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  TheprimitivegovernmentwastheMatriarchate。TheMatriarchate!

  TheLordsofCreationjustranaboutanddidwhattheyweretold。\"

  \"Butisthatreallyso?\"saidAnnVeronica。

  \"Ithasbeenproved,\"saidMissMiniver,andadded,\"byAmericanprofessors。\"

  \"Buthowdidtheyproveit?\"

  \"Byscience,\"saidMissMiniver,andhurriedon,puttingoutarhetoricalhandthatshowedaslashoffingerthroughitsglove。

  \"Andnow,lookatus!Seewhatwehavebecome。Toys!Delicatetrifles!Asexofinvalids。Itiswewhohavebecometheparasitesandtoys。\"

  Itwas,AnnVeronicafelt,atonceabsurdandextraordinarilyright。Hetty,whohadperiodsoflucidexpression,putthethingforherfromherpillow。ShechargedboldlyintothespaceofMissMiniver’srhetoricalpause。

  \"Itisn’tquitethatwe’retoys。Nobodytoyswithme。NobodyregardsConstanceorVeeasadelicatetrifle。\"

  Teddymadesomeconfusednoise,athoracicstreetrow;someremarkwasassassinatedbyarivalinhisthroatandburiedhastilyunderacough。

  \"They’dbetternot,\"saidHetty。\"Thepointiswe’renottoys,toysisn’ttheword;we’relitter。We’rehandfuls。We’reregardedasinflammablelitterthatmustn’tbeleftabout。Wearethespecies,andmaternityisourgame;that’sallright,butnobodywantsthatadmittedforfearweshouldallcatchfire,andsetaboutfulfillingthepurposeofourbeingswithoutwaitingforfurtherexplanations。Asifwedidn’tknow!Thepracticaltroubleisourages。Theyusedtomarryusoffatseventeen,rushusintothingsbeforewehadtimetoprotest。Theydon’tnow。Heavenknowswhy!Theydon’tmarrymostofusoffnowuntilhighupinthetwenties。Andtheagegetshigher。Wehavetohangaboutintheinterval。There’sagreatgulfopened,andnobody’sgotanyplanswhattodowithus。Sotheworldischokedwithwasteandwaitingdaughters。Hangingabout!Andtheystartthinkingandaskingquestions,andbegintobeneitheronethingnortheother。We’repartlyhumanbeingsandpartlyfemalesinsuspense。\"

  MissMiniverfollowedwithanexpressionofperplexity,hermouthshapedtofutileexpositions。TheWidgettmethodofthoughtpuzzledherweaklyrhetoricalmind。\"Thereisnoremedy,girls,\"

  shebegan,breathlessly,\"excepttheVote。Giveusthat——\"

  AnnVeronicacameinwithacertaindisregardofMissMiniver。

  \"That’sit,\"shesaid。\"Theyhavenoplansforus。Theyhavenoideaswhattodowithus。\"

  \"Except,\"saidConstance,surveyingherworkwithherheadononeside,\"tokeepthematchesfromthelitter。\"

  \"Andtheywon’tletusmakeplansforourselves。\"

  \"Wewill,\"saidMissMiniver,refusingtobesuppressed,\"ifsomeofushavetobekilledtogetit。\"Andshepressedherlipstogetherinwhiteresolutionandnodded,andshewasmanifestlyfullofthatsamepassionforconflictandself-sacrificethathasgiventheworldmartyrssincethebeginningofthings。\"I

  wishIcouldmakeeverywoman,everygirl,seethisasclearlyasIseeit——justwhattheVotemeanstous。Justwhatitmeans……\"

  Part2

  AsAnnVeronicawentbackalongtheAvenuetoherauntshebecameawareofalight-footedpursuerrunning。Teddyovertookher,alittleoutofbreath,hisinnocentfaceflushed,hisstraw-coloredhairdisordered。Hewasoutofbreath,andspokeinbrokensentences。

  \"Isay,Vee。Halfaminute,Vee。It’slikethis:Youwantfreedom。Lookhere。Youknow——ifyouwantfreedom。Justanideaofmine。YouknowhowthoseRussianstudentsdo?InRussia。Justaformalmarriage。Mereformality。Liberatesthegirlfromparentalcontrol。See?Youmarryme。Simply。Nofurtherresponsibilitywhatever。Withouthindrance——presentoccupation。Whynot?Quitewilling。Getalicense——justanideaofmine。Doesn’tmatterabittome。Doanythingtopleaseyou,Vee。Anything。Notfittobedustonyourboots。

  Still——thereyouare!\"

  Hepaused。

  AnnVeronica’sdesiretolaughunrestrainedlywascheckedbythetremendousearnestnessofhisexpression。\"Awfullygoodofyou,Teddy。\"shesaid。

  Henoddedsilently,toofullforwords。

  \"ButIdon’tsee,\"saidAnnVeronica,\"justhowitfitsthepresentsituation。\"

  \"No!Well,Ijustsuggestedit。Threwitout。Ofcourse,ifatanytime——seereason——alteryouropinion。Alwaysatyourservice。

  Nooffence,Ihope。Allright!I’moff。Duetoplayhockey。

  Jackson’s。Horridsnorters!Solong,Vee!Justsuggestedit。

  See?Nothingreally。Passingthought。\"

  \"Teddy,\"saidAnnVeronica,\"you’readear!\"

  \"Oh,quite!\"saidTeddy,convulsively,andliftedanimaginaryhatandlefther。

  Part3

  ThecallAnnVeronicapaidwithherauntthatafternoonhadatfirstmuchthesamerelationtotheWidgettconversationthataplasterstatueofMr。Gladstonewouldhavetoacarelesslydisplayedinterioronadissecting-roomtable。TheWidgettstalkedwitharemarkableabsenceofexternalcoverings;thePalsworthysfoundallthemeaningsoflifeonitssurfaces。TheyseemedthemostwrappedthingsinallAnnVeronica’swrapperedworld。TheWidgettmentalfurniturewasperhapswornandshabby,butthereitwasbeforeyou,undisguised,fadingvisiblyinanalmostpitilesssunlight。LadyPalsworthywasthewidowofaknightwhohadwonhisspursinthewholesalecoaltrade,shewasofgoodseventeenth-centuryattorneyblood,acountyfamily,anddistantlyrelatedtoAuntMollie’sdeceasedcurate。ShewasthesocialleaderofMorningsidePark,andinhersuperficialandeuphuisticwayanextremelykindandpleasantwoman。WithherlivedaMrs。Pramlay,asisteroftheMorningsideParkdoctor,andaveryactiveandusefulmemberoftheCommitteeoftheImpoverishedGentlewomen’sAidSociety。BothladieswereoneasyandfriendlytermswithallthatwasbestinMorningsideParksociety;theyhadanafternoononceamonththatwasquitewellattended,theysometimesgavemusicalevenings,theydinedoutandgaveafinishtopeople’sdinners,theyhadafull-sizedcroquetlawnandtennisbeyond,andunderstoodtheartofbringingpeopletogether。Andtheynevertalkedofanythingatall,neverdiscussed,neverevenencouragedgossip。Theywerejustnice。

  AnnVeronicafoundherselfwalkingbackdowntheAvenuethathadjustbeenthesceneofherfirstproposalbesideheraunt,andspeculatingforthefirsttimeinherlifeaboutthatlady’smentalattitudes。Herprevailingeffectwasoneofquietandcompleteassurance,asthoughsheknewallabouteverything,andwasonlyrestrainedbyherinstinctivedelicacyfromtellingwhatsheknew。Buttherestraintexercisedbyherinstinctivedelicacywasverygreat;overandabovecoarseorsexualmattersitcoveredreligionandpoliticsandanymentionofmoneymattersorcrime,andAnnVeronicafoundherselfwonderingwhethertheseexclusionsrepresented,afterall,anythingmorethansuppressions。Wasthereanythingatallinthoselockedroomsofheraunt’smind?Weretheyfullyfurnishedandonlyalittledustyandcobwebbyandinneedofanairing,orweretheystarkvacancyexcept,perhaps,foracockroachorsoorthegnawingofarat?Whatwasthementalequivalentofarat’sgnawing?Theimagewasgoingastray。ButwhatwouldherauntthinkofTeddy’srecentoff-handsuggestionofmarriage?WhatwouldshethinkoftheWidgettconversation?Supposeshewastotellherauntquietlybutfirmlyabouttheparasiticmalesofdegradedcrustacea。Thegirlsuppressedachucklethatwouldhavebeeninexplicable。

  Therecameawildrushofanthropologicalloreintoherbrain,aflareofindecoroushumor。Itwasoneofthesecrettroublesofhermind,thisgrotesquetwistherideaswouldsometimestake,asthoughtheyrebelledandrioted。Afterall,shefoundherselfreflecting,behindheraunt’scomplacentvisagetherewasapastasluridasanyone’s——not,ofcourse,heraunt’sownpersonalpast,whichwasapparentlyjustthatcurateandalmostincrediblyjejune,butanancestralpastwithallsortsofscandalousthingsinit:fireandslaughterings,exogamy,marriagebycapture,corroborees,cannibalism!Ancestresseswithperhapsdimanticipatorylikenessestoheraunt,theirhairlessneatlydone,nodoubt,theirmannersandgesturesasyetundisciplined,butstillancestressesinthedirectline,musthavedancedthroughabriefandstirringlifeinthewoadybuff。WastherenoechoanywhereinMissStanley’spacifiedbrain?Thoseemptyrooms,iftheywereempty,weretheequivalentsofastoundinglydecoratedpredecessors。Perhapsitwasjustaswelltherewasnoinheritedmemory。

