第8章
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  InaquarterofanhourshewassurveyingherselfinhermirrorjustasPhyllishadbeendoinganhoursooner;onlyonherfacewasaverydifferentexpressionfromthatwhichPhyllishadworn。Hereyeswerebrilliantastheyneverhadbeenbefore,exceptonce;herfacewasnotpale,butfullofsoftcolor,asifshewerestandingbeneaththeshadowofamightyrose-leafwiththesunlightabove。Herneckandarmswereofthesamedelicatetinge。Hersmileshegaveasshesurveyedherselfwasasmileoftriumph,verydifferentfromtheexpressiononpoorPhyllis\'featuresassheflungherhatacrosstheroom。

  “Mine,mine,mine!“shewhispered,noddingwithasmileatthelovelythingsofullofwarmlifethatfacedherwithasmile。“Heismine——

  hehascomebacktome,Iwillkeephim。Ishallbeabletokeephim,Ithink。”

  Shehadscarcelyenteredthedrawingroombeforehewasbesideher,andhehadscarcelyenteredbeforeaservantannouncedthatdinnerwasserved。Theywereseatedatthedinnertablebeforetheyhadexchangedhalfadozenwords——beforeshehadtimetoaskhimwhyhehadreturned。

  Andatthetable,withaservantateachend,whatcouldtheysay?

  Well,shegaveindetail,withtheaccuracyofarailwaytime-table,thehoursofthedepartureofthevariousguests,downtothelastdepartedguest,whochancedtobeMissAyrton。Yes,shewasobligedtogouptotowntobepresentatthatimportantfunctionwhichwastobegiveninthepresenceofRoyalty,though,she,Mrs。Linton,wasconvincedthatPhylliswouldmuchpreferremaininginthemidstofthatexquisitequietudewhichseemedtobefoundonlyuptheriver。

  ShehadwantedherdearPhyllistostayuntilthemorrow,butpoorPhyllis\'senseofdutyhadbeen,asunfortunatelyitalwayswas,toogreatforherinclination。

  “Unfortunately?“saidHerbert。

  “DidIsayunfortunately?“shecried。“Howfunny!Imeantofcourse,unfortunatelyforherfriends——formyselfinthisparticularcase。

  But,afterall,wehadadelightfulweektogether。Ithasdoneusallgood——evenyou。”

  “Whythe\'even\'?“heasked,withalaugh。

  “Oh,well,becauseyouarenotexpectedtofeelthefatiguesofaLondonseason。Andthenyoumustrememberthatyouhadayachtingcruisewhichmusthavedoneyouaworldofgood,“sheadded,withasmilebornofthemoodwhichwasonher——amoodofjoyandlaughteranddaring。Shefeltthatshecouldsayanythingshepleasedtosaytohimnow;shecouldhavereferredwithalaughtohisrunningawayonthatstrangecruiseofhis。

  “Yes,“hesaid,“itdidmeagreatdealofgood。”

  Hespokeslowly,andherquickeardetectedatoneofgravityinhisvoice。Whatcouldhemean?Oh,yes。

  “Ihopethatthatlastphaseoftheminewillsoonbesettled,“saidshe。“Itwasthatwhichcurtailedyourcruise,youwillremember。”

  “Icertainlydoremember。”

  “Ihopethebusinesswillsoonbesettledonewayoranother。Idon\'tthinkthisrunningtoParissofrequentlyisgoodforStephen。Haven\'tyounoticedhowpoorlyhehasbeenlookingoflate?“

  “Hedidn\'tseemtometobeparticularlyrobust。ButIthinkthathepulledhimselftogetherwhilehewashere。Oh,yes!anotherweekwillseeusfreefromthisbusiness。”

  “Andwithanextramillionorsoinyourpockets。”

  “Well,somethinginthatway。”

  Thatwashowtheytalkedwhiletheservantswerepresent——aboutbusinessandmoneyandmattersthatmaybediscussedinthepresenceofservants。

  Thentheywenttogetherintothedrawingroom。Itwasnotyetdarkenoughforthecandlestobelighted。Theexquisitesummertwilightwashangingovertheriverandthebanksopposite,woodedfromthewater\'sedgetothesummit。Itwasthehourofdelicatebluetouchedwithpinkabouttheborders。Thehourofpurpleandsilverstarshadnotyetcome。

  Shethrewopenoneofthewindowsonitshinges,andinamomenttheroomwasfloodedwiththeperfumeoftherosesofthegarden。Shestoodintheopeningofthewindowandseemedtodrinkinthegardenscentsbeforetheyfloatedintotheroom。Thenfromsomesecretnestlingplaceinthedarkdepthsoftheclippedhedgetherecametheeven-songofablackbird。Itwasrepliedtofromthedistance;andthesilencethatfollowedonlyseemedtobesilence。Itwasasilencemadevocalbythebendingofathousandnotes——allmusical。Theblackbirds,thethrushes,therobinsmadeupachorusofharmonyassoothingtothesoulassilence。Thencamethecooingsofthewoodpigeons。Theoccasionalshriekofapeacockwastheonlynoteoutofharmonywiththefeelingbreathedbythetwilight。

  Shestoodattheopenwindow,herbackturnedtohim,forsometime。

  Hefeltslightlyembarrassed。Herattitudesomehowsuggestedtohimanimprisonment;hewascaptured;shewasstandingbetweenhimandtheopenair;shewasbarringhispassage。

  Suddenlysheturned。Withhermovementthereseemedtofloatintotheroomagreatbreathofrose-scent。Itwasonlythatthelightshowedhimmoreclearlyatthatmomenttheglowingwhitenessofherneckandshouldersandarms。

  “Whyhaveyoucomeback?“shecried,almostpiteously。

  “Surelyyouknowwhy,Ella,“saidhe。

  “Iknownothing:amanisonethingonedayandquitetheoppositethenextday。HowcanIknowanythingofwhatisinyourmindto-day——inyourheartto-day?“

  “Icamebackthinkingtofindherherestill——Ifanciedthatyousaidshewouldstayuntilyouwerereturningto-morrow。”

  “Youcamebackforher?“

  “Icamebacktoseeher——IfindthatIcannotlivewithoutseeingher。”

  “Youhaveonlyfoundthatoutsinceyoulefthereyesterdaymorning?“

  “OnlysinceIlefthere。ItoldyouthatIwasnotsureofmyself。

  ThatiswhyIwentaway。”

  “Youwentawaytomakesureofyourself,andnowyoureturntomakesureofher?“

  “Ah,ifIcouldbutthinkthat!IfIcouldonlybeassureofherasI

  amofmyself。ButwhatamIthatIshoulddaretohope?Oh,sheisaboveallwomankind——acrownofgirlhood!WhatamIthatIshouldasktowearthiscrownofgirlhood?“

  “Youareakingofmen,Bertie。Onlyforthekingofmenissuchacrown。”

  Shelaughedasshestoodlookingathimassheleanedagainstthehalfopendoorofthewindow,onehandbeingontheframeworkaboveherhead。

  “Ella,youknowher!“hecried,facingher。Shebegantoswinggentlytotheextentofaninchortwo,stillleaningontheedgeofthehingedwindow。Shewaslookingathimthroughhalf-closed,curiouseyes。“Ella,youknowher——shehasalwaysbeenyourfriend;tellmeifIshouldspeaktoherorifIshouldgobacktotheworkthatIhavebeguninNewGuinea。”

