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  Shethoughtitprobablethatastheylivedinthesamecounty,Mrs。PalmermightbeabletogivesomemoreparticularaccountofWilloughby’sgeneralcharacter,thancouldbegatheredfromtheMiddletons’

  partialacquaintancewithhim;andshewaseagertogainfromanyone,suchaconfirmationofhismeritsasmightremovethepossibilityoffearfromMarianne。ShebeganbyinquiringiftheysawmuchofMr。WilloughbyatCleveland,andwhethertheywereintimatelyacquaintedwithhim。

  “Ohdear,yes;Iknowhimextremelywell,“

  repliedMrs。Palmer;——“NotthatIeverspoketohim,indeed;butIhaveseenhimforeverintown。

  SomehoworotherIneverhappenedtobestayingatBartonwhilehewasatAllenham。Mamasawhimhereoncebefore;——

  butIwaswithmyuncleatWeymouth。However,IdaresayweshouldhaveseenagreatdealofhiminSomersetshire,ifithadnothappenedveryunluckilythatweshouldneverhavebeeninthecountrytogether。HeisverylittleatCombe,Ibelieve;butifhewereeversomuchthere,IdonotthinkMr。Palmerwouldvisithim,forheisintheopposition,youknow,andbesidesitissuchawayoff。Iknowwhyyouinquireabouthim,verywell;

  yoursisteristomarryhim。Iammonstrousgladofit,forthenIshallhaveherforaneighbouryouknow。”

  “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“youknowmuchmoreofthematterthanIdo,ifyouhaveanyreasontoexpectsuchamatch。”

  “Don’tpretendtodenyit,becauseyouknowitiswhateverybodytalksof。IassureyouIheardofitinmywaythroughtown。”

  “MydearMrs。Palmer!”

  “UponmyhonourIdid——ImetColonelBrandonMondaymorninginBond-street,justbeforewelefttown,andhetoldmeofitdirectly。”

  “Yousurprisemeverymuch。ColonelBrandontellyouofit!,Surelyyoumustbemistaken。Togivesuchintelligencetoapersonwhocouldnotbeinterestedinit,evenifitweretrue,isnotwhatIshouldexpectColonelBrandontodo。”

  “ButIdoassureyouitwasso,forallthat,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。Whenwemethim,heturnedbackandwalkedwithus;andsowebegantalkingofmybrotherandsister,andonethingandanother,andIsaidtohim,’So,Colonel,thereisanewfamilycometoBartoncottage,Ihear,andmamasendsmewordtheyareverypretty,andthatoneofthemisgoingtobemarriedtoMr。WilloughbyofCombeMagna。Isittrue,pray?forofcourseyoumustknow,asyouhavebeeninDevonshiresolately。’“

  “AndwhatdidtheColonelsay?”

  “Oh——hedidnotsaymuch;buthelookedasifheknewittobetrue,sofromthatmomentIsetitdownascertain。Itwillbequitedelightful,Ideclare!

  Whenisittotakeplace?”

  “Mr。BrandonwasverywellIhope?”

  “Oh!yes,quitewell;andsofullofyourpraises,hedidnothingbutsayfinethingsofyou。”

  “Iamflatteredbyhiscommendation。

  Heseemsanexcellentman;andIthinkhimuncommonlypleasing。”

  “SodoI——Heissuchacharmingman,thatitisquiteapityheshouldbesograveandsodull。

  MammasaysHEwasinlovewithyoursistertoo——

  Iassureyouitwasagreatcomplimentifhewas,forhehardlyeverfallsinlovewithanybody。”

  “IsMr。WilloughbymuchknowninyourpartofSomersetshire?”saidElinor。

  “Oh!yes,extremelywell;thatis,Idonotbelievemanypeopleareacquaintedwithhim,becauseCombeMagnaissofaroff;buttheyallthinkhimextremelyagreeableIassureyou。NobodyismorelikedthanMr。Willoughbywhereverhegoes,andsoyoumaytellyoursister。

  Sheisamonstrousluckygirltogethim,uponmyhonour;

  notbutthatheismuchmoreluckyingettingher,becausesheissoveryhandsomeandagreeable,thatnothingcanbegoodenoughforher。However,Idon’tthinkherhardlyatallhandsomerthanyou,Iassureyou;

  forIthinkyoubothexcessivelypretty,andsodoesMr。PalmertooIamsure,thoughwecouldnotgethimtoownitlastnight。”

  Mrs。Palmer’sinformationrespectingWilloughbywasnotverymaterial;butanytestimonyinhisfavour,howeversmall,waspleasingtoher。

  “Iamsogladwearegotacquaintedatlast,“

  continuedCharlotte——“AndnowIhopeweshallalwaysbegreatfriends。Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIlongedtoseeyou!

  Itissodelightfulthatyoushouldliveatthecottage!

  Nothingcanbelikeit,tobesure!,AndIamsogladyoursisterisgoingtobewellmarried!,IhopeyouwillbeagreatdealatCombeMagna。Itisasweetplace,byallaccounts。”

  “YouhavebeenlongacquaintedwithColonelBrandon,havenotyou?”

  “Yes,agreatwhile;eversincemysistermarried——

  HewasaparticularfriendofSirJohn’s。Ibelieve,“

  sheaddedinalowvoice,“hewouldhavebeenverygladtohavehadme,ifhecould。SirJohnandLadyMiddletonwisheditverymuch。Butmamadidnotthinkthematchgoodenoughforme,otherwiseSirJohnwouldhavementionedittotheColonel,andweshouldhavebeenmarriedimmediately。”

  “DidnotColonelBrandonknowofSirJohn’sproposaltoyourmotherbeforeitwasmade?,Hadheneverownedhisaffectiontoyourself?”

  “Oh,no;butifmamahadnotobjectedtoit,Idaresayhewouldhavelikeditofallthings。

  Hehadnotseenmethenabovetwice,foritwasbeforeIleftschool。However,IammuchhappierasIam。

  Mr。PalmeristhekindofmanIlike。”

  chapter21

  CHAPTER21

  ThePalmersreturnedtoClevelandthenextday,andthetwofamiliesatBartonwereagainlefttoentertaineachother。Butthisdidnotlastlong;Elinorhadhardlygottheirlastvisitorsoutofherhead,hadhardlydonewonderingatCharlotte’sbeingsohappywithoutacause,atMr。Palmer’sactingsosimply,withgoodabilities,andatthestrangeunsuitablenesswhichoftenexistedbetweenhusbandandwife,beforeSirJohn’sandMrs。Jennings’sactivezealinthecauseofsociety,procuredhersomeothernewacquaintancetoseeandobserve。

  Inamorning’sexcursiontoExeter,theyhadmetwithtwoyoungladies,whomMrs。Jenningshadthesatisfactionofdiscoveringtobeherrelations,andthiswasenoughforSirJohntoinvitethemdirectlytothepark,assoonastheirpresentengagementsatExeterwereover。

  TheirengagementsatExeterinstantlygavewaybeforesuchaninvitation,andLadyMiddletonwasthrownintonolittlealarmonthereturnofSirJohn,byhearingthatshewasverysoontoreceiveavisitfromtwogirlswhomshehadneverseeninherlife,andofwhoseelegance,——

  whosetolerablegentilityeven,shecouldhavenoproof;

  fortheassurancesofherhusbandandmotheronthatsubjectwentfornothingatall。Theirbeingherrelationstoomadeitsomuchtheworse;andMrs。Jennings’sattemptsatconsolationwerethereforeunfortunatelyfounded,whensheadvisedherdaughternottocareabouttheirbeingsofashionable;becausetheywereallcousinsandmustputupwithoneanother。Asitwasimpossible,however,nowtopreventtheircoming,LadyMiddletonresignedherselftotheideaofit,withallthephilosophyofawell-bredwoman,contentingherselfwithmerelygivingherhusbandagentlereprimandonthesubjectfiveorsixtimeseveryday。

  Theyoungladiesarrived:theirappearancewasbynomeansungenteelorunfashionable。Theirdresswasverysmart,theirmannersverycivil,theyweredelightedwiththehouse,andinraptureswiththefurniture,andtheyhappenedtobesodoatinglyfondofchildrenthatLadyMiddleton’sgoodopinionwasengagedintheirfavourbeforetheyhadbeenanhouratthePark。

  Shedeclaredthemtobeveryagreeablegirlsindeed,whichforherladyshipwasenthusiasticadmiration。

  SirJohn’sconfidenceinhisownjudgmentrosewiththisanimatedpraise,andhesetoffdirectlyforthecottagetotelltheMissDashwoodsoftheMissSteeles’arrival,andtoassurethemoftheirbeingthesweetestgirlsintheworld。Fromsuchcommendationasthis,however,therewasnotmuchtobelearned;ElinorwellknewthatthesweetestgirlsintheworldweretobemetwithineverypartofEngland,undereverypossiblevariationofform,face,temperandunderstanding。

  SirJohnwantedthewholefamilytowalktotheParkdirectlyandlookathisguests。Benevolent,philanthropicman!,Itwaspainfultohimeventokeepathirdcousintohimself。

  “Docomenow,“saidhe——“praycome——youmustcome——I

  declareyoushallcome——Youcan’tthinkhowyouwilllikethem。Lucyismonstrouspretty,andsogoodhumouredandagreeable!,Thechildrenareallhangingaboutheralready,asifshewasanoldacquaintance。Andtheybothlongtoseeyouofallthings,fortheyhaveheardatExeterthatyouarethemostbeautifulcreaturesintheworld;

  andIhavetoldthemitisallverytrue,andagreatdealmore。YouwillbedelightedwiththemIamsure。

  Theyhavebroughtthewholecoachfullofplaythingsforthechildren。Howcanyoubesocrossasnottocome?

