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  Herethecandleswerebroughtin。

  Thetwomenlookedateachotherfullintheface。Hughsawthathehadnotbeeninerror。Thesameremarkablecountenancewasbeforehim。Falconersmiled。

  “Wehavemetbefore,“saidhe。

  “Wehave,“saidHugh。

  “Ihadaconvictionweshouldbebetteracquainted,butIdidnotexpectitsosoon。“

  “Areyouaclairvoyant,then?”

  “Notintheleast。“

  “Or,perhaps,beingaScotchman,youhavethesecondsight?”

  “IamhardlyCeltenoughforthat。ButIamasortofaseer,afterall——fromaninstinctofthespiritualrelationsofthings,Ihope;

  notintheleastfromthenervo-materialside。“

  “IthinkIunderstandyou。“

  “Areyouatleisure?”

  “Entirely。“

  “Hadwenotbetterwalk,then?IhavetogoasfarasSomersTown——nogreatway;andwecantalkaswellwalkingassitting。“

  “Withpleasure,“answeredHugh,rising。

  “Willyoutakeanythingbeforeyougo?Aglassofport?ItistheonlywineIhappentohave。“

  “Notadrop,thankyou。Iseldomtasteanythingstrongerthanwater。“

  “Ilikethat。ButIlikeaglassofporttoo。Comethen。“

  AndFalconerrose——andagreatrisingitwas;for,asIhavesaid,hewastwoorthreeinchestallerthanHugh,andmuchbroaderacrosstheshoulders;andHughwasnostriplingnow。Hecouldnothelpthinkingagainofhisoldfriend,DavidElginbrod,towhomhehadtolookuptofindthelivingeyesofhim,justasnowhelookeduptofindFalconer\'s。Buttherewasagreatdifferencebetweenthoseorgansinthetwomen。David\'shadbeenofanordinarysize,purekeenblue,sparklingoutofceruleandepthsofpeaceandhope,fulloflambentgleamswhenhewaslovinganyone,andeverreadytobedimmedwiththemistsofrisingemotion。AllthatHughcouldyetdiscoverofFalconer\'seyeswas,thattheywerelarge,andblackasnight,andsetsofarbackinhishead,thateachgleamedoutofitscavernedarchlikethereversedtorchoftheGreekGeniusofDeath,justbeforegoingoutinnight。Eitherthefrontalsinuswasverylarge,orhisobservantfacultieswerepeculiarlydeveloped。

  Theywentout,andwalkedforsomedistanceinsilence。Hughventuredtosayatlength:

  “Yousaidyouhadspentthedaystrangely:mayIaskhow?”

  “InacondemnedcellinNewgate,“answeredFalconer。“Iamnotinthehabitofgoingtosuchplaces,butthemanwantedtoseeme,andIwent。“

  AsFalconersaidnomore,andasHughwasafraidofshowinganythinglikevulgarcuriosity,thisthreadofconversationbroke。NothingworthrecordingpasseduntiltheyenteredanarrowcourtinSomersTown。

  “Areyouafraidofinfection?”Falconersaid。

  “Notintheleast,iftherebeanyreasonforexposingmyselftoit。“

  “Thatisright——AndIneednotaskifyouareingoodhealth。“

  “Iaminperfecthealth。“

  “ThenIneednotmindaskingyoutowaitformetillIcomeoutofthishouse。Thereistyphusinit。“

  “Iwillwaitwithpleasure。IwillgowithyouifIcanbeofanyuse。“

  “Thereisnooccasion。Itisnotyourbusinessthistime。“

  Sosaying,Falconeropenedthedoor,andwalkedin。

  SaidHughtohimself:“Imusttellthismanthewholestory;andwithitallmyown。“

  InafewminutesFalconerrejoinedhim,lookingsolemn,butwithakindofrelievedexpressiononhisface。

  “Thepoorfellowisgone,“saidhe。

  “Ah!”

  “Whatathingitmustbe,Mr。Sutherland,foramantobreakoutofthechoke-dampofatyphusfeverintotheclearairofthelifebeyond!”

  “Yes,“saidHugh;adding,afteraslighthesitation,“ifhebeatallpreparedforthechange。“

  “Whereachangebelongstothenaturalorderofthings,“saidFalconer,“andarrivesinevitablyatsomehour,theremustalwaysbemoreorlesspreparednessforit。Besides,Ithinkamanisgenerallypreparedforabreathoffreshair。“

  Hughdidnotreply,forhefeltthathedidnotfullycomprehendhisnewacquaintance。Buthehadastrongsuspicionthatitwasbecausehemovedinahigherregionthanhimself。

  “Ifyouwillstillaccompanyme,“resumedFalconer,whohadnotyetadvertedtoHugh\'sobjectinseekinghisacquaintance,“youwill,I

  think,besooncompelledtobelievethat,atwhatevertimedeathmayarrive,orinwhateverconditionthemanmaybeatthetime,itcomesasthebestandonlygoodthatcanatthatmomentreachhim。

  Weare,perhaps,toomuchinthehabitofthinkingofdeathastheculminationofdisease,which,regardedonlyinitself,isanevil,andaterribleevil。ButIthinkratherofdeathasthefirstpulseofthenewstrength,shakingitselffreefromtheoldmouldyremnantsofearth-garments,thatitmaybegininfreedomthenewlifethatgrowsoutoftheold。Thecaterpillardiesintothebutterfly。Whoknowsbutdiseasemaybethecoming,thekeenerlife,breakingintothis,andbeginningtodestroylikefiretheinferiormodesorgarmentsofthepresent?Andthendiseasewouldbebutthesignofthesalvationoffire;oftheagonyofthegreaterlifetoliftustoitself,outofthatwhereinwearefailingandsinning。Andsowepraisetheconsumingfireoflife。“

  “Butsurelyallcannotfarealikeinthenewlife。“

  “Farfromit。Accordingtothecondition。Butwhatwouldbehelltoone,willbequietness,andhope,andprogresstoanother;

  becausehehasleftworsebehindhim,andinthisthelifeassertsitself,andis——Butperhapsyouarenotinterestedinsuchsubjects,Mr。Sutherland,andIwearyyou。“

  “IfIhavenotbeeninterestedinthemhitherto,Iamreadytobecomesonow。Letmegowithyou。“

  “Withpleasure。“

  AsIhaveattemptedtotellagreatdealaboutRobertFalconerandhispursuitselsewhere,IwillnothererelatetheparticularsoftheirwalkthroughsomeofthemostwretchedpartsofLondon。

  Sufficeittosaythat,ifHugh,ashewalkedhome,wasnotyetpreparedtoreceiveandunderstandthehalfofwhatFalconerhadsaidaboutdeath,andhadnotyetthatfaithinGodthatgivesasperfectapeaceforthefutureofourbrothersandsisters,who,alas!haveasyetbeenfedwithhusks,asforthatofourselves,whohaveeatenbreadofthefinestofthewheat,andhavebeenbutalittlethankful,——heyetfeltatleastthatitwasablessedthingthatthesemenandwomenwouldalldie——mustalldie。Thatspectrefromwhichmenshrink,asifitwouldtakefromthemthelastshiveringremnantofexistence,heturnedtoforsomeconsolationevenforthem。Hewaspreparedtobelievethattheycouldnotbegoingtoworseintheend,thoughsomeoftherichandrespectableandeducatedmighthavetoreceivetheirevilthingsfirstintheotherworld;andhewasreadytounderstandthatgreatsayingofSchiller——fullofafaithevidentenoughtohimwhocanlookfarenoughintothesaying:

  “Deathcannotbeanevil,foritisuniversal。“

  CHAPTERVIII。

  EUPHRA。

  Samson。OthattormentshouldnotbeconfinedTothebody\'swoundsandsores,ButmustsecretpassagefindTotheinmostmind。

  Direinflammation,whichnocoolingherbOrmedicinalliquorcanasswage,NorbreathofvernalairfromsnowyAlp。

