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  AndHetty’sfoolishjoysandhopes,whichhadflownawayforalittlespace,scaredbyamerenothing,nowallcameflutteringback,unconsciousoftherealperil。Shewashappyforthefirsttimethislongday,andwishedthatdancewouldlastforhours。

  Arthurwishedittoo;itwasthelastweaknesshemeanttoindulgein;andamanneverlieswithmoredeliciouslanguorundertheinfluenceofapassionthanwhenhehaspersuadedhimselfthatheshallsubdueitto-morrow。

  ButMrs。Poyser’swisheswerequitethereverseofthis,forhermindwasfilledwithdrearyforebodingsastotheretardationofto-morrowmorning’scheeseinconsequenceoftheselatehours。

  NowthatHettyhaddoneherdutyanddancedonedancewiththeyoungsquire,Mr。Poysermustgooutandseeifthecartwascomebacktofetchthem,foritwashalf-pastteno’clock,andnotwithstandingamildsuggestiononhispartthatitwouldbebadmannersforthemtobethefirsttogo,Mrs。Poyserwasresoluteonthepoint,\"mannersornomanners。\"

  \"What!Goingalready,Mrs。Poyser?\"saidoldMr。Donnithorne,asshecametocurtsyandtakeleave;\"Ithoughtweshouldnotpartwithanyofourgueststilleleven。Mrs。IrwineandI,whoareelderlypeople,thinkofsittingoutthedancetillthen。\"

  \"Oh,YourHonour,it’sallrightandproperforgentlefolkstostayupbycandlelight——they’vegotnocheeseontheirminds。

  We’relateenoughasitis,an’there’snolettin’thecowsknowastheymustn’twanttobemilkedsoearlyto-morrowmornin’。So,ifyou’llpleaset’excuseus,we’lltakeourleave。\"

  \"Eh!\"shesaidtoherhusband,astheysetoffinthecart,\"I’dsoonerha’brewin’dayandwashin’daytogetherthanoneo’thesepleasurin’days。There’snoworksotirin’asdanglin’aboutan’

  starin’an’notrightlyknowin’whatyou’regoin’todonext;andkeepin’yourfacei’smilin’orderlikeagrocero’market-dayforfearpeopleshouldnathinkyoucivilenough。An’you’venothingtoshowfor’twhenit’sdone,ifitisn’tayallowfacewi’eatin’

  thingsasdisagree。\"

  \"Nay,nay,\"saidMr。Poyser,whowasinhismerriestmood,andfeltthathehadhadagreatday,\"abito’pleasuring’sgoodfortheesometimes。An’theedanc’staswellasanyof’em,forI’llbacktheeagainstallthewivesi’theparishforalightfootan’

  ankle。An’itwasagreathonourfortheyoungsquiretoasktheefirst——IreckonitwasbecauseIsatatth’heado’thetablean’

  madethespeech。An’Hettytoo——sheneverhadsuchapartnerbefore——afineyounggentlemaninreg’mentals。It’llserveyoutotalkon,Hetty,whenyou’reanoldwoman——howyoudancedwi’th’

  youngsquirethedayhecomeo’age。\"

  AcrisisITwasbeyondthemiddleofAugust——nearlythreeweeksafterthebirthdayfeast。ThereapingofthewheathadbeguninournorthmidlandcountyofLoamshire,buttheharvestwaslikelystilltoberetardedbytheheavyrains,whichwerecausinginundationsandmuchdamagethroughoutthecountry。FromthislasttroubletheBroxtonandHayslopefarmers,ontheirpleasantuplandsandintheirbrook-wateredvalleys,hadnotsuffered,andasIcannotpretendthattheyweresuchexceptionalfarmersastolovethegeneralgoodbetterthantheirown,youwillinferthattheywerenotinverylowspiritsabouttherapidriseinthepriceofbread,solongastherewashopeofgatheringintheirowncornundamaged;andoccasionaldaysofsunshineanddryingwindsflatteredthishope。

  TheeighteenthofAugustwasoneofthesedayswhenthesunshinelookedbrighterinalleyesforthegloomthatwentbefore。Grandmassesofcloudwerehurriedacrosstheblue,andthegreatroundhillsbehindtheChaseseemedalivewiththeirflyingshadows;thesunwashiddenforamoment,andthenshoneoutwarmagainlikearecoveredjoy;theleaves,stillgreen,weretossedoffthehedgerowtreesbythewind;aroundthefarmhousestherewasasoundofclappingdoors;theapplesfellintheorchards;andthestrayhorsesonthegreensidesofthelanesandonthecommonhadtheirmanesblownabouttheirfaces。Andyetthewindseemedonlypartofthegeneralgladnessbecausethesunwasshining。Amerrydayforthechildren,whoranandshoutedtoseeiftheycouldtopthewindwiththeirvoices;andthegrown-uppeopletoowereingoodspirits,inclinedtobelieveinyetfinerdays,whenthewindhadfallen。Ifonlythecornwerenotripeenoughtobeblownoutofthehuskandscatteredasuntimelyseed!

  Andyetadayonwhichablightingsorrowmayfalluponaman。

  ForifitbetruethatNatureatcertainmomentsseemschargedwithapresentimentofoneindividuallotmustitnotalsobetruethatsheseemsunmindfuluncon-sciousofanother?Forthereisnohourthathasnotitsbirthsofgladnessanddespair,nomorningbrightnessthatdoesnotbringnewsicknesstodesolationaswellasnewforcestogeniusandlove。Therearesomanyofus,andourlotsaresodifferent,whatwonderthatNature’smoodisofteninharshcontrastwiththegreatcrisisofourlives?Wearechildrenofalargefamily,andmustlearn,assuchchildrendo,nottoexpectthatourhurtswillbemademuchof——tobecontentwithlittlenurtureandcaressing,andhelpeachotherthemore。

  ItwasabusydaywithAdam,whooflatehaddonealmostdoublework,forhewascontinuingtoactasforemanforJonathanBurge,untilsomesatisfactorypersoncouldbefoundtosupplyhisplace,andJonathanwasslowtofindthatperson。Buthehaddonetheextraworkcheerfully,forhishopeswerebuoyantagainaboutHetty。Everytimeshehadseenhimsincethebirthday,shehadseemedtomakeanefforttobehaveallthemorekindlytohim,thatshemightmakehimunderstandshehadforgivenhissilenceandcoldnessduringthedance。Hehadnevermentionedthelockettoheragain;toohappythatshesmiledathim——stillhappierbecauseheobservedinheramoresubduedair,somethingthatheinterpretedasthegrowthofwomanlytendernessandseriousness。

  \"Ah!\"hethought,againandagain,\"she’sonlyseventeen;she’llbethoughtfulenoughafterawhile。Andherauntallayssayshowcleversheisatthework。She’llmakeawifeasMother’llhavenooccasiontogrumbleat,afterall。\"Tobesure,hehadonlyseenherathometwicesincethebirthday;foroneSunday,whenhewasintendingtogofromchurchtotheHallFarm,HettyhadjoinedthepartyofupperservantsfromtheChaseandhadgonehomewiththem——almostasifshewereinclinedtoencourageMr。Craig。

  \"She’stakin’toomuchlikin’tothemfolksi’thehousekeeper’sroom,\"Mrs。Poyserremarked。\"Formypart,Iwasneveroverfondo’gentlefolks’sservants——they’remostlylikethefineladies’

  fatdogs,naythergoodforbarkingnorbutcher’smeat,buton’yforshow。\"AndanothereveningshewasgonetoTreddlestontobuysomethings;though,tohisgreatsurprise,ashewasreturninghome,hesawheratadistancegettingoverastilequiteoutoftheTreddlestonroad。But,whenhehastenedtoher,shewasverykind,andaskedhimtogoinagainwhenhehadtakenhertotheyardgate。ShehadgonealittlefartherintothefieldsaftercomingfromTreddlestonbecauseshedidn’twanttogoin,shesaid:itwassonicetobeoutofdoors,andherauntalwaysmadesuchafussaboutitifshewantedtogoout。\"Oh,docomeinwithme!\"shesaid,ashewasgoingtoshakehandswithheratthegate,andhecouldnotresistthat。Sohewentin,andMrs。

  PoyserwascontentedwithonlyaslightremarkonHetty’sbeinglaterthanwasexpected;whileHetty,whohadlookedoutofspiritswhenhemether,smiledandtalkedandwaitedonthemallwithunusualpromptitude。

  Thatwasthelasttimehehadseenher;buthemeanttomakeleisureforgoingtotheFarmto-morrow。To-day,heknew,washerdayforgoingtotheChasetosewwiththelady’smaid,sohewouldgetasmuchworkdoneaspossiblethisevening,thatthenextmightbeclear。

