Theaccentsandgesturesofthismanleftmedrainedofallcourage。Surely,onnootheroccasionshouldIhavebeenthuspusillanimous。MystateIregardedasahopelessone。Iwaswhollyatthemercyofthisbeing。WhicheverwayIturnedmyeyes,IsawnoavenuebywhichImightescape。Theresourcesofmypersonalstrength,myingenuity,andmyeloquence,Iestimatedatnothing。ThedignityofvirtueandtheforceoftruthIhadbeenaccustomedtocelebrate,andhadfrequentlyvauntedoftheconquestswhichIshouldmakewiththeirassistance。
Iusedtosupposethatcertainevilscouldneverbefallabeinginpossessionofasoundmind;thattruevirtuesuppliesuswithenergywhichvicecanneverresist;thatitwasalwaysinourpowertoobstruct,byhisowndeath,thedesignsofanenemywhoaimedatlessthanourlife。Howwasitthatasentimentlikedespairhadnowinvadedme,andthatItrustedtotheprotectionofchance,ortothepityofmypersecutor?
Hiswordsimpartedsomenotionoftheinjurywhichhehadmeditated。Hetalkedofobstaclesthathadriseninhisway。Hehadrelinquishedhisdesign。Thesesourcessuppliedmewithslenderconsolation。Therewasnosecuritybutinhisabsence。
WhenIlookedatmyself,whenIreflectedonthehourandtheplace,Iwasoverpoweredbyhorroranddejection。
Hewassilent,museful,andinattentivetomysituation,yetmadenomotiontodepart。Iwassilentinmyturn。WhatcouldIsay?
Iwasconfidentthatreasoninthiscontestwouldbeimpotent。I
mustowemysafetytohisownsuggestions。Whateverpurposebroughthimhither,hehadchangedit。Whythendidheremain?
Hisresolutionsmightfluctuate,andthepauseofafewminutesrestoretohimhisfirstresolutions。
Yetwasnotthisthemanwhomwehadtreatedwithunweariedkindness?whosesocietywasendearedtousbyhisintellectualelevationandaccomplishments?whohadathousandtimesexpatiatedontheusefulnessandbeautyofvirtue?Whyshouldsuchaonebedreaded?IfIcouldhaveforgottenthecircumstancesinwhichourinterviewhadtakenplace,Imighthavetreatedhiswordsasjests。
Presently,heresumed:——
“Fearmenot:thespacethatseversusissmall,andallvisiblesuccorisdistant。Youbelieveyourselfcompletelyinmypower;
thatyoustanduponthebrinkofruin。Suchareyourgroundlessfears。Icannotliftafingertohurtyou。Easierwoulditbetostopthemooninhercoursethantoinjureyou。Thepowerthatprotectsyouwouldcrumblemysinewsandreducemetoaheapofashesinamoment,ifIweretoharborathoughthostiletoyoursafety。
“Thusareappearancesatlengthsolved。LittledidIexpectthattheyoriginatedhence。Whataportionisassignedtoyou!Scannedbytheeyesofthisintelligence,yourpathwillbewithoutpitstoswalloworsnarestoentangleyou。Environedbythearmsofthisprotection,allartificeswillbefrustratedandallmalicerepelled。”
Heresucceededanewpause。Iwasstillobservantofeverygestureandlook。Thetranquilsolemnitythathadlatelypossessedhiscountenancegavewaytoanewexpression。Allnowwastrepidationandanxiety。
“Imustbegone,“saidhe,inafalteringaccent。“WhydoIlingerhere?Iwillnotaskyourforgiveness。Iseethatyourterrorsareinvincible。Yourpardonwillbeextortedbyfear,andnotdictatedbycompassion。Imustflyfromyouforever。Hethatcouldplotagainstyourhonormustexpectfromyouandyourfriendspersecutionanddeath。Imustdoommyselftoendlessexile。”
Sayingthis,hehastilylefttheroom。Ilistenedwhilehedescendedthestairs,and,unboltingtheouterdoor,wentforth。I
didnotfollowhimwithmyeyes,asthemoonlightwouldhaveenabledmetodo。Relievedbyhisabsence,andexhaustedbytheconflictofmyfears,Ithrewmyselfonachair,andresignedmyselftothosebewilderingideaswhichincidentslikethesecouldnotfailtoproduce。
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Ordercouldnotreadilybeintroducedintomythoughts。Thevoicestillrunginmyears。EveryaccentthatwasutteredbyCarwinwasfreshinmyremembrance。Hisunwelcomeapproach,therecognitionofhisperson,hishastydeparture,producedacompleximpressiononmymindwhichnowordscandelineate。Istrovetogiveaslowermotiontomythoughts,andtoregulateaconfusionwhichbecamepainful;butmyeffortswerenugatory。Icoveredmyeyeswithmyhand,andsat,Iknownothowlong,withoutpowertoarrangeoruttermyconceptions。
Ihadremainedforhours,asIbelieved,inabsolutesolitude。Nothoughtofpersonaldangerhadmolestedmytranquillity。Ihadmadenopreparationfordefense。Whatwasitthatsuggestedthedesignofperusingmyfather”smanuscript?If,insteadofthis,I
hadretiredtobedandtosleep,towhatfatemightInothavebeenreserved。Theruffian,whomustalmosthavesuppressedhisbreathingstoscreenhimselffromdiscovery,wouldhavenoticedthissignal,andIshouldhaveawakenedonlytoperishwithaffright,andtoabhormyself。CouldIhaveremainedunconsciousofmydanger?CouldIhavetranquillysleptinthemidstofsodeadlyasnare?
Andwhowashethatthreatenedtodestroyme?Bywhatmeanscouldhehidehimselfinthiscloset?Surelyheisgiftedwithsupernaturalpower。SuchistheenemyofwhoseattemptsIwasforewarned。DailyIhadseenhimandconversedwithhim。Nothingcouldbediscernedthroughtheimpenetrableveilofhisduplicity。
Whenbusiedinconjecturesastotheauthoroftheevilthatwasthreatened,myminddidnotlightforamomentuponhisimage。Yethashenotavowedhimselfmyenemy?Whyshouldhebehereifhehadnotmeditatedevil?
Heconfessesthatthishasbeenhissecondattempt。Whatwasthesceneofhisformerconspiracy?Wasitnothewhosewhispersbetrayedhim?AmIdeceived?orwastherenotafaintresemblancebetweenthevoiceofthismanandthatwhichtalkedofgraspingmythroatandextinguishingmylifeinamoment?Thenhehadacolleagueinhiscrime;nowheisalone。Thendeathwasthescopeofhisthoughts;nowaninjuryunspeakablymoredreadful。HowthankfulshouldIbetothepowerthathasinterposedtosaveme!
Thatpowerisinvisible。Itissubjecttothecognizanceofoneofmysenses。Whatarethemeansthatwillinformmeofwhatnatureitis?Hehassethimselftocounter-workthemachinationsofthisman,whohadmenaceddestructiontoallthatisdeartome,andwhosecominghadsurmountedeveryhumanimpediment。Therewasnonetorescuemefromhisgrasp。Myrashnessevenhastenedthecompletionofhisscheme,andprecludedhimfromthebenefitsofdeliberation。Ihadrobbedhimofthepowertorepentandforbear。
HadIbeenapprisedofthedanger,Ishouldhaveregardedmyconductasthemeansofrenderingmyescapefromitimpossible。
Such,likewise,seemtohavebeenthefearsofmyinvisibleprotector。Elsewhythatstartlingentreatytorefrainfromopeningthecloset?BywhatinexplicableinfatuationwasI
compelledtoproceed?
“Surely,“saidI,“thereisomnipotenceinthecausethatchangedtheviewsofamanlikeCarwin。Thedivinitythatshieldedmefromhisattemptswilltakesuitablecareofmyfuturesafety。Thustoyieldtomyfearsistodeservethattheyshouldbereal。”
ScarcelyhadIutteredthesewords,whenmyattentionwasstartledbythesoundoffootsteps。Theydenotedsomeonesteppingintothepiazzainfrontofmyhouse。Mynew-bornconfidencewasextinguishedinamoment。Carwin,Ithought,hadrepentedhisdeparture,andwashastilyreturning。Thepossibilitythathisreturnwaspromptedbyintentionsconsistentwithmysafetyfoundnoplaceinmymind。Imagesofviolationandmurderassailedmeanew,andtheterrorswhichsucceededalmostincapacitatedmefromtakinganymeasuresformydefense。ItwasanimpulseofwhichI
wasscarcelyconsciousthatmademefastenthelockanddrawtheboltsofmychamberdoor。Havingdonethis,Ithrewmyselfonaseat;forItrembledtoadegreewhichdisabledmefromstanding,andmysoulwassoperfectlyabsorbedintheactoflistening,thatalmostthevitalmotionswerestopped。
Thedoorbelowcreakedonitshinges。Itwasnotagainthrustto,butappearedtoremainopen。Footstepsentered,traversedtheentry,andbegantomountthestairs。HowIdetestedthefollyofnotpursuingthemanwhenhewithdrew,andboltingafterhimtheouterdoor!Mighthenotconceivethisomissiontobeaproofthatmyangelhaddesertedme,andbetherebyfortifiedinguilt?
