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  “What’stheuse?”hethought,lookingoutupontheslopandsnow。

  “Icouldn’tbuyintoit。It’sathousandtoonenothingcomesof,it。IguessI’llgetoff,“andoffhegot。Inthelobbyhetook,aseatandwaitedagain,wonderingwhathecoulddo。

  Whilehewasidlypondering,satisfiedtobeinside,awell-

  dressedmanpassedupthelobby,stopped,lookedsharply,asif,notsureofhismemory,andthenapproached。Hurstwood,recognisedCargill,theownerofthelargestablesinChicagoof,thesamename,whomhehadlastseenatAveryHall,thenight,Carrieappearedthere。Theremembranceofhowthisindividual,broughtuphiswifetoshakehandsonthatoccasionwasalsoon,theinstantclear。

  Hurstwoodwasgreatlyabashed。Hiseyesexpressedthedifficulty,hefelt。

  “Why,it’sHurstwood!”saidCargill,rememberingnow,andsorry,thathehadnotrecognisedhimquicklyenoughinthebeginningto,haveavoidedthismeeting。

  “Yes,“saidHurstwood。”Howareyou?”

  “Verywell,“saidCargill,troubledforsomethingtotalkabout。

  “Stoppinghere?”

  “No,“saidHurstwood,“justkeepinganappointment。”

  “IknewyouhadleftChicago。Iwaswonderingwhathadbecomeof,you。”

  “Oh,I’mherenow,“answeredHurstwood,anxioustogetaway。

  “Doingwell,Isuppose?”

  “Excellent。”

  “Gladtohearit。”

  Theylookedatoneanother,ratherembarrassed。

  “Well,Ihaveanengagementwithafriendupstairs。I’llleave,you。Solong。”

  Hurstwoodnoddedhishead。

  “Damnitall,“hemurmured,turningtowardthedoor。”Iknew,thatwouldhappen。”

  Hewalkedseveralblocksupthestreet。Hiswatchonly,registered1。30。Hetriedtothinkofsomeplacetogoor,somethingtodo。Thedaywassobadhewantedonlytobeinside。

  Finallyhisfeetbegantofeelwetandcold,andheboardeda,car。ThistookhimtoFifty-ninthStreet,whichwasasgoodas,anywhereelse。Landedhere,heturnedtowalkbackalongSeventh,Avenue,buttheslushwastoomuch。Themiseryofloungingabout,withnowheretogobecameintolerable。Hefeltasifhewere,catchingcold。

  Stoppingatacorner,hewaitedforacarsouthbound。Thiswas,nodaytobeout;hewouldgohome。

  Carriewassurprisedtoseehimataquarterofthree。

  “It’samiserabledayout,“wasallhesaid。Thenhetookoff,hiscoatandchangedhisshoes。

  Thatnighthefeltacoldcomingonandtookquinine。Hewas,feverishuntilmorning,andsataboutthenextdaywhileCarrie,waitedonhim。Hewasahelplesscreatureinsickness,notvery,handsomeinadull-colouredbathgownandhishairuncombed。He,lookedhaggardabouttheeyesandquiteold。Carrienoticed,this,anditdidnotappealtoher。Shewantedtobegood-

  naturedandsympathetic,butsomethingaboutthemanheldher,aloof。

  Towardeveninghelookedsobadlyintheweaklightthatshe,suggestedhegotobed。

  “You’dbettersleepalone,“shesaid,“you’llfeelbetter。I’ll,openyourbedforyounow。”

  “Allright,“hesaid。

  Asshedidallthesethings,shewasinamostdespondentstate。

  “Whatalife!Whatalife!”washeronethought。

  Onceduringtheday,whenhesatneartheradiator,hunchedup,andreading,shepassedthrough,andseeinghim,wrinkledher,brows。Inthefrontroom,whereitwasnotsowarm,shesatby,thewindowandcried。Thiswasthelifecutoutforher,wasit?

  Tolivecoopedupinasmallflatwithsomeonewhowasoutof,work,idle,andindifferenttoher。Shewasmerelyaservantto,himnow,nothingmore。

  Thiscryingmadehereyesred,andwhen,inpreparinghisbed,shelightedthegas,and,havingpreparedit,calledhimin,he,noticedthefact。

  “What’sthematterwithyou?”heasked,lookingintoherface。

  Hisvoicewashoarseandhisunkemptheadonlyaddedtoits,grewsomequality。

  “Nothing,“saidCarrie,weakly。

  “You’vebeencrying,“hesaid。

  “Ihaven’t,either,“sheanswered。

  Itwasnotforloveofhim,thatheknew。

  “Youneedn’tcry,“hesaid,gettingintobed。”Thingswillcome,outallright。”

  Inadayortwohewasupagain,butroughweatherholding,he,stayedin。TheItaliannewsdealernowdeliveredthemorning,papers,andthesehereadassiduously。Afewtimesafterthathe,venturedout,butmeetinganotherofhisold-timefriends,he,begantofeeluneasysittingabouthotelcorridors。

  Everydayhecamehomeearly,andatlastmadenopretenceof,goinganywhere。Winterwasnotimetolookforanything。

  Naturally,beingaboutthehouse,henoticedthewayCarriedid,things。Shewasfarfromperfectinhouseholdmethodsand,economy,andherlittledeviationsonthisscorefirstcaughthis,eye。Not,however,beforeherregulardemandforherallowance,becameagrievousthing。Sittingaroundashedid,theweeks,seemedtopassveryquickly。EveryTuesdayCarrieaskedforher,money。

  “Doyouthinkweliveascheaplyaswemight?”heaskedone,Tuesdaymorning。

  “IdothebestIcan,“saidCarrie。

  Nothingwasaddedtothisatthemoment,butthenextdayhe,said:

  “DoyouevergototheGansevoortMarketoverhere?”

  “Ididn’tknowtherewassuchamarket,“saidCarrie。

  “Theysayyoucangetthingslotscheaperthere。”

  Carriewasveryindifferenttothesuggestion。Thesewerethings,whichshedidnotlikeatall。

  “Howmuchdoyoupayforapoundofmeat?”heaskedoneday。

  “Oh,therearedifferentprices,“saidCarrie。”Sirloinsteakis,twenty-twocents。”

  “That’ssteep,isn’tit?”heanswered。

  Soheaskedaboutotherthings,untilfinally,withthepassing,days,itseemedtobecomeamaniawithhim。Helearnedthe,pricesandrememberedthem。

  Hiserrand-runningcapacityalsoimproved。Itbeganinasmall,way,ofcourse。Carrie,goingtogetherhatonemorning,was,stoppedbyhim。

  “Whereareyougoing,Carrie?”heasked。

  “Overtothebaker’s,“sheanswered。

  “I’djustasleavegoforyou,“hesaid。

  Sheacquiesced,andhewent。Eachafternoonhewouldgotothe,cornerforthepapers。

  “Isthereanythingyouwant?”hewouldsay。

  Bydegreesshebegantousehim。Doingthis,however,shelost,theweeklypaymentoftwelvedollars。

  “Youwanttopaymeto-day,“shesaidoneTuesday,aboutthis,time。

  “Howmuch?”heasked。

  Sheunderstoodwellenoughwhatitmeant。

  “Well,aboutfivedollars,“sheanswered。”Iowethecoalman。”

