“SaxonorKelt?“shecontinued,laughinginthedarkness。“Butitdoesn\'tmatter。Whicheveryouare,youwillhavetolistentome。Ilovethisplace。IloveShropshire。
IhateLondon。Iamgladthatthiswillbemyhome。Ah,dear“——shewasnowmovingbacktowardsthehouse——“whatacomforttohavearrived!“
“Thatwomanmeansmischief,“thoughtCharles,andcompressedhislips。Inafewminuteshefollowedherindoors,asthegroundwasgettingdamp。Mistswererisingfromtheriver,andpresentlyitbecameinvisible,thoughitwhisperedmoreloudly。TherehadbeenaheavydownpourintheWelshhills。Chapter26Nextmorningafinemistcoveredthepeninsula。Theweatherpromisedwell,andtheoutlineofthecastlemoundgrewclearereachmomentthatMargaretwatchedit。Presentlyshesawthekeep,andthesunpaintedtherubblegold,andchargedthewhiteskywithblue。Theshadowofthehousegathereditselftogetherandfelloverthegarden。A
catlookedupatherwindowandmewed。Lastlytheriverappeared,stillholdingthemistsbetweenitsbanksanditsoverhangingalders,andonlyvisibleasfarasahill,whichcutoffitsupperreaches。
MargaretwasfascinatedbyOniton。Shehadsaidthatshelovedit,butitwasratheritsromantictensionthatheldher。TheroundedDruidsofwhomshehadcaughtglimpsesinherdrive,therivershurryingdownfromthemtoEngland,thecarelesslymodelledmassesofthelowerhills,thrilledherwithpoetry。Thehousewasinsignificant,buttheprospectfromitwouldbeaneternaljoy,andshethoughtofallthefriendsshewouldhavetostopinit,andoftheconversionofHenryhimselftoarurallife。Society,too,promisedfavourably。
Therectoroftheparishhaddinedwiththemlastnight,andshefoundthathewasafriendofherfather\'s,andsoknewwhattofindinher。
Shelikedhim。Hewouldintroducehertothetown。While,onherotherside,SirJamesBiddersat,repeatingthatsheonlyhadtogivetheword,andhewouldwhipupthecountyfamiliesfortwentymilesround。
WhetherSirJames,whowasGardenSeeds,hadpromisedwhathecouldperform,shedoubted,butsolongasHenrymistookthemforthecountyfamilieswhentheydidcall,shewascontent。
CharlesandAlbertFussellnowcrossedthelawn。
Theyweregoingforamorningdip,andaservantfollowedthemwiththeirbathing-dresses。Shehadmeanttotakeastrollherselfbeforebreakfast,butsawthatthedaywasstillsacredtomen,andamusedherselfbywatchingtheircontretemps。Inthefirstplacethekeyofthebathing-shedcouldnotbefound。Charlesstoodbytheriversidewithfoldedhands,tragical,whiletheservantshouted,andwasmisunderstoodbyanotherservantinthegarden。Thencameadifficultyaboutaspring-board,andsoonthreepeoplewererunningbackwardsandforwardsoverthemeadow,withordersandcounterordersandrecriminationsandapologies。IfMargaretwantedtojumpfromamotor-car,shejumped;ifTibbythoughtpaddlingwouldbenefithisankles,hepaddled;ifaclerkdesiredadventure,hetookawalkinthedark。Buttheseathletesseemedparalysed。
Theycouldnotbathewithouttheirappliances,thoughthemorningsunwascallingandthelastmistswererisingfromthedimplingstream。
Hadtheyfoundthelifeofthebodyafterall?Couldnotthemenwhomtheydespisedasmilksopsbeatthem,evenontheirownground?
Shethoughtofthebathingarrangementsastheyshouldbeinherday——noworryingofservants,noappliances,beyondgoodsense。Herreflectionsweredisturbedbythequietchild,whohadcomeouttospeaktothecat,butwasnowwatchingherwatchthemen。
Shecalled,“Good-morning,dear,“alittlesharply。Hervoicespreadconsternation。Charleslookedround,andthoughcompletelyattiredinindigoblue,vanishedintotheshed,andwasseennomore。
“MissWilcoxisup——“thechildwhispered,andthenbecameunintelligible。
“What\'sthat?“
Itsoundedlike,“——cut-yoke——sackback——“
“Ican\'thear。“
“——Onthebed——tissue-paper——“
Gatheringthatthewedding-dresswasonview,andthatavisitwouldbeseemly,shewenttoEvie\'sroom。Allwashilarityhere。Evie,inapetticoat,wasdancingwithoneoftheAnglo-Indianladies,whiletheotherwasadoringyardsofwhitesatin。Theyscreamed,theylaughed,theysang,andthedogbarked。
Margaretscreamedalittletoo,butwithoutconviction。
Shecouldnotfeelthataweddingwassofunny。Perhapssomethingwasmissinginherequipment。
Eviegasped:“Dollyisarotternottobehere!
Oh,wewouldragjustthen!“ThenMargaretwentdowntobreakfast。
Henrywasalreadyinstalled;heateslowlyandspokelittle,andwas,inMargaret\'seyes,theonlymemberoftheirpartywhododgedemotionsuccessfully。Shecouldnotsupposehimindifferenteithertothelossofhisdaughterortothepresenceofhisfuturewife。
Yethedweltintact,onlyissuingordersoccasionally——ordersthatpromotedthecomfortofhisguests。Heinquiredafterherhand;hesethertopouroutthecoffeeandMrs。Warringtontopouroutthetea。WhenEviecamedowntherewasamoment\'sawkwardness,andbothladiesrosetovacatetheirplaces。“Burton,“calledHenry,“serveteaandcoffeefromtheside-board!“Itwasn\'tgenuinetact,butitwastact,ofasort——thesortthatisasusefulasthegenuine,andsavesevenmoresituationsatBoardmeetings。Henrytreatedamarriagelikeafuneral,itembyitem,neverraisinghiseyestothewhole,and“Death,whereisthysting?Love,whereisthyvictory?“onewouldexclaimattheclose。
Afterbreakfastsheclaimedafewwordswithhim。
Itwasalwaysbesttoapproachhimformally。Sheaskedfortheinterview,becausehewasgoingontoshootgrousetomorrow,andshewasreturningtoHelenintown。
“Certainly,dear,“saidhe。“Ofcourse,I
havethetime。Whatdoyouwant?“
“Nothing。“
“Iwasafraidsomethinghadgonewrong。“
“No;Ihavenothingtosay,butyoumaytalk。“
Glancingathiswatch,hetalkedofthenastycurveatthelych-gate。Sheheardhimwithinterest。Hersurfacecouldalwaysrespondtohiswithoutcontempt,thoughallherdeeperbeingmightbeyearningtohelphim。Shehadabandonedanyplanofaction。
Loveisthebest,andthemoresheletherselflovehim,themorechancewastherethathewouldsethissoulinorder。Suchamomentasthis,whentheysatunderfairweatherbythewalksoftheirfuturehome,wassosweettoherthatitssweetnesswouldsurelypiercetohim。Eachliftofhiseyes,eachpartingofthethatchedlipfromtheclean-shaven,mustpreludethetendernessthatkillstheMonkandtheBeastatasingleblow。Disappointedahundredtimes,shestillhoped。Shelovedhimwithtooclearavisiontofearhiscloudiness。Whetherhedronedtrivialities,astoday,orsprangkissesonherinthetwilight,shecouldpardonhim,shecouldrespond。
“Ifthereisthisnastycurve,“shesuggested,“couldn\'twewalktothechurch?Not,ofcourse,youandEvie;buttherestofusmightverywellgoonfirst,andthatwouldmeanfewercarriages。“
