“Marriageisafailurethesedaysformostofus。Wecan’tliveonthefarm,andcan’tgetalivinginthecity,andthereweare。“Shelaidherhandonhisarm。“Ideclare,Howard,you’rethesameboyyouusedtobe。Iain’tabitafraidofyou,forallyoursuccess。“
“Andyou’rethesamegirl?No,Ican’tsaythat。Itseemstomeyou’vegrownmorethanIhave-Idon’tmeanphysically,Imeanmentally,“heexplainedashesawhersmileinthedefensivewayafleshygirlhas,alerttowardoffajoke。
Theywereinthemidstoftalk,Howardtellingoneofhisfunnystories,whenawagonclattereduptothedoorandmerryvoicescalledloudly:
“Whoa,there,Sampson!“
“Hullo,thehouse!“
Roselookedatherfatherwithasmileinherblackeyesexactlylikehis。Theywenttothedoor。
“Hullo!What’swanted?“
“GrantMcLanelivehere?“
“Yup。Righthere。“
Amomentlatertherecamealaughing,chattingsquadofwomentothedoor。Mrs。McLaneandLaurastaredateachotherinamazement。Grantwentoutdoors。
Rosestoodatthedoorasifshewerehostess。
“Comein,Nettie。Gladtoseeyeh-gladtoseeyeh!Mrs。Mcllvaine,comerightin!Takeaseat。Makeyerselftohome,do!AndMrs。
Peavey!Wal,Inever!Thismustbeasurpriseparty。Well,Iswan!
Howmanymoreo’yeairthey?“
Allwasconfusion,merriment,handshakingsasRoseintroducedtheminherroguishway。
“Folks,thisisMr。HowardMcLaneofNewYork。He’sanactor,butithain’tspoiledhimabitasIcansee。How,thisisNettieMcllvaine-Wilsonthatwas。“
HowardshookhandswithNettie,atall,plaingirlwithprominentteeth。
“ThisisMaMcllvaine。“
“Shelooksjustthesame,“said。Howard,shakingherhandandfeelinghowhardandwork-wornitwas。
Andsoamidbustle,chatter,andinvitations“tolayoffy’rthingsan’stayawhile,“thewomengotdisposedabouttheroomatlastThosethathadrockingchairsrockedvigorouslytoandfrotohidetheirembarrassment。Theyalltalkedinloudvoices。
Howardfeltnervousunderthisfurtivescrutiny。Hewishedhisclothesdidn’tlooksoconfoundedlydressy。Whydidn’thehavesenseenoughtogoandbuyafifteen-dollarsuitofdiagonalsforeverydaywear。
Rosewasthelifeoftheparty。Hertonguerattledonmthemostdelightfulway。
“It’sallRosean’Bill’sdoin’s,“Mrs。Mcllvaineexplained。“Theytoldustocomeoveran’pickupanybodyweseeontheroad。Sowedid。“
Howardwincedalittleatherfamiliarityoftone。Hecouldn’thelpitforthelifeofhim。
“Well,IwantedtocometonightbecauseI’mgoingawaynextweek,andIwantedtoseehowhe’dactatasurprisepartyagain,“
Roseexplained。
“Married,Is’pose,“saidMrs。Mcllvaineabruptly。
“No,notyet。“
“Goodland!Why,y’Inns’bethirty-five,How。Mustadis’p’intedy’rmamnottohaveayoung’untocall’ergranny。“
Themencameclumpingin,talkingabouthayingandhorses。
SomeoftheolderonesHowardknewandgreeted,buttheyoungeronesweremainlytoomuchchanged。Theywereallveryillatease。
Mostofthemwereincompromisedress-somethinglyingbetweenworking“rig“andSundaydress。Mostofthemhadoncleanshirtsandpapercollars,andworetheirSundaycoatsthickwoolengarmentsoverroughtrousers。Allofthemcrossedtheirlegsatonce,andmostofthemsoughtthewallandleanedbackperilously~uponthehindlegsoftheirchairs,eyeingHowardslowly。
Forthefirstfewminutesthepresentswerethesubjectsofconversation。Thewomenespeciallyspentagooddealoftalkuponthem。
Howardfoundhimselfforcedtotakingtheinitiative,soheinquiredaboutthecropsandaboutthefarms。
“Iseeyoudon’tplowthehillsasweusedto。Andreap’。Whatajobitusttobe。Itmakesthehillsmorebeautifultohavethemcoveredwithsmoothgrassandcattle。“
Therewasonlydeadsilencetothistouchingupontheideaofbeauty。
“Is’poseitpaysreasonably。“
“Notenoughtokill,“saidoneoftheyoungermen。“Youc’nseethatbythehouseswelivein-thatis,mostofus。Afewthatcameinearlyan’gotlandcheap,likeMcllvaine,here-hegotaliftthattherestofuscan’tget。“