  OnepieceofworkthatAdamwassuperintendingwassomeslightrepairsattheChaseFarm,whichhadbeenhithertooccupiedbySatchell,asbailiff,butwhichitwasnowrumouredthattheoldsquirewasgoingtolettoasmartmanintop-boots,whohadbeenseentorideoveritoneday。Nothingbutthedesiretogetatenantcouldaccountforthesquire’sundertakingrepairs,thoughtheSaturday-eveningpartyatMr。Casson’sagreedovertheirpipesthatnomaninhissenseswouldtaketheChaseFarmunlesstherewasabitmoreploughlandlaidtoit。Howeverthatmightbe,therepairswereorderedtobeexecutedwithalldispatch,andAdam,actingforMr。Burge,wascarryingouttheorderwithhisusualenergy。Butto-day,havingbeenoccupiedelsewhere,hehadnotbeenabletoarriveattheChaseFarmtilllateintheafternoon,andhethendiscoveredthatsomeoldroofing,whichhehadcalculatedonpreserving,hadgivenway。Therewasclearlynogoodtobedonewiththispartofthebuildingwithoutpullingitalldown,andAdamimmediatelysawinhismindaplanforbuildingitupagain,soastomakethemostconvenientofcow-shedsandcalf-pens,withahovelforimplements;andallwithoutanygreatexpenseformaterials。So,whentheworkmenweregone,hesatdown,tookouthispocket-book,andbusiedhimselfwithsketchingaplan,andmakingaspecificationoftheexpensesthathemightshowittoBurgethenextmorning,andsethimonpersuadingthesquiretoconsent。To\"makeagoodjob\"ofanything,howeversmall,wasalwaysapleasuretoAdam,andhesatonablock,withhisbookrestingonaplaning-table,whistlingloweverynowandthenandturninghisheadononesidewithajustperceptiblesmileofgratification——ofpride,too,forifAdamlovedabitofgoodwork,helovedalsotothink,\"Ididit!\"AndIbelievetheonlypeoplewhoarefreefromthatweaknessarethosewhohavenoworktocalltheirown。Itwasnearlysevenbeforehehadfinishedandputonhisjacketagain;andongivingalastlookround,heobservedthatSeth,whohadbeenworkinghereto-day,hadlefthisbasketoftoolsbehindhim。\"Why,th’lad’sforgothistools,\"thoughtAdam,\"andhe’sgottoworkupattheshopto-

  morrow。Thereneverwassuchachapforwool-gathering;he’dleavehisheadbehindhim,ifitwasloose。However,it’sluckyI’veseen’em;I’llcarry’emhome。\"

  ThebuildingsoftheChaseFarmlayatoneextremityoftheChase,atabouttenminutes’walkingdistancefromtheAbbey。Adamhadcomethitheronhispony,intendingtoridetothestablesandputuphisnagonhiswayhome。AtthestablesheencounteredMr。

  Craig,whohadcometolookatthecaptain’snewhorse,onwhichhewastorideawaythedayafterto-morrow;andMr。Craigdetainedhimtotellhowalltheservantsweretocollectatthegateofthecourtyardtowishtheyoungsquireluckasherodeout;sothatbythetimeAdamhadgotintotheChase,andwasstridingalongwiththebasketoftoolsoverhisshoulder,thesunwasonthepointofsetting,andwassendinglevelcrimsonraysamongthegreattrunksoftheoldoaks,andtouchingeverybarepatchofgroundwithatransientglorythatmadeitlooklikeajeweldroptuponthegrass。Thewindhadfallennow,andtherewasonlyenoughbreezetostirthedelicate-stemmedleaves。Anyonewhohadbeensittinginthehousealldaywouldhavebeengladtowalknow;butAdamhadbeenquiteenoughintheopenairtowishtoshortenhiswayhome,andhebethoughthimselfthathemightdosobystrikingacrosstheChaseandgoingthroughtheGrove,wherehehadneverbeenforyears。HehurriedonacrosstheChase,stalkingalongthenarrowpathsbetweenthefern,withGypathisheels,notlingeringtowatchthemagnificentchangesofthelight——hardlyoncethinkingofit——yetfeelingitspresenceinacertaincalmhappyawewhichmingleditselfwithhisbusyworking-daythoughts。Howcouldhehelpfeelingit?Theverydeerfeltit,andweremoretimid。

  PresentlyAdam’sthoughtsrecurredtowhatMr。CraighadsaidaboutArthurDonnithorne,andpicturedhisgoingaway,andthechangesthatmighttakeplacebeforehecameback;thentheytravelledbackaffectionatelyovertheoldscenesofboyishcompanionship,anddweltonArthur’sgoodqualities,whichAdamhadapridein,asweallhaveinthevirtuesofthesuperiorwhohonoursus。AnaturelikeAdam’s,withagreatneedofloveandreverenceinit,dependsforsomuchofitshappinessonwhatitcanbelieveandfeelaboutothers!Andhehadnoidealworldofdeadheroes;heknewlittleofthelifeofmeninthepast;hemustfindthebeingstowhomhecouldclingwithlovingadmirationamongthosewhocamewithinspeechofhim。ThesepleasantthoughtsaboutArthurbroughtamilderexpressionthanusualintohiskeenroughface:perhapstheywerethereasonwhy,whenheopenedtheoldgreengateleadingintotheGrove,hepausedtopatGypandsayakindwordtohim。

  Afterthatpause,hestrodeonagainalongthebroadwindingpaththroughtheGrove。Whatgrandbeeches!Adamdelightedinafinetreeofallthings;asthefisherman’ssightiskeenestonthesea,soAdam’sperceptionsweremoreathomewithtreesthanwithotherobjects。Hekepttheminhismemory,asapainterdoes,withalltheflecksandknotsintheirbark,allthecurvesandanglesoftheirboughs,andhadoftencalculatedtheheightandcontentsofatrunktoanicety,ashestoodlookingatit。Nowonderthat,not-withstandinghisdesiretogeton,hecouldnothelppausingtolookatacuriouslargebeechwhichhehadseenstandingbeforehimataturningintheroad,andconvincehimselfthatitwasnottwotreesweddedtogether,butonlyone。Fortherestofhislifeherememberedthatmomentwhenhewascalmlyexaminingthebeech,asamanremembershislastglimpseofthehomewherehisyouthwaspassed,beforetheroadturned,andhesawitnomore。ThebeechstoodatthelastturningbeforetheGroveendedinanarchwayofboughsthatletintheeasternlight;

  andasAdamsteppedawayfromthetreetocontinuehiswalk,hiseyesfellontwofiguresabouttwentyyardsbeforehim。

  Heremainedasmotionlessasastatue,andturnedalmostaspale。

  Thetwofigureswerestandingoppositetoeachother,withclaspedhandsabouttopart;andwhiletheywerebendingtokiss,Gyp,whohadbeenrunningamongthebrushwood,cameout,caughtsightofthem,andgaveasharpbark。Theyseparatedwithastart——onehurriedthroughthegateoutoftheGrove,andtheother,turninground,walkedslowly,withasortofsaunter,towardsAdamwhostillstoodtransfixedandpale,clutchingtighterthestickwithwhichheheldthebasketoftoolsoverhisshoulder,andlookingattheapproachingfigurewitheyesinwhichamazementwasfastturningtofierceness。

  ArthurDonnithornelookedflushedandexcited;hehadtriedtomakeunpleasantfeelingsmorebearablebydrinkingalittlemorewinethanusualatdinnerto-day,andwasstillenoughunderitsflatteringinfluencetothinkmorelightlyofthisunwished-forrencontrewithAdamthanhewouldotherwisehavedone。Afterall,AdamwasthebestpersonwhocouldhavehappenedtoseehimandHettytogether——hewasasensiblefellow,andwouldnotbabbleaboutittootherpeople。Arthurfeltconfidentthathecouldlaughthethingoffandexplainitaway。Andsohesaunteredforwardwithelaboratecarelessness——hisflushedface,hiseveningdressoffineclothandfinelinen,hishandshalf-thrustintohiswaistcoatpockets,allshoneuponbythestrangeeveninglightwhichthelightcloudshadcaughtupeventothezenith,andwerenowsheddingdownbetweenthetopmostbranchesabovehim。

  Adamwasstillmotionless,lookingathimashecameup。Heunderstooditallnow——thelocketandeverythingelsethathadbeendoubtfultohim:aterriblescorchinglightshowedhimthehiddenlettersthatchangedthemeaningofthepast。Ifhehadmovedamuscle,hemustinevitablyhavesprunguponArthurlikeatiger;andintheconflictingemotionsthatfilledthoselongmoments,hehadtoldhimselfthathewouldnotgiveloosetopassion,hewouldonlyspeaktherightthing。Hestoodasifpetrifiedbyanunseenforce,buttheforcewashisownstrongwill。

  \"Well,Adam,\"saidArthur,\"you’vebeenlookingatthefineoldbeeches,eh?They’renottobecomenearbythehatchet,though;

  thisisasacredgrove。IovertookprettylittleHettySorrelasIwascomingtomyden——theHermitage,there。Sheoughtnottocomehomethiswaysolate。SoItookcareofhertothegate,andaskedforakissformypains。ButImustgetbacknow,forthisroadisconfoundedlydamp。Good-night,Adam。Ishallseeyouto-morrow——tosaygood-bye,youknow。\"

  ArthurwastoomuchpreoccupiedwiththeparthewasplayinghimselftobethoroughlyawareoftheexpressioninAdam’sface。

  HedidnotlookdirectlyatAdam,butglancedcarelesslyroundatthetreesandthenlifteduponefoottolookatthesoleofhisboot。Hecaredtosaynomore——hehadthrownquitedustenoughintohonestAdam’seyes——andashespokethelastwords,hewalkedon。

  \"Stopabit,sir,\"saidAdam,inahardperemptoryvoice,withoutturninground。\"I’vegotawordtosaytoyou。\"

  Arthurpausedinsurprise。Susceptiblepersonsaremoreaffectedbyachangeoftonethanbyunexpectedwords,andArthurhadthesusceptibilityofanatureatonceaffectionateandvain。HewasstillmoresurprisedwhenhesawthatAdamhadnotmoved,butstoodwithhisbacktohim,asifsummoninghimtoreturn。Whatdidhemean?Hewasgoingtomakeaseriousbusinessofthisaffair。Arthurfelthistemperrising。Apatronisingdispositionalwayshasitsmeanerside,andintheconfusionofhisirritationandalarmthereenteredthefeelingthatamantowhomhehadshownsomuchfavourastoAdamwasnotinapositiontocriticizehisconduct。Andyethewasdominated,asonewhofeelshimselfinthewrongalwaysis,bythemanwhosegoodopinionhecaresfor。Inspiteofprideandtemper,therewasasmuchdeprecationasangerinhisvoicewhenhesaid,\"Whatdoyoumean,Adam?\"