  “Wouldyoubeguidedbyme,Bertie?“sheasked,suddenlyceasinghermovementwiththewindowandgoingveryclosetohimindeed——soclosethathecouldfeelthegraciouswarmthofherfaceandbareneckandshoulders。“Wouldyoubeguidedbyme,Iwonder?“

  “HaveInotbeenguidedbyyouuptothepresent,Ella?“saidhe。

  “ShouldIbehereto-nightifitwerenotforyourgoodness?Ilaughedsometimeago——howlongagoitseems!——whenyoutoldme——yousaiditwasyourdearestwish——Ididnotthenbelieveitpossible——“

  “AnddoyoufancythatIbelieveditpossible?“sheasked,withsomesadnessinhervoice。

  “GreatHeavens!Ella,doyoumeantotellmethatyou——Oh,no,itisimpossible!Youknewme。”

  “IfanciedthatIknewyou,Bertie。IfanciedthatIknewmyself。”

  “Ella,Ella,forGod\'ssakedon\'tletusdriftagain。Haveyounorecollectionofthatterribletimethroughwhichwebothpassed——thatordealbyfire。Ella,wewerepluckedfromthefire——shepluckedusfromtheveryfireofhellitself——oh,don\'tletusdriftinthatdirectionagain!“

  Hehadwalkedawayfromher。Hewasbeginningtorecalltoovividlytheolddays,undertheinfluenceofhergraciouspresencesoclosetohim——notsocloseasithadbeen,butstillcloseenoughtobringbackoldmemories。

  “Comehereandstandbesideme,Bertie,“saidshe。

  Afteramoment\'shesitationhewenttoher,slowly,notwiththeraptureofalover——notwiththeoldpassiontremblinginhishands,onhislips。

  Hewenttoher。

  Sheputherhandsbehindherandlookedathiminthefaceforalongtime。Theeven-songsofthebirdsmixedwiththescentoftheroses;

  theblueshadowofthetwilightwasdarkeningoverthetreesatthefootofhergarden。

  “Doyouremembertheoleanders?“shesaid。“Ineverbreatheinsuchatwilightasthiswithoutseeingbeforemetheoleandersoutlinedagainstitsblue。ItwasverysweetatthatoldplaceontheArno。”

  “Ella,Ella——forGod\'ssake——“

  “Youtoldmethatterriblesecretofyourlife——thatyoulovedme。I

  wonderifIknewwhatitmeant,Bertie?ItoldyouthatIlovedyou:

  thatwasmoreterriblestill。Iwonderifyouknewwhatthatmeant,Bertie?“

  Hedidnotspeak。

  Thebird\'ssongsoutsidewerebecomingsofterandmoreintermittent。

  Shegaveasuddencryasifstungwithpain,andstartedawayfromthewindow。Shethrewherselfdownonthecouch,buryingherfaceinthepillows——hecouldseethroughthedimroomthewhitenessofherarms。

  Shewasbreathingconvulsively;butshewasnotsobbing。

  Heremainedbesidetheopenwindow。He,too,wasnotbreathingsoregularlyashehadbreathedashorttimebefore。

  Heheardthesighthatcamefromherassheraisedherheadfromthepillow。

  Thenshesaid:

  “Iwonderifyoueverreallylovedme,Bertie。”

  “Oh,myGod!“

  “Iwonderifyoueverlovedme;andIwonderifIeverlovedyouuntilthismoment。”

  Therewasasilence。Outsidetherewasalittlewhisperofmovingwings,butnovoiceofbird。

  Therewasasilence,andoutofitalowvoicecriedsoftly,softly:

  “Bertie,Bertie,mylove,cometome。”

  Hetookasteptowardher,asecondstep——andthenhestood,rigid,breathless,forheheardanothersoftvoicethatsaid:

  “/Hishonoristhehonorofhismotherandhissister,uponwhichnostainmustcome。/“

  Heheardthatvoice,andwithacryhecoveredhisfacewithhishands,andturning,fledthroughtheopenwindowintothegarden。

  Shelaythereonhercouch,thatlovelywhitecreaturewhohadbeensavedsoasbyfire。Therearetwofires:theoneisthefirethatconsumestheheartuntilallthatisleftofitisthedustofashes;

  theotheristhefirethatpurifiesthesoulevenuntoitssalvation;

  andyetbothfiresburnalike,sothatmenandwomenknownotwhichisburningwithinthem。

  Didsheknowthatshewassavedsoasbyfire?

  Shelaughedasthoughhecouldstillhearher;butafterherlaughtherecameafewmomentsofoverwhelmingbitternessthatsentheronherkneesbythesideofthecouchinself-abasement。

  “Killme——killme,OGod!“shewailed。“Killme,forIamnotfittolive!“

  Butshewasspared。

  Afteratimeshefoundstrengthtorise。Sheseemedsurprisedtofindthattheroomwasindarkness。Shestruckalight,andinafewminutesadozencandleswereflaringroundthewalls;andthenshewentmechanicallytoclosethewindow。Onesideshehadjustfastenedwhenitseemedtoherthatsheheardthesoundofvoicesapproaching。

  Shelistened,herheadbentforwardthroughthesideofthewindowthatremainedunclosed。

  Yes,theirvoicesweresoundingclearlythroughthestillnight——hisvoiceand——whattrickwasbeingplayeduponherbyherhearing?

  Phyllis\'voice?HowcoulditbePhyllis\'voice?PhyllishadreturnedtoLondon。Oh,itwassometrick!Hernerveswereplayingsometrickuponher——theywereoutoforder,theywerebeyondhercontrol。

  Phyllis\'voice——GreatHeavens!itwasPhyllisherselfwhowaswalkingthroughthegardenbyhisside!

  Ellastoodattheopensideofthewindowstaringoutatthem。Theystoodatthefootofthehalfdozenstepsthatleaduptothewindow。

  Phyllislaughed,——wasthereatraceofmockeryinherlaugh?——buthewassilent。

  “Idon\'twonderatyourfancyingthatIamaghost,Ella,“criedthegirl。“IfeelthatIdeservetobetreatedasdiscourteouslyasmostpoorghostsaretreatedwhentheyvisittheirfriends。Youneveryetheardofaghostbeingaskedtostaytodinner,didyou,Mr。

  Courtland?Butaghostmayfairlyclaimtobeaskedtoenterthehouseofherdearestfriend,especiallyafteradoublerailwayjourney。”

  EllahadnotmovedfromherplaceattheopenspaceofthewindowwhilePhylliswasspeaking,butthemomentthatthegirl\'slaughsounded,shetoolaughed。SherandownthestepsandputherarmsaboutPhyllis,kissingherontheface。

  “Thisismorethanthemostexactingofghostscouldreasonablelookfor,“criedPhyllis。“Oh,Ella!I\'msogladthatIfollowedmyownimpulseandcamebacktoyou。Ithoughtyouwerehereallalone——howcouldIknowthatMr。Courtlandwouldreturninthemeantimetocompletehisvisit?——andwhenIlookedoutonthedustandthesmokeofthetownandthoughtofthis——this——thisexquisitestillness,——youcanjusthearthewateroftheweir,——thisgarden,thisscentofroses,butchieflywhenIthoughtofyousittinginyourloneliness——Well,isitanywonderthatIamherenow?——youimploredofmetostay,youknow,Ella。”

  “Itisnowonderindeed,beingwhatyouare——agoodangel,mygoodangel,Phyllis,“criedthewoman。“Oh,dearest,youarewelcome!WhydidyouleavemePhyllis?Whydidyouleaveme?Oh,thegoodangelscanneverbetrusted。Youshouldnothaveleftmetomyself,dear。I

  amonlyawoman。Ah,youdon\'tyetknowwhatawomanis。Thatistheworstofangelsandmen;theydon\'tknowwhatawomanis。Comeintothehouse,Phyllis。Comein,Herbert。Howdidyoumanagetomeet?“

