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  CHAPTERV

  7。But_how_didstthoumaketheheavenandtheearth,andwhatwasthetoolofsuchamightyworkasthine?Foritwasnotlikeahumanworkerfashioningbodyfrombody,accordingtothefancyofhismind,ablesomehoworothertoimposeonitaformwhichthemindperceivedinitselfbyitsinnereyeyethowshouldevenhebeabletodothis,ifthouhadstnotmadethatmind?。Heimposestheformonsomethingalreadyexistingandhavingsomesortofbeing,suchasclay,orstoneorwoodorgoldorsuchlikeandwherewouldthesethingscomefromifthouhadstnotfurnishedthem?。Forthoumadesthisbodyfortheartisan,andthoumadestthemindwhichdirectsthelimbs;thoumadestthematterfromwhichhemakesanything;thoudidstcreatethecapacitybywhichheunderstandshisartandseeswithinhismindwhathemaydowiththethingsbeforehim;thougavesthimhisbodilysensebywhich,asifhehadaninterpreter,hemaycommunicatefrommindtomatterwhatheproposestodoandreportbacktohismindwhathasbeendone,thatthemindmayconsultwiththeTruthwhichpresidethoveritastowhetherwhatisdoneiswelldone。

  Allthesethingspraisethee,theCreatorofthemall。Buthowdidstthoumakethem?How,OGod,didstthoumaketheheavenandearth?Fortruly,neitherinheavennoronearthdidstthoumakeheavenandearth——norintheairnorinthewaters,sinceallofthesealsobelongtotheheavenandtheearth。Nowhereinthewholeworlddidstthoumakethewholeworld,becausetherewasnoplacewhereitcouldbemadebeforeitwasmade。Andthoudidstnotholdanythinginthyhandfromwhichtofashiontheheavenandtheearth,[421]forwherecouldstthouhavegottenwhatthouhadstnotmadeinordertomakesomethingwithit?Isthere,indeed,anythingatallexceptbecausethouart?Thusthoudidstspeakandtheyweremade,[422]andbythyWordthoudidstmakethemall。

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  8。Buthowdidstthouspeak?Wasitinthesamemannerinwhichthevoicecamefromthecloudsaying,”ThisismybelovedSon”[423]?Forthatvoicesoundedforthanddiedaway;itbeganandended。Thesyllablessoundedandpassedaway,thesecondafterthefirst,thethirdafterthesecond,andthenceinorder,tilltheverylastafteralltherest;andsilenceafterthelast。

  Fromthisitisclearandplainthatitwastheactionofacreature,itselfintime,whichsoundedthatvoice,obeyingthyeternalwill。Andwhatthesewordswerewhichwereformedatthattimetheouterearconveyedtotheconsciousmind,whoseinnerearlayattentivelyopentothyeternalWord。Butitcomparedthosewordswhichsoundedintimewiththyeternalwordsoundinginsilenceandsaid:”Thisisdifferent;quitedifferent!Thesewordsarefarbelowme;theyarenotevenreal,fortheyflyawayandpass,buttheWordofmyGodremainsabovemeforever。”If,then,inwordsthatsoundandfadeawaythoudidstsaythatheavenandearthshouldbemade,andthus_madest_heavenandearth,thentherewasalreadysomekindofcorporealcreature_before_heavenandearthbywhosemotionsintimethatvoicemighthavehaditsoccurrenceintime。Buttherewasnothingcorporealbeforetheheavenandtheearth;oriftherewas,thenitiscertainthatalready,withoutatime-boundvoice,thouhadstcreatedwhateveritwasoutofwhichthoudidstmakethetime-boundvoicebywhichthoudidstsay,”Lettheheavenandtheearthbemade!”Forwhateveritwasoutofwhichsuchavoicewasmadesimplydidnotexistatalluntilitwasmadebythee。WasitdecreedbythyWordthatabodymightbemadefromwhichsuchwordsmightcome?

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  9。Thoudostcallus,then,tounderstandtheWord——theGodwhoisGodwiththee——whichisspokeneternallyandbywhichallthingsarespokeneternally。Forwhatwasfirstspokenwasnotfinished,andthensomethingelsespokenuntilthewholeserieswasspoken;butallthings,atthesametimeandforever。

  For,otherwise,weshouldhavetimeandchangeandnotatrueeternity,noratrueimmortality。

  ThisIknow,OmyGod,andIgivethanks。Iknow,Iconfesstothee,OLord,andwhoeverisnotungratefulforcertaintruthsknowsandblessestheealongwithme。Weknow,OLord,thismuchweknow:thatinthesameproportionasanythingisnotwhatitwas,andiswhatitwasnot,inthatverysameproportionitpassesawayorcomestobe。ButthereisnothinginthyWordthatpassesawayorreturnstoitsplace;foritistrulyimmortalandeternal。And,therefore,untotheWordcoeternalwiththee,atthesametimeandalwaysthousayestallthatthousayest。Andwhateverthousayestshallbemadeismade,andthoumakestnothingotherwisethanbyspeaking。Still,notallthethingsthatthoudostmakebyspeakingaremadeatthesametimeandalways。

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  10。Whyisthis,Iaskofthee,OLordmyGod?Iseeitafterafashion,butIdonotknowhowtoexpressit,unlessIsaythateverythingthatbeginstobeandthenceasestobebeginsandceaseswhenitisknowninthyeternalReasonthatitoughttobeginorcease——inthyeternalReasonwherenothingbeginsorceases。AndthisisthyWord,whichisalso”theBeginning,”

  becauseitalsospeakstous。[424]Thus,inthegospel,hespokethroughtheflesh;andthissoundedintheoutwardearsofmensothatitmightbebelievedandsoughtforwithin,andsothatitmightbefoundintheeternalTruth,inwhichthegoodandonlyMasterteachethallhisdisciples。[425]There,OLord,Ihearthyvoice,thevoiceofonespeakingtome,sincehewhoteachethusspeakethtous。Buthethatdothnotteachusdothnotreallyspeaktousevenwhenhespeaketh。YetwhoisitthatteachethusunlessitbetheTruthimmutable?Forevenwhenweareinstructedbymeansofthemutablecreation,wearetherebyledtotheTruthimmutable。Therewelearntrulyaswestandandhearhim,andwerejoicegreatly”becauseofthebridegroom’svoice,”[426]

  restoringustothesourcewhenceourbeingcomes。Andtherefore,unlesstheBeginningremainedimmutable,therewouldthennotbeaplacetowhichwemightreturnwhenwehadwanderedaway。Butwhenwereturnfromerror,itisthroughourgainingknowledgethatwereturn。Inorderforustogainknowledgeheteachethus,sinceheistheBeginning,andspeakethtous。

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  11。InthisBeginning,OGod,thouhastmadeheavenandearth——throughthyWord,thySon,thyPower,thyWisdom,thyTruth:allwondrouslyspeakingandwondrouslycreating。Whoshallcomprehendsuchthingsandwhoshalltellofit?Whatisitthatshineththroughmeandstrikethmyheartwithoutinjury,sothatI

  bothshudderandburn?IshudderbecauseIamunlikeit;IburnbecauseIamlikeit。ItisWisdomitselfthatshineththroughme,clearingawaymyfog,whichsoreadilyoverwhelmsmesothatI

  faintinit,inthedarknessandburdenofmypunishment。Formystrengthisbroughtdowninneediness,sothatIcannotendureevenmyblessingsuntilthou,OLord,whohastbeengracioustoallmyiniquities,alsohealestallmyinfirmities——foritisthouwho”shaltredeemmylifefromcorruption,andcrownmewithloving-kindnessandtendermercy,andshaltsatisfymydesirewithgoodthingssothatmyyouthshallberenewedliketheeagle’s。”[427]Forbythishopewearesaved,andthroughpatienceweawaitthypromises。Lethimthatisableheartheespeakingtohisinnermind。Iwillcryoutwithconfidencebecauseofthyownoracle,”Howwonderfularethyworks,OLord;

  inwisdomthouhastmadethemall。”[428]AndthisWisdomistheBeginning,andinthatBeginningthouhastmadeheavenandearth。

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  12。Now,arenotthosestillfulloftheiroldcarnalnature[429]whoaskus:”WhatwasGoddoing_before_hemadeheavenandearth?Forifhewasidle,”theysay,”anddoingnothing,thenwhydidhenotcontinueinthatstateforever——

  doingnothing,ashehadalwaysdone?IfanynewmotionhasariseninGod,andanewwilltoformacreature,whichhehadneverbeforeformed,howcanthatbeatrueeternityinwhichanactofwilloccursthatwasnottherebefore?ForthewillofGodisnotacreatedthing,butcomesbeforethecreation——andthisistruebecausenothingcouldbecreatedunlessthewilloftheCreatorcamebeforeit。ThewillofGod,therefore,pertainstohisveryEssence。YetifanythinghasarisenintheEssenceofGodthatwasnottherebefore,thenthatEssencecannottrulybecalledeternal。ButifitwastheeternalwillofGodthatthecreationshouldcometobe,why,then,isnotthecreationitselfalsofrometernity?”[430]

