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  Itworriedhimthatpostscript.Hecouldnotmakeoutforalongtimewhyitworriedhim.Suddenly,inawasteofendlesssnows,theexplanationflashedacrosshim.Sylviaoftheletterswasalivingwoman!Shecouldtravel——withabox,hesupposed,possiblywithtwoorthree,andparcels.Couldtaketickets,walkupagangway,staggeraboutadeckfeeling,maybe,alittleseasick.Alltheseyearshehadbeenlivingwithherindreamlandshehadbeen,ifhehadonlyknownit,aMissSomebody—or—other,whomusthavestoodeverymorninginfrontofalooking—glasswithhairpinsinhermouth.Hehadneverthoughtofherdoingthesethings;itshockedhim.Hecouldnothelpfeelingitwasindelicateofher——comingtolifeinthissudden,uncalled—formanner.

  Hestruggledwiththisnewconceptionofher,andhadalmostforgivenher,whenafurtherandstillmorestartlingsuggestionarrivedtoplaguehim.Ifshereallylivedwhyshouldhenotseeher,speaktoher?Solongasshehadremainedinherhiddentemple,situateinthevaguerecessesofLondon,S.E.,herlettershadcontentedhim.Butnowthatshehadmoved,nowthatshewasnolongeravoicebutawoman!Well,itwouldbeinterestingtoseewhatshewaslike.Heimaginedtheintroduction:\"MissSomebody—

  or—other,allowmetopresentyoutoMr.MatthewPole.\"ShewouldhavenoideahewasAstonRowant.Ifshehappenedtobeyoung,beautiful,inallwayssatisfactory,hewouldannouncehimself.Howastonished,howdelightedshewouldbe.

  Butifnot!Ifshewereelderly,plain?Thewisest,wittiestofwomenhavebeenknowntohaveanincipientmoustache.Abeautifulspiritcan,andsometimesdoes,lookoutofgoggleeyes.Supposeshesufferedfromindigestionandhadashinynose!Wouldherletterseveragainhavethesamecharmforhim?Absurdthattheyshouldnot.Butwouldthey?

  Theriskwastoogreat.Givingthematterlongandcarefulconsideration,hedecidedtosendherbackintodreamland.

  Butsomehowshewouldnotgobackintodreamland,wouldpersistinremaininginNewYork,aliving,breathingwoman.

  Yetevenso,howcouldhefindher?Hemight,say,inapoemconveytoherhisdesireforameeting.Wouldshecomply?Andifshedid,whatwouldbehisposition,supposingtheinspectiontoresultunfavourablyforher?Couldhe,ineffect,saytoher:\"Thankyouforlettingmehavealookatyou;thatisallIwanted.Good—bye\"?

  Shemust,sheshouldremainindreamland.Hewouldforgetherpostscript;infuturethrowherenvelopesunglancedatintothewastepaperbasket.HavingbythissimpleexerciseofhiswillreplacedherinLondon,hehimselfstartedforNewYork——onhiswaybacktoEurope,sohetoldhimself.Still,beinginNewYork,therewasnoreasonfornotlingeringthereawhile,ifmerelytorenewoldmemories.

  Ofcourse,ifhehadreallywantedtofindSylviaitwouldhavebeeneasyfromthedateupontheenvelopetohavediscoveredtheship\"sailingthefollowingSaturday.\"Passengerswerecompelledtoregistertheirnamesinfull,andtostatetheirintendedmovementsafterarrivalinAmerica.SylviawasnotacommonChristianname.

  Bythehelpofafive—dollarbillortwo——.Theideahadnotoccurredtohimbefore.Hedismisseditfromhismindandsoughtaquiethoteluptown.

  NewYorkwaschangedlessthanhehadanticipated.WestTwentiethStreetinparticularwaspreciselyas,leaningoutofthecabwindow,hehadlookedbackuponittenyearsago.Businesshadmoreandmoretakenpossessionofit,buthadnotasyetaltereditsappearance.HisconsciencesmotehimasheturnedthecornerthathehadneveroncewrittentoAnn.Hehadmeantto,itgoeswithoutsaying,butduringthosefirstyearsofstruggleandfailurehispridehadheldhimback.Shehadalwaysthoughthimafool;hehadfeltshedid.Hewouldwaittillhecouldwritetoherofsuccess,ofvictory.Andthenwhenithadslowly,almostimperceptibly,arrived——!Hewonderedwhyheneverhad.Quiteanicelittlegirl,insomerespects.Ifonlyshehadbeenlessconceited,lessself—willed.Alsoratheraprettygirlshehadshownsignsofbecoming.Thereweretimes——Herememberedaneveningbeforethelampswerelighted.ShehadfallenasleepcurledupinAbner’seasychair,onesmallhandrestinguponthearm.Shehadalwayshadquiteattractivehands——alittletoothin.Somethinghadmovedhimtostealacrosssoftlywithoutwakingher.Hesmiledatthememory.

  Andthenhereyes,beneaththelevelbrows!ItwassurprisinghowAnnwascomingbacktohim.Perhapstheywouldbeabletotellhim,thepeopleofthehouse,whathadbecomeofher.Iftheyweredecentpeopletheywouldlethimwanderroundawhile.HewouldexplainthathehadlivedthereinAbnerHerrick’stime.TheroomwheretheyhadsometimesbeenagreeabletooneanotherwhileAbner,pretendingtoread,hadsatwatchingthemoutofthecornerofaneye.Hewouldliketositthereforafewmoments,byhimself.

  Heforgotthathehadrungthebell.Averyyoungservanthadansweredthedoorandwasstaringathim.Hewouldhavewalkedinifthesmallservanthadnotplantedherselfdeliberatelyinhisway.Itrecalledhimtohimself.

  \"Ibegpardon,\"saidMatthew,\"butwouldyoupleasetellmewholiveshere?\"

  Thesmallservantlookedhimupanddownwithgrowingsuspicion.

  \"MissKavanaghliveshere,\"shesaid.\"Whatdoyouwant?\"

  Thesurprisewassogreatitrenderedhimspeechless.Inanothermomentthesmallservantwouldhaveslammedthedoor.

  \"MissAnnKavanagh?\"heinquired,justintime.

  \"That’shername,\"admittedthesmallservant,lesssuspicious.

  \"WillyoupleasetellherMr.Pole——Mr.MatthewPole,\"herequested.

  \"I’llseefirstifsheisin,\"saidthesmallservant,andshutthedoor.

  ItgaveMatthewafewminutestorecoverhimself,forwhichhewasglad.Thenthedooropenedagainsuddenly.

  \"Youaretocomeupstairs,\"saidthesmallservant.

