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  Hisnighthadbeenuntroubledbyanyimagesofpleasureorofpain。Butyouthsmileswithoutanyreason。Itisoneofitschiefestcharms。

  Heturnedround,andleaninguponhiselbow,begantosiphischocolate。ThemellowNovembersuncamestreamingintotheroom。Theskywasbright,andtherewasagenialwarmthintheair。ItwasalmostlikeamorninginMay。

  Graduallytheeventsoftheprecedingnightcreptwithsilent,blood-stainedfeetintohisbrainandreconstructedthemselvestherewithterribledistinctness。Hewincedatthememoryofallthathehadsuffered,andforamomentthesamecuriousfeelingofloathingforBasilHallwardthathadmadehimkillhimashesatinthechaircamebacktohim,andhegrewcoldwithpassion。Thedeadmanwasstillsittingthere,too,andinthesunlightnow。Howhorriblethatwas!Suchhideousthingswereforthedarkness,notfortheday。

  Hefeltthatifhebroodedonwhathehadgonethroughhewouldsickenorgrowmad。Thereweresinswhosefascinationwasmoreinthememorythaninthedoingofthem,strangetriumphsthatgratifiedthepridemorethanthepassions,andgavetotheintellectaquickenedsenseofjoy,greaterthananyjoytheybrought,orcouldeverbring,tothesenses。

  Butthiswasnotoneofthem。Itwasathingtobedrivenoutofthemind,tobedruggedwithpoppies,tobestrangledlestitmightstrangleoneitself。

  Whenthehalf-hourstruck,hepassedhishandacrosshisforehead,andthengotuphastilyanddressedhimselfwithevenmorethanhisusualcare,givingagooddealofattentiontothechoiceofhisnecktieandscarf-pinandchanginghisringsmorethanonce。Hespentalongtimealsooverbreakfast,tastingthevariousdishes,talkingtohisvaletaboutsomenewliveriesthathewasthinkingofgettingmadefortheservantsatSelby,andgoingthroughhiscorrespondence。Atsomeoftheletters,hesmiled。Threeofthemboredhim。Onehereadseveraltimesoverandthentoreupwithaslightlookofannoyanceinhisface。Thatawfulthing,awoman’smemory!asLordHenryhadoncesaid。

  Afterhehaddrunkhiscupofblackcoffee,hewipedhislipsslowlywithanapkin,motionedtohisservanttowait,andgoingovertothetable,satdownandwrotetwoletters。Oneheputinhispocket,theotherhehandedtothevalet。

  Takethisroundto152,HertfordStreet,Francis,andifMr。

  Campbellisoutoftown,gethisaddress。

  Assoonashewasalone,helitacigaretteandbegansketchinguponapieceofpaper,drawingfirstflowersandbitsofarchitecture,andthenhumanfaces。SuddenlyheremarkedthateveryfacethathedrewseemedtohaveafantasticlikenesstoBasilHallward。Hefrowned,andgettingup,wentovertothebook-caseandtookoutavolumeathazard。

  Hewasdeterminedthathewouldnotthinkaboutwhathadhappeneduntilitbecameabsolutelynecessarythatheshoulddoso。

  Whenhehadstretchedhimselfonthesofa,helookedatthetitle-pageofthebook。ItwasGautier’sEmauxetCamees,Charpentier’sJapanese-paperedition,withtheJacquemartetching。Thebindingwasofcitron-greenleather,withadesignofgilttrellis-workanddottedpomegranates。IthadbeengiventohimbyAdrianSingleton。Asheturnedoverthepages,hiseyefellonthepoemaboutthehandofLacenaire,thecoldyellowhanddusuppliceencoremallav&eacute。:e,withitsdownyredhairsanditsdoigtsdefaune。Heglancedathisownwhitetaperfingers,shudderingslightlyinspiteofhimself,andpassedon,tillhecametothoselovelystanzasuponVenice:

  Surunegammechromatique,Leseindeperiesruisselant,LaV&eacute。nusdel’AdriatiqueSortdel’eausoncorpsroseetblanc。Lesd&ocirc。mes,surl’azurdesondesSuivantlaphraseaupurcontour,S’enflentcommedesgorgesrondesQuesoul&egrave。veunsoupird’amour。L’esquifabordeetmed&eacute。pose,Jetantsonamarreaupilier,Devantunefa&ccedil。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。

  Howexquisitetheywere!Asonereadthem,oneseemedtobefloatingdownthegreenwater-waysofthepinkandpearlcity,seatedinablackgondolawithsilverprowandtrailingcurtains。Themerelineslookedtohimlikethosestraightlinesofturquoise-bluethatfollowoneasonepushesouttotheLido。Thesuddenflashesofcolourremindedhimofthegleamoftheopal-and-iris-throatedbirdsthatflutterroundthetallhoneycombedCampanile,orstalk,withsuchstatelygrace,throughthedim,dust-stainedarcades。Leaningbackwithhalf-closedeyes,hekeptsayingoverandovertohimself:

  Devantunefa&ccedil。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。

  ThewholeofVenicewasinthosetwolines。Herememberedtheautumnthathehadpassedthere,andawonderfullovethathadstirredhimtomaddelightfulfollies。Therewasromanceineveryplace。ButVenice,likeOxford,hadkeptthebackgroundforromance,and,tothetrueromantic,backgroundwaseverything,oralmosteverything。Basilhadbeenwithhimpartofthetime,andhadgonewildoverTintoret。PoorBasil!Whatahorriblewayforamantodie!

  Hesighed,andtookupthevolumeagain,andtriedtoforget。

  HereadoftheswallowsthatflyinandoutofthelittlecafeatSmyrnawheretheHadjissitcountingtheiramberbeadsandtheturbanedmerchantssmoketheirlongtasselledpipesandtalkgravelytoeachother。hereadoftheObeliskinthePlacedelaConcordethatweepstearsofgraniteinitslonelysunlessexileandlongstobebackbythehot,lotus-coveredNile,wherethereareSphinxes,androse-redibises,andwhitevultureswithgildedclaws,andcrocodileswithsmallberyleyesthatcrawloverthegreensteamingmud。hebegantobroodoverthoseverseswhich,drawingmusicfromkiss-stainedmarble,tellofthatcuriousstatuethatGautiercomparestoacontraltovoice,themonstrecharmantthatcouchesintheporphyry-roomoftheLouvre。Butafteratimethebookfellfromhishand。Hegrewnervous,andahorriblefitofterrorcameoverhim。

  WhatifAlanCampbellshouldbeoutofEngland?Dayswouldelapsebeforehecouldcomeback。Perhapshemightrefusetocome。Whatcouldhedothen?

  Everymomentwasofvitalimportance。

  Theyhadbeengreatfriendsonce,fiveyearsbefore——almostinseparable,indeed。Thentheintimacyhadcomesuddenlytoanend。Whentheymetinsocietynow,itwasonlyDorianGraywhosmiled:AlanCampbellneverdid。

  Hewasanextremelycleveryoungman,thoughhehadnorealappreciationofthevisiblearts,andwhateverlittlesenseofthebeautyofpoetryhepossessedhehadgainedentirelyfromDorian。Hisdominantintellectualpassionwasforscience。AtCambridgehehadspentagreatdealofhistimeworkinginthelaboratory,andhadtakenagoodclassintheNaturalScienceTriposofhisyear。Indeed,hewasstilldevotedtothestudyofchemistry,andhadalaboratoryofhisowninwhichheusedtoshuthimselfupalldaylong,greatlytotheannoyanceofhismother,whohadsetherheartonhisstandingforParliamentandhadavagueideathatachemistwasapersonwhomadeupprescriptions。Hewasanexcellentmusician,however,aswell,andplayedboththeviolinandthepianobetterthanmostamateurs。

  Infact,itwasmusicthathadfirstbroughthimandDorianGraytogether——musicandthatindefinableattractionthatDorianseemedtobeabletoexercisewheneverhewished——and,indeed,exercisedoftenwithoutbeingconsciousofit。TheyhadmetatLadyBerkshire’sthenightthatRubinsteinplayedthere,andafterthatusedtobealwaysseentogetherattheoperaandwherevergoodmusicwasgoingon。Foreighteenmonthstheirintimacylasted。

