Idostillrecallastheworstandmostdisastrousaspectofallthattime，herabsolutedisregardofherownbeauty。It’sthepettiestthingtorecord，Iknow，butshecouldwearcurl-papersinmypresence。Itwasheridea，too，to“wearout“heroldclothesandherfailuresathomewhen“noonewaslikelytoseeher“——“noone“beingmyself。Sheallowedmetoaccumulateastoreofungraciousandslovenlymemories。

　　Allourconceptionsoflifediffered。Irememberhowwedifferedaboutfurniture。WespentthreeorfourdaysinTottenhamCourtRoad，andshechosethethingsshefanciedwithaninexorableresolution，——sweepingasidemysuggestionswith——“Oh，YOUwantsuchqueerthings。”Shepursuedsomelimited，clearlyseenandexperiencedideal——thatexcludedallotherpossibilities。Overeverymantelwasamirrorthatwasdraped，oursideboardwaswonderfullygoodandsplendidwithbeveledglass，wehadlampsonlongmetalstalksandcozycornersandplantsingrog-tubs。

　　Smithieapproveditall。Therewasn’taplacewhereonecouldsitandreadinthewholehouse。Mybookswentuponshelvesinthedining-roomrecess。AndwehadapianothoughMarion’splayingwasatanelementarylevel。

　　Youknow，itwasthecruelestluckforMarionthatI，withmyrestlessness，myscepticism，myconstantlydevelopingideas，hadinsistedonmarriagewithher。Shehadnofacultyofgrowthorchange；shehadtakenhermould，shehadsetinthelimitedideasofherpeculiarclass。Shepreservedherconceptionofwhatwasrightindrawing-roomchairsandinmarriageceremonialandineveryrelationoflifewithasimpleandluminoushonestyandconviction，withanimmenseunimaginativeinflexibility——asatailor-birdbuildsitsnestorabeavermakesitsdam。

　　Letmehastenoverthishistoryofdisappointmentsandseparation。Imighttellofwaxingsandwaningoflovebetweenus，butthewholewaswaning。Sometimesshewoulddothingsforme，makemeatieorapairofslippers，andfillmewithnonethelessgratitudebecausethethingswereabsurd。Sheranourhomeandouroneservantwithahard，brightefficiency。Shewasinordinatelyproudofhouseandgarden。Always，byherlights，shedidherdutybyme。

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