  ItsoundedsolikeAnnthatitquiteputhimathisease.Hefollowedthesmallservantupthestairs.

  \"Mr.MatthewPole,\"sheannouncedseverely,andclosedthedoorbehindhim.

  Annwasstandingbythewindowandcametomeethim.ItwasinfrontofAbner’semptychairthattheyshookhands.

  \"Soyouhavecomebacktotheoldhouse,\"saidMatthew.

  \"Yes,\"sheanswered.\"Itneverletwell.ThelastpeoplewhohaditgaveitupatChristmas.Itseemedthebestthingtodo,evenfromapurelyeconomicalpointofview.

  \"Whathaveyoubeendoingalltheseyears?\"sheaskedhim.

  \"Oh,knockingabout,\"heanswered.\"Earningmyliving.\"HewascurioustodiscoverwhatshethoughtofMatthew,firstofall.

  \"Itseemstohaveagreedwithyou,\"shecommented,withaglancethattookhimingenerally,includinghisclothes.

  \"Yes,\"heanswered.\"IhavehadmoreluckthanperhapsIdeserved.\"

  \"Iamgladofthat,\"saidAnn.

  Helaughed.\"Soyouhaven’tchangedsoverymuch,\"hesaid.

  \"Exceptinappearance.

  \"Isn’tthatthemostimportantpartofawoman?\"suggestedAnn.

  \"Yes,\"heanswered,thinking.\"Isupposeitis.\"

  Shewascertainlyverybeautiful.

  \"HowlongareyoustoppinginNewYork?\"sheaskedhim.

  \"Oh,notlong,\"heexplained.

  \"Don’tleaveitforanothertenyears,\"shesaid,\"beforelettingmeknowwhatishappeningtoyou.Wedidn’tgetonverywelltogetheraschildren;butwemustn’tlethimthinkwe’renotfriends.Itwouldhurthim.\"

  Shespokequiteseriously,asifshewereexpectinghimanymomenttoopenthedoorandjointhem.InvoluntarilyMatthewglancedroundtheroom.Nothingseemedaltered.Theworncarpet,thefadedcurtains,Abner’seasychair,hispipeuponthecornerofthemantelpiecebesidethevaseofspills.

  \"Itiscurious,\"hesaid,\"findingthisveinoffancy,oftendernessinyou.Ialwaysregardedyouassuchapractical,unsentimentalyoungperson.\"

  \"Perhapsweneitherofuskneweachothertoowell,inthosedays,\"

  sheanswered.

  Thesmallservantenteredwiththetea.

  \"Whathaveyoubeendoingwithyourself?\"heasked,drawinghischairuptothetable.

  Shewaitedtillthesmallservanthadwithdrawn.

  \"Oh,knockingabout,\"sheanswered.\"Earningmyliving.\"

  \"Itseemstohaveagreedwithyou,\"herepeated,smiling.

  \"It’sallrightnow,\"sheanswered.\"Itwasabitofastruggleatfirst.\"

  \"Yes,\"heagreed.\"Lifedoesn’ttemperthewindtothehumanlamb.

  Butwasthereanyneedinyourcase?\"heasked.\"Ithought——\"

  \"Oh,thatallwent,\"sheexplained.\"Exceptthehouse.\"

  \"I’msorry,\"saidMatthew.\"Ididn’tknow.\"

  \"Oh,wehavebeenacoupleofpigs,\"shelaughed,replyingtohisthoughts.\"Ididsometimesthinkofwritingyou.Ikepttheaddressyougaveme.Notforanyassistance;Iwantedtofightitoutformyself.ButIwasabitlonely.\"

  \"Whydidn’tyou?\"heasked.

  Shehesitatedforamoment.

  \"It’srathersoontomakeupone’smind,\"shesaid,\"butyouseemtometohavechanged.Yourvoicesoundssodifferent.Butasaboy——

  well,youwereabitofaprig,weren’tyou?Iimaginedyouwritingmegoodadviceandexcellentshortsermons.Anditwasn’tthatthatIwaswanting.\"

  \"IthinkIunderstand,\"hesaid.\"I’mgladyougotthrough.

  \"Whatisyourline?\"heasked.\"Journalism?\"

  \"No,\"sheanswered.\"Tooself—opinionated.\"

  Sheopenedabureauthathadalwaysbeenherownandhandedhimaprogramme.\"MissAnnKavanagh,Contralto,\"wasannouncedonitasoneofthechiefattractions.

  \"Ididn’tknowyouhadavoice,\"saidMatthew.

  \"Youusedtocomplainofit,\"sheremindedhim.

  \"Yourspeakingvoice,\"hecorrectedher.\"Anditwasn’tthequalityofthatIobjectedto.Itwasthequantity.\"

  Shelaughed.

  \"Yes,wekeptourselvesprettybusybringingoneanotherup,\"sheadmitted.

  Theytalkedawhilelonger:ofAbnerandhiskind,quaintways;ofoldfriends.Annhadlosttouchwithmostofthem.ShehadstudiedsinginginBrussels,andafterwardshermasterhadmovedtoLondonandshehadfollowedhim.ShehadonlyjustlatelyreturnedtoNewYork.

  Thesmallservantenteredtoclearawaytheteathings.ShesaidshethoughtthatAnnhadrung.Hertoneimpliedthatanyhowitwastimeshehad.MatthewroseandAnnheldoutherhand.

  \"Ishallbeattheconcert,\"hesaid.

  \"Itisn’ttillnextweek,\"Annremindedhim.

  \"Oh,I’mnotinanyparticularhurry,\"saidMatthew.\"Areyougenerallyinofanafternoon?\"

  \"Sometimes,\"saidAnn.

  Hethoughtashesatwatchingherfromhisstallthatshewasoneofthemostbeautifulwomenhehadeverseen.Hervoicewasnotgreat.

  Shehadwarnedhimnottoexpecttoomuch.

  \"ItwillneversettheThamesonfire,\"shehadsaid.\"Ithoughtatfirstthatitwould.ButsuchasitisIthankGodforit.\"

  Itwasworththat.Itwassweetandclearandhadatenderquality.

  Matthewwaitedforherattheend.Shewasfeelingwelldisposedtowardsallcreaturesandacceptedhissuggestionofsupperwithgraciouscondescension.

  Hehadcalledonheronceortwiceduringtheprecedingdays.Itwasduetoherafterhislongneglectofher,hetoldhimself,andhadfoundimprovementinher.Butto—nightsheseemedtotakeafreakishpleasureinlettinghimseethattherewasmuchoftheoldAnnstillleftinher:thefrankconceitofher;theamazingself—opinionatednessofher;thewaywardness,thewilfulness,theunreasonablenessofher;thegeneraluppishnessanddictatorialnessofher;thecontradictorinessandflatimpertinenceofher;theswifttemperandexasperatingtongueofher.

