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  “Itain”tmuch,“saidMrs。Tucker。“Butusuallyroomsliketheserentsforfiveaweek。”

  Thesunhadheatedtheroofscorchinghot;theairofthisroom,immediatelyunderneath,waslikethatofacellarwhereafurnaceisinfullblast。ButSusanknewshewasindeedinluck。“It”scleanandnicehere,“saidshetoMrs。Tucker,“andI”mmuchobligedtoyouforbeingsoreasonablewithme。”

  Andtoclinchthebargainshethenandtherepaidhalfamonth”srent。“I”llgiveyoutherestwhenmyweekatthestore”sup。”

  “Nohurry,“saidMrs。Tuckerwhowashandlingthemoneyandlookingatitwithglisteninggratefuleyes。“Uspoorfolksoughtn”ttobehardoneachother——though,Lordknows,ifwewas,Ireckonwe”dnotbequitesopoor。It”sthemthathasthestreakofhardin”emwhatgetson。ButtheBibleteachesusthat”swhattoexpectinaworldofsin。Isupposeyouwanttogonowandhaveyourtrunksent?“

  “ThisisallI”vegot,“saidSusan,indicatingherbagonthetable。

  IntoMrs。Tucker”sfacecamealookofterrorthatmadeSusanrealizeinaninstanthowhard-pressedshemustbe。Itwasthekindoflookthatcomesintotheeyesofthedeerbroughtdownbythedogswhenitseesthehuntercomingup。

  “ButI”veagoodplace,“Susanhastenedtosay。“Igettenaweek。

  AndasItoldyoubefore,whenIcan”tpayI”llgorightaway。”

  “I”velostsomuchinbaddebts,“explainedthelandladyhumbly。“Idon”tseemtoseewhichwaytoturn。”Thenshebrightened。“It”llallcomeoutforthebest。IworkhardandItrytodorightbyeverybody。”

  “I”msureitwill,“saidSusanbelievingly。

  Oftenherconfidenceinthemoralidealstrainedintoherfromchildhoodhadbeensorelytried。Butneverhadshepermittedherselfmorethanahasty,ashameddoubtthattheonlywaytogetonwastoworkandtopracticetheGoldenRule。Everyonewhowasprosperousattributedhisprosperitytothesteadfastfollowingofthatway;asforthosewhowerenotprosperous,theywereeitherlazyorbad-hearted,orwouldhavebeenevenworseoffhadtheybeenlessfaithfultothecreedthatwasbestpolicyaswellasbestforpeaceofmindandheart。

  IntryingtobeasinexpensivetoSpenserasshecouldcontrive,andalsobecauseofherpassionforimprovingherself,Susanhadexploredfarintothealmostunknownartofliving,onitsshamefullyneglectedmaterialside。Shehadcultivatedthehabitofspendingmuchtimeaboutherpurchasesofeverykind——hadspenttimeintelligentlyinsavingmoneyintelligently。Shehadgonefromshoptoshop,comparingvaluesandprices。Shehadstudiedqualityinfoodandinclothing,andthusshehaddiscoveredwhatenormoussumsarewastedthroughignorance——wastedbypoorevenmorelavishlythanbyrichorwell-to-do,becausetheshopswherethepoordealthadabsolutelynocheckontheirrapacitythroughtheoccasionalcannycustomer。Shehadlearnedthefundamentaltruthofthematerialartofliving;onlywhenagoodthinghappenstobecheapisacheapthinggood。Spenser,cross-examiningherastohowshepassedthedays,foundoutaboutthiseducationshewasacquiring。Itamusedhim。“A

  wasteoftime!“heusedtosay。“Paywhattheyask,anddon”tbotheryourheadwithsuchpettymatters。”Hemighthavesuspectedandaccusedherofbeingstingyhadnothergenerositybeenaboutthemostobviousandincessanttraitofhercharacter。

  Shewasnowreducedtoanincomebelowwhatlifecanbedecentlymaintainedupon——thelifeofacity-dwellerwithnormaltastesforcleanlinessandhealthfulness。Sheproceededwithoutdelaytoputherinvaluableeducationintouse。Shemustfillhermindwiththepresentandwiththefuture。Shemustnotglanceback。Shemustignoreherwounds——theiraches,theirclamorousthrobs。Shetookoffherclothes,assoonasMrs。Tuckerleftheralone,brushedthemandhungthemup,putonthethinwrappershehadbroughtinherbag。Thefierceheatofthelittlepacking-caseofaroombecamelessunendurable;also,shewassavingtheclothesfromuselesswear。Shesatdownatthetableandwithpencilandpaperplannedherbudget。

  Ofthetendollarsaweek,threedollarsandthirtycentsmustbesubtractedforrent——forshelter。Thisleftsixdollarsandseventycentsfortheothertwonecessaries,foodandclothing——theremustbenoincidentalexpensessincetherewasnomoneytomeetthem。Shecouldnotaffordtoprovideforcarfareonstormydays;araincoat,overshoesandumbrella,moreexpensiveattheoutset,wereincomparablycheaperinthelongrun。HerwashingandironingshewouldofcoursedoforherselfintheeveningsandonSundays。Ofthetwoitemswhichthesixdollarsandseventycentsmustcover,foodcamefirstinimportance。Howlittlecouldsheliveon?

  Thatstiflinghotroom!Shewasaswetasifshehadcomeundriedfromabath。ShehadthoughtshecouldneverfeelanythingbutloveforthesunofherCityoftheSun。Butthisundreamed-ofheat——likethecruelcaressesofatooimpetuouslover——

  Howlittlecouldsheliveon?“

  Dividinghertotalofsixdollarsandseventycentsbyseven,shefoundthatshehadninety-fivecentsaday。Shewouldsoonhavetobuyclothes,howeverscrupulouscareshemighttakeofthoseshepossessed。ItwasmodestindeedtoestimatefifteendollarsforclothesbeforeOctober。ThatmeantshemustsavefifteendollarsintheremainingthreeweeksofJune,inJuly,AugustandSeptember——inonehundredandtendays。Shemustsaveaboutfifteencentsaday。Andoutofthatshemustbuysoapandtoothpowder,outerandunderclothes,perhapsahatandapairofshoes。Thusshecouldspendforfoodnotmorethaneightycentsaday,asmuchlessaswasconsistentwithbuyingthebestquality——forshehadlearnedbybitterexperiencetheravagespoorqualityfoodmakesinhealthandlooks,hadlearnedwhygirlsoftheworkingclassgotopiecesswiftlyaftereighteen。Shemustfighttokeephealth——sickshedidnotdarebe。Shemustfighttokeeplooks——herfigurewasherincome。

  Eightycentsaday。Theoutlookwasnotsogloomy。Acupofcocoainthemorning——madeathomeofthebestcocoa,thekindthatdidnotoverheatthebloodanddisordertheskin——itwouldcostherlessthantencents。Shewouldcarrylunchwithhertothestore。Intheeveningshewouldcookachoporsomethingofthatkindonthegasstoveshewouldbuy。Somedaysshewouldbeabletosavetwentyoreventwenty-fivecentstowardclothingandthelike。Whateverelsehappened,shewasresolvedneveragaintosinktodirtandrags。Neveragain!——never!Shehadpassedthroughthatexperienceoncewithoutlossofself-respectonlybecauseitwasbywayofeducation。Togothroughitagainwouldbeyieldinggroundinthefight——thefightforadestinyworthwhilewhichsomelatentbutmightyinstinctwithinherneverpermittedhertoforget。

  Shesatatthetable,withtheshuttersclosedagainstthefierylightofthesummerafternoonsun。Thathideousunacceptableheat!Witheyelidsdrooped——deepanddarkwerethecirclesroundthem——shelistenedtotheroarofthecity,asavagesoundliketheclamorofamultitudeoffamishedwildbeasts。AcityliketheCityofDestructionin“Pilgrim”sProgress“——acitywhereofallthemillions,butafewthousandsweremovingtowardorkeepinginthesunlightofcivilization。Therest,theswarmsofthecheapboardinghouses,cheaplodginghouses,tenements——thesemyriadsweresquirmingindarknessandsqualor,ignorantandnevertobelessignorant,illfedandnevertobebetterfed,clothedinpitifulabsurdragsorshoddyvulgarattemptsatfinery,andnevertobebetterclothed。Shewouldnotbeofthose!Shewouldstruggleon,wouldsinkonlytomount。Shewouldwork;

  shewouldtrytodoasnearlyrightasshecould。Andintheendshemusttriumph。Shewouldgetatleastagoodpartofwhathersoulcraved,ofwhathermindcraved,ofwhatherheartcraved。

  Theheatofthistenementroom!Theheattowhichpovertywasexposednakedandbound!Wouldnotanyonebejustifiedindoinganything——yes,_anything_——toescapefromthisfiend?II