  CampbellwasalwayseitheratSelbyRoyalorinGrosvenorSquare。Tohim,astomanyothers,DorianGraywasthetypeofeverythingthatiswonderfulandfascinatinginlife。Whetherornotaquarrelhadtakenplacebetweenthemnooneeverknew。ButsuddenlypeopleremarkedthattheyscarcelyspokewhentheymetandthatCampbellseemedalwaystogoawayearlyfromanypartyatwhichDorianGraywaspresent。Hehadchanged,too——wasstrangelymelancholyattimes,appearedalmosttodislikehearingmusic,andwouldneverhimselfplay,givingashisexcuse,whenhewascalledupon,thathewassoabsorbedinsciencethathehadnotimeleftinwhichtopractise。

  Andthiswascertainlytrue。Everydayheseemedtobecomemoreinterestedinbiology,andhisnameappearedonceortwiceinsomeofthescientificreviewsinconnectionwithcertaincuriousexperiments。

  ThiswasthemanDorianGraywaswaitingfor。Everysecondhekeptglancingattheclock。Astheminuteswentbyhebecamehorriblyagitated。

  Atlasthegotupandbegantopaceupanddowntheroom,lookinglikeabeautifulcagedthing。Hetooklongstealthystrides。Hishandswerecuriouslycold。

  Thesuspensebecameunbearable。Timeseemedtohimtobecrawlingwithfeetoflead,whilehebymonstrouswindswasbeingswepttowardsthejaggededgeofsomeblackcleftofprecipice。Heknewwhatwaswaitingforhimthere。sawit,indeed,and,shuddering,crushedwithdankhandshisburninglidsasthoughhewouldhaverobbedtheverybrainofsightanddriventheeyeballsbackintotheircave。Itwasuseless。Thebrainhaditsownfoodonwhichitbattened,andtheimagination,madegrotesquebyterror,twistedanddistortedasalivingthingbypain,dancedlikesomefoulpuppetonastandandgrinnedthroughmovingmasks。Then,suddenly,timestoppedforhim。Yes:thatblind,slow-breathingthingcrawlednomore,andhorriblethoughts,timebeingdead,racednimblyoninfront,anddraggedahideousfuturefromitsgrave,andshowedittohim。Hestaredatit。Itsveryhorrormadehimstone。

  Atlastthedooropenedandhisservantentered。Heturnedglazedeyesuponhim。

  Mr。Campbell,sir,saidtheman。

  Asighofreliefbrokefromhisparchedlips,andthecolourcamebacktohischeeks。

  Askhimtocomeinatonce,Francis。Hefeltthathewashimselfagain。Hismoodofcowardicehadpassedaway。

  Themanbowedandretired。Inafewmoments,AlanCampbellwalkedin,lookingverysternandratherpale,hispallorbeingintensifiedbyhiscoal-blackhairanddarkeyebrows。

  Alan!Thisiskindofyou。Ithankyouforcoming。

  Ihadintendednevertoenteryourhouseagain,Gray。Butyousaiditwasamatteroflifeanddeath。Hisvoicewashardandcold。Hespokewithslowdeliberation。TherewasalookofcontemptinthesteadysearchinggazethatheturnedonDorian。HekepthishandsinthepocketsofhisAstrakhancoat,andseemednottohavenoticedthegesturewithwhichhehadbeengreeted。

  Yes:itisamatteroflifeanddeath,Alan,andtomorethanoneperson。Sitdown。

  Campbelltookachairbythetable,andDoriansatoppositetohim。Thetwomen’seyesmet。InDorian’stherewasinfinitepity。Heknewthatwhathewasgoingtodowasdreadful。

  Afterastrainedmomentofsilence,heleanedacrossandsaid,veryquietly,butwatchingtheeffectofeachworduponthefaceofhimhehadsentfor,Alan,inalockedroomatthetopofthishouse,aroomtowhichnobodybutmyselfhasaccess,adeadmanisseatedatatable。

  Hehasbeendeadtenhoursnow。Don’tstir,anddon’tlookatmelikethat。

  Whothemanis,whyhedied,howhedied,aremattersthatdonotconcernyou。Whatyouhavetodoisthis——

  Stop,Gray。Idon’twanttoknowanythingfurther。Whetherwhatyouhavetoldmeistrueornottruedoesn’tconcernme。Ientirelydeclinetobemixedupinyourlife。Keepyourhorriblesecretstoyourself。Theydon’tinterestmeanymore。

  Alan,theywillhavetointerestyou。Thisonewillhavetointerestyou。Iamawfullysorryforyou,Alan。ButIcan’thelpmyself。Youaretheonemanwhoisabletosaveme。Iamforcedtobringyouintothematter。

  Ihavenooption。Alan,youarescientific。Youknowaboutchemistryandthingsofthatkind。Youhavemadeexperiments。Whatyouhavegottodoistodestroythethingthatisupstairs——todestroyitsothatnotavestigeofitwillbeleft。Nobodysawthispersoncomeintothehouse。

  Indeed,atthepresentmomentheissupposedtobeinParis。Hewillnotbemissedformonths。Whenheismissed,theremustbenotraceofhimfoundhere。You,Alan,youmustchangehim,andeverythingthatbelongstohim,intoahandfulofashesthatImayscatterintheair。

  Youaremad,Dorian。

  Ah!IwaswaitingforyoutocallmeDorian。

  Youaremad,Itellyou——madtoimaginethatIwouldraiseafingertohelpyou,madtomakethismonstrousconfession。Iwillhavenothingtodowiththismatter,whateveritis。DoyouthinkIamgoingtoperilmyreputationforyou?Whatisittomewhatdevil’sworkyouareupto?

  Itwassuicide,Alan。

  Iamgladofthat。Butwhodrovehimtoit?You,Ishouldfancy。

  Doyoustillrefusetodothisforme?

  OfcourseIrefuse。Iwillhaveabsolutelynothingtodowithit。Idon’tcarewhatshamecomesonyou。Youdeserveitall。Ishouldnotbesorrytoseeyoudisgraced,publiclydisgraced。Howdareyouaskme,ofallmenintheworld,tomixmyselfupinthishorror?Ishouldhavethoughtyouknewmoreaboutpeople’scharacters。YourfriendLordHenryWottoncan’thavetaughtyoumuchaboutpsychology,whateverelsehehastaughtyou。Nothingwillinducemetostirasteptohelpyou。Youhavecometothewrongman。Gotosomeofyourfriends。Don’tcometome。

  Alan,itwasmurder。Ikilledhim。Youdon’tknowwhathehadmademesuffer。Whatevermylifeis,hehadmoretodowiththemakingorthemarringofitthanpoorHarryhashad。Hemaynothaveintendedit,theresultwasthesame。

  Murder!GoodGod,Dorian,isthatwhatyouhavecometo?Ishallnotinformuponyou。Itisnotmybusiness。Besides,withoutmystirringinthematter,youarecertaintobearrested。Nobodyevercommitsacrimewithoutdoingsomethingstupid。ButIwillhavenothingtodowithit。

  Youmusthavesomethingtodowithit。Wait,waitamoment。listentome。Onlylisten,Alan。AllIaskofyouistoperformacertainscientificexperiment。Yougotohospitalsanddead-houses,andthehorrorsthatyoudotheredon’taffectyou。Ifinsomehideousdissecting-roomorfetidlaboratoryyoufoundthismanlyingonaleadentablewithredguttersscoopedoutinitforthebloodtoflowthrough,youwouldsimplylookuponhimasanadmirablesubject。Youwouldnotturnahair。Youwouldnotbelievethatyouweredoinganythingwrong。Onthecontrary,youwouldprobablyfeelthatyouwerebenefitingthehumanrace,orincreasingthesumofknowledgeintheworld,orgratifyingintellectualcuriosity,orsomethingofthatkind。WhatIwantyoutodoismerelywhatyouhaveoftendonebefore。Indeed,todestroyabodymustbefarlesshorriblethanwhatyouareaccustomedtoworkat。And,remember,itistheonlypieceofevidenceagainstme。Ifitisdiscovered,Iamlost。anditissuretobediscoveredunlessyouhelpme。

  Ihavenodesiretohelpyou。Youforgetthat。Iamsimplyindifferenttothewholething。Ithasnothingtodowithme。

  Alan,Ientreatyou。ThinkofthepositionIamin。JustbeforeyoucameIalmostfaintedwithterror。Youmayknowterroryourselfsomeday。No!don’tthinkofthat。Lookatthematterpurelyfromthescientificpointofview。Youdon’tinquirewherethedeadthingsonwhichyouexperimentcomefrom。Don’tinquirenow。Ihavetoldyoutoomuchasitis。ButI

  begofyoutodothis。Wewerefriendsonce,Alan。

  Don’tspeakaboutthosedays,Dorian——theyaredead。

  Thedeadlingersometimes。Themanupstairswillnotgoaway。

  Heissittingatthetablewithbowedheadandoutstretchedarms。Alan!

