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  Iremainedleaningonthewindow-sillfornearlyaquarterofanhour,lookingoutabsentlyintotheblackdarkness,andhearingnothing,exceptnowandthenthevoicesoftheservants,orthedistantsoundofaclosingdoor,inthelowerpartofthehouse。

  JustasIwasturningawaywearilyfromthewindowtogobacktothebedroomandmakeasecondattempttocompletetheunfinishedentryinmyjournal,Ismelttheodouroftobacco-smokestealingtowardsmeontheheavynightair。ThenextmomentIsawatinyredsparkadvancingfromthefartherendofthehouseinthepitchdarkness。Iheardnofootsteps,andIcouldseenothingbutthespark。Ittravelledalonginthenight,passedthewindowatwhichIwasstanding,andstoppedoppositemybedroomwindow,insidewhichIhadleftthelightburningonthedressing-table。

  Thesparkremainedstationaryforamoment,thenmovedbackagaininthedirectionfromwhichithadadvanced。AsIfolloweditsprogressIsawasecondredspark,largerthanthefirst,approachingfromthedistance。Thetwomettogetherinthedarkness。Rememberingwhosmokedcigarettesandwhosmokedcigars,IinferredimmediatelythattheCounthadcomeoutfirsttolookandlistenundermywindow,andthatSirPercivalhadafterwardsjoinedhim。Theymustbothhavebeenwalkingonthelawn——orIshouldcertainlyhaveheardSirPercival’sheavyfootfall,thoughtheCount’ssoftstepmighthaveescapedme,evenonthegravelwalk。

  Iwaitedquietlyatthewindow,certainthattheycouldneitherofthemseemeinthedarknessoftheroom。

  `What’sthematter?’IheardSirPercivalsayinalowvoice。`Whydon’tyoucomeinandsitdown?’

  `Iwanttoseethelightoutofthatwindow,’repliedtheCountsoftly。

  `Whatharmdoesthelightdo?’

  `Itshowssheisnotinbedyet。Sheissharpenoughtosuspectsomething,andboldenoughtocomedownstairsandlisten,ifshecangetthechance。Patience,Percival——patience。’

  `Humbug!You’realwaystalkingofpatience。’

  `Ishalltalkofsomethingelsepresently。Mygoodfriend,youareontheedgeofyourdomesticprecipice,andifIletyougivethewomenoneotherchance,onmysacredwordofhonourtheywillpushyouoverit!’

  `Whatthedevildoyoumean?’

  `Wewillcometoourexplanations,Percival,whenthelightisoutofthatwindow,andwhenIhavehadonelittlelookattheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,andapeepatthestaircaseaswell。’

  Theyslowlymovedaway,andtherestoftheconversationbetweenthemwhichhadbeenconductedthroughoutinthesamelowtonesceasedtobeaudible。Itwasnomatter。IhadheardenoughtodeterminemeonjustifyingtheCount’sopinionofmysharpnessandmycourage。BeforetheredsparkswereoutofsightinthedarknessIhadmadeupmymindthatthereshouldbealistenerwhenthosetwomensatdowntotheirtalk——andthatthelistener,inspiteofalltheCount’sprecautionstothecontrary,shouldbemyself。Iwantedbutonemotivetosanctiontheacttomyownconscience,andtogivemecourageenoughforperformingit——andthatmotiveIhad。Laura’shonour,Laura’shappiness——Laura’slifeitself——mightdependonmyquickearsandmyfaithfulmemorytonight。

  IhadheardtheCountsaythathemeanttoexaminetheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,andthestaircaseaswell,beforeheenteredonanyexplanationwithSirPercival。Thisexpressionofhisintentionswasnecessarilysufficienttoinformmethatthelibrarywastheroominwhichheproposedthattheconversationshouldtakeplace。TheonemomentoftimewhichwaslongenoughtobringmetothatconclusionwasalsothemomentwhichshowedmeameansofbafflinghisPrecautions——or,inotherwords,ofhearingwhatheandSirPercivalsaidtoeachother,withouttheriskofdescendingatallintothelowerregionsofthehouse。

  InspeakingoftheroomsonthegroundfloorIhavementionedincidentallytheverandahoutsidethem,onwhichtheyallopenedbymeansofFrenchwindows,extendingfromthecornicetothefloor。Thetopofthisverandahwasflat,therain-waterbeingcarriedofffromitbypipesintotankswhichhelpedtosupplythehouse。Onthenarrowleadenroof,whichranalongpastthebedrooms,andwhichwasratherless,Ishouldthink,thanthreefeetbelowthesillsofthewindow,arowofflowerpotswasranged,withwideintervalsbetweeneachpot——thewholebeingprotectedfromfallinginhighwindsbyanornamentalironrailingalongtheedgeoftheroof。

  Theplanwhichhadnowoccurredtomewastogetoutatmysitting-roomwindowontothisroof,tocreepalongnoiselesslytillIreachedthatpartofitwhichwasimmediatelyoverthelibrarywindow,andtocrouchdownbetweentheflower-pots,withmyearagainsttheouterrailing。IfSirPercivalandtheCountsatandsmokedtonight,asIhadseenthemsittingandsmokingmanynightsbefore,withtheirchairscloseattheopenwindow,andtheirfeetstretchedonthezincgardenseatswhichwereplacedundertheverandah,everywordtheysaidtoeachotheraboveawhisperandnolongconversation,asweallknowbyexperience,canbecarriedoninawhispermustinevitablyreachmyears。If,ontheotherhand,theychosetonighttositfarbackinsidetheroom,thenthechanceswerethatIshouldhearlittleornothing——andinthatcase,Imustrunthefarmoreseriousriskoftryingtooutwitthemdownstairs。

  StronglyasIwasfortifiedinmyresolutionbythedesperatenatureofoursituation,IhopedmostferventlythatImightescapethislastemergency。Mycouragewasonlyawoman’scourageafterall,anditwasveryneartofailingmewhenIthoughtoftrustingmyselfonthegroundfloor,atthedeadofnight,withinreachofSirPercivalandtheCount。

  Iwentsoftlybacktomybedroomtotrythesaferexperimentoftheverandahrooffirst。

  Acompletechangeinmydresswasimperativelynecessaryformanyreasons。Itookoffmysilkgowntobeginwith,becausetheslightestnoisefromitonthatstillnightmighthavebetrayedme。Inextremovedthewhiteandcumbersomepartsofmyunderclothing,andreplacedthembyapetticoatofdarkflannel。OverthisIputmyblacktravellingcloak,andpulledthehoodontomyhead。InmyordinaryeveningcostumeItookuptheroomofthreemenatleast。Inmypresentdress,whenitwasheldcloseaboutme,nomancouldhavepassedthroughthenarrowestspacesmoreeasilythanI。Thelittlebreadthleftontheroofoftheverandah,betweentheflower-potsononesideandthewallandthewindowsofthehouseontheother,madethisaseriousconsideration。IfIknockedanythingdown,ifImadetheleastnoise,whocouldsaywhattheconsequencesmightbe?

  IonlywaitedtoputthematchesnearthecandlebeforeIextinguishedit,andgropedmywaybackintothesitting-room。Ilockedthedoor,asIhadlockedmybedroomdoor——thenquietlygotoutofthewindow,andcautiouslysetmyfeetontheleadenroofoftheverandah。

  Mytworoomswereattheinnerextremityofthenewwingofthehouseinwhichwealllived,andIhadfivewindowstopassbeforeIcouldreachthepositionitwasnecessarytotakeupimmediatelyoverthelibrary。Thefirstwindowbelongedtoaspareroomwhichwasempty。ThesecondandthirdwindowsbelongedtoLaura’sroom。ThefourthwindowbelongedtoSirPercival’sroom。ThefifthbelongedtotheCountess’sroom。Theothers,bywhichitwasnotnecessaryformetopass,werethewindowsoftheCount’sdressing-room,ofthebathroom,andofthesecondemptyspareroom。

  Nosoundreachedmyears——theblackblindingdarknessofthenightwasallroundmewhenIfirststoodontheverandah,exceptatthatpartofitwhichMadameFosco’swindowoverlooked。There,attheveryplaceabovethelibrarytowhichmycoursewasdirected——thereIsawagleamoflightITheCountesswasnotyetinbed。

  Itwastoolatetodrawback——itwasnotimetowait。Ideterminedtogoonatallhazards,andtrustforsecuritytomyowncautionandtothedarknessofthenight。`ForLaura’ssake!’Ithoughttomyself,asItookthefirststepforwardontheroof,withonehandholdingmycloakcloseroundme,andtheothergropingagainstthewallofthehouse。Itwasbettertobrushclosebythewallthantoriskstrikingmyfeetagainsttheflowerpotswithinafewinchesofme,ontheotherside。

  Ipassedthedarkwindowofthespareroom,tryingtheleadenroofateachstepwithmyfootbeforeIriskedrestingmyweightonit。IpassedthedarkwindowsofLaura’sroom`Godblessherandkeephertonight!’。IpassedthedarkwindowofSirPercival’sroom。ThenIwaitedamoment,kneltdownwithmyhandstosupportme,andsocrepttomyposition,undertheprotectionofthelowwallbetweenthebottomofthelightedwindowandtheverandahroof。

  WhenIventuredtolookupatthewindowitselfIfoundthatthetopofitonlywasopen,andthattheblindinsidewasdrawndown。WhileIwaslookingIsawtheshadowofMadameFoscopassacrossthewhitefieldoftheblind——thenpassslowlybackagain。Thusfarshecouldnothaveheardme,ortheshadowwouldsurelyhavestoppedattheblind,evenifshehadwantedcourageenoughtoopentheWindowandlookout?

