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  III

  Dayshowedtheocean’ssurfacenolongerglassy,butlyinglikeamirrorbreathedupon;andtherebetweentheshortheadlandscameasail,grayandplainagainsttheflatwater。Thepriestwatchedthroughhisglasses,andsawthegradualsungrowstronguponthecanvasofthebarkentine。

  Themessagefromhisworldwasathand,yetto—dayhescarcelycaredsomuch。Sittinginhisgardenyesterday,hecouldneverhaveimaginedsuchachange。Buthisheartdidnothailthebarkentineasusual。Books,music,palepaper,andprint——thiswasallthatwascomingtohim,someofitssavorhadgone;forthesirenvoiceofLifehadbeenspeakingwithhimfacetoface,andinhisspirit,deepdown,theloveoftheworldwasrestlesslyansweringit。YoungGastonshowedmoreeagernessthanthePadreoverthisarrivalofthevesselthatmightbebringingTrovatoreinthenickoftime。Nowhewouldhavethechance,beforehetookhisleave,tohelprehearsethenewmusicwiththechoir。Hewouldbeamissionary,too:aperfectlynewexperience。

  \"AndyoustillforgiveVerdithesinsofhisyouth?\"hesaidtohishost。

  \"Iwonderifyoucouldforgivemine?\"

  \"Verdihaslefthisbehindhim,\"retortedthePadre。

  \"ButIamonlytwenty—five!\"exclaimedGaston,pathetically。

  \"Ah,don’tgoawaysoon!\"pleadedtheexile。Itwasthefirstunconcealedcomplaintthathadescapedhim,andhefeltinstantshame。

  ButGastonwastoomuchelatedwiththeenjoymentofeachnewdaytocomprehendthePadre’ssoul。Theshaftsofanother’spainmighthardlypiercethebrightarmorofhisgaiety。Hemistookthepriest’sentreaty,foranxietyabouthisownhappyspirit。

  \"Stayhereunderyourcare?\"heasked。\"Itwoulddomenogood,Padre。

  Temptationsticksclosertomethanabrother!\"andhegavethatlaughofhiswhichhaddisarmedsevererjudgesthanhishost。\"BynextweekI

  shouldhaveintroducedsomesinorotherintoyourbeautifulGardenofIgnorancehere。ItwillbemuchsaferforyourflockifIgoandjointheotherserpentsatSanFrancisco。\"

  SoonafterbreakfastthePadrehadhistwomulessaddled,andheandhisguestsetforthdownthehillstogethertotheshore。And,beneaththespellandconfidenceofpleasant,slowridingandthelovelinessofeverything,theyoungmantalkedfreelyofhimself。

  \"And,seriously,\"saidhe,\"ifImissednothingelseatSantaYsabel,I

  shouldlongfor——howshallIsayit?——forinsecurity,fordanger,andofallkinds——notmerelydangertothebody。Withinthesewalls,beneaththesesacredbells,youlivetoosafeforamanlikeme。\"

  \"Toosafe!\"TheseechoedwordsuponthelipsofthepalePadrewereawhispertoolight,toodeep,forGaston’sheedlessear。

  \"Why,\"theyoungmanpursuedinaspiritthatwasbuthalflevity,\"thoughIyieldoftentotemptation,attimesIhaveresistedit,andhereIshouldmisstheverychancetoresist。YourgardencouldneverbeEdenforme,becausetemptationisabsentfromit。\"

  \"Absent!\"Stilllighter,stilldeeper,wasthiswhisperthatthePadrebreathed。

  \"Imustfindlife,\"exclaimedGaston,\"andmyfortuneatthemines,I

  hope。Iamnotabadfellow,Father。YoucaneasilyguessallthethingsIdo。Ihavenever,tomyknowledge,harmedanyone。Ididn’teventrytokillmyadversaryinanaffairofhonor。Igavehimamereflesh—wound,andbythistimehemustbequiterecovered。Hewasmyfriend。Butashecamebetweenme——\"

  Gastonstopped,andthePadre,lookingkeenlyathim,sawtheviolencethathehadnoticedinchurchpasslikeaflameovertheyoungman’shandsomeface。

  \"That’snothingdishonorable,\"saidGaston,answeringthepriest’slook。

  Andthen,becausethislookmadehimnotquiteathisease:\"Perhapsapriestmightfeelobligedtosayitwasdishonorable。Sheandherfatherwere——amanowesnofidelitybeforeheis——butyoumightsaythathadbeendishonorable。\"

