第9章
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  V。

  ITwaslatenow,nearlyhalf-pasttwo,andtheprincedidnotfindGeneralEpanchinathome。Heleftacard,anddeterminedtolookupColia,whohadaroomatasmallhotelnear。Coliawasnotin,buthewasinformedthathemightbebackshortly,andhadleftwordthatifhewerenotinbyhalf-pastthreeitwastobeunderstoodthathehadgonetoPavlofsktoGeneralEpanchin’s,andwoulddinethere。Theprincedecidedtowaittillhalf-pastthree,andorderedsomedinner。Athalf-pastthreetherewasnosignofColia。Theprincewaiteduntilfouro’clock,andthenstrolledoffmechanicallywhereverhisfeetshouldcarryhim。

  InearlysummerthereareoftenmagnificentdaysinSt。

  Petersburg——bright,hotandstill。Thishappenedtobesuchaday。

  Forsometimetheprincewanderedaboutwithoutaimorobject。Hedidnotknowthetownwell。Hestoppedtolookabouthimonbridges,atstreetcorners。Heenteredaconfectioner’sshoptorest,once。Hewasinastateofnervousexcitementandperturbation;henoticednothingandnoone;andhefeltacravingforsolitude,tobealonewithhisthoughtsandhisemotions,andtogivehimselfuptothempassively。Heloathedtheideaoftryingtoanswerthequestionsthatwouldriseupinhisheartandmind。\"Iamnottoblameforallthis,\"hethoughttohimself,halfunconsciously。

  Towardssixo’clockhefoundhimselfatthestationoftheTsarsko-Selskirailway。

  Hewastiredofsolitudenow;anewrushoffeelingtookholdofhim,andafloodoflightchasedawaythegloom,foramoment,fromhissoul。HetookatickettoPavlofsk,anddeterminedtogetthereasfastashecould,butsomethingstoppedhim;areality,andnotafantasy,ashewasinclinedtothinkit。Hewasabouttotakehisplaceinacarriage,whenhesuddenlythrewawayhisticketandcameoutagain,disturbedandthoughtful。A

  fewmomentslater,inthestreet,herecalledsomethingthathadbotheredhimalltheafternoon。Hecaughthimselfengagedinastrangeoccupationwhichhenowrecollectedhehadtakenupatoddmomentsforthelastfewhours——itwaslookingaboutallaroundhimforsomething,hedidnotknowwhat。Hehadforgottenitforawhile,halfanhourorso,andnow,suddenly,theuneasysearchhadrecommenced。

  Buthehadhardlybecomeconsciousofthiscuriousphenomenon,whenanotherrecollectionsuddenlyswamthroughhisbrain,interestinghimforthemoment,exceedingly。Herememberedthatthelasttimehehadbeenengagedinlookingaroundhimfortheunknownsomething,hewasstandingbeforeacutler’sshop,inthewindowofwhichwereexposedcertaingoodsforsale。Hewasextremelyanxiousnowtodiscoverwhetherthisshopandthesegoodsreallyexisted,orwhetherthewholethinghadbeenahallucination。

  Hefeltinaverycuriousconditiontoday,aconditionsimilartothatwhichhadprecededhisfitsinbygoneyears。

  Herememberedthatatsuchtimeshehadbeenparticularlyabsentminded,andcouldnotdiscriminatebetweenobjectsandpersonsunlessheconcentratedspecialattentionuponthem。

  Herememberedseeingsomethinginthewindowmarkedatsixtycopecks。Therefore,iftheshopexistedandifthisobjectwerereallyinthewindow,itwouldprovethathehadbeenabletoconcentratehisattentiononthisarticleatamomentwhen,asageneralrule,hisabsenceofmindwouldhavebeentoogreattoadmitofanysuchconcentration;infact,veryshortlyafterhehadlefttherailwaystationinsuchastateofagitation。

  Sohewalkedbacklookingabouthimfortheshop,andhisheartbeatwithintolerableimpatience。Ah!herewastheveryshop,andtherewasthearticlemarked60cop。\"\"Ofcourse,it’ssixtycopecks,\"hethought,andcertainlyworthnomore。\"Thisideaamusedhimandhelaughed。

  Butitwasahystericallaugh;hewasfeelingterriblyoppressed。

  Herememberedclearlythatjusthere,standingbeforethiswindow,hehadsuddenlyturnedround,justasearlierinthedayhehadturnedandfoundthedreadfuleyesofRogojinfixeduponhim。Convinced,therefore,thatinthisrespectatalleventshehadbeenundernodelusion,helefttheshopandwenton。

  Thismustbethoughtout;itwasclearthattherehadbeennohallucinationatthestationthen,either;somethinghadactuallyhappenedtohim,onbothoccasions;therewasnodoubtofit。Butagainaloathingforallmentalexertionovermasteredhim;hewouldnotthinkitoutnow,hewouldputitoffandthinkofsomethingelse。Herememberedthatduringhisepilepticfits,orratherimmediatelyprecedingthem,hehadalwaysexperiencedamomentortwowhenhiswholeheart,andmind,andbodyseemedtowakeuptovigourandlight;whenhebecamefilledwithjoyandhope,andallhisanxietiesseemedtobesweptawayforever;

  thesemomentswerebutpresentiments,asitwere,oftheonefinalseconditwasnevermorethanasecondinwhichthefitcameuponhim。Thatsecond,ofcourse,wasinexpressible。Whenhisattackwasover,andtheprincereflectedonhissymptoms,heusedtosaytohimself:\"Thesemoments,shortastheyare,whenI

  feelsuchextremeconsciousnessofmyself,andconsequentlymoreoflifethanatothertimes,aredueonlytothedisease——tothesuddenruptureofnormalconditions。Thereforetheyarenotreallyahigherkindoflife,butalower。\"Thisreasoning,however,seemedtoendinaparadox,andleadtothefurtherconsideration:——\"Whatmatterthoughitbeonlydisease,anabnormaltensionofthebrain,ifwhenIrecallandanalyzethemoment,itseemstohavebeenoneofharmonyandbeautyinthehighestdegree——aninstantofdeepestsensation,overflowingwithunboundedjoyandrapture,ecstaticdevotion,andcompletestlife?\"Vaguethoughthissounds,itwasperfectlycomprehensibletoMuishkin,thoughheknewthatitwasbutafeebleexpressionofhissensations。

  Thattherewas,indeed,beautyandharmonyinthoseabnormalmoments,thattheyreallycontainedthehighestsynthesisoflife,hecouldnotdoubt,norevenadmitthepossibilityofdoubt。Hefeltthattheywerenotanalogoustothefantasticandunrealdreamsduetointoxicationbyhashish,opiumorwine。Ofthathecouldjudge,whentheattackwasover。Theseinstantswerecharacterized——todefineitinaword——byanintensequickeningofthesenseofpersonality。Since,inthelastconsciousmomentprecedingtheattack,hecouldsaytohimself,withfullunderstandingofhiswords:\"Iwouldgivemywholelifeforthisoneinstant,\"thendoubtlesstohimitreallywasworthalifetime。Fortherest,hethoughtthedialecticalpartofhisargumentoflittleworth;hesawonlytooclearlythattheresultoftheseecstaticmomentswasstupefaction,mentaldarkness,idiocy。Noargumentwaspossibleonthatpoint。Hisconclusion,hisestimateofthe\"moment,\"doubtlesscontainedsomeerror,yettherealityofthesensationtroubledhim。What’smoreunanswerablethanafact?Andthisfacthadoccurred。Theprincehadconfessedunreservedlytohimselfthatthefeelingofintensebeatitudeinthatcrowdedmomentmadethemomentworthalifetime。\"Ifeelthen,\"hesaidonedaytoRogojininMoscow,\"IfeelthenasifI

  understoodthoseamazingwords——’Thereshallbenomoretime。’\"