“Onecan\'thaveladieswalkingthroughtheMarketSquare。TheFussellswouldn\'tlikeit;theywereawfullyparticularatCharles\'swedding。My——she——oneofourpartywasanxioustowalk,andcertainlythechurchwasjustroundthecorner,andIshouldn\'thaveminded;buttheColonelmadeagreatpointofit。“
“Youmenshouldn\'tbesochivalrous,“saidMargaretthoughtfully。
“Whynot?“
Sheknewwhynot,butsaidthatshedidnotknow。
Hethenannouncedthat,unlessshehadanythingspecialtosay,hemustvisitthewine-cellar,andtheywentofftogetherinsearchofBurton。Thoughclumsyandalittleinconvenient,Onitonwasagenuinecountryhouse。Theyclattereddownflaggedpassages,lookingintoroomafterroom,andscaringunknownmaidsfromtheperformanceofobscureduties。Thewedding-breakfastmustbeinreadinesswhentheycamebackfromchurch,andteawouldbeservedinthegarden。
ThesightofsomanyagitatedandseriouspeoplemadeMargaretsmile,butshereflectedthattheywerepaidtobeserious,andenjoyedbeingagitated。
HerewerethelowerwheelsofthemachinethatwastossingEvieupintonuptialglory。Alittleboyblockedtheirwaywithpig-tails。
Hismindcouldnotgrasptheirgreatness,andhesaid:“Byyourleave;
letmepass,please。“HenryaskedhimwhereBurtonwas。Buttheservantsweresonewthattheydidnotknowoneanother\'snames。Inthestill-roomsattheband,whohadstipulatedforchampagneaspartoftheirfee,andwhowerealreadydrinkingbeer。ScentsofArabycamefromthekitchen,mingledwithcries。Margaretknewwhathadhappenedthere,forithappenedatWickhamPlace。Oneoftheweddingdisheshadboiledover,andthecookwasthrowingcedar-shavingstohidethesmell。Atlasttheycameuponthebutler。Henrygavehimthekeys,andhandedMargaretdownthecellar-stairs。Twodoorswereunlocked。She,whokeptallherwineatthebottomofthelinen-cupboard,wasastonishedatthesight。“Weshallnevergetthroughit!“shecried,andthetwomenweresuddenlydrawnintobrotherhood,andexchangedsmiles。Shefeltasifshehadagainjumpedoutofthecarwhileitwasmoving。
CertainlyOnitonwouldtakesomedigesting。
Itwouldbenosmallbusinesstoremainherself,andyettoassimilatesuchanestablishment。Shemustremainherself,forhissakeaswellasherown,sinceashadowywifedegradesthehusbandwhomsheaccompanies;
andshemustassimilateforreasonsofcommonhonesty,sinceshehadnorighttomarryamanandmakehimuncomfortable。HeronlyallywasthepowerofHome。ThelossofWickhamPlacehadtaughthermorethanitspossession。HowardsEndhadrepeatedthelesson。Shewasdeterminedtocreatenewsanctitiesamongthesehills。
Aftervisitingthewine-cellar,shedressed,andthencamethewedding,whichseemedasmallaffairwhencomparedwiththepreparationsforit。Everythingwentlikeoneo\'clock。Mr。
Cahillmaterializedoutofspace,andwaswaitingforhisbrideatthechurchdoor。Noonedroppedtheringormispronouncedtheresponses,ortrodonEvie\'strain,orcried。Inafewminutes——theclergymenperformedtheirduty,theregisterwassigned,andtheywerebackintheircarriages,negotiatingthedangerouscurvebythelych-gate。Margaretwasconvincedthattheyhadnotbeenmarriedatall,andthattheNormanchurchhadbeenintentallthetimeonotherbusiness。
Thereweremoredocumentstosignatthehouse,andthebreakfasttoeat,andthenafewmorepeopledroppedinforthegardenparty。Therehadbeenagreatmanyrefusals,andafterallitwasnotaverybigaffair——notasbigasMargaret\'swouldbe。
Shenotedthedishesandthestripsofredcarpet,thatoutwardlyshemightgiveHenrywhatwasproper。ButinwardlyshehopedforsomethingbetterthanthisblendofSundaychurchandfox-hunting。Ifonlysomeonehadbeenupset!Butthisweddinghadgoneoffsoparticularlywell——“quitelikeaDurbar“intheopinionofLadyEdser,andshethoroughlyagreedwithher。
Sothewasteddaylumberedforward,thebrideandbridegroomdroveoff,yellingwithlaughter,andforthesecondtimethesunretreatedtowardsthehillsofWales。Henry,whowasmoretiredthanheowned,cameuptoherinthecastlemeadow,and,intonesofunusualsoftness,saidthathewaspleased。Everythinghadgoneoffsowell。
Shefeltthathewaspraisingher,too,andblushed;certainlyshehaddoneallshecouldwithhisintractablefriends,andhadmadeaspecialpointofkowtowingtothemen。Theywerebreakingcampthisevening:
onlytheWarringtonsandquietchildwouldstaythenight,andtheotherswerealreadymovingtowardsthehousetofinishtheirpacking。“I
thinkitdidgooffwell,“sheagreed。“SinceIhadtojumpoutofthemotor,I\'mthankfulIlightedonmylefthand。Iamsoverygladaboutit,Henrydear;Ionlyhopethattheguestsatoursmaybehalfascomfortable。Youmustallrememberthatwehavenopracticalpersonamongus,exceptmyaunt,andsheisnotusedtoentertainmentsonalargescale。“
“Iknow,“hesaidgravely。“Underthecircumstances,itwouldbebettertoputeverythingintothehandsofHarrod\'sorWhiteley\'s,oreventogotosomehotel。“
“Youdesireahotel?“
“Yes,because——well,Imustn\'tinterferewithyou。
Nodoubtyouwanttobemarriedfromyouroldhome。“
“Myoldhome\'sfallingintopieces,Henry。
Ionlywantmynew。Isn\'titaperfectevening——“
“TheAlexandrinaisn\'tbad——“
“TheAlexandrina,“sheechoed,moreoccupiedwiththethreadsofsmokethatwereissuingfromtheirchimneys,andrulingthesunlitslopeswithparallelsofgrey。
“It\'soffCurzonStreet。“
“Isit?Let\'sbemarriedfromoffCurzonStreet。“
Thensheturnedwestward,togazeattheswirlinggold。Justwheretheriverroundedthehillthesuncaughtit。
Fairylandmustlieabovethebend,anditspreciousliquidwaspouringtowardsthempastCharles\'sbathing-shed。Shegazedsolongthathereyesweredazzled,andwhentheymovedbacktothehouse,shecouldnotrecognizethefacesofpeoplewhowerecomingoutofit。Aparlour-maidwasprecedingthem。
“Whoarethosepeople?“sheasked。
“They\'recallers!“exclaimedHenry。“It\'stoolateforcallers。“
“Perhapsthey\'retownpeoplewhowanttoseetheweddingpresents。“
“I\'mnotathomeyettotownees。“
“Well,hideamongtheruins,andifIcanstopthem,Iwill。“
Hethankedher。
Margaretwentforward,smilingsocially。Shesupposedthatthesewereunpunctualguests,whowouldhavetobecontentwithvicariouscivility,sinceEvieandCharlesweregone,Henrytired,andtheothersintheirrooms。Sheassumedtheairsofahostess;
notforlong。ForoneofthegroupwasHelen——Heleninheroldestclothes,anddominatedbythattense,woundingexcitementthathadmadeheraterrorintheirnurserydays。
“Whatisit?“shecalled。“Oh,what\'swrong?
