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  “SaxonorKelt?“shecontinued,laughinginthedarkness。“Butitdoesn\'tmatter。Whicheveryouare,youwillhavetolistentome。Ilovethisplace。IloveShropshire。

  IhateLondon。Iamgladthatthiswillbemyhome。Ah,dear“——shewasnowmovingbacktowardsthehouse——“whatacomforttohavearrived!“

  “Thatwomanmeansmischief,“thoughtCharles,andcompressedhislips。Inafewminuteshefollowedherindoors,asthegroundwasgettingdamp。Mistswererisingfromtheriver,andpresentlyitbecameinvisible,thoughitwhisperedmoreloudly。TherehadbeenaheavydownpourintheWelshhills。Chapter26Nextmorningafinemistcoveredthepeninsula。Theweatherpromisedwell,andtheoutlineofthecastlemoundgrewclearereachmomentthatMargaretwatchedit。Presentlyshesawthekeep,andthesunpaintedtherubblegold,andchargedthewhiteskywithblue。Theshadowofthehousegathereditselftogetherandfelloverthegarden。A

  catlookedupatherwindowandmewed。Lastlytheriverappeared,stillholdingthemistsbetweenitsbanksanditsoverhangingalders,andonlyvisibleasfarasahill,whichcutoffitsupperreaches。

  MargaretwasfascinatedbyOniton。Shehadsaidthatshelovedit,butitwasratheritsromantictensionthatheldher。TheroundedDruidsofwhomshehadcaughtglimpsesinherdrive,therivershurryingdownfromthemtoEngland,thecarelesslymodelledmassesofthelowerhills,thrilledherwithpoetry。Thehousewasinsignificant,buttheprospectfromitwouldbeaneternaljoy,andshethoughtofallthefriendsshewouldhavetostopinit,andoftheconversionofHenryhimselftoarurallife。Society,too,promisedfavourably。

  Therectoroftheparishhaddinedwiththemlastnight,andshefoundthathewasafriendofherfather\'s,andsoknewwhattofindinher。

  Shelikedhim。Hewouldintroducehertothetown。While,onherotherside,SirJamesBiddersat,repeatingthatsheonlyhadtogivetheword,andhewouldwhipupthecountyfamiliesfortwentymilesround。

  WhetherSirJames,whowasGardenSeeds,hadpromisedwhathecouldperform,shedoubted,butsolongasHenrymistookthemforthecountyfamilieswhentheydidcall,shewascontent。

  CharlesandAlbertFussellnowcrossedthelawn。

  Theyweregoingforamorningdip,andaservantfollowedthemwiththeirbathing-dresses。Shehadmeanttotakeastrollherselfbeforebreakfast,butsawthatthedaywasstillsacredtomen,andamusedherselfbywatchingtheircontretemps。Inthefirstplacethekeyofthebathing-shedcouldnotbefound。Charlesstoodbytheriversidewithfoldedhands,tragical,whiletheservantshouted,andwasmisunderstoodbyanotherservantinthegarden。Thencameadifficultyaboutaspring-board,andsoonthreepeoplewererunningbackwardsandforwardsoverthemeadow,withordersandcounterordersandrecriminationsandapologies。IfMargaretwantedtojumpfromamotor-car,shejumped;ifTibbythoughtpaddlingwouldbenefithisankles,hepaddled;ifaclerkdesiredadventure,hetookawalkinthedark。Buttheseathletesseemedparalysed。

  Theycouldnotbathewithouttheirappliances,thoughthemorningsunwascallingandthelastmistswererisingfromthedimplingstream。

  Hadtheyfoundthelifeofthebodyafterall?Couldnotthemenwhomtheydespisedasmilksopsbeatthem,evenontheirownground?

  Shethoughtofthebathingarrangementsastheyshouldbeinherday——noworryingofservants,noappliances,beyondgoodsense。Herreflectionsweredisturbedbythequietchild,whohadcomeouttospeaktothecat,butwasnowwatchingherwatchthemen。

  Shecalled,“Good-morning,dear,“alittlesharply。Hervoicespreadconsternation。Charleslookedround,andthoughcompletelyattiredinindigoblue,vanishedintotheshed,andwasseennomore。

  “MissWilcoxisup——“thechildwhispered,andthenbecameunintelligible。

  “What\'sthat?“

  Itsoundedlike,“——cut-yoke——sackback——“

  “Ican\'thear。“

  “——Onthebed——tissue-paper——“

  Gatheringthatthewedding-dresswasonview,andthatavisitwouldbeseemly,shewenttoEvie\'sroom。Allwashilarityhere。Evie,inapetticoat,wasdancingwithoneoftheAnglo-Indianladies,whiletheotherwasadoringyardsofwhitesatin。Theyscreamed,theylaughed,theysang,andthedogbarked。

  Margaretscreamedalittletoo,butwithoutconviction。

  Shecouldnotfeelthataweddingwassofunny。Perhapssomethingwasmissinginherequipment。

  Eviegasped:“Dollyisarotternottobehere!

  Oh,wewouldragjustthen!“ThenMargaretwentdowntobreakfast。

  Henrywasalreadyinstalled;heateslowlyandspokelittle,andwas,inMargaret\'seyes,theonlymemberoftheirpartywhododgedemotionsuccessfully。Shecouldnotsupposehimindifferenteithertothelossofhisdaughterortothepresenceofhisfuturewife。

  Yethedweltintact,onlyissuingordersoccasionally——ordersthatpromotedthecomfortofhisguests。Heinquiredafterherhand;hesethertopouroutthecoffeeandMrs。Warringtontopouroutthetea。WhenEviecamedowntherewasamoment\'sawkwardness,andbothladiesrosetovacatetheirplaces。“Burton,“calledHenry,“serveteaandcoffeefromtheside-board!“Itwasn\'tgenuinetact,butitwastact,ofasort——thesortthatisasusefulasthegenuine,andsavesevenmoresituationsatBoardmeetings。Henrytreatedamarriagelikeafuneral,itembyitem,neverraisinghiseyestothewhole,and“Death,whereisthysting?Love,whereisthyvictory?“onewouldexclaimattheclose。

  Afterbreakfastsheclaimedafewwordswithhim。

  Itwasalwaysbesttoapproachhimformally。Sheaskedfortheinterview,becausehewasgoingontoshootgrousetomorrow,andshewasreturningtoHelenintown。

  “Certainly,dear,“saidhe。“Ofcourse,I

  havethetime。Whatdoyouwant?“

  “Nothing。“

  “Iwasafraidsomethinghadgonewrong。“

  “No;Ihavenothingtosay,butyoumaytalk。“

  Glancingathiswatch,hetalkedofthenastycurveatthelych-gate。Sheheardhimwithinterest。Hersurfacecouldalwaysrespondtohiswithoutcontempt,thoughallherdeeperbeingmightbeyearningtohelphim。Shehadabandonedanyplanofaction。

  Loveisthebest,andthemoresheletherselflovehim,themorechancewastherethathewouldsethissoulinorder。Suchamomentasthis,whentheysatunderfairweatherbythewalksoftheirfuturehome,wassosweettoherthatitssweetnesswouldsurelypiercetohim。Eachliftofhiseyes,eachpartingofthethatchedlipfromtheclean-shaven,mustpreludethetendernessthatkillstheMonkandtheBeastatasingleblow。Disappointedahundredtimes,shestillhoped。Shelovedhimwithtooclearavisiontofearhiscloudiness。Whetherhedronedtrivialities,astoday,orsprangkissesonherinthetwilight,shecouldpardonhim,shecouldrespond。

