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  Theycouldseenowayoutofthetrouble,andMrs。Marchcouldnotresignherselftoittillherhusbandsuggestedthatsheshouldconsideritprovidential。Thistouchedthelingeringsuperstitioninwhichshehadbeenancestrallytaughttoregardherselfasameans,wheninaverytightplace,andtoleavetheresponsibilitywiththemoralgovernmentoftheuniverse。Asshenowperceived,ithadbeenthesameasorderedthattheyshouldseeBurnamyundersuchconditionsintheafternoonthattheycouldnotspeaktohim,andhearwherehewasstaying;andinaninferiordegreeithadbeenthesameasorderedthatMarchshouldseehimintheeveningandtellhimeverything,sothatsheshouldknowjusthowtoactwhenshesawhiminthemorning。IfhecouldplausiblyaccountfortherenewalofhisflirtationwithMissElkins,orifheseemedgenerallyworthyapartfromthat,shecouldforgivehim。

  Itwassopleasantwhenhecameinatbreakfastwithhiswell-rememberedsmile,thatshedidnotrequirefromhimanyexplicitdefence。WhiletheytalkedshewasrightingherselfinanundercurrentofdramawithMissTriscoe,andexplainingtoherthattheycouldnotpossiblywaitoverforherandherfatherinWeimar,butmustbeoffthatdayforBerlin,astheyhadmadealltheirplans。Itwasnoteasy,evenindramawhereonehaseverythingone’sownway,toprovethatshecouldnotwithoutimpietysofarinterferewiththecourseofProvidenceastopreventMissTriscoe’scomingwithherfathertothesamehotelwhereBurnamywasstaying。Shecontrived,indeed,topersuadeherthatshehadnotknownhewasstayingtherewhenshetelegraphedthemwheretocome,andthatintheabsenceofanyopenconfidencefromMissTriscoeshewasnotobligedtosupposethathispresencewouldbeembarrassing。

  MarchproposedleavingherwithBurnamywhilehewentupintothetownandinterviewedthehouseofSchiller,whichhehadnotdoneyet;andassoonashegothimselfawayshecametobusiness,breakingaltogetherfromtheinnerdramawithMissTriscoeanddevotingherselftoBurnamy。

  TheyhadalreadygotsofarastohavementionedthemeetingwiththeTriscoesinWurzburg,andshesaid:“DidMr。Marchtellyoutheywerecominghere?Or,no!Wehadn’theardthen。Yes,theyarecomingto-

  morrow。Theymaybegoingtostaysometime。ShetalkedofWeimarwhenwefirstspokeofGermanyontheship。”Burnamysaidnothing,andshesuddenlyadded,withasharpglance,“Theywantedustogetthemrooms,andweadvisedtheircomingtothishouse。”Hestartedverysatisfactorily,and“Doyouthinktheywouldbecomfortable,here?”shepursued。

  “Oh,yes,very。Theycanhavemyroom;it’ssoutheast;Ishallbegoingintootherquarters。”Shedidnotsayanything;and“Mrs。March。”hebeganagain,“whatistheuseofmybeatingaboutthebush?YoumustknowwhatIwentbacktoCarlsbadfor,thatnight——“

  “Nooneevertold——“

  “Well,youmusthavemadeaprettygoodguess。Butitwasafailure。I

  oughttohavefailed,andIdid。Shesaidthatunlessherfatherlikedit——Andapparentlyhehasn’tlikedit。”Burnamysmiledruefully。

  “Howdoyouknow?Shedidn’tknowwhereyouwere!”

  “Shecouldhavegotwordtomeifshehadhadgoodnewsforme。They’veforwardedotherlettersfromPupp’s。Butit’sallright;IhadnobusinesstogobacktoCarlsbad。Ofcourseyoudidn’tknowIwasinthishousewhenyoutoldthemtocome;andImustclearout。IhadbetterclearoutofWeimar,too。”

  “No,Idon’tthinkso;Ihavenorighttopryintoyouraffairs,but——“

  “Oh,they’rewideenoughopen!”

