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  Womenaresoromantic,andtheirimaginationsaresoeasilytouched!

  Yes,herepliedbitterly。butthetroubleisthatIhavenotlostmyarm。

  Istarted。Hespokebitterly,yetcalmly。Iawaitedhisexplanationingreatsuspense。

  Tohavelostmyarminbattle,orevenbyanaccident,wouldperhapshavelentmeacharminwoman’seyes。But,asIsaid,myarmhangsbymyside——withered,unpresentable。

  Ibreathedagain。Hecontinuedinthesametone,andwithoutnoticingmylooks。

  Butitisnotthiswhichbanishesme。Woman’slovemightbehopedfor,hadIfarworseinfirmities。Thecauseliesdeeper。Itliesinmyhistory。Awallofgranitehasgrownupbetweenmeandthesex。

  But,mydearfellow,doyou——wounded,asIpresumetoguess,bysomeunworthywoman——extendthefaultofonetothewholesex?Doyoudespairoffindinganothertrue,becauseafirstwasfalse?

  Theyareallfalse,heexclaimedwithenergy。Not,perhaps,allfalsefrominherentviciousness,thoughmanyarethat,butfalsebecausetheirinherentweaknessrendersthemincapableoftruth。

  Oh!Iknowthecatalogueoftheirgoodqualities。Theyareoftenpitiful,self-devoting,generous。buttheyaresobyfitsandstarts,justastheyarecruel,remorseless,exacting,byfitsandstarts。Theyhavenoconstancy——theyaretooweaktobeconstanteveninevil。theirmindsareallimpressions。theiractionsarealltheissueofimmediatepromptings。Swayedbythefleetingimpulsesofthehour,theyhaveonlyonepersistent,calculablemotiveonwhichreliancecanalwaysbeplaced——thatmotiveisvanity。youarealwayssureofthemthere。Itisfromvanitytheyaregood——fromvanitytheyareevil。theirdevotionandtheirdesertionequallyvanity。Iknowthem。Tometheyhavedisclosedtheshallowsoftheirnatures。God!howIhavesufferedfromthem!

  Adeep,lowexclamation,halfsob,halfcurse,closedhistirade。

  Heremainedsilentforafewminutes,lookingonthefloor,then,suddenlyturninghiseyesuponme,said:

  WereyoueverinHeidelberg?

  Never。

  Ithoughtallyourcountrymenwentthere?Thenyouwillneverhaveheardanythingofmystory。ShallItellyouhowmyyouthwasblighted?Willyoucaretolisten?

  Itwouldinterestmemuch。

  Ihadreachedtheageofseven-and-twenty,hebegan,withouthavingonceknowneventhevaguestirringsofthepassionoflove。

  Iadmiredmanywomen,andcourtedtheadmirationofthemall。butI

  wasasyetnotonlyheart-whole,but,touseyourShakespeare’sphrase,Cupidhadnottappedmeontheshoulder。

  Thisdetailisnotunimportantinmystory。Youmaypossiblyhaveobservedthatinthosepassionatenatureswhichreservetheirforce,anddonotfritterawaytheirfeelingsinscatteredflirtationsortriviallove-affairs,thereisavelocityandmomentum,whenthemovementofpassionisonceexcited,greatlytranscendingallthatiseverfeltbyexpansiveandexpressivenatures。Slowtobemoved,whentheydomoveitiswiththewholemassoftheheart。Soitwaswithme。Ipurchasedmyimmunityfromearlierentanglementsbythepriceofmywholelife。IamnotwhatIwas。Betweenmypastandpresentselfthereisagulf。thatgulfisdark,stormy,andprofound。Onthefarsidestandsayouthofhope,energy,ambition,anduncloudedhappiness,withgreatcapacitiesforloving。onthissideablightedmanhood,withnoprospectsbutsufferingandstorm。

  Hepaused。Withaneffortheseemedtomasterthesuggestionswhichcrowdeduponhismemory,andcontinuedhisnarrativeinanequabletone。