  ELLEN,themaid,sleptacrossthehallfromSusan,inaclosetsodirtythatnoonecouldhaveriskedinitanyarticleofclothingwiththeleastpretensiontocleanness。Itwasnobetter,noworsethanthelodgingsofmorethantwohundredthousandNewYorkers。Itsonenarrowopening,besidethedoor,gaveuponashaftwhoseodorsweresofoulthatshekeptthewindowclosed,preferringheatliketheinsideofasteamingpantotheonlyavailable“outsideair。”Thisinacivilizedcitywherehundredsofdogswithjeweledcollarssleptinluxuriousroomsondowniestbedsandhadservantstowaituponthem!ThemorningafterSusan”scoming,Ellenwokeher,astheyhadarranged,ataquarterbeforefive。Thenightbefore,Susanhadbroughtupfromthebasementalargebucketofwater;

  forshehadmadeuphermind,totakeabatheveryday,atleastuntilthecoldweathersetinandrenderedsuchaluxuryimpossible。Withthiswaterandwhatshehadinherlittlepitcher,Susancontrivedtofreshenherselfup。ShehadboughtagasstoveandsomeindispensableutensilsforthreedollarsandseventeencentsinaFourteenthStreetstore,apoundofcocoaforseventycentsandtencents”worthofrolls——threerolls,wellbaked,offirstqualityflourandwithaboutasgoodbutterandotherthingsputintothedoughasonecanexpectinbreadnotmadeathome。Thesepurchaseshadreducedhercashtoforty-threecents——andsheoughttobuywithoutdelayaclockwithanalarmattachment。Andpayday——Saturday——wastwodaysaway。

  Shemadeacupofcocoa,drankitslowly,eatingoneoftherolls——allinthesamemethodicalwaylikeamachinethatcontinuestorevolveafterthepowerhasbeenshutoff。Itwasthen,evenmorethanduringherfirsteveningalone,evenmorethanwhenshefromtimetotimestartledoutoftroubledsleep——itwasthen,assheforceddownherlonelybreakfast,thatshemostmissedRod。Whenshehadfinished,shecompletedhertoilet。Thefinalglanceatherselfinthelittlemirrorwasdepressing。Shelookedfreshforhernewsurroundingsandforhernewclass。Butincomparisonwithwhatsheusuallylooked,alreadytherewasadistinct,anominousfallingoff。

  “I”mgladRodneversawmelookinglikethis,“shesaidalouddrearily。Takingarollforlunch,sheissuedforthathalf-pastsix。Thehourandthree-quartersshehadallowedfordressingandbreakfastinghadbeennonetoomuch。InthecoolnessandcomparativequietshewentdownUniversityPlaceandacrossWashingtonSquareundertheoldtrees,allalivewithsongandbreezeandflashesofearlymorninglight。ShewassooninBroadway”sdeepcanyon,wasdriftingabsentlyalonginthestreamofcross,mussy-lookingworkerspushingsouthward。Herheartached,herbrainthrobbed。Itwashorrible,thisloneliness;andeveryoneofthewoundswhereshehadseveredthetieswithSpenserwasbleeding。ShewasastonishedtofindherselfbeforethebuildingwhoseupperfloorswereoccupiedbyJeffriesandJonas。Howhadshegotthere?WherehadshecrossedBroadway?

  “Goodmorning,MissSackville。”ItwasMissHinkle,justarriving。Hereyeswereheavy,andtherewerethecrisscrosslinesunderthemthattellastorytotheexpertinthedifferenteffectsofdifferentkindsofdissipation。MissHinklewasshowingherage——andshewas“nospringchicken。”

  Susanreturnedhergreeting,gazingatherwiththedazedeyesandpuzzledsmileofanawakeningsleeper。

  “I”llshowyoutheropes,“saidMissHinkle,astheyclimbedthetwoflightsofstairs。“You”llfindthejobdeadeasy。

  They”remightynicepeopletoworkfor,Mr。Jeffriesespecially。Noteasyfruit,ofcourse,butniceforpeoplethathavegoton。Youdidn”tsleepwell?“

  “Yes——Ithinkso。”

  “Ididn”thaveachancetodroproundlastnight。Iwasoutwithoneofthebuyers。HowdoyoulikeMrs。Tucker?“

  “She”sverygood,isn”tshe?“

  “She”llnevergetalong。Sheworkshard,too——butnotforherself。InthisworldyouhavetolookoutforNumberOne。

  Ihadaswelldinnerlastnight。Lobster——Ilovelobster——andelegantchampagne——uptoMurray”s——sucharefinedplace——allfountainsandmirrors——reallyquiteartistic。Andmygentlemanfriendwassoniceandrespectful。Youknow,wehavetogooutwiththebuyerswhentheyaskus。Ithelpsthehousesellgoods。Andwehavetobecarefulnottooffendthem。”

  MissHinkle”stoneinthelastremarkwassosignificantthatSusanlookedather——and,looking,understood。

  “Sometimes,“pursuedMissHinkle,eyescarefullyaverted,“sometimesanewgirlgoesoutwithanimportantcustomerandhegetsfreshandshekicksandcomplainstoMr。Jeffries——orMr。Jonas——orMr。Ratney,theheadman。Theyalwayssympathizewithher——but——well,I”venoticedthatsomehowshesoonlosesherjob。”

  “Whatdoyoudowhen——whenacustomerannoysyou?“

  “I!“MissHinklelaughedwithsomeembarrassment。“Oh,IdothebestIcan。”Aswiftglanceofthecynical,laughing,“fast“eyesatSusanandaway。“ThebestIcan——forthehouse——andformyself……ItalktoyoubecauseIknowyou”realadyandbecauseIdon”twanttoseeyouthrowndown。

  Awomanthat”slivingquietlyathome——likealady——shecanbesqueamish。Butoutintheworldawomancan”taffordtobe——no,noraman,neither。Youdon”tfindthissetdowninthebooks,andtheydon”tpreachitinthechurches——leastwaystheydidn”twhenIusedtogotochurch。Butit”strue,allthesame。”

  Theywereafewminutesearly;soMissHinklecontinuedtheconversationwhiletheywaitedfortheopeningoftheroomwhereSusanwouldbeoutfittedforherwork。“IcalledyouMissSackville,“saidshe,“butyou”vebeenmarried——haven”tyou?“

  “Yes。”

  “Icanalwaystell——oratleastIcanseewhetherawoman”shadexperienceornot。Well,I”veneverbeenregularlymarried,andIdon”texpectto,unlesssomethingprettygoodoffers。

  ThinkI”dmarryoneoftheserottenlittleclerks?“MissHinkleansweredherownquestionwithascornfulsniff。“Theycanhardlymakealivingforthemselves。Andamanwhoamountstoanything,hewantsarefinedladytohelphimonup,notaworkinggirl。Ofcourse,there”reexceptions。Butasaruleagirlinourpositioneitherhastostaysingleormarrybeneathher——marrysomemechanicorsuchlike。Well,Iain”tsolazy,orsocrazyaboutbeingsupported,thatI”dsinktobecookandslop-carrier——andworse——foracarpenterorabricklayer。Goingoutwiththebuyers——thegentlemanlyones——hasspoiledmytaste。Ican”tstandacoarseman——coarsedressandhandsandmanners。Canyou?“

  Susanturnedhastilyaway,sothatherfacewashiddenfromMissHinkle。

  “I”llbetyouwasn”tmarriedtoacoarseman。”

  “I”drathernottalkaboutmyself,“saidSusanwithaneffort。

  “It”snotpleasant。”

  HermannerofcheckingMissHinkle”sfriendlycuriositydidnotgiveoffense;itexcitedtheexperiencedworkingwoman”ssympathy。Shewenton:

  “Well,Ifeelsorryforanywomanthathastowork。Ofcoursemostwomendo——andatworsethananythinginthestoresandfactories。Asbetweenbeingadrudgetosomedirtycommonlaborerlikemostwomenare,andworkinginafactoryeven,givemethefactory。Yes,givemeajobasapotslingereven,lowasthatis。Oh,I_hate_workingpeople!Iloverefinement。UptoMurray”slastnightIsatthere,eatingmylobsteranddrinkingmywine,andIpretendedIwasalady——and,my,howhappyIwas!“

  Thestockroomnowopened。Susan,withthehelpofMissHinkleandthestockkeeper,dressedinoneofthetight-fittingsatinslipsthatrevealedeverycurveandlineofherform,madeeverymotionhoweverslight,everybreathshedrew,agestureofsensuousness。Asshelookedatherselfinalongglassinoneoftheshow-parlors,herfacedidnotreflecttheadmirationfranklydisplayeduponthefacesofthetwootherwomen。Thatsatinslipseemedtohaveamoralquality,animmoralcharacter。Itmadeherfeelnaked——no,asifshewerenakedandbeingpeepedatthroughacrackorkeyhole。

  “You”llsoongetusedtoit,“MissHinkleassuredher。“Andyou”lllearntoshowoffthedressesandcloakstothebestadvantage。”Shelaughedherinsinuatinglittlelaughagain,amused,cynical,reckless。“Youknow,thebuyersaremen。

  Gee,whatawfuljaythingsweworkoffonthem,sometimes!