Everysteponthestairswhichbroughthimnearertomychamberaddedvigortomydesperation。TheevilwithwhichIwasmenacedwastobeatanyrateeluded。HowlittledidIpreconceivetheconductwhich,inanexigencelikethis,Ishouldbepronetoadopt!Youwillsupposethatdeliberationanddespairwouldhavesuggestedthesamecourseofaction,andthatIshouldhaveunhesitatinglyresortedtothebestmeansofpersonaldefensewithinmypower。Apenknifelayopenuponmytable。Irememberedthatitwasthere,andseizedit。Forwhatpurposeyouwillscarcelyinquire。ItwillbeimmediatelysupposedthatImeantitformylastrefuge,andthat,ifallothermeansshouldfail,I
shouldplungeitintotheheartofmyravisher。
Ihavelostallfaithinthesteadfastnessofhumanresolves。ItwasthusthatinperiodsofcalmIhaddeterminedtoact。Nocowardicehadbeenheldbymeingreaterabhorrencethanthatwhichpromptedaninjuredfemaletodestroy,notherinjurereretheinjurywasperpetrated,butherselfwhenitwaswithoutremedy。
Yetnowthispenknifeappearedtomeofnootherusethantobafflemyassailantandpreventthecrimebydestroyingmyself。Todeliberateatsuchatimewasimpossible;but,amongthetumultuoussuggestionsofthemoment,Idonotrecollectthatitonceoccurredtometouseitasaninstrumentofdirectdefense。
Thestepshadnowreachedthesecondfloor。Everyfootfallacceleratedthecompletionwithoutaugmentingthecertaintyofevil。Theconsciousnessthatthedoorwasfast,nowthatnothingbutthatwasinterposedbetweenmeanddanger,wasasourceofsomeconsolation。Icastmyeyetowardthewindow。This,likewise,wasanewsuggestion。Ifthedoorshouldgiveway,itwasmysuddenresolutiontothrowmyselffromthewindow。Itsheightfromtheground,whichwascoveredbeneathbyabrickpavement,wouldinsuremydestruction;butIthoughtnotofthat。
Whenoppositetomydoorthefootstepsceased。Washelisteningwhethermyfearswereallayedandmycautionwereasleep?Didhehopetotakemebysurprise?Yet,ifso,whydidheallowsomanynoisysignalstobetrayhisapproach?Presentlythestepswereagainheardtoapproachthedoor。Ahandwaslaiduponthelock,andthelatchpulledback。DidheimagineitpossiblethatI
shouldfailtosecurethedoor?Aslighteffortwasmadetopushitopen,asif,allboltsbeingwithdrawn,aslighteffortonlywasrequired。
InosoonerperceivedthisthanImovedswiftlytowardthewindow。
Carwin”sframemightbesaidtobeallmuscle。Hisstrengthandactivityhadappeared,invariousinstances,tobeprodigious。A
slightexertionofhisforcewoulddemolishthedoor。Wouldnotthatexertionbemade?Toosurelyitwould;but,atthesamemomentthatthisobstacleshouldyieldandheshouldentertheapartment,mydeterminationwasformedtoleapfromthewindow。Mysenseswerestillboundtothisobject。Igazedatthedoorinmomentaryexpectationthattheassaultwouldbemade。Thepausecontinued。Thepersonwithoutwasirresoluteandmotionless。
SuddenlyitoccurredtomethatCarwinmightconceivemetohavefled。ThatIhadnotbetakenmyselftoflightwas,indeed,theleastprobableofallconclusions。Inthispersuasionhemusthavebeenconfirmedonfindingthelowerdoorunfastenedandthechamberdoorlocked。Wasitnotwisetofosterthispersuasion?ShouldI
maintaindeepsilence,this,inadditiontoothercircumstances,mightencouragethebelief,andhewouldoncemoredepart。Everynewreflectionaddedplausibilitytothisreasoning。ItwaspresentlymorestronglyenforcedwhenInoticedfootstepswithdrawingfromthedoor。Thebloodoncemoreflowedbacktomyheart,andadawnofexultationbegantorise;butmyjoywasshort-lived。Insteadofdescendingthestairs,hepassedtothedooroftheoppositechamber,openedit,and,havingentered,shutitafterhimwithaviolencethatshookthehouse。
HowwasItointerpretthiscircumstance?Forwhatendcouldhehaveenteredthischamber?Didtheviolencewithwhichheclosedthedoortestifythedepthofhisvexation?ThisroomwasusuallyoccupiedbyPleyel。WasCarwinawareofhisabsenceonthisnight?
Couldhebesuspectedofadesignsosordidaspillage?Ifthiswerehisview,therewerenomeansinmypowertofrustrateit。Itbehoovedmetoseizethefirstopportunitytoescape;but,ifmyescapeweresupposedbymyenemytohavebeenalreadyeffected,noasylumwasmoresecurethanthepresent。Howcouldmypassagefromthehousebeaccomplishedwithoutnoisesthatmightincitehimtopursueme?
UtterlyatalosstoaccountforhisgoingintoPleyel”schamber,I
waitedininstantexpectationofhearinghimcomeforth。All,however,wasprofoundlystill。Ilistenedinvainforaconsiderableperiodtocatchthesoundofthedoorwhenitshouldagainbeopened。Therewasnootheravenuebywhichhecouldescape,butadoorwhichledintothegirl”schamber。Wouldanyevilfromthisquarterbefallthegirl?
Hencearoseanewtrainofapprehensions。Theymerelyaddedtotheturbulenceandagonyofmyreflections。Whateverevilimpendedoverher,Ihadnopowertoavertit。Seclusionandsilenceweretheonlymeansofsavingmyselffromtheperilsofthisfatalnight。WhatsolemnvowsdidIputup,that,ifIshouldoncemorebeholdthelightofday,Iwouldnevertrustmyselfagainwithinthethresholdofthisdwelling!
Minutelingeredafterminute,butnotokenwasgiventhatCarwinhadreturnedtothepassage。What,Iagainasked,coulddetainhiminthisroom?Wasitpossiblethathehadreturned,andglidedunperceivedaway?Iwasspeedilyawareofthedifficultythatattendedanenterpriselikethis;andyet,asifbythatmeansI
werecapableofgaininganyinformationonthathead,Icastanxiouslooksfromthewindow。
Theobjectthatfirstattractedmyattentionwasahumanfigurestandingontheedgeofthebank。Perhapsmypenetrationwasassistedbymyhopes。Bethatasitwill,thefigureofCarwinwasclearlydistinguishable。Fromtheobscurityofmystation,itwasimpossiblethatIshouldbediscernedbyhim;andyethescarcelysufferedmetocatchaglimpseofhim。Heturnedandwentdownthesteep,whichinthispartwasnotdifficulttobescaled。
Myconjecture,then,hadbeenright。Carwinhassoftlyopenedthedoor,descendedthestairs,andissuedforth。ThatIshouldnothaveoverheardhisstepswasonlylessincrediblethanthatmyeyeshaddeceivedme。Butwhatwasnowtobedone?Thehousewasatlengthdeliveredfromthisdetestedinmate。Byoneavenuemightheagainreenter。Wasitnotwisetobarthelowerdoor?Perhapshehadgoneoutbythekitchendoor。Forthisend,hemusthavepassedthroughJudith”schamber。Theseentrancesbeingclosedandbolted,asgreatsecuritywasgainedaswascompatiblewithmylonelycondition。
Theproprietyofthesemeasureswastoomanifestnottomakemestrugglesuccessfullywithmyfears。YetIopenedmyowndoorwiththeutmostcaution,anddescendedasifIwereafraidthatCarwinhadbeenstillimmuredinPleyel”schamber。Theouterdoorwasajar。Ishutitwithtremblingeagerness,anddreweveryboltthatappendedtoit。Ithenpassedwithlightandlesscautiousstepsthroughtheparlor,butwassurprisedtodiscoverthatthekitchendoorwassecure。IwascompelledtoacquiesceinthefirstconjecturethatCarwinhadescapedthroughtheentry。
Myheartwasnowsomewhateasedoftheloadofapprehension。I
returnedoncemoretomychamber,thedoorofwhichIwascarefultolock。Itwasnotimetothinkofrepose。Themoonlightbeganalreadytofadebeforethelightoftheday。Theapproachofmorningwasbetokenedbytheusualsignals。Imusedupontheeventsofthisnight,anddeterminedtotakeupmyabodehenceforthatmybrother”s。WhetherIshouldinformhimofwhathadhappenedwasaquestionwhichseemedtodemandsomeconsideration。MysafetyunquestionablyrequiredthatIshouldabandonmypresenthabitation。
Asmythoughtsbegantoflowwithfewerimpediments,theimageofPleyel,andthedubiousnessofhiscondition,againrecurredtome。
Iagainranoverthepossiblecausesofhisabsenceontheprecedingday。Mymindwasattunedtomelancholy。Idwelt,withanobstinacyforwhichIcouldnotaccount,ontheideaofhisdeath。Ipaintedtomyselfhisstruggleswiththebillows,andhislastappearance。Iimaginedmyselfamidnightwandererontheshore,andtohavestumbledonhiscorpse,whichthetidehadcastup。Thesedrearyimagesaffectedmeeventotears。Iendeavorednottorestrainthem。TheyimpartedareliefwhichIhadnotanticipated。Themorecopiouslytheyflowed,themoredidmygeneralsensationsappeartosubsideintocalm,andacertainrestlessnessgivewaytorepose。
Perhaps,relievedbythiseffusion,theslumbersomuchwantedmighthavestolenonmysenses,hadtherebeennonewcauseofalarm。
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Iwasarousedfromthisstuporbysoundsthatevidentlyaroseinthenextchamber。WasitpossiblethatIhadbeenmistakeninthefigurewhichIhadseenonthebank?orhadCarwin,bysomeinscrutablemeans,penetratedoncemoreintothischamber?Theoppositedooropened;footstepscameforth,andtheperson,advancingtomine,knocked。
Sounexpectedanincidentrobbedmeofallpresenceofmind,and,startingup,Iinvoluntarilyexclaimed,“Whoisthere?“Ananswerwasimmediatelygiven。Thevoice,tomyinexpressibleastonishment,wasPleyel”s。
“ItisI。Haveyourisen?Ifyouhavenot,makehaste;Iwantthreeminutes”conversationwithyouintheparlor。Iwillwaitforyouthere。”Sayingthis,heretiredfromthedoor。
ShouldIconfideinthetestimonyofmyears?Ifthatweretrue,itwasPleyelthathadbeenhithertoimmuredintheoppositechamber;hewhommyruefulfancyhaddepictedinsomanyruinousandghastlyshapes;hewhosefootstepshadbeenlistenedtowithsuchinquietude!Whatisman,thatknowledgeissosparinglyconferreduponhim!thathisheartshouldbewrungwithdistress,andhisframebeexanimatedwithfear,thoughhissafetybeencompassedwithimpregnablewalls!Whataretheboundsofhumanimbecility!Hethatwarnedmeofthepresenceofmyfoerefusedtheintimationbywhichsomanyrackingfearswouldhavebeenprecluded。
YetwhowouldhaveimaginedthearrivalofPleyelatsuchanhour?