  Alan!Ifyoudon’tcometomyassistance,Iamruined。Why,theywillhangme,Alan!Don’tyouunderstand?TheywillhangmeforwhatIhavedone。

  Thereisnogoodinprolongingthisscene。Iabsolutelyrefusetodoanythinginthematter。Itisinsaneofyoutoaskme。

  Yourefuse?

  Yes。

  Ientreatyou,Alan。

  Itisuseless。

  ThesamelookofpitycameintoDorianGray’seyes。Thenhestretchedouthishand,tookapieceofpaper,andwrotesomethingonit。Hereaditovertwice,foldeditcarefully,andpusheditacrossthetable。Havingdonethis,hegotupandwentovertothewindow。

  Campbelllookedathiminsurprise,andthentookupthepaper,andopenedit。Ashereadit,hisfacebecameghastlypaleandhefellbackinhischair。Ahorriblesenseofsicknesscameoverhim。Hefeltasifhisheartwasbeatingitselftodeathinsomeemptyhollow。

  Aftertwoorthreeminutesofterriblesilence,Dorianturnedroundandcameandstoodbehindhim,puttinghishanduponhisshoulder。

  Iamsosorryforyou,Alan,hemurmured,butyouleavemenoalternative。Ihavealetterwrittenalready。Hereitis。Youseetheaddress。Ifyoudon’thelpme,Imustsendit。Ifyoudon’thelpme,I

  willsendit。Youknowwhattheresultwillbe。Butyouaregoingtohelpme。Itisimpossibleforyoutorefusenow。Itriedtospareyou。Youwilldomethejusticetoadmitthat。Youwerestern,harsh,offensive。Youtreatedmeasnomanhaseverdaredtotreatme——nolivingman,atanyrate。Iboreitall。Nowitisformetodictateterms。

  Campbellburiedhisfaceinhishands,andashudderpassedthroughhim。

  Yes,itismyturntodictateterms,Alan。Youknowwhattheyare。Thethingisquitesimple。Come,don’tworkyourselfintothisfever。

  Thethinghastobedone。Faceit,anddoit。

  AgroanbrokefromCampbell’slipsandheshiveredallover。Thetickingoftheclockonthemantelpieceseemedtohimtobedividingtimeintoseparateatomsofagony,eachofwhichwastooterribletobeborne。

  Hefeltasifanironringwasbeingslowlytightenedroundhisforehead,asifthedisgracewithwhichhewasthreatenedhadalreadycomeuponhim。

  Thehanduponhisshoulderweighedlikeahandoflead。Itwasintolerable。

  Itseemedtocrushhim。

  Come,Alan,youmustdecideatonce。

  Icannotdoit,hesaid,mechanically,asthoughwordscouldalterthings。

  Youmust。Youhavenochoice。Don’tdelay。

  Hehesitatedamoment。Isthereafireintheroomupstairs?

  Yes,thereisagas-firewithasbestos。

  Ishallhavetogohomeandgetsomethingsfromthelaboratory。

  No,Alan,youmustnotleavethehouse。Writeoutonasheetofnotepaperwhatyouwantandmyservantwilltakeacabandbringthethingsbacktoyou。

  Campbellscrawledafewlines,blottedthem,andaddressedanenvelopetohisassistant。Doriantookthenoteupandreaditcarefully。

  Thenherangthebellandgaveittohisvalet,withorderstoreturnassoonaspossibleandtobringthethingswithhim。

  Asthehalldoorshut,Campbellstartednervously,andhavinggotupfromthechair,wentovertothechimney-piece。Hewasshiveringwithakindofague。Fornearlytwentyminutes,neitherofthemenspoke。

  Aflybuzzednoisilyabouttheroom,andthetickingoftheclockwaslikethebeatofahammer。

  Asthechimestruckone,Campbellturnedround,andlookingatDorianGray,sawthathiseyeswerefilledwithtears。Therewassomethinginthepurityandrefinementofthatsadfacethatseemedtoenragehim。

  Youareinfamous,absolutelyinfamous!hemuttered。

  Hush,Alan。Youhavesavedmylife,saidDorian。

  Yourlife?Goodheavens!whatalifethatis!Youhavegonefromcorruptiontocorruption,andnowyouhaveculminatedincrime。IndoingwhatIamgoingtodo——whatyouforcemetodo——itisnotofyourlifethatIamthinking。

  Ah,Alan,murmuredDorianwithasigh,IwishyouhadathousandthpartofthepityformethatIhaveforyou。Heturnedawayashespokeandstoodlookingoutatthegarden。Campbellmadenoanswer。

  Afterabouttenminutesaknockcametothedoor,andtheservantentered,carryingalargemahoganychestofchemicals,withalongcoilofsteelandplatinumwireandtworathercuriouslyshapedironclamps。

  ShallIleavethethingshere,sir?heaskedCampbell。

  Yes,saidDorian。AndIamafraid,Francis,thatIhaveanothererrandforyou。WhatisthenameofthemanatRichmondwhosuppliesSelbywithorchids?

  Harden,sir。

  Yes——Harden。YoumustgodowntoRichmondatonce,seeHardenpersonally,andtellhimtosendtwiceasmanyorchidsasIordered,andtohaveasfewwhiteonesaspossible。Infact,Idon’twantanywhiteones。Itisalovelyday,Francis,andRichmondisaveryprettyplace——

  otherwiseIwouldn’tbotheryouaboutit。

  Notrouble,sir。AtwhattimeshallIbeback?

  DorianlookedatCampbell。Howlongwillyourexperimenttake,Alan?hesaidinacalmindifferentvoice。Thepresenceofathirdpersonintheroomseemedtogivehimextraordinarycourage。

  Campbellfrownedandbithislip。Itwilltakeaboutfivehours,

  heanswered。

  Itwillbetimeenough,then,ifyouarebackathalf-pastseven,Francis。Orstay:justleavemythingsoutfordressing。Youcanhavetheeveningtoyourself。Iamnotdiningathome,soIshallnotwantyou。

  Thankyou,sir,saidtheman,leavingtheroom。

  Now,Alan,thereisnotamomenttobelost。Howheavythischestis!I’lltakeitforyou。Youbringtheotherthings。Hespokerapidlyandinanauthoritativemanner。Campbellfeltdominatedbyhim。Theylefttheroomtogether。

  Whentheyreachedthetoplanding,Doriantookoutthekeyandturneditinthelock。Thenhestopped,andatroubledlookcameintohiseyes。Heshuddered。Idon’tthinkIcangoin,Alan,hemurmured。

  Itisnothingtome。Idon’trequireyou,saidCampbellcoldly。

  Dorianhalfopenedthedoor。Ashedidso,hesawthefaceofhisportraitleeringinthesunlight。Onthefloorinfrontofitthetorncurtainwaslying。Herememberedthatthenightbeforehehadforgotten,forthefirsttimeinhislife,tohidethefatalcanvas,andwasabouttorushforward,whenhedrewbackwithashudder。