  Theycan”tseethedressforthefigure。Andyou”vegotsucharefinedfigure,MissSackville——thekindI”dbecrazyaboutifIwasaman。ButImustsay——”heresheeyedherselfintheglasscomplacently”mostmenpreferafigurelikemine。

  Don”tthey,MissSimmons?“

  Thestockkeepershookherfatshouldersinagestureofindifferentdisdain。“Theytakewhatever”shandiest——that”s_my_experience。”

  Abouthalf-pastninethefirstcustomerappeared——Mr。Gideon,ithappenedtobe。HewasmakingtheroundsofthebigwholesalehousesinsearchofstockforthehugeChicagodepartmentstorethatpaidhimfifteenthousandayearandexpenses。HehadbeencontemptuousoftheofferingsofJeffriesandJonasforthewinterseason,hadpraisedwithenthusiasmthemodelsoftheirprincipalrival,Icklemeier,SchwartzandCompany。Theywereundecidedwhetherhewasreallythinkingofdesertingthemorwasfeelingforlowerprices。Mr。JeffriesbustledintotheroomwhereSusanstoodwaiting;hisflatfacequiveredwithexcitement。“Gid”scome!“

  hesaidinahoarsewhisper。“Everybodygetbusy。We”lltryMissSackvilleonhim。”

  AndhehimselfassistedwhiletheytrickedoutSusaninanafternooncostumeofpalegray,puttingonherheadabigpalegrayhatwithharmonizingfeathers。Themodelwasofferedinallcolorsandalsoinamodifiedformthatpermitteditsuseforeitherafternoonorevening。Susanhadreceivedherinstructions,sowhenshewasdressed,shewasreadytosweepintoGideon”spresencewithlanguidmajesty。Jeffries”eyesglistenedashenotedherwalk。“Shelooksasifshereallywasalady!“exclaimedhe。“IwishIcouldmakemydaughtersmovearoundontheirtrotterslikethat。”

  Gideonwasenthronedinaneasychair,smokingacigar。Hewasasparemanofperhapsforty-five,withnointentionofabandoningthepretensionstoyouthformanyayear。Indresshewasasspickandspanasatailoratthetrade”sannualconvention。Buthehadevidentlybeen“goingsome“forseveraldays;thesour,worn,haggardfacerisingabovehiselegantlyfittingcollarsuggestedamoth-eatenjaguarthathasbeenforweeksonshortrationsornone。

  “What”sthematter?“hesnapped,asthedoorbegantoopen。

  “Idon”tliketohekeptwaiting。”

  InsweptSusan;andJeffries,rubbinghisthickhands,saidfawningly,“ButIthink,Mr。Gideon,you”llsayitwasworthwaitingfor。”

  Gideon”sangry,arroganteyessoftenedatfirstglimpseofSusan。“Um!“hegrunted,somesuchsoundasthejaguaraforesaidwouldmakewhenthefirstchunkoffoodhurtledthroughthebarsandlandedonhispaws。HesatwithcigarpoisedbetweenhislongwhitefingerswhileSusanwalkedupanddownbeforehim,displayingthedressatallangles,Jeffriesexpatiatinguponitthewhile。

  “Don”ttalksodamnmuch,Jeff!“hecommandedwiththeinsolenceofacustomercontainingpossibilitiesoflargeprofit。“Ijudgeformyself。I”mnotadamnfool。”

  “Ishouldsaynot,“criedJeffries,laughingthemerchant”slaughforacustomer”spleasantry。“ButIcan”thelptalkingaboutit,Gid,it”ssolovely!“

  Jeffries”shrewdeyesleapedforjoywhenGideongotupfromhischairand,underpretenseofexaminingthegarment,investigatedSusan”sfigure。Ashisgentle,insinuatinghandstraveledoverher,hiseyessoughthers。“Excuseme,“saidJeffries。“I”llseethattheygettheotherthingsready。”

  Andouthewent,winkingatMaryHinkletofollowhim——anunnecessarygestureasshewasalreadyonherwaytothedoor。

  Gideonunderstoodaswellasdidtheywhytheyleft。“Idon”tthinkI”veseenyoubefore,mydear,“saidhetoSusan。

  “Icameonlythismorning,“repliedshe。

  “IliketoknoweverybodyIdealwith。Wemustgetbetteracquainted。You”vegotthebestfigureinthebusiness——theverybest。”

  “Thankyou,“saidSusanwithagrave,distantsmile。

  “Gotadatefordinnertonight?“inquiredhe;and,assumingthateverythingwouldyieldprecedencetohim,hedidnotwaitforareply,butwenton,“Tellmeyouraddress。I”llsendacabforyouatseveno”clock。”

  “Thankyou,“saidSusan,“butIcan”tgo。”

  Gideonsmiled。“Oh,don”tbeshy。Ofcourseyou”llgo。AskJeffries。He”lltellyouit”sallright。”

  “TherearereasonswhyI”drathernotbeseenintherestaurants。”

  “That”sevenbetter。I”llcomeinthecabmyselfandwe”llgotoaquietplace。”

  Hiseyessmiledinsinuatinglyather。Nowthatshelookedathimmorecarefullyhewasunusuallyattractiveforamanofhistype——hadstrengthandintelligenceinhisfeatures,hadasuggestionofmastery,ofoneusedtoobedience,inhisvoice。

  Histeethwereevenandsound,hislipsfirmyetnottoothin。

  “Come,“saidhepersuasively。“I”llnoteatyouup”withagayandgracioussmile”atleastI”lltrynotto。”

  SusanrememberedwhatMissHinklehadtoldher。Shesawthatshemusteitheraccepttheinvitationorgiveupherposition。

  Shesaid:

  “Verywell,“andgavehimheraddress。

  BackcameJeffriesandMissHinklecarryingthefirstofthewraps。Gideonwavedthemaway。“You”veshown”emtomebefore,“saidhe。“Idon”twanttosee”emagain。Givemetheeveninggowns。”

  Susanwithdrew,soontoappearinadressthatleftherarmsandneckbare。Gideoncouldnotgetenoughofthis。Jeffrieskeptherwalkingupanddownuntilshewasreadytodropwithwearinessofthemonotony,ofthedistastefulplayofGideon”sfieryglanceuponherarmsandshouldersandthroat。Gideontriedtodrawherintoconversation,butshewould——indeedcould——gonofurtherthandirectanswerstohisdirectquestions。“Nevermind,“saidhetoherinanundertone。

  “I”llcheeryouupthisevening。IthinkIknowhowtoorderadinner。”

  HerinstantconquestofthedifficultandvaluableGideonsoelatedJeffriesthathepiledtheworkonher。Heusedherwitheveryimportantbuyerwhocamethatday。Thetemperaturewasupinthehighnineties,thehotmoistairstoodstagnantasabarnyardpool;thewintermodelswerecruellyhotandheavy。Alldaylong,withapauseofhalfanhourtoeatherrollanddrinkaglassofwater,Susanwalkedupanddowntheshowparlorsweightedwithdressesandcloaks,fursforarcticweather。Theothergirls,eventhosedoingalmostnothing,wereallbutprostrated。Itwaslittleshortofintolerable,thisstruggletogainthe“honest,self-respectinglivingbyhonestwork“thattherewassomuchtalkabout。Towardfiveo”clockhernervesabruptlyandcompletelygaveway,andshefainted——forthefirsttimeinherlife。Atoncethewholeestablishmentwasinanuproar。Jeffriescursedhimselfloudlyforhisshortsightedness,forhisoverestimatingheryoungstrength。“She”lllooklikehellthisevening,“hewailed,wringinghishandslikeadistractedpeasantwoman。“Maybeshewon”tbeabletogooutatall。”

  Shesooncameround。Theybroughtherwhiskey,andafterwardteaandsandwiches。Andwiththepowerofquickrecuperationthatisthemostfascinatingmiracleofhealthyyouth,shenotonlyshowednosignofherbreakdownbutlookedmuchbetter。

  Andshefeltbetter。Weshallsomedayunderstandwhyitisthatifaseverephysicalblowfollowsuponamentalblow,recoveryfromthephysicalblowisalwaysaccompaniedbyareliefofthementalstrain。Susancameoutofherfitoffaintnessandexhaustionwithadifferentpointofview——asiftimehadbeenlongatworksofteningher,grief。Spenserseemedpartofthepresentnolonger,butofthepast——apastfarmoreremotethanyesterday。

  MaryHinklesatwithherasshedrankthetea。“DidyoumakeadatewithGid?“inquiredshe。HertoneletSusanknowthatthequestionhadbeenpromptedbyJeffries。

  “Heaskedmetodinewithhim,andIsaidIwould。”

  “Haveyougotanicedress——dinnerdress,Imean?“

  “ThelinenoneI”mwearingisall。Myotherdressisforcoolerweather。”

  “ThenI”llgiveyouoneoutofstock——ImeanI”llborrowoneforyou。Thisdinner”sahouseaffair,youknow——togetGid”sorder。It”llbeworththousandstothem。”

  “Therewouldn”tbeanythingtofitmeonsuchshortnotice,“

  saidSusan,castingaboutforanexcusefornotwearingborrowedfinery。

  “Why,you”vegotamodelfigure。I”llpickyououtawhitedress——andablackandwhitehat。Iknow”emall,andIknowonethat”llmakeyoulooksimplylovely。”

  Susandidnotprotest。Shewasprofoundlyindifferenttowhathappenedtoher。Lifeseemedashowinwhichshehadnopart,andatwhichshesatalistlessspectator。Afewminutes,andinpuffedJeffries,solicitousasafussyoldbirdwithanewfamily。

  “You”realotbetter,ain”tyou?“criedhe,beforehehadlookedather。“Oh,yes,you”llbeallright。Andyou”llhavealovelytimewithMr。Gideon。He”saperfectgentleman——knowshowtotreatalady……TheminuteIlaideyesonyouI

  saidtomyself,saidI,`Jeffries,she”samascot。”Andyouare,mydear。You”llgetustheorder。Butyoumustn”ttalkbusinesswithhim,youunderstand?“