  AnnVeronicawasbythistimequiteshockedatherownthoughts,andyettheywouldgoonwiththeirfreaks。Greatvistasofhistoryopened,andsheandherauntwerenearrevertingtotheprimitiveandpassionateandentirelyindecorousarboreal——wereswingingfrombranchesbythearms,andreallygoingonquitedread-fully——whentheirarrivalatthePalsworthys’happilycheckedthisplayoffancy,andbroughtAnnVeronicabacktotheexigenciesofthewrapperedlifeagain。

  LadyPalsworthylikedAnnVeronicabecauseshewasneverawkward,hadsteadyeyes,andanalmostinvariableneatnessanddignityinherclothes。Sheseemedjustasstiffandshyasagirloughttobe,LadyPalsworthythought,neithergarrulousnorunready,andfreefromnearlyalltheheavyaggressiveness,theovergrown,overblownquality,theegotismandwantofconsiderationofthetypicalmoderngirl。ButthenLadyPalsworthyhadneverseenAnnVeronicarunninglikethewindathockey。Shehadneverseenhersittingontablesnorheardherdiscussingtheology,andhadfailedtoobservethatthegracefulfigurewasanaturaloneandnotduetoablychosenstays。ShetookitforgrantedAnnVeronicaworestays——mildstays,perhaps,butstays,andthoughtnomoreofthematter。Shehadseenherreallyonlyatteas,withtheStanleystraininheruppermost。Therearesomanygirlsnowadayswhoarequiteunpresentableattea,withtheiruntrimmedlaughs,theirawfuldispositionsoftheirlegswhentheysitdown,theirslangydisrespect;theynolongersmoke,itistrue,likethegirlsoftheeightiesandnineties,neverthelesstoafineintelligencetheyhavetheflavoroftobacco。Theyhavenoamenities,theyscratchthemellowsurfaceofthingsalmostasiftheydiditonpurpose;andLadyPalsworthyandMrs。Pramlaylivedforamenitiesandthemellowedsurfacesofthings。AnnVeronicawasoneofthefewyoungpeople——andonemusthaveyoungpeoplejustasonemusthaveflowers——onecouldasktoalittlegatheringwithouttheriskofapainfuldiscord。ThenthedistantrelationshiptoMissStanleygavethemaslightbutpleasantsenseofproprietorshipinthegirl。Theyhadtheirlittledreamsabouther。

  Mrs。Pramlayreceivedthemintheprettychintzdrawing-room,whichopenedbyFrenchwindowsonthetrimgarden,withitscroquetlawn,itstennis-netinthemiddledistance,anditsremoterosealleylinedwithsmartdahliasandflamingsunflowers。HereyemetMissStanley’sunderstandingly,andshewasifanythingatriflemoreaffectionateinhergreetingtoAnnVeronica。ThenAnnVeronicapassedontowardtheteainthegarden,whichwasdottedwiththeeliteofMorningsideParksociety,andthereshewaspounceduponbyLadyPalsworthyandgiventeaandledabout。Acrossthelawnandhoveringindecisively,AnnVeronicasawandimmediatelyaffectednottoseeMr。Manning,LadyPalsworthy’snephew,atallyoungmanofseven-and-thirtywithahandsome,thoughtful,impassiveface,afullblackmustache,andacertainheavyluxuriousnessofgesture。ThepartyresolveditselfforAnnVeronicaintoagameinwhichshemanoeuvredunostentatiouslyandfinallyunsuccessfullytoavoidtalkingalonewiththisgentleman。

  Mr。ManninghadshownonpreviousoccasionsthathefoundAnnVeronicainterestingandthathewishedtointeresther。Hewasacivilservantofsomestanding,andafterapreviousconversationuponaestheticsofasententious,nebulous,andsympatheticcharacter,hehadsentherasmallvolume,whichhedescribedasthefruitsofhisleisureandwhichwasasamatteroffactrathercarefullyfinishedverse。ItdealtwithfineaspectsofMr。Manning’sfeelings,andasAnnVeronica’smindwasstilllargelyengagedwithfundamentalsandfoundnopleasureinmetricalforms,shehadnotasyetcutitspages。Sothatasshesawhimsheremarkedtoherselfveryfaintlybutdefinitely,\"Oh,golly!\"andsetupacampaignofavoidancethatMr。Manningatlastbrokedownbycomingdirectlyatherasshetalkedwiththevicar’sauntaboutsomeofthedetailsoftheallegedsmellofthenewchurchlamps。Hedidnotsomuchcutintothisconversationasloomoverit,forhewasatall,ifratherstudiouslystooping,man。

  ThefacethatlookeddownuponAnnVeronicawasfullofamiableintention。\"Splendidyouarelookingto-day,MissStanley,\"hesaid。\"Howwellandjollyyoumustbefeeling。\"

  Hebeamedovertheeffectofthisandshookhandswitheffusion,andLadyPalsworthysuddenlyappearedashisconfederateanddisentangledthevicar’saunt。

  \"Ilovethiswarmendofsummermorethanwordscantell,\"hesaid。\"I’vetriedtomakewordstellit。It’snogood。Mild,youknow,andboon。Youwantmusic。\"

  AnnVeronicaagreed,andtriedtomakethemannerofherassentcoverapossibleknowledgeofaprobablepoem。

  \"Splendiditmustbetobeacomposer。Glorious!ThePastoral。

  Beethoven;he’sthebestofthem。Don’tyouthink?Tum,tay,tum,tay。\"

  AnnVeronicadid。

  \"Whathaveyoubeendoingsinceourlasttalk?Stillcuttinguprabbitsandprobingintothings?I’veoftenthoughtofthattalkofours——often。\"

  Hedidnotappeartorequireanyanswertohisquestion。

  \"Often,\"herepeated,alittleheavily。

  \"Beautifultheseautumnflowersare,\"saidAnnVeronica,inawide,uncomfortablepause。

  \"DocomeandseetheMichaelmasdaisiesattheendofthegarden,\"saidMr。Manning,\"they’readream。\"AndAnnVeronicafoundherselfbeingcarriedofftoanisolationevenremoterandmoreconspicuousthanthecornerofthelawn,withthewholeofthepartyaidingandabettingandglancingatthem。\"Damn!\"saidAnnVeronicatoherself,rousingherselfforaconflict。

  Mr。Manningtoldherhelovedbeauty,andextortedasimilaradmissionfromher;hethenexpatiateduponhisownloveofbeauty。Hesaidthatforhimbeautyjustifiedlife,thathecouldnotimagineagoodactionthatwasnotabeautifulonenoranybeautifulthingthatcouldbealtogetherbad。AnnVeronicahazardedanopinionthatasamatterofhistorysomeverybeautifulpeoplehad,toaquiteconsiderableextent,beenbad,butMr。Manningquestionedwhetherwhentheywerebadtheywerereallybeautifulorwhentheywerebeautifulbad。AnnVeronicafoundherattentionwanderingalittleashetoldherthathewasnotashamedtofeelalmostslavishinthepresenceofreallybeautifulpeople,andthentheycametotheMichaelmasdaisies。

  Theywerereallyveryfineandabundant,withablazeofperennialsunflowersbehindthem。

  \"Theymakemewanttoshout,\"saidMr。Manning,withasweepofthearm。

  \"They’reverygoodthisyear,\"saidAnnVeronica,avoidingcontroversialmatter。

  \"EitherIwanttoshout,\"saidMr。Manning,\"whenIseebeautifulthings,orelseIwanttoweep。\"Hepausedandlookedather,andsaid,withasuddendropintoaconfidentialundertone,\"OrelseIwanttopray。\"

  \"WhenisMichaelmasDay?\"saidAnnVeronica,alittleabruptly。

  \"Heavenknows!\"saidMr。Manning;andadded,\"thetwenty-ninth。\"

  \"Ithoughtitwasearlier,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Wasn’tParliamenttoreassemble?\"

  Heputouthishandandleanedagainstatreeandcrossedhislegs。\"You’renotinterestedinpolitics?\"heasked,almostwithanoteofprotest。

  \"Well,rather,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Itseems——It’sinteresting。\"

  \"Doyouthinkso?Ifindmyinterestinthatsortofthingdeclineanddecline。\"

  \"I’mcurious。PerhapsbecauseIdon’tknow。IsupposeanintelligentpersonOUGHTtobeinterestedinpoliticalaffairs。

  Theyconcernusall。\"

  \"Iwonder,\"saidMr。Manning,withabafflingsmile。

  \"Ithinktheydo。Afterall,they’rehistoryinthemaking。\"

  \"Asortofhistory,\"saidMr。Manning;andrepeated,\"asortofhistory。Butlookatthesegloriousdaisies!\"

  \"Butdon’tyouthinkpoliticalquestionsAREimportant?\"

  \"Idon’tthinktheyarethisafternoon,andIdon’tthinktheyaretoyou。\"

  AnnVeronicaturnedherbackontheMichaelmasdaisies,andfacedtowardthehousewithanairofadutycompleted。

  \"Justcometothatseatnowyouarehere,MissStanley,andlookdowntheotherpath;there’savistaofjustthecommonsort。

  Bettereventhanthese。\"