  Sleephathforsookandgivenmeo\'erTodeath\'sbenummingopiumasmyonlycure,Thencefaintings,swooningsofdespair,Andsenseofheaven\'sdesertion。

  MILTON——SamsonAgonistes。

  HithertoIhavechieflyfollowedthehistoryofmyhero,ifheroinanysensehecanyetbecalled。NowImustleavehimforawhile,andtakeupthestoryoftherestofthefewpersonsconcernedinmytale。

  LadyEmilyhadgonetoMadeira,andMr。Arnoldhadfollowed。Mrs。

  EltonandHarry,andMargaret,ofcourse,hadgonetoLondon。

  EuphrawasleftaloneatArnstead。

  Agreatalterationhadtakenplaceinthisstrangegirl。Theservantswerepositivelyafraidofhernow,fromthebutlerdowntothekitchen-maid。Sheusedtogointoviolentfitsofpassion,inwhichthemereflashofhereyeswasoverpowering。Theseoutbreakswouldbefollowedalmostinstantaneouslybyseasonsofthedeepestdejection,inwhichshewouldconfineherselftoherroomforhours,or,lameasshewas,wanderaboutthehouseandtheGhost\'sWalk,herselfpaleasaghost,andlookingmeagreandwretched。

  Also,shebecamesubjecttofrequentfaintingfits,thefirstofwhichtookplacethenightbeforeHugh\'sdeparture,aftershehadreturnedtothehousefromherinterviewwithhimintheGhost\'sWalk。Shewasevidentlymiserable。

  Forthismiseryweknowthattherewereverysufficientreasons,withouttakingintoaccountthefactthatshehadnoonetofascinatenow。Hercontinuedlameness,whichherrestlessnessaggravated,likewisegavehergreatcauseforanxiety。ButI

  presumethat,evenduringtheearlypartofherconfinement,hermindhadbeenthrownbackuponitself,inthatconsciousnesswhichoftenarisesinlonelinessandsuffering;andthateventhenshehadbeguntofeelthatherownselfwasaworsetyrantthanthecount,andmadeheramorewretchedslavethananyexerciseofhisunlawfulpowercouldmakeher。

  Somenatureswillendureanimmenseamountofmiserybeforetheyfeelcompelledtolookthereforhelp,whenceallhelpandhealingcomes。Theycannotbelievethatthereisverilyanunseenmysteriouspower,tilltheworldandallthatisinithasvanishedinthesmokeofdespair;tillcauseandeffectisnothingtotheintellect,andpossibleglorieshavefadedfromtheimagination;

  then,deprivedofallthatmadelifepleasantorhopeful,theimmortalessence,lonelyandwretchedandunabletocease,looksupwithitsnowunfetteredandwakenedinstinct,tothesourceofitsownlife——tothepossibleGodwho,notwithstandingalltheimprobabilitiesofhisexistence,mayyetperhapsbe,andmayyetperhapshearhiswretchedcreaturethatcalls。Inthislonelinessofdespair,lifemustfindTheLife;forjoyisgone,andlifeisallthatisleft:itiscompelledtoseekitssource,itsroot,itseternallife。Thisaloneremainsasapossiblething。StrangeconditionofdespairintowhichtheSpiritofGoddrivesaman——aconditioninwhichtheBestaloneisthePossible!

  Othersimplernatureslookupatonce。Evenbeforethefirstpanghaspassedaway,asbyaholyinstinctofcelestialchildhood,theylifttheireyestotheheavenswhencecomeththeiraid。OfthisclassEuphrawasnot。Shebelongedtotheformer。Andyetevenshehadbeguntolookupward,forthewatershadclosedaboveherhead。

  ShebetookherselftotheonemanofwhomshehadheardasknowingaboutGod。Shewrote,butnoanswercame。Daysanddayspassedaway,andtherewasnoreply。

  “Ah!justso!”shesaid,inbitterness。“AndifIcriedtoGodforever,Ishouldhearnowordofreply。Ifhebe,hesitsapart,andleavestheweaktobethepreyofthebad。Whatcareshe?”

  Yet,asshespoke,sherose,and,byasuddenimpulse,threwherselfonthefloor,andcriedforthefirsttime:

  “OGod,helpme!”

  Wastherevoiceorhearing?

  Sheroseatleastwithalittlehope,andwiththefeelingthatifshecouldcrytohim,itmightbethathecouldlistentoher。Itseemednaturaltopray;itseemedtocomeofitself:thatcouldnotbeexceptitwasfirstnaturalforGodtohear。Thefoundationofherownactionmustbeinhimwhomadeher;forhercallcouldbeonlyaresponseafterall。

  Thetimepassedwearilyby。Dim,slowNovemberdayscameon,withthefallofthelastbrownshredofthosecloudsoflivinggreenthathadfloatedbetwixtearthandheaven。ThroughthebareboughsoftheoverarchingavenueoftheGhost\'sWalk,themselveslivingskeletons,shecouldnowlookstraightuptothebluesky,whichhadbeenthereallthetime。Andshehadbeguntolookuptoahigherheaven,throughthebareskeletonshapesoflife;forthefoliageofjoyhadwhollyvanished——shallwesayinorderthatthechildrenofthespringmightcome?——certainlyinorderfirstthattheblueskyofadeeperpeacemightreflectitselfinthehithertodarkenedwatersofhersoul。

  Perhapssomeofmyreadersmaythinkthatshehadenoughtorepentoftokeepherfromweariness。Shehadplentytorepentof,nodoubt;butrepentance,betweentheparoxysmsofitsbitterness,isaverydrearyandNovember-likestateofthespiritualweather。Foritsfoggymorningsandcheerlessnoonscannotbelieveinthesunofspring,soontoripenintothesunofsummer;anditsbesttimeisthenight,thatshutsouttheworldandweepsitsfillofslowtears。Butshewasnotaltogethersoblameworthyasshemayhaveappeared。Heraffectationshadnotbeenaltogetherfalse。Shevalued,andinameasurepossessed,thefeelingsforwhichshesoughtcredit。Shehadagenuineenjoymentofnature,thoughafterasensuous,Keats-likefashion,notaWordsworthian。Itwasthebody,ratherthanthesoul,ofnaturethatsheloved——itsbeautyratherthanitstruth。Hadherloveofnaturebeenofthedeepest,shewouldhaveturnedasidetoconcealheremotionsratherthanhaveheldthemupasallurementsintheeyesofhercompanion。Butasnobodyandnobeautycanexistwithoutsoulandtruth,shewholovestheformermustatleastbecapableoflovingthedeeperessencetowhichtheyowetheirveryexistence。

  ThisviewofhercharacterisborneoutbyherloveofmusicandherlikingforHugh。Bothweregenuine。Hadthelatterbeeneithermoreorlessgenuinethanitwas,thetaskoffascinationwouldhavebeenmoredifficult,anditssuccesslesscomplete。Whetherherownfeelingsbecamefurtherinvolvedthanshehadcalculatedupon,I

  cannottell;butsurelyitsayssomethingforher,inanycase,thatshedesiredtoretainHughasherfriend,insteadofhatinghimbecausehehadbeenherlover。

  HowgladshewouldhavebeenofHarrynow!Thedayscrawledoneaftertheotherlikewearysnakes。ShetriedtoreadtheNewTestament:itwastoherlikeamouldychamberofworm-eatenparchments,whosewindowshadnotbeenopenedtothesunorthewindforcenturies;andinwhichthedustofthedecayingleaveschokedthefewbeamsthatfoundtheirwaythroughtheage-blindedpanes。