  Whytheyareyourcousins,youknow,afterafashion。

  YOUaremycousins,andtheyaremywife’s,soyoumustberelated。”

  ButSirJohncouldnotprevail。HecouldonlyobtainapromiseoftheircallingattheParkwithinadayortwo,andthenlefttheminamazementattheirindifference,towalkhomeandboastanewoftheirattractionstotheMissSteeles,ashehadbeenalreadyboastingoftheMissSteelestothem。

  WhentheirpromisedvisittotheParkandconsequentintroductiontotheseyoungladiestookplace,theyfoundintheappearanceoftheeldest,whowasnearlythirty,withaveryplainandnotasensibleface,nothingtoadmire;

  butintheother,whowasnotmorethantwoorthreeandtwenty,theyacknowledgedconsiderablebeauty;herfeatureswerepretty,andshehadasharpquickeye,andasmartnessofair,whichthoughitdidnotgiveactualeleganceorgrace,gavedistinctiontoherperson——

  Theirmannerswereparticularlycivil,andElinorsoonallowedthemcreditforsomekindofsense,whenshesawwithwhatconstantandjudiciousattentiontheyweremakingthemselvesagreeabletoLadyMiddleton。

  Withherchildrentheywereincontinualraptures,extollingtheirbeauty,courtingtheirnotice,andhumouringtheirwhims;andsuchoftheirtimeascouldbesparedfromtheimportunatedemandswhichthispolitenessmadeonit,wasspentinadmirationofwhateverherladyshipwasdoing,ifshehappenedtobedoinganything,orintakingpatternsofsomeelegantnewdress,inwhichherappearancethedaybeforehadthrownthemintounceasingdelight。

  Fortunatelyforthosewhopaytheircourtthroughsuchfoibles,afondmother,though,inpursuitofpraiseforherchildren,themostrapaciousofhumanbeings,islikewisethemostcredulous;herdemandsareexorbitant;

  butshewillswallowanything;andtheexcessiveaffectionandenduranceoftheMissSteelestowardsheroffspringwereviewedthereforebyLadyMiddletonwithoutthesmallestsurpriseordistrust。Shesawwithmaternalcomplacencyalltheimpertinentencroachmentsandmischievoustrickstowhichhercousinssubmitted。

  Shesawtheirsashesuntied,theirhairpulledabouttheirears,theirwork-bagssearched,andtheirknivesandscissorsstolenaway,andfeltnodoubtofitsbeingareciprocalenjoyment。ItsuggestednoothersurprisethanthatElinorandMarianneshouldsitsocomposedlyby,withoutclaimingashareinwhatwaspassing。

  “Johnisinsuchspiritstoday!”saidshe,onhistakingMissSteeles’spockethandkerchief,andthrowingitoutofwindow——“Heisfullofmonkeytricks。”

  Andsoonafterwards,onthesecondboy’sviolentlypinchingoneofthesamelady’sfingers,shefondlyobserved,“HowplayfulWilliamis!”

  “AndhereismysweetlittleAnnamaria,“sheadded,tenderlycaressingalittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whohadnotmadeanoiseforthelasttwominutes;

  “Andsheisalwayssogentleandquiet——Neverwastheresuchaquietlittlething!”

  Butunfortunatelyinbestowingtheseembraces,apininherladyship’sheaddressslightlyscratchingthechild’sneck,producedfromthispatternofgentlenesssuchviolentscreams,ascouldhardlybeoutdonebyanycreatureprofessedlynoisy。Themother’sconsternationwasexcessive;butitcouldnotsurpassthealarmoftheMissSteeles,andeverythingwasdonebyallthree,insocriticalanemergency,whichaffectioncouldsuggestaslikelytoassuagetheagoniesofthelittlesufferer。

  Shewasseatedinhermother’slap,coveredwithkisses,herwoundbathedwithlavender-water,byoneoftheMissSteeles,whowasonherkneestoattendher,andhermouthstuffedwithsugarplumsbytheother。

  Withsucharewardforhertears,thechildwastoowisetoceasecrying。Shestillscreamedandsobbedlustily,kickedhertwobrothersforofferingtotouchher,andalltheirunitedsoothingswereineffectualtillLadyMiddletonluckilyrememberingthatinasceneofsimilardistresslastweek,someapricotmarmaladehadbeensuccessfullyappliedforabruisedtemple,thesameremedywaseagerlyproposedforthisunfortunatescratch,andaslightintermissionofscreamsintheyoungladyonhearingit,gavethemreasontohopethatitwouldnotberejected——

  Shewascarriedoutoftheroomthereforeinhermother’sarms,inquestofthismedicine,andasthetwoboyschosetofollow,thoughearnestlyentreatedbytheirmothertostaybehind,thefouryoungladieswereleftinaquietnesswhichtheroomhadnotknownformanyhours。

  “Poorlittlecreatures!”saidMissSteele,assoonastheyweregone。”Itmighthavebeenaverysadaccident。”

  “YetIhardlyknowhow,“criedMarianne,“unlessithadbeenundertotallydifferentcircumstances。

  Butthisistheusualwayofheighteningalarm,wherethereisnothingtobealarmedatinreality。”

  “WhatasweetwomanLadyMiddletonis!”saidLucySteele。

  Mariannewassilent;itwasimpossibleforhertosaywhatshedidnotfeel,howevertrivialtheoccasion;

  anduponElinorthereforethewholetaskoftellinglieswhenpolitenessrequiredit,alwaysfell。Shedidherbestwhenthuscalledon,byspeakingofLadyMiddletonwithmorewarmththanshefelt,thoughwithfarlessthanMissLucy。

  “AndSirJohntoo,“criedtheeldersister,“whatacharmingmanheis!”

  Heretoo,MissDashwood’scommendation,beingonlysimpleandjust,cameinwithoutanyeclat。Shemerelyobservedthathewasperfectlygoodhumouredandfriendly。

  “Andwhatacharminglittlefamilytheyhave!

  I

  neversawsuchfinechildreninmylife——IdeclareI

  quitedoatuponthemalready,andindeedIamalwaysdistractedlyfondofchildren。”

  “Ishouldguessso,“saidElinor,withasmile,“fromwhatIhavewitnessedthismorning。”

  “Ihaveanotion,“saidLucy,“youthinkthelittleMiddletonsrathertoomuchindulged;perhapstheymaybetheoutsideofenough;butitissonaturalinLadyMiddleton;

  andformypart,Ilovetoseechildrenfulloflifeandspirits;Icannotbearthemiftheyaretameandquiet。”

  “Iconfess,“repliedElinor,“thatwhileI

  amatBartonPark,Ineverthinkoftameandquietchildrenwithanyabhorrence。”

  Ashortpausesucceededthisspeech,whichwasfirstbrokenbyMissSteele,whoseemedverymuchdisposedforconversation,andwhonowsaidratherabruptly,“AndhowdoyoulikeDevonshire,MissDashwood?,IsupposeyouwereverysorrytoleaveSussex。”

  Insomesurpriseatthefamiliarityofthisquestion,oratleastofthemannerinwhichitwasspoken,Elinorrepliedthatshewas。

  “Norlandisaprodigiousbeautifulplace,isnotit?”

  addedMissSteele。

  “WehaveheardSirJohnadmireitexcessively,“

  saidLucy,whoseemedtothinksomeapologynecessaryforthefreedomofhersister。

  “IthinkeveryoneMUSTadmireit,“repliedElinor,“whoeversawtheplace;thoughitisnottobesupposedthatanyonecanestimateitsbeautiesaswedo。”

  “Andhadyouagreatmanysmartbeauxthere?