  Itwasalmostasifshewerewarninghim.\"Yousee,Iamnotchanged,except,asyousay,inappearance.IamstillAnnwithalltheoldfaultsandfailingsthatoncemadelifeinthesamehousewithmeaconstanttrialtoyou.Justnowmyveryimperfectionsappearcharms.Youhavebeenlookingatthesun——atthegloryofmyface,atthewonderofmyarmsandhands.Youreyesareblinded.

  Butthatwillpass.AndunderneathIamstillAnn.JustAnn.\"

  Theyhadquarrelledinthecabonthewayhome.Heforgotwhatitwasabout,butAnnhadsaidsomequiterudethings,andherfacenotbeingthereinthedarknesstoexcuseher,ithadmadehimveryangry.Shehadlaughedagainonthesteps,andtheyhadshakenhands.ButwalkinghomethroughthestillstreetsSylviahadpluckedathiselbow.

  Whatfoolswemortalsbe——especiallymen!Herewasanoblewoman——arestful,understanding,tenderlylovingwoman;awomanasnearlyapproachingperfectionasitwassafeforawomantogo!Thismarvellouswomanwaswaitingforhimwithoutstretchedarms(whyshouldhedoubtit?)——andjustbecauseNaturehadatlastsucceededinmakingatemporarysuccessofAnn’sskinandhadfashionedaroundedlineabovehershoulder—blade!Itmadehimquitecrosswithhimself.Tenyearsagoshehadbeengawkyandsallow—complexioned.

  Tenyearshenceshemightcatchtheyellowjaundiceandloseitall.

  PassagesinSylvia’slettersreturnedtohim.Herememberedthatfar—offeveninginhisParisatticwhenshehadknockedathisdoorwithhergreatgiftofthanks.Recalledhowhersoftshadowhandhadstilledhispain.HespentthenexttwodayswithSylvia.Here—readallherletters,livedagainthescenesandmoodsinwhichhehadrepliedtothem.

  Herpersonalitystilldefiedtheeffortsofhisimagination,butheendedbyconvincinghimselfthathewouldknowherwhenhesawher.

  ButcountingupthewomenonFifthAvenuetowardswhomhehadfeltinstinctivelydrawn,andfindingthatthenumberhadalreadyreachedeleven,begantodoubthisintuition.OnthemorningofthethirddayhemetAnnbychanceinabookseller’sshop.Herbackwastowardshim.ShewasglancingthroughAstonRowant’slatestvolume.

  \"WhatI,\"saidthecheerfulyoungladywhowasattendingtoher,\"likeabouthimisthatheunderstandswomensowell.\"

  \"WhatIlikeabouthim,\"saidAnn,\"isthathedoesn’tpretendto.\"

  \"There’ssomethinginthat,\"agreedthecheerfulyounglady.\"Theysayhe’shereinNewYork.\"

  Annlookedup.

  \"SoI’vebeentold,\"saidthecheerfulyounglady.

  \"Iwonderwhathe’slike?\"saidAnn.

  \"Hewroteforalongtimeunderanothername,\"volunteeredthecheerfulyounglady.\"He’squiteanelderlyman.\"

  ItirritatedMatthew.Hespokewithoutthinking.

  \"No,heisn’t,\"hesaid.\"He’squiteyoung.\"

  Theladiesturnedandlookedathim.

  \"Youknowhim?\"queriedAnn.Shewasmostastonished,andappeareddisbelieving.Thatirritatedhimfurther.

  \"Ifyoucareaboutit,\"hesaid.\"Iwillintroduceyoutohim.\"

  Annmadenoanswer.Heboughtacopyofthebookforhimself,andtheywentouttogether.Theyturnedtowardsthepark.

  Annseemedthoughtful.\"WhatishedoinghereinNewYork?\"shewondered.

  \"LookingforaladynamedSylvia,\"answeredMatthew.

  Hethoughtthetimewascometobreakittoherthathewasagreatandfamousman.Thenperhapsshewouldbesorryshehadsaidwhatshehadsaidinthecab.Seeinghehadmadeuphismindthathisrelationshiptoherinthefuturewouldbethatofanaffectionatebrother,therewouldbenoharminalsolettingherknowaboutSylvia.Thatalsomightbegoodforher.

  TheywalkedtwoblocksbeforeAnnspoke.Matthew,anticipatingapleasurableconversation,feltnodesiretohastenmatters.

  \"Howintimateareyouwithhim?\"shedemanded.\"Idon’tthinkhewouldhavesaidthattoamereacquaintance.\"

  \"I’mnotamereacquaintance,\"saidMatthew.\"I’veknownhimalongtime.\"

  \"Younevertoldme,\"complainedAnn.

  \"Didn’tknowitwouldinterestyou,\"repliedMatthew.

  Hewaitedforfurtherquestions,buttheydidnotcome.AtThirty—

  fourthStreethesavedherfrombeingrunoverandkilled,andagainatForty—secondStreet.Justinsidetheparkshestoppedabruptlyandheldoutherhand.

  \"Tellhim,\"shereplied,\"thatifheisreallyseriousaboutfindingSylvia,Imay——Idon’tsayIcan——butImaybeabletohelphim.\"

  Hedidnottakeherhand,butstoodstockstillinthemiddleofthepathandstaredather.

  \"You!\"hesaid.\"Youknowher?\"

  Shewaspreparedforhissurprise.Shewasalsoprepared——notwithalie,thatimpliesevilintention.Heronlyobjectwastohaveatalkwiththegentlemanandseewhathewaslikebeforedecidingonherfutureproceedings——letussay,withaplausiblestory.

  \"Wecrossedonthesameboat,\"shesaid.\"Wefoundtherewasagooddealincommonbetweenus.She——shetoldmethings.\"Whenyoucametothinkitoutitwasalmostthetruth.

  \"Whatisshelike?\"demandedMatthew.

  \"Oh,just——well,notexactly——\"Itwasanawkwardquestion.Therecametoherreliefthereflectionthattherewasreallynoneedforhertoanswerit.

  \"What’sitgottodowithyou?\"shesaid.

  \"IamAstonRowant,\"saidMatthew.

  TheCentralPark,togetherwiththeuniverseingeneral,fellawayanddisappeared.Somewhereoutofchaoswassoundingaplaintivevoice:\"Whatisshelike?Can’tyoutellme?Issheyoungorold?\"

  Itseemedtohavebeengoingonforages.Shemadeonesupremegiganticeffort,causingtheCentralParktoreappear,dimly,faintly,butitwasthereagain.Shewassittingonaseat.