  Andheaddedwithasmile:\"NodoubttheepilepticMahometreferstothatsamemomentwhenhesaysthathevisitedallthedwellingsofAllah,inlesstimethanwasneededtoemptyhispitcherofwater。\"Yes,hehadoftenmetRogojininMoscow,andmanywerethesubjectstheydiscussed。\"HetoldmeIhadbeenabrothertohim,\"thoughttheprince。\"Hesaidsotoday,forthefirsttime。\"

  HewassittingintheSummerGardenonaseatunderatree,andhisminddweltonthematter。Itwasaboutseveno’clock,andtheplacewasempty。Thestiflingatmosphereforetoldastorm,andtheprincefeltacertaincharminthecontemplativemoodwhichpossessedhim。Hefoundpleasure,too,ingazingattheexteriorobjectsaroundhim。Allthetimehewastryingtoforgetsomething,toescapefromsomeideathathauntedhim;butmelancholythoughtscameback,thoughhewouldsowillinglyhaveescapedfromthem。Herememberedsuddenlyhowhehadbeentalkingtothewaiter,whilehedined,aboutarecentlycommittedmurderwhichthewholetownwasdiscussing,andashethoughtofitsomethingstrangecameoverhim。Hewasseizedallatoncebyaviolentdesire,almostatemptation,againstwhichhestroveinvain。

  Hejumpedupandwalkedoffasfastashecouldtowardsthe\"PetersburgSide。\"[OneofthequartersofSt。Petersburg。]Hehadaskedsomeone,alittlewhilebefore,toshowhimwhichwasthePetersburgSide,onthebanksoftheNeva。Hehadnotgonethere,however;andheknewverywellthatitwasofnousetogonow,forhewouldcertainlynotfindLebedeff’srelationathome。

  Hehadtheaddress,butshemustcertainlyhavegonetoPavlofsk,orColiawouldhavelethimknow。Ifheweretogonow,itwouldmerelybeoutofcuriosity,butasudden,newideahadcomeintohishead。

  However,itwassomethingtomoveonandknowwherehewasgoing。

  Aminutelaterhewasstillmovingon,butwithoutknowinganything。Hecouldnolongerthinkouthisnewidea。Hetriedtotakeaninterestinallhesaw;inthesky,intheNeva。Hespoketosomechildrenhemet。Hefelthisepilepticconditionbecomingmoreandmoredeveloped。Theeveningwasveryclose;thunderwasheardsomewayoff。

  TheprincewashauntedallthatdaybythefaceofLebedeff’snephewwhomhehadseenforthefirsttimethatmorning,justasoneishauntedattimesbysomepersistentmusicalrefrain。Byacuriousassociationofideas,theyoungmanalwaysappearedasthemurdererofwhomLebedeffhadspokenwhenintroducinghimtoMuishkin。Yes,hehadreadsomethingaboutthemurder,andthatquiterecently。SincehecametoRussia,hehadheardmanystoriesofthiskind,andwasinterestedinthem。Hisconversationwiththewaiter,anhourago,chancedtobeonthesubjectofthismurderoftheZemarins,andthelatterhadagreedwithhimaboutit。Hethoughtofthewaiteragain,anddecidedthathewasnofool,butasteady,intelligentman:though,saidhetohimself,\"Godknowswhathemayreallybe;inacountrywithwhichoneisunfamiliaritisdifficulttounderstandthepeopleonemeets。\"HewasbeginningtohaveapassionatefaithintheRussiansoul,however,andwhatdiscoverieshehadmadeinthelastsixmonths,whatunexpecteddiscoveries!Buteverysoulisamystery,anddepthsofmysterylieinthesoulofaRussian。

  HehadbeenintimatewithRogojin,forexample,andabrotherlyfriendshiphadsprungupbetweenthem——yetdidhereallyknowhim?Whatchaosanduglinessfillstheworldattimes!Whataself-satisfiedrascalisthatnephewofLebedeff’s!\"ButwhatamIthinking,\"continuedtheprincetohimself。\"Canhereallyhavecommittedthatcrime?Didhekillthosesixpersons?Iseemtobeconfusingthings……howstrangeitallis……Myheadgoesround……AndLebedeff’sdaughter——howsympatheticandcharmingherfacewasassheheldthechildinherarms!Whataninnocentlookandchild-likelaughshehad!ItiscuriousthatI

  hadforgottenheruntilnow。IexpectLebedeffadoresher——andI

  reallybelieve,whenIthinkofit,thatassureastwoandtwomakefour,heisfondofthatnephew,too!\"

  Well,whyshouldhejudgethemsohastily!Couldhereallysaywhattheywere,afteroneshortvisit?EvenLebedeffseemedanenigmatoday。Didheexpecttofindhimso?Hehadneverseenhimlikethatbefore。LebedeffandtheComtesseduBarry!GoodHeavens!IfRogojinshouldreallykillsomeone,itwouldnot,atanyrate,besuchasenseless,chaoticaffair。Aknifemadetoaspecialpattern,andsixpeoplekilledinakindofdelirium。ButRogojinalsohadaknifemadetoaspecialpattern。CanitbethatRogojinwishestomurderanyone?Theprincebegantotrembleviolently。\"Itisacrimeonmyparttoimagineanythingsobase,withsuchcynicalfrankness。\"Hisfacereddenedwithshameatthethought;andthentherecameacrosshimasinaflashthememoryoftheincidentsatthePavlofskstation,andattheotherstationinthemorning;andthequestionaskedhimbyRogojinaboutTHEEYESandRogojin’scross,thathewasevennowwearing;

  andthebenedictionofRogojin’smother;andhisembraceonthedarkenedstaircase——thatlastsupremerenunciation——andnow,tofindhimselffullofthisnew\"idea,\"staringintoshop-windows,andlookingroundforthings——howbasehewas!

  Despairovermasteredhissoul;hewouldnotgoon,hewouldgobacktohishotel;heeventurnedandwenttheotherway;butamomentafterhechangedhismindagainandwentonintheolddirection。

  Why,herehewasonthePetersburgSidealready,quiteclosetothehouse!Wherewashis\"idea\"?Hewasmarchingalongwithoutitnow。Yes,hismaladywascomingback,itwasclearenough;allthisgloomandheaviness,allthese\"ideas,\"werenothingmorenorlessthanafitcomingon;perhapshewouldhaveafitthisveryday。

  Butjustnowallthegloomanddarknesshadfled,hisheartfeltfullofjoyandhope,therewasnosuchthingasdoubt。Andyes,hehadn’tseenherforsolong;hereallymustseeher。HewishedhecouldmeetRogojin;hewouldtakehishand,andtheywouldgotohertogether。Hisheartwaspure,hewasnorivalofParfen’s。

  Tomorrow,hewouldgoandtellhimthathehadseenher。Why,hehadonlycomeforthesolepurposeofseeingher,allthewayfromMoscow!Perhapsshemightbeherestill,whoknows?ShemightnothavegoneawaytoPavlofskyet。

  Yes,allthismustbeputstraightandabove-board,theremustbenomorepassionaterenouncements,suchasRogojin’s。Itmustallbeclearasday。CannotRogojin’ssoulbearthelight?Hesaidhedidnotloveherwithsympathyandpity;true,headdedthat\"yourpityisgreaterthanmylove,\"buthewasnotquitefaironhimselfthere。Kin!Rogojinreadingabook——wasn’tthatsympathybeginning?Diditnotshowthathecomprehendedhisrelationswithher?Andhisstoryofwaitingdayandnightforherforgiveness?Thatdidn’tlookquitelikepassionalone。

  Andastoherface,coulditinspirenothingbutpassion?Couldherfaceinspirepassionatallnow?Oh,itinspiredsuffering,grief,overwhelminggriefofthesoul!Apoignant,agonizingmemorysweptovertheprince’sheart。

  Yes,agonizing。Herememberedhowhehadsufferedthatfirstdaywhenhethoughtheobservedinherthesymptomsofmadness。Hehadalmostfallenintodespair。HowcouldhehavelosthisholduponherwhensheranawayfromhimtoRogojin?Heoughttohaverunafterherhimself,ratherthanwaitfornewsashehaddone。

  CanRogojinhavefailedtoobserve,uptonow,thatsheismad?