  \"Ihavenotsaidso,myson。\"

  \"Ididwhateverygentlemanwoulddo。\"insistedGaston。

  \"Andthatisoftenwrong!\"saidthePadre,gentlyandgravely。\"ButI’mnotyourconfessor。\"

  \"No,\"saidGaston,lookingdown。\"Anditisallover。Itwillnotbeginagain。SinceleavingNewOrleansIhavetraveledaninnocentjourneystraighttoyou。AndwhenImakemyfortuneIshallbeinapositiontoreturnand——\"

  \"Claimthepressedflowrer?\"suggestedthePadre。Hedidnotsmile。

  \"Ah,yourememberhowthosethingsare!\"saidGaston:andhelaughedandblushed。

  \"Yes,\"saidthePadre,lookingattheanchoredbarkentine,\"Irememberhowthosethingsare。\"

  Forawhilethevesselanditscargoandthelandedmenandvariousbusinessandconversationsoccupiedthem。Butthefreightforthemissiononceseento,therewasnotmuchelsetodetainthem。

  Thebarkentinewasonlyacoasterlikemanyotherswhichhadbeguntofilltheseaalittlemoreoflateyears,andpresentlyhostandguestwereridinghomeward。Sidebysidetheyrode,companionstotheeye,butwideapartinmood;withintheturbulentyoungfigureofGastondweltaspiritthatcouldnotbemoreatease,whilerevoltwassteadilykindlingbeneaththeschooledandplacidmaskofthePadre。

  Yetstillthestrangenessofhissituationinsucharemote,resourcelessplacecamebackasamarvelintotheyoungman’slivelymind。Twentyyearsinprison,hethought,andhardlyawareofit!Andheglancedatthesilentpriest。Amansoevidentlyfondofmusic,oftheaters,oftheworld,towhompressedflowershadmeantsomethingonce——andnowcontentedtobleachuponthesewastes!Notevendesirousofabriefholiday,butfindinganoldorganandsomeoldoperasenoughrecreation!

  \"Itishisage,Isuppose,\"thoughtGaston。Andthenthenotionofhimselfwhenheshouldbesixtyoccurredtohim,andhespoke。

  \"Doyouknow,Idonotbelieve,\"saidhe,\"thatIshouldeverreachsuchcontentmentasyours。\"

  \"Perhapsyouwill,\"saidPadreIgnacio,inalowvoice。

  \"Never!\"declaredtheyouth。\"Itcomesonlytothefew,Iamsure。\"

  \"Yes。Onlytothefew,\"murmuredthePadre。

  \"Iamcertainthatitmustbeagreatpossession,\"Gastoncontinued;

  \"andyet——andyet——dearme!lifeisasplendidthing!\"

  \"Thereareseveralwaystoliveit,\"saidthePadre。

  \"Onlyoneforme!\"criedGaston。\"Action,men,women,things——tobethere,tobeknown,toplayapart,tositinthefrontseats;tohavepeopletelloneanother,’TheregoesGastonVillere!’andtodeserveone’sprominence。Why,ifIwasPadreofSantaYsabeldelMarfortwentyyears——

  no!foroneyear——doyouknowwhatIshouldhavedone?Somedayitwouldhavebeentoomuchforme。Ishouldhaveleftthesesavagestoapastornearertheirownlevel,andIshouldhaveriddendownthiscanyonuponmymule,andsteppedonboardthebarkentine,andgonebacktomypropersphere。Youwillunderstand,sir,thatIamfarfromventuringtomakeanypersonalcomment。Iamonlythinkingwhataworldofdifferenceliesbetweennaturesthatcanfeelasalikeaswedouponsomanysubjects。Why,notsinceleavingNewOrleanshaveImetanyonewithwhomIcouldtalk,exceptoftheweatherandthebruteinterestscommontousall。Thatsuchaoneasyoushouldbehereislikeadream。\"

  \"Butitisnotadream,\"saidthePadre。

  \"And,sir——pardonmeifIdosaythis——areyounotwastedatSantaYsabeldelMar?Ihaveseenthepriestsattheothermissions。Theyare——

  thesortofgoodmenthatIexpected。Butareyouneededtosavesuchsoulsasthese?\"