  Matthew——AstonRowant,whateveritwas——wasseatedbesideher.

  \"You’veseenher?Whatisshelike?\"

  \"Ican’ttellyou.\"

  Hewasevidentlyverycrosswithher.Itseemedsounkindofhim.

  \"Whycan’tyoutellme——or,whywon’tyoutellme?Doyoumeanshe’stooawfulforwords?\"

  \"No,certainlynot——asamatteroffact——\"

  \"Well,what?\"

  Shefeltshemustgetawayortherewouldbehystericssomewhere.

  Shesprangupandbegantowalkrapidlytowardsthegate.Hefollowedher.

  \"I’llwriteyou,\"saidAnn.

  \"Butwhy——?\"

  \"Ican’t,\"saidAnn.\"I’vegotarehearsal.\"

  Acarwaspassing.Shemadeadashforitandclamberedon.Beforehecouldmakeuphismindithadgatheredspeed.

  Annletherselfinwithherkey.Shecalleddownstairstothesmallservantthatshewasn’ttobedisturbedforanything.Shelockedthedoor.

  SoitwastoMatthewthatforsixyearsshehadbeenpouringoutherinmostthoughtsandfeelings!ItwastoMatthewthatshehadlaidbarehertenderest,mostsacreddreams!ItwasatMatthew’sfeetthatforsixyearsshehadbeensitting,gazingupwithrespectfuladmiration,withreverentialdevotion!Sherecalledherletters,almostpassageforpassage,tillshehadtoholdherhandstoherfacetocoolit.Herindignation,onemightalmostsayfury,lastedtilltea—time.

  Intheevening——itwasintheeveningtimethatshehadalwayswrittentohim——amorereasonableframeofmindasserteditself.

  Afterall,itwashardlyhisfault.Hecouldn’thaveknownwhoshewas.Hedidn’tknownow.Shehadwantedtowrite.Withoutdoubthehadhelpedher,comfortedherloneliness;hadgivenheracharmingfriendship,adelightfulcomradeship.Muchofhisworkhadbeenwrittenforher,toher.Itwasfinework.Shehadbeenproudofhershareinit.Evenallowingtherewerefaults——irritability,shortnessoftemper,atendencytobossiness!——underneathitallwasaman.Thegallantstruggle,thedifficultiesovercome,thelongsuffering,thehighcourage——allthatshe,readingbetweenthelines,haddivinedofhislife’sbattle!Yes,itwasamanshehadworshipped.Awomanneednotbeashamedofthat.AsMatthewhehadseemedtoherconceited,priggish.AsAstonRowantshewonderedathismodesty,hispatience.

  Andalltheseyearshehadbeendreamingofher;hadfollowedhertoNewYork;had——

  Therecameasuddenmoodsoludicrous,soabsurdlyunreasonablethatAnnherselfstoppedtolaughatit.Yetitwasreal,andithurt.

  HehadcometoNewYorkthinkingofSylvia,yearningforSylvia.HehadcometoNewYorkwithonedesire:tofindSylvia.AndthefirstprettywomanthathadcomeacrosshispathhadsentSylviacleanoutofhishead.Therecouldbenoquestionofthat.WhenAnnKavanaghstretchedoutherhandtohiminthatveryroomafortnightagohehadstoodbeforeherdazzled,captured.FromthatmomentSylviahadbeentossedasideandforgotten.AnnKavanaghcouldhavedonewhatshelikedwithhim.Shehadquarrelledwithhimthateveningoftheconcert.Shehadmeanttoquarrelwithhim.

  AndthenforthefirsttimehehadrememberedSylvia.Thatwasherreward——Sylvia’s:itwasSylviashewasthinkingof——forsixyears’

  devotedfriendship;forthehelp,theinspirationshehadgivenhim.

  AsSylvia,shesufferedfromaverygenuineandexplainablewaveofindignantjealousy.AsAnn,sheadmittedheoughtnottohavedoneit,butfelttherewasexcuseforhim.Betweenthetwoshefearedhermindwouldeventuallygiveway.OnthemorningoftheseconddayshesentMatthewanoteaskinghimtocallintheafternoon.

  Sylviamightbethere,orshemightnot.Shewouldmentionittoher.

  Shedressedherselfinaquiet,dark—colouredfrock.Itseemeduncommittalandsuitabletotheoccasion.Italsohappenedtobethecolourthatbestsuitedher.Shewouldnothavethelampslighted.

  Matthewarrivedinadarksergesuitandabluenecktie,sothatthegeneraleffectwasquiet.Anngreetedhimwithkindlinessandputhimwithhisfacetowhatlittlelighttherewas.Shechoseforherselfthewindow—seat.Sylviahadnotarrived.Shemightbealittlelate——thatis,ifshecameatall.

  Theytalkedabouttheweatherforawhile.Matthewwasofopiniontheyweregoingtohavesomerain.Ann,whowasinoneofhercontradictorymoods,thoughttherewasfrostintheair.

  \"Whatdidyousaytoher?\"heasked.

  \"Sylvia?Oh,whatyoutoldme,\"repliedAnn.\"ThatyouhadcometoNewYorkto——tolookforher.\"

  \"Whatdidshesay?\"heasked.

  \"Saidyou’dtakenyourtimeaboutit,\"retortedAnn.

  Matthewlookedupwithaninjuredexpression.

  \"Itwasherownideathatweshouldnevermeet,\"heexplained.

  \"Um!\"Anngrunted.

  \"Whatdoyouthinkyourselfshewillbelike?\"shecontinued.\"Haveyouformedanynotion?\"

  \"Itiscurious,\"hereplied.\"Ihaveneverbeenabletoconjureupanypictureofheruntiljustnow.\"

  \"Why’justnow’?\"demandedAnn.

  \"IhadanideaIshouldfindherherewhenIopenedthedoor,\"heanswered.\"Youwerestandingintheshadow.ItseemedtobejustwhatIhadexpected.\"

  \"Youwouldhavebeensatisfied?\"sheasked.

  \"Yes,\"hesaid.

  Therewassilenceforamoment.

  \"UncleAbmadeamistake,\"hecontinued.\"Heoughttohavesentmeaway.Letmecomehomenowandthen.\"

  \"Youmean,\"saidAnn,\"thatifyouhadseenlessofmeyoumighthavelikedmebetter?\"

  \"Quiteright,\"headmitted.\"Weneverseethethingsthatarealwaysthere.\"

  \"Athin,gawkygirlwithabadcomplexion,\"shesuggested.\"Wouldithavebeenofanyuse?\"

  \"Youmustalwayshavebeenwonderfulwiththoseeyes,\"heanswered.