  Thesamedayhesaid:

  “IthinkthisItalianuphereonthecornersellscoalattwenty-

  fivecentsabushel。I’lltradewithhim。”

  Carrieheardthiswithindifference。

  “Allright,“shesaid。

  Thenitcametobe:

  “George,Imusthavesomecoalto-day,“or,“Youmustgetsome,meatofsomekindfordinner。”

  Hewouldfindoutwhatsheneededandorder。

  Accompanyingthisplancameskimpiness。

  “Ionlygotahalf-poundofsteak,“hesaid,cominginone,afternoonwithhispapers。”Weneverseemtoeatverymuch。”

  ThesemiserabledetailsatetheheartoutofCarrie。They,blackenedherdaysandgrievedhersoul。Oh,howthismanhad,changed!,Alldayandallday,herehesat,readinghispapers。

  Theworldseemedtohavenoattraction。Onceinawhilehewould,goout,infineweather,itmightbefourorfivehours,between,elevenandfour。Shecoulddonothingbutviewhimwithgnawing,contempt。

  ItwasapathywithHurstwood,resultingfromhisinabilitytosee,hiswayout。Eachmonthdrewfromhissmallstore。Now,hehad,onlyfivehundreddollarsleft,andthishehugged,halffeeling,asifhecouldstaveoffabsolutenecessityforanindefinite,period。Sittingaroundthehouse,hedecidedtowearsomeold,clotheshehad。Thiscamefirstwiththebaddays。Onlyoncehe,apologisedintheverybeginning:

  “It’ssobadto-day,I’lljustwearthesearound。”

  Eventuallythesebecamethepermanentthing。

  Also,hehadbeenwonttopayfifteencentsforashave,anda,tipoftencents。Inhisfirstdistress,hecutdownthetipto,five,thentonothing。Later,hetriedaten-centbarbershop,and,findingthattheshavewassatisfactory,patronised,regularly。Laterstill,heputoffshavingtoeveryotherday,thentoeverythird,andsoon,untilonceaweekbecamethe,rule。OnSaturdayhewasasighttosee。

  Ofcourse,ashisownself-respectvanished,itperishedforhim,inCarrie。Shecouldnotunderstandwhathadgottenintothe,man。Hehadsomemoney,hehadadecentsuitremaining,hewas,notbadlookingwhendressedup。Shedidnotforgetherown,difficultstruggleinChicago,butshedidnotforgeteitherthat,shehadneverceasedtrying。Henevertried。Hedidnoteven,consulttheadsinthepapersanymore。

  Finally,adistinctimpressionescapedfromher。

  “Whatmakesyouputsomuchbutteronthesteak?”heaskedher,oneevening,standingaroundinthekitchen。

  “Tomakeitgood,ofcourse,“sheanswered。

  “Butterisawfuldearthesedays,“hesuggested。

  “Youwouldn’tminditifyouwereworking,“sheanswered。

  Heshutupafterthis,andwentintohispaper,buttheretort,rankledinhismind。Itwasthefirstcuttingremarkthathad,comefromher。

  Thatsameevening,Carrie,afterreading,wentofftothefront,roomtobed。Thiswasunusual。WhenHurstwooddecidedtogo,he,retired,asusual,withoutalight。Itwasthenthathe,discoveredCarrie’sabsence。

  “That’sfunny,“hesaid;“maybeshe’ssittingup。”

  Hegavethematternomorethought,butslept。Inthemorning,shewasnotbesidehim。Strangetosay,thispassedwithout,comment。

  Nightapproaching,andaslightlymoreconversationalfeeling,prevailing,Carriesaid:

  “IthinkI’llsleepaloneto-night。Ihaveaheadache。”

  “Allright,“saidHurstwood。

  Thethirdnightshewenttoherfrontbedwithoutapologies。

  ThiswasagrimblowtoHurstwood,buthenevermentionedit。

  “Allright,“hesaidtohimself,withanirrepressiblefrown,“lethersleepalone。”

  ChapterXXXVI

  AGRIMRETROGRESSION——THEPHANTOMOFCHANCE

  TheVances,whohadbeenbackinthecityeversinceChristmas,hadnotforgottenCarrie;butthey,orratherMrs。Vance,had,nevercalledonher,fortheverysimplereasonthatCarriehad,neversentheraddress。Truetohernature,shecorresponded,withMrs。VanceaslongasshestilllivedinSeventy-eighth,Street,butwhenshewascompelledtomoveintoThirteenth,her,fearthatthelatterwouldtakeitasanindicationofreduced,circumstancescausedhertostudysomewayofavoidingthe,necessityofgivingheraddress。Notfindinganyconvenient,method,shesorrowfullyresignedtheprivilegeofwritingtoher,friendentirely。Thelatterwonderedatthisstrangesilence,thoughtCarriemusthaveleftthecity,andintheendgaveher,upaslost。Soshewasthoroughlysurprisedtoencounterherin,FourteenthStreet,whereshehadgoneshopping。Carriewasthere,forthesamepurpose。

  “Why,Mrs。Wheeler,“saidMrs。Vance,lookingCarrieoverina,glance,“wherehaveyoubeen?Whyhaven’tyoubeentoseeme?

  I’vebeenwonderingallthistimewhathadbecomeofyou。

  Really,I——“

  “I’msogladtoseeyou,“saidCarrie,pleasedandyet,nonplussed。Ofalltimes,thiswastheworsttoencounterMrs。

  Vance。”Why,I’mlivingdowntownhere。I’vebeenintendingto,comeandseeyou。Whereareyoulivingnow?”

  “InFifty-eighthStreet,“saidMrs。Vance,“justoffSeventh,Avenue——218。Whydon’tyoucomeandseeme?”

  “Iwill,“saidCarrie。”Really,I’vebeenwantingtocome。I

  knowIoughtto。It’sashame。Butyouknow——“

  “What’syournumber?”saidMrs。Vance。

  “ThirteenthStreet,“saidCarrie,reluctantly。”112West。”

  “Oh,“saidMrs。Vance,“that’srightnearhere,isn’tit?”

  “Yes,“saidCarrie。”Youmustcomedownandseemesometime。”

  “Well,you’reafineone,“saidMrs。Vance,laughing,thewhile,notingthatCarrie’sappearancehadmodifiedsomewhat。”The,address,too,“sheaddedtoherself。”Theymustbehardup。”

  StillshelikedCarriewellenoughtotakeherintow。

  “Comewithmeinhereaminute,“sheexclaimed,turningintoa,store。

  WhenCarriereturnedhome,therewasHurstwood,readingasusual。

  Heseemedtotakehisconditionwiththeutmostnonchalance。His,beardwasatleastfourdaysold。

  “Oh,“thoughtCarrie,“ifsheweretocomehereandseehim?”

  Sheshookherheadinabsolutemisery。Itlookedasifher,situationwasbecomingunbearable。

  Driventodesperation,sheaskedatdinner:

  “Didyoueverhearanymorefromthatwholesalehouse?”