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  13。Thosewhosaythesethingsdonotyetunderstandthee,O

  WisdomofGod,OLightofsouls。Theydonotyetunderstandhowthethingsaremadethataremadebyandinthee。Theyendeavortocomprehendeternalthings,buttheirheartstillfliesaboutinthepastandfuturemotionsofcreatedthings,andisstillunstable。Whoshallholditandfixitsothatitmaycometorestforalittle;andthen,bydegrees,glimpsethegloryofthateternitywhichabidesforever;andthen,comparingeternitywiththetemporalprocessinwhichnothingabides,theymayseethattheyareincommensurable?Theywouldseethatalongtimedoesnotbecomelong,exceptfromthemanyseparateeventsthatoccurinitspassage,whichcannotbesimultaneous。IntheEternal,ontheotherhand,nothingpassesaway,butthewholeissimultaneouslypresent。Butnotemporalprocessiswhollysimultaneous。Therefore,letit[431]seethatalltimepastisforcedtomoveonbytheincomingfuture;thatallthefuturefollowsfromthepast;andthatall,pastandfuture,iscreatedandissuesoutofthatwhichisforeverpresent。Whowillholdtheheartofmanthatitmaystandstillandseehowtheeternitywhichalwaysstandsstillisitselfneitherfuturenorpastbutexpressesitselfinthetimesthatarefutureandpast?Canmyhanddothis,orcanthehandofmymouthbringaboutsodifficultathingevenbypersuasion?

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  14。How,then,shallIrespondtohimwhoasks,”WhatwasGoddoing_before_hemadeheavenandearth?”Idonotanswer,asacertainoneisreportedtohavedonefacetiouslyshruggingofftheforceofthequestion。”Hewaspreparinghell,”hesaid,”forthosewhoprytoodeep。”Itisonethingtoseetheanswer;

  itisanothertolaughatthequestioner——andformyselfIdonotanswerthesethingsthus。MorewillinglywouldIhaveanswered,”IdonotknowwhatIdonotknow,”thancauseonewhoaskedadeepquestiontoberidiculed——andbysuchtacticsgainpraiseforaworthlessanswer。

  Rather,Isaythatthou,ourGod,arttheCreatorofeverycreature。Andifintheterm”heavenandearth”everycreatureisincluded,Imakeboldtosayfurther:”BeforeGodmadeheavenandearth,hedidnotmakeanythingatall。Forifhedid,whatdidhemakeunlessitwereacreature?”IdoindeedwishthatIknewallthatIdesiretoknowtomyprofitassurelyasIknowthatnocreaturewasmadebeforeanycreaturewasmade。

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  15。Butiftherovingthoughtofsomeoneshouldwanderovertheimagesofpasttime,andwonderthatthou,theAlmightyGod,theAll-creatingandAll-sustaining,theArchitectofheavenandearth,didstforagesunnumberedabstainfromsogreataworkbeforethoudidstactuallydoit,lethimawakeandconsiderthathewondersatillusions。Forinwhattemporalmediumcouldtheunnumberedagesthatthoudidstnotmakepassby,sincethouarttheAuthorandCreatorofalltheages?Orwhatperiodsoftimewouldthosebethatwerenotmadebythee?Orhowcouldtheyhavealreadypassedawayiftheyhadnotalreadybeen?Since,therefore,thouarttheCreatorofalltimes,iftherewasanytime_before_thoumadestheavenandearth,whyisitsaidthatthouwastabstainingfromworking?Forthoumadestthatverytimeitself,andperiodscouldnotpassby_before_thoumadestthewholetemporalprocession。Butiftherewasnotime_before_

  heavenandearth,how,then,canitbeasked,”Whatwastthoudoingthen?”Fortherewasno”then”whentherewasnotime。

  16。Nordostthouprecedeanygivenperiodoftimebyanotherperiodoftime。Elsethouwouldstnotprecedeallperiodsoftime。Intheeminenceofthyever-presenteternity,thouprecedestalltimespast,andextendestbeyondallfuturetimes,fortheyarestilltocome——andwhentheyhavecome,theywillbepast。But”ThouartalwaystheSelfsameandthyyearsshallhavenoend。”[432]Thyyearsneithergonorcome;butoursbothgoandcomeinorderthatallseparatemomentsmaycometopass。

  Allthyyearsstandtogetherasone,sincetheyareabiding。Nordothyyearspastexcludetheyearstocomebecausethyyearsdonotpassaway。Alltheseyearsofoursshallbewiththee,whenallofthemshallhaveceasedtobe。Thyyearsarebutaday,andthydayisnotrecurrent,butalwaystoday。Thy”today”yieldsnottotomorrowanddoesnotfollowyesterday。Thy”today”iseternity。Therefore,thoudidstgeneratetheCoeternal,towhomthoudidstsay,”ThisdayIhavebegottenthee。”[433]Thoumadestalltimeandbeforealltimesthouart,andtherewasneveratimewhentherewasnotime。

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  17。Therewasnotime,therefore,whenthouhadstnotmadeanything,becausethouhadstmadetimeitself。Andtherearenotimesthatarecoeternalwiththee,becausethoudostabideforever;butiftimesshouldabide,theywouldnotbetimes。

  Forwhatistime?Whocaneasilyandbrieflyexplainit?

  Whocanevencomprehenditinthoughtorputtheanswerintowords?Yetisitnottruethatinconversationwerefertonothingmorefamiliarlyorknowinglythantime?Andsurelyweunderstanditwhenwespeakofit;weunderstanditalsowhenwehearanotherspeakofit。

  What,then,istime?Ifnooneasksme,Iknowwhatitis。

  IfIwishtoexplainittohimwhoasksme,Idonotknow。YetI

  saywithconfidencethatIknowthatifnothingpassedaway,therewouldbenopasttime;andifnothingwerestillcoming,therewouldbenofuturetime;andiftherewerenothingatall,therewouldbenopresenttime。

  But,then,howisitthattherearethetwotimes,pastandfuture,wheneventhepastisnownolongerandthefutureisnownotyet?Butifthepresentwerealwayspresent,anddidnotpassintopasttime,itobviouslywouldnotbetimebuteternity。If,then,timepresent——ifitbetime——comesintoexistenceonlybecauseitpassesintotimepast,howcanwesaythateventhisis,sincethecauseofitsbeingisthatitwillceasetobe?

  Thus,canwenottrulysaythattime_is_onlyasittendstowardnonbeing?

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  18。Andyetwespeakofalongtimeandashorttime;butneverspeakthiswayexceptoftimepastandfuture。Wecallahundredyearsago,forexample,alongtimepast。Inlikemanner,weshouldcallahundredyearshencealongtimetocome。Butwecalltendaysagoashorttimepast;andtendayshenceashorttimetocome。Butinwhatsenseissomethinglongorshortthatisnonexistent?Forthepastisnotnow,andthefutureisnotyet。Therefore,letusnotsay,”It_is_long”;instead,letussayofthepast,”It_was_long,”andofthefuture,”It_willbe_

  long。”Andyet,OLord,myLight,shallnotthytruthmakemockeryofmanevenhere?Forthatlongtimepast:wasitlongwhenitwasalreadypast,orwhenitwasstillpresent?Foritmighthavebeenlongwhentherewasaperiodthatcouldbelong,butwhenitwaspast,itnolongerwas。Inthatcase,thatwhichwasnotatallcouldnotbelong。Letusnot,therefore,say,”Timepastwaslong,”forweshallnotdiscoverwhatitwasthatwaslongbecause,sinceitispast,itnolongerexists。Rather,letussaythat”time_present_waslong,becausewhenitwaspresentit_was_long。”Forthenithadnotyetpassedonsoasnottobe,andthereforeitstillwasinastatethatcouldbecalledlong。

  Butafteritpassed,itceasedtobelongsimplybecauseitceasedtobe。

  19。Letus,therefore,Ohumansoul,seewhetherpresenttimecanbelong,forithasbeengivenyoutofeelandmeasuretheperiodsoftime。How,then,willyouanswerme?