  “YouknowIwentouttothegarden——“saidtheman。

  “Yes;Iknewthat——youleftmealone,“saidthewoman,andshegavealaugh。

  “Istrolledfromthegardentotheroad——IhadtoaskthepeopleattheOldBelltokeeparoomforme,ofcourse。”

  “Ofcourse。”

  “AndjustoutsidetheinnIcamefacetofacewithMissAyrton\'sfly。

  MissAyrtonwasgoodenoughtogetoutandwalkwithme,sendingtheflyonwithhermaid。Itoldthemantowaitinordertotakemyportmanteautotheinn。Itmustbeatthehalldoornow。Weenteredbythegardengate。”

  “Nothingcouldbesimpler,“saidElla。Theyhadbythistimewalkedupthestepsintothedrawingroom。“Nothingcouldbesimpler。”ThensheturnedtoPhyllis。“Buthowdidyoucontrivetoevadethegreatfunctionto-night?“

  “Papadidnotfeelverywell,“saidPhyllis,“andIknowthathewasonlytoogladofanexcusetostayathome。”

  “Andyouforsookyoursickfathertocometome?Oh,mydearPhyllis,whathaveyoudone?“

  “IfyouaskmeinconfidenceIshouldsaythatpapaisnotquitesoillastostandinneedofanurse,“shewhispered。“Oh,no!Makeyourmindeasy。Ihaveneglectednodutyincomingtoyou。”

  “Exceptyourdutytoyourself;youcouldnothavehadtimetotakeanydinnerathome。Ishallhaveyouaservants\'hallsupperintenminutes。”

  “Pleasegetnothingforme。Ihadacapitalsortofdinnerathome。

  ButIshoulddearlylikeacupoftea。”

  “Itwillbereadyforyouthemomentyoureturnfromtakingoffyourhat。I\'llgoupwithyoutoyourroom;Mr。CourtlandknowsthatevenI

  makemyselfathomeinthishouse。Hewillpardonus。”

  “Imustn\'tkeeptheflywaitingformyportmanteau,“saidMr。

  Courtland。“Ifyouwillallowme,Ishalllooktoitnow,andsaygood-night。”

  “What!Oh,youmustn\'tthinkofrunningoffinthisway,“saidElla。

  “Whatreasonhadyouforreturningatallifyourunoffatthishour?“

  “Itisgettingquitelate。Imustn\'tkeepthegoodpeopleoftheOldBelluponmyaccount,“saidhe。“Besides,amanrepresentsacertaininharmoniouselementuponsuchanoccasionasthis。MissAyrtonreturnedexpectingtobewithyoualone。Iknowthedisabilitiesofamanquitewell。Yes,Imustsaygood-night。”

  “Nonsense!Praytalktohim,Phyllis,“criedElla。“Youmaymakehimamenabletoreason。”

  ButPhyllisstoodmutewithherhandonthehandleofthedoor;sheonlysmiled,andthereisneitherreasonnorargumentinasmile。

  “Good-night!“saidhe。

  “Oh,well,ifyoureallyhavenothingtosaytoeitherofus,——toeitherPhyllisorme,——youhadbettergo,Isuppose,“saidElla,givinghimherhand,butshedidnotlookathiminthefacewhilehishandwastouchinghers。

  Curiouslyenough,neitherdidPhyllislookathimaswasherwont。

  Andsoheleftthemthatnight。

  CHAPTERXXXIV。

  GIVEHIMBACKTOME——GIVEHIMBACKTOME!

  Theyseemedtohavebeenpartedformonthsinsteadofhours,somuchhadtheytosaytoeachother,andsorapidlydidtheysayit。

  Rapidly?——feverishlyrather。Phyllishadonlytoremoveherhatandsmoothherhairatplaces,disorderingitatothers,inordertobeallright;buthalfanhourhadgonebybeforetheywentdownstairs,arminarm,afterthemannerofgirlswhohavebeentalkingfeverishlyandkissingeverynowandagain。

  ItwasmadnessforPhyllistothinkofteaatthathourofthenight,Elladeclared;butsheknewPhyllis\'fanciesinthepast——sheknewthatwhatwouldsetothergirls\'nervesinmotion,wouldonlyhavetheeffectofsoothinghers。SoPhyllisdrankherteaandatehercakeinthedrawingroom,andEllalaybackonthesofaandwatchedherwithacuriousinterestinhereyes。

  “Iamsogladthatwearespendingtogetherinthiswaythelastnightofourdelightfulweek,“saidPhyllis。“Whatalovelyweekithasbeen!andthecharmofitis,ofcourse,tobefoundinthefactthatithasbeenstolenfromthebestpartoftheseason。Inanothermonthitwouldnotbenearlysodelightful——everyonewillbehurryingofftotheriverorelsewhere。”

  “Suchaweekisoneoftheincidentsthatapersonplansbutthatrarelycomesoffaccordingtoone\'sviews,“saidElla。“ItoldyouwhenIsetmyheartuponHurleywhatmyideawas。”

  “Andyouhavecertainlyrealizeditduringthisweek。Whatapityitisthatthisisourlastnighttogether!“

  “Doyouknow,Phyllis,thewayyousaidthatsuggestedtomethatyoumeant\'WhatapityitisthatHerbertCourtlandisnotoneofourpartyto-night\'!“

  Ellawasstilllyingonthebroadpillowsofthecouch,herhandsclaspedatthebackofherhead。ShewasstillwatchingPhyllisthroughherhalf-closedeyes。

  “IwasnotthinkingaboutMr。CourtlandintheleastwhenIspoke。HowcanyoufancythatIshouldbesoinsincere?Isayitisdelightfulforus,youandmeonly,mind,tobetogetherto-night,becausewecansayjustwhateveroccurstous——Ithoughtwecould,youknow;butsinceyoumadethathorridsuggestionIthinkImusttakebackallthatIsaid。Itis,afterall,notnearlysonicetobealonewithyouasonewouldimagine。”

  “Thatwas,I\'mafraid,theconclusionthatHerbertCourtlandcametosometimeago,“saidElla。“Hewasalonewithmehere——yes,forsomeminutes;butheleftme——heleftmeandfoundyou。”

  “Itwassofunny!“criedPhyllis。“Whowouldhavethoughtofseeingsuchafigure——bareheadedandineveningdress——ontheroad?Iknewhimatonce,however。Andhewaswalkingsoquicklytoo——walkingasif——asif——“

  “Asifthedevilwerebehindhim——that\'showmenputit,“saidElla。

  “Itwouldneverdoforustosaythat,ofcourse,butinthisparticularcasewemightventureonitforthesakeofstrictaccuracy;thedevilwasbehindhim。Heescapedfromitbytheaidofhisgoodangel。Didn\'thecallyouhisgoodangelonce,myPhyllis?“

  “Yes,hecalledmesoonce,“saidPhyllis。“ButwhyshouldwetalkaboutMr。Courtland?Whyshouldwetalkaboutanybodyto-night?