  I

  supposeyouhavenotsomanyinthispartoftheworld;

  formypart,Ithinktheyareavastadditionalways。”

  “Butwhyshouldyouthink,“saidLucy,lookingashamedofhersister,“thattherearenotasmanygenteelyoungmeninDevonshireasSussex?”

  “Nay,mydear,I’msureIdon’tpretendtosaythattherean’t。I’msurethere’savastmanysmartbeauxinExeter;

  butyouknow,howcouldItellwhatsmartbeauxtheremightbeaboutNorland;andIwasonlyafraidtheMissDashwoodsmightfinditdullatBarton,iftheyhadnotsomanyastheyusedtohave。Butperhapsyouyoungladiesmaynotcareaboutthebeaux,andhadasliefbewithoutthemaswiththem。Formypart,Ithinktheyarevastlyagreeable,providedtheydresssmartandbehavecivil。

  ButIcan’tbeartoseethemdirtyandnasty。Nowthere’sMr。RoseatExeter,aprodigioussmartyoungman,quiteabeau,clerktoMr。Simpson,youknow,andyetifyoudobutmeethimofamorning,heisnotfittobeseen——

  Isupposeyourbrotherwasquiteabeau,MissDashwood,beforehemarried,ashewassorich?”

  “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“Icannottellyou,forIdonotperfectlycomprehendthemeaningoftheword。

  ButthisIcansay,thatifheeverwasabeaubeforehemarried,heisonestillforthereisnotthesmallestalterationinhim。”

  “Oh!dear!oneneverthinksofmarriedmen’sbeingbeaux——theyhavesomethingelsetodo。”

  “Lord!Anne,“criedhersister,“youcantalkofnothingbutbeaux;——youwillmakeMissDashwoodbelieveyouthinkofnothingelse。”Andthentoturnthediscourse,shebeganadmiringthehouseandthefurniture。

  ThisspecimenoftheMissSteeleswasenough。

  Thevulgarfreedomandfollyoftheeldestlefthernorecommendation,andasElinorwasnotblindedbythebeauty,ortheshrewdlookoftheyoungest,toherwantofrealeleganceandartlessness,sheleftthehousewithoutanywishofknowingthembetter。

  NotsotheMissSteeles——TheycamefromExeter,wellprovidedwithadmirationfortheuseofSirJohnMiddleton,hisfamily,andallhisrelations,andnoniggardlyproportionwasnowdealtouttohisfaircousins,whomtheydeclaredtobethemostbeautiful,elegant,accomplished,andagreeablegirlstheyhadeverbeheld,andwithwhomtheywereparticularlyanxioustobebetteracquainted——

  Andtobebetteracquaintedtherefore,Elinorsoonfoundwastheirinevitablelot,forasSirJohnwasentirelyonthesideoftheMissSteeles,theirpartywouldbetoostrongforopposition,andthatkindofintimacymustbesubmittedto,whichconsistsofsittinganhourortwotogetherinthesameroomalmosteveryday。

  SirJohncoulddonomore;buthedidnotknowthatanymorewasrequired:tobetogetherwas,inhisopinion,tobeintimate,andwhilehiscontinualschemesfortheirmeetingwereeffectual,hehadnotadoubtoftheirbeingestablishedfriends。

  Todohimjustice,hedideverythinginhispowertopromotetheirunreserve,bymakingtheMissSteelesacquaintedwithwhateverhekneworsupposedofhiscousins’

  situationsinthemostdelicateparticulars,——andElinorhadnotseenthemmorethantwice,beforetheeldestofthemwishedherjoyonhersister’shavingbeensoluckyastomakeaconquestofaverysmartbeausinceshecametoBarton。

  “’Twillbeafinethingtohavehermarriedsoyoungtobesure,“saidshe,“andIhearheisquiteabeau,andprodigioushandsome。AndIhopeyoumayhaveasgoodluckyourselfsoon,——butperhapsyoumayhaveafriendinthecorneralready。”

  ElinorcouldnotsupposethatSirJohnwouldbemoreniceinproclaiminghissuspicionsofherregardforEdward,thanhehadbeenwithrespecttoMarianne;indeeditwasratherhisfavouritejokeofthetwo,asbeingsomewhatnewerandmoreconjectural;andsinceEdward’svisit,theyhadneverdinedtogetherwithouthisdrinkingtoherbestaffectionswithsomuchsignificancyandsomanynodsandwinks,astoexcitegeneralattention。TheletterF——

  hadbeenlikewiseinvariablybroughtforward,andfoundproductiveofsuchcountlessjokes,thatitscharacterasthewittiestletterinthealphabethadbeenlongestablishedwithElinor。

  TheMissSteeles,assheexpected,hadnowallthebenefitofthesejokes,andintheeldestofthemtheyraisedacuriositytoknowthenameofthegentlemanalludedto,which,thoughoftenimpertinentlyexpressed,wasperfectlyofapiecewithhergeneralinquisitivenessintotheconcernsoftheirfamily。ButSirJohndidnotsportlongwiththecuriositywhichhedelightedtoraise,forhehadatleastasmuchpleasureintellingthename,asMissSteelehadinhearingit。

  “HisnameisFerrars,“saidhe,inaveryaudiblewhisper;

  “butpraydonottellit,forit’sagreatsecret。”

  “Ferrars!”repeatedMissSteele;“Mr。Ferrarsisthehappyman,ishe?What!yoursister-in-law’sbrother,MissDashwood?averyagreeableyoungmantobesure;

  Iknowhimverywell。”

  “Howcanyousayso,Anne?”criedLucy,whogenerallymadeanamendmenttoallhersister’sassertions。

  “Thoughwehaveseenhimonceortwiceatmyuncle’s,itisrathertoomuchtopretendtoknowhimverywell。”

  Elinorheardallthiswithattentionandsurprise。

  “Andwhowasthisuncle?,Wheredidhelive?,Howcametheyacquainted?”Shewishedverymuchtohavethesubjectcontinued,thoughshedidnotchusetojoininitherself;

  butnothingmoreofitwassaid,andforthefirsttimeinherlife,shethoughtMrs。Jenningsdeficienteitherincuriosityafterpettyinformation,orinadispositiontocommunicateit。ThemannerinwhichMissSteelehadspokenofEdward,increasedhercuriosity;foritstruckherasbeingratherill-natured,andsuggestedthesuspicionofthatlady’sknowing,orfancyingherselftoknowsomethingtohisdisadvantage——Buthercuriositywasunavailing,fornofarthernoticewastakenofMr。Ferrars’snamebyMissSteelewhenalludedto,orevenopenlymentionedbySirJohn。

  chapter22

  CHAPTER22

  Marianne,whohadnevermuchtolerationforanythinglikeimpertinence,vulgarity,inferiorityofparts,orevendifferenceoftastefromherself,wasatthistimeparticularlyill-disposed,fromthestateofherspirits,tobepleasedwiththeMissSteeles,ortoencouragetheiradvances;andtotheinvariablecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsthem,whichcheckedeveryendeavouratintimacyontheirside,Elinorprincipallyattributedthatpreferenceofherselfwhichsoonbecameevidentinthemannersofboth,butespeciallyofLucy,whomissednoopportunityofengagingherinconversation,orofstrivingtoimprovetheiracquaintancebyaneasyandfrankcommunicationofhersentiments。

  Lucywasnaturallyclever;herremarkswereoftenjustandamusing;andasacompanionforhalfanhourElinorfrequentlyfoundheragreeable;butherpowershadreceivednoaidfromeducation:shewasignorantandilliterate;andherdeficiencyofallmentalimprovement,herwantofinformationinthemostcommonparticulars,couldnotbeconcealedfromMissDashwood,inspiteofherconstantendeavourtoappeartoadvantage。Elinorsaw,andpitiedherfor,theneglectofabilitieswhicheducationmighthaverenderedsorespectable;butshesaw,withlesstendernessoffeeling,thethoroughwantofdelicacy,ofrectitude,andintegrityofmind,whichherattentions,herassiduities,herflatteriesattheParkbetrayed;

  andshecouldhavenolastingsatisfactioninthecompanyofapersonwhojoinedinsinceritywithignorance;

  whosewantofinstructionpreventedtheirmeetinginconversationontermsofequality,andwhoseconducttowardothersmadeeveryshewofattentionanddeferencetowardsherselfperfectlyvalueless。

  “Youwillthinkmyquestionanoddone,Idaresay,“

  saidLucytoheroneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherfromtheparktothecottage——“butpray,areyoupersonallyacquaintedwithyoursister-in-law’smother,Mrs。Ferrars?”

