“Itain”tmuch,“saidMrs。Tucker。“Butusuallyroomsliketheserentsforfiveaweek。”
Thesunhadheatedtheroofscorchinghot;theairofthisroom,immediatelyunderneath,waslikethatofacellarwhereafurnaceisinfullblast。ButSusanknewshewasindeedinluck。“It”scleanandnicehere,“saidshetoMrs。Tucker,“andI”mmuchobligedtoyouforbeingsoreasonablewithme。”
Andtoclinchthebargainshethenandtherepaidhalfamonth”srent。“I”llgiveyoutherestwhenmyweekatthestore”sup。”
“Nohurry,“saidMrs。Tuckerwhowashandlingthemoneyandlookingatitwithglisteninggratefuleyes。“Uspoorfolksoughtn”ttobehardoneachother——though,Lordknows,ifwewas,Ireckonwe”dnotbequitesopoor。It”sthemthathasthestreakofhardin”emwhatgetson。ButtheBibleteachesusthat”swhattoexpectinaworldofsin。Isupposeyouwanttogonowandhaveyourtrunksent?“
“ThisisallI”vegot,“saidSusan,indicatingherbagonthetable。
IntoMrs。Tucker”sfacecamealookofterrorthatmadeSusanrealizeinaninstanthowhard-pressedshemustbe。Itwasthekindoflookthatcomesintotheeyesofthedeerbroughtdownbythedogswhenitseesthehuntercomingup。
“ButI”veagoodplace,“Susanhastenedtosay。“Igettenaweek。
AndasItoldyoubefore,whenIcan”tpayI”llgorightaway。”
“I”velostsomuchinbaddebts,“explainedthelandladyhumbly。“Idon”tseemtoseewhichwaytoturn。”Thenshebrightened。“It”llallcomeoutforthebest。IworkhardandItrytodorightbyeverybody。”
“I”msureitwill,“saidSusanbelievingly。
Oftenherconfidenceinthemoralidealstrainedintoherfromchildhoodhadbeensorelytried。Butneverhadshepermittedherselfmorethanahasty,ashameddoubtthattheonlywaytogetonwastoworkandtopracticetheGoldenRule。Everyonewhowasprosperousattributedhisprosperitytothesteadfastfollowingofthatway;asforthosewhowerenotprosperous,theywereeitherlazyorbad-hearted,orwouldhavebeenevenworseoffhadtheybeenlessfaithfultothecreedthatwasbestpolicyaswellasbestforpeaceofmindandheart。
IntryingtobeasinexpensivetoSpenserasshecouldcontrive,andalsobecauseofherpassionforimprovingherself,Susanhadexploredfarintothealmostunknownartofliving,onitsshamefullyneglectedmaterialside。Shehadcultivatedthehabitofspendingmuchtimeaboutherpurchasesofeverykind——hadspenttimeintelligentlyinsavingmoneyintelligently。Shehadgonefromshoptoshop,comparingvaluesandprices。Shehadstudiedqualityinfoodandinclothing,andthusshehaddiscoveredwhatenormoussumsarewastedthroughignorance——wastedbypoorevenmorelavishlythanbyrichorwell-to-do,becausetheshopswherethepoordealthadabsolutelynocheckontheirrapacitythroughtheoccasionalcannycustomer。Shehadlearnedthefundamentaltruthofthematerialartofliving;onlywhenagoodthinghappenstobecheapisacheapthinggood。Spenser,cross-examiningherastohowshepassedthedays,foundoutaboutthiseducationshewasacquiring。Itamusedhim。“A
wasteoftime!“heusedtosay。“Paywhattheyask,anddon”tbotheryourheadwithsuchpettymatters。”Hemighthavesuspectedandaccusedherofbeingstingyhadnothergenerositybeenaboutthemostobviousandincessanttraitofhercharacter。
Shewasnowreducedtoanincomebelowwhatlifecanbedecentlymaintainedupon——thelifeofacity-dwellerwithnormaltastesforcleanlinessandhealthfulness。Sheproceededwithoutdelaytoputherinvaluableeducationintouse。Shemustfillhermindwiththepresentandwiththefuture。Shemustnotglanceback。Shemustignoreherwounds——theiraches,theirclamorousthrobs。Shetookoffherclothes,assoonasMrs。Tuckerleftheralone,brushedthemandhungthemup,putonthethinwrappershehadbroughtinherbag。Thefierceheatofthelittlepacking-caseofaroombecamelessunendurable;also,shewassavingtheclothesfromuselesswear。Shesatdownatthetableandwithpencilandpaperplannedherbudget。
Ofthetendollarsaweek,threedollarsandthirtycentsmustbesubtractedforrent——forshelter。Thisleftsixdollarsandseventycentsfortheothertwonecessaries,foodandclothing——theremustbenoincidentalexpensessincetherewasnomoneytomeetthem。Shecouldnotaffordtoprovideforcarfareonstormydays;araincoat,overshoesandumbrella,moreexpensiveattheoutset,wereincomparablycheaperinthelongrun。HerwashingandironingshewouldofcoursedoforherselfintheeveningsandonSundays。Ofthetwoitemswhichthesixdollarsandseventycentsmustcover,foodcamefirstinimportance。Howlittlecouldsheliveon?
Thatstiflinghotroom!Shewasaswetasifshehadcomeundriedfromabath。ShehadthoughtshecouldneverfeelanythingbutloveforthesunofherCityoftheSun。Butthisundreamed-ofheat——likethecruelcaressesofatooimpetuouslover——
Howlittlecouldsheliveon?“
Dividinghertotalofsixdollarsandseventycentsbyseven,shefoundthatshehadninety-fivecentsaday。Shewouldsoonhavetobuyclothes,howeverscrupulouscareshemighttakeofthoseshepossessed。ItwasmodestindeedtoestimatefifteendollarsforclothesbeforeOctober。ThatmeantshemustsavefifteendollarsintheremainingthreeweeksofJune,inJuly,AugustandSeptember——inonehundredandtendays。Shemustsaveaboutfifteencentsaday。Andoutofthatshemustbuysoapandtoothpowder,outerandunderclothes,perhapsahatandapairofshoes。Thusshecouldspendforfoodnotmorethaneightycentsaday,asmuchlessaswasconsistentwithbuyingthebestquality——forshehadlearnedbybitterexperiencetheravagespoorqualityfoodmakesinhealthandlooks,hadlearnedwhygirlsoftheworkingclassgotopiecesswiftlyaftereighteen。Shemustfighttokeephealth——sickshedidnotdarebe。Shemustfighttokeeplooks——herfigurewasherincome。
Eightycentsaday。Theoutlookwasnotsogloomy。Acupofcocoainthemorning——madeathomeofthebestcocoa,thekindthatdidnotoverheatthebloodanddisordertheskin——itwouldcostherlessthantencents。Shewouldcarrylunchwithhertothestore。Intheeveningshewouldcookachoporsomethingofthatkindonthegasstoveshewouldbuy。Somedaysshewouldbeabletosavetwentyoreventwenty-fivecentstowardclothingandthelike。Whateverelsehappened,shewasresolvedneveragaintosinktodirtandrags。Neveragain!——never!Shehadpassedthroughthatexperienceoncewithoutlossofself-respectonlybecauseitwasbywayofeducation。Togothroughitagainwouldbeyieldinggroundinthefight——thefightforadestinyworthwhilewhichsomelatentbutmightyinstinctwithinherneverpermittedhertoforget。
Shesatatthetable,withtheshuttersclosedagainstthefierylightofthesummerafternoonsun。Thathideousunacceptableheat!Witheyelidsdrooped——deepanddarkwerethecirclesroundthem——shelistenedtotheroarofthecity,asavagesoundliketheclamorofamultitudeoffamishedwildbeasts。AcityliketheCityofDestructionin“Pilgrim”sProgress“——acitywhereofallthemillions,butafewthousandsweremovingtowardorkeepinginthesunlightofcivilization。Therest,theswarmsofthecheapboardinghouses,cheaplodginghouses,tenements——thesemyriadsweresquirmingindarknessandsqualor,ignorantandnevertobelessignorant,illfedandnevertobebetterfed,clothedinpitifulabsurdragsorshoddyvulgarattemptsatfinery,andnevertobebetterclothed。Shewouldnotbeofthose!Shewouldstruggleon,wouldsinkonlytomount。Shewouldwork;
shewouldtrytodoasnearlyrightasshecould。Andintheendshemusttriumph。Shewouldgetatleastagoodpartofwhathersoulcraved,ofwhathermindcraved,ofwhatherheartcraved。
Theheatofthistenementroom!Theheattowhichpovertywasexposednakedandbound!Wouldnotanyonebejustifiedindoinganything——yes,_anything_——toescapefromthisfiend?II
