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  `Ihardlyknowwhattosayaboutit,’shewrites,`orwhattothink。Totellyouthetruth,Helen,Idon’tlikethethoughtofitatall。IfIamtobeMrHattersley’swife,Imusttrytolovehim;

  andIdotrywithallmymight;butIhavemadeverylittleprogressyet;

  andtheworstsymptomofthecaseis,thatthefurtherheisfrommethebetterlikehim:hefrightensmewithhisabruptmannersandstrangehectoringways,andIdreadthethoughtofmarryinghim。“Thenwhyhaveyouacceptedhim?”youwillask;andIdidn’tknowIhadacceptedhim;butmammatellsmeIhave,andheseemstothinksotoo。Icertainlydidn’tmeantodoso;butIdidnotliketogivehimaflatrefusalforfearmammashouldbegrievedandangryforIknewshewishedmetomarryhim,andIwantedtotalktoherfirstaboutit,soIgavehimwhatIthoughtwasanevasive,halfnegativeanswer;butshesaysitwasasgoodasanacceptance,andhewouldthinkmeverycapriciousifIweretoattempttodrawback——andindeed,Iwassoconfusedandfrightenedatthemoment,IcanhardlytellwhatIsaid。AndnexttimeIsawhim,heaccostedmeinallconfidenceashisacedbride,andimmediatelybegantosettlematterswithmamma。

  Ihadnotcouragetocontradictthemthen,andhowcanIdoitnow?Icannot:

  theywouldthinkmemad,Besides,mammaissodelightedwiththeideaofthematch;shethinksshehasmanagedsowellforme;andIcannotbeartodisappointher。Idoobjectsometimes,andtellherwhatIfeel,butyoudon’tknowhowshetalks。MrHattersley,youknow,isthesonofarichbanker,andasEstherandIhavenofortunesandWalterverylittle,ourdearmammaisveryanxioustoseeusallwellmarried,thatis,unitedtorichpartners——itisnotmyideaofbeingwellmarried,butshemeansitallforthebest。ShesayswhenIamsafeoffherhandsitwillbesucharelieftohermind;andsheassuresmeitwillbeagoodthingforthefamilyaswellasforme。EvenWalterispleasedattheprospect,andwhenIconfessedmyreluctancetohim,hesaiditwasallchildishnonsense。Doyouthinkitnonsense,Helen?IshouldnotcareifIcouldseeanyprospectofbeingabletoloveandadmirehim,butIcan’t。

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