IsTibbyill?“
Helenspoketohertwocompanions,whofellback。
Thensheboreforwardfuriously。
“They\'restarving!“sheshouted。“Ifoundthemstarving!“
“Who?Whyhaveyoucome?“
“TheBasts。“
“Oh,Helen!“moanedMargaret。“Whateverhaveyoudonenow?“
“Hehaslosthisplace。Hehasbeenturnedoutofhisbank。Yes,he\'sdonefor。Weupperclasseshaveruinedhim,andIsupposeyou\'lltellmeit\'sthebattleoflife。
Starving。Hiswifeisill。Starving。Shefaintedinthetrain。“
“Helen,areyoumad?“
“Perhaps。Yes。Ifyoulike,I\'mmad。
ButI\'vebroughtthem。I\'llstandinjusticenolonger。I\'llshowupthewretchednessthatliesunderthisluxury,thistalkofimpersonalforces,thiscantaboutGoddoingwhatwe\'retooslacktodoourselves。“
“HaveyouactuallybroughttwostarvingpeoplefromLondontoShropshire,Helen?“
Helenwaschecked。Shehadnotthoughtofthis,andherhysteriaabated。“Therewasarestaurantcaronthetrain,“shesaid。
“Don\'tbeabsurd。Theyaren\'tstarving,andyouknowit。Now,beginfromthebeginning。Iwon\'thavesuchtheatricalnonsense。Howdareyou!Yes,howdareyou!“sherepeated,asangerfilledher,“burstingintoEvie\'sweddinginthisheartlessway。Mygoodness!butyou\'veapervertednotionofphilanthropy。
Look“——sheindicatedthehouse——“servants,peopleoutofthewindows。
Theythinkit\'ssomevulgarscandal,andImustexplain,\'Ohno,it\'sonlymysisterscreaming,andonlytwohangers-onofours,whomshehasbroughtherefornoconceivablereason。\'“
“Kindlytakebackthatword\'hangers-on,\'“saidHelen,ominouslycalm。
“Verywell,“concededMargaret,whoforallherwrathwasdeterminedtoavoidarealquarrel。“I,too,amsorryaboutthem,butitbeatsmewhyyou\'vebroughtthemhere,orwhyyou\'rehereyourself。
“It\'sourlastchanceofseeingMr。Wilcox。“
Margaretmovedtowardsthehouseatthis。
ShewasdeterminednottoworryHenry。
“He\'sgoingtoScotland。Iknowheis。
Iinsistonseeinghim。“
“Yes,tomorrow。“
“Iknewitwasourlastchance。“
“Howdoyoudo,Mr。Bast?“saidMargaret,tryingtocontrolhervoice。“Thisisanoddbusiness。Whatviewdoyoutakeofit?“
“ThereisMrs。Bast,too,“promptedHelen。
Jackyalsoshookhands。She,likeherhusband,wasshy,and,furthermore,ill,andfurthermore,sobestiallystupidthatshecouldnotgraspwhatwashappening。Sheonlyknewthattheladyhadsweptdownlikeawhirlwindlastnight,hadpaidtherent,redeemedthefurniture,providedthemwithadinnerandbreakfast,andorderedthemtomeetheratPaddingtonnextmorning。Leonardhadfeeblyprotested,andwhenthemorningcame,hadsuggestedthattheyshouldn\'tgo。
Butshe,halfmesmerized,hadobeyed。Theladyhadtoldthemto,andtheymust,andtheirbed-sitting-roomhadaccordinglychangedintoPaddington,andPaddingtonintoarailwaycarriage,thatshook,andgrewhot,andgrewcold,andvanishedentirely,andreappearedamidtorrentsofexpensivescent。“Youhavefainted,“saidtheladyinanawe-struckvoice。“Perhapstheairwilldoyougood。“Andperhapsithad,forhereshewas,feelingratherbetteramongalotofflowers。
“I\'msureIdon\'twanttointrude,“beganLeonard,inanswertoMargaret\'squestion。“ButyouhavebeensokindtomeinthepastinwarningmeaboutthePorphyrionthatIwondered——why,I
wonderedwhether——“
“WhetherwecouldgethimbackintothePorphyrionagain,“suppliedHelen。“Meg,thishasbeenacheerfulbusiness。
Abrightevening\'sworkthatwasonChelseaEmbankment。“
MargaretshookherheadandreturnedtoMr。Bast。
“Idon\'tunderstand。YouleftthePorphyrionbecausewesuggesteditwasabadconcern,didn\'tyou?“
“That\'sright。“
“Andwentintoabankinstead?“
“Itoldyouallthat,“saidHelen;“andtheyreducedtheirstaffafterhehadbeeninamonth,andnowhe\'spenniless,andI
considerthatweandourinformantaredirectlytoblame。“
“Ihateallthis,“Leonardmuttered。
“Ihopeyoudo,Mr。Bast。Butit\'snogoodmincingmatters。Youhavedoneyourselfnogoodbycominghere。
IfyouintendtoconfrontMr。Wilcox,andtocallhimtoaccountforachanceremark,youwillmakeaverygreatmistake。“
“Ibroughtthem。Ididitall,“criedHelen。
“Icanonlyadviseyoutogoatonce。Mysisterhasputyouinafalseposition,anditiskindesttotellyouso。
It\'stoolatetogettotown,butyou\'llfindacomfortablehotelinOniton,whereMrs。Bastcanrest,andIhopeyou\'llbemygueststhere。“
“Thatisn\'twhatIwant,MissSchlegel,“saidLeonard。
“You\'reverykind,andnodoubtit\'safalseposition,butyoumakememiserable。Iseemnogoodatall。“
“It\'sworkhewants,“interpretedHelen。“Can\'tyousee?“
Thenhesaid:“Jacky,let\'sgo。We\'remorebotherthanwe\'reworth。We\'recostingtheseladiespoundsandpoundsalreadytogetworkforus,andtheyneverwill。There\'snothingwe\'regoodenoughtodo。“
“Wewouldliketofindyouwork,“saidMargaretratherconventionally。“Wewantto——I,likemysister。You\'reonlydowninyourluck。Gotothehotel,haveagoodnight\'srest,andsomedayyoushallpaymebackthebill,ifyoupreferit。“
ButLeonardwasneartheabyss,andatsuchmomentsmenseeclearly。“Youdon\'tknowwhatyou\'retalkingabout,“hesaid。
“Ishallnevergetworknow。Ifrichpeoplefailatoneprofession,theycantryanother。NotI。Ihadmygroove,andI\'vegotoutofit。Icoulddooneparticularbranchofinsuranceinoneparticularofficewellenoughtocommandasalary,butthat\'sall。Poetry\'snothing,MissSchlegel。One\'sthoughtsaboutthisandthatarenothing。
Yourmoney,too,isnothing,ifyou\'llunderstandme。Imeanifamanovertwentyonceloseshisownparticularjob,it\'salloverwithhim。