  “Yes,“saidSusan,wearily。

  “He”sagentleman,youknow,anditdon”tdotomixbusinessandsocialpleasures。Youstringhimalongquietandladylikeandelegant,asiftherewasn”tanysuchthingsascloaksordressesintheworld。He”llunderstandallright……Ifyoulandtheorder,mydear,I”llseethatyougetanicepresent。Anicedress——theonewe”regoingtolendyou——ifhegivesusaslice。Thedressandtwenty-fiveincash,ifhegivesusall。How”sthat?“

  “Thankyou,“saidSusan。“I”lldomybest。”

  “You”lllandit。You”lllandit。IfeelasifwehaditwithhisO。K。onit。”

  Susanshivered。“Don”t——don”tcountonmetoomuch,“shesaidhesitatingly。“I”mnotinverygoodspirits,I”msorrytosay。”

  “Alittlepressedformoney?“Jeffrieshesitated,madeaneffort,blurtedoutwhatwasforhim,thebusinessman,agiddygenerosity。“Onyourwayout,stopatthecashier”s。He”llgiveyouthisweek”spayinadvance。”Jeffrieshesitated,decidedagainstdangerousliberality。“Notten,youunderstand,butsaysix。Yousee,youwon”thavebeenwithusafullweek。”Andhehurriedaway,frightenedbyhisprodigality,bythesehystericalimpulsesthatwererushinghimfarfromthecourseofsoundbusinesssense。“AsJonessays,I”magenerousoldfool,“hemuttered。“Mysoftheart”llruinmeyet。”

  JeffriessentMaryHinklehomewithSusantocarrythedressandhat,tohelphermakeatoiletandto“startheroffright。”Inthehourbeforetheyleftthestoretherewasofferedatypicalillustrationofwhyandhow“business“isabletosuspendthenormalmoralsenseandtosubstituteforitahighlyingeniouscounterfeitofsuprememoralobligationtoit。ThehystericalJeffrieshadinfectedtheentirepersonnelwithhisexcitement,withthesensethatagreatbattlewasimpendingandthatthecauseofthehouse,whichwasthecauseofeveryonewhodrewpayfromit,hadbeenintrustedtotheyoungrecruitwiththefascinatingfigureandthesweet,sadface。AndSusan”ssensitivenaturewassoonvibratinginresponsetothisfeeling。Itterrifiedherthatshe,theinexperienced,hadsuchgraveresponsibility。Itmadeherheartheavytothinkofprobablefailure,whenthehousehadbeensogoodtoher,hadtakenherin,hadgivenherunusualwages,hadmadeitpossibleforhertogetastartinlife,hadintrustedtoheritscause,itschancetoretrieveabadseasonandtoprotectitsemployeesinsteadofdischargingalotofthem。

  “Haveyougotlongwhitegloves?“askedMaryHinkle,astheywalkedupBroadway,shecarryingthedressandSusanthehatbox。

  “Onlyafewpairsofshortones。”

  “Youmusthavelongwhitegloves——andapairofwhitestockings。”

  “Ican”taffordthem。”

  “Oh,Jeffriestoldmetoaskyou——andtogotoworkandbuythemifyouhadn”t。”

  TheystoppedatWanamaker”s。Susanwasabouttopay,whenMarystoppedher。“Ifyoupay,“saidshe,“maybeyou”llgetyourmoneybackfromthehouse,andmaybeyouwon”t。IfIpay,they”llnotmakeakickongivingitbacktome。”

  ThedressMaryhadselectedwasasimplewhitebatiste,cutoutattheneckprettily,andwiththeelbowsleevesthatwerethenthefashion。“Yourarmsandthroatarelovely,“saidMary。

  “Andyourhandsaremightynice,too——that”swhyI”msureyou”veneverbeenarealworkinggirl——leastways,notforalongtime。Whenyougettotherestaurantanddrawoffyourglovesinaslow,careless,ladylikekindofway,andputyourelbowsonthetable——my,howhewilltakeon!“Marylookedatherwithanintensebutnotatallmalignantenvy。“Ifyoudon”tlandhigh,it”llbebecauseyou”reafool。Andyouain”tthat。”

  “I”mafraidIam,“repliedSusan。“Yes,IguessI”mwhat”scalledafool——whatprobablyisafool。”

  “Youwanttolookoutthen,“warnedMissHinkle。“Youwanttogotoworkandgetoverthat。Beautydon”tcount,unlessagirl”sgotshrewdness。Thestreetsarefullofbeautiessellin”outforabareliving。Theythoughttheycouldn”thelpwinning,andtheygotleft,andtheplaingirlswhohadtohustleandmanagehavepassedthem。GotoDel”sorRector”sortheWaldorfortheMadridoranyofthosehigh-tonedplaces,andseethewomenwiththeswellclothesandjewelry!Themarriedones,andtheotherkind,both。Aretheyravingtearingbeauties?Notoften……ThetroublewithmeisI”vebeentoogood-heartedandtoosoftaboutbeingflattered。

  Iwastoogoodlooking,andasmalleasylivingcametooeasy。

  You——I”dsayyouwere——thatyouhadbrainsbutwereshyaboutusingthem。What”sthegoodofhavingthem?Mightaswellbeaboob。Then,too,you”vegottogotoworkandlookoutaboutbeingtoorefined。Therefined,niceonesgoesthelowest——iftheygetpushed——andthisisapushingworld。You”llgetpushedjustasfarasyou”lllet”em。Takeitfromme。I”vebeendowntheline。”

  Susan”slowspiritssanklower。Thesedisagreeabletruths——forobservationandexperiencemadeherfeartheyweretruths——filledherwithdespondency。Whatwasthematterwithlife?Asbetweenthemoralityshehadbeentaughtandthepracticalmoralityofthisworlduponwhichshehadbeencast,whichwastheright?How“takehold“?Howaverttheimpendingdisaster?Whatofthe“good“should——_must_——shethrowaway?Whatshould——_must_——sheclingto?

  MaryHinklewasshockedbythepoorlittleroom。“Thisisnoplaceforalady!“criedshe。“Butitwon”tlastlong——notaftertonight,ifyouplayyourcardshalfwayright。”

  “I”mverywellsatisfied,“saidSusan。“IfIcanonlykeepthis!“

  Shefeltnointerestinthetoiletuntilthedressandhatwereunpackedandlaidoutuponthebed。Atsightofthemhereyesbecameakeenandlivelygray——nevervioletforthatkindofemotion——andtheresurgeduptheloveoffinerythatdwellsineverynormalwoman——andineverynormalman——thatisputtherebyahereditydatingbackthroughtheagestotheverybeginningofconsciouslife——anddoesnotleavethemuntillifegivesupthebattleandpreparestovacatebeforedeath。

  Ellen,themaid,passingthedoor,sawandenteredtoaddherecstaticexclamationstotheexcitement。DownsherantobringMrs。Tucker,whonosoonerbeheldtheglorydisplayeduponthehumblebedthanshetoowasinaturmoil。Susandressedwiththeaidofthreemaidsasinterestedandeageraseverrobedaqueenforcoronation。Ellenbroughthotwaterandalargerbowl。Mrs。Tuckerwishedtolendahighlyscentedtoiletsoapsheusedwhensheputongalaattire;butSusaninsisteduponherownplainsoap。Theyallhelpedherbathe;theyhelpedherselectthebestunderclothesfromhersmallstore。Susanwouldputonherownstockings;butEllengotonefootintooneoftheslippersandMrs。Tuckerlookedaftertheotherfoot。

  “Ain”ttheylovely?“saidEllentoMrs。Tucker,astheyknelttogetherattheirtask。“Ineverseesuchfeet。Notalumpon”em,butlikefeetinapicture。”

  “Ittakesamightygoodlegtolookgoodinawhitestocking,“

  observedMary。“Butyoursissoniceandlongandslimthatthey”dstandmostanything。”

  Mrs。TuckerandEllenstoodbywithnointerferencesavesuggestionandcomment,whileMary,whoatonetimeworkedforahairdresser,didSusan”sthickdarkhair。Susanwouldpermitnoelaborations,muchtoMissHinkle”sregret。Butthethreeagreedthatshewasrightwhenthesimplesweepofthevitalblue-blackhairwasfinishedinalooseandgracefulknotattheback,andSusan”ssmall,healthilypallidfacelookeditsloveliest,withtheviolet-grayeyessoftandsweetandserious。Mrs。Tuckerbroughtthehatfromthebed,andSusanputiton——alargeblackstrawofamostbecomingshapewithtwopurewhiteplumescurlingroundthecrownandathird,notsolong,risinggracefullyfromthebigbucklewherethethreeplumesmet。Andnowcametheputtingonofthedress。Withasmuchcareasiftheywerehandlingarareandfragilevase,MaryandMrs。TuckerheldthedressforSusantostepintoit。

  EllenkeptherpetticoatinplacewhiletheothertwoescortedthedressupSusan”sform。

  Thenthethreeworkedtogetherathookingandsmoothing。Susanwashedherhandsagain,refusedtoletMrs。Tuckerrunandbringpowder,producedfromadrawersomepreparedchalkandwithitsafeguardedhernoseagainstshine;shetuckedthepowderragintoherstocking。Lastofallthegloveswentonandasmallhandkerchiefwasthrustintothepalmoftheleftglove。