  DearestElla,letustalkaboutourselves。Youareofmoreinteresttomethananyoneintheworld,andIknowthatIamofmoreinteresttoyouthantoanyoneelse。Letustalkaboutourselves。”

  “Certainlyweshalltalkaboutourselves,“saidElla。“Tobegin,I

  shouldlikeverymuchtoknowifyouwereawarethatHerberthadreturnedtothishouseafterhisdayortwointown。”

  Phyllisundoubtedlycoloredbeforeshesaid,withalaugh:

  “Didn\'tyoupromisetotalksolelyaboutourselves?Ideclinetotalkonanyothertopic。”

  Shearosefromwhereshehadbeensittingbeforeacupofteaatalittletablethatalsoheldcake,andthrewherselfbackinafancifulseatshapedlikeashell。

  “Thatbeingso,Ishouldlikeverymuchtoknowhowyoulearnedthathemeanttoreturn,“pursuedElla。

  “Youarebecomingquitehorrid,andIexpectedyoutobesonice,“

  saidPhyllis,poutingveryprettily。

  “AndIexpectedyoutoconfideinme,“saidEllareproachfully。“I

  havebeenwatchingyouforsometime——notmerelyduringthepastweek,butlongbefore;andIhaveseen——whatIhaveseen。Hecouldnothavetoldyouthathemeanttoreturn——youmusthavecrossedeachotherinthetrains。Howdidyouknow,mydeargirl?Letmecoaxitoutofyou。”

  Phyllismadenoanswerforsometime;shewasexamining,withanewlyacquired,butveryintenseinterest,thetextureofthesheenoftheblousewhichshewaswearing。Atlastsheraisedhereyes,andsawhowEllawaslookingather。Thenshesaidslowly:

  “Isawhiminthetrainthatwasleavingwhenourtrainarrived。”

  “Heavens!thatisaconfession!“criedEllaquitemerrily。

  “Youforceditfromme,“saidPhyllis。“Butwhyshouldtherebeanymysterybetweenus?I\'msureImaytellyouallthesecretsofmylife。Suchastheyare,youknowthemalready。”

  “Theyaresafeinmykeeping。MydearPhyllis,don\'tyouknowthatithasalwaysbeenmydearesthopetoseeyouandHerbertCourtland——

  well,interestedineachother?Isawthathewasinterestedinyoulongago;butIwasn\'tsureofyou。ThatisjustwhyIwassoanxiousforyoutocomedownherefortheweekwehavejustpassed。Iwantedtobringyoubothtogether。Iwantedtoseeyouinlovewitheachother;Iwantedtoseeyoubothmarried。”

  “Ella——Ella!“

  “Iwantedit,Itellyou,notbecauseIlovedyou,thoughyouknowthatIloveyoubetterthananyoneintheworld。”

  “DearestElla!“

  “NotbecauseIknewthatyouandhewouldbehappy,butbecauseI

  wishedtosnatchmyownsoulfromperdition。Ithinkitissafenow——

  butoh,myGod!itislikethesoulsofmanyothermortals——savedinspiteofmyself!Phyllis,youhavebeenmysalvation。Youareagirl;

  youcannotunderstandhownearawomanmaygotothebottomlesspitthroughtheloveofaman。Youfancythatloveliftsonetotheheavenofheavens;thatitmeanspurity——self-sacrifice。Well,thereisalovethatmeanspurity;andthereisalovethatmeansself-sacrifice。

  Self-sacrifice:thatis,thatawomanisreadytosacrificeherself——

  herlife——hersoul——forthemanwhomsheloves。Itellyou——I,whoknowthetruth——I,whohavebeenatthebrink。Itisnotthatthepitisdeartous;itisthatthemanisdeartous,andwemustgowithhim,——whereverhegoes,——evendownintohellitselfwithhim。”

  “Oh,Ella,Ella!thisistheloveofthesatyr。ItisnottheloveoftheonewhoismadeintheimageofGod。”

  “Letitbewhatitis;itisapowerthathastobereckoneduponsolongasweremaincreaturesoftheearth,earthy。”

  “Itisathingthatweshouldbeatintotheearthfromwhichitcame。”

  Thegirlhadsprungtoherfeet,andwasspeakingwithwhitefaceandclenchedhands。“Downintotheearth“——shestampeduponthefloor——

  “evenifwehavetothrowourbodiesintothegraveintowhichwetrampleit。Woman,Itellyouthattheotherlove,——thelovewhichisthetruth,——isstrongerthantheloveofthesatyr。”

  “Isit?isit,Phyllis?Yes,sometimes。Yes;itwasawordthatyouspokeinhishearingthatsavedhim——him——Herbert——andthatsavedmethatnightwhenIcametoyou——whenIwaitedforyou——youdidnotknowanythingofwhyIcame。Iwilltellyounow——“

  “No,no,no!Oh,Ella!forGod\'ssake,tellmenothing!IthinkIknowallthatIwanttoknow;andIknowthatyouhadstrengthgiventoyoubyGodtocometomethatnight。Ihadnottogotoyou。ButIhavecometoyouto-night。Wearetogether,youandI;andwearethesameaswhenweweregirlstogether——oh,justthesame!Whoshallcomebetweenus,Ella?“

  “Who?Who?Youcameheretosaveme。Iknewit。Butyouhadsavedmebeforeyoucame。Phyllis,inthisveryroomIwasalonewithhim。I

  wasmad——madwithjealousyatthethoughtoflosinghim——thoughIknewthatIhadlosthim——Iwasmad!Thepassionbreathedfromtheroses——

  thetwilightfullofthememoriesofthespringwespenttogetherinItaly——alltookpossessionofmyheart——mysoul。Iwhisperedtohimtocometome——tocometome。Andhecame。”

  Thecrythegirlgave,asshecoveredherfacewithherhandsanddroppedbackintoherchair,wasverypitiful。

  “Hecametome——butonlyonestep——onelittlestep,Phyllis;thentherecamebeforehiseyesavisionofyourface——hefeltyourhand——

  coolasalily——uponhiswrist——heheardyourvoicespeakingintohisear;heturnedandfled——fledthroughthatwindow——fledfromthedemonthathadtakenpossessionofthisroom——Isaidsotoyou。”

  “ThankGod——oh,Ella,thankGod!“

  “Thatismycry——thankGod——thankGod;andyet——andyet——Godhelpme!

  Ifeelreadytothrowmyselfatyourfeetandsay\'Givehimbacktome!Givehimbacktome!\'“

  Shehadstoodwithherhandsclaspedaboveherheadatherfirstutteranceofthatimploration——“Givehimbacktome!“Thenshethrewherselfonherkneesandpassionatelycaughtboththegirl\'shandsinherown,crying,“Givehimbacktome!“

  Phyllisflungherarmsaboutherneck,andbowedherownheaddowntotheshoulderofthewomanwhomshelovedandpitied。

  Andthen——

  Thenthroughthesilenceofthehouse——thehourwasalmostmidnight——

  theresoundedtheloudandcontinuousringingofabell。

  Itwasonlytheusualvisitors\'bellofthehouse;butitseffectatthathourwasstartling——shocking!

  Thetwowomenwereontheirfeet,waitinginsilence,butwithwildlybeatinghearts,forwhatwascoming——theyfeltthatsomethingterriblewascoming。Thebellhadanominousjangle。Theyheardthefootstepsoftheoneservantwhoremaineduptoputoutthelights,goingtoanswerthesummonsofthebell——theyheardaman\'svoicespeakinginalowtoneinthehall——theyheardaman\'sstepsapproachthedooroftheirroom。Thedooropened,andMr。Ayrtonappearedbeforethem。

  Heclosedthedoorslowly,andstoodtherestaringnotathisdaughter,butatEllaLinton。OnhisfacewasanexpressionthatPhyllishadneverseenonitbefore。Itfrightenedher。Shecouldnotspeak。

  Hestoodthere,withhiseyesfixeduponEllaLinton——rigid——silentasafigurethatsymbolizesDeath。

  Thesilencebecameappalling。

  “ForGod\'ssakespeak,ifyouareliving!“criedEllainawhispertremulouswithterror。

  Hedidnotspeak——hestoodthere,staringather。

  “Whatdoeshemean?Whatdoeshemean?“saidthewoman,afteranotherdreadfulpause。“Whydoeshestandthere,Phyllis,staringatme?