  Iplacedmyselfsidewaysagainsttherailingoftheverandah——firstascertaining,bytouchingthem,thepositionoftheflowerpotsoneithersideofme。Therewasroomenoughformetositbetweenthemandnomore。Thesweet-scentedleavesofthefloweronmylefthandjustbrushedmycheekasIlightlyrestedmyheadagainsttherailing。

  Thefirstsoundsthatreachedmefrombelowwerecausedbytheopeningorclosingmostprobablythelatterofthreedoorsinsuccession——thedoors,nodoubt,leadingintothehallandintotheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,whichtheCounthadpledgedhimselftoexamine。ThefirstobjectthatIsawwastheredsparkagaintravellingoutintothenightfromundertheverandah,movingawaytowardsmywindow,waitingamoment,andthenreturningtotheplacefromwhichithadsetout。

  `Thedeviltakeyourrestlessness!Whendoyoumeantositdown?’growledSirPercival’svoicebeneathme。

  `Ouf!howhotitis!’saidtheCount,sighingandpuffingwearily。

  Hisexclamationwasfollowedbythescrapingofthegardenchairsonthetiledpavementundertheverandah——thewelcomesoundwhichtoldmetheyweregoingtositcloseatthewindowasusual。Sofarthechancewasmine。Theclockintheturretstruckthequartertotwelveastheysettledthemselvesintheirchairs。IheardMadameFoscothroughtheopenwindowyawning,andsawhershadowpassoncemoreacrossthewhitefieldoftheblind。

  Meanwhile,SirPercivalandtheCountbegantalkingtogetherbelow,nowandthendroppingtheirvoicesalittlelowerthanusual,butneversinkingthemtoawhisper。Thestrangenessandperilofmysituation,thedread,whichIcouldnotmaster,ofMadameFosco’slightedwindow,madeitdifficult,almostimpossible,forme,atfirst,tokeepmypresenceofmind,andtofixmyattentionsolelyontheconversationbeneath。ForsomeminutesIcouldonlysucceedingatheringthegeneralsubstanceofit。IunderstoodtheCounttosaythattheonewindowalightwashiswife’s,thatthegroundfloorofthehousewasquiteclear,andthattheymightnowspeaktoeachotherwithoutfearofaccidents。Sirpercivalmerelyansweredbyupbraidinghisfriendwithhavingunjustifiably-slightedhiswishesandneglectedhisinterestsallthroughtheday。TheCountthereupondefendedhimselfbydeclaringthathehadbeenbesetbycertaintroublesandanxietieswhichhadabsorbedallhisattention,andthattheonlysafetimetocometoanexplanationwasatimewhentheycouldfeelcertainofbeingneitherinterruptednoroverheard。`Weareataseriouscrisisinouraffairs,Percival,’hesaid,`andifwearetodecideonthefutureatall,wemustdecidesecretlytonight’

  ThatsentenceoftheCount’swasthefirstwhichmyattentionwasreadyenoughtomasterexactlyasitwasspoken。Fromthispoint,withcertainbreaksandinterruptions,mywholeinterestfixedbreathlesslyontheconversation,andIfolloweditwordforword。

  `Crisis?’repeatedSirPercival。`It’saworsecrisisthanyouthinkfor,Icantellyou。’

  `SoIshouldsuppose,fromyourbehaviourforthelastdayortwo,’returnedtheothercoolly。`Butwaitalittle。BeforeweadvancetowhatIdonotknow,letusbequitecertainofwhatIdoknow。LetusfirstseeifIamrightaboutthetimethatispast,beforeImakeanyproposaltoyouforthetimethatistocome。’

  `StoptillIgetthebrandyandwater。Havesomeyourself。’

  `Thankyou,Percival。Thecoldwaterwithpleasure,aspoon,andthebasinofsugar。Eausucrée,myfriend——nothingmore。’

  `Sugar-and-waterforamanofyourage!——There!mixyoursicklymess。Youforeignersareallalike。’

  `Nowlisten,Percival。Iwillputourpositionplainlybeforeyou,asIunderstandit,andyoushallsayifIamrightorwrong。YouandIbothcamebacktothishousefromtheContinentwithouraffairsveryseriouslyembarrassed——’

  `Cutitshort!Iwantedsomethousandsandyousomehundreds,andwithoutthemoneywewerebothinafairwaytogotothedogstogether。There’sthesituation。Makewhatyoucanofit。Goon。’

  `Well,Percival,inyourownsolidEnglishwords,youwantedsomethousandsandIwantedsomehundreds,andtheonlywayofgettingthemwasforyoutoraisethemoneyforyourownnecessitywithasmallmarginbeyondformypoorlittlehundredsbythehelpofyourwife。WhatdidItellyouaboutyourwifeonourwaytoEngland?——andwhatdidItellyouagainwhenwehadcomehere,andwhenIhadseenformyselfthesortofwomanMissHalcombewas?’

  `HowshouldIknow?Youtalkednineteentothedozen,Isuppose,justasusual。’

  `Isaidthis:Humaningenuity,myfriend,hashithertoonlydiscoveredtwowaysinwhichamancanmanageawoman。Onewayistoknockherdown——amethodlargelyadoptedbythebrutallowerordersofthepeople,bututterlyabhorrenttotherefinedandeducatedclassesabovethem。Theotherwaymuchlonger,muchmoredifficult,butintheendnotlesscertainisnevertoacceptaprovocationatawoman’shands。Itholdswith

  animals,itholdswithchildren,anditholdswithwomen,who

  arenothingbutchildrengrownup。Quietresolutionistheone

  qualitytheanimals,thechildren,andthewomenallfailin。Iftheycanonceshakethissuperiorqualityintheirmaster,theygetthebetterofhim。Iftheycanneversucceedindisturbingit,hegetsthebetterofthem。Isaidtoyou,Rememberthatplaintruthwhenyouwantyourwifetohelpyoutothemoney。Isaid,Rememberitdoublyandtreblyinthepresenceofyourwife’ssister,MissHalcombe。Haveyourememberedit?Notonceinallthecomplicationsthathavetwistedthemselvesaboutusinthishouse。Everyprovocationthatyourwifeandhersistercouldoffertoyou,youinstantlyacceptedfromthem。Yourmadtemperlostthesignaturetothedeed,lostthereadymoney,setMissHalcombewritingtothelawyerforthefirsttime——’

  `Firsttime!Hasshewrittenagain?’

  `Yes,shehaswrittenagaintoday。’

  Achairfellonthepavementoftheverandah——fellwithacrash,asifithadbeenkickeddown。

  ItwaswellformethattheCount’srevelationrousedSirPercival’sangerasitdid。OnhearingthatIhadbeenoncemorediscoveredIstartedsothattherailingagainstwhichIleanedcrackedagain。Hadhefollowedmetotheinn?DidheinferthatImusthavegivenmyletterstoFannywhenItoldhimIhadnoneforthepost-bag。Evenifitwasso,howcouldhehaveexaminedtheletterswhentheyhadgonestraightfrommyhandtothebosomofthegirl’sdress?