  AnnVeronicawalkedasheindicated。

  \"YouknowI’mold-fashioned,MissStanley。Idon’tthinkwomenneedtotroubleaboutpoliticalquestions。\"

  \"Iwantavote,\"saidAnnVeronica。

  \"Really!\"saidMr。Manning,inanearnestvoice,andwavedhishandtothealleyofmauveandpurple。\"Iwishyoudidn’t。\"

  \"Whynot?\"Sheturnedonhim。

  \"Itjars。Itjarswithallmyideas。Womentomearesomethingsoserene,sofine,sofeminine,andpoliticsaresodusty,sosordid,sowearisomeandquarrelsome。Itseemstomeawoman’sdutytobebeautiful,toBEbeautifulandtobehavebeautifully,andpoliticsarebytheirverynatureugly。Yousee,I——Iamawomanworshipper。IworshippedwomenlongbeforeIfoundanywomanImighteverhopetoworship。Longago。And——theideaofcommittees,ofhustings,ofagenda-papers!\"

  \"Idon’tseewhytheresponsibilityofbeautyshouldallbeshiftedontothewomen,\"saidAnnVeronica,suddenlyrememberingapartofMissMiniver’sdiscourse。

  \"Itrestswiththembythenatureofthings。Whyshouldyouwhoarequeenscomedownfromyourthrones?Ifyoucanaffordit,WE

  can’t。Wecan’taffordtoturnourwomen,ourMadonnas,ourSaintCatherines,ourMonaLisas,ourgoddessesandangelsandfairyprincesses,intoasortofman。Womanhoodissacredtome。

  Mypoliticsinthatmatterwouldn’tbetogivewomenvotes。I’maSocialist,MissStanley。\"

  \"WHAT?\"saidAnnVeronica,startled。

  \"ASocialistoftheorderofJohnRuskin。IndeedIam!Iwouldmakethiscountryacollectivemonarchy,andallthegirlsandwomeninitshouldbetheQueen。Theyshouldnevercomeintocontactwithpoliticsoreconomics——oranyofthosethings。Andwemenwouldworkforthemandservetheminloyalfealty。\"

  \"That’sratherthetheorynow,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Onlysomanymenneglecttheirduties。\"

  \"Yes,\"saidMr。Manning,withanairofemergingfromanelaboratedemonstration,\"andsoeachofusmust,underexistingconditions,beingchivalrousindeedtoallwomen,chooseforhimselfhisownparticularandworshipfulqueen。\"

  \"Sofarasonecanjudgefromthesysteminpractice,\"saidAnnVeronica,speakinginaloud,common-sense,detachedtone,andbeginningtowalkslowlybutresolutelytowardthelawn,\"itdoesn’twork。\"

  \"Everyonemustbeexperimental,\"saidMr。Manning,andglancedroundhastilyforfurtherhorticulturalpointsofinterestinsecludedcorners。Nonepresentedthemselvestosavehimfromthatreturn。

  \"That’sallverywellwhenoneisn’tthematerialexperimentedupon,\"AnnVeronicahadremarked。

  \"Womenwould——theyDOhavefarmorepowerthantheythink,asinfluences,asinspirations。\"

  AnnVeronicasaidnothinginanswertothat。

  \"Yousayyouwantavote,\"saidMr。Manning,abruptly。

  \"IthinkIoughttohaveone。\"

  \"Well,Ihavetwo,\"saidMr。Manning——\"oneinOxfordUniversityandoneinKensington。\"Hecaughtupandwentonwithasortofclumsiness:\"Letmepresentyouwiththemandbeyourvoter。\"

  Therefollowedaninstant’spause,andthenAnnVeronicahaddecidedtomisunderstand。

  \"Iwantavoteformyself,\"shesaid。\"Idon’tseewhyIshouldtakeitsecond-hand。Thoughit’sverykindofyou。Andratherunscrupulous。Haveyouevervoted,Mr。Manning?Isupposethere’sasortofplacelikeaticket-office。Andaballot-box——\"Herfaceassumedanexpressionofintellectualconflict。\"Whatisaballot-boxlike,exactly?\"sheasked,asthoughitwasveryimportanttoher。

  Mr。Manningregardedherthoughtfullyforamomentandstrokedhismustache。\"Aballot-box,youknow,\"hesaid,\"isverylargelyjustabox。\"Hemadequitealongpause,andwenton,withasigh:\"Youhaveavotingpapergivenyou——\"

  Theyemergedintothepublicityofthelawn。

  \"Yes,\"saidAnnVeronica,\"yes,\"tohisexplanation,andsawacrossthelawnLadyPalsworthytalkingtoheraunt,andbothofthemstaringfranklyacrossatherandMr。Manningastheytalked。

  CHAPTERTHETHIRD

  THEMORNINGOFTHECRISIS

  Part1

  TwodaysaftercamethedayoftheCrisis,thedayoftheFaddenDance。Itwouldhavebeenacrisisanyhow,butitwascomplicatedinAnnVeronica’smindbythefactthataletterlayonthebreakfast-tablefromMr。Manning,andthatherauntfocussedabrightlytactfuldisregarduponthisthroughoutthemeal。AnnVeronicahadcomedownthinkingofnothingintheworldbutherinflexibleresolutiontogotothedanceintheteethofallopposition。ShedidnotknowMr。Manning’shandwriting,andopenedhisletterandreadsomelinesbeforeitsimportappeared。ThenforatimesheforgottheFaddenaffairaltogether。Withawell-simulatedunconcernandaheightenedcolorshefinishedherbreakfast。

  ShewasnotobligedtogototheTredgoldCollege,becauseasyettheCollegehadnotsettleddownforthesession。Shewassupposedtobereadingathome,andafterbreakfastshestrolledintothevegetablegarden,andhavingtakenupapositionuponthestagingofadisusedgreenhousethathadthedoubleadvantageofbeinghiddenfromthewindowsofthehouseandsecurefromthesuddenappearanceofanyone,sheresumedthereadingofMr。

  Manning’sletter。

  Mr。Manning’shandwritinghadanairofbeingclearwithoutbeingeasilylegible;itwaslargeandratherroundish,withalackofdefinitionaboutthelettersandadispositiontotreatthelargeonesasliberal-mindedpeoplenowadaystreatopinions,asallamountingtothesamethingreally——ayears-smoothedboyishratherthananadulthand。Anditfilledsevensheetsofnotepaper,eachwrittenonlyononeside。

  \"MYDEARMISSSTANLEY,\"itbegan,——\"Ihopeyouwillforgivemybotheringyouwithaletter,butIhavebeenthinkingverymuchoverourconversationatLadyPalsworthy’s,andIfeeltherearethingsIwanttosaytoyousomuchthatIcannotwaituntilwemeetagain。Itistheworstoftalkundersuchsocialcircumstancesthatitisalwaysgettingcutoffsosoonasitisbeginning;andIwenthomethatafternoonfeelingIhadsaidnothing——literallynothing——ofthethingsIhadmeanttosaytoyouandthatwerecoursingthroughmyhead。TheywerethingsI

  hadmeantverymuchtotalktoyouabout,sothatIwenthomevexedanddisappointed,andonlyrelievedmyselfalittlebywritingafewverses。IwonderifyouwillmindverymuchwhenI

  tellyoutheyweresuggestedbyyou。Youmustforgivethepoet’slicenseItake。Hereisoneverse。Themetricalirregularityisintentional,becauseIwant,asitwere,toputyouapart:tochangetheliltandthemoodaltogetherwhenIspeakofyou。

  \"’ASONGOFLADIESANDMYLADY

  \"’SaintlywhiteandalilyisMary,Margaret’sviolets,sweetandshy;

  GreenanddewyisNellie-budfairy,Forget-me-notsliveinGwendolen’seye。

  Annabelshineslikeastarinthedarkness,Rosamundqueensitarose,deeprose;

  ButtheladyIloveislikesunshineinAprilweather,Shegleamsandgladdens,shewarms——andgoes。’

  \"Crude,Iadmit。Butletthatversetellmysecret。Allbadverse——originallytheepigramwasLang’s,Ibelieve——iswritteninastateofemotion。

  \"MydearMissStanley,whenItalkedtoyoutheotherafternoonofworkandpoliticsandsuch-likethings,mymindwasallthetimeresentingitbeyondmeasure。Therewewerediscussingwhetheryoushouldhaveavote,andIrememberedthelastoccasionwemetitwasaboutyourprospectsofsuccessinthemedicalprofessionorasaGovernmentofficialsuchasanumberofwomennoware,andallthetimemyheartwascryingoutwithinme,’HereistheQueenofyourcareer。’Iwanted,asIhaveneverwantedbefore,totakeyouup,tomakeyoumine,tocarryyouoffandsetyouapartfromallthestrainandturmoiloflife。Fornothingwilleverconvincemethatitisnottheman’sshareinlifetoshield,toprotect,toleadandtoilandwatchandbattlewiththeworldatlarge。Iwanttobeyourknight,yourservant,yourprotector,your——Idarescarcelywritetheword——yourhusband。SoIcomesuppliant。Iamfive-and-thirty,andIhaveknockedaboutintheworldandtastedthequalityoflife。IhadahardfighttobeginwithtowinmywayintotheUpperDivision——Iwasthirdonalistofforty-seven——andsincethenIhavefoundmyselfpromotedalmostyearlyinawideningsphereofsocialservice。BeforeImetyouInevermetanyonewhomIfeltIcouldlove,butyouhavediscovereddepthsinmyownnatureIhadscarcelysuspected。Exceptforafewearlyebullitionsofpassion,naturaltoawarmandromanticdisposition,andleavingnoharmfulafter-effects——ebullitionsthatbythestandardsofthehighertruthIfeelnoonecanjustlycastastoneat,andofwhichIforoneambynomeansashamed——Icometoyouapureandunencumberedman。Iloveyou。