  Why——Oh,myGod!Iseeit——Iseeitonhisface——myhusband——

  Stephen——dead——heisdead——youcametobringthenewstome。Look,Phyllis,hecannotsay\'No\'——hewouldsay\'No\'unlessIhadguessedthetruth——hewouldsayit——hewouldhavesomepity。Isitthetruth?

  Man——speak——sayyes,orno——forGod\'ssake!forGod\'ssake!“

  Shehadtakenhalfadozenrapidstepstohimandgraspedhimbythearm,gazingintohisface。

  Hebowedhishead。

  Sheflunghisarmfromher,andburstintoalaugh。

  “Ah,Phyllis!Iseeitallnow。HewasthemanIloved——Iknowitnow——hewasthemanIloved。ItwasforhimIcriedoutjustnow——\'Givehimbacktome——givehimbacktome!\'“

  Thewildshriekwithwhichshecriedthewordsthesecondtimerangthroughthehouse。Shefelluponherknees,clutchingatPhyllis\'handasbefore,andthen,makingamotionasifabouttorise,shefellbackandlaywithherwhitefaceturnedtotheceiling,herwhitearmsstretchedlimplyoutoneachsideofherlikethearmsofacrucifiedwoman。

  Servantscamewithrestoratives。

  CHAPTERXXXV。

  IFGODWOULDONLYGIVEMEANOTHERCHANCE!

  “Poorcreature!Poorcreature!“saidMr。Ayrton。HehadjustreturnedfromtheroomtowhichtheyhadcarriedElla。Phylliswaslyingonthesofawithherfacedowntothepillow。“Poorcreature!Noonecouldhavehadanyideathatshewassoattachedtohim!ShewillbeoneoftherichestwomeninEngland。Hefelldownintheclubbetweennineandten。Hisheart。SirJosephwasnotsurprised。Hesaidhehadtoldhimashorttimeagothathehadnotsixmonthstolive。Hecannothavelethiswifeknow。Well,well,perhapsitwasforthebest。Hismancametomeinaterriblestate。Howwasittobebrokentoher?I

  justmanagedtocatchthelasttrain。Hemusthavebeenworthoveramillion。ShewillbeoneoftherichestwomeninEngland。EveninAmericaawomanwiththree-quartersofamillionisreckonedmoderatelywelloff。Poorcreature!Ah!theshornlamb!——thewindistempered。\'Inthemidstoflife——\'DearPhyllis!youmustnotallowyourselftobreakdown。Yoursympatheticnatureishardtocontrol,I

  know,butstill——oh,mychild!“

  ButPhyllisrefusedtobecomforted。Shelaysobbingonthepillow,andwhenherfatherputhisarmaboutherandraisedher,sheputherheadonhisshoulder,crying:

  “Heisgonefrommeforever——heisgonefrommeforever!Oh,Iamthecruelestwomanonearth!ItisnotforherterribleblowthatIamcrying,itisbecauseIhavelosthim——Iseeit——Ihavelosthim!“

  Herfatherbecamefrightened。Whatintheworldcouldshemeanbytalkingaboutthemanbeinggonefromher?Hehadneverheardofawoman\'ssympathyextendingtosuchlimitsascausedhertofeelapersonaldeprivationwhendeathhadtakenanotherwoman\'shusband。

  “Oh,Iamselfish——cruel——heartless!“sobbedPhyllis。“Ithoughtofmyself,notofher。Heishers;hewillbegivenbacktoherassheprayed——sheprayedsotomebeforeyouappearedatthedoor,papa。

  \'Givehimbacktome!Givehimbacktome!\'thatwasherprayer。”

  “Mydearestchild,youmustnottalkthatway,“saidthefather。

  “Come,Phyllis,yourstrengthhasbeenovertaxed。Youmustgotobedandtrytosleep。”

  Shestillmoanedabouthercruelty——herselfishness,untilthedoctorwhohadbeensentforandhadbeenwithEllainherroom,appearedinordertoletthemknowthatMrs。Lintonhadregainedconsciousness。

  Theblowhad,ofcourse,beenaterribleone:butshewasyoung,andNaturewouldsoonreassertherself,hedeclared,whateverhemeantbythat。Hethoughtitstrange,hesaid,thatMrs。Lintonhadnotbeenawareofherhusband\'sweakness。Tohim,thephysician,theconditionoftheunfortunategentlemanhadbeenapparentfromthefirstmomenthehadseenhim。Hehadexpectedtohearofhisdeathanyday。HeconcludedbyadvisingPhyllistogotobedandhaveaslongasleepaspossible。HewouldreturninthemorningandseeifMrs。LintonmighttraveltoLondon。

  Phylliswenttoherroom,andherfatherwenttotheonewhichhadbeenpreparedforhim。Foraminuteortwoheremainedthoughtful。

  Whatcouldhisdaughterhavemeantbythoseself-accusations?Afterashorttime,however,hesmiled。Thepoorthinghadbeenupsetbytheshockingnewsofthedeathofthehusbandofherdearestfriend。Shewassympathetictoquiteaphenomenaldegree。Thatsympathywhichfeltherfriend\'slossasthoughitwerewhollyherownwascertainlynottobemetwitheveryday。

  InthemorningPhyllisshowedtracesofhavingspentabadnight。Butshespokerationallyandnotinthewildwayinwhichshehadspokenbeforeretiring,andherfatherfeltthattherewasnoneedforhimtobeuneasyinregardtohercondition。Heallowedhertogotothesideofherfriend,Ella,andashewasleavingthemtogetherineachother\'sarms,heheardEllasay:

  “Ah,Phyllis,Iknowitnow。Hewasthemanwhohadallmylove——all——

  all!Ah,ifGodwouldonlygivemeanotherchance——onemorechance!“

  Mr。Ayrtonhadheardthatpassionateappealforanotherchanceuponmorethanonepreviousoccasion。HehadheardthehusbandwhohadtorturedhiswifetodeathmakeapassionateappealtoGodtogivehimanotherchance。HeknewthatGodhadnevergivenhimanotherchancewiththesamewife;butGodhadgivenhimanotherwifeinthecourseoftime——awifewhowasnotmadeonthespirituallinesofthosewhodiebytorture;awifewhowasabletoformulatealistofherownrights,andtherightsofhersisters,andwhopossessedaWill。

  Themanwhowantedanotherchancehadnochancewithsuchawoman。

  Hehadheardthewife,whohaddesertedherhusbandinfavoroftheteetotalplatform,cryoutforanotherchance,whenherhusbandhaddiedawayfromher。ButGodhadcompassionuponthehusband。Shedidnotgethimback。

  HepitiedwithallhisheartthepoorwomanwhowouldbeoneoftherichestwomeninEnglandinthecourseofadayortwo,andhesaidsotoMr。Courtlandwhenhecalledearlyinthemorning。Mr。Courtlanddidnotremainforlonginthehouse。ItmighthavebeenassumedthatsointimateafriendofMr。andMrs。Linton\'swouldbeanacceptablevisitortothewidow;butMr。Courtlandknewbetter。Hehurriedawaytotownwithoutevenaskingtoseeher。HeonlybeggedofMr。Ayrtontolethimknowifhecouldbeofanyuseintown——thereweredetails——ghastly;buthewouldtakecarethattherewasnoinquest。