  “No,“hesaid。”Theydon’twantaninexperiencedman。”

  Carriedroppedthesubject,feelingunabletosaymore。

  “ImetMrs。Vancethisafternoon,“shesaid,afteratime。

  “Did,eh?”heanswered。

  “They’rebackinNewYorknow,“Carriewenton。”Shedidlookso,nice。”

  “Well,shecanafforditaslongasheputsupforit,“returned,Hurstwood。”He’sgotasoftjob。”

  Hurstwoodwaslookingintothepaper。Hecouldnotseethelook,ofinfinitewearinessanddiscontentCarriegavehim。

  “Shesaidshethoughtshe’dcallheresomeday。”

  “She’sbeenlonggettingroundtoit,hasn’tshe?”said,Hurstwood,withakindofsarcasm。

  Thewomandidn’tappealtohimfromherspendingside。

  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,angeredbytheman’sattitude。

  “PerhapsIdidn’twanthertocome。”

  “She’stoogay,“saidHurstwood,significantly。”Noonecankeep,upwithherpaceunlessthey’vegotalotofmoney。”

  “Mr。Vancedoesn’tseemtofinditveryhard。”

  “Hemaynotnow,“answeredHurstwood,doggedly,well,understandingtheinference;“buthislifeisn’tdoneyet。You,can’ttellwhat’llhappen。Hemaygetdownlikeanybodyelse。”

  Therewassomethingquiteknavishintheman’sattitude。Hiseye,seemedtobecockedwithatwinkleuponthefortunate,expecting,theirdefeat。Hisownstateseemedathingapart——not,considered。

  Thisthingwastheremainsofhisold-timecocksurenessand,independence。Sittinginhisflat,andreadingofthedoingsof,otherpeople,sometimesthisindependent,undefeatedmoodcame,uponhim。Forgettingthewearinessofthestreetsandthe,degradationofsearch,hewouldsometimesprickuphisears。It,wasasifhesaid:

  “Icandosomething。I’mnotdownyet。There’salotofthings,comingtomeifIwanttogoafterthem。”

  Itwasinthismoodthathewouldoccasionallydressup,gofora,shave,and,puttingonhisgloves,sallyforthquiteactively。

  Notwithanydefiniteaim。Itwasmoreabarometriccondition。

  Hefeltjustrightforbeingoutsideanddoingsomething。

  Onsuchoccasions,hismoneywentalso。Heknewofseveralpoker,roomsdowntown。Afewacquaintanceshehadindowntownresorts,andabouttheCityHall。Itwasachangetoseethemand,exchangeafewfriendlycommonplaces。

  Hehadoncebeenaccustomedtoholdaprettyfairhandatpoker。

  Manyafriendlygamehadnettedhimahundreddollarsormoreat,thetimewhenthatsumwasmerelysaucetothedishofthegame——

  nottheallinall。Now,hethoughtofplaying。

  “Imightwinacoupleofhundred。I’mnotoutofpractice。”

  Itisbutfairtosaythatthisthoughthadoccurredtohim,severaltimesbeforeheacteduponit。

  ThepokerroomwhichhefirstinvadedwasoverasalooninWest,Street,nearoneoftheferries。Hehadbeentherebefore。

  Severalgamesweregoing。Thesehewatchedforatimeand,noticedthatthepotswerequitelargefortheanteinvolved。

  “Dealmeahand,“hesaidatthebeginningofanewshuffle。He,pulledupachairandstudiedhiscards。Thoseplayingmadethat,quietstudyofhimwhichissounapparent,andyetinvariablyso,searching。

  Poorfortunewaswithhimatfirst。Hereceivedamixed,collectionwithoutprogressionorpairs。Thepotwasopened。

  “Ipass,“hesaid。

  Onthestrengthofthis,hewascontenttolosehisante。The,dealsdidfairlybyhiminthelongrun,causinghimtocomeaway,withafewdollarstothegood。

  Thenextafternoonhewasbackagain,seekingamusementand,profit。Thistimehefollowedupthreeofakindtohisdoom。

  Therewasabetterhandacrossthetable,heldbyapugnacious,Irishyouth,whowasapoliticalhanger-onoftheTammany,districtinwhichtheywerelocated。Hurstwoodwassurprisedat,thepersistenceofthisindividual,whosebetscamewithasang-

  froidwhich,ifabluff,wasexcellentart。Hurstwoodbeganto,doubt,butkept,orthoughttokeep,atleast,thecooldemeanour,withwhich,inoldentimes,hedeceivedthosepsychicstudentsof,thegamingtable,whoseemtoreadthoughtsandmoods,rather,thanexteriorevidences,howeversubtle。Hecouldnotdownthe,cowardlythoughtthatthismanhadsomethingbetterandwould,staytotheend,drawinghislastdollarintothepot,shouldhe,choosetogosofar。Still,hehopedtowinmuch——hishandwas,excellent。Whynotraiseitfivemore?

  “Iraiseyouthree,“saidtheyouth。

  “Makeitfive,“saidHurstwood,pushingouthischips。

  “Comeagain,“saidtheyouth,pushingoutasmallpileofreds。

  “Letmehavesomemorechips,“saidHurstwoodtothekeeperin,charge,takingoutabill。

  Acynicalgrinlitupthefaceofhisyouthfulopponent。When,thechipswerelaidout,Hurstwoodmettheraise。

  “Fiveagain,“saidtheyouth。

  Hurstwood’sbrowwaswet。Hewasdeepinnow——verydeepforhim。

  Sixtydollarsofhisgoodmoneywasup。Hewasordinarilyno,coward,butthethoughtoflosingsomuchweakenedhim。Finally,hegaveway。Hewouldnottrusttothisfinehandanylonger。

  “Icall,“hesaid。

  “Afullhouse!”saidtheyouth,spreadingouthiscards。

  Hurstwood’shanddropped。

  “IthoughtIhadyou,“hesaid,weakly。

  Theyouthrakedinhischips,andHurstwoodcameaway,not,withoutfirststoppingtocounthisremainingcashonthestair。

  “Threehundredandfortydollars,“hesaid。

  Withthislossandordinaryexpenses,somuchhadalreadygone。

  Backintheflat,hedecidedhewouldplaynomore。

  RememberingMrs。Vance’spromisetocall,Carriemadeoneother,mildprotest。ItwasconcerningHurstwood’sappearance。This,veryday,cominghome,hechangedhisclothestotheoldtogshe,sataroundin。

  “Whatmakesyoualwaysputonthoseoldclothes?”askedCarrie。

  “What’stheusewearingmygoodonesaroundhere?”heasked。

  “Well,Ishouldthinkyou’dfeelbetter。”Thensheadded:“Some,onemightcall。”

  “Who?”hesaid。

  “Well,Mrs。Vance,“saidCarrie。

  “Sheneedn’tseeme,“heanswered,sullenly。

  ThislackofprideandinterestmadeCarriealmosthatehim。

  “Oh,“shethought,“therehesits。’Sheneedn’tseeme。’I

  shouldthinkhewouldbeashamedofhimself。”

  TherealbitternessofthisthingwasaddedwhenMrs。Vancedid,call。Itwasononeofhershoppingrounds。Makingherwayup,thecommonplacehall,sheknockedatCarrie’sdoor。Toher,subsequentandagonisingdistress,Carriewasout。Hurstwood,openedthedoor,half-thinkingthattheknockwasCarrie’s。For,once,hewastakenhonestlyaback。Thelostvoiceofyouthand,pridespokeinhim。

  “Why,“hesaid,actuallystammering,“howdoyoudo?”