ELLEN,themaid,sleptacrossthehallfromSusan,inaclosetsodirtythatnoonecouldhaveriskedinitanyarticleofclothingwiththeleastpretensiontocleanness。Itwasnobetter,noworsethanthelodgingsofmorethantwohundredthousandNewYorkers。Itsonenarrowopening,besidethedoor,gaveuponashaftwhoseodorsweresofoulthatshekeptthewindowclosed,preferringheatliketheinsideofasteamingpantotheonlyavailable“outsideair。”Thisinacivilizedcitywherehundredsofdogswithjeweledcollarssleptinluxuriousroomsondowniestbedsandhadservantstowaituponthem!ThemorningafterSusan”scoming,Ellenwokeher,astheyhadarranged,ataquarterbeforefive。Thenightbefore,Susanhadbroughtupfromthebasementalargebucketofwater;
forshehadmadeuphermind,totakeabatheveryday,atleastuntilthecoldweathersetinandrenderedsuchaluxuryimpossible。Withthiswaterandwhatshehadinherlittlepitcher,Susancontrivedtofreshenherselfup。ShehadboughtagasstoveandsomeindispensableutensilsforthreedollarsandseventeencentsinaFourteenthStreetstore,apoundofcocoaforseventycentsandtencents”worthofrolls——threerolls,wellbaked,offirstqualityflourandwithaboutasgoodbutterandotherthingsputintothedoughasonecanexpectinbreadnotmadeathome。Thesepurchaseshadreducedhercashtoforty-threecents——andsheoughttobuywithoutdelayaclockwithanalarmattachment。Andpayday——Saturday——wastwodaysaway。
Shemadeacupofcocoa,drankitslowly,eatingoneoftherolls——allinthesamemethodicalwaylikeamachinethatcontinuestorevolveafterthepowerhasbeenshutoff。Itwasthen,evenmorethanduringherfirsteveningalone,evenmorethanwhenshefromtimetotimestartledoutoftroubledsleep——itwasthen,assheforceddownherlonelybreakfast,thatshemostmissedRod。Whenshehadfinished,shecompletedhertoilet。Thefinalglanceatherselfinthelittlemirrorwasdepressing。Shelookedfreshforhernewsurroundingsandforhernewclass。Butincomparisonwithwhatsheusuallylooked,alreadytherewasadistinct,anominousfallingoff。
“I”mgladRodneversawmelookinglikethis,“shesaidalouddrearily。Takingarollforlunch,sheissuedforthathalf-pastsix。Thehourandthree-quartersshehadallowedfordressingandbreakfastinghadbeennonetoomuch。InthecoolnessandcomparativequietshewentdownUniversityPlaceandacrossWashingtonSquareundertheoldtrees,allalivewithsongandbreezeandflashesofearlymorninglight。ShewassooninBroadway”sdeepcanyon,wasdriftingabsentlyalonginthestreamofcross,mussy-lookingworkerspushingsouthward。Herheartached,herbrainthrobbed。Itwashorrible,thisloneliness;andeveryoneofthewoundswhereshehadseveredthetieswithSpenserwasbleeding。ShewasastonishedtofindherselfbeforethebuildingwhoseupperfloorswereoccupiedbyJeffriesandJonas。Howhadshegotthere?WherehadshecrossedBroadway?
“Goodmorning,MissSackville。”ItwasMissHinkle,justarriving。Hereyeswereheavy,andtherewerethecrisscrosslinesunderthemthattellastorytotheexpertinthedifferenteffectsofdifferentkindsofdissipation。MissHinklewasshowingherage——andshewas“nospringchicken。”
Susanreturnedhergreeting,gazingatherwiththedazedeyesandpuzzledsmileofanawakeningsleeper。
“I”llshowyoutheropes,“saidMissHinkle,astheyclimbedthetwoflightsofstairs。“You”llfindthejobdeadeasy。
They”remightynicepeopletoworkfor,Mr。Jeffriesespecially。Noteasyfruit,ofcourse,butniceforpeoplethathavegoton。Youdidn”tsleepwell?“
“Yes——Ithinkso。”
“Ididn”thaveachancetodroproundlastnight。Iwasoutwithoneofthebuyers。HowdoyoulikeMrs。Tucker?“
“She”sverygood,isn”tshe?“
“She”llnevergetalong。Sheworkshard,too——butnotforherself。InthisworldyouhavetolookoutforNumberOne。
Ihadaswelldinnerlastnight。Lobster——Ilovelobster——andelegantchampagne——uptoMurray”s——sucharefinedplace——allfountainsandmirrors——reallyquiteartistic。Andmygentlemanfriendwassoniceandrespectful。Youknow,wehavetogooutwiththebuyerswhentheyaskus。Ithelpsthehousesellgoods。Andwehavetobecarefulnottooffendthem。”
MissHinkle”stoneinthelastremarkwassosignificantthatSusanlookedather——and,looking,understood。
“Sometimes,“pursuedMissHinkle,eyescarefullyaverted,“sometimesanewgirlgoesoutwithanimportantcustomerandhegetsfreshandshekicksandcomplainstoMr。Jeffries——orMr。Jonas——orMr。Ratney,theheadman。Theyalwayssympathizewithher——but——well,I”venoticedthatsomehowshesoonlosesherjob。”
“Whatdoyoudowhen——whenacustomerannoysyou?“
“I!“MissHinklelaughedwithsomeembarrassment。“Oh,IdothebestIcan。”Aswiftglanceofthecynical,laughing,“fast“eyesatSusanandaway。“ThebestIcan——forthehouse——andformyself……ItalktoyoubecauseIknowyou”realadyandbecauseIdon”twanttoseeyouthrowndown。
Awomanthat”slivingquietlyathome——likealady——shecanbesqueamish。Butoutintheworldawomancan”taffordtobe——no,noraman,neither。Youdon”tfindthissetdowninthebooks,andtheydon”tpreachitinthechurches——leastwaystheydidn”twhenIusedtogotochurch。Butit”strue,allthesame。”
Theywereafewminutesearly;soMissHinklecontinuedtheconversationwhiletheywaitedfortheopeningoftheroomwhereSusanwouldbeoutfittedforherwork。“IcalledyouMissSackville,“saidshe,“butyou”vebeenmarried——haven”tyou?“
“Yes。”
“Icanalwaystell——oratleastIcanseewhetherawoman”shadexperienceornot。Well,I”veneverbeenregularlymarried,andIdon”texpectto,unlesssomethingprettygoodoffers。
ThinkI”dmarryoneoftheserottenlittleclerks?“MissHinkleansweredherownquestionwithascornfulsniff。“Theycanhardlymakealivingforthemselves。Andamanwhoamountstoanything,hewantsarefinedladytohelphimonup,notaworkinggirl。Ofcourse,there”reexceptions。Butasaruleagirlinourpositioneitherhastostaysingleormarrybeneathher——marrysomemechanicorsuchlike。Well,Iain”tsolazy,orsocrazyaboutbeingsupported,thatI”dsinktobecookandslop-carrier——andworse——foracarpenterorabricklayer。Goingoutwiththebuyers——thegentlemanlyones——hasspoiledmytaste。Ican”tstandacoarseman——coarsedressandhandsandmanners。Canyou?“
Susanturnedhastilyaway,sothatherfacewashiddenfromMissHinkle。
“I”llbetyouwasn”tmarriedtoacoarseman。”
“I”drathernottalkaboutmyself,“saidSusanwithaneffort。
“It”snotpleasant。”
HermannerofcheckingMissHinkle”sfriendlycuriositydidnotgiveoffense;itexcitedtheexperiencedworkingwoman”ssympathy。Shewenton:
“Well,Ifeelsorryforanywomanthathastowork。Ofcoursemostwomendo——andatworsethananythinginthestoresandfactories。Asbetweenbeingadrudgetosomedirtycommonlaborerlikemostwomenare,andworkinginafactoryeven,givemethefactory。Yes,givemeajobasapotslingereven,lowasthatis。Oh,I_hate_workingpeople!Iloverefinement。UptoMurray”slastnightIsatthere,eatingmylobsteranddrinkingmywine,andIpretendedIwasalady——and,my,howhappyIwas!“
Thestockroomnowopened。Susan,withthehelpofMissHinkleandthestockkeeper,dressedinoneofthetight-fittingsatinslipsthatrevealedeverycurveandlineofherform,madeeverymotionhoweverslight,everybreathshedrew,agestureofsensuousness。Asshelookedatherselfinalongglassinoneoftheshow-parlors,herfacedidnotreflecttheadmirationfranklydisplayeduponthefacesofthetwootherwomen。Thatsatinslipseemedtohaveamoralquality,animmoralcharacter。Itmadeherfeelnaked——no,asifshewerenakedandbeingpeepedatthroughacrackorkeyhole。
“You”llsoongetusedtoit,“MissHinkleassuredher。“Andyou”lllearntoshowoffthedressesandcloakstothebestadvantage。”Shelaughedherinsinuatinglittlelaughagain,amused,cynical,reckless。“Youknow,thebuyersaremen。
Gee,whatawfuljaythingsweworkoffonthem,sometimes!