  PhylliswentuptotownwithpoorElla,andremainedbyhersideinthatdarkenedhousethroughalltheterribledaysthatfollowed。Mr。

  Linton\'sdeathhadanappreciableinfluenceuponthequarter\'srevenueofthecountry。Theprobatedutypaidbytheexecutorswasalargefortuneinitself,andEllawas,asMr。Ayrtonhadpredictedshewouldbe,oneoftherichestwomeninEngland。Thehundredthousandpoundsbequeathedtosomeunostentatiouscharities——charitiesthatexistedforthecauseofcharity,notforthebenefitoftheofficialstaff——

  madenodifferenceworthspeakingofinthepositionofMrs。LintonasoneoftherichestwomeninEngland。

  ButthecodiciltothewillwhichsurprisedmostpeoplewasthatwhichplacedinthehandsofMrs。LintonandtheRev。GeorgeHollandasjointtrusteesthesumofsixtythousandpounds,forthebuildingandendowmentofachurch,thecharacterandaimsofwhichwouldbeinsympathywiththeprinciplesrecentlyformulatedbytheRev。GeorgeHollandinhisbookentitled“RevisedVersions,“andinhismagazinearticleentitled“TheEnemytoChristianity,“thedetailstobedecidedbytheRev。GeorgeHollandandMrs。Lintonasjointtrustees。

  Thecodicilwas,ofcourse,averyrecentone;butitwasexecutedinproperform;itrequiredtwopagesofengrossingtomakethetestator\'sdesiresplaintoeveryintelligencethathadreceivedathoroughtraininginlegaltechnicalities。Itwassusceptibleofagooddealofinterpretationtoanordinaryintelligence。

  WhenitwasexplainedtoMrs。Linton,shealsowasatfirstagooddealsurprised。Itreadverylikeajestofsomesubtlety:forshehadnoideathatherhusbandhadtheslightestfeelingonewayoranotheronthesubjectofthedevelopmentofoneChurchoranother;andasfortheestablishmentofanentirelynewChurch——yes,itstruckheratfirstthathersolicitorwasmakingaboldandcertainlyquiteanunusualattempttocheerherupinherbereavementbybringingunderhernoticeajestoftheorder/pachydermato/。

  Butsoonitdawneduponherthatherhusbandmeantagooddealbythiscodicilofhis。

  “Iamgettingtounderstandhimbettereveryday,“shesaidtoPhyllis。“HeknewthatIlovedhimandhimonly。Hehasgivenmethisworktodo,andwithGod\'shelpIwilldoitthoroughly。YoudidnotbelieveinthevalueofGeorgeHolland\'sdoctrines。NeitherdidI:I

  neverthoughtaboutthem。Iwillacceptmyhusband\'sjudgmentregardingthem,andperhapsImaythinkaboutthemlateron。OurChurchwillbethemostpotentinfluenceforgoodthatthecenturyhasyetseen。Yes,Iwillthrowmyselfheartandsoulintothework。Afterall,itmustbeadmittedthattheChurchhasneverdoneitsdutyasaChurch。”

  Phyllissaidnothing。

  ButtheRev。GeorgeHollandhadagooddealtosayonthesubjectofthecodicil,whenhewasalonewithMrs。Linton,afewdayslater。HehadbynomeansmadeuphismindtoseverhisconnectionwiththedearoldmotherChurch,hesaid。Hecouldnotseethattherewasanyneedforhistakingsoseriousastep——anirrevocablestep。Itwashisfeelingatthatmoment,hedeclared,thathemightbeabletoeffecttheobjectofhislife——whichwas,ofcourse,thereformoftheChurch——betterbyremainingwithinitswallsthanbyseveringhimselffromit。Hemusttaketimetoconsiderhisposition。

  HeleftMrs。Lintongreatlydisappointed。IthadbeenherbeliefthatMr。Hollandwouldjumpatthechance——thatwasthephrasewhichsheemployedinexpressingherdisappointmenttoPhyllis——ofbecomingthefounderofabrand-newreligion。

  ShewasgreatlydisappointedinMr。Holland。IfBuddhaorEdwardIrving,orsomeoftheotherfoundersofnewreligionshadhadsuchachanceofferedtotheminearlylife,wouldtheynothaveembracediteagerly?sheasked。

  AnditwastobesuchastrikingChurch!Shehadmadeuphermindtothat。Itwastobealastingmemorialtothelargenessofsoulofherhusband——tohisappreciationoftherequirementsofthethinkingmenandwomenoftheage。Shehadmadeuphermindalreadyastothecharacterofthepaintedwindows。Thechurchwoulditself,ofcourse,bethepurestGothic。Asfortheservices,sheratherthoughtthatthesimplicityoftheEarlyChurchmightbeeffectivelycombinedwithsomeofthemoststrikingelementsofModernRitualism。However,thatwouldhavetobedecidedlateron。

  ButwhenthebishopheardofthecodicilhehadanotherinterviewwithGeorgeHolland,andimpartedtothatyoungclerichisopinionthatheshouldavailhimselfoftheopportunityofferedtohimoftryingwhatwouldundoubtedlybeamostinterestingexperiment,andonetothecarryingoutofwhichalltruechurchmenwouldlookforwardmosthopefully。Whocouldsay,heinquired,ifthelargerfreedomwhichwouldbeenjoyedbyanearnest,sincere,andhighlyintellectualclergyman,notinimmediatecontactwiththeEstablishment,mightnotavailhimtoperfectsuchaschemeofreformaswouldeventuallybeadoptedbytheChurch?

  ThatinterviewwasveryhelpfultoGeorgeHollandinmakinguphismindonthesubjectofthenewChurch。Heresignedhispastorate,greatlytotheregretofthechurchwardens;thoughnoexpressionofsuchregretwaseverheardfromthebishop。

  Butthenabishopissupposedtohavehisfeelingthoroughlyundercontrol。

  ThishappenedthreeweeksafterthedeathofStephenLinton,andduringtheseweeksHerbertCourtlandhadneveronceaskedtoseeEllaLinton。

  CHAPTERXXXVI。

  MARRIAGEISTHEPICTURESQUEGATEWAYLEADING

  TOACOMMONPLACEESTATE。

  SosoonasPhyllisAyrtonhadreturnedhome,shegotaletterfromHerbertCourtland,askingherifshewouldbegoodenoughtogranthimaninterview。Sherepliedatoncethatitwouldpleaseherverymuchtoseehimonthefollowingafternoon——shewasgoingtoScotlandwithherfatherinaweek,ifParliamenthadrisenbythattime。

  Hecametoher。Shewasaloneinthedrawingroomwhereshehadalwaysreceivedhimpreviously。

  Theservanthadscarcelylefttheroombeforehehadtoldherhehadcometotellherthathelovedher——toaskherifhemighthopetohavesomeofherloveinreturn。

  Hehadnotseatedhimself,norhadshe。Theyremainedstandingtogetherinthemiddleoftheroom。Hehadnotevenretainedherhand。

  “Whyhaveyoucometome——to/me/?“sheaskedhim。Herfacewaspaleandherlips,whenhehadbeenspeakingtoher,werefirmlyset。

  “Ihavecometoyou,notbecauseIamworthyofthepricelessgiftofyourlove,“saidhe,“butbecauseyouhavetaughtmenotmerelytoloveyou——youhavetaughtmewhatloveitselfis。Youhavesavedmysoul。”

  “No,no!donotsaythat;itpainsme,“shecried。

  “Icannotbutsayit;itisthetruth。Youhavesavedmefromadegradationsuchasyoucouldnotunderstand。GreatGod!howshouldI

  feelto-dayifyouhadnotcomeforwardtosaveme?“

  Hewalkedawayfromher。Hestoodwithhisbackturnedtoher,lookingoutofthewindow。

  Sheremainedwherehehadlefther。Shedidnotspeak。Whyshouldshespeak?