  “Howdoyoudo?”saidMrs。Vance,whocouldscarcelybelieveher,eyes。Hisgreatconfusionsheinstantlyperceived。Hedidnot,knowwhethertoinviteherinornot。

  “Isyourwifeathome?”sheinquired。

  “No,“hesaid,“Carrie’sout;butwon’tyoustepin?She’llbe,backshortly。”

  “No-o,“saidMrs。Vance,realisingthechangeofitall。”I’m,reallyverymuchinahurry。IthoughtI’djustrunupandlook,in,butIcouldn’tstay。Justtellyourwifeshemustcomeand,seeme。”

  “Iwill,“saidHurstwood,standingback,andfeelingintense,reliefathergoing。Hewassoashamedthathefoldedhishands,weakly,ashesatinthechairafterwards,andthought。

  Carrie,cominginfromanotherdirection,thoughtshesawMrs。

  Vancegoingaway。Shestrainedhereyes,butcouldnotmake,sure。

  “Wasanybodyherejustnow?”sheaskedofHurstwood。

  “Yes,“hesaidguiltily;“Mrs。Vance。”

  “Didsheseeyou?”sheasked,expressingherfulldespair。

  ThiscutHurstwoodlikeawhip,andmadehimsullen。

  “Ifshehadeyes,shedid。Iopenedthedoor。”

  “Oh,“saidCarrie,closingonehandtightlyoutofsheer,nervousness。”Whatdidshehavetosay?”

  “Nothing,“heanswered。”Shecouldn’tstay。”

  “Andyoulookinglikethat!”saidCarrie,throwingasidealong,reserve。

  “Whatofit?”hesaid,angering。”Ididn’tknowshewascoming,didI?”

  “Youknewshemight,“saidCarrie。”Itoldyoushesaidshewas,coming。I’veaskedyouadozentimestowearyourotherclothes。

  Oh,Ithinkthisisjustterrible。”

  “Oh,letup,“heanswered。”Whatdifferencedoesitmake?You,couldn’tassociatewithher,anyway。They’vegottoomuchmoney。

  “WhosaidIwantedto?”saidCarrie,fiercely。

  “Well,youactlikeit,rowingaroundovermylooks。You’dthink,I’dcommitted——“

  Carrieinterrupted:

  “It’strue,“shesaid。”Icouldn’tifIwantedto,butwhose,faultisit?You’reveryfreetositandtalkaboutwhoIcould,associatewith。Whydon’tyougetoutandlookforwork?”

  Thiswasathunderboltincamp。

  “What’sittoyou?”hesaid,rising,almostfiercely。”Ipaythe,rent,don’tI?Ifurnishthe——“

  “Yes,youpaytherent,“saidCarrie。”Youtalkasiftherewas,nothingelseintheworldbutaflattositaroundin。You,haven’tdoneathingforthreemonthsexceptsitaroundand,interferehere。I’dliketoknowwhatyoumarriedmefor?”

  “Ididn’tmarryyou,“hesaid,inasnarlingtone。

  “I’dliketoknowwhatyoudid,then,inMontreal?”sheanswered。

  “Well,Ididn’tmarryyou,“heanswered。”Youcangetthatout,ofyourhead。Youtalkasthoughyoudidn’tknow。”

  Carrielookedathimamoment,hereyesdistending。Shehad,believeditwasalllegalandbindingenough。

  “Whatdidyoulietomefor,then?”sheasked,fiercely。”What,didyouforcemetorunawaywithyoufor?”

  Hervoicebecamealmostasob。

  “Force!”hesaid,withcurledlip。”AlotofforcingIdid。”

  “Oh!”saidCarrie,breakingunderthestrain,andturning。”Oh,oh!”andshehurriedintothefrontroom。

  Hurstwoodwasnowhotandwakedup。Itwasagreatshakingup,forhim,bothmentalandmoral。Hewipedhisbrowashelooked,around,andthenwentforhisclothesanddressed。Notasound,camefromCarrie;sheceasedsobbingwhensheheardhimdressing。

  Shethought,atfirst,withthefaintestalarm,ofbeingleft,withoutmoney——notoflosinghim,thoughhemightbegoingaway,permanently。Sheheardhimopenthetopofthewardrobeandtake,outhishat。Thenthedining-roomdoorclosed,andsheknewhe,hadgone。

  Afterafewmomentsofsilence,shestoodup,dry-eyed,and,lookedoutthewindow。Hurstwoodwasjuststrollingupthe,street,fromtheflat,towardSixthAvenue。

  ThelattermadeprogressalongThirteenthandacrossFourteenth,StreettoUnionSquare。

  “Lookforwork!”hesaidtohimself。”Lookforwork!Shetells,metogetoutandlookforwork。”

  Hetriedtoshieldhimselffromhisownmentalaccusation,which,toldhimthatshewasright。

  “WhatacursedthingthatMrs。Vance’scallwas,anyhow,“he,thought。”Stoodrightthere,andlookedmeover。Iknowwhat,shewasthinking。”

  HerememberedthefewtimeshehadseenherinSeventy-eight,Street。Shewasalwaysaswell-looker,andhehadtriedtoput,ontheairofbeingworthyofsuchasshe,infrontofher。Now,tothinkshehadcaughthimlookingthisway。Hewrinkledhis,foreheadinhisdistress。

  “Thedevil!”hesaidadozentimesinanhour。

  Itwasaquarterafterfourwhenheleftthehouse。Carriewas,intears。Therewouldbenodinnerthatnight。

  “Whatthedeuce,“hesaid,swaggeringmentallytohidehisown,shamefromhimself。”I’mnotsobad。I’mnotdownyet。”

  Helookedaroundthesquare,andseeingtheseverallargehotels,decidedtogotoonefordinner。Hewouldgethispapersand,makehimselfcomfortablethere。

  HeascendedintothefineparlouroftheMortonHouse,thenone,ofthebestNewYorkhotels,and,findingacushionedseat,read。

  Itdidnottroublehimmuchthathisdecreasingsumofmoneydid,notallowofsuchextravagance。Likethemorphinefiend,hewas,becomingaddictedtohisease。Anythingtorelievehismental,distress,tosatisfyhiscravingforcomfort。Hemustdoit。No,thoughtsforthemorrow——hecouldnotstandtothinkofitany,morethanhecouldofanyothercalamity。Likethecertaintyof,death,hetriedtoshutthecertaintyofsoonbeingwithouta,dollarcompletelyoutofhismind,andhecameveryneardoing,it。

  Well-dressedguestsmovingtoandfrooverthethickcarpets,carriedhimbacktotheolddays。Ayounglady,aguestofthe,house,playingapianoinanalcovepleasedhim。Hesatthere,reading。

  Hisdinnercosthim$1。50。Byeighto’clockhewasthrough,and,then,seeingguestsleavingandthecrowdofpleasure-seekers,thickeningoutsidewonderedwhereheshouldgo。Nothome。

  Carriewouldbeup。No,hewouldnotgobacktherethisevening。

  Hewouldstayoutandknockaroundasamanwhowasindependent——

  notbroke——wellmight。Heboughtacigar,andwentoutsideon,thecornerwhereotherindividualswerelounging——brokers,racing,people,thespians——hisownfleshandblood。Ashestoodthere,hethoughtoftheoldeveningsinChicago,andhowheusedto,disposeofthem。Many’sthegamehehadhad。Thistookhimto,poker。