Ihaveseenithappentoothers。Theirfriendsgavethemmoneyforalittle,butintheendtheyfallovertheedge。It\'snogood。
It\'sthewholeworldpulling。Therealwayswillberichandpoor。“
Heceased。
“Won\'tyouhavesomethingtoeat?“saidMargaret。
“Idon\'tknowwhattodo。Itisn\'tmyhouse,andthoughMr。Wilcoxwouldhavebeengladtoseeyouatanyothertime——asIsay,Idon\'tknowwhattodo,butIundertaketodowhatIcanforyou。Helen,offerthemsomething。Dotryasandwich,Mrs。Bast。“
Theymovedtoalongtablebehindwhichaservantwasstillstanding。Icedcakes,sandwichesinnumerable,coffee,claret-cup,champagne,remainedalmostintact:theiroverfedguestscoulddonomore。
Leonardrefused。Jackythoughtshecouldmanagealittle。MargaretleftthemwhisperingtogetherandhadafewmorewordswithHelen。
Shesaid:“Helen,IlikeMr。Bast。Iagreethathe\'sworthhelping。Iagreethatwearedirectlyresponsible。“
“No,indirectly。ViaMr。Wilcox。“
“Letmetellyouonceforallthatifyoutakeupthatattitude,I\'lldonothing。Nodoubtyou\'rerightlogically,andareentitledtosayagreatmanyscathingthingsaboutHenry。
Only,Iwon\'thaveit。Sochoose。
Helenlookedatthesunset。
“IfyoupromisetotakethemquietlytotheGeorge,IwillspeaktoHenryaboutthem——inmyownway,mind;thereistobenoneofthisabsurdscreamingaboutjustice。Ihavenouseforjustice。
Ifitwasonlyaquestionofmoney,wecoulddoitourselves。Buthewantswork,andthatwecan\'tgivehim,butpossiblyHenrycan。“
“It\'shisdutyto,“grumbledHelen。
“NoramIconcernedwithduty。I\'mconcernedwiththecharactersofvariouspeoplewhomweknow,andhow,thingsbeingastheyare,thingsmaybemadealittlebetter。Mr。Wilcoxhatesbeingaskedfavours:allbusinessmendo。ButIamgoingtoaskhim,attheriskofarebuff,becauseIwanttomakethingsalittlebetter。“
“Verywell。Ipromise。Youtakeitverycalmly。“
“TakethemofftotheGeorge,then,andI\'lltry。
Poorcreatures!buttheylooktried。“Astheyparted,sheadded:
“Ihaven\'tnearlydonewithyou,though,Helen。Youhavebeenmostself-indulgent。Ican\'tgetoverit。Youhavelessrestraintratherthanmoreasyougrowolder。Thinkitoverandalteryourself,orweshan\'thavehappylives。“
SherejoinedHenry。Fortunatelyhehadbeensittingdown:thesephysicalmatterswereimportant。“Wasittownees?“
heasked,greetingherwithapleasantsmile。
“You\'llneverbelieveme,“saidMargaret,sittingdownbesidehim。“It\'sallrightnow,butitwasmysister。“
“Helenhere?“hecried,preparingtorise。
“Butsherefusedtheinvitation。Ithoughtshedespisedweddings。“
“Don\'tgetup。Shehasnotcometothewedding。
I\'vebundledherofftotheGeorge。“
Inherentlyhospitable,heprotested。
“No;shehastwoofherproté;gé;swithher,andmustkeepwiththem。“
“Let\'emallcome。“
“MydearHenry,didyouseethem?“
“Ididcatchsightofabrownbunchofawoman,certainly。
“ThebrownbunchwasHelen,butdidyoucatchsightofasea-greenandsalmonbunch?“
“What!aretheyoutbeanfeasting?“
“No;business。Theywantedtoseeme,andlateronIwanttotalktoyouaboutthem。“
Shewasashamedofherowndiplomacy。IndealingwithaWilcox,howtemptingitwastolapsefromcomradeship,andtogivehimthekindofwomanthathedesired!Henrytookthehintatonce,andsaid:“Whylateron?Tellmenow。Notimelikethepresent。“
“ShallI?“
“Ifitisn\'talongstory。“
“Oh,notfiveminutes;butthere\'sastingattheendofit,forIwantyoutofindthemansomeworkinyouroffice。“
“Whatarehisqualifications?“
“Idon\'tknow。He\'saclerk。“
“Howold?“
“Twenty-five,perhaps。“
“What\'shisname?“
“Bast,“saidMargaret,andwasabouttoremindhimthattheyhadmetatWickhamPlace,butstoppedherself。Ithadnotbeenasuccessfulmeeting。
“Wherewashebefore?“
“Dempster\'sBank。“
“Whydidheleave?“heasked,stillrememberingnothing。
“Theyreducedtheirstaff。“
“Allright;I\'llseehim。“
Itwastherewardofhertactanddevotionthroughtheday。Nowsheunderstoodwhysomewomenpreferinfluencetorights。
Mrs。Plynlimmon,whencondemningsuffragettes,hadsaid:“Thewomanwhocan\'tinfluenceherhusbandtovotethewayshewantsoughttobeashamedofherself。“Margarethadwinced,butshewasinfluencingHenrynow,andthoughpleasedatherlittlevictory,sheknewthatshehadwonitbythemethodsoftheharem。
“Ishouldbegladifyoutookhim,“shesaid,“butIdon\'tknowwhetherhe\'squalified。“
“I\'lldowhatIcan。But,Margaret,thismustn\'tbetakenasaprecedent。“
“No,ofcourse——ofcourse——“
“Ican\'tfitinyourproté;gé;severyday。Businesswouldsuffer。“
“Icanpromiseyouhe\'sthelast。He——he\'sratheraspecialcase。“
“Proté;gé;salwaysare。“
Sheletitstandatthat。Herosewithalittleextratouchofcomplacency,andheldouthishandtohelpherup。
HowwidethegulfbetweenHenryashewasandHenryasHelenthoughtheoughttobe!Andsheherself——hoveringasusualbetweenthetwo,nowacceptingmenastheyare,nowyearningwithhersisterforTruth。
LoveandTruth——theirwarfareseemseternal。Perhapsthewholevisibleworldrestsonit,andiftheywereone,lifeitself,likethespiritswhenProsperowasreconciledtohisbrother,mightvanishintoair,intothinair。
“Yourproté;gé;hasmadeuslate,“saidhe。“TheFussellswilljustbestarting。“
Onthewholeshesidedwithmenastheyare。