  \"Thereisnoaristocracyofsouls,\"saidthePadre,againwhispering。

  \"Butthebodyandthemind!\"criedGaston。\"MyGod,aretheynothing?Doyouthinkthattheyaregiventousfornothingbutatrap?Youcannotteachsuchadoctrinewithyourlibrarythere。Andhowaboutallthecultivatedmenandwomenawayfromwhosequickeningsocietythebrightestofusgrownumb?Youhaveheldout。Butwillitbeforlong?Areyounevertosaveanysoulsofyourownkind?Arenottwentyyearsofmescladosenough?No,no!\"finishedyoungGaston,hotwithhisunforeseeneloquence;\"Ishouldridedownsomemorningandtakethebarkentine。\"

  PadreIgnaciowassilentforaspace。

  \"Ihavenotoffendedyou?\"askedtheyoungman。

  \"No。Anythingbutthat。YouaresurprisedthatIshould——choose——tostayhere。PerhapsyoumayhavewonderedhowIcametobehereatall?\"

  \"Ihadnotintendedanyimpertinent——\"

  \"Ohno。Putsuchanideaoutofyourhead,myson。YoumayrememberthatIwasgoingtomakeyouaconfessionaboutmyoperas。Letussitdowninthisshade。\"

  Sotheypicketedthemulesnearthestreamandsatdown。

  IV

  Youhaveseen,\"beganPadreIgnacio,\"whatsortofamanI——wasonce。

  Indeed,itseemsverystrangetomyselfthatyoushouldhavebeenherenottwenty—fourhoursyet,andknowsomuchofme。Fortherehascomenooneelseatall\"——thePadrepausedamomentandmasteredtheunsteadinessthathehadfeltapproachinginhisvoice——\"therehasbeennooneelsetowhomIhavetalkedsofreely。InmyearlydaysIhadnothoughtofbeingapriest。Byparentsdestinedmeforadiplomaticcareer。Therewasplentyofmoneyand——andalltherestofit;forbyinheritancecametometheacquaintanceofmanypeoplewhosenamesyouwouldbelikelytohaveheardof。Cities,peopleoffashion,artists——thewholeofitwasmyelementandmychoice;andby—and—byImarried,notonlywhereitwasdesirable,butwhereIloved。ThenforthefirsttimeDeathlaidhisstaffuponmyenchantment,andIunderstoodmanythingsthathadbeenonlywordstomehitherto。Tohavebeenahusbandforayear,andafatherforamoment,andinthatmomenttoloseall——thisunblindedme。Lookingback,itseemedtomethatIhadneverdoneanythingexceptformyselfallmydays。Ilefttheworld。InduetimeIbecameapriestandlivedinmyowncountry。Butmyworldlyexperienceandmyseculareducationhadgiventomyopinionsaturntooliberalfortheplacewheremyworkwaslaid。Iwassoonadvisedconcerningthisbythoseinauthorityoverme。AndsincetheycouldnotchangemeandIcouldthem,yetwishedtoworkandtoteach,theNewWorldwassuggested,andI

  volunteeredtogivetherestofmylifetomissions。Itwassoonfoundthatsomeonewasneededhere,andforthislittleplaceIsailed,andtothesehumblepeopleIhavededicatedmyservice。Theyarepastoralcreaturesofthesoil。Theirvineyardandcattledaysareapttobelikethesunandstormaroundthem——strongalikeintheirevilandintheirgood。Alltheiryearstheyliveaschildren——childrenwithmen’spassionsgiventothemlikedeadlyweapons,unabletomeasuretheharmtheirimpulsesmaybring。Hence,evenintheircrimes,theirheartswillgenerallyopensoontotheonegreatkeyoflove,whilecivilizationmakeslockswhichthatkeycannotalwaysfitatthefirstturn。Andcomingtoknowthis,\"saidPadreIgnacio,fixinghiseyessteadilyuponGaston,\"youwillunderstandhowgreataprivilegeitistohelpsuchpeople,andhowthesenseofsomethingaccomplished——underGod——shouldbringContentmentwithRenunciation。\"

  \"Yes,\"saidGastonVillere。Then,thinkingofhimself,\"Icanunderstanditinamanlikeyou。\"

  \"Donotspeakofmeatall!\"exclaimedthePadre,almostpassionately。

  \"ButprayHeaventhatyoumayfindthethingyourselfsomeday——

  ContentmentwithRenunciation——andneverletitgo。\"