  IhadbeenforseveralweeksatHeidelberg。OneofmyintimatecompanionswasKestner,thearchitect,andheonedayproposedtointroducemetohissister-in-law,Ottilie,ofwhomhehadrepeatedlyspokentomeintermsofgreataffectionandesteem。

  Wewent,andweweremostcordiallyreceived。OttiliejustifiedKestner’spraises。Pretty,butnotstrikinglyso——clever,butnotobtrusivelyso。hersoftdarkeyeswerefrankandwinning。hermannerwasgentleandretiring,withthatdashofsentimentalismwhichseemsnativetoallGermangirls,butwithoutanyoftheridiculousextravagancetoooftenseeninthem。IlikedherallthemorebecauseIwasperfectlyatmyeasewithher,andthiswasrarelythecaseinmyrelationstoyoungwomen。Idon’tenjoytheirsociety。

  Youleapatoncetotheconclusionthatwefellinlove。Yourconclusionisprecipitate。Seeinghercontinually,Igrewtoadmireandrespecther。butthesignificantsmiles,winks,andhintsoffriends,pointingunmistakablyatasupposedunderstandingexistingbetweenus,onlymadememoreseriouslyexaminethestateofmyfeelings,andassuredmethatIwasnotinlove。ItistruethatIfeltaserenepleasureinhersociety,andthatwhenawayfromhersheoccupiedmuchofmythoughts。ItistruethatIoftenthoughtofherasawife。andinthesemeditationssheappearedasoneeminentlycalculatedtomakeahappyhome。ButitisnolesstruethatduringatemporaryabsenceofhersofafewweeksIfeltnosortofuneasiness,noyearningforherpresence,novacancyinmylife。Iknew,therefore,thatitwasnotlovewhichIfelt。

  Somuchformyfeelings。Whatofhers?Theyseemedverylikemyown。Thatsheadmiredme,andwaspleasedtobewithme,wascertain。ThatshehadaparticleoffieryloveformeIdidnot,couldnotbelieve。Anditwasprobablythisverysenseofhercalmnesswhichkeptmyfeelingsquiet。Forloveisaflamewhichoftencanbekindledonlybycontactwithflame。Certainlythisissoinproud,reservednatures,whicharechilledbyanycontactwithtemperaturenothigherthantheirown。

  Onherreturn,however,fromthatabsenceIhavementioned,Iwasnotalittleflutteredbyanobviouschangeinhermanner。animpressionwhichsubsequentmeetingsonlyservedtoconfirm。

  Althoughstillveryquiet,hermannerhadbecomemoretender,andithadthatdeliciousshynesswhichisthemostexquisiteofflatteries,asitisoneofthemostenchantingofgraces。Isawhertrembleslightlybeneathmyvoice,andblushbeneathmygaze。

  Therewasnomistakingthesesigns。Itwasclearthatshelovedme。anditwasnolessclearthatI,takingfireatthisdiscovery,wasmyselfrapidlyfallinginlove。Iwillnotkeepyoufrommystorybyidlereflections。Takeanothercigar。Heroseandpacedupanddowntheroominsilence。

  VII

  AGALMA

  AtthisjuncturetherearrivedfromParisthewomantowhomthegreatsorrowofmylifeisdue。Afatalistmightreadinherappearanceatthisparticularmomentthesignsofaprearrangeddoom。Afewweekslater,andherarrivalwouldhavebeenharmless。

  Ishouldhavebeenshieldedfromallexternalinfluencebytheabsorbingforceoflove。But,alas!thiswasnottobe。Myfatehadtakenanotherdirection。Thewomanhadarrivedwhoseshadowwastodarkentherestofmyexistence。ThatwomanwasAgalmaLiebenstein。