Histonewasdespondingandanxious。Whythisunseasonablesummons?andwhythishastydeparture?Sometidingshe,perhaps,bearsofmysteriousandunwelcomeimport。
Myimpatiencewouldnotallowmetoconsumemuchtimeindeliberation;Ihasteneddown。PleyelIfoundstandingatawindow,witheyescastdownasinmeditation,andarmsfoldedonhisbreast。Everylineinhiscountenancewaspregnantwithsorrow。Tothiswasaddedacertainwannessandairoffatigue。
ThelasttimeIhadseenhimappearanceshadbeenthereverseofthese。Iwasstartledatthechange。Thefirstimpulsewastoquestionhimastothecause。Thisimpulsewassupplantedbysomedegreeofconfusion,flowingfromaconsciousnessthatlovehadtoolarge,and,asitmightprove,aperceptible,shareincreatingthisimpulse。Iwassilent。
Presentlyberaisedhiseyesandfixedthemuponme。Ireadinthemananguishaltogetherineffable。NeverhadIwitnessedalikedemeanorinPleyel。Never,indeed,hadIobservedahumancountenanceinwhichgriefwasmorelegiblyinscribed。Heseemedstrugglingforutterance;but,hisstrugglesbeingfruitless,heshookhisheadandturnedawayfromme。
Myimpatiencewouldnotallowmetobelongersilent。“What,“saidI,“forheaven”ssake,myfriend,——whatisthematter?“
Hestartedatthesoundofmyvoice。Hislooks,foramoment,becameconvulsedwithanemotionverydifferentfromgrief。Hisaccentswerebrokenwithrage:——
“Thematter!Owretch!——thusexquisitelyfashioned,——onwhomnatureseemedtohaveexhaustedallhergraces;withcharmssoawfulandsopure!howartthoufallen!Fromwhatheightfallen!
Aruinsocomplete,——sounheardof!“
Hiswordswereagainchokedbyemotion。Griefandpitywereagainmingledinhisfeatures。Heresumed,inatonehalfsuffocatedbysobs:——
“ButwhyshouldIupbraidthee?CouldIrestoretotheewhatthouhastlost,effacethiscursedstain,snatchtheefromthejawsofthisfiend,Iwoulddoit。Yetwhatwillavailmyefforts?Ihavenotarmswithwhichtocontendwithsoconsummate,sofrightfuladepravity。
“Evidencelessthanthiswouldonlyhaveexcitedresentmentandscorn。Thewretchwhoshouldhavebreathedasuspicioninjurioustothyhonorwouldhavebeenregardedwithoutanger:nothatredorenvycouldhavepromptedhim;itwouldmerelybeanargumentofmadness。Thatmyeyes,thatmyears,shouldbearwitnesstothyfall!Bynootherwaycoulddetestableconvictionbeimparted。
“WhydoIsummontheetothisconference?Whyexposemyselftothyderision?Hereadmonitionandentreatyarevain。Thouknowesthimalreadyforamurdererandthief。Ithoughttohavebeenthefirsttodisclosetotheehisinfamy;tohavewarnedtheeofthepittowhichthouarthastening;butthyeyesareopeninvain。Oh,foulandinsupportabledisgrace!
“Thereisbutonepath。Iknowyouwilldisappeartogether。Inthyruin,howwillthefelicityandhonorofmultitudesbeinvolved!Butitmustcome。Thissceneshallnotbeblottedbyhispresence。Nodoubtthouwiltshortlyseethydetestedparamour。Thisscenewillbeagainpollutedbyamidnightassignation。Informhimofhisdangers;tellhimthathiscrimesareknown;lethimflyfarandinstantlyfromthisspot,ifhedesirestoavoidthefatewhichmenacedhiminIreland。
“Andwiltthounotstaybehind?Butshameuponmyweakness!I
knownotwhatIwouldsay。IhavedonewhatIpurposed。Tostaylonger,toexpostulate,tobeseech,toenumeratetheconsequencesofthyact,——whatendcanitservebuttoblazonthyinfamyandembitterourwoes?Andyet,oh,think——thinkereitbetoolate——
onthedistresseswhichthyflightwillentailuponus;onthebase,groveling,andatrociouscharacterofthewretchtowhomthouhastsoldthyhonor。Butwhatisthis?Isnotthyeffronteryimpenetrableandthyheartthoroughlycankered?Oh,mostspeciousandmostprofligateofwomen!“
Sayingthis,herushedoutofthehouse。Isawhiminafewmomentshurryingalongthepathwhichledtomybrother”s。Ihadnopowertopreventhisgoing,ortorecallortofollowhim。TheaccentsIhadheardwerecalculatedtoconfoundandbewilder。I
lookedaroundme,toassuremyselfthatthescenewasreal。I
moved,thatImightbanishthedoubtthatIwasawake。SuchenormousimputationsfromthemouthofPleyel!Tobestigmatizedwiththenamesofwantonandprofligate!Tobechargedwiththesacrificeofhonor!withmidnightmeetingswithawretchknowntobeamurdererandthief!withanintentiontoflyinhiscompany!
WhatIhadheardwassurelythedictateoffrenzy,oritwasbuiltuponsomefatal,someincomprehensiblemistake。Afterthehorrorsofthenight,afterundergoingperilssoimminentfromthisman,tobesummonedtoaninterviewlikethis!——tofindPleyelfraughtwithabeliefthat,insteadofhavingchosendeathasarefugefromtheviolenceofthisman,Ihadhuggedhisbasenesstomyheart,hadsacrificedforhimmypurity,myspotlessname,myfriendships,andmyfortune!Thatevenmadnesscouldengenderaccusationslikethesewasnottobebelieved。
Whatevidencecouldpossiblysuggestconceptionssowild?Aftertheunlooked-forinterviewwithCarwininmychamber,heretired。
CouldPleyelhaveobservedhisexit?ItwasnotlongafterthatPleyelhimselfentered。Didhebuildonthisincidenthisodiousconclusions?Couldthelongseriesofmyactionsandsentimentsgrantmenoexemptionfromsuspicionssofoul?WasitnotmorerationaltoinferthatCarwin”sdesignshadbeenillicit?thatmylifehadbeenendangeredbythefuryofonewhom,bysomemeans,hehaddiscoveredtobeanassassinandrobber?thatmyhonorhadbeenassailed,notbyblandishments,butbyviolence?
Hehasjudgedmewithouthearing。Hehasdrawnfromdubiousappearancesconclusionsthemostimprobableandunjust。Hehasloadedmewithalloutrageousepithets。Hehasrankedmewithprostitutesandthieves。Icannotpardonthee,Pleyel,forthisinjustice。Thyunderstandingmustbehurt。Ifitbenot,——ifthyconductwassoberanddeliberate,——Icanneverforgiveanoutragesounmanlyandsogross。
Thesethoughtsgraduallygaveplacetoothers。Pleyelwaspossessedbysomemomentaryfrenzy;appearanceshadledhimintopalpableerrors。Whencecouldhissagacityhavecontractedthisblindness?Wasitnotlove?PreviouslyassuredofmyaffectionforCarwin,distractedwithgriefandjealousy,andimpelledhitheratthatlatehourbysomeunknowninstigation,hisimaginationtransformedshadowsintomonsters,andplungedhimintothesedeplorableerrors。
Thisideawasnotunattendedwithconsolation。MysoulwasdividedbetweenindignationathisinjusticeanddelightonaccountofthesourcefromwhichIconceivedittospring。Foralongtimetheywouldallowadmissiontonootherthoughts。Surpriseisanemotionthatenfeebles,notinvigorates。Allmymeditationswereaccompaniedwithwonder。Irambledwithvagueness,orclungtooneimagewithanobstinacywhichsufficientlytestifiedthemaddeninginfluenceoflatetransactions。
GraduallyIproceededtoreflectupontheconsequencesofPleyel”smistake,andonthemeasuresIshouldtaketoguardmyselfagainstfutureinjuryfromCarwin。ShouldIsufferthismistaketobedetectedbytime?Whenhispassionshouldsubside,wouldhenotperceivetheflagrancyofhisinjusticeandhastentoatoneforit?