  Thisstateofthingscouldnothavelastedlong;forEuphrawouldhavedied。Itlasted,however,untilshefeltthatshehadbeenleadingafalse,worthlesslife;thatshehadbeencastingfromhereverydaythefewremainingfragmentsoftruthandrealitythatyetkepthernaturefromfallinginaheapofhelplessruin;thatshehadneverbeenatruefriendtoanyone;thatshewasofnovalue——fitfornoone\'sadmiration,noone\'slove。Shemustleaveherformerself,likeadeadbody,behindher,andriseintoapurerairoflifeandreality,elseshewouldperishwiththateverlastingdeathwhichisthediseaseandcorruptionofthesoulitself。

  Tothosewhoknowanythingofsuchexperiences,itwillnotbesurprisingthatsuchfeelingsastheseshouldbealternatedwithfierceburstsofpassion。Theoldselfthenstartedupwithfeverishenergy,andwrithedforlife。Neveranyonetriedtobebetter,without,foratime,seemingtohimself,perhapstoothers,tobeworse。Forthesufferingofthespiritweakensthebrainitself,andthewholephysicalnaturegroansunderit;whiletheenergyspentintheefforttoawake,andarisefromthedust,leavestheregionspreviouslyguardedbyprudencenakedtothewildinroadsofthesuddendestroyingimpulsesbornofsuffering,self-sickness,andhatred。Asinthedeliriouspatient,theywoulddashtotheearthwhatevercomesfirstwithinreach,asifthethingfirstperceived,andsobyperceptionalonebroughtintocontactwiththesuffering,werethecauseofallthedistress。

  Onedayaletterarrivedforher。Shehadhadnoletterfromanyoneforweeks。Yet,whenshesawthedirection,sheflungitfromher。ItwasfromMrs。Elton,whomshedisliked,becauseshefoundherutterlyuninterestingandverystupid。

  PoorMrs。Eltonlaidnoclaimtothecontrariesoftheseepithets。

  Butinproportionassheabjuredthought,sheclaimedspeech,bothbywordofmouthandbyletter。Whynot?Therewasnothinginit。

  Sheconsideredreasonasanawfulenemytothesoul,andobnoxioustoGod,especiallywhenappliedtofindoutwhathemeanswhenheaddressesusasreasonablecreatures。Butspeech?Therewasnoharminthat。Perhapsitwassomelatentconvictionthatthispowerofspeechwasthechiefdistinctionbetweenherselfandtheloweranimals,thatmadeheruseitsofreely,andatthesametimeopenherpursesoliberallytotheHospitalforOrphanDogsandCats。Haditnotbeenforherowndirenecessity,thefactthatMrs。EltonwasreligiouswouldhavebeenenoughtoconvinceEuphrathattherecouldnotpossiblybeanythinginreligion。

  Theletterlayunopenedtillnextday——afacteasytoaccountfor,improbableasitmayseem;forbesideswritingaslargelyasshetalked,andlessamusinglybecausemorecorrectly,Mrs。Eltonwrotesuchanindistinctthoughpunctiliouslyneathand,thatthereadingofaletterofhersinvolvednosmallamountoflabour。Butthesunshiningoutnextmorning,Euphratookcouragetoreadit,whiledrinkinghercoffee,althoughshecouldnotexpecttomakethatceremonymorepleasantthereby。ItcontainedaninvitationtovisitMrs。Eltonatherhousein——Street,HydePark,withtheassurancethat,nowthateverythingwasarranged,theyhadplentyofroomforher。Mrs。EltonwassureshemustbelonelyatArnstead;andMrs。

  Hortoncould,nodoubt,betrusted——andsoon。

  Hadthisletterarrivedafewweeksearlier,Euphrawouldhaveinfusedintoheransweraskilfulconcoctionofdelicatecontempt;

  notfortheamusementofknowingthatMrs。Eltonwouldneverdiscoveratraceofit,butsimplyforarelieftoherowndislike。

  Nowshewouldhavewrittenaplainletter,containingasbriefandastrueanexcuseasshecouldfind,haditnotbeen,that,inclosedinMrs。Elton\'snoteshefoundanother,whichranthus:

  “DEAREUPHRA,——Docomeandseeus。IdonotlikeLondonatallwithoutyou。TherearenohappydaysherelikethosewehadatArnsteadwithMr。Sutherland。Mrs。EltonandMargaretareverykindtome。ButIwishyouwouldcome。Do,do,do。Pleasedo。

  “Youraffectionatecousin,“HARRYARNOLD。“

  “Thedearboy!”saidEuphra,withagushofpureandgratefulaffection;“Iwillgoandseehim。“

  Harryhadbeguntoworkwithhismasters,andwasdoinghisbest,whichwasverygood。Ifhisheartwasnotsomuchinitaswhenhewasstudyingwithhisbigbrother,hegainedagreatbenefitfromtheincreaseofexercisetohiswill,inthedoingofwhatwaslesspleasant。EversinceHughhadgivenhisfacultiesarightdirection,andaidedhimbyhealthfulmanlysympathy,hehadbeenmakingupfortheperiodduringwhichchildhoodhadbeenprotractedintoboyhood;andnowhewasmakingrapidprogress。

  WhenEuphraarrived,Harryrushedtothehalltomeether。Shetookhiminherarms,andburstintotears。Hertearsdrewforthhis。

  Hestrokedherpaleface,andsaid:

  “DearEuphra,howillyoulook!”

  “Ishallsoonbebetternow,Harry。“

  “Iwasafraidyoudidnotloveme,Euphra;butnowIamsureyoudo。“

  “IndeedIdo。IamverysorryforeverythingthatmadeyouthinkI

  didnotloveyou。“

  “No,no。Itwasallmyfancy。Nowweshallbeveryhappy。“

  AndsoHarrywas。AndEuphra,throughmeansofHarry,begantogainalittleofwhatisbetterthanmostkindsofhappiness,becauseitisnearesttothebesthappiness——Imeanpeace。Thisforetasteofrestcametoherfromthedevotednesswithwhichshenowappliedherselftoaidtheintellect,whichshehadunconsciouslyrepressedandstuntedbefore。ShetookHarry\'sbookswhenhehadgonetobed;

  andreadoverallhislessons,thatshemightbeabletoassisthiminpreparingthem;venturingthusintosomeregionsoflabourintowhichladiesaretooseldomconductedbythosewhoinstructthem。

  Thisproducedinherquitenewexperiences。Oneofthesewas,thatinproportionasshelabouredforHarry,hopegrewforherself。Itwaslikewiseofthegreatestimmediatebenefitthattheintervalsofthought,insteadoflyingvacanttomelancholy,orthevapoursthatsprungfromtheforegoingstrifeofthespiritualelements,shouldbeoccupiedbyhealthymentalexercise。

  Still,however,shewassubjecttogreatvicissitudesoffeeling。A

  kindofpeevishness,towhichshehadformerlybeenastranger,wasbuttooreadytoappear,evenwhenshewasmostanxious,inherconversewithHarry,tobehavewelltohim。Butthepureforgivenessoftheboywaswonderful。Insteadofplaguinghimselftofindoutthecauseofherbehaviour,orresentingitintheleast,heonlylaboured,byincreasedattentionandsubmission,toremoveit;andseemedperfectlysatisfiedwhenitwasfollowedbyakindword,whichtohimwasrepentance,apology,amends,andbetterment,allinone。Whenhehadthusdrivenawaytheevilspirit,therewasEuphraherownself。Soperfectlydidshesee,andsothoroughlyappreciatethiskindnessandloveofHarry,thathebegantolooktoherlikeanangelofforgivenesscometoliveaboy\'slife,thathemightdoanangel\'swork。

  Herhealthcontinuedverypoor。Shesufferedconstantlyfrommoreorlessheadache,andattimesfromfaintings。Butshehadnotforsometimediscoveredanysignsofsomnambulism。

  Ofthispeculiarityherfriendswereentirelyignorant。Theoccasions,indeed,onwhichithadmanifesteditselftoanexcessivedegree,hadbeenbutfew。

  CHAPTERIX。

  THENEWPUPILS。

  Thinkyoualittledincandauntmineears?

  HaveInotinmytimeheardlionsroar?