  \"Amen!\"saidGaston,strangelymoved。

  \"Thatisthewholeofmystory,\"thepriestcontinued,withnomoreoftherecentstressinhisvoice。\"AndnowIhavetalkedtoyouaboutmyselfquiteenough。Butyoumusthavemyconfession。\"Hehadnowresumedentirelyhishalf—playfultone。\"Iwasjustalittlemistaken,yousee——

  tooself—reliant,perhaps——whenIsupposed,inmyfirstmissionaryardor,thatIcouldgetonwithoutanyremembranceoftheworldatall。IfoundthatIcouldnot。AndsoIhavetaughttheoldoperastomychoir——suchpartsofthemasarewithinourcompassandsuitableforworship。AndcertainofmyfriendsstillaliveathomearegoodenoughtorememberthistasteofmineandtosendmeeachyearsomeofthenewmusicthatIshouldneverhearofotherwise。Thenwestudythesethingsalso。Andalthoughourorganisamiserableaffair,Felipemanagesverycleverlytomakeitdo。Andwhilethevoicesaresingingtheseoperas,especiallytheoldones,whatharmisthereifsometimesthepriestisthinkingofsomethingelse?Sothere’smyconfession!Andnow,whetherTrovatoreiscomeornot,IshallnotallowyoutoleaveusuntilyouhavetaughtallyouknowofittoFelipe。\"

  Thenewopera,however,haddulyarrived。AndasheturneditspagesPadreIgnaciowasquicktoseizeatonceuponthemusicthatcouldbetakenintohischurch。Someofitwasreadyfitted。BythatafternoonFelipeandhischoircouldhaverendered\"Ah!sel’errort’ingombra\"

  withoutsliporfalter。

  ThosewerestrangerehearsalsofIlTrovatoreuponthisCaliforniashore。

  ForthePadrelookedtoGastontosaywhentheywenttoofastortooslow,andtocorrecttheiremphasis。Andsinceitwashot,thelittleErardpianowascarriedeachdayoutintothemissiongarden。There,inthecloistersamongthejessamine,theorangeblossoms,theoleanders,inthepresenceoftheroundyellowhillsandthebluetriangleofsea,theMisererewasslowlylearned。TheMexicansandIndiansgathered,swarthyandblack—haired,aroundthetinklinginstrumentthatFelipeplayed;andpresidingoverthemwereyoungGastonandthepalePadre,walkingupanddownthepaths,beatingtimeorsingingnowonepartandnowanother。AndsoitwasthatthewildcattleontheuplandswouldhearTrovatorehummedbyapassingvaquero,whilethesamemelodywasfillingthestreetsofthefar—offworld。

  ForthreedaysGastonVillereremainedatSantaYsabeldelMar;andthoughnotawordofrestlessnesscamefromhim,hishostcouldreadSanFranciscoandthegold—minesinhiscountenance。No,theyoungmancouldnothavestayedherefortwentyyears!AndthePadreforboreurginghisguesttoextendhisvisit。

  \"Buttheworldissmall,\"theguestdeclaredatparting。\"Somedayitwillnotbeabletospareyouanylonger。Andthenwearesuretomeet。

  Butyoushallhearfrommesoon,atanyrate。\"

  Again,asuponthefirstevening,thetwoexchangedafewcourtesies,moregracefulandparticularthanwe,whohavenottime,andfightnoduels,findworthaman’swhileatthepresentday。Forduelsaregone,whichisaverygoodthing,andwiththemacertaincarefulpoliteness,whichisapity;butthatisthewayintheeternalprofitandloss。SoyoungGastonrodenorthwardoutofthemission,backtotheworldandhisfortune;andthePadrestoodwatchingthedustaftertheriderhadpassedfromsight。Thenhewentintohisroomwithadrawnface。Butappearancesatleasthadbeenkeptuptotheend;theyouthwouldneverknowoftheelderman’sunrest。

  V

  TemptationhadarrivedwithGaston,butwasdestinedtomakealongerstayatSantaYsabeldelMar。Yetitwasperhapsaweekbeforethepriestknewthisguestwascometoabidewithhim。Theguestcouldbediscreet,couldwithdraw,wasnotatfirstimportunate。