  `Thankyourluckystar,’IheardtheCountsaynext,`thatyouhavemeinthehousetoundotheharmasfastasyoudoit。ThankyourluckystarthatIsaidNowhenyouweremadenoughtotalkofturningthekeytodayonMissHalcombe,asyouturneditinyourmischievousfollyonyourwife。Whereareyoureyes?CanyoulookatMissHalcombeandnotseethatshehastheforesightandtheresolutionofaman?WiththatwomanformyfriendIwouldsnapthesefingersofmineattheworld。Withthatwomanformyenemy,I,withallmybrainsandexperience——I,Fosco,cunningasthedevilhimself,asyouhavetoldmeahundredtimes——Iwalk,inyourEnglishphrase,uponegg-shells!Andthisgrandcreature——Idrinkherhealthinmysugar-and-water——thisgrandcreature,whostandsinthestrengthofherloveandhercourage,firmasarock,betweenustwoandthatpoor,flimsy,prettyblondewifeofyours——thismagnificentwoman,whomIadmirewithallmysoul,thoughIopposeherinyourinterestsandinmine,youdrivetoextremitiesasifshewasnosharperandnobolderthantherestofhersex。Percival!Percival!youdeservetofail,andyouhavefailed。’

  Therewasapause。Iwritethevillain’swordsaboutmyselfbecauseIMeantorememberthem——becauseIhopeyetforthedaywhenImayspeakoutonceforallinhispresence,andcastthembackonebyoneinhisteeth。

  SirPercivalwasthefirsttobreakthesilenceagain。

  `Yes,yes,bullyandblusterasmuchasyoulike,’hesaidsulkily;`thedifficultyaboutthemoneyisnottheonlydifficulty。Youwouldbefortakingstrongmeasureswiththewomenyourself——ifyouknewasmuchasIdo。’

  `Wewillcometothatseconddifficultyallingoodtime,’rejoinedtheCount。`Youmayconfuseyourself,Percival,asmuchasyouplease,butyoushallnotconfuseme。Letthequestionofthemoneybesettledfirst。HaveIconvincedyourobstinacy?haveIshownyouthatyourtemperwillnotletyouhelpyourself?——OrmustIgoback,andasyouputitinyourdearstraightforwardEnglishbullyandblusteralittlemore?’

  `Pooh!It’seasyEnoughtogrumbleatme。Saywhatistobedone——that’salittleharder。’

  `Isit?Bah!Thisiswhatistobedone:Yougiveupalldirectioninthebusinessfromtonight——youleaveitforthefutureinmyhandsonly。IamtalkingtoaPracticalBritishman——ha?Well,Practical,willthatdoforyou?’

  `WhatdoyouproposeifIleaveitalltoyou?’

  `Answermefirst。Isittoainmyhandsornot?’

  `Sayitisinyourhands——whatthen?’

  `Afewquestions,Percival,tobeginwith。Imustwaitalittleyet,toletcircumstancesguideme,andImustknow,ineverypossibleway,whatthosecircumstancesarelikelytobe。Thereisnotimetolose。IhavetoldyoualreadythatMissHalcombehaswrittentothelawyertodayforthesecondtime。’

  `Howdidyoufinditout?Whatdidshesay?’

  `IfItoldyou,Percival,weshouldonlycomebackattheendtowherewearenow。EnoughthatIhavefounditout——andthefindinghascausedthattroubleandanxietywhichmademesoinaccessibletoyouallthroughtoday。Now,torefreshmymemoryaboutyouraffairs——itissometimesinceItalkedthemoverwithyou。Themoneyhasbeenraised,intheabsenceofyourwife’ssignature,bymeansofbillsatthreemonths——raisedatacostthatmakesmypoverty-strickenforeignhairstandonendtothinkofit!Whenthebillsaredue,istherereallyandtrulynoearthlywayofpayingthembutbythehelpofyourwife?’

  `None。’

  `What!Youhavenomoneyatthebankers?’

  `Afewhundreds,whenIwantasmanythousands。’

  `Haveyounoothersecuritytoborrowupon?’

  `Notashred。’

  `Whathaveyouactuallygotwithyourwifeatthepresentmoment?’

  `Nothingbuttheinterestofhertwentythousandpounds——barelyenoughtopayourdailyexpenses。’

  `Whatdoyouexpectfromyourwife?’

  `Threethousandayearwhenheruncledies。’

  `Afinefortune,Percival。Whatsortofamanisthisuncle?Old?’

  `No——neitheroldnoryoung。’

  `Agood-tempered,freely-livingman?Married?No——Ithinkmywifetoldme,notmarried。’

  `Ofcoursenot。Ifhewasmarried,andhadason,LadyGlydewouldnotbenextheirtotheproperty。I’lltellyouwhatheis。He’samaudlin,twaddling,selfishfool,andboreseverybodywhocomesnearhimaboutthestateofhishealth。’

  `Menofthatsort,Percival,livelong,andmarrymalevolentlywhenyouleastexpectit。Idon’tgiveyoumuch,myfriend,foryourchanceofthethreethousandayear。Istherenothingmorethatcomestoyoufromyourwife?’

  `Nothing。’

  `Absolutelynothing?’

  `Absolutelynothing——exceptincaseofherdeath。’

  `Aha!inthecaseofherdeath。’

  Therewasanotherpause。TheCountmovedfromtheverandahtothegravelwalkoutside。Iknewthathehadmovedbyhisvoice。`Therainhascomeatlast,’Iheardhimsay。Ithadcome。Thestateofmycloakshowedthatithadbeenfallingthicklyforsomelittletime。

  TheCountwentbackundertheverandah——Iheardthechaircreakbeneathhisweightashesatdowninitagain,

  `Well,Percival,’hesaid,`andinthecaseofLadyGlyde’sdeath,whatdoyougetthen?’

  `Ifsheleavesnochildren——’

  `Whichsheislikelytodo?’

  `Whichsheisnotintheleastlikelytodo——’

  `Yes?’

  `Why,thenIgethertwentythousandpounds。’

  `Paiddown?’

  `Paiddown。’

  Theyweresilentoncemore。AstheirvoicesceasedMadameFosco’sshadowdarkenedtheblindagain。Insteadofpassingthistime,itremained,foramoment,quitestill。Isawherfingersstealroundthecorneroftheblind,anddrawitononeside。Thedimwhiteoutlineofherface,lookingoutstraightoverme,appearedbehindthewindow。Ikeptstill,shroudedfromheadtofootinmyblackcloak。Therain,whichwasfastwettingme,drippedovertheglass,blurredit,andpreventedherfromseeinganything。`Morerain!’Iheardhersaytoherself。Shedroppedtheblind,andIbreathedagainfreely。

  Thetalkwentonbelowme,theCountresumingitthistime。

  `Percival!doyoucareaboutyourwife?’

  `Fosco!that’sratheradownrightquestion。’

  `IamadownrightmanandIrepeatit。’

  `Whythedevildoyoulookatmeinthatway?’

  `Youwon’tanswerme?Well,then,letussayyourwifediesbeforethesummerisout——’

  `Dropit,Fosco!’

  `Letussayyourwifedies——’

  `Dropit,Itellyou!’

  `Inthatcase,youwouldgaintwentythousandpounds,andyouwouldlose——’

  `Ishouldlosethechanceofthreethousandayear。’

  `Theremotechance,Percival——theremotechanceonly。Andyouwantmoney,atonce。Inyourpositionthegainiscertain——thelossdoubtful。’

  `Speakforyourselfaswellasforme。SomeofthemoneyIwanthasbeenborrowedforyou。Andifyoucometogain,mywife’sdeathwouldbetenthousandpoundsinyourwife’spocket。Sharpasyouare,youseemtohaveconvenientlyforgottenMadameFosco’slegacy。Don’tlookatmeinthatway!Iwon’thaveit!Whatwithyourlooksandyourquestions,uponmysoul,youmakemyfleshcreep!’

  `Yourflesh?DoesfleshmeanconscienceinEnglish?Ispeakofyourwife’sdeathasIspeakofapossibility。Whynot?Therespectablelawyerswhoscribble-scrabbleyourdeedsandyourwillslookthedeathsoflivingpeopleintheface。Dolawyersmakeyourfleshcreep?Whyshouldl?Itismybusinesstonighttoclearupyourpositionbeyondthepossibilityofamistake,andIhavenowdoneit。Hereisyourposition。Ifyourwifelives,youpaythosebillswithhersignaturetotheparchment。Ifyourwifedies,youpaythemwithherdeath。’

  AshespokethelightinMadameFosco’sroomwasextinguished,andthewholesecondfloorofthehousewasnowsunkindarkness。

  `Talk!talk!’grumbledSirPercival。`Onewouldthink,tohearyou,thatmywife’ssignaturetothedeedwasgotalready。’

  `Youhaveleftthematterinmyhands,’retortedtheCount,`andIhavemorethantwomonthsbeforemetoturnroundin。Saynomoreaboutit,ifyouplease,forthepresent。Whenthebillsaredue,youwillseeforyourselfifmy``talk!talk!’’isworthsomething,orifitisnot。Andnow,Percival,havingdonewiththemoneymattersfortonight,Icanplacemyattentionatyourdisposal,ifyouwishtoconsultmeonthatseconddifficultywhichhasmixeditselfupwithourlittleembarrassments,andwhichhassoalteredyoufortheworse,thatIhardlyknowyouagain。Speak,myfriend——andpardonmeifIshockyourfierynationaltastesbymixingmyselfasecondglassofsugar-and-water。’

  `It’sverywelltosayspeak,’repliedSirPercival,inafarmorequietandmorepolitetonethanhehadyetadopted,`butit’snotsoeasytoknowhowtobegin。’

  `ShallIhelpyou?’suggestedtheCount。`ShallIgivethisprivatedifficultyofyoursaname?WhatifIcallit——AnneCatherick?’