HenrywouldsavetheBastsashehadsavedHowardsEnd,whileHelenandherfriendswerediscussingtheethicsofsalvation。Hiswasaslap-dashmethod,buttheworldhasbeenbuiltslap-dash,andthebeautyofmountainandriverandsunsetmaybebutthevarnishwithwhichtheunskilledartificerhideshisjoins。Oniton,likeherself,wasimperfect。Itsapple-treeswerestunted,itscastleruinous。It,too,hadsufferedintheborderwarfarebetweentheAngloSaxonandtheKelt,betweenthingsastheyareandastheyoughttobe。Oncemorethewestwasretreating,onceagaintheorderlystarsweredottingtheeasternsky。Thereiscertainlynorestforusontheearth。Butthereishappiness,andasMargaretdescendedthemoundonherlover\'sarm,shefeltthatshewashavinghershare。
Toherannoyance,Mrs。Bastwasstillinthegarden;
thehusbandandHelenhadlefthertheretofinishhermealwhiletheywenttoengagerooms。Margaretfoundthiswomanrepellent。
Shehadfelt,whenshakingherhand,anoverpoweringshame。SherememberedthemotiveofhercallatWickhamPlace,andsmeltagainodoursfromtheabyss——odoursthemoredisturbingbecausetheywereinvoluntary。
FortherewasnomaliceinJacky。Thereshesat,apieceofcakeinonehand,anemptychampagneglassintheother,doingnoharmtoanybody。
“She\'sovertired,“Margaretwhispered。
“She\'ssomethingelse,“saidHenry。“Thiswon\'tdo。Ican\'thaveherinmygardeninthisstate。“
“Isshe——“Margarethesitatedtoadd“drunk。“Nowthatshewasgoingtomarryhim,hehadgrownparticular。Hediscountenancedrisqué;conversationsnow。
Henrywentuptothewoman。Sheraisedherface,whichgleamedinthetwilightlikeapuff-ball。
“Madam,youwillbemorecomfortableatthehotel,“
hesaidsharply。
Jackyreplied:“Ifitisn\'tHen!“
“Necroispasquelemariluiressemble,“apologizedMargaret。“Ilesttoutà;faitdiffé;rent。“
“Henry!“sherepeated,quitedistinctly。
Mr。Wilcoxwasmuchannoyed。“Ican\'tcongratulateyouonyourproté;gé;s,“heremarked。
“Hen,don\'tgo。Youdoloveme,dear,don\'tyou?“
“Blessus,whataperson!“sighedMargaret,gatheringupherskirts。
Jackypointedwithhercake。“You\'reaniceboy,youare。“Sheyawned。“Therenow,Iloveyou。“
“Henry,Iamawfullysorry。“
“Andpraywhy?“heasked,andlookedathersosternlythatshefearedhewasill。Heseemedmorescandalizedthanthefactsdemanded。
“Tohavebroughtthisdownonyou。“
“Praydon\'tapologize。“
Thevoicecontinued。
“Whydoesshecallyou\'Hen\'?“saidMargaretinnocently。
“Hassheeverseenyoubefore?“
“SeenHenbefore!“saidJacky。“Whohasn\'tseenHen?He\'sservingyoulikeme,mydear。Theseboys!
Youwait——Stillwelove\'em。“
“Areyounowsatisfied?“Henryasked。
Margaretbegantogrowfrightened。“Idon\'tknowwhatitisallabout,“shesaid。“Let\'scomein。“
Buthethoughtshewasacting。Hethoughthewastrapped。Hesawhiswholelifecrumbling。“Don\'tyouindeed?“hesaidbitingly。“Ido。Allowmetocongratulateyouonthesuccessofyourplan。“
“ThisisHelen\'splan,notmine。“
“InowunderstandyourinterestintheBasts。
Verywellthoughtout。Iamamusedatyourcaution,Margaret。
Youarequiteright——itwasnecessary。Iamaman,andhavelivedaman\'spast。Ihavethehonourtoreleaseyoufromyourengagement。“
Stillshecouldnotunderstand。Sheknewoflife\'sseamysideasatheory;shecouldnotgraspitasafact。
MorewordsfromJackywerenecessary——wordsunequivocal,undenied。
“Sothat——“burstfromher,andshewentindoors。
Shestoppedherselffromsayingmore。
“Sowhat?“askedColonelFussell,whowasgettingreadytostartinthehall。
“Weweresaying——HenryandIwerejusthavingthefiercestargument,mypointbeing——“Seizinghisfurcoatfromafootman,sheofferedtohelphimon。Heprotested,andtherewasaplayfullittlescene。
“No,letmedothat,“saidHenry,following。
“Thankssomuch!Yousee——hehasforgivenme!“
TheColonelsaidgallantly:“Idon\'texpectthere\'smuchtoforgive。
Hegotintothecar。Theladiesfollowedhimafteraninterval。Maids,courier,andheavierluggagehadbeensentonearlierbythebranch——line。Stillchattering,stillthankingtheirhostandpatronizingtheirfuturehostess,theguestswerehomeaway。
ThenMargaretcontinued:“Sothatwomanhasbeenyourmistress?“
“Youputitwithyourusualdelicacy,“hereplied。
“When,please?“
“Why?“
“When,please?“
“Tenyearsago。“
Shelefthimwithoutaword。Foritwasnothertragedy:itwasMrs。Wilcox\'s。Chapter27Helenbegantowonderwhyshehadspentamatterofeightpoundsinmakingsomepeopleillandothersangry。Nowthatthewaveofexcitementwasebbing,andhadlefther,Mr。Bast,andMrs。BaststrandedforthenightinaShropshirehotel,sheaskedherselfwhatforceshadmadethewaveflow。Atallevents,noharmwasdone。Margaretwouldplaythegameproperlynow,andthoughHelendisapprovedofhersister\'smethods,sheknewthattheBastswouldbenefitbytheminthelongrun。
“Mr。Wilcoxissoillogical,“sheexplainedtoLeonard,whohadputhiswifetobed,andwassittingwithherintheemptycoffee-room。
“Ifwetoldhimitwashisdutytotakeyouon,hemightrefusetodoit。
Thefactis,heisn\'tproperlyeducated。Idon\'twanttosetyouagainsthim,butyou\'llfindhimatrial。“
“Icanneverthankyousufficiently,MissSchlegel,“
wasallthatLeonardfeltequalto。
“Ibelieveinpersonalresponsibility。Don\'tyou?Andinpersonaleverything。Ihate——IsupposeIoughtn\'ttosaythat——buttheWilcoxesareonthewrongtacksurely。Orperhapsitisn\'ttheirfault。Perhapsthelittlethingthatsays\'I\'ismissingoutofthemiddleoftheirheads,andthenit\'sawasteoftimetoblamethem。There\'sanightmareofatheorythatsaysaspecialraceisbeingbornwhichwillruletherestofusinthefuturejustbecauseitlacksthelittlethingthatsays\'I。\'Hadyouheardthat?“
“Igetnotimeforreading。“
“Hadyouthoughtit,then?Thattherearetwokindsofpeople——ourkind,wholivestraightfromthemiddleoftheirheads,andtheotherkindwhocan\'t,becausetheirheadshavenomiddle?