  “Ifthereisthisnastycurve,“shesuggested,“couldn\'twewalktothechurch?Not,ofcourse,youandEvie;buttherestofusmightverywellgoonfirst,andthatwouldmeanfewercarriages。“

  “Onecan\'thaveladieswalkingthroughtheMarketSquare。TheFussellswouldn\'tlikeit;theywereawfullyparticularatCharles\'swedding。My——she——oneofourpartywasanxioustowalk,andcertainlythechurchwasjustroundthecorner,andIshouldn\'thaveminded;buttheColonelmadeagreatpointofit。“

  “Youmenshouldn\'tbesochivalrous,“saidMargaretthoughtfully。

  “Whynot?“

  Sheknewwhynot,butsaidthatshedidnotknow。

  Hethenannouncedthat,unlessshehadanythingspecialtosay,hemustvisitthewine-cellar,andtheywentofftogetherinsearchofBurton。Thoughclumsyandalittleinconvenient,Onitonwasagenuinecountryhouse。Theyclattereddownflaggedpassages,lookingintoroomafterroom,andscaringunknownmaidsfromtheperformanceofobscureduties。Thewedding-breakfastmustbeinreadinesswhentheycamebackfromchurch,andteawouldbeservedinthegarden。

  ThesightofsomanyagitatedandseriouspeoplemadeMargaretsmile,butshereflectedthattheywerepaidtobeserious,andenjoyedbeingagitated。

  HerewerethelowerwheelsofthemachinethatwastossingEvieupintonuptialglory。Alittleboyblockedtheirwaywithpig-tails。

  Hismindcouldnotgrasptheirgreatness,andhesaid:“Byyourleave;

  letmepass,please。“HenryaskedhimwhereBurtonwas。Buttheservantsweresonewthattheydidnotknowoneanother\'snames。Inthestill-roomsattheband,whohadstipulatedforchampagneaspartoftheirfee,andwhowerealreadydrinkingbeer。ScentsofArabycamefromthekitchen,mingledwithcries。Margaretknewwhathadhappenedthere,forithappenedatWickhamPlace。Oneoftheweddingdisheshadboiledover,andthecookwasthrowingcedar-shavingstohidethesmell。Atlasttheycameuponthebutler。Henrygavehimthekeys,andhandedMargaretdownthecellar-stairs。Twodoorswereunlocked。She,whokeptallherwineatthebottomofthelinen-cupboard,wasastonishedatthesight。“Weshallnevergetthroughit!“shecried,andthetwomenweresuddenlydrawnintobrotherhood,andexchangedsmiles。Shefeltasifshehadagainjumpedoutofthecarwhileitwasmoving。

  CertainlyOnitonwouldtakesomedigesting。

  Itwouldbenosmallbusinesstoremainherself,andyettoassimilatesuchanestablishment。Shemustremainherself,forhissakeaswellasherown,sinceashadowywifedegradesthehusbandwhomsheaccompanies;

  andshemustassimilateforreasonsofcommonhonesty,sinceshehadnorighttomarryamanandmakehimuncomfortable。HeronlyallywasthepowerofHome。ThelossofWickhamPlacehadtaughthermorethanitspossession。HowardsEndhadrepeatedthelesson。Shewasdeterminedtocreatenewsanctitiesamongthesehills。

  Aftervisitingthewine-cellar,shedressed,andthencamethewedding,whichseemedasmallaffairwhencomparedwiththepreparationsforit。Everythingwentlikeoneo\'clock。Mr。

  Cahillmaterializedoutofspace,andwaswaitingforhisbrideatthechurchdoor。Noonedroppedtheringormispronouncedtheresponses,ortrodonEvie\'strain,orcried。Inafewminutes——theclergymenperformedtheirduty,theregisterwassigned,andtheywerebackintheircarriages,negotiatingthedangerouscurvebythelych-gate。Margaretwasconvincedthattheyhadnotbeenmarriedatall,andthattheNormanchurchhadbeenintentallthetimeonotherbusiness。

  Thereweremoredocumentstosignatthehouse,andthebreakfasttoeat,andthenafewmorepeopledroppedinforthegardenparty。Therehadbeenagreatmanyrefusals,andafterallitwasnotaverybigaffair——notasbigasMargaret\'swouldbe。

  Shenotedthedishesandthestripsofredcarpet,thatoutwardlyshemightgiveHenrywhatwasproper。ButinwardlyshehopedforsomethingbetterthanthisblendofSundaychurchandfox-hunting。Ifonlysomeonehadbeenupset!Butthisweddinghadgoneoffsoparticularlywell——“quitelikeaDurbar“intheopinionofLadyEdser,andshethoroughlyagreedwithher。

  Sothewasteddaylumberedforward,thebrideandbridegroomdroveoff,yellingwithlaughter,andforthesecondtimethesunretreatedtowardsthehillsofWales。Henry,whowasmoretiredthanheowned,cameuptoherinthecastlemeadow,and,intonesofunusualsoftness,saidthathewaspleased。Everythinghadgoneoffsowell。

  Shefeltthathewaspraisingher,too,andblushed;certainlyshehaddoneallshecouldwithhisintractablefriends,andhadmadeaspecialpointofkowtowingtothemen。Theywerebreakingcampthisevening:

  onlytheWarringtonsandquietchildwouldstaythenight,andtheotherswerealreadymovingtowardsthehousetofinishtheirpacking。“I

  thinkitdidgooffwell,“sheagreed。“SinceIhadtojumpoutofthemotor,I\'mthankfulIlightedonmylefthand。Iamsoverygladaboutit,Henrydear;Ionlyhopethattheguestsatoursmaybehalfascomfortable。Youmustallrememberthatwehavenopracticalpersonamongus,exceptmyaunt,andsheisnotusedtoentertainmentsonalargescale。“

  “Iknow,“hesaidgravely。“Underthecircumstances,itwouldbebettertoputeverythingintothehandsofHarrod\'sorWhiteley\'s,oreventogotosomehotel。“

  “Youdesireahotel?“

  “Yes,because——well,Imustn\'tinterferewithyou。

  Nodoubtyouwanttobemarriedfromyouroldhome。“

  “Myoldhome\'sfallingintopieces,Henry。

  Ionlywantmynew。Isn\'titaperfectevening——“

  “TheAlexandrinaisn\'tbad——“

  “TheAlexandrina,“sheechoed,moreoccupiedwiththethreadsofsmokethatwereissuingfromtheirchimneys,andrulingthesunlitslopeswithparallelsofgrey。

  “It\'soffCurzonStreet。“

  “Isit?Let\'sbemarriedfromoffCurzonStreet。“

  Thensheturnedwestward,togazeattheswirlinggold。Justwheretheriverroundedthehillthesuncaughtit。

  Fairylandmustlieabovethebend,anditspreciousliquidwaspouringtowardsthempastCharles\'sbathing-shed。Shegazedsolongthathereyesweredazzled,andwhentheymovedbacktothehouse,shecouldnotrecognizethefacesofpeoplewhowerecomingoutofit。Aparlour-maidwasprecedingthem。

  “Whoarethosepeople?“sheasked。

  “They\'recallers!“exclaimedHenry。“It\'stoolateforcallers。“

  “Perhapsthey\'retownpeoplewhowanttoseetheweddingpresents。“

  “I\'mnotathomeyettotownees。“

  “Well,hideamongtheruins,andifIcanstopthem,Iwill。“

  Hethankedher。

  Margaretwentforward,smilingsocially。Shesupposedthatthesewereunpunctualguests,whowouldhavetobecontentwithvicariouscivility,sinceEvieandCharlesweregone,Henrytired,andtheothersintheirrooms。Sheassumedtheairsofahostess;

  notforlong。ForoneofthegroupwasHelen——Heleninheroldestclothes,anddominatedbythattense,woundingexcitementthathadmadeheraterrorintheirnurserydays。

  “Whatisit?“shecalled。“Oh,what\'swrong?