  Anddoyoutellmeofawoman\'stongue,Thatgivesnothalfsogreatablowtohear,Aswillachestnutinafarmer\'sfire?

  Tush!tush!fearboyswithbugs。

  TamingoftheShrew。

  DuringthewholeofhisfirstinterviewwithFalconer,whichlastedsolongthathehadbeengladtomakeabedofFalconer\'ssofa,HughneveroncereferredtotheobjectforwhichhehadacceptedMacPherson\'sprofferedintroduction;nordidFalconeraskhimanyquestions。HughwastoomuchinterestedandsaddenedbythescenesthroughwhichFalconerledhim,nottoshrinkfromspeakingofanythinglessimportant;andwithFalconeritwasarule,aprinciplealmost,nevertoexpediteutteranceofanysort。

  Inthemorning,feelingalittlegood-naturedanxietyastohislandlady\'sreceptionofhim,Hughmadesomeallusiontoit,ashesatathisnewfriend\'sbreakfast-table。

  Falconersaid:

  “Whatisyourlandlady\'sname?”

  “MissTalbot。“

  “Oh!littleMissTalbot?Youareingoodquarters——toogoodtolose,Icantellyou。JustsaytoMissTalbotthatyouwerewithme。“

  “Youknowher,then?”

  “Oh,yes。“

  “Youseemtoknoweverybody。“

  “IfIhavespokentoapersononce,Ineverforgethim。“

  “Thatseemstomeverystrange。“

  “Itissimpleenough。Thesecretofitis,that,asfarasIcanhelpit,Ineverhaveanymerelybusinessrelationswithanyone。I

  tryalwaysnottoforgetthatthereisadeeperrelationbetweenus。

  Icommonlysucceedworstinadrawing-room;yeteventhere,forthetimewearetogether,Itrytorecognisethepresenthumanity,howevermuchdistortedorconcealed。Theconsequenceis,Ineverforgetanybody;andIgenerallyfindthatothersrememberme——atleastthosewithwhomIhavehadanyrealrelations,springingfrommyneedorfromtheirs。Themanwhomendsabrokenchairforyou,orarentinyourcoat,rendersyouahumanservice;and,invirtueofthat,comesnearertoyourinnerself,thannine-tenthsoftheladiesandgentlemenwhomyoumeetonlyinwhatiscalledsociety,arelikelytodo。“

  “Butdoyounotfinditawkwardsometimes?”

  “Notintheleast。Iamneverashamedofknowinganyone;andasI

  neverassumeafamiliaritythatdoesnotexist,Ineverfinditassumedtowardsme。“

  HughfoundtheadvantageofFalconer\'ssociologywhenhementionedtoMissTalbotthathehadbeenhisguestthatnight。

  “Youshouldhavesentusword,Mr。Sutherland,“wasallMissTalbot\'sreply。

  “Icouldnotdosobeforeyoumusthavebeenallinbed。Iwassorry,butIcouldhardlyhelpit。“

  MissTalbotturnedawayintothekitchen。Theonlyotherindicationofherfeelinginthematterwas,thatshesenthimupacupofdeliciouschocolateforhislunch,beforehesetoutforMr。

  Appleditch\'s,whereshehadheardattheshopthathewasgoing。

  MyreadermustnotbelefttofearthatIamabouttogiveadetailedaccountofHugh\'splanswiththeseunpleasantlittleimmortals,whoseearthlynaturesprangfromapairwhosereligionconsistedchieflyinnegations,andwhosemaindutyseemedtobetomakemoneyinsmallsums,andspenditinsmaller。WhenhearrivedatBuccleuchCrescent,hewasshownintothedining-room,intowhichtheboyswereseparatelydragged,toreceivethefirstinstalmentofthementallegacyleftthembytheirancestors。Butthelegacy-dutywassoheavythattheywouldgladlyhavedeclinedpayingit,evenwiththelossofthelegacyitself;andHughwasdismayedattheimpossibilityofinterestingtheminanything。Hetriedtellingthemstorieseven,withoutsuccess。Theystaredathim,itistrue;

  butwhethertherewasmorespeculationintheopenmouths,orinthefishy,overfedeyes,hefounditimpossibletodetermine。HecouldnothelpfeelingtheriddleofProvidenceinregardtothebirthofthese,muchhardertoreadthanthatinvolvedinthecaseofsomeofthelittlethieveswhoseacquaintancehehadmade,whenwithFalconer,theeveningbefore。Buthedidhisbest;andbeforethetimehadexpired——twohours,namely,——hehadfoundout,tohissatisfaction,thattheelderhadaturnforsums,andtheyoungerfordrawing。Sohemadeuseofthesepredilectionstobribethemtotheexerciseoftheirintellectuponless-favouredbranchesofhumanaccomplishment。Hefoundtheplanoperateaswellasitcouldhavebeenexpectedtooperateuponsuchmaterial。

  Butoneortwolittleincidents,relatingtohisintercoursewithMrs。Appleditch,Imustnotomit。Thoughamother\'sloveismorereadytopurifyitselfthanmostotherloves——yetthereisaclassofmothers,whoseloveisonlyanextended,scarcelyanexpanded,selfishness。Mrs。Appleditchdidnotintheleastloveherchildrenbecausetheywerechildren,andchildrencommittedtohercarebytheFatherofallchildren;butshelovedthemdearlybecausetheywereherchildren。

  OnedayHughgaveMasterAppleditchasmartslapacrossthefingers,astheultimateresource。Thechildscreamedashewellknewhow。

  Hismotherburstintotheroom。

  “Johnny,holdyourtongue!”

  “Teacher\'sbeenandhurtme。“

  “Holdyourtongue,Isay。Myhead\'sliketosplit。Getoutoftheroom,youlittleruffian!”

  Sheseizedhimbytheshoulders,andturnedhimout,administeringaboxonhisearthatmadetheroomring。ThenturningtoHugh,“Mr。Sutherland,howdareyoustrikemychild?”shedemanded。

  “Herequiredit,Mrs。Appleditch。Ididhimnoharm。HewillmindwhatIsayanothertime。“

  “Iwillnothavehimtouched。It\'sdisgraceful。Tostrikeachild!”

  Shebelongedtothatclassofhumaneparentswhoconsideritcrueltoinflictanycorporalsufferinguponchildren,excepttheydoitthemselves,andinapassion。Johnniebehavedbetterafterthis,however;andtheonlyrevengeMrs。Appleditchtookforthisinterferencewiththedignityofhereldestborn,and,consequently,withherownashismother,was,that——withtheview,probably,ofimpressinguponHughaduesenseofthemenialpositionheoccupiedinherfamily——shealwayspaidhimhisfeeofoneshillingandsixpenceeverydaybeforeheleftthehouse。Onceortwiceshecontrivedaccidentallythatthesixpenceshouldbeincoppers。Hughwastoomuchofaphilosopher,however,tomindthisfromsuchawoman。Iamafraidheratherenjoyedherspite;forhefeltitdidnottouchhim,seeingitcouldnotbelesshonourabletobepaidbythedaythanbythequarterorbytheyear。Certainlythecopperswereanannoyance;butifthecopperscouldbecarried,theannoyancecouldbeborne。Therealdisgustintheaffairwas,thathehadtomeetandspeakwithawomaneveryday,forwhomhecouldfeelnothingbutcontemptandaversion。Hughwasnotyetabletominglewiththesefeelingsanyoftheleavenofthatcharitywhichtheyneedmostofallwhoarecontemptibleintheeyeoftheirfellows。Contemptismurdercommittedbytheintellect,ashatredismurdercommittedbytheheart。Charityhavinglifeinitself,istheoppositeanddestroyerofcontemptaswellasofhatred。