  \"Andyourhandswerebeautifuleventhen.\"

  \"IusedtocrysometimeswhenIlookedatmyselfintheglassasachild,\"sheconfessed.\"Myhandsweretheonlythingthatconsoledme.\"

  \"Ikissedthemonce,\"hetoldher.\"Youwereasleep,curledupinUncleAb’schair.\"

  \"Iwasn’tasleep,\"saidAnn.

  Shewasseatedwithonefoottuckedunderneathher.Shedidn’tlookabitgrownup.

  \"Youalwaysthoughtmeafool,\"hesaid.

  \"Itusedtomakemesoangrywithyou,\"saidAnn,\"thatyouseemedtohavenogo,noambitioninyou.Iwantedyoutowakeup——dosomething.IfIhadknownyouwereabuddinggenius——\"

  \"Ididhintittoyou,\"saidhe.

  \"Oh,ofcourseitwasallmyfault,\"saidAnn.

  Herose.\"Youthinkshemeanstocome?\"heasked.Annalsohadrisen.

  \"Isshesoverywonderful?\"sheasked.

  \"Imaybeexaggeratingtomyself,\"heanswered.\"ButIamnotsurethatIcouldgoonwithmyworkwithouther——notnow.\"

  \"Youforgother,\"flashedAnn,\"tillwehappenedtoquarrelinthecab.\"

  \"Ioftendo,\"heconfessed.\"Tillsomethinggoeswrong.Thenshecomestome.Asshedidonthatfirstevening,sixyearsago.Yousee,Ihavebeenmoreorlesslivingwithhersincethen,\"headdedwithasmile.

  \"Indreamland,\"Anncorrected.

  \"Yes,butinmycase,\"heanswered,\"thebestpartofmylifeispassedindreamland.\"

  \"Andwhenyouarenotindreamland?\"shedemanded.\"Whenyou’rejustirritable,short—tempered,crankyMatthewPole.What’sshegoingtodoaboutyouthen?\"

  \"She’llputupwithme,\"saidMatthew.

  \"Noshewon’t,\"saidAnn.\"She’llsnapyourheadoff.Mostofthe’puttingupwith’you’llhavetodo.\"

  Hetriedtogetbetweenherandthewindow,butshekeptherfaceclosetothepane.

  \"YoumakemetiredwithSylvia,\"shesaid.\"It’sabouttimeyoudidknowwhatshe’slike.She’sjustthecommonplace,short—tempered,disagreeable—if—she—doesn’t—get—her—own—way,unreasonablewoman.

  Onlymoreso.\"

  Hedrewherawayfromthewindowbybruteforce.

  \"Soyou’reSylvia,\"hesaid.

  \"Ithoughtthatwouldgetitintoyourhead,\"saidAnn.

  Itwasnotatallthewayshehadmeanttobreakittohim.ShehadmeanttheconversationtobechieflyaboutSylvia.ShehadahighopinionofSylvia,amuchhigheropinionthanshehadofAnnKavanagh.Ifheprovedtobeworthyofher——ofSylvia,thatis,then,withthewhimsicalsmilethatshefeltbelongedtoSylvia,shewouldremarkquitesimply,\"Well,whathaveyougottosaytoher?\"

  WhathadhappenedtointerferewiththeprogrammewasAnnKavanagh.

  ItseemedthatAnnKavanaghhaddislikedMatthewPolelessthanshehadthoughtshedid.ItwasafterhehadsailedawaythatlittleAnnKavanaghhaddiscoveredthis.Ifonlyhehadshownalittlemoreinterestin,alittlemoreappreciationof,AnnKavanagh!Hecouldbekindandthoughtfulinapatronisingsortofway.Eventhatwouldnothavematterediftherehadbeenanyjustificationforhisairsofsuperiority.

  AnnKavanagh,whooughttohavetakenabackseatonthisoccasion,hadpersistedincomingtothefront.Itwassolikeher.

  \"Well,\"shesaid,\"whatareyougoingtosaytoher?\"Shedidgetitin,afterall.

  \"Iwasgoing,\"saidMatthew,\"totalktoheraboutArtandLiterature,touching,maybe,uponafewothersubjects.Also,I

  mighthavesuggestedourseeingeachotheragainonceortwice,justtogetbetteracquainted.AndthenIwasgoingaway.\"

  \"Whygoingaway?\"askedAnn.

  \"ToseeifIcouldforgetyou.\"

  Sheturnedtohim.Thefadinglightwasfulluponherface.

  \"Idon’tbelieveyoucould——again,\"shesaid.

  \"No,\"heagreed.\"I’mafraidIcouldn’t.\"

  \"You’resurethere’snobodyelse,\"saidAnn,\"thatyou’reinlovewith.Onlyustwo?\"

  \"Onlyyoutwo,\"hesaid.

  ShewasstandingwithherhandonoldAbner’semptychair.\"You’vegottochoose,\"shesaid.Shewastrembling.Hervoicesoundedjustalittlehard.

  Hecameandstoodbesideher.\"IwantAnn,\"hesaid.

  Sheheldoutherhandtohim.

  \"I’msogladyousaidAnn,\"shelaughed.

  THEFAWNGLOVES.

  Alwaysherememberedherashesawherfirst:thelittlespiritualface,thelittlebrownshoespointeddownwards,theirtoesjusttouchingtheground;thelittlefawnglovesfoldeduponherlap.Hewasnotconsciousofhavingnoticedherwithanyparticularattention:aplainlydressed,childish—lookingfigurealoneonaseatbetweenhimandthesettingsun.Evenhadhefeltcurioushisshynesswouldhavepreventedhisdeliberatelyrunningtheriskofmeetinghereyes.Yetimmediatelyhehadpassedherhesawheragain,quiteclearly:thepaleovalface,thebrownshoes,and,betweenthem,thelittlefawnglovesfoldedoneovertheother.AlldowntheBroadWalkandacrossPrimroseHill,hesawhersilhouettedagainstthesinkingsun.Atleastthatmuchofher:thewistfulfaceandthetrimbrownshoesandthelittlefoldedhands;untilthesunwentdownbehindthehighchimneysofthebrewerybeyondSwissCottage,andthenshefaded.

  Shewasthereagainthenextevening,preciselyinthesameplace.

  UsuallyhewalkedhomebytheHampsteadRoad.Onlyoccasionally,whenthebeautyoftheeveningtemptedhim,wouldhetakethelongerwaybyRegentStreetandthroughthePark.Butsooftenitmadehimfeelsad,thequietPark,forcinguponhimthesenseofhisownloneliness.