Theycan”tseethedressforthefigure。Andyou”vegotsucharefinedfigure,MissSackville——thekindI”dbecrazyaboutifIwasaman。ButImustsay——”heresheeyedherselfintheglasscomplacently”mostmenpreferafigurelikemine。
Don”tthey,MissSimmons?“
Thestockkeepershookherfatshouldersinagestureofindifferentdisdain。“Theytakewhatever”shandiest——that”s_my_experience。”
Abouthalf-pastninethefirstcustomerappeared——Mr。Gideon,ithappenedtobe。HewasmakingtheroundsofthebigwholesalehousesinsearchofstockforthehugeChicagodepartmentstorethatpaidhimfifteenthousandayearandexpenses。HehadbeencontemptuousoftheofferingsofJeffriesandJonasforthewinterseason,hadpraisedwithenthusiasmthemodelsoftheirprincipalrival,Icklemeier,SchwartzandCompany。Theywereundecidedwhetherhewasreallythinkingofdesertingthemorwasfeelingforlowerprices。Mr。JeffriesbustledintotheroomwhereSusanstoodwaiting;hisflatfacequiveredwithexcitement。“Gid”scome!“
hesaidinahoarsewhisper。“Everybodygetbusy。We”lltryMissSackvilleonhim。”
AndhehimselfassistedwhiletheytrickedoutSusaninanafternooncostumeofpalegray,puttingonherheadabigpalegrayhatwithharmonizingfeathers。Themodelwasofferedinallcolorsandalsoinamodifiedformthatpermitteditsuseforeitherafternoonorevening。Susanhadreceivedherinstructions,sowhenshewasdressed,shewasreadytosweepintoGideon”spresencewithlanguidmajesty。Jeffries”eyesglistenedashenotedherwalk。“Shelooksasifshereallywasalady!“exclaimedhe。“IwishIcouldmakemydaughtersmovearoundontheirtrotterslikethat。”
Gideonwasenthronedinaneasychair,smokingacigar。Hewasasparemanofperhapsforty-five,withnointentionofabandoningthepretensionstoyouthformanyayear。Indresshewasasspickandspanasatailoratthetrade”sannualconvention。Buthehadevidentlybeen“goingsome“forseveraldays;thesour,worn,haggardfacerisingabovehiselegantlyfittingcollarsuggestedamoth-eatenjaguarthathasbeenforweeksonshortrationsornone。
“What”sthematter?“hesnapped,asthedoorbegantoopen。
“Idon”tliketohekeptwaiting。”
InsweptSusan;andJeffries,rubbinghisthickhands,saidfawningly,“ButIthink,Mr。Gideon,you”llsayitwasworthwaitingfor。”
Gideon”sangry,arroganteyessoftenedatfirstglimpseofSusan。“Um!“hegrunted,somesuchsoundasthejaguaraforesaidwouldmakewhenthefirstchunkoffoodhurtledthroughthebarsandlandedonhispaws。HesatwithcigarpoisedbetweenhislongwhitefingerswhileSusanwalkedupanddownbeforehim,displayingthedressatallangles,Jeffriesexpatiatinguponitthewhile。
“Don”ttalksodamnmuch,Jeff!“hecommandedwiththeinsolenceofacustomercontainingpossibilitiesoflargeprofit。“Ijudgeformyself。I”mnotadamnfool。”
“Ishouldsaynot,“criedJeffries,laughingthemerchant”slaughforacustomer”spleasantry。“ButIcan”thelptalkingaboutit,Gid,it”ssolovely!“
Jeffries”shrewdeyesleapedforjoywhenGideongotupfromhischairand,underpretenseofexaminingthegarment,investigatedSusan”sfigure。Ashisgentle,insinuatinghandstraveledoverher,hiseyessoughthers。“Excuseme,“saidJeffries。“I”llseethattheygettheotherthingsready。”
Andouthewent,winkingatMaryHinkletofollowhim——anunnecessarygestureasshewasalreadyonherwaytothedoor。
Gideonunderstoodaswellasdidtheywhytheyleft。“Idon”tthinkI”veseenyoubefore,mydear,“saidhetoSusan。
“Icameonlythismorning,“repliedshe。
“IliketoknoweverybodyIdealwith。Wemustgetbetteracquainted。You”vegotthebestfigureinthebusiness——theverybest。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusanwithagrave,distantsmile。
“Gotadatefordinnertonight?“inquiredhe;and,assumingthateverythingwouldyieldprecedencetohim,hedidnotwaitforareply,butwenton,“Tellmeyouraddress。I”llsendacabforyouatseveno”clock。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusan,“butIcan”tgo。”
Gideonsmiled。“Oh,don”tbeshy。Ofcourseyou”llgo。AskJeffries。He”lltellyouit”sallright。”
“TherearereasonswhyI”drathernotbeseenintherestaurants。”
“That”sevenbetter。I”llcomeinthecabmyselfandwe”llgotoaquietplace。”
Hiseyessmiledinsinuatinglyather。Nowthatshelookedathimmorecarefullyhewasunusuallyattractiveforamanofhistype——hadstrengthandintelligenceinhisfeatures,hadasuggestionofmastery,ofoneusedtoobedience,inhisvoice。
Histeethwereevenandsound,hislipsfirmyetnottoothin。
“Come,“saidhepersuasively。“I”llnoteatyouup”withagayandgracioussmile”atleastI”lltrynotto。”
SusanrememberedwhatMissHinklehadtoldher。Shesawthatshemusteitheraccepttheinvitationorgiveupherposition。
Shesaid:
“Verywell,“andgavehimheraddress。
BackcameJeffriesandMissHinklecarryingthefirstofthewraps。Gideonwavedthemaway。“You”veshown”emtomebefore,“saidhe。“Idon”twanttosee”emagain。Givemetheeveninggowns。”
Susanwithdrew,soontoappearinadressthatleftherarmsandneckbare。Gideoncouldnotgetenoughofthis。Jeffrieskeptherwalkingupanddownuntilshewasreadytodropwithwearinessofthemonotony,ofthedistastefulplayofGideon”sfieryglanceuponherarmsandshouldersandthroat。Gideontriedtodrawherintoconversation,butshewould——indeedcould——gonofurtherthandirectanswerstohisdirectquestions。“Nevermind,“saidhetoherinanundertone。
“I”llcheeryouupthisevening。IthinkIknowhowtoorderadinner。”
HerinstantconquestofthedifficultandvaluableGideonsoelatedJeffriesthathepiledtheworkonher。Heusedherwitheveryimportantbuyerwhocamethatday。Thetemperaturewasupinthehighnineties,thehotmoistairstoodstagnantasabarnyardpool;thewintermodelswerecruellyhotandheavy。Alldaylong,withapauseofhalfanhourtoeatherrollanddrinkaglassofwater,Susanwalkedupanddowntheshowparlorsweightedwithdressesandcloaks,fursforarcticweather。Theothergirls,eventhosedoingalmostnothing,wereallbutprostrated。Itwaslittleshortofintolerable,thisstruggletogainthe“honest,self-respectinglivingbyhonestwork“thattherewassomuchtalkabout。Towardfiveo”clockhernervesabruptlyandcompletelygaveway,andshefainted——forthefirsttimeinherlife。Atoncethewholeestablishmentwasinanuproar。Jeffriescursedhimselfloudlyforhisshortsightedness,forhisoverestimatingheryoungstrength。“She”lllooklikehellthisevening,“hewailed,wringinghishandslikeadistractedpeasantwoman。“Maybeshewon”tbeabletogooutatall。”
Shesooncameround。Theybroughtherwhiskey,andafterwardteaandsandwiches。Andwiththepowerofquickrecuperationthatisthemostfascinatingmiracleofhealthyyouth,shenotonlyshowednosignofherbreakdownbutlookedmuchbetter。
Andshefeltbetter。Weshallsomedayunderstandwhyitisthatifaseverephysicalblowfollowsuponamentalblow,recoveryfromthephysicalblowisalwaysaccompaniedbyareliefofthementalstrain。Susancameoutofherfitoffaintnessandexhaustionwithadifferentpointofview——asiftimehadbeenlongatworksofteningher,grief。Spenserseemedpartofthepresentnolonger,butofthepast——apastfarmoreremotethanyesterday。
MaryHinklesatwithherasshedrankthetea。“DidyoumakeadatewithGid?“inquiredshe。HertoneletSusanknowthatthequestionhadbeenpromptedbyJeffries。
“Heaskedmetodinewithhim,andIsaidIwould。”
“Haveyougotanicedress——dinnerdress,Imean?“
“ThelinenoneI”mwearingisall。Myotherdressisforcoolerweather。”
“ThenI”llgiveyouoneoutofstock——ImeanI”llborrowoneforyou。Thisdinner”sahouseaffair,youknow——togetGid”sorder。It”llbeworththousandstothem。”
“Therewouldn”tbeanythingtofitmeonsuchshortnotice,“
saidSusan,castingaboutforanexcusefornotwearingborrowedfinery。
“Why,you”vegotamodelfigure。I”llpickyououtawhitedress——andablackandwhitehat。Iknow”emall,andIknowonethat”llmakeyoulooksimplylovely。”
Susandidnotprotest。Shewasprofoundlyindifferenttowhathappenedtoher。Lifeseemedashowinwhichshehadnopart,andatwhichshesatalistlessspectator。Afewminutes,andinpuffedJeffries,solicitousasafussyoldbirdwithanewfamily。
“You”realotbetter,ain”tyou?“criedhe,beforehehadlookedather。“Oh,yes,you”llbeallright。Andyou”llhavealovelytimewithMr。Gideon。He”saperfectgentleman——knowshowtotreatalady……TheminuteIlaideyesonyouI
saidtomyself,saidI,`Jeffries,she”samascot。”Andyouare,mydear。You”llgetustheorder。Butyoumustn”ttalkbusinesswithhim,youunderstand?“
“Yes,“saidSusan,wearily。