  “HowdoIlook?“askedSusan。“Lovely“”Fine“”Justgrand,“

  exclaimedthethreemaids。

  “Ifeelawfullydressedup,“saidshe。“Andit”ssohot!“

  “Youmustgorightdownstairswhereit”scoolandyouwon”tgetwilted,“criedMrs。Tucker。“Holdyourskirtscloseontheway。Thestepsandwallsain”tnonetooclean。”

  Inthebathroomdownstairstherewasalongmirrorbuiltintothewall,arelicoftheoldhouse”slongdepartedyouthofgrandeur。Asthetenant——Mr。Jessop——wasout,Mrs。Tuckerledthewayintoit。ThereSusanhadthefirstsatisfactorylookatherself。Sheknewshewasaprettywoman;shewouldhavebeenweak-mindedhadshenotknownit。Butshewasamazedatherself。Atouchhereandthere,asinuousshiftingofthebodywithinthegarments,andthesuggestionof“dressedup“

  vanishedbeforethereflectedeyesofheragitatedassistants,whodidnotknowwhathadhappenedbutonlysawtheresults。

  Shehardlyknewthetallbeautifulwomanoffashiongazingatherfromthemirror。Coulditbethatthiswasherhair?——theseeyeshers——andthemouthandnoseandtheskin?

  Wasthislongslenderfigureherveryown?Whatanastoundingdifferenceclothesdidmake!NeverbeforehadSusanwornanythingnearlysofine。“ThisisthewayIoughttolookallthetime,“thoughtshe。“AndthisisthewayI_will_look!“

  Onlybetter——muchbetter。Alreadyhertrueeyewasseeingthedefects,thechancesforimprovement——howthehatcouldbere-bentandre-trimmedtoadaptittoherfeatures,howthedresscouldbealteredtomakeitmoretasteful,moreeffectiveinsubtlyattractingattentiontoherfigure。

  “Howmuchdoyousupposethedresscost,MissHinkle?“askedEllen——thequestionMrs。Tuckerhadbeendyingtoputbuthadrefrainedfromputtinglestitshouldsoundunrefined。

  “Itcostsninetywholesale,“saidMissHinkle。“That”dmeanahundredandtwenty-five——ahundredandfifty,maybeifyouwastotrytobuyitinadepartmentstore。Andthehat——well,Lichtenstein”daskfiftyorsixtyforitandneverturnahair。”

  “Gosh——ee?“exclaimedEllen。“Didyoueverhearthelike?“

  “I”mnotsurprised,“saidMrs。Tucker,whoinfactwasflabbergasted。“Well——it”sworththemoneytothemthatcanaffordtobuyit。ThegoodLordputeverythingonearthtobeused,Ireckon。AndMissSackvilleisthebuildforthingslikethat。Nowit”dbefoolishonme,withastomachandsitterthatwon”tletnoskirthangfittolookat。”

  Thebellrang。TheexcitementdiedfromSusan”sface,leavingitpaleandcold。Awaveofnauseasweptthroughher。Ellenpeepedout,Mrs。TuckerandMissHinklelisteningwithanxiousfaces。“It”shim!“whisperedEllen,“andthere”sataxi,too。”

  ItwasdecidedthatEllenshouldgotothedoor,thatassheopeneditSusanshouldcomecarelesslyfromthebackroomandadvancealongthehall。AndthisprogramwascarriedoutwiththeresultthatasGideonsaid,“IsMissSackvillehere?“MissSackvilleappearedbeforehiswidening,wondering,admiringeyes。Hewasdressedintheextremeoffashionandcostlinessingoodtaste;whileitwouldhavebeenimpossibleforhimtolookdistinguished,hedidlookwhathewas——aprosperousbusinessmanwithprospects。Hecameperfumedandrustling。

  Buthefeltcompletelyoutclassed——untilheremindedhimselfthatforallherbraveshowoffashionableladyshewasonlyamodelwhilehewasafifteen-thousand-a-yearmanonthewaytoapartnership。

  “Don”tyouthinkwemightdineontheverandaatSherry”s?“

  suggestedhe。“It”dbecoolthere。”

  Atsightofhimshehadnervedherself,hadkeyedherselfuptowardrecklessness。Shewasinforit。Shewouldputitthrough。Nofutilecowardlyshrinkingandwhimpering!Whynottrytogetwhateverpleasuretherewasachancefor?

  But——Sherry”s——wasitsafe?Yes,almostanyoftheFifthAvenueplaces——excepttheWaldorf,possibly——wassafeenough。

  ThecircuitofSpenserandhisfriendslayinthemoreBohemianBroadwaydistrict。HehadtakenhertoSherry”sonlyonce,toseeaspartofaNewYorkeducationtheSundaynightcrowdoffashionablepeople。“Ifyoulike,“saidshe。

  Gideonbeamed。Hewouldbeabletoshowoffhisprize!AstheydroveawaySusanglancedatthefrontparlorwindows,sawthecurtainsagitated,feltthethreefriendly,excitedfacespalpitating。Sheleanedfromthecabwindow,wavedherhand,smiled。ThethreefacesinstantlyappearedandimmediatelyhidagainlestGideonshouldsee。

  ButGideonwastoobusyplanningconversation。HeknewMissSackvillewas“ascommonastherestof”em——andanoldhandatthebusiness,nodoubt。”Buthesimplycouldnotabruptlybreakthroughthebarrier;hemustsquirmthroughgradually。

  “That”saswelloutfityou”vegoton,“hebegan。

  “Yes,“repliedSusanwithherusualcandor。“MissHinkleborroweditoutofthestockformetowear。”

  Gideonwasconfused。Heknewhowshehadgotthehatanddress,butheexpectedhertomakeapretense。Hecouldn”tunderstandhernotdoingit。Suchcandor——anykindofcandor——wasn”tinthegameofmenandwomenaswomenhadplayeditinhisexperience。Thewomen——allsortsofwomen——liedandfakedattheirbusinessjustasmendidinthebusinessofbuyingandsellinggoods。Andhervoice——andherwayofspeaking——theymadehimfeelmorethaneveroutofhisclass。

  Hemustgetsomethingtodrinkassoonasitcouldbeserved;

  thatwouldputhimathisease。Yes——adrink——thatwouldsethimupagain。Andadrinkforher——thatwouldbringherdownfromthisqueernewkindofhighhorse。“Iguessshemustbeatopnotcher——therealthing,comedownintheworld——andnotoutofthenearsilks。Butshe”llbeallrightafteradrink。

  Onedrinkofliquormakesthewholeworldkin。”Thatlastthoughtremindedhimofhisownclevernessandheattackedthesituationafresh。Buttheconversationastheydroveuptheavenuewasonthewholeconstrainedandintermittent——chieflyabouttheweather。Susanwasobserving——andfeeling——andenjoying。Upbubbledheryoungspiritsperpetuallyrenewedbyherhealthy,vitalyouthofbody。ShewasseeingherbelovedCityoftheSunagain。AstheyturnedoutoftheavenueforSherry”smainentranceSusanrealizedthatshewasinForty-fourthStreet。ThestreetwheresheandSpenserhadlived!——hadlivedonlyyesterday。No——notyesterday——impossible!

  Hereyesclosedandsheleanedbackinthecab。

  Gideonwaswaitingtohelpheralight。Hesawthatsomethingwaswrong;itstoodoutobviouslyinherghastlyface。Hefearedthecarriagemenroundtheentrancewould“catchon“tothefactthathewasescortingagirlsounusedtoswellsurroundingsthatshewasreadytofaintwithfright。“Don”tbefoolish,“hesaidsharply。Susanrevivedherself,descended,andwithheadbentlowandtremblingbodyenteredtherestaurant。IntheagitationofgettingatableandsettlingatitGideonforgotforthemomenthersicklypallor。

  Hebegantoorderatonce,notconsultingher——forhepridedhimselfonhisknowledgeofcookeryandassumedthatsheknewnothingaboutit。“Haveacocktail?“askedhe。“Yes,ofcourseyouwill。Youneeditbadandyouneeditquick。”

  Shesaidshepreferredsherry。Shehadintendedtodrinknothing,butshemusthaveaidinconqueringherfaintnessandoverwhelmingdepression。Gideontookadrymartini;orderedasecondforhimselfwhenthefirstcame,andhadthembothdownbeforeshefinishedhersherry。“I”veorderedchampagne,“saidhe。“Isupposeyoulikesweetchampagne。Mostladiesdo,butIcan”tstandseeingitservedeven。”

  “No——Ilikeitverydry,“saidSusan。

  Gideonglintedhiseyesgaylyather,showedhiswhitejaguarteeth。“Soyou”reacquaintedwithfizz,areyou?“Hewasfeelinghisabsurdnotionofinequalityinherfavordissipateasthefumesofthecocktailsrosestraightandstrongfromhisemptystomachtohisbrain。“Doyouknow,I”veasortoffeelingthatwe”regoingtolikeeachotheralot。Ithinkwemakeahandsomecouple——eh——what”syourfirstname?“

  “Lorna。”

  “Lorna,then。Myname”sEd,buteverybodycallsmeGid。”