  Isahundredyearswhenpresentalongtime?But,first,seewhetherahundredyearscanbepresentatonce。Forifthefirstyearinthecenturyiscurrent,thenitispresenttime,andtheotherninetyandninearestillfuture。Therefore,theyarenotyet。But,then,ifthesecondyeariscurrent,oneyearisalreadypast,thesecondpresent,andalltherestarefuture。

  Andthus,ifwefixonanymiddleyearofthiscenturyaspresent,thosebeforeitarepast,thoseafteritarefuture。Therefore,ahundredyearscannotbepresentallatonce。

  Letussee,then,whethertheyearthatisnowcurrentcanbepresent。Forifitsfirstmonthiscurrent,thentherestarefuture;ifthesecond,thefirstisalreadypast,andtheremainderarenotyet。Therefore,thecurrentyearisnotpresentallatonce。Andifitisnotpresentasawhole,thentheyearisnotpresent。Forittakestwelvemonthstomaketheyear,fromwhicheachindividualmonthwhichiscurrentisitselfpresentoneatatime,buttherestareeitherpastorfuture。

  20。Thusitcomesoutthattimepresent,whichwefoundwastheonlytimethatcouldbecalled”long,”hasbeencutdowntothespaceofscarcelyasingleday。Butletusexamineeventhat,foronedayisneverpresentasawhole。Foritismadeupoftwenty-fourhours,dividedbetweennightandday。Thefirstofthesehourshastherestofthemasfuture,andthelastofthemhastherestaspast;butanyofthosebetweenhasthosethatprecededitaspastandthosethatsucceeditasfuture。Andthatonehouritselfpassesawayinfleetingfractions。Thepartofitthathasfledispast;whatremainsisstillfuture。Ifanyfractionoftimebeconceivedthatcannotnowbedividedevenintothemostminutemomentarypoint,thisaloneiswhatwemaycalltimepresent。Butthisfliessorapidlyfromfuturetopastthatitcannotbeextendedbyanydelay。Forifitisextended,itisthendividedintopastandfuture。Butthepresenthasnoextension[434]whatever。

  Where,therefore,isthattimewhichwemaycall”long”?Isitfuture?Actuallywedonotsayofthefuture,”Itislong,”

  forithasnotyetcometobe,soastobelong。Instead,wesay,”Itwillbelong。”_When_willitbe?Forsinceitisfuture,itwillnotbelong,forwhatmaybelongisnotyet。Itwillbelongonlywhenitpassesfromthefuturewhichisnotasyet,andwillhavebeguntobepresent,sothattherecanbesomethingthatmaybelong。Butinthatcase,timepresentcriesaloud,inthewordswehavealreadyheard,thatitcannotbe”long。”

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  21。Andyet,OLord,wedoperceiveintervalsoftime,andwecomparethemwitheachother,andwesaythatsomearelongerandothersareshorter。Weevenmeasurehowmuchlongerorshorterthistimemaybethanthattime。Andwesaythatthistimeistwiceaslong,orthreetimesaslong,whilethisothertimeisonlyjustaslongasthatother。Butwemeasurethepassageoftimewhenwemeasuretheintervalsofperception。Butwhocanmeasuretimespastwhichnowarenolonger,ortimesfuturewhicharenotyet——unlessperhapssomeonewilldaretosaythatwhatdoesnotexistcanbemeasured?Therefore,whiletimeispassing,itcanbeperceivedandmeasured;butwhenitispast,itcannot,sinceitisnot。

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  22。Iamseekingthetruth,OFather;Iamnotaffirmingit。

  OmyGod,directandruleme。

  Whoistherewhowilltellmethattherearenotthreetimes——aswelearnedwhenboysandaswehavealsotaughtboys——timepast,timepresent,andtimefuture?Whocansaythatthereisonlytimepresentbecausetheothertwodonotexist?Ordotheyalsoexist;butwhen,fromthefuture,timebecomespresent,itproceedsfromsomesecretplace;andwhen,fromtimespresent,itbecomespast,itrecedesintosomesecretplace?Forwherehavethosemenwhohaveforetoldthefutureseenthethingsforetold,ifthentheywerenotyetexisting?Forwhatdoesnotexistcannotbeseen。Andthosewhotellofthingspastcouldnotspeakofthemasiftheyweretrue,iftheydidnotseethemintheirminds。Thesethingscouldinnowaybediscernediftheydidnotexist。Therearethereforetimespresentandtimespast。

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  23。Givemeleave,OLord,toseekstillfurther。OmyHope,letnotmypurposebeconfounded。Foriftherearetimespastandfuture,Iwishtoknowwheretheyare。ButifIhavenotyetsucceededinthis,Istillknowthatwherevertheyare,theyarenotthereasfutureorpast,butaspresent。Foriftheyarethereasfuture,theyarethereas”notyet”;iftheyarethereaspast,theyarethereas”nolonger。”Wherevertheyareandwhatevertheyaretheyexistthereforeonlyaspresent。Althoughwetellofpastthingsastrue,theyaredrawnoutofthememory——notthethingsthemselves,whichhavealreadypassed,butwordsconstructedfromtheimagesoftheperceptionswhichwereformedinthemind,likefootprintsintheirpassagethroughthesenses。

  Mychildhood,forinstance,whichisnolonger,stillexistsintimepast,whichdoesnotnowexist。ButwhenIcalltominditsimageandspeakofit,Iseeitinthepresentbecauseitisstillinmymemory。Whetherthereisasimilarexplanationfortheforetellingoffutureevents——thatis,oftheimagesofthingswhicharenotyetseenasiftheywerealreadyexisting——I

  confess,OmyGod,Idonotknow。ButthisIcertainlydoknow:

  thatwegenerallythinkaheadaboutourfutureactions,andthispremeditationisintimepresent;butthattheactionwhichwepremeditateisnotyet,becauseitisstillfuture。Whenweshallhavestartedtheactionandhavebeguntodowhatwewerepremeditating,thenthatactionwillbeintimepresent,becausethenitisnolongerintimefuture。

  24。Whatevermaybethemannerofthissecretforeseeingoffuturethings,nothingcanbeseenexceptwhatexists。Butwhatexistsnowisnotfuture,butpresent。When,therefore,theysaythatfutureeventsareseen,itisnottheeventsthemselves,fortheydonotexistasyetthatis,theyarestillintimefuture,butperhaps,instead,theircausesandtheirsignsareseen,whichalreadydoexist。Therefore,tothosealreadybeholdingthesecausesandsigns,theyarenotfuture,butpresent,andfromthemfuturethingsarepredictedbecausetheyareconceivedinthemind。Theseconceptions,however,exist_now_,andthosewhopredictthosethingsseetheseconceptionsbeforethemintimepresent。

  Letmetakeanexamplefromthevastmultitudeandvarietyofsuchthings。Iseethedawn;Ipredictthatthesunisabouttorise。WhatIseeisintimepresent,whatIpredictisintimefuture——notthatthesunisfuture,foritalreadyexists;butitsrisingisfuture,becauseitisnotyet。YetIcouldnotpredictevenitsrising,unlessIhadanimageofitinmymind;

  as,indeed,IdoevennowasIspeak。ButthatdawnwhichIseeintheskyisnottherisingofthesunthoughitdoesprecedeit,norisitaconceptioninmymind。Thesetwo[435]areseenintimepresent,inorderthattheeventwhichisintimefuturemaybepredicted。

  Futureevents,therefore,arenotyet。Andiftheyarenotyet,theydonotexist。Andiftheydonotexist,theycannotbeseenatall,buttheycanbepredictedfromthingspresent,whichnowareandareseen。

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  25。Now,therefore,ORulerofthycreatures,whatisthemodebywhichthouteachestsoulsthosethingswhicharestillfuture?Forthouhasttaughtthyprophets。Howdostthou,towhomnothingisfuture,teachfuturethings——orratherteachthingspresentfromthesignsofthingsfuture?Forwhatdoesnotexistcertainlycannotbetaught。Thiswayofthineistoofarfrommysight;itistoogreatforme,Icannotattaintoit。[436]

  ButIshallbeenabledbythee,whenthouwiltgrantit,OsweetLightofmysecreteyes。

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  26。Butevennowitismanifestandclearthatthereareneithertimesfuturenortimespast。Thusitisnotproperlysaidthattherearethreetimes,past,present,andfuture。Perhapsitmightbesaidrightlythattherearethreetimes:atimepresentofthingspast;atimepresentofthingspresent;andatimepresentofthingsfuture。Forthesethreedocoexistsomehowinthesoul,forotherwiseIcouldnotseethem。Thetimepresentofthingspastismemory;thetimepresentofthingspresentisdirectexperience;thetimepresentofthingsfutureisexpectation。[437]Ifweareallowedtospeakofthesethingsso,Iseethreetimes,andIgrantthattherearethree。Letitstillbesaid,then,asourmisappliedcustomhasit:”Therearethreetimes,past,present,andfuture。”Ishallnotbetroubledbyit,norargue,norobject——alwaysprovidedthatwhatissaidisunderstood,sothatneitherthefuturenorthepastissaidtoexistnow。Therearebutfewthingsaboutwhichwespeakproperly——andmanymoreaboutwhichwespeakimproperly——thoughweunderstandoneanother’smeaning。