  Rogojinattributesherstrangenesstoothercauses,topassion!

  Whatinsanejealousy!Whatwasithehadhintedatinthatsuggestionofhis?Theprincesuddenlyblushed,andshudderedtohisveryheart。

  Butwhyrecallallthis?Therewasinsanityonbothsides。Forhim,theprince,tolovethiswomanwithpassion,wasunthinkable。Itwouldbecruelandinhuman。Yes。Rogojinisnotfairtohimself;hehasalargeheart;hehasaptitudeforsympathy。Whenhelearnsthetruth,andfindswhatapitiablebeingisthisinjured,broken,half-insanecreature,hewillforgiveherallthetormentshehascausedhim。Hewillbecomeherslave,herbrother,herfriend。CompassionwillteachevenRogojin,itwillshowhimhowtoreason。Compassionisthechieflawofhumanexistence。Oh,howguiltyhefelttowardsRogojin!

  And,forafewwarm,hastywordsspokeninMoscow,Parfenhadcalledhim\"brother,\"whilehe——butno,thiswasdelirium!Itwouldallcomeright!ThatgloomyParfenhadimpliedthathisfaithwaswaning;hemustsufferdreadfully。Hesaidhelikedtolookatthatpicture;itwasnotthathelikedit,buthefelttheneedoflookingatit。Rogojinwasnotmerelyapassionatesoul;hewasafighter。Hewasfightingfortherestorationofhisdyingfaith。Hemusthavesomethingtoholdontoandbelieve,andsomeonetobelievein。WhatastrangepicturethatofHolbein’sis!Why,thisisthestreet,andhere’sthehouse,No。16。

  Theprincerangthebell,andaskedforNastasiaPhilipovna。Theladyofthehousecameout,andstatedthatNastasiahadgonetostaywithDariaAlexeyevnaatPavlofsk,andmightbetheresomedays。

  MadameFilisoffwasalittlewomanofforty,withacunningface,andcrafty,piercingeyes。When,withanairofmystery,sheaskedhervisitor’sname,herefusedatfirsttoanswer,butinamomenthechangedhismind,andleftstrictinstructionsthatitshouldbegiventoNastasiaPhilipovna。TheurgencyofhisrequestseemedtoimpressMadameFilisoff,andsheputonaknowingexpression,asiftosay,\"Youneednotbeafraid,I

  quiteunderstand。\"Theprince’snameevidentlywasagreatsurprisetoher。Hestoodandlookedabsentlyatherforamoment,thenturned,andtooktheroadbacktohishotel。Buthewentawaynotashecame。Agreatchangehadsuddenlycomeoverhim。Hewentblindlyforward;hiskneesshookunderhim;hewastormentedby\"ideas\";hislipswereblue,andtrembledwithafeeble,meaninglesssmile。Hisdemonwasuponhimoncemore。

  Whathadhappenedtohim?Whywashisbrowclammywithdropsofmoisture,hiskneesshakingbeneathhim,andhissouloppressedwithacoldgloom?Wasitbecausehehadjustseenthesedreadfuleyesagain?Why,hehadlefttheSummerGardenonpurposetoseethem;thathadbeenhis\"idea。\"Hehadwishedtoassurehimselfthathewouldseethemoncemoreatthathouse。Thenwhywashesooverwhelmednow,havingseenthemasheexpected?justasthoughhehadnotexpectedtoseethem!Yes,theyweretheverysameeyes;andnodoubtaboutit。Thesamethathehadseeninthecrowdthatmorningatthestation,thesamethathehadsurprisedinRogojin’sroomssomehourslater,whenthelatterhadrepliedtohisinquirywithasneeringlaugh,\"Well,whoseeyeswerethey?\"ThenforthethirdtimetheyhadappearedjustashewasgettingintothetrainonhiswaytoseeAglaya。HehadhadastrongimpulsetorushuptoRogojin,andrepeathiswordsofthemorning\"Whoseeyesarethey?\"Insteadhehadfledfromthestation,andknewnothingmore,untilhefoundhimselfgazingintothewindowofacutler’sshop,andwonderingifaknifewithastaghornhandlewouldcostmorethansixtycopecks。AndastheprincesatdreamingintheSummerGardenunderalime-tree,awickeddemonhadcomeandwhisperedinhiscar:\"Rogojinhasbeenspyinguponyouandwatchingyouallthemorninginafrenzyofdesperation。WhenhefindsyouhavenotgonetoPavlofsk——aterriblediscoveryforhim——hewillsurelygoatoncetothathouseinPetersburgSide,andwatchforyouthere,althoughonlythismorningyougaveyourwordofhonournottoseeHER,andsworethatyouhadnotcometoPetersburgforthatpurpose。\"Andthereupontheprincehadhastenedofftothathouse,andwhatwasthereinthefactthathehadmetRogojinthere?Hehadonlyseenawretched,sufferingcreature,whosestateofmindwasgloomyandmiserable,butmostcomprehensible。InthemorningRogojinhadseemedtobetryingtokeepoutoftheway;butatthestationthisafternoonhehadstoodout,hehadconcealedhimself,indeed,lessthantheprincehimself;atthehouse,now,hehadstoodfiftyyardsoffontheothersideoftheroad,withfoldedhands,watching,plainlyinviewandapparentlydesirousofbeingseen。Hehadstoodtherelikeanaccuser,likeajudge,notlikea——awhat?

  Andwhyhadnottheprinceapproachedhimandspokentohim,insteadofturningawayandpretendinghehadseennothing,althoughtheireyesmet?Yes,theireyeshadmet,andtheyhadlookedateachother。Why,hehadhimselfwishedtotakeRogojinbythehandandgointogether,hehadhimselfdeterminedtogotohimonthemorrowandtellhimthathehadseenher,hehadrepudiatedthedemonashewalkedtothehouse,andhishearthadbeenfullofjoy。

  Wastheresomethinginthewholeaspectoftheman,today,sufficienttojustifytheprince’sterror,andtheawfulsuspicionsofhisdemon?Somethingseen,butindescribable,whichfilledhimwithdreadfulpresentiments?Yes,hewasconvincedofit——convincedofwhat?Oh,howmeanandhideousofhimtofeelthisconviction,thispresentiment!Howheblamedhimselfforit!\"Speakifyoudare,andtellme,whatisthepresentiment?\"

  herepeatedtohimself,overandoveragain。\"Putitintowords,speakoutclearlyanddistinctly。Oh,miserablecowardthatI

  am!\"Theprinceflushedwithshameforhisownbaseness。\"HowshallIeverlookthismaninthefaceagain?MyGod,whataday!

  Andwhatanightmare,whatanightmare!\"

  Therewasamoment,duringthislong,wretchedwalkbackfromthePetersburgSide,whentheprincefeltanirresistibledesiretogostraighttoRogojin’s,waitforhim,embracehimwithtearsofshameandcontrition,andtellhimofhisdistrust,andfinishwithit——onceforall。

  Butherehewasbackathishotel。

  Howoftenduringthedayhehadthoughtofthishotelwithloathing——itscorridor,itsrooms,itsstairs。Howhehaddreadedcomingbacktoit,forsomereason。

  \"WhataregularoldwomanIamtoday,\"hehadsaidtohimselfeachtime,withannoyance。\"Ibelieveineveryfoolishpresentimentthatcomesintomyhead。\"

  Hestoppedforamomentatthedoor;agreatflushofshamecameoverhim。\"Iamacoward,awretchedcoward,\"hesaid,andmovedforwardagain;butoncemorehepaused。