  `Lookhere,Fosco,youandIhaveknowneachotherforalongtime,andifyouhavehelpedmeoutofoneortwoscrapesbeforethis,IhavedonethebestIcouldtohelpyouinreturn,asfarasmoneywouldgo。Wehavemadeasmanyfriendlysacrifices,onbothsides,asmencould,butwehavehadoursecretsfromeachother,ofcourse——haven’twe?’

  `Youhavehadasecretfromme,Percival。ThereisaskeletoninyourcupboardhereatBlackwaterParkthathaspeepedoutintheselastfewdaysatotherpeoplebesidesyourself。’

  `Well,supposeithas。Ifitdoesn’tconcernyou,youneedn’tbecuriousaboutit,needyou?’

  `DoIlookcuriousaboutit?’

  Yes,youdo。’

  `So!so!myfacespeaksthetruth,then?Whatanimmensefoundationofgoodtheremustbeinthenatureofamanwhoarrivesatmyage,andwhosefacehasnotyetlostthehabitofspeakingthetruth!——Come,Glyde!letusbecandidonewiththeother。Thissecretofyourshassoughtme:Ihavenotsoughtit。LetussayIamcurious——doyouaskme,asyouroldfriend,torespectyoursecret,andtoleaveit,onceforall,inyourownkeeping?’

  `Yes——that’sjustwhatIdoask。’

  `Thenmycuriosityisatanend。Itdiesinmefromthismoment。’

  `Doyoureallymeanthat?’

  `Whatmakesyoudoubtme?’

  `Ihavehadsomeexperience,Fosco,ofyourroundaboutways,andIamnotsosurethatyouwon’twormitoutofmeafterall。’

  Thechairbelowsuddenlycreakedagain——Ifeltthetrellisworkpillarundermeshakefromtoptobottom。TheCounthadstartedtohisfeet,andhadstruckitwithhishandinindignation。

  `Percival!Percival!’hecriedpassionately,`doyouknowmenobetterthanthat?Hasallyourexperienceshownyounothingofmycharacteryet?Iamamanoftheantiquetype!Iamcapableofthemostexaltedactsofvirtue——whenIhavethechanceofperformingthem。IthasbeenthemisfortuneofmylifethatIhavehadfewchances。MyconceptionoffriendshipissublimeIIsitmyfaultthatyourskeletonhaspeepedoutatme?WhydoIconfessmycuriosity?YoupoorsuperficialEnglishman,itistomagnifymyownself-control。Icoulddrawyoursecretoutofyou,ifIliked,asIdrawthisfingeroutofthepalmofmyhand——youknowIcould!Butyouhaveappealedtomyfriendship,andthedutiesoffriendshiparesacredtome。See!Itramplemybasecuriosityundermyfeet。Myexaltedsentimentsliftmeaboveit。Recognisethem,Percival!imitatethem,Percival!Shakehands——Iforgiveyou。’

  Hisvoicefalteredoverthelastwords——faltered,asifhewereactuallysheddingtears!

  SirPercivalconfusedlyattemptedtoexcusehimself,buttheCountwastoomagnanimoustolistentohim。

  `No!’hesaid。`Whenmyfriendhaswoundedme,Icanpardonhimwithoutapologies。Tellme,inplainwords,doyouwantmyhelp?’

  `Yes,badlyenough。’

  `Andyoucanaskforitwithoutcompromisingyourself?’

  `Icantry,atanyrate。’

  `Try,then。’

  `Well,thisishowitstands:——ItoldyoutodaythatIhaddonemybesttofindAnneCatherick,andfailed。’

  `Yes,youdid。’

  `Fosco!I’malostmanifIdon’tfindher。’

  `Ha!Isitsoseriousasthat?’

  Alittlestreamoflighttravelledoutundertheverandah,andfelloverthegravel-walk。TheCounthadtakenthelampfromtheinnerpartoftheroomtoseehisfriendclearlybythelightofit。

  `Yes!’hesaid。`Yourfacespeaksthetruththistime。Serious,indeed——asseriousasthemoneymattersthemselves。’

  `Moreserious。AstrueasIsithere,moreserious!’

  Thelightdisappearedagainandthetalkwenton。

  `IshowedyouthelettertomywifethatAnneCatherickhidinthesand,’SirPercivalcontinued。`There’snoboastinginthatletter,Fosco——shedoesknowtheSecret。’

  `Sayaslittleaspossible,Percival,inmypresence,oftheSecret。Doessheknowitfromyou?’

  `No,fromhermother。’

  `Twowomeninpossessionofyourprivatemind——bad,bad,bad,myfriendIOnequestionhere,beforewegoanyfarther。Themotiveofyourshuttingupthedaughterintheasylumisnowplainenoughtome,butthemannerofherescapeisnotquitesoclear。Doyoususpectthepeopleinchargeofherofclosingtheireyespurposely,attheinstanceofsomeenemywhocouldaffordtomakeitworththeirwhile?’

  `No,shewasthebest-behavedpatienttheyhad——and,likefools,theytrustedher。She’sjustmadenoughtobeshutup,andjustsaneenoughtoruinmewhenshe’satlarge——ifyouunderstandthat?’

  `Idounderstandit。Now,Percival,comeatoncetothepoint,andthenIshallknowwhattodo。Whereisthedangerofyourpositionatthepresentmoment?’

  `AnneCatherickisinthisneighbourhood,andincommunicationwithLadyGlyde——there’sthedanger,plainenough。Whocanreadthelettershehidinthesand,andnotseethatmywifeisinpossessionoftheSecret,denyitasshemay?’

  `Onemoment,Percival。IfLadyGlydedoesknowtheSecret,shemustknowalsothatitisacompromisingsecretforyou。Asyourwife,surelyitisinherinteresttokeepit?’

  `Isit?I’mcomingtothat。Itmightbeherinterestifshecaredtwostrawsaboutme。ButIhappentobeanencumbranceinthewayofanotherman。Shewasinlovewithhimbeforeshemarriedme——she’sinlovewithhimnow——aninfernalvagabondofadrawing-master,namedHartright。’

  `Mydearfriend!whatisthereextraordinaryinthat?Theyareallinlovewithsomeotherman。Whogetsthefirstofawoman’sheart?InallmyexperienceIhaveneveryetmetwiththemanwhowasNumberOne。NumberTwo,sometimes。NumberThree,Four,Five,often。NumberOne,never!Heexists,ofcourse——butIhavenotmetwithhun。’

  `Wait!Ihaven’tdoneyet。WhodoyouthinkhelpedAnneCathericktogetthestart,whenthepeoplefromthemad-housewereafterher?Hartright。WhodoyouthinksawheragaininCumberland?HartrightBothtimeshespoketoheralone。Stop!don’tinterruptme。Thescoundrel’sassweetonmywifeassheisonhim。HeknowstheSecret,andsheknowstheSecret。Onceletthembothgettogetheragain,andit’sherinterestandhisinteresttoturntheirinformationagainstme。’

  `Gently,Percival——gentlyIAreyouinsensibletothevirtueofLadyGlyde?’

  `ThatforthevirtueofLadyGlyde!Ibelieveinnothingaboutherbuthermoney。Don’tyouseehowthecasestands?Shemightbeharmlessenoughbyherself;butifshehadthatvagabondHartright——’

  `Yes,yes,Isee。WhereisMrHartright?’

  `Outofthecountry。Ifhemeanstokeepawholeskinonhisbones,Irecommendhimnottocomebackinahurry。’

  `Areyousureheisoutofthecountry?’

  `Certain。IhadhimwatchedfromthetimeheleftCumberlandtothetimehesailed。Oh,I’vebeencareful,Icantellyou!AnneCathericklivedwithsomepeopleatafarm-housenearLimmeridge。Iwenttheremyself,aftershehadgivenmetheslip,andmadesurethattheyknewnothing。IgavehermotheraformoflettertowritetoMissHalcombe,exoneratingmefromanybadmotiveinputtingherunderrestraint。I’vespent,I’mafraidtosayhowmuch,intryingtotraceher,andinspiteofitall,sheturnsuphereandescapesmeonmyownproperty!HowdoIknowwhoelsemayseeher,whoelsemayspeaktoher?Thatpryingscoundrel,Hartright,maycomebackwithoutmyknowingit,andmaymakeuseofhertomorrow——’

  `Nothe,Percival!WhileIamonthespot,andwhilethatwomanisintheneighbourhood,IwillanswerforourlayinghandsonherbeforeMrHartright——evenifhedoescomeback。Isee!yes,yes,Isee!ThefindingofAnneCatherickisthefirstnecessity——makeyourmindeasyabouttherest。Yourwifeishere,underyourthumb——MissHalcombeisinseparablefromher,andis,therefore,underyourthumbalso——andMrHartrightisoutofthecountry。ThisinvisibleAnneofyoursisallwehavetothinkofforthepresent。Youhavemadeyourinquiries?’