  Afterthis,nothingwentamissforsometime。Butitwasverydrearyworktoteachsuchboys——fortheyoungercameinfortheoddsixpence。Slow,stupid,resistanceappearedtobetheonlyprincipleoftheirbehaviourtowardshim。Theyscornedthemanwhomtheirmotherdespisedandvaluedfortheself-samereason,namely,thathewascheap。Theywouldhavedefiedhimhadtheydared,buthemanagedtoestablishanauthorityoverthem——andtoincreaseit。

  Still,hecouldnotrousethemtoanyrealinterestintheirstudies。Indeed,theywereasnearbeinglittlebeastsasitwaspossibleforchildrentobe。Theireyesgrewdullatastory-book,butgreedilybrightatthesightofbull\'seyesortoffee。Itwasthesamedayafterday,tillhewassickofit。Nodoubttheymadesomeprogress,butitwasscarcelyperceptibletohim。Throughfogandfair,throughfrostandsnow,throughwindandrain,hetrudgedtothatwretchedhouse。Noonemindstheweather——noyoungScotchman,atleast——whereanypleasurewaitsthecloseofthestruggle:tofighthiswaytomiserywasmorethanhecouldwellendure。Buthisdeliverancewasnearerthanheexpected。Itwasnottocomejustyet,however。

  Allwentonwithfrightfulsameness,tillsundrydoubtfulsymptomsofanalterationinthepersonalappearanceofHughhavingaccumulatedatlastintoamassofevidence,forcedtheconvictionuponthemindofthegrocer\'swife,thathertutorwasactuallygrowingabeard。Couldshebelievehereyes?Shesaidshecouldnot。Butsheactedontheirtestimonynotwithstanding;andonedaysuddenlyaddressingHugh,said,inherusualcold,thin,cuttingfashionofspeech:

  “Mr。Sutherland,Iamastonishedandgrievedthatyou,ateacherofbabes,whoshouldsetanexampletothem,shoulddisguiseyourselfinsuchanoutlandishfigure。“

  “Whatdoyoumean,Mrs。Appleditch?”askedHugh,who,thoughhehadmadeuphismindtofollowtheexampleofFalconer,yetfeltuncomfortableenough,duringthetransitionperiod,toknowquitewellwhatshemeant。

  “WhatdoImean,sir?Itisashameforamantolethisbeardgrowlikeamonkey。“

  “Butamonkeyhasn\'tabeard,“retortedHugh,laughing。“Manistheonlyanimalwhohasone。“

  Thisassertion,ifnotquitecorrect,wasapproximatelyso,andwentmuchnearerthetruththanMrs。Appleditch\'sargument。

  “It\'snojokingmatter,Mr。Sutherland,withmytwodarlingsgrowinguptobeministersofthegospel。“

  “What!bothofthem?”thoughtHugh。“Goodheavens!”Buthesaid:

  “Well,butyouknow,Mrs。Appleditch,theApostlesthemselvesworebeards。“

  “Yes,whentheywereJews。Butwhowouldhavebelievedthemiftheyhadpreachedthegospellikeoldclothesmen?No,no,Mr。

  Sutherland,Iseethroughallthat。Myownunclewasapreacheroftheword——AssoonastheApostlesbecameChristians,theyshaved。

  ItwasthesignofChristianity。TheApostlePaulhimselfsaysthatcleanlinessisnexttogodliness。“

  Hughrestrainedhislaughter,andshiftedhisground。

  “Butthereisnothingdirtyaboutthem,“hesaid。

  “Notdirty?Nowreally,Mr。Sutherland,youprovokeme。Nothingdirtyinlonghairallroundyourmouth,andgoingintoiteveryspoonfulyoutake?”

  “Butitcanbekeptproperlytrimmed,youknow。“

  “Butwho\'stotrustyoutodothat?No,no,Mr。Sutherland;youmustnotmakeaguyofyourself。“

  Hughlaughed,andsaidnothing。Ofcoursehisbeardwouldgoongrowing,forhecouldnothelpit。

  SodidMrs。Appleditch\'swrath。

  CHAPTERX。

  CONSULTATIONS。

  WokeineG鰐tersind,waltenGespenster。

  NOVALIS——Christenheit。

  Wheregodsarenot,spectresrule。

  EinCharakteristeinvollkommengebildeterWille。

  NOVALIS——MoralischeAnsichten。

  Acharacterisaperfectlyformedwill。

  ItwasnotlongbeforeHughrepeatedhisvisittoFalconer。Hewasnotathome。Hewentagainandagain,butstillfailedinfindinghim。Thedayafterthethirdfailure,however,hereceivedanotefromFalconer,mentioninganhouratwhichhewouldbeathomeonthefollowingevening。Hughwent。Falconerwaswaitingforhim。

  “Iamverysorry。Iamoutsomuch,“saidFalconer。

  “IoughttohavetakentheopportunitywhenIhadit,“repliedHugh。

  “Iwanttoaskyourhelp。MayIbeginatthebeginning,andtellyouallthestory?ormustIepitomizeandcurtailit?”

  “Beasdiffuseasyouplease。Ishallunderstandthethingthebetter。“

  SoHughbegan,andtoldthewholeofhishistory,inasfarasitboreuponthestoryofthecrystal。Heendedwiththewords:

  “Itrust,Mr。Falconer,youwillnotthinkthatitisfromaloveoftalkingthatIhavesaidsomuchaboutthisaffair。“

  “Certainlynot。Itisaremarkablestory。Iwillthinkwhatcanbedone。MeantimeIwillkeepmyeyesandearsopen。Imayfindthefellow。Tellmewhatheislike。“

  Hughgaveasminuteadescriptionofthecountashecould。

  “IthinkIseetheman,“saidFalconer。“IamprettysureIshallrecognisehim。“

  “Haveyouanyideawhathecouldwantwiththering?”

  “Itisoneofthecuriouscoincidenceswhicharealwayshappening,“

  answeredFalconer,“thatanewspaperofthisverydaywouldhaveenabledme,withoutanypreviousknowledgeofsimilarfacts,togiveaprobablycorrectsuggestionastohisobject。Butyoucanjudgeforyourself。“

  Sosaying,Falconerwenttoaside-table,heapedupwithbooksandpapers,maps,andinstrumentsofvariouskinds,apparentlyintriumphantconfusion。Withoutamoment\'shesitation,notwithstanding,heselectedthepaperhewanted,andhandedittoHugh,whoreadinitalettertotheeditor,ofwhichthefollowingisaportion:——

  “Ihaveforoverthirtyyearsbeeninthehabitofinvestigatingthequestionbymeansofcrystals。Andsince18——,Ihavepossessedthecelebratedcrystal,oncebelongingtoLadyBlessington,inwhichverymanypersons,bothchildrenandadults,haveseenvisionsofthespiritsofthedeceased,orofbeingsclaimingtobesuch,andofnumerousangelsandotherbeingsofthespiritualworld。ThesehaveinallcasessupportedthepurestandmostliberalChristianity。ThefacultyofseeinginthecrystalIhavefoundtoexistinaboutonepersonintenamongadults,andinnearlynineineverytenamongchildren;manyofwhomappeartolosethefacultyastheygrowtoadultage,unlesstheypractiseitcontinually。“

  “Isitpossible,“saidHugh,pausing,“thatthiscanbeaveritablepaperofto-day?Aretherepeopletobelievesuchthings?”

  “Therearemorefoolsintheworld,Mr。Sutherland,thantherearecrystalsinitsmountains。“

  Hughresumedhisreading。Hecameatlengthtothispassage:

  “Thespirits——whichIfeelcertaintheyare——whichappear,donothesitatetoinformusonallpossiblesubjectswhichmaytendtoimproveourmorals,andconfirmourfaithintheChristiandoctrines……Thecharactertheygiveoftheclassofspiritswhoareinthehabitofcommunicatingwithmortalsbyrappingandsuchproceedings,issuchthatitbehovesallChristianpeopletobeontheirguardagainsterroranddelusionthroughtheirmeans。“

  Hughhadreadthispassagealoud。

  “Isnotthatacomfort,now,Mr。Sutherland?”saidFalconer。“ForinallthereportswhichIhaveseenofthereligiousinstructioncommunicatedinthathighlyarticulatemanner,Calvinism,highandlow,haspredominated。IstronglysuspectthecrystalphantomsofArminianism,though。FancytheolddisputesofinfantChristendomperpetuatedamongstthepaltryghostsofanotherrealm!”