  Howisitthattheheadwhichwecanonlyseesurroundedwithahalo,orashadow,whenthesplendorsofachievementortheinfamyofshameinstructoureyes,isbytheuninstructedeyeobservedaswhollyvulgar?Weallprofesstobephysiognomists。howisitwearesolamentablymistakeninourjudgments?Herewasawomaninwhommyignoranteyessawnothingatallremarkableexceptgoldenhairofunusualbeauty。WhenIsaygolden,Iamnotspeakingloosely。Idonotmeanredorflaxenhair,buthairactuallyresemblingburnishedgoldmorethananythingelse。Itsripplesonherbrowcaughtthelightlikeacoronet。Thiswasheronebeauty,anditwassuperb。Fortherest,herfeatureswerecharacterless。

  Herfigurewastallandfull。notgraceful,butsweepinglyimposing。AtfirstInoticednothingaboutherexceptthebraidedsplendorofherglorioushair。

  Herose,andwentintohisbedroom,fromwhichhereturnedwithasmalltrinket-boxinhishand。Thishelaidopenonthetable,disclosingalongstrandofexquisitefairhairlyingonacushionofdark-bluevelvet。

  Lookatthat,hesaid。Mightitnothavebeencutfromanangel’shead?

  Itiscertainlywonderful。

  ItmusthavebeenhairlikethiswhichcrownedtheinfamousheadofLucreziaBorgia,hesaid,bitterly。She,too,hadgoldenhair。buthersmusthavebeenofpalertint,likehernature。

  Heresumedhisseat,and,fixinghiseyesuponthelock,continued:

  ShewasoneofOttilie’sfriends——dearfriends,theycalledeachother,——whichmeantthattheykissedeachotherprofusely,andtoldeachotheralltheirsecrets,orasmuchasthelyingnatureofthesexpermittedandsuggested。Itis,ofcourse,impossibleformetodisentanglemypresentknowledgefrommypastimpressionssoastogiveyouacleardescriptionofwhatIthenthoughtofAgalma。

  Enoughthat,asamatteroffact,Idistinctlyremembernottohaveadmiredher,andtohavetoldOttilieso。andwhenOttilie,insurpriseatmyinsensibility,assuredmethatmenwereingeneralwonderfullycharmedwithherthough,forherpart,shehadneverunderstoodwhy,Ianswered,andansweredsincerely,thatitmightbetruewiththelessrefinedorderofmen,butmenoftastewouldcertainlyberatherrepelledfromher。

  Thisopinionofmine,orsomereportofit,reachedAgalma。

  Itmayhavebeentheproximatecauseofmysorrows。Withoutthisstimulustohervanity,shemighthaveleftmeundisturbed。I

  don’tknow。AllIknowis,thatovermanymenAgalmaexercisedgreatinfluence,andthatovermesheexercisedthespelloffascination。Nootherwordwillexplainherinfluence。foritwasnotbasedonexcellencessuchasthemindcouldrecognizetobeattractions。itwasbasedonamysteriouspersonalpower,somethingawfulinitsmysteriousness,asalldemoniacpowersare。OnesourceofherinfluenceovermenIthinkIcanexplain:sheatoncecaptivatedandrepelledthem。Byartfulappealstotheirvanity,shemadetheminterestedinherandinheropinionofthem,andyetkeptherselfinaccessiblebyapridewhichwasthemorefascinatingbecauseitalwaysseemedabouttogiveway。Herinstinctfastenedupontheweakpointinthosesheapproached。Thismadeherseductivetomen,becausesheflatteredtheirweakpoints。andhatefultowomen,becauseshefloutedanddisclosedtheirweakpoints。

  Herinfluenceovermebeganinthefollowingway。Oneday,atapicnic,havingbeenledbyherintoaconversationrespectingtherelativeinferiorityofthefeminineintellect,Iwasforcedtospeakrathermoreearnestlythanusual,whensuddenlysheturnedtomeandexclaimedinalowervoice:

  ’Iamwillingtocreditanythingyousay。onlypraydon’tcontinuetalkingtomesoearnestly。’

  ’Whynot?’Iasked,surprised。

  Shelookedatmewithpeculiarsignificance,butremainedsilent。

  ’MayIaskwhynot?’Iasked。

  ’Because,ifyoudo,somebodymaybejealous。’Therewasalaughingdefianceinhereyeasshespoke。

  ’Andpray,whohasarighttobejealousofme?’