  Amongalltheincidentsoftheday,onerecurredtohismindtotheexclusionoftherest;althoughnowthathisself-controlwasregained,andhewasnolongerundertheinfluenceofanightmare,hewasabletothinkofitcalmly。ItconcernedtheknifeonRogojin’stable。\"WhyshouldnotRogojinhaveasmanyknivesonhistableashechooses?\"thoughttheprince,wonderingathissuspicions,ashehaddonewhenhefoundhimselflookingintothecutler’swindow。\"Whatcouldithavetodowithme?\"hesaidtohimselfagain,andstoppedasifrootedtothegroundbyakindofparalysisoflimbsuchasattackspeopleunderthestressofsomehumiliatingrecollection。

  Thedoorwaywasdarkandgloomyatanytime;butjustatthismomentitwasrendereddoublysobythefactthatthethunder-

  stormhadjustbroken,andtherainwascomingdownintorrents。

  Andinthesemi-darknesstheprincedistinguishedamanstandingclosetothestairs,apparentlywaiting。

  Therewasnothingparticularlysignificantinthefactthatamanwasstandingbackinthedoorway,waitingtocomeoutorgoupstairs;buttheprincefeltanirresistibleconvictionthatheknewthisman,andthatitwasRogojin。Themanmovedonupthestairs;amomentlatertheprincepassedupthem,too。Hisheartfrozewithinhim。\"InaminuteortwoIshallknowall,\"hethought。

  Thestaircaseledtothefirstandsecondcorridorsofthehotel,alongwhichlaytheguests’bedrooms。AsisoftenthecaseinPetersburghouses,itwasnarrowandverydark,andturnedaroundamassivestonecolumn。

  Onthefirstlanding,whichwasassmallasthenecessaryturnofthestairsallowed,therewasanicheinthecolumn,abouthalfayardwide,andinthisnichetheprincefeltconvincedthatamanstoodconcealed。Hethoughthecoulddistinguishafigurestandingthere。Hewouldpassbyquicklyandnotlook。Hetookastepforward,butcouldbeartheuncertaintynolongerandturnedhishead。

  Theeyes——thesametwoeyes——methis!Themanconcealedinthenichehadalsotakenastepforward。Foronesecondtheystoodfacetoface。

  Suddenlytheprincecaughtthemanbytheshoulderandtwistedhimroundtowardsthelight,sothathemightseehisfacemoreclearly。

  Rogojin’seyesflashed,andasmileofinsanitydistortedhiscountenance。Hisrighthandwasraised,andsomethingglitteredinit。Theprincedidnotthinkoftryingtostopit。Allhecouldrememberafterwardswasthatheseemedtohavecalledout:

  \"Parfen!Iwon’tbelieveit。\"

  Nextmomentsomethingappearedtoburstopenbeforehim:awonderfulinnerlightilluminatedhissoul。Thislastedperhapshalfasecond,yethedistinctlyrememberedhearingthebeginningofthewail,thestrange,dreadfulwail,whichburstfromhislipsofitsownaccord,andwhichnoeffortofwillonhispartcouldsuppress。

  Nextmomenthewasabsolutelyunconscious;blackdarknessblottedouteverything。

  Hehadfalleninanepilepticfit……

  Asiswellknown,thesefitsoccurinstantaneously。Theface,especiallytheeyes,becometerriblydisfigured,convulsionsseizethelimbs,aterriblecrybreaksfromthesufferer,awailfromwhicheverythinghumanseemstobeblottedout,sothatitisimpossibletobelievethatthemanwhohasjustfallenisthesamewhoemittedthedreadfulcry。Itseemsmoreasthoughsomeotherbeing,insidethestrickenone,hadcried。Manypeoplehavebornewitnesstothisimpression;andmanycannotbeholdanepilepticfitwithoutafeelingofmysteriousterroranddread。

  Suchafeeling,wemustsuppose,overtookRogojinatthismoment,andsavedtheprince’slife。Notknowingthatitwasafit,andseeinghisvictimdisappearheadforemostintothedarkness,hearinghisheadstrikethestonestepsbelowwithacrash,Rogojinrusheddownstairs,skirtingthebody,andflunghimselfheadlongoutofthehotel,likearavingmadman。

  Theprince’sbodyslippedconvulsivelydownthestepstillitrestedatthebottom。Verysoon,infiveminutesorso,hewasdiscovered,andacrowdcollectedaroundhim。

  Apoolofbloodonthestepsnearhisheadgaverisetogravefears。Wasitacaseofaccident,orhadtherebeenacrime?Itwas,however,soonrecognizedasacaseofepilepsy,andidentificationandpropermeasuresforrestorationfollowedoneanother,owingtoafortunatecircumstance。ColiaIvolginhadcomebacktohishotelaboutseveno’clock,owingtoasuddenimpulsewhichmadehimrefusetodineattheEpanchins’,and,findinganotefromtheprinceawaitinghim,hadspedawaytothelatter’saddress。Arrivedthere,heorderedacupofteaandsatsippingitinthecoffee-room。Whilethereheheardexcitedwhispersofsomeonejustfoundatthebottomofthestairsinafit;uponwhichhehadhurriedtothespot,withapresentimentofevil,andatoncerecognizedtheprince。

  Thesuffererwasimmediatelytakentohisroom,andthoughhepartiallyregainedconsciousness,helaylonginasemi-dazedcondition。

  Thedoctorstatedthattherewasnodangertobeapprehendedfromthewoundonthehead,andassoonastheprincecouldunderstandwhatwasgoingonaroundhim,ColiahiredacarriageandtookhimawaytoLebedeff’s。Therehewasreceivedwithmuchcordiality,andthedeparturetothecountrywashastenedonhisaccount。

  ThreedayslatertheywereallatPavlofsk。

  VI。

  LEBEDEFF’Scountry-housewasnotlarge,butitwasprettyandconvenient,especiallythepartwhichwaslettotheprince。

  Arowoforangeandlemontreesandjasmines,plantedingreentubs,stoodonthefairlywideterrace。AccordingtoLebedeff,thesetreesgavethehouseamostdelightfulaspect。Someweretherewhenheboughtit,andhewassocharmedwiththeeffectthathepromptlyaddedtotheirnumber。Whenthetubscontainingtheseplantsarrivedatthevillaandweresetintheirplaces,Lebedeffkeptrunningintothestreettoenjoytheviewofthehouse,andeverytimehedidsotherenttobedemandedfromthefuturetenantwentupwithabound。

  Thiscountryvillapleasedtheprinceverymuchinhisstateofphysicalandmentalexhaustion。OnthedaythattheyleftforPavlofsk,thatisthedayafterhisattack,heappearedalmostwell,thoughinrealityhefeltveryfarfromit。Thefacesofthosearoundhimforthelastthreedayshadmadeapleasantimpression。Hewaspleasedtosee,notonlyColia,whohadbecomehisinseparablecompanion,butLebedeffhimselfandallthefamily,exceptthenephew,whohadleftthehouse。HewasalsogladtoreceiveavisitfromGeneralIvolgin,beforeleavingSt。

  Petersburg。

  ItwasgettinglatewhenthepartyarrivedatPavlofsk,butseveralpeoplecalledtoseetheprince,andassembledintheverandah。Ganiawasthefirsttoarrive。Hehadgrownsopaleandthinthattheprincecouldhardlyrecognizehim。ThencameVariaandPtitsin,whowererusticatingintheneighbourhood。AstoGeneralIvolgin,hescarcelybudgedfromLebedeff’shouse,andseemedtohavemovedtoPavlofskwithhim。LebedeffdidhisbesttokeepArdalionAlexandrovitchbyhim,andtopreventhimfrominvadingtheprince’squarters。Hechattedwithhimconfidentially,sothattheymighthavebeentakenforoldfriends。Duringthosethreedaystheprincehadnoticedthattheyfrequentlyheldlongconversations;heoftenheardtheirvoicesraisedinargumentondeepandlearnedsubjects,whichevidentlypleasedLebedeff。Heseemedasifhecouldnotdowithoutthegeneral。ButitwasnotonlyArdalionAlexandrovitchwhomLebedeffkeptoutoftheprince’sway。Sincetheyhadcometothevilla,hetreatedhisownfamilythesame。Uponthepretextthathistenantneededquiet,hekepthimalmostinisolation,andMuishkinprotestedinvainagainstthisexcessofzeal。Lebedeffstampedhisfeetathisdaughtersanddrovethemawayiftheyattemptedtojointheprinceontheterrace;notevenVerawasexcepted。