  IsTibbyill?“

  Helenspoketohertwocompanions,whofellback。

  Thensheboreforwardfuriously。

  “They\'restarving!“sheshouted。“Ifoundthemstarving!“

  “Who?Whyhaveyoucome?“

  “TheBasts。“

  “Oh,Helen!“moanedMargaret。“Whateverhaveyoudonenow?“

  “Hehaslosthisplace。Hehasbeenturnedoutofhisbank。Yes,he\'sdonefor。Weupperclasseshaveruinedhim,andIsupposeyou\'lltellmeit\'sthebattleoflife。

  Starving。Hiswifeisill。Starving。Shefaintedinthetrain。“

  “Helen,areyoumad?“

  “Perhaps。Yes。Ifyoulike,I\'mmad。

  ButI\'vebroughtthem。I\'llstandinjusticenolonger。I\'llshowupthewretchednessthatliesunderthisluxury,thistalkofimpersonalforces,thiscantaboutGoddoingwhatwe\'retooslacktodoourselves。“

  “HaveyouactuallybroughttwostarvingpeoplefromLondontoShropshire,Helen?“

  Helenwaschecked。Shehadnotthoughtofthis,andherhysteriaabated。“Therewasarestaurantcaronthetrain,“shesaid。

  “Don\'tbeabsurd。Theyaren\'tstarving,andyouknowit。Now,beginfromthebeginning。Iwon\'thavesuchtheatricalnonsense。Howdareyou!Yes,howdareyou!“sherepeated,asangerfilledher,“burstingintoEvie\'sweddinginthisheartlessway。Mygoodness!butyou\'veapervertednotionofphilanthropy。

  Look“——sheindicatedthehouse——“servants,peopleoutofthewindows。

  Theythinkit\'ssomevulgarscandal,andImustexplain,\'Ohno,it\'sonlymysisterscreaming,andonlytwohangers-onofours,whomshehasbroughtherefornoconceivablereason。\'“

  “Kindlytakebackthatword\'hangers-on,\'“saidHelen,ominouslycalm。

  “Verywell,“concededMargaret,whoforallherwrathwasdeterminedtoavoidarealquarrel。“I,too,amsorryaboutthem,butitbeatsmewhyyou\'vebroughtthemhere,orwhyyou\'rehereyourself。

  “It\'sourlastchanceofseeingMr。Wilcox。“

  Margaretmovedtowardsthehouseatthis。

  ShewasdeterminednottoworryHenry。

  “He\'sgoingtoScotland。Iknowheis。

  Iinsistonseeinghim。“

  “Yes,tomorrow。“

  “Iknewitwasourlastchance。“

  “Howdoyoudo,Mr。Bast?“saidMargaret,tryingtocontrolhervoice。“Thisisanoddbusiness。Whatviewdoyoutakeofit?“

  “ThereisMrs。Bast,too,“promptedHelen。

  Jackyalsoshookhands。She,likeherhusband,wasshy,and,furthermore,ill,andfurthermore,sobestiallystupidthatshecouldnotgraspwhatwashappening。Sheonlyknewthattheladyhadsweptdownlikeawhirlwindlastnight,hadpaidtherent,redeemedthefurniture,providedthemwithadinnerandbreakfast,andorderedthemtomeetheratPaddingtonnextmorning。Leonardhadfeeblyprotested,andwhenthemorningcame,hadsuggestedthattheyshouldn\'tgo。

  Butshe,halfmesmerized,hadobeyed。Theladyhadtoldthemto,andtheymust,andtheirbed-sitting-roomhadaccordinglychangedintoPaddington,andPaddingtonintoarailwaycarriage,thatshook,andgrewhot,andgrewcold,andvanishedentirely,andreappearedamidtorrentsofexpensivescent。“Youhavefainted,“saidtheladyinanawe-struckvoice。“Perhapstheairwilldoyougood。“Andperhapsithad,forhereshewas,feelingratherbetteramongalotofflowers。

  “I\'msureIdon\'twanttointrude,“beganLeonard,inanswertoMargaret\'squestion。“ButyouhavebeensokindtomeinthepastinwarningmeaboutthePorphyrionthatIwondered——why,I

  wonderedwhether——“

  “WhetherwecouldgethimbackintothePorphyrionagain,“suppliedHelen。“Meg,thishasbeenacheerfulbusiness。

  Abrightevening\'sworkthatwasonChelseaEmbankment。“

  MargaretshookherheadandreturnedtoMr。Bast。

  “Idon\'tunderstand。YouleftthePorphyrionbecausewesuggesteditwasabadconcern,didn\'tyou?“

  “That\'sright。“

  “Andwentintoabankinstead?“

  “Itoldyouallthat,“saidHelen;“andtheyreducedtheirstaffafterhehadbeeninamonth,andnowhe\'spenniless,andI

  considerthatweandourinformantaredirectlytoblame。“

  “Ihateallthis,“Leonardmuttered。

  “Ihopeyoudo,Mr。Bast。Butit\'snogoodmincingmatters。Youhavedoneyourselfnogoodbycominghere。

  IfyouintendtoconfrontMr。Wilcox,andtocallhimtoaccountforachanceremark,youwillmakeaverygreatmistake。“

  “Ibroughtthem。Ididitall,“criedHelen。

  “Icanonlyadviseyoutogoatonce。Mysisterhasputyouinafalseposition,anditiskindesttotellyouso。

  It\'stoolatetogettotown,butyou\'llfindacomfortablehotelinOniton,whereMrs。Bastcanrest,andIhopeyou\'llbemygueststhere。“

  “Thatisn\'twhatIwant,MissSchlegel,“saidLeonard。

  “You\'reverykind,andnodoubtit\'safalseposition,butyoumakememiserable。Iseemnogoodatall。“

  “It\'sworkhewants,“interpretedHelen。“Can\'tyousee?“

  Thenhesaid:“Jacky,let\'sgo。We\'remorebotherthanwe\'reworth。We\'recostingtheseladiespoundsandpoundsalreadytogetworkforus,andtheyneverwill。There\'snothingwe\'regoodenoughtodo。“

  “Wewouldliketofindyouwork,“saidMargaretratherconventionally。“Wewantto——I,likemysister。You\'reonlydowninyourluck。Gotothehotel,haveagoodnight\'srest,andsomedayyoushallpaymebackthebill,ifyoupreferit。“

  ButLeonardwasneartheabyss,andatsuchmomentsmenseeclearly。“Youdon\'tknowwhatyou\'retalkingabout,“hesaid。

  “Ishallnevergetworknow。Ifrichpeoplefailatoneprofession,theycantryanother。NotI。Ihadmygroove,andI\'vegotoutofit。Icoulddooneparticularbranchofinsuranceinoneparticularofficewellenoughtocommandasalary,butthat\'sall。Poetry\'snothing,MissSchlegel。One\'sthoughtsaboutthisandthatarenothing。

  Yourmoney,too,isnothing,ifyou\'llunderstandme。Imeanifamanovertwentyonceloseshisownparticularjob,it\'salloverwithhim。

