfromtheGermanbankerinHanover。Asheglancedattheletter,Mr。

  Schwartzputawayhispipe。

  \"ThatbigBohemian,isit?Sure,he’sgettin’alongfine,\"saidMr。Schwartzcheer—

  fully。

  \"Iamgladtohearthat。Iwasafraidhemightbequarrelsomeandgethimselfintomoretrouble。Mr。Schwartz,ifyouhavetime,I

  wouldliketotellyoualittleaboutFrankShabata,andwhyIaminterestedinhim。\"

  ThewardenlistenedgeniallywhileshetoldhimbrieflysomethingofFrank’shistoryandcharacter,buthedidnotseemtofindanythingunusualinheraccount。

  \"Sure,I’llkeepaneyeonhim。We’lltakecareofhimallright,\"hesaid,rising。\"Youcantalktohimhere,whileIgotoseetothingsinthekitchen。I’llhavehimsentin。Heoughttobedonewashingouthiscellbythistime。Wehavetokeep’emclean,youknow。\"

  Thewardenpausedatthedoor,speakingbackoverhisshouldertoapaleyoungmaninconvicts’clotheswhowasseatedatadeskinthecorner,writinginabigledger。

  \"Bertie,when1037isbroughtin,youjuststepoutandgivethisladyachancetotalk。\"

  Theyoungmanbowedhisheadandbentoverhisledgeragain。

  WhenMr。Schwartzdisappeared,Alexandrathrustherblack—edgedhandkerchiefnervouslyintoherhandbag。Comingoutonthestreet—

  carshehadnothadtheleastdreadofmeetingFrank。Butsinceshehadbeenherethesoundsandsmellsinthecorridor,thelookofthemeninconvicts’clotheswhopassedtheglassdoorofthewarden’soffice,affectedherunpleasantly。

  Thewarden’sclockticked,theyoungcon—

  vict’spenscratchedbusilyinthebigbook,andhissharpshoulderswereshakeneveryfewsecondsbyaloosecoughwhichhetriedtosmother。Itwaseasytoseethathewasasickman。Alexandralookedathimtimidly,buthedidnotonceraisehiseyes。Heworeawhiteshirtunderhisstripedjacket,ahighcollar,andanecktie,verycarefullytied。Hishandswerethinandwhiteandwellcaredfor,andhehadasealringonhislittlefinger。Whenheheardstepsapproachinginthecorridor,herose,blottedhisbook,puthispenintherack,andlefttheroomwithoutraisinghiseyes。Throughthedoorheopenedaguardcamein,bringingFrankShabata。

  \"Youtheladythatwantedtotalkto1037?

  Hereheis。Beonyourgoodbehavior,now。Hecansetdown,lady,\"seeingthatAlexandraremainedstanding。\"Pushthatwhitebuttonwhenyou’rethroughwithhim,andI’llcome。\"

  TheguardwentoutandAlexandraandFrankwereleftalone。

  Alexandratriednottoseehishideousclothes。Shetriedtolookstraightintohisface,whichshecouldscarcelybelievewashis。Itwasalreadybleachedtoachalkygray。Hislipswerecolorless,hisfineteethlookedyellowish。

  HeglancedatAlexandrasullenly,blinkedasifhehadcomefromadarkplace,andoneeye—

  browtwitchedcontinually。Shefeltatoncethatthisinterviewwasaterribleordealtohim。

  Hisshavedhead,showingtheconformationofhisskull,gavehimacriminallookwhichhehadnothadduringthetrial。

  Alexandraheldoutherhand。\"Frank,\"shesaid,hereyesfillingsuddenly,\"Ihopeyou’llletmebefriendlywithyou。Iunderstandhowyoudidit。Idon’tfeelhardtowardyou。Theyweremoretoblamethanyou。\"

  Frankjerkedadirtybluehandkerchieffromhistrouserspocket。Hehadbeguntocry。HeturnedawayfromAlexandra。\"Ineverdidmeantodonot’ingtodatwoman,\"hemut—

  tered。\"Inevermeantodonot’ingtodatboy。

  Iain’thadnot’ingag’in’datboy。Ialwayslikedatboyfine。An’thenIfindhim——\"Hestopped。Thefeelingwentoutofhisfaceandeyes。Hedroppedintoachairandsatlookingstolidlyatthefloor,hishandshanginglooselybetweenhisknees,thehandkerchieflyingacrosshisstripedleg。Heseemedtohavestirredupinhismindadisgustthathadpara—

  lyzedhisfaculties。

  \"Ihaven’tcomeupheretoblameyou,Frank。Ithinktheyweremoretoblamethanyou。\"Alexandra,too,feltbenumbed。