  `Yes。Ihavebeentohermother,Ihaveransackedthevillage——andalltonopurpose。’

  `Ishermothertobedependedon?’

  `Yes,’

  `Shehastoldyoursecretonce。’

  `Shewon’ttellitagain。’

  `Whynot?Areherowninterestsconcernedinkeepingit,aswellasyours?’

  `Yes——deeplyconcerned。’

  `Iamgladtohearit,Percival,foryoursake。Don’tbediscouraged,myfriend。Ourmoneymatters,asItoldyou,leavemeplentyoftimetoturnroundin,andImaysearchforAnneCathericktomorrowtobetterpurposethanyou。Onelastquestionbeforewegotobed。’

  `Whatisit?’

  `Itisthis。WhenIwenttotheboat-housetotellLadyGlydethatthelittledifficultyofhersignaturewasputoff,accidenttookmethereintimetoseeastrangewomanpartinginaverysuspiciousmannerfromyourwife。Butaccidentdidnotbringmenearenoughtoseethissamewoman’sfaceplainly。ImustknowhowtorecogniseourinvisibleAnne。Whatisshelike?’

  `Like?Come!I’lltellyouintwowords。She’sasicklylikenessofmywife。’

  Thechaircreaked,andthepillarshookoncemore。TheCountwasonhisfeetagain——thistimeinastonishment。

  `What!!!’heexclaimedeagerly。

  `Fancymywife,afterabadillness,withatouchofsomethingwronginherhead——andthereisAnneCatherickforyou,’answeredSirPercival。

  `Aretheyrelatedtoeachother?’

  `Notabitofit。’

  `Andyetsolike?’

  `Yes,solike。Whatareyoulaughingabout?’

  Therewasnoanswerandnosoundofanykind。TheCountwaslaughinginhissmoothsilentinternalway。

  `Whatareyoulaughingabout?’reiteratedSirPercival。

  `Perhapsatmyownfancies,mygoodfriend。AllowmemyItalianhumour——doInotcomeoftheillustriousnationwhichinventedtheexhibitionofPunch?Well,well,well,IshallknowAnneCatherickwhenIseeher——andsoenoughfortonight。Makeyourmindeasy,Percival。Sleep,myson,thesleepofthejust,andseewhatIwilldoforyouwhendaylightcomestohelpusboth。Ihavemyprojectsandmyplanshereinmybighead。YoushallpaythosebillsandfindAnneCatherick——mysacredwordofhonouronit,butyoushall!AmIafriendtobetreasuredinthebestcornerofyourheart,oramInot?AmIworththoseloansofmoneywhichyousodelicatelyremindedmeofalittlewhilesince?Whateveryoudo,neverwoundmeinmysentimentsanymore。Recognisethem,Percival!imitatethem,Percival!Iforgiveyouagain——Ishakehandsagain。Goodnight!’

  Notanotherwordwasspoken。IheardtheCountclosethelibrarydoor。IheardSirPercivalbarringupthewindow-shutters。Ithadbeenraining,rainingallthetime。Iwascrampedbymypositionandchilledtothebones。WhenIfirsttriedtomove,theeffortwassopainfultomethatIwasobligedtodesist。Itriedasecondtime,andsucceededinrisingtomykneesonthewetroof。

  AsIcrepttothewall,andraisedmyselfagainstit,Ilookedback,andsawthewindowoftheCount’sdressing-roomgleamintolight。Mysinkingcourageflickeredupinmeagain,andkeptmyeyesfixedonhiswindow,asIstolemywayback,stepbystep,pastthewallofthehouse。

  Theclockstruckthequarterafterone,whenIlaidmyhandsonthewindow-sillofmyownroom。Ihadseennothingandheardnothingwhichcouldleadmetosupposethatmyretreathadbeendiscovered。

  June20th——Eighto’clock。Thesunisshininginaclearsky。Ihavenotbeennearmybed——Ihavenotonceclosedmywearywakefuleyes。FromthesamewindowatwhichIlookedoutintothedarknessoflastnight,Ilookoutnowatthebrightstillnessofthemorning。

  IcountthehoursthathavepassedsinceIescapedtotheshelterofthisroombymyownsensations——andthosehoursseemlikeweeks。

  Howshortatime,andyethowlongtome——sinceIsankdowninthedarkness,here,onthefloor——drenchedtotheskin,crampedineverylimb,coldtothebones,auseless,helpless,panic-strickencreature。

  IhardlyknowwhenIrousedmyself。IhardlyknowwhenIgropedmywaybacktothebedroom,andlightedthecandle,andsearchedwithastrangeignorance,atfirst,ofwheretolookforthemfordryclothestowarmme。Thedoingofthesethingsisinmymind,butnotthetimewhentheyweredone。

  CanIevenrememberwhenthechilled,crampedfeelingleftme,andthethrobbingheatcameinitsplace?

  Surelyitwasbeforethesunrose?Yes,Iheardtheclockstrikethree。Irememberthetimebythesuddenbrightnessandclearness,thefeverishstrainandexcitementofallmyfacultieswhichcamewithit。Iremembermyresolutiontocontrolmyself,towaitpatientlyhourafterhour,tillthechanceofferedofremovingLaurafromthishorribleplace,withoutthedangerofimmediatediscoveryandpursuit。Irememberthepersuasionsettlingitselfinmymindthatthewordsthosetwomenhadsaidtoeachotherwouldfurnishus,notonlywithourjustificationforleavingthehouse,butwithourweaponsofdefenceagainstthemaswell。Irecalltheimpulsethatawakenedinmetopreservethosewordsinwriting,exactlyastheywerespoken,whilethetimewasmyown,andwhilemymemoryvividlyretainedthem。AllthisIrememberplainly:thereisnoconfusioninmyheadyet。Thecominginherefromthebedroom,withmypenandinkandpaper,beforesunrise——thesittingdownatthewidely-openedwindowtogetalltheairIcouldtocoolme——theceaselesswriting,fasterandfaster,hotterandhotter,drivingonmoreandmorewakefully,allthroughthedreadfulintervalbeforethehousewasastiragain——howclearlyIrecallit,fromthebeginningbycandle-light,totheendonthepagebeforethis,inthesunshineofthenewday!

  WhydoIsitherestill?WhydoIwearymyhoteyesandmyburningheadbywritingmore?Whynotliedownandrestmyself,andtrytoquenchthefeverthatconsumesme,insleep?

  Idarenotattemptit。Afearbeyondallotherfearshasgotpossessionofme。Iamafraidofthisheatthatparchesmyskin。IamafraidofthecreepingandthrobbingthatIfeelinmyhead。IfIliedownnow,howdoIknowthatImayhavethesenseandthestrengthtoriseagain?

  Oh,therain,therain——thecruelrainthatchilledmelastnight!

  Nineo’clock。Wasitninestruck,oreight?Nine,surely?Iamshiveringagain——shivering,fromheadtofoot,inthesummerair。HaveIbeensittinghereasleep?Idon’tknowwhatIhavebeendoing。

  Oh,myGod!amIgoingtobeill?

  Ill,atsuchatimeasthis!

  Myhead——Iamsadlyafraidofmyhead。Icanwrite,butthelinesallruntogether。Iseethewords。Laura——IcanwriteLaura,andseeIwriteit。Eightornine——whichwasit?

  Socold,socold——oh,thatrainlastnight!——andthestrokesoftheclock,thestrokesIcan’tcount,keepstrikinginmyhead——

  NOTE

  AtthisplacetheentryintheDiaryceasestobelegible。Thetwoorthreelineswhichfollowcontainfragmentsofwordsonly,mingledwithblotsandscratchesofthepen。ThelastmarksonthepaperbearsomeresemblancetothefirsttwolettersLandAofthenameofLadyGlyde。

  OnthenextpageoftheDiary,anotherentryappears。Itisinaman’shandwriting,large,bold,andfirmlyregular,andthedateis`Junethe21st。’Itcontainstheselines]

  POSTSCRIPTBYASINCEREFRIEND

  TheillnessofourexcellentMissHalcombehasaffordedmetheopportunityofenjoyinganunexpectedintellectualpleasure。

  IrefertotheperusalwhichIhavejustcompletedofthisinterestingDiary。

  Therearemanyhundredpageshere。Icanlaymyhandonmyheart,anddeclarethateverypagehascharmed,refreshed,delightedme。

  Toamanofmysentimentsitisunspeakablygratifyingtobeabletosaythis。

  Admirablewoman!