  InadditiontomypublicsalaryIhaveacertainprivatepropertyandfurtherexpectationsthroughmyaunt,sothatIcanofferyoualifeofwideandgenerousrefinement,travel,books,discussion,andeasyrelationswithacircleofcleverandbrilliantandthoughtfulpeoplewithwhommyliteraryworkhasbroughtmeintocontact,andofwhich,seeingmeonlyasyouhavedonealoneinMorningsidePark,youcanhavenoidea。Ihaveacertainstandingnotonlyasasingerbutasacritic,andI

  belongtooneofthemostbrilliantcauseriedinnerclubsoftheday,inwhichsuccessfulBohemianism,politicians,menofaffairs,artists,sculptors,andcultivatednoblemengenerally,mingletogetherintheeasiestandmostdelightfulintercourse。

  Thatismyrealmilieu,andonethatIamconvincedyouwouldnotonlyadornbutdelightin。

  \"Ifinditveryhardtowritethisletter。TherearesomanythingsIwanttotellyou,andtheystandonsuchdifferentlevels,thattheeffectisnecessarilyconfusinganddiscordant,andIfindmyselfdoubtingifIamreallygivingyouthethreadofemotionthatshouldrunthroughallthisletter。ForalthoughImustconfessitreadsverymuchlikeanapplicationoratestimonialorsomesuchthingasthat,IcanassureyouIamwritingthisinfearandtremblingwithasinkingheart。MymindisfullofideasandimagesthatIhavebeencherishingandaccumulating——dreamsoftravellingsidebyside,oflunchingquietlytogetherinsomejollyrestaurant,ofmoonlightandmusicandallthatsideoflife,ofseeingyoudressedlikeaqueenandshininginsomebrilliantthrong——mine;ofyourlookingatflowersinsomeold-worldgarden,ourgarden——therearesplendidplacestobegotdowninSurrey,andalittlerunaboutmotorisquitewithinmymeans。Youknowtheysay,as,indeed,Ihavejustquotedalready,thatallbadpoetryiswritteninastateofemotion,butIhavenodoubtthatthisistrueofbadoffersofmarriage。Ihaveoftenfeltbeforethatitisonlywhenonehasnothingtosaythatonecanwriteeasypoetry。WitnessBrowning。

  AndhowcanIgetintoonebriefletterthecomplexaccumulateddesiresofwhatisnow,Ifindonreferencetomydiary,nearlysixteenmonthsoflettingmymindrunonyou——eversincethatjollypartyatSurbiton,whereweracedandbeattheotherboat。

  YousteeredandIrowedstroke。Myverysentencesstumbleandgiveway。ButIdonotevencareifIamabsurd。Iamaresoluteman,andhithertowhenIhavewantedathingIhavegotit;butIhaveneveryetwantedanythinginmylifeasIhavewantedyou。Itisn’tthesamething。IamafraidbecauseIloveyou,sothatthemerethoughtoffailurehurts。IfIdidnotloveyousomuchIbelieveIcouldwinyoubysheerforceofcharacter,forpeopletellmeIamnaturallyofthedominatingtype。Mostofmysuccessesinlifehavebeenmadewithasortofrecklessvigor。

  \"Well,IhavesaidwhatIhadtosay,stumblinglyandbadly,andbaldly。ButIamsickoftearinguplettersandhopelessofgettingwhatIhavetosaybettersaid。Itwouldbeeasyenoughformetowriteaneloquentletteraboutsomethingelse。OnlyI

  donotcaretowriteaboutanythingelse。LetmeputthemainquestiontoyounowthatIcouldnotputtheotherafternoon。

  Willyoumarryme,AnnVeronica?

  Verysincerelyyours,\"HUBERTMANNING。\"

  AnnVeronicareadthisletterthroughwithgrave,attentiveeyes。

  Herinterestgrewassheread,acertaindistastedisappeared。

  Twiceshesmiled,butnotunkindly。Thenshewentbackandmixedupthesheetsinasearchforparticularpassages。Finallyshefellintoreflection。

  \"Odd!\"shesaid。\"IsupposeIshallhavetowriteananswer。

  It’ssodifferentfromwhatonehasbeenledtoexpect。\"

  Shebecameawareofheraunt,throughthepanesofthegreenhouse,advancingwithanairofsereneunconsciousnessfromamongtheraspberrycanes。

  \"Noyoudon’t!\"saidAnnVeronica,andwalkedoutatabriskandbusiness-likepacetowardthehouse。

  \"I’mgoingforalongtramp,auntie,\"shesaid。

  \"Alone,dear?\"

  \"Yes,aunt。I’vegotalotofthingstothinkabout。\"

  MissStanleyreflectedasAnnVeronicawenttowardthehouse。

  Shethoughthernieceveryhardandveryself-possessedandself-confident。Sheoughttobesoftenedandtenderandconfidentialatthisphaseofherlife。Sheseemedtohavenoideawhateveroftheemotionalstatesthatwerebecomingtoherageandposition。MissStanleywalkedroundthegardenthinking,andpresentlyhouseandgardenreverberatedtoAnnVeronica’sslammingofthefrontdoor。

  \"Iwonder!\"saidMissStanley。

  Foralongtimeshesurveyedarowoftoweringholly-hocks,asthoughtheyofferedanexplanation。Thenshewentinandup-stairs,hesitatedonthelanding,andfinally,alittlebreathlessandwithanairofgreatdignity,openedthedoorandwalkedintoAnnVeronica’sroom。Itwasaneat,efficient-lookingroom,withawriting-tableplacedwithabusiness-likeregardtothewindow,andabookcasesurmountedbyapig’sskull,adissectedfroginasealedbottle,andapileofshiny,black-coverednote-books。Inthecorneroftheroomweretwohockey-sticksandatennis-racket,anduponthewallsAnnVeronica,bymeansofautotypes,hadindicatedherproclivitiesinart。ButMissStanleytooknonoticeofthesethings。Shewalkedstraightacrosstothewardrobeandopenedit。There,hangingamongAnnVeronica’smorenormalclothing,wasaskimpydressofredcanvas,trimmedwithcheapandtawdrybraid,andshort——itcouldhardlyreachbelowtheknee。OnthesamepegandevidentlybelongingtoitwasablackvelvetZouavejacket。Andthen!agarmentthatwasconceivablyasecondaryskirt。

  MissStanleyhesitated,andtookfirstoneandthenanotheroftheconstituentsofthiscostumeoffitspegandsurveyedit。

  Thethirditemshetookwithatremblinghandbyitswaistbelt。

  Assheraisedit,itslowerportionfellapartintotwobaggycrimsonmasses。

  \"TROUSERS!\"shewhispered。

  Hereyestravelledabouttheroomasifinappealtotheverychairs。

  Tuckedunderthewriting-tableapairofyellowandgoldTurkishslippersofahighlymeretriciousqualitycaughthereye。Shewalkedovertothemstillcarryingthetrousersinherhands,andstoopedtoexaminethem。Theywereingeniousdisguisesofgiltpaperdestructivelygummed,itwouldseem,toAnnVeronicas’bestdancing-slippers。

  Thensherevertedtothetrousers。

  \"HowCANItellhim?\"whisperedMissStanley。

  Part2

  AnnVeronicacarriedalightbutbusiness-likewalking-stick。

  ShewalkedwithaneasyquicknessdowntheAvenueandthroughtheproletarianportionofMorningsidePark,andcrossingthesefieldscameintoaprettyoverhunglanethatledtowardCaddingtonandtheDowns。Andthenherpaceslackened。Shetuckedherstickunderherarmandre-readManning’sletter。

  \"Letmethink,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Iwishthishadn’tturnedupto-dayofalldays。\"

  Shefounditdifficulttobeginthinking,andindeedshewasanythingbutclearwhatitwasshehadtothinkabout。

  Practicallyitwasmostofthechiefinterestsinlifethatsheproposedtosettleinthispedestrianmeditation。Primarilyitwasherownproblem,andinparticulartheanswershehadtogivetoMr。Manning’sletter,butinordertogetdataforthatshefoundthatshe,havingalogicalandorderedmind,hadtodecideuponthegeneralrelationsofmentowomen,theobjectsandconditionsofmarriageanditsbearinguponthewelfareoftherace,thepurposeoftherace,thepurpose,ifany,ofeverything……

  \"Frightfullotofthingsaren’tsettled,\"saidAnnVeronica。Inaddition,theFaddenDancebusiness,alloutofproportion,occupiedthewholeforegroundofherthoughtsandthrewacolorofrebellionovereverything。ShekeptthinkingshewasthinkingaboutMr。Manning’sproposalofmarriageandfindingshewasthinkingofthedance。

  ForatimehereffortstoachieveacomprehensiveconcentrationweredispersedbythepassageofthevillagestreetofCaddington,thepassingofagoggledcar-loadofmotorists,andthestrugglesofastableladmountedononerecalcitranthorseandleadinganother。Whenshegotbacktoherquestionsagaininthemonotonoushigh-roadthatledupthehill,shefoundtheimageofMr。Manningcentralinhermind。Hestoodthere,largeanddark,enunciating,inhisclearvoicefrombeneathhislargemustache,clearflatsentences,deliberatelykindly。Heproposed,hewantedtopossessher!Helovedher。