“He”sagentleman,youknow,anditdon”tdotomixbusinessandsocialpleasures。Youstringhimalongquietandladylikeandelegant,asiftherewasn”tanysuchthingsascloaksordressesintheworld。He”llunderstandallright……Ifyoulandtheorder,mydear,I”llseethatyougetanicepresent。Anicedress——theonewe”regoingtolendyou——ifhegivesusaslice。Thedressandtwenty-fiveincash,ifhegivesusall。How”sthat?“
“Thankyou,“saidSusan。“I”lldomybest。”
“You”lllandit。You”lllandit。IfeelasifwehaditwithhisO。K。onit。”
Susanshivered。“Don”t——don”tcountonmetoomuch,“shesaidhesitatingly。“I”mnotinverygoodspirits,I”msorrytosay。”
“Alittlepressedformoney?“Jeffrieshesitated,madeaneffort,blurtedoutwhatwasforhim,thebusinessman,agiddygenerosity。“Onyourwayout,stopatthecashier”s。He”llgiveyouthisweek”spayinadvance。”Jeffrieshesitated,decidedagainstdangerousliberality。“Notten,youunderstand,butsaysix。Yousee,youwon”thavebeenwithusafullweek。”Andhehurriedaway,frightenedbyhisprodigality,bythesehystericalimpulsesthatwererushinghimfarfromthecourseofsoundbusinesssense。“AsJonessays,I”magenerousoldfool,“hemuttered。“Mysoftheart”llruinmeyet。”
JeffriessentMaryHinklehomewithSusantocarrythedressandhat,tohelphermakeatoiletandto“startheroffright。”Inthehourbeforetheyleftthestoretherewasofferedatypicalillustrationofwhyandhow“business“isabletosuspendthenormalmoralsenseandtosubstituteforitahighlyingeniouscounterfeitofsuprememoralobligationtoit。ThehystericalJeffrieshadinfectedtheentirepersonnelwithhisexcitement,withthesensethatagreatbattlewasimpendingandthatthecauseofthehouse,whichwasthecauseofeveryonewhodrewpayfromit,hadbeenintrustedtotheyoungrecruitwiththefascinatingfigureandthesweet,sadface。AndSusan”ssensitivenaturewassoonvibratinginresponsetothisfeeling。Itterrifiedherthatshe,theinexperienced,hadsuchgraveresponsibility。Itmadeherheartheavytothinkofprobablefailure,whenthehousehadbeensogoodtoher,hadtakenherin,hadgivenherunusualwages,hadmadeitpossibleforhertogetastartinlife,hadintrustedtoheritscause,itschancetoretrieveabadseasonandtoprotectitsemployeesinsteadofdischargingalotofthem。
“Haveyougotlongwhitegloves?“askedMaryHinkle,astheywalkedupBroadway,shecarryingthedressandSusanthehatbox。
“Onlyafewpairsofshortones。”
“Youmusthavelongwhitegloves——andapairofwhitestockings。”
“Ican”taffordthem。”
“Oh,Jeffriestoldmetoaskyou——andtogotoworkandbuythemifyouhadn”t。”
TheystoppedatWanamaker”s。Susanwasabouttopay,whenMarystoppedher。“Ifyoupay,“saidshe,“maybeyou”llgetyourmoneybackfromthehouse,andmaybeyouwon”t。IfIpay,they”llnotmakeakickongivingitbacktome。”
ThedressMaryhadselectedwasasimplewhitebatiste,cutoutattheneckprettily,andwiththeelbowsleevesthatwerethenthefashion。“Yourarmsandthroatarelovely,“saidMary。
“Andyourhandsaremightynice,too——that”swhyI”msureyou”veneverbeenarealworkinggirl——leastways,notforalongtime。Whenyougettotherestaurantanddrawoffyourglovesinaslow,careless,ladylikekindofway,andputyourelbowsonthetable——my,howhewilltakeon!“Marylookedatherwithanintensebutnotatallmalignantenvy。“Ifyoudon”tlandhigh,it”llbebecauseyou”reafool。Andyouain”tthat。”
“I”mafraidIam,“repliedSusan。“Yes,IguessI”mwhat”scalledafool——whatprobablyisafool。”
“Youwanttolookoutthen,“warnedMissHinkle。“Youwanttogotoworkandgetoverthat。Beautydon”tcount,unlessagirl”sgotshrewdness。Thestreetsarefullofbeautiessellin”outforabareliving。Theythoughttheycouldn”thelpwinning,andtheygotleft,andtheplaingirlswhohadtohustleandmanagehavepassedthem。GotoDel”sorRector”sortheWaldorfortheMadridoranyofthosehigh-tonedplaces,andseethewomenwiththeswellclothesandjewelry!Themarriedones,andtheotherkind,both。Aretheyravingtearingbeauties?Notoften……ThetroublewithmeisI”vebeentoogood-heartedandtoosoftaboutbeingflattered。
Iwastoogoodlooking,andasmalleasylivingcametooeasy。
You——I”dsayyouwere——thatyouhadbrainsbutwereshyaboutusingthem。What”sthegoodofhavingthem?Mightaswellbeaboob。Then,too,you”vegottogotoworkandlookoutaboutbeingtoorefined。Therefined,niceonesgoesthelowest——iftheygetpushed——andthisisapushingworld。You”llgetpushedjustasfarasyou”lllet”em。Takeitfromme。I”vebeendowntheline。”
Susan”slowspiritssanklower。Thesedisagreeabletruths——forobservationandexperiencemadeherfeartheyweretruths——filledherwithdespondency。Whatwasthematterwithlife?Asbetweenthemoralityshehadbeentaughtandthepracticalmoralityofthisworlduponwhichshehadbeencast,whichwastheright?How“takehold“?Howaverttheimpendingdisaster?Whatofthe“good“should——_must_——shethrowaway?Whatshould——_must_——sheclingto?
MaryHinklewasshockedbythepoorlittleroom。“Thisisnoplaceforalady!“criedshe。“Butitwon”tlastlong——notaftertonight,ifyouplayyourcardshalfwayright。”
“I”mverywellsatisfied,“saidSusan。“IfIcanonlykeepthis!“
Shefeltnointerestinthetoiletuntilthedressandhatwereunpackedandlaidoutuponthebed。Atsightofthemhereyesbecameakeenandlivelygray——nevervioletforthatkindofemotion——andtheresurgeduptheloveoffinerythatdwellsineverynormalwoman——andineverynormalman——thatisputtherebyahereditydatingbackthroughtheagestotheverybeginningofconsciouslife——anddoesnotleavethemuntillifegivesupthebattleandpreparestovacatebeforedeath。
Ellen,themaid,passingthedoor,sawandenteredtoaddherecstaticexclamationstotheexcitement。DownsherantobringMrs。Tucker,whonosoonerbeheldtheglorydisplayeduponthehumblebedthanshetoowasinaturmoil。Susandressedwiththeaidofthreemaidsasinterestedandeageraseverrobedaqueenforcoronation。Ellenbroughthotwaterandalargerbowl。Mrs。Tuckerwishedtolendahighlyscentedtoiletsoapsheusedwhensheputongalaattire;butSusaninsisteduponherownplainsoap。Theyallhelpedherbathe;theyhelpedherselectthebestunderclothesfromhersmallstore。Susanwouldputonherownstockings;butEllengotonefootintooneoftheslippersandMrs。Tuckerlookedaftertheotherfoot。
“Ain”ttheylovely?“saidEllentoMrs。Tucker,astheyknelttogetherattheirtask。“Ineverseesuchfeet。Notalumpon”em,butlikefeetinapicture。”
“Ittakesamightygoodlegtolookgoodinawhitestocking,“
observedMary。“Butyoursissoniceandlongandslimthatthey”dstandmostanything。”
Mrs。TuckerandEllenstoodbywithnointerferencesavesuggestionandcomment,whileMary,whoatonetimeworkedforahairdresser,didSusan”sthickdarkhair。Susanwouldpermitnoelaborations,muchtoMissHinkle”sregret。Butthethreeagreedthatshewasrightwhenthesimplesweepofthevitalblue-blackhairwasfinishedinalooseandgracefulknotattheback,andSusan”ssmall,healthilypallidfacelookeditsloveliest,withtheviolet-grayeyessoftandsweetandserious。Mrs。Tuckerbroughtthehatfromthebed,andSusanputiton——alargeblackstrawofamostbecomingshapewithtwopurewhiteplumescurlingroundthecrownandathird,notsolong,risinggracefullyfromthebigbucklewherethethreeplumesmet。Andnowcametheputtingonofthedress。Withasmuchcareasiftheywerehandlingarareandfragilevase,MaryandMrs。TuckerheldthedressforSusantostepintoit。
EllenkeptherpetticoatinplacewhiletheothertwoescortedthedressupSusan”sform。
Thenthethreeworkedtogetherathookingandsmoothing。Susanwashedherhandsagain,refusedtoletMrs。Tuckerrunandbringpowder,producedfromadrawersomepreparedchalkandwithitsafeguardedhernoseagainstshine;shetuckedthepowderragintoherstocking。Lastofallthegloveswentonandasmallhandkerchiefwasthrustintothepalmoftheleftglove。
“HowdoIlook?“askedSusan。“Lovely“”Fine“”Justgrand,“
exclaimedthethreemaids。
“Ifeelawfullydressedup,“saidshe。“Andit”ssohot!“
“Youmustgorightdownstairswhereit”scoolandyouwon”tgetwilted,“criedMrs。Tucker。“Holdyourskirtscloseontheway。Thestepsandwallsain”tnonetooclean。”
Inthebathroomdownstairstherewasalongmirrorbuiltintothewall,arelicoftheoldhouse”slongdepartedyouthofgrandeur。Asthetenant——Mr。Jessop——wasout,Mrs。Tuckerledthewayintoit。ThereSusanhadthefirstsatisfactorylookatherself。Sheknewshewasaprettywoman;shewouldhavebeenweak-mindedhadshenotknownit。Butshewasamazedatherself。Atouchhereandthere,asinuousshiftingofthebodywithinthegarments,andthesuggestionof“dressedup“
vanishedbeforethereflectedeyesofheragitatedassistants,whodidnotknowwhathadhappenedbutonlysawtheresults。
Shehardlyknewthetallbeautifulwomanoffashiongazingatherfromthemirror。Coulditbethatthiswasherhair?——theseeyeshers——andthemouthandnoseandtheskin?