  “But,“saidHugh,“Idonotquiteseehowthisistohelpme,astothecount\'sobjectinsecuringthering;forcertainly,howeverdeficienthemaybeinsuchknowledge,heisnotlikelytohavecommittedthetheftforthesakeofinstructioninthedoctrinesofthesects。“

  “No。Butsuchacrystalmightbeputtoother,nottosaybetter,uses。Besides,LadyBlessington\'scrystalmightbeapiouscrystal;

  andtheotherwhichbelongedtoLady——“

  “LadyEuphrasia。“

  “ToLadyEuphrasia,mightbeaworldlycrystalaltogether。Thismightrevealdemonsandtheircounsels,whilethatwashauntedbytheologicalangelsandevangelicalghosts。“

  “Ah!Isee。Ishouldhavethought,however,thatthecounthadbeentoomuchofamanoftheworldtobelievesuchthings。“

  “Hemightfindhisaccountinit,notwithstanding。Butnoamountofworld-wisdomcansetamanabovetheinroadsofsuperstition。Infact,thereisbutonethingthatcanfreeamanfromsuperstition,andthatisbelief。Allhistoryprovesit。Themostscepticalhaveeverbeenthemostcredulous。Thisisoneofthebestargumentsfortheexistenceofsomethingtobelieve。“

  “YouremindmeofapassageinmystorywhichIomitted,asirrelevanttothematterinhand。“

  “Doletmehaveit。Itcannotfailtointerestme。“

  Hughgaveacompleteaccountoftheexperimentstheyhadmadewiththecareeringplate。NowthewritingofthenameofDavidElginbrodwasthemostremarkablephenomenonofthewhole,andHughwascompelled,inrespondingtothenaturalinterestofFalconer,togiveadescriptionofDavid。ThisledtoasketchofhisownsojournatTurriepuffit;inwhichthecharacterofDavidcameoutfarmoreplainlythanitcouldhavecomeoutinanydescription。

  Whenhehadfinished,Falconerbrokeout,asifhehadbeenhithertorestraininghiswrathwithdifficulty:

  “Andthatwasthemanthecreaturesdaredtopersonate!Ihatethewholething,Sutherland。Itisfullofimpudenceandirreverence。

  Perhapsthewretchedbeingsmaywantanotherthousandyears\'

  damnation,becauseoftheinjurydonetotheircharacterbythehomageofmenwhooughttoknowbetter。“

  “Idonotquiteunderstandyou。“

  “Imean,thatyououghttobelieveaseasilythatsuchamanasyoudescribeislaughingwiththedevilandhisangels,asthathewroteacopyattheorderofacharlatan,orworse。“

  “Butitcouldhardlybedeception。“

  “Notdeception?Amanlikehimcouldnotgetthroughthemwithoutbeingrecognised。“

  “Idon\'tunderstandyou。Bywhom?”

  “Byswarmsoflowmiserablecreaturesthatsolamentthelossoftheirbeggarlybodiesthattheywouldbrooduponthemintheshapeofflesh-flies,ratherthanforsaketheputrifyingremnants。Afterthat,chairortableoranythingthattheycancomeintocontactwith,possessesquitesufficientorganizationforsuch。Don\'tyourememberthatonce,ratherthanhavenobodytogointo,theycreptintotheveryswine?Therewasafinepassionforself-embodimentandsympathy!Buttheswinethemselvescouldnotstandit,andpreferreddrowning。“

  “Thenyoudothinktherewassomethingsupernaturalinit?”

  “Nothingintheleast。Itrequirednosupernaturalpowerstobeawarethatagreatmanwasdead,andthatyouhadknownhimwell。

  Itannoysme,Sutherland,thatablemen,ay,andgoodmentoo,shouldconsultwithghostswhoseonlypossiblesuperiorityconsistsintheirbeingoutofthebody。Whyshouldtheybethewiserforthat?Ishouldassoonexpecttogainwisdombytakingoffmyclothes,andtoloseitbygettingintobed;ortoriseintotheseventhheavenofspiritualitybyhavingmyhaircut。Animpudentforgeryofthatgoodman\'sname!IfIwereyou,Sutherland,Iwouldhavenothingtodowithsuchalowset。Theyarethecanailleoftheotherworld。It\'sofnousetolayholdontheirskirts,fortheycan\'tfly。They\'rejustlikethevultures——easytocatch,becausethey\'refullofgarbage。Idoubtiftheyhavemoreintellectleftthanjustenoughtoliewith——Ihavebeencompelledtothinkagooddealaboutthesethingsoflate。“

  FalconerputagoodmanyquestionstoHugh,aboutEuphraandherrelationtothecount;andsuchwastheconfidencewithwhichhehadinspiredhim,thatHughfeltatperfectlibertytoanswerthemallfully,notavoidingeventheexposureofhisownfeelings,wherethatwasinvolvedbythestory。

  “Now,“saidFalconer,“Ihavematerialoutofwhichtoconstructatheory。Thecountisatpresentlikealawofnatureconcerningwhichaprudentquestionisthefirsthalfoftheanswer,asLordBaconsays;andyoucanputnoquestionwithouthavingfirstformedatheory,howeverslightortemporary;forotherwisenoquestionwillsuggestitself。But,inthemeantime,asIsaidbefore,IwillmakeinquiryuponthetheorythatheissomewhereinLondon,althoughIdoubtit。“

  “ThenIwillnotoccupyyourtimeanylongeratpresent,“saidHugh。

  “Couldyousay,withoutfetteringyourselfintheleast,whenI

  mightbeabletoseeyouagain?”

  “Letmesee。Iwillmakeanappointmentwithyou——NextSunday;

  here;atteno\'clockinthemorning。Makeanoteofit。“

  “Thereisnofearofmyforgettingit。MyconsolationsarenotsonumerousthatIcanaffordtoforgetmysolepleasure。You,I

  shouldthink,havemoreneedtomakeanoteofitthanI,thoughI

  amquitewillingtobeforgotten,ifnecessary。“

  “Ineverforgetmyengagements,“saidFalconer。

  Theyparted,andHughwenthometohisnovel。

  CHAPTERXI。

  QUESTIONSANDDREAMS。

  OnacertaintimetheLadySt。MaryhadcommandedtheLordJesustofetchhersomewateroutofthewell。Andwhenhehadgonetofetchthewater,thepitcher,whenitwasbroughtupfull,brake。ButJesus,spreadinghismantle,gatheredupthewateragain,andbroughtitinthattohismother——TheFirstapocryphalGospeloftheINFANCYofJESUSCHRIST。

  Mrs。Eltonreadprayersmorningandevening;——veryelaboratecompositions,whichwouldhaveinstructedtheapostlesthemselvesinmanythingstheyhadneveranticipated。But,unfortunately,Mrs。

  Eltonmustlikewisereadcertainremarks,intheformofahomily,intendedtoimpressthescripturewhichprecededituponthemindsofthelisteners。Betweenthemortarofthehomilist\'sfaith,andthedullblowsofthepestleofhisarrogance,thefairformoftruthwasgroundintothepowderofpioussmalltalk。ThisresultwasnotpleasanteithertoHarryortoEuphra。Euphra,withherlifethreateningtogotoruinabouther,wascryingoutforhimwhomadethesoulofman,“wholovedusintobeing,“2andwhoalonecanrenewthelifeofhischildren;andinsuchwordsasthoseascoffingdemonseemedtomockatherneeds。Harryhadthenaturaldislikeofallchildlikenaturestoeverythingformal,exclusive,andunjust。But,havingreceivednothingofwhatiscommonlycalledareligioustraining,thisadvantageresultedfromhisnewexperiencesinMrs。Elton\'sfamily,thatagooddirectionwasgiventohisthoughtsbythedislikewhichhefelttosuchutterances。