Theycan\'tsay\'I。\'Theyaren\'tinfact,andsothey\'resupermen。
PierpontMorganhasneversaid\'I\'inhislife。“
Leonardrousedhimself。Ifhisbenefactresswantedintellectualconversation,shemusthaveit。Shewasmoreimportantthanhisruinedpast。“InevergotontoNietzsche,“hesaid。“ButIalwaysunderstoodthatthosesupermenwereratherwhatyoumaycallegoists。“
“Oh,no,that\'swrong,“repliedHelen。“Nosupermaneversaid\'Iwant,\'because\'Iwant\'mustleadtothequestion,\'WhoamI?\'andsotoPityandtoJustice。Heonlysays\'want。\'\'WantEurope,\'ifhe\'sNapoleon;\'wantwives,\'ifhe\'sBluebeard;\'wantBotticelli,\'
ifhe\'sPierpontMorgan。Neverthe\'I\';andifyoucouldpiercethroughhim,you\'dfindpanicandemptinessinthemiddle。“
Leonardwassilentforamoment。Thenhesaid:
“MayItakeit,MissSchlegel,thatyouandIareboththesortthatsay\'I\'?“
“Ofcourse。“
“Andyoursistertoo?“
“Ofcourse,“repeatedHelen,alittlesharply。
ShewasannoyedwithMargaret,butdidnotwantherdiscussed。“Allpresentablepeoplesay\'I。\'“
“ButMr。Wilcox——heisnotperhaps——“
“Idon\'tknowthatit\'sanygooddiscussingMr。
Wilcoxeither。“
“Quiteso,quiteso,“heagreed。Helenaskedherselfwhyshehadsnubbedhim。Onceortwiceduringthedayshehadencouragedhimtocriticize,andthenhadpulledhimupshort。
Wassheafraidofhimpresuming?Ifso,itwasdisgustingofher。
Buthewasthinkingthesnubquitenatural。
Everythingshedidwasnatural,andincapableofcausingoffence。
WhiletheMissSchlegelsweretogetherhehadfeltthemscarcelyhuman——asortofadmonitorywhirligig。ButaMissSchlegelalonewasdifferent。
ShewasinHelen\'scaseunmarried,inMargaret\'sabouttobemarried,inneithercaseanechoofhersister。Alighthadfallenatlastintothisrichupperworld,andhesawthatitwasfullofmenandwomen,someofwhomweremorefriendlytohimthanothers。Helenhadbecome“his“
MissSchlegel,whoscoldedhimandcorrespondedwithhim,andhadsweptdownyesterdaywithgratefulvehemence。Margaret,thoughnotunkind,wassevereandremote。Hewouldnotpresumetohelpher,forinstance。
Hehadneverlikedher,andbegantothinkthathisoriginalimpressionwastrue,andthathersisterdidnotlikehereither。Helenwascertainlylonely。She,whogaveawaysomuch,wasreceivingtoolittle。
LeonardwaspleasedtothinkthathecouldsparehervexationbyholdinghistongueandconcealingwhatheknewaboutMr。Wilcox。Jackyhadannouncedherdiscoverywhenhefetchedherfromthelawn。Afterthefirstshock,hedidnotmindforhimself。Bynowhehadnoillusionsabouthiswife,andthiswasonlyonenewstainonthefaceofalovethathadneverbeenpure。Tokeepperfectionperfect,thatshouldbehisideal,ifthefuturegavehimtimetohaveideals。Helen,andMargaretforHelen\'ssake,mustnotknow。
Helendisconcertedhimbyfumingtheconversationtohiswife。“Mrs。Bast——doessheeversay\'I\'?“sheasked,halfmischievously,andthen,“Issheverytired?“
“It\'sbettershestopsinherroom,“saidLeonard。
“ShallIsitupwithher?“
“No,thankyou;shedoesnotneedcompany。“
“Mr。Bast,whatkindofwomanisyourwife?“
Leonardblusheduptohiseyes。
“Yououghttoknowmywaysbynow。Doesthatquestionoffendyou?“
“No,ohno,MissSchlegel,no。“
“BecauseIlovehonesty。Don\'tpretendyourmarriagehasbeenahappyone。Youandshecanhavenothingincommon。“
Hedidnotdenyit,butsaidshyly:“Isupposethat\'sprettyobvious;butJackynevermeanttodoanybodyanyharm。Whenthingswentwrong,orIheardthings,Iusedtothinkitwasherfault,but,lookingback,it\'smoremine。Ineedn\'thavemarriedher,butasIhaveImuststicktoherandkeepher。“
“Howlonghaveyoubeenmarried?“
“Nearlythreeyears。“
“Whatdidyourpeoplesay?“
“Theywillnothaveanythingtodowithus。
TheyhadasortoffamilycouncilwhentheyheardIwasmarried,andcutusoffaltogether。“
Helenbegantopaceupanddowntheroom。
“Mygoodboy,whatamess!“shesaidgently。“Whoareyourpeople?“
Hecouldanswerthis。Hisparents,whoweredead,hadbeenintrade;hissistershadmarriedcommercialtravellers;
hisbrotherwasalay-reader。
“Andyourgrandparents?“
Leonardtoldherasecretthathehadheldshamefuluptonow。“Theywerejustnothingatall,“hesaid,“——agriculturallabourersandthatsort。“
“So!Fromwhichpart?“
“Lincolnshiremostly,butmymother\'sfather——he,oddlyenough,camefromthesepartsroundhere。“
“FromthisveryShropshire。Yes,thatisodd。
Mymother\'speoplewereLancashire。ButwhydoyourbrotherandyoursistersobjecttoMrs。Bast?“
“Oh,Idon\'tknow。“
“Excuseme,youdoknow。Iamnotababy。
Icanbearanythingyoutellme,andthemoreyoutellthemoreIshallbeabletohelp。Havetheyheardanythingagainsther?“
Hewassilent。
“IthinkIhaveguessednow,“saidHelenverygravely。
“Idon\'tthinkso,MissSchlegel;Ihopenot。“
“Wemustbehonest,evenoverthesethings。
Ihaveguessed。Iamfrightfully,dreadfullysorry,butitdoesnotmaketheleastdifferencetome。Ishallfeeljustthesametobothofyou。Iblame,notyourwifeforthesethings,butmen。“
Leonardleftitatthat——solongasshedidnotguesstheman。Shestoodatthewindowandslowlypulleduptheblinds。
Thehotellookedoveradarksquare。Themistshadbegun。Whensheturnedbacktohimhereyeswereshining。
“Don\'tyouworry,“hepleaded。“Ican\'tbearthat。WeshallbeallrightifIgetwork。IfIcouldonlygetwork——somethingregulartodo。Thenitwouldn\'tbesobadagain。
Idon\'ttroubleafterbooksasIused。Icanimaginethatwithregularworkweshouldsettledownagain。Itstopsonethinking。“
“Settledowntowhat?“
“Oh,justsettledown。“
“Andthat\'stobelife!“saidHelen,withacatchinherthroat。“Howcanyou,withallthebeautifulthingstoseeanddo——withmusic——withwalkingatnight——“
“Walkingiswellenoughwhenaman\'sinwork,“heanswered。“Oh,Ididtalkalotofnonsenseonce,butthere\'snothinglikeabailiffinthehousetodriveitoutofyou。WhenIsawhimfingeringmyRuskinsandStevensons,Iseemedtoseelifestraightreal,anditisn\'taprettysight。Mybooksarebackagain,thankstoyou,butthey\'llneverbethesametomeagain,andIshan\'teveragainthinknightinthewoodsiswonderful。“
“Whynot?“askedHelen,throwingupthewindow。
“BecauseIseeonemusthavemoney。“
“Well,you\'rewrong。“
“IwishIwaswrong,but——theclergyman——hehasmoneyofhisown,orelsehe\'spaid;thepoetorthemusician——justthesame;thetramp——he\'snodifferent。Thetrampgoestotheworkhouseintheend,andispaidforwithotherpeople\'smoney。MissSchlegel,therealthing\'smoneyandalltherestisadream。“
“You\'restillwrong。You\'veforgottenDeath。“
Leonardcouldnotunderstand。
“Ifwelivedforeverwhatyousaywouldbetrue。
Butwehavetodie,wehavetoleavelifepresently。Injusticeandgreedwouldbetherealthingifwelivedforever。Asitis,wemustholdtootherthings,becauseDeathiscoming。IloveDeath——notmorbidly,butbecauseHeexplains。HeshowsmetheemptinessofMoney。
DeathandMoneyaretheeternalfoes。NotDeathandLife。NevermindwhatliesbehindDeath,Mr。Bast,butbesurethatthepoetandthemusicianandthetrampwillbehappierinitthanthemanwhohasneverlearnttosay,\'IamI。\'“
“Iwonder。“
“Weareallinamist——IknowbutIcanhelpyouthisfar——menliketheWilcoxesaredeeperinthemistthanany。
Sane,soundEnglishmen!buildingupempires,levellingalltheworldintowhattheycallcommonsense。ButmentionDeathtothemandthey\'reoffended,becauseDeath\'sreallyImperial,andHecriesoutagainstthemforever。“
“IamasafraidofDeathasanyone。“
“ButnotoftheideaofDeath。“
“Butwhatisthedifference?“
“Infinitedifference,“saidHelen,moregravelythanbefore。
Leonardlookedatherwondering,andhadthesenseofgreatthingssweepingoutoftheshroudednight。Buthecouldnotreceivethem,becausehisheartwasstillfulloflittlethings。
AsthelostumbrellahadspoilttheconcertatQueen\'sHall,sothelostsituationwasobscuringthedivinerharmoniesnow。Death,LifeandMaterialismwerefinewords,butwouldMr。Wilcoxtakehimonasaclerk?