  \"Imean,sir\"——answeredAdam,inthesameharshvoice,stillwithoutturninground——\"Imean,sir,thatyoudon’tdeceivemebyyourlightwords。Thisisnotthefirsttimeyou’vemetHettySorrelinthisgrove,andthisisnotthefirsttimeyou’vekissedher。\"

  ArthurfeltastartleduncertaintyhowfarAdamwasspeakingfromknowledge,andhowfarfrommereinference。Andthisuncertainty,whichpreventedhimfromcontrivingaprudentanswer,heightenedhisirritation。Hesaid,inahighsharptone,\"Well,sir,whatthen?\"

  \"Why,then,insteadofactingliketh’upright,honourablemanwe’veallbelievedyoutobe,you’vebeenactingthepartofaselfishlight-mindedscoundrel。YouknowaswellasIdowhatit’stoleadtowhenagentlemanlikeyoukissesandmakeslovetoayoungwomanlikeHetty,andgivesherpresentsasshe’sfrightenedforotherfolkstosee。AndIsayitagain,you’reactingthepartofaselfishlight-mindedscoundrelthoughitcutsmetoth’hearttosayso,andI’dratherha’lostmyrighthand。\"

  \"Letmetellyou,Adam,\"saidArthur,bridlinghisgrowingangerandtryingtorecurtohiscarelesstone,\"you’renotonlydevilishlyimpertinent,butyou’retalkingnonsense。Everyprettygirlisnotsuchafoolasyou,tosupposethatwhenagentlemanadmiresherbeautyandpaysheralittleattention,hemustmeansomethingparticular。Everymanlikestoflirtwithaprettygirl,andeveryprettygirllikestobeflirtedwith。Thewiderthedistancebetweenthem,thelessharmthereis,forthenshe’snotlikelytodeceiveherself。\"

  \"Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbyflirting,\"saidAdam,\"butifyoumeanbehavingtoawomanasifyoulovedher,andyetnotlovingherallthewhile,Isaythat’snotth’actionofanhonestman,andwhatisn’thonestdoescomet’harm。I’mnotafool,andyou’renotafool,andyouknowbetterthanwhatyou’resaying。

  Youknowitcouldn’tbemadepublicasyou’vebehavedtoHettyasy’havedonewithoutherlosinghercharacterandbringingshameandtroubleonherandherrelations。Whatifyoumeantnothingbyyourkissingandyourpresents?Otherfolkswon’tbelieveasyou’vemeantnothing;anddon’ttellmeabouthernotdeceivingherself。Itellyouasyou’vefilledhermindsowiththethoughtofyouasit’llmayhappoisonherlife,andshe’llneverloveanothermanas’udmakeheragoodhusband。\"

  ArthurhadfeltasuddenreliefwhileAdamwasspeaking;heperceivedthatAdamhadnopositiveknowledgeofthepast,andthattherewasnoirrevocabledamagedonebythisevening’sunfortunaterencontre。Adamcouldstillbedeceived。ThecandidArthurhadbroughthimselfintoapositioninwhichsuccessfullyingwashisonlyhope。Thehopeallayedhisangeralittle。

  \"Well,Adam,\"hesaid,inatoneoffriendlyconcession,\"you’reperhapsright。PerhapsI’vegonealittletoofarintakingnoticeoftheprettylittlethingandstealingakissnowandthen。You’resuchagrave,steadyfellow,youdon’tunderstandthetemptationtosuchtrifling。I’msureIwouldn’tbringanytroubleorannoyanceonherandthegoodPoysersonanyaccountifIcouldhelpit。ButIthinkyoulookalittletooseriouslyatit。YouknowI’mgoingawayimmediately,soIshan’tmakeanymoremistakesofthekind。Butletussaygood-night\"——Arthurhereturnedroundtowalkon——\"andtalknomoreaboutthematter。

  Thewholethingwillsoonbeforgotten。\"

  \"No,byGod!\"Adamburstoutwithragethatcouldbecontrollednolonger,throwingdownthebasketoftoolsandstridingforwardtillhewasrightinfrontofArthur。Allhisjealousyandsenseofpersonalinjury,whichhehadbeenhithertotryingtokeepunder,hadleapedupandmasteredhim。Whatmanofus,inthefirstmomentsofasharpagony,couldeverfeelthatthefellow-

  manwhohasbeenthemediumofinflictingitdidnotmeantohurtus?Inourinstinctiverebellionagainstpain,wearechildrenagain,anddemandanactivewilltowreakourvengeanceon。AdamatthismomentcouldonlyfeelthathehadbeenrobbedofHetty——

  robbedtreacherouslybythemaninwhomhehadtrusted——andhestoodcloseinfrontofArthur,withfierceeyesglaringathim,withpalelipsandclenchedhands,thehardtonesinwhichhehadhithertobeenconstraininghimselftoexpressnomorethanajustindignationgivingwaytoadeepagitatedvoicethatseemedtoshakehimashespoke。

  \"No,it’llnotbesoonforgot,asyou’vecomeinbetweenherandme,whenshemightha’lovedme——it’llnotsoonbeforgotasyou’verobbedmeo’myhappiness,whileIthoughtyouwasmybestfriend,andanoble-mindedman,asIwasproudtoworkfor。Andyou’vebeenkissingher,andmeaningnothing,haveyou?AndI

  neverkissedheri’mylife——butI’dha’workedhardforyearsfortherighttokissher。Andyoumakelightofit。Youthinklittleo’doingwhatmaydamageotherfolks,soasyougetyourbito’trifling,asmeansnothing。Ithrowbackyourfavours,foryou’renotthemanItookyoufor。I’llnevercountyoumyfriendanymore。I’dratheryou’dactasmyenemy,andfightmewhereI

  stand——it’sallth’amendsyoucanmakeme。\"

  PoorAdam,possessedbyragethatcouldfindnoothervent,begantothrowoffhiscoatandhiscap,tooblindwithpassiontonoticethechangethathadtakenplaceinArthurwhilehewasspeaking。Arthur’slipswerenowaspaleasAdam’s;hisheartwasbeatingviolently。ThediscoverythatAdamlovedHettywasashockwhichmadehimforthemomentseehimselfinthelightofAdam’sindignation,andregardAdam’ssufferingasnotmerelyaconsequence,butanelementofhiserror。Thewordsofhatredandcontempt——thefirsthehadeverheardinhislife——seemedlikescorchingmissilesthatweremakingineffaceablescarsonhim。

  Allscreeningself-excuse,whichrarelyfallsquiteawaywhileothersrespectus,forsookhimforaninstant,andhestoodfacetofacewiththefirstgreatirrevocableevilhehadevercommitted。Hewasonlytwenty-one,andthreemonthsago——nay,muchlater——hehadthoughtproudlythatnomanshouldeverbeabletoreproachhimjustly。Hisfirstimpulse,iftherehadbeentimeforit,wouldperhapshavebeentoutterwordsofpropitiation;

  butAdamhadnosoonerthrownoffhiscoatandcapthanhebecameawarethatArthurwasstandingpaleandmotionless,withhishandsstillthrustinhiswaistcoatpockets。

  \"What!\"hesaid,\"won’tyoufightmelikeaman?YouknowIwon’tstrikeyouwhileyoustandso。\"

  \"Goaway,Adam,\"saidArthur,\"Idon’twanttofightyou。\"

  \"No,\"saidAdam,bitterly;\"youdon’twanttofightme——youthinkI’macommonman,asyoucaninjurewithoutansweringforit。\"

  \"Inevermeanttoinjureyou,\"saidArthur,withreturninganger。

  \"Ididn’tknowyoulovedher。\"

  \"Butyou’vemadeherloveyou,\"saidAdam。\"You’readouble-facedman——I’llneverbelieveawordyousayagain。\"

  \"Goaway,Itellyou,\"saidArthur,angrily,\"orweshallbothrepent。\"

  \"No,\"saidAdam,withaconvulsedvoice,\"IswearIwon’tgoawaywithoutfightingyou。Doyouwantprovokinganymore?Itellyouyou’reacowardandascoundrel,andIdespiseyou。\"

  ThecolourhadallrushedbacktoArthur’sface;inamomenthisrighthandwasclenched,anddealtablowlikelightning,whichsentAdamstaggeringbackward。HisbloodwasasthoroughlyupasAdam’snow,andthetwomen,forgettingtheemotionsthathadgonebefore,foughtwiththeinstinctivefiercenessofpanthersinthedeepeningtwilightdarkenedbythetrees。Thedelicate-handedgentlemanwasamatchfortheworkmanineverythingbutstrength,andArthur’sskillenabledhimtoprotractthestruggleforsomelongmoments。Butbetweenunarmedmenthebattleistothestrong,wherethestrongisnoblunderer,andArthurmustsinkunderawell-plantedblowofAdam’sasasteelrodisbrokenbyanironbar。Theblowsooncame,andArthurfell,hisheadlyingconcealedinatuftoffern,sothatAdamcouldonlydiscernhisdarklycladbody。

  HestoodstillinthedimlightwaitingforArthurtorise。

  Theblowhadbeengivennow,towardswhichhehadbeenstrainingalltheforceofnerveandmuscle——andwhatwasthegoodofit?