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  27。Ihavesaid,then,thatwemeasureperiodsoftimeastheypasssothatwecansaythatthistimeistwiceaslongasthatoneorthatthisisjustaslongasthat,andsoonfortheotherfractionsoftimewhichwecancountbymeasuring。

  So,then,asIwassaying,wemeasureperiodsoftimeastheypass。Andifanyoneasksme,”Howdoyouknowthis?”,Icananswer:”Iknowbecausewemeasure。Wecouldnotmeasurethingsthatdonotexist,andthingspastandfuturedonotexist。”Buthowdowemeasurepresenttimesinceithasnoextension?Itismeasuredwhileitpasses,butwhenithaspasseditisnotmeasured;forthenthereisnothingthatcouldbemeasured。Butwhence,andhow,andwhitherdoesitpasswhileitisbeingmeasured?Whence,butfromthefuture?Whichway,savethroughthepresent?Whither,butintothepast?Therefore,fromwhatisnotyet,throughwhathasnolength,itpassesintowhatisnownolonger。Butwhatdowemeasure,unlessitisatimeofsomelength?Forwecannotspeakofsingle,anddouble,andtriple,andequal,andalltheotherwaysinwhichwespeakoftime,exceptintermsofthelengthoftheperiodsoftime。Butinwhat”length,”then,dowemeasurepassingtime?Isitinthefuture,fromwhichitpassesover?Butwhatdoesnotyetexistcannotbemeasured。Or,isitinthepresent,throughwhichitpasses?Butwhathasnolengthwecannotmeasure。Orisitinthepastintowhichitpasses?Butwhatisnolongerwecannotmeasure。

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  28。Mysoulburnsardentlytounderstandthismostintricateenigma。OLordmyGod,OgoodFather,IbeseechtheethroughChrist,donotcloseoffthesethings,boththefamiliarandtheobscure,frommydesire。Donotbaritfromenteringintothem;

  butlettheirlightdawnbythyenlighteningmercy,OLord。OfwhomshallIinquireaboutthesethings?AndtowhomshallI

  confessmyignoranceofthemwithgreaterprofitthantothee,towhomthesestudiesofmineardentlylongingtounderstandthyScripturesarenotabore?GivemewhatIlove,forIdoloveit;andthisthouhastgivenme。OFather,whotrulyknowesthowtogivegoodgiftstothychildren,givethistome。Grantit,sinceIhaveundertakentounderstandit,andhardlaborismylotuntilthouopenestit。Ibeseechthee,throughChristandinhisname,theHolyofHolies,letnomaninterruptme。”ForIhavebelieved,andthereforedoIspeak。”[438]Thisismyhope;forthisIlive:thatImaycontemplatethejoysofmyLord。[439]

  Behold,thouhastmademydaysgrowold,andtheypassaway——andhowIdonotknow。

  Wespeakofthistimeandthattime,andthesetimesandthosetimes:”Howlongagosincehesaidthis?””Howlongagosincehedidthis?””HowlongagosinceIsawthat?””Thissyllableistwiceaslongasthatsingleshortsyllable。”Thesewordswesayandhear,andweareunderstoodandweunderstand。

  Theyarequitecommonplaceandordinary,andstillthemeaningoftheseverysamethingsliesdeeplyhidanditsdiscoveryisstilltocome。

  CHAPTERXXIII

  29。Ionceheardalearnedmansaythatthemotionsofthesun,moon,andstarsconstitutedtime;andIdidnotagree。Forwhyshouldnotthemotionsofallbodiesconstitutetime?Whatifthelightsofheavenshouldcease,andapotter’swheelstillturnround:wouldtherebenotimebywhichwemightmeasurethoserotationsandsayeitherthatitturnedatequalintervals,or,ifitmovednowmoreslowlyandnowmorequickly,thatsomerotationswerelongerandothersshorter?Andwhileweweresayingthis,wouldwenotalsobespeakingintime?Orwouldtherenotbeinourwordssomesyllablesthatwerelongandothersshort,becausethefirsttookalongertimetosound,andtheothersashortertime?OGod,grantmentoseeinasmallthingthenotionsthatarecommon[440]toallthings,bothgreatandsmall。Boththestarsandthelightsofheavenare”forsignsandseasons,andfordaysandyears。”[441]Thisisdoubtlessthecase,butjustasI

  shouldnotsaythatthecircuitofthatwoodenwheelwasaday,neitherwouldthatlearnedmansaythattherewas,therefore,notime。

  30。Ithirsttoknowthepowerandthenatureoftime,bywhichwemeasurethemotionsofbodies,andsay,forexample,thatthismotionistwiceaslongasthat。ForIask,sincetheword”day”refersnotonlytothelengthoftimethatthesunisabovetheearthwhichseparatesdayfromnight,butalsoreferstothesun’sentirecircuitfromeastallthewayaroundtoeast——onaccountofwhichwecansay,”Somanydayshavepassed”thenightsbeingincludedwhenwesay,”Somanydays,”andtheirlengthsnotcountedseparately——since,then,thedayisendedbythemotionofthesunandbyhispassagefromeasttoeast,I

  askwhetherthemotionitselfistheday,orwhetherthedayistheperiodinwhichthatmotioniscompleted;orboth?Forifthesun’spassageistheday,thentherewouldbeadayevenifthesunshouldfinishhiscourseinasshortaperiodasanhour。Ifthemotionitselfistheday,thenitwouldnotbeadayiffromonesunrisetoanothertherewereaperiodnolongerthananhour。

  Butthesunwouldhavetogoroundtwenty-fourtimestomakejustoneday。Ifitisboth,thenthatcouldnotbecalledadayifthesunranhisentirecourseintheperiodofanhour;norwoulditbeadayif,whilethesunstoodstill,asmuchtimepassedasthesunusuallycoveredduringhiswholecourse,frommorningtomorning。Ishall,therefore,notaskanymorewhatitisthatiscalledaday,butratherwhattimeis,foritisbytimethatwemeasurethecircuitofthesun,andwouldbeabletosaythatitwasfinishedinhalftheperiodoftimethatitcustomarilytakesifitwerecompletedinaperiodofonlytwelvehours。If,then,wecomparetheseperiods,wecouldcalloneofthemasingleandtheotheradoubleperiod,asifthesunmightrunhiscoursefromeasttoeastsometimesinasingleperiodandsometimesinadoubleperiod。

  Letnomantellme,therefore,thatthemotionsoftheheavenlybodiesconstitutetime。Forwhenthesunstoodstillattheprayerofacertainmaninorderthathemightgainhisvictoryinbattle,thesunstoodstillbuttimewenton。Forinaslongaspanoftimeaswassufficientthebattlewasfoughtandended。[442]

  Isee,then,thattimeisacertainkindofextension。ButdoIseeit,ordoIonlyseemto?Thou,OLightandTruth,wiltshowme。

  CHAPTERXXIV

  31。DostthoucommandthatIshouldagreeifanyonesaysthattimeis”themotionofabody”?Thoudostnotsocommand。

  ForIhearthatnobodyismovedbutintime;thisthoutellestme。ButthatthemotionofabodyitselfistimeIdonothear;

  thoudostnotsayso。Forwhenabodyismoved,Imeasurebytimehowlongitwasmovingfromthetimewhenitbegantobemoveduntilitstopped。AndifIdidnotseewhenitbegantobemoved,andifitcontinuedtomovesothatIcouldnotseewhenitstopped,Icouldnotmeasurethemovement,exceptfromthetimewhenIbegantoseeituntilIstopped。ButifIlookatitforalongtime,Icanaffirmonlythatthetimeislongbutnothowlongitmaybe。Thisisbecausewhenwesay,”Howlong?”,wearespeakingcomparativelyas:”Thisisaslongasthat,”or,”Thisistwiceaslongasthat”;orothersuchsimilarratios。Butifwewereabletoobservethepointinspacewhereandfromwhichthebody,whichismoved,comesandthepointtowhichitismoved;orifwecanobserveitspartsmovingasinawheel,wecansayhowlongthemovementofthebodytookorthemovementofitspartsfromthisplacetothat。Since,therefore,themotionofabodyisonething,andthenormbywhichwemeasurehowlongittakesisanotherthing,wecannotseewhichofthesetwoistobecalledtime。For,althoughabodyissometimesmovedandsometimesstandsstill,wemeasurenotonlyitsmotionbutalsoitsrestaswell;andbothbytime!Thuswesay,”Itstoodstillaslongasitmoved,”or,”Itstoodstilltwiceorthreetimesaslongasitmoved”——oranyotherratiowhichourmeasuringhaseitherdeterminedorimagined,eitherroughlyorprecisely,accordingtoourcustom。Therefore,timeisnotthemotionofabody。

  CHAPTERXXV

  32。AndIconfesstothee,OLord,thatIamstillignorantastowhattimeis。AndagainIconfesstothee,OLord,thatI

  knowthatIamspeakingallthesethingsintime,andthatIhavealreadyspokenoftimealongtime,andthat”verylong”isnotlongexceptwhenmeasuredbythedurationoftime。How,then,doIknowthis,whenIdonotknowwhattimeis?Or,isitpossiblethatIdonotknowhowIcanexpresswhatIdoknow?Alasforme!