  AnnVeronicafeltnorepulsionattheprospect。ThatMr。Manninglovedherpresenteditselftoherbloodlessly,stilledfromanyimaginativequiverorthrillofpassionordisgust。Therelationshipseemedtohavealmostasmuchtodowithbloodandbodyasamortgage。Itwassomethingthatwouldcreateamutualclaim,arelationship。Itwasinanotherworldfromthatinwhichmenwilldieforakiss,andtouchinghandslightsfiresthatburnuplives——theworldofromance,theworldofpassionatelybeautifulthings。

  Butthatotherworld,inspiteofherresoluteexclusionofit,wasalwayslookingroundcornersandpeepingthroughchinksandcrannies,andrustlingandraidingintotheorderinwhichshechosetolive,shiningoutofpicturesather,echoinginlyricsandmusic;itinvadedherdreams,itwroteupbrokenandenigmaticalsentencesuponthepassagewallsofhermind。Shewasawareofitnowasifitwereavoiceshoutingoutsideahouse,shoutingpassionateveritiesinahotsunlight,avoicethatcrieswhilepeopletalkinsincerelyinadarkenedroomandpretendnottohear。ItsshoutingnowdidinsomeoccultmannerconveyaprotestthatMr。Manningwouldonnoaccountdo,thoughhewastallanddarkandhandsomeandkind,andthirty-fiveandadequatelyprosperous,andallthatahusbandshouldbe。Buttherewas,itinsisted,nomobilityinhisface,nomovement,nothingabouthimthatwarmed。IfAnnVeronicacouldhaveputwordstothatsongtheywouldhavebeen,\"Hot-bloodedmarriageornone!\"butshewasfartooindistinctinthismattertoframeanywordsatall。

  \"Idon’tlovehim,\"saidAnnVeronica,gettingagleam。\"Idon’tseethathisbeingagoodsortmatters。Thatreallysettlesaboutthat……Butitmeansnoendofarow。\"

  Foratimeshesatonarailbeforeleavingtheroadforthedownlandturf。\"ButIwish,\"shesaid,\"IhadsomeideawhatI

  wasreallyupto。\"

  Herthoughtswentintosolutionforatime,whileshelistenedtoalarksinging。

  \"Marriageandmothering,\"saidAnnVeronica,withhermindcrystallizingoutagainasthelarkdroppedtothenestintheturf。\"Andalltherestofitperhapsisasong。\"

  Part3

  HermindgotbacktotheFaddenBall。

  Shemeanttogo,shemeanttogo,shemeanttogo。Nothingwouldstopher,andshewaspreparedtofacetheconsequences。Supposeherfatherturnedheroutofdoors!Shedidnotcare,shemeanttogo。Shewouldjustwalkoutofthehouseandgo……

  Shethoughtofhercostumeinsomedetailandwithconsiderablesatisfaction,andparticularlyofaveryjollypropertydaggerwithlargeglassjewelsinthehandle,thatreposedinadrawerinherroom。ShewastobeaCorsair’sBride。\"Fancystabbingamanforjealousy!\"shethought。\"You’dhavetothinkhowtogetinbetweenhisbones。\"

  Shethoughtofherfather,andwithaneffortdismissedhimfromhermind。

  ShetriedtoimaginethecollectiveeffectoftheFaddenBall;

  shehadneverseenafancy-dressgatheringinherlife。Mr。

  Manningcameintoherthoughtsagain,anunexpected,tall,dark,self-containedpresenceattheFadden。Onemightsupposehimturningup;heknewalotofcleverpeople,andsomeofthemmightbelongtotheclass。Whatwouldhecomeas?

  Presentlysherousedherselfwithaguiltystartfromthetaskofdressingandre-dressingMr。Manninginfancycostume,asthoughhewasadoll。ShehadtriedhimasaCrusader,inwhichguiseheseemedplausiblebutheavy——\"ThereISsomethingheavyabouthim;Iwonderifit’shismustache?\"——andasaHussar,whichmadehimpreposterous,andasaBlackBrunswicker,whichwasbetter,andasanArabsheik。Alsoshehadtriedhimasadragomanandasagendarme,whichseemedthemostsuitableofalltohisseverelyhandsome,immobileprofile。Shefelthewouldtellpeopletheway,controltraffic,andrefuseadmissiontopublicbuildingswithinvinciblecorrectnessandtheveryfinestexplicitfeelingspossible。Foreachcostumeshehaddevisedasuitableformofmatrimonialrefusal。\"Oh,Lord!\"shesaid,discoveringwhatshewasupto,anddroppedlightlyfromthefenceupontheturfandwentonherwaytowardthecrest。

  \"Ishallnevermarry,\"saidAnnVeronica,resolutely;\"I’mnotthesort。That’swhyit’ssoimportantIshouldtakemyownlinenow。\"

  Part4

  AnnVeronica’sideasofmarriagewerelimitedandunsystematic。

  Herteachersandmistresseshaddonetheirbesttostamphermindwithanineradicablepersuasionthatitwastremendouslyimportant,andonnoaccounttobethoughtabout。Herfirstintimationsofmarriageasafactofextremesignificanceinawoman’slifehadcomewiththemarriageofAliceandtheelopementofhersecondsister,Gwen。

  TheseconvulsionsoccurredwhenAnnVeronicawasabouttwelve。

  Therewasagulfofeightyearsbetweenherandtheyoungestofherbraceofsisters——animpassablegulfinhabitedchaoticallybytwonoisybrothers。Thesesistersmovedinagrown-upworldinaccessibletoAnnVeronica’ssympathies,andtoalargeextentremotefromhercuriosity。Shegotintorowsthroughmeddlingwiththeirshoesandtennis-rackets,andhadmomentsofcarefullyconcealedadmirationwhenshewasprivilegedtoseethemjustbeforeherbedtime,ratherradiantlydressedinwhiteorpinkoramberandpreparedtogooutwithhermother。ShethoughtAliceabitofasneak,anopinionherbrothersshared,andGwenratherasnatchatmeals。Shesawnothingoftheirlove-making,andcamehomefromherboarding-schoolinastateofdecentlysuppressedcuriosityforAlice’swedding。

  Herimpressionsofthiscardinalceremonywererichandconfused,complicatedbyaquitetransitorypassionthatawakenednoreciprocalfireforafatcurlyheadedcousininblackvelveteenandalacecollar,whoassistedasapage。Shefollowedhimaboutpersistently,andsucceeded,afterabrisk,unchivalrousstruggleinwhichhepinchedandaskedherto\"cheeseit\",inkissinghimamongtheraspberriesbehindthegreenhouse。

  AfterwardherbrotherRoddy,alsostrangeinvelveteen,feelingratherthanknowingofthisrelationship,punchedthisAdonis’shead。

  Amarriageinthehouseprovedtobeexcitingbutextremelydisorganizing。Everythingseemeddesignedtounhingethemindandmakethecatwretched。Allthefurniturewasmoved,allthemealsweredisarranged,andeverybody,AnnVeronicaincluded,appearedinnew,brightcostumes。Shehadtowearcreamandabrownsashandashortfrockandherhairdown,andGwencreamandabrownsashandalongskirtandherhairup。Andhermother,lookingunusuallyalertandhectic,worecreamandbrownalso,madeupinamorecomplicatedmanner。

  AnnVeronicawasmuchimpressedbyamightytryingonandalteringandfussingaboutAlice’s\"things\"——Alicewasbeingre-costumedfromgarrettocellar,withawalking-dressandwalking-bootstomeasure,andabride’scostumeofthemostravishingdescription,andstockingsandsuchlikebeyondthedreamsofavarice——andaconstantandincreasingdrippingintothehouseofirrelevantremarkableobjects,suchas——

  Reallacebedspread;

  Gilttravellingclock;

  Ornamentalpewterplaque;

  Saladbowlsilvermountedandservers;

  Madgett’s\"EnglishPoets\"twelvevolumes,boundpurplemorocco;

  Etc。,etc。

  Throughallthisflutterofnoveltytherecameandwentasolicitous,preoccupied,almostdepressedfigure。ItwasDoctorRalph,formerlythepartnerofDoctorStickellintheAvenue,andnowwithathrivingpracticeofhisowninWamblesmith。Hehadshavedhisside-whiskersandcomeoverinflannels,buthewasstillindisputablythesamepersonwhohadattendedAnnVeronicaforthemeaslesandwhensheswallowedthefish-bone。Buthisrolewasaltered,andhewasnowplayingthebridegroominthisremarkabledrama。AlicewasgoingtobeMrs。Ralph。Hecameinapologetically;alltheold\"Well,andhowAREwe?\"notegone;

  andonceheaskedAnnVeronica,almostfurtively,\"How’sAlicegettingon,Vee?\"Finally,ontheDay,heappearedlikehisoldprofessionalselftransfigured,inthemostbeautifullightgraytrousersAnnVeronicahadeverseenandanewshinysilkhatwithamostbecomingroll……