Diditnotbecomemycharactertotestifyresentmentforlanguageandtreatmentsoopprobrious?Wrappedupintheconsciousnessofinnocence,andconfidingintheinfluenceoftimeandreflectiontoconfutesogroundlessacharge,itwasmyprovincetobepassiveandsilent。
AstotheviolencesmeditatedbyCarwin,andthemeansofeludingthem,thepathtobetakenbymewasobvious。Iresolvedtotellthetaletomybrotherandregulatemyselfbyhisadvice。Forthisend,whenthemorningwassomewhatadvanced,Itookthewaytohishouse。Mysisterwasengagedinhercustomaryoccupations。AssoonasIappeared,sheremarkedachangeinmylooks。IwasnotwillingtoalarmherbytheinformationwhichIhadtocommunicate。
Herhealthwasinthatconditionwhichrenderedadisastroustaleparticularlyunsuitable。Iforboreadirectanswertoherinquiries,andinquired,inmyturn,forWieland。
“Why,“saidshe,“Isuspectsomethingmysteriousandunpleasanthashappenedthismorning。ScarcelyhadwerisenwhenPleyeldroppedamongus。WhatcouldhavepromptedhimtomakeussoearlyandsounseasonableavisitIcannottell。Tojudgefromthedisorderofhisdress,andhiscountenance,somethingofanextraordinarynaturehasoccurred。Hepermittedmemerelytoknowthathehadsleptnone,norevenundressed,duringthepastnight。Hetookyourbrothertowalkwithhim。Sometopicmusthavedeeplyengagedthem,forWielanddidnotreturntillthebreakfasthourwaspassed,andreturnedalone。Hisdisturbancewasexcessive;buthewouldnotlistentomyimportunities,ortellmewhathadhappened。
Igathered,fromhintswhichheletfall,thatyoursituationwasinsomewaythecause;yetheassuredmethatyouwereatyourownhouse,alive,ingoodhealth,andinperfectsafety。Hescarcelyateamorsel,andimmediatelyafterbreakfastwentoutagain。Hewouldnotinformmewhitherhewasgoing,butmentionedthatheprobablymightnotreturnbeforenight。”
Iwasequallyastonishedandalarmedbythisinformation。Pleyelhadtoldhistaletomybrother,andhad,byaplausibleandexaggeratedpicture,instilledintohimunfavorablethoughtsofme。
YetwouldnotthemorecorrectjudgmentofWielandperceiveandexposethefallacyofhisconclusions?PerhapshisuneasinessmightarisefromsomeinsightintothecharacterofCarwin,andfromapprehensionsformysafety。TheappearancesbywhichPleyelhadbeenmisledmightinducehimlikewisetobelievethatI
entertainedanindiscreetthoughnotdishonorableaffectionforCarwin。Suchweretheconjecturesrapidlyformed。Iwasinexpressiblyanxioustochangethemintocertainty。Forthisendaninterviewwithmybrotherwasdesirable。Hewasgonenooneknewwhither,andwasnotexpectedspeedilytoreturn。Ihadnoclewbywhichtotracehisfootsteps。
Myanxietiescouldnotbeconcealedfrommysister。Theyheightenedhersolicitudetobeacquaintedwiththecause。Thereweremanyreasonspersuadingmetosilence;atleast,tillIhadseenmybrother,itwouldbeanactofinexcusabletemeritytounfoldwhathadlatelypassed。Nootherexpedientforeludingherimportunitiesoccurredtomebutthatofreturningtomyownhouse。
Irecollectedmydeterminationtobecomeatenantofthisroof。I
mentionedittoher。Shejoyfullyaccededtothisproposal,andsufferedmewithlessreluctancetodepartwhenItoldherthatitwaswithaviewtocollectandsendtomynewdwellingwhatarticleswouldbeimmediatelyusefultome。
OncemoreIreturnedtothehousewhichhadbeenthesceneofsomuchturbulenceanddanger。IwasatnogreatdistancefromitwhenIobservedmybrothercomingout。Onseeingmehestopped,and,afterascertaining,asitseemed,whichwayIwasgoing,hereturnedintothehousebeforeme。Isincerelyrejoicedatthisevent,andIhastenedtosetthings,ifpossible,ontheirrightfooting。
HisbrowwasbynomeansexpressiveofthosevehementemotionswithwhichPleyelhadbeenagitated。Idrewafavorableomenfromthiscircumstance。WithoutdelayIbegantheconversation。
“Ihavebeentolookforyou,“saidI,“butwastoldbyCatharinethatPleyelhadengagedyouonsomeimportantanddisagreeableaffair。Beforehisinterviewwithyouhespentafewminuteswithme。TheseminutesheemployedinupbraidingmeforcrimesandintentionswithwhichIambynomeanschargeable。Ibelievehimtohavetakenuphisopinionsonveryinsufficientgrounds。Hisbehaviorwasinthehighestdegreeprecipitateandunjust,and,untilIreceivesomeatonement,Ishalltreathim,inmyturn,withthatcontemptwhichhejustlymerits;meanwhile,Iamfearfulthathehasprejudicedmybrotheragainstme。ThatisanevilwhichI
mostanxiouslydeprecate,andwhichIshallindeedexertmyselftoremove。Hashemademethesubjectofthismorning”sconversation?“
Mybrother”scountenancetestifiednosurpriseatmyaddress。Thebenignityofhislookswasnowisediminished。
“Itistrue,“saidhe,“yourconductwasthesubjectofourdiscourse。Iamyourfriendaswellasyourbrother。ThereisnohumanbeingwhomIlovewithmoretendernessandwhosewelfareisnearermyheart。Judge,then,withwhatemotionsIlistenedtoPleyel”sstory。Iexpectanddesireyoutovindicateyourselffromaspersionssofoul,ifvindicationbepossible。”
Thetonewithwhichheutteredthelastwordsaffectedmedeeply。
“Ifvindicationbepossible!“repeatedI。“Fromwhatyouknow,doyoudeemaformalvindicationnecessary?Canyouharborforamomentthebeliefofmyguilt?“
Heshookhisheadwithanairofacuteanguish。“Ihavestruggled,“saidhe,“todismissthatbelief。Youspeakbeforeajudgewhowillprofitbyanypretensetoacquityouwhoisreadytoquestionhisownsenseswhentheypleadagainstyou。”
Thesewordsincitedanewsetofthoughtsinmymind。IbegantosuspectthatPleyelhadbuilthisaccusationsonsomefoundationunknowntome。“Imaybeastrangertothegroundsofyourbelief。
Pleyelloadedmewithindecentandvirulentinvectives,buthewithheldfrommethefactsthatgeneratedhissuspicions。Eventstookplacelastnightofwhichsomeofthecircumstanceswereofanambiguousnature。Iconceivedthatthesemightpossiblyhavefallenunderhiscognizance,andthat,viewedthroughthemistsofprejudiceandpassion,theysuppliedapretenseforhisconduct,butbelievedthatyourmoreunbiasedjudgmentwouldestimatethemattheirjustvalue。PerhapshistalehasbeendifferentfromwhatIsuspectittobe。Listen,then,tomynarrative。Iftherebeanythinginhisstoryinconsistentwithmine,hisstoryisfalse。”
Ithenproceededtoacircumstantialrelationoftheincidentsofthelastnight。Wielandlistenedwithdeepattention。Havingfinished,“This,“continuedI,“isthetruth。YouseeinwhatcircumstancesaninterviewtookplacebetweenCarwinandme。Heremainedforhoursinmycloset,andforsomeminutesinmychamber。Hedepartedwithouthasteorinterruption。IfPleyelmarkedhimasheleftthehouse,anditisnotimpossiblethathedid,inferencesinjurioustomycharactermightsuggestthemselvestohim。Inadmittingthem,hegaveproofsoflessdiscernmentandlesscandorthanIonceascribedtohim。”
“Hisproofs,“saidWieland,afteraconsiderablepause,“aredifferent。Thatheshouldbedeceivedisnotpossible。Thathehimselfisnotthedeceivercouldnotbebelieved,ifhistestimonywerenotinconsistentwithyours;butthedoubtswhichI
entertainedarenowremoved。Yourtale,somepartsofit,ismarvelous;thevoicewhichexclaimedagainstyourrashnessinapproachingthecloset,yourpersisting,notwithstandingthatprohibition,yourbeliefthatIwastheruffian,andyoursubsequentconduct,arebelievedbyme,becauseIhaveknownyoufromchildhood,becauseathousandinstanceshaveattestedyourveracity,andbecausenothinglessthanmyownhearingandvisionwouldconvinceme,inoppositiontoherownassertions,thatmysisterhadfallenintowickednesslikethis。”
Ithrewmyarmsaroundhimandbathedhischeekwithmytears。
“That,“saidI,“isspokenlikemybrother。Butwhataretheproofs?“
Hereplied,“Pleyelinformedmethat,ingoingtoyourhouse,hisattentionwasattractedbytwovoices。Thepersonsspeakingsatbeneaththebank,outofsight。Thesepersons,judgingbytheirvoices,wereCarwinandyou。Iwillnotrepeatthedialogue。Ifmysisterwasthefemale,Pleyelwasjustifiedinconcludingyoutobeindeedoneofthemostprofligateofwomen。Hencehisaccusationsofyou,andhiseffortstoobtainmyconcurrencetoaplanbywhichaneternalseparationshouldbebroughtaboutbetweenmysisterandthisman。”
ImadeWielandrepeatthisrecital。Hereindeedwasataletofillmewithterribleforeboding。Ihadvainlythoughtthatmysafetycouldbesufficientlysecuredbydoorsandbars,butthisisafoefromwhosegraspnopowerofdivinitycansaveme!Hisartificeswilleverlaymyfameandhappinessathismercy。HowshallI
counterworkhisplotsordetecthiscoadjutor?Hehastaughtsomevileandabandonedfemaletomimicmyvoice。Pleyel”searswerethewitnessesofmydishonor。Thisisthemidnightassignationtowhichhealluded。Thusisthesilencehemaintainedwhenattemptingtoopenthedoorofmychamber,accountedfor。Hesupposedmeabsent,andmeant,perhaps,hadmyapartmentbeenaccessible,toleaveinitsomeaccusingmemorial。
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[Asthispartopens,theunhappyClaraisdescribingherhurriedreturntothesameill-fatedabodeatMettingen。HencekindfriendshadborneherafterthecatastropheofherbrotherWieland”s“transformation。”Thiswasthecrowninghorrorofall:
themorbidfanatic,preparedbygloomyanticipationsofsometerriblesacrificetobedemandedinthenameofreligion,hadfoundhimselfgoadedtoblindfury,byamysteriouscompellingvoice,toyielduptoGodthelivesofhisbelovedwifeandfamily;
andhaddonetheawfuldeed!