  Whathadhedonebyfighting?Onlysatisfiedhisownpassion,onlywreakedhisownvengeance。HehadnotrescuedHetty,norchangedthepast——thereitwas,justasithadbeen,andhesickenedatthevanityofhisownrage。

  ButwhydidnotArthurrise?Hewasperfectlymotionless,andthetimeseemedlongtoAdam。GoodGod!hadtheblowbeentoomuchforhim?Adamshudderedatthethoughtofhisownstrength,aswiththeoncomingofthisdreadhekneltdownbyArthur’ssideandliftedhisheadfromamongthefern。Therewasnosignoflife:

  theeyesandteethwereset。ThehorrorthatrushedoverAdamcompletelymasteredhim,andforceduponhimitsownbelief。HecouldfeelnothingbutthatdeathwasinArthur’sface,andthathewashelplessbeforeit。Hemadenotasinglemovement,butkneltlikeanimageofdespairgazingatanimageofdeath。

  ADilemmaITwasonlyafewminutesmeasuredbytheclock——thoughAdamalwaysthoughtithadbeenalongwhile——beforeheperceivedagleamofconsciousnessinArthur’sfaceandaslightshiverthroughhisframe。Theintensejoythatfloodedhissoulbroughtbacksomeoftheoldaffectionwithit。

  \"Doyoufeelanypain,sir?\"hesaid,tenderly,looseningArthur’scravat。

  ArthurturnedhiseyesonAdamwithavaguestarewhichgavewaytoaslightlystartledmotionasiffromtheshockofreturningmemory。Butheonlyshiveredagainandsaidnothing。

  \"Doyoufeelanyhurt,sir?\"Adamsaidagain,withatremblinginhisvoice。

  Arthurputhishanduptohiswaistcoatbuttons,andwhenAdamhadunbuttonedit,hetookalongerbreath。\"Laymyheaddown,\"hesaid,faintly,\"andgetmesomewaterifyoucan。\"

  Adamlaidtheheaddowngentlyonthefernagain,andemptyingthetoolsoutoftheflag-basket,hurriedthroughthetreestotheedgeoftheGroveborderingontheChase,whereabrookranbelowthebank。

  Whenhereturnedwithhisbasketleaking,butstillhalf-full,Arthurlookedathimwithamorethoroughlyreawakenedconsciousness。

  \"Canyoudrinkadropouto’yourhand,sir?\"saidAdam,kneelingdownagaintoliftupArthur’shead。

  \"No,\"saidArthur,\"dipmycravatinandsouseitonmyhead。\"

  Thewaterseemedtodohimsomegood,forhepresentlyraisedhimselfalittlehigher,restingonAdam’sarm。

  \"Doyoufeelanyhurtinsidesir?\"Adamaskedagain\"No——nohurt,\"saidArthur,stillfaintly,\"butratherdoneup。\"

  Afterawhilehesaid,\"IsupposeIfaintedawaywhenyouknockedmedown。\"

  \"Yes,sir,thankGod,\"saidAdam。\"Ithoughtitwasworse。\"

  \"What!Youthoughtyou’ddoneforme,eh?Comehelpmeonmylegs。\"

  \"Ifeelterriblyshakyanddizzy,\"Arthursaid,ashestoodleaningonAdam’sarm;\"thatblowofyoursmusthavecomeagainstmelikeabattering-ram。Idon’tbelieveIcanwalkalone。\"

  \"Leanonme,sir;I’llgetyoualong,\"saidAdam。\"Or,willyousitdownabitlonger,onmycoathere,andI’llpropy’up。

  You’llperhapsbebetterinaminuteortwo。\"

  \"No,\"saidArthur。\"I’llgototheHermitage——IthinkI’vegotsomebrandythere。There’sashortroadtoitalittlefartheron,nearthegate。Ifyou’lljusthelpmeon。\"

  Theywalkedslowly,withfrequentpauses,butwithoutspeakingagain。Inbothofthem,theconcentrationinthepresentwhichhadattendedthefirstmomentsofArthur’srevivalhadnowgivenwaytoavividrecollectionofthepreviousscene。Itwasnearlydarkinthenarrowpathamongthetrees,butwithinthecircleoffir-treesroundtheHermitagetherewasroomforthegrowingmoonlighttoenterinatthewindows。Theirstepswerenoiselessonthethickcarpetoffir-needles,andtheoutwardstillnessseemedtoheightentheirinwardconsciousness,asArthurtookthekeyoutofhispocketandplaceditinAdam’shand,forhimtoopenthedoor。AdamhadnotknownbeforethatArthurhadfurnishedtheoldHermitageandmadeitaretreatforhimself,anditwasasurprisetohimwhenheopenedthedoortoseeasnugroomwithallthesignsoffrequenthabitation。

  ArthurloosedAdam’sarmandthrewhimselfontheottoman。

  \"You’llseemyhunting-bottlesomewhere,\"hesaid。\"Aleathercasewithabottleandglassin。\"

  Adamwasnotlonginfindingthecase。\"There’sverylittlebrandyinit,sir,\"hesaid,turningitdownwardsovertheglass,ashehelditbeforethewindow;\"hardlythislittleglassful。\"

  \"Well,givemethat,\"saidArthur,withthepeevishnessofphysicaldepression。Whenhehadtakensomesips,Adamsaid,\"Hadn’tIbetterruntoth’house,sir,andgetsomemorebrandy?

  Icanbethereandbackprettysoon。It’llbeastiffwalkhomeforyou,ifyoudon’thavesomethingtoreviveyou。\"

  \"Yes——go。Butdon’tsayI’mill。AskformymanPym,andtellhimtogetitfromMills,andnottosayI’mattheHermitage。

  Getsomewatertoo。\"

  Adamwasrelievedtohaveanactivetask——bothofthemwererelievedtobeapartfromeachotherforashorttime。ButAdam’sswiftpacecouldnotstilltheeagerpainofthinking——oflivingagainwithconcentratedsufferingthroughthelastwretchedhour,andlookingoutfromitoverallthenewsadfuture。

  ArthurlaystillforsomeminutesafterAdamwasgone,butpresentlyherosefeeblyfromtheottomanandpeeredaboutslowlyinthebrokenmoonlight,seekingsomething。Itwasashortbitofwaxcandlethatstoodamongstaconfusionofwritinganddrawingmaterials。Therewasmoresearchingforthemeansoflightingthecandle,andwhenthatwasdone,hewentcautiouslyroundtheroom,asifwishingtoassurehimselfofthepresenceorabsenceofsomething。Atlasthehadfoundaslightthing,whichheputfirstinhispocket,andthen,onasecondthought,tookoutagainandthrustdeepdownintoawaste-paperbasket。Itwasawoman’slittle,pink,silkneckerchief。Hesetthecandleonthetable,andthrewhimselfdownontheottomanagain,exhaustedwiththeeffort。

  WhenAdamcamebackwithhissupplies,hisentranceawokeArthurfromadoze。

  \"That’sright,\"Arthursaid;\"I’mtremendouslyinwantofsomebrandy-vigour。\"

  \"I’mgladtoseeyou’vegotalight,sir,\"saidAdam。\"I’vebeenthinkingI’dbetterhaveaskedforalanthorn。\"

  \"No,no;thecandlewilllastlongenough——Ishallsoonbeuptowalkinghomenow。\"

  \"Ican’tgobeforeI’veseenyousafehome,sir,\"saidAdam,hesitatingly。

  \"No:itwillbebetterforyoutostay——sitdown。\"

  Adamsatdown,andtheyremainedoppositetoeachotherinuneasysilence,whileArthurslowlydrankbrandy-and-water,withvisiblyrenovatingeffect。Hebegantolieinamorevoluntaryposition,andlookedasifhewerelessoverpoweredbybodilysensations。

  Adamwaskeenlyalivetotheseindications,andashisanxietyaboutArthur’sconditionbegantobeallayed,hefeltmoreofthatimpatiencewhicheveryoneknowswhohashadhisjustindignationsuspendedbythephysicalstateoftheculprit。Yettherewasonethingonhismindtobedonebeforehecouldrecurtoremonstrance:itwastoconfesswhathadbeenunjustinhisownwords。Perhapshelongedallthemoretomakethisconfession,thathisindignationmightbefreeagain;andashesawthesignsofreturningeaseinArthur,thewordsagainandagaincametohislipsandwentback,checkedbythethoughtthatitwouldbebettertoleaveeverythingtillto-morrow。Aslongastheyweresilenttheydidnotlookateachother,andaforebodingcameacrossAdamthatiftheybegantospeakasthoughtheyrememberedthepast——iftheylookedateachotherwithfullrecognition——theymusttakefireagain。Sotheysatinsilencetillthebitofwaxcandleflickeredlowinthesocket,thesilenceallthewhilebecomingmoreirksometoAdam。Arthurhadjustpouredoutsomemorebrandy-and-water,andhethrewonearmbehindhisheadanddrewuponeleginanattitudeofrecoveredease,whichwasanirresistibletemptationtoAdamtospeakwhatwasonhismind。

  \"Youbegintofeelmoreyourselfagain,sir,\"hesaid,asthecandlewentoutandtheywerehalf-hiddenfromeachotherinthefaintmoonlight。

  \"Yes:Idon’tfeelgoodformuch——verylazy,andnotinclinedtomove;butI’llgohomewhenI’vetakenthisdose。\"

  TherewasaslightpausebeforeAdamsaid,\"Mytempergotthebetterofme,andIsaidthingsaswasn’ttrue。I’dnorighttospeakasifyou’dknownyouwasdoingmeaninjury:you’dnogroundsforknowingit;I’vealwayskeptwhatIfeltforherassecretasIcould。\"

  Hepausedagainbeforehewenton。

  \"AndperhapsIjudgedyoutooharsh——I’mapttobeharsh——andyoumayhaveactedouto’thoughtlessnessmorethanIshouldha’

  believedwaspossibleforamanwithaheartandaconscience。

  We’renotallputtogetheralike,andwemaymisjudgeoneanother。

  Godknows,it’sallthejoyIcouldhavenow,tothinkthebestofyou。\"