  Franklookedupsuddenlyandstaredoutoftheofficewindow。\"IguessdatplaceallgotohellwhatIworksohardon,\"hesaidwithaslow,bittersmile。\"Inotcareadamn。\"Hestoppedandrubbedthepalmofhishandoverthelightbristlesonhisheadwithannoyance。

  \"Inocant’inkwithoutmyhair,\"hecom—

  plained。\"IforgetEnglish。Wenottalkhere,exceptswear。\"

  Alexandrawasbewildered。Frankseemedtohaveundergoneachangeofpersonality。TherewasscarcelyanythingbywhichshecouldrecognizeherhandsomeBohemianneighbor。

  Heseemed,somehow,notaltogetherhuman。

  Shedidnotknowwhattosaytohim。

  \"Youdonotfeelhardtome,Frank?\"sheaskedatlast。

  Frankclenchedhisfistandbrokeoutinexcitement。\"Inotfeelhardatnowoman。I

  tellyouInotthatkind—aman。Ineverhitmywife。No,neverIhurtherwhenshedevilmesomethingawful!\"Hestruckhisfistdownonthewarden’sdesksohardthatheafterwardstrokeditabsently。Apalepinkcreptoverhisneckandface。\"Two,t’reeyearsIknowdatwomandon’carenomore’boutme,Alex—

  andraBergson。Iknowsheaftersomeotherman。Iknowher,oo—oo!An’Iain’tneverhurther。Ineverwould—adonedat,ifIain’thaddatgunalong。Idon’knowwhatinhellmakemetakedatgun。ShealwayssayIain’tnomantocarrygun。Ifshebeenindathouse,wheresheought—abeen——Butdasafoolishtalk。\"

  Frankrubbedhisheadandstoppedsuddenly,ashehadstoppedbefore。Alexandrafeltthattherewassomethingstrangeinthewayhechilledoff,asifsomethingcameupinhimthatextinguishedhispoweroffeelingorthinking。

  \"Yes,Frank,\"shesaidkindly。\"IknowyounevermeanttohurtMarie。\"

  Franksmiledatherqueerly。Hiseyesfilledslowlywithtears。\"Youknow,Imostforgitdatwoman’sname。Sheain’tgotnonameformenomore。Ineverhatemywife,butdatwomanwhatmakemedodat——HonesttoGod,butIhateher!Inomantofight。Idon’

  wanttokillnoboyandnowoman。Inotcarehowmanymenshetakeunderdattree。Inocarefornot’ingbutdatfineboyIkill,Alexan—

  draBergson。IguessIgocrazysure’nough。\"

  AlexandrarememberedthelittleyellowcaneshehadfoundinFrank’sclothes—closet。Shethoughtofhowhehadcometothiscountryagayyoungfellow,soattractivethatthepretti—

  estBohemiangirlinOmahahadrunawaywithhim。Itseemedunreasonablethatlifeshouldhavelandedhiminsuchaplaceasthis。SheblamedMariebitterly。Andwhy,withherhappy,affectionatenature,shouldshehavebroughtdestructionandsorrowtoallwhohadlovedher,eventopooroldJoeTovesky,theunclewhousedtocarryheraboutsoproudlywhenshewasalittlegirl?Thatwasthestrangestthingofall。Wasthere,then,some—

  thingwronginbeingwarm—heartedandimpul—

  sivelikethat?Alexandrahatedtothinkso。

  ButtherewasEmil,intheNorwegiangrave—

  yardathome,andherewasFrankShabata。

  Alexandraroseandtookhimbythehand。

  \"FrankShabata,IamnevergoingtostoptryinguntilIgetyoupardoned。I’llnevergivetheGovernoranypeace。IknowIcangetyououtofthisplace。\"

  Franklookedatherdistrustfully,buthegatheredconfidencefromherface。\"Alexan—

  dra,\"hesaidearnestly,\"ifIgitout—ahere,I

  nottroublediscountrynomore。IgobackwhereIcomefrom;seemymother。\"

  Alexandratriedtowithdrawherhand,butFrankheldontoitnervously。Heputouthisfingerandabsentlytouchedabuttononherblackjacket。\"Alexandra,\"hesaidinalowtone,lookingsteadilyatthebutton,\"youain’

  t’inkIusedatgirlawfulbadbefore——\"

  \"No,Frank。Wewon’ttalkaboutthat,\"