Thoughchainedinhismadhouse,hepersistsinhisdelusion;
insiststhatitstillremainsforhimtosacrificehissisterClara;andtwicebreaksawayinwildeffortstofindanddestroyher。]
Itookanirregularpathwhichledmetomyownhouse。Allwasvacantandforlorn。Asmallenclosurenearwhichthepathledwastheburyinggroundbelongingtothefamily。ThisIwasobligedtopass。OnceIhadintendedtoenterit,andponderontheemblemsandinscriptionswhichmyunclehadcausedtobemadeonthetombsofCatharineandherchildren;butnowmyheartfalteredasI
approached,andIhastenedforwardthatdistancemightconcealitfrommyview。
WhenIapproachedtherecess,myheartagainsunk。Iavertedmyeyes,andleftitbehindmeasquicklyaspossible。Silencereignedthroughmyhabitation,andadarknesswhichcloseddoorsandshuttersproduced。Everyobjectwasconnectedwithmineormybrother”shistory。Ipassedtheentry,mountedthestair,andunlockedthedoorofmychamber。ItwaswithdifficultythatI
curbedmyfancyandsmotheredmyfears。Slightmovementsandcasualsoundsweretransformedintobeckoningshadowsandcallingshapes。
Iproceededtothecloset。Iopenedandlookedrounditwithfearfulness。Allthingswereintheiraccustomedorder。IsoughtandfoundthemanuscriptwhereIwasusedtodepositit。Thisbeingsecured,therewasnothingtodetainme;yetIstoodandcontemplatedawhilethefurnitureandwallsofmychamber。I
rememberedhowlongthisapartmenthadbeenasweetandtranquilasylum;Icompareditsformerstatewithitspresentdreariness,andreflectedthatInowbehelditforthelasttime。
HereitwasthattheincomprehensiblebehaviorofCarwinwaswitnessed;thisthestageonwhichthatenemyofmanshowedhimselfforamomentunmasked。Herethemenacesofmurderwerewaftedtomyear;andherethesemenaceswereexecuted。
Thesethoughtshadatendencytotakefrommemyself-command。Myfeeblelimbsrefusedtosupportme,andIsunkuponachair。
Incoherentandhalf-articulateexclamationsescapedmylips。ThenameofCarwinwasutteredandeternalwoes——woeslikethatwhichhismalicehadentaileduponus——wereheapeduponhim。Iinvokedall-seeingheaventodragtolightandpunishthisbetrayer,andaccuseditsprovidenceforhavingthuslongdelayedtheretributionthatwasduetosoenormousaguilt。
Ihavesaidthatthewindowshutterswereclosed。Afeeblelight,however,foundentrancethroughthecrevices。Asmallwindowilluminatedthecloset,and,thedoorbeingclosed,adimraystreamedthroughthekeyhole。Akindoftwilightwasthuscreated,sufficientforthepurposesofvision,but,atthesametime,involvingallminuterobjectsinobscurity。
Thisdarknesssuitedthecolorofmythoughts。Isickenedattheremembranceofthepast。Theprospectofthefutureexcitedmyloathing。Imuttered,inalowvoice,“WhyshouldIlivelonger?
WhyshouldIdragamiserablebeing?AllforwhomIoughttolivehaveperished。AmInotmyselfhuntedtodeath?“
Atthatmomentmydespairsuddenlybecamevigorous。Mynerveswerenolongerunstrung。Mypowers,thathadlongbeendeadened,wererevived。Mybosomswelledwithasuddenenergy,andtheconvictiondartedthroughmymind,thattoendmytormentswas,atonce,practicableandwise。
Iknewhowtofindwaytotherecessesoflife。Icouldusealancetwithsomeskill,andcoulddistinguishbetweenveinandartery。Bypiercingdeepintothelatter,Ishouldshuntheevilswhichthefuturehadinstoreforme,andtakerefugefrommywoesinquietdeath。
Istartedonmyfeet,formyfeeblenesswasgone,andhastedtothecloset。AlancetandothersmallinstrumentswerepreservedinacasewhichIhaddepositedhere。InattentiveasIwastoforeignconsiderations,myearswerestillopentoanysoundofmysteriousimportthatshouldoccur。IthoughtIheardastepintheentry。
Mypurposewassuspended,andIcastaneagerglanceatmychamberdoor,whichwasopen。Nooneappeared,unlesstheshadowwhichI
discerneduponthefloorwastheoutlineofaman。Ifitwere,I
wasauthorizedtosuspectthatsomeonewaspostedclosetotheentrance,whopossiblyhadoverheardmyexclamations。
Myteethchattered,andawildconfusiontooktheplaceofmymomentarycalm。Thusitwaswhenaterrificvisagehaddiscloseditselfonaformernight。ThusitwaswhentheevildestinyofWielandassumedthelineamentsofsomethinghuman。Whathorridapparitionwaspreparingtoblastmysight?
StillIlistenedandgazed。Notlong,fortheshadowmoved;afoot,unshapelyandhuge,wasthrustforward;aformadvancedfromitsconcealment,andstalkedintotheroom。ItwasCarwin!
WhileIhadbreath,Ishrieked。WhileIhadpowerovermymuscles,Imotionedwithmyhandthatheshouldvanish。Myexertionscouldnotlastlong:Isunkintoafit。
Ohthatthisgratefuloblivionhadlastedforever!TooquicklyI
recoveredmysenses。Thepowerofdistinctvisionwasnosoonerrestoredtome,thanthishatefulformagainpresenteditself,andIoncemorerelapsed。
Asecondtime,untowardnaturerecalledmefromthesleepofdeath。
Ifoundmyselfstretcheduponthebed。WhenIhadpowertolookup,IrememberedonlythatIhadcausetofear。Mydistemperedfancyfashionedtoitselfnodistinguishableimage。Ithrewalanguidglanceroundme:oncemoremyeyeslighteduponCarwin。
Hewasseatedonthefloor,hisbackrestedagainstthewall;hiskneesweredrawnup,andhisfacewasburiedinhishands。Thathisstationwasatsomedistance,thathisattitudewasnotmenacing,thathisominousvisagewasconcealed,mayaccountformynowescapingashockviolentasthosewhichwerepast。Iwithdrewmyeyes,butwasnotagaindesertedbymysenses。
OnperceivingthatIhadrecoveredmysensibility,heliftedhishead。Thismotionattractedmyattention。Hiscountenancewasmild,butsorrowandastonishmentsatuponhisfeatures。Iavertedmyeyesandfeeblyexclaimed,“Oh,fly!——flyfarandforever!——I
cannotbeholdyouandlive!“
Hedidnotriseuponhisfeet,butclaspedhishands,andsaid,inatoneofdeprecation,“Iwillfly。Iambecomeafiend,thesightofwhomdestroys。Yettellmemyoffense!Youhavelinkedcurseswithmyname;youascribetomeamalicemonstrousandinfernal。I
lookaround:allislonelinessanddesert!Thishouseandyourbrother”saresolitaryanddismantled!Youdieawayatthesightofme!Myfearwhispersthatsomedeedofhorrorhasbeenperpetrated;thatIamtheundesigningcause。”
Whatlanguagewasthis?Hadhenotavowedhimselfaravisher?Hadnotthischamberwitnessedhisatrociouspurposes?Ibesoughthimwithnewvehemencetogo。
Heliftedhiseyes:”Greatheaven!whathaveIdone?IthinkI
knowtheextentofmyoffenses。Ihaveacted,butmyactionshavepossiblyeffectedmorethanIdesigned。Thisfearhasbroughtmebackfrommyretreat。Icometorepairtheevilofwhichmyrashnesswasthecause,andtopreventmoreevil。Icometoconfessmyerrors。”
“Wretch!“Icried,whenmysuffocatingemotionswouldpermitmetospeak,“theghostsofmysisterandherchildren,——dotheynotrisetoaccusethee?WhowasitthatblastedtheintellectofWieland?