Wasthislongslenderfigureherveryown?Whatanastoundingdifferenceclothesdidmake!NeverbeforehadSusanwornanythingnearlysofine。“ThisisthewayIoughttolookallthetime,“thoughtshe。“AndthisisthewayI_will_look!“
Onlybetter——muchbetter。Alreadyhertrueeyewasseeingthedefects,thechancesforimprovement——howthehatcouldbere-bentandre-trimmedtoadaptittoherfeatures,howthedresscouldbealteredtomakeitmoretasteful,moreeffectiveinsubtlyattractingattentiontoherfigure。
“Howmuchdoyousupposethedresscost,MissHinkle?“askedEllen——thequestionMrs。Tuckerhadbeendyingtoputbuthadrefrainedfromputtinglestitshouldsoundunrefined。
“Itcostsninetywholesale,“saidMissHinkle。“That”dmeanahundredandtwenty-five——ahundredandfifty,maybeifyouwastotrytobuyitinadepartmentstore。Andthehat——well,Lichtenstein”daskfiftyorsixtyforitandneverturnahair。”
“Gosh——ee?“exclaimedEllen。“Didyoueverhearthelike?“
“I”mnotsurprised,“saidMrs。Tucker,whoinfactwasflabbergasted。“Well——it”sworththemoneytothemthatcanaffordtobuyit。ThegoodLordputeverythingonearthtobeused,Ireckon。AndMissSackvilleisthebuildforthingslikethat。Nowit”dbefoolishonme,withastomachandsitterthatwon”tletnoskirthangfittolookat。”
Thebellrang。TheexcitementdiedfromSusan”sface,leavingitpaleandcold。Awaveofnauseasweptthroughher。Ellenpeepedout,Mrs。TuckerandMissHinklelisteningwithanxiousfaces。“It”shim!“whisperedEllen,“andthere”sataxi,too。”
ItwasdecidedthatEllenshouldgotothedoor,thatassheopeneditSusanshouldcomecarelesslyfromthebackroomandadvancealongthehall。AndthisprogramwascarriedoutwiththeresultthatasGideonsaid,“IsMissSackvillehere?“MissSackvilleappearedbeforehiswidening,wondering,admiringeyes。Hewasdressedintheextremeoffashionandcostlinessingoodtaste;whileitwouldhavebeenimpossibleforhimtolookdistinguished,hedidlookwhathewas——aprosperousbusinessmanwithprospects。Hecameperfumedandrustling。
Buthefeltcompletelyoutclassed——untilheremindedhimselfthatforallherbraveshowoffashionableladyshewasonlyamodelwhilehewasafifteen-thousand-a-yearmanonthewaytoapartnership。
“Don”tyouthinkwemightdineontheverandaatSherry”s?“
suggestedhe。“It”dbecoolthere。”
Atsightofhimshehadnervedherself,hadkeyedherselfuptowardrecklessness。Shewasinforit。Shewouldputitthrough。Nofutilecowardlyshrinkingandwhimpering!Whynottrytogetwhateverpleasuretherewasachancefor?
But——Sherry”s——wasitsafe?Yes,almostanyoftheFifthAvenueplaces——excepttheWaldorf,possibly——wassafeenough。
ThecircuitofSpenserandhisfriendslayinthemoreBohemianBroadwaydistrict。HehadtakenhertoSherry”sonlyonce,toseeaspartofaNewYorkeducationtheSundaynightcrowdoffashionablepeople。“Ifyoulike,“saidshe。
Gideonbeamed。Hewouldbeabletoshowoffhisprize!AstheydroveawaySusanglancedatthefrontparlorwindows,sawthecurtainsagitated,feltthethreefriendly,excitedfacespalpitating。Sheleanedfromthecabwindow,wavedherhand,smiled。ThethreefacesinstantlyappearedandimmediatelyhidagainlestGideonshouldsee。
ButGideonwastoobusyplanningconversation。HeknewMissSackvillewas“ascommonastherestof”em——andanoldhandatthebusiness,nodoubt。”Buthesimplycouldnotabruptlybreakthroughthebarrier;hemustsquirmthroughgradually。
“That”saswelloutfityou”vegoton,“hebegan。
“Yes,“repliedSusanwithherusualcandor。“MissHinkleborroweditoutofthestockformetowear。”
Gideonwasconfused。Heknewhowshehadgotthehatanddress,butheexpectedhertomakeapretense。Hecouldn”tunderstandhernotdoingit。Suchcandor——anykindofcandor——wasn”tinthegameofmenandwomenaswomenhadplayeditinhisexperience。Thewomen——allsortsofwomen——liedandfakedattheirbusinessjustasmendidinthebusinessofbuyingandsellinggoods。Andhervoice——andherwayofspeaking——theymadehimfeelmorethaneveroutofhisclass。
Hemustgetsomethingtodrinkassoonasitcouldbeserved;
thatwouldputhimathisease。Yes——adrink——thatwouldsethimupagain。Andadrinkforher——thatwouldbringherdownfromthisqueernewkindofhighhorse。“Iguessshemustbeatopnotcher——therealthing,comedownintheworld——andnotoutofthenearsilks。Butshe”llbeallrightafteradrink。
Onedrinkofliquormakesthewholeworldkin。”Thatlastthoughtremindedhimofhisownclevernessandheattackedthesituationafresh。Buttheconversationastheydroveuptheavenuewasonthewholeconstrainedandintermittent——chieflyabouttheweather。Susanwasobserving——andfeeling——andenjoying。Upbubbledheryoungspiritsperpetuallyrenewedbyherhealthy,vitalyouthofbody。ShewasseeingherbelovedCityoftheSunagain。AstheyturnedoutoftheavenueforSherry”smainentranceSusanrealizedthatshewasinForty-fourthStreet。ThestreetwheresheandSpenserhadlived!——hadlivedonlyyesterday。No——notyesterday——impossible!