  \"Theywillloseallrespectiftheyareallowedtobesofreeandeasy;besidesitisnotproperforthem,\"hedeclaredatlast,inanswertoadirectquestionfromtheprince。

  \"Whyonearthnot?\"askedthelatter。\"Really,youknow,youaremakingyourselfanuisance,bykeepingguardovermelikethis。I

  getboredallbymyself;Ihavetoldyousooverandoveragain,andyougetonmynervesmorethaneverbywavingyourhandsandcreepinginandoutinthemysteriouswayyoudo。\"

  ItwasafactthatLebedeff,thoughhewassoanxioustokeepeveryoneelsefromdisturbingthepatient,wascontinuallyinandoutoftheprince’sroomhimself。Heinvariablybeganbyopeningthedooracrackandpeeringintoseeiftheprincewasthere,orifhehadescaped;thenhewouldcreepsoftlyuptothearm-

  chair,sometimesmakingMuishkinjumpbyhissuddenappearance。

  Healwaysaskedifthepatientwantedanything,andwhenthelatterrepliedthatheonlywantedtobeleftinpeace,hewouldturnawayobedientlyandmakeforthedoorontip-toe,withdeprecatorygesturestoimplythathehadonlyjustlookedin,thathewouldnotspeakaword,andwouldgoawayandnotintrudeagain;whichdidnotpreventhimfromreappearingintenminutesoraquarterofanhour。Coliahadfreeaccesstotheprince,atwhichLebedeffwasquitedisgustedandindignant。Hewouldlistenatthedoorforhalfanhouratatimewhilethetwoweretalking。Coliafoundthisout,andnaturallytoldtheprinceofhisdiscovery。

  \"Doyouthinkyourselfmymaster,thatyoutrytokeepmeunderlockandkeylikethis?\"saidtheprincetoLebedeff。\"Inthecountry,atleast,Iintendtobefree,andyoumaymakeupyourmindthatImeantoseewhomIlike,andgowhereIplease。\"

  \"Why,ofcourse,\"repliedtheclerk,gesticulatingwithhishands。

  Theprincelookedhimsternlyupanddown。

  \"Well,LukianTimofeyovitch,haveyoubroughtthelittlecupboardthatyouhadattheheadofyourbedwithyouhere?\"

  \"No,Ileftitwhereitwas。\"

  \"Impossible!\"

  \"Itcannotbemoved;youwouldhavetopullthewalldown,itissofirmlyfixed。\"

  \"Perhapsyouhaveonelikeithere?\"

  \"Ihaveonethatisevenbetter,muchbetter;thatisreallywhyIboughtthishouse。\"

  \"Ah!Whatvisitordidyouturnawayfrommydoor,aboutanhourago?\"

  \"The-thegeneral。Iwouldnotlethimin;thereisnoneedforhimtovisityou,prince……Ihavethedeepestesteemforhim,heisa——agreatman。Youdon’tbelieveit?Well,youwillsee,andyet,mostexcellentprince,youhadmuchbetternotreceivehim。\"

  \"MayIaskwhy?andalsowhyyouwalkaboutontiptoeandalwaysseemasifyouweregoingtowhisperasecretinmyearwheneveryoucomenearme?\"

  \"Iamvile,vile;Iknowit!\"criedLebedeff,beatinghisbreastwithacontriteair。\"Butwillnotthegeneralbetoohospitableforyou?\"

  \"Toohospitable?\"

  \"Yes。First,heproposestocomeandliveinmyhouse。Wellandgood;buthesticksatnothing;heimmediatelymakeshimselfoneofthefamily。Wehavetalkedoverourrespectiverelationsseveraltimes,anddiscoveredthatweareconnectedbymarriage。

  Itseemsalsothatyouareasortofnephewonhismother’sside;

  hewasexplainingittomeagainonlyyesterday。Ifyouarehisnephew,itfollowsthatImustalsobearelationofyours,mostexcellentprince。Nevermindaboutthat,itisonlyafoible;butjustnowheassuredmethatallhislife,fromthedayhewasmadeanensigntothe11thoflastJune,hehasentertainedatleasttwohundredguestsathistableeveryday。Finally,hewentsofarastosaythattheyneverrosefromthetable;theydined,supped,andhadtea,forfifteenhoursatastretch。Thiswentonforthirtyyearswithoutabreak;therewasbarelytimetochangethetable-cloth;directlyonepersonleft,anothertookhisplace。Onfeast-daysheentertainedasmanyasthreehundredguests,andtheynumberedsevenhundredonthethousandthanniversaryofthefoundationoftheRussianEmpire。Itamountstoapassionwithhim;itmakesoneuneasytohearofit。Itisterribletohavetoentertainpeoplewhodothingsonsuchascale。ThatiswhyIwonderwhethersuchamanisnottoohospitableforyouandme。\"

  \"Butyouseemtobeonthebestoftermswithhim?\"

  \"Quitefraternal——Ilookuponitasajoke。Letusbebrothers-

  in-law,itisallthesametome,——ratheranhonourthannot。ButinspiteofthetwohundredguestsandthethousandthanniversaryoftheRussianEmpire,Icanseethatheisaveryremarkableman。Iamquitesincere。YousaidjustnowthatIalwayslookedasifIwasgoingtotellyouasecret;youareright。Ihaveasecrettotellyou:acertainpersonhasjustletmeknowthatsheisveryanxiousforasecretinterviewwithyou。\"

  \"Whyshoulditbesecret?Notatall;Iwillcallonhermyselftomorrow。\"

  \"No,ohno!\"criedLebedeff,wavinghisarms;\"ifsheisafraid,itisnotforthereasonyouthink。Bytheway,doyouknowthatthemonstercomeseverydaytoinquireafteryourhealth?\"

  \"Youcallhimamonstersooftenthatitmakesmesuspicious。\"

  \"Youmusthavenosuspicions,nonewhatever,\"saidLebedeffquickly。\"Ionlywantyoutoknowthatthepersoninquestionisnotafraidofhim,butofsomethingquite,quitedifferent。\"

  \"Whatonearthissheafraidof,then?Tellmeplainly,withoutanymorebeatingaboutthebush,\"saidtheprince,exasperatedbytheother’smysteriousgrimaces。

  \"Ahthatisthesecret,\"saidLebedeff,withasmile。

  \"Whosesecret?\"

  \"Yours。Youforbademeyourselftomentionitbeforeyou,mostexcellentprince,\"murmuredLebedeff。Then,satisfiedthathehadworkedupMuishkin’scuriositytothehighestpitch,headdedabruptly:\"SheisafraidofAglayaIvanovna。\"

  Theprincefrownedforamomentinsilence,andthensaidsuddenly:

  \"Really,Lebedeff,Imustleaveyourhouse。WhereareGavrilaArdalionovitchandthePtitsins?Aretheyhere?Haveyouchasedthemaway,too?\"

  \"Theyarecoming,theyarecoming;andthegeneralaswell。I

  willopenallthedoors;Iwillcallallmydaughters,allofthem,thisveryminute,\"saidLebedeffinalowvoice,thoroughlyfrightened,andwavinghishandsasheranfromdoortodoor。

  AtthatmomentColiaappearedontheterrace;heannouncedthatLizabethaProkofievnaandherthreedaughterswereclosebehindhim。

  Movedbythisnews,Lebedeffhurrieduptotheprince。

  \"ShallIcallthePtitsins,andGavrilaArdalionovitch?ShallI

  letthegeneralin?\"heasked。

  \"Whynot?Letinanyonewhowantstoseeme。Iassureyou,Lebedeff,youhavemisunderstoodmypositionfromtheveryfirst;

  youhavebeenwrongallalong。Ihavenottheslightestreasontohidemyselffromanyone,\"repliedtheprincegaily。