Whowasitthaturgedhimtofuryandguidedhimtomurder?Who,butthouandthedevil,withwhomthouartconfederated?“
Atthesewordsanewspiritpervadedhiscountenance。Hiseyesoncemoreappealedtoheaven。“IfIhavememory——ifIhavebeing——
Iaminnocent。Iintendednoill;butmyfolly,indirectlyandremotely,mayhavecausedit。Butwhatwordsarethese?Yourbrotherlunatic!Hischildrendead!“
WhatshouldIinferfromthisdeportment?Wastheignorancewhichthesewordsimpliedrealorpretended?YethowcouldIimagineamerehumanagencyintheseevents?But,iftheinfluencewaspreternaturalormaniacalinmybrother”scase,theymustbeequallysoinmyown。ThenIrememberedthatthevoiceexertedwastosavemefromCarwin”sattempts。Theseideastendedtoabatemyabhorrenceofthisman,andtodetecttheabsurdityofmyaccusations。
“Alas!“saidI,“Ihavenoonetoaccuse。Leavemetomyfate。
Flyfromascenestainedwithcruelty,devotedtodespair。”
Carwinstoodforatimemusingandmournful。Atlengthhesaid,“Whathashappened?Icametoexpiatemycrimes:letmeknowthemintheirfullextent。Ihavehorribleforebodings!Whathashappened?“
Iwassilent;but,recollectingtheintimationgivenbythismanwhenhewasdetectedinmycloset,whichimpliedsomeknowledgeofthatpowerwhichinterferedinmyfavor,Ieagerlyinquired,“WhatwasthatvoicewhichcalleduponmetoholdwhenIattemptedtoopenthecloset?WhatfacewasthatwhichIsawatthebottomofthestairs?Answermetruly。”
“Icametoconfessthetruth。Yourallusionsarehorribleandstrange。PerhapsIhavebutfaintconceptionsoftheevilswhichmyinfatuationhasproduced;butwhatremainsIwillperform。ItwasMYVOICEthatyouheard!ItwasMYFACEthatyousaw!“
ForamomentIdoubtedwhethermyremembranceofeventswerenotconfused。Howcouldhebeatoncestationedatmyshoulderandshutupinmycloset?Howcouldhestandnearmeandyetbeinvisible?ButifCarwin”swerethethrillingvoiceandthefieryimagewhichIhadheardandseen,thenwashetheprompterofmybrother,andtheauthorofthesedismaloutrages。
OncemoreIavertedmyeyesandstruggledforspeech:”Begone!
thoumanofmischief!Remorselessandimplacablemiscreant,begone!“
“Iwillobey,“saidhe,inadisconsolatevoice;“yet,wretchasI
am,amIunworthytorepairtheevilsthatIhavecommitted?I
cameasarepentantcriminal。ItisyouwhomIhaveinjured,andatyourbaramIwillingtoappearandconfessandexpiatemycrimes。Ihavedeceivedyou;Ihavesportedwithyourterrors;I
haveplottedtodestroyyourreputation。Icomenowtoremoveyourterrors;tosetyoubeyondthereachofsimilarfears;torebuildyourfameasfarasIamable。
“Thisistheamountofmyguilt,andthisthefruitofmyremorse。
Willyounothearme?Listentomyconfession,andthendenouncepunishment。AllIaskisapatientaudience。”
“What!“Ireplied;“wasnotthinethevoicethatcommandedmybrothertoimbruehishandsinthebloodofhischildren?——tostranglethatangelofsweetness,hiswife?Hashenotvowedmydeath,andthedeathofPleyel,atthybidding?Hastthounotmadehimthebutcherofhisfamily?——changedhimwhowasthegloryofhisspeciesintoworsethanbrute?——robbedhimofreasonandconsignedtherestofhisdaystofettersandstripes?“
Carwin”seyesglaredandhislimbswerepetrifiedatthisintelligence。Nowordswererequisitetoprovehimguiltlessoftheseenormities:atthetime,however,Iwasnearlyinsensibletotheseexculpatorytokens。Hewalkedtothefartherendoftheroom,and,havingrecoveredsomedegreeofcomposure,hespoke:——
“Iamnotthisvillain。Ihaveslainnoone;Ihavepromptednonetoslay;Ihavehandledatoolofwonderfulefficacywithoutmalignantintentions,butwithoutcaution。Amplewillbethepunishmentofmytemerity,ifmyconducthascontributedtothisevil。”Hepaused。
Ilikewisewassilent。Istruggledtocommandmyselfsofarastolistentothetalewhichheshouldtell。Observingthis,hecontinued:——
“YouarenotapprisedoftheexistenceofapowerwhichIpossess。
Iknownotbywhatnametocallit。[1]Itenablesmetomimicexactlythevoiceofanother,andtomodifythesoundsothatitshallappeartocomefromwhatquarterandbeutteredatwhatdistanceIplease。
“Iknownotthateveryonepossessesthispower。Perhaps,thoughacasualpositionofmyorgansinmyyouthshowedmethatIpossessedit,itisanartwhichmaybetaughttoall。WouldtoGodIhaddiedunknowingofthesecret!Ithasproducednothingbutdegradationandcalamity。”
[1]Biloquium,orventrilocution。Soundisvariedaccordingtothevariationsofdirectionanddistance。Theartoftheventriloquistconsistsinmodifyinghisvoiceaccordingtoallthesevariations,withoutchanginghisplace。SeetheworkoftheAbbedelaChappelle,inwhichareaccuratelyrecordedtheperformancesofoneoftheseartists,andsomeingeniousthoughunsatisfactoryspeculationsaregivenonthemeansbywhichtheeffectsareproduced。Thispoweris,perhaps,givenbynature,butisdoubtlessimprovable,ifnotacquirable,byart。Itmay,possibly,consistinanunusualflexibilityorextensionofthebottomofthetongueandtheuvula。Thatspeechisproduciblebythesealonemustbegranted,sinceanatomistsmentiontwoinstancesofpersonsspeakingwithoutatongue。Inonecasetheorganwasoriginallywanting,butitsplacewassuppliedbyasmalltubercle,andtheuvulawasperfect。Intheotherthetonguewasdestroyedbydisease,butprobablyasmallpartofitremained。
Thispowerisdifficulttoexplain,butthefactisundeniable。
Experienceshowsthatthehumanvoicecanimitatethevoiceofallmenandofallinferioranimals。Thesoundofmusicalinstruments,andevennoisesfromthecontactofinanimatesubstances,havebeenaccuratelyimitated。Themimicryofanimalsisnotorious;andDr。
Burney“MusicalTravels“mentionsonewhoimitatedafluteandviolin,soastodeceiveevenhisears。
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[AfterCarwin”sconfessionofhispowersofventriloquismallthemysteriesareclearedup——saveone。TheownerofthevoiceheardinClara”schamber,onthefirstnightafterthewandererappearedatMettingen;thethreatenerontheedgeoftheprecipice;thespyinClara”scloset,andwould-beintruder;themanipulatorofthevileplotthatdestroyedherlover”sconfidence——allthesehiddenidentitieshavematerializedinthepersonofthisoneunhappyman。
Butwhileconfessingthepryingdispositionwhichledtothesesins,ineffortstoprotecthimselffromdiscovery,CarwinstilldeniesthatWieland”smadactswereperpetratedathisinstigation。]
“Ihaveutteredthetruth。Thisistheextentofmyoffenses。YoutellmeahorridtaleofWielandbeingledtothedestructionofhiswifeandchildrenbysomemysteriousagent。Youchargemewiththeguiltofthisagency,butIrepeatthattheamountofmyguilthasbeentrulystated。TheperpetratorofCatharine”sdeathwasunknowntometillnow;nay,itisstillunknowntome。”
Atthatmoment,theclosingofadoorinthekitchenwasdistinctlyheardbyus。Carwinstartedandpaused。“Thereissomeonecoming。Imustnotbefoundherebymyenemies,andneednot,sincemypurposeisanswered。”
Ihaddrunkin,withthemostvehementattention,everywordthathehaduttered。Ihadnobreathtointerrupthistalebyinterrogationsorcomments。Thepowerthathespokeofwashithertounknowntome;itsexistencewasincredible;itwassusceptibleofnodirectproof。
HeownsthathiswerethevoiceandfacewhichIheardandsaw。Heattemptstogiveahumanexplanationofthesephantasmsbutitisenoughthatheownshimselftobetheagent:histaleisalie,andhisnaturedevilish。Ashedeceivedme,helikewisedeceivedmybrother,andnowdoIbeholdtheauthorofallourcalamities!