  Assoonasthemelonwasserved,heorderedthechampagneopened。“Toourbetteracquaintance,“saidhe,liftinghisglasstowardher。

  “Thankyou,“saidshe,inasuffocatedvoice,touchingherglasstoherlips。

  Hewastoopolitetospeak,eveninbanter,ofwhathethoughtwastherealcauseofherpolitenessandsilence。Buthemustendthisstateofoverwhelmednessatgrandsurroundings。Saidhe:

  “You”rekindo”shy,aren”tyou,Lorna?Oristhatyourgame?“

  “Idon”tknow。You”vehadaveryinterestinglife,haven”tyou?Won”tyoutellmeaboutit?“

  “Oh——justordinary,“repliedhe,withapropershowofmodesty。

  Andstraightway,asSusanhadhoped,helaunchedintoaminuteaccountofhimself——thefamiliarstoryoftheenergetic,aggressivemantwistingandkickinghiswayupfromtwoorthreedollarsaweek。Susanseemedinterested,buthermindrefusedtooccupyitselfwithanarrativesocommonplace。

  AfterRodandhisfriendsthisboastfulbusinessmanwasdullandtedious。Wheneverhelaughedatanaccountofhissuperiorcraft——howhehadbluffedthisman,howhehadeucheredthatone——shesmiled。Andsoinonemorecasethecommonmasculinedelusionthatwomenlistentothemonthesubjectofthemselves,withinterestandadmirationasprofoundastheirown,wasnotimpaired。

  “But,“hewoundup,“I”vestayedplainEdGideon。Ineverhaveletprosperityswell_my_head。Andanyonethatknowsme”lltellyouI”maregularfoolforgenerositywiththosethatcomeatmeright……I”vealwaysbeenafavoritewiththeladies。”

  Ashewaspausingforcommentfromher,shesaid,“Icanbelieveit。”Theword“generosity“keptechoinginhermind。

  Generosity——generosity。Howmuchtalktherewasaboutit!

  Everyonewasforeverpraisinghimselfforhisgenerosity,wasrecitingactsofthemostobviousselfishnessinproof。Wasthereanysuchthinginthewholeworldasrealgenerosity?

  “Theylikeagenerousman,“pursuedGid。“I”mtightinbusiness——Icanseeadollarasfarasthenextmanandchaseitashardandgrabitastight。Butwhenitcomestotheladies,why,I”mopen-handed。Iftheytreatmeright,Itreatthemright。”Then,fearingthathehadtactlesslyraisedadoubtofhisinvincibility,hehastilyadded,“Buttheyalwaysdotreatmeright。”

  Whilehehadbeentalkingonandon,Susanhadbeenappealingtothechampagnetohelpherquietherachingheart。Sheresolutelysetherthoughtstowanderingamongthecouplesattheothertablesinthatsubduedsofteninglight——thebeautifullydressedwomenlisteningtotheirmalecompanionswithcloseattention——weretheytoobeingboredbysuchtrashbywayoftalk?Weretheytoosimplylisteningbecauseitisthemanwhopays,becauseitisthemanwhomustbeconciliatedandputinagoodhumorwithhimself,ifdinnersanddressesandjewelsaretobebought?Thattenementattic——thathotmoistworkroom——poverty——privation”honestwork”s“dreadrewards——

  “Now,whatkindofamanwouldyousayIwas?“Gideonwasinquiring。

  “Howdoyoumean?“repliedSusan,withthedexterityatvaguenessthathabituallyself-veilingpeopleacquireasaninstinct。

  “Why,asaman。HowdoIcomparewiththeothermenyou”veknown?“Andhe“shot“hiscuffswithagestureofcarelesselegancethathiscufflinksmightassistinthepictureofthe“swelldresser“hefelthewasposing。

  “Oh——you——you”re——verydifferent。”

  “I_am_different,“swelledGideon。“Yousee,it”sthisway——”Andhewasoffagainintoanothereulogyofhimself;

  itcarriedthemthroughthedinnerandtwoquartsofchampagne。

  Hewasmuchannoyedthatshedidnottakeadvantageofthepointedopportunityhegavehertonotethetotalofthebill;

  hewasevenuncertainwhethershehadnotedthathegavethewaiteradollar。Herustledandsnappeditbeforelayingituponthetray,buthereyeslookedvague。

  “Well,“saidhe,afteracomfortablepullatanexpensive-lookingcigar,“sixteenseventy-fiveisquitealivelylittlepeel-offforadinnerforonlytwo。Butitwasworthit,don”tyouthink?“

  “Itwasasplendiddinner,“saidSusantruthfully。

  Gideonbeamedinintoxicatedgoodhumor。“Iknewyou”dlikeit。Nothingpleasesmebetterthantotakeanicegirlwhoisn”taswelloffasIamoutandblowherofftoacrackerjackdinner。Now,youmayhavethoughtadollarwastoomuchtotipthewaiter?“

  “Adollaris——adollar,isn”tit?“saidSusan。

  Gideonlaughed。“Iusedtothinkso。Andmostmenwouldn”tgivethatmuchtoawaiter。ButIfeelsorryforpoordevilswhodon”thappentobeasluckyorasbrainyasIam。WhatdoyousaytoaturninthePark?We”lltakeahansom,andkindofjogalong。Andwe”llstopattheCasinoandatGabe”sforadrink。”

  “Ihavetogetupsoearly“beganSusan。

  “Oh,that”sallright。”Heslowlywinkedather。“You”llnothavetobumpthebumpsforbeinglatetomorrow——ifyoutreat_me_right。”

  Hecarriedhisliquoreasily。Onlyinhiseyesandinhisevermoreslipperysmilethatwouldslideabouthisfacedidheshowthathehadbeendrinking。Hehelpedherintoahansomwithaflourishand,overrulingherprotests,badethedrivergototheCasino。Onceunderwayshewasglad;herhotskinandherwearyheartweregratefulfortheairblowingdowntheavenuefromthePark”sexpanseofgreen。WhenGideonattemptedtoputhisarmaroundher,shemovedcloseintothecornerandwentontalkingsocalmlyaboutcalmsubjectsthathedidnotinsist。

  ButwhenhehadtosseddownadrinkofwhiskeyattheCasinoandtheyresumedthedrivealongthemoonlit,shadyroads,hetriedagain。

  “Please,“saidshe,“don”tspoiladelightfulevening。”

  “Nowlookhere,mydear——haven”tItreatedyouright?“

  “Indeedyouhave,Mr。Gideon。”

  “Oh,don”tbesodamnedformal。Forgetthedifferencebetweenourpositions。TomorrowI”mgoingtoplaceabigorderwithyourhouse,ifyoutreatmeright。I”mdeadstuckonyou——andthat”saGod”sfact。You”vetakenmecleanoffmyfeet。I”mthinkingofdoingalotforyou。”

  Susanwassilent。

  “WhatdoyousaytothrowingupyourjobandcomingtoChicagowithme?Howmuchdoyouget?“

  “Ten。”

  “Why,_you_can”tliveonthat。”

  “I”velivedonless——muchless。”

  “Doyoulikeit?“

  “Naturallynot。”

  “Youwanttogeton——don”tyou?“

  “Imust。”

  “You”redownintheheartaboutsomething。Love?“

  Susanwassilent。

  “Cutloveout。Cutitout,mydear。Thatain”tthewaytogeton。Love”sagoodconsolationprize,ifyouain”tgoingtogetanywhere,andknowyouain”t。Andit”sagoodfirstprizeafteryou”vearrivedandcanaffordtheluxuriesoflife。Butforaman——orawoman——that”spushingup,it”ssheerruination!

  Cutitout!“

  “Iamcuttingitout,“saidSusan。“Butthattakestime。”

  “Notifyou”vegotsense。Thewaytocutanythingoutis——cutitout!——aquickslash——justcut。Ifyoumakeadozenlittleslashes,eachofthemhurtsasmuchastheonebigslash——andthedozenhurttwelvetimesasmuch——bleedtwelvetimesasmuch——putoffthecurealotmorethantwelvetimesaslong。”

  HehadSusan”sattentionforthefirsttime。

  “Doyouknowwhywomendon”tgeton?“

  “Tellme,“saidshe。“That”swhatIwanttohear。”

  “Becausetheydon”tplaythegameundertherules。Now,whatdoesamando?Why,hestakeseverythinghe”sgot——doeswhatever”snecessary,don”tstopat_nothing_tohelphimgetthere。Howisitwithwomen?Sometrytobevirtuous——whentheirbodiesaretheirbestassets。God!IwishI”d”a”hadyourlooksandyouradvantagesasawomantohelpme。I”dbeamillionairethisminute,withahousefacingthisParkandayachtandalltherestofit。Awomanthat”ssqueamishabouthervirtuecan”thopetowin——unlessshe”sinapositiontomakeagoodmarriage。Asforthelooseones,theyareasbigfoolsasthevirtuousones。Thevirtuousoneslockawaytheirbestasset;thelooseonesthrowitaway。Neitherone_use_it。

  Doyoufollowme?“

  “Ithinkso。”Susanwaslisteningwithamindmadeabnormallyacutebythechampagneshehadfreelydrunk。Thecoarsebluntnessanddirectnessofthemandidnotoffendher。Itmadewhathesaidthemoreeffective,producingarudearrestingeffectuponhernerves。Itmadethemanhimselfseemmoreofaperson。Susanwasbeginningtohaveakindofrespectforhim,tochangeherfirstopinionthathewasmerelyavulgar,pushingcommonplace。

  “Neverthoughtofthatbefore?“

  “Yes——I”vethoughtofit。But——”Shepaused。

  “But——what?“

  “Oh,nothing。”

  “Nevermind。Somewomanishheartnonsense,Isuppose。DoyouseetheapplicationofwhatI”vesaidtoyouandme?“

  “Goon。”Shewasleaningforward,herelbowsonthecloseddoorsofthehansom,hereyesgazingdreamilyintothemoonlitdimnessofthecoolwoodsthroughwhichtheyweredriving。

  “Youdon”twanttostickattenper?“

  “No。”

  “It”llbelessinalittlewhile。Modelsdon”tlast。Thework”stoohard。”

  “Icanseethat。”

  “Andanyhowitmeanstenementhouse。”

  “Yes。Tenementhouse。”

  “Well——whatthen?What”syourplan?“

  “Ihaven”tany。”

  “Haven”taplan——yetwanttogeton!Isthatgoodsense?