  “Andyoumayhavechangedyourmind。Ithoughtyoumight,whenIsawyouyesterdayatBelvedere——“

  “Iwasonlytryingtomakebadworse。”

  “ThenIthinkthesituationhaschangedentirelythroughwhatMr。StollersaidtoMr。March。”

  “Ican’tseehowithas。Icommittedanactofshabbytreachery,andI’masmuchtoblameasifhestillwantedtopunishmeforit。”

  “DidMr。Marchsaythattoyou?”

  “No;IsaidthattoMr。March;andhecouldn’tanswerit,andyoucan’t。

  You’reverygood,andverykind,butyoucan’tanswerit。”

  “Icanansweritverywell。”sheboasted,butshecouldfindnothingbettertosaythan,“It’syourdutytohertoseeherandletherknow。”

  “Doesn’tsheknowalready?”

  “Shehasarighttoknowitfromyou。Ithinkyouaremorbid,Mr。

  Burnamy。YouknowverywellIdidn’tlikeyourdoingthattoMr。

  Stoller。Ididn’tsaysoatthetime,becauseyouseemedtofeelitenoughyourself。ButIdidlikeyourowninguptoit。”andhereMrs。

  Marchthoughtittimetotrotoutherborrowedbattle-horseagain。“Myhusbandalwayssaysthatifapersonownsuptoanerror,fullyandfaithfully,asyou’vealwaysdone,theymakeitthesameinitsconsequencestothemasifithadneverbeendone。”

  “DoesMr。Marchsaythat?”askedBurnamywitharelentingsmile。

  “Indeedhedoes!”

  Burnamyhesitated;thenheasked,gloomilyagain:

  “Andwhatabouttheconsequencestothe,otherfellow?”

  “Awoman。”saidMrs。March,“hasnoconcernwiththem。Andbesides,I

  thinkyou’vedoneallyoucouldtosaveMr。Stollerfromtheconsequences。”

  “Ihaven’tdoneanything。”

  “Nomatter。Youwouldifyoucould。Iwonder。”shebrokeoff,topreventhispersistenceatapointwherehernerveswerebeginningtogiveway,“whatcanbekeepingMr。March?”

  Nothingmuchmoreimportant,itappearedlater,thanthepleasureofsaunteringthroughthestreetsonthewaytothehouseofSchiller,andlookingattheprettychildrengoingtoschool,withbooksundertheirarms。Itwasthedayfortheschoolstoopenafterthelongsummervacation,andtherewasafreshnessofexpectationintheshiningfaceswhich,ifitcouldnotlightuphisowngraybeardvisage,couldatleasttouchhisheart:

  WhenhereachedtheSchillerhousehefoundthatitwasreallynottheSchillerhouse,buttheSchillerflat,ofthreeorfourrooms,oneflightup,whosewindowslookoutuponthestreetnamedafterthepoet。Thewholeplaceisbareandclean;inonecornerofthelargeroomfrontingthestreetstandsSchiller’swriting-table,withhischairbeforeit;

  withthefootextendingtowardthistherestands,inanothercorner,thenarrowbedonwhichhedied;somewitheredwreathsonthepillowframeapictureofhisdeathmask,whichatfirstglanceislikehisdeadfacelyingthere。Itisallrathertasteless,andallrathertouching,andtheplacewithitsmeagreappointments,ascomparedwiththerichGoethehouse,suggeststhatpersonalcompetitionwithGoetheinwhichSchillerisalwaysfallingintothesecondplace。Whetheritwillbefinallysowithhiminliteratureitistooearlytoaskoftime,anduponotherpointseternitywillnotbeinterrogated。“Thegreat,GoetheandthegoodSchiller。”theyremain;andyet,Marchreasoned,therewassomethinggoodinGoetheandsomethinggreat,inSchiller。