  Arthurwantedtogohomewithoutsayinganymore——hewastoopainfullyembarrassedinmind,aswellastooweakinbody,towishforanyfurtherexplanationto-night。AndyetitwasarelieftohimthatAdamreopenedthesubjectinawaytheleastdifficultforhimtoanswer。Arthurwasinthewretchedpositionofanopen,generousmanwhohascommittedanerrorwhichmakesdeceptionseemanecessity。Thenativeimpulsetogivetruthinreturnfortruth,tomeettrustwithfrankconfession,mustbesuppressed,anddutywasbecomingaquestionoftactics。Hisdeedwasreactinguponhim——wasalreadygoverninghimtyrannouslyandforcinghimintoacoursethatjarredwithhishabitualfeelings。

  TheonlyaimthatseemedadmissibletohimnowwastodeceiveAdamtotheutmost:tomakeAdamthinkbetterofhimthanhedeserved。

  Andwhenheheardthewordsofhonestretractation——whenheheardthesadappealwithwhichAdamended——hewasobligedtorejoiceintheremainsofignorantconfidenceitimplied。Hedidnotanswerimmediately,forhehadtobejudiciousandnottruthful。

  \"Saynomoreaboutouranger,Adam,\"hesaid,atlast,verylanguidly,forthelabourofspeechwasunwelcometohim;\"I

  forgiveyourmomentaryinjustice——itwasquitenatural,withtheexaggeratednotionsyouhadinyourmind。Weshallbenonetheworsefriendsinfuture,Ihope,becausewe’vefought。Youhadthebestofit,andthatwasasitshouldbe,forIbelieveI’vebeenmostinthewrongofthetwo。Come,letusshakehands。\"

  Arthurheldouthishand,butAdamsatstill。

  \"Idon’tliketosay’No’tothat,sir,\"hesaid,\"butIcan’tshakehandstillit’sclearwhatwemeanby’t。IwaswrongwhenI

  spokeasifyou’ddonemeaninjuryknowingly,butIwasn’twronginwhatIsaidbefore,aboutyourbehaviourt’Hetty,andIcan’tshakehandswithyouasifIheldyoumyfriendthesameasevertillyou’veclearedthatupbetter。\"

  Arthurswallowedhisprideandresentmentashedrewbackhishand。Hewassilentforsomemoments,andthensaid,asindifferentlyashecould,\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumeanbyclearingup,Adam。I’vetoldyoualreadythatyouthinktooseriouslyofalittleflirtation。Butifyouarerightinsupposingthereisanydangerinit——I’mgoingawayonSaturday,andtherewillbeanendofit。Asforthepainithasgivenyou,I’mheartilysorryforit。Icansaynomore。\"

  Adamsaidnothing,butrosefromhischairandstoodwithhisfacetowardsoneofthewindows,asiflookingattheblacknessofthemoonlitfir-trees;buthewasinrealityconsciousofnothingbuttheconflictwithinhim。Itwasofnousenow——hisresolutionnottospeaktillto-morrow。Hemustspeakthereandthen。ButitwasseveralminutesbeforeheturnedroundandsteppednearertoArthur,standingandlookingdownonhimashelay。

  \"It’llbebetterformetospeakplain,\"hesaid,withevidenteffort,\"thoughit’shardwork。Yousee,sir,thisisn’tatrifletome,whateveritmaybetoyou。I’mnoneo’themmenascangomakinglovefirsttoonewomanandthent’another,anddon’tthinkitmuchoddswhichof’emItake。WhatIfeelforHetty’sadifferentsorto’love,suchasIbelievenobodycanknowmuchaboutbutthemasfeelitandGodashasgivenitto’em。She’smorenoreverythingelsetome,allbutmyconscienceandmygoodname。Andifit’struewhatyou’vebeensayingallalong——andifit’sonlybeentriflingandflirtingasyoucallit,as’llbeputanendtobyyourgoingaway——why,then,I’dwait,andhopeherheart’udturntomeafterall。I’mloathtothinkyou’dspeakfalsetome,andI’llbelieveyourword,howeverthingsmaylook。\"

  \"YouwouldbewrongingHettymorethanmenottobelieveit,\"saidArthur,almostviolently,startingupfromtheottomanandmovingaway。Buthethrewhimselfintoachairagaindirectly,saying,morefeebly,\"Youseemtoforgetthat,insuspectingme,youarecastingimputationsuponher。\"

  \"Nay,sir,\"Adamsaid,inacalmervoice,asifhewerehalf-

  relieved——forhewastoostraightforwardtomakeadistinctionbetweenadirectfalsehoodandanindirectone——\"Nay,sir,thingsdon’tlielevelbetweenHettyandyou。You’reactingwithyoureyesopen,whateveryoumaydo;buthowdoyouknowwhat’sbeeninhermind?She’sallbutachild——asanymanwithaconscienceinhimoughttofeelboundtotakecareon。Andwhateveryoumaythink,Iknowyou’vedisturbedhermind。Iknowshe’sbeenfixingherheartonyou,forthere’samanythingscleartomenowasI

  didn’tunderstandbefore。Butyouseemtomakelighto’whatshemayfeel——youdon’tthinko’that。\"

  \"GoodGod,Adam,letmealone!\"Arthurburstoutimpetuously;\"I

  feelitenoughwithoutyourworryingme。\"

  Hewasawareofhisindiscretionassoonasthewordshadescapedhim。

  \"Well,then,ifyoufeelit,\"Adamrejoined,eagerly;\"ifyoufeelasyoumayha’putfalsenotionsintohermind,andmadeherbelieveasyoulovedher,whenallthewhileyoumeantnothing,I’vethisdemandtomakeofyou——I’mnotspeakingformyself,butforher。Iaskyout’undeceiveherbeforeyougoaway。Y’aren’tgoingawayforever,andifyouleaveherbehindwithanotioninherheado’yourfeelingaboutherthesameasshefeelsaboutyou,she’llbehankeringafteryou,andthemischiefmaygetworse。Itmaybeasmarttohernow,butit’llsaveherpaini’

  th’end。Iaskyoutowritealetter——youmaytrusttomyseeingasshegetsit。Tellherthetruth,andtakeblametoyourselfforbehavingasyou’dnorighttodotoayoungwomanasisn’tyourequal。Ispeakplain,sir,butIcan’tspeakanyotherway。

  There’snobodycantakecareo’Hettyinthisthingbutme。\"

  \"IcandowhatIthinkneedfulinthematter,\"saidArthur,moreandmoreirritatedbymingleddistressandperplexity,\"withoutgivingpromisestoyou。IshalltakewhatmeasuresIthinkproper。\"

  \"No,\"saidAdam,inanabruptdecidedtone,\"thatwon’tdo。I

  mustknowwhatgroundI’mtreadingon。Imustbesafeasyou’veputanendtowhatoughtnevertoha’beenbegun。Idon’tforgetwhat’sowingtoyouasagentleman,butinthisthingwe’remanandman,andIcan’tgiveup。\"

  Therewasnoanswerforsomemoments。ThenArthursaid,\"I’llseeyouto-morrow。Icanbearnomorenow;I’mill。\"Heroseashespoke,andreachedhiscap,asifintendingtogo。

  \"Youwon’tseeheragain!\"Adamexclaimed,withaflashofrecurringangerandsuspicion,movingtowardsthedoorandplacinghisbackagainstit。\"Eithertellmeshecanneverbemywife——

  tellmeyou’vebeenlying——orelsepromisemewhatI’vesaid。\"

  Adam,utteringthisalternative,stoodlikeaterriblefatebeforeArthur,whohadmovedforwardasteportwo,andnowstopped,faint,shaken,sickinmindandbody。Itseemedlongtobothofthem——thatinwardstruggleofArthur’s——beforehesaid,feebly,\"I

  promise;letmego。\"

  Adammovedawayfromthedoorandopenedit,butwhenArthurreachedthestep,hestoppedagainandleanedagainstthedoor-

  post。

  \"You’renotwellenoughtowalkalone,sir,\"saidAdam。\"Takemyarmagain。\"

  Arthurmadenoanswer,andpresentlywalkedon,Adamfollowing。

  But,afterafewsteps,hestoodstillagain,andsaid,coldly,\"I

  believeImusttroubleyou。It’sgettinglatenow,andtheremaybeanalarmsetupaboutmeathome。\"

  Adamgavehisarm,andtheywalkedonwithoututteringaword,tilltheycamewherethebasketandthetoolslay。

  \"Imustpickupthetools,sir,\"Adamsaid。\"They’remybrother’s。Idoubtthey’llberusted。Ifyou’llpleasetowaitaminute。\"

  Arthurstoodstillwithoutspeaking,andnootherwordpassedbetweenthemtilltheywereatthesideentrance,wherehehopedtogetinwithoutbeingseenbyanyone。Hesaidthen,\"Thankyou;Ineedn’ttroubleyouanyfurther。\"

  \"Whattimewillitbeconven’entformetoseeyouto-morrow,sir?\"saidAdam。

  \"Youmaysendmewordthatyou’rehereatfiveo’clock,\"saidArthur;\"notbefore。\"

  \"Good-night,sir,\"saidAdam。Butheheardnoreply;Arthurhadturnedintothehouse。

  ChapterXXIX

  TheNextMorningARTHURdidnotpassasleeplessnight;hesleptlongandwell。

  Forsleepcomestotheperplexed——iftheperplexedareonlywearyenough。ButatsevenheranghisbellandastonishedPymbydeclaringhewasgoingtogetup,andmusthavebreakfastbroughttohimateight。

  \"Andseethatmymareissaddledathalf-pasteight,andtellmygrandfatherwhenhe’sdownthatI’mbetterthismorningandamgoneforaride。\"