  Dideveranybodygetanywherewithoutaplan?“

  “I”mwillingtowork。I”mgoingtowork。I_am_working。”

  “Work,ofcourse。Nobodycankeepalivewithoutworking。Youmightaswellsayyou”regoingtobreatheandeat——Workdon”tamounttoanything,forgettingon。It”sthekindofwork——workinginacertaindirection——workingwithaplan。”

  “I”vegotaplan。ButIcan”tbeginatitjustyet。”

  “Willittakemoney?“

  “Some。”

  “Haveyougotit?“

  “No,“repliedSusan。“I”llhavetogetit。”

  “Asanhonestworkinggirl?“saidhewithgood-humoredirony。

  Susanlaughed。“Itdoessoundridiculous,doesn”tit?“saidshe。

  “Here”sanotherthingthatmaybeyouhaven”tcountedin。

  Lookingasyoudo,doyousupposementhatrunthings”llletyougetpastwithoutpayingtoll?Notonyourlife,mydear。

  Ifyouwasugly,youmightafterseveralyearsgettwentyortwenty-fivebyworkinghard——unlessyoulostyourfigurefirst。

  Butthemenwon”tletagoodlookerrisethatway。Doyoufollowme?“

  “Yes。”

  “I”mnottalkingtheory。I”mtalkinglife。Takeyouandmeforexample。Icanhelpyou——helpyoualot。InfactIcanputyouonyourfeet。AndI”mwilling。IfyouwasamanandIlikedyouandwantedtohelpyou,I”dmakeyouhelpme,too。

  I”dmakeyoudoalotofthingsforme——maybesomeof”emnotsoverynice——maybesomeof”emdownrightdirty。Andyou”ddo”em,asallyoungfellows,strugglingup,haveto。Butyou”reawoman。SoI”mwillingtomakeeasierterms。ButIcan”thelpyouwithyounotshowinganyappreciation。Thatwouldn”tbegoodbusiness——wouldit?——togetnoreturnbut,`Oh,thankyousomuch,Mr。Gideon。Sosweetofyou。I”llrememberyouinmyprayers。”Wouldthatbesensible?“

  “No,“saidSusan。

  “Well,then!IfIdoyouagoodturn,you”vegottodomeagoodturn——notonethatIdon”twantdone,butoneIdowantdone。Ain”tIright?Doyoufollowme?“

  “Ifollowyou。”

  SomevagueaccentinSusan”svoicemadehimfeeldissatisfiedwithherresponse。“Ihopeyoudo,“hesaidsharply。“WhatI”msayingisdressesonyourbackanddollarsinyourpocket——andgettingonintheworld——ifyouworkitright。”

  “Gettingonintheworld,“saidSusan,pensively。

  “Isupposethat”sasneer。”

  “Oh,no。Iwasonlythinking。”

  “Aboutlovebeingallawomanneedstomakeherhappy,Isuppose?“

  “No。Loveis——Well,itisn”thappiness。”

  “Becauseyouletitrunyou,insteadofyourunningit。Eh?“

  “Perhaps。”

  “Sure!Now,letmetellyou,Lornadear。Comfortandluxury,moneyinbank,property,agoodsolidposition——_that”s_thefoundation。Buildon_that_andyou”llbuildsolid。Buildonloveandsentimentandyou”rebuildingupsidedown。You”reputtingthegingerbreadwheretherockoughttobe。Followme?“

  “Iseewhatyoumean。”

  Hetriedtofindherhand。“Whatdoyousay?“

  “I”llthinkofit。”

  “Well,thinkquick,mydear。Opportunitydoesn”twaitroundinanybody”soutsideoffice……Maybeyoudon”ttrustme——don”tthinkI”lldeliverthegoods?“

  “No。Ithinkyou”rehonest。”

  “You”rerightIam。IdowhatIsayI”lldo。That”swhyI”vegoton。That”swhyI”llkeepongettingon。Let”sdrivetoahotel。”

  Sheturnedherheadandlookedathimforthefirsttimesincehebeganhisdiscourseonmakingone”swayintheworld。Herlookwascalm,inquiring——wouldhavebeenchillingtoamanofsensibility——thatis,ofsensibilitytowardanunconqueredwoman。

  “Iwanttogiveyourpeoplethatorder,andIwanttohelpyou。”

  “Iwantthemtogettheorder。Idon”tcareabouttherest,“

  shereplieddully。

  “Putitanywayyoulike。”

  Againhetriedtoembraceher。Sheresistedfirmly。“Wait,“

  saidshe。“Letmethink。”

  TheydrovetherestofthewaytotheupperendoftheParkinsilence。

  Heorderedthedrivertoturn。Hesaidtoher;“Well,doyougetthesackordoesthehousegettheorder?“

  Shewassilent。

  “ShallIdriveyouhomeorshallwestopatGabe”sforadrink?“

  “CouldIhavechampagne?“saidshe。

  “Anythingyoulikeifyouchooseright。”

  “Ihaven”tanychoice,“saidshe。

  Helaughed,puthisarmaroundher,kissedherunresponsivebutunresistinglips。“You”reright,youhaven”t,“saidhe。“It”safinesignthatyouhavethesensetoseeit。Oh,you”llgeton。Youdon”tlettriflesstandinyourway。”III

  ATthelunchhourthenextdayMaryHinkleknockedatthegarretinClintonPlace。Gettingnoanswer,sheopenedthedoor。AtthetableclosetothewindowwasSusaninanightgown,herhairindisorderasifshehadbeguntoarrangeitandhadstoppedhalfway。HereyesturnedlistlesslyinMary”sdirection——dulleyes,gray,heavilycircled。

  “Youdidn”tanswer,MissSackville。SoIthoughtI”dcomeinandleaveanote,“explainedMary。HerglancewasavoidingSusan”s。

  “Comeforthedressandhat?“saidSusan。“Theretheyare。”

  Andsheindicatedtheundisturbedbedwhereonhatanddresswerecarelesslyflung。

  “My,butit”shotinthisroom!“exclaimedMary。“Youmustmoveuptomyplace。There”saroomandbathvacant——onlysevenper。”

  Susanseemednottohear。Shewaslookingdullyatherhandsuponthetablebeforeher。

  “Mr。Jeffriessentmetoaskyouhowyouwere。Hewasworriedbecauseyoudidn”tcome。”Withachangeofvoice,“Mr。Gideontelephoneddowntheorderawhileago。Mr。Jeffriessaysyouaretokeepthedressandhat。”

  “No,“saidSusan。“Takethemawaywithyou。”

  “Aren”tyoucomingdownthisafternoon?“

  “No,“repliedSusan。“I”vequit。”

  “Quit?“criedMissHinkle。Herexpressiongraduallyshiftedfromastonishmenttopleasedunderstanding。“Oh,Isee!