  “Ididn’tdothatthingrighttheotherday,“hethought,referringtohislossofsixtydollars。”Ishouldn’thave,weakened。Icouldhavebluffedthatfellowdown。Iwasn’tin,form,that’swhatailedme。”

  Thenhestudiedthepossibilitiesofthegameasithadbeen,played,andbegantofigurehowhemighthavewon,inseveral,instances,bybluffingalittleharder。

  “I’moldenoughtoplaypokeranddosomethingwithit。I’lltry,myhandto-night。”

  Visionsofabigstakefloatedbeforehim。Supposinghedidwin,acoupleofhundred,wouldn’thebeinit?Lotsofsportsheknew,madetheirlivingatthisgame,andagoodliving,too。

  “TheyalwayshadasmuchasIhad,“hethought。

  Sooffhewenttoapokerroomintheneighbourhood,feelingmuch,ashehadintheolddays。Inthisperiodofself-forgetfulness,arousedfirstbytheshockofargumentandperfectedbyadinner,inthehotel,withcocktailsandcigars,hewasasnearlylike,theoldHurstwoodashewouldeverbeagain。Itwasnottheold,Hurstwood——onlyamanarguingwithadividedconscienceandlured,byaphantom。

  Thispokerroomwasmuchliketheotherone,onlyitwasaback,roominabetterdrinkingresort。Hurstwoodwatchedawhile,and,then,seeinganinterestinggame,joinedin。Asbefore,itwent,easyforawhile,hewinningafewtimesandcheeringup,losing,afewpotsandgrowingmoreinterestedanddeterminedonthat,account。Atlastthefascinatinggametookastrongholdonhim。

  Heenjoyeditsrisksandventured,onatriflinghand,tobluff,thecompanyandsecureafairstake。Tohisself-satisfaction,intenseandstrong,hedidit。

  Intheheightofthisfeelinghebegantothinkhisluckwaswith,him。Nooneelsehaddonesowell。Nowcameanothermoderate,hand,andagainhetriedtoopenthejack-potonit。Therewere,otherstherewhowerealmostreadinghisheart,soclosewas,theirobservation。

  “Ihavethreeofakind,“saidoneoftheplayerstohimself。

  “I’lljuststaywiththatfellowtothefinish。”

  Theresultwasthatbiddingbegan。

  “Iraiseyouten。”

  “Good。”

  “Tenmore。”

  “Good。”

  “Tenagain。”

  “Rightyouare。”

  ItgottowhereHurstwoodhadseventy-fivedollarsup。Theother,manreallybecameserious。PerhapsthisindividualHurstwood

  reallydidhaveastiffhand。

  “Icall,“hesaid。

  Hurstwoodshowedhishand。Hewasdone。Thebitterfactthathe,hadlostseventy-fivedollarsmadehimdesperate。

  “Let’shaveanotherpot,“hesaid,grimly。

  “Allright,“saidtheman。

  Someoftheotherplayersquit,butobservantloungerstooktheir,places。Timepassed,anditcametotwelveo’clock。Hurstwood,heldon,neitherwinningnorlosingmuch。Thenhegrewweary,andonalasthandlosttwentymore。Hewassickatheart。

  Ataquarterafteroneinthemorninghecameoutoftheplace。

  Thechill,barestreetsseemedamockeryofhisstate。Hewalked,slowlywest,littlethinkingofhisrowwithCarrie。Heascended,thestairsandwentintohisroomasiftherehadbeenno,trouble。Itwashislossthatoccupiedhismind。Sittingdown,onthebedsidehecountedhismoney。Therewasnowbutahundred,andninetydollarsandsomechange。Heputitupandbeganto,undress。

  “Iwonderwhat’sgettingintome,anyhow?”hesaid。

  InthemorningCarriescarcelyspokeandhefeltasifhemustgo,outagain。Hehadtreatedherbadly,buthecouldnotaffordto,makeup。Nowdesperationseizedhim,andforadayortwo,going,outthus,helivedlikeagentleman——orwhatheconceivedtobea,gentleman——whichtookmoney。Forhisescapadeshewassoon,poorerinmindandbody,tosaynothingofhispurse,whichhad,lostthirtybytheprocess。Thenhecamedowntocold,bitter,senseagain。

  “Therentmancomesto-day,“saidCarrie,greetinghimthus,indifferentlythreemorningslater。

  “Hedoes?”

  “Yes;thisisthesecond,“answeredCarrie。

  Hurstwoodfrowned。Thenindespairhegotouthispurse。

  “Itseemsanawfullottopayforrent,“hesaid。

  Hewasnearinghislasthundreddollars。

  ChapterXXXVII

  THESPIRITAWAKENS——NEWSEARCHFORTHEGATE

  Itwouldbeuselesstoexplainhowinduetimethelastfifty,dollarswasinsight。Thesevenhundred,byhisprocessof,handling,hadonlycarriedthemintoJune。Beforethefinal,hundredmarkwasreachedhebegantoindicatethatacalamitywas,approaching。

  “Idon’tknow,“hesaidoneday,takingatrivialexpenditurefor,meatasatext,“itseemstotakeanawfullotforustolive。”

  “Itdoesn’tseemtome,“saidCarrie,“thatwespendverymuch。”

  “Mymoneyisnearlygone,“hesaid,“andIhardlyknowwhereit’s,goneto。”

  “Allthatsevenhundreddollars?”askedCarrie。

  “Allbutahundred。”

  Helookedsodisconsolatethatitscaredher。Shebegantosee,thatsheherselfhadbeendrifting。Shehadfeltitallthe,time。

  “Well,George,“sheexclaimed,“whydon’tyougetoutandlook,forsomething?Youcouldfindsomething。”

  “Ihavelooked,“hesaid。”Youcantmakepeoplegiveyoua,place。”

  Shegazedweaklyathimandsaid:“Well,whatdoyouthinkyou,willdo?Ahundreddollarswon’tlastlong。”

  “Idon’tknow,“hesaid。”Ican’tdoanymorethanlook。”

  Carriebecamefrightenedoverthisannouncement。Shethought,desperatelyuponthesubject。Frequentlyshehadconsideredthe,stageasadoorthroughwhichshemightenterthatgildedstate,whichshehadsomuchcraved。Now,asinChicago,itcameasa,lastresourceindistress。Somethingmustbedoneifhedidnot,getworksoon。Perhapsshewouldhavetogooutandbattleagain,alone。

  Shebegantowonderhowonewouldgoaboutgettingaplace。Her,experienceinChicagoprovedthatshehadnottriedtheright,way。Theremustbepeoplewhowouldlistentoandtryyou——men,whowouldgiveyouanopportunity。

  Theyweretalkingatthebreakfasttable,amorningortwolater,whenshebroughtupthedramaticsubjectbysayingthatshesaw,thatSarahBernhardtwascomingtothiscountry。Hurstwoodhad,seenit,too。

  “Howdopeoplegetonthestage,George?”shefinallyasked,innocently。

  “Idon’tknow,“hesaid。”Theremustbedramaticagents。”

  Carriewassippingcoffee,anddidnotlookup。

  “Regularpeoplewhogetyouaplace?”