  Whatwasthatloathsomereddewthatgleamed,wetandglistening,ononeofthehands,asthoughthecanvashadsweatedblood?Howhorribleitwas!——morehorrible,itseemedtohimforthemoment,thanthesilentthingthatheknewwasstretchedacrossthetable,thethingwhosegrotesquemisshapenshadowonthespottedcarpetshowedhimthatithadnotstirred,butwasstillthere,ashehadleftit。

  Heheavedadeepbreath,openedthedooralittlewider,andwithhalf-closedeyesandavertedhead,walkedquicklyin,determinedthathewouldnotlookevenonceuponthedeadman。Then,stoopingdownandtakingupthegold-and-purplehanging,heflungitrightoverthepicture。

  Therehestopped,feelingafraidtoturnround,andhiseyesfixedthemselvesontheintricaciesofthepatternbeforehim。HeheardCampbellbringingintheheavychest,andtheirons,andtheotherthingsthathehadrequiredforhisdreadfulwork。HebegantowonderifheandBasilHallwardhadevermet,and,ifso,whattheyhadthoughtofeachother。

  Leavemenow,saidasternvoicebehindhim。

  Heturnedandhurriedout,justconsciousthatthedeadmanhadbeenthrustbackintothechairandthatCampbellwasgazingintoaglisteningyellowface。Ashewasgoingdownstairs,heheardthekeybeingturnedinthelock。

  ItwaslongaftersevenwhenCampbellcamebackintothelibrary。

  Hewaspale,butabsolutelycalm。Ihavedonewhatyouaskedmetodo,

  hemutteredAndnow,good-bye。Letusneverseeeachotheragain。

  Youhavesavedmefromruin,Alan。Icannotforgetthat,saidDoriansimply。

  AssoonasCampbellhadleft,hewentupstairs。Therewasahorriblesmellofnitricacidintheroom。Butthethingthathadbeensittingatthetablewasgone。

  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter15Chapter15Thatevening,ateight-thirty,exquisitelydressedandwearingalargebutton-holeofParmaviolets,DorianGraywasusheredintoLadyNarborough’sdrawing-roombybowingservants。Hisforeheadwasthrobbingwithmaddenednerves,andhefeltwildlyexcited,buthismannerashebentoverhishostess’shandwasaseasyandgracefulasever。Perhapsoneneverseemssomuchatone’seaseaswhenonehastoplayapart。CertainlynoonelookingatDorianGraythatnightcouldhavebelievedthathehadpassedthroughatragedyashorribleasanytragedyofourage。Thosefinelyshapedfingerscouldneverhaveclutchedaknifeforsin,northosesmilinglipshavecriedoutonGodandgoodness。Hehimselfcouldnothelpwonderingatthecalmofhisdemeanour,andforamomentfeltkeenlytheterriblepleasureofadoublelife。

  Itwasasmallparty,gotupratherinahurrybyLadyNarborough,whowasaverycleverwomanwithwhatLordHenryusedtodescribeastheremainsofreallyremarkableugliness。Shehadprovedanexcellentwifetooneofourmosttediousambassadors,andhavingburiedherhusbandproperlyinamarblemausoleum,whichshehadherselfdesigned,andmarriedoffherdaughterstosomerich,ratherelderlymen,shedevotedherselfnowtothepleasuresofFrenchfiction,Frenchcookery,andFrenchespritwhenshecouldgetit。

  Dorianwasoneofherespecialfavourites,andshealwaystoldhimthatshewasextremelygladshehadnotmethiminearlylife。Iknow,mydear,Ishouldhavefallenmadlyinlovewithyou,sheusedtosay,andthrownmybonnetrightoverthemillsforyoursake。Itismostfortunatethatyouwerenotthoughtofatthetime。Asitwas,ourbonnetsweresounbecoming,andthemillsweresooccupiedintryingtoraisethewind,thatIneverhadevenaflirtationwithanybody。However,thatwasallNarborough’sfault。Hewasdreadfullyshort-sighted,andthereisnopleasureintakinginahusbandwhoneverseesanything。

  Hergueststhiseveningwererathertedious。Thefactwas,assheexplainedtoDorian,behindaveryshabbyfan,oneofhermarrieddaughtershadcomeupquitesuddenlytostaywithher,and,tomakemattersworse,hadactuallybroughtherhusbandwithher。Ithinkitismostunkindofher,mydear,shewhispered。OfcourseIgoandstaywiththemeverysummerafterIcomefromHomburg,butthenanoldwomanlikememusthavefreshairsometimes,andbesides,Ireallywakethemup。Youdon’tknowwhatanexistencetheyleaddownthere。Itispureunadulteratedcountrylife。Theygetupearly,becausetheyhavesomuchtodo,andgotobedearly,becausetheyhavesolittletothinkabout。TherehasnotbeenascandalintheneighbourhoodsincethetimeofQueenElizabeth,andconsequentlytheyallfallasleepafterdinner。Youshan’tsitnexteitherofthem。

  Youshallsitbymeandamuseme。

  Dorianmurmuredagracefulcomplimentandlookedroundtheroom。

  Yes:itwascertainlyatediousparty。Twoofthepeoplehehadneverseenbefore,andtheothersconsistedofErnestHarrowden,oneofthosemiddle-agedmediocritiessocommoninLondonclubswhohavenoenemies,butarethoroughlydislikedbytheirfriends。LadyRuxton,anoverdressedwomanofforty-seven,withahookednose,whowasalwaystryingtogetherselfcompromised,butwassopeculiarlyplainthattohergreatdisappointmentnoonewouldeverbelieveanythingagainsther。Mrs。Erlynne,apushingnobody,withadelightfullispandVenetian-redhair。LadyAliceChapman,hishostess’sdaughter,adowdydullgirl,withoneofthosecharacteristicBritishfacesthat,onceseen,areneverremembered。andherhusband,ared-cheeked,white-whiskeredcreaturewho,likesomanyofhisclass,wasundertheimpressionthatinordinatejovialitycanatoneforanentirelackofideas。

  Hewasrathersorryhehadcome,tillLadyNarborough,lookingatthegreatormolugiltclockthatsprawledingaudycurvesonthemauve-drapedmantelshelf,exclaimed:HowhorridofHenryWottontobesolate!Isentroundtohimthismorningonchanceandhepromisedfaithfullynottodisappointme。

  ItwassomeconsolationthatHarrywastobethere,andwhenthedooropenedandheheardhisslowmusicalvoicelendingcharmtosomeinsincereapology,heceasedtofeelbored。

  Butatdinnerhecouldnoteatanything。Plateafterplatewentawayuntasted。LadyNarboroughkeptscoldinghimforwhatshecalledaninsulttopoorAdolphe,whoinventedthemenuspeciallyforyou,andnowandthenLordHenrylookedacrossathim,wonderingathissilenceandabstractedmanner。Fromtimetotimethebutlerfilledhisglasswithchampagne。

  Hedrankeagerly,andhisthirstseemedtoincrease。

  Dorian,saidLordHenryatlast,asthechaud-froidwasbeinghandedround,whatisthematterwithyouto-night?Youarequiteoutofsorts。

  Ibelieveheisinlove,criedLadyNarborough,andthatheisafraidtotellmeforfearIshouldbejealous。Heisquiteright。I

  certainlyshould。

  DearLadyNarborough,murmuredDorian,smiling,Ihavenotbeeninloveforawholeweek——not,infact,sinceMadamedeFerrollefttown。

  Howyoumencanfallinlovewiththatwoman!exclaimedtheoldlady。Ireallycannotunderstandit。

  Itissimplybecausesheremembersyouwhenyouwerealittlegirl,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenry。Sheistheonelinkbetweenusandyourshortfrocks。

  Shedoesnotremembermyshortfrocksatall,LordHenry。ButIrememberherverywellatViennathirtyyearsago,andhowd&eacute。collet&eacute。eshewasthen。

  Sheisstilld&eacute。collet&eacute。e,heanswered,takinganoliveinhislongfingers。andwhensheisinaverysmartgownshelookslikean&eacute。ditiondeluxeofabadFrenchnovel。Sheisreallywonderful,andfullofsurprises。Hercapacityforfamilyaffectionisextraordinary。Whenherthirdhusbanddied,herhairturnedquitegoldfromgrief。

  Howcanyou,Harry!criedDorian。

  Itisamostromanticexplanation,laughedthehostess。Butherthirdhusband,LordHenry!Youdon’tmeantosayFerrolisthefourth?