  Alexandrasaid,pressinghishand。\"Ican’thelpEmilnow,soI’mgoingtodowhatIcanforyou。YouknowIdon’tgoawayfromhomeoften,andIcameuphereonpurposetotellyouthis。\"

  Thewardenattheglassdoorlookedinin—

  quiringly。Alexandranodded,andhecameinandtouchedthewhitebuttononhisdesk。Theguardappeared,andwithasinkingheartAlexandrasawFrankledawaydownthecor—

  ridor。AfterafewwordswithMr。Schwartz,shelefttheprisonandmadeherwaytothestreet—car。Shehadrefusedwithhorrorthewarden’scordialinvitationto\"gothroughtheinstitution。\"Asthecarlurchedoveritsun—

  evenroadbed,backtowardLincoln,AlexandrathoughtofhowsheandFrankhadbeenwreckedbythesamestormandofhow,al—

  thoughshecouldcomeoutintothesunlight,shehadnotmuchmoreleftinherlifethanhe。

  Sherememberedsomelinesfromapoemshehadlikedinherschooldays:——

  HenceforththeworldwillonlybeAwiderprison—housetome,——

  andsighed。Adisgustoflifeweigheduponherheart;somesuchfeelingashadtwicefrozenFrankShabata’sfeatureswhiletheytalkedtogether。ShewishedshewerebackontheDivide。

  WhenAlexandraenteredherhotel,theclerkhelduponefingerandbeckonedtoher。Assheapproachedhisdesk,hehandedheratelegram。

  Alexandratooktheyellowenvelopeandlookedatitinperplexity,thensteppedintotheele—

  vatorwithoutopeningit。Asshewalkeddownthecorridortowardherroom,shereflectedthatshewas,inamanner,immunefromeviltid—

  ings。Onreachingherroomshelockedthedoor,andsittingdownonachairbythedresser,openedthetelegram。ItwasfromHanover,anditread:——

  ArrivedHanoverlastnight。Shallwaithereuntilyoucome。Pleasehurry。

  CARLLINSTRUM。

  Alexandraputherheaddownonthedresserandburstintotears。

  III

  ThenextafternoonCarlandAlexandrawerewalkingacrossthefieldsfromMrs。

  Hiller’s。AlexandrahadleftLincolnaftermid—

  night,andCarlhadmetherattheHanoverstationearlyinthemorning。Aftertheyreachedhome,AlexandrahadgoneovertoMrs。Hiller’stoleavealittlepresentshehadboughtforherinthecity。Theystayedattheoldlady’sdoorbutamoment,andthencameouttospendtherestoftheafternooninthesunnyfields。

  Alexandrahadtakenoffherblacktraveling—

  suitandputonawhitedress;partlybecauseshesawthatherblackclothesmadeCarlun—

  comfortableandpartlybecauseshefeltop—

  pressedbythemherself。Theyseemedalittleliketheprisonwhereshehadwornthemyester—

  day,andtobeoutofplaceintheopenfields。

  Carlhadchangedverylittle。Hischeekswerebrownerandfuller。Helookedlesslikeatiredscholarthanwhenhewentawayayearago,butnoone,evennow,wouldhavetakenhimforamanofbusiness。Hissoft,lustrousblackeyes,hiswhimsicalsmile,wouldbelessagainsthimintheKlondikethanontheDivide。Therearealwaysdreamersonthefrontier。

  CarlandAlexandrahadbeentalkingsincemorning。Herletterhadneverreachedhim。

  HehadfirstlearnedofhermisfortunefromaSanFranciscopaper,fourweeksold,whichhehadpickedupinasaloon,andwhichcon—

  tainedabriefaccountofFrankShabata’strial。

  Whenheputdownthepaper,hehadalreadymadeuphismindthathecouldreachAlexandraasquicklyasalettercould;andeversincehehadbeenontheway;dayandnight,bythefastestboatsandtrainshecouldcatch。Hissteamerhadbeenheldbacktwodaysbyroughweather。

  AstheycameoutofMrs。Hiller’sgardentheytookuptheirtalkagainwheretheyhadleftit。

  \"Butcouldyoucomeawaylikethat,Carl,withoutarrangingthings?Couldyoujustwalkoffandleaveyourbusiness?\"Alexandraasked。