  Morethanthis:ahorrorfelluponhimlestthesethingsshouldbetrue;lestthemightyAllofnatureshouldbeonlyamechanism,withoutexpressionandwithoutbeauty;lesttheGodwhomadeusshouldbelikeusonlyinthis,thathetoowasselfishandmeanandproud;lesthisideasshouldresemblethosethatinhabitthebrainofaretiredmoney-maker,orofanarbitrarymonarchclaimingadivineright——insteadoftoweringastheheavensovertheearth,abovetheloftiestmoodsofhighestpoet,mostgenerouschild,ormostdevotedmother。IdonotmeanthatthesethoughtstooktheseshapesinHarry\'smind;butthathisfeelingsweresuchasmighthavebeencondensedintosuchthoughts,hadhisintellectbeenmoremature。

  Onemorning,thepassageofscripturewhichMrs。EltonreadwasthestoryoftheyoungmanwhocametoJesus,andwentawaysorrowful,becausetheLordthoughtsowellofhim,andlovedhimsoheartily,thathewantedtosethimfreefromhisriches。AgreatportionofthehomilywasoccupiedwithprovingthattheevangelistcouldnotpossiblymeanthatJesuslovedtheyoungmaninanypregnantsenseoftheword;butmerelymeantthatJesus“feltkindlydisposedtowardshim“——feltapoorlittlehumaninterestinhim,infact,anddidnotlovehimdivinelyatall。

  Harry\'sfacewasinaflameallthetimeshewasreading。Whentheservicewasover——andabondserviceitwasforEuphraandhim——theylefttheroomtogether。Assoonasthedoorwasshut,heburstout:

  “Isay,Euphra!Wasn\'tthatashame?TheywouldhaveJesusasbadasthemselves。WeshallhavesomebodywritingabooknexttoprovethatafterallJesuswasaPharisee。“

  “Nevermind,“saidtheheart-sore,scepticalEuphra;“nevermind,Harry;it\'sallnonsense。“

  “No,it\'snotallnonsense。Jesusdidlovetheyoungman。I

  believethestoryitselfbeforealltheDoctorsofDivinityintheworld。Helovesallofus,hedoes——withallhisheart,too。“

  “Ihopeso,“wasallshecouldreply;butshewascomfortedbyHarry\'svehementconfessionoffaith。

  Euphrawassofarsoftened,orperhapsweakened,bysuffering,thatsheyieldedmanythingswhichwouldhaveseemedimpossiblebefore。

  OneofthesewasthatshewenttochurchwithMrs。Elton,wherethatladyhopedshewouldgetgoodtohersoul。Harryofcoursewasnotleftbehind。Thechurchshefrequentedwasafashionableone,withavicarmorefashionablestill;forhadheleftthatchurch,morethanhalfhiscongregation,whichconsistedmostlyofladies,wouldhaveleftitalso,andfollowedhimtotheendsofLondon。Hewasamiddle-agedman,witharubicundcountenance,andagentlefamiliarityofmanner,thatwasexceedinglypleasingtothefashionablesheepwho,consciousthattheyhadwanderedfromthefold,werewaitingwithexemplarypatienceforthebarouchesandmail-phaetonsoftheskiestocarrythembackwithoutthetroubleofwalking。Alasforthem!theyhavetolearnthatthechariotsofheavenarechariotsoffire。

  TheSundaymorningfollowingtheconversationIhavejustrecorded,theclergyman\'ssermonwasdevotedtotheillustrationofthegreatnessandcondescensionoftheSaviour。Afteracertainamountoftameexcitementexpendedupontheconsiderationofhispowerandkingdom,onepassagewaswoundupinthisfashion:

  “Yes,myfriends,evenhermostgraciousMajesty,QueenVictoria,therulerovermillionsdiverseinspeechandinhue,towhomwealllookupwithhumblesubmission,andwhomweacknowledgeasoursovereignlady——evenshe,greatassheis,addsbyherhomageajeweltohiscrown;and,hailinghimasherLord,bowsandrendershimworship!Yetthisishewhocomesdowntovisit,yea,dwellswithhisownelect,hischosenones,whomhehasledbacktothefoldofhisgrace。“

  Forsomereason,knowntohimself,FalconerhadtakenHugh,whohadgonetohimaccordingtoappointmentthatmorning,tothissamechurch。Astheycameout,Hughsaid:

  “Mr——isquiteproudofthehonourdonehismasterbythequeen。“

  “Idonotthink,“answeredFalconer,“thathismasterwillthinksomuchofit;forheoncehadhisfeetwashedbyawomanthatwasasinner。“

  ThehomilywhichMrs。Eltonreadatprayersthatevening,boreuponthesamesubjectnominallyasthechapterthatprecededit——thatofelection;adoctrinewhichintheBibleassertsthefactofGod\'schoosingcertainpersonsforthespecificpurposeofreceivingfirst,andsocommunicatingthegiftsofhisgracetothewholeworld;butwhich,inthehomilyreferredto,wastakentomeanthechoiceofcertainpersonsforultimatesalvation,totheexclusionoftherest。Theyweresittinginsilenceaftertheclose,whenHarrystartedupsuddenly,saying:“Idon\'twantGodtoloveme,ifhedoesnotloveeverybody;“and,burstingintotears,hurriedoutoftheroom。Mrs。Eltonwasawfullyshockedathiswickedness。

  Euphra,hastenedafterhim;buthewouldnotreturn,andwentsupperlesstobed。Euphra,however,carriedhimsomesupper。Hesatupinbedandateitwiththetearsinhiseyes。Shekissedhim,andbadehimgoodnight;when,justasshewasleavingtheroom,hebrokeoutwith:

  “Butonlythink,Euphra,ifitshouldbetrue!Iwouldrathernothavebeenmade。“

  “Itisnottrue,“saidEuphra,inwhomafaintglimmeroffaithinGodawokeforthesakeoftheboywhomsheloved——awoketocomforthim,whenitwouldnotopenitseyesforherself。“No,Harrydear,ifthereisaGodatall,heisnotlikethat。“

  “No,hecan\'tbe,“saidHarry,vehemently,andwiththebrightnessofasuddenthought;“forifhewerelikethat,hewouldn\'tbeaGodworthbeing;andthatcouldn\'tbe,youknow。“

  Euphrakneltbyherbedside,andprayedmorehopefullythanformanydaysbefore。SheprayedthatGodwouldletherknowthathewasnotanidolofman\'sinvention。

  Tillfriendlysleepcame,anduntiedtheknotofcare,bothEuphraandHarrylaytroubledwiththingstoogreatforthem。Evenintheirsleep,thecarewouldgatheragain,andbodyitselfintodreams。ThefirstthoughtthatvisitedHarrywhenheawoke,wasthememoryofhisdream:thathediedandwenttoheaven;thatheavenwasagreatchurchjustliketheoneMrs。Eltonwentto,onlylarger;thatthepewswerefilledwithangels,socrowdedtogetherthattheyhadtotuckuptheirwingsverycloseindeed——andHarrycouldnothelpwonderingwhattheywantedthemfor;thattheywereallsingingpsalms;thatthepulpitbyalittlechangehadbeenconvertedintoathrone,onwhichsatGodtheFather,lookingverysolemnandsevere;thatJesuswasseatedinthereading-desk,lookingverysad;andthattheHolyGhostsatontheclerk\'sdesk,intheshapeofawhitedove;thatacherub,whosefaceremindedhimverymuchofapolicemanheknew,tookhimbytheshoulderfortryingtopluckasplendidgreenfeatheroutofanarchangel\'swing,andledhimuptothethrone,whereGodshookhisheadathiminsuchadreadfulway,thathewasterrified,andthenstretchedouthishandtolayholdonhim;thatheshriekedwithfear;andthatJesusputouthishandandliftedhimintothereading-desk,andhidhimdownbelow。AndthereHarrylay,feelingsosafe,strokingandkissingthefeetthathadbeenwearyandwoundedforhim,till,inthegrowingdelightofthethoughtthatheactuallyheldthosefeet,hecameawakeandremembereditall。Trulyitwasachildishdream,butnotwithoutitsownsignificance。ForsurelytheonlyrefugefromheathenishrepresentationsofGodunderChristianforms,theonlyrefugefromman\'sblindingandparalysingtheories,fromthedeadwoodenshapessubstitutedforthelivingformsofhumanloveandhopeandaspiration,fromtheinterpretationswhichrenderscriptureasdryasaspeechinChancery——surelytheonerefugefromalltheseawfulevilsistheSonofman;fornomisrepresentationandnomisconceptioncandestroythebeautyofthatfacewhichthemarringofsorrowhaselevatedintotheregionofreality,beyondthemarringofirreverentspeculationandscholasticdefinition。