  ElinorDIDthinkthequestionaveryoddone,andhercountenanceexpressedit,assheansweredthatshehadneverseenMrs。Ferrars。

  “Indeed!”repliedLucy;“Iwonderatthat,forI

  thoughtyoumusthaveseenheratNorlandsometimes。

  Then,perhaps,youcannottellmewhatsortofawomansheis?”

  “No,“returnedElinor,cautiousofgivingherrealopinionofEdward’smother,andnotverydesirousofsatisfyingwhatseemedimpertinentcuriosity——

  “Iknownothingofher。”

  “Iamsureyouthinkmeverystrange,forenquiringaboutherinsuchaway,“saidLucy,eyeingElinorattentivelyasshespoke;“butperhapstheremaybereasons——IwishImightventure;buthoweverIhopeyouwilldomethejusticeofbelievingthatIdonotmeantobeimpertinent。”

  Elinormadeheracivilreply,andtheywalkedonforafewminutesinsilence。ItwasbrokenbyLucy,whorenewedthesubjectagainbysaying,withsomehesitation,“Icannotbeartohaveyouthinkmeimpertinentlycurious。

  IamsureIwouldratherdoanythingintheworldthanbethoughtsobyapersonwhosegoodopinionissowellworthhavingasyours。AndIamsureIshouldnothavethesmallestfearoftrustingYOU;indeed,IshouldbeverygladofyouradvicehowtomanageinsuchanduncomfortablesituationasIam;but,however,thereisnooccasiontotroubleYOU。

  IamsorryyoudonothappentoknowMrs。Ferrars。”

  “IamsorryIdoNOT,“saidElinor,ingreatastonishment,“ifitcouldbeofanyusetoYOUtoknowmyopinionofher。

  ButreallyIneverunderstoodthatyouwereatallconnectedwiththatfamily,andthereforeIamalittlesurprised,Iconfess,atsoseriousaninquiryintohercharacter。”

  “Idaresayyouare,andIamsureIdonotatallwonderatit。ButifIdaredtellyouall,youwouldnotbesomuchsurprised。Mrs。Ferrarsiscertainlynothingtomeatpresent——butthetimeMAYcome——howsoonitwillcomemustdependuponherself——whenwemaybeveryintimatelyconnected。”

  Shelookeddownasshesaidthis,amiablybashful,withonlyonesideglanceathercompaniontoobserveitseffectonher。

  “Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“whatdoyoumean?

  AreyouacquaintedwithMr。RobertFerrars?,Canyoube?”

  Andshedidnotfeelmuchdelightedwiththeideaofsuchasister-in-law。

  “No,“repliedLucy,“nottoMr。ROBERTFerrars——I

  neversawhiminmylife;but,“fixinghereyesuponElinor,“tohiseldestbrother。”

  WhatfeltElinoratthatmoment?Astonishment,thatwouldhavebeenaspainfulasitwasstrong,hadnotanimmediatedisbeliefoftheassertionattendedit。

  SheturnedtowardsLucyinsilentamazement,unabletodivinethereasonorobjectofsuchadeclaration;andthoughhercomplexionvaried,shestoodfirminincredulity,andfeltinnodangerofanhystericalfit,oraswoon。

  “Youmaywellbesurprised,“continuedLucy;

  “fortobesureyoucouldhavehadnoideaofitbefore;

  forIdaresayheneverdroppedthesmallesthintofittoyouoranyofyourfamily;becauseitwasalwaysmeanttobeagreatsecret,andIamsurehasbeenfaithfullykeptsobymetothishour。NotasoulofallmyrelationsknowofitbutAnne,andInevershouldhavementionedittoyou,ifIhadnotfeltthegreatestdependenceintheworlduponyoursecrecy;andIreallythoughtmybehaviourinaskingsomanyquestionsaboutMrs。Ferrarsmustseemsoodd,thatitoughttobeexplained。

  AndIdonotthinkMr。Ferrarscanbedispleased,whenheknowsIhavetrustedyou,becauseIknowhehasthehighestopinionintheworldofallyourfamily,andlooksuponyourselfandtheotherMissDashwoodsquiteashisownsisters。”——Shepaused。

  Elinorforafewmomentsremainedsilent。

  Herastonishmentatwhatsheheardwasatfirsttoogreatforwords;butatlengthforcingherselftospeak,andtospeakcautiously,shesaid,withcalmnessofmanner,whichtolerablywellconcealedhersurpriseandsolicitude——

  “MayIaskifyourengagementisoflongstanding?”

  “Wehavebeenengagedthesefouryears。”

  “Fouryears!”

  “Yes。”

  Elinor,thoughgreatlyshocked,stillfeltunabletobelieveit。

  “Ididnotknow,“saidshe,“thatyouwereevenacquaintedtilltheotherday。”

  “Ouracquaintance,however,isofmanyyearsdate。

  Hewasundermyuncle’scare,youknow,aconsiderablewhile。”

  “Youruncle!”

  “Yes;Mr。Pratt。DidyouneverhearhimtalkofMr。Pratt?”

  “IthinkIhave,“repliedElinor,withanexertionofspirits,whichincreasedwithherincreaseofemotion。

  “Hewasfouryearswithmyuncle,wholivesatLongstaple,nearPlymouth。Itwasthereouracquaintancebegun,formysisterandmewasoftenstayingwithmyuncle,anditwasthereourengagementwasformed,thoughnottillayearafterhehadquittedasapupil;buthewasalmostalwayswithusafterwards。Iwasveryunwillingtoenterintoit,asyoumayimagine,withouttheknowledgeandapprobationofhismother;butIwastooyoung,andlovedhimtoowell,tobesoprudentasIoughttohavebeen——

  Thoughyoudonotknowhimsowellasme,MissDashwood,youmusthaveseenenoughofhimtobesensibleheisverycapableofmakingawomansincerelyattachedtohim。”

  “Certainly,“answeredElinor,withoutknowingwhatshesaid;butafteramoment’sreflection,sheadded,withrevivedsecurityofEdward’shonourandlove,andhercompanion’sfalsehood——“EngagedtoMr。EdwardFerrars!——Iconfessmyselfsototallysurprisedatwhatyoutellme,thatreally——Ibegyourpardon;

  butsurelytheremustbesomemistakeofpersonorname。

  WecannotmeanthesameMr。Ferrars。”

  “Wecanmeannoother,“criedLucy,smiling。

  “Mr。EdwardFerrars,theeldestsonofMrs。Ferrars,ofParkStreet,andbrotherofyoursister-in-law,Mrs。JohnDashwood,isthepersonImean;youmustallowthatIamnotlikelytobedeceivedastothenameofthemanonwhoallmyhappinessdepends。”

  “Itisstrange,“repliedElinor,inamostpainfulperplexity,“thatIshouldneverhaveheardhimevenmentionyourname。”

  “No;consideringoursituation,itwasnotstrange。

  Ourfirstcarehasbeentokeepthemattersecret——

  Youknewnothingofme,ormyfamily,and,therefore,therecouldbenoOCCASIONforevermentioningmynametoyou;and,ashewasalwaysparticularlyafraidofhissister’ssuspectinganything,THATwasreasonenoughforhisnotmentioningit。”

  Shewassilent——Elinor’ssecuritysunk;butherself-commanddidnotsinkwithit。

  “Fouryearsyouhavebeenengaged,“saidshewithafirmvoice。

  “Yes;andheavenknowshowmuchlongerwemayhavetowait。PoorEdward!,Itputshimquiteoutofheart。”

  Thentakingasmallminiaturefromherpocket,sheadded,“Topreventthepossibilityofmistake,besogoodastolookatthisface。Itdoesnotdohimjustice,tobesure,butyetIthinkyoucannotbedeceivedastothepersonitwasdrewfor——Ihavehaditabovethesethreeyears。”

  Sheputitintoherhandsasshespoke;andwhenElinorsawthepainting,whateverotherdoubtsherfearofatoohastydecision,orherwishofdetectingfalsehoodmightsuffertolingerinhermind,shecouldhavenoneofitsbeingEdward’sface。Shereturneditalmostinstantly,acknowledgingthelikeness。