  Idonotevenknowtheextentofmyownignorance。Behold,OmyGod,inthypresenceIdonotlie。Asmyheartis,soIspeak。

  Thoushaltlightmycandle;thou,OLordmyGod,wiltenlightenmydarkness。[443]

  CHAPTERXXVI

  33。DoesnotmysoulmosttrulyconfesstotheethatIdomeasureintervalsoftime?ButwhatisitthatIthusmeasure,O

  myGod,andhowisitthatIdonotknowwhatImeasure?I

  measurethemotionofabodybytime,butthetimeitselfIdonotmeasure。But,truly,couldImeasurethemotionofabody——howlongittakes,howlongitisinmotionfromthisplacetothat——

  unlessIcouldmeasurethetimeinwhichitismoving?

  How,then,doImeasurethistimeitself?Dowemeasurealongertimebyashortertime,aswemeasurethelengthofacrossbeamintermsofcubits?[444]Thus,wecansaythatthelengthofalongsyllableismeasuredbythelengthofashortsyllableandthussaythatthelongsyllableisdouble。Soalsowemeasurethelengthofpoemsbythelengthofthelines,andthelengthofthelinebythelengthofthefeet,andthelengthofthefeetbythelengthofthesyllable,andthelengthofthelongsyllablesbythelengthoftheshortones。Wedonotmeasurebypages——forinthatwaywewouldmeasurespaceratherthantime——butwhenwespeakthewordsastheypassbywesay:”Itisalongstanza,becauseitismadeupofsomanyverses;theyarelongversesbecausetheyconsistofsomanyfeet;theyarelongfeetbecausetheyextendoversomanysyllables;thisisalongsyllablebecauseitistwicethelengthofashortone。”

  Butnocertainmeasureoftimeisobtainedthisway;sinceitispossiblethatifashorterverseispronouncedslowly,itmaytakeupmoretimethanalongeroneifitispronouncedhurriedly。

  Thesamewouldholdforastanza,orafoot,orasyllable。Fromthisitappearstomethattimeisnothingotherthanextendedness;[445]butextendednessofwhatIdonotknow。Thisisamarveltome。Theextendednessmaybeoftheminditself。

  ForwhatisitImeasure,Iaskthee,OmyGod,whenIsayeither,roughly,”Thistimeislongerthanthat,”or,moreprecisely,”Thisis_twice_aslongasthat。”IknowthatIammeasuringtime。ButIamnotmeasuringthefuture,foritisnotyet;andI

  amnotmeasuringthepresentbecauseitisextendedbynolength;

  andIamnotmeasuringthepastbecauseitnolongeris。Whatisit,therefore,thatIammeasuring?Isittimeinitspassage,butnottimepast[praetereuntiatempora,nonpraeterita]?ThisiswhatIhavebeensaying。

  CHAPTERXXVII

  34。Presson,Omymind,andattendwithallyourpower。

  GodisourHelper:”itishethathathmadeusandnotweourselves。”[446]Giveheedwherethetruthbeginstodawn。[447]

  Supposenowthatabodilyvoicebeginstosound,andcontinuestosound——onandon——andthenceases。Nowthereissilence。Thevoiceispast,andthereisnolongerasound。Itwasfuturebeforeitsounded,andcouldnotbemeasuredbecauseitwasnotyet;andnowitcannotbemeasuredbecauseitisnolonger。

  Therefore,whileitwassounding,itmighthavebeenmeasuredbecausethentherewassomethingthatcouldbemeasured。Buteventhenitdidnotstandstill,foritwasinmotionandwaspassingaway。Couldit,onthataccount,beanymorereadilymeasured?

  Forwhileitwaspassingaway,itwasbeingextendedintosomeintervaloftimeinwhichitmightbemeasured,sincethepresenthasnolength。Supposing,though,thatitmighthavebeenmeasured——thenalsosupposethatanothervoicehadbeguntosoundandisstillsoundingwithoutanyinterruptiontobreakitscontinuedflow。Wecanmeasureitonlywhileitissounding,forwhenithasceasedtosounditwillbealreadypastandtherewillnotbeanythingtherethatcanbemeasured。Letusmeasureitexactly;andletussayhowmuchitis。Butwhileitissounding,itcannotbemeasuredexceptfromtheinstantwhenitbegantosound,downtothefinalmomentwhenitleftoff。Forwemeasurethetimeintervalitselffromsomebeginningpointtosomeend。

  Thisiswhyavoicethathasnotyetendedcannotbemeasured,sothatonecouldsayhowlongorhowbrieflyitwillcontinue。Norcanitbesaidtobeequaltoanothervoiceorsingleordoubleincomparisontoitoranythinglikethis。Butwhenitisended,itisnolonger。How,therefore,mayitbemeasured?Andyetwemeasuretimes;notthosewhicharenotyet,northosewhichnolongerare,northosewhicharestretchedoutbysomedelay,northosewhichhavenolimit。Therefore,wemeasureneithertimesfuturenortimespast,nortimespresent,nortimespassingby;

  andyetwedomeasuretimes。

  35。DeusCreatoromnium[448]:thisverseofeightsyllablesalternatesbetweenshortandlongsyllables。Thefourshortones——thatis,thefirst,third,fifth,andseventh——aresingleinrelationtothefourlongones——thatis,thesecond,fourth,sixth,andeighth。Eachofthelongonesisdoublethelengthofeachoftheshortones。Iaffirmthisandreportit,andcommonsenseperceivesthatthisindeedisthecase。Bycommonsense,then,Imeasurealongsyllablebyashortone,andIfindthatitistwiceaslong。Butwhenonesoundsafteranother,ifthefirstbeshortandthelatterlong,howcanIholdtheshortoneandhowcanIapplyittothelongoneasameasure,sothatIcandiscoverthatthelongoneistwiceaslong,when,infact,thelongonedoesnotbegintosounduntiltheshortoneleavesoffsounding?ThatsamelongsyllableIdonotmeasureaspresent,sinceIcannotmeasureituntilitisended;butitsendingisitspassingaway。

  Whatisit,then,thatIcanmeasure?WhereistheshortsyllablebywhichImeasure?WhereisthelongonethatIammeasuring?Bothhavesounded,haveflownaway,havepassedon,andarenolonger。AndstillImeasure,andIconfidentlyanswer——asfarasatrainedearcanbetrusted——thatthissyllableissingleandthatsyllabledouble。AndIcouldnotdothisunlesstheybothhadpassedandwereended。ThereforeIdonotmeasurethem,fortheydonotexistanymore。ButImeasuresomethinginmymemorywhichremainsfixed。

  36。Itisinyou,Omindofmine,thatImeasuretheperiodsoftime。Donotshoutmedownthatitexists[objectively];donotoverwhelmyourselfwiththeturbulentfloodofyourimpressions。Inyou,asIhavesaid,Imeasuretheperiodsoftime。Imeasureastimepresenttheimpressionthatthingsmakeonyouastheypassbyandwhatremainsaftertheyhavepassedby——Idonotmeasurethethingsthemselveswhichhavepassedbyandlefttheirimpressiononyou。ThisiswhatImeasurewhenI

  measureperiodsoftime。Either,then,thesearetheperiodsoftimeorelseIdonotmeasuretimeatall。

  Whatarewedoingwhenwemeasuresilence,andsaythatthissilencehaslastedaslongasthatvoicelasts?Dowenotprojectourthoughttothemeasureofasound,asifitwerethensounding,sothatwecansaysomethingconcerningtheintervalsofsilenceinagivenspanoftime?For,evenwhenboththevoiceandthetonguearestill,wereview——inthought——poemsandverses,anddiscourseofvariouskindsorvariousmeasuresofmotions,andwespecifytheirtimespans——howlongthisisinrelationtothat——justasifwewerespeakingthemaloud。Ifanyonewishestoutteraprolongedsound,andif,inforethought,hehasdecidedhowlongitshouldbe,thatmanhasalreadyinsilencegonethroughaspanoftime,andcommittedhissoundtomemory。Thushebeginstospeakandhisvoicesoundsuntilitreachesthepredeterminedend。Ithastrulysoundedandwillgoonsounding。Butwhatisalreadyfinishedhasalreadysoundedandwhatremainswillstillsound。Thusitpasseson,untilthepresentintentioncarriesthefutureoverintothepast。Thepastincreasesbythediminutionofthefutureuntilbytheconsumptionofallthefutureallispast。[449]