  Hesuddenlyfacedheronceagain。Theexpressionuponhisfaceastonishedher。Shehadneverbeforeseenamansocompletelyinthepowerofastrongemotion。Shesawhimmakingtheattempttospeak,butnotsucceedingforsometime。Herheartwasfullofpityforhim。

  “You——youcannotunderstand,“hemanagedtosay。“Youcannotunderstand,andIcannot,Idarenot,trytoexplainanythingoftheperilfromwhichyousnatchedme。Youknownothingofthebaseness,thecruelty,ofamanwhoallowshimselftobeswayedbyhisownpassions。Butyousavedme——yousavedme!“

  “IthankGodforthat,“shesaidslowly。“Butyoumustnotcometometoaskmeformylove。Itisnottomeyoushouldcome。Itisforherwhowasreadytosacrificeeverythingforyou。Youmustgotoherwhenthetimecomes,notnow——shehasnotrecoveredfromhershock。”

  “Youknow——shehastoldyou?“

  “Iknewallthatterriblestory——thatpitifulstory——beforeIhearditfromherlips。”

  “Andyet——yet——youcouldspeaktome——youcouldbewithmedayafterday?“

  “Oh,Iknowwhatyouwouldsay!YouwouldsaythatIledyouon——thatIgaveyoutobelievethatIlovedyou。Thatiswhatyouwouldsay,anditwouldbethetruth。Imadeupmymindtoleadyouon;IgaveyoutounderstandthatIcaredforyou。ButIconfesstoyounowthatIdidsobecauseIhopedtosaveher。Youseeitwasaplotonmypart——theplotofonewomananxioustosavehersisterfromdestruction。I

  succeeded。ThankGodforthat——thankGodforthat!“

  “Yousucceeded——yousucceededindeed。”Hespokeslowlyandinalowtone,hiseyesfixeduponherburningface。“Yes,youledmeon——youledmefromearthtoheaven。Yousavedher——yousavedme。ThatiswhyIamhereto-day。”

  “Oh,itisnothereyoushouldbe,Mr。Courtland。”Shehadturnedquicklyawayfromhimwithagestureofimpatienceandhadwalkedtotheotherendoftheroom。Therewasmorethanasuspicionofindignationinhervoice。“Youshouldbewiththewomanwhomyouloved;thewomanwhoshowedyouhowshelovedyou;thewomanwhowasreadytogiveupeverything——honor——husband——God——foryou。Gotoher——

  toher——whenthenumbnesshaspassedawayfromher,andthereisnobarrierbetweenyouandher。ThatisallIhavetosaytoyou,Mr。

  Courtland。”

  “Isitindeedall,Phyllis?“hesaid。“Butyouwillletmespeaktoyou。YouwillletmeaskifEllaalonewasreadytosacrificeherself?

  Yousaythatyouledmetoloveyouinordertosaveher。Howdidyouleadmeon?Bygivingmetounderstandthatyouwerenotindifferenttome——thatyouhadsomeloveforme。Letmeaskyouifyouwereactingalieatthattime?“

  “Iwantedtosaveher。”

  “Andyousucceeded。Wereyouactingalie?“

  Shewassilent。

  “Youwerewillingtosaveher?“hecontinued。“Howdidyoumeantosaveher?WereyoupreparedtogotothelengthofmarryingmewhenI

  hadbeenledontothatpointbyyou?Answerme,Phyllis。”

  “Iwillnotansweryou,Mr。Courtland——youhavenorighttoaskmetoansweryou。Oneterriblemomenthadchangedalltheconditionsunderwhichwewereliving。Ifshehadbeenfree,——assheisnow,——doyoufancyforamomentthatIshouldhavecomebetweenyou——thatIshouldhavetriedtoleadyouawayfromher?Well,then,surelyyoumustseeasclearlyasIdoatthepresentmomentthatnowourrelativepositionsarethesameastheywouldhavebeensomemonthsago,ifEllahadbeenfree——ifshecouldhavelovedyouwithoutbeingguiltyofacrime?Oh,Mr。Courtlanddonotaskmetohumiliatemyselffurther。Pleasegoaway。Ah,cannotyouseethatitwouldbeimpossibleformetoactnowasImighthaveactedbefore?CannotyouseethatIamnotawomanwhowouldbereadytostealhappinessformyselffrommydearestfriend?“

  “IthinkIambeginningtoseewhatsortofwomanyouare——whatsortofabeingawomanmaybe。Youloveme,Phyllis,andyetyouwillsendmeawayfromyoulestyoushoulddoEllaawrong?“

  “Iimploreofyoutogoawayfromme,becauseifEllahadbeenfreeamonthagoassheisto-day,shewouldhavemarriedyou。”

  “Butshefanciedthatshelovedmeamonthago。Sheknowsthatshedoesnotlovemenow。Youloveme——you,Phyllis,mylove,mybeloved;

  youdarenotsaythatwhenyouledmetoloveyou,youwerenotledunthinkinglytolovemeyourself。Willyoudenythat,mydarling?“

  Hehadstrodepassionatelyuptoher,andbeforeshecouldresisthehadputhisarmsaboutherandwaskissingherontheface。Foramomentonlysheresisted,thenshesubmittedtohiskisses。

  “Youaremine——mine——mine!“hewhispered,andsheknewthatshewas。

  Shenowknewhowtoaccountforthebrilliantsuccessesofthemaninplaceswhereeveryothercivilizedmanhadperished。Hewasamasterofmen。“Youloveme,darling,andIloveyou。Whatshallseparateus?“

  Withalittlecryshefreedherself。

  “Youhavesaidthetruth!“shecried;“thebittertruth。Iloveyou!I

  loveyou!Iloveyou!Youaremylove,mydarling,mykingforever。

  ButItellyoutogofromme。ItellyouthatIshallneverstealfromanysisterwhatishersbyright。Iwouldhavesacrificedmyself——I

  didnotloveyouthen——tokeepyoufromher;Iamnowreadytosacrificemyself——nowthatIloveyou——togiveyoutoher。Ah,mylove,myowndearlove,youknowme,andyouknowthatIshouldhatemyself——thatIshouldhateyou,too,ifIweretomarryyou,nowthatsheisfree。Go,mybeloved——go!“

  Helookedatherfacemadebeautifulwithtears。“Letmepleadwithyou,Phyllis。Letmesay——“

  “Oh,go!go!go!“

  Heputouthishandtoher。

  “Iamgoing!“hesaid。“IamleavingEngland,butfromdaytodayI

  shallletyouknowwhereIam,sothatyoucansendtomewhenyouwantmetoreturntoyou。Writeonapaper,\'Cometome,\'andIwillcome,thoughyearsshouldpassbeforeIreadthosewords。Ideservetosuffer,asIknowIshallsuffer。”

  Heheldouthishand。Shetookit。Hertearsfelluponit。Shedidnotspeakashewenttothedoor。Thenshegaveacrylikethecryofawoundedanimal。Sheheldoutherhandstohim。

  “Notyet!Notyet!“shesaid。

  Sheflungherselfintohisarms,kissinghimandkissinghim,holdinghimtoherwithherarmsabouthisneck。