  Hehadbeenawakeanhour,andcouldrestinbednolonger。Inbedouryesterdaysaretoooppressive:ifamancanonlygetup,thoughitbebuttowhistleortosmoke,hehasapresentwhichofferssomeresistancetothepast——sensationswhichassertthemselvesagainsttyrannousmemories。Andifthereweresuchathingastakingaveragesoffeeling,itwouldcertainlybefoundthatinthehuntingandshootingseasonsregret,self-reproach,andmortifiedprideweighlighteroncountrygentlementhaninlatespringandsummer。Arthurfeltthatheshouldbemoreofamanonhorseback。EventhepresenceofPym,waitingonhimwiththeusualdeference,wasareassurancetohimafterthescenesofyesterday。For,withArthur’ssensitivenesstoopinion,thelossofAdam’srespectwasashocktohisself-contentmentwhichsuffusedhisimaginationwiththesensethathehadsunkinalleyes——asasuddenshockoffearfromsomerealperilmakesanervouswomanafraideventostep,becauseallherperceptionsaresuffusedwithasenseofdanger。

  Arthur’s,asyouknow,wasalovingnature。Deedsofkindnesswereaseasytohimasabadhabit:theywerethecommonissueofhisweaknessesandgoodqualities,ofhisegoismandhissympathy。

  Hedidn’tliketowitnesspain,andhelikedtohavegratefuleyesbeamingonhimasthegiverofpleasure。Whenhewasaladofseven,heonedaykickeddownanoldgardener’spitcherofbroth,fromnomotivebutakickingimpulse,notreflectingthatitwastheoldman’sdinner;butonlearningthatsadfact,hetookhisfavouritepencil-caseandasilver-haftedknifeoutofhispocketandofferedthemascompensation。HehadbeenthesameArthureversince,tryingtomakealloffencesforgotteninbenefits。Iftherewereanybitternessinhisnature,itcouldonlyshowitselfagainstthemanwhorefusedtobeconciliatedbyhim。Andperhapsthetimewascomeforsomeofthatbitternesstorise。Atthefirstmoment,Arthurhadfeltpuredistressandself-reproachatdiscoveringthatAdam’shappinesswasinvolvedinhisrelationtoHetty。IftherehadbeenapossibilityofmakingAdamtenfoldamends——ifdeedsofgift,oranyotherdeeds,couldhaverestoredAdam’scontentmentandregardforhimasabenefactor,Arthurwouldnotonlyhaveexecutedthemwithouthesitation,butwouldhavefeltboundallthemorecloselytoAdam,andwouldneverhavebeenwearyofmakingretribution。ButAdamcouldreceivenoamends;hissufferingcouldnotbecancelled;hisrespectandaffectioncouldnotberecoveredbyanypromptdeedsofatonement。

  Hestoodlikeanimmovableobstacleagainstwhichnopressurecouldavail;anembodimentofwhatArthurmostshrankfrombelievingin——theirrevocablenessofhisownwrongdoing。Thewordsofscorn,therefusaltoshakehands,themasteryassertedoverhimintheirlastconversationintheHermitage——aboveall,thesenseofhavingbeenknockeddown,towhichamandoesnotverywellreconcilehimself,evenunderthemostheroiccircumstances——pressedonhimwithagallingpainwhichwasstrongerthancompunction。Arthurwouldsogladlyhavepersuadedhimselfthathehaddonenoharm!Andifnoonehadtoldhimthecontrary,hecouldhavepersuadedhimselfsomuchbetter。Nemesiscanseldomforgeaswordforherselfoutofourconsciences——outofthesufferingwefeelinthesufferingwemayhavecaused:

  thereisrarelymetalenoughtheretomakeaneffectiveweapon。

  Ourmoralsenselearnsthemannersofgoodsocietyandsmileswhenotherssmile,butwhensomerudepersongivesroughnamestoouractions,sheisapttotakepartagainstus。AndsoitwaswithArthur:Adam’sjudgmentofhim,Adam’sgratingwords,disturbedhisself-soothingarguments。

  NotthatArthurhadbeenateasebeforeAdam’sdiscovery。

  Strugglesandresolveshadtransformedthemselvesintocompunctionandanxiety。HewasdistressedforHetty’ssake,anddistressedforhisown,thathemustleaveherbehind。Hehadalways,bothinmakingandbreakingresolutions,lookedbeyondhispassionandseenthatitmustspeedilyendinseparation;buthisnaturewastooardentandtenderforhimnottosufferatthisparting;andonHetty’saccounthewasfilledwithuneasiness。Hehadfoundoutthedreaminwhichshewasliving——thatshewastobealadyinsilksandsatins——andwhenhehadfirsttalkedtoherabouthisgoingaway,shehadaskedhimtremblinglytolethergowithhimandbemarried。ItwashispainfulknowledgeofthiswhichhadgiventhemostexasperatingstingtoAdam’sreproaches。Hehadsaidnowordwiththepurposeofdeceivingher——hervisionwasallspunbyherownchildishfancy——buthewasobligedtoconfesstohimselfthatitwasspunhalfoutofhisownactions。Andtoincreasethemischief,onthislasteveninghehadnotdaredtohintthetruthtoHetty;hehadbeenobligedtosootheherwithtender,hopefulwords,lestheshouldthrowherintoviolentdistress。Hefeltthesituationacutely,feltthesorrowofthedearthinginthepresent,andthoughtwithadarkeranxietyofthetenacitywhichherfeelingsmighthaveinthefuture。Thatwastheonesharppointwhichpressedagainsthim;everyotherhecouldevadebyhopefulself-persuasion。Thewholethinghadbeensecret;thePoysershadnottheshadowofasuspicion。Noone,exceptAdam,knewanythingofwhathadpassed——nooneelsewaslikelytoknow;forArthurhadimpressedonHettythatitwouldbefataltobetray,bywordorlook,thattherehadbeentheleastintimacybetweenthem;andAdam,whoknewhalftheirsecret,wouldratherhelpthemtokeepitthanbetrayit。Itwasanunfortunatebusinessaltogether,buttherewasnouseinmakingitworsethanitwasbyimaginaryexaggerationsandforebodingsofevilthatmightnevercome。ThetemporarysadnessforHettywastheworstconsequence;heresolutelyturnedawayhiseyesfromanybadconsequencethatwasnotdemonstrablyinevitable。But——butHettymighthavehadthetroubleinsomeotherwayifnotinthis。Andperhapshereafterhemightbeabletodoagreatdealforherandmakeuptoherforallthetearsshewouldshedabouthim。Shewouldowetheadvantageofhiscareforherinfutureyearstothesorrowshehadincurrednow。Sogoodcomesoutofevil。Suchisthebeautifularrangementofthings!

  AreyouinclinedtoaskwhetherthiscanbethesameArthurwho,twomonthsago,hadthatfreshnessoffeeling,thatdelicatehonourwhichshrinksfromwoundingevenasentiment,anddoesnotcontemplateanymorepositiveoffenceaspossibleforit?——whothoughtthathisownself-respectwasahighertribunalthananyexternalopinion?Thesame,Iassureyou,onlyunderdifferentconditions。Ourdeedsdetermineus,asmuchaswedetermineourdeeds,anduntilweknowwhathasbeenorwillbethepeculiarcombinationofoutwardwithinwardfacts,whichconstitutesaman’scriticalactions,itwillbebetternottothinkourselveswiseabouthischaracter。Thereisaterriblecoercioninourdeeds,whichmayfirstturnthehonestmanintoadeceiverandthenreconcilehimtothechange,forthisreason——thatthesecondwrongpresentsitselftohimintheguiseoftheonlypracticableright。Theactionwhichbeforecommissionhasbeenseenwiththatblendedcommonsenseandfreshuntarnishedfeelingwhichisthehealthyeyeofthesoul,islookedatafterwardswiththelensofapologeticingenuity,throughwhichallthingsthatmencallbeautifulanduglyareseentobemadeupoftexturesverymuchalike。Europeadjustsitselftoafaitaccompli,andsodoesanindividualcharacter——untiltheplacidadjustmentisdisturbedbyaconvulsiveretribution。

  Nomancanescapethisvitiatingeffectofanoffenceagainsthisownsentimentofright,andtheeffectwasthestrongerinArthurbecauseofthatveryneedofself-respectwhich,whilehisconsciencewasstillatease,wasoneofhisbestsafeguards。

  Self-accusationwastoopainfultohim——hecouldnotfaceit。Hemustpersuadehimselfthathehadnotbeenverymuchtoblame;hebeganeventopityhimselfforthenecessityhewasunderofdeceivingAdam——itwasacoursesoopposedtothehonestyofhisownnature。Butthen,itwastheonlyrightthingtodo。

  Well,whateverhadbeenamissinhim,hewasmiserableenoughinconsequence:miserableaboutHetty;miserableaboutthisletterthathehadpromisedtowrite,andthatseemedatonemomenttobeagrossbarbarity,atanotherperhapsthegreatestkindnesshecoulddotoher。Andacrossallthisreflectionwoulddarteverynowandthenasuddenimpulseofpassionatedefiancetowardsallconsequences。HewouldcarryHettyaway,andallotherconsiderationsmightgoto……

  Inthisstateofmindthefourwallsofhisroommadeanintolerableprisontohim;theyseemedtoheminandpressdownuponhimallthecrowdofcontradictorythoughtsandconflictingfeelings,someofwhichwouldflyawayintheopenair。Hehadonlyanhourortwotomakeuphismindin,andhemustgetclearandcalm。OnceonMeg’sback,inthefreshairofthatfinemorning,heshouldbemoremasterofthesituation。

  Theprettycreaturearchedherbayneckinthesunshine,andpawedthegravel,andtrembledwithpleasurewhenhermasterstrokedhernose,andpattedher,andtalkedtohereveninamorecaressingtonethanusual。Helovedherthebetterbecausesheknewnothingofhissecrets。ButMegwasquiteaswellacquaintedwithhermaster’smentalstateasmanyothersofhersexwiththementalconditionoftheniceyounggentlementowardswhomtheirheartsareinastateofflutteringexpectation。

  ArthurcanteredforfivemilesbeyondtheChase,tillhewasatthefootofahillwheretherewerenohedgesortreestohemintheroad。ThenhethrewthebridleonMeg’sneckandpreparedtomakeuphismind。