  Carllaughed。\"PrudentAlexandra!Yousee,mydear,Ihappentohaveanhonestpartner。

  Itrusthimwitheverything。Infact,it’sbeenhisenterprisefromthebeginning,youknow。

  I’minitonlybecausehetookmein。I’llhavetogobackinthespring。Perhapsyouwillwanttogowithmethen。Wehaven’tturnedupmillionsyet,butwe’vegotastartthat’sworthfollowing。ButthiswinterI’dliketospendwithyou。Youwon’tfeelthatweoughttowaitlonger,onEmil’saccount,willyou,Alexandra?\"

  Alexandrashookherhead。\"No,Carl;I

  don’tfeelthatwayaboutit。Andsurelyyouneedn’tmindanythingLouandOscarsaynow。TheyaremuchangrierwithmeaboutEmil,now,thanaboutyou。Theysayitwasallmyfault。ThatIruinedhimbysendinghimtocollege。\"

  \"No,Idon’tcareabuttonforLouorOscar。ThemomentIknewyouwereintrou—

  ble,themomentIthoughtyoumightneedme,italllookeddifferent。You’vealwaysbeenatriumphantkindofperson。\"Carlhesitated,lookingsidewiseatherstrong,fullfigure。\"Butyoudoneedmenow,Alex—

  andra?\"

  Sheputherhandonhisarm。\"Ineededyouterriblywhenithappened,Carl。Icriedforyouatnight。Theneverythingseemedtogethardinsideofme,andIthoughtperhapsIshouldnevercareforyouagain。ButwhenIgotyourtelegramyesterday,then——thenitwasjustasitusedtobe。YouareallIhaveintheworld,youknow。\"

  Carlpressedherhandinsilence。TheywerepassingtheShabatas’emptyhousenow,buttheyavoidedtheorchardpathandtookonethatledoverbythepasturepond。

  \"Canyouunderstandit,Carl?\"Alexandramurmured。\"IhavehadnobodybutIvarandSignatotalkto。Dotalktome。Canyouun—

  derstandit?CouldyouhavebelievedthatofMarieTovesky?Iwouldhavebeencuttopieces,littlebylittle,beforeIwouldhavebetrayedhertrustinme!\"

  Carllookedattheshiningspotofwaterbeforethem。\"Maybeshewascuttopieces,too,Alexandra。Iamsureshetriedhard;theybothdid。ThatwaswhyEmilwenttoMexico,ofcourse。Andhewasgoingawayagain,youtellme,thoughhehadonlybeenhomethreeweeks。YourememberthatSundaywhenI

  wentwithEmiluptotheFrenchChurchfair?

  Ithoughtthatdaytherewassomekindoffeel—

  ing,somethingunusual,betweenthem。I

  meanttotalktoyouaboutit。ButonmywaybackImetLouandOscarandgotsoangrythatIforgoteverythingelse。Youmustn’tbehardonthem,Alexandra。Sitdownherebythepondaminute。Iwanttotellyousomething。\"

  Theysatdownonthegrass—tuftedbankandCarltoldherhowhehadseenEmilandMarieoutbythepondthatmorning,morethanayearago,andhowyoungandcharmingandfullofgracetheyhadseemedtohim。\"Ithap—

  penslikethatintheworldsometimes,Alexan—

  dra,\"headdedearnestly。\"I’veseenitbefore。

  Therearewomenwhospreadruinaroundthemthroughnofaultoftheirs,justbybeingtoobeautiful,toofulloflifeandlove。Theycan’thelpit。Peoplecometothemaspeoplegotoawarmfireinwinter。Iusedtofeelthatinherwhenshewasalittlegirl。Doyouremem—

  berhowalltheBohemianscrowdedroundherinthestorethatday,whenshegaveEmilhercandy?Yourememberthoseyellowsparksinhereyes?\"

  Alexandrasighed。\"Yes。Peoplecouldn’thelplovingher。PoorFrankdoes,evennow,I

  think;thoughhe’sgothimselfinsuchatanglethatforalongtimehislovehasbeenbittererthanhishate。Butifyousawtherewasany—

  thingwrong,yououghttohavetoldme,Carl。\"

  Carltookherhandandsmiledpatiently。

  \"Mydear,itwassomethingonefeltintheair,asyoufeelthespringcoming,orastorminsummer。Ididn’tSEEanything。Simply,whenIwaswiththosetwoyoungthings,Ifeltmybloodgoquicker,Ifelt——howshallIsayit?——

  anaccelerationoflife。AfterIgotaway,itwasalltoodelicate,toointangible,towriteabout。\"

  Alexandralookedathimmournfully。\"I

  trytobemoreliberalaboutsuchthingsthanIusedtobe。Itrytorealizethatwearenotallmadealike。Only,whycouldn’tithavebeenRaoulMarcel,orJanSmirka?Whydidithavetobemyboy?\"