  Itwasnotsimplythatalltheroomswererearrangedandeverybodydressedinunusualfashions,andalltheroutinesoflifeabolishedandputaway:people’stempersandemotionsalsoseemedstrangelydisturbedandshiftedabout。Herfatherwasdistinctlyirascible,anddisposedmorethanevertohideawayamongthepetrologicalthings——thestudywasturnedout。Attablehecarvedinagloomybutresolutemanner。OntheDayhehadtrumpet-likeoutbreaksofcordiality,variedbyawatchfulpreoccupation。GwenandAlicewerefantasticallyfriendly,whichseemedtoannoyhim,andMrs。Stanleywasthroughoutenigmatical,withananxiouseyeonherhusbandandAlice。

  Therewasaconfusedimpressionofliverycarriagesandwhipswithwhitefavors,peoplefussilywantingotherpeopletogetinbeforethem,andthenthechurch。Peoplesatinunusualpews,andawidemarginofhassockyemptinessintervenedbetweentheceremonyandthewalls。

  AnnVeronicahadanumberoffragmentaryimpressionsofAlicestrangelytransfiguredinbridalraiment。Itseemedtomakehersisterdowncastbeyondanyprecedent。Thebridesmaidsandpagesgotratherjumbledintheaisle,andshehadaneffectofAlice’swhitebackandslopingshouldersandveiledheadrecedingtowardthealtar。InsomeincomprehensiblewaythatbackviewmadeherfeelsorryforAlice。Alsosherememberedveryvividlythesmelloforangeblossom,andAlice,droopingandspiritless,mumblingresponses,facingDoctorRalph,whiletheRev。EdwardBribblestoodbetweenthemwithanopenbook。DoctorRalphlookedkindandlarge,andlistenedtoAlice’sresponsesasthoughhewaslisteningtosymptomsandthoughtthatonthewholeshewasprogressingfavorably。

  AndafterwardhermotherandAlicekissedlongandclungtoeachother。AndDoctorRalphstoodbylookingconsiderate。Heandherfathershookhandsmanfully。

  AnnVeronicahadgotquiteinterestedinMr。Bribble’srenderingoftheservice——hehadthesortofvoicethatbringsoutthings——andwasstillteemingwithideasaboutitwhenfinallyawildoutburstfromtheorganmadeitclearthat,whateversnivellingtheremightbedowninthechancel,thatexcellentwindinstrumentwas,initsMendelssohnianway,asgladaseveritcouldbe。\"Pump,pump,per-um-pump,Pum,Pump,Per-um……\"

  Thewedding-breakfastwasforAnnVeronicaaspectacleoftheunrealconsumingthereal;shelikedthatpartverywell,untilshewascarelesslyservedagainstherexpressedwisheswithmayonnaise。Shewascaughtbyanuncle,whoseopinionshevalued,makingfacesatRoddybecausehehadexultedatthis。

  OfthevastmassoftheseimpressionsAnnVeronicacouldmakenothingatthetime;theretheywere——Fact!Shestoredthemawayinamindnaturallyretentive,asasquirrelstoresawaynuts,forfurtherdigestion。Onlyonethingemergedwithanyreasonableclarityinhermindatonce,andthatwasthatunlessshewassavedfromdrowningbyanunmarriedman,inwhichcasetheceremonyisunavoidable,ortotallydestituteofunder-

  clothing,andsodriventogetatrousseau,inwhichhardshipatrousseauwouldcertainlybe\"ripping,\"marriagewasanexperiencetobestrenuouslyevaded。

  WhentheyweregoinghomesheaskedhermotherwhysheandGwenandAlicehadcried。

  \"Ssh!\"saidhermother,andthenadded,\"Alittlenaturalfeeling,dear。\"

  \"Butdidn’tAlicewanttomarryDoctorRalph?\"

  \"Oh,ssh,Vee!\"saidhermother,withanevasionaspatentasanadvertisementboard。\"IamsureshewillbeveryhappyindeedwithDoctorRalph。\"

  ButAnnVeronicawasbynomeanssureofthatuntilshewentovertoWamblesmithandsawhersister,veryremoteanddomesticandauthoritative,inabecomingtea-gown,incommandofDoctorRalph’shome。DoctorRalphcameintoteaandputhisarmroundAliceandkissedher,andAlicecalledhim\"Squiggles,\"andstoodintheshelterofhisarmsforamomentwithanexpressionofsatisfiedproprietorship。SheHADcried,AnnVeronicaknew。

  Therehadbeenfussesandscenesdimlyapprehendedthroughhalf-opendoors。ShehadheardAlicetalkingandcryingatthesametime,apainfulnoise。Perhapsmarriagehurt。Butnowitwasallover,andAlicewasgettingonwell。ItremindedAnnVeronicaofhavingatoothstopped。

  AndafterthatAlicebecameremoterthanever,and,afteratime,ill。Thenshehadababyandbecameasoldasanyreallygrown-upperson,orolder,andverydull。ThensheandherhusbandwentofftoaYorkshirepractice,andhadfourmorebabies,noneofwhomphotographedwell,andsoshepassedbeyondthesphereofAnnVeronica’ssympathiesaltogether。

  Part5

  TheGwenaffairhappenedwhenshewasawayatschoolatMarticombe-on-Sea,atermbeforeshewenttotheHighSchool,andwasneververycleartoher。

  Hermothermissedwritingforaweek,andthenshewroteinanunusualkey。\"Mydear,\"theletterran,\"IhavetotellyouthatyoursisterGwenhasoffendedyourfatherverymuch。Ihopeyouwillalwaysloveher,butIwantyoutoremembershehasoffendedyourfatherandmarriedwithouthisconsent。Yourfatherisveryangry,andwillnothavehernamementionedinhishearing。Shehasmarriedsomeonehecouldnotapproveof,andgonerightaway……\"

  WhenthenextholidayscameAnnVeronica’smotherwasill,andGwenwasinthesick-roomwhenAnnVeronicareturnedhome。Shewasinoneofheroldwalking-dresses,herhairwasdoneinanunfamiliarmanner,sheworeawedding-ring,andshelookedasifshehadbeencrying。

  \"Hello,Gwen!\"saidAnnVeronica,tryingtoputeveryoneattheirease。\"Beenandmarried?……What’sthenameofthehappyman?\"

  Gwenownedto\"Fortescue。\"

  \"Gotaphotographofhimoranything?\"saidAnnVeronica,afterkissinghermother。

  Gwenmadeaninquiry,and,directedbyMrs。Stanley,producedaportraitfromitshiding-placeinthejewel-drawerunderthemirror。Itpresentedaclean-shavenfacewithalargeCorinthiannose,hairtremendouslywavingofftheforeheadandmorechinandneckthanisgoodforaman。

  \"LOOKSallright,\"saidAnnVeronica,regardinghimwithherheadfirstononesideandthenontheother,andtryingtobeagreeable。\"What’stheobjection?\"

  \"Isupposesheoughttoknow?\"saidGwentohermother,tryingtoalterthekeyoftheconversation。

  \"Yousee,Vee,\"saidMrs。Stanley,\"Mr。Fortescueisanactor,andyourfatherdoesnotapproveoftheprofession。\"

  \"Oh!\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Ithoughttheymadeknightsofactors?\"

  \"TheymayofHalsomeday,\"saidGwen。\"Butit’salongbusiness。\"

  \"Isupposethismakesyouanactress?\"saidAnnVeronica。

  \"Idon’tknowwhetherIshallgoon,\"saidGwen,anovelnoteoflanguorousprofessionalismcreepingintohervoice。\"Theotherwomendon’tmuchlikeitifhusbandandwifeworktogether,andI

  don’tthinkHalwouldlikemetoactawayfromhim。\"

  AnnVeronicaregardedhersisterwithanewrespect,butthetraditionsoffamilylifearestrong。\"Idon’tsupposeyou’llbeabletodoitmuch,\"saidAnnVeronica。

  LaterGwen’stroubleweighedsoheavilyonMrs。StanleyinherillnessthatherhusbandconsentedtoreceiveMr。Fortescueinthedrawing-room,andactuallyshakehandswithhiminanentirelyhopelessmannerandhopeeverythingwouldturnoutforthebest。

  Theforgivenessandreconciliationwasacoldandformalaffair,andafterwardsherfatherwentoffgloomilytohisstudy,andMr。

  Fortescuerambledroundthegardenwithsoft,propitiatorysteps,theCorinthiannoseupraisedandhishandsbehindhisback,pausingtolooklongandhardatthefruit-treesagainstthewall。

  AnnVeronicawatchedhimfromthedining-roomwindow,andaftersomemomentsofmaidenlyhesitationrambledoutintothegardeninareversedirectiontoMr。Fortescue’ssteps,andencounteredhimwithanairofartlesssurprise。

  \"Hello!\"saidAnnVeronica,witharmsakimboandacareless,breathlessmanner。\"YouMr。Fortescue?\"

  \"Atyourservice。YouAnnVeronica?\"

  \"Rather!Isay——didyoumarryGwen?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Why?\"

  Mr。Fortescueraisedhiseyebrowsandassumedalight-comedyexpression。\"IsupposeIfellinlovewithher,AnnVeronica。\"

  \"Rum,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Haveyougottokeephernow?\"

  \"Tothebestofmyability,\"saidMr。Fortescue,withabow。

  \"Haveyoumuchability?\"askedAnnVeronica。

  Mr。Fortescuetriedtoactembarrassmentinordertoconcealitsreality,andAnnVeronicawentontoaskastringofquestionsaboutacting,andwhetherhersisterwouldact,andwasshebeautifulenoughforit,andwhowouldmakeherdresses,andsoon。