  Ihaveseenithappentoothers。Theirfriendsgavethemmoneyforalittle,butintheendtheyfallovertheedge。It\'snogood。

  It\'sthewholeworldpulling。Therealwayswillberichandpoor。“

  Heceased。

  “Won\'tyouhavesomethingtoeat?“saidMargaret。

  “Idon\'tknowwhattodo。Itisn\'tmyhouse,andthoughMr。Wilcoxwouldhavebeengladtoseeyouatanyothertime——asIsay,Idon\'tknowwhattodo,butIundertaketodowhatIcanforyou。Helen,offerthemsomething。Dotryasandwich,Mrs。Bast。“

  Theymovedtoalongtablebehindwhichaservantwasstillstanding。Icedcakes,sandwichesinnumerable,coffee,claret-cup,champagne,remainedalmostintact:theiroverfedguestscoulddonomore。

  Leonardrefused。Jackythoughtshecouldmanagealittle。MargaretleftthemwhisperingtogetherandhadafewmorewordswithHelen。

  Shesaid:“Helen,IlikeMr。Bast。Iagreethathe\'sworthhelping。Iagreethatwearedirectlyresponsible。“

  “No,indirectly。ViaMr。Wilcox。“

  “Letmetellyouonceforallthatifyoutakeupthatattitude,I\'lldonothing。Nodoubtyou\'rerightlogically,andareentitledtosayagreatmanyscathingthingsaboutHenry。

  Only,Iwon\'thaveit。Sochoose。

  Helenlookedatthesunset。

  “IfyoupromisetotakethemquietlytotheGeorge,IwillspeaktoHenryaboutthem——inmyownway,mind;thereistobenoneofthisabsurdscreamingaboutjustice。Ihavenouseforjustice。

  Ifitwasonlyaquestionofmoney,wecoulddoitourselves。Buthewantswork,andthatwecan\'tgivehim,butpossiblyHenrycan。“

  “It\'shisdutyto,“grumbledHelen。

  “NoramIconcernedwithduty。I\'mconcernedwiththecharactersofvariouspeoplewhomweknow,andhow,thingsbeingastheyare,thingsmaybemadealittlebetter。Mr。Wilcoxhatesbeingaskedfavours:allbusinessmendo。ButIamgoingtoaskhim,attheriskofarebuff,becauseIwanttomakethingsalittlebetter。“

  “Verywell。Ipromise。Youtakeitverycalmly。“

  “TakethemofftotheGeorge,then,andI\'lltry。

  Poorcreatures!buttheylooktried。“Astheyparted,sheadded:

  “Ihaven\'tnearlydonewithyou,though,Helen。Youhavebeenmostself-indulgent。Ican\'tgetoverit。Youhavelessrestraintratherthanmoreasyougrowolder。Thinkitoverandalteryourself,orweshan\'thavehappylives。“

  SherejoinedHenry。Fortunatelyhehadbeensittingdown:thesephysicalmatterswereimportant。“Wasittownees?“

  heasked,greetingherwithapleasantsmile。

  “You\'llneverbelieveme,“saidMargaret,sittingdownbesidehim。“It\'sallrightnow,butitwasmysister。“

  “Helenhere?“hecried,preparingtorise。

  “Butsherefusedtheinvitation。Ithoughtshedespisedweddings。“

  “Don\'tgetup。Shehasnotcometothewedding。

  I\'vebundledherofftotheGeorge。“

  Inherentlyhospitable,heprotested。

  “No;shehastwoofherprotégéswithher,andmustkeepwiththem。“

  “Let\'emallcome。“

  “MydearHenry,didyouseethem?“

  “Ididcatchsightofabrownbunchofawoman,certainly。

  “ThebrownbunchwasHelen,butdidyoucatchsightofasea-greenandsalmonbunch?“

  “What!aretheyoutbeanfeasting?“

  “No;business。Theywantedtoseeme,andlateronIwanttotalktoyouaboutthem。“

  Shewasashamedofherowndiplomacy。IndealingwithaWilcox,howtemptingitwastolapsefromcomradeship,andtogivehimthekindofwomanthathedesired!Henrytookthehintatonce,andsaid:“Whylateron?Tellmenow。Notimelikethepresent。“

  “ShallI?“

  “Ifitisn\'talongstory。“

  “Oh,notfiveminutes;butthere\'sastingattheendofit,forIwantyoutofindthemansomeworkinyouroffice。“

  “Whatarehisqualifications?“

  “Idon\'tknow。He\'saclerk。“

  “Howold?“

  “Twenty-five,perhaps。“

  “What\'shisname?“

  “Bast,“saidMargaret,andwasabouttoremindhimthattheyhadmetatWickhamPlace,butstoppedherself。Ithadnotbeenasuccessfulmeeting。

  “Wherewashebefore?“

  “Dempster\'sBank。“

  “Whydidheleave?“heasked,stillrememberingnothing。

  “Theyreducedtheirstaff。“

  “Allright;I\'llseehim。“

  Itwastherewardofhertactanddevotionthroughtheday。Nowsheunderstoodwhysomewomenpreferinfluencetorights。

  Mrs。Plynlimmon,whencondemningsuffragettes,hadsaid:“Thewomanwhocan\'tinfluenceherhusbandtovotethewayshewantsoughttobeashamedofherself。“Margarethadwinced,butshewasinfluencingHenrynow,andthoughpleasedatherlittlevictory,sheknewthatshehadwonitbythemethodsoftheharem。

  “Ishouldbegladifyoutookhim,“shesaid,“butIdon\'tknowwhetherhe\'squalified。“

  “I\'lldowhatIcan。But,Margaret,thismustn\'tbetakenasaprecedent。“

  “No,ofcourse——ofcourse——“

  “Ican\'tfitinyourprotégéseveryday。Businesswouldsuffer。“

  “Icanpromiseyouhe\'sthelast。He——he\'sratheraspecialcase。“

  “Protégésalwaysare。“

  Sheletitstandatthat。Herosewithalittleextratouchofcomplacency,andheldouthishandtohelpherup。

  HowwidethegulfbetweenHenryashewasandHenryasHelenthoughtheoughttobe!Andsheherself——hoveringasusualbetweenthetwo,nowacceptingmenastheyare,nowyearningwithhersisterforTruth。

  LoveandTruth——theirwarfareseemseternal。Perhapsthewholevisibleworldrestsonit,andiftheywereone,lifeitself,likethespiritswhenProsperowasreconciledtohisbrother,mightvanishintoair,intothinair。

  “Yourprotégéhasmadeuslate,“saidhe。“TheFussellswilljustbestarting。“

  Onthewholeshesidedwithmenastheyare。

  HenrywouldsavetheBastsashehadsavedHowardsEnd,whileHelenandherfriendswerediscussingtheethicsofsalvation。Hiswasaslap-dashmethod,buttheworldhasbeenbuiltslap-dash,andthebeautyofmountainandriverandsunsetmaybebutthevarnishwithwhichtheunskilledartificerhideshisjoins。Oniton,likeherself,wasimperfect。Itsapple-treeswerestunted,itscastleruinous。It,too,hadsufferedintheborderwarfarebetweentheAngloSaxonandtheKelt,betweenthingsastheyareandastheyoughttobe。Oncemorethewestwasretreating,onceagaintheorderlystarsweredottingtheeasternsky。Thereiscertainlynorestforusontheearth。Butthereishappiness,andasMargaretdescendedthemoundonherlover\'sarm,shefeltthatshewashavinghershare。

  Toherannoyance,Mrs。Bastwasstillinthegarden;

  thehusbandandHelenhadlefthertheretofinishhermealwhiletheywenttoengagerooms。Margaretfoundthiswomanrepellent。