  “Ihaveneverbeenable,“continuedLucy,“togivehimmypictureinreturn,whichIamverymuchvexedat,forhehasbeenalwayssoanxioustogetit!,ButIamdeterminedtosetforittheveryfirstopportunity。”

  “Youarequiteintheright,“repliedElinorcalmly。

  Theythenproceededafewpacesinsilence。Lucyspokefirst。

  “Iamsure,“saidshe,“Ihavenodoubtintheworldofyourfaithfullykeepingthissecret,becauseyoumustknowofwhatimportanceitistous,nottohaveitreachhismother;forshewouldneverapproveofit,Idaresay。

  Ishallhavenofortune,andIfancysheisanexceedingproudwoman。”

  “Icertainlydidnotseekyourconfidence,“

  saidElinor;

  “butyoudomenomorethanjusticeinimaginingthatI

  maybedependedon。Yoursecretissafewithme;

  butpardonmeifIexpresssomesurpriseatsounnecessaryacommunication。Youmustatleasthavefeltthatmybeingacquaintedwithitcouldnotaddtoitssafety。”

  Asshesaidthis,shelookedearnestlyatLucy,hopingtodiscoversomethinginhercountenance;perhapsthefalsehoodofthegreatestpartofwhatshehadbeensaying;

  butLucy’scountenancesufferednochange。

  “IwasafraidyouwouldthinkIwastakingagreatlibertywithyou,“saidshe,“intellingyouallthis。

  Ihavenotknownyoulongtobesure,personallyatleast,butIhaveknownyouandallyourfamilybydescriptionagreatwhile;andassoonasIsawyou,Ifeltalmostasifyouwasanoldacquaintance。Besidesinthepresentcase,IreallythoughtsomeexplanationwasduetoyouaftermymakingsuchparticularinquiriesaboutEdward’smother;

  andIamsounfortunate,thatIhavenotacreaturewhoseadviceIcanask。Anneistheonlypersonthatknowsofit,andshehasnojudgmentatall;indeed,shedoesmeagreatdealmoreharmthangood,forIaminconstantfearofherbetrayingme。Shedoesnotknowhowtoholdhertongue,asyoumustperceive,andIamsureIwasinthegreatestfrightintheworldt’otherday,whenEdward’snamewasmentionedbySirJohn,lestsheshouldoutwithitall。

  Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIgothroughinmymindfromitaltogether。IonlywonderthatIamaliveafterwhatIhavesufferedforEdward’ssaketheselastfouryears。

  Everythinginsuchsuspenseanduncertainty;andseeinghimsoseldom——wecanhardlymeetabovetwicea-year。

  IamsureIwondermyheartisnotquitebroke。”

  Hereshetookoutherhandkerchief;butElinordidnotfeelverycompassionate。

  “Sometimes。”continuedLucy,afterwipinghereyes,“Ithinkwhetheritwouldnotbebetterforusbothtobreakoffthematterentirely。”,Asshesaidthis,shelookeddirectlyathercompanion。”ButthenatothertimesIhavenotresolutionenoughforit——

  Icannotbearthethoughtsofmakinghimsomiserable,asIknowtheverymentionofsuchathingwoulddo。

  Andonmyownaccounttoo——sodearasheistome——Idon’tthinkIcouldbeequaltoit。Whatwouldyouadvisemetodoinsuchacase,MissDashwood?,Whatwouldyoudoyourself?”

  “Pardonme,“repliedElinor,startledbythequestion;

  “butIcangiveyounoadviceundersuchcircumstances。

  Yourownjudgmentmustdirectyou。”

  “Tobesure,“continuedLucy,afterafewminutessilenceonbothsides,“hismothermustprovideforhimsometimeorother;butpoorEdwardissocastdownbyit!

  Didyounotthinkhimdreadfullow-spiritedwhenhewasatBarton?,HewassomiserablewhenheleftusatLongstaple,togotoyou,thatIwasafraidyouwouldthinkhimquiteill。”

  “Didhecomefromyouruncle’s,then,whenhevisitedus?”

  “Oh,yes;hehadbeenstayingafortnightwithus。

  Didyouthinkhecamedirectlyfromtown?”

  “No,“repliedElinor,mostfeelinglysensibleofeveryfreshcircumstanceinfavourofLucy’sveracity;

  “Irememberhetoldus,thathehadbeenstayingafortnightwithsomefriendsnearPlymouth。”

  Sherememberedtoo,herownsurpriseatthetime,athismentioningnothingfartherofthosefriends,athistotalsilencewithrespecteventotheirnames。

  “Didnotyouthinkhimsadlyoutofspirits?”

  repeatedLucy。

  “Wedid,indeed,particularlysowhenhefirstarrived。”

  “Ibeggedhimtoexerthimselfforfearyoushouldsuspectwhatwasthematter;butitmadehimsomelancholy,notbeingabletostaymorethanafortnightwithus,andseeingmesomuchaffected——

  Poorfellow!——Iamafraiditisjustthesamewithhimnow;

  forhewritesinwretchedspirits。IheardfromhimjustbeforeIleftExeter;“takingaletterfromherpocketandcarelesslyshowingthedirectiontoElinor。

  “Youknowhishand,Idaresay,acharmingoneitis;

  butthatisnotwrittensowellasusual——Hewastired,Idaresay,forhehadjustfilledthesheettomeasfullaspossible。”

  ElinorsawthatitWAShishand,andshecoulddoubtnolonger。Thispicture,shehadallowedherselftobelieve,mighthavebeenaccidentallyobtained;itmightnothavebeenEdward’sgift;butacorrespondencebetweenthembyletter,couldsubsistonlyunderapositiveengagement,couldbeauthorisedbynothingelse;forafewmoments,shewasalmostovercome——herheartsunkwithinher,andshecouldhardlystand;butexertionwasindispensablynecessary;

  andshestruggledsoresolutelyagainsttheoppressionofherfeelings,thathersuccesswasspeedy,andforthetimecomplete。

  “Writingtoeachother,“saidLucy,returningtheletterintoherpocket,“istheonlycomfortwehaveinsuchlongseparations。Yes,Ihaveoneothercomfortinhispicture,butpoorEdwardhasnotevenTHAT。

  Ifhehadbutmypicture,hesaysheshouldbeeasy。

  IgavehimalockofmyhairsetinaringwhenhewasatLongstaplelast,andthatwassomecomforttohim,hesaid,butnotequaltoapicture。Perhapsyoumightnoticetheringwhenyousawhim?”

  “Idid,“saidElinor,withacomposureofvoice,underwhichwasconcealedanemotionanddistressbeyondanythingshehadeverfeltbefore。Shewasmortified,shocked,confounded。

  Fortunatelyforher,theyhadnowreachedthecottage,andtheconversationcouldbecontinuednofarther。

  Aftersittingwiththemafewminutes,theMissSteelesreturnedtothePark,andElinorwasthenatlibertytothinkandbewretched。

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  CHAPTER23

  HoweversmallElinor’sgeneraldependenceonLucy’sveracitymightbe,itwasimpossibleforheronseriousreflectiontosuspectitinthepresentcase,wherenotemptationcouldbeanswerabletothefollyofinventingafalsehoodofsuchadescription。WhatLucyhadassertedtobetrue,therefore,Elinorcouldnot,darednotlongerdoubt;supportedasitwastoooneverysidebysuchprobabilitiesandproofs,andcontradictedbynothingbutherownwishes。TheiropportunityofacquaintanceinthehouseofMr。Prattwasafoundationfortherest,atonceindisputableandalarming;andEdward’svisitnearPlymouth,hismelancholystateofmind,hisdissatisfactionathisownprospects,hisuncertainbehaviourtowardsherself,theintimateknowledgeoftheMissSteelesastoNorlandandtheirfamilyconnections,whichhadoftensurprisedher,thepicture,theletter,thering,formedaltogethersuchabodyofevidence,asovercameeveryfearofcondemninghimunfairly,andestablishedasafact,whichnopartialitycouldsetaside,hisill-treatmentofherself——Herresentmentofsuchbehaviour,herindignationathavingbeenitsdupe,forashorttimemadeherfeelonlyforherself;

  butotherideas,otherconsiderations,soonarose。

  HadEdwardbeenintentionallydeceivingher?,Hadhefeignedaregardforherwhichhedidnotfeel?,WashisengagementtoLucyanengagementoftheheart?,No;whateveritmightoncehavebeen,shecouldnotbelieveitsuchatpresent。

  Hisaffectionwasallherown。Shecouldnotbedeceivedinthat。Hermother,sisters,Fanny,allhadbeenconsciousofhisregardforheratNorland;itwasnotanillusionofherownvanity。Hecertainlylovedher。

  Whatasofteneroftheheartwasthispersuasion!,Howmuchcoulditnottempthertoforgive!,Hehadbeenblamable,highlyblamable,inremainingatNorlandafterhefirstfeltherinfluenceoverhimtobemorethanitoughttobe。Inthat,hecouldnotbedefended;butifhehadinjuredher,howmuchmorehadheinjuredhimself;

  ifhercasewerepitiable,hiswashopeless。

  Hisimprudencehadmadehermiserableforawhile;butitseemedtohavedeprivedhimselfofallchanceofeverbeingotherwise。Shemightintimeregaintranquillity;

  butHE,whathadhetolookforwardto?,CouldheeverbetolerablyhappywithLucySteele;couldhe,werehisaffectionforherselfoutofthequestion,withhisintegrity,hisdelicacy,andwell-informedmind,besatisfiedwithawifelikeher——illiterate,artful,andselfish?