  CHAPTERXXVIII

  37。Buthowisthefuturediminishedorconsumedwhenitdoesnotyetexist?Orhowdoesthepast,whichexistsnolonger,increase,unlessitisthatinthemindinwhichallthishappenstherearethreefunctions?Forthemindexpects,itattends,anditremembers;sothatwhatitexpectspassesintowhatitremembersbywayofwhatitattendsto。Whodeniesthatfuturethingsdonotexistasyet?Butstillthereisalreadyinthemindtheexpectationofthingsstillfuture。Andwhodeniesthatpastthingsnowexistnolonger?Stillthereisinthemindthememoryofthingspast。Whodeniesthattimepresenthasnolength,sinceitpassesawayinamoment?Yet,ourattentionhasacontinuityanditisthroughthisthatwhatispresentmayproceedtobecomeabsent。Therefore,futuretime,whichisnonexistent,isnotlong;but”alongfuture”is”alongexpectationofthefuture。”Noristimepast,whichisnownolonger,long;a”longpast”is”alongmemoryofthepast。”

  38。IamabouttorepeatapsalmthatIknow。BeforeI

  begin,myattentionencompassesthewhole,butonceIhavebegun,asmuchofitasbecomespastwhileIspeakisstillstretchedoutinmymemory。Thespanofmyactionisdividedbetweenmymemory,whichcontainswhatIhaverepeated,andmyexpectation,whichcontainswhatIamabouttorepeat。Yetmyattentioniscontinuallypresentwithme,andthroughitwhatwasfutureiscarriedoversothatitbecomespast。Themorethisisdoneandrepeated,themorethememoryisenlarged——andexpectationisshortened——untilthewholeexpectationisexhausted。Thenthewholeactionisendedandpassedintomemory。Andwhattakesplaceintheentirepsalmtakesplacealsoineachindividualpartofitandineachindividualsyllable。Thisalsoholdsintheevenlongeractionofwhichthatpsalmisonlyaportion。Thesameholdsinthewholelifeofman,ofwhichalltheactionsofmenareparts。Thesameholdsinthewholeageofthesonsofmen,ofwhichallthelivesofmenareparts。

  CHAPTERXXIX

  39。But”sincethyloving-kindnessisbetterthanlifeitself,”[450]observehowmylifeisbutastretchingout,andhowthyrighthandhasupheldmeinmyLord,theSonofMan,theMediatorbetweenthee,theOne,andus,themany——insomanywaysandbysomanymeans。ThusthroughhimImaylayholduponhiminwhomIamalsolaidholdupon;andImaybegatheredupfrommyoldwayoflifetofollowthatOneandtoforgetthatwhichisbehind,nolongerstretchedoutbutnowpulledtogetheragain——stretchingforthnottowhatshallbeandshallpassawaybuttothosethingsthat_are_beforeme。Notdistractedlynow,butintently,Ifollowonfortheprizeofmyheavenlycalling,[451]whereImayhearthesoundofthypraiseandcontemplatethydelights,whichneithercometobenorpassaway。

  Butnowmyyearsarespentinmourning。[452]Andthou,O

  Lord,artmycomfort,myeternalFather。ButIhavebeentornbetweenthetimes,theorderofwhichIdonotknow,andmythoughts,eventheinmostanddeepestplacesofmysoul,aremangledbyvariouscommotionsuntilIshallflowtogetherintothee,purgedandmolteninthefireofthylove。

  CHAPTERXXX

  40。AndIwillbeimmovableandfixedinthee,andthytruthwillbemymold。AndIshallnothavetoendurethequestionsofthosemenwho,asifinamorbiddisease,thirstformorethantheycanholdandsay,”WhatdidGodmakebeforehemadeheavenandearth?”or,”Howdiditcomeintohismindtomakesomethingwhenhehadneverbeforemadeanything?”Grantthem,OLord,toconsiderwellwhattheyaresaying;andgrantthemtoseethatwherethereisnotimetheycannotsay”never。”When,therefore,heissaid”nevertohavemade”something——whatisthisbuttosaythatitwasmadeinnotimeatall?Letthemthereforeseethattherecouldbenotimewithoutacreatedworld,andletthemceasetospeakvanityofthiskind。Letthemalsobestretchedouttothosethingswhicharebeforethem,andunderstandthatthou,theeternalCreatorofalltimes,artbeforealltimesandthatnotimesarecoeternalwiththee;norisanycreature,evenifthereisacreature”abovetime。”

  CHAPTERXXXI

  41。OLordmyGod,whatachasmthereisinthydeepsecret!

  Howfarshortofithavetheconsequencesofmysinscastme?

  Healmyeyes,thatImayenjoythylight。Surely,ifthereisamindthatsogreatlyaboundsinknowledgeandforeknowledge,towhichallthingspastandfutureareaswellknownasonepsalmiswellknowntome,thatmindwouldbeanexceedingmarvelandaltogetherastonishing。ForwhateverispastandwhateverisyettocomewouldbenomoreconcealedfromhimthanthepastandfutureofthatpsalmwerehiddenfrommewhenIwaschantingit:

  howmuchofithadbeensungfromthebeginningandwhatandhowmuchstillremainedtilltheend。Butfarbeitfromthee,O

  Creatoroftheuniverse,andCreatorofoursoulsandbodies——

  farbeitfromtheethatthoushouldstmerelyknowallthingspastandfuture。Far,farmorewonderfully,andfarmoremysteriouslythouknowestthem。Foritisnotasthefeelingsofonesingingfamiliarsongs,orhearingafamiliarsonginwhich,becauseofhisexpectationofwordsstilltocomeandhisremembranceofthosethatarepast,hisfeelingsarevariedandhissensesaredivided。Thisisnotthewaythatanythinghappenstothee,whoartunchangeablyeternal,thatis,thetrulyeternalCreatorofminds。Asinthebeginningthouknewestboththeheavenandtheearthwithoutanychangeinthyknowledge,sothoudidstmakeheavenandearthintheirbeginningswithoutanydivisioninthyaction。[453]Lethimwhounderstandsthisconfesstothee;andlethimwhodoesnotunderstandalsoconfesstothee!Oh,exaltedasthouart,stillthehumbleinheartarethydwellingplace!

  ForthouliftestthemwhoarecastdownandtheyfallnotforwhomthouarttheMostHigh。[454]

  BOOKTWELVE

  ThemodeofcreationandthetruthofScripture。Augustineexplorestherelationofthevisibleandformedmatterofheavenandearthtothepriormatrixfromwhichitwasformed。Thisleadstoanintricateanalysisof”unformedmatter”andtheprimal”possibility”fromwhichGodcreated,itselfcreateddenihilo。

  HefindsareferencetothisinthemisconstruedScripturalphrase”theheavenofheavens。”RealizingthathisinterpretationofGen。

  1:1,2,isnotself-evidentlytheonlypossibility,Augustineturnstoanelaboratediscussionofthemultiplicityofperspectivesinhermeneuticsand,inthecourseofthis,reviewsthevariouspossibilitiesoftrueinterpretationofhisScripturetext。Heemphasizestheimportanceoftolerancewheretherearepluraloptions,andconfidencewherebasicChristianfaithisconcerned。

  CHAPTERI

  1。Myheartisdeeplystirred,OLord,wheninthispoorlifeofminethewordsofthyHolyScripturestrikeuponit。Thisiswhythepovertyofthehumanintellectexpressesitselfinanabundanceoflanguage。Inquiryismoreloquaciousthandiscovery。

  Demandingtakeslongerthanobtaining;andthehandthatknocksismoreactivethanthehandthatreceives。Butwehavethepromise,andwhoshallbreakit?”IfGodbeforus,whocanbeagainstus?”[455]”Ask,andyoushallreceive;seek,andyoushallfind;

  knock,anditshallbeopeneduntoyou;foreveryonethatasksreceives,andhewhoseeksfinds,andtohimthatknocks,itshallbeopened。”[456]Thesearethyownpromises,andwhoneedfeartobedeceivedwhentruthpromises?