  Shehadfelt,whenshakingherhand,anoverpoweringshame。SherememberedthemotiveofhercallatWickhamPlace,andsmeltagainodoursfromtheabyss——odoursthemoredisturbingbecausetheywereinvoluntary。

  FortherewasnomaliceinJacky。Thereshesat,apieceofcakeinonehand,anemptychampagneglassintheother,doingnoharmtoanybody。

  “She\'sovertired,“Margaretwhispered。

  “She\'ssomethingelse,“saidHenry。“Thiswon\'tdo。Ican\'thaveherinmygardeninthisstate。“

  “Isshe——“Margarethesitatedtoadd“drunk。“Nowthatshewasgoingtomarryhim,hehadgrownparticular。Hediscountenancedrisquéconversationsnow。

  Henrywentuptothewoman。Sheraisedherface,whichgleamedinthetwilightlikeapuff-ball。

  “Madam,youwillbemorecomfortableatthehotel,“

  hesaidsharply。

  Jackyreplied:“Ifitisn\'tHen!“

  “Necroispasquelemariluiressemble,“apologizedMargaret。“Ilesttoutàfaitdifférent。“

  “Henry!“sherepeated,quitedistinctly。

  Mr。Wilcoxwasmuchannoyed。“Ican\'tcongratulateyouonyourprotégés,“heremarked。

  “Hen,don\'tgo。Youdoloveme,dear,don\'tyou?“

  “Blessus,whataperson!“sighedMargaret,gatheringupherskirts。

  Jackypointedwithhercake。“You\'reaniceboy,youare。“Sheyawned。“Therenow,Iloveyou。“

  “Henry,Iamawfullysorry。“

  “Andpraywhy?“heasked,andlookedathersosternlythatshefearedhewasill。Heseemedmorescandalizedthanthefactsdemanded。

  “Tohavebroughtthisdownonyou。“

  “Praydon\'tapologize。“

  Thevoicecontinued。

  “Whydoesshecallyou\'Hen\'?“saidMargaretinnocently。

  “Hassheeverseenyoubefore?“

  “SeenHenbefore!“saidJacky。“Whohasn\'tseenHen?He\'sservingyoulikeme,mydear。Theseboys!

  Youwait——Stillwelove\'em。“

  “Areyounowsatisfied?“Henryasked。

  Margaretbegantogrowfrightened。“Idon\'tknowwhatitisallabout,“shesaid。“Let\'scomein。“

  Buthethoughtshewasacting。Hethoughthewastrapped。Hesawhiswholelifecrumbling。“Don\'tyouindeed?“hesaidbitingly。“Ido。Allowmetocongratulateyouonthesuccessofyourplan。“

  “ThisisHelen\'splan,notmine。“

  “InowunderstandyourinterestintheBasts。

  Verywellthoughtout。Iamamusedatyourcaution,Margaret。

  Youarequiteright——itwasnecessary。Iamaman,andhavelivedaman\'spast。Ihavethehonourtoreleaseyoufromyourengagement。“

  Stillshecouldnotunderstand。Sheknewoflife\'sseamysideasatheory;shecouldnotgraspitasafact。

  MorewordsfromJackywerenecessary——wordsunequivocal,undenied。

  “Sothat——“burstfromher,andshewentindoors。

  Shestoppedherselffromsayingmore。

  “Sowhat?“askedColonelFussell,whowasgettingreadytostartinthehall。

  “Weweresaying——HenryandIwerejusthavingthefiercestargument,mypointbeing——“Seizinghisfurcoatfromafootman,sheofferedtohelphimon。Heprotested,andtherewasaplayfullittlescene。

  “No,letmedothat,“saidHenry,following。

  “Thankssomuch!Yousee——hehasforgivenme!“

  TheColonelsaidgallantly:“Idon\'texpectthere\'smuchtoforgive。

  Hegotintothecar。Theladiesfollowedhimafteraninterval。Maids,courier,andheavierluggagehadbeensentonearlierbythebranch——line。Stillchattering,stillthankingtheirhostandpatronizingtheirfuturehostess,theguestswerehomeaway。

  ThenMargaretcontinued:“Sothatwomanhasbeenyourmistress?“

  “Youputitwithyourusualdelicacy,“hereplied。

  “When,please?“

  “Why?“

  “When,please?“

  “Tenyearsago。“

  Shelefthimwithoutaword。Foritwasnothertragedy:itwasMrs。Wilcox\'s。Chapter27Helenbegantowonderwhyshehadspentamatterofeightpoundsinmakingsomepeopleillandothersangry。Nowthatthewaveofexcitementwasebbing,andhadlefther,Mr。Bast,andMrs。BaststrandedforthenightinaShropshirehotel,sheaskedherselfwhatforceshadmadethewaveflow。Atallevents,noharmwasdone。Margaretwouldplaythegameproperlynow,andthoughHelendisapprovedofhersister\'smethods,sheknewthattheBastswouldbenefitbytheminthelongrun。

  “Mr。Wilcoxissoillogical,“sheexplainedtoLeonard,whohadputhiswifetobed,andwassittingwithherintheemptycoffee-room。

  “Ifwetoldhimitwashisdutytotakeyouon,hemightrefusetodoit。

  Thefactis,heisn\'tproperlyeducated。Idon\'twanttosetyouagainsthim,butyou\'llfindhimatrial。“

  “Icanneverthankyousufficiently,MissSchlegel,“

  wasallthatLeonardfeltequalto。

  “Ibelieveinpersonalresponsibility。Don\'tyou?Andinpersonaleverything。Ihate——IsupposeIoughtn\'ttosaythat——buttheWilcoxesareonthewrongtacksurely。Orperhapsitisn\'ttheirfault。Perhapsthelittlethingthatsays\'I\'ismissingoutofthemiddleoftheirheads,andthenit\'sawasteoftimetoblamethem。There\'sanightmareofatheorythatsaysaspecialraceisbeingbornwhichwillruletherestofusinthefuturejustbecauseitlacksthelittlethingthatsays\'I。\'Hadyouheardthat?“

  “Igetnotimeforreading。“

  “Hadyouthoughtit,then?Thattherearetwokindsofpeople——ourkind,wholivestraightfromthemiddleoftheirheads,andtheotherkindwhocan\'t,becausetheirheadshavenomiddle?

  Theycan\'tsay\'I。\'Theyaren\'tinfact,andsothey\'resupermen。

  PierpontMorganhasneversaid\'I\'inhislife。“

  Leonardrousedhimself。Ifhisbenefactresswantedintellectualconversation,shemusthaveit。Shewasmoreimportantthanhisruinedpast。“InevergotontoNietzsche,“hesaid。“ButIalwaysunderstoodthatthosesupermenwereratherwhatyoumaycallegoists。“

  “Oh,no,that\'swrong,“repliedHelen。“Nosupermaneversaid\'Iwant,\'because\'Iwant\'mustleadtothequestion,\'WhoamI?\'andsotoPityandtoJustice。Heonlysays\'want。\'\'WantEurope,\'ifhe\'sNapoleon;\'wantwives,\'ifhe\'sBluebeard;\'wantBotticelli,\'

  ifhe\'sPierpontMorgan。Neverthe\'I\';andifyoucouldpiercethroughhim,you\'dfindpanicandemptinessinthemiddle。“

  Leonardwassilentforamoment。Thenhesaid:

  “MayItakeit,MissSchlegel,thatyouandIareboththesortthatsay\'I\'?“

  “Ofcourse。“

  “Andyoursistertoo?“

  “Ofcourse,“repeatedHelen,alittlesharply。

  ShewasannoyedwithMargaret,butdidnotwantherdiscussed。“Allpresentablepeoplesay\'I。\'“

  “ButMr。Wilcox——heisnotperhaps——“

  “Idon\'tknowthatit\'sanygooddiscussingMr。

  Wilcoxeither。“

  “Quiteso,quiteso,“heagreed。Helenaskedherselfwhyshehadsnubbedhim。Onceortwiceduringthedayshehadencouragedhimtocriticize,andthenhadpulledhimupshort。

  Wassheafraidofhimpresuming?Ifso,itwasdisgustingofher。

  Buthewasthinkingthesnubquitenatural。

  Everythingshedidwasnatural,andincapableofcausingoffence。

  WhiletheMissSchlegelsweretogetherhehadfeltthemscarcelyhuman——asortofadmonitorywhirligig。ButaMissSchlegelalonewasdifferent。

  ShewasinHelen\'scaseunmarried,inMargaret\'sabouttobemarried,inneithercaseanechoofhersister。Alighthadfallenatlastintothisrichupperworld,andhesawthatitwasfullofmenandwomen,someofwhomweremorefriendlytohimthanothers。Helenhadbecome“his“

  MissSchlegel,whoscoldedhimandcorrespondedwithhim,andhadsweptdownyesterdaywithgratefulvehemence。Margaret,thoughnotunkind,wassevereandremote。Hewouldnotpresumetohelpher,forinstance。

  Hehadneverlikedher,andbegantothinkthathisoriginalimpressionwastrue,andthathersisterdidnotlikehereither。Helenwascertainlylonely。She,whogaveawaysomuch,wasreceivingtoolittle。

  LeonardwaspleasedtothinkthathecouldsparehervexationbyholdinghistongueandconcealingwhatheknewaboutMr。Wilcox。Jackyhadannouncedherdiscoverywhenhefetchedherfromthelawn。Afterthefirstshock,hedidnotmindforhimself。Bynowhehadnoillusionsabouthiswife,andthiswasonlyonenewstainonthefaceofalovethathadneverbeenpure。Tokeepperfectionperfect,thatshouldbehisideal,ifthefuturegavehimtimetohaveideals。Helen,andMargaretforHelen\'ssake,mustnotknow。

  Helendisconcertedhimbyfumingtheconversationtohiswife。“Mrs。Bast——doessheeversay\'I\'?“sheasked,halfmischievously,andthen,“Issheverytired?“

  “It\'sbettershestopsinherroom,“saidLeonard。

  “ShallIsitupwithher?“

  “No,thankyou;shedoesnotneedcompany。“

  “Mr。Bast,whatkindofwomanisyourwife?“

  Leonardblusheduptohiseyes。

  “Yououghttoknowmywaysbynow。Doesthatquestionoffendyou?“

  “No,ohno,MissSchlegel,no。“

  “BecauseIlovehonesty。Don\'tpretendyourmarriagehasbeenahappyone。Youandshecanhavenothingincommon。“

  Hedidnotdenyit,butsaidshyly:“Isupposethat\'sprettyobvious;butJackynevermeanttodoanybodyanyharm。Whenthingswentwrong,orIheardthings,Iusedtothinkitwasherfault,but,lookingback,it\'smoremine。Ineedn\'thavemarriedher,butasIhaveImuststicktoherandkeepher。“

  “Howlonghaveyoubeenmarried?“

  “Nearlythreeyears。“

  “Whatdidyourpeoplesay?“

  “Theywillnothaveanythingtodowithus。

  TheyhadasortoffamilycouncilwhentheyheardIwasmarried,andcutusoffaltogether。“

  Helenbegantopaceupanddowntheroom。

  “Mygoodboy,whatamess!“shesaidgently。“Whoareyourpeople?“

  Hecouldanswerthis。Hisparents,whoweredead,hadbeenintrade;hissistershadmarriedcommercialtravellers;

  hisbrotherwasalay-reader。

  “Andyourgrandparents?“

  Leonardtoldherasecretthathehadheldshamefuluptonow。“Theywerejustnothingatall,“hesaid,“——agriculturallabourersandthatsort。“

  “So!Fromwhichpart?“

  “Lincolnshiremostly,butmymother\'sfather——he,oddlyenough,camefromthesepartsroundhere。“

  “FromthisveryShropshire。Yes,thatisodd。

  Mymother\'speoplewereLancashire。ButwhydoyourbrotherandyoursistersobjecttoMrs。Bast?“

  “Oh,Idon\'tknow。“

  “Excuseme,youdoknow。Iamnotababy。

  Icanbearanythingyoutellme,andthemoreyoutellthemoreIshallbeabletohelp。Havetheyheardanythingagainsther?“

  Hewassilent。

  “IthinkIhaveguessednow,“saidHelenverygravely。

  “Idon\'tthinkso,MissSchlegel;Ihopenot。“

  “Wemustbehonest,evenoverthesethings。

  Ihaveguessed。Iamfrightfully,dreadfullysorry,butitdoesnotmaketheleastdifferencetome。Ishallfeeljustthesametobothofyou。Iblame,notyourwifeforthesethings,butmen。“

  Leonardleftitatthat——solongasshedidnotguesstheman。Shestoodatthewindowandslowlypulleduptheblinds。

  Thehotellookedoveradarksquare。Themistshadbegun。Whensheturnedbacktohimhereyeswereshining。

  “Don\'tyouworry,“hepleaded。“Ican\'tbearthat。WeshallbeallrightifIgetwork。IfIcouldonlygetwork——somethingregulartodo。Thenitwouldn\'tbesobadagain。

  Idon\'ttroubleafterbooksasIused。Icanimaginethatwithregularworkweshouldsettledownagain。Itstopsonethinking。“

  “Settledowntowhat?“

  “Oh,justsettledown。“

  “Andthat\'stobelife!“saidHelen,withacatchinherthroat。“Howcanyou,withallthebeautifulthingstoseeanddo——withmusic——withwalkingatnight——“

  “Walkingiswellenoughwhenaman\'sinwork,“heanswered。“Oh,Ididtalkalotofnonsenseonce,butthere\'snothinglikeabailiffinthehousetodriveitoutofyou。WhenIsawhimfingeringmyRuskinsandStevensons,Iseemedtoseelifestraightreal,anditisn\'taprettysight。Mybooksarebackagain,thankstoyou,butthey\'llneverbethesametomeagain,andIshan\'teveragainthinknightinthewoodsiswonderful。“

  “Whynot?“askedHelen,throwingupthewindow。

  “BecauseIseeonemusthavemoney。“

  “Well,you\'rewrong。“

  “IwishIwaswrong,but——theclergyman——hehasmoneyofhisown,orelsehe\'spaid;thepoetorthemusician——justthesame;thetramp——he\'snodifferent。Thetrampgoestotheworkhouseintheend,andispaidforwithotherpeople\'smoney。MissSchlegel,therealthing\'smoneyandalltherestisadream。“

  “You\'restillwrong。You\'veforgottenDeath。“

  Leonardcouldnotunderstand。

  “Ifwelivedforeverwhatyousaywouldbetrue。

  Butwehavetodie,wehavetoleavelifepresently。Injusticeandgreedwouldbetherealthingifwelivedforever。Asitis,wemustholdtootherthings,becauseDeathiscoming。IloveDeath——notmorbidly,butbecauseHeexplains。HeshowsmetheemptinessofMoney。