  Theyouthfulinfatuationofnineteenwouldnaturallyblindhimtoeverythingbutherbeautyandgoodnature;

  butthefoursucceedingyears——years,whichifrationallyspent,givesuchimprovementtotheunderstanding,musthaveopenedhiseyestoherdefectsofeducation,whilethesameperiodoftime,spentonhersideininferiorsocietyandmorefrivolouspursuits,hadperhapsrobbedherofthatsimplicitywhichmightoncehavegivenaninterestingcharactertoherbeauty。

  Ifinthesuppositionofhisseekingtomarryherself,hisdifficultiesfromhismotherhadseemedgreat,howmuchgreaterweretheynowlikelytobe,whentheobjectofhisengagementwasundoubtedlyinferiorinconnections,andprobablyinferiorinfortunetoherself。

  Thesedifficulties,indeed,withaheartsoalienatedfromLucy,mightnotpressveryharduponhispatience;

  butmelancholywasthestateofthepersonbywhomtheexpectationoffamilyoppositionandunkindness,couldbefeltasarelief!

  Astheseconsiderationsoccurredtoherinpainfulsuccession,sheweptforhim,morethanforherself。

  Supportedbytheconvictionofhavingdonenothingtomeritherpresentunhappiness,andconsoledbythebeliefthatEdwardhaddonenothingtoforfeitheresteem,shethoughtshecouldevennow,underthefirstsmartoftheheavyblow,commandherselfenoughtoguardeverysuspicionofthetruthfromhermotherandsisters。

  Andsowellwassheabletoanswerherownexpectations,thatwhenshejoinedthematdinneronlytwohoursaftershehadfirstsufferedtheextinctionofallherdearesthopes,noonewouldhavesupposedfromtheappearanceofthesisters,thatElinorwasmourninginsecretoverobstacleswhichmustdivideherforeverfromtheobjectofherlove,andthatMariannewasinternallydwellingontheperfectionsofaman,ofwhosewholeheartshefeltthoroughlypossessed,andwhomsheexpectedtoseeineverycarriagewhichdroveneartheirhouse。

  ThenecessityofconcealingfromhermotherandMarianne,whathadbeenentrustedinconfidencetoherself,thoughitobligedhertounceasingexertion,wasnoaggravationofElinor’sdistress。Onthecontraryitwasarelieftoher,tobesparedthecommunicationofwhatwouldgivesuchafflictiontothem,andtobesavedlikewisefromhearingthatcondemnationofEdward,whichwouldprobablyflowfromtheexcessoftheirpartialaffectionforherself,andwhichwasmorethanshefeltequaltosupport。

  Fromtheircounsel,ortheirconversation,sheknewshecouldreceivenoassistance,theirtendernessandsorrowmustaddtoherdistress,whileherself-commandwouldneitherreceiveencouragementfromtheirexamplenorfromtheirpraise。Shewasstrongeralone,andherowngoodsensesowellsupportedher,thatherfirmnesswasasunshaken,herappearanceofcheerfulnessasinvariable,aswithregretssopoignantandsofresh,itwaspossibleforthemtobe。

  MuchasshehadsufferedfromherfirstconversationwithLucyonthesubject,shesoonfeltanearnestwishofrenewingit;andthisformorereasonsthanone。

  Shewantedtohearmanyparticularsoftheirengagementrepeatedagain,shewantedmoreclearlytounderstandwhatLucyreallyfeltforEdward,whethertherewereanysincerityinherdeclarationoftenderregardforhim,andsheparticularlywantedtoconvinceLucy,byherreadinesstoenteronthematteragain,andhercalmnessinconversingonit,thatshewasnootherwiseinterestedinitthanasafriend,whichsheverymuchfearedherinvoluntaryagitation,intheirmorningdiscourse,musthaveleftatleastdoubtful。ThatLucywasdisposedtobejealousofherappearedveryprobable:itwasplainthatEdwardhadalwaysspokenhighlyinherpraise,notmerelyfromLucy’sassertion,butfromherventuringtotrustheronsoshortapersonalacquaintance,withasecretsoconfessedlyandevidentlyimportant。

  AndevenSirJohn’sjokingintelligencemusthavehadsomeweight。Butindeed,whileElinorremainedsowellassuredwithinherselfofbeingreallybelovedbyEdward,itrequirednootherconsiderationofprobabilitiestomakeitnaturalthatLucyshouldbejealous;

  andthatshewasso,herveryconfidencewasaproof。

  Whatotherreasonforthedisclosureoftheaffaircouldtherebe,butthatElinormightbeinformedbyitofLucy’ssuperiorclaimsonEdward,andbetaughttoavoidhiminfuture?,Shehadlittledifficultyinunderstandingthusmuchofherrival’sintentions,andwhileshewasfirmlyresolvedtoactbyheraseveryprincipleofhonourandhonestydirected,tocombatherownaffectionforEdwardandtoseehimaslittleaspossible;shecouldnotdenyherselfthecomfortofendeavouringtoconvinceLucythatherheartwasunwounded。Andasshecouldnowhavenothingmorepainfultohearonthesubjectthanhadalreadybeentold,shedidnotmistrustherownabilityofgoingthrougharepetitionofparticularswithcomposure。

  Butitwasnotimmediatelythatanopportunityofdoingsocouldbecommanded,thoughLucywasaswelldisposedasherselftotakeadvantageofanythatoccurred;

  fortheweatherwasnotoftenfineenoughtoallowoftheirjoininginawalk,wheretheymightmosteasilyseparatethemselvesfromtheothers;andthoughtheymetatleasteveryothereveningeitherattheparkorcottage,andchieflyattheformer,theycouldnotbesupposedtomeetforthesakeofconversation。

  SuchathoughtwouldneverentereitherSirJohnorLadyMiddleton’shead;andthereforeverylittleleisurewasevergivenforageneralchat,andnoneatallforparticulardiscourse。Theymetforthesakeofeating,drinking,andlaughingtogether,playingatcards,orconsequences,oranyothergamethatwassufficientlynoisy。

  Oneortwomeetingsofthiskindhadtakenplace,withoutaffordingElinoranychanceofengagingLucyinprivate,whenSirJohncalledatthecottageonemorning,tobeg,inthenameofcharity,thattheywouldalldinewithLadyMiddletonthatday,ashewasobligedtoattendtheclubatExeter,andshewouldotherwisebequitealone,excepthermotherandthetwoMissSteeles。

  Elinor,whoforesawafaireropeningforthepointshehadinview,insuchapartyasthiswaslikelytobe,moreatlibertyamongthemselvesunderthetranquilandwell-breddirectionofLadyMiddletonthanwhenherhusbandunitedthemtogetherinonenoisypurpose,immediatelyacceptedtheinvitation;Margaret,withhermother’spermission,wasequallycompliant,andMarianne,thoughalwaysunwillingtojoinanyoftheirparties,waspersuadedbyhermother,whocouldnotbeartohavehersecludeherselffromanychanceofamusement,togolikewise。

  Theyoungladieswent,andLadyMiddletonwashappilypreservedfromthefrightfulsolitudewhichhadthreatenedher。