  Hewassofullofthepathosoftheirinequalitybeforetheworldthathedidnotheedthewarningonthedoorofthepastry-shopneartheSchillerhouse,andonopeningithebedaubedhishandwiththefreshpaintonit。

  Hewastheninsuchastate,thathecouldnotbringhismindtobearuponthequestionofwhichcakeshiswifewouldprobablyprefer,andhestoodhelplesslyholdinguphishandtillthegoodwomanbehindthecounterdiscoveredhisplight,andutteredaloudcryofcompassion。

  Sheranandgotawetnapkin,whichsherubbedwithsoap,andthensheinstructedhimbywordandgesturetorubhishanduponit,andshedidnotleavehimtillhisrescuewascomplete。Heletherchooseavarietyofthecakesforhim,andcameawaywithagaypaperbagfullofthem,andwiththefeelingthathehadbeeninmoreintimaterelationswiththelifeofWeimarthantravellersareoftenprivilegedtobe。Hearguedfromtheinstantandintelligentsympathyofthepastrywomanahighgradeofcultureinallclasses;andheconceivedthenotionofpretendingtoMrs。Marchthathehadgotthesecakesfrom,adescendantofSchiller。

  Hisdeceitavailedwithherforthebriefmomentinwhichshealways,aftersomanyyears’experienceofhisduplicity,believedanythinghetoldher。Theydinedmerrilytogetherattheirhotel,andthenBurnamycamedowntothestationwiththemandwasverycomfortabletoMarchinhelpinghimtogettheirticketsandtheirbaggageregistered。ThetrainwhichwastotakethemtoHalle,wheretheyweretochangeforBerlin,wasratherlate,andtheyhadbuttenminutesafteritcameinbeforeitwouldstartagain。Mrs。Marchwaswatchingimpatientlyatthewindowofthewaiting-roomforthedismountingpassengerstocleartheplatformandallowthedoorstobeopened;suddenlyshegaveacry,andturnedandranintothepassagebywhichthenewarrivalswerepouringouttowardthesuperabundantomnibuses。MarchandBurnamy,whohadbeentalkingapart,mechanicallyrushedafterherandfoundherkissingMissTriscoeandshakinghandswiththegeneralamidstatempestofquestionsandanswers,fromwhichitappearedthattheTriscoeshadgottiredofstayinginWurzburg,andhadsimplycomeontoWeimaradaysoonerthantheyhadintended。

  The,generalwasrathermuchbundledupforadaywhichwasmildforaGermansummerday,andhecoughedoutanexplanationthathehadtakenanabominablecoldatthatridiculousparade,andhadnotshakenitoffyet。

  Hehadanotionthatchangeofairwouldbebetterforhim;itcouldnotbeworse。

  HeseemedalittlevagueastoBurnamy,ratherthaninimical。WhiletheladieswerestilltalkingeagerlytogetherinprofferandacceptanceofMrs。March’slamentationsthatsheshouldbegoingawayjustasMissTriscoewascoming,heaskediftheomnibusfortheirhotelwasthere。

  HebynomeansresentedBurnamy’sassurancethatitwas,andhedidnotrefusetolethimordertheirbaggage,littleandlarge,loadeduponit。

  Bythetimethiswasdone,Mrs。MarchandMissTriscoehadsofardetachedthemselvesfromeachotherthattheycouldseparateafteronemoreformalexpressionofregretandforgiveness。Withalamentintowhichshepouredaworldofinarticulateemotions,Mrs。Marchwrenchedherselffromtheplace,andsufferedherself,tobepushedtowardhertrain。Butwiththelastlonglookwhichshecastoverhershoulder,beforeshevanishedintothewaiting-room,shesawMissTriscoeandBurnamytransactingtheelaboratepolitenessesofamiablestrangerswithregardtotheverysmallbagwhichthegirlhadinherhand。Hesucceededinrelievingherofit;andthenheledthewayoutofthestationontheleftofthegeneral,whileMissTriscoebroughtuptherear。

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