  CHAPTERII

  2。Inlowlinessmytongueconfessestothyexaltation,forthoumadestheavenandearth。ThisheavenwhichIsee,andthisearthonwhichIwalk——fromwhichcamethis”earth”thatIcarryaboutme——thoudidstmake。

  Butwhereisthatheavenofheavens,OLord,ofwhichwehearinthewordsofthepsalm,”TheheavenofheavensistheLord’s,buttheearthhehathgiventothechildrenofmen”?[457]Whereistheheaventhatwecannotsee,inrelationtowhichallthatwecanseeisearth?Forthiswholecorporealcreationhasbeenbeautifullyformed——thoughnoteverywhereinitsentirety——andourearthisthelowestoftheselevels。Still,comparedwiththatheavenofheavens,eventheheavenofourownearthisonlyearth。Indeed,itisnotabsurdtocalleachofthosetwogreatbodies[458]”earth”incomparisonwiththatineffableheavenwhichistheLord’s,andnotforthesonsofmen。

  CHAPTERIII

  3。Andtrulythisearthwasinvisibleandunformed,[459]andtherewasaninexpressiblyprofoundabyss[460]abovewhichtherewasnolightsinceithadnoform。Thoudidstcommanditwrittenthat”darknesswasonthefaceofthedeep。”[461]Whatelseisdarknessexcepttheabsenceoflight?Foriftherehadbeenlight,wherewouldithavebeenexceptbybeingoverall,showingitselfrisingaloftandgivinglight?Therefore,wheretherewasnolightasyet,whywasitthatdarknesswaspresent,unlessitwasthatlightwasabsent?Darkness,then,washeavyuponit,becausethelightfromabovewasabsent;justasthereissilencewherethereisnosound。Andwhatisittohavesilenceanywherebutsimplynottohavesound?Hastthounot,OLord,taughtthissoulwhichconfessestothee?Hastthounotthustaughtme,O

  Lord,thatbeforethoudidstformandseparatethisformlessmattertherewas_nothing_:neithercolor,norfigure,norbody,norspirit?Yetitwasnotabsolutelynothing;itwasacertainformlessnesswithoutanyshape。

  CHAPTERIV

  4。What,then,shouldthatformlessnessbecalledsothatsomehowitmightbeindicatedtothoseofsluggishmind,unlessweusesomewordincommonspeech?Butwhatcanbefoundanywhereintheworldnearertoatotalformlessnessthantheearthandtheabyss?Becauseoftheirbeingonthelowestlevel,theyarelessbeautifulthanaretheotherandhigherparts,alltranslucentandshining。Therefore,whymayInotconsidertheformlessnessofmatter——whichthoudidstcreatewithoutshapelyform,fromwhichtomakethisshapelyworld——asfittinglyindicatedtomenbythephrase,”Theearthinvisibleandunformed”?

  CHAPTERV

  5。Whenourthoughtseekssomethingforoursensetofastento[inthisconceptofunformedmatter],andwhenitsaystoitself,”Itisnotanintelligibleform,suchaslifeorjustice,sinceitisthematerialforbodies;anditisnotaformerperception,forthereisnothingintheinvisibleandunformedwhichcanbeseenandfelt”——whilehumanthoughtsayssuchthingstoitself,itmaybeattemptingeithertoknowbybeingignorantorbyknowinghownottoknow。

  CHAPTERVI

  6。Butif,OLord,Iamtoconfesstothee,bymymouthandmypen,thewholeofwhatthouhasttaughtmeconcerningthisunformedmatter,ImustsayfirstofallthatwhenIfirstheardofsuchmatteranddidnotunderstandit——andthosewhotoldmeofitcouldnotunderstanditeither——Iconceivedofitashavingcountlessandvariedforms。Thus,Ididnotthinkaboutitrightly。Mymindinitsagitationusedtoturnupallsortsoffoulandhorrible”forms”;butstilltheywere”forms。”AndstillIcalleditformless,notbecauseitwasunformed,butbecauseithadwhatseemedtomeakindofformthatmymindturnedawayfrom,asbizarreandincongruous,beforewhichmyhumanweaknesswasconfused。AndevenwhatIdidconceiveofasunformedwasso,notbecauseitwasdeprivedofallform,butonlyasitcomparedwithmorebeautifulforms。Rightreason,then,persuadedmethatIoughttoremovealtogetherallvestigesofformwhateverifI

  wishedtoconceivematterthatwaswhollyunformed;andthisI

  couldnotdo。ForIcouldmorereadilyimaginethatwhatwasdeprivedofallformsimplydidnotexistthanIcouldconceiveofanythingbetweenformandnothing——somethingwhichwasneitherformednornothing,somethingthatwasunformedandnearlynothing。

  Thusmymindceasedtoquestionmyspirit——filledasitwaswiththeimagesofformedbodies,changingandvaryingthemaccordingtoitswill。AndsoIappliedmyselftothebodiesthemselvesandlookedmoredeeplyintotheirmutability,bywhichtheyceasetobewhattheyhadbeenandbegintobewhattheywerenot。ThistransitionfromformtoformIhadregardedasinvolvingsomethinglikeaformlesscondition,thoughnotactualnothingness。[462]

  ButIdesiredtoknow,nottoguess。And,ifmyvoiceandmypenweretoconfesstotheeallthevariousknotsthouhastuntiedformeaboutthisquestion,whoamongmyreaderscouldenduretograspthewholeoftheaccount?Still,despitethis,myheartwillnotceasetogivehonortotheeortosingthypraisesconcerningthosethingswhichitisnotabletoexpress。[463]

  Forthemutabilityofmutablethingscarrieswithitthepossibilityofallthoseformsintowhichmutablethingscanbechanged。Butthismutability——whatisit?Isitsoul?Isitbody?Isittheexternalappearanceofsoulorbody?Coulditbesaid,”Nothingwassomething,”and”Thatwhichis,isnot”?Ifthiswerepossible,Iwouldsaythatthiswasit,andinsomesuchmanneritmusthavebeeninordertoreceivethesevisibleandcompositeforms。[464]

  CHAPTERVII

  7。Whenceandhowwasthis,unlessitcamefromthee,fromwhomallthingsare,insofarastheyare?Butthefarthersomethingisfromthee,themoreunliketheeitis——andthisisnotamatterofdistanceorplace。

  Thusitwasthatthou,OLord,whoartnotonethinginoneplaceandanotherthinginanotherplacebuttheSelfsame,andtheSelfsame,andtheSelfsame——”Holy,Holy,Holy,LordGodAlmighty”[465]——thusitwasthatinthebeginning,andthroughthyWisdomwhichisfromtheeandbornofthysubstance,thoudidstcreatesomethingandthatoutofnothing。[466]Forthoudidstcreatetheheavenandtheearth——notoutofthyself,forthentheywouldbeequaltothyonlySonandtherebytothee。Andthereisnosenseinwhichitwouldberightthatanythingshouldbeequaltotheethatwasnotofthee。Butwhatelsebesidestheewasthereoutofwhichthoumightestcreatethesethings,OGod,oneTrinity,andtrineUnity?[467]And,therefore,itwasoutofnothingatallthatthoudidstcreatetheheavenandearth——

  somethinggreatandsomethingsmall——forthouartAlmightyandGood,andabletomakeallthingsgood:eventhegreatheavenandthesmallearth。Thouwast,andtherewasnothingelsefromwhichthoudidstcreateheavenandearth:thesetwothings,onenearthee,theotherneartonothing;theonetowhichonlythouartsuperior,theothertowhichnothingelseisinferior。

  CHAPTERVIII

  8。Thatheavenofheavenswasthine,OLord,buttheearthwhichthoudidstgivetothesonsofmentobeseenandtouchedwasnottheninthesameformasthatinwhichwenowseeitandtouchit。Forthenitwasinvisibleandunformedandtherewasanabyssoverwhichtherewasnolight。Thedarknesswastruly_over_theabyss,thatis,morethanjust_in_theabyss。Forthisabyssofwaterswhichnowisvisiblehaseveninitsdepthsacertainlightappropriatetoitsnature,perceptibleinsomefashiontofishesandthethingsthatcreepaboutonthebottomofit。Butthentheentireabysswasalmostnothing,sinceitwasstillaltogetherunformed。Yeteventhere,therewassomethingthathadthepossibilityofbeingformed。Forthou,OLord,hadstmadetheworldoutofunformedmatter,andthisthoudidstmakeoutofnothinganddidstmakeitintoalmostnothing。Fromitthouhastthenmadethesegreatthingswhichwe,thesonsofmen,marvelat。Forthiscorporealheavenistrulymarvelous,thisfirmamentbetweenthewaterandthewaterswhichthoudidstmakeontheseconddayafterthecreationoflight,saying,”Letitbedone,”anditwasdone。[468]Thisfirmamentthoudidstcallheaven,thatis,theheavenofthisearthandseawhichthoumadestonthethirdday,givingavisibleshapetotheunformedmatterwhichthouhadstmadebeforeallthedays。Forevenbeforeanydaythouhadstalreadymadeaheaven,butthatwastheheavenofthisheaven:forinthebeginningthouhadstmadeheavenandearth。