  “Good-by!Good-by,mydarling,mybestbeloved。Oh,go!Go,Herbert,beforeIdieinyourarms。Go!“

  Shewaslyingalongthefloorwithherheadonthesofa。

  Hewasgone。

  Shelookedwildlyaroundtheroom,wipingthetearsfromhereyes。Shesprangtoherfeet,crying:

  “Comeback!Comebacktome,mybeloved!Oh,Iwasafool!Suchafoolaswomenarewhentheythinkofsuchthingsasheavenandtruthandright!Afool!Afool!“

  AnhourafterwardEllacalledtosaygood-bytoher。ShewasgoingtoSwitzerlandfirst,shesaid,toaquietspotthatsheknew,whereshemightthinkoutsomeofthedetailsoftheChurch。Mr。HollandwouldmeetherinItalyinthewintertoconsidersomeofthearchitecturaldetails。

  Whenthehourofherdeparturewasathandshereferredtoanothermatter——amatteronwhichshespokemuchmoreseriouslythanshehadyetspokenonthesubjectoftheChurch。

  “Icouldnotgo,mydearPhyllis,“saidshe,“withouttellingyouthatIknowHerbertCourtlandwillcometoyou。”

  “No!“saidPhyllis。“Hewillnotcometome。Hehasbeenwithme。Heisnowgone。”

  “Gone?Thatwouldbeimpossible!“criedElla。“Youwouldnotsendhimaway。Hetoldyouthathelovedyou。”

  “Yes,hetoldmethat。”

  “Andyetyousenthimaway?Oh,Phyllis,youwouldnotbreakmyheart。

  Iknowthatyoulovehim。”

  “DoI?“

  “Youdolovehim。Oh,myPhyllis,Itoldhimmonthsagothatitwasthedearestwishofmyhearttoseeyoumarriedtohim。Atthattimehelaughed。Oh,itishorribletometorecallnowhowhelaughed。

  ShallIeverforgetthatterribledream?Butnowhelovesyou。Iknowit。What!youthinkhimunworthyofyoubecauseof——ofthatdreamwhichwasuponus?Phyllis,don\'tforgetthathefoughtwiththesinandovercameit。How?Ah!youknowhow。Heovercamethepassionthatisofearthbythelovethatisofheaven。Itwashispureloveforyouthatgavehimthevictory。Whyshouldyousendhimaway?“

  “Heknows。Heunderstands。Heisgone。”

  “ButIdonotunderstand。”

  SheheldPhyllis\'handandlookedintoherface。Shegaveasuddenstart——alittlestart。

  “Oh,surely,myPhyllis,youdon\'tthinkthatI——I——Oh,no!youcannotthinkthatofme。Oh,mydarling,ifyoushouldbesofoolishastothinkthatI——thatIstill——Ah,Icannotspeakaboutit。

  Listentome,Phyllis:Itellyouthatasheconqueredhimselfbythelovewhichisofheaven,sohaveIconqueredbythesameDivinePower。

  Thelovewhichisinheaven——thelovewhichismine——hasgivenmethevictoryalso。DearPhyllis,thatmanisnothingtometo-day。Itellyouheisnothing——nothing!Ah,Idon\'tevenhatehim。IfIshouldeverspeaktohimagainitwouldbetosendhimbacktoyou。”

  Phyllissaidnothing,andjustthenherfathercameintotheroom,andafterafewminutes\'conventionalchatEllawentaway。

  Mr。AyrtonremarkedtoPhyllisthatherdearestfriendwaslookingbetterthanshehadlookedformanymonths,andthenhelaughed。

  Phyllisdidnotlikehislaugh。Shelookedathim——gravely——

  reproachfully。

  “Pardonme,mydear,“saidhe;“butIwasonlythinkingthat——well——

  thatshe——Ah,afterall,whatismarriage?“

  Phyllisdidnotreply。Shesawbyhiseyesthathehadfoundanotherphrase。Whatwerephrasestoher?

  “Marriageisthemosthonorablepreliminarytoaneffectivewidowhood,“saidhe。

  Shewentoutoftheroom。

  DuringthenexteightmonthsPhyllisreceivedmanylettersfromElla——

  somefromSwitzerland,somefromItaly,andonefromCalcutta。EllahadgonetoIndiatomakefurtherinquiriesonthesubjectofBuddhism。Atanyrate,noonewhoseheartwassetuponbuildingupaNewChurchcouldafford,shesaid,toignoreBuddhismasapower。

  Mr。Hollandagreedwithher,shesaid。HehadgonethroughIndiawithher。

  ShereturnedtoEnglandinApril,andofcoursewenttoseePhylliswithoutdelay。SomemenhadwantedtomarryPhyllisduringthewinter,aseverybodyknew,butshehadbeenpleasantlyirresponsive。SomeofherclosestfriendsfemalelaughedandsaidthatshehadfoundouthowsillyshehadbeeninthrowingoverMr。Holland。

  Itwasnot,however,ofthesesuitorsthatEllatalkedtoher。ItwasofHerbertCourtland。

  Hadsheheardfromhim?sheasked。

  Yes;heoccasionallysentherhisaddress,Phyllissaid——thatwasall。

  “Youwillwritetohimtocomebacktoyou,Phyllis?“saidEllaentreatingly。

  Phyllisshookherhead。

  “Dearestchild,“continuedElla,“Iknowthegoodnessofyourheart。I

  knowthehighidealofhonorandfaithwhichyouhavesetbeforeyou。

  IsawHerbertwhenoursteamerstoppedatPortSaid。HehadbeeninAbyssinia——youknowthat?“

  “Iknewthat。”

  “Italkedwithhimforanhour,“saidElla。“Hetoldmeagreatdealaboutyou——aboutyourpartingfromhim。YouwillwritethosewordstohimbeforeIleavethisroom。”

  Phyllisshookherhead。

  “Oh,yes,youwill,whenItellyouwhatIdidnottellhim——whenI

  tellyouthatGeorgeHollandandIhaveagreedthatourpositionsasjointtrusteesoftheNewChurchwillbeimmeasurablystrengthenedifwearemarried。”

  “What?“

  Phyllishadrisen。

  “Wearetobemarriedinthreemonths。Thematteris,ofcourse,toremainasecret——peoplearesogiventotalk。”

  Phyllisfellintoherarmsandkissedhertearfully——butthetearswerenotallherown。

  “Nowyouwillwritethosewords,“saidElla。

  PhyllisrantoalittleFrenchescritoireandsnatchedupasheetofpaper。

  “Cometome,mybeloved,“shewroteuponit;thensheleanedherfaceuponherarm,weepinghappily。

  Ellacamebehindher。Shepickedupthepaperandfoldeditup。Shepressedthebell。

  “PleasegivethattoMr。Courtlandinthestudy,“shesaidtotheservant。

  Phyllissprangupwithacry。

  “Iforgottotellyou,mydearest,thatIbroughtbackHerbertCourtlandinthatsteamerwithme,andthathecamewithmeto-day。Heiscomingtoyou——listen——threestepsatatime。”

  Andthatwasjusthowhedidcometoher。

  “Blessmysoul!“criedMr。Ayrton,tenminuteslater。“Blessmysoul!

  Ialwaysfanciedthat——Ah,afterall,whatismarriage?“

  “Oh!“criedPhyllis。

  “Thelastwordthatcanbesaidregardingitisthatmarriageisthepicturesquegatewayleadingtothecommonplaceestate。”

  “Oh!“criedPhyllisEnd

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