  HettyknewthattheirmeetingyesterdaymustbethelastbeforeArthurwentaway——therewasnopossibilityoftheircontrivinganotherwithoutexcitingsuspicion——andshewaslikeafrightenedchild,unabletothinkofanything,onlyabletocryatthementionofparting,andthenputherfaceuptohavethetearskissedaway。Hecoulddonothingbutcomforther,andlullherintodreamingon。Aletterwouldbeadreadfullyabruptwayofawakeningher!YettherewastruthinwhatAdamsaid——thatitwouldsaveherfromalengtheneddelusion,whichmightbeworsethanasharpimmediatepain。AnditwastheonlywayofsatisfyingAdam,whomustbesatisfied,formorereasonsthanone。

  Ifhecouldhaveseenheragain!Butthatwasimpossible;therewassuchathornyhedgeofhindrancesbetweenthem,andanimprudencewouldbefatal。Andyet,ifheCOULDseeheragain,whatgoodwoulditdo?Onlycausehimtosuffermorefromthesightofherdistressandtheremembranceofit。Awayfromhimshewassurroundedbyallthemotivestoself-control。

  Asuddendreadherefelllikeashadowacrosshisimagination——thedreadlestsheshoulddosomethingviolentinhergrief;andcloseuponthatdreadcameanother,whichdeepenedtheshadow。Butheshookthemoffwiththeforceofyouthandhope。Whatwasthegroundforpaintingthefutureinthatdarkway?Itwasjustaslikelytobethereverse。Arthurtoldhimselfhedidnotdeservethatthingsshouldturnoutbadly。Hehadnevermeantbeforehandtodoanythinghisconsciencedisapproved;hehadbeenledonbycircumstances。Therewasasortofimplicitconfidenceinhimthathewasreallysuchagoodfellowatbottom,Providencewouldnottreathimharshly。

  Atallevents,hecouldn’thelpwhatwouldcomenow:allhecoulddowastotakewhatseemedthebestcourseatthepresentmoment。

  AndhepersuadedhimselfthatthatcoursewastomakethewayopenbetweenAdamandHetty。HerheartmightreallyturntoAdam,ashesaid,afterawhile;andinthatcasetherewouldhavebeennogreatharmdone,sinceitwasstillAdam’sardentwishtomakeherhiswife。Tobesure,Adamwasdeceived——deceivedinawaythatArthurwouldhaveresentedasadeepwrongifithadbeenpractisedonhimself。Thatwasareflectionthatmarredtheconsolingprospect。Arthur’scheeksevenburnedinmingledshameandirritationatthethought。Butwhatcouldamandoinsuchadilemma?HewasboundinhonourtosaynowordthatcouldinjureHetty:hisfirstdutywastoguardher。Hewouldneverhavetoldoractedalieonhisownaccount。GoodGod!Whatamiserablefoolhewastohavebroughthimselfintosuchadilemma;andyet,ifeveramanhadexcuses,hehad。Pitythatconsequencesaredeterminednotbyexcusesbutbyactions!

  Well,thelettermustbewritten;itwastheonlymeansthatpromisedasolutionofthedifficulty。ThetearscameintoArthur’seyesashethoughtofHettyreadingit;butitwouldbealmostashardforhimtowriteit;hewasnotdoinganythingeasytohimself;andthislastthoughthelpedhimtoarriveataconclusion。Hecouldneverdeliberatelyhavetakenastepwhichinflictedpainonanotherandlefthimselfatease。EvenamovementofjealousyatthethoughtofgivingupHettytoAdamwenttoconvincehimthathewasmakingasacrifice。

  Whenoncehehadcometothisconclusion,heturnedMegroundandsetoffhomeagaininacanter。Thelettershouldbewrittenthefirstthing,andtherestofthedaywouldbefilledupwithotherbusiness:heshouldhavenotimetolookbehindhim。Happily,IrwineandGawainewerecomingtodinner,andbytwelveo’clockthenextdayheshouldhavelefttheChasemilesbehindhim。

  TherewassomesecurityinthisconstantoccupationagainstanuncontrollableimpulseseizinghimtorushtoHettyandthrustintoherhandsomemadpropositionthatwouldundoeverything。

  FasterandfasterwentthesensitiveMeg,ateveryslightsignfromherrider,tillthecanterhadpassedintoaswiftgallop。

  \"Ithoughttheysaidth’youngmesterwartookilllastnight,\"

  saidsouroldJohn,thegroom,atdinner-timeintheservants’

  hall。\"He’sbeenridin’fittosplitthemarei’twothisforenoon。\"

  \"That’shappenoneo’thesymptims,John,\"saidthefacetiouscoachman。

  \"ThenIwishhewarletbloodfor’t,that’sall,\"saidJohn,grimly。

  AdamhadbeenearlyattheChasetoknowhowArthurwas,andhadbeenrelievedfromallanxietyabouttheeffectsofhisblowbylearningthathewasgoneoutforaride。Atfiveo’clockhewaspunctuallythereagain,andsentupwordofhisarrival。InafewminutesPymcamedownwithaletterinhishandandgaveittoAdam,sayingthatthecaptainwastoobusytoseehim,andhadwritteneverythinghehadtosay。TheletterwasdirectedtoAdam,buthewentoutofdoorsagainbeforeopeningit。ItcontainedasealedenclosuredirectedtoHetty。OntheinsideofthecoverAdamread:

  \"IntheenclosedletterIhavewritteneverythingyouwish。I

  leaveittoyoutodecidewhetheryouwillbedoingbesttodeliverittoHettyortoreturnittome。Askyourselfoncemorewhetheryouarenottakingameasurewhichmaypainhermorethanmeresilence。

  \"Thereisnoneedforourseeingeachotheragainnow。Weshallmeetwithbetterfeelingssomemonthshence。

  A。D。\"

  \"Perhapshe’si’th’righton’tnottoseeme,\"thoughtAdam。

  \"It’snousemeetingtosaymorehardwords,andit’snousemeetingtoshakehandsandsaywe’refriendsagain。We’renotfriends,an’it’sbetternottopretendit。Iknowforgivenessisaman’sduty,but,tomythinking,thatcanonlymeanasyou’retogiveupallthoughtso’takingrevenge:itcannevermeanasyou’ret’haveyouroldfeelingsbackagain,forthat’snotpossible。He’snotthesamemantome,andIcan’tfeelthesametowardshim。Godhelpme!Idon’tknowwhetherIfeelthesametowardsanybody:IseemasifI’dbeenmeasuringmyworkfromafalseline,andhadgotitalltomeasureoveragain。\"

  ButthequestionaboutdeliveringthelettertoHettysoonabsorbedAdam’sthoughts。ArthurhadprocuredsomerelieftohimselfbythrowingthedecisiononAdamwithawarning;andAdam,whowasnotgiventohesitation,hesitatedhere。Hedeterminedtofeelhisway——toascertainaswellashecouldwhatwasHetty’sstateofmindbeforehedecidedondeliveringtheletter。

  TheDeliveryoftheLetterTHEnextSundayAdamjoinedthePoysersontheirwayoutofchurch,hopingforaninvitationtogohomewiththem。Hehadtheletterinhispocket,andwasanxioustohaveanopportunityoftalkingtoHettyalone。Hecouldnotseeherfaceatchurch,forshehadchangedherseat,andwhenhecameuptohertoshakehands,hermannerwasdoubtfulandconstrained。Heexpectedthis,foritwasthefirsttimeshehadmethimsinceshehadbeenawarethathehadseenherwithArthurintheGrove。

  \"Come,you’llgoonwithus,Adam,\"Mr。Poysersaidwhentheyreachedtheturning;andassoonastheywereinthefieldsAdamventuredtoofferhisarmtoHetty。Thechildrensoongavethemanopportunityoflingeringbehindalittle,andthenAdamsaid:

  \"Willyoucontriveformetowalkoutinthegardenabitwithyouthisevening,ifitkeepsfine,Hetty?I’vesomethingpartic’lartotalktoyouabout。\"

  Hettysaid,\"Verywell。\"ShewasreallyasanxiousasAdamwasthatsheshouldhavesomeprivatetalkwithhim。ShewonderedwhathethoughtofherandArthur。Hemusthaveseenthemkissing,sheknew,butshehadnoconceptionofthescenethathadtakenplacebetweenArthurandAdam。HerfirstfeelinghadbeenthatAdamwouldbeveryangrywithher,andperhapswouldtellherauntanduncle,butitneverenteredhermindthathewoulddaretosayanythingtoCaptainDonnithorne。Itwasarelieftoherthathebehavedsokindlytoherto-day,andwantedtospeaktoheralone,forshehadtrembledwhenshefoundhewasgoinghomewiththemlestheshouldmean\"totell。\"But,nowhewantedtotalktoherbyherself,sheshouldlearnwhathethoughtandwhathemeanttodo。Shefeltacertainconfidencethatshecouldpersuadehimnottodoanythingshedidnotwanthimtodo;shecouldperhapsevenmakehimbelievethatshedidn’tcareforArthur;andaslongasAdamthoughttherewasanyhopeofherhavinghim,hewoulddojustwhatsheliked,sheknew。Besides,sheMUSTgoonseemingtoencourageAdam,lestheruncleandauntshouldbeangryandsuspectherofhavingsomesecretlover。

  Hetty’slittlebrainwasbusywiththiscombinationasshehungonAdam’sarmandsaid\"yes\"or\"no\"tosomeslightobservationsofhisaboutthemanyhawthorn-berriestherewouldbeforthebirdsthisnextwinter,andthelow-hangingcloudsthatwouldhardlyholduptillmorning。Andwhentheyrejoinedherauntanduncle,shecouldpursueherthoughtswithoutinterruption,forMr。Poyserheldthatthoughayoungmanmightliketohavethewomanhewascourtingonhisarm,hewouldneverthelessbegladofalittlereasonabletalkaboutbusinessthewhile;and,forhisownpart,hewascurioustohealthemostrecentnewsabouttheChaseFarm。