  Seeinghimlaugh,Lebedeffthoughtfittolaughalso,andthoughmuchagitatedhissatisfactionwasquitevisible。

  Coliawasright;theEpanchinladieswereonlyafewstepsbehindhim。AstheyapproachedtheterraceothervisitorsappearedfromLebedeff’ssideofthehouse-thePtitsins,Gania,andArdalionAlexandrovitch。

  TheEpanchinshadonlyjustheardoftheprince’sillnessandofhispresenceinPavlofsk,fromColia;anduptothistimehadbeeninastateofconsiderablebewildermentabouthim。Thegeneralbroughttheprince’scarddownfromtown,andMrs。

  Epanchinhadfeltconvincedthathehimselfwouldfollowhiscardatonce;shewasmuchexcited。

  Invainthegirlsassuredherthatamanwhohadnotwrittenforsixmonthswouldnotbeinsuchadreadfulhurry,andthatprobablyhehadenoughtodointownwithoutneedingtobustledowntoPavlofsktoseethem。Theirmotherwasquiteangryattheveryideaofsuchathing,andannouncedherabsoluteconvictionthathewouldturnupthenextdayatlatest。

  Sonextdaytheprincewasexpectedallthemorning,andatdinner,tea,andsupper;andwhenhedidnotappearintheevening,Mrs。Epanchinquarrelledwitheveryoneinthehouse,findingplentyofpretextswithoutsomuchasmentioningtheprince’sname。

  Onthethirddaytherewasnotalkofhimatall,untilAglayaremarkedatdinner:\"Mammaiscrossbecausetheprincehasn’tturnedup,\"towhichthegeneralrepliedthatitwasnothisfault。

  Mrs。Epanchinmisunderstoodtheobservation,andrisingfromherplaceshelefttheroominmajesticwrath。Intheevening,however,Coliacamewiththestoryoftheprince’sadventures,sofarasheknewthem。Mrs。Epanchinwastriumphant;althoughColiahadtolistentoalonglecture。\"Heidlesaboutherethewholedaylong,onecan’tgetridofhim;andthenwhenheiswantedhedoesnotcome。Hemighthavesentalineifhedidnotwishtoinconveniencehimself。\"

  Atthewords\"onecan’tgetridofhim,\"Coliawasveryangry,andnearlyflewintoarage;butheresolvedtobequietforthetimeandshowhisresentmentlater。Ifthewordshadbeenlessoffensivehemighthaveforgiventhem,sopleasedwashetoseeLizabethaProkofievnaworriedandanxiousabouttheprince’sillness。

  ShewouldhaveinsistedonsendingtoPetersburgatonce,foracertaingreatmedicalcelebrity;butherdaughtersdissuadedher,thoughtheywerenotwillingtostaybehindwhensheatoncepreparedtogoandvisittheinvalid。Aglaya,however,suggestedthatitwasalittleunceremonioustogoenmassetoseehim。

  \"Verywellthen,stayathome,\"saidMrs。Epanchin,andagoodthingtoo,forEvgeniePavlovitchiscomingdownandtherewillbenooneathometoreceivehim。\"

  Ofcourse,afterthis,Aglayawentwiththerest。Infact,shehadneverhadtheslightestintentionofdoingotherwise。

  PrinceS。,whowasinthehouse,wasrequestedtoescorttheladies。HehadbeenmuchinterestedwhenhefirstheardoftheprincefromtheEpanchins。Itappearedthattheyhadknownoneanotherbefore,andhadspentsometimetogetherinalittleprovincialtownthreemonthsago。PrinceS。hadgreatlytakentohim,andwasdelightedwiththeopportunityofmeetinghimagain,Thegeneralhadnotcomedownfromtownasyet,norhadEvgeniePavlovitcharrived。

  ItwasnotmorethantwoorthreehundredyardsfromtheEpanchins’housetoLebedeff’s。ThefirstdisagreeableimpressionexperiencedbyMrs。Epanchinwastofindtheprincesurroundedbyawholeassemblyofotherguests——nottomentionthefactthatsomeofthosepresentwereparticularlydetestableinhereyes。

  Thenextannoyingcircumstancewaswhenanapparentlystrongandhealthyyoungfellow,welldressed,andsmiling,cameforwardtomeetherontheterrace,insteadofthehalf-dyingunfortunatewhomshehadexpectedtosee。

  Shewasastonishedandvexed,andherdisappointmentpleasedColiaimmensely。Ofcoursehecouldhaveundeceivedherbeforeshestarted,butthemischievousboyhadbeencarefulnottodothat,foreseeingtheprobablylaughabledisgustthatshewouldexperiencewhenshefoundherdearfriend,theprince,ingoodhealth。ColiawasindelicateenoughtovoicethedelighthefeltathissuccessinmanagingtoannoyLizabethaProkofievna,withwhom,inspiteoftheirreallyamicablerelations,hewasconstantlysparring。

  \"Justwaitawhile,myboy!\"saidshe;\"don’tbetoocertainofyourtriumph。\"Andshesatdownheavily,inthearm-chairpushedforwardbytheprince。

  Lebedeff,Ptitsin,andGeneralIvolginhastenedtofindchairsfortheyoungladies。Variagreetedthemjoyfully,andtheyexchangedconfidencesinecstaticwhispers。

  \"Imustadmit,prince,Iwasalittleputouttoseeyouupandaboutlikethis——Iexpectedtofindyouinbed;butIgiveyoumyword,Iwasonlyannoyedforaninstant,beforeIcollectedmythoughtsproperly。Iamalwayswiseronsecondthoughts,andI

  daresayyouarethesame。IassureyouIamasgladtoseeyouwellasthoughyouweremyownson,——yes,andmore;andifyoudon’tbelievemethemoreshametoyou,andit’snotmyfault。

  Butthatspitefulboydelightsinplayingallsortsoftricks。

  Youarehispatron,itseems。Well,IwarnyouthatonefinemorningIshalldeprivemyselfofthepleasureofhisfurtheracquaintance。\"

  \"WhathaveIdonewrongnow?\"criedColia。\"Whatwasthegoodoftellingyouthattheprincewasnearlywellagain?Youwouldnothavebelievedme;itwassomuchmoreinterestingtopicturehimonhisdeath-bed。\"

  \"Howlongdoyouremainhere,prince?\"askedMadameEpanchin。

  \"Allthesummer,andperhapslonger。\"

  \"Youarealone,aren’tyou,——notmarried?\"

  \"No,I’mnotmarried!\"repliedtheprince,smilingattheingenuousnessofthislittlefeeler。

  \"Oh,youneedn’tlaugh!Thesethingsdohappen,youknow!Nowthen——whydidn’tyoucometous?Wehaveawingquiteempty。Butjustasyoulike,ofcourse。DoyouleaseitfromHIM?——thisfellow,Imean,\"sheadded,noddingtowardsLebedeff。\"Andwhydoeshealwayswriggleso?\"

  AtthatmomentVera,carryingthebabyinherarmsasusual,cameoutofthehouse,ontotheterrace。Lebedeffkeptfidgetingamongthechairs,anddidnotseemtoknowwhattodowithhimself,thoughhehadnointentionofgoingaway。Henosoonercaughtsightofhisdaughter,thanherushedinherdirection,wavinghisarmstokeepheraway;heevenforgothimselfsofarastostamphisfoot。

  \"Ishemad?\"askedMadameEpanchinsuddenly。

  \"No,he……\"

  \"Perhapsheisdrunk?Yourcompanyisratherpeculiar,\"sheadded,withaglanceattheotherguests……

  \"Butwhataprettygirl!Whoisshe?\"

  \"ThatisLebedeff’sdaughter——VeraLukianovna。\"

  \"Indeed?Shelooksverysweet。Ishouldliketomakeheracquaintance。\"

  Thewordswerehardlyoutofhermouth,whenLebedeffdraggedVeraforward,inordertopresenther。

  \"Orphans,poororphans!\"hebeganinapatheticvoice。

  \"Thechildshecarriesisanorphan,too。SheisVera’ssister,mydaughterLuboff。Thedaythisbabewasborn,sixweeksago,mywifedied,bythewillofGodAlmighty……Yes……Veratakeshermother’splace,thoughsheisbuthersister……nothingmore……nothingmore……\"

  \"Andyou!Youarenothingmorethanafool,ifyou’llexcuseme!