  >FromtheGodofman\'spainting,weturntothemanofGod\'sbeing,andheleadsustothetrueGod,theradiationofwhoseglorywefirstseeinhim。Happyisthatmanwhohasaglimpseofthis,eveninadreamsuchasHarry\'s!——adreaminotherrespectschildishandincongruous,butnotmoreabsurdthantheinstructionwhenceitsprung。

  Butthetroublesreturnedwiththeday。Prayersrevivedthem。HesoughtEuphrainherroom。

  “TheysayImustrepentandbesorryformysins,“saidhe。“Ihavebeentryingveryhard;butIcan\'tthinkofany,exceptoncethatI

  gaveGog“hisWelshpony“suchabeatingbecausehewouldgowhereIdidn\'twanthim。Buthe\'sforgottenitlongago;andIgavehimtwofeedsofcornafterit,andsosomehowIcan\'tfeelverysorrynow。WhatshallIdo?——Butthat\'snotwhatImindmost。ItalwaysseemstomeitwouldbesomuchgranderofGodtosay:\'Comealong,nevermind。I\'llmakeyougood。Ican\'twaittillyouaregood;I

  loveyousomuch。\'“

  HisownwordsweretoomuchforHarry,andheburstintotearsatthethoughtofGodbeingsokind。Euphra,insteadoftryingtocomforthim,criedtoo。Thustheycontinuedforsometime,Harrywithhisheadonherknees,andshekindlyfondlingitwithherdistressedhands。Harrywasthefirsttorecover;forhiswastheApriltime,whenrainclearstheheavens。Allatoncehesprungtohisfeet,andexclaimed:

  “Onlythink,Euphra!Whatif,afterall,IshouldfindoutthatGodisaskindasyouare!”

  HowEuphra\'sheartsmoteher!

  “DearHarry,“answeredshe,“GodmustbeagreatdealkinderthanI

  am。Ihavenotbeenkindtoyouatall。“

  “Don\'tsaythat,Euphra。IshallbequitecontentifGodisaskindasyou。“

  “Oh,Harry!IhopeGodislikewhatIdreamedaboutmymotherlastnight。“

  “Tellmewhatyoudreamedabouther,dearEuphra。“

  “IdreamedthatIwasalittlechild——“

  “Wereyoualittlegirlwhenyourmotherdied?”

  “Oh,yes;suchatiny!ButIcanjustrememberher。“

  “Tellmeyourdream,then。“

  “IdreamedthatIwasalittlegirl,outallaloneonawildmountain-moor,trippingandstumblingonmynight-gown。Andthewindwassocold!And,somehoworother,thewindwasanenemytome,anditfollowedandcaughtme,andwhirledandtossedmeabout,andthenranawayagain。ThenIhastenedon,andthethornswentintomyfeet,andthestonescutthem。AndIheardthebloodfromthemtricklingdownthehill-sideasIwalked。“

  “ThentheywouldbelikethefeetIsawinmydreamlastnight。“

  “Whosefeetwerethey?”

  “Jesus\'feet。“

  “Tellmeaboutit。“

  “Youmustfinishyoursfirst,please,Euphra。“

  SoEuphrawenton:

  “Igotdreadfullylame。Andthewindranafterme,andcaughtmeagain,andtookmeinhisgreatblueghostlyarms,andshookmeabout,andthendroppedmeagaintogoon。Butitwasveryhardtogoon,andIcouldn\'tstop;andtherewasnouseinstopping,forthewindwaseverywhereinamoment。ThensuddenlyIsawbeforemeagreatcataract,allinwhite,fallingflashfromaprecipice;andIthoughtwithmyself,\'Iwillgointothecataract,anditwillbeatmylifeout,andthenthewindwillnotgetmeanymore。\'SoI

  hastenedtowardsit,butthewindcaughtmemanytimesbeforeIgotnearit。AtlastIreachedit,andthrewmyselfdownintothebasinithadhollowedoutoftherocks。ButasIwasfalling,somethingcaughtmegently,andheldmefast,anditwasnotthewind。I

  openedmyeyes,andbehold!Iwasinmymother\'sarms,andshewasclaspingmetoherbreast;forwhatIhadtakenforacataractfallingintoagulf,wasonlymymother,withherwhitegrave-clothesfloatingallabouther,standingupinhergrave,tolookafterme。\'Itwastimeyoucamehome,mydarling,\'shesaid,andstoopeddownintohergravewithmeinherarms。Andoh!Iwassohappy;andherbosomwasnotcold,orherarmshard,andshecarriedmejustlikeababy。Andwhenshestoopeddown,thenadooropenedsomewhereinthegrave,Icouldnotfindoutwhereexactly——andinamomentafter,weweresittingtogetherinasummergrove,withthetree-topssteepedinsunshine,andwavingaboutinaquietlovingwind——oh,howdifferentfromtheonethatchasedmehome!——andweunderneathintheshadowofthetrees。AndthenI

  said,\'Mother,I\'vehurtmyfeet。\'“

  “Didyoucallhermotherwhenyouwerealittlegirl?”interposedHarry。

  “No,“answeredEuphra。“Icalledhermamma,likeotherchildren;butinmydreamsIalwayscallhermother。“

  “Andwhatdidshesay?”

  “Shesaid——\'Poorchild!\'——andheldmyfeettoherbosom;andafterthat,whenIlookedatthem,thebleedingwasallgone,andIwasnotlameanymore。“

  Euphra,pausedwithasigh。

  “Oh,Harry!Idonotliketobelame。“

  “Whatmore?”saidHarry,intentonlyonthedream。

  “Oh!thenIwassohappy,thatIwokeupdirectly。“

  “Whatapity!Butifitshouldcometrue?”

  “Howcoulditcometrue,dearHarry?”

  “Why,thisworldissometimescold,andtheroadishard——youknowwhatImean,Euphra。“

  “Yes,Ido。“

  “IwishIcoulddreamdreamslikethat!Howcleveryoumustbe!”

  “Butyoudreamdreams,too,Harry。Tellmeyours。“

  “Oh,no,Ineverdreamdreams;thedreamsdreamme,“answeredHarry,withasmile。

  Thenhetoldhisdream,towhichEuphralistenedwithaninterestuninjuredbythegrotesquenessofitsfancy。Eachinterpretedtheother\'swithreverence。

  Theyceasedtalking;andsatsilentforawhile。ThenHarry,puttinghisarmsroundEuphra\'sneck,andhislipsclosetoherear,whispered:

  “PerhapsGodwillsaymydarlingtoyousomeday,Euphra;justasyourmotherdidinyourdream。“

  Shewassilent。Harrylookedroundintoherface,andsawthatthetearswereflowingfast。

  Atthatinstant,agentleknockcametothedoor。Euphracouldnotreplytoit。Itwasrepeated。Afteranothermoment\'sdelay,thedooropened,andMargaretwalkedin。

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