  Sailawayonthebarkentine?Awildnotion,tobesure!althoughfitenoughtoenterthebrainofsuchayoungscape—grace。ThePadreshookhisheadandsmiledaffectionatelywhenhethoughtofGastonVillere。Theyouth’shandsome,recklesscountenancewouldshineout,smiling,inhismemory,andherepeatedAuber’soldremark,\"IsitthegoodLord,orisitmerelythedevil,thatalwaysmakesmehaveaweaknessforrascals?\"

  Sailawayonthebarkentine!Imaginetakingleaveofthepeoplehere——ofFelipe!Inwhatwordsshouldhetelltheboytogoonindustriouslywithhismusic?No,thiswasnotimaginable!Themerepartingalonewouldmakeitforeverimpossibletothinkofsuchathing。\"Andthen,\"hesaidtohimselfeachnewmorning,whenhelookedoutattheocean,\"Ihavegiventothemmylife。Onedoesnottakebackagift。\"

  Picturesofhisdeparturebegantoshineandmeltinhisdriftingfancy。

  HesawhimselfexplainingtoFelipethatnowhispresencewaswantedelsewhere;thatthanwouldcomeasuccessortotakecareofSantaYsabel—

  —ayoungerman,moreuseful,andabletovisitsickpeopleatadistance。

  \"ForIamoldnow。Ishouldnotbelonghasinanycase。\"Hestoppedandpressedhishandstogether;hehadcaughthisTemptationintheveryact。

  NowhesatstaringathisTemptation’sface,closetohim,whiletheninthetriangletwoshipswentsailingby。

  OnemorningFelipetoldhimthatthebarkentinewashereonitsreturnvoyagesouth。\"Indeed。\"saidthePadre,coldly。\"Thethingsarereadytogo,Ithink。\"Forthevesselcalledformailandcertainboxesthatthemissionsentaway。FelipelefttheroominwonderatthePadre’smanner。Butthepriestwaslaughingsecretlytoseehowlittleitwastohimwherethebarkentinewas,orwhetheritshouldbecomingorgoing。

  Butintheafternoon,athispiano,hefoundhimselfsaying,\"Othershipscallhere,atanyrate。\"Andthenforthefirsttimeheprayedtobedeliveredfromhisthoughts。Yetpresentlyhelefthisseatandlookedoutofthewindowforasightofthebarkentine;butitwasgone。

  Theseasonofthewine—makingpassed,andthepreservingofallthefruitsthatthemissionfieldsgrew。Lotionsandmedicineswasdistilledfromgardenherbs。Perfumewasmanufacturedfromthepetalsofflowersandcertainspices,andpresentsofitdespatchedtoSanFernandoandVentura,andtofriendsatotherplaces;forthePadrehadaspecialrecepit。Asthetimeranon,twoorthreevisitorspassedanightwithhim;andpresentlytherewasawordatvariousmissionsthatPadreIgnaciohadbeguntoshowhisyears。AtSantaYsabeldelMartheywhispered,\"ThePadreisnotwell。\"Yetherodeagreatdealoverthehillsbyhimself,anddownthecanyonveryoften,stoppingwherehehadsatwithGaston,tositaloneandlookupanddown,nowatthehillsabove,andnowattheoceanbelow。Amonghisparishionershehadcertaintroublestosoothe,certainwoundstoheal;ahomefromwhichhewasabletodrivejealousy;agirlwhomhebadeherloversetright。Butallsaid,\"ThePadreisunwell。\"AndFelipetoldthemthatthemusicseemednothingtohimanymore;heneveraskedforhisDixitDominusnowadays。

  Thenforashorttimehewasreallyinbed,feverishwiththetwovoicesthatspoketohimwithoutceasing。\"Youhavegivenyourlife,\"saidonevoice。\"And,therefore,\"saidtheother,\"haveearnedtherighttogohomeanddie。\"\"YouarewinningbetterrewardsintheserviceofGod,\"

  saidthefirstvoice。\"Godcanbebetterservedinotherplaces,\"

  answeredthesecond。AshelaylisteninghesawSevilleagain,andthetreesofAranhal,wherehehadbeenborn。Thewindwasblowingthroughthem,andintheirbrancheshecouldhearthenightingales。\"Empty!