  Well!well!youknowthatyourself,Iexpect,\"saidtheladyindignantly。

  Lebedeffbowedlow。\"Itisthetruth,\"hereplied,withextremerespect。

  \"Oh,Mr。Lebedeff,IamtoldyoulectureontheApocalypse。Isittrue?\"askedAglaya。

  \"Yes,thatisso……forthelastfifteenyears。\"

  \"Ihaveheardofyou,andIthinkreadofyouinthenewspapers。\"

  \"No,thatwasanothercommentator,whomthepapersnamed。Heisdead,however,andIhavetakenhisplace,\"saidtheother,muchdelighted。

  \"Weareneighbours,sowillyoubesokindastocomeoveronedayandexplaintheApocalypsetome?\"saidAglaya。\"Idonotunderstanditintheleast。\"

  \"Allowmetowarnyou,\"interposedGeneralIvolgin,thatheisthegreatestcharlatanonearth。\"Hehadtakenthechairnexttothegirl,andwasimpatienttobegintalking。\"Nodoubttherearepleasuresandamusementspeculiartothecountry,\"hecontinued,\"andtolistentoapretendedstudentholdingforthonthebookoftheRevelationsmaybeasgoodasanyother。Itmayevenbeoriginal。But……youseemtobelookingatmewithsomesurprise——mayIintroducemyself——GeneralIvolgin——Icarriedyouinmyarmsasababy——\"

  \"Delighted,I’msure,\"saidAglaya;\"IamacquaintedwithVarvaraArdalionovnaandNinaAlexandrovna。\"Shewastryinghardtorestrainherselffromlaughing。

  Mrs。Epanchinflushedup;someaccumulationofspleeninhersuddenlyneededanoutlet。ShecouldnotbearthisGeneralIvolginwhomshehadonceknown,longago——insociety。

  \"Youaredeviatingfromthetruth,sir,asusual!\"sheremarked,boilingoverwithindignation;\"younevercarriedherinyourlife!\"

  \"Youhaveforgotten,mother,\"saidAglaya,suddenly。\"Hereallydidcarrymeabout,——inTver,youknow。Iwassixyearsold,I

  remember。Hemademeabowandarrow,andIshotapigeon。Don’tyouremembershootingapigeon,youandI,oneday?\"

  \"Yes,andhemademeacardboardhelmet,andalittlewoodensword——Iremember!\"saidAdelaida。

  \"Yes,Iremembertoo!\"saidAlexandra。\"Youquarrelledaboutthewoundedpigeon,andAdelaidawasputinthecorner,andstoodtherewithherhelmetandswordandall。\"

  ThepoorgeneralhadmerelymadetheremarkabouthavingcarriedAglayainhisarmsbecausehealwaysdidsobeginaconversationwithyoungpeople。Butithappenedthatthistimehehadreallyhituponthetruth,thoughhehadhimselfentirelyforgottenthefact。ButwhenAdelaidaandAglayarecalledtheepisodeofthepigeon,hismindbecamefilledwithmemories,anditisimpossibletodescribehowthispooroldman,usuallyhalfdrunk,wasmovedbytherecollection。

  \"Iremember——Irememberitall!\"hecried。\"Iwascaptainthen。

  Youweresuchalovelylittlething——NinaAlexandrovna!——Gania,listen!IwasreceivedthenbyGeneralEpanchin。\"

  \"Yes,andlookwhatyouhavecometonow!\"interruptedMrs。

  Epanchin。\"However,Iseeyouhavenotquitedrunkyourbetterfeelingsaway。Butyou’vebrokenyourwife’sheart,sir——andinsteadoflookingafteryourchildren,youhavespentyourtimeinpublic-housesanddebtors’prisons!Goaway,myfriend,standinsomecornerandweep,andbemoanyourfallendignity,andperhapsGodwillforgiveyouyet!Go,go!I’mserious!There’snothingsofavourableforrepentanceastothinkofthepastwithfeelingsofremorse!\"

  Therewasnoneedtorepeatthatshewasserious。Thegeneral,likealldrunkards,wasextremelyemotionalandeasilytouchedbyrecollectionsofhisbetterdays。Heroseandwalkedquietlytothedoor,someeklythatMrs。Epanchinwasinstantlysorryforhim。

  \"ArdalionAlexandrovitch,\"shecriedafterhim,\"waitamoment,weareallsinners!Whenyoufeelthatyourconsciencereproachesyoualittleless,comeovertomeandwe’llhaveatalkaboutthepast!IdaresayIamfiftytimesmoreofasinnerthanyouare!Andnowgo,go,good-bye,youhadbetternotstayhere!\"sheadded,inalarm,asheturnedasthoughtocomeback。

  \"Don’tgoafterhimjustnow,Colia,orhe’llbevexed,andthebenefitofthismomentwillbelost!\"saidtheprince,astheboywashurryingoutoftheroom。

  \"Quitetrue!MuchbettertogoinhalfanhourorsosaidMrs。

  Epanchin。

  \"That’swhatcomesoftellingthetruthforonceinone’slife!\"

  saidLebedeff。\"Itreducedhimtotears。\"

  \"Come,come!thelessYOUsayaboutitthebetter——tojudgefromallIhaveheardaboutyou!\"repliedMrs。Epanchin。

  TheprincetookthefirstopportunityofinformingtheEpanchinladiesthathehadintendedtopaythemavisitthatday,iftheyhadnotthemselvescomethisafternoon,andLizabethaProkofievnarepliedthatshehopedhewouldstilldoso。

  Bythistimesomeofthevisitorshaddisappeared。

  PtitsinhadtactfullyretreatedtoLebedeff’swing;andGaniasoonfollowedhim。

  Thelatterhadbehavedmodestly,butwithdignity,onthisoccasionofhisfirstmeetingwiththeEpanchinssincetherupture。TwiceMrs。Epanchinhaddeliberatelyexaminedhimfromheadtofoot;buthehadstoodfirewithoutflinching。Hewascertainlymuchchanged,asanyonecouldseewhohadnotmethimforsometime;andthisfactseemedtoaffordAglayaagooddealofsatisfaction。

  \"ThatwasGavrilaArdalionovitch,whojustwentout,wasn’tit?\"

  sheaskedsuddenly,interruptingsomebodyelse’sconversationtomaketheremark。

  \"Yes,itwas,\"saidtheprince。

  \"Ihardlyknewhim;heismuchchanged,andforthebetter!\"

  \"Iamveryglad,\"saidtheprince。

  \"Hehasbeenveryill,\"addedVaria。

  \"Howhashechangedforthebetter?\"askedMrs。Epanchin。\"I

  don’tseeanychangeforthebetter!What’sbetterinhim?WheredidyougetTHATideafrom?WHAT’Sbetter?\"

  \"There’snothingbetterthanthe’poorknight’!\"saidColia,whowasstandingnearthelastspeaker’schair。

  \"Iquiteagreewithyouthere!\"saidPrinceS。,laughing。

  \"SodoI,\"saidAdelaida,solemnly。

  \"WHATpoorknight?\"askedMrs。Epanchin,lookingroundatthefaceofeachofthespeakersinturn。Seeing,however,thatAglayawasblushing,sheadded,angrily:

  \"Whatnonsenseyouarealltalking!Whatdoyoumeanbypoorknight?\"

  \"It’snotthefirsttimethisurchin,yourfavourite,hasshownhisimpudencebytwistingotherpeople’swords,\"saidAglaya,haughtily。