Talkasonewould,Mr。Wilcoxwaskingofthisworld,thesuperman,withhisownmorality,whoseheadremainedintheclouds。
“Imustbestupid,“hesaidapologetically。
WhiletoHelentheparadoxbecameclearerandclearer。
“Deathdestroysaman:theideaofDeathsaveshim。“Behindthecoffinsandtheskeletonsthatstaythevulgarmindliessomethingsoimmensethatallthatisgreatinusrespondstoit。Menoftheworldmayrecoilfromthecharnel-housethattheywillonedayenter,butLoveknowsbetter。
Deathishisfoe,buthispeer,andintheirage-longstrugglethethewsofLovehavebeenstrengthened,andhisvisioncleared,untilthereisnoonewhocanstandagainsthim。
“Sonevergivein,“continuedthegirl,andrestatedagainandagainthevagueyetconvincingpleathattheInvisiblelodgesagainsttheVisible。HerexcitementgrewasshetriedtocuttheropethatfastenedLeonardtotheearth。Wovenofbitterexperience,itresistedher。PresentlythewaitressenteredandgaveheraletterfromMargaret。Anothernote,addressedtoLeonard,wasinside。
Theyreadthem,listeningtothemurmuringsoftheriver。Chapter28FormanyhoursMargaretdidnothing;thenshecontrolledherself,andwrotesomeletters。ShewastoobruisedtospeaktoHenry;shecouldpityhim,andevendeterminetomarryhim,butasyetalllaytoodeepinherheartforspeech。Onthesurfacethesenseofhisdegradationwastoostrong。Shecouldnotcommandvoiceorlook,andthegentlewordsthatsheforcedoutthroughherpenseemedtoproceedfromsomeotherperson。
“Mydearestboy,“shebegan,“thisisnottopartus。Itiseverythingornothing,andImeanittobenothing。
Ithappenedlongbeforeweevermet,andevenifithadhappenedsince,Ishouldbewritingthesame,Ihope。Idounderstand。“
Butshecrossedout“Idounderstand“;itstruckafalsenote。Henrycouldnotbeartobeunderstood。Shealsocrossedout,“Itiseverythingornothing。“Henrywouldresentsostrongagraspofthesituation。Shemustnotcomment;commentisunfeminine。
“Ithinkthat\'llaboutdo,“shethought。
Thenthesenseofhisdegradationchokedher。
Washeworthallthisbother?Tohaveyieldedtoawomanofthatsortwaseverything,yes,itwas,andshecouldnotbehiswife。
Shetriedtotranslatehistemptationintoherownlanguage,andherbrainreeled。Menmustbedifferent,eventowanttoyieldtosuchatemptation。
Herbeliefincomradeshipwasstifled,andshesawlifeasfromthatglasssaloonontheGreatWestern,whichshelteredmaleandfemalealikefromthefreshair。Arethesexesreallyraces,eachwithitsowncodeofmorality,andtheirmutualloveameredeviceofNaturetokeepthingsgoing?Striphumanintercourseoftheproprieties,andisitreducedtothis?Herjudgmenttoldherno。SheknewthatoutofNature\'sdevicewehavebuiltamagicthatwillwinusimmortality。Farmoremysteriousthanthecallofsextosexisthetendernessthatwethrowintothatcall;farwideristhegulfbetweenusandthefarmyardthanbetweenthefarm-yardandthegarbagethatnourishesit。Weareevolving,inwaysthatSciencecannotmeasure,toendsthatTheologydaresnotcontemplate。
“Mendidproduceonejewel,“thegodswillsay,and,saying,willgiveusimmortality。Margaretknewallthis,butforthemomentshecouldnotfeelit,andtransformedthemarriageofEvieandMr。Cahillintoacarnivaloffools,andherownmarriage——toomiserabletothinkofthat,shetoreuptheletter,andthenwroteanother:DearMr。Bast,IhavespokentoMr。Wilcoxaboutyou,asIpromised,andamsorrytosaythathehasnovacancyforyou。Yourstruly,M。J。SchlegelSheenclosedthisinanotetoHelen,overwhichshetooklesstroublethanshemighthavedone;butherheadwasaching,andshecouldnotstoptopickherwords:DearHelen,Givehimthis。TheBastsarenogood。
Henryfoundthewomandrunkonthelawn。Iamhavingaroomgotreadyforyouhere,andwillyoupleasecomeroundatonceongettingthis?
TheBastsarenotatallthetypeweshouldtroubleabout。Imaygoroundtothemmyselfinthemorning,anddoanythingthatisfair。MInwritingthis,Margaretfeltthatshewasbeingpractical。
SomethingmightbearrangedfortheBastslateron,buttheymustbesilencedforthemoment。ShehopedtoavoidaconversationbetweenthewomanandHelen。Sherangthebellforaservant,butnooneansweredit;
Mr。WilcoxandtheWarringtonsweregonetobed,andthekitchenwasabandonedtoSaturnalia。ConsequentlyshewentovertotheGeorgeherself。
Shedidnotenterthehotel,fordiscussionwouldhavebeenperilous,and,sayingthattheletterwasimportant,shegaveittothewaitress。
AssherecrossedthesquareshesawHelenandMr。Bastlookingoutofthewindowofthecoffee-room,andfearedshewasalreadytoolate。Hertaskwasnotyetover;sheoughttotellHenrywhatshehaddone。
Thiscameeasily,forshesawhiminthehall。
Thenightwindhadbeenrattlingthepicturesagainstthewall,andthenoisehaddisturbedhim。
“Who\'sthere?“hecalled,quitethehouseholder。
Margaretwalkedinandpasthim。
“IhaveaskedHelentosleep,“shesaid。“Sheisbesthere;sodon\'tlockthefront-door。“
“Ithoughtsomeonehadgotin,“saidHenry。
“AtthesametimeItoldthemanthatwecoulddonothingforhim。Idon\'tknowaboutlater,butnowtheBastsmustclearlygo。“
“Didyousaythatyoursisterissleepinghere,afterall?“
“Probably。“
“Isshetobeshownuptoyourroom?“
“Ihavenaturallynothingtosaytoher;Iamgoingtobed。WillyoutelltheservantsaboutHelen?Couldsomeonegotocarryherbag?“
Hetappedalittlegong,whichhadbeenboughttosummontheservants。
“Youmustmakemorenoisethanthatifyouwantthemtohear。“
Henryopenedadoor,anddownthecorridorcameshoutsoflaughter。“Fartoomuchscreamingthere,“hesaid,andstrodetowardsit。Margaretwentupstairs,uncertainwhethertobegladthattheyhadmet,orsorry。Theyhadbehavedasifnothinghadhappened,andherdeepestinstinctstoldherthatthiswaswrong。
Forhisownsake,someexplanationwasdue。
Andyet——whatcouldanexplanationtellher?