Hereyesclosedandsheleanedbackinthecab。
Gideonwaswaitingtohelpheralight。Hesawthatsomethingwaswrong;itstoodoutobviouslyinherghastlyface。Hefearedthecarriagemenroundtheentrancewould“catchon“tothefactthathewasescortingagirlsounusedtoswellsurroundingsthatshewasreadytofaintwithfright。“Don”tbefoolish,“hesaidsharply。Susanrevivedherself,descended,andwithheadbentlowandtremblingbodyenteredtherestaurant。IntheagitationofgettingatableandsettlingatitGideonforgotforthemomenthersicklypallor。
Hebegantoorderatonce,notconsultingher——forhepridedhimselfonhisknowledgeofcookeryandassumedthatsheknewnothingaboutit。“Haveacocktail?“askedhe。“Yes,ofcourseyouwill。Youneeditbadandyouneeditquick。”
Shesaidshepreferredsherry。Shehadintendedtodrinknothing,butshemusthaveaidinconqueringherfaintnessandoverwhelmingdepression。Gideontookadrymartini;orderedasecondforhimselfwhenthefirstcame,andhadthembothdownbeforeshefinishedhersherry。“I”veorderedchampagne,“saidhe。“Isupposeyoulikesweetchampagne。Mostladiesdo,butIcan”tstandseeingitservedeven。”
“No——Ilikeitverydry,“saidSusan。
Gideonglintedhiseyesgaylyather,showedhiswhitejaguarteeth。“Soyou”reacquaintedwithfizz,areyou?“Hewasfeelinghisabsurdnotionofinequalityinherfavordissipateasthefumesofthecocktailsrosestraightandstrongfromhisemptystomachtohisbrain。“Doyouknow,I”veasortoffeelingthatwe”regoingtolikeeachotheralot。Ithinkwemakeahandsomecouple——eh——what”syourfirstname?“
“Lorna。”
“Lorna,then。Myname”sEd,buteverybodycallsmeGid。”
Assoonasthemelonwasserved,heorderedthechampagneopened。“Toourbetteracquaintance,“saidhe,liftinghisglasstowardher。
“Thankyou,“saidshe,inasuffocatedvoice,touchingherglasstoherlips。
Hewastoopolitetospeak,eveninbanter,ofwhathethoughtwastherealcauseofherpolitenessandsilence。Buthemustendthisstateofoverwhelmednessatgrandsurroundings。Saidhe:
“You”rekindo”shy,aren”tyou,Lorna?Oristhatyourgame?“
“Idon”tknow。You”vehadaveryinterestinglife,haven”tyou?Won”tyoutellmeaboutit?“
“Oh——justordinary,“repliedhe,withapropershowofmodesty。
Andstraightway,asSusanhadhoped,helaunchedintoaminuteaccountofhimself——thefamiliarstoryoftheenergetic,aggressivemantwistingandkickinghiswayupfromtwoorthreedollarsaweek。Susanseemedinterested,buthermindrefusedtooccupyitselfwithanarrativesocommonplace。
AfterRodandhisfriendsthisboastfulbusinessmanwasdullandtedious。Wheneverhelaughedatanaccountofhissuperiorcraft——howhehadbluffedthisman,howhehadeucheredthatone——shesmiled。Andsoinonemorecasethecommonmasculinedelusionthatwomenlistentothemonthesubjectofthemselves,withinterestandadmirationasprofoundastheirown,wasnotimpaired。
“But,“hewoundup,“I”vestayedplainEdGideon。Ineverhaveletprosperityswell_my_head。Andanyonethatknowsme”lltellyouI”maregularfoolforgenerositywiththosethatcomeatmeright……I”vealwaysbeenafavoritewiththeladies。”
Ashewaspausingforcommentfromher,shesaid,“Icanbelieveit。”Theword“generosity“keptechoinginhermind。
Generosity——generosity。Howmuchtalktherewasaboutit!
Everyonewasforeverpraisinghimselfforhisgenerosity,wasrecitingactsofthemostobviousselfishnessinproof。Wasthereanysuchthinginthewholeworldasrealgenerosity?
“Theylikeagenerousman,“pursuedGid。“I”mtightinbusiness——Icanseeadollarasfarasthenextmanandchaseitashardandgrabitastight。Butwhenitcomestotheladies,why,I”mopen-handed。Iftheytreatmeright,Itreatthemright。”Then,fearingthathehadtactlesslyraisedadoubtofhisinvincibility,hehastilyadded,“Buttheyalwaysdotreatmeright。”
Whilehehadbeentalkingonandon,Susanhadbeenappealingtothechampagnetohelpherquietherachingheart。Sheresolutelysetherthoughtstowanderingamongthecouplesattheothertablesinthatsubduedsofteninglight——thebeautifullydressedwomenlisteningtotheirmalecompanionswithcloseattention——weretheytoobeingboredbysuchtrashbywayoftalk?Weretheytoosimplylisteningbecauseitisthemanwhopays,becauseitisthemanwhomustbeconciliatedandputinagoodhumorwithhimself,ifdinnersanddressesandjewelsaretobebought?Thattenementattic——thathotmoistworkroom——poverty——privation”honestwork”s“dreadrewards——
“Now,whatkindofamanwouldyousayIwas?“Gideonwasinquiring。
“Howdoyoumean?“repliedSusan,withthedexterityatvaguenessthathabituallyself-veilingpeopleacquireasaninstinct。
“Why,asaman。HowdoIcomparewiththeothermenyou”veknown?“Andhe“shot“hiscuffswithagestureofcarelesselegancethathiscufflinksmightassistinthepictureofthe“swelldresser“hefelthewasposing。
“Oh——you——you”re——verydifferent。”
“I_am_different,“swelledGideon。“Yousee,it”sthisway——”Andhewasoffagainintoanothereulogyofhimself;
itcarriedthemthroughthedinnerandtwoquartsofchampagne。
Hewasmuchannoyedthatshedidnottakeadvantageofthepointedopportunityhegavehertonotethetotalofthebill;
hewasevenuncertainwhethershehadnotedthathegavethewaiteradollar。Herustledandsnappeditbeforelayingituponthetray,buthereyeslookedvague。
“Well,“saidhe,afteracomfortablepullatanexpensive-lookingcigar,“sixteenseventy-fiveisquitealivelylittlepeel-offforadinnerforonlytwo。Butitwasworthit,don”tyouthink?“
“Itwasasplendiddinner,“saidSusantruthfully。
Gideonbeamedinintoxicatedgoodhumor。“Iknewyou”dlikeit。Nothingpleasesmebetterthantotakeanicegirlwhoisn”taswelloffasIamoutandblowherofftoacrackerjackdinner。Now,youmayhavethoughtadollarwastoomuchtotipthewaiter?“
“Adollaris——adollar,isn”tit?“saidSusan。
Gideonlaughed。“Iusedtothinkso。Andmostmenwouldn”tgivethatmuchtoawaiter。ButIfeelsorryforpoordevilswhodon”thappentobeasluckyorasbrainyasIam。WhatdoyousaytoaturninthePark?We”lltakeahansom,andkindofjogalong。Andwe”llstopattheCasinoandatGabe”sforadrink。”
“Ihavetogetupsoearly“beganSusan。
“Oh,that”sallright。”Heslowlywinkedather。“You”llnothavetobumpthebumpsforbeinglatetomorrow——ifyoutreat_me_right。”
Hecarriedhisliquoreasily。Onlyinhiseyesandinhisevermoreslipperysmilethatwouldslideabouthisfacedidheshowthathehadbeendrinking。Hehelpedherintoahansomwithaflourishand,overrulingherprotests,badethedrivergototheCasino。Onceunderwayshewasglad;herhotskinandherwearyheartweregratefulfortheairblowingdowntheavenuefromthePark”sexpanseofgreen。WhenGideonattemptedtoputhisarmaroundher,shemovedcloseintothecornerandwentontalkingsocalmlyaboutcalmsubjectsthathedidnotinsist。
ButwhenhehadtosseddownadrinkofwhiskeyattheCasinoandtheyresumedthedrivealongthemoonlit,shadyroads,hetriedagain。
“Please,“saidshe,“don”tspoiladelightfulevening。”
“Nowlookhere,mydear——haven”tItreatedyouright?“
“Indeedyouhave,Mr。Gideon。”
“Oh,don”tbesodamnedformal。Forgetthedifferencebetweenourpositions。TomorrowI”mgoingtoplaceabigorderwithyourhouse,ifyoutreatmeright。I”mdeadstuckonyou——andthat”saGod”sfact。You”vetakenmecleanoffmyfeet。I”mthinkingofdoingalotforyou。”
Susanwassilent。
“WhatdoyousaytothrowingupyourjobandcomingtoChicagowithme?Howmuchdoyouget?“
“Ten。”
“Why,_you_can”tliveonthat。”
“I”velivedonless——muchless。”
“Doyoulikeit?“
“Naturallynot。”
“Youwanttogeton——don”tyou?“
“Imust。”
“You”redownintheheartaboutsomething。Love?“
Susanwassilent。
“Cutloveout。Cutitout,mydear。Thatain”tthewaytogeton。Love”sagoodconsolationprize,ifyouain”tgoingtogetanywhere,andknowyouain”t。Andit”sagoodfirstprizeafteryou”vearrivedandcanaffordtheluxuriesoflife。Butforaman——orawoman——that”spushingup,it”ssheerruination!
Cutitout!“
“Iamcuttingitout,“saidSusan。“Butthattakestime。”
“Notifyou”vegotsense。Thewaytocutanythingoutis——cutitout!——aquickslash——justcut。Ifyoumakeadozenlittleslashes,eachofthemhurtsasmuchastheonebigslash——andthedozenhurttwelvetimesasmuch——bleedtwelvetimesasmuch——putoffthecurealotmorethantwelvetimesaslong。”
HehadSusan”sattentionforthefirsttime。
“Doyouknowwhywomendon”tgeton?“
“Tellme,“saidshe。“That”swhatIwanttohear。”
“Becausetheydon”tplaythegameundertherules。Now,whatdoesamando?Why,hestakeseverythinghe”sgot——doeswhatever”snecessary,don”tstopat_nothing_tohelphimgetthere。Howisitwithwomen?Sometrytobevirtuous——whentheirbodiesaretheirbestassets。God!IwishI”d”a”hadyourlooksandyouradvantagesasawomantohelpme。I”dbeamillionairethisminute,withahousefacingthisParkandayachtandalltherestofit。Awomanthat”ssqueamishabouthervirtuecan”thopetowin——unlessshe”sinapositiontomakeagoodmarriage。Asforthelooseones,theyareasbigfoolsasthevirtuousones。Thevirtuousoneslockawaytheirbestasset;thelooseonesthrowitaway。Neitherone_use_it。
Doyoufollowme?“
“Ithinkso。”Susanwaslisteningwithamindmadeabnormallyacutebythechampagneshehadfreelydrunk。Thecoarsebluntnessanddirectnessofthemandidnotoffendher。Itmadewhathesaidthemoreeffective,producingarudearrestingeffectuponhernerves。Itmadethemanhimselfseemmoreofaperson。Susanwasbeginningtohaveakindofrespectforhim,tochangeherfirstopinionthathewasmerelyavulgar,pushingcommonplace。
“Neverthoughtofthatbefore?“
“Yes——I”vethoughtofit。But——”Shepaused。
“But——what?“
“Oh,nothing。”
“Nevermind。Somewomanishheartnonsense,Isuppose。DoyouseetheapplicationofwhatI”vesaidtoyouandme?“
“Goon。”Shewasleaningforward,herelbowsonthecloseddoorsofthehansom,hereyesgazingdreamilyintothemoonlitdimnessofthecoolwoodsthroughwhichtheyweredriving。
“Youdon”twanttostickattenper?“
“No。”
“It”llbelessinalittlewhile。Modelsdon”tlast。Thework”stoohard。”
“Icanseethat。”
“Andanyhowitmeanstenementhouse。”
“Yes。Tenementhouse。”
“Well——whatthen?What”syourplan?“
“Ihaven”tany。”
“Haven”taplan——yetwanttogeton!Isthatgoodsense?