  “Yes,Ithinkso,“heanswered。

  Suddenlytheairwithwhichsheaskedattractedhisattention。

  “You’renotstillthinkingaboutbeinganactress,areyou?”he,asked。

  “No,“sheanswered,“Iwasjustwondering。”

  Withoutbeingclear,therewassomethinginthethoughtwhichhe,objectedto。Hedidnotbelieveanymore,afterthreeyearsof,observation,thatCarriewouldeverdoanythinggreatinthat,line。Sheseemedtoosimple,tooyielding。Hisideaoftheart,wasthatitinvolvedsomethingmorepompous。Ifshetriedtoget,onthestageshewouldfallintothehandsofsomecheapmanager,andbecomeliketherestofthem。Hehadagoodideaofwhathe,meantbyTHEM。Carriewaspretty。Shewouldgetalongall,right,butwherewouldhebe?

  “I’dgetthatideaoutofmyhead,ifIwereyou。It’salot,moredifficultthanyouthink。”

  Carriefeltthistocontain,insomeway,anaspersionuponher,ability。

  “YousaidIdidrealwellinChicago,“sherejoined。

  “Youdid,“heanswered,seeingthathewasarousingopposition,“butChicagoisn’tNewYork,byabigjump。”

  Carriedidnotanswerthisatall。Ithurther。

  “Thestage,“hewenton,“isallrightifyoucanbeoneofthe,bigguns,butthere’snothingtotherestofit。Ittakesalong,whiletogetup。”

  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,slightlyaroused。

  Inaflash,hethoughtheforesawtheresultofthisthing。Now,whentheworstofhissituationwasapproaching,shewouldgeton,thestageinsomecheapwayandforsakehim。Strangely,hehad,notconceivedwellofhermentalability。Thatwasbecausehe,didnotunderstandthenatureofemotionalgreatness。Hehad,neverlearnedthatapersonmightbeemotionally——insteadof,intellectually——great。AveryHallwastoofarawayforhimto,lookbackandsharplyremember。Hehadlivedwiththiswomantoo,long。

  “Well,Ido,“heanswered。”IfIwereyouIwouldn’tthinkof,it。It’snotmuchofaprofessionforawoman。”

  “It’sbetterthangoinghungry,“saidCarrie。”Ifyoudon’twant,metodothat,whydon’tyougetworkyourself?”

  Therewasnoanswerreadyforthis。Hehadgotusedtothe,suggestion。

  “Oh,letup,“heanswered。

  Theresultofthiswasthatshesecretlyresolvedtotry。It,didn’tmatterabouthim。Shewasnotgoingtobedraggedinto,povertyandsomethingworsetosuithim。Shecouldact。She,couldgetsomethingandthenworkup。Whatwouldhesaythen?

  Shepicturedherselfalreadyappearinginsomefineperformance,onBroadway;ofgoingeveryeveningtoherdressing-roomand,makingup。Thenshewouldcomeoutateleveno’clockandseethe,carriagesrangedabout,waitingforthepeople。Itdidnot,matterwhethershewasthestarornot。Ifshewereonlyonce,in,gettingadecentsalary,wearingthekindofclothesshe,liked,havingthemoneytodowith,goinghereandthereasshe,pleased,howdelightfulitwouldallbe。Hermindranoverthis,pictureallthedaylong。Hurstwood’sdrearystatemadeits,beautybecomemoreandmorevivid。

  CuriouslythisideasoontookholdofHurstwood。Hisvanishing,sumsuggestedthathewouldneedsustenance。Whycouldnot,Carrieassisthimalittleuntilhecouldgetsomething?

  Hecameinonedaywithsomethingofthisideainhismind。

  “ImetJohnB。Draketo-day,“hesaid。”He’sgoingtoopena,hotelhereinthefall。Hesaysthathecanmakeaplaceforme,then。”

  “Whoishe?”askedCarrie。

  “He’sthemanthatrunstheGrandPacificinChicago。”

  “Oh,“saidCarrie。

  “I’dgetaboutfourteenhundredayearoutofthat。”

  “Thatwouldbegood,wouldn’tit?”shesaid,sympathetically。

  “IfIcanonlygetoverthissummer,“headded,“IthinkI’llbe,allright。I’mhearingfromsomeofmyfriendsagain。”

  Carrieswallowedthisstoryinallitspristinebeauty。She,sincerelywishedhecouldgetthroughthesummer。Helookedso,hopeless。

  “Howmuchmoneyhaveyouleft?”

  “Onlyfiftydollars。”

  “Oh,mercy,“sheexclaimed,“whatwillwedo?It’sonlytwenty,daysuntiltherentwillbedueagain。”

  Hurstwoodrestedhisheadonhishandsandlookedblanklyatthe,floor。

  “Maybeyoucouldgetsomethinginthestageline?”heblandly,suggested。

  “MaybeIcould,“saidCarrie,gladthatsomeoneapprovedofthe,idea。

  “I’lllaymyhandtowhateverIcanget,“hesaid,nowthathe,sawherbrightenup。”Icangetsomething。”

  Shecleanedupthethingsonemorningafterhehadgone,dressed,asneatlyasherwardrobepermitted,andsetoutforBroadway。

  Shedidnotknowthatthoroughfareverywell。Toheritwasa,wonderfulconglomerationofeverythinggreatandmighty。The,theatreswerethere——theseagenciesmustbesomewhereabout。

  ShedecidedtostopinattheMadisonSquareTheatreandaskhow,tofindthetheatricalagents。Thisseemedthesensibleway。

  Accordingly,whenshereachedthattheatresheappliedtothe,clerkattheboxoffice。

  “Eh?”hesaid,lookingout。”Dramaticagents?Idon’tknow。

  You’llfindtheminthe’Clipper,’though。Theyalladvertisein,that。”

  “Isthatapaper?”saidCarrie。

  “Yes,“saidtheclerk,marvellingatsuchignoranceofacommon,fact。”Youcangetitatthenews-stands,“headdedpolitely,seeinghowprettytheinquirerwas。

  Carrieproceededtogetthe“Clipper,“andtriedtofindthe,agentsbylookingoveritasshestoodbesidethestand。This,couldnotbedonesoeasily。ThirteenthStreetwasanumberof,blocksoff,butshewentback,carryingthepreciouspaperand,regrettingthewasteoftime。

  Hurstwoodwasalreadythere,sittinginhisplace。

  “Wherewereyou?”heasked。

  “I’vebeentryingtofindsomedramaticagents。”

  Hefeltalittlediffidentaboutaskingconcerninghersuccess。

  Thepapershebegantoscanattractedhisattention。

  “Whathaveyougotthere?”heasked。

  “The’Clipper。’ThemansaidI’dfindtheiraddressesinhere。”

  “HaveyoubeenallthewayovertoBroadwaytofindthatout?I

  couldhavetoldyou。”

  “Whydidn’tyou?”sheasked,withoutlookingup。

  “Youneveraskedme,“hereturned。

  Shewenthuntingaimlesslythroughthecrowdedcolumns。Hermind,wasdistractedbythisman’sindifference。Thedifficultyofthe,situationshewasfacingwasonlyaddedtobyallhedid。Self-

  commiserationbrewedinherheart。Tearstrembledalongher,eyelidsbutdidnotfall。Hurstwoodnoticedsomething。