  You”vegotsomethingbetter。”

  “No。ButI”llfindsomething。”

  Marystudiedthesituation,usingSusan”sexpressionlessfaceasaguide。Afteratimesheseemedtogetfromitaclew。

  Withtheairoffriendlyexperiencebentonaidinghelplessinexperienceshepushedasidethedressandmaderoomforherselfonthebed。“Don”tbeafool,MissSackville,“saidshe。“Ifyoudon”tlikethatsortofthing——youknowwhatI

  mean——why,youcanlivesixmonths——maybeayear——onthereputationofwhatyou”vedoneandtheirhopethatyou”llweakendownanddoitagain。That”llgiveyoutimetolookroundandfindsomethingelse。Forpity”ssake,don”tturnyourselfloosewithoutajob。Yougotyourplacesoeasythatyouthinkyoucangetoneanyoldtime。There”swhereyou”rewrong。Believeme,youplayedinluck——andluckdon”tcomeroundoften。IknowwhatI”mtalkingabout。SoIsay,don”tbeafool!“

  “Iamafool,“saidSusan。

  “Well——getoverit。Anddon”twasteanytimeaboutit,either。”

  “Ican”tgoback,“saidSusanstolidly。“Ican”tfacethem。”

  “Facewho?“criedMary。“Businessisbusiness。Everybodyunderstandsthat。Allthepeopledowntherearecrazyaboutyounow。Yougotthehouseahundred-thousand-dollarorder。

  Youdon”t_suppose_anybodyinbusinessbothersabouthowanorder”sgot——doyou?“

  “It”stheway__I__feel——nottheway_they_feel。”

  “Asforthewomendownthere——ofcourse,there”ssomethatpretendtheywon”tdothatsortofthing。Lookat”em——attheirfacesandfigures——andyou”llseewhytheydon”t。Ofcourseagirlkeepsstraightwhenthere”snothinginnotbeingstraight——leastways,unlessshe”safool。Sheknowsthatifthebestshecandoismarryafellowofherownclass,whyshe”donlygetleftifsheplayedanytrickswiththemcheapskatesthathavetogetmarriedorgowithoutbecausethey”retoopoortopayforanything——andbymarryingcangetthatandacookandawashwomanandmenderbesides——andmaybe,too,somebodywhocangooutandworkifthey”relaidupsick。Butifagirlseesachancetogeton——don”tbeafool,MissSackville。”

  Susanlistenedwithasmilethatbarelydisturbedthestolidcalmofherfeatures。“I”mnotgoingback,“shesaid。

  MaryHinklewassilencedbythequietfinalityofhervoice。

  Studyingthatdelicateface,shefelt,behinditspallidimpassiveness,behindtherefusaltoreturn,areasonshecouldnotcomprehend。Shedimlyrealizedthatshewouldrespectitifshecouldunderstandit;forshesuspectedithaditsoriginsomewhereinSusan”s“refinedladylikenature。”Sheknewthatonceinawhileamongthewomenshewasacquaintedwiththeredidhappenonewhopreferreddeathinanyformofmiserytoleadingalaxlife——andindisputablefactshadconvincedherthatnotalwayswerethesewomen“juststupidignorantfools。”

  Sheherselfpossessednosuchrefinementofnervesorofwhateveritwas。Shehadbeenbroughtupinaloosefamilyandinalooseneighborhood。Shewasinthehabitofmakingallsortsofpretenses,becausethatwasthecustom,whilebeingcandidaboutsuchmatterswasregardedasbadform。Shewasnotfooledbythesepretensesinothergirls,thoughtheyoftendidfooleachother。InSusan,sheinstinctivelyfelt,itwasnotpretense。Itwassomethingorotherelse——itwasadangerousreality。ShelikedSusan;inherintelligenceandphysicalcharmwerethepossibilitiesofgettingfarupintheworld;itseemedapitythatshewasthushandicapped。Still,perhapsSusanwouldstumbleuponsomeworthwhilemanwho,attemptingtopossessherwithoutmarriageandfailing,wouldpaytheheavyprice。Therewasalwaysthatchance——asmallchance,smallereventhanfindingbylooselivingaworthwhilemanwhowouldmarryyoubecauseyouhappenedexactlytosuithim——togivehimenoughonlytomakehimfeelthathewantedmore。Still,Susanwasunusuallyattractive,andlucksometimesdidcomeapoorperson”sway——sometimes。

  “I”moverdueback,“saidMary。“Youwantmetotell”emthat?“

  “Yes。”

  “You”llhavehardworkfindingajobatanythinglikeasmuchastenper。I”vegottwotrades,andIcouldn”tateitherone。”

  “Idon”texpecttofindit。”

  “Thenwhatareyougoingtodo?“

  “TakewhatIcanget——untilI”vebeenmadehardenough——orstrongenough——orwhateveritis——tostopbeingafool。”

  ThisindicationoflatentgoodsenserelievedMissHinkle。

  “I”lltell”emyoumaybedowntomorrow。Thinkitoverforanotherday。”

  Susanshookherhead。“They”llhavetogetsomebodyelse。”

  And,asMissHinklereachedthethreshold,“WaittillIdothedressup。You”lltakeitforme?“

  “Whysendthethingsback?“urgedMary。“Theybelongtoyou。

  Godknowsyouearned”em。”

  Susan,standingnow,lookeddownatthefinery。“SoIdid。

  I”llkeepthem,“saidshe。“They”dpawnforsomething。”

  “Withyourlooksthey”dwearforaheapmore。Butkeep”em,anyhow。AndI”llnottellJeffriesyou”vequit。It”lldonoharmtoholdyourjobopenadayorso。”

  “Asyoulike,“saidSusan,toendthediscussion。“ButIhavequit。”

  “Nomatter。Afteryou”vehadsomethingtoeat,you”llfeeldifferent。”

  AndMissHinklenoddedbrightlyanddeparted。Susanresumedherseatatthebarewobblylittletable,resumedherlistlessattitude。ShedidnotmoveuntilEllencamein,holdingoutanoteandsaying,“Aboyfromyourstorebrungthis——here。”

  “Thankyou,“saidSusan,takingthenote。Initshefoundatwenty-dollarbillandafive。Onthesheetofpaperrounditwasscrawled:

  Takethedayoff。Here”syourcommission。We”llraiseyourpayinafewweeks,L。L。J。

  SoMaryHinklehadtoldthemeitherthatshewasquittingorthatshewasthinkingofquitting,andtheywishedhertostay,hadusedthemeanstheybelievedshecouldnotresist。Inadrearywaythisamusedher。Asifshecaredwhetherornotlifewaskeptinthisworthlessbodyofhers,inhertiredheart,inherdisgustedmind!Thenshedroppedbackintolistlessness。WhenshewasarousedagainitwasbyGideon,completelyfillingthesmalldoorway。“Hello,mydear!“criedhecheerfully。“Mindmysmoking?“

  Susanslowlyturnedherheadtowardhim,surveyedhimwithanexpressionbutoneremovedfromtheblanklookshewouldhavehadiftherehadbeennoonebeforeher。

  “I”mfeelingfinetoday,“pursuedGideon,advancingastepandsobringinghimselfabouthalfwaytothetable。“Hadacoupleofpick-me-upsandafatbreakfast。Howareyou?“

  “I”malwayswell。”

  “Thoughtyouseemedalittleseedy。“Hisshrewdsensualeyeswereexploringtheopeningsinhernightdress。“You”llbemightygladtogetoutofthishole。Gosh!It”shot。Don”tseehowyoustandit。I”malawabidingcitizenbutImustsayI”dturncriminalbeforeI”dputupwiththis。”

  IntheunderworldfromwhichGideonhadsprung——theunderworldwherewelterstheoverwhelmingmassofthehumanrace——therearethreemaintypes。Therearethehopelessandspiritless——themass——whowelterpassivelyon,breedinganddying。Therearethespiritedwhoalsopossessbothshrewdnessandcalculation;theypushupwardbyhookandbycrook,alwaysmindfulofthefutilityofthestruggleofthepettycriminaloftheslumsagainstthepoliceandthelaw;theyarriveandfoundthearistocraciesofthefuture。Thethirdisthecriminalclass。Itisalsomadeupofthespirited——butthespiritedwho,havinglittleshrewdnessandnocalculation——thatis,noabilitytoforeseeandmeasureconsequences——wageclumsywaruponsocietyandpaythepenaltyoftheirfatuityinlivesofwretchednessevenmorewretchedthanthecommonlot。Gideonbelongedtothesecondclass——theclassthatpushesupwardwithoutgettingintojail;hewasafairrepresentativeofthistype,neitheritsbestnoritsworst,butaboutmidwayofitsrangebetweenarrogant,all-dominatingplutocratandshysteringmerchantorlawyerorpoliticianwhobarelyescapesthecriminalclass。

  “Youdon”taskmetositdown,dearie,“hewentonfacetiously。

  “ButI”mnotsomadthatIwon”tdoit。”

  HetooktheseatMissHinklehadclearedonthebed。Hisglancewandereddisgustedlyfromobjecttoobjectinthecrowdedyetbareattic。Hecaughtawhiffoftheodorfromacrossthehall——fromthefresh-airshaft——andhastilygaveseveralpuffsathiscigartosaturatehissurroundingswithitsperfume。Susanactedasifshewerealoneintheroom。

  Shehadnotevendrawntogetherhernightgown。

  “Iphonedyourstoreaboutyou,“resumedGideon。“Theysaidyouhadn”tshowedup——wouldn”ttilltomorrow。SoIcameroundhereandyourlandladysentmeup。Iwanttotakeyouforadrivethisafternoon。WecandineuptoClaremontorfarther,ifyoulike。”

  “No,thanks,“saidSusan。“Ican”tgo。”

  “Upty-tupty!“criedGideon。“What”stheladysosourabout?“

  “I”mnotsour。”

  “Thenwhywon”tyougo?“

  “Ican”t。”

  “Butwe”llhaveachancetotalkoverwhatI”mgoingtodoforyou。”

  “You”vekeptyourword,“saidSusan。

  “Thatwasonlypart。Besides,I”dhavegivenyourhousetheorder,anyhow。”

  Susan”seyessuddenlylightedup。“Youwould?“shecried。

  “Well——apartofit。Notsomuch,ofcourse。ButIneverletpleasureinterferewithbusiness。Nobodythatdoesevergetsveryfar。”

  Herexpressionmadehimhastentoexplain——withoutbeingconsciouswhy。“Isaid——_part_oftheorder,mydear。Theyowetoyouabouthalfofwhatthey”llmakeoffme……What”sthatmoneyonthetable?Yourcommission?“

  “Yes。”

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