  IalludetoMissHalcombe。

  Stupendouseffort!

  IrefertotheDiary。

  Yes!thesepagesareamazing。ThetactwhichIfindhere,thediscretion,therarecourage,thewonderfulpowerofmemory,theaccurateobservationofcharacter,theeasygraceofstyle,thecharmingoutburstsofwomanlyfeeling,haveallinexpressiblyincreasedmyadmirationofthissublimecreature,ofthismagnificentMarian。Thepresentationofmyowncharacterismasterlyintheextreme。Icertify,withmywholeheart,tothefidelityoftheportrait。IfeelhowvividanimpressionImusthaveproducedtohavebeenpaintedinsuchstrong,suchrich,suchmassivecoloursasthese。Ilamentafreshthecruelnecessitywhichsetsourinterestsatvariance,andopposesustoeachother。UnderhappiercircumstanceshowworthyIshouldhavebeenofMissHalcombe——howworthyMissHalcombewouldhavebeenofME。

  ThesentimentswhichanimatemyheartassuremethatthelinesIhavejustwrittenexpressaProfoundTruth。

  Thosesentimentsexaltmeaboveallmerelypersonalconsiderations。Ibearwitness,inthemostdisinterestedmanner,totheexcellenceofthestratagembywhichthisunparalleledwomansurprisedtheprivateinterviewbetweenPercivalandmyself——alsotothemarvellousaccuracyofherreportofthewholeconversationfromitsbeginningtoitsend。

  Thosesentimentshaveinducedmetooffertotheunimpressionabledoctorwhoattendsonhermyvastknowledgeofchemistry,andmyluminousexperienceofthemoresubtleresourceswhichmedicalandmagneticsciencehaveplacedatthedisposalofmankind。Hehashithertodeclinedtoavailhimselfofmyassistance。Miserableman!

  Finally,thosesentimentsdictatethelines——grateful,sympathetic,paternallines——whichappearinthisplace。Iclosethehook。Mystrictsenseofproprietyrestoresitbythehandsofmywifetoitsplaceonthewriter’stable。Eventsarehurryingmeaway。Circumstancesareguidingmetoseriousissues。Vastperspectivesofsuccessunrollthemselvesbeforemyeyes。Iaccomplishmydestinywithacalmnesswhichisterribletomyself。Nothingbutthehomageofmyadmirationismyown。IdeposititwithrespectfultendernessatthefeetofMissHalcombe。

  Ibreathemywishesforherrecovery。

  Icondolewithherontheinevitablefailureofeveryplanthatshehasformedforhersister’sbenefit。Atthesametime,IentreathertobelievethattheinformationwhichIhavederivedfromherDiarywillinnorespecthelpmetocontributetothatfailure。ItsimplyconfirmstheplanofconductwhichIhadpreviouslyarranged。Ihavetothankthesepagesforawakeningthefinestsensibilitiesinmynature——nothingmore。

  Toapersonofsimilarsensibilitythissimpleassertionwillexplainandexcuseeverything。

  MissHalcombeisapersonofsimilarsensibility。

  InthatpersuasionIsignmyself,FOSCO。

  THESTORYCONTINUEDBYFREDERICKFAIRLIE,ESQ。,OFLIMMERIDGEHOUSE*

  *note1。ThemannerinwhichMrFairlie’sNarrative,andotherNarrativesthatareshortlytofollowit,wereoriginallyobtained,formsthesubjectofanexplanationwhichwillappearatalaterperiod。

  ITisthegrandmisfortuneofmylifethatnobodywillletmealone。

  Why——Iaskeverybody——whyworryme?Nobodyanswersthatquestion,andnobodyletsmealone。Relatives,friends,andstrangersallcombinetoannoyme。WhathaveIdone?Iaskmyself,Iaskmyservant,Louis,fiftytimesaday——whathaveIdone?Neitherofuscantell。Mostextraordinary!

  ThelastannoyancethathasassailedmeistheannoyanceofbeingcalledupontowritethisNarrative。Isamaninmystateofnervouswretchednesscapableofwritingnarratives?WhenIputthisextremelyreasonableobjection,Iamtoldthatcertainveryseriouseventsrelatingtomyniecehavehappenedwithinmyexperience,andthatIamthefitpersontodescribethemonthataccount。IamthreatenedifIfailtoexertmyselfinthemannerrequired,withconsequenceswhichIcannotsomuchasthinkofwithoutperfectprostration。Thereisreallynoneedtothreatenme。Shatteredbymymiserablehealthandmyfamilytroubles,Iamincapableofresistance。Ifyouinsist,youtakeyourunjustadvantageofme,andIgivewayimmediately。IwillendeavourtorememberwhatIcanunderprotest,andtowritewhatIcanalsounderprotest,andwhatIcan’trememberandcan’twrite,Louismustrememberandwriteforme。Heisanass,andIamaninvalid,andwearelikelytomakeallsortsofmistakesbetweenus。Howhumiliating!

  Iamtoldtorememberdates。Goodheavens!Ineverdidsuchathinginmylife——howamItobeginnow?

  IhaveaskedLouis。HeisnotquitesuchanassasIhavehithertosupposed。Heremembersthedateoftheevent。withinaweekortwo——andIrememberthenameoftheperson。ThedatewastowardstheendofJune,orthebeginningofJuly,andthenameinmyopinionaremarkablyvulgaronewasFanny。

  AttheendofJune,orthebeginningofJuly,then,Iwasreclininginmycustomarystate,surroundedbythevariousobjectsofArtwhichIhavecollectedaboutmetoimprovethetasteofthebarbarouspeopleinmyneighbourhood。Thatistosay,Ihadthephotographsofmypictures,andprints,andcoins,andsoforth,allaboutme,whichIintend,oneofthesedays,topresentthephotographs,Imean,iftheclumsyEnglishlanguagewillletmemeananything——topresenttotheinstitutionatCarlislehorridplace!,withaviewtoimprovingthetastesofthemembersGothsandVandalstoaman。Itmightbesupposedthatagentlemanwhowasincourseofconferringagreatnationalbenefitonhiscountrymenwasthelastgentlemanintheworldtobeunfeelinglyworriedaboutprivatedifficultiesandfamilyaffairs。Quiteamistake,Iassureyou,inmycase。

  However,thereIwas,reclining,withmyart-treasuresaboutme,andwantingaquietmorning。BecauseIwantedaquietmorning,ofcourseLouiscamein。ItwasperfectlynaturalthatIshouldinquirewhatthedeucehemeantbymakinghisappearancewhenIhadnotrungmybell。Iseldomswear——itissuchanungentlemanlikehabit——butwhenLouisansweredbyagrin,IthinkitwasalsoperfectlynaturalthatIshoulddamnhimforgrinning。Atanyrate,Idid。

  Thisrigorousmodeoftreatment,Ihaveobserved,invariablybringspersonsinthelowerclassoflifetotheirsenses。ItbroughtLouistohissenses。Hewassoobligingastoleaveoffgrinning,andinformmethataYoungPersonwasoutsidewantingtoseeme。Headdedwiththeodioustalkativenessofservants,thathernamewasFanny。

  `WhoisFanny?’

  `LadyGlyde’smaid,sir?’

  `WhatdoesLadyGlyde’smaidwantwithme?’

  `Aletter,sir-’

  `Takeit。’

  `Sherefusestogiveittoanybodybutyou,sir。’

  `Whosendstheletter?’

  `MissHalcombe,sir。’

  ThemomentIheardMissHalcombe’snameIgaveup。ItisahabitofminealwaystogiveuptoMissHalcombe。Ifind,byexperience,thatitsavesnoise。Igaveuponthisoccasion。DearMarian!

  `LetLadyGlyde’smaidcomein。Louis。Stop!Dohershoescreak?’

  Iwasobligedtoaskthequestion。Creakingshoesinvariablyupsetmefortheday。IwasresignedtoseetheYoungPerson,butIwasnotresignedtolettheYoungPerson’sshoesupsetme。Thereisalimiteventomyendurance。

  Louisaffirmeddistinctlythathershoesweretobedependedupon。Iwavedmyhand。Heintroducedher。Isitnecessarytosaythatsheexpressedhersenseofembarrassmentbyshuttinguphermouthandbreathingthroughhernose?Tothestudentoffemalehumannatureinthelowerorders,surelynot。

  Letmedothegirljustice。Hershoesdidnotcreak。ButwhydoYoungPersonsinserviceallperspireatthehands?Whyhavetheyallgotfatnosesandhardcheeks?Andwhyaretheirfacessosadlyunfinished,especiallyaboutthecornersoftheeyelids?Iamnotstrongenoughtothinkdeeplymyselfonanysubject,butIappealtoprofessionalmen,whoare。WhyhavewenovarietyinourbreedofYoungPersons?

