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  AuntKateturnedfiercelyonhernieceandsaid:

  `IknowallaboutthehonourofGod,MaryJane,butIthinkit’snotatallhonourableforthePopetoturnoutthewomenoutofthechoirsthathaveslavedtherealltheirlivesandputlittlewhipper-snappersofboysovertheirheads。IsupposeitisforthegoodoftheChurch,ifthePopedoesit。Butit’snotjust,MaryJane,andit’snotright。’

  Shehadworkedherselfintoapassionandwouldhavecontinuedindefenceofhersister,foritwasasoresubjectwithher,butMaryJane,seeingthatallthedancershadcomeback,intervenedpacifically。

  `Now,AuntKate,you’regivingscandaltoMrBrowne,whoisoftheotherpersuasion。’

  AuntKateturnedtoMrBrowne,whowasgrinningatthisallusiontohisreligion,andsaidhastily:

  `O,Idon’tquestionthePope’sbeingright。I’monlyastupidoldwomanandIwouldn’tpresumetodosuchathing。Butthere’ssuchathingascommoneverydaypolitenessandgratitude。AndifIwereinJulia’splaceI’dtellthatFatherHealeystraightuptohisface……’

  `Andbesides,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane,`wereallyareallhungryandwhenwearehungryweareallveryquarrelsome。’

  `Andwhenwearethirstywearealsoquarrelsome,’addedMrBrowne。

  `Sothatwehadbettergotosupper,’saidMaryJane,`andfinishthediscussionafterwards。’

  Onthelandingoutsidethedrawing-roomGabrielfoundhiswifeandMaryJanetryingtopersuadeMissIvorstostayforsupper。ButMissIvors,whohadputonherhatandwasbuttoninghercloak,wouldnotstay。Shedidnotfeelintheleasthungryandshehadalreadyoverstayedhertime。

  `Butonlyfortenminutes,Molly,’saidMrsConroy。`Thatwon’tdelayyou。’

  `Totakeapickitself,’saidMaryJane,`afterallyourdancing。’

  `Ireallycouldn’t,’saidMissIvors。

  `Iamafraidyoudidn’tenjoyyourselfatall,’saidMaryJanehopelessly。

  `Eversomuch,Iassureyou,’saidMissIvors,`butyoureallymustletmerunoffnow。’

  `Buthowcanyougethome?’askedMrsConroy。

  `O,it’sonlytwostepsupthequay。’

  Gabrielhesitatedamomentandsaid:

  `Ifyouwillallowme,MissIvors,I’llseeyouhomeifyouarereallyobligedtogo。’

  ButMissIvorsbrokeawayfromthem。

  `Iwon’thearofit,’shecried。`Forgoodness’sakegointoyoursuppersanddon’tmindme。I’mquitewellabletotakecareofmyself。’

  `Well,you’rethecomicalgirl,Molly,’saidMrsConroyfrankly。

  `Beannachtlibh,’criedMissIvors,withalaugh,assherandownthestaircase。

  MaryJanegazedafterher,amoodypuzzledexpressiononherface,whileMrsConroyleanedoverthebanisterstolistenforthehall-door。Gabrielaskedhimselfwashethecauseofherabruptdeparture。Butshedidnotseemtobeinillhumour-shehadgoneawaylaughing。Hestaredblanklydownthestaircase。

  AtthatmomentAuntKatecametoddlingoutofthesupper-room,almostwringingherhandsindespair。

  `WhereisGabriel?’shecried。`WhereonearthisGabriel?There’severyonewaitinginthere,stagetolet,andnobodytocarvethegoose!’

  `HereIam,AuntKate!’criedGabriel,withsuddenanimation,`readytocarveaflockofgeese,ifnecessary。’

  Afatbrowngooselayatoneendofthetable,andattheotherend,onabedofcreasedpaperstrewnwithsprigsofparsley,layagreatham,strippedofitsouterskinandpepperedoverwithcrustcrumbs,aneatpaperfrillrounditsshin,andbesidethiswasaroundofspicedbeef。

  Betweentheserivalendsranparallellinesofside-dishes:twolittleminstersofjelly,redandyellow;ashallowdishfullofblocksofblancmangeandredjam,alargegreenleaf-shapeddishwithastalk-shapedhandle,onwhichlaybunchesofpurpleraisinsandpeeledalmonds,acompaniondishonwhichlayasolidrectangleofSmyrnafigs,adishofcustardtoppedwithgratednutmeg,asmallbowlfullofchocolatesandsweetswrappedingoldandsilverpapersandaglassvaseinwhichstoodsometallcelerystalks。Inthecentreofthetabletherestood,assentriestoafruit-standwhichupheldapyramidoforangesandAmericanapples,twosquatold-fashioneddecantersofcutglass,onecontainingportandtheotherdarksherry。

  Ontheclosedsquarepianoapuddinginahugeyellowdishlayinwaiting,andbehinditwerethreesquadsofbottlesofstoutandaleandmineralsdrawnupaccordingtothecoloursoftheiruniforms,thefirsttwoblack,withbrownandredlabels,thethirdandsmallestsquadwhite,withtransversegreensashes。

  Gabrieltookhisseatboldlyattheheadofthetableand,havinglookedtotheedgeofthecarver,plungedhisforkfirmlyinto-thegoose。Hefeltquiteateasenow,forhewasanexpertcarverandlikednothingbetterthantofindhimselfattheheadofawell-ladentable。

  `MissFurlong,whatshallIsendyou?’heasked。`Awingorasliceofthebreast?’

  `Justasmallsliceofthebreast。’

  `MissHiggins,whatforyou?’

  `O,anythingatall,MrConroy。’

  WhileGabrielandMissDalyexchangedplatesofgooseandplatesofhamandspicedbeef,Lilywentfromguesttoguestwithadishofhotflourypotatoeswrappedinawhitenapkin。ThiswasMaryJane’sideaandshehadalsosuggestedapplesauceforthegoose,butAuntKatehadsaidthatplainroastgoosewithoutanyapplesaucehadalwaysbeengoodenoughforherandshehopedshemightnevereatworse。MaryJanewaitedonherpupilsandsawthattheygotthebestslices,andAuntKateandAuntJuliaopenedandcarriedacrossfromthepianobottlesofstoutandaleforthegentlemenandbottlesofmineralsfortheladies。Therewasagreatdealofconfusionandlaughterandnoise,thenoiseofordersandcounter-orders,ofknivesandforks,ofcorksandglass-stoppers。Gabrielbegantocarvesecondhelpingsassoonashehadfinishedthefirstroundwithoutservinghimself。Everyoneprotestedloudly,sothathecompromisedbytakingalongdraughtofstout,forhehadfoundthecarvinghotwork。MaryJanesettleddownquietlytohersupper,butAuntKateandAuntJuliawerestilltoddlingroundthetable,walkingoneachother’sheels,gettingineachother’swayandgivingeachotherunheededorders。MrBrownebeggedofthemtositdownandeattheirsuppersandsodidGabriel,buttheysaidtherewastimeenough,sothat,atlast,FreddyMalinsstoodupand,capturingAuntKate,plumpedherdownonherchairamidgenerallaughter。

  WheneveryonehadbeenwellservedGabrielsaid,smiling:

  `Now,ifanyonewantsalittlemoreofwhatvulgarpeoplecallstuffinglethimorherspeak。’

  Achorusofvoicesinvitedhimtobeginhisownsupper,andLilycameforwardwiththreepotatoeswhichshehadreservedforhim。

  `Verywell,’saidGabrielamiably,ashetookanotherpreparatorydraught,`kindlyforgetmyexistence,ladiesandgentlemen,forafewminutes。’

  HesettohissupperandtooknopartintheconversationwithwhichthetablecoveredLily’sremovaloftheplates。ThesubjectoftalkwastheoperacompanywhichwasthenattheTheatreRoyal。MrBartellD’Arcy,thetenor,adark-complexionedyoungmanwithasmartmoustache,praisedveryhighlytheleadingcontraltoofthecompany,butMissFurlongthoughtshehadarathervulgarstyleofproduction。FreddyMalinssaidtherewasaNegrochieftainsinginginthesecondpartoftheGaietypantomimewhohadoneofthefinesttenorvoiceshehadeverheard。

  `Haveyouheardhim?’heaskedMrBartellD’Arcyacrossthetable。

  `No,’answeredMrBartellD’Arcycarelessly。

  `Because,’FreddyMalinsexplained,`nowI’dbecurioustohearyouropinionofhim。Ithinkhehasagrandvoice。’

  `IttakesTeddytofindoutthereallygoodthings,’saidMrBrownefamiliarlytothetable。

  `Andwhycouldn’thehaveavoicetoo?’askedFreddyMalinssharply。

  `Isitbecausehe’sonlyablack?’

  NobodyansweredthisquestionandMaryJaneledthetablebacktothelegitimateopera。OneofherpupilshadgivenherapassforMignon。

  Ofcourseitwasveryfine,shesaid,butitmadeherthinkofpoorGeorginaBurns。MrBrownecouldgobackfartherstill,totheoldItaliancompaniesthatusedtocometoDublin-Tietjens,IlmadeMurzka,Campanini,thegreatTrebelli,Giuglini,Ravelli,Aramburo。Thosewerethedays,hesaid,whentherewassomethinglikesingingtobeheardinDublin。HetoldtooofhowthetopgalleryoftheoldRoyalusedtobepackednightafternight,ofhowonenightanItaliantenorhadsungfiveencorestoLetmelikeaSoldierfall’,introducingahighCeverytime,andofhowthegalleryboyswouldsometimesintheirenthusiasmunyokethehorsesfromthecarriageofsomegreatprimadonnaandpullherthemselvesthroughthestreetstoherhotel。Whydidtheyneverplaythegrandoldoperasnow,heasked,Dinorah,LucreziaBorgia?Becausetheycouldnotgetthevoicestosingthem:thatwaswhy。

  `O,well,’saidMrBartellD’Arcy,`Ipresumethereareasgoodsingerstodayastherewerethen。’

  `Wherearethey?’askedMrBrownedefiantly。

  `InLondon,Paris,Milan,’saidMrBartellD’Arcywarmly。`IsupposeCaruso,forexample,isquiteasgood,ifnotbetterthananyofthemenyouhavementioned。’

  `Maybeso,’saidMrBrowne。`ButImaytellyouIdoubtitstrongly。’

  `O,I’dgiveanythingtohearCarusosing,’saidMaryJane。

  `Forme,’saidAuntKate,whohadbeenpickingabone,`therewasonlyonetenor。Topleaseme,Imean。ButIsupposenoneofyoueverheardofhim。’

  `Whowashe,MissMorkan?’askedMrBartellD’Arcypolitely。

  `Hisname,’saidAuntKate,`wasParkinson。IheardhimwhenhewasinhisprimeandIthinkhehadthenthepuresttenorvoicethatwaseverputintoaman’sthroat。’

  `Strange,’saidMrBartellD’Arcy。`Ineverevenheardofhim。’

  `Yes,yes,MissMorkanisright,’saidMrBrowne。`IrememberhearingoldParkinson,buthe’stoofarbackforme。’

  `Abeautiful,pure,sweet,mellowEnglishtenor,’saidAuntKatewithenthusiasm。

  Gabrielhavingfinished,thehugepuddingwastransferredtothetable。

  Theclatterofforksandspoonsbeganagain。Gabriel’swifeservedoutspoonfulsofthepuddingandpassedtheplatesdownthetable。MidwaydowntheywereheldupbyMaryJane,whoreplenishedthemwithraspberryororangejellyorwithblancmangeandjam。ThepuddingwasofAuntJulia’smaking,andshereceivedpraisesforitfromallquarters。Sheherselfsaidthatitwasnotquitebrownenough。

  `Well,Ihope,MissMorkan,’saidMrBrowne,`thatI’mbrownenoughforyoubecause,youknow,I’mallBrown。’

  Allthegentlemen,exceptGabriel,atesomeofthepuddingoutofcomplimenttoAuntJulia。AsGabrielneveratesweetstheceleryhadbeenleftforhim。FreddyMalinsalsotookastalkofceleryandateitwithhispudding。

  Hehadbeentoldthatcelerywasacapitalthingforthebloodandhewasjustthenunderdoctor’scare。MrsMalins,whohadbeensilentallthroughthesupper,saidthathersonwasgoingdowntoMountMellerayinaweekorso。ThetablethenspokeofMountMelleray,howbracingtheairwasdownthere,howhospitablethemonkswereandhowtheyneveraskedforapenny-piecefromtheirguests。

  `Anddoyoumeantosay,’askedMrBrowneincredulously,`thatachapcangodownthereandputupthereasifitwereahotelandliveonthefatofthelandandthencomeawaywithoutpayinganything?’

  `O,mostpeoplegivesomedonationtothemonasterywhentheyleave,’

  saidMaryJane。

  `IwishwehadaninstitutionlikethatinourChurch,’saidMrBrownecandidly。

  Hewasastonishedtohearthatthemonksneverspoke,gotupattwointhemorningandsleptintheircoffins。Heaskedwhattheydiditfor。

  `That’stheruleoftheorder,’saidAuntKatefirmly。

  `Yes,butwhy?’askedMrBrowne。

  AuntKaterepeatedthatitwastherule,thatwasall。MrBrownestillseemednottounderstand。FreddyMalinsexplainedtohim,asbesthecould,thatthemonksweretryingtomakeupforthesinscommittedbyallthesinnersintheoutsideworld。Theexplanationwasnotveryclear,forMrBrownegrinnedandsaid:

  `Ilikethatideaverymuch,butwouldn’tacomfortablespringbeddothemaswellasacoffin?’

  `Thecoffin,’saidMaryJane,`istoremindthemoftheirlastend。’

  Asthesubjecthadgrownlugubriousitwasburiedinasilenceofthetable,duringwhichMrsMalinscouldbeheardsayingtoherneighbourinanindistinctundertone:

  `Theyareverygoodmen,themonks,verypiousmen。’

  Theraisinsandalmondsandfigsandapplesandorangesandchocolatesandsweetswerenowpassedaboutthetable,andAuntJuliainvitedallthegueststohaveeitherportorsherry。AtfirstMrBartellD’Arcyrefusedtotakeeither,butoneofhisneighboursnudgedhimandwhisperedsomethingtohim,uponwhichheallowedhisglasstobefilled。Graduallyasthelastglasseswerebeingfilledtheconversationceased。Apausefollowed,brokenonlybythenoiseofthewineandbyunsettlingofchairs。TheMissesMorkan,allthree,lookeddownatthetablecloth。Someonecoughedonceortwice,andthenafewgentlemenpattedthetablegentlyasasignalforsilence。ThesilencecameandGabrielpushedbackhischairandstoodup。

  Thepattingatoncegrewlouderinencouragementandthenceasedaltogether。

  Gabrielleanedhistentremblingfingersonthetableclothandsmilednervouslyatthecompany。Meetingarowofupturnedfacesheraisedhiseyestothechandelier。Thepianowasplayingawaltztuneandhecouldheartheskirtssweepingagainstthedrawing-roomdoor。People,perhaps,werestandinginthesnowonthequayoutside,gazingupatthelightedwindowsandlisteningtothewaltzmusic。Theairwaspurethere。Inthedistancelaythepark,wherethetreeswereweightedwithsnow。TheWellingtonMonumentworeagleamingcapofsnowthatflashedwestwardsoverthewhitefieldofFifteenAcres。

  Hebegan:

  `LadiesandGentlemen,`Ithasfallentomylotthisevening,asinyearspast,toperformaverypleasingtask,butataskforwhichIamafraidmypoorpowersasaspeakerarealltooinadequate。’

  `No,no!’saidMrBrowne。

  `But,howeverthatmaybe,Icanonlyaskyoutonighttotakethewillforthedeed,andtolendmeyourattentionforafewmomentswhileIendeavourtoexpresstoyouinwordswhatmyfeelingsareonthisoccasion。

  `LadiesandGentlemen,itisnotthefirsttimethatwehavegatheredtogetherunderthishospitableroof,aroundthishospitableboard。Itisnotthefirsttimethatwehavebeentherecipients-orperhaps,Ihadbettersay,thevictims-ofthehospitalityofcertaingoodladies。’

  Hemadeacircleintheairwithhisarmandpaused。EveryonelaughedorsmiledatAuntKateandAuntJuliaandMaryJane,whoallturnedcrimsonwithpleasure。Gabrielwentonmoreboldly:

  `Ifeelmorestronglywitheveryrecurringyearthatourcountryhasnotraditionwhichdoesitsomuchhonourandwhichitshouldguardsojealouslyasthatofitshospitality。Itisatraditionthatisuniqueasfarasmyexperiencegoes(andIhavevisitednotafewplacesabroad)

  amongthemodernnations。Somewouldsay,perhaps,thatwithusitisratherafailingthananythingtobeboastedof。Butgrantedeventhat,itis,tomymind,aprincelyfailing,andonethatItrustwilllongbecultivatedamongus。Ofonething,atleast,Iamsure。Aslongasthisoneroofsheltersthegoodladiesaforesaid-andIwishfrommyheartitmaydosoformanyandmanyalongyeartocome-thetraditionofgenuinewarm-heartedcourteousIrishhospitality,whichourforefathershavehandeddowntousandwhichwemusthanddowntoourdescendants,isstillaliveamongus。’

  Aheartymurmurofassentranroundthetable。ItshotthroughGabriel’smindthatMissIvorswasnotthereandthatshehadgoneawaydiscourteously:

  andhesaidwithconfidenceinhimself:

  `LadiesandGentlemen,`Anewgenerationisgrowingupinourmidst,agenerationactuatedbynewideasandnewprinciples。Itisseriousandenthusiasticforthesenewideasanditsenthusiasm,evenwhenitismisdirected,is,Ibelieve,inthemainsincere。Butwearelivinginascepticaland,ifImayusethephrase,athought-tormentedage:andsometimesIfearthatthisnewgeneration,educatedorhyper-educatedasitis,willlackthosequalitiesofhumanity,ofhospitality,ofkindlyhumourwhichbelongedtoanolderday。Listeningtonighttothenamesofallthosegreatsingersofthepastitseemedtome,Imustconfess,thatwewerelivinginalessspaciousage。Thosedaysmight,withoutexaggeration,becalledspaciousdays:andiftheyaregonebeyondrecall,letushope,atleast,thatingatheringssuchasthisweshallstillspeakofthemwithprideandaffection,stillcherishinourheartsthememoryofthosedeadandgonegreatoneswhosefametheworldwillnotwillinglyletdie。’

  `Hear,hear!’saidMrBrowneloudly。

  `Butyet,’continuedGabriel,hisvoicefallingintoasofterinflection,`therearealwaysingatheringssuchasthissadderthoughtsthatwillrecurtoourminds:thoughtsofthepast,ofyouth,ofchanges,ofabsentfacesthatwemissheretonight。Ourpaththroughlifeisstrewnwithmanysuchsadmemories:andwerewetobrooduponthemalwayswecouldnotfindthehearttogoonbravelywithourworkamongtheliving。Wehaveallofuslivingdutiesandlivingaffectionswhichclaim,andrightlyclaim,ourstrenuousendeavours。

  `Therefore,Iwillnotlingeronthepast。Iwillnotletanygloomymoralizingintrudeuponusheretonight。Herewearegatheredtogetherforabriefmomentfromthebustleandrushofoureverydayroutine。Wearemethereasfriends,inthespiritofgood-fellowship,ascolleagues,also,toacertainextent,inthetruespiritofcamaraderie,andastheguestsof-whatshallIcallthem?-theThreeGracesoftheDublinmusicalworld。’

  Thetableburstintoapplauseandlaughteratthisallusion。AuntJuliavainlyaskedeachofherneighboursinturntotellherwhatGabrielhadsaid。

  `HesayswearetheThreeGraces,AuntJulia,’saidMaryJane。

  AuntJuliadidnotunderstand,butshelookedup,smilingatGabriel,whocontinuedinthesamevein:

  `LadiesandGentlemen,`IwillnotattempttoplaytonightthepartthatParisplayedonanotheroccasion。Iwillnotattempttochoosebetweenthem。Thetaskwouldbeaninvidiousoneandonebeyondmypoorpowers。ForwhenIviewtheminturn,whetheritbeourchiefhostessherself,whosegoodheart,whosetoogoodheart,hasbecomeabywordwithallwhoknowher;orhersister,whoseemstobegiftedwithperennialyouthandwhosesingingmusthavebeenasurpriseandarevelationtousalltonight;or,lastbutnotleast,whenIconsiderouryoungesthostess,talented,cheerful,hardworkingandthebestofnieces,Iconfess,LadiesandGentlemen,thatIdonotknowtowhichofthemIshouldawardtheprize。’

  Gabrielglanceddownathisauntsand,seeingthelargesmileonAuntJulia’sfaceandthetearswhichhadrisentoAuntKate’seyes,hastenedtohisclose。Heraisedhisglassofportgallantly,whileeverymemberofthecompanyfingeredaglassexpectantly,andsaidloudly:

  `Letustoastthemallthreetogether。Letusdrinktotheirhealth,wealth,longlife,happiness,andprosperityandmaytheylongcontinuetoholdtheproudandself-wonpositionwhichtheyholdintheirprofessionandthepositionofhonourandaffectionwhichtheyholdinourhearts。’

  Alltheguestsstoodup,glassinhand,andturningtowardsthethreeseatedladies,sanginunison,withMrBrowneasleader:Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Whichnobodycandeny。AuntKatewasmakingfrankuseofherhandkerchiefandevenAuntJuliaseemedmoved。FreddyMalinsbeattimewithhispudding-forkandthesingersturnedtowardsoneanother,asifinmelodiousconference,whiletheysangwithemphasis:Unlesshetellsalie,Unlesshetellsalie。Then,turningoncemoretowardstheirhostesses,theysang:Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Fortheyarejollygayfellows,Whichnobodycandeny。Theacclamationwhichfollowedwastakenupbeyondthedoorofthesupper-roombymanyoftheotherguestsandrenewedtimeaftertime,FreddyMalinsactingasofficerwithhisforkonhigh。

  ThepiercingmorningaircameintothehallwheretheywerestandingsothatAuntKatesaid:

  `Closethedoor,somebody。MrsMalinswillgetherdeathofcold。’

  `Browneisoutthere,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane。

  `Browneiseverywhere,’saidAuntKate,loweringhervoice。

  MaryJanelaughedathertone。

  `Really,’shesaidarchly,`heisveryattentive。’

  `Hehasbeenlaidonherelikethegas,’saidAuntKateinthesametone,`allduringtheChristmas。’

  Shelaughedherselfthistimegood-humouredlyandthenaddedquickly:

  `Buttellhimtocomein,MaryJane,andclosethedoor。Ihopetogoodnesshedidn’thearme。’

  Atthatmomentthehall-doorwasopenedandMrBrownecameinfromthedoorstep,laughingasifhisheartwouldbreak。Hewasdressedinalonggreenovercoatwithmockastrakhancuffsandcollarandworeonhisheadanovalfurcap。Hepointeddownthesnow-coveredquayfromwherethesoundofshrillprolongedwhistlingwasbornein。

  `TeddywillhaveallthecabsinDublinout,’hesaid。

  Gabrieladvancedfromthelittlepantrybehindtheoffice,strugglingintohisovercoatand,lookingroundthehall,said。

  `Grettanotdownyet?’

  `She’sgettingonherthings,Gabriel,’saidAuntKate。

  `Who’splayingupthere?’askedGabriel。

  `Nobody。They’reallgone。’

  `Ono,AuntKate,’saidMaryJane。`BartellD’ArcyandMissO’Callaghanaren’tgoneyet。’

  `Someoneisfoolingatthepianoanyhow,’saidGabriel。

  MaryJaneglancedatGabrielandMrBrowneandsaidwithashiver:

  `Itmakesmefeelcoldtolookatyoutwogentlemenmuffleduplikethat。Iwouldn’tliketofaceyourjourneyhomeatthishour。’

  `I’dlikenothingbetterthisminute,’saidMrBrownestoutly,`thanarattlingfinewalkinthecountryorafastdrivewithagoodspankinggoerbetweentheshafts。’

  `Weusedtohaveaverygoodhorseandtrapathome,’saidAuntJulia,sadly。

  `Thenever-to-be-forgottenJohnny,’saidMaryJane,laughing。

  AuntKateandGabriellaughedtoo。

  `Why,whatwaswonderfulaboutJohnny?’askedMrBrowne。

  `ThelatelamentedPatrickMorkan,ourgrandfather,thatis,’explainedGabriel,`commonlyknowninhislateryearsastheoldgentleman,wasaglue-boiler。’

  `O,now,Gabriel,’saidAuntKate,laughing,`hehadastarchmill。’

  `Well,glueorstarch,’saidGabriel,`theoldgentlemanhadahorsebythenameofJohnny。AndJohnnyusedtoworkintheoldgentleman’smill,walkingroundandroundinordertodrivethemill。Thatwasallverywell;

  butnowcomesthetragicpartaboutJohnny。Onefinedaytheoldgentlemanthoughthe’dliketodriveoutwiththequalitytoamilitaryreviewinthepark。’

  `TheLordhavemercyonhissoul,’saidAuntKate,compassionately。

  `Amen,’saidGabriel。`Sotheoldgentleman,asIsaid,harnessedJohnnyandputonhisverybesttallhatandhisverybeststockcollaranddroveoutingrandstylefromhisancestralmansionsomewherenearBackLane,Ithink。’

  Everyonelaughed,evenMrsMalins,atGabriel’smanner,andAuntKatesaid:

  `O,now,Gabriel,hedidn’tliveinBackLane,really。Onlythemillwasthere。’

  `Outfromthemansionofhisforefathers,’continuedGabriel,`hedrovewithJohnny。AndeverythingwentonbeautifullyuntilJohnnycameinsightofKingBilly’sstatue:andwhetherhefellinlovewiththehorseKingBillysitsonorwhetherhethoughthewasbackagaininthemill,anywayhebegantowalkroundthestatue。’

  Gabrielpacedinacircleroundthehallinhisgoloshesamidthelaughteroftheothers。

  `Roundandroundhewent,’saidGabriel,`andtheoldgentleman,whowasaverypompousoldgentleman,washighlyindignant。\"Goon,sir!Whatdoyoumean,sir?Johnny!Johnny!Mostextraordinaryconduct!Can’tunderstandthehorse!\"’

  ThepealsoflaughterwhichfollowedGabriel’simitationoftheincidentwereinterruptedbyaresoundingknockatthehall-door。MaryJanerantoopenitandletinFreddyMalins。FreddyMalins,withhishatwellbackonhisheadandhisshouldershumpedwithcold,waspuffingandsteamingafterhisexertions。

  `Icouldonlygetonecab,’hesaid。

  `O,we’llfindanotheralongthequay,’saidGabriel。

  `Yes,’saidAuntKate。`BetternotkeepMrsMalinsstandinginthedraught。’

  MrsMalinswashelpeddownthefrontstepsbyhersonandMrBrowneand,aftermanymanoeuvres,hoistedintothecab。FreddyMalinsclamberedinafterherandspentalongtimesettlingherontheseat,MrBrownehelpinghimwithadvice。AtlastshewassettledcomfortablyandFreddyMalinsinvitedMrBrowneintothecab。Therewasagooddealofconfusedtalk,andthenMrBrownegotintothecab。Thecabmansettledhisrugoverhisknees,andbentdownfortheaddress。TheconfusiongrewgreaterandthecabmanwasdirecteddifferentlybyFreddyMalinsandMrBrowne,eachofwhomhadhisheadoutthroughawindowofthecab。ThedifficultywastoknowwheretodropMrBrownealongtheroute,andAuntKate,AuntJulia,andMaryJanehelpedthediscussionfromthedoorstepwithcross-directionsandcontradictionsandabundanceoflaughter。AsforFreddyMalinshewasspeechlesswithlaughter。Hepoppedhisheadinandoutofthewindoweverymomenttothegreatdangerofhishat,andtoldhismotherhowthediscussionwasprogressing,tillatlastMrBrowneshoutedtothebewilderedcabmanabovethedinofeverybody’slaughter:

  `DoyouknowTrinityCollege?’

  `Yes,sir,’saidthecabman。

  `Well,drivebangupagainstTrinityCollegegates,’saidMrBrowne,`andthenwe’lltellyouwheretogo。Youunderstandnow?’

  `Yes,sir,’saidthecabman。

  `MakelikeabirdforTrinityCollege。’

  `Right,sir,’saidthecabman。

  Thehorsewaswhippedupandthecabrattledoffalongthequayamidachorusoflaughterandadieux。

  Gabrielhadnotgonetothedoorwiththeothers。Hewasinadarkpartofthehallgazingupthestaircase。Awomanwasstandingnearthetopofthefirstflight,intheshadowalso。Hecouldnotseeherfacebuthecouldseetheterra-cottaandsalmon-pinkpanelsofherskirtwhichtheshadowmadeappearblackandwhite。Itwashiswife。Shewasleaningonthebanisters,listeningtosomething。Gabrielwassurprisedatherstillnessandstrainedhiseartolistenalso。Buthecouldhearlittlesavethenoiseoflaughteranddisputeonthefrontsteps,afewchordsstruckonthepianoandafewnotesofaman’svoicesinging。

  Hestoodstillinthegloomofthehall,tryingtocatchtheairthatthevoicewassingingandgazingupathiswife。Therewasgraceandmysteryinherattitudeasifshewereasymbolofsomething。Heaskedhimselfwhatisawomanstandingonthestairsintheshadow,listeningtodistantmusic,asymbolof。Ifhewereapainterhewouldpaintherinthatattitude。

  Herbluefelthatwouldshowoffthebronzeofherhairagainstthedarknessandthedarkpanelsofherskirtwouldshowoffthelightones。DistantMusichewouldcallthepictureifhewereapainter。

  Thehall-doorwasclosed,andAuntKate,AuntJulia,andMaryJanecamedownthehall,stilllaughing。

  `Well,isn’tFreddyterrible?’saidMaryJane。`He’sreallyterrible。’

  Gabrielsaidnothing,butpointedupthestairstowardswherehiswifewasstanding。Nowthatthehall-doorwasclosedthevoiceandthepianocouldbeheardmoreclearly。Gabrielhelduphishandforthemtobesilent。

  ThesongseemedtobeintheoldIrishtonalityandthesingerseemeduncertainbothofhiswordsandofhisvoice。Thevoice,madeplaintivebydistanceandbythesinger’shoarseness,faintlyilluminatedthecadenceoftheairwithwordsexpressinggrief:O,therainfallsonmyheavylocksAndthedewwetsmyskin,Mybabeliescold……`O,’exclaimedMaryJane。`It’sBartellD’Arcysinging,andhewouldn’tsingallthenight。O,I’llgethimtosingasongbeforehegoes。’

  `O,do,MaryJane,’saidAuntKate。

  MaryJanebrushedpasttheothersandrantothestaircase,butbeforeshereacheditthesingingstoppedandthepianowasclosedabruptly。

  `O,whatapity!’shecried。`Ishecomingdown,Gretta?’

  Gabrielheardhiswifeansweryesandsawhercomedowntowardsthem。

  AfewstepsbehindherwereMrBartellD’ArcyandMissO’Callaghan。

  `O,MrD’Arcy,’criedMaryJane,`it’sdownrightmeanofyoutobreakofflikethatwhenwewereallinraptureslisteningtoyou。’

  `Ihavebeenathimalltheevening,’saidMissO’Callaghan,`andMrsConroy,too,andhetoldushehadadreadfulcoldandcouldn’tsing。’

  `O,MrD’Arcy,’saidAuntKate,`nowthatwasagreatfibtotell。’

  `Can’tyouseethatI’mashoarseasacrow?’saidMrD’Arcyroughly。

  Hewentintothepantryhastilyandputonhisovercoat。Theothers,takenbackbyhisrudespeech,couldfindnothingtosay。AuntKatewrinkledherbrowsandmadesignstotheotherstodropthesubject。MrD’Arcystoodswathinghisneckcarefullyandfrowning。

  `It’stheweather,’saidAuntJulia,afterapause。

  `Yes,everybodyhascolds,’saidAuntKatereadily,`everybody。’

  `Theysay,’saidMaryJane,`wehaven’thadsnowlikeitforthirtyyears,andIreadthismorninginthenewspapersthatthesnowisgeneralalloverIreland。’

  `Ilovethelookofsnow,’saidAuntJuliasadly。

  `SodoI,’saidMissO’Callaghan。`IthinkChristmasisneverreallyChristmasunlesswehavethesnowontheground。’

  `ButpoorMrD’Arcydoesn’tlikethesnow,’saidAuntKate,smiling。

  MrD’Arcycamefromthepantry,fullyswathedandbuttoned,andinarepentanttonetoldthemthehistoryofhiscold。Everyonegavehimadviceandsaiditwasagreatpityandurgedhimtobeverycarefulofhisthroatinthenightair。Gabrielwatchedhiswife,whodidnotjoinintheconversation。

  Shewasstandingrightunderthedustyfanlightandtheflameofthegaslituptherichbronzeofherhair,whichhehadseenherdryingatthefireafewdaysbefore。Shewasinthesameattitudeandseemedunawareofthetalkabouther。AtlastsheturnedtowardsthemandGabrielsawthattherewascolouronhercheeksandthathereyeswereshining。Asuddentideofjoywentleapingoutofhisheart。

  `MrD’Arcy,’shesaid,`whatisthenameofthatsongyouweresinging?’

  `It’scalled\"TheLassofAughrim\",’saidMrD’Arcy,`butIcouldn’trememberitproperly。Why?Doyouknowit?’

  \"`TheLassofAughrim\",’sherepeated。`Icouldn’tthinkofthename。’

  `It’saveryniceair,’saidMaryJane。`I’msorryyouwerenotinvoicetonight。’

  `Now,MaryJane,’saidAuntKate,`don’tannoyMrD’Arcy。Iwon’thavehimannoyed。’

  Seeingthatallwerereadytostartsheshepherdedthemtothedoor,wheregoodnightwassaid:

  `Well,goodnight,AuntKate,andthanksforthepleasantevening。’

  `Goodnight,Gabriel。Goodnight,Gretta!’

  `Goodnight,AuntKate,andthankseversomuch。Goodnight,AuntJulia。’

  `O,goodnight,Gretta,Ididn’tseeyou。’

  `Goodnight,MrD’Arcy。Goodnight,MissO’Callaghan。’

  `Goodnight,MissMorkan。’

  `Goodnight,again。’

  `Goodnight,all。Safehome。’

  `Goodnight。Goodnight。’

  Themorningwasstilldark。Adull,yellowlightbroodedoverthehousesandtheriver;andtheskyseemedtobedescending。Itwasslushyunderfoot,andonlystreaksandpatchesofsnowlayontheroofs,ontheparapetsofthequayandonthearearailings。Thelampswerestillburningredlyinthemurkyairand,acrosstheriver,thepalaceoftheFourCourtsstoodoutmenacinglyagainsttheheavysky。

  ShewaswalkingonbeforehimwithMrBartellD’Arcy,hershoesinabrownparceltuckedunderonearmandherhandsholdingherskirtupfromtheslush。Shehadnolongeranygraceofattitude,butGabriel’seyeswerestillbrightwithhappiness。Thebloodwentboundingalonghisveinsandthethoughtswentriotingthroughhisbrain,proud,joyful,tender,valorous。

  Shewaswalkingonbeforehimsolightlyandsoerectthathelongedtorunafterhernoiselessly,catchherbytheshouldersandsaysomethingfoolishandaffectionateintoherear。Sheseemedtohimsofrailthathelongedtodefendheragainstsomethingandthentobealonewithher。

  Momentsoftheirsecretlifetogetherburstlikestarsuponhismemory。

  Aheliotropeenvelopewaslyingbesidehisbreakfast-cupandhewascaressingitwithhishand。Birdsweretwitteringintheivyandthesunnywebofthecurtainwasshimmeringalongthefloor:hecouldnoteatforhappiness。

  Theywerestandingonthecrowdedplatformandhewasplacingaticketinsidethewarmpalmofherglove。Hewasstandingwithherinthecold,lookinginthroughagratedwindowatamanmakingbottlesinaroaringfurnace。Itwasverycold。Herface,fragrantinthecoldair,wasquiteclosetohis,andsuddenlyhecalledouttothemanatthefurnace:

  `Isthefirehot,sir?’

  Butthemancouldno!hearwiththenoiseofthefurnace。Itwasjustaswell。Hemighthaveansweredrudely。

  Awaveofyetmoretenderjoyescapedfromhisheartandwentcoursinginwarmfloodalonghisarteries。Likethetenderfireofstarsmomentsoftheirlifetogether,thatnooneknewoforwouldeverknowof,brokeuponandilluminedhismemory。Helongedtorecalltoherthosemoments,tomakeherforgettheyearsoftheirdullexistencetogetherandrememberonlytheirmomentsofecstasy。Fortheyears,hefelt,hadnotquenchedhissoulorhers。Theirchildren,hiswriting,herhouseholdcareshadnotquenchedalltheirsouls’tenderfire。Inoneletterthathehadwrittentoherthenhehadsaid:`Whyisitthatwordsliketheseseemtomesodullandcold?Isitbecausethereisnowordtenderenoughtobeyourname?’

  Likedistantmusicthesewordsthathehadwrittenyearsbeforewerebornetowardshimfromthepast。Helongedtobealonewithher。Whentheothershadgoneaway,whenheandshewereintheroomintheirhotel,thentheywouldbealonetogether。Hewouldcallhersoftly:

  `Gretta!’

  Perhapsshewouldnothearatonce:shewouldbeundressing。Thensomethinginhisvoicewouldstrikeher。Shewouldturnandlookathim……

  AtthecornerofWinetavernStreettheymetacab。Hewasgladofitsrattlingnoiseasitsavedhimfromconversation。Shewaslookingoutofthewindowandseemedtired。Theothersspokeonlyafewwords,pointingoutsomebuildingorstreet。Thehorsegallopedalongwearilyunderthemurkymorningsky,dragginghisoldrattlingboxafterhisheels,andGabrielwasagaininacabwithher,gallopingtocatchtheboat,gallopingtotheirhoneymoon。

  AsthecabdroveacrossO’ConnellBridgeMissO’Callaghansaid:

  `TheysayyounevercrossO’ConnellBridgewithoutseeingawhitehorse。’

  `Iseeawhitemanthistime,’saidGabriel。

  `Where?’askedMrBartellD’Arcy。

  Gabrielpointedtothestatue,onwhichlaypatchesofsnow。Thenhenoddedfamiliarlytoitandwavedhishand。

  `Goodnight,Dan,’hesaidgaily。

  Whenthecabdrewupbeforethehotel,Gabrieljumpedoutand,inspiteofMrBartellD’Arcy’sprotest,paidthedriver。Hegavethemanashillingoverhisfare。Themansalutedandsaid:

  `AprosperousNewYeartoyou,sir。’

  `Thesametoyou,’saidGabrielcordially。

  Sheleanedforamomentonhisarmingettingoutofthecabandwhilestandingatthekerb-stone,biddingtheothersgoodnight。Sheleanedlightlyonhisarm,aslightlyaswhenshehaddancedwithhimafewhoursbefore。

  Hehadfeltproudandhappythen,happythatshewashis,proudofhergraceandwifelycarriage。Butnow,afterthekindlingagainofsomanymemories,thefirsttouchofherbody,musicalandstrangeandperfumed,sentthroughhimakeenpangoflust。Undercoverofhersilencehepressedherarmcloselytohisside,and,astheystoodatthehoteldoor,hefeltthattheyhadescapedfromtheirlivesandduties,escapedfromhomeandfriendsandrunawaytogetherwithwildandradiantheartstoanewadventure。

  Anoldmanwasdozinginagreathoodedchairinthehall。Helitacandleintheofficeandwentbeforethemtothestairs。Theyfollowedhiminsilence,theirfeetfallinginsoftthudsonthethicklycarpetedstairs。Shemountedthestairsbehindtheporter,herheadbowedintheascent,herfrailshoulderscurvedaswithaburden,herskirtgirttightlyabouther。Hecouldhaveflunghisarmsaboutherhipsandheldherstill,forhisarmsweretremblingwithdesiretoseizeherandonlythestressofhisnailsagainstthepalmsofhishandsheldthewildimpulseofhisbodyincheck。Theporterhaltedonthestairstosettlehisgutteringcandle。Theyhalted,too,onthestepsbelowhim。InthesilenceGabrielcouldhearthefallingofmoltenwaxintothetrayandthethumpingofhisownheartagainsthisribs。

  Theporterledthemalongacorridorandopenedadoor。Thenhesethisunstablecandledownonatoilet-tableandaskedatwhathourtheyweretobecalledinthemorning。

  `Eight,’saidGabriel。

  Theporterpointedtothetapoftheelectric-lightandbeganamutteredapology,butGabrielcuthimshort。

  `Wedon’twantanylight。Wehavelightenoughfromthestreet。AndIsay,’headded,pointingtothecandle,`youmightremovethathandsomearticle,likeagoodman。’

  Theportertookuphiscandleagain,butslowly,forhewassurprisedbysuchanovelidea。Thenhemumbledgoodnightandwentout。Gabrielshotthelockto。

  Aghastlylightfromthestreetlamplayinalongshaftfromonewindowtothedoor。Gabrielthrewhisovercoatandhatonacouchandcrossedtheroomtowardsthewindow。Helookeddownintothestreetinorderthathisemotionmightcalmalittle。Thenheturnedandleanedagainstachestofdrawerswithhisbacktothelight。Shehadtakenoffherhatandcloakandwasstandingbeforealargeswingingmirror,unhookingherwaist。Gabrielpausedforafewmoments,watchingher,andthensaid:

  `Gretta!’

  Sheturnedawayfromthemirrorslowlyandwalkedalongtheshaftoflighttowardshim。HerfacelookedsoseriousandwearythatthewordswouldnotpassGabriel’slips。No,itwasnotthemomentyet。

  `Youlookedtired,’hesaid。

  `Iamalittle,’sheanswered。

  `Youdon’tfeelillorweak?’

  `No,tired:that’sall。’

  Shewentontothewindowandstoodthere,lookingout。Gabrielwaitedagainandthen,fearingthatdiffidencewasabouttoconquerhim,hesaidabruptly:

  `Bytheway,Gretta!’

  `Whatisit?’

  `YouknowthatpoorfellowMalins?’hesaidquickly。

  `Yes。Whatabouthim?’

  `Well,poorfellow,be’sadecentsortofchap,afterall,’continuedGabrielinafalsevoice。`HegavemebackthatsovereignIlenthim,andIdidn’texpectit,really。It’sapityhewouldn’tkeepawayfromthatBrowne,becausehe’snotabadfellow,really。’

  Hewastremblingnowwithannoyance。Whydidsheseemsoabstracted?

  Hedidnotknowhowhecouldbegin。Wassheannoyed,too,aboutsomething?

  Ifshewouldonlyturntohimorcometohimofherownaccord!Totakeherasshewaswouldbebrutal。No,hemustseesomeardourinhereyesfirst。Helongedtobemasterofherstrangemood。

  `Whendidyoulendhimthepound?’sheasked,afterapause。

  GabrielstrovetorestrainhimselffrombreakingoutintobrutallanguageaboutthesottishMalinsandhispound。Helongedtocrytoherfromhissoul,tocrushherbodyagainsthis,toovermasterher。Buthesaid:

  `O,atChristmas,whenheopenedthatlittleChristmas-cardshop,inHenryStreet。’

  Hewasinsuchafeverofrageanddesirethathedidnothearhercomefromthewindow。Shestoodbeforehimforaninstant,lookingathimstrangely。

  Then,suddenlyraisingherselfontiptoeandrestingherhandslightlyonhisshoulders,shekissedhim。

  `Youareaverygenerousperson,Gabriel,’shesaid。

  Gabriel,tremblingwithdelightathersuddenkissandatthequaintnessofherphrase,puthishandsonherhairandbegansmoothingitback,scarcelytouchingitwithhisfingers。Thewashinghadmadeitfineandbrilliant。

  Hisheartwasbrimmingoverwithhappiness。Justwhenhewaswishingforitshehadcometohimofherownaccord。Perhapsherthoughtshadbeenrunningwithhis。Perhapsshehadfelttheimpetuousdesirethatwasinhim,andthentheyieldingmoodhadcomeuponher。Nowthatshehadfallentohimsoeasily,hewonderedwhyhehadbeensodiffident。

  Hestood,holdingherheadbetweenhishands。Then,slippingonearmswiftlyaboutherbodyanddrawinghertowardshim,hesaidsoftly:

  `Gretta,dear,whatareyouthinkingabout?’

  Shedidnotanswernoryieldwhollytohisarm。Hesaidagain,softly:

  `Tellmewhatitis,Gretta。IthinkIknowwhatisthematter。DoI

  know?’

  Shedidnotansweratonce。Thenshesaidinanoutburstoftears:

  `O,Iamthinkingaboutthatsong,\"TheLassofAughrim\"。’

  Shebrokeloosefromhimandrantothebedand,throwingherarmsacrossthebed-rail,hidherface。Gabrielstoodstock-stillforamomentinastonishmentandthenfollowedher。Ashepassedinthewayofthecheval-glasshecaughtsightofhimselfinfulllength,hisbroad,well-filledshirt-front,thefacewhoseexpressionalwayspuzzledhimwhenhesawitinamirror,andhisglimmeringgilt-rimmedeye-glasses。Hehaltedafewpacesfromherandsaid:

  `Whataboutthesong?Whydoesthatmakeyoucry?’

  Sheraisedherheadfromherarmsanddriedhereyeswiththebackofherhandlikeachild。Akindernotethanhehadintendedwentintohisvoice。

  `Why,Gretta?’heasked。

  `Iamthinkingaboutapersonlongagowhousedtosingthatsong。’

  `Andwhowasthepersonlongago?’askedGabriel,smiling。

  `ItwasapersonIusedtoknowinGalwaywhenIwaslivingwithmygrandmother,’shesaid。

  ThesmilepassedawayfromGabriel’sface。Adullangerbegantogatheragainatthebackofhismindandthedullfiresofhislustbegantoglowangrilyinhisveins。

  `Someoneyouwereinlovewith?’heaskedironically。

  `ItwasayoungboyIusedtoknow,’sheanswered,`namedMichaelFurey。

  Heusedtosingthatsong,\"TheLassofAughrim\"。Hewasverydelicate。’

  Gabrielwassilent。Hedidnotwishhertothinkthathewasinterestedinthisdelicateboy。

  `Icanseehimsoplainly,’shesaid,afteramoment。`Sucheyesashehad:big,darkeyes!Andsuchanexpressioninthem-anexpression!’

  `O,then,youwereinlovewithhim?’saidGabriel。

  `Iusedtogooutwalkingwithhim,’shesaid,`whenIwasinGalway。’

  AthoughtflewacrossGabriel’smind。

  `PerhapsthatwaswhyyouwantedtogotoGalwaywiththatIvorsgirl?’

  hesaidcoldly。

  Shelookedathimandaskedinsurprise:

  `Whatfor?’

  HereyesmadeGabrielfeelawkward。Heshruggedhisshouldersandsaid:

  `HowdoIknow?Toseehim,perhaps。’

  Shelookedawayfromhimalongtheshaftoflighttowardsthewindowinsilence。

  `Heisdead,’shesaidatlength。`Hediedwhenhewasonlyseventeen。

  Isn’titaterriblethingtodiesoyoungasthat?’

  `Whatwashe?’askedGabriel,stillironically。

  `Hewasinthegasworks,’shesaid。

  Gabrielfelthumiliatedbythefailureofhisironyandbytheevocationofthisfigurefromthedead,aboyinthegasworks。Whilehehadbeenfullofmemoriesoftheirsecretlifetogether,fulloftendernessandjoyanddesire,shehadbeencomparinghiminhermindwithanother。A

  shamefulconsciousnessofhisownpersonassailedhim。Hesawhimselfasaludicrousfigure,actingasapenny-boyforhisaunts,anervous,well-meaningsentimentalist,oratingtovulgariansandidealizinghisownclownishlusts,thepitiablefatuousfellowhehadcaughtaglimpseofinthemirror。Instinctivelyheturnedhisbackmoretothelightlestshemightseetheshamethatburneduponhisforehead。

  Hetriedtokeepuphistoneofcoldinterrogation,buthisvoicewhenhespokewashumbleandindifferent。

  `IsupposeyouwereinlovewiththisMichaelFurey,Gretta,’hesaid。

  `Iwasgreatwithhimatthattime,’shesaid。

  Hervoicewasveiledandsad。Gabriel,feelingnowhowvainitwouldbetotrytoleadherwhitherhehadpurposed,caressedoneofherhandsandsaid,alsosadly:

  `Andwhatdidhedieofsoyoung,Gretta?Consumption,wasit?’

  `Ithinkhediedforme,’sheanswered。

  AvagueterrorseizedGabrielatthisanswer,asif,atthathourwhenhehadhopedtotriumph,someimpalpableandvindictivebeingwascomingagainsthim,gatheringforcesagainsthiminitsvagueworld。Butheshookhimselffreeofitwithaneffortofreasonandcontinuedtocaressherhand。Hedidnotquestionheragain,forhefeltthatshewouldtellhimofherself。Herhandwaswarmandmoist:itdidnotrespondtohistouch,buthecontinuedtocaressitjustashehadcaressedherfirstlettertohimthatspringmorning。

  `Itwasinthewinter,’shesaid,`aboutthebeginningofthewinterwhenIwasgoingtoleavemygrandmother’sandcomeupheretotheconvent。

  AndhewasillatthetimeinhislodgingsinGalwayandwouldn’tbeletout,andhispeopleinOughterardwerewrittento。Hewasindecline,theysaid,orsomethinglikethat。Ineverknewrightly。’

  Shepausedforamomentandsighed。

  `Poorfellow,’shesaid。`Hewasveryfondofmeandhewassuchagentleboy。Weusedtogoouttogether,walking,youknow,Gabriel,likethewaytheydointhecountry。Hewasgoingtostudysingingonlyforhishealth。

  Hehadaverygoodvoice,poorMichaelFurey。’

  `Well;andthen?’askedGabriel。

  `AndthenwhenitcametothetimeformetoleaveGalwayandcomeuptotheconventhewasmuchworseandIwouldn’tbeletseehim,soIwrotehimalettersayingIwasgoinguptoDublinandwouldbebackinthesummer,andhopinghewouldbebetterthen。’

  Shepausedforamomenttogethervoiceundercontrol,andthenwenton:

  `ThenthenightbeforeIleft,Iwasinmygrandmother’shouseinNuns’

  Island,packingup,andIheardgravelthrownupagainstthewindow。ThewindowwassowetIcouldn’tsee,soIrandownstairsasIwasandslippedoutthebackintothegardenandtherewasthepoorfellowattheendofthegarden,shivering。’

  `Anddidyounottellhimtogoback?’askedGabriel。

  `Iimploredofhimtogohomeatonceandtoldhimhewouldgethisdeathintherain。Buthesaidhedidnotwanttolive。Icanseehiseyesaswellaswell!Hewasstandingattheendofthewallwheretherewasatree。’

  `Anddidhegohome?’askedGabriel。

  `Yes,hewenthome。AndwhenIwasonlyaweekintheconventhediedandhewasburiedinOughterard,wherehispeoplecamefrom。O,thedayIheardthat,thathewasdead!’

  Shestopped,chokingwithsobs,and,overcomebyemotion,flungherselffacedownwardonthebed,sobbinginthequilt。Gabrielheldherhandforamomentlonger,irresolutely,andthen,shyofintrudingonhergrief,letitfallgentlyandwalkedquietlytothewindow。

  Shewasfastasleep。

  Gabriel,leaningonhiselbow,lookedforafewmomentsunresentfullyonhertangledhairandhalf-openmouth,listeningtoherdeep-drawnbreath。

  Soshehadhadthatromanceinherlife:amanhaddiedforhersake。Ithardlypainedhimnowtothinkhowpooraparthe,herhusband,hadplayedinherlife。Hewatchedherwhilesheslept,asthoughheandshehadneverlivedtogetherasmanandwife。Hiscuriouseyesrestedlonguponherfaceandonherhair:and,ashethoughtofwhatshemusthavebeenthen,inthattimeofherfirstgirlishbeauty,astrange,friendlypityforherenteredhissoul。Hedidnotliketosayeventohimselfthatherfacewasnolongerbeautiful,butheknewthatitwasnolongerthefaceforwhichMichaelFureyhadbraveddeath。

  Perhapsshehadnottoldhimallthestory。Hiseyesmovedtothechairoverwhichshehadthrownsomeofherclothes。Apetticoatstringdangledtothefloor。Onebootstoodupright,itslimpupperfallendown:thefellowofitlayuponitsside。Hewonderedathisriotofemotionsofanhourbefore。Fromwhathaditproceeded?Fromhisaunt’ssupper,fromhisownfoolishspeech,fromthewineanddancing,themerry-makingwhensayinggoodnightinthehall,thepleasureofthewalkalongtheriverinthesnow。PoorAuntJulia!She,too,wouldsoonbeashadewiththeshadeofPatrickMorkanandhishorse。Hehadcaughtthathaggardlookuponherfaceforamomentwhenshewassinging`ArrayedfortheBridal’。Soon,perhaps,hewouldbesittinginthatsamedrawing-room,dressedinblack,hissilkhatonhisknees。TheblindswouldbedrawndownandAuntKatewouldbesittingbesidehim,cryingandblowinghernoseandtellinghimhowJuliahaddied。Hewouldcastaboutinhismindforsomewordsthatmightconsoleher,andwouldfindonlylameanduselessones。Yes,yes:

  thatwouldhappenverysoon。

  Theairoftheroomchilledhisshoulders。Hestretchedhimselfcautiouslyalongunderthesheetsandlaydownbesidehiswife。Onebyone,theywereallbecomingshades。Betterpassboldlyintothatotherworld,inthefullgloryofsomepassion,thanfadeandwitherdismallywithage。Hethoughtofhowshewholaybesidehimhadlockedinherheartforsomanyyearsthatimageofherlover’seyeswhenhehadtoldherthathedidnotwishtolive。

  GeneroustearsfilledGabriel’seyes。Hehadneverfeltlikethathimselftowardsanywoman,butheknewthatsuchafeelingmustbelove。Thetearsgatheredmorethicklyinhiseyesandinthepartialdarknessheimaginedhesawtheformofayoungmanstandingunderadrippingtree。Otherformswerenear。Hissoulhadapproachedthatregionwheredwellthevasthostsofthedead。Hewasconsciousof,butcouldnotapprehend,theirwaywardandflickeringexistence。Hisownidentitywasfadingoutintoagreyimpalpableworld:thesolidworlditself,whichthesedeadhadonetimerearedandlivedin,wasdissolvinganddwindling。

  Afewlighttapsuponthepanemadehimturntothewindow。Ithadbeguntosnowagain。Hewatchedsleepilytheflakes,silveranddark,fallingobliquelyagainstthelamplight。Thetimehadcomeforhimtosetoutonhisjourneywestward。Yes,thenewspaperswereright:snowwasgeneralalloverIreland。Itwasfallingoneverypartofthedarkcentralplain,onthetreelesshills,fallingsoftlyupontheBogofAllenand,fartherwestward,softlyfallingintothedarkmutinousShannonwaves。Itwasfalling,too,uponeverypartofthelonelychurchyardonthehillwhereMichaelFureylayburied。Itlaythicklydriftedonthecrookedcrossesandheadstones,onthespearsofthelittlegate,onthebarrenthorns。Hissoulswoonedslowlyasheheardthesnowfallingfaintlythroughtheuniverseandfaintlyfalling,likethedescentoftheirlastend,uponallthelivingandthedead。

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