  EverytimethatAglayashowedtemperandthiswasveryoften,therewassomuchchildishpouting,such\"school-girlishness,\"asitwere,inherapparentwrath,thatitwasimpossibletoavoidsmilingather,toherownunutterableindignation。Ontheseoccasionsshewouldsay,\"Howcanthey,howDAREtheylaughatme?\"

  Thistimeeveryonelaughedather,hersisters,PrinceS。,PrinceMuishkinthoughhehimselfhadflushedforsomereason,andColia。Aglayawasdreadfullyindignant,andlookedtwiceasprettyinherwrath。

  \"He’salwaystwistingroundwhatonesays,\"shecried。

  \"Iamonlyrepeatingyourownexclamation!\"saidColia。\"AmonthagoyouwereturningoverthepagesofyourDonQuixote,andsuddenlycalledout’thereisnothingbetterthanthepoorknight。’Idon’tknowwhomyouwerereferringto,ofcourse,whethertoDonQuixote,orEvgeniePavlovitch,orsomeoneelse,butyoucertainlysaidthesewords,andafterwardstherewasalongconversation……\"

  \"Youareinclinedtogoalittletoofar,mygoodboy,withyourguesses,\"saidMrs。Epanchin,withsomeshowofannoyance。

  \"Butit’snotIalone,\"criedColia。\"Theyalltalkedaboutit,andtheydostill。Why,justnowPrinceS。andAdelaidaIvanovnadeclaredthattheyupheld’thepoorknight’;soevidentlytheredoesexista’poorknight’;andifitwerenotforAdelaidaIvanovna,weshouldhaveknownlongagowhothe’poorknight’

  was。\"

  \"Why,howamItoblame?\"askedAdelaida,smiling。

  \"Youwouldn’tdrawhisportraitforus,that’swhyyouaretoblame!AglayaIvanovnaaskedyoutodrawhisportrait,andgaveyouthewholesubjectofthepicture。Sheinventeditherself;

  andyouwouldn’t。\"

  \"WhatwasItodraw?Accordingtothelinesshequoted:

  \"’FromhisfaceheneverliftedThateternalmaskofsteel。’\"

  \"WhatsortofafacewasItodraw?Icouldn’tdrawamask。\"

  \"Idon’tknowwhatyouaredrivingat;whatmaskdoyoumean?\"

  saidMrs。Epanchin,irritably。Shebegantoseeprettyclearlythoughwhatitmeant,andwhomtheyreferredtobythegenerallyacceptedtitleof\"poorknight。\"Butwhatspeciallyannoyedherwasthattheprincewaslookingsouncomfortable,andblushinglikeaten-year-oldchild。

  \"Well,haveyoufinishedyoursillyjoke?\"sheadded,andamItobetoldwhatthis’poorknight’means,orisitasolemnsecretwhichcannotbeapproachedlightly?\"

  Buttheyalllaughedon。

  \"It’ssimplythatthereisaRussianpoem,\"beganPrinceS。,evidentlyanxioustochangetheconversation,\"astrangething,withoutbeginningorend,andallabouta’poorknight。’Amonthorsoago,wewerealltalkingandlaughing,andlookingupasubjectforoneofAdelaida’spictures——youknowitistheprincipalbusinessofthisfamilytofindsubjectsforAdelaida’spictures。Well,wehappeneduponthis’poorknight。’Idon’trememberwhothoughtofitfirst——\"

  \"Oh!AglayaIvanovnadid,\"saidColia。

  \"Verylikely——Idon’trecollect,\"continuedPrinceS。

  \"Someofuslaughedatthesubject;somelikedit;butshedeclaredthat,inordertomakeapictureofthegentleman,shemustfirstseehisface。Wethenbegantothinkoverallourfriends’facestoseeifanyofthemwoulddo,andnonesuitedus,andsothematterstood;that’sall。Idon’tknowwhyNicolaiArdalionovitchhasbroughtupthejokenow。Whatwasappropriateandfunnythen,hasquitelostallinterestbythistime。\"

  \"Probablythere’ssomenewsillinessaboutit,\"saidMrs。

  Epanchin,sarcastically。

  \"Thereisnosillinessaboutitatall——onlytheprofoundestrespect,\"saidAglaya,veryseriously。Shehadquiterecoveredhertemper;infact,fromcertainsigns,itwasfairtoconcludethatshewasdelightedtoseethisjokegoingsofar;andacarefulobservermighthaveremarkedthathersatisfactiondatedfromthemomentwhenthefactoftheprince’sconfusionbecameapparenttoall。

  \"’Profoundestrespect!’Whatnonsense!First,insanegiggling,andthen,allofasudden,adisplayof’profoundestrespect。’

  Whyrespect?Tellmeatonce,whyhaveyousuddenlydevelopedthis’profoundrespect,’eh?\"

  \"Because,\"repliedAglayagravely,\"inthepoemtheknightisdescribedasamancapableoflivinguptoanidealallhislife。

  Thatsortofthingisnottobefoundeverydayamongthemenofourtimes。Inthepoemitisnotstatedexactlywhattheidealwas,butitwasevidentlysomevision,somerevelationofpureBeauty,andtheknightworeroundhisneck,insteadofascarf,arosary。Adevice——A。N。B——themeaningofwhichisnotexplained,wasinscribedonhisshield——\"

  \"No,A。N。D。,\"correctedColia。

  \"IsayA。N。B。,andsoitshallbe!\"criedAglaya,irritably。

  \"Anyway,the’poorknight’didnotcarewhathisladywas,orwhatshedid。Hehadchosenhisideal,andhewasboundtoserveher,andbreaklancesforher,andacknowledgeherastheidealofpureBeauty,whatevershemightsayordoafterwards。Ifshehadtakentostealing,hewouldhavechampionedherjustthesame。Ithinkthepoetdesiredtoembodyinthisonepicturethewholespiritofmedievalchivalryandtheplatonicloveofapureandhigh-souledknight。Ofcourseit’sallanideal,andinthe’poorknight’thatspiritreachedtheutmostlimitofasceticism。

  HeisaDonQuixote,onlyseriousandnotcomical。Iusednottounderstandhim,andlaughedathim,butnowIlovethe’poorknight,’andrespecthisactions。\"

  SoendedAglaya;and,tolookather,itwasdifficult,indeed,tojudgewhethershewasjokingorinearnest。

  \"Pooh!hewasafool,andhisactionsweretheactionsofafool,\"saidMrs。Epanchin;\"andasforyou,youngwoman,yououghttoknowbetter。Atallevents,youarenottotalklikethatagain。Whatpoemisit?Reciteit!Iwanttohearthispoem!

  Ihavehatedpoetryallmylife。Prince,youmustexcusethisnonsense。Weneitherofuslikethissortofthing!Bepatient!\"

  Theycertainlywereputout,bothofthem。

  Theprincetriedtosaysomething,buthewastooconfused,andcouldnotgethiswordsout。Aglaya,whohadtakensuchlibertiesinherlittlespeech,wastheonlypersonpresent,perhaps,whowasnotintheleastembarrassed。Sheseemed,infact,quitepleased。

  Shenowrosesolemnlyfromherseat,walkedtothecentreoftheterrace,andstoodinfrontoftheprince’schair。Alllookedonwithsomesurprise,andPrinceS。andhersisterswithfeelingsofdecidedalarm,toseewhatnewfrolicshewasupto;ithadgonequitefarenoughalready,theythought。ButAglayaevidentlythoroughlyenjoyedtheaffectationandceremonywithwhichshewasintroducingherrecitationofthepoem。

  Mrs。Epanchinwasjustwonderingwhethershewouldnotforbidtheperformanceafterall,when,attheverymomentthatAglayacommencedherdeclamation,twonewguests,bothtalkingloudly,enteredfromthestreet。ThenewarrivalswereGeneralEpanchinandayoungman。

  Theirentrancecausedsomeslightcommotion。

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