  TheinsipidityofthemeetingwasexactlysuchasElinorhadexpected;itproducednotonenoveltyofthoughtorexpression,andnothingcouldbelessinterestingthanthewholeoftheirdiscoursebothinthediningparlouranddrawingroom:tothelatter,thechildrenaccompaniedthem,andwhiletheyremainedthere,shewastoowellconvincedoftheimpossibilityofengagingLucy’sattentiontoattemptit。Theyquitteditonlywiththeremovalofthetea-things。Thecard-tablewasthenplaced,andElinorbegantowonderatherselfforhavingeverentertainedahopeoffindingtimeforconversationatthepark。Theyallroseupinpreparationforaroundgame。

  “Iamglad,“saidLadyMiddletontoLucy,“youarenotgoingtofinishpoorlittleAnnamaria’sbasketthisevening;forIamsureitmusthurtyoureyestoworkfiligreebycandlelight。Andwewillmakethedearlittlelovesomeamendsforherdisappointmentto-morrow,andthenIhopeshewillnotmuchmindit。”

  Thishintwasenough,Lucyrecollectedherselfinstantlyandreplied,“Indeedyouareverymuchmistaken,LadyMiddleton;Iamonlywaitingtoknowwhetheryoucanmakeyourpartywithoutme,orIshouldhavebeenatmyfiligreealready。Iwouldnotdisappointthelittleangelforalltheworld:andifyouwantmeatthecard-tablenow,Iamresolvedtofinishthebasketaftersupper。”

  “Youareverygood,Ihopeitwon’thurtyoureyes——

  willyouringthebellforsomeworkingcandles?

  Mypoorlittlegirlwouldbesadlydisappointed,Iknow,ifthebasketwasnotfinishedtomorrow,forthoughI

  toldheritcertainlywouldnot,Iamsureshedependsuponhavingitdone。”

  Lucydirectlydrewherworktablenearherandreseatedherselfwithanalacrityandcheerfulnesswhichseemedtoinferthatshecouldtastenogreaterdelightthaninmakingafiligreebasketforaspoiltchild。

  LadyMiddletonproposedarubberofCasinototheothers。

  NoonemadeanyobjectionbutMarianne,whowithherusualinattentiontotheformsofgeneralcivility,exclaimed,“YourLadyshipwillhavethegoodnesstoexcuseME——youknowIdetestcards。Ishallgotothepiano-forte;

  Ihavenottoucheditsinceitwastuned。”,Andwithoutfartherceremony,sheturnedawayandwalkedtotheinstrument。

  LadyMiddletonlookedasifshethankedheaventhatSHEhadnevermadesorudeaspeech。

  “Mariannecanneverkeeplongfromthatinstrumentyouknow,ma’am,“saidElinor,endeavouringtosmoothawaytheoffence;“andIdonotmuchwonderatit;foritistheverybesttonedpiano-forteIeverheard。”

  Theremainingfivewerenowtodrawtheircards。

  “Perhaps,“continuedElinor,“ifIshouldhappentocutout,ImaybeofsomeusetoMissLucySteele,inrollingherpapersforher;andthereissomuchstilltobedonetothebasket,thatitmustbeimpossibleIthinkforherlaboursingly,tofinishitthisevening。

  Ishouldliketheworkexceedingly,ifshewouldallowmeashareinit。”

  “IndeedIshallbeverymuchobligedtoyouforyourhelp,“criedLucy,“forIfindthereismoretobedonetoitthanIthoughttherewas;anditwouldbeashockingthingtodisappointdearAnnamariaafterall。”

  “Oh!thatwouldbeterrible,indeed,“saidMissSteele——

  “Dearlittlesoul,howIdoloveher!”

  “Youareverykind,“saidLadyMiddletontoElinor;

  “andasyoureallylikethework,perhapsyouwillbeaswellpleasednottocutintillanotherrubber,orwillyoutakeyourchancenow?”

  Elinorjoyfullyprofitedbythefirstoftheseproposals,andthusbyalittleofthataddresswhichMariannecouldnevercondescendtopractise,gainedherownend,andpleasedLadyMiddletonatthesametime。Lucymaderoomforherwithreadyattention,andthetwofairrivalswerethusseatedsidebysideatthesametable,and,withtheutmostharmony,engagedinforwardingthesamework。

  ThepianoforteatwhichMarianne,wrappedupinherownmusicandherownthoughts,hadbythistimeforgottenthatanybodywasintheroombesidesherself,wasluckilysonearthemthatMissDashwoodnowjudgedshemightsafely,undertheshelterofitsnoise,introducetheinterestingsubject,withoutanyriskofbeingheardatthecard-table。

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  CHAPTER24

  Inafirm,thoughcautioustone,Elinorthusbegan。

  “Ishouldbeundeservingoftheconfidenceyouhavehonouredmewith,ifIfeltnodesireforitscontinuance,ornofarthercuriosityonitssubject。Iwillnotapologizethereforeforbringingitforwardagain。”

  “Thankyou,“criedLucywarmly,“forbreakingtheice;youhavesetmyheartateasebyit;forIwassomehoworotherafraidIhadoffendedyoubywhatI

  toldyouthatMonday。”

  “Offendedme!Howcouldyousupposeso?Believeme,“

  andElinorspokeitwiththetruestsincerity,“nothingcouldbefartherfrommyintentionthantogiveyousuchanidea。Couldyouhaveamotiveforthetrust,thatwasnothonourableandflatteringtome?”

  “AndyetIdoassureyou,“repliedLucy,herlittlesharpeyesfullofmeaning,“thereseemedtometobeacoldnessanddispleasureinyourmannerthatmademequiteuncomfortable。Ifeltsurethatyouwasangrywithme;

  andhavebeenquarrellingwithmyselfeversince,forhavingtooksuchalibertyastotroubleyouwithmyaffairs。

  ButIamverygladtofinditwasonlymyownfancy,andthatyoureallydonotblameme。IfyouknewwhataconsolationitwastometorelievemyheartspeakingtoyouofwhatIamalwaysthinkingofeverymomentofmylife,yourcompassionwouldmakeyouoverlookeverythingelseIamsure。”

  “Indeed,Icaneasilybelievethatitwasaverygreatrelieftoyou,toacknowledgeyoursituationtome,andbeassuredthatyoushallneverhavereasontorepentit。

  Yourcaseisaveryunfortunateone;youseemtometobesurroundedwithdifficulties,andyouwillhaveneedofallyourmutualaffectiontosupportyouunderthem。

  Mr。Ferrars,Ibelieve,isentirelydependentonhismother。”

  “Hehasonlytwothousandpoundsofhisown;

  itwouldbemadnesstomarryuponthat,thoughformyownpart,Icouldgiveupeveryprospectofmorewithoutasigh。

  Ihavebeenalwaysusedtoaverysmallincome,andcouldstrugglewithanypovertyforhim;butIlovehimtoowelltobetheselfishmeansofrobbinghim,perhaps,ofallthathismothermightgivehimifhemarriedtopleaseher。

  Wemustwait,itmaybeformanyyears。Withalmosteveryothermanintheworld,itwouldbeanalarmingprospect;

  butEdward’saffectionandconstancynothingcandeprivemeofIknow。”

  “Thatconvictionmustbeeverythingtoyou;

  andheisundoubtedlysupportedbythesametrustinyour’s。

  Ifthestrengthofyourreciprocalattachmenthadfailed,asbetweenmanypeople,andundermanycircumstancesitnaturallywouldduringafouryears’engagement,yoursituationwouldhavebeenpitiable,indeed。”

  Lucyherelookedup;butElinorwascarefulinguardinghercountenancefromeveryexpressionthatcouldgiveherwordsasuspicioustendency。

  “Edward’sloveforme,“saidLucy,“hasbeenprettywellputtothetest,byourlong,verylongabsencesincewewerefirstengaged,andithasstoodthetrialsowell,thatIshouldbeunpardonabletodoubtitnow。

  Icansafelysaythathehasnevergavemeonemoment’salarmonthataccountfromthefirst。”

  Elinorhardlyknewwhethertosmileorsighatthisassertion。

  Lucywenton。”Iamratherofajealoustempertoobynature,andfromourdifferentsituationsinlife,fromhisbeingsomuchmoreintheworldthanme,andourcontinualseparation,Iwasenoughinclinedforsuspicion,tohavefoundoutthetruthinaninstant,iftherehadbeentheslightestalterationinhisbehaviourtomewhenwemet,oranylownessofspiritsthatIcouldnotaccountfor,orifhehadtalkedmoreofoneladythananother,orseemedinanyrespectlesshappyatLongstaplethanheusedtobe。IdonotmeantosaythatIamparticularlyobservantorquick-sightedingeneral,butinsuchacaseIamsureIcouldnotbedeceived。”

  “Allthis,“thoughtElinor,“isverypretty;

  butitcanimposeuponneitherofus。”

  “Butwhat,“saidsheafterashortsilence,“areyourviews?orhaveyounonebutthatofwaitingforMrs。Ferrars’sdeath,whichisamelancholyandshockingextremity?——Ishersondeterminedtosubmittothis,andtoallthetediousnessofthemanyyearsofsuspenseinwhichitmayinvolveyou,ratherthanruntheriskofherdispleasureforawhilebyowningthetruth?”