  Certainly,LadyNarborough。

  Idon’tbelieveawordofit。

  Well,askMr。Gray。Heisoneofhermostintimatefriends。

  Isittrue,Mr。Gray?

  Sheassuresmeso,LadyNarborough,saidDorian。Iaskedherwhether,likeMargueritedeNavarre,shehadtheirheartsembalmedandhungathergirdle。Shetoldmeshedidn’t,becausenoneofthemhadhadanyheartsatall。

  Fourhusbands!Uponmywordthatistropdez&egrave。le。

  Tropd’audace,Itellher,saidDorian。

  Oh!sheisaudaciousenoughforanything,mydear。AndwhatisFerrollike?Idon’tknowhim。

  Thehusbandsofverybeautifulwomenbelongtothecriminalclasses,

  saidLordHenry,sippinghiswine。

  LadyNarboroughhithimwithherfan。LordHenry,Iamnotatallsurprisedthattheworldsaysthatyouareextremelywicked。

  Butwhatworldsaysthat?askedLordHenry,elevatinghiseyebrows。

  Itcanonlybethenextworld。ThisworldandIareonexcellentterms。

  EverybodyIknowsaysyouareverywicked,criedtheoldlady,shakingherhead。

  LordHenrylookedseriousforsomemoments。Itisperfectlymonstrous,

  hesaid,atlast,thewaypeoplegoaboutnowadayssayingthingsagainstonebehindone’sbackthatareabsolutelyandentirelytrue。

  Isn’theincorrigible?criedDorian,leaningforwardinhischair。

  Ihopeso,saidhishostess,laughing。Butreally,ifyouallworshipMadamedeFerrolinthisridiculousway,Ishallhavetomarryagainsoastobeinthefashion。

  Youwillnevermarryagain,LadyNarborough,brokeinLordHenry。

  Youwerefartoohappy。Whenawomanmarriesagain,itisbecauseshedetestedherfirsthusband。Whenamanmarriesagain,itisbecauseheadoredhisfirstwife。Womentrytheirluck。menrisktheirs。

  Narboroughwasn’tperfect,criedtheoldlady。

  Ifhehadbeen,youwouldnothavelovedhim,mydearlady,

  wastherejoinder。Womenloveusforourdefects。Ifwehaveenoughofthem,theywillforgiveuseverything,evenourintellects。Youwillneveraskmetodinneragainaftersayingthis,Iamafraid,LadyNarborough,butitisquitetrue。

  Ofcourseitistrue,LordHenry。Ifwewomendidnotloveyouforyourdefects,wherewouldyouallbe?Notoneofyouwouldeverbemarried。Youwouldbeasetofunfortunatebachelors。Not,however,thatthatwouldalteryoumuch。Nowadaysallthemarriedmenlivelikebachelors,andallthebachelorslikemarriedmen。

  Findesi&egrave。cle,murmuredLordHenry。

  Finduglobe,answeredhishostess。

  Iwishitwerefinduglobe,saidDorianwithasigh。

  Lifeisagreatdisappointment。

  Ah,mydear,criedLadyNarborough,puttingonhergloves,don’ttellmethatyouhaveexhaustedlife。Whenamansaysthatoneknowsthatlifehasexhaustedhim。LordHenryisverywicked,andIsometimeswishthatIhadbeen。butyouaremadetobegood——youlooksogood。Imustfindyouanicewife。LordHenry,don’tyouthinkthatMr。Grayshouldgetmarried?

  Iamalwaystellinghimso,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenrywithabow。

  Well,wemustlookoutforasuitablematchforhim。IshallgothroughDebrettcarefullyto-nightanddrawoutalistofalltheeligibleyoungladies。

  Withtheirages,LadyNarborough?askedDorian。

  Ofcourse,withtheirages,slightlyedited。Butnothingmustbedoneinahurry。IwantittobewhatTheMorningPostcallsasuitablealliance,andIwantyoubothtobehappy。

  Whatnonsensepeopletalkabouthappymarriages!exclaimedLordHenry。Amancanbehappywithanywoman,aslongashedoesnotloveher。

  Ah!whatacynicyouare!criedtheoldlady,pushingbackherchairandnoddingtoLadyRuxton。Youmustcomeanddinewithmesoonagain。Youarereallyanadmirabletonic,muchbetterthanwhatSirAndrewprescribesforme。Youmusttellmewhatpeopleyouwouldliketomeet,though。Iwantittobeadelightfulgathering。

  Ilikemenwhohaveafutureandwomenwhohaveapast,heanswered。

  Ordoyouthinkthatwouldmakeitapetticoatparty?

  Ifearso,shesaid,laughing,asshestoodup。Athousandpardons,mydearLadyRuxton,sheadded,Ididn’tseeyouhadn’tfinishedyourcigarette。

  Nevermind,LadyNarborough。Ismokeagreatdealtoomuch。I

  amgoingtolimitmyself,forthefuture。

  Praydon’t,LadyRuxton,saidLordHenry。Moderationisafatalthing。Enoughisasbadasameal。Morethanenoughisasgoodasafeast。

  LadyRuxtonglancedathimcuriously。Youmustcomeandexplainthattomesomeafternoon,LordHenry。Itsoundsafascinatingtheory,

  shemurmured,asshesweptoutoftheroom。

  Now,mindyoudon’tstaytoolongoveryourpoliticsandscandal,

  criedLadyNarboroughfromthedoor。Ifyoudo,wearesuretosquabbleupstairs。

  Themenlaughed,andMr。Chapmangotupsolemnlyfromthefootofthetableandcameuptothetop。DorianGraychangedhisseatandwentandsatbyLordHenry。Mr。ChapmanbegantotalkinaloudvoiceaboutthesituationintheHouseofCommons。Heguffawedathisadversaries。

  Theworddoctrinaire——wordfullofterrortotheBritishmind——

  reappearedfromtimetotimebetweenhisexplosions。Analliterativeprefixservedasanornamentoforatory。HehoistedtheUnionJackonthepinnaclesofthought。Theinheritedstupidityoftherace——soundEnglishcommonsensehejoviallytermedit——wasshowntobetheproperbulwarkforsociety。

  AsmilecurvedLordHenry’slips,andheturnedroundandlookedatDorian。

  Areyoubetter,mydearfellow?heasked。Youseemedratheroutofsortsatdinner。

  Iamquitewell,Harry。Iamtired。Thatisall。

  Youwerecharminglastnight。Thelittleduchessisquitedevotedtoyou。ShetellsmesheisgoingdowntoSelby。

  Shehaspromisedtocomeonthetwentieth。

  IsMonmouthtobethere,too?

  Oh,yes,Harry。

  Heboresmedreadfully,almostasmuchasheboresher。Sheisveryclever,toocleverforawoman。Shelackstheindefinablecharmofweakness。Itisthefeetofclaythatmakethegoldoftheimageprecious。

  Herfeetareverypretty,buttheyarenotfeetofclay。Whiteporcelainfeet,ifyoulike。Theyhavebeenthroughthefire,andwhatfiredoesnotdestroy,ithardens。Shehashadexperiences。

  Howlonghasshebeenmarried?askedDorian。

  Aneternity,shetellsme。Ibelieve,accordingtothepeerage,itistenyears,buttenyearswithMonmouthmusthavebeenlikeeternity,withtimethrownin。Whoelseiscoming?