  “Letmelook。”

  Torecoverherselfshewentintothefrontroomwhilehe,searched。Presentlyshereturned。Hehadapencil,andwas,writinguponanenvelope。

  “Here’rethree,“hesaid。

  CarrietookitandfoundthatonewasMrs。Bermudez,another,MarcusJenks,athirdPercyWeil。Shepausedonlyamoment,and,thenmovedtowardthedoor。

  “Imightaswellgorightaway,“shesaid,withoutlookingback。

  Hurstwoodsawherdepartwithsomefaintstirringsofshame,whichweretheexpressionofamanhoodrapidlybecoming,stultified。Hesatawhile,andthenitbecametoomuch。Hegot,upandputonhishat。

  “IguessI’llgoout,“hesaidtohimself,andwent,strolling,nowhereinparticular,butfeelingsomehowthathemustgo。

  Carrie’sfirstcallwasuponMrs。Bermudez,whoseaddresswas,quitethenearest。Itwasanold-fashionedresidenceturnedinto,offices。Mrs。Bermudez’sofficesconsistedofwhatformerlyhad,beenabackchamberandahallbedroom,marked“Private。”

  AsCarrieenteredshenoticedseveralpersonsloungingabout——

  men,whosaidnothinganddidnothing。

  Whileshewaswaitingtobenoticed,thedoorofthehallbedroom,openedandfromitissuedtwoverymannish-lookingwomen,very,tightlydressed,andwearingwhitecollarsandcuffs。Afterthem,cameaportlyladyofaboutforty-five,light-haired,sharp-eyed,andevidentlygood-natured。Atleastshewassmiling。

  “Now,don’tforgetaboutthat,“saidoneofthemannishwomen。

  “Iwon’t,“saidtheportlywoman。”Let’ssee,“sheadded,“where,areyouthefirstweekinFebruary?”

  “Pittsburg,“saidthewoman。

  “I’llwriteyouthere。”

  “Allright,“saidtheother,andthetwopassedout。

  Instantlytheportlylady’sfacebecameexceedinglysoberand,shrewd。SheturnedaboutandfixedonCarrieaverysearching,eye。

  “Well,“shesaid,“youngwoman,whatcanIdoforyou?”

  “AreyouMrs。Bermudez?”

  “Yes。”

  “Well,“saidCarrie,hesitatinghowtobegin,“doyougetplaces,forpersonsuponthestage?”

  “Yes。”

  “Couldyougetmeone?”

  “Haveyoueverhadanyexperience?”

  “Averylittle,“saidCarrie。

  “Whomdidyouplaywith?”

  “Oh,withnoone,“saidCarrie。”Itwasjustashowgotten——“

  “Oh,Isee,“saidthewoman,interruptingher。”No,Idon’tknow,ofanythingnow。”

  Carrie’scountenancefell。

  “YouwanttogetsomeNewYorkexperience,“concludedtheaffable,Mrs。Bermudez。”We’lltakeyourname,though。”

  Carriestoodlookingwhiletheladyretiredtoheroffice。

  “Whatisyouraddress?”inquiredayoungladybehindthecounter,takingupthecurtailedconversation。

  “Mrs。GeorgeWheeler,“saidCarrie,movingovertowhereshewas,writing。Thewomanwroteheraddressinfullandthenallowed,hertodepartatherleisure。

  SheencounteredaverysimilarexperienceintheofficeofMr。

  Jenks,onlyhevarieditbysayingattheclose:“Ifyoucould,playatsomelocalhouse,orhadaprogrammewithyournameon,it,Imightdosomething。”

  Inthethirdplacetheindividualasked:

  “Whatsortofworkdoyouwanttodo?”

  “Whatdoyoumean?”saidCarrie。

  “Well,doyouwanttogetinacomedyoronthevaudevilleorin,thechorus?”

  “Oh,I’dliketogetapartinaplay,“saidCarrie。

  “Well,“saidtheman,“it’llcostyousomethingtodothat。”

  “Howmuch?”saidCarrie,who,ridiculousasitmayseem,hadnot,thoughtofthisbefore。

  “Well,that’sforyoutosay,“heansweredshrewdly。

  Carrielookedathimcuriously。Shehardlyknewhowtocontinue,theinquiry。

  “CouldyougetmeapartifIpaid?”

  “Ifwedidn’tyou’dgetyourmoneyback。”

  “Oh,“shesaid。

  Theagentsawhewasdealingwithaninexperiencedsoul,and,continuedaccordingly。

  “You’dwanttodepositfiftydollars,anyway。Noagentwould,troubleaboutyouforlessthanthat。”

  Carriesawalight。

  “Thankyou,“shesaid。”I’llthinkaboutit。”

  Shestartedtogo,andthenbethoughtherself。

  “HowsoonwouldIgetaplace?”sheasked。

  “Well,that’shardtosay,“saidtheman。”Youmightgetonein,aweek,oritmightbeamonth。You’dgetthefirstthingthat,wethoughtyoucoulddo。”

  “Isee,“saidCarrie,andthen,half-smilingtobeagreeable,she,walkedout。

  Theagentstudiedamoment,andthensaidtohimself:

  “It’sfunnyhowanxiousthesewomenaretogetonthestage。”

  Carriefoundamplefoodforreflectioninthefifty-dollar,proposition。”Maybethey’dtakemymoneyandnotgiveme,anything,“shethought。Shehadsomejewelry——adiamondringand,pinandseveralotherpieces。Shecouldgetfiftydollarsfor,thoseifshewenttoapawnbroker。

  Hurstwoodwashomebeforeher。Hehadnotthoughtshewouldbe,solongseeking。

  “Well?”hesaid,notventuringtoaskwhatnews。

  “Ididn’tfindoutanythingto-day,“saidCarrie,takingoffher,gloves。”Theyallwantmoneytogetyouaplace。”

  “Howmuch?”askedHurstwood。

  “Fiftydollars。”

  “Theydon’twantanything,dothey?”

  “Oh,they’relikeeverybodyelse。Youcan’ttellwhetherthey’d,evergetyouanythingafteryoudidpaythem。”

  “Well,Iwouldn’tputupfiftyonthatbasis,“saidHurstwood,as,ifheweredeciding,moneyinhand。

  “Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie。”IthinkI’lltrysomeofthe,managers。”

  Hurstwoodheardthis,deadtothehorrorofit。Herockeda,littletoandfro,andchewedathisfinger。Itseemedallvery,naturalinsuchextremestates。Hewoulddobetterlateron。

  ChapterXXXVIII

  INELFLANDDISPORTING——THEGRIMWORLDWITHOUT

  WhenCarrierenewedhersearch,asshedidthenextday,goingto,theCasino,shefoundthatintheoperachorus,asinother,fields,employmentisdifficulttosecure。Girlswhocanstand,inalineandlookprettyareasnumerousaslabourerswhocan,swingapick。Shefoundtherewasnodiscriminationbetweenone,andtheotherofapplicants,saveasregardsaconventional,standardofprettinessandform。Theirownopinionorknowledge,oftheirabilitywentfornothing。

  “WhereshallIfindMr。Gray?”sheaskedofasulkydoormanat,thestageentranceoftheCasino。

  “Youcan’tseehimnow;he’sbusy。”

  “DoyouknowwhenIcanseehim?”