Dideveranybodygetanywherewithoutaplan?“
“I”mwillingtowork。I”mgoingtowork。I_am_working。”
“Work,ofcourse。Nobodycankeepalivewithoutworking。Youmightaswellsayyou”regoingtobreatheandeat——Workdon”tamounttoanything,forgettingon。It”sthekindofwork——workinginacertaindirection——workingwithaplan。”
“I”vegotaplan。ButIcan”tbeginatitjustyet。”
“Willittakemoney?“
“Some。”
“Haveyougotit?“
“No,“repliedSusan。“I”llhavetogetit。”
“Asanhonestworkinggirl?“saidhewithgood-humoredirony。
Susanlaughed。“Itdoessoundridiculous,doesn”tit?“saidshe。
“Here”sanotherthingthatmaybeyouhaven”tcountedin。
Lookingasyoudo,doyousupposementhatrunthings”llletyougetpastwithoutpayingtoll?Notonyourlife,mydear。
Ifyouwasugly,youmightafterseveralyearsgettwentyortwenty-fivebyworkinghard——unlessyoulostyourfigurefirst。
Butthemenwon”tletagoodlookerrisethatway。Doyoufollowme?“
“Yes。”
“I”mnottalkingtheory。I”mtalkinglife。Takeyouandmeforexample。Icanhelpyou——helpyoualot。InfactIcanputyouonyourfeet。AndI”mwilling。IfyouwasamanandIlikedyouandwantedtohelpyou,I”dmakeyouhelpme,too。
I”dmakeyoudoalotofthingsforme——maybesomeof”emnotsoverynice——maybesomeof”emdownrightdirty。Andyou”ddo”em,asallyoungfellows,strugglingup,haveto。Butyou”reawoman。SoI”mwillingtomakeeasierterms。ButIcan”thelpyouwithyounotshowinganyappreciation。Thatwouldn”tbegoodbusiness——wouldit?——togetnoreturnbut,`Oh,thankyousomuch,Mr。Gideon。Sosweetofyou。I”llrememberyouinmyprayers。”Wouldthatbesensible?“
“No,“saidSusan。
“Well,then!IfIdoyouagoodturn,you”vegottodomeagoodturn——notonethatIdon”twantdone,butoneIdowantdone。Ain”tIright?Doyoufollowme?“
“Ifollowyou。”
SomevagueaccentinSusan”svoicemadehimfeeldissatisfiedwithherresponse。“Ihopeyoudo,“hesaidsharply。“WhatI”msayingisdressesonyourbackanddollarsinyourpocket——andgettingonintheworld——ifyouworkitright。”
“Gettingonintheworld,“saidSusan,pensively。
“Isupposethat”sasneer。”
“Oh,no。Iwasonlythinking。”
“Aboutlovebeingallawomanneedstomakeherhappy,Isuppose?“
“No。Loveis——Well,itisn”thappiness。”
“Becauseyouletitrunyou,insteadofyourunningit。Eh?“
“Perhaps。”
“Sure!Now,letmetellyou,Lornadear。Comfortandluxury,moneyinbank,property,agoodsolidposition——_that”s_thefoundation。Buildon_that_andyou”llbuildsolid。Buildonloveandsentimentandyou”rebuildingupsidedown。You”reputtingthegingerbreadwheretherockoughttobe。Followme?“
“Iseewhatyoumean。”
Hetriedtofindherhand。“Whatdoyousay?“
“I”llthinkofit。”
“Well,thinkquick,mydear。Opportunitydoesn”twaitroundinanybody”soutsideoffice……Maybeyoudon”ttrustme——don”tthinkI”lldeliverthegoods?“
“No。Ithinkyou”rehonest。”
“You”rerightIam。IdowhatIsayI”lldo。That”swhyI”vegoton。That”swhyI”llkeepongettingon。Let”sdrivetoahotel。”
Sheturnedherheadandlookedathimforthefirsttimesincehebeganhisdiscourseonmakingone”swayintheworld。Herlookwascalm,inquiring——wouldhavebeenchillingtoamanofsensibility——thatis,ofsensibilitytowardanunconqueredwoman。
“Iwanttogiveyourpeoplethatorder,andIwanttohelpyou。”
“Iwantthemtogettheorder。Idon”tcareabouttherest,“
shereplieddully。
“Putitanywayyoulike。”
Againhetriedtoembraceher。Sheresistedfirmly。“Wait,“
saidshe。“Letmethink。”
TheydrovetherestofthewaytotheupperendoftheParkinsilence。
Heorderedthedrivertoturn。Hesaidtoher;“Well,doyougetthesackordoesthehousegettheorder?“
Shewassilent。
“ShallIdriveyouhomeorshallwestopatGabe”sforadrink?“
“CouldIhavechampagne?“saidshe。
“Anythingyoulikeifyouchooseright。”
“Ihaven”tanychoice,“saidshe。
Helaughed,puthisarmaroundher,kissedherunresponsivebutunresistinglips。“You”reright,youhaven”t,“saidhe。“It”safinesignthatyouhavethesensetoseeit。Oh,you”llgeton。Youdon”tlettriflesstandinyourway。”III
ATthelunchhourthenextdayMaryHinkleknockedatthegarretinClintonPlace。Gettingnoanswer,sheopenedthedoor。AtthetableclosetothewindowwasSusaninanightgown,herhairindisorderasifshehadbeguntoarrangeitandhadstoppedhalfway。HereyesturnedlistlesslyinMary”sdirection——dulleyes,gray,heavilycircled。
“Youdidn”tanswer,MissSackville。SoIthoughtI”dcomeinandleaveanote,“explainedMary。HerglancewasavoidingSusan”s。
“Comeforthedressandhat?“saidSusan。“Theretheyare。”
Andsheindicatedtheundisturbedbedwhereonhatanddresswerecarelesslyflung。
“My,butit”shotinthisroom!“exclaimedMary。“Youmustmoveuptomyplace。There”saroomandbathvacant——onlysevenper。”
Susanseemednottohear。Shewaslookingdullyatherhandsuponthetablebeforeher。
“Mr。Jeffriessentmetoaskyouhowyouwere。Hewasworriedbecauseyoudidn”tcome。”Withachangeofvoice,“Mr。Gideontelephoneddowntheorderawhileago。Mr。Jeffriessaysyouaretokeepthedressandhat。”
“No,“saidSusan。“Takethemawaywithyou。”
“Aren”tyoucomingdownthisafternoon?“
“No,“repliedSusan。“I”vequit。”
“Quit?“criedMissHinkle。Herexpressiongraduallyshiftedfromastonishmenttopleasedunderstanding。“Oh,Isee!