  AsamatteroffactMr。Fortescuehadnotmuchabilitytokeephersister,andalittlewhileafterhermother’sdeathAnnVeronicametGwensuddenlyonthestaircasecomingfromherfather’sstudy,shockinglydingyindustymourningandtearfulandresentful,andafterthatGwenrecededfromtheMorningsideParkworld,andnoteventhebegginglettersanddistressfulcommunicationsthatherfatherandauntreceived,butonlyavagueintimationofdreadfulness,aleakageofincidentalcomment,flashesofpaternalangerat\"thatblackguard,\"cametoAnnVeronica’sears。

  Part6

  ThesewereAnnVeronica’sleadingcasesinthequestionofmarriage。Theyweretheonlyrealmarriagesshehadseenclearly。Fortherest,shederivedherideasofthemarriedstatefromtheobservedbehaviorofmarriedwomen,whichimpressedherinMorningsideParkasbeingtiedanddullandinelasticincomparisonwiththelifeoftheyoung,andfromaremarkablyvariousreadingamongbooks。Asanetresultshehadcometothinkofallmarriedpeoplemuchasonethinksofinsectsthathavelosttheirwings,andofhersistersasnewhatchedcreatureswhohadscarcelyforamomenthadwings。SheevolvedadimimageofherselfcoopedupinahouseunderthebenevolentshadowofMr。Manning。Whoknows?——ontheanalogyof\"Squiggles\"

  shemightcometocallhim\"Mangles!\"

  \"Idon’tthinkIcanevermarryanyone,\"shesaid,andfellsuddenlyintoanothersetofconsiderationsthatperplexedherforatime。Hadromancetobebanishedfromlife?……

  Itwashardtopartwithromance,butshehadneverthirstedsokeenlytogoonwithherUniversityworkinherlifeasshedidthatday。Shehadneverfeltsoacutelythedesireforfreeinitiative,foralifeunhamperedbyothers。Atanycost!Herbrothershaditpractically——atleasttheyhaditfarmorethanitseemedlikelyshewouldunlesssheexertedherselfwithquiteexceptionalvigor。Betweenherandthefair,farprospectoffreedomandself-developmentmanoeuvredMr。Manning,herauntandfather,neighbors,customs,traditions,forces。Theyseemedtoherthatmorningtobeallarmedwithnetsandpreparedtothrowthemoverherdirectlyhermovementsbecameinanymannertrulyfree。

  Shehadafeelingasthoughsomethinghaddroppedfromhereyes,asthoughshehadjustdiscoveredherselfforthefirsttime——discoveredherselfasasleep-walkermightdo,abruptlyamongdangers,hindrances,andperplexities,onthevergeofacardinalcrisis。

  Thelifeofagirlpresenteditselftoherassomethinghappyandheedlessandunthinking,yetreallyguidedandcontrolledbyothers,andgoingonamidstunsuspectedscreensandconcealments。

  Andinitswayitwasverywell。Thensuddenlywitharushcamereality,came\"growingup\";ahastyimperativeappealforseriousness,forsupremeseriousness。TheRalphsandManningsandFortescuescamedownupontherawinexperience,upontheblinkingignoranceofthenewcomer;andbeforehereyeswerefairlyopen,beforesheknewwhathadhappened,anewsetofguidesandcontrols,anewsetofobligationsandresponsibilitiesandlimitations,hadreplacedtheold。\"IwanttobeaPerson,\"saidAnnVeronicatothedownsandtheopensky;

  \"Iwillnothavethishappentome,whateverelsemayhappeninitsplace。\"

  AnnVeronicahadthreethingsverydefinitelysettledbythetimewhen,alittleaftermid-day,shefoundherselfpercheduponagatebetweenabridle-pathandafieldthatcommandedthewholewidestretchofcountrybetweenChalkingandWaldersham。

  Firstly,shedidnotintendtomarryatall,andparticularlyshedidnotmeantomarryMr。Manning;secondly,bysomemeasureorother,shemeanttogoonwithherstudies,notattheTredgoldSchoolsbutattheImperialCollege;and,thirdly,shewas,asanimmediateanddecisiveact,asymbolofjustexactlywhereshestood,adeclarationoffreeandadultinitiative,goingthatnighttotheFaddenBall。

  Butthepossibleattitudeofherfathershehadstilltoface。

  Sofarshehadtheutmostdifficultyingettingontothatvitallyimportantmatter。Thewholeofthatrelationshippersistedinremainingobscure。WhatwouldhappenwhennextmorningshereturnedtoMorningsidePark?

  Hecouldn’tturnheroutofdoors。Butwhathecoulddoormightdoshecouldnotimagine。Shewasnotafraidofviolence,butshewasafraidofsomethingmean,somesecondarykindofforce。

  Supposehestoppedallherallowance,madeitimperativethatsheshouldeitherstayineffectuallyresentfulathomeorearnalivingforherselfatonce……Itappearedhighlyprobabletoherthathewouldstopherallowance。

  Whatcanagirldo?

  SomewhereatthispointAnnVeronica’sspeculationswereinterruptedandturnedasidebytheapproachofahorseandrider。Mr。Ramage,thatiron-graymanoftheworld,appeareddressedinabowlerhatandasuitofhardgray,astrideofablackhorse。Hepulledreinatthesightofher,saluted,andregardedherwithhisrathertooprotuberanteyes。Thegirl’sgazemethisininterestedinquiry。

  \"You’vegotmyview,\"hesaid,afterapensivesecond。\"Ialwaysgetoffhereandleanoverthatrailforabit。MayIdosoto-day?\"

  \"It’syourgate,\"shesaid,amiably;\"yougotitfirst。It’sforyoutosayifImaysitonit。\"

  Heslippedoffthehorse。\"LetmeintroduceyoutoCaesar,\"hesaid;andshepattedCaesar’sneck,andremarkedhowsofthisnosewas,andsecretlydeploredtheuglinessofequineteeth。

  Ramagetetheredthehorsetothefarthergate-post,andCaesarblewheavilyandbegantoinvestigatethehedge。

  RamageleanedoverthegateatAnnVeronica’sside,andforamomenttherewassilence。

  Hemadesomeobviouscommentsonthewideviewwarmingtowarditsautumnalblazethatspreaditselfinhillandvalley,woodandvillage,below。

  \"It’sasbroadaslife,\"saidMr。Ramage,regardingitandputtingawell-bootedfootuponthebottomrail。

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  \"Andwhatareyoudoinghere,younglady,\"hesaid,lookingupatherface,\"wanderingalonesofarfromhome?\"

  \"Ilikelongwalks,\"saidAnnVeronica,lookingdownonhim。

  \"Solitarywalks?\"

  \"That’sthepointofthem。Ithinkoverallsortsofthings。\"

  \"Problems?\"

  \"Sometimesquitedifficultproblems。\"

  \"You’reluckytoliveinanagewhenyoucandoso。Yourmother,forinstance,couldn’t。Shehadtodoherthinkingathome——underinspection。\"

  Shelookeddownonhimthoughtfully,andhelethisadmirationofherfreeyoungpoiseshowinhisface。

  \"Isupposethingshavechanged?\"shesaid。

  \"Neverwassuchanageoftransition。\"

  Shewonderedwhatto。Mr。Ramagedidnotknow。\"Sufficientuntomeisthechangethereof,\"hesaid,withalltheeffectofanepigram。

  \"Imustconfess,\"hesaid,\"theNewWomanandtheNewGirlintriguemeprofoundly。Iamoneofthosepeoplewhoareinterestedinwomen,moreinterestedthanIaminanythingelse。

  Idon’tconcealit。Andthechange,thechangeofattitude!Thewayalltheoldclingingnesshasbeenthrownasideisamazing。

  Andalltheold——theoldtrickofshrinkinguplikeasnailatatouch。IfyouhadlivedtwentyyearsagoyouwouldhavebeencalledaYoungPerson,anditwouldhavebeenyourchiefdutyinlifenottoknow,nevertohaveheardof,andnevertounderstand。\"

  \"There’squiteenoughstill,\"saidAnnVeronica,smiling,\"thatonedoesn’tunderstand。\"

  \"Quite。Butyourrolewouldhavebeentogoaboutsaying,’Ibegyourpardon’inareprovingtonetothingsyouunderstoodquitewellinyourheartandsawnoharmin。ThatterribleYoungPerson!she’svanished。Lost,stolen,orstrayed,theYoungPerson!……Ihopewemayneverfindheragain。\"

  Herejoicedoverthisemancipation。\"Whilethatlambwasabouteverymanofanyspiritwasregardedasadangerouswolf。Weworeinvisiblechainsandinvisibleblinkers。Now,youandIcangossipatagate,and{}Honisoitquimalypense。Thechangehasgivenmanonegoodthingheneverhadbefore,\"hesaid。\"Girlfriends。AndIamcomingtobelievethebestaswellasthemostbeautifulfriendsamancanhavearegirlfriends。\"

  Hepaused,andwenton,afterakeenlookather:

  \"Ihadrathergossiptoareallyintelligentgirlthantoanymanalive。\"

  \"IsupposeweAREmorefreethanwewere?\"saidAnnVeronica,keepingthequestiongeneral。

  \"Oh,there’snodoubtofit!Sincethegirlsoftheeightiesbrokeboundsandsailedawayonbicycles——myyoungdaysgobacktotheverybeginningsofthat——it’sbeenonetriumphantrelaxation。\"

  \"Relaxation,perhaps。Butareweanymorefree?\"