  \"Becausehewasthebesttherewas,Isup—

  pose。Theywereboththebestyouhadhere。\"

  Thesunwasdroppinglowinthewestwhenthetwofriendsroseandtookthepathagain。

  Thestraw—stackswerethrowinglongshadows,theowlswereflyinghometotheprairie—dogtown。Whentheycametothecornerwherethepasturesjoined,Alexandra’stwelveyoungcoltsweregallopinginadroveoverthebrowofthehill。

  \"Carl,\"saidAlexandra,\"Ishouldliketogouptherewithyouinthespring。Ihaven’tbeenonthewatersincewecrossedtheocean,whenIwasalittlegirl。AfterwefirstcameouthereIusedtodreamsometimesabouttheship—

  yardwherefatherworked,andalittlesortofinlet,fullofmasts。\"Alexandrapaused。Afteramoment’sthoughtshesaid,\"Butyouwouldneveraskmetogoawayforgood,wouldyou?\"

  \"Ofcoursenot,mydearest。IthinkIknowhowyoufeelaboutthiscountryaswellasyoudoyourself。\"Carltookherhandinbothhisownandpressedittenderly。

  \"Yes,Istillfeelthatway,thoughEmilisgone。WhenIwasonthetrainthismorning,andwegotnearHanover,IfeltsomethinglikeIdidwhenIdrovebackwithEmilfromtheriverthattime,inthedryyear。Iwasgladtocomebacktoit。I’velivedherealongtime。

  Thereisgreatpeacehere,Carl,andfreedom……IthoughtwhenIcameoutofthatprison,wherepoorFrankis,thatIshouldneverfeelfreeagain。ButIdo,here。\"Alexandratookadeepbreathandlookedoffintotheredwest。

  \"Youbelongtotheland,\"Carlmurmured,\"asyouhavealwayssaid。Nowmorethanever。\"

  \"Yes,nowmorethanever。Yourememberwhatyouoncesaidaboutthegraveyard,andtheoldstorywritingitselfover?Onlyitiswewhowriteit,withthebestwehave。\"

  Theypausedonthelastridgeofthepasture,overlookingthehouseandthewindmillandthestablesthatmarkedthesiteofJohnBergson’shomestead。Oneverysidethebrownwavesoftheearthrolledawaytomeetthesky。

  \"LouandOscarcan’tseethosethings,\"saidAlexandrasuddenly。\"SupposeIdowillmylandtotheirchildren,whatdifferencewillthatmake?Thelandbelongstothefuture,Carl;

  that’sthewayitseemstome。Howmanyofthenamesonthecountyclerk’splatwillbethereinfiftyyears?Imightaswelltrytowillthesunsetovertheretomybrother’schildren。Wecomeandgo,butthelandisalwayshere。Andthepeoplewholoveitandunderstanditarethepeoplewhoownit——foralittlewhile。\"

  Carllookedatherwonderingly。Shewasstillgazingintothewest,andinherfacetherewasthatexaltedserenitythatsometimescametoheratmomentsofdeepfeeling。Thelevelraysofthesinkingsunshoneinhercleareyes。

  \"Whyareyouthinkingofsuchthingsnow,Alexandra?\"

  \"IhadadreambeforeIwenttoLincoln——

  ButIwilltellyouaboutthatafterward,afterwearemarried。Itwillnevercometrue,now,inthewayIthoughtitmight。\"ShetookCarl’sarmandtheywalkedtowardthegate。\"Howmanytimeswehavewalkedthispathtogether,Carl。Howmanytimeswewillwalkitagain!

  Doesitseemtoyoulikecomingbacktoyourownplace?Doyoufeelatpeacewiththeworldhere?Ithinkweshallbeveryhappy。Ihaven’tanyfears。Ithinkwhenfriendsmarry,theyaresafe。Wedon’tsufferlike——thoseyoungones。\"

  Alexandraendedwithasigh。

  Theyhadreachedthegate。BeforeCarlopenedit,hedrewAlexandratohimandkissedhersoftly,onherlipsandonhereyes。

  Sheleanedheavilyonhisshoulder。\"Iamtired,\"shemurmured。\"Ihavebeenverylonely,Carl。\"

  Theywentintothehousetogether,leavingtheDividebehindthem,undertheeveningstar。Fortunatecountry,thatisonedaytoreceiveheartslikeAlexandra’sintoitsbosom,togivethemoutagainintheyellowwheat,intherustlingcorn,intheshiningeyesofyouth!

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