  Butthisearthitselfwhichthouhadstmadewasunformedmatter;itwasinvisibleandunformed,anddarknesswasovertheabyss。Outofthisinvisibleandunformedearth,outofthisformlessnesswhichisalmostnothing,thoudidstthenmakeallthesethingsofwhichthechangeableworldconsists——andyetdoesnotfullyconsistinitself[469]——foritsverychangeablenessappearsinthis,thatitstimesandseasonscanbeobservedandnumbered。Theperiodsoftimearemeasuredbythechangesofthings,whiletheforms,whosematteristheinvisibleearthofwhichwehavespoken,arevariedandaltered。

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  9。AndthereforetheSpirit,theTeacherofthyservant,[470]whenhementionsthat”inthebeginningthoumadestheavenandearth,”saysnothingabouttimesandissilentastothedays。For,clearly,thatheavenofheavenswhichthoudidstcreateinthebeginningisinsomewayanintellectualcreature,althoughinnowaycoeternalwiththee,OTrinity。Yetitisnonethelessapartakerinthyeternity。Becauseofthesweetnessofitsmosthappycontemplationofthee,itisgreatlyrestrainedinitsownmutabilityandcleavestotheewithoutanylapsefromthetimeinwhichitwascreated,surpassingalltherollingchangeoftime。Butthisshapelessness——thisearthinvisibleandunformed——wasnotnumberedamongthedaysitself。Forwherethereisnoshapeororderthereisnothingthateithercomesorgoes,andwherethisdoesnotoccurtherecertainlyarenodays,noranyvicissitudeofduration。

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  10。OTruth,OLightofmyheart,letnotmyowndarknessspeaktome!Ihadfallenintothatdarknessandwasdarkenedthereby。Butinit,eveninitsdepths,Icametolovethee。I

  wentastrayandstillIrememberedthee。Iheardthyvoicebehindme,biddingmereturn,thoughIcouldscarcelyhearitforthetumultsofmyboisterouspassions。Andnow,behold,Iamreturning,burningandthirstingafterthyfountain。Letnoonehinderme;herewillIdrinkandsohavelife。Letmenotbemyownlife;forofmyselfIhavelivedbadly。Iwasdeathtomyself;intheeIhaverevived。Speaktome;conversewithme。I

  havebelievedthybooks,andtheirwordsareverydeep。

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  11。Thouhasttoldmealready,OLord,withastrongvoiceinmyinnerear,thatthouarteternalandalonehastimmortality。

  Thouartnotchangedbyanyshapeormotion,andthywillisnotalteredbytemporalprocess,becausenowillthatchangesisimmortal。Thisiscleartome,inthysight;letitbecomeclearerandclearer,Ibeseechthee。Inthatlightletmeabidesoberlyunderthywings。

  Thouhastalsotoldme,OLord,withastrongvoiceinmyinnerear,thatthouhastcreatedallnaturesandallsubstances,whicharenotwhatthouartthyself;andyettheydoexist。Onlythatwhichisnothingatallisnotfromthee,andthatmotionofthewillawayfromthee,whoart,towardsomethingthatexistsonlyinalesserdegree——suchamotionisanoffenseandasin。

  Noone’ssineitherhurtstheeordisturbstheorderofthyrule,eitherfirstorlast。Allthis,inthysight,iscleartome。

  Letitbecomeclearerandclearer,Ibeseechthee,andinthatlightletmeabidesoberlyunderthywings。

  12。Likewise,thouhasttoldme,withastrongvoiceinmyinnerear,thatthiscreation——whosedelightthoualoneart——

  isnotcoeternalwiththee。Withamostperseveringpurityitdrawsitssupportfromtheeandnowhereandneverbetraysitsownmutability,forthouarteverpresentwithit;anditcleavestotheewithitsentireaffection,havingnofuturetoexpectandnopastthatitremembers;itisvariedbynochangeandisextendedbynotime。

  Oblessedone——ifsuchtherebe——clingingtothyblessedness!Itisblestinthee,itseverlastingInhabitantanditsLight。IcannotfindatermthatIwouldjudgemorefittingfor”theheavenoftheheavensoftheLord”than”Thyhouse”——

  whichcontemplatesthydelightswithoutanydeclinationtowardanythingelseandwhich,withapuremindinmostharmoniousstability,joinsalltogetherinthepeaceofthosesaintlyspiritswhoarecitizensofthycityinthoseheavensthatareabovethisvisibleheaven。

  13。Fromthisletthesoulthathaswanderedfarawayfromtheeunderstand——ifnowitthirstsforthee;ifnowitstearshavebecomeitsbread,whiledailytheysaytoit,”WhereisyourGod?”[471];ifnowitrequestsoftheejustonethingandseeksafterthis:thatitmaydwellinthyhouseallthedaysofitslifeandwhatisitslifebutthee?Andwhatarethydaysbutthyeternity,likethyyearswhichdonotfail,sincethouarttheSelfsame?——fromthis,Isay,letthesoulunderstandasfarasitcanhowfarabovealltimesthouartinthyeternity;andhowthyhousehasneverwanderedawayfromthee;and,althoughitisnotcoeternalwiththee,itcontinuallyandunfailinglyclingstotheeandsuffersnovicissitudesoftime。This,inthysight,iscleartome;mayitbecomeclearerandclearertome,Ibeseechthee,andinthislightmayIabidesoberlyunderthywings。

  14。NowIdonotknowwhatkindofformlessnessthereisinthesemutationsoftheselastandlowestcreatures。Yetwhowilltellme,unlessitissomeonewho,intheemptinessofhisownheart,wandersaboutandbeginstobedizzyinhisownfancies?

  Whoexceptsuchaonewouldtellmewhether,ifallformwerediminishedandconsumed,formlessnessalonewouldremain,throughwhichathingwaschangedandturnedfromonespeciesintoanother,sothatsheerformlessnesswouldthenbecharacterizedbytemporalchange?Andsurelythiscouldnotbe,becausewithoutmotionthereisnotime,andwherethereisnoformthereisnochange。

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  15。ThesethingsIhaveconsideredasthouhastgivenmeability,OmyGod,asthouhastexcitedmetoknock,andasthouhastopenedtomewhenIknock。TwothingsIfindwhichthouhastmade,notwithinintervalsoftime,althoughneitheriscoeternalwiththee。Oneofthemissoformedthat,withoutanywaveringinitscontemplation,withoutanyintervalofchange——mutablebutnotchanged——itmayfullyenjoythyeternityandimmutability。

  Theotherissoformlessthatitcouldnotchangefromoneformtoanothereitherofmotionorofrest,andsotimehasnoholduponit。Butthoudidstnotleavethisformless,for,beforeany”day”inthebeginning,thoudidstcreateheavenandearth——

  thesearethetwothingsofwhichIspoke。

  But”theearthwasinvisibleandunformed,anddarknesswasovertheabyss。”Bythesewordsitsformlessnessisindicatedtous——sothatbydegreestheymaybeledforwardwhocannotwhollyconceiveoftheprivationofallformwithoutarrivingatnothing。

  Fromthisformlessnessasecondheavenmightbecreatedandasecondearth——visibleandwellformed,withtheorderedbeautyofthewaters,andwhateverelseisrecordedascreatedthoughnotwithoutdaysintheformationofthisworld。Andallthisbecausesuchthingsaresoorderedthatinthemthechangesoftimemaytakeplacethroughtheorderedprocessesofmotionandform。

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  16。MeanwhilethisiswhatIunderstand,OmyGod,whenI

  hearthyScripturesaying,”InthebeginningGodmadetheheavenandtheearth,buttheearthwasinvisibleandunformed,anddarknesswasovertheabyss。”Itdoesnotsayonwhatdaythoudidstcreatethesethings。Thus,forthetimebeingIunderstandthat”heavenofheavens”tomeantheintelligibleheaven,wheretounderstandistoknowallatonce——not”inpart,”not”darkly,”

  not”throughaglass”——butasasimultaneouswhole,infullsight,”facetoface。”[472]Itisnotthisthingnowandthenanotherthing,butaswesaidknowledgeallatoncewithoutanytemporalchange。Andbytheinvisibleandunformedearth,I

  understandthatwhichsuffersnotemporalvicissitude。Temporalchangecustomarilymeanshavingonethingnowandanotherlater;

  butwherethereisnoformtherecanbenodistinctionbetweenthisorthat。Itis,then,bymeansofthesetwo——onethingwellformedinthebeginningandanotherthingwhollyunformed,theoneheaventhatis,theheavenofheavensandtheotheroneearthbuttheearthinvisibleandunformed——itisbymeansofthesetwonotionsthatIamabletounderstandwhythyScripturesaid,withoutmentionofdays,”InthebeginningGodcreatedtheheavenandtheearth。”Foritimmediatelyindicatedwhichearthitwasspeakingabout。When,onthesecondday,thefirmamentisrecordedashavingbeencreatedandcalledheaven,thissuggeststouswhichheavenitwasthathewasspeakingaboutearlier,withoutspecifyingaday。

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