  HewouldwalkdownmerelyasfarastheGreatVase,sohearrangedwithhimself.Ifshewerenotthere——itwasnotlikelythatshewouldbe——hewouldturnbackintoAlbanyStreet.Thenewsvendors’

  shopswiththeirdisplayofthecheaperillustratedpapers,thesecond—handfurnituredealerswiththeirfadedengravingsandoldprints,wouldgivehimsomethingtolookat,totakeawayhisthoughtsfromhimself.Butseeingherinthedistance,almostthemomenthehadenteredthegate,itcametohimhowdisappointedhewouldhavebeenhadtheseatinfrontoftheredtulipbedbeenvacant.Alittleawayfromherhepaused,turningtolookattheflowers.Hethoughtthat,waitinghisopportunity,hemightbeabletostealaglanceatherundetected.Onceforamomenthedidso,butventuringasecondtimetheireyesmet,orhefanciedtheydid,andblushingfuriouslyhehurriedpast.Butagainshecamewithhim,or,rather,precededhim.Oneachemptyseatbetweenhimandthesinkingsunhesawherquiteplainly:thepaleovalfaceandthebrownshoes,and,betweenthem,thefawnglovesfoldedoneupontheother.

  Onlythisevening,aboutthesmall,sensitivemouththereseemedtobehoveringjustthefaintestsuggestionofatimidsmile.AndthistimeshelingeredwithhimpastQueen’sCrescentandtheMaldenRoad,tillheturnedintoCarltonStreet.Itwasdarkinthepassage,andhehadtogropehiswayupthestairs,butwithhishandonthedoorofthebed—sittingroomonthethirdfloorhefeltlessafraidofthesolitudethatwouldrisetomeethim.

  AlldaylonginthedingybackofficeinAbingdonStreet,Westminster,wherefromtentosixeachdayhesatcopyingbriefsandpetitions,hethoughtoverwhathewouldsaytoher;tactfulbeginningsbymeansofwhichhewouldslideintoconversationwithher.UpPortlandPlacehewouldrehearsethemtohimself.ButatCambridgeGate,whenthelittlefawnglovescameinview,thewordswouldrunaway,tojoinhimagainmaybeatthegateintotheChesterRoad,leavinghimmeanwhiletopassherwithstiff,hurriedstepsandeyesfixedstraightinfrontofhim.Andsoitmighthavecontinued,butthatoneeveningshewasnolongeratherusualseat.

  Acrowdofnoisychildrenswarmedoverit,andsuddenlyitseemedtohimasifthetreesandflowershadallturneddrab.Aterrorgnawedathisheart,andhehurriedon,morefortheneedofmovementthanwithanydefiniteobject.Andjustbeyondabedofgeraniumsthathadhiddenhisviewshewasseatedonachair,andstoppingwithajerkabsolutelyinfrontofher,hesaid,quiteangrily:

  \"Oh!thereyouare!\"

  Whichwasnotabitthespeechwithwhichhehadintendedtointroducehimself,butservedhispurposejustaswell——perhapsbetter.

  Shedidnotresenthiswordsorthetone.

  \"Itwasthechildren,\"sheexplained.\"Theywantedtoplay;soI

  thoughtIwouldcomeonalittlefarther.\"

  Uponwhich,asamatterofcourse,hetookthechairbesideher,anditdidnotoccurtoeitherofthemthattheyhadnotknownoneanothersincethebeginning,whenbetweenSt.John’sWoodandAlbanyStreetGodplantedagarden.

  Eacheveningtheywouldlingerthere,listeningtothepleadingpassionoftheblackbird’snote,thethrush’scalltojoyandhope.

  Helovedhergentleways.Fromtheboldchallenges,theslyglancesofinvitationflasheduponhiminthestreetorfromsomeneighbouringtableinthecheapluncheonroomhehadalwaysshrunkconfusedandawkward.Hershynessgavehimconfidence.Itwasshewhowashalfafraid,whoseeyeswouldfallbeneathhisgaze,whowouldtrembleathistouch,givinghimthedelightsofmanlydominion,oftenderauthority.Itwashewhoinsistedonthearistocraticseclusionaffordedbytheprivatechair;who,withthecarelessindifferenceofamantowhompennieswereunimportant,wouldpayforthemboth.OnceonhiswaythroughPiccadillyCircushehadpausedbythefountaintoglanceatagreatbasketofliliesofthevalley,strucksuddenlybythethoughthowstrangelytheirlittlepalepetalsseemedsuggestiveofher.

  \"’Erey’are,honey.Herfavouriteflower!\"criedthegirl,withagrin,holdingabunchtowardshim.

  \"Howmuch?\"hehadasked,vainlytryingtokeepthebloodfromrushingtohisface.

  Thegirlpausedamoment,acoarse,kindlycreature.

  \"Sixpence,\"shedemanded;andheboughtthem.Shehadmeanttoaskhimashilling,andknewhewouldhavepaidit.\"Sameassillyfool!\"shecalledherselfasshepocketedthemoney.

  Hegavethemtoherwithafinelordlyair,andwatchedherwhileshepinnedthemtoherblouse,andasquirrelhaltinginthemiddleofthewalkwatchedheralsowithhisheadononeside,wonderingwhatwasthegoodofthemthatsheshouldstorethemwithsomuchcare.Shedidnotthankhiminwords,butthereweretearsinhereyeswhensheturnedherfacetohis,andoneofthelittlefawnglovesstoleoutandsoughthishand.Hetookitinbothhis,andwouldhaveheldit,butshewithdrewitalmosthurriedly.

  Theyappealedtohim,hergloves,inspiteoftheirbeingoldandmuchmended;andhewasgladtheywereofkid.Hadtheybeenofcotton,suchasgirlsofherclassusuallywore,thethoughtofpressinghislipstothemwouldhaveputhisteethonedge.Helovedthelittlebrownshoes,thatmusthavebeenexpensivewhennew,fortheystillkepttheirshape.Andthefringeofdaintypetticoat,alwayssospotlessandwithneveratear,andtheneat,plainstockingsthatshowedbelowthecloselyfittingfrock.Sooftenhehadnoticedgirls,showily,extravagantlydressed,butwithredbarehandsandsloppyshoes.Handsomegirls,someofthem,attractiveenoughifyouwerenotofafinickingnature,towhomthelittleaccessoriesarealmostofmoreimportancethanthewhole.