Suchweremythoughtswhenhispauseallowedmetothink。Ishouldhavebadehimbegoneifthesilencehadnotbeeninterrupted;butnowIfearednomoreformyself;andthemilkinessofmynaturewascurdledintohatredandrancor。Someonewasnear,andthisenemyofGodandmanmightpossiblybebroughttojustice。Ireflectednotthatthepreternaturalpowerwhichhehadhithertoexertedwouldavailtorescuehimfromanytoilsinwhichhisfeetmightbeentangled。Meanwhile,looks,andnotwords,ofmenaceandabhorrence,wereallthatIcouldbestow。
Hedidnotdepart。Heseemeddubiouswhetherbypassingoutofthehouse,orbyremainingsomewhatlongerwherehewas,heshouldmostendangerhissafety。Hisconfusionincreasedwhenstepsofonebarefootwerehearduponthestairs。Hethrewanxiousglancessometimesatthecloset,sometimesatthewindow,andsometimesatthechamberdoor;yethewasdetainedbysomeinexplicablefascination。Hestoodasifrootedtothespot。
Astome,mysoulwasburstingwithdetestationandrevenge。Ihadnoroomforsurmisesandfearsrespectinghimthatapproached。Itwasdoubtlessahumanbeing,andwouldbefriendmesofarastoaidmeinarrestingthisoffender。
Thestrangerquicklyenteredtheroom。MyeyesandtheeyesofCarwinwereatthesamemomentdarteduponhim。Asecondglancewasnotneededtoinformuswhohewas。Hislocksweretangled,andfellconfusedlyoverhisforeheadandears。Hisshirtwasofcoarsestuff,andopenattheneckandbreast。Hiscoatwasonceofbrightandfinetexture,butnowtornandtarnishedwithdust。
Hisfeet,hislegs,andhisarms,werebare。Hisfeaturesweretheseatofawildandtranquilsolemnity,buthiseyesbespokeinquietudeandcuriosity。
Headvancedwithafirmstep,andlookingasinsearchofsomeone。
Hesawmeandstopped。Hebenthissightonthefloor,and,clenchinghishands,appearedsuddenlyabsorbedinmeditation。
SuchwerethefigureanddeportmentofWieland!Such,inhisfallenstate,weretheaspectandguiseofmybrother!
Carwindidnotfailtorecognizethevisitant。Careforhisownsafetywasapparentlyswallowedupintheamazementwhichthisspectacleproduced。Hisstationwasconspicuous,andhecouldnothaveescapedtherovingglancesofWieland;yetthelatterseemedtotallyunconsciousofhispresence。
GriefatthissceneofruinandblastwasatfirsttheonlysentimentofwhichIwasconscious。Afearfulstillnessensued。
AtlengthWieland,liftinghishands,whichwerelockedineachother,tohisbreast,exclaimed,“Father!Ithankthee。Thisisthyguidance。Hitherthouhastledme,thatImightperformthywill。Yetletmenoterr;letmehearagainthymessenger!“
Hestoodforaminuteasiflistening;but,recoveringfromhisattitude,hecontinued,“Itisnotneeded。Dastardlywretch!thuseternallyquestioningthebehestsofthyMaker!weakinresolution,waywardinfaith!“
Headvancedtome,and,afteranotherpause,resumed:”Poorgirl!
adismalfatehassetitsmarkuponthee。Thylifeisdemandedasasacrifice。Preparetheetodie。Makenotmyofficedifficultbyfruitlessopposition。Thyprayersmightsubduestones;butnonebuthewhoenjoinedmypurposecanshakeit。”
Thesewordswereasufficientexplicationofthescene。Thenatureofhisfrenzy,asdescribedbymyuncle,wasremembered。I,whohadsoughtdeath,wasnowthrilledwithhorrorbecauseitwasnear。
Deathinthisform,deathfromthehandofabrother,wasthoughtuponwithindescribablerepugnance。
Inastatethusverginguponmadness,myeyeglanceduponCarwin。
Hisastonishmentappearedtohavestruckhimmotionlessanddumb。
Mylifewasindanger,andmybrother”shandwasabouttobeimbruedinmyblood。IfirmlybelievedthatCarwin”swastheinstigation。Icouldrescuemyselffromthisabhorredfate;I
coulddissipatethistremendousillusion;Icouldsavemybrotherfromtheperpetrationofnewhorrors,bypointingoutthedevilwhoseducedhim。Tohesitateamomentwastoperish。Thesethoughtsgavestrengthtomylimbsandenergytomyaccents;Istartedonmyfeet:——
“Oh,brother!spareme!sparethyself!Thereisthybetrayer。Hecounterfeitedthevoiceandfaceofanangel,forthepurposeofdestroyingtheeandme。Hehasthismomentconfessedit。Heisabletospeakwhereheisnot。Heisleaguedwithhell,butwillnotavowit;yetheconfessesthattheagencywashis。”
Mybrotherturnedslowlyhiseyes,andfixedthemuponCarwin。
Everyjointintheframeofthelattertrembled。Hiscomplexionwaspalerthanaghost”s。HiseyedarednotmeetthatofWieland,butwanderedwithanairofdistractionfromonespacetoanother。
“Man,“saidmybrother,inavoicetotallyunlikethatwhichhehadusedtome,“whatartthou?Thechargehasbeenmade。Answerit。
Thevisage——thevoice——atthebottomofthesestairs——atthehourofeleven——towhomdidtheybelong?Tothee?“
TwicedidCarwinattempttospeak,buthiswordsdiedawayuponhislips。Mybrotherresumed,inatoneofgreatervehemence:——
“Thoufalterest。Falteringisominous。Sayyesorno;onewordwillsuffice;butbewareoffalsehood。Wasitastratagemofhelltooverthrowmyfamily?Wastthoutheagent?“
Inowsawthatthewrathwhichhadbeenpreparedformewastobeheapeduponanother。ThetalethatIheardfromhim,andhispresenttrepidations,wereabundanttestimoniesofhisguilt。ButwhatifWielandshouldbeundeceived!Whatifheshallfindhisacttohaveproceedednotfromaheavenlyprompter,butfromhumantreachery!Willnothisragemountintowhirlwind?Willnothetearlimbfromlimbthisdevotedwretch?
InstinctivelyIrecoiledfromthisimage;butitgaveplacetoanother。Carwinmaybeinnocent,buttheimpetuosityofhisjudgemaymisconstruehisanswersintoaconfessionofguilt。Wielandknowsnotthatmysteriousvoicesandappearanceswerelikewisewitnessedbyme。Carwinmaybeignorantofthosewhichmisledmybrother。Thusmayhisanswersunwarilybetrayhimselftoruin。
Suchmightbetheconsequencesofmyfranticprecipitation,andtheseitwasnecessary,ifpossible,toprevent。Iattemptedtospeak;butWieland,turningsuddenlyuponme,commandedsilence,inatonefuriousandterrible。Mylipsclosed,andmytonguerefuseditsoffice。
“Whatartthou?“heresumed,addressinghimselftoCarwin。“Answerme:whoseform——whosevoice,——wasitthycontrivance?Answerme。”
Theanswerwasnowgiven,butconfusedlyandscarcelyarticulated。
“Imeantnothing——Iintendednoill——ifIunderstand——ifIdonotmistakeyou——itistootrue——Ididappear——intheentry——didspeak。
Thecontrivancewasmine,but”
Thesewordswerenosooneruttered,thanmybrotherceasedtowearthesameaspect。Hiseyesweredowncast;hewasmotionless;hisrespirationbecamehoarse,likethatofamanintheagoniesofdeath。Carwinseemedunabletosaymore。Hemighthaveeasilyescaped;butthethoughtwhichoccupiedhimrelatedtowhatwashorridandunintelligibleinthisscene,andnottohisowndanger。
PresentlythefacultiesofWieland,which,foratime,werechainedup,wereseizedwithrestlessnessandtrembling。Hebrokesilence。
Thestoutestheartwouldhavebeenappalledbythetoneinwhichhespoke。HeaddressedhimselftoCarwin:——
“Whyartthouhere?Whodetainsthee?Goandlearnbetter。I
willmeetthee,butitmustbeatthebarofthyMaker。ThereshallIbearwitnessagainstthee。”
PerceivingthatCarwindidnotobey,hecontinued,“Dostthouwishmetocompletethecataloguebythydeath?Thylifeisaworthlessthing。Temptmenomore。Iambutaman,andthypresencemayawakenafurywhichmayspurnmycontrol。Begone!“
Carwin,irresolute,strivinginvainforutterance,hiscomplexionpallidasdeath,hiskneesbeatingoneagainstanother,slowlyobeyedthemandateandwithdrew。
II
AfewwordsmoreandIlayasidethepenforever。YetwhyshouldI
notrelinquishitnow?AllthatIhavesaidispreparatorytothisscene,andmyfingers,tremulousandcoldasmyheart,refuseanyfurtherexertion。Thismustnotbe。Letmylastenergiessupportmeinthefinishingofthistask。ThenwillIlaydownmyheadinthelapofdeath。Hushedwillbeallmymurmursinthesleepofthegrave。
Everysentimenthasperishedinmybosom。Evenfriendshipisextinct。Yourloveformehaspromptedmetothistask;butI