  \"Well?\"

  \"Imeanwe’velongstringstotetherus,butweareboundallthesame。Awomanisn’tmuchfreer——inreality。\"

  Mr。Ramagedemurred。

  \"Onerunsabout,\"saidAnnVeronica。

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Butit’sonconditiononedoesn’tdoanything。\"

  \"Dowhat?\"

  \"Oh!——anything。\"

  Helookedinterrogationwithafaintsmile。

  \"Itseemstomeitcomestoearningone’slivinginthelongrun,\"saidAnnVeronica,coloringfaintly。\"Untilagirlcangoawayasasondoesandearnherindependentincome,she’sstillonastring。Itmaybealongstring,longenoughifyouliketotangleupallsortsofpeople;butthereitis!Ifthepaymasterpulls,homeshemustgo。That’swhatImean。\"

  Mr。Ramageadmittedtheforceofthat。HewasalittleimpressedbyAnnVeronica’smetaphorofthestring,which,indeed,sheowedtoHettyWidgett。\"YOUwouldn’tliketobeindependent?\"heasked,abruptly。\"ImeanREALLYindependent。Onyourown。Itisn’tsuchfunasitseems。\"

  \"Everyonewantstobeindependent,\"saidAnnVeronica。\"Everyone。Manorwoman。\"

  \"Andyou?\"

  \"Rather!\"

  \"Iwonderwhy?\"

  \"There’snowhy。It’sjusttofeel——oneownsone’sself。\"

  \"Nobodydoesthat,\"saidRamage,andkeptsilenceforamoment。

  \"Butaboy——aboygoesoutintotheworldandpresentlystandsonhisownfeet。Hebuyshisownclothes,chooseshisowncompany,makeshisownwayofliving。\"

  \"You’dliketodothat?\"

  \"Exactly。\"

  \"Wouldyouliketobeaboy?\"

  \"Iwonder!It’soutofthequestion,anyway。\"

  Ramagereflected。\"Whydon’tyou?\"

  \"Well,itmightmeanratherarow。\"

  \"Iknow——\"saidRamage,withsympathy。

  \"Andbesides,\"saidAnnVeronica,sweepingthataspectaside,\"whatcouldIdo?Aboysailsoutintoatradeorprofession。

  But——it’soneofthethingsI’vejustbeenthinkingover。

  Suppose——supposeagirldidwanttostartinlife,startinlifeforherself——\"Shelookedhimfranklyintheeyes。\"Whatoughtshetodo?\"

  \"Supposeyou——\"

  \"Yes,supposeI——\"

  Hefeltthathisadvicewasbeingasked。Hebecamealittlemorepersonalandintimate。\"Iwonderwhatyoucoulddo?\"hesaid。

  \"IshouldthinkYOUcoulddoallsortsofthings……

  \"Whatoughtyoutodo?\"Hebegantoproducehisknowledgeoftheworldforherbenefit,jerkilyandallusively,andwithastrong,rankflavorof\"savoirfaire。\"Hetookanoptimistviewofherchances。AnnVeronicalistenedthoughtfully,withhereyesontheturf,andnowandthensheaskedaquestionorlookeduptodiscussapoint。Inthemeanwhile,ashetalked,hescrutinizedherface,ranhiseyesoverhercareless,graciouspoise,wonderedhardabouther。Hedescribedherprivatelytohimselfasasplendidgirl。Itwasclearshewantedtogetawayfromhome,thatshewasimpatienttogetawayfromhome。Why?Whilethefrontofhismindwasbusywarninghernottofallintothehopelessmiseriesofunderpaidteaching,andexplaininghisideathatforwomenofinitiative,quiteasmuchasformen,theworldofbusinesshadbyfarthebestchances,thebackchambersofhisbrainwerebusywiththeproblemofthat\"Why?\"

  Hisfirstideaasamanoftheworldwastoexplainherunrestbyalover,somesecretorforbiddenorimpossiblelover。Buthedismissedthatbecausethenshewouldaskherloverandnothimallthesethings。Restlessness,then,wasthetrouble,simplerestlessness:homeboredher。HecouldquiteunderstandthedaughterofMr。Stanleybeingboredandfeelinglimited。Butwasthatenough?Dim,formlesssuspicionsofsomethingmorevitalwanderedabouthismind。Wastheyoungladyimpatientforexperience?Wassheadventurous?Asamanoftheworldhedidnotthinkitbecomingtoacceptmaidenlycalmasanythingmorethanamask。Warmlifewasbehindthatalways,evenifitslept。

  Ifitwasnotanactualpersonallover,itstillmightbethelovernotyetincarnate,notyetperhapssuspected……

  Hehaddivergedonlyalittlefromthetruthwhenhesaidthathischiefinterestinlifewaswomen。Itwasn’tsomuchwomenasWomanthatengagedhismind。HiswastheLatinturnofthinking;

  hehadfalleninloveatthirteen,andhewasstillcapable——hepridedhimself——offallinginlove。Hisinvalidwifeandhermoneyhadbeenonlythethinthreadthatheldhislifetogether;

  beadedonthatpermanentrelationhadbeenaninter-weavingseriesofotherfeminineexperiences,disturbing,absorbing,interesting,memorableaffairs。Eachonehadbeendifferentfromtheothers,eachhadhadaqualityallitsown,adistinctivefreshness,adistinctivebeauty。Hecouldnotunderstandhowmencouldliveignoringthisonepredominantinterest,thiswonderfulresearchintopersonalityandthepossibilitiesofpleasing,thesecomplex,fascinatingexpeditionsthatbeganininterestandmountedtothesupremest,mostpassionateintimacy。Alltherestofhisexistencewassubordinatetothispursuit;helivedforit,workedforit,kepthimselfintrainingforit。

  Sowhilehetalkedtothisgirlofworkandfreedom,hisslightlyprotuberanteyeswerenotingthegraciousbalanceofherlimbsandbodyacrossthegate,thefinelinesofherchinandneck。

  Hergravefineface,herwarmclearcomplexion,hadalreadyarousedhiscuriosityashehadgonetoandfroinMorningsidePark,andheresuddenlyhewasneartoherandtalkingfreelyandintimately。Hehadfoundherinacommunicativemood,andheusedtheaccumulatedskillofyearsinturningthattoaccount。

  Shewaspleasedandalittleflatteredbyhisinterestandsympathy。Shebecameeagertoexplainherself,toshowherselfintherightlight。Hewasmanifestlyexertinghismindforher,andshefoundherselffullydisposedtojustifyhisinterest。

  She,perhaps,displayedherselfratherconsciouslyasafinepersonundulylimited。Sheeventouchedlightlyonherfather’sunreasonableness。

  \"Iwonder,\"saidRamage,\"thatmoregirlsdon’tthinkasyoudoandwanttostrikeoutintheworld。\"

  Andthenhespeculated。\"Iwonderifyouwill?\"

  \"Letmesayonething,\"hesaid。\"IfeveryoudoandIcanhelpyouinanyway,byadviceorinquiryorrecommendation——Yousee,I’mnobelieverinfeminineincapacity,butIdoperceivethereissuchathingasfeminineinexperience。Asasexyou’realittleunder-trained——inaffairs。I’dtakeit——forgivemeifI

  seemalittleurgent——asasortofproofoffriendliness。Icanimaginenothingmorepleasantinlifethantohelpyou,becauseI

  knowitwouldpaytohelpyou。There’ssomethingaboutyou,alittleflavorofWill,Isuppose,thatmakesonefeel——goodluckaboutyouandsuccess……\"

  Andwhilehetalkedandwatchedherashetalked,sheanswered,andbehindherlisteningwatchedandthoughtabouthim。Shelikedtheanimatedeagernessofhismanner。

  Hismindseemedtobearemarkablyfullone;hisknowledgeofdetailedrealitycameinjustwhereherownmindwasmostweaklyequipped。Throughallhesaidranonequalitythatpleasedher——thequalityofamanwhofeelsthatthingscanbedone,thatoneneednotwaitfortheworldtopushonebeforeonemoved。

  ComparedwithherfatherandMr。Manningandthemenin\"fixed\"

  positionsgenerallythatsheknew,Ramage,presentedbyhimself,hadafinesuggestionoffreedom,ofpower,ofdeliberateandsustainedadventure……

  Shewasparticularlycharmedbyhistheoryorfriendship。Itwasreallyveryjollytotalktoamaninthisway——whosawthewomaninheranddidnottreatherasachild。Shewasinclinedtothinkthatperhapsforagirltheconverseofhismethodwasthecase;anolderman,amanbeyondtherangeofanything\"nonsensical,\"was,perhaps,themostinterestingsortoffriendonecouldmeet。Butinthatreservationitmaybeshewentalittlebeyondtheconverseofhisview……

  Theygotonwonderfullywelltogether。Theytalkedforthebetterpartofanhour,andatlastwalkedtogethertothejunctionofhighroadandthebridle-path。There,afterprotestationsoffriendlinessandhelpfulnessthatwerealmostardent,hemountedalittleclumsilyandrodeoffatanamiablepace,lookinghisbest,makingalegwithhisridinggaiters,smilingandsaluting,whileAnnVeronicaturnednorthwardandsocametoMicklechesil。There,inalittleteaandsweet-stuffshop,sheboughtandconsumedslowlyandabsent-mindedlytheinsufficientnourishmentthatisnaturaltohersexonsuchoccasions。

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  THECRISIS

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