  Helovedhervoice,sodifferentfromthestridenttonesthateverynowandthen,assomecouple,laughingandtalking,passedthem,wouldfalluponhimalmostlikeablow;herquick,gracefulmovementsthatalwaysbroughtbacktohismemorythevisionofhillandstream.Inherlittlebrownshoesandglovesandthefrockwhichwasalsoofashadeofbrownthoughdarker,shewasstrangelysuggestivetohimofafawn.Thegentlelook,theswift,softmovementsthathavetakenplacebeforetheyareseen;thehauntingsuggestionoffearneverquiteconquered,asifthelittlenervouslimbswerealwaysreadyforsuddenflight.Hecalledherthatoneday.Neitherofthemhadeverthoughttoaskoneanother’snames;

  itdidnotseemtomatter.

  \"Mylittlebrownfawn,\"hehadwhispered,\"Iamalwaysexpectingyoutosuddenlydigyourlittleheelsintothegroundandspringaway\";

  andshehadlaughedanddrawnalittleclosertohim.Andeventhatwasjustthemovementofafawn.Hehadknownthem,creepingneartothemuponthehill—sideswhenhewasachild.

  Therewasmuchincommonbetweenthem,sotheyfound.ThoughhecouldclaimafewdistantrelativesscatteredabouttheNorth,theywereboth,forallpracticalpurposes,aloneintheworld.Toher,also,homemeantabed—sittingroom——\"overthere,\"assheindicatedwithawaveofthelittlefawngloveembracingthenorth—westdistrictgenerally;andhedidnotpressherforanymorepreciseaddress.

  Itwaseasyenoughforhimtopictureit:themean,close—smellingstreetsomewhereintheneighbourhoodofLissonGrove,orfartherontowardstheHarrowRoad.Alwayshepreferredtosaygood—byetoheratsomepointintheOuterCircle,withitspeacefulvistaoffinetreesandstatelyhouses,watchingherlittlefawn—likefigurefadingawayintothetwilight.

  Nofriendorrelativehadsheeverknown,exceptthepale,girlish—lookingmotherwhohaddiedsoonaftertheyhadcometoLondon.Theelderlylandladyhadletherstayon,helpingintheworkofthehouse;andwheneventhislastrefugehadfailedher,well—meaningfolkhadinterestedthemselvesandsecuredheremployment.Itwaslightandfairlywellpaid,buttherewereobjectionstoit,sohegathered,morefromherhaltingsilencesthanfromwhatshesaid.Shehadtriedforatimetofindsomethingelse,butitwassodifficultwithouthelporresources.Therewasnothingreallytocomplainaboutit,except——Andthenshepausedwithasuddenclaspoftheglovedhands,and,seeingthetroubledlookinhereyes,hehadchangedtheconversation.

  Itdidnotmatter;hewouldtakeherawayfromit.Itwasverysweettohim,thethoughtofputtingaprotectivearmaboutthislittlefragilecreaturewhoseweaknessgavehimstrength.Hewasnotalwaysgoingtobeaclerkinanoffice.Hewasgoingtowritepoetry,books,plays.Alreadyhehadearnedalittle.Hetoldherofhishopes,andhergreatfaithinhimgavehimnewcourage.Oneevening,findingaseatwherefewpeopleeverpassed,hereadtoher.Andshehadunderstood.Allunconsciouslyshelaughedintherightplaces,andwhenhisownvoicetrembled,andhefounditdifficulttocontinueforthelumpinhisownthroat,glancingatherhesawthetearswereinhereyes.Itwasthefirsttimehehadtastedsympathy.

  Andsospringgrewtosummer.Andthenoneeveningagreatthinghappened.Hecouldnotmakeoutatfirstwhatitwasabouther:

  somelittleaddedfragrancethatmadeitselfoddlyfelt,whilesheherselfseemedtobeconsciousofincreaseddignity.Itwasnotuntilhetookherhandtosaygood—byethathediscoveredit.Therewassomethingdifferentaboutthefeelofher,and,lookingdownatthelittlehandthatlayinhis,hefoundthereason.Shehadonapairofnewgloves.Theywerestillofthesamefawncolour,butsosmoothandsoftandcool.Theyfittedcloselywithoutawrinkle,displayingtheslightnessandthegracefulnessofthehandsbeneath.

  Thetwilighthadalmostfaded,and,saveforthebroadbackofadisappearingpoliceman,theyhadtheOuterCircletothemselves;

  and,thesuddenimpulsecomingtohim,hedroppedononeknee,astheydoinplaysandstorybooksandsometimeselsewhere,andpressedthelittlefawnglovestohislipsinalong,passionatekiss.Thesoundofapproachingfootstepsmadehimrisehurriedly.

  Shedidnotmove,butherwholebodywastrembling,andinhereyeswasalookthatwasalmostoffear.Theapproachingfootstepscamenearer,butabendoftheroadstillscreenedthem.Swiftlyandinsilencesheputherarmsabouthisneckandkissedhim.Itwasastrange,coldkiss,butalmostfierce,andthenwithoutawordsheturnedandwalkedaway;andhewatchedhertothecornerofHanoverGate,butshedidnotlookback.

  Itwasalmostasifithadraisedabarrierbetweenthem,thatkiss.

  Thenexteveningshecametomeethimwithasmileasusual,butinhereyeswasstillthatoddsuggestionoflurkingfear;andwhen,seatedbesideher,heputhishandonhersitseemedtohimsheshrankawayfromhim.Itwasanunconsciousmovement.Itbroughtbacktohimthathauntingmemoryofhillandstreamwhensomesoft—

  eyedfawn,strayedfromherfellows,wouldlethimapproachquiteclosetoher,andthen,whenheputouthishandtocaressher,wouldstartawaywithaswift,quiveringmovement.

  \"Doyoualwaysweargloves?\"heaskedheroneeveningalittlelater.

  \"Yes,\"sheanswered,speakinglow;\"whenI’moutofdoors.\"

  \"Butthisisnotoutofdoors,\"hehadpleaded.\"Wehavecomeintothegarden.Won’tyoutakethemoff?\"

  Shehadlookedathimfromunderbentbrows,asiftryingtoreadhim.Shedidnotanswerhimthen.Butonthewayout,onthelastseatclosetothegate,shehadsatdown,motioninghimtositbesideher.Quietlysheunbuttonedthefawngloves;dreweachoneoffandlaidthemaside.Andthen,forthefirsttime,hesawherhands.

  Hadhelookedather,seenthefainthopedieout,themuteagonyinthequieteyeswatchinghim,hewouldhavetriedtohidethedisgust,thephysicalrepulsionthatshoweditselfsoplainlyinhisface,intheinvoluntarymovementwithwhichhedrewawayfromher.

  Theyweresmallandshapelywithroundedcurves,butrawandsearedaswithhotirons,withagrowthofred,angry—colouredwarts,andthenailsallwornaway.