wouldnothavecompliedifithadnotbeenaluxurythustofeastuponmywoes。Ihavejustlycalculateduponmyremnantofstrength。WhenIlaydownthepenthetaperoflifewillexpire;
myexistencewillterminatewithmytale。
NowthatIwasleftalonewithWieland,theperilsofmysituationpresentedthemselvestomymind。Thatthisparoxysmshouldterminateinhavocandrageitwasreasonabletopredict。Thefirstsuggestionofmyfearshadbeendisprovedbymyexperience。
Carwinhadacknowledgedhisoffenses,andyethadescaped。ThevengeancewhichIhadharboredhadnotbeenadmittedbyWieland;
andyettheevilswhichIhadendured,comparedwiththoseinflictedonmybrother,wereasnothing。Ithirstedforhisblood,andwastormentedwithaninsatiableappetiteforhisdestruction;butmybrotherwasunmoved,andhaddismissedhiminsafety。Surelythouwastmorethanman,whileIamsunkbelowthebeasts。
DidIplacearightconstructionontheconductofWieland?Wastheerrorthatmisledhimsoeasilyrectified?Wereviewssovividandfaithsostrenuousthusliabletofadingandtochange?Wastherenotreasontodoubttheaccuracyofmyperceptions?Withimageslikethesewasmymindthronged,tillthedeportmentofmybrothercalledawaymyattention。
Isawhislipsmoveandhiseyescastuptoheaven。Thenwouldhelistenandlookback,asifinexpectationofsomeone”sappearance。Thriceherepeatedthesegesticulationsandthisinaudibleprayer。Eachtimethemistofconfusionanddoubtseemedtogrowdarkerandtosettleonhisunderstanding。Iguessedatthemeaningofthesetokens。ThewordsofCarwinhadshakenhisbelief,andhewasemployedinsummoningthemessengerwhohadformerlycommunedwithhim,toattestthevalueofthosenewdoubts。Invainthesummonswasrepeated,forhiseyemetnothingbutvacancy,andnotasoundsalutedhisear。
Hewalkedtothebed,gazedwitheagernessatthepillowwhichhadsustainedtheheadofthebreathlessCatharine,andthenreturnedtotheplacewhereIsat。Ihadnopowertoliftmyeyestohisface:Iwasdubiousofhispurpose;thispurposemightaimatmylife。
Alas!nothingbutsubjectiontodangerandexposuretotemptationcanshowuswhatweare。BythistestwasInowtried,andfoundtobecowardlyandrash。Mencandeliberatelyuntiethethreadoflife,andofthisIhaddeemedmyselfcapable。ItwasnowthatI
stooduponthebrinkoffate,thattheknifeofthesacrificerwasaimedatmyheart,Ishuddered,andbetookmyselftoanymeansofescape,howevermonstrous。
CanIbeartothink——canIenduretorelatetheoutragewhichmyheartmeditated?Whereweremymeansofsafety?Resistancewasvain。NoteventheenergyofdespaircouldsetmeonalevelwiththatstrengthwhichhisterrificprompterhadbestoweduponWieland。Terrorenablesustoperformincrediblefeats;butterrorwasnotthenthestateofmymind:wherethenweremyhopesofrescue?
Methinksitistoomuch。Istandaside,asitwere,frommyself;I
estimatemyowndeservings;ahatred,immortalandinexorable,ismydue。Ilistentomyownpleas,andfindthememptyandfalse:
yes,Iacknowledgethatmyguiltsurpassesthatofmankind;I
confessthatthecursesofaworldandthefrownsofaDeityareinadequatetomydemerits。Isthereathingintheworldworthyofinfiniteabhorrence?ItisI。
WhatshallIsay?Iwasmenaced,asIthought,withdeath,and,toeludethisevil,myhandwasreadytoinflictdeathuponthemenacer。Invisitingmyhouse,IhadmadeprovisionagainstthemachinationsofCarwin。Inafoldofmydressanopenpenknifewasconcealed。ThisInowseizedanddrewforth。Itlurkedoutofview;butInowseethatmystateofmindwouldhaverenderedthedeedinevitableifmybrotherhadliftedhishand。Thisinstrumentofmypreservationwouldhavebeenplungedintohisheart。
Oinsupportableremembrance!hidetheefrommyviewforatime;
hideitfrommethatmyheartwasblackenoughtomeditatethestabbingofabrother!abrotherthussupremeinmisery;thustoweringinvirtue!
Hewasprobablyunconsciousofmydesign,butpresentlydrewback。
Thisintervalwassufficienttorestoremetomyself。Themadness,theiniquity,ofthatactwhichIhadpurposedrusheduponmyapprehension。ForamomentIwasbreathlesswithagony。AtthenextmomentIrecoveredmystrength,andthrewtheknifewithviolenceonthefloor。
Thesoundawokemybrotherfromhisreverie。Hegazedalternatelyatmeandattheweapon。Withamovementequallysolemnhestoopedandtookitup。Heplacedthebladeindifferentpositions,scrutinizingitaccurately,andmaintaining,atthesametime,aprofoundsilence。
Againhelookedatme;butallthatvehemenceandloftinessofspiritwhichhadsolatelycharacterizedhisfeatureswereflown。
Fallenmuscles,aforeheadcontractedintofolds,eyesdimwithunbiddendrops,andaruefulnessofaspectwhichnowordscandescribe,werenowvisible。
Hislookstouchedintoenergythesamesympathiesinme,andI
pouredforthafloodoftears。Thispassionwasquicklycheckedbyfear,whichhadnownolongermyownbuthissafetyfortheirobject。Iwatchedhisdeportmentinsilence。Atlengthhespoke:——
“Sister,“saidhe,inanaccentmournfulandmild,“Ihaveactedpoorlymypartinthisworld。Whatthinkestthou?ShallInotdobetterinthenext?“
Icouldmakenoanswer。Themildnessofhistoneastonishedandencouragedme。Icontinuedtoregardhimwithwistfulandanxiouslooks。
“Ithink,“resumedhe,“Iwilltry。Mywifeandmybabeshavegonebefore。Happywretches!Ihavesentyoutorepose,andoughtnottolingerbehind。”
Thesewordshadameaningsufficientlyintelligible。Ilookedattheopenknifeinhishandandshuddered,butknewnothowtopreventthedeedwhichIdreaded。Hequicklynoticedmyfears,andcomprehendedthem。Stretchingtowardmehishand,withanairofincreasingmildness,“Takeit,“saidhe;“fearnotforthyownsake,norformine。Thecupisgoneby,anditstransientinebriationissucceededbythesobernessoftruth。
“ThouangelwhomIwaswonttoworship!fearestthou,mysister,forthylife?Onceitwasthescopeofmylaborstodestroythee,butIwaspromptedtothedeedbyheaven;such,atleast,wasmybelief。Thinkestthouthatthydeathwassoughttogratifymalevolence?No。Iampurefromallstain。IbelievedthatmyGodwasmymover!
“NeithertheenormyselfhaveIcausetoinjure。Ihavedonemyduty;andsurelythereismeritinhavingsacrificedtothatallthatisdeartotheheartofman。Ifadevilhasdeceivedme,hecameinthehabitofanangel。IfIerred,itwasnotmyjudgmentthatdeceivedme,butmysenses。Inthysight,Beingofbeings!I
amstillpure。StillwillIlookformyrewardinthyjustice!“
Didmyearstrulyreportthesesounds?IfIdidnoterr,mybrotherwasrestoredtojustperceptions。Heknewhimselftohavebeenbetrayedtothemurderofhiswifeandchildren,tohavebeenthevictimofinfernalartifice;yethefoundconsolationintherectitudeofhismotives。Hewasnotdevoidofsorrow,forthiswaswrittenonhiscountenance;buthissoulwastranquilandsublime。
Perhapsthiswasmerelyatransitionofhisformermadnessintoanewshape。Perhapshehadnotyetawakenedtothememoryofthehorrorswhichhehadperpetrated。InfatuatedwretchthatIwas!
Tosetmyselfupasamodelbywhichtojudgeofmyheroicbrother!
Myreasontaughtmethathisconclusionswereright;but,consciousoftheimpotenceofreasonovermyownconduct,consciousofmycowardlyrashnessandmycriminaldespair,Idoubtedwhetheranyonecouldbesteadfastandwise。
Suchwasmyweakness,thateveninthemidstofthesethoughtsmymindglidedintoabhorrenceofCarwin,andIuttered,inalowvoice,“OCarwin!Carwin!whathastthoutoanswerfor?“
Mybrotherimmediatelynoticedtheinvoluntaryexclamation。
“Clara!“saidhe,“bethyself。Equityusedtobeathemeforthyeloquence。Reduceitslessonstopractice,andbejusttothatunfortunateman。Theinstrumenthasdoneitswork,andIamsatisfied。
“Ithankthee,myGod,forthislastillumination!Myenemyisthinealso。Ideemedhimtobeaman,——themanwithwhomIhaveoftencommuned;butnowthygoodnesshasunveiledtomehistruenature。Astheperformerofthybehests,heismyfriend。”
Myheartbegannowtomisgiveme。Hismournfulaspecthadgraduallyyieldedplacetoaserenebrow。Anewsoulappearedtoactuatehisframe,andhiseyestobeamwithpreternaturalluster。