“I’mafreetrader,myself,“saidoneyoungfellow,blushingandlookingawayasHowardturnedandsaidcheerily:
“So’mI。“
Therestsemedtofeelthatthiswasatabooedsubject-asubjecttobetalkedoutofdoors,whereonecouldpranceaboutandyellanddojusticetoit。
Grantsatsilentlyinthekitchendoorway,notsayingaword,notlookingathis。brother。
“Well,Idon’tneverusehotvinegarformine,“Mrs。Mcllvainewasheardtosay。“Ijestusehotwater,an’Irinse’emoutgood,andset’embottom-sideupinthesun。Ido’knowbutwhathotvinegarwouldbemorecleansin’。“
Rosehadtheyoungerfolksinagigglewithadrolltellingofajokeonherself。
“How’dy’stop’emfromlaffin’?“
“Ilet’emlaugh。Oh,myschoolisadisgrace-soonedirectorsays。
ButIliketoseechildrenlaugh。Itbroadenstheircheeks。“
“Yes,that’sallhandwork。“Laurawasshowingthebaby’sSundayclothes。
“GoodnessPeter!Howdoyoufindtimetodosomuch?“
“Itaketime。“
Howard,beingthelionoftheevening,triedhisbesttobeagreeable。Hekeptnearhismother,becauseitaffordedhersomuchprideandsatisfaction,andbecausehewasobligedtokeepawayfromGrant,whohadbeguntotalktothemen。Howardtall~edmainlyabouttheiraffairs,butstillwasforcedmoreandmoreintotalkingoflifeinthecity。Ashetoldofthetheaterandtheconcerts,asuddenchangefelluponthem;theygrewsober,andhefeltdeepdownintheheartsofthesepeopleamelancholywhichwasexpressedonlyelusivelywithlittletonesorsighs。Theirgaietywasfitful。
Theywerehungryfortheworld,forart-theseyoungpeople。
Discontentedandyethardlydaringtoacknowledgeit;indeed,fewofthemcouldhavemadedefinitestatementoftheirdissatisfaction。Theolderpeoplefeltitless。Theypracticallysaid,withasighofpatheticresignation:
“Well,Idon’texpectevertoseethesethingsnow……“
Acasualobserverwouldhavesaid,“Whatapleasantbucolic-thislittlesurprisepartyofwelcome!“ButHowardwithhisnativeearandeyehadnosuchpleasingillusion。Heknewtoowellthesesuggestionsofdespairandbitterness。Heknewthat,likethesmileoftheslave,thischeerfulnesswasself-defense;deepdownwasanotherself。
SeeingGranttalkingwithagroupofmenoverbythekitchendoor,hecrossedoverslowlyandstoodlistening。WesleyCosgrove-atall,rawbonedyoungfellowwithagrave,almosttragicface-wassaying:
“OfcourseIain’t。Whois?Amanthat’ssatisfiedtoliveaswedoisafool。“
“Theworstofitis,“saidGrantwithoutseeingHoward,amancan’tgetoutofitduringhislifetime,andldon’tknowthathe’llhaveanychanceinthenext-thespeculator’llbethereaheadofus。“
Therestlaughed,butGrantwentongrily:
“TenyearsagoWes,here,couldhavegotlandinDakotaprettyeasy,butnowit’saboutallafeller’slife’sworthtotryit。Itellyouthingsseemshuttin’downonusfellers。“
“Plentyo’landtorent?“suggestedsomeone。
“Yes,intermsthatskinamanalive。Morethanthat,farmin’ain’tsofreealifeasitusedtobe。Thiscattle-raisin’andbutter-makin’
makesaniggerofaman。Bindshimrightdowntothegrindstone,andhegetsnothin’outofit-that’swhatrubsitin。Hesimplywallersaroundinthemanureforsomebodyelse。I’dliketoknowwhataman’slifeisworthwholivesaswedo?Howmuchhigherisitthanthelivestheniggersusedtolive?“
ThesebrutallybaldwordsmadeHowardthrillwitbemotionlikesomegreattragicpoem。Asilencefellonthegroup。
“That’stheGod’struth,Grant,“saidyoungCosgroveafterapause。
“Amanlikemeishelpless,“Grantwassaying。“Justlikeaflyinapanofmolasses。Thereain’tanyescapeforhim。Themorehetearsaround,themoreliableheistoriphislegsoff。“
“Whatcanhedo?“
Themenlistenedinsilence。
“Oh,come,don’ttalkpoliticsallnight!“criedRose,breakingin。
“Come,let’shaveadance。Where’sthatfiddle?“
“Fiddle!“criedHoward,gladofachancetolaugh。“Well,now!