  \"Ioughttohaveshownthemtoyoubefore,\"shesaidsimplyasshedrewtheglovesonagain.\"Itwassillyofme.Ioughttohaveknown.\"

  Hetriedtocomforther,buthisphrasescamemeaninglessandhalting.

  Itwasthework,sheexplainedastheywalkedon.Itmadeyourhandslikethatafteratime.Ifonlyshecouldhavegotoutofitearlier!Butnow!Itwasnogoodworryingaboutitnow.

  TheypartedneartotheHanoverGate,butto—nighthedidnotstandwatchingherashehadalwaysdonetillshewavedalastgood—byetohimjustbeforedisappearing;sowhethersheturnedornotheneverknew.

  Hedidnotgotomeetherthenextevening.Adozentimeshisfootstepsledhimunconsciouslyalmosttothegate.Thenhewouldhurryawayagain,pacethemeanstreets,jostlingstupidlyagainstthepassers—by.Thepale,sweetface,thelittlenymph—likefigure,thelittlebrownshoeskeptcallingtohim.Ifonlytherewouldpassawaythehorrorofthosehands!Alltheartistinhimshudderedatthememoryofthem.Alwayshehadimaginedthemundertheneat,smoothglovesasfittinginwithalltherestofher,dreamingofthetimewhenhewouldholdtheminhisown,caressingthem,kissingthem.Woulditbepossibletoforgetthem,toreconcileoneselftothem?Hemustthink——mustgetawayfromthesecrowdedstreetswherefacesseemedtogrinathim.HerememberedthatParliamenthadjustrisen,thatworkwasslackintheoffice.

  Hewouldaskthathemighttakehisholidaynow——thenextday.Andtheyhadagreed.

  Hepackedafewthingsintoaknapsack.Fromthevoicesofthehillsandstreamshewouldfindcounsel.

  Hetooknocountofhiswanderings.Oneeveningatalonelyinnhemetayoungdoctor.Theinnkeeper’swifewasexpectingtobetakenwithchildthatnight,andthedoctorwaswaitingdownstairstillsummoned.Whiletheyweretalking,theideacametohim.Whyhadhenotthoughtofit?Overcominghisshyness,heputhisquestions.

  Whatworkwoulditbethatwouldcausesuchinjuries?Hedescribedthem,seeingthembeforehimintheshadowsofthedimlylightedroom,thosepoor,pitifullittlehands.

  Oh!adozenthingsmightaccountforit——thedoctor’svoicesoundedcallous——thehandlingofflax,evenoflinenundercertainconditions.Chemicalsenteredsomuchnowadaysintoallsortsofprocessesandpreparations.Allthisnewphotography,cheapcolourprinting,dyeingandcleaning,metalwork.Mightallbeavoidedbyprovidingrubbergloves.Itoughttobemadecompulsory.Thedoctorseemedinclinedtoholdforth.Heinterruptedhim.

  Butcoulditbecured?Wasthereanyhope?

  Cured?Hope?Ofcourseitcouldbecured.Itwasonlylocal——theeffectbeingconfinedtothehandsprovedthat.Apoisonedconditionoftheskinaggravatedbygeneralpovertyofblood.Takeherawayfromit;letherhaveplentyoffreshairandcarefuldiet,usingsomesuchsimpleointmentoranotherasanylocalman,seeingthem,wouldprescribe;andinthreeorfourmonthstheywouldrecover.

  Hecouldhardlystaytothanktheyoungdoctor.Hewantedtogetawaybyhimself,toshout,towavehisarms,toleap.Haditbeenpossiblehewouldhavereturnedthatverynight.Hecursedhimselfforthefancifulnessthathadpreventedhisinquiringheraddress.

  Hecouldhavesentatelegram.Risingatdawn,forhehadnotattemptedtosleep,hewalkedthetenmilestothenearestrailwaystation,andwaitedforthetrain.Alldaylongitseemedtocreepwithhimthroughtheendlesscountry.ButLondoncameatlast.

  Itwasstilltheafternoon,buthedidnotcaretogotohisroom.

  Leavinghisknapsackatthestation,hemadehiswaytoWestminster.

  Hewantedallthingstobeunchanged,sothatbetweenthiseveningandtheirpartingitmightseemasiftherehadmerelypassedanuglydream;andtiminghimself,hereachedtheparkjustattheirusualhour.

  Hewaitedtillthegateswereclosed,butshedidnotcome.Alldaylongatthebackofhismindhadbeenthatfear,buthehaddrivenitaway.Shewasill,justaheadache,ormerelytired.

  Andthenexteveninghetoldhimselfthesame.Hedarednotwhispertohimselfanythingelse.Andeachsucceedingeveningagain.Heneverrememberedhowmany.Foratimehewouldsitwatchingthepathbywhichshehadalwayscome;andwhenthehourwaslongpasthewouldriseandwalktowardsthegate,lookeastandwest,andthenreturn.Oneeveninghestoppedoneofthepark—keepersandquestionedhim.Yes,themanrememberedherquitewell:theyoungladywiththefawngloves.Shehadcomeonceortwice——maybeoftener,thepark—keepercouldnotbesure——andhadwaited.No,therehadbeennothingtoshowthatshewasinanywayupset.Shehadjustsatthereforatime,nowandthenwalkingalittlewayandthencomingbackagain,untiltheclosinghour,andthenshehadgone.Helefthisaddresswiththepark—keeper.Themanpromisedtolethimknowifheeversawherthereagain.

  Sometimes,insteadofthepark,hewouldhauntthemeanstreetsaboutLissonGroveandfarbeyondtheothersideoftheEdgwareRoad,pacingthemtillnightfell.Butheneverfoundher.

  Hewondered,beatingagainstthebarsofhispoverty,ifmoneywouldhavehelpedhim.Butthegrim,endlesscity,hidingitsmillionsecrets,seemedtomockthethought.Afewpoundshehadscrapedtogetherhespentinadvertisements;butheexpectednoresponse,andnonecame.Itwasnotlikelyshewouldseethem.

  Andsoafteratimethepark,andeventhestreetsroundaboutit,becamehatefultohim;andhemovedawaytoanotherpartofLondon,hopingtoforget.Butheneverquitesucceeded.Alwaysitwouldcomebacktohimwhenhewasnotthinking:thebroad,quietwalkwithitsprimtreesandgaybedsofflowers.Andalwayshewouldseeherseatedthere,framedbythefadinglight.Atleast,thatmuchofher:thelittlespiritualface,andthebrownshoespointingdownwards,andbetweenthemthelittlefawnglovesfoldeduponherlap.

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