  “Ifwecouldbecertainthatitwouldbeonlyforawhile!,ButMrs。Ferrarsisaveryheadstrongproudwoman,andinherfirstfitofangeruponhearingit,wouldverylikelysecureeverythingtoRobert,andtheideaofthat,forEdward’ssake,frightensawayallmyinclinationforhastymeasures。”

  “Andforyourownsaketoo,oryouarecarryingyourdisinterestednessbeyondreason。”

  LucylookedatElinoragain,andwassilent。

  “DoyouknowMr。RobertFerrars?”askedElinor。

  “Notatall——Ineversawhim;butIfancyheisveryunlikehisbrother——sillyandagreatcoxcomb。”

  “Agreatcoxcomb!”repeatedMissSteele,whoseearhadcaughtthosewordsbyasuddenpauseinMarianne’smusic——

  “Oh,theyaretalkingoftheirfavouritebeaux,Idaresay。”

  “Nosister,“criedLucy,“youaremistakenthere,ourfavouritebeauxareNOTgreatcoxcombs。”

  “IcananswerforitthatMissDashwood’sisnot,“

  saidMrs。Jennings,laughingheartily;“forheisoneofthemodestest,prettiestbehavedyoungmenIeversaw;

  butasforLucy,sheissuchaslylittlecreature,thereisnofindingoutwhoSHElikes。”

  “Oh,“criedMissSteele,lookingsignificantlyroundatthem,“IdaresayLucy’sbeauisquiteasmodestandprettybehavedasMissDashwood’s。”

  Elinorblushedinspiteofherself。Lucybitherlip,andlookedangrilyathersister。Amutualsilencetookplaceforsometime。Lucyfirstputanendtoitbysayinginalowertone,thoughMariannewasthengivingthemthepowerfulprotectionofaverymagnificentconcerto——

  “Iwillhonestlytellyouofoneschemewhichhaslatelycomeintomyhead,forbringingmatterstobear;

  indeedIamboundtoletyouintothesecret,foryouareapartyconcerned。IdaresayyouhaveseenenoughofEdwardtoknowthathewouldpreferthechurchtoeveryotherprofession;nowmyplanisthatheshouldtakeordersassoonashecan,andthenthroughyourinterest,whichIamsureyouwouldbekindenoughtouseoutoffriendshipforhim,andIhopeoutofsomeregardtome,yourbrothermightbepersuadedtogivehimNorlandliving;

  whichIunderstandisaverygoodone,andthepresentincumbentnotlikelytoliveagreatwhile。Thatwouldbeenoughforustomarryupon,andwemighttrusttotimeandchancefortherest。”

  “Ishouldalwaysbehappy,“repliedElinor,“toshowanymarkofmyesteemandfriendshipforMr。Ferrars;

  butdoyounotperceivethatmyinterestonsuchanoccasionwouldbeperfectlyunnecessary?,HeisbrothertoMrs。JohnDashwood——THATmustberecommendationenoughtoherhusband。”

  “ButMrs。JohnDashwoodwouldnotmuchapproveofEdward’sgoingintoorders。”

  “ThenIrathersuspectthatmyinterestwoulddoverylittle。”

  Theywereagainsilentformanyminutes。

  AtlengthLucyexclaimedwithadeepsigh,“Ibelieveitwouldbethewisestwaytoputanendtothebusinessatoncebydissolvingtheengagement。

  Weseemsobesetwithdifficultiesoneveryside,thatthoughitwouldmakeusmiserableforatime,weshouldbehappierperhapsintheend。Butyouwillnotgivemeyouradvice,MissDashwood?”

  “No,“answeredElinor,withasmile,whichconcealedveryagitatedfeelings,“onsuchasubjectIcertainlywillnot。Youknowverywellthatmyopinionwouldhavenoweightwithyou,unlessitwereonthesideofyourwishes。”

  “Indeedyouwrongme,“repliedLucy,withgreatsolemnity;“IknownobodyofwhosejudgmentIthinksohighlyasIdoofyours;andIdoreallybelieve,thatifyouwastosaytome,’IadviseyoubyallmeanstoputanendtoyourengagementwithEdwardFerrars,itwillbemoreforthehappinessofbothofyou,’

  Ishouldresolveupondoingitimmediately。”

  ElinorblushedfortheinsincerityofEdward’sfuturewife,andreplied,“ThiscomplimentwouldeffectuallyfrightenmefromgivinganyopiniononthesubjecthadIformedone。Itraisesmyinfluencemuchtoohigh;

  thepowerofdividingtwopeoplesotenderlyattachedistoomuchforanindifferentperson。”

  “’Tisbecauseyouareanindifferentperson,“

  saidLucy,withsomepique,andlayingaparticularstressonthosewords,“thatyourjudgmentmightjustlyhavesuchweightwithme。

  Ifyoucouldbesupposedtobebiasedinanyrespectbyyourownfeelings,youropinionwouldnotbeworthhaving。”

  Elinorthoughtitwisesttomakenoanswertothis,lesttheymightprovokeeachothertoanunsuitableincreaseofeaseandunreserve;andwasevenpartlydeterminednevertomentionthesubjectagain。Anotherpausethereforeofmanyminutes’duration,succeededthisspeech,andLucywasstillthefirsttoendit。

  “Shallyoubeintownthiswinter,MissDashwood?”

  saidshewithallheraccustomarycomplacency。

  “Certainlynot。”

  “Iamsorryforthat,“returnedtheother,whilehereyesbrightenedattheinformation,“itwouldhavegavemesuchpleasuretomeetyouthere!

  ButIdaresayyouwillgoforallthat。Tobesure,yourbrotherandsisterwillaskyoutocometothem。”

  “Itwillnotbeinmypowertoaccepttheirinvitationiftheydo。”

  “Howunluckythatis!Ihadquitedependeduponmeetingyouthere。AnneandmearetogothelatterendofJanuarytosomerelationswhohavebeenwantingustovisitthemtheseseveralyears!,ButIonlygoforthesakeofseeingEdward。HewillbethereinFebruary,otherwiseLondonwouldhavenocharmsforme;Ihavenotspiritsforit。”

  Elinorwassooncalledtothecard-tablebytheconclusionofthefirstrubber,andtheconfidentialdiscourseofthetwoladieswasthereforeatanend,towhichbothofthemsubmittedwithoutanyreluctance,fornothinghadbeensaidoneithersidetomakethemdislikeeachotherlessthantheyhaddonebefore;

  andElinorsatdowntothecardtablewiththemelancholypersuasionthatEdwardwasnotonlywithoutaffectionforthepersonwhowastobehiswife;butthathehadnoteventhechanceofbeingtolerablyhappyinmarriage,whichsincereaffectiononHERsidewouldhavegiven,forself-interestalonecouldinduceawomantokeepamantoanengagement,ofwhichsheseemedsothoroughlyawarethathewasweary。

  FromthistimethesubjectwasneverrevivedbyElinor,andwhenenteredonbyLucy,whoseldommissedanopportunityofintroducingit,andwasparticularlycarefultoinformherconfidante,ofherhappinesswhenevershereceivedaletterfromEdward,itwastreatedbytheformerwithcalmnessandcaution,anddismissedassoonascivilitywouldallow;

  forshefeltsuchconversationstobeanindulgencewhichLucydidnotdeserve,andwhichweredangeroustoherself。

  ThevisitoftheMissSteelesatBartonParkwaslengthenedfarbeyondwhatthefirstinvitationimplied。

  Theirfavourincreased;theycouldnotbespared;

  SirJohnwouldnothearoftheirgoing;andinspiteoftheirnumerousandlongarrangedengagementsinExeter,inspiteoftheabsolutenecessityofreturningtofulfillthemimmediately,whichwasinfullforceattheendofeveryweek,theywereprevailedontostaynearlytwomonthsatthepark,andtoassistintheduecelebrationofthatfestivalwhichrequiresamorethanordinaryshareofprivateballsandlargedinnerstoproclaimitsimportance。

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