  Empty!\"hesaid,aloud。AndhelayfortwodaysandnightshearingthewindandthenightingalesinthefartreesofAranhal。ButFelipe,watching,onlyheardthePadrecryingthroughthehours,\"Empty!Empty!\"

  Thenthewindinthetreesdieddown,andthePadrecouldgetoutofbed,andsoonbeinthegarden。Butthevoiceswithinhimstilltalkedallthewhileashesatwatchingthesailswhentheypassedbetweentheheadlands。Theirwords,fallingforeverthesameway,beathisspiritsore,likeblowsuponfleshalreadybruised。Ifhecouldonlychangewhattheysaid,hewouldrest。

  \"HasthePadreanymallforSantaBarbara?\"askedFelipe。\"Theshipboundsouthwardshouldbehereto—morrow。\"

  \"Iwillattendtoit,\"saidthepriest,notmoving。AndFelipestoleaway。

  AtFelipe’swordsthevoiceshadstopped,asaclockfinishesstriking。

  Silence,strainedlikeexpectation,filledthePadre’ssoul。Butinplaceofthevoicescameoldsightsofhomeagain,thewavingtreesatAranhal;

  thenitwouldbeRachelforamoment,declaimingtragedywhileahousefuloffacesthatheknewbynamewatchedher;andthroughallthepanoramarangthepleasantlaughofGaston。ForawhileintheeveningthePadresatathisErardplayingTrovatore。Later,inhissleeplessbedhelay,sayingnowandthen:\"Todieathome!SurelyImaybegrantedatleastthis。\"Andhelistenedfortheinnervoices。Buttheywerenotspeakinganymore,andtheblackholeofsilencegrewmoredreadfultohimthantheirarguments。Thenthedawncameinathiswindow,andhelaywatchingitsgraygrowwarmintocolor,untilsuddenlyhesprangfromhisbedandlookedatthesea。Blueitlay,sapphire—huedanddancingwithpointsofgold,lovelyandluringasacharm;andoveritstrianglethesouth—boundshipwasapproaching。PeoplewereonboardwhoinafewweekswouldbesailingtheAtlantic,whilehewouldstandherelookingoutofthissamewindow。\"MercifulGod!\"hecried,sinkingonhisknees。\"HeavenlyFather,Thouseestthisevilinmyheart!Thouknowestthatmyweakhandcannotpluckitout!Mystrengthisbreaking,andstillThoumakestmyburdenheavierthanIcanbear。\"Hestopped,breathlessandtrembling。

  Thesamevisionswasflittingacrosshisclosedeyes;thesamesilencegapedlikeadrycraterinhissoul。\"Thereisnohelpinearthorheaven,\"hesaid,veryquietly;andhedressedhimself。

  VIItwasstillsoearlythatfewoftheIndianswerestirring,andoneofthesesaddledthePadre’smule。Felipewasnotyetawake,andforamomentitcameinthepriest’smindtoopentheboy’sdoorsoftly,lookathimoncemore,andcomeaway。Butthishedidnot,noreventakeafarewellglanceatthechurchandorgan。Hebadenothingfarewell,but,turninghisbackuponhisroomandhisgarden,rodedownthecanyon。

  Thevessellayatanchor,andsomeonehadlandedfromhaandwastalkingwithothermenontheshore。Seeingthepriestslowlycoming,thisstrangerapproachedtomeethim。

  \"Youareconnectedwiththemissionhere?\"heinquired。

  \"I——am。\"

  \"PerhapsitiswithyouthatGastonVillerestopped?\"

  \"TheyoungmanfromNewOrleans?Yes。IamPadreIgnacio。\"

  \"Thenyou’llsavemeajourney。Ipromisedhimtodelivertheseintoyourownhands。\"

  Thestrangergavethemtohim。

  \"Abagofgold—dust,\"heexplained,\"andaletter。Iwroteitathisdictationwhilehewasdying。Helivedhardlyanhourafterward。\"

  Thestrangerbowedhisheadatthestrickencrywhichhisnewselicitedfromthepriest,who,afterafewmoments’vainefforttospeak,openedtheletterandread:

  MydearFriend,——Itisthroughnoman’sfaultbutminethatIhavecometothis。Ihavehadplentyofluck,andlatelyhavebeencountingthedaysuntilIshouldreturnhome。ButlastnightheavynewsfromNewOrleansreachedme,andItorethepressedflowertopieces。UnderthefirstsmartandhumiliationofbrokenfaithIwasrendereddesperate,andpickedaneedlessquarrel。ThankGod,itisIwhohavethepunishment。Bydearfriend,asIliehere,leavingaworldthatnomaneverlovedmore,Ihavecometounderstandyou。Foryouandyourmissionhavebeenmuchinmythoughts。Itisstrangehowgoodcanbedone,notatthetimewhenitisintended,butafterward;andyouhavedonethisgoodtome。Isayoveryourwords,\"ContentmentwithRenunciation,\"andbelievethatatthislasthourIhavegainedsomethinglikewhatyouwouldwishmetofeel。