  `Youhavealetterforme,fromMissHalcombe?Putitdownonthetable,please,anddon’tupsetanything。HowisMissHalcombe?’

  `Verywell,thankyou,sir。’

  `AndLadyGlyde?’

  Ireceivednoanswer。TheYoungPerson’sfacebecamemoreunfinishedthanever,andIthinkshebegantocry。Icertainlysawsomethingmoistabouthereyes。Tearsorperspiration?LouiswhomIhavejustconsultedisinclinedtothink,tears。Heisinherclassoflife,andheoughttoknowbest。Letussay,tears。

  ExceptwhentherefiningprocessofArtjudiciouslyremovesfromthemallresemblancetoNature,Idistinctlyobjecttotears。TearsarescientificallydescribedasaSecretion。Icanunderstandthatasecretionmaybehealthyorunhealthy,butIcannotseetheinterestofasecretionfromasentimentalpointofview。Perhapsmyownsecretionsbeingallwrongtogether,Iamalittleprejudicedonthesubject。Nomatter。Ibehaved,onthisoccasion,withallpossibleproprietyandfeeling。IclosedmyeyesandsaidtoLouis——

  `Endeavourtoascertainwhatshemeans。’

  Louisendeavoured,andtheYoungPersonendeavoured。TheysucceededinconfusingeachothertosuchanextentthatIamboundincommongratitudetosaytheyreallyamusedme。IthinkIshallsendforthemagainwhenIaminlowspirits。IhavejustmentionedthisideatoLouis。Strangetosay,itseemstomakehimuncomfortable。Poordevil!

  SurelyIamnotexpectedtorepeatmyniece’smaid’sexplanationofhertears,interpretedintheEnglishofmySwissvalet?Thethingismanifestlyimpossible。Icangivemyownimpressionsandfeelingsperhaps。Willthatdoaswell?Pleasesay,Yes。

  MyideaisthatshebeganbytellingmethroughLouisthathermasterhaddismissedherfromhermistress’sservice。Observe,throughout,thestrangeirrelevancyoftheYoungPerson。Wasitmyfaultthatshehadlostherplace?Onherdismissal,shehadgonetotheinntosleep。Idon’tkeeptheinn——whymentionittome?Betweensiro’clockandsevenMissHalcombehadcometosaygood-bye,andhadgivenhertwoletters,oneforme,andoneforagentlemaninLondon。IamnotagentlemaninLondon——hangthegentlemaninLondon!ShehadcarefullyputthetwolettersintoherbosomwhathaveItodowithherbosom?;shehadbeenveryunhappy,whenMissHalcombehadgoneawayagain;shehadnothadthehearttoputbitordropbetweenherlipstillitwasnearbedtime,andthen,whenitwascloseonnineo’clock,shehadthoughtsheshouldlikeacupoftea。AmIresponsibleforanyofthesevulgarfluctuations,whichbeginwithunhappinessandendwithtea?rustasshewaswarmingthepotIgivethewordsontheauthorityofLouis,whosaysheknowswhattheymean,andwishestoexplain,butIsnubhimonprinciple——justasshewaswarmingthepotthedooropened,andshewasstruckofaheapherownwordsagain,andperfectlyunintelligiblethistimetoLouis,aswellastomyselfbytheappearanceintheinnparlourofherladyshiptheCountess。Igivemyniece’smaid’sdescriptionofmysister’stitlewithasenseofthehighestrelish。Mypoordearsisterisatiresomewomanwhomarriedaforeigner。Toresume:thedooropened,herladyshiptheCountessappearedintheparlour,andtheYoungPersonwasstruckofaheap。Mostremarkable!

  ImustreallyrestalittlebeforeIcangetonanyfarther。WhenIhavereclinedforafewminutes,withmyeyesclosed,andwhenLouishasrefreshedmypoorachingtempleswithalittleeau-de-Cologne,Imaybeabletoproceed。

  HerladyshiptheCountess——

  No。Iamabletoproceed,butnottositup。Iwillreclineanddictate。Louishasahorridaccent,butheknowsthelanguage,andcanwrite。Howveryconvenient!

  Herladyship,theCountess,explainedherunexpectedappearanceattheinnbytellingFannythatshehadcometobringoneortwolittlemessageswhichMissHalcombeinherhurryhadforgotten。TheYoungPersonthereuponwaitedanxiouslytohearwhatthemessageswere,buttheCountessseemeddisinclinedtomentionthemsolikemysister’stiresomeway!untilFannyhadhadhertea。Herladyshipwassurprisinglykindandthoughtfulaboutitextremelyunlikemysister,andsaid,`Iamsure,mypoorgirl,youmustwantyourtea。Wecanletthemessageswaittillafterwards。Come,come,ifnothingelsewillputyouatyourease,I’llmaketheteaandhaveacupwithyou。’Ithinkthosewerethewords,asreportedexcitably,inmypresence,bytheYoungPerson。Atanyrate,theCountessinsistedonmakingthetea,andcarriedherridiculousostentationofhumilitysofarastotakeonecupherself,andtoinsistonthegirl’stakingtheother。Thegirldrankthetea,andaccordingtoherownaccount,solemnisedtheextraordinaryoccasionfiveminutesafterwardsbyfaintingdeadawayforthefirsttimeinherlife。HereagainIuseherownwords。Louisthinkstheywereaccompaniedbyanincreasedsecretionoftears。Ican’tsaymyself。TheeffortoflisteningbeingquiteasmuchasIcouldmanage,myeyeswereclosed。

  WheredidIleaveoff?Ah,yes——shefaintedafterdrinkingacupofteawiththeCountess——aproceedingwhichmighthaveinterestedmeifIhadbeenhermedicalman,butbeingnothingofthesortIfeltboredbyhearingofit,nothingmore。Whenshecametoherselfinhalfanhourstimeshewasonthesofa,andnobodywaswithherbutthelandlady。TheCountess,findingittoolatetoremainanylongerattheinn,hadgoneawayassoonasthegirlshowedsignsofrecovering,andthelandladyhadbeengoodenoughtohelpherupstairstobed。

  Leftbyherself,shehadfeltinherbosomIregretthenecessityofreferringtothispartofthesubjectasecondtime,andhadfoundthetwoletterstherequitesafe,butstrangelycrumpled。Shehadbeengiddyinthenight,buthadgotupwellenoughtotravelinthemorning。Shehadputtheletteraddressedtothatobtrusivestranger,thegentlemaninLondon,intothepost,andhadnowdeliveredtheotherletterintomyhandsasshewastold。Thiswastheplaintruth,andthoughshecouldnotblameherselfforanyintentionalneglect,shewassadlytroubledinhermind,andsadlyinwantofawordofadvice。AtthispointLouisthinksthesecretionsappearedagain。Perhapstheydid,butitisofinfinitelygreaterimportancetomentionthatatthispointalsoIlostmypatience,openedmyeyes,andinterfered。

  `Whatisthepurportofallthis?’Iinquired。

  Myniece’sirrelevantmaidstared,andstoodspeechless。

  `Endeavourtoexplain,’Isaidtomyservant。`Translateme,Louis。’

  Louisendeavouredandtranslated。Inotherwords,hedescendedimmediatelyintoabottomlesspitofconfusion,andtheYoungPersonfollowedhimdown。Ireallydon’tknowwhenIhavebeensoamused。Ileftthematthebottomofthepitaslongastheydivertedme。Whentheyceasedtodivertme,Iexertedmyintelligence,andpulledthemupagain。

  Itisunnecessarytosaythatmyinterferenceenabledme,induecourseoftime,toascertainthepurportoftheYoungPerson’sremarks。

  Idiscoveredthatshewasuneasyinhermind,becausethetrainofeventsthatshehadjustdescribedtomehadpreventedherfromreceivingthosesupplementarymessageswhichMissHalcombehadintrustedtotheCountesstodeliver。Shewasafraidthemessagesmighthavebeenofgreatimportancetohermistress’sinterests。HerdreadofSirPercivalhaddeterredherfromgoingtoBlackwaterParklateatnighttoinquireaboutthem,andMissHalcombe’sowndirectionstoher,onnoaccounttomissthetraininthemorning,hadpreventedherfromwaitingattheinnthenextday。Shewasmostanxiousthatthemisfortuneofherfainting-fitshouldnotleadtothesecondmisfortuneofmakinghermistressthinkherneglectful,andshewouldhumblybegtoaskmewhetherIwouldadvisehertowriteherexplanationsandexcusestoMissHalcombe,requestingtoreceivethemessagesbyletter,ifitwasnottoolate。Imakenoapologiesforthisextremelyprosyparagraph。Ihavebeenorderedtowriteit。Therearepeople,unaccountableasitmayappear,whoactuallytakemoreinterestinwhatmyniece’smaidsaidtomeonthisoccasionthaninwhatIsaidtomyniece’smaid。Amusingperversity!