  DeathandMoneyaretheeternalfoes。NotDeathandLife。NevermindwhatliesbehindDeath,Mr。Bast,butbesurethatthepoetandthemusicianandthetrampwillbehappierinitthanthemanwhohasneverlearnttosay,\'IamI。\'“

  “Iwonder。“

  “Weareallinamist——IknowbutIcanhelpyouthisfar——menliketheWilcoxesaredeeperinthemistthanany。

  Sane,soundEnglishmen!buildingupempires,levellingalltheworldintowhattheycallcommonsense。ButmentionDeathtothemandthey\'reoffended,becauseDeath\'sreallyImperial,andHecriesoutagainstthemforever。“

  “IamasafraidofDeathasanyone。“

  “ButnotoftheideaofDeath。“

  “Butwhatisthedifference?“

  “Infinitedifference,“saidHelen,moregravelythanbefore。

  Leonardlookedatherwondering,andhadthesenseofgreatthingssweepingoutoftheshroudednight。Buthecouldnotreceivethem,becausehisheartwasstillfulloflittlethings。

  AsthelostumbrellahadspoilttheconcertatQueen\'sHall,sothelostsituationwasobscuringthedivinerharmoniesnow。Death,LifeandMaterialismwerefinewords,butwouldMr。Wilcoxtakehimonasaclerk?

  Talkasonewould,Mr。Wilcoxwaskingofthisworld,thesuperman,withhisownmorality,whoseheadremainedintheclouds。

  “Imustbestupid,“hesaidapologetically。

  WhiletoHelentheparadoxbecameclearerandclearer。

  “Deathdestroysaman:theideaofDeathsaveshim。“Behindthecoffinsandtheskeletonsthatstaythevulgarmindliessomethingsoimmensethatallthatisgreatinusrespondstoit。Menoftheworldmayrecoilfromthecharnel-housethattheywillonedayenter,butLoveknowsbetter。

  Deathishisfoe,buthispeer,andintheirage-longstrugglethethewsofLovehavebeenstrengthened,andhisvisioncleared,untilthereisnoonewhocanstandagainsthim。

  “Sonevergivein,“continuedthegirl,andrestatedagainandagainthevagueyetconvincingpleathattheInvisiblelodgesagainsttheVisible。HerexcitementgrewasshetriedtocuttheropethatfastenedLeonardtotheearth。Wovenofbitterexperience,itresistedher。PresentlythewaitressenteredandgaveheraletterfromMargaret。Anothernote,addressedtoLeonard,wasinside。

  Theyreadthem,listeningtothemurmuringsoftheriver。Chapter28FormanyhoursMargaretdidnothing;thenshecontrolledherself,andwrotesomeletters。ShewastoobruisedtospeaktoHenry;shecouldpityhim,andevendeterminetomarryhim,butasyetalllaytoodeepinherheartforspeech。Onthesurfacethesenseofhisdegradationwastoostrong。Shecouldnotcommandvoiceorlook,andthegentlewordsthatsheforcedoutthroughherpenseemedtoproceedfromsomeotherperson。

  “Mydearestboy,“shebegan,“thisisnottopartus。Itiseverythingornothing,andImeanittobenothing。

  Ithappenedlongbeforeweevermet,andevenifithadhappenedsince,Ishouldbewritingthesame,Ihope。Idounderstand。“

  Butshecrossedout“Idounderstand“;itstruckafalsenote。Henrycouldnotbeartobeunderstood。Shealsocrossedout,“Itiseverythingornothing。“Henrywouldresentsostrongagraspofthesituation。Shemustnotcomment;commentisunfeminine。

  “Ithinkthat\'llaboutdo,“shethought。

  Thenthesenseofhisdegradationchokedher。

  Washeworthallthisbother?Tohaveyieldedtoawomanofthatsortwaseverything,yes,itwas,andshecouldnotbehiswife。

  Shetriedtotranslatehistemptationintoherownlanguage,andherbrainreeled。Menmustbedifferent,eventowanttoyieldtosuchatemptation。

  Herbeliefincomradeshipwasstifled,andshesawlifeasfromthatglasssaloonontheGreatWestern,whichshelteredmaleandfemalealikefromthefreshair。Arethesexesreallyraces,eachwithitsowncodeofmorality,andtheirmutualloveameredeviceofNaturetokeepthingsgoing?Striphumanintercourseoftheproprieties,andisitreducedtothis?Herjudgmenttoldherno。SheknewthatoutofNature\'sdevicewehavebuiltamagicthatwillwinusimmortality。Farmoremysteriousthanthecallofsextosexisthetendernessthatwethrowintothatcall;farwideristhegulfbetweenusandthefarmyardthanbetweenthefarm-yardandthegarbagethatnourishesit。Weareevolving,inwaysthatSciencecannotmeasure,toendsthatTheologydaresnotcontemplate。

  “Mendidproduceonejewel,“thegodswillsay,and,saying,willgiveusimmortality。Margaretknewallthis,butforthemomentshecouldnotfeelit,andtransformedthemarriageofEvieandMr。Cahillintoacarnivaloffools,andherownmarriage——toomiserabletothinkofthat,shetoreuptheletter,andthenwroteanother:DearMr。Bast,IhavespokentoMr。Wilcoxaboutyou,asIpromised,andamsorrytosaythathehasnovacancyforyou。Yourstruly,M。J。SchlegelSheenclosedthisinanotetoHelen,overwhichshetooklesstroublethanshemighthavedone;butherheadwasaching,andshecouldnotstoptopickherwords:DearHelen,Givehimthis。TheBastsarenogood。

  Henryfoundthewomandrunkonthelawn。Iamhavingaroomgotreadyforyouhere,andwillyoupleasecomeroundatonceongettingthis?

  TheBastsarenotatallthetypeweshouldtroubleabout。Imaygoroundtothemmyselfinthemorning,anddoanythingthatisfair。MInwritingthis,Margaretfeltthatshewasbeingpractical。

  SomethingmightbearrangedfortheBastslateron,buttheymustbesilencedforthemoment。ShehopedtoavoidaconversationbetweenthewomanandHelen。Sherangthebellforaservant,butnooneansweredit;

  Mr。WilcoxandtheWarringtonsweregonetobed,andthekitchenwasabandonedtoSaturnalia。ConsequentlyshewentovertotheGeorgeherself。

  Shedidnotenterthehotel,fordiscussionwouldhavebeenperilous,and,sayingthattheletterwasimportant,shegaveittothewaitress。

  AssherecrossedthesquareshesawHelenandMr。Bastlookingoutofthewindowofthecoffee-room,andfearedshewasalreadytoolate。Hertaskwasnotyetover;sheoughttotellHenrywhatshehaddone。

  Thiscameeasily,forshesawhiminthehall。

  Thenightwindhadbeenrattlingthepicturesagainstthewall,andthenoisehaddisturbedhim。

  “Who\'sthere?“hecalled,quitethehouseholder。

  Margaretwalkedinandpasthim。

  “IhaveaskedHelentosleep,“shesaid。“Sheisbesthere;sodon\'tlockthefront-door。“

  “Ithoughtsomeonehadgotin,“saidHenry。

  “AtthesametimeItoldthemanthatwecoulddonothingforhim。Idon\'tknowaboutlater,butnowtheBastsmustclearlygo。“

  “Didyousaythatyoursisterissleepinghere,afterall?“

  “Probably。“

  “Isshetobeshownuptoyourroom?“

  “Ihavenaturallynothingtosaytoher;Iamgoingtobed。WillyoutelltheservantsaboutHelen?Couldsomeonegotocarryherbag?“

  Hetappedalittlegong,whichhadbeenboughttosummontheservants。

  “Youmustmakemorenoisethanthatifyouwantthemtohear。“

  Henryopenedadoor,anddownthecorridorcameshoutsoflaughter。“Fartoomuchscreamingthere,“hesaid,andstrodetowardsit。Margaretwentupstairs,uncertainwhethertobegladthattheyhadmet,orsorry。Theyhadbehavedasifnothinghadhappened,andherdeepestinstinctstoldherthatthiswaswrong。

  Forhisownsake,someexplanationwasdue。

  Andyet——whatcouldanexplanationtellher?