  ’Oh!youknowwellenough。’

  Itwastrue。Ididknow。andsheknewthatIknewit。TomyshamebeitsaidthatIwasweakenoughtoyieldtoanequivocationwhichInowseetohavebeendisloyal,butwhichIthenpretendedtohavebeennomorethandelicacytoOttilie。As,inpointoffact,therehadneverbeenawordpassedbetweenusrespectingourmutualfeelings,Iconsideredmyselfboundinhonortoassumethattherewasnothingtacitlyacknowledged。

  Piquedbyhertoneandlook,Idisavowedtheexistenceofanyclaimsuponmyattention。andtoprovethesincerityofmywords,I

  persistedinaddressingmyattentionstoher。OnceortwiceI

  fanciedIcaughtflyingglances,inwhichsomeofthecompanycriticisedmyconduct,andOttiliealsoseemedtomeunusuallyquiet。Buthermanner,thoughquiet,wasuntroubledandunchanged。

  Italkedlesstoherthanusual,partlybecauseItalkedsomuchtoAgalma,andpartlybecauseIfeltthatAgalma’seyeswereonus。

  Butnoshadowof’temper’orreservedarkenedourinterchangeofspeech。

  Onourwayback,IknownotwhatdevilpromptedmetoaskAgalmawhethershehadreallybeeninearnestinherformerallusionto’somebody。’

  ’Yes,’shesaid,’Iwasinearnestthen。’

  ’Andnow?’

  ’NowIhavedoubts。Imayhavebeenmisinformed。It’snoconcernofmine,anyway。butIhadbeengiventounderstand。However,I

  admitthatmyowneyeshavenotconfirmedwhatmyearsheard。’

  Thisspeechwasirritatingontwoseparategrounds。Itimpliedthatpeopleweretalkingfreelyofmyattachment,which,untilI

  hadformallyacknowledgedit,Iresentedasanimpertinence。anditimpliedthat,frompersonalobservation,AgalmadoubtedOttilie’sfeelingsforme。Thisalarmedmyquick-retreatingpride!I,too,begantodoubt。Onceletlooseonthatfield,imaginationsoonsawshapesenoughtoconfirmanydoubt。Ottilie’smannercertainlyhadseemedlesstender——nay,somewhatindifferent——duringthelastfewdays。Hadthearrivalofthatheavylout,hercousin,anythingtodowiththischange?

  Nottowearyyoubyrecallingalltheunfoldingstagesofthismiserablestorywiththeminutenessofdetailwhichmyownmemorymorbidlylingerson,Iwillhurrytothecatastrophe。IgrewmoreandmoredoubtfuloftheexistenceinOttilie’smindofanyfeelingstrongerthanfriendshipforme。andasthisdoubtstrengthened,therearosetheflatteringsuspicionthatIwasbecominganobjectofgreaterinteresttoAgalma,whohadquitechangedhertonetowardsme,andhadbecomeseriousinherspeechandmanner。Weekspassed。Ottiliehadfallenfromherpedestal,andhadtakenherplaceamongagreeableacquaintances。OnedayIsuddenlylearnedthatOttiliewasengagedtohercousin。

  YouwillnotwonderthatAgalma,whobeforethishadexercisedgreatfascinationoverme,nowdoublybecameanobjectofthemosttenderinterest。Ifellmadlyinlove。HithertoIhadneverknownthatpassion。MyfeelingforOttilieIsawwasbuttheinarticulatestammeringsofthemightyvoicewhichnowsoundedthroughtthedepthsofmynature。Thephrase,madlyinlove,isnoexaggeration。madnessaloneknowssuchafeverofthebrain,suchatumultoftheheart。Itwasnotthatreasonwasoverpowered。onthecontrary,reasonwasintenselyactive,butactivewiththatlogicofflameswhichlightsupthevisionofmaniacs。