  `Ishouldfeelverymuchobligedtoyou,sir,ifyouwouldkindlytellmewhatIhadbetterdo,remarkedtheYoungPerson。

  `Letthingsstopastheyare,’Isaid,adaptingmylanguagetomylistener。`Iinvariablyletthingsstopastheyare。Yes。Isthatall?’

  `Ifyouthinkitwouldbealibertyinme,sir,towrite,ofcourseIwouldn’tventuretodoso。ButIamsoveryanxioustodoallIcantoservemymistressfaithfully——’

  Peopleinthelowerclassoflifeneverknowwhenorhowtogooutofaroom。Theyinvariablyrequiretobehelpedoutbytheirbetters。IthoughtithightimetohelptheYoungPersonout。Ididitwithtwojudiciouswords——

  `Goodmorning。’

  Somethingoutsideorinsidethissingulargirlsuddenlycreaked。Louis,whowaslookingatherwhichIwasnot,saysshecreakedwhenshecurtseyed。Curious。Wasithershoes,herstays,orherbones?Louisthinksitwasherstays。Mostextraordinary!

  AssoonasIwasleftbymyselfIhadalittlenap——Ireallywantedit。WhenIawokeagainInoticeddearMarian’sletter。IfIhadhadthelastideaofwhatitcontainedIshouldcertainlynothaveattemptedtoopenit。Being,unfortunatelyformyself,quiteinnocentofallsuspicion,Ireadtheletter。Itimmediatelyupsetmefortheday。

  Iam,bynature,oneofthemosteasy-temperedcreaturesthateverlived——Imakeallowancesforeverybody,andItakeoffenceatnothing。ButasIhavebeforeremarked,therearelimitstomyendurance。IlaiddownMarian’sletter,andfeltmyself——justlyfeltmyself——aninjuredman。

  Iamabouttomakearemark。Itis,ofcourse,applicabletotheveryseriousmatternowundernotice,orIshouldnotallowittoappearinthisplace。

  Nothing,inmyopinion,setstheodiousselfishnessofmankindinsucharepulsivelyvividlightasthetreatment,inallclassesofsociety,whichtheSinglepeoplereceiveatthehandsoftheMarriedpeople。Whenyouhaveonceshownyourselftooconsiderateandself-denyingtoaddafamilyofyourowntoanalreadyovercrowdedpopulation,youarevindictivelymarkedoutbyyourmarriedfriends,whohavenosimilarconsiderationandnosimilarself-denial,astherecipientofhalftheirconjugaltroubles,andthebornfriendofalltheirchildren。Husbandsandwivestalkofthecaresofmatrimony,andbachelorsandspinstersbearthem。Takemyowncase。Iconsideratelyremainsingle,andmypoordearbrotherPhilipinconsideratelymarries。Whatdoeshedowhenhedies?Heleaveshisdaughtertome。Sheisasweetgirl——sheisalsoadreadfulresponsibility。Whylayheronmyshoulders?BecauseIambound,intheharmlesscharacterofasingleman,torelievemymarriedconnectionsofalltheirowntroubles。Idomybestwithmybrother’sresponsibility——Imarrymyniece,withinfinitefussanddifficulty,tothemanherfatherwantedhertomarry-Sheandherhusbanddisagree,andunpleasantconsequencesfollow。Whatdoesshedowiththoseconsequences?Shetransfersthemtome。Whytransferthemtome?BecauseIambound,intheharmlesscharacterofasingleman,torelievemymarriedconnectionsofalltheirowntroubles。Poorsinglepeople!Poorhumannature!

  ItisquiteunnecessarytosaythatMarian’sletterthreatenedme。Everybodythreatensme。AllsortsofhorrorsweretofallonmydevotedheadifIhesitatedtoturnLimmeridgeHouseintoan

  asylumformynieceandhermisfortunes。Ididhesitate,nevertheless。

  Ihavementionedthatmyusualcourse,hitherto,hadbeentosubmittodearMarian,andsavenoise。Butonthisoccasion,theconsequencesinvolvedinherextremelyinconsiderateproposalwereofanaturetomakemepause。IfIopenedLimmeridgeHouseasanasylumtoLadyGlyde,whatsecurityhadIagainstSirPercivalGlyde’sfollowingherhereinastateofviolentresentmentagainstmeforharbouringhiswife?IsawsuchaperfectlabyrinthoftroublesinvolvedinthisproceedingthatIdeterminedtofeelmyground,asitwere。Iwrote,therefore,todearMariantobegasshehadnohusbandtolayclaimtoherthatshewouldcomeherebyherself,first,andtalkthematteroverwithme。Ifshecouldanswermyobjectionstomyownperfectsatisfaction,thenIassuredherthatIwouldreceiveoursweetLaurawiththegreatestpleasure,butnototherwise。

  Ifelt,ofcourse,atthetime,thatthistemporisingonmypartwouldprobablyendinbringingMarianhereinastateofvirtuousindignation,bangingdoors。Butthen,theothercourseofproceedingmightendinbringingSirPercivalhereinastateofvirtuousindignation,bangingdoorsalso,andofthetwoindignationsandbangingsIpreferredMarian’s,becauseIwasusedtoher。AccordinglyIdespatchedtheletterbyreturnofpost。Itgainedmetime,atallevents——and,ohdearme!whatapointthatwastobeginwith。

  WhenIamtotallyprostrateddidImentionthatIwastotallyprostratedbyMarian’sletter?italwaystakesmethreedaystogetupagain。Iwasveryunreasonable——Iexpectedthreedaysofquiet。OfcourseIdidn’tgetthem。

  Thethirdday’spostbroughtmeamostimpertinentletterfromapersonwithwhomIwastotallyunacquainted。Hedescribedhimselfastheactingpartnerofourmanofbusiness——our

  dear,pig-headedoldGilmore——andheinformedmethathehadlatelyreceived,bythepost,aletteraddressedtohiminMissHalcombe’shandwriting。Onopeningtheenvelope,hehaddiscovered,tohisastonishment,thatitcontainednothingbutablanksheetofnotepaper。ThiscircumstanceappearedtohimsosuspiciousassuggestingtohisrestlesslegalmindthattheletterhadbeentamperedwiththathehadatoncewrittentoMissHalcombe,andhadreceivednoanswerbyreturnofpost。Inthis

  difficulty,insteadofactinglikeasensiblemanandlettingthingstaketheirpropercourse,hisnextabsurdproceeding,onhisownshowing,wastopestermebywritingtoinquireifIknewanythingaboutit。WhatthedeuceshouldIknowaboutit?Whyalarmmraswellashimself?Iwrotebacktothateffect。Itwasoneofmykeenestletters。IhaveproducednothingwithasharperepistolaryedgetoitsinceItenderedhisdismissalinwritingtothatextremelytroublesomeperson,MrWalterHartright。

  Myletterproduceditseffect。Iheardnothingmorefromthelawyer。

  Thisperhapswasnotaltogethersurprising。ButitwascertainlyaremarkablecircumstancethatnosecondletterreachedmefromMarian,andthatnowarningsignsappearedofherarrival。Herunexpectedabsencedidmeamazinggood。ItwassoverysoothingandpleasanttoinferasIdidofcoursethatmymarriedconnectionshadmadeitupagain。Fivedaysofundisturbedtranquillity,ofdelicioussingleblessedness,quiterestoredme。OnthesixthdayIfeltstrongenoughtosendformyphotographer,andtosethimatworkagainonthepresentationcopiesofmyart-treasures,withaview,asIhavealreadymentioned,totheimprovementoftasteinthisbarbarousneighbourhood。Ihadjustdismissedhimtohisworkshop,andhadjustbeguncoquettingwithmycoins,whenLouissuddenlymadehisappearancewithacardinhishand。

  `AnotherYoungPerson?’Isaid。`Iwon’tseeher。InmystateofhealthYoungpersonsdisagreewithme。Notathome。’

  `Itisagentlemanthistime,sir。’

  Agentlemanofcoursemadeadifference。Ilookedatthecard。

  GraciousHeaven!mytiresomesister’sforeignhusband,CountFosco。

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