  Oh,theWilloughbys,LordRugbyandhiswife,ourhostess,GeoffreyClouston,theusualset。IhaveaskedLordGrotrian。

  Ilikehim,saidLordHenry。Agreatmanypeopledon’t,butIfindhimcharming。Heatonesforbeingoccasionallysomewhatoverdressedbybeingalwaysabsolutelyover-educated。Heisaverymoderntype。

  Idon’tknowifhewillbeabletocome,Harry。HemayhavetogotoMonteCarlowithhisfather。

  Ah!whatanuisancepeople’speopleare!Tryandmakehimcome。

  Bytheway,Dorian,youranoffveryearlylastnight。Youleftbeforeeleven。Whatdidyoudoafterwards?Didyougostraighthome?

  Dorianglancedathimhurriedlyandfrowned。

  No,Harry,hesaidatlast,Ididnotgethometillnearlythree。

  Didyougototheclub?

  Yes,heanswered。Thenhebithislip。No,Idon’tmeanthat。

  Ididn’tgototheclub。Iwalkedabout。IforgetwhatIdid……Howinquisitiveyouare,Harry!Youalwayswanttoknowwhatonehasbeendoing。

  IalwayswanttoforgetwhatIhavebeendoing。Icameinathalf-pasttwo,ifyouwishtoknowtheexacttime。Ihadleftmylatch-keyathome,andmyservanthadtoletmein。Ifyouwantanycorroborativeevidenceonthesubject,youcanaskhim。

  LordHenryshruggedhisshoulders。Mydearfellow,asifIcared!

  Letusgouptothedrawing-room。Nosherry,thankyou,Mr。Chapman。Somethinghashappenedtoyou,Dorian。Tellmewhatitis。Youarenotyourselfto-night。

  Don’tmindme,Harry。Iamirritable,andoutoftemper。Ishallcomeroundandseeyouto-morrow,ornextday。MakemyexcusestoLadyNarborough。Ishan’tgoupstairs。Ishallgohome。Imustgohome。

  Allright,Dorian。IdaresayIshallseeyouto-morrowattea-time。

  Theduchessiscoming。

  Iwilltrytobethere,Harry,hesaid,leavingtheroom。Ashedrovebacktohisownhouse,hewasconsciousthatthesenseofterrorhethoughthehadstrangledhadcomebacktohim。LordHenry’scasualquestioninghadmadehimlosehisnervesforthemoment,andhewantedhisnervestill。

  Thingsthatweredangeroushadtobedestroyed。Hewinced。Hehatedtheideaofeventouchingthem。

  Yetithadtobedone。Herealizedthat,andwhenhehadlockedthedoorofhislibrary,heopenedthesecretpressintowhichhehadthrustBasilHallward’scoatandbag。Ahugefirewasblazing。Hepiledanotherlogonit。Thesmellofthesingeingclothesandburningleatherwashorrible。

  Ittookhimthree-quartersofanhourtoconsumeeverything。Attheendhefeltfaintandsick,andhavinglitsomeAlgerianpastillesinapiercedcopperbrazier,hebathedhishandsandforeheadwithacoolmusk-scentedvinegar。

  Suddenlyhestarted。Hiseyesgrewstrangelybright,andhegnawednervouslyathisunderlip。BetweentwoofthewindowsstoodalargeFlorentinecabinet,madeoutofebonyandinlaidwithivoryandbluelapis。Hewatcheditasthoughitwereathingthatcouldfascinateandmakeafraid,asthoughitheldsomethingthathelongedforandyetalmostloathed。Hisbreathquickened。Amadcravingcameoverhim。Helitacigaretteandthenthrewitaway。Hiseyelidsdroopedtillthelongfringedlashesalmosttouchedhischeek。Buthestillwatchedthecabinet。Atlasthegotupfromthesofaonwhichhehadbeenlying,wentovertoit,andhavingunlockedit,touchedsomehiddenspring。Atriangulardrawerpassedslowlyout。Hisfingersmovedinstinctivelytowardsit,dippedin,andclosedonsomething。

  ItwasasmallChineseboxofblackandgold-dustlacquer,elaboratelywrought,thesidespatternedwithcurvedwaves,andthesilkencordshungwithroundcrystalsandtasselledinplaitedmetalthreads。Heopenedit。

  Insidewasagreenpaste,waxyinlustre,theodourcuriouslyheavyandpersistent。

  Hehesitatedforsomemoments,withastrangelyimmobilesmileuponhisface。Thenshivering,thoughtheatmosphereoftheroomwasterriblyhot,hedrewhimselfupandglancedattheclock。Itwastwentyminutestotwelve。Heputtheboxback,shuttingthecabinetdoorsashedidso,andwentintohisbedroom。

  Asmidnightwasstrikingbronzeblowsupontheduskyair,DorianGray,dressedcommonly,andwithamufflerwrappedroundhisthroat,creptquietlyoutofhishouse。InBondStreethefoundahansomwithagoodhorse。Hehaileditandinalowvoicegavethedriveranaddress。

  Themanshookhishead。Itistoofarforme,hemuttered。

  Hereisasovereignforyou,saidDorian。Youshallhaveanotherifyoudrivefast。

  Allright,sir,answeredtheman,youwillbethereinanhour,

  andafterhisfarehadgotinheturnedhishorseroundanddroverapidlytowardstheriver。

  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter16Chapter16Acoldrainbegantofall,andtheblurredstreet-lampslookedghastlyinthedrippingmist。Thepublic-houseswerejustclosing,anddimmenandwomenwereclusteringinbrokengroupsroundtheirdoors。Fromsomeofthebarscamethesoundofhorriblelaughter。Inothers,drunkardsbrawledandscreamed。

  Lyingbackinthehansom,withhishatpulledoverhisforehead,DorianGraywatchedwithlistlesseyesthesordidshameofthegreatcity,andnowandthenherepeatedtohimselfthewordsthatLordHenryhadsaidtohimonthefirstdaytheyhadmet,Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul。Yes,thatwasthesecret。

  Hehadoftentriedit,andwouldtryitagainnow。Therewereopiumdenswhereonecouldbuyoblivion,densofhorrorwherethememoryofoldsinscouldbedestroyedbythemadnessofsinsthatwerenew。

  Themoonhunglowintheskylikeayellowskull。Fromtimetotimeahugemisshapencloudstretchedalongarmacrossandhidit。Thegas-lampsgrewfewer,andthestreetsmorenarrowandgloomy。Oncethemanlosthiswayandhadtodrivebackhalfamile。Asteamrosefromthehorseasitsplashedupthepuddles。Thesidewindowsofthehansomwerecloggedwithagrey-flannelmist。

  Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul!Howthewordsranginhisears!Hissoul,certainly,wassicktodeath。Wasittruethatthesensescouldcureit?Innocentbloodhadbeenspilled。Whatcouldatoneforthat?Ah!forthattherewasnoatonement。butthoughforgivenesswasimpossible,forgetfulnesswaspossiblestill,andhewasdeterminedtoforget,tostampthethingout,tocrushitasonewouldcrushtheadderthathadstungone。Indeed,whatrighthadBasiltohavespokentohimashehaddone?Whohadmadehimajudgeoverothers?Hehadsaidthingsthatweredreadful,horrible,nottobeendured。

  Onandonploddedthehansom,goingslower,itseemedtohim,ateachstep。Hethrustupthetrapandcalledtothemantodrivefaster。

  Thehideoushungerforopiumbegantognawathim。Histhroatburnedandhisdelicatehandstwitchednervouslytogether。Hestruckatthehorsemadlywithhisstick。Thedriverlaughedandwhippedup。Helaughedinanswer,andthemanwassilent。

  Thewayseemedinterminable,andthestreetsliketheblackwebofsomesprawlingspider。Themonotonybecameunbearable,andasthemistthickened,hefeltafraid。

  Thentheypassedbylonelybrickfields。Thefogwaslighterhere,andhecouldseethestrange,bottle-shapedkilnswiththeirorange,fanliketonguesoffire。Adogbarkedastheywentby,andfarawayinthedarknesssomewanderingsea-gullscreamed。Thehorsestumbledinarut,thenswervedasideandbrokeintoagallop。

  Aftersometimetheylefttheclayroadandrattledagainoverrough-pavenstreets。Mostofthewindowsweredark,butnowandthenfantasticshadowsweresilhouettedagainstsomelamplitblind。Hewatchedthemcuriously。