  Although,ofcourse,mypassionwasbuttooevidenttoeveryone,Idreadeditsprematureavowal,lestIshouldloseher。andalmostequallydreadeddelay,lestIshouldsufferfromthatalso。AtlengththeavowalwasextortedfrommebyjealousyofabrilliantPole——Korinski——whohadrecentlyappearedinourcircle,andwasobviouslycastingmeintheshadebyhissuperioradvantagesofnovelty,ofpersonalattraction,andofaromantichistory。Sheacceptedme。andnow,foratime,Iwasthehappiestofmortals。

  Thefeverofthelastfewweekswasabating。itgaveplacetoadeeptideofhopefuljoy。CouldIhavediedthen!CouldIhaveevendiedshortlyafterwards,whenIknewthedeliciousmysteryofajealousynottooabsorbing!Foryoumustknowthatmyhappinesswasbrief。Jealousy,towhichallpassionofadeepandexactingpowerisinevitablyallied,soonbegantodisturbmycontent。

  Agalmahadnotenderness。Shepermittedcaresses,neverreturnedthem。Shewasreadyenoughtolistentoallmyplansforthefuture,solongastherecitalmovedamiddetailsoffortuneandherpositioninsociety——thatis,solongashervanitywasinterested。butIbegantoobservewithpainthatherthoughtsneverrestedontenderdomesticitiesandpoeticanticipations。

  Thisvexedmemoreandmore。Theveryspellwhichsheexercisedovermemadeherwantoftendernessmoreintolerable。Iyearnedforherlove——forsomesympathywiththevehementpassionwhichwasburningwithinme。andshewasasmarble。

  YouwillnotbesurprisedtohearthatIreproachedherbitterlyforherindifference。Thatistheinvariableandfatalfollyoflovers——theyseemtoimaginethataheartcanbescoldedintotenderness!Tomyreproachessheatfirstansweredimpatientlythattheywereunjust。thatitwasnotherfaultifhernaturewaslessexpansivethanmine。andthatitwasinsultingtobetoldshewasindifferenttothemanwhomshehadconsentedtomarry。Latersheansweredmyreproacheswithhaughtydefiance,onedayintimatingthatifIreallythoughtwhatIsaid,andrepentedourengagement,itwouldbemostprudentforustoseparateereitwastoolate。Thisquietedmeforawhile。Butitbroughtnobalmtomywounds。

  Andnowfreshtortureswereadded。KorinskibecamequitemarkedinhisattentionstoAgalma。Theseshereceivedwithevidentdelight。somuchso,thatIsawbytheglancesofothersthattheywerescandalizedatit。andthis,ofcourse,increasedmypain。Myrenewedreproachesonlymadehermannercoldertome。toKorinskiitbecamewhatIwouldgladlyhaveseentowardsmyself。

  Thestressandagitationofthosedaysweretoomuchforme。I

  fellill,andforsevenweekslayutterlyprostrate。Onrecovering,thisnotewashandedtome。ItwasfromAgalma。

  Bourgonefhereheldouttomeacrumpledletter,andmotionedthatIshouldopenitandread。Itranthus:

  Ihavethoughtmuchofwhatyouhavesooftensaid,thatitwouldbeforthehappinessofbothifourunfortunateengagementweresetaside。ThatyouhavearealaffectionformeIbelieve,andbeassuredthatIoncehadarealaffectionforyou。not,perhaps,thepassionatelovewhichanaturesoexactingasyoursdemands,andwhichIearnestlyhopeitmayonedayfind,butagenuineaffectionnevertheless,whichwouldhavemademeproudtoshareyourlot。

  Butitwouldbeuncandidinmetopretendthatthisnowexists。

  Yourincessantjealousy,theangryfeelingsexcitedbyyourreproaches,thefretfulirritationinwhichforsometimewehavelivedtogether,hascompletelykilledwhatloveIhad,andInolongerfeelpreparedtoriskthehappinessofbothofusbyamarriage。Whatyousaidtheothernightconvincesmethatitisevenyourdesireourengagementshouldcease。Itiscertainlymine。Letustrytothinkkindlyofeachotherandmeetagainasfriends。

  AGALMALIEBENSTEIN。

  WhenIhadreadthisandreturnedittohim,hesaid:

  YouseethatthiswaswrittenonthedayIwastakenill。WhethersheknewthatIwashelplessIknownot。Atanyrate,sheneversenttoinquireafterme。ShewentofftoParis。Korinskifollowedher。and——asIquicklylearnedongoingoncemoreintosociety——

  theyweremarried!Didyouever,inthewholecourseofyourexperience,hearofsuchheartlessconduct?