  “Gotanappointmentwithhim?”

  “No。”

  “Well,you’llhavetocallathisoffice。”

  “Oh,dear!”exclaimedCarrie。”Whereishisoffice?”

  Hegaveherthenumber。

  Sheknewtherewasnoneedofcallingtherenow。Hewouldnotbe,in。Nothingremainedbuttoemploytheintermediatehoursin,search。

  Thedismalstoryofventuresinotherplacesisquicklytold。

  Mr。Dalysawnoonesavebyappointment。Carriewaitedanhour,inadingyoffice,quiteinspiteofobstacles,tolearnthis,factoftheplacid,indifferentMr。Dorney。

  “Youwillhavetowriteandaskhimtoseeyou。”

  Soshewentaway。

  AttheEmpireTheatreshefoundahiveofpeculiarlylistlessand,indifferentindividuals。Everythingornatelyupholstered,everythingcarefullyfinished,everythingremarkablyreserved。

  AttheLyceumsheenteredoneofthosesecluded,under-stairway,closets,beruggedandbepaneled,whichcausesonetofeelthe,greatnessofallpositionsofauthority。Herewasreserveitself,doneintoabox-officeclerk,adoorman,andanassistant,gloryingintheirfinepositions。

  “Ah,beveryhumblenow——veryhumbleindeed。Telluswhatitis,yourequire。Tellitquickly,nervously,andwithoutavestige,ofself-respect。Ifnotroubletousinanyway,wemayseewhat,wecando。”

  ThiswastheatmosphereoftheLyceum——theattitude,forthat,matter,ofeverymanagerialofficeinthecity。Theselittle,proprietorsofbusinessesarelordsindeedontheirownground。

  Carriecameawaywearily,somewhatmoreabashedforherpains。

  Hurstwoodheardthedetailsofthewearyandunavailingsearch,thatevening。

  “Ididn’tgettoseeanyone,“saidCarrie。”Ijustwalked,and,walked,andwaitedaround。”

  Hurstwoodonlylookedather。

  “Isupposeyouhavetohavesomefriendsbeforeyoucangetin,“

  sheadded,disconsolately。

  Hurstwoodsawthedifficultyofthisthing,andyetitdidnot,seemsoterrible。Carriewastiredanddispirited,butnowshe,couldrest。Viewingtheworldfromhisrocking-chair,its,bitternessdidnotseemtoapproachsorapidly。To-morrowwas,anotherday。

  To-morrowcame,andthenext,andthenext。

  CarriesawthemanagerattheCasinoonce。

  “Comearound,“hesaid,“thefirstofnextweek。Imaymakesome,changesthen。”

  Hewasalargeandcorpulentindividual,surfeitedwithgood,clothesandgoodeating,whojudgedwomenasanotherwould,horseflesh。Carriewasprettyandgraceful。Shemightbeputin,evenifshedidnothaveanyexperience。Oneoftheproprietors,hadsuggestedthatthechoruswasalittleweakonlooks。

  Thefirstofnextweekwassomedaysoffyet。Thefirstofthe,monthwasdrawingnear。Carriebegantoworryasshehadnever,worriedbefore。

  “Doyoureallylookforanythingwhenyougoout?”sheasked,Hurstwoodonemorningasaclimaxtosomepainfulthoughtsofher,own。

  “OfcourseIdo,“hesaidpettishly,troublingonlyalittleover,thedisgraceoftheinsinuation。

  “I’dtakeanything,“shesaid,“forthepresent。Itwillsoonbe,thefirstofthemonthagain。”

  Shelookedthepictureofdespair。

  Hurstwoodquitreadinghispaperandchangedhisclothes。

  “Hewouldlookforsomething,“hethought。”Hewouldgoandsee,ifsomebrewerycouldn’tgethiminsomewhere。Yes,hewould,takeapositionasbartender,ifhecouldgetit。”

  Itwasthesamesortofpilgrimagehehadmadebefore。Oneor,twoslightrebuffs,andthebravadodisappeared。

  “Nouse,“hethought。”Imightaswellgoonbackhome。”

  Nowthathismoneywassolow,hebegantoobservehisclothes,andfeelthatevenhisbestoneswerebeginningtolook,commonplace。Thiswasabitterthought。

  Carriecameinafterhedid。

  “Iwenttoseesomeofthevarietymanagers,“shesaid,aimlessly。”Youhavetohaveanact。Theydon’twantanybody,thathasn’t。”

  “Isawsomeofthebrewerypeopleto-day,“saidHurstwood。”One,mantoldmehe’dtrytomakeaplaceformeintwoorthree,weeks。”

  InthefaceofsomuchdistressonCarrie’spart,hehadtomake,someshowing,anditwasthushedidso。Itwaslassitude’s,apologytoenergy。

  MondayCarriewentagaintotheCasino。

  “DidItellyoutocomearoundtoday?”saidthemanager,looking,heroverasshestoodbeforehim。

  “Yousaidthefirstoftheweek,“saidCarrie,greatlyabashed。

  “Everhadanyexperience?”heaskedagain,almostseverely。

  Carrieownedtoignorance。

  Helookedheroveragainashestirredamongsomepapers。Hewas,secretlypleasedwiththispretty,disturbed-lookingyoungwoman。

  “Comearoundtothetheatreto-morrowmorning。”

  Carrie’sheartboundedtoherthroat。

  “Iwill,“shesaidwithdifficulty。Shecouldseehewantedher,andturnedtogo。

  “Wouldhereallyputhertowork?Oh,blessedfortune,couldit,be?”

  Alreadythehardrumbleofthecitythroughtheopenwindows,becamepleasant。

  Asharpvoiceansweredhermentalinterrogation,drivingawayall,immediatefearsonthatscore。

  “Besureyou’retherepromptly,“themanagersaidroughly。

  “You’llbedroppedifyou’renot。”

  Carriehastenedaway。ShedidnotquarrelnowwithHurstwood’s,idleness。Shehadaplace——shehadaplace!Thissanginher,ears。

  InherdelightshewasalmostanxioustotellHurstwood。But,as,shewalkedhomeward,andhersurveyofthefactsofthecase,becamelarger,shebegantothinkoftheanomalyofherfinding,workinseveralweeksandhislounginginidlenessforanumber,ofmonths。

  “Whydon’thegetsomething?”sheopenlysaidtoherself。”IfI

  canhesurelyoughtto。Itwasn’tveryhardforme。”

  Sheforgotheryouthandherbeauty。Thehandicapofageshedid,not,inherenthusiasm,perceive。

  Thus,ever,thevoiceofsuccess。

  Still,shecouldnotkeephersecret。Shetriedtobecalmand,indifferent,butitwasapalpablesham。

  “Well?”hesaid,seeingherrelievedface。

  “Ihaveaplace。”

  “Youhave?”hesaid,breathingabetterbreath。

  “Yes。”

  “Whatsortofaplaceisit?”heasked,feelinginhisveinsas,ifnowhemightgetsomethinggoodalso。

  “Inthechorus,“sheanswered。

  “IsittheCasinoshowyoutoldmeabout?”

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