  Theymovedlikemonstrousmarionettesandmadegestureslikelivethings。

  Hehatedthem。Adullragewasinhisheart。Astheyturnedacorner,awomanyelledsomethingatthemfromanopendoor,andtwomenranafterthehansomforaboutahundredyards。Thedriverbeatatthemwithhiswhip。

  Itissaidthatpassionmakesonethinkinacircle。CertainlywithhideousiterationthebittenlipsofDorianGrayshapedandreshapedthosesubtlewordsthatdealtwithsoulandsense,tillhehadfoundinthemthefullexpression,asitwere,ofhismood,andjustified,byintellectualapproval,passionsthatwithoutsuchjustificationwouldstillhavedominatedhistemper。Fromcelltocellofhisbraincrepttheonethought。andthewilddesiretolive,mostterribleofallman’sappetites,quickenedintoforceeachtremblingnerveandfibre。Uglinessthathadoncebeenhatefultohimbecauseitmadethingsreal,becamedeartohimnowforthatveryreason。Uglinesswastheonereality。Thecoarsebrawl,theloathsomeden,thecrudeviolenceofdisorderedlife,theveryvilenessofthiefandoutcast,weremorevivid,intheirintenseactualityofimpression,thanallthegraciousshapesofart,thedreamyshadowsofsong。Theywerewhatheneededforforgetfulness。Inthreedayshewouldbefree。

  Suddenlythemandrewupwithajerkatthetopofadarklane。

  Overthelowroofsandjaggedchimney-stacksofthehousesrosetheblackmastsofships。Wreathsofwhitemistclunglikeghostlysailstotheyards。

  Somewhereabouthere,sir,ain’tit?heaskedhuskilythroughthetrap。

  Dorianstartedandpeeredround。Thiswilldo,heanswered,andhavinggotouthastilyandgiventhedrivertheextrafarehehadpromisedhim,hewalkedquicklyinthedirectionofthequay。Hereandtherealanterngleamedatthesternofsomehugemerchantman。Thelightshookandsplinteredinthepuddles。Aredglarecamefromanoutward-boundsteamerthatwascoaling。Theslimypavementlookedlikeawetmackintosh。

  Hehurriedontowardstheleft,glancingbacknowandthentoseeifhewasbeingfollowed。Inaboutsevenoreightminuteshereachedasmallshabbyhousethatwaswedgedinbetweentwogauntfactories。Inoneofthetop-windowsstoodalamp。Hestoppedandgaveapeculiarknock。

  Afteralittletimeheheardstepsinthepassageandthechainbeingunhooked。Thedooropenedquietly,andhewentinwithoutsayingawordtothesquatmisshapenfigurethatflatteneditselfintotheshadowashepassed。Attheendofthehallhungatatteredgreencurtainthatswayedandshookinthegustywindwhichhadfollowedhiminfromthestreet。

  Hedraggeditasideandenteredalonglowroomwhichlookedasifithadoncebeenathird-ratedancing-saloon。Shrillflaringgas-jets,dulledanddistortedinthefly-blownmirrorsthatfacedthem,wererangedroundthewalls。Greasyreflectorsofribbedtinbackedthem,makingquiveringdisksoflight。Thefloorwascoveredwithochre-colouredsawdust,trampledhereandthereintomud,andstainedwithdarkringsofspilledliquor。

  SomeMalayswerecrouchingbyalittlecharcoalstove,playingwithbonecountersandshowingtheirwhiteteethastheychattered。Inonecorner,withhisheadburiedinhisarms,asailorsprawledoveratable,andbythetawdrilypaintedbarthatranacrossonecompletesidestoodtwohaggardwomen,mockinganoldmanwhowasbrushingthesleevesofhiscoatwithanexpressionofdisgust。Hethinkshe’sgotredantsonhim,laughedoneofthem,asDorianpassedby。Themanlookedatherinterrorandbegantowhimper。

  Attheendoftheroomtherewasalittlestaircase,leadingtoadarkenedchamber。AsDorianhurriedupitsthreericketysteps,theheavyodourofopiummethim。Heheavedadeepbreath,andhisnostrilsquiveredwithpleasure。Whenheentered,ayoungmanwithsmoothyellowhair,whowasbendingoveralamplightingalongthinpipe,lookedupathimandnoddedinahesitatingmanner。

  Youhere,Adrian?mutteredDorian。

  WhereelseshouldIbe?heanswered,listlessly。Noneofthechapswillspeaktomenow。

  IthoughtyouhadleftEngland。

  Darlingtonisnotgoingtodoanything。Mybrotherpaidthebillatlast。Georgedoesn’tspeaktomeeither……Idon’tcare,headdedwithasigh。Aslongasonehasthisstuff,onedoesn’twantfriends。

  IthinkIhavehadtoomanyfriends。

  Dorianwincedandlookedroundatthegrotesquethingsthatlayinsuchfantasticposturesontheraggedmattresses。Thetwistedlimbs,thegapingmouths,thestaringlustrelesseyes,fascinatedhim。Heknewinwhatstrangeheavenstheyweresuffering,andwhatdullhellswereteachingthemthesecretofsomenewjoy。Theywerebetteroffthanhewas。Hewasprisonedinthought。Memory,likeahorriblemalady,waseatinghissoulaway。FromtimetotimeheseemedtoseetheeyesofBasilHallwardlookingathim。Yethefelthecouldnotstay。ThepresenceofAdrianSingletontroubledhim。Hewantedtobewherenoonewouldknowwhohewas。Hewantedtoescapefromhimself。

  Iamgoingontotheotherplace,hesaidafterapause。

  Onthewharf?

  Yes。

  Thatmad-catissuretobethere。Theywon’thaveherinthisplacenow。

  Dorianshruggedhisshoulders。Iamsickofwomenwholoveone。

  Womenwhohateonearemuchmoreinteresting。Besides,thestuffisbetter。

  Muchthesame。

  Ilikeitbetter。Comeandhavesomethingtodrink。Imusthavesomething。

  Idon’twantanything,murmuredtheyoungman。

  Nevermind。

  AdrianSingletonroseupwearilyandfollowedDoriantothebar。

  Ahalf-caste,inaraggedturbanandashabbyulster,grinnedahideousgreetingashethrustabottleofbrandyandtwotumblersinfrontofthem。

  Thewomensidledupandbegantochatter。DorianturnedhisbackonthemandsaidsomethinginalowvoicetoAdrianSingleton。

  Acrookedsmile,likeaMalaycrease,writhedacrossthefaceofoneofthewomen。Weareveryproudto-night,shesneered。

  ForGod’ssakedon’ttalktome,criedDorian,stampinghisfootontheground。Whatdoyouwant?Money?Hereitis。Don’tevertalktomeagain。

  Tworedsparksflashedforamomentinthewoman’ssoddeneyes,thenflickeredoutandleftthemdullandglazed。Shetossedherheadandrakedthecoinsoffthecounterwithgreedyfingers。Hercompanionwatchedherenviously。

  It’snouse,sighedAdrianSingleton。Idon’tcaretogoback。

  Whatdoesitmatter?Iamquitehappyhere。

  Youwillwritetomeifyouwantanything,won’tyou?saidDorian,afterapause。

  Perhaps。

  Goodnight,then。

  Goodnight,answeredtheyoungman,passingupthestepsandwipinghisparchedmouthwithahandkerchief。

  Dorianwalkedtothedoorwithalookofpaininhisface。Ashedrewthecurtainaside,ahideouslaughbrokefromthepaintedlipsofthewomanwhohadtakenhismoney。Theregoesthedevil’sbargain!

  shehiccoughed,inahoarsevoice。

  Curseyou!heanswered,don’tcallmethat。

  Shesnappedherfingers。PrinceCharmingiswhatyouliketobecalled,ain’tit?sheyelledafterhim。

  Thedrowsysailorleapedtohisfeetasshespoke,andlookedwildlyround。Thesoundoftheshuttingofthehalldoorfellonhisear。