  Adate,aplace,afewdetails,whichshecouldimaginealltooclearly。

  Nowthatthefirstshockwasover,shesawthattherewaseveryreasontopremiseaMrs。Bast。Henry\'sinnerlifehadlonglaidopentoher——hisintellectualconfusion,hisobtusenesstopersonalinfluence,hisstrongbutfurtivepassions。Shouldsherefusehimbecausehisouterlifecorresponded?Perhaps。Perhaps,ifthedishonourhadbeendonetoher,butitwasdonelongbeforeherday。Shestruggledagainstthefeeling。ShetoldherselfthatMrs。Wilcox\'swrongwasherown。Butshewasnotabargaintheorist。Assheundressed,heranger,herregardforthedead,herdesireforascene,allgrewweak。

  Henrymusthaveitasheliked,forshelovedhim,andsomedayshewoulduseherlovetomakehimabetterman。

  Pitywasatthebottomofheractionsallthroughthiscrisis。Pity,ifonemaygeneralize,isatthebottomofwoman。

  Whenmenlikeus,itisforourbetterqualities,andhowevertendertheirliking,wedarenotbeunworthyofit,ortheywillquietlyletusgo。

  Butunworthinessstimulateswoman。Itbringsoutherdeepernature,forgoodorforevil。

  Herewasthecoreofthequestion。Henrymustbeforgiven,andmadebetterbylove;nothingelsemattered。Mrs。

  Wilcox,thatunquietyetkindlyghost,mustbelefttoherownwrong。

  Tohereverythingwasinproportionnow,andshe,too,wouldpitythemanwhowasblunderingupanddowntheirlives。HadMrs。Wilcoxknownofhistrespass?Aninterestingquestion,butMargaretfellasleep,tetheredbyaffection,andlulledbythemurmursoftheriverthatdescendedallthenightfromWales。Shefeltherselfatonewithherfuturehome,colouringitandcolouredbyit,andawoketosee,forthesecondtime,OnitonCastleconqueringthemorningmists。Chapter29“Henrydear——“washergreeting。

  Hehadfinishedhisbreakfast,andwasbeginningtheTimes。Hissister-in-lawwaspacking。Shekneltbyhimandtookthepaperfromhim,feelingthatitwasunusuallyheavyandthick。Then,puttingherfacewhereithadbeen,shelookedupinhiseyes。

  “Henrydear,lookatme。No,Iwon\'thaveyoushirking。Lookatme。There。That\'sall。“

  “You\'rereferringtolastevening,“hesaidhuskily。

  “Ihavereleasedyoufromyourengagement。Icouldfindexcuses,butIwon\'t。No,Iwon\'t。Athousandtimesno。I\'mabadlot,andmustbeleftatthat。“

  Expelledfromhisoldfortress,Mr。Wilcoxwasbuildinganewone。Hecouldnolongerappearrespectabletoher,sohedefendedhimselfinsteadinaluridpast。Itwasnottruerepentance。

  “Leaveitwhereyouwill,boy。It\'snotgoingtotroubleus:IknowwhatI\'mtalkingabout,anditwillmakenodifference。“

  “Nodifference?“heinquired。“Nodifference,whenyoufindthatIamnotthefellowyouthought?“HewasannoyedwithMissSchlegelhere。Hewouldhavepreferredhertobeprostratedbytheblow,oreventorage。Againstthetideofhissinflowedthefeelingthatshewasnotaltogetherwomanly。Hereyesgazedtoostraight;theyhadreadbooksthataresuitableformenonly。Andthoughhehaddreadedascene,andthoughshehaddeterminedagainstone,therewasascene,allthesame。Itwassomehowimperative。

  “Iamunworthyofyou,“hebegan。“HadIbeenworthy,Ishouldnothavereleasedyoufromyourengagement。IknowwhatIamtalkingabout。Ican\'tbeartotalkofsuchthings。

  Wehadbetterleaveit。“

  Shekissedhishand。Hejerkeditfromher,and,risingtohisfeet,wenton:“You,withyourshelteredlife,andrefinedpursuits,andfriends,andbooks,youandyoursister,andwomenlikeyou——I

  say,howcanyouguessthetemptationsthatlieroundaman?“

  “Itisdifficultforus,“saidMargaret;“butifweareworthmarrying,wedoguess。“

  “Cutofffromdecentsocietyandfamilyties,whatdoyousupposehappenstothousandsofyoungfellowsoverseas?Isolated。

  Noonenear。Iknowbybitterexperience,andyetyousayitmakes\'nodifference。\'“

  “Nottome。“

  Helaughedbitterly。Margaretwenttotheside-boardandhelpedherselftooneofthebreakfastdishes。Beingthelastdown,sheturnedoutthespirit-lampthatkeptthemwarm。

  Shewastender,butgrave。SheknewthatHenrywasnotsomuchconfessinghissoulaspointingoutthegulfbetweenthemalesoulandthefemale,andshedidnotdesiretohearhimonthispoint。

  “DidHelencome?“sheasked。

  Heshookhishead。

  “Butthatwon\'tdoatall,atall!Wedon\'twanthergossipingwithMrs。Bast。“

  “GoodGod!no!“heexclaimed,suddenlynatural。

  Thenhecaughthimselfup。“Letthemgossip。Mygame\'sup,thoughIthankyouforyourunselfishness——littleasmythanksareworth。“

  “Didn\'tshesendmeamessageoranything?“

  “Iheardofnone。“

  “Wouldyouringthebell,please?“

  “Whattodo?“

  “Why,toinquire。“

  Heswaggereduptoittragically,andsoundedapeal。Margaretpouredherselfoutsomecoffee。Thebutlercame,andsaidthatMissSchlegelhadsleptattheGeorge,sofarashehadheard。

  ShouldhegoroundtotheGeorge?

  “I\'llgo,thankyou,“saidMargaret,anddismissedhim。

  “Itisnogood,“saidHenry。“Thosethingsleakout;youcannotstopastoryonceithasstarted。Ihaveknowncasesofothermen——Idespisedthemonce,IthoughtthatI\'mdifferent,Ishallneverbetempted。Oh,Margaret——“Hecameandsatdownnearher,improvisingemotion。Shecouldnotbeartolistentohim。

  “Wefellowsallcometogriefonceinourtime。Willyoubelievethat?Therearemomentswhenthestrongestman——\'Lethimwhostandeth,takeheedlesthefall。\'That\'strue,isn\'tit?Ifyouknewall,youwouldexcuseme。Iwasfarfromgoodinfluences——farevenfromEngland。Iwasvery,verylonely,andlongedforawoman\'svoice。

  That\'senough。Ihavetoldyoutoomuchalreadyforyoutoforgivemenow。“

  “Yes,that\'senough,dear。“

  “Ihave“——heloweredhisvoice——“Ihavebeenthroughhell。“

  Gravelysheconsideredthisclaim。Hadhe?

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