  Bourgonefaskedthiswithaferocitywhichquitestartledme。I

  didnotanswerhim。for,intruth,IcouldnotseethatAgalmahadbeenverymuchtoblame,evenashetoldthestory,andfeltsurethatcouldIhaveheardherversionitwouldhavewornaverydifferentaspect。Thatshewascold,anddisappointedhim,mightbetrueenough,buttherewasnocrime。andIperfectlyunderstoodhowthoroughlyodioushemusthavemadehimselftoherbyhisexactionsandreproaches。Iunderstoodthis,perhaps,allthebetter,becauseinthecourseofhisnarrativeBourgonefhadrevealedtomeaspectsofhisnaturewhichweresomewhatrepulsive。

  EspeciallywasIstruckwithhismorbidvanity,andhisreadinesstoimputelowmotivestoothers。Thisunpleasantviewofhischaracter——acharacterinmanyrespectssoadmirableforitsgenerosityandrefinement——wasdeepenedashewenton,insteadofawaitingmyreplytohisquestion。

  Forawrongsomeasureless,youwillnaturallyaskwhatmeasurelessrevengeIsought。

  Theideahadnotoccurredtome。indeedIcouldseenowrong,andthisnotionofrevengewassomewhatstartlinginsuchacase。

  Idebateditlong,hecontinued。IfeltthatsinceIwaspreventedfromarrestinganyoftheeviltomyself,Icouldatleastmaturemyplansforanadequatedischargeofjustretributionsonher。Itrevealstheimpotenceresultingfromthetrammelsofmoderncivilization,thatwhilethepossibilitiesofwrongareinfinite,theopeningsforvengeancearefewandcontemptible。Onlywhenamanisthrownuponthenecessitiesofthis’wildjustice’doeshediscoverhowdifficultvengeancereallyis。HadAgalmabeenmywife,Icouldhavewreakedmywrathuponher,withassurancethatsomeofthetorturesheinflictedonmewastofallonher。NothavingthispowerwhatwasItodo?Killher?Thatwouldhaveaffordedonemomentofexquisitesatisfaction——buttoheritwouldhavebeensimplydeath——andI

  wantedtokilltheheart。

  Heseemedworkingwithaninsanepassion,sothatIregardedhimwithdisgust,mingledwithsomedoubtsastowhathorrorshewasabouttorelate。

  Myplanwaschosen。Theonlywaytoreachherheartwastostrikethroughherhusband。ForseveralhoursdailyIpractisedwiththepistol,until——inspiteofonlyhavingalefthand——Iacquiredfatalskill。Butthiswasnotenough。Firingatamarkissimplework。Firingataman——especiallyoneholdingapistolpointedatyou——isaltogetherdifferent。Ihadtoooftenheardof’crackshots’missingtheirmen,torelyconfidentlyonmyskillintheshootinggallery。Itwasnecessarythatmyeyeandhandshouldbeeducatedtofamiliaritywiththerealobject。Partofthecausewhyduelistsmisstheirmanisfromthetrepidationoffear。Iwaswithoutfear。AtnomomentinmylifehaveIbeenafraid。andthechanceofbeingshotbyKorinskiIcountedasnothing。Theothercauseisunfamiliaritywiththemark。ThisIsecuredmyselfagainstbygettingalayfigureofKorinski’sheight,dressingittoresemblehim,placingapistolinitshand,andthenpractisingatthismarkinthewoods。AfterashorttimeIcouldsendabulletthroughthethoraxwithouttakingmorethanahastyglanceatthefigure。