You”vegotsomethingbetter。”
“No。ButI”llfindsomething。”
Marystudiedthesituation,usingSusan”sexpressionlessfaceasaguide。Afteratimesheseemedtogetfromitaclew。
Withtheairoffriendlyexperiencebentonaidinghelplessinexperienceshepushedasidethedressandmaderoomforherselfonthebed。“Don”tbeafool,MissSackville,“saidshe。“Ifyoudon”tlikethatsortofthing——youknowwhatI
mean——why,youcanlivesixmonths——maybeayear——onthereputationofwhatyou”vedoneandtheirhopethatyou”llweakendownanddoitagain。That”llgiveyoutimetolookroundandfindsomethingelse。Forpity”ssake,don”tturnyourselfloosewithoutajob。Yougotyourplacesoeasythatyouthinkyoucangetoneanyoldtime。There”swhereyou”rewrong。Believeme,youplayedinluck——andluckdon”tcomeroundoften。IknowwhatI”mtalkingabout。SoIsay,don”tbeafool!“
“Iamafool,“saidSusan。
“Well——getoverit。Anddon”twasteanytimeaboutit,either。”
“Ican”tgoback,“saidSusanstolidly。“Ican”tfacethem。”
“Facewho?“criedMary。“Businessisbusiness。Everybodyunderstandsthat。Allthepeopledowntherearecrazyaboutyounow。Yougotthehouseahundred-thousand-dollarorder。
Youdon”t_suppose_anybodyinbusinessbothersabouthowanorder”sgot——doyou?“
“It”stheway__I__feel——nottheway_they_feel。”
“Asforthewomendownthere——ofcourse,there”ssomethatpretendtheywon”tdothatsortofthing。Lookat”em——attheirfacesandfigures——andyou”llseewhytheydon”t。Ofcourseagirlkeepsstraightwhenthere”snothinginnotbeingstraight——leastways,unlessshe”safool。Sheknowsthatifthebestshecandoismarryafellowofherownclass,whyshe”donlygetleftifsheplayedanytrickswiththemcheapskatesthathavetogetmarriedorgowithoutbecausethey”retoopoortopayforanything——andbymarryingcangetthatandacookandawashwomanandmenderbesides——andmaybe,too,somebodywhocangooutandworkifthey”relaidupsick。Butifagirlseesachancetogeton——don”tbeafool,MissSackville。”
Susanlistenedwithasmilethatbarelydisturbedthestolidcalmofherfeatures。“I”mnotgoingback,“shesaid。
MaryHinklewassilencedbythequietfinalityofhervoice。
Studyingthatdelicateface,shefelt,behinditspallidimpassiveness,behindtherefusaltoreturn,areasonshecouldnotcomprehend。Shedimlyrealizedthatshewouldrespectitifshecouldunderstandit;forshesuspectedithaditsoriginsomewhereinSusan”s“refinedladylikenature。”Sheknewthatonceinawhileamongthewomenshewasacquaintedwiththeredidhappenonewhopreferreddeathinanyformofmiserytoleadingalaxlife——andindisputablefactshadconvincedherthatnotalwayswerethesewomen“juststupidignorantfools。”
Sheherselfpossessednosuchrefinementofnervesorofwhateveritwas。Shehadbeenbroughtupinaloosefamilyandinalooseneighborhood。Shewasinthehabitofmakingallsortsofpretenses,becausethatwasthecustom,whilebeingcandidaboutsuchmatterswasregardedasbadform。Shewasnotfooledbythesepretensesinothergirls,thoughtheyoftendidfooleachother。InSusan,sheinstinctivelyfelt,itwasnotpretense。Itwassomethingorotherelse——itwasadangerousreality。ShelikedSusan;inherintelligenceandphysicalcharmwerethepossibilitiesofgettingfarupintheworld;itseemedapitythatshewasthushandicapped。Still,perhapsSusanwouldstumbleuponsomeworthwhilemanwho,attemptingtopossessherwithoutmarriageandfailing,wouldpaytheheavyprice。Therewasalwaysthatchance——asmallchance,smallereventhanfindingbylooselivingaworthwhilemanwhowouldmarryyoubecauseyouhappenedexactlytosuithim——togivehimenoughonlytomakehimfeelthathewantedmore。Still,Susanwasunusuallyattractive,andlucksometimesdidcomeapoorperson”sway——sometimes。
“I”moverdueback,“saidMary。“Youwantmetotell”emthat?“
“Yes。”
“You”llhavehardworkfindingajobatanythinglikeasmuchastenper。I”vegottwotrades,andIcouldn”tateitherone。”
“Idon”texpecttofindit。”
“Thenwhatareyougoingtodo?“
“TakewhatIcanget——untilI”vebeenmadehardenough——orstrongenough——orwhateveritis——tostopbeingafool。”
ThisindicationoflatentgoodsenserelievedMissHinkle。
“I”lltell”emyoumaybedowntomorrow。Thinkitoverforanotherday。”
Susanshookherhead。“They”llhavetogetsomebodyelse。”
And,asMissHinklereachedthethreshold,“WaittillIdothedressup。You”lltakeitforme?“
“Whysendthethingsback?“urgedMary。“Theybelongtoyou。
Godknowsyouearned”em。”
Susan,standingnow,lookeddownatthefinery。“SoIdid。
I”llkeepthem,“saidshe。“They”dpawnforsomething。”
“Withyourlooksthey”dwearforaheapmore。Butkeep”em,anyhow。AndI”llnottellJeffriesyou”vequit。It”lldonoharmtoholdyourjobopenadayorso。”
“Asyoulike,“saidSusan,toendthediscussion。“ButIhavequit。”
“Nomatter。Afteryou”vehadsomethingtoeat,you”llfeeldifferent。”
AndMissHinklenoddedbrightlyanddeparted。Susanresumedherseatatthebarewobblylittletable,resumedherlistlessattitude。ShedidnotmoveuntilEllencamein,holdingoutanoteandsaying,“Aboyfromyourstorebrungthis——here。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusan,takingthenote。Initshefoundatwenty-dollarbillandafive。Onthesheetofpaperrounditwasscrawled:
Takethedayoff。Here”syourcommission。We”llraiseyourpayinafewweeks,L。L。J。
SoMaryHinklehadtoldthemeitherthatshewasquittingorthatshewasthinkingofquitting,andtheywishedhertostay,hadusedthemeanstheybelievedshecouldnotresist。Inadrearywaythisamusedher。Asifshecaredwhetherornotlifewaskeptinthisworthlessbodyofhers,inhertiredheart,inherdisgustedmind!Thenshedroppedbackintolistlessness。WhenshewasarousedagainitwasbyGideon,completelyfillingthesmalldoorway。“Hello,mydear!“criedhecheerfully。“Mindmysmoking?“
Susanslowlyturnedherheadtowardhim,surveyedhimwithanexpressionbutoneremovedfromtheblanklookshewouldhavehadiftherehadbeennoonebeforeher。
“I”mfeelingfinetoday,“pursuedGideon,advancingastepandsobringinghimselfabouthalfwaytothetable。“Hadacoupleofpick-me-upsandafatbreakfast。Howareyou?“
“I”malwayswell。”
“Thoughtyouseemedalittleseedy。“Hisshrewdsensualeyeswereexploringtheopeningsinhernightdress。“You”llbemightygladtogetoutofthishole。Gosh!It”shot。Don”tseehowyoustandit。I”malawabidingcitizenbutImustsayI”dturncriminalbeforeI”dputupwiththis。”
IntheunderworldfromwhichGideonhadsprung——theunderworldwherewelterstheoverwhelmingmassofthehumanrace——therearethreemaintypes。Therearethehopelessandspiritless——themass——whowelterpassivelyon,breedinganddying。Therearethespiritedwhoalsopossessbothshrewdnessandcalculation;theypushupwardbyhookandbycrook,alwaysmindfulofthefutilityofthestruggleofthepettycriminaloftheslumsagainstthepoliceandthelaw;theyarriveandfoundthearistocraciesofthefuture。Thethirdisthecriminalclass。Itisalsomadeupofthespirited——butthespiritedwho,havinglittleshrewdnessandnocalculation——thatis,noabilitytoforeseeandmeasureconsequences——wageclumsywaruponsocietyandpaythepenaltyoftheirfatuityinlivesofwretchednessevenmorewretchedthanthecommonlot。Gideonbelongedtothesecondclass——theclassthatpushesupwardwithoutgettingintojail;hewasafairrepresentativeofthistype,neitheritsbestnoritsworst,butaboutmidwayofitsrangebetweenarrogant,all-dominatingplutocratandshysteringmerchantorlawyerorpoliticianwhobarelyescapesthecriminalclass。
“Youdon”taskmetositdown,dearie,“hewentonfacetiously。
“ButI”mnotsomadthatIwon”tdoit。”
HetooktheseatMissHinklehadclearedonthebed。Hisglancewandereddisgustedlyfromobjecttoobjectinthecrowdedyetbareattic。Hecaughtawhiffoftheodorfromacrossthehall——fromthefresh-airshaft——andhastilygaveseveralpuffsathiscigartosaturatehissurroundingswithitsperfume。Susanactedasifshewerealoneintheroom。
Shehadnotevendrawntogetherhernightgown。
“Iphonedyourstoreaboutyou,“resumedGideon。“Theysaidyouhadn”tshowedup——wouldn”ttilltomorrow。SoIcameroundhereandyourlandladysentmeup。Iwanttotakeyouforadrivethisafternoon。WecandineuptoClaremontorfarther,ifyoulike。”
“No,thanks,“saidSusan。“Ican”tgo。”
“Upty-tupty!“criedGideon。“What”stheladysosourabout?“
“I”mnotsour。”
“Thenwhywon”tyougo?“
“Ican”t。”
“Butwe”llhaveachancetotalkoverwhatI”mgoingtodoforyou。”
“You”vekeptyourword,“saidSusan。
“Thatwasonlypart。Besides,I”dhavegivenyourhousetheorder,anyhow。”
Susan”seyessuddenlylightedup。“Youwould?“shecried。
“Well——apartofit。Notsomuch,ofcourse。ButIneverletpleasureinterferewithbusiness。Nobodythatdoesevergetsveryfar。”
Herexpressionmadehimhastentoexplain——withoutbeingconsciouswhy。“Isaid——_part_oftheorder,mydear。Theyowetoyouabouthalfofwhatthey”llmakeoffme……What”sthatmoneyonthetable?Yourcommission?“
“Yes。”