  Herushedoutasifinpursuit。

  DorianGrayhurriedalongthequaythroughthedrizzlingrain。

  HismeetingwithAdrianSingletonhadstrangelymovedhim,andhewonderediftheruinofthatyounglifewasreallytobelaidathisdoor,asBasilHallwardhadsaidtohimwithsuchinfamyofinsult。Hebithislip,andforafewsecondshiseyesgrewsad。Yet,afterall,whatdiditmattertohim?One’sdaysweretoobrieftotaketheburdenofanother’serrorsonone’sshoulders。Eachmanlivedhisownlifeandpaidhisownpriceforlivingit。Theonlypitywasonehadtopaysooftenforasinglefault。

  Onehadtopayoverandoveragain,indeed。Inherdealingswithman,destinyneverclosedheraccounts。

  Therearemoments,psychologiststellus,whenthepassionforsin,orforwhattheworldcallssin,sodominatesanaturethateveryfibreofthebody,aseverycellofthebrain,seemstobeinstinctwithfearfulimpulses。Menandwomenatsuchmomentslosethefreedomoftheirwill。Theymovetotheirterribleendasautomatonsmove。Choiceistakenfromthem,andconscienceiseitherkilled,or,ifitlivesatall,livesbuttogiverebellionitsfascinationanddisobedienceitscharm。Forallsins,astheologianswearynotofremindingus,aresinsofdisobedience。

  Whenthathighspirit,thatmorningstarofevil,fellfromheaven,itwasasarebelthathefell。

  Callous,concentratedonevil,withstainedmind,andsoulhungryforrebellion,DorianGrayhastenedon,quickeninghisstepashewent,butashedartedasideintoadimarchway,thathadservedhimoftenasashortcuttotheill-famedplacewherehewasgoing,hefelthimselfsuddenlyseizedfrombehind,andbeforebehadtimetodefendhimself,hewasthrustbackagainstthewall,withabrutalhandroundhisthroat。

  Hestruggledmadlyforlife,andbyaterribleeffortwrenchedthetighteningfingersaway。Inasecondheheardtheclickofarevolver,andsawthegleamofapolishedbarrel,pointingstraightathishead,andtheduskyformofashort,thick-setmanfacinghim。

  Whatdoyouwant?hegasped。

  Keepquiet,saidtheman。Ifyoustir,Ishootyou。

  Youaremad。WhathaveIdonetoyou?

  YouwreckedthelifeofSibylVane,wastheanswer,andSibylVanewasmysister。Shekilledherself。Iknowit。Herdeathisatyourdoor。IsworeIwouldkillyouinreturn。ForyearsIhavesoughtyou。

  Ihadnoclue,notrace。Thetwopeoplewhocouldhavedescribedyouweredead。Iknewnothingofyoubutthepetnamesheusedtocallyou。Ihearditto-nightbychance。MakeyourpeacewithGod,forto-nightyouaregoingtodie。

  DorianGraygrewsickwithfear。Ineverknewher,hestammered。

  Ineverheardofher。Youaremad。

  Youhadbetterconfessyoursin,forassureasIamJamesVane,youaregoingtodie。Therewasahorriblemoment。Doriandidnotknowwhattosayordo。Downonyourknees!growledtheman。Igiveyouoneminutetomakeyourpeace——nomore。Igoonboardto-nightforIndia,andImustdomyjobfirst。Oneminute。That’sall。

  Dorian’sarmsfelltohisside。Paralysedwithterror,hedidnotknowwhattodo。Suddenlyawildhopeflashedacrosshisbrain。Stop,

  hecried。Howlongagoisitsinceyoursisterdied?Quick,tellme!

  Eighteenyears,saidtheman。Whydoyouaskme?Whatdoyearsmatter?

  Eighteenyears,laughedDorianGray,withatouchoftriumphinhisvoice。Eighteenyears!Setmeunderthelampandlookatmyface!

  JamesVanehesitatedforamoment,notunderstandingwhatwasmeant。ThenheseizedDorianGrayanddraggedhimfromthearchway。

  Dimandwaveringaswasthewind-blownlight,yetitservedtoshowhimthehideouserror,asitseemed,intowhichhehadfallen,forthefaceofthemanhehadsoughttokillhadallthebloomofboyhood,alltheunstainedpurityofyouth。Heseemedlittlemorethanaladoftwentysummers,hardlyolder,ifolderindeedatall,thanhissisterhadbeenwhentheyhadpartedsomanyyearsago。Itwasobviousthatthiswasnotthemanwhohaddestroyedherlife。

  Heloosenedhisholdandreeledback。MyGod!myGod!hecried,andIwouldhavemurderedyou!

  DorianGraydrewalongbreath。Youhavebeenonthebrinkofcommittingaterriblecrime,myman,hesaid,lookingathimsternly。

  Letthisbeawarningtoyounottotakevengeanceintoyourownhands。

  Forgiveme,sir,mutteredJamesVane。Iwasdeceived。AchancewordIheardinthatdamneddensetmeonthewrongtrack。

  Youhadbettergohomeandputthatpistolaway,oryoumaygetintotrouble,saidDorian,turningonhisheelandgoingslowlydownthestreet。

  JamesVanestoodonthepavementinhorror。Hewastremblingfromheadtofoot。Afteralittlewhile,ablackshadowthathadbeencreepingalongthedrippingwallmovedoutintothelightandcameclosetohimwithstealthyfootsteps。Hefeltahandlaidonhisarmandlookedroundwithastart。Itwasoneofthewomenwhohadbeendrinkingatthebar。

  Whydidn’tyoukillhim?shehissedout,puttinghaggardfacequiteclosetohis。IknewyouwerefollowinghimwhenyourushedoutfromDaly’s。Youfool!Youshouldhavekilledhim。Hehaslotsofmoney,andhe’sasbadasbad。

  HeisnotthemanIamlookingfor,heanswered,andIwantnoman’smoney。Iwantaman’slife。ThemanwhoselifeIwantmustbenearlyfortynow。Thisoneislittlemorethanaboy。ThankGod,Ihavenotgothisblooduponmyhands。

  Thewomangaveabitterlaugh。Littlemorethanaboy!shesneered。

  Why,man,it’snighoneighteenyearssincePrinceCharmingmademewhatIam。

  Youlie!criedJamesVane。

  Sheraisedherhanduptoheaven。BeforeGodIamtellingthetruth,shecried。

  BeforeGod?

  Strikemedumbifitain’tso。Heistheworstonethatcomeshere。Theysayhehassoldhimselftothedevilforaprettyface。It’snighoneighteenyearssinceImethim。Hehasn’tchangedmuchsincethen。

  Ihave,though,sheadded,withasicklyleer。

  Youswearthis?

  Iswearit,cameinhoarseechofromherflatmouth。Butdon’tgivemeawaytohim,shewhined。Iamafraidofhim。Letmehavesomemoneyformynight’slodging。

  Hebrokefromherwithanoathandrushedtothecornerofthestreet,butDorianGrayhaddisappeared。Whenhelookedback,thewomanhadvanishedalso。

  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter17Chapter17AweeklaterDorianGraywassittingintheconservatoryatSelbyRoyal,talkingtotheprettyDuchessofMonmouth,whowithherhusband,ajaded-lookingmanofsixty,wasamongsthisguests。Itwastea-time,andthemellowlightofthehuge,lace-coveredlampthatstoodonthetablelitupthedelicatechinaandhammeredsilveroftheserviceatwhichtheduchesswaspresiding。

  Herwhitehandsweremovingdaintilyamongthecups,andherfullredlipsweresmilingatsomethingthatDorianhadwhisperedtoher。LordHenrywaslyingbackinasilk-drapedwickerchair,lookingatthem。Onapeach-coloureddivansatLadyNarborough,pretendingtolistentotheduke’sdescriptionofthelastBrazilianbeetlethathehadaddedtohiscollection。Threeyoungmeninelaboratesmoking-suitswerehandingtea-cakestosomeofthewomen。Thehouse-partyconsistedoftwelvepeople,andthereweremoreexpectedtoarriveonthenextday。

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