  ForIdonotthinkthatIdesireitotherwisenow。Mylifewouldneverhavebeenofservice,Iamafraid。Youamthelastpersoninthisworldwhohasspokenseriouswordstome,andIwantyoutoknowthatnowatlengthIvaluethepeaceofSantaYsabelasIcouldneverhavedonebutforseeingyourwisdomandgoodness。Youspokeofaneworganforyourchurch。Takethegold—dustthatwillreachyouwiththis,anddowhatyouwillwithit。Letmeatleastindyinghavehelpedsomeone。Andsincethemisnoaristocracyinsouls——yousaidthattome;doyouremember?——

  perhapsyouwillsayamassforthisdepartingsoulofmine。Ionlywish,mustmybodymustgoundergroundinastrangecountry,thatitmighthavebeenatSantaYsabeldidMar,whereyourfeetwouldoftenpass。

  \"’AtSantaYsabeldelMar,whereyourfeetwouldoftenpass。’\"Thepriestrepeatedthisfinalsentencealoud,withoutbeingawareofit。

  \"Thosearethelastwordsheeverspoke,\"saidthestranger,\"exceptbiddingmegood—by。\"

  \"Youknewhimwell,then?\"

  \"No;notuntilafterhewashurt。I’mthemanhequarreledwith。\"

  Thepriestlookedattheshipthatwouldsailonwardthisafternoon。

  Thenasmileofgreatbeautypassedoverhisface,andheaddressedthestrange。\"Ithankyou。Youwillneverknowwhatyouhavedoneforme。\"

  \"Itisnothing,\"answeredthestranger,awkwardly。\"Hetoldmeyousetgreatstoreonaneworgan。\"

  PadreIgnacioturnedawayfromtheshipandrodebackthroughthegorge。

  WhenhehadreachedtheshadyplacewhereoncehehadsatwithGastonVillere,hedismountedandagainsatthere,alonebythestream,formanyhours。Longridesandoutingshadbeenlatelysomuchhiscustomthatnoonethoughttwiceofhisabsence;andwhenheresumedtothemissionintheafternoon,theIndiantookhismule,andhewenttohisseatinthegarden。Butitwaswithanotherlookthathewatchedthesea;andpresentlythesailmovedacrossthebluetriangle,andsoonithadroundedtheheadland。

  WithitdepartedTemptationforever。

  Gaston’sfirstcomingwasinthePadre’smind;and,asthevespersbellbegantoringinthecloisteredsilence,afragmentofAuber’splaintivetunepassedlikeasighacrosshismemory。

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  ForthereposeofGaston’syoung,world—lovingspirit,theysangallthathehadtaughtthemofIlTrovatore。

  Afterthisday,FelipeandallthosewhoknewandlovedthePadrebest,sawserenityhadreturnedtohisfeatures;butforsomereasontheybegantowatchthosefeatureswithmorecare。

  \"Still,\"theysaid,\"heisnotold。\"Andasthemonthswentbytheywouldrepeat:\"Weshallhavehimyetformanyyears。\"

  Thustheseasonrolledround,bringingthetimefortheexpectedmessagesfromtheworld。PadreIgnaciowaswonttositinhisgarden,waitingfortheship,asofold。

  \"Asofold,\"theysaid,cheerfully,whosawhim。ButRenunciationwithContentmenttheycouldnotsee;itwasdeepdowninhissilentandthankedheart。

  OnedayFelipewenttocallhimfromhisgardenseat,wonderingwhytheringingofthebellhadnotbroughthimtovespers。Breviaryinlap,andhandsfoldeduponit,thePadresatamonghisflowers,lookingatthesea。Outthereamidthesapphire—blue,tranquilandwhite,gleamedthesailsofthebarkentine。Ithadbroughthimanewmessage,notfromthisworld;andPadreIgnaciowasslowlyborneinfromthegarden,whilethemission—belltolledforthepassingofahumansoul。

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