  So,throughtherestofthewalk,heclaimedAdam’sconversationforhimself,andHettylaidhersmallplotsandimaginedherlittlescenesofcunningblandishment,asshewalkedalongbythehedgerowsonhonestAdam’sarm,quiteaswellasifshehadbeenanelegantlycladcoquettealoneinherboudoir。Forifacountrybeautyinclumsyshoesbeonlyshallow-heartedenough,itisastonishinghowcloselyhermentalprocessesmayresemblethoseofaladyinsocietyandcrinoline,whoappliesherrefinedintellecttotheproblemofcommittingindiscretionswithoutcompromisingherself。PerhapstheresemblancewasnotmuchthelessbecauseHettyfeltveryunhappyallthewhile。ThepartingwithArthurwasadoublepaintoher——minglingwiththetumultofpassionandvanitytherewasadimundefinedfearthatthefuturemightshapeitselfinsomewayquiteunlikeherdream。SheclungtothecomfortinghopefulwordsArthurhadutteredintheirlastmeeting——

  \"IshallcomeagainatChristmas,andthenwewillseewhatcanbedone。\"Sheclungtothebeliefthathewassofondofher,hewouldneverbehappywithouther;andshestillhuggedhersecret——

  thatagreatgentlemanlovedher——withgratifiedpride,asasuperiorityoverallthegirlssheknew。Buttheuncertaintyofthefuture,thepossibilitiestowhichshecouldgivenoshape,begantopressuponherliketheinvisibleweightofair;shewasaloneonherlittleislandofdreams,andallaroundherwasthedarkunknownwaterwhereArthurwasgone。Shecouldgathernoelationofspiritsnowbylookingforward,butonlybylookingbackwardtobuildconfidenceonpastwordsandcaresses。Butoccasionally,sinceThursdayevening,herdimanxietieshadbeenalmostlostbehindthemoredefinitefearthatAdammightbetraywhatheknewtoheruncleandaunt,andhissuddenpropositiontotalkwithheralonehadsetherthoughtstoworkinanewway。

  Shewaseagernottolosethisevening’sopportunity;andaftertea,whentheboysweregoingintothegardenandTottybeggedtogowiththem,Hettysaid,withanalacritythatsurprisedMrs。

  Poyser,\"I’llgowithher,Aunt。\"

  ItdidnotseematallsurprisingthatAdamsaidhewouldgotoo,andsoonheandHettywereleftalonetogetheronthewalkbythefilbert-trees,whiletheboyswerebusyelsewheregatheringthelargeunripenutstoplayat\"cob-nut\"with,andTottywaswatchingthemwithapuppylikeairofcontemplation。Itwasbutashorttime——hardlytwomonths——sinceAdamhadhadhismindfilledwithdelicioushopesashestoodbyHetty’ssideunthisgarden。

  TheremembranceofthatscenehadoftenbeenwithhimsinceThursdayevening:thesunlightthroughtheapple-treeboughs,theredbunches,Hetty’ssweetblush。Itcameimportunatelynow,onthissadevening,withthelow-hangingclouds,buthetriedtosuppressit,lestsomeemotionshouldimpelhimtosaymorethanwasneedfulforHetty’ssake。

  \"AfterwhatIsawonThursdaynight,Hetty,\"hebegan,\"youwon’tthinkmemakingtoofreeinwhatI’mgoingtosay。Ifyouwasbeingcourtedbyanymanas’udmakeyouhiswife,andI’dknownyouwasfondofhimandmeanttohavehim,Ishouldhavenorighttospeakawordtoyouaboutit;butwhenIseeyou’rebeingmadelovetobyagentlemanascannevermarryyou,anddoesnathinko’

  marryingyou,Ifeelboundt’interfereforyou。Ican’tspeakaboutittothemasarei’theplaceo’yourparents,forthatmightbringworsetroublethan’sneedful。\"

  Adam’swordsrelievedoneofHetty’sfears,buttheyalsocarriedameaningwhichsickenedherwithastrengthenedforeboding。Shewaspaleandtrembling,andyetshewouldhaveangrilycontradictedAdam,ifshehaddaredtobetrayherfeelings。Butshewassilent。

  \"You’resoyoung,youknow,Hetty,\"hewenton,almosttenderly,\"andy’haven’tseenmucho’whatgoesonintheworld。It’srightformetodowhatIcantosaveyoufromgettingintotroubleforwanto’yourknowingwhereyou’rebeingledto。IfanybodybesidesmeknewwhatIknowaboutyourmeetingagentlemanandhavingfinepresentsfromhim,they’dspeaklightonyou,andyou’dloseyourcharacter。Andbesidesthat,you’llhavetosufferinyourfeelings,wi’givingyourlovetoamanascannevermarryyou,soashemighttakecareofyouallyourlife。\"

  AdampausedandlookedatHetty,whowaspluckingtheleavesfromthefilbert-treesandtearingthemupinherhand。Herlittleplansandpreconcertedspeecheshadallforsakenher,likeanill-

  learntlesson,undertheterribleagitationproducedbyAdam’swords。Therewasacruelforceintheircalmcertaintywhichthreatenedtograppleandcrushherflimsyhopesandfancies。Shewantedtoresistthem——shewantedtothrowthemoffwithangrycontradiction——butthedeterminationtoconcealwhatshefeltstillgovernedher。Itwasnothingmorethanablindpromptingnow,forshewasunabletocalculatetheeffectofherwords。

  \"You’venorighttosayasIlovehim,\"shesaid,faintly,butimpetuously,pluckinganotherroughleafandtearingitup。Shewasverybeautifulinherpalenessandagitation,withherdarkchildisheyesdilatedandherbreathshorterthanusual。Adam’sheartyearnedoverherashelookedather。Ah,ifhecouldbutcomforther,andsootheher,andsaveherfromthispain;ifhehadbutsomesortofstrengththatwouldenablehimtorescueherpoortroubledmind,ashewouldhaverescuedherbodyinthefaceofalldanger!

  \"Idoubtitmustbeso,Hetty,\"hesaid,tenderly;\"forIcannabelieveyou’dletanymankissyoubyyourselves,andgiveyouagoldboxwithhishair,andgoa-walkingi’theGrovetomeethim,ifyoudidnalovehim。I’mnotblamingyou,forIknowit’udbeginbylittleandlittle,tillatlastyou’dnotbeabletothrowitoff。It’shimIblameforstealingyourlovei’thatway,whenheknewhecouldnevermakeyoutherightamends。He’sbeentriflingwithyou,andmakingaplaythingofyou,andcaringnothingaboutyouasamanoughttocare。\"

  \"Yes,hedoescareforme;Iknowbetternoryou,\"Hettyburstout。EverythingwasforgottenbutthepainandangershefeltatAdam’swords。

  \"Nay,Hetty,\"saidAdam,\"ifhe’dcaredforyourightly,he’dneverha’behavedso。Hetoldmehimselfhemeantnothingbyhiskissingandpresents,andhewantedtomakemebelieveasyouthoughtlightof’emtoo。ButIknowbetternorthat。Ican’thelpthinkingasyou’vebeentrustingtohislovingyouwellenoughtomarryyou,forallhe’sagentleman。Andthat’swhyI

  mustspeaktoyouaboutit,Hetty,forfearyoushouldbedeceivingyourself。It’sneverenteredhisheadthethoughto’

  marryingyou。\"

  \"Howdoyouknow?Howdurstyousayso?\"saidHetty,pausinginherwalkandtrembling。TheterribledecisionofAdam’stoneshookherwithfear。ShehadnopresenceofmindleftforthereflectionthatArthurwouldhavehisreasonsfornottellingthetruthtoAdam。HerwordsandlookwereenoughtodetermineAdam:

  hemustgivehertheletter。

  \"Perhapsyoucan’tbelieveme,Hetty,becauseyouthinktoowellofhim——becauseyouthinkhelovesyoubetterthanhedoes。ButI’vegotaletteri’mypocket,ashewrotehimselfformetogiveyou。I’venotreadtheletter,buthesayshe’stoldyouthetruthinit。ButbeforeIgiveyoutheletter,consider,Hetty,anddon’tletittaketoomuchholdonyou。Itwouldnaha’beengoodforyouifhe’dwantedtodosuchamadthingasmarryyou:

  it’udha’ledtonohappinessi’th’end。\"

  Hettysaidnothing;shefeltarevivalofhopeatthementionofaletterwhichAdamhadnotread。Therewouldbesomethingquitedifferentinitfromwhathethought。

  Adamtookouttheletter,buthehelditinhishandstill,whilehesaid,inatoneoftenderentreaty,\"Don’tyoubearmeillwill,Hetty,becauseI’mthemeanso’bringingyouthispain。GodknowsI’dha’borneagooddealworseforthesakeo’sparingityou。Andthink——there’snobodybutmeknowsaboutthis,andI’lltakecareofyouasifIwasyourbrother。You’rethesameasevertome,forIdon’tbelieveyou’vedoneanywrongknowingly。\"

  Hettyhadlaidherhandontheletter,butAdamdidnotlooseittillhehaddonespeaking。Shetooknonoticeofwhathesaid——

  shehadnotlistened;butwhenheloosedtheletter,sheputitintoherpocket,withoutopeningit,andthenbegantowalkmorequickly,asifshewantedtogoin。

  \"You’reintherightnottoreaditjustyet,\"saidAdam。\"Readitwhenyou’rebyyourself。Butstayoutalittlebitlonger,andletuscallthechildren:youlooksowhiteandill,yourauntmaytakenoticeofit。\"

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