  Thusprepared,IstartedforParis。Butyouwillfeelformewhenyoulearnthatmyhungryheartwasbaffledofitsvengeance,andbaffledforever。Agalmahadbeencarriedoffbyscarletfever。

  KorinskihadleftParis,andIfeltnostrongpromptingstofollowhim,andwreakonhimafutilevengeance。ItwasonHERmywrathhadbeenconcentrated,andIgnashedmyteethatthethoughtthatshehadescapedme。

  Mystoryisended。Themonthsofgloomydepressionwhichsucceeded,nowthatIwasnolongersustainedbythehopeofvengeance,Ineednotspeakof。Myexistencewasdesolate,andevennowthedesolationcontinuesoverthewholeregionoftheemotions。Icarryadeadheartwithinme。

  VIII

  ASECONDVICTIM

  Bourgonef’sstoryhasbeennarratedwithsomefullness,thoughinlessdetailthanhetoldit,inorderthatthereadermayunderstanditsrealbearingsonMYstory。Withoutit,themotiveswhichimpelledthestrangepertinacityofmypursuitwouldhavebeenunintelligible。Ihavesaidthataverydisagreeableimpressionremainedonmymindrespectingcertainaspectsofhischaracter,andIfeltsomewhatashamedofmyimperfectsagacityinhavinguptothisperiodbeenentirelyblindtothoseaspects。Thetruthis,everyhumanbeingisamystery,andremainssotothelast。Wefancyweknowacharacter。weformadistinctconceptionofit。foryearsthatconceptionremainsunmodified,andsuddenlythestrainofsomeemergency,oftheincidentalstimulusofnewcircumstances,revealsqualitiesnotsimplyunexpected,butflatlycontradictoryofourpreviousconception。Wejudgeofamanbytheanglehesubtendstooureye——onlythusCANwejudgeofhim。andthisangledependsontherelationhisqualitiesandcircumstancesbeartoourinterestsandsympathies。Bourgonefhadcharmedmeintellectually。morallyIhadnevercomeclosertohimthaninthesympathiesofpublicquestionsandabstracttheories。Hisstoryhaddisclosedhiddendepths。

  Myoldsuspicionsreappeared,andaconversationwehadtwodaysafterwardshelpedtostrengthenthem。

  WehadgoneonavisittoSchwanthaler,thesculptor,athistinylittlecastleofSchwaneck,afewmilesfromMunich。Theartistwasoutforawalk,butwewereinvitedtocomeinandawaithisreturn,whichwouldbeshortly。andmeanwhileBourgonefundertooktoshowmeoverthecastle,interestingasabitofmodernGothic,realizingonadiminutivescaleayouthfuldreamofthesculptor’s。

  Whenoursurveywascompleted——anditdidnottakelong——wesatatoneofthewindowsandenjoyedamagnificentprospect。Itiscurious,saidBourgonef,tobeshutuphereinthisimitationofmedievalmasonry,whereeverydetailspeaksofthedeadpast,andtothinkoftheeventsnowgoingoninPariswhichmustfindimitatorsalloverEurope,andwhichopentothemindsuchvistasofthefuture。WhatagrotesqueanachronismisthisGothiccastle,builtinthesameageasthatwhichseesareformingpope!

  Yes。butisnotthereformingpopehimselfananachronism?

  AsaCatholic,herehesmiled,intimatingthathisorthodoxywasnotverystringent,Icannotadmitthat。asaProtestant,youmustadmitthatiftheremustbeapope,hemustinthesedaysbeareformer,or——giveuphistemporalpower。NotthatIlookonPioNonoasmorethanaprecursor。hemaybreakground,andpointtheway,butheisnotthemantoleadEuropeoutofitspresentsloughofdespond,andundertheheadshipoftheChurchfoundanewandlastingrepublic。WewantaHildebrand,onewhowillbetothenineteenthcenturyasGregorywastotheeleventh。

  Doyoubelieveinsuchapossibility?DoