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  AstoMr。NicholasB。,sub-lieutenantof1808,lieutenantof1813

  intheFrencharmy,andforashorttimeOfficierd’OrdonnanceofMarshalMarmont;afterwardcaptaininthe2dRegimentofMountedRiflesinthePolisharmy——suchasitexistedupto1830inthereducedkingdomestablishedbytheCongressofVienna——Imustsaythatfromallthatmoredistantpast,knowntometraditionallyandalittledevisu,andcalledoutbythewordsofthemanjustgoneaway,heremainsthemostincompletefigure。ItisobviousthatImusthaveseenhimin’64,foritiscertainthathewouldnothavemissedtheopportunityofseeingmymotherforwhathemusthaveknownwouldbethelasttime。Frommyearlyboyhoodtothisday,ifItrytocalluphisimage,asortofmistrisesbeforemyeyes,mistinwhichIperceivevaguelyonlyaneatlybrushedheadofwhitehair(whichisexceptionalinthecaseoftheB。family,whereitistheruleformentogobaldinabecomingmannerbeforethirty)andathin,curved,dignifiednose,afeatureinstrictaccordancewiththephysicaltraditionoftheB。family。Butitisnotbythesefragmentaryremainsofperishablemortalitythathelivesinmymemory。Iknew,ataveryearlyage,thatmygranduncleNicholasB。wasaKnightoftheLegionofHonourandthathehadalsothePolishCrossforvalourVirtutiMilitari。Theknowledgeofthesegloriousfactsinspiredinmeanadmiringveneration;yetitisnotthatsentiment,strongasitwas,whichresumesformetheforceandthesignificanceofhispersonality。Itisoverbornebyanotherandcompleximpressionofawe,compassion,andhorror。Mr。

  NicholasB。remainsformetheunfortunateandmiserable(butheroic)beingwhoonceuponatimehadeatenadog。

  ItisagoodfortyyearssinceIheardthetale,andtheeffecthasnotwornoffyet。Ibelievethisistheveryfirst,say,realistic,storyIheardinmylife;butallthesameIdon’tknowwhyIshouldhavebeensofrightfullyimpressed。OfcourseIknowwhatourvillagedogslooklike——butstill……No!Atthisveryday,recallingthehorrorandcompassionofmychildhood,IaskmyselfwhetherIamrightindisclosingtoacoldandfastidiousworldthatawfulepisodeinthefamilyhistory。Iaskmyself——isitright?——especiallyastheB。familyhadalwaysbeenhonourablyknowninawidecountrysideforthedelicacyoftheirtastesinthematterofeatinganddrinking。

  Butuponthewhole,andconsideringthatthisgastronomicaldegradationovertakingagallantyoungofficerliesreallyatthedooroftheGreatNapoleon,Ithinkthattocoveritupbysilencewouldbeanexaggerationofliteraryrestraint。Letthetruthstandhere。TheresponsibilityrestswiththeManofSt。

  HelenainviewofhisdeplorablelevityintheconductoftheRussiancampaign。ItwasduringthememorableretreatfromMoscowthatMr。NicholasB。,incompanyoftwobrotherofficers——astowhosemoralityandnaturalrefinementIknownothing——baggedadogontheoutskirtsofavillageandsubsequentlydevouredhim。AsfarasIcanremembertheweaponusedwasacavalrysabre,andtheissueofthesportingepisodewasrathermoreofamatteroflifeanddeaththanifithadbeenanencounterwithatiger。ApicketofCossackswassleepinginthatvillagelostinthedepthsofthegreatLithuanianforest。

  Thethreesportsmenhadobservedthemfromahiding-placemakingthemselvesverymuchathomeamongthehutsjustbeforetheearlywinterdarknesssetinatfouro’clock。Theyhadobservedthemwithdisgustand,perhaps,withdespair。Lateinthenighttherashcounselsofhungerovercamethedictatesofprudence。

  CrawlingthroughthesnowtheycreptuptothefenceofdrybrancheswhichgenerallyenclosesavillageinthatpartofLithuania。Whattheyexpectedtogetandinwhatmanner,andwhetherthisexpectationwasworththerisk,goodnessonlyknows。

  However,theseCossackparties,inmostcaseswanderingwithoutanofficer,wereknowntoguardthemselvesbadlyandoftennotatall。Inaddition,thevillagelyingatagreatdistancefromthelineofFrenchretreat,theycouldnotsuspectthepresenceofstragglersfromtheGrandArmy。Thethreeofficershadstrayedawayinablizzardfromthemaincolumnandhadbeenlostfordaysinthewoods,whichexplainssufficientlytheterriblestraitstowhichtheywerereduced。Theirplanwastotryandattracttheattentionofthepeasantsinthatoneofthehutswhichwasnearesttotheenclosure;butastheywerepreparingtoventureintotheveryjawsofthelion,sotospeak,adog(itismightystrangethattherewasbutone),acreaturequiteasformidableunderthecircumstancesasalion,begantobarkontheothersideofthefence……

  Atthisstageofthenarrative,whichIheardmanytimes(byrequest)fromthelipsofCaptainNicholasB。’ssister-in-law,mygrandmother,Iusedtotremblewithexcitement。

  Thedogbarked。Andifhehaddonenomorethanbark,threeofficersoftheGreatNapoleon’sarmywouldhaveperishedhonourablyonthepointsofCossacks’lances,orperchanceescapingthechasewouldhavedieddecentlyofstarvation。Butbeforetheyhadtimetothinkofrunningawaythatfatalandrevoltingdog,beingcarriedawaybytheexcessofthezeal,dashedoutthroughagapinthefence。Hedashedoutanddied。

  Hishead,Iunderstand,wasseveredatoneblowfromhisbody。I

  understandalsothatlateron,withinthegloomysolitudesofthesnow-ladenwoods,when,inashelteringhollow,afirehadbeenlitbytheparty,theconditionofthequarrywasdiscoveredtobedistinctlyunsatisfactory。Itwasnotthin——onthecontrary,itseemedunhealthilyobese;itsskinshowedbarepatchesofanunpleasantcharacter。However,theyhadnotkilledthatdogforthesakeofthepelt。Hewaslarge……Hewaseaten……

  Therestissilence……

  Asilenceinwhichasmallboyshuddersandsaysfirmly:

  \"Icouldnothaveeatenthatdog。\"

  Andhisgrandmotherremarkswithasmile:

  \"Perhapsyoudon’tknowwhatitistobehungry。\"

  Ihavelearnedsomethingofitsince。NotthatIhavebeenreducedtoeatdog。Ihavefedontheemblematicalanimal,which,inthelanguageofthevolatileGauls,iscalledlavacheenragee;Ihavelivedonancientsaltjunk,Iknowthetasteofshark,oftrepang,ofsnake,ofnondescriptdishescontainingthingswithoutaname——butoftheLithuanianvillagedog——never!

  IwishittobedistinctlyunderstoodthatitisnotI,butmygranduncleNicholas,ofthePolishlandedgentry,ChevalierdelaLegiond’Honneur,etc。,whoinhisyoungdays,hadeatentheLithuaniandog。

  Iwishhehadnot。Thechildishhorrorofthedeedclingsabsurdlytothegrizzledman。Iamperfectlyhelplessagainstit。Still,ifhereallyhadto,letuscharitablyrememberthathehadeatenhimonactiveservice,whilebearingupbravelyagainstthegreatestmilitarydisasterofmodernhistory,and,inamanner,forthesakeofhiscountry。Hehadeatenhimtoappeasehishunger,nodoubt,butalsoforthesakeofanunappeasableandpatrioticdesire,intheglowofagreatfaiththatlivesstill,andinthepursuitofagreatillusionkindledlikeafalsebeaconbyagreatmantoleadastraytheeffortofabravenation。

  Propatria!

  Lookedatinthatlight,itappearsasweetanddecorousmeal。

  Andlookedatinthesamelight,myowndietoflavacheenrageeappearsafatuousandextravagantformofself-indulgence;forwhyshouldI,thesonofalandwhichsuchmenasthesehaveturnedupwiththeirplowsharesandbedewedwiththeirblood,undertakethepursuitoffantasticmealsofsaltjunkandhardtackuponthewideseas?Onthekindestviewitseemsanunanswerablequestion。Alas!Ihavetheconvictionthattherearemenofunstainedrectitudewhoarereadytomurmurscornfullytheworddesertion。Thusthetasteofinnocentadventuremaybemadebittertothepalate。Thepartoftheinexplicableshouldbeallowedforinappraisingtheconductofmeninaworldwherenoexplanationisfinal。Nochargeoffaithlessnessoughttobelightlyuttered。Theappearancesofthisperishablelifearedeceptive,likeeverythingthatfallsunderthejudgmentofourimperfectsenses。Theinnervoicemayremaintrueenoughinitssecretcounsel。Thefidelitytoaspecialtraditionmaylastthroughtheeventsofanunrelatedexistence,followingfaithfully,too,thetracedwayofaninexplicableimpulse。

  Itwouldtaketoolongtoexplaintheintimateallianceofcontradictionsinhumannaturewhichmakesloveitselfwearattimesthedesperateshapeofbetrayal。Andperhapsthereisnopossibleexplanation。Indulgence——assomebodysaid——isthemostintelligentofallthevirtues。Iventuretothinkthatitisoneoftheleastcommon,ifnotthemostuncommonofall。I

  wouldnotimplybythisthatmenarefoolish——orevenmostmen。

  Farfromit。Thebarberandthepriest,backedbythewholeopinionofthevillage,condemnedjustlytheconductoftheingenioushidalgo,who,sallyingforthfromhisnativeplace,broketheheadofthemuleteer,puttodeathaflockofinoffensivesheep,andwentthroughverydolefulexperiencesinacertainstable。Godforbidthatanunworthychurlshouldescapemeritedcensurebyhangingontothestirrup-leatherofthesublimecaballero。Hiswasaverynoble,averyunselfishfantasy,fitfornothingexcepttoraisetheenvyofbasermortals。Butthereismorethanoneaspecttothecharmofthatexaltedanddangerousfigure。He,too,hadhisfrailties。Afterreadingsomanyromanceshedesirednaivelytoescapewithhisverybodyfromtheintolerablerealityofthings。Hewishedtomeet,eyetoeye,thevalorousgiantBrandabarbaran,LordofArabia,whosearmourismadeoftheskinofadragon,andwhoseshield,strappedtohisarm,isthegateofafortifiedcity。

  Oh,amiableandnaturalweakness!Oh,blessedsimplicityofagentleheartwithoutguile!Whowouldnotsuccumbtosuchaconsolingtemptation?Nevertheless,itwasaformofself-indulgence,andtheingenioushidalgoofLaManchawasnotagoodcitizen。Thepriestandthebarberwerenotunreasonableintheirstrictures。WithoutgoingsofarastheoldKingLouis-Philippe,whousedtosayinhisexile,\"Thepeopleareneverinfault\"——onemayadmitthattheremustbesomerighteousnessintheassentofawholevillage。Mad!Mad!Hewhokeptinpiousmeditationtheritualvigil-of-armsbythewellofaninnandkneltreverentlytobeknightedatdaybreakbythefat,slyrogueofalandlordhascomeverynearperfection。Heridesforth,hisheadencircledbyahalo——thepatronsaintofalllivesspoiledorsavedbytheirresistiblegraceofimagination。Buthewasnotagoodcitizen。

  Perhapsthatandnothingelsewasmeantbythewell-rememberedexclamationofmytutor。

  Itwasinthejollyyear1873,theverylastyearinwhichIhavehadajollyholiday。Therehavebeenidleyearsafterward,jollyenoughinawayandnotaltogetherwithouttheirlesson,butthisyearofwhichIspeakwastheyearofmylastschool-boyholiday。

  ThereareotherreasonswhyIshouldrememberthatyear,buttheyaretoolongtostateformallyinthisplace。Moreover,theyhavenothingtodowiththatholiday。WhathastodowiththeholidayisthatbeforethedayonwhichtheremarkwasmadewehadseenVienna,theUpperDanube,Munich,theFallsoftheRhine,theLakeofConstance,——infact,itwasamemorableholidayoftravel。OflatewehadbeentrampingslowlyuptheValleyoftheReuss。Itwasadelightfultime。Itwasmuchmorelikeastrollthanatramp。LandingfromaLakeofLucernesteamerinFluelen,wefoundourselvesattheendofthesecondday,withtheduskovertakingourleisurelyfootsteps,alittlewaybeyondHospenthal。Thisisnotthedayonwhichtheremarkwasmade:intheshadowsofthedeepvalleyandwiththehabitationsofmenleftsomewaybehind,ourthoughtsrannotupontheethicsofconduct,butuponthesimplerhumanproblemofshelterandfood。Theredidnotseemanythingofthekindinsight,andwewerethinkingofturningbackwhensuddenly,atabendoftheroad,wecameuponabuilding,ghostlyinthetwilight。

  AtthattimetheworkontheSt。GothardTunnelwasgoingon,andthatmagnificententerpriseofburrowingwasdirectlyresponsiblefortheunexpectedbuilding,standingallaloneupontheveryrootsofthemountains。Itwaslong,thoughnotbigatall;itwaslow;itwasbuiltofboards,withoutornamentation,inbarrack-hutstyle,withthewhitewindow-framesquiteflushwiththeyellowfaceofitsplainfront。Andyetitwasahotel;ithadevenaname,whichIhaveforgotten。Buttherewasnogoldlaceddoorkeeperatitshumbledoor。Aplainbutvigorousservant-girlansweredourinquiries,thenamanandwomanwhoownedtheplaceappeared。Itwasclearthatnotravellerswereexpected,orperhapsevendesired,inthisstrangehostelry,whichinitsseverestyleresembledthehousewhichsurmountstheunseaworthy-lookinghullsofthetoyNoah’sArks,theuniversalpossessionofEuropeanchildhood。However,itsroofwasnothingedanditwasnotfulltothebrimofslab-sidedandpaintedanimalsofwood。Eventhelivetouristanimalwasnowhereinevidence。Wehadsomethingtoeatinalong,narrowroomatoneendofalong,narrowtable,which,tomytiredperceptionandtomysleepyeyes,seemedasifitwouldtiltuplikeaseesawplank,sincetherewasnooneattheotherendtobalanceitagainstourtwodustyandtravel-stainedfigures。

  Thenwehastenedupstairstobedinaroomsmellingofpineplanks,andIwasfastasleepbeforemyheadtouchedthepillow。

  Inthemorningmytutor(hewasastudentoftheCracowUniversity)wokemeupearly,andasweweredressingremarked:

  \"Thereseemstobealotofpeoplestayinginthishotel。Ihaveheardanoiseoftalkinguptilleleveno’clock。\"Thisstatementsurprisedme;Ihadheardnonoisewhatever,havingsleptlikeatop。

  Wewentdown-stairsintothelongandnarrowdining-roomwithitslongandnarrowtable。Thereweretworowsofplatesonit。Atoneofthemanycurtainedwindowsstoodatall,bonymanwithabaldheadsetoffbyabunchofblackhairaboveeachear,andwithalong,blackbeard。Heglancedupfromthepaperhewasreadingandseemedgenuinelyastonishedatourintrusion。Byandbymoremencamein。Notoneofthemlookedlikeatourist。Notasinglewomanappeared。Thesemenseemedtoknoweachotherwithsomeintimacy,butIcannotsaytheywereaverytalkativelot。Thebald-headedmansatdowngravelyattheheadofthetable。Itallhadtheairofafamilyparty。Byandby,fromoneofthevigorousservant-girlsinnationalcostume,wediscoveredthattheplacewasreallyaboardinghouseforsomeEnglishengineersengagedattheworksoftheSt。GothardTunnel;

  andIcouldlistenmyfilltothesoundsoftheEnglishlanguage,asfarasitisusedatabreakfast-tablebymenwhodonotbelieveinwastingmanywordsonthemereamenitiesoflife。

  ThiswasmyfirstcontactwithBritishmankindapartfromthetouristkindseeninthehotelsofZurichandLucerne——thekindwhichhasnorealexistenceinaworkadayworld。Iknownowthatthebald-headedmanspokewithastrongScotchaccent。Ihavemetmanyofhiskindashoreandafloat。ThesecondengineerofthesteamerMavis,forinstance,oughttohavebeenhistwinbrother。Icannothelpthinkingthathereallywas,thoughforsomereasonofhisownheassuredmethatheneverhadatwinbrother。Anyway,thedeliberate,bald-headedScotwiththecoal-blackbeardappearedtomyboyisheyesaveryromanticandmysteriousperson。

  Weslippedoutunnoticed。Ourmapped-outrouteledovertheFurcaPasstowardtheRhoneGlacier,withthefurtherintentionoffollowingdownthetrendoftheHasliValley。Thesunwasalreadydecliningwhenwefoundourselvesonthetopofthepass,andtheremarkalludedtowaspresentlyuttered。

  Wesatdownbythesideoftheroadtocontinuetheargumentbegunhalfamileorsobefore。Iamcertainitwasanargument,becauseIrememberperfectlyhowmytutorarguedandhowwithoutthepowerofreplyIlistened,withmyeyesfixedobstinatelyontheground。Astirontheroadmademelookup——andthenIsawmyunforgettableEnglishman。Thereareacquaintancesoflateryears,familiars,shipmates,whomIrememberlessclearly。Hemarchedrapidlytowardtheeast(attendedbyahang-dogSwissguide),withthemienofanardentandfearlesstraveller。Hewascladinaknickerbockersuit,butasatthesametimeheworeshortsocksunderhislacedboots,forreasonswhich,whetherhygienicorconscientious,weresurelyimaginative,hiscalves,exposedtothepublicgazeandtothetonicairofhighaltitudes,dazzledthebeholderbythesplendouroftheirmarble-likeconditionandtheirrichtoneofyoungivory。Hewastheleaderofasmallcaravan。Thelightofaheadlong,exaltedsatisfactionwiththeworldofmenandthesceneryofmountainsilluminedhisclean-cut,veryredface,hisshort,silver-whitewhiskers,hisinnocentlyeagerandtriumphanteyes。Inpassinghecastaglanceofkindlycuriosityandafriendlygleamofbig,sound,shinyteethtowardthemanandtheboysittinglikedustytrampsbytheroadside,withamodestknapsacklyingattheirfeet。Hiswhitecalvestwinkledsturdily,theuncouthSwissguidewithasurlymouthstalkedlikeanunwillingbearathiselbow;asmalltrainofthreemulesfollowedinsinglefiletheleadofthisinspiringenthusiast。Twoladiesrodepast,onebehindtheother,butfromthewaytheysatIsawonlytheircalm,uniformbacks,andthelongendsofblueveilshangingbehindfardownovertheiridenticalhat-brims。Histwodaughters,surely。Anindustriousluggage-mule,withunstarchedearsandguardedbyaslouching,sallowdriver,broughtuptherear。Mytutor,afterpausingforalookandafaintsmile,resumedhisearnestargument。

  Itellyouitwasamemorableyear!OnedoesnotmeetsuchanEnglishmantwiceinalifetime。Washeinthemysticorderingofcommoneventstheambassadorofmyfuture,sentouttoturnthescaleatacriticalmomentonthetopofanAlpinepass,withthepeaksoftheBerneseOberlandformuteandsolemnwitnesses?Hisglance,hissmile,theunextinguishableandcomicardourofhisstriving-forwardappearance,helpedmetopullmyselftogether。

  ItmustbestatedthatonthatdayandintheexhilaratingatmosphereofthatelevatedspotIhadbeenfeelingutterlycrushed。ItwastheyearinwhichIhadfirstspokenaloudofmydesiretogotosea。Atfirstlikethosesoundsthat,rangingoutsidethescaletowhichmen’searsareattuned,remaininaudibletooursenseofhearing,thisdeclarationpassedunperceived。Itwasasifithadnotbeen。Lateron,bytryingvarioustones,Imanagedtoarousehereandthereasurprisedmomentaryattention——the\"Whatwasthatfunnynoise?\"——sortofinquiry。Lateronitwas:\"Didyouhearwhatthatboysaid?

  Whatanextraordinaryoutbreak!\"Presentlyawaveofscandalizedastonishment(itcouldnothavebeengreaterifIhadannouncedtheintentionofenteringaCarthusianmonastery)ebbingoutoftheeducationalandacademicaltownofCracowspreaditselfoverseveralprovinces。Itspreaditselfshallowbutfar-reaching。

  Itstirredupamassofremonstrance,indignation,pityingwonder,bitterirony,anddownrightchaff。Icouldhardlybreatheunderitsweight,andcertainlyhadnowordsforananswer。PeoplewonderedwhatMr。T。B。woulddonowwithhisworryingnephewand,Idaresay,hopedkindlythathewouldmakeshortworkofmynonsense。

  WhathedidwastocomedownallthewayfromUkrainetohaveitoutwithmeandtojudgebyhimself,unprejudiced,impartial,andjust,takinghisstandonthegroundofwisdomandaffection。AsfarasispossibleforaboywhosepowerofexpressionisstillunformedIopenedthesecretofmythoughtstohim,andheinreturnallowedmeaglimpseintohismindandheart;thefirstglimpseofaninexhaustibleandnobletreasureofclearthoughtandwarmfeeling,whichthroughlifewastobeminetodrawuponwithanever-deceivedloveandconfidence。Practically,afterseveralexhaustiveconversations,heconcludedthathewouldnothavemelateronreproachhimforhavingspoiledmylifebyanunconditionalopposition。ButImusttaketimeforseriousreflection。AndImustthinknotonlyofmyselfbutofothers;

  weightheclaimsofaffectionandconscienceagainstmyownsincerityofpurpose。\"Thinkwellwhatitallmeansinthelargerissues——myboy,\"heexhortedme,finally,withspecialfriendliness。\"Andmeantimetrytogetthebestplaceyoucanattheyearlyexaminations。\"

  Thescholasticyearcametoanend。Itookafairlygoodplaceattheexams,whichforme(forcertainreasons)happenedtobeamoredifficulttaskthanforotherboys。InthatrespectIcouldenterwithagoodconscienceuponthatholidaywhichwaslikealongvisitpourprendrecongeofthemainlandofoldEuropeIwastoseesolittleofforthenextfour-and-twentyyears。Such,however,wasnottheavowedpurposeofthattour。Itwasrather,Isuspect,plannedinordertodistractandoccupymythoughtsinotherdirections。Nothinghadbeensaidformonthsofmygoingtosea。Butmyattachmenttomyyoungtutorandhisinfluenceovermeweresowellknownthathemusthavereceivedaconfidentialmissiontotalkmeoutofmyromanticfolly。Itwasanexcellentlyappropriatearrangement,asneitherhenorIhadeverhadasingleglimpseoftheseainourlives。ThatwastocomebyandbyforbothofusinVenice,fromtheoutershoreofLido。MeantimehehadtakenhismissiontoheartsowellthatI

  begantofeelcrushedbeforewereachedZurich。Hearguedinrailwaytrains,inlakesteamboats,hehadarguedawayformetheobligatorysunriseontheRighi,byJove!Ofhisdevotiontohisunworthypupiltherecanbenodoubt。Hehadproveditalreadybytwoyearsofunremittingandarduouscare。Icouldnothatehim。Buthehadbeencrushingmeslowly,andwhenhestartedtoargueonthetopoftheFurcaPasshewasperhapsnearerasuccessthaneitherheorIimagined。Ilistenedtohimindespairingsilence,feelingthatghostly,unrealized,anddesiredseaofmydreamsescapefromtheunnervedgripofmywill。

  TheenthusiasticoldEnglishmanhadpassed——andtheargumentwenton。WhatrewardcouldIexpectfromsuchalifeattheendofmyyears,eitherinambition,honour,orconscience?Anunanswerablequestion。ButIfeltnolongercrushed。Thenoureyesmetandagenuineemotionwasvisibleinhisaswellasinmine。Theendcameallatonce。Hepickeduptheknapsacksuddenlyandgotontohisfeet。

  \"Youareanincorrigible,hopelessDonQuixote。That’swhatyouare。\"

  Iwassurprised。Iwasonlyfifteenanddidnotknowwhathemeantexactly。ButIfeltvaguelyflatteredatthenameoftheimmortalknightturningupinconnectionwithmyownfolly,assomepeoplewouldcallittomyface。Alas!Idon’tthinktherewasanythingtobeproudof。Minewasnotthestuffofprotectorsofforlorndamsels,theredressersofthisworld’swrongaremadeof;andmytutorwasthemantoknowthatbest。

  Therein,inhisindignation,hewassuperiortothebarberandthepriestwhenheflungatmeanhonourednamelikeareproach。

  Iwalkedbehindhimforfullfiveminutes;thenwithoutlookingbackhestopped。TheshadowsofdistantpeakswerelengtheningovertheFurcaPass。WhenIcameuptohimheturnedtomeandinfullviewoftheFinsterAarhorn,withhisbandofgiantbrothersrearingtheirmonstrousheadsagainstabrilliantsky,puthishandonmyshoulderaffectionately。

  \"Well!That’senough。Wewillhavenomoreofit。\"

  Andindeedtherewasnomorequestionofmymysteriousvocationbetweenus。Therewastobenomorequestionofitatall,nowhereorwithanyone。WebeganthedescentoftheFurcaPassconversingmerrily。

  Elevenyearslater,monthformonth,IstoodonTowerHillonthestepsoftheSt。Katherine’sDockhouse,amasterintheBritishMerchantService。ButthemanwhoputhishandonmyshoulderatthetopoftheFurcaPasswasnolongerliving。

  ThatveryyearofourtravelshetookhisdegreeofthePhilosophicalFaculty——andonlythenhistruevocationdeclareditself。Obedienttothecall,heenteredatonceuponthefour-yearcourseoftheMedicalSchools。Adaycamewhen,onthedeckofashipmooredinCalcutta,Iopenedalettertellingmeoftheendofanenviableexistence。HehadmadeforhimselfapracticeinsomeobscurelittletownofAustrianGalicia。Andtheletterwentontotellmehowallthebereavedpoorofthedistrict,ChristiansandJewsalike,hadmobbedthegooddoctor’scoffinwithsobsandlamentationsattheverygateofthecemetery。

  Howshorthisyearsandhowclearhisvision!Whatgreaterrewardinambition,honour,andconsciencecouldhehavehopedtowinforhimselfwhen,onthetopoftheFurcaPass,hebademelookwelltotheendofmyopeninglife?

  III

  ThedevouringinadismalforestofalucklessLithuaniandogbymygranduncleNicholasB。incompanyoftwoothermilitaryandfamishedscarecrows,symbolized,tomychildishimagination,thewholehorroroftheretreatfromMoscow,andtheimmoralityofaconqueror’sambition。AnextremedistasteforthatobjectionableepisodehastingedtheviewsIholdastothecharacterandachievementsofNapoleontheGreat。Ineednotsaythattheseareunfavourable。Itwasmorallyreprehensibleforthatgreatcaptaintoinduceasimple-mindedPolishgentlemantoeatdogbyraisinginhisbreastafalsehopeofnationalindependence。Ithasbeenthefateofthatcredulousnationtostarveforupwardofahundredyearsonadietoffalsehopesand——well——dog。Itis,whenonethinksofit,asingularlypoisonousregimen。Someprideinthenationalconstitutionwhichhassurvivedalongcourseofsuchdishesisreallyexcusable。

  Butenoughofgeneralizing。Returningtoparticulars,Mr。

  NicholasB。confidedtohissister-in-law(mygrandmother)inhismisanthropicallylaconicmannerthatthissupperinthewoodshadbeennearly\"thedeathofhim。\"Thisisnotsurprising。Whatsurprisesmeisthatthestorywaseverheardof;forgranduncleNicholasdifferedinthisfromthegeneralityofmilitarymenofNapoleon’stime(andperhapsofalltime)thathedidnotliketotalkofhiscampaigns,whichbeganatFriedlandandendedsomewhereintheneighbourhoodofBar-le-Duc。HisadmirationofthegreatEmperorwasunreservedineverythingbutexpression。Likethereligionofearnestmen,itwastooprofoundasentimenttobedisplayedbeforeaworldoflittlefaith。Apartfromthatheseemedascompletelydevoidofmilitaryanecdotesasthoughhehadhardlyeverseenasoldierinhislife。Proudofhisdecorationsearnedbeforehewastwenty-five,herefusedtoweartheribbonsatthebuttonholeinthemannerpractisedtothisdayinEuropeandevenwasunwillingtodisplaytheinsigniaonfestiveoccasions,asthoughhewishedtoconcealtheminthefearofappearingboastful。

  \"ItisenoughthatIhavethem,\"heusedtomutter。Inthecourseofthirtyyearstheywereseenonhisbreastonlytwice——atanauspiciousmarriageinthefamilyandatthefuneralofanoldfriend。ThattheweddingwhichwasthushonouredwasnottheweddingofmymotherIlearnedonlylateinlife,toolatetobearagrudgeagainstMr。NicholasB。,whomadeamendsatmybirthbyalongletterofcongratulationcontainingthefollowingprophecy:\"Hewillseebettertimes。\"Eveninhisembitteredhearttherelivedahope。Buthewasnotatrueprophet。

  Hewasamanofstrangecontradictions。Livingformanyyearsinhisbrother’shouse,thehomeofmanychildren,ahousefulloflife,ofanimation,noisywithaconstantcomingandgoingofmanyguests,hekepthishabitsofsolitudeandsilence。

  Consideredasobstinatelysecretiveinallhispurposes,hewasinrealitythevictimofamostpainfulirresolutioninallmattersofcivillife。Underhistaciturn,phlegmaticbehaviourwashiddenafacultyofshort-livedpassionateanger。Isuspecthehadnotalentfornarrative;butitseemedtoaffordhimsombresatisfactiontodeclarethathewasthelastmantorideoverthebridgeoftheriverElsterafterthebattleofLeipsic。

  Lestsomeconstructionfavourabletohisvalourshouldbeputonthefacthecondescendedtoexplainhowitcametopass。ItseemsthatshortlyaftertheretreatbeganhewassentbacktothetownwheresomedivisionsoftheFrencharmy(andamongthemthePolishcorpsofPrinceJosephPoniatowski),jammedhopelesslyinthestreets,werebeingsimplyexterminatedbythetroopsoftheAlliedPowers。Whenaskedwhatitwaslikeinthere,Mr。

  NicholasB。mutteredonlytheword\"Shambles。\"HavingdeliveredhismessagetothePrincehehastenedawayatoncetorenderanaccountofhismissiontothesuperiorwhohadsenthim。Bythattimetheadvanceoftheenemyhadenvelopedthetown,andhewasshotatfromhousesandchasedallthewaytotheriver-bankbyadisorderlymobofAustrianDragoonsandPrussianHussars。Thebridgehadbeenminedearlyinthemorning,andhisopinionwasthatthesightofthehorsemenconvergingfrommanysidesinthepursuitofhispersonalarmedtheofficerincommandofthesappersandcausedtheprematurefiringofthecharges。Hehadnotgonemorethantwohundredyardsontheothersidewhenheheardthesoundofthefatalexplosions。Mr。NicholasB。

  concludedhisbaldnarrativewiththeword\"Imbecile,\"utteredwiththeutmostdeliberation。Ittestifiedtohisindignationatthelossofsomanythousandsoflives。Buthisphlegmaticphysiognomylightedupwhenhespokeofhisonlywound,withsomethingresemblingsatisfaction。Youwillseethattherewassomereasonforitwhenyoulearnthathewaswoundedintheheel。\"LikehisMajestytheEmperorNapoleonhimself,\"heremindedhishearers,withassumedindifference。Therecanbenodoubtthattheindifferencewasassumed,ifonethinkswhataverydistinguishedsortofwounditwas。Inallthehistoryofwarfarethereare,Ibelieve,onlythreewarriorspubliclyknowntohavebeenwoundedintheheel——AchillesandNapoleon——demigodsindeed——towhomthefamilialpietyofanunworthydescendantaddsthenameofthesimplemortal,NicholasB。

  TheHundredDaysfoundMr。NicholasB。stayingwithadistantrelativeofours,ownerofasmallestateinGalicia。HowhegotthereacrossthebreadthofanarmedEurope,andafterwhatadventures,Iamafraidwillneverbeknownnow。Allhispapersweredestroyedshortlybeforehisdeath;butiftherewasamongthem,asheaffirmed,aconciserecordofhislife,thenIamprettysureitdidnottakeupmorethanahalfsheetoffoolscaporso。ThisrelativeofourshappenedtobeanAustrianofficerwhohadlefttheserviceafterthebattleofAusterlitz。UnlikeMr。NicholasB。,whoconcealedhisdecorations,helikedtodisplayhishonourabledischargeinwhichhewasmentionedasunschreckbar(fearless)beforetheenemy。Noconjunctioncouldseemmoreunpromising,yetitstandsinthefamilytraditionthatthesetwogotonverywelltogetherintheirruralsolitude。

  WhenaskedwhetherhehadnotbeensorelytemptedduringtheHundredDaystomakehiswayagaintoFranceandjointheserviceofhisbelovedEmperor,Mr。NicholasB。usedtomutter:\"Nomoney。Nohorse。Toofartowalk。\"

  ThefallofNapoleonandtheruinofnationalhopesaffectedadverselythecharacterofMr。NicholasB。Heshrankfromreturningtohisprovince。Butforthattherewasalsoanotherreason。Mr。NicholasB。andhisbrother——mymaternalgrandfather——hadlosttheirfatherearly,whiletheywerequitechildren。Theirmother,youngstillandleftverywelloff,marriedagainamanofgreatcharmandofanamiabledisposition,butwithoutapenny。Heturnedoutanaffectionateandcarefulstepfather;itwasunfortunate,though,thatwhiledirectingtheboys’educationandformingtheircharacterbywisecounsel,hedidhisbesttogetholdofthefortunebybuyingandsellinglandinhisownnameandinvestingcapitalinsuchamannerastocoverupthetracesoftherealownership。Itseemsthatsuchpracticescanbesuccessfulifoneischarmingenoughtodazzleone’sownwifepermanently,andbraveenoughtodefythevainterrorsofpublicopinion。Thecriticaltimecamewhentheelderoftheboysonattaininghismajority,intheyear1811,askedfortheaccountsandsomepartatleastoftheinheritancetobeginlifeupon。Itwasthenthatthestepfatherdeclaredwithcalmfinalitythattherewerenoaccountstorenderandnopropertytoinherit。Thewholefortunewashisveryown。Hewasverygood-naturedabouttheyoungman’smisapprehensionofthetruestateofaffairs,but,ofcourse,feltobligedtomaintainhispositionfirmly。Oldfriendscameandwentbusily,voluntarymediatorsappearedtravellingonmosthorribleroadsfromthemostdistantcornersofthethreeprovinces;andtheMarshaloftheNobility(ex-officioguardianofallwell-bornorphans)

  calledameetingoflandownersto\"ascertaininafriendlywayhowthemisunderstandingbetweenXandhisstepsonshadarisenanddevisepropermeasurestoremovethesame。\"AdeputationtothateffectvisitedX,whotreatedthemtoexcellentwines,butabsolutelyrefusedhiseartotheirremonstrances。Astotheproposalsforarbitrationhesimplylaughedatthem;yetthewholeprovincemusthavebeenawarethatfourteenyearsbefore,whenhemarriedthewidow,allhisvisiblefortuneconsisted(apartfromhissocialqualities)inasmartfour-horseturnoutwithtwoservants,withwhomhewentaboutvisitingfromhousetohouse;andastoanyfundshemighthavepossessedatthattimetheirexistencecouldonlybeinferredfromthefactthathewasverypunctualinsettlinghismodestlossesatcards。Butbythemagicpowerofstubbornandconstantassertion,therewerefoundpresently,hereandthere,peoplewhomumbledthatsurely\"theremustbesomethinginit。\"However,onhisnextname-day(whichheusedtocelebratebyagreatthreedays’shootingparty),ofalltheinvitedcrowdonlytwogueststurnedup,distantneighboursofnoimportance;onenotoriouslyafool,andtheotheraverypiousandhonestperson,butsuchapassionateloverofthegunthatonhisownconfessionhecouldnothaverefusedaninvitationtoashootingpartyfromthedevilhimself。Xmetthismanifestationofpublicopinionwiththeserenityofanunstainedconscience。Herefusedtobecrushed。Yethemusthavebeenamanofdeepfeeling,because,whenhiswifetookopenlythepartofherchildren,helosthisbeautifultranquillity,proclaimedhimselfheartbroken,anddroveheroutofthehouse,neglectinginhisgrieftogiveherenoughtimetopackhertrunks。

  Thiswasthebeginningofalawsuit,anabominablemarvelofchicane,whichbytheuseofeverylegalsubterfugewasmadetolastformanyyears。Itwasalsotheoccasionforadisplayofmuchkindnessandsympathy。Alltheneighbouringhousesflewopenforthereceptionofthehomeless。Neitherlegalaidnormaterialassistanceintheprosecutionofthesuitwaseverwanting。X,onhisside,wentaboutsheddingtearspubliclyoverhisstepchildren’singratitudeandhiswife’sblindinfatuation;

  butasatthesametimehedisplayedgreatclevernessintheartofconcealingmaterialdocuments(hewasevensuspectedofhavingburnedalotofhistoricallyinterestingfamilypapers)thisscandalouslitigationhadtobeendedbyacompromiselestworseshouldbefall。Itwassettledfinallybyasurrender,outofthedisputedestate,infullsatisfactionofallclaims,oftwovillageswiththenamesofwhichIdonotintendtotroublemyreaders。Afterthislameandimpotentconclusionneitherthewifenorthestepsonshadanythingtosaytothemanwhohadpresentedtheworldwithsuchasuccessfulexampleofself-helpbasedoncharacter,determination,andindustry;andmygreat-grandmother,herhealthcompletelybrokendown,diedacoupleofyearslaterinCarlsbad。Legallysecuredbyadecreeinthepossessionofhisplunder,Xregainedhiswontedserenity,andwentonlivingintheneighbourhoodinacomfortablestyleandinapparentpeaceofmind。Hisbigshootswerefairlywellattendedagain。Hewasnevertiredofassuringpeoplethatheborenogrudgeforwhatwaspast;heprotestedloudlyofhisconstantaffectionforhiswifeandstepchildren。Itwastrue,hesaid,thattheyhadtriedtostriphimasnakedasaTurkishsaintinthedeclineofhisdays;andbecausehehaddefendedhimselffromspoliation,asanybodyelseinhisplacewouldhavedone,theyhadabandonedhimnowtothehorrorsofasolitaryoldage。Nevertheless,hisloveforthemsurvivedthesecruelblows。

  Andtheremighthavebeensometruthinhisprotestations。Verysoonhebegantomakeoverturesoffriendshiptohiseldeststepson,mymaternalgrandfather;andwhenthesewereperemptorilyrejectedhewentonrenewingthemagainandagainwithcharacteristicobstinacy。Foryearshepersistedinhiseffortsatreconciliation,promisingmygrandfathertoexecuteawillinhisfavourifheonlywouldbefriendsagaintotheextentofcallingnowandthen(itwasfairlycloseneighbourhoodfortheseparts,fortymilesorso),orevenofputtinginanappearanceforthegreatshootonthename-day。Mygrandfatherwasanardentloverofeverysport。Histemperamentwasasfreefromhardnessandanimosityascanbeimagined。Pupiloftheliberal-mindedBenedictineswhodirectedtheonlypublicschoolofsomestandingtheninthesouth,hehadalsoreaddeeplytheauthorsoftheeighteenthcentury。InhimChristiancharitywasjoinedtoaphilosophicalindulgenceforthefailingsofhumannature。Butthememoryofthosemiserablyanxiousearlyyears,hisyoungman’syearsrobbedofallgenerousillusionsbythecynicismofthesordidlawsuit,stoodinthewayofforgiveness。

  Heneversuccumbedtothefascinationofthegreatshoot;andX,hisheartsettothelastonreconciliation,withthedraftofthewillreadyforsignaturekeptbyhisbedside,diedintestate。

  Thefortunethusacquiredandaugmentedbyawiseandcarefulmanagementpassedtosomedistantrelativeswhomhehadneverseenandwhoevendidnotbearhisname。

  MeantimetheblessingofgeneralpeacedescendeduponEurope。

  Mr。NicholasB。,biddinggood-byetohishospitablerelative,the\"fearless\"Austrianofficer,departedfromGalicia,andwithoutgoingnearhisnativeplace,wheretheodiouslawsuitwasstillgoingon,proceededstraighttoWarsawandenteredthearmyofthenewlyconstitutedPolishkingdomunderthesceptreofAlexanderI,AutocratofalltheRussias。

  Thiskingdom,createdbytheViennaCongressasanacknowledgmenttoanationofitsformerindependentexistence,includedonlythecentralprovincesoftheoldPolishpatrimony。AbrotheroftheEmperor,theGrandDukeConstantine(Pavlovitch),itsViceroyandCommander-in-Chief,marriedmorganaticallytoaPolishladytowhomhewasfiercelyattached,extendedthisaffectiontowhathecalled\"MyPoles\"inacapriciousandsavagemanner。Sallowincomplexion,withaTartarphysiognomyandfiercelittleeyes,hewalkedwithhisfistsclenched,hisbodybentforward,dartingsuspiciousglancesfromunderanenormouscockedhat。Hisintelligencewaslimited,andhissanityitselfwasdoubtful。

  Thehereditarytaintexpresseditself,inhiscase,notbymysticleaningsasinhistwobrothers,AlexanderandNicholas(intheirvariousways,foronewasmysticallyliberalandtheothermysticallyautocratic),butbythefuryofanuncontrollabletemperwhichgenerallybrokeoutindisgustingabuseontheparadeground。Hewasapassionatemilitaristandanamazingdrill-master。HetreatedhisPolisharmyasaspoiledchildtreatsafavouritetoy,exceptthathedidnottakeittobedwithhimatnight。Itwasnotsmallenoughforthat。Butheplayedwithitalldayandeveryday,delightinginthevarietyofprettyuniformsandinthefunofincessantdrilling。Thischildishpassion,notforwar,butformeremilitarism,achievedadesirableresult。ThePolisharmy,initsequipment,initsarmament,andinitsbattle-fieldefficiency,asthenunderstood,became,bytheendoftheyear1830,afirst-ratetacticalinstrument。Polishpeasantry(notserfs)servedintheranksbyenlistment,andtheofficersbelongedmainlytothesmallernobility。Mr。NicholasB。,withhisNapoleonicrecord,hadnodifficultyinobtainingalieutenancy,butthepromotioninthePolisharmywasslow,because,beingaseparateorganization,ittooknopartinthewarsoftheRussianEmpireagainsteitherPersiaorTurkey。Itsfirstcampaign,againstRussiaitself,wastobeitslast。In1831,ontheoutbreakoftheRevolution,Mr。

  NicholasB。wastheseniorcaptainofhisregiment。Sometimebeforehehadbeenmadeheadoftheremountestablishmentquarteredoutsidethekingdominoursouthernprovinces,whencealmostallthehorsesforthePolishcavalryweredrawn。ForthefirsttimesincehewentawayfromhomeattheageofeighteentobeginhismilitarylifebythebattleofFriedland,Mr。NicholasB。breathedtheairofthe\"Border,\"hisnativeair。Unkindfatewaslyinginwaitforhimamongthescenesofhisyouth。AtthefirstnewsoftherisinginWarsawalltheremountestablishment,officers,\"vets。,\"andtheverytroopers,wereputpromptlyunderarrestandhurriedoffinabodybeyondtheDniepertothenearesttowninRussiaproper。Fromtheretheyweredispersedtothedistantpartsoftheempire。OnthisoccasionpoorMr。

  NicholasB。penetratedintoRussiamuchfartherthanheeverdidinthetimesofNapoleonicinvasion,ifmuchlesswillingly。

  Astrakanwashisdestination。Heremainedtherethreeyears,allowedtoliveatlargeinthetown,buthavingtoreporthimselfeverydayatnoontothemilitarycommandant,whousedtodetainhimfrequentlyforapipeandachat。ItisdifficulttoformajustideaofwhatachatwithMr。NicholasB。couldhavebeenlike。Theremusthavebeenmuchcompressedrageunderhistaciturnity,forthecommandantcommunicatedtohimthenewsfromthetheatreofwar,andthisnewswassuchasitcouldbe——thatis,verybadforthePoles。Mr。NicholasB。receivedthesecommunicationswithoutwardphlegm,buttheRussianshowedawarmsympathyforhisprisoner。\"AsasoldiermyselfIunderstandyourfeelings。You,ofcourse,wouldliketobeinthethickofit。Byheavens!Iamfondofyou。IfitwerenotforthetermsofthemilitaryoathIwouldletyougoonmyownresponsibility。

  Whatdifferencecoulditmaketous,onemoreorlessofyou?\"

  Atothertimeshewonderedwithsimplicity。

  \"Tellme,NicholasStepanovitch\"(mygreat-grandfather’snamewasStephen,andthecommandantusedtheRussianformofpoliteaddress)——\"tellmewhyisitthatyouPolesarealwayslookingfortrouble?WhatelsecouldyouexpectfromrunningupagainstRussia?\"

  Hewascapable,too,ofphilosophicalreflections。

  \"LookatyourNapoleonnow。Agreatman。ThereisnodenyingitthathewasagreatmanaslongashewascontenttothrashthoseGermansandAustriansandallthosenations。Butno!HemustgotoRussialookingfortrouble,andwhat’stheconsequence?Suchasyouseeme;IhaverattledthissabreofmineonthepavementsofParis。\"

  AfterhisreturntoPolandMr。NicholasB。describedhimasa\"worthymanbutstupid,\"wheneverhecouldbeinducedtospeakoftheconditionsofhisexile。DecliningtheoptionofferedhimtoentertheRussianarmy,hewasretiredwithonlyhalfthepensionofhisrank。Hisnephew(myuncleandguardian)toldmethatthefirstlastingimpressiononhismemoryasachildoffourwasthegladexcitementreigninginhisparents’houseonthedaywhenMr。NicholasB。arrivedhomefromhisdetentioninRussia。

  Everygenerationhasitsmemories。ThefirstmemoriesofMr。

  NicholasB。mighthavebeenshapedbytheeventsofthelastpartitionofPoland,andhelivedlongenoughtosufferfromthelastarmedrisingin1863,aneventwhichaffectedthefutureofallmygenerationandhascolouredmyearliestimpressions。Hisbrother,inwhosehousehehadshelteredforsomeseventeenyearshismisanthropicaltimiditybeforethecommonestproblemsoflife,havingdiedintheearlyfifties,Mr。NicholasB。hadtoscrewhiscourageuptothesticking-pointandcometosomedecisionastothefuture。Afteralongandagonizinghesitationhewaspersuadedatlasttobecomethetenantofsomefifteenhundredacresoutoftheestateofafriendintheneighbourhood。

  Thetermsoftheleasewereveryadvantageous,buttheretiredsituationofthevillageandaplain,comfortablehouseingoodrepairwere,Ifancy,thegreatestinducements。Helivedtherequietlyforabouttenyears,seeingveryfewpeopleandtakingnopartinthepubliclifeoftheprovince,suchasitcouldbeunderanarbitrarybureaucratictyranny。Hischaracterandhispatriotismwereabovesuspicion;buttheorganizersoftherisingintheirfrequentjourneysupanddowntheprovincescrupulouslyavoidedcomingnearhishouse。Itwasgenerallyfeltthatthereposeoftheoldman’slastyearsoughtnottobedisturbed。

  Evensuchintimatesasmypaternalgrandfather,comrade-in-armsduringNapoleon’sMoscowcampaign,andlateronafellowofficerinthePolisharmy,refrainedfromvisitinghiscronyasthedateoftheoutbreakapproached。Mypaternalgrandfather’stwosonsandhisonlydaughterwerealldeeplyinvolvedintherevolutionarywork;hehimselfwasofthattypeofPolishsquirewhoseonlyidealofpatrioticactionwasto\"getintothesaddleanddrivethemout。\"Butevenheagreedthat\"dearNicholasmustnotbeworried。\"Allthisconsideratecautiononthepartoffriends,bothconspiratorsandothers,didnotpreventMr。

  NicholasB。beingmadetofeelthemisfortunesofthatill-omenedyear。

  Lessthanforty-eighthoursafterthebeginningoftherebellioninthatpartofthecountry,asquadronofscoutingCossackspassedthroughthevillageandinvadedthehomestead。Mostofthemremained,formedbetweenthehouseandthestables,whileseveral,dismounting,ransackedthevariousoutbuildings。Theofficerincommand,accompaniedbytwomen,walkeduptothefrontdoor。Alltheblindsonthatsideweredown。Theofficertoldtheservantwhoreceivedhimthathewantedtoseehismaster。Hewasansweredthatthemasterwasawayfromhome,whichwasperfectlytrue。

  Ifollowherethetaleastoldafterwardbytheservanttomygranduncle’sfriendsandrelatives,andasIhavehearditrepeated。

  OnreceivingthisanswertheCossackofficer,whohadbeenstandingintheporch,steppedintothehouse。

  \"Whereisthemastergone,then?\"

  \"OurmasterwenttoJ————\"(thegovernmenttownsomefiftymilesoff)\"thedaybeforeyesterday。\"

  \"Thereareonlytwohorsesinthestables。Wherearetheothers?\"

  \"Ourmasteralwaystravelswithhisownhorses\"(meaning:notbypost)。\"Hewillbeawayaweekormore。HewaspleasedtomentiontomethathehadtoattendtosomebusinessintheCivilCourt。\"

  Whiletheservantwasspeakingtheofficerlookedaboutthehall。

  Therewasadoorfacinghim,adoortotheright,andadoortotheleft。Theofficerchosetoentertheroomontheleft,andorderedtheblindstobepulledup。ItwasMr。NicholasB。’sstudy,withacoupleoftallbookcases,somepicturesonthewalls,andsoon。Besidesthebigcentre-table,withbooksandpapers,therewasaquitesmallwriting-table,withseveraldrawers,standingbetweenthedoorandthewindowinagoodlight;andatthistablemygranduncleusuallysateithertoreadorwrite。

  Onpullinguptheblindtheservantwasstartledbythediscoverythatthewholemalepopulationofthevillagewasmassedinfront,tramplingdowntheflower-beds。Therewerealsoafewwomenamongthem。Hewasgladtoobservethevillagepriest(oftheOrthodoxChurch)comingupthedrive。Thegoodmaninhishastehadtuckeduphiscassockashighasthetopofhisboots。

  Theofficerhadbeenlookingatthebacksofthebooksinthebookcases。Thenheperchedhimselfontheedgeofthecentretableandremarkedeasily:

  \"Yourmasterdidnottakeyoutotownwithhim,then?\"

  \"Iamtheheadservant,andheleavesmeinchargeofthehouse。

  It’sastrong,youngchapthattravelswithourmaster。If——Godforbid——therewassomeaccidentontheroad,hewouldbeofmuchmoreusethanI。\"

  Glancingthroughthewindow,hesawthepriestarguingvehementlyinthethickofthecrowd,whichseemedsubduedbyhisinterference。Threeorfourmen,however,weretalkingwiththeCossacksatthedoor。

  \"Andyoudon’tthinkyourmasterhasgonetojointherebelsmaybe——eh?\"askedtheofficer。

  \"Ourmasterwouldbetoooldforthat,surely。He’swelloverseventy,andhe’sgettingfeeble,too。It’ssomeyearsnowsincehe’sbeenonhorseback,andhecan’twalkmuch,either,now。\"

  Theofficersatthereswinginghisleg,veryquietandindifferent。BythattimethepeasantswhohadbeentalkingwiththeCossacktroopersatthedoorhadbeenpermittedtogetintothehall。Oneortwomoreleftthecrowdandfollowedthemin。

  Theywereseveninall,andamongthemtheblacksmith,anex-soldier。Theservantappealeddeferentiallytotheofficer。

  \"Won’tyourhonourbepleasedtotellthepeopletogobacktotheirhomes?Whatdotheywanttopushthemselvesintothehouselikethisfor?It’snotproperforthemtobehavelikethiswhileourmaster’sawayandIamresponsibleforeverythinghere。\"

  Theofficeronlylaughedalittle,andafterawhileinquired:

  \"Haveyouanyarmsinthehouse?\"

  \"Yes。Wehave。Someoldthings。\"

  \"Bringthemallhere,ontothistable。\"

  Theservantmadeanotherattempttoobtainprotection。

  \"Won’tyourhonourtellthesechaps……?\"

  Buttheofficerlookedathiminsilence,insuchawaythathegaveitupatonceandhurriedofftocallthepantry-boytohelphimcollectthearms。Meantime,theofficerwalkedslowlythroughalltheroomsinthehouse,examiningthemattentivelybuttouchingnothing。Thepeasantsinthehallfellbackandtookofftheircapswhenhepassedthrough。Hesaidnothingwhatevertothem。Whenhecamebacktothestudyallthearmstobefoundinthehousewerelyingonthetable。Therewasapairofbig,flint-lockholsterpistolsfromNapoleonictimes,twocavalryswords,oneoftheFrench,theotherofthePolisharmypattern,withafowling-pieceortwo。

  Theofficer,openingthewindow,flungoutpistols,swords,andguns,oneafteranother,andhistroopersrantopickthemup。

  Thepeasantsinthehall,encouragedbyhismanner,hadstolenafterhimintothestudy。Hegavenottheslightestsignofbeingconsciousoftheirexistence,and,hisbusinessbeingapparentlyconcluded,strodeoutofthehousewithoutaword。

  Directlyheleft,thepeasantsinthestudyputontheircapsandbegantosmileateachother。

  TheCossacksrodeaway,passingthroughtheyardsofthehomefarmstraightintothefields。Thepriest,stillarguingwiththepeasants,movedgraduallydownthedriveandhisearnesteloquencewasdrawingthesilentmobafterhim,awayfromthehouse。ThisjusticemustberenderedtotheparishpriestsoftheGreekChurchthat,strangerstothecountryastheywere(beingalldrawnfromtheinteriorofRussia),themajorityofthemusedsuchinfluenceastheyhadovertheirflocksinthecauseofpeaceandhumanity。Truetothespiritoftheircalling,theytriedtosoothethepassionsoftheexcitedpeasantry,andopposedrapineandviolence,whenevertheycould,withalltheirmight。Andthisconducttheypursuedagainsttheexpresswishesoftheauthorities。LateronsomeofthemweremadetosufferforthisdisobediencebybeingremovedabruptlytothefarnorthorsentawaytoSiberianparishes。

  Theservantwasanxioustogetridofthefewpeasantswhohadgotintothehouse。Whatsortofconductwasthat,heaskedthem,towardamanwhowasonlyatenant,hadbeeninvariablygoodandconsideratetothevillagersforyears,andonlytheotherdayhadagreedtogiveuptwomeadowsfortheuseofthevillageherd?Heremindedthem,too,ofMr。NicholasB。’sdevotiontothesickintimeofcholera。Everywordofthiswastrue,andsofareffectivethatthefellowsbegantoscratchtheirheadsandlookirresolute。Thespeakerthenpointedatthewindow,exclaiming:\"Look!there’sallyourcrowdgoingawayquietly,andyousillychapshadbettergoafterthemandprayGodtoforgiveyouyourevilthoughts。\"

  Thisappealwasanunluckyinspiration。

  Incrowdingclumsilytothewindowtoseewhetherhewasspeakingthetruth,thefellowsoverturnedthelittlewriting-table。Asitfelloverachinkofloosecoinwasheard。\"There’smoneyinthatthing,\"criedtheblacksmith。Inamomentthetopofthedelicatepieceoffurniturewassmashedandtherelayexposedinadrawereightyhalfimperials。GoldcoinwasararesightinRussiaevenatthattime;itputthepeasantsbesidethemselves。

  \"Theremustbemoreofthatinthehouse,andweshallhaveit,\"

  yelledtheex-soldierblacksmith。\"Thisiswar-time。\"Theotherswerealreadyshoutingoutofthewindow,urgingthecrowdtocomebackandhelp。Thepriest,abandonedsuddenlyatthegate,flunghisarmsupandhurriedawaysoasnottoseewhatwasgoingtohappen。

  Intheirsearchformoneythatbucolicmobsmashedeverythinginthehouse,rippingwithknives,splittingwithhatchets,sothat,astheservantsaid,therewerenotwopiecesofwoodholdingtogetherleftinthewholehouse。Theybrokesomeveryfinemirrors,allthewindows,andeverypieceofglassandchina。

  Theythrewthebooksandpapersoutonthelawnandsetfiretotheheapforthemerefunofthething,apparently。Absolutelytheonlyonesolitarythingwhichtheyleftwholewasasmallivorycrucifix,whichremainedhangingonthewallinthewreckedbedroomaboveawildheapofrags,brokenmahogany,andsplinteredboardswhichhadbeenMr。NicholasB。’sbedstead。

  Detectingtheservantintheactofstealingawaywithajapannedtinbox,theytoreitfromhim,andbecauseheresistedtheythrewhimoutofthedining-roomwindow。Thehousewasononefloor,butraisedwellabovetheground,andthefallwassoseriousthatthemanremainedlyingstunnedtillthecookandastable-boyventuredforthatduskfromtheirhiding-placesandpickedhimup。Butbythattimethemobhaddeparted,carryingoffthetinbox,whichtheysupposedtobefullofpapermoney。

  Somedistancefromthehouse,inthemiddleofafield,theybrokeitopen。TheyfoundinsidedocumentsengrossedonparchmentandthetwocrossesoftheLegionofHonourandForValour。Atthesightoftheseobjects,which,theblacksmithexplained,weremarksofhonourgivenonlybytheTsar,theybecameextremelyfrightenedatwhattheyhaddone。Theythrewthewholelotawayintoaditchanddispersedhastily。

  OnlearningofthisparticularlossMr。NicholasB。brokedowncompletely。Themeresackingofhishousedidnotseemtoaffecthimmuch。Whilehewasstillinbedfromtheshock,thetwocrosseswerefoundandreturnedtohim。Ithelpedsomewhathisslowconvalescence,butthetinboxandtheparchments,thoughsearchedforinalltheditchesaround,neverturnedupagain。

  HecouldnotgetoverthelossofhisLegionofHonourPatent,whosepreamble,settingforthhisservices,heknewbyhearttotheveryletter,andafterthisblowvolunteeredsometimestorecite,tearsstandinginhiseyesthewhile。Itstermshauntedhimapparentlyduringthelasttwoyearsofhislifetosuchanextentthatheusedtorepeatthemtohimself。Thisisconfirmedbytheremarkmademorethanoncebyhisoldservanttothemoreintimatefriends。\"WhatmakesmyheartheavyistohearourmasterinhisroomatnightwalkingupanddownandprayingaloudintheFrenchlanguage。\"

  ItmusthavebeensomewhatoverayearafterwardthatIsawMr。

  NicholasB。——or,morecorrectly,thathesawme——forthelasttime。Itwas,asIhavealreadysaid,atthetimewhenmymotherhadathreemonths’leavefromexile,whichshewasspendinginthehouseofherbrother,andfriendsandrelationswerecomingfromfarandneartodoherhonour。ItisinconceivablethatMr。

  NicholasB。shouldnothavebeenofthenumber。Thelittlechildafewmonthsoldhehadtakenupinhisarmsonthedayofhishome-coming,afteryearsofwarandexile,wasconfessingherfaithinnationalsalvationbysufferingexileinherturn。Idonotknowwhetherhewaspresentontheverydayofourdeparture。

  Ihavealreadyadmittedthatformeheismoreespeciallythemanwhoinhisyouthhadeatenroastdoginthedepthsofagloomyforestofsnow-loadedpines。Mymemorycannotplacehiminanyrememberedscene。Ahookednose,somesleekwhitehair,anunrelatedevanescentimpressionofameagre,slight,rigidfiguremilitarilybuttoneduptothethroat,isallthatnowexistsonearthofMr。NicholasB。;onlythisvagueshadowpursuedbythememoryofhisgrandnephew,thelastsurvivinghumanbeing,I

  suppose,ofallthosehehadseeninthecourseofhistaciturnlife。

  ButIrememberwellthedayofourdeparturebacktoexile。Theelongated,bizarre,shabbytravelling-carriagewithfourpost-horses,standingbeforethelongfrontofthehousewithitseightcolumns,fouroneachsideofthebroadflightofstairs。

  Onthesteps,groupsofservants,afewrelations,oneortwofriendsfromthenearestneighbourhood,aperfectsilence;onallthefacesanairofsoberconcentration;mygrandmother,allinblack,gazingstoically;myunclegivinghisarmtomymotherdowntothecarriageinwhichIhadbeenplacedalready;atthetopoftheflightmylittlecousininashortskirtofatartanpatternwithadealofredinit,andlikeasmallprincessattendedbythewomenofherownhousehold;theheadgouvernante,ourdear,corpulentFrancesca(whohadbeenforthirtyyearsintheserviceoftheB。family),theformernurse,nowoutdoorattendant,ahandsomepeasantfacewearingacompassionateexpression,andthegood,uglyMlle。Durand,thegoverness,withherblackeyebrowsmeetingoverashort,thicknose,andacomplexionlikepale-brownpaper。Ofalltheeyesturnedtowardthecarriage,hergood-naturedeyesonlyweredroppingtears,anditwashersobbingvoicealonethatbrokethesilencewithanappealtome:\"N’oubliepastonfrancais,moncheri。\"Inthreemonths,simplybyplayingwithus,shehadtaughtmenotonlytospeakFrench,buttoreaditaswell。Shewasindeedanexcellentplaymate。Inthedistance,half-waydowntothegreatgates,alight,opentrap,harnessedwiththreehorsesinRussianfashion,stooddrawnupononeside,withthepolicecaptainofthedistrictsittinginit,thevizorofhisflatcapwitharedbandpulleddownoverhiseyes。

  Itseemsstrangethatheshouldhavebeentheretowatchourgoingsocarefully。WithoutwishingtotreatwithlevitythejusttimiditesofImperialistsalltheworldover,Imayallowmyselfthereflectionthatawoman,practicallycondemnedbythedoctors,andasmallboynotquitesixyearsold,couldnotberegardedasseriouslydangerous,evenforthelargestofconceivableempiressaddledwiththemostsacredofresponsibilities。AndthisgoodmanIbelievedidnotthinkso,either。

  Ilearnedafterwardwhyhewaspresentonthatday。Idon’trememberanyoutwardsigns;butitseemsthat,aboutamonthbefore,mymotherbecamesounwellthattherewasadoubtwhethershecouldbemadefittotravelinthetime。InthisuncertaintytheGovernor-GeneralinKievwaspetitionedtograntherafortnight’sextensionofstayinherbrother’shouse。Noanswerwhateverwasreturnedtothisprayer,butonedayatduskthepolicecaptainofthedistrictdroveuptothehouseandtoldmyuncle’svalet,whoranouttomeethim,thathewantedtospeakwiththemasterinprivate,atonce。Verymuchimpressed(hethoughtitwasgoingtobeanarrest),theservant,\"moredeadthanalivewithfright,\"asherelatedafterward,smuggledhimthroughthebigdrawing-room,whichwasdark(thatroomwasnotlightedeveryevening),ontiptoe,soasnottoattracttheattentionoftheladiesinthehouse,andledhimbywayoftheorangerytomyuncle’sprivateapartments。

  Thepoliceman,withoutanypreliminaries,thrustapaperintomyuncle’shands。

  \"There。Prayreadthis。Ihavenobusinesstoshowthispapertoyou。Itiswrongofme。ButIcan’teithereatorsleepwithsuchajobhangingoverme。\"

  Thatpolicecaptain,anativeofGreatRussia,hadbeenformanyyearsservinginthedistrict。

  Myuncleunfoldedandreadthedocument。ItwasaserviceorderissuedfromtheGovernor-General’ssecretariat,dealingwiththematterofthepetitionanddirectingthepolicecaptaintodisregardallremonstrancesandexplanationsinregardtothatillnesseitherfrommedicalmenorothers,\"andifshehasnotleftherbrother’shouse\"——itwentontosay——\"onthemorningofthedayspecifiedonherpermit,youaretodespatchheratonceunderescort,direct\"(underlined)\"totheprison-hospitalinKiev,whereshewillbetreatedashercasedemands。\"

  \"ForGod’ssake,Mr。B。,seethatyoursistergoesawaypunctuallyonthatday。Don’tgivemethisworktodowithawoman——andwithoneofyourfamily,too。Isimplycannotbeartothinkofit。\"

  Hewasabsolutelywringinghishands。Myunclelookedathiminsilence。

  \"Thankyouforthiswarning。Iassureyouthatevenifsheweredyingshewouldbecarriedouttothecarriage。\"

  \"Yes——indeed——andwhatdifferencewoulditmake——traveltoKievorbacktoherhusband?Forshewouldhavetogo——deathornodeath。Andmind,Mr。B。,Iwillbehereontheday,notthatI

  doubtyourpromise,butbecauseImust。Ihavegotto。Duty。

  AllthesamemytradeisnotfitforadogsincesomeofyouPoleswillpersistinrebelling,andallofyouhavegottosufferforit。\"

  Thisisthereasonwhyhewasthereinanopenthree-horsetrappulledupbetweenthehouseandthegreatgates。Iregretnotbeingabletogiveuphisnametothescornofallbelieversintherightofconquest,asareprehensiblysensitiveguardianofImperialgreatness。Ontheotherhand,IaminapositiontostatethenameoftheGovernor-Generalwhosignedtheorderwiththemarginalnote\"tobecarriedouttotheletter\"inhisownhandwriting。Thegentleman’snamewasBezak。Ahighdignitary,anenergeticofficial,theidolforatimeoftheRussianpatrioticpress。

  Eachgenerationhasitsmemories。

  IV

  Itmustnotbesupposedthat,insettingforththememoriesofthishalf-hourbetweenthemomentmyuncleleftmyroomtillwemetagainatdinner,Iamlosingsightof\"Almayer’sFolly。\"

  Havingconfessedthatmyfirstnovelwasbeguninidleness——aholidaytask——IthinkIhavealsogiventheimpressionthatitwasamuch-delayedbook。Itwasneverdismissedfrommymind,evenwhenthehopeofeverfinishingitwasveryfaint。Manythingscameinitsway:dailyduties,newimpressions,oldmemories。Itwasnottheoutcomeofaneed——thefamousneedofself-expressionwhichartistsfindintheirsearchformotives。

  Thenecessitywhichimpelledmewasahidden,obscurenecessity,acompletelymaskedandunaccountablephenomenon。Orperhapssomeidleandfrivolousmagician(theremustbemagiciansinLondon)hadcastaspellovermethroughhisparlourwindowasI

  exploredthemazeofstreetseastandwestinsolitaryleisurelywalkswithoutchartandcompass。TillIbegantowritethatnovelIhadwrittennothingbutletters,andnotverymanyofthese。Inevermadeanoteofafact,ofanimpression,orofananecdoteinmylife。TheconceptionofaplannedbookwasentirelyoutsidemymentalrangewhenIsatdowntowrite;theambitionofbeinganauthorhadneverturnedupamongthosegraciousimaginaryexistencesonecreatesfondlyforoneselfattimesinthestillnessandimmobilityofaday-dream:yetitstandsclearasthesunatnoondaythatfromthemomentIhaddoneblackeningoverthefirstmanuscriptpageof\"Almayer’sFolly\"(itcontainedabouttwohundredwordsandthisproportionofwordstoapagehasremainedwithmethroughthefifteenyearsofmywritinglife),fromthemomentIhad,inthesimplicityofmyheartandtheamazingignoranceofmymind,writtenthatpagethediewascast。NeverhadRubiconbeenmoreblindlyfordedwithoutinvocationtothegods,withoutfearofmen。

  ThatmorningIgotupfrommybreakfast,pushingthechairback,andrangthebellviolently,orperhapsIshouldsayresolutely,orperhapsIshouldsayeagerly——Idonotknow。Butmanifestlyitmusthavebeenaspecialringofthebell,acommonsoundmadeimpressive,liketheringingofabellfortheraisingofthecurtainuponanewscene。Itwasanunusualthingformetodo。

  Generally,IdawdledovermybreakfastandIseldomtookthetroubletoringthebellforthetabletobeclearedaway;butonthatmorning,forsomereasonhiddeninthegeneralmysteriousnessoftheevent,Ididnotdawdle。AndyetIwasnotinahurry。Ipulledthecordcasually,andwhilethefainttinklingsomewheredowninthebasementwenton,IchargedmypipeintheusualwayandIlookedforthematch-boxwithglancesdistraughtindeed,butexhibiting,Iamreadytoswear,nosignsofafinefrenzy。Iwascomposedenoughtoperceiveaftersomeconsiderabletimethematch-boxlyingthereonthemantelpiecerightundermynose。Andallthiswasbeautifullyandsafelyusual。BeforeIhadthrowndownthematchmylandlady’sdaughterappearedwithhercalm,palefaceandaninquisitivelook,inthedoorway。Oflateitwasthelandlady’sdaughterwhoansweredmybell。Imentionthislittlefactwithpride,becauseitprovesthatduringthethirtyorfortydaysofmytenancyIhadproducedafavourableimpression。ForafortnightpastIhadbeensparedtheunattractivesightofthedomesticslave。ThegirlsinthatBessboroughGardenshousewereoftenchanged,butwhethershortorlong,fairordark,theywerealwaysuntidyandparticularlybedraggled,asifinasordidversionofthefairytaletheash-bincathadbeenchangedintoamaid。Iwasinfinitelysensibleoftheprivilegeofbeingwaitedonbymylandlady’sdaughter。Shewasneatifanemic。

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