Bringoutthatfiddle。IsitWilliam’s?“
“Yes,Pap’soldfiddle。“
“Oh,gosh!hedon’twanttohearmeplay,“pr~testedWilliam。
“He’sheards’manyfiddlers。“
“Fiddlers!I’veheardathousandviolinists,butnotfiddlers。Come,giveus’HonestJohn。’“
Williamtookthefiddleinhiswork-callousedandcrookedhandsandbegantuningit。Thegroupatthekitchendoorturnedtolisten,theirfaceslightingupalittle。Rosetriedtogetasetonthefloor。
“Oh,goodland!“saidsome。“We’realltuckeredout。Whatmakesyousoanxious?“
“ShewantsachancetodancewiththeNewYorker。“
“That’sitexactly,“Roseadmitted。
“Wal,ifyou’dchurnedandmoppedandcookedforhayin’handsasIhavetoday,youwouldn’tbesofullo’nonsense。“
“Oh,bother!Life’sshort。Comequick,getBettieout。Come,Wes,nevermindyourhobbyhorse。“
Byincredibleexertionshegotasetonthefloor,andWilliamgotthefiddleintune。HowardlookedacrossatWesley,andthoughtthechangeinhimsplendidlydramatic。Hisfacehadlightedupintoakindofdeprecating,boyishsmile。Rosecoulddoanythingwithhim。
Williamplayedsomeoftheoldtunesthathadathou-sandassociatedmemoriesinHoward’sbrain,memoriesofharvestmoons,ofmelonfeasts,andofclear,coldwinternights。Ashedanced,hiseyesfilledwithatender,luminouslight。Hecameclosertothemallthanhehadbeenabletodobefore。Granthadgoneoutintothekitchen。
Aftertwoorthreesetshadbeendanced,thecompanytookseatsandcouldnotbestirredagain。SoLauraandRosedisappearedforafewmoments,andreturning,servedstrawberriesandcream,whichshe“justhappenedtohaveinthehouse。“
AndthenWilliamplayedagain。Hisfingers,nowgrownmoresupple,broughtoutclearer,firmertones。Asheplayed,silencefellonthesepeople。Themagicofmusicsoberedeveryface;thewomenlookedolderandmorecareworn,themenslouchedsullenlyintheirchairsorleanedbackagainstthewall。
ItseemedtoHowardasifthespiritoftragedyhadenteredthishouse。MusichadalwaysbeenWilliam’sunconsciousexpressionofhisunsatisfieddesires。Hewasnevermelancholyexceptwhenheplayed。Thenhiseyesgrewsomber,hisdroopingfacefullofshadows。
Heplayedonslowly,softly,wailingScotchtunesandmournfulIrishsongs。Heseemedtofindinthesongsofthesepeople,andespeciallyinawild,sweet,low-keyedNegrosong,someexpressionforhisindefinableinnermelancholy。
Heplayedon,forgetfulofeverybody,hislongbeardsweepingtheviolin,histoilwornhandsmarvelouslyobedienttohiswill。
Atlasthestopped,lookedupwithafaint,deprecatingsmile,andsaidwithasigh:
“Well,folkses,timetogohome。“
Thegoingwasquiet。Notmuchlaughing。Howardstoodatthedoorandsaidgoodnighttothemall,hisheartverytender。
“Comeandseeus,“theysaid。
“Iwill,“herepliedcordially。“I’lltryandgetaroundtoseeeverybody,andtalkoveroldtimes,beforeIgoback。“
Afterthewagonshaddrivenoutoftheyard,Howardturnedandputhisarmabouthismother’sneck。
“Tired?“
“Alittle。“