Adate,aplace,afewdetails,whichshecouldimaginealltooclearly。
Nowthatthefirstshockwasover,shesawthattherewaseveryreasontopremiseaMrs。Bast。Henry\'sinnerlifehadlonglaidopentoher——hisintellectualconfusion,hisobtusenesstopersonalinfluence,hisstrongbutfurtivepassions。Shouldsherefusehimbecausehisouterlifecorresponded?Perhaps。Perhaps,ifthedishonourhadbeendonetoher,butitwasdonelongbeforeherday。Shestruggledagainstthefeeling。ShetoldherselfthatMrs。Wilcox\'swrongwasherown。Butshewasnotabargaintheorist。Assheundressed,heranger,herregardforthedead,herdesireforascene,allgrewweak。
Henrymusthaveitasheliked,forshelovedhim,andsomedayshewoulduseherlovetomakehimabetterman。
Pitywasatthebottomofheractionsallthroughthiscrisis。Pity,ifonemaygeneralize,isatthebottomofwoman。
Whenmenlikeus,itisforourbetterqualities,andhowevertendertheirliking,wedarenotbeunworthyofit,ortheywillquietlyletusgo。
Butunworthinessstimulateswoman。Itbringsoutherdeepernature,forgoodorforevil。
Herewasthecoreofthequestion。Henrymustbeforgiven,andmadebetterbylove;nothingelsemattered。Mrs。
Wilcox,thatunquietyetkindlyghost,mustbelefttoherownwrong。
Tohereverythingwasinproportionnow,andshe,too,wouldpitythemanwhowasblunderingupanddowntheirlives。HadMrs。Wilcoxknownofhistrespass?Aninterestingquestion,butMargaretfellasleep,tetheredbyaffection,andlulledbythemurmursoftheriverthatdescendedallthenightfromWales。Shefeltherselfatonewithherfuturehome,colouringitandcolouredbyit,andawoketosee,forthesecondtime,OnitonCastleconqueringthemorningmists。Chapter29“Henrydear——“washergreeting。
Hehadfinishedhisbreakfast,andwasbeginningtheTimes。Hissister-in-lawwaspacking。Shekneltbyhimandtookthepaperfromhim,feelingthatitwasunusuallyheavyandthick。Then,puttingherfacewhereithadbeen,shelookedupinhiseyes。
“Henrydear,lookatme。No,Iwon\'thaveyoushirking。Lookatme。There。That\'sall。“
“You\'rereferringtolastevening,“hesaidhuskily。
“Ihavereleasedyoufromyourengagement。Icouldfindexcuses,butIwon\'t。No,Iwon\'t。Athousandtimesno。I\'mabadlot,andmustbeleftatthat。“
Expelledfromhisoldfortress,Mr。Wilcoxwasbuildinganewone。Hecouldnolongerappearrespectabletoher,sohedefendedhimselfinsteadinaluridpast。Itwasnottruerepentance。
“Leaveitwhereyouwill,boy。It\'snotgoingtotroubleus:IknowwhatI\'mtalkingabout,anditwillmakenodifference。“
“Nodifference?“heinquired。“Nodifference,whenyoufindthatIamnotthefellowyouthought?“HewasannoyedwithMissSchlegelhere。Hewouldhavepreferredhertobeprostratedbytheblow,oreventorage。Againstthetideofhissinflowedthefeelingthatshewasnotaltogetherwomanly。Hereyesgazedtoostraight;theyhadreadbooksthataresuitableformenonly。Andthoughhehaddreadedascene,andthoughshehaddeterminedagainstone,therewasascene,allthesame。Itwassomehowimperative。
“Iamunworthyofyou,“hebegan。“HadIbeenworthy,Ishouldnothavereleasedyoufromyourengagement。IknowwhatIamtalkingabout。Ican\'tbeartotalkofsuchthings。
Wehadbetterleaveit。“
Shekissedhishand。Hejerkeditfromher,and,risingtohisfeet,wenton:“You,withyourshelteredlife,andrefinedpursuits,andfriends,andbooks,youandyoursister,andwomenlikeyou——I
say,howcanyouguessthetemptationsthatlieroundaman?“
“Itisdifficultforus,“saidMargaret;“butifweareworthmarrying,wedoguess。“
“Cutofffromdecentsocietyandfamilyties,whatdoyousupposehappenstothousandsofyoungfellowsoverseas?Isolated。
Noonenear。Iknowbybitterexperience,andyetyousayitmakes\'nodifference。\'“
“Nottome。“
Helaughedbitterly。Margaretwenttotheside-boardandhelpedherselftooneofthebreakfastdishes。Beingthelastdown,sheturnedoutthespirit-lampthatkeptthemwarm。
Shewastender,butgrave。SheknewthatHenrywasnotsomuchconfessinghissoulaspointingoutthegulfbetweenthemalesoulandthefemale,andshedidnotdesiretohearhimonthispoint。
“DidHelencome?“sheasked。
Heshookhishead。
“Butthatwon\'tdoatall,atall!Wedon\'twanthergossipingwithMrs。Bast。“
“GoodGod!no!“heexclaimed,suddenlynatural。
Thenhecaughthimselfup。“Letthemgossip。Mygame\'sup,thoughIthankyouforyourunselfishness——littleasmythanksareworth。“
“Didn\'tshesendmeamessageoranything?“
“Iheardofnone。“
“Wouldyouringthebell,please?“
“Whattodo?“
“Why,toinquire。“
Heswaggereduptoittragically,andsoundedapeal。Margaretpouredherselfoutsomecoffee。Thebutlercame,andsaidthatMissSchlegelhadsleptattheGeorge,sofarashehadheard。
ShouldhegoroundtotheGeorge?
“I\'llgo,thankyou,“saidMargaret,anddismissedhim。
“Itisnogood,“saidHenry。“Thosethingsleakout;youcannotstopastoryonceithasstarted。Ihaveknowncasesofothermen——Idespisedthemonce,IthoughtthatI\'mdifferent,Ishallneverbetempted。Oh,Margaret——“Hecameandsatdownnearher,improvisingemotion。Shecouldnotbeartolistentohim。
“Wefellowsallcometogriefonceinourtime。Willyoubelievethat?Therearemomentswhenthestrongestman——\'Lethimwhostandeth,takeheedlesthefall。\'That\'strue,isn\'tit?Ifyouknewall,youwouldexcuseme。Iwasfarfromgoodinfluences——farevenfromEngland。Iwasvery,verylonely,andlongedforawoman\'svoice。
That\'senough。Ihavetoldyoutoomuchalreadyforyoutoforgivemenow。“
“Yes,that\'senough,dear。“
“Ihave“——heloweredhisvoice——“Ihavebeenthroughhell。“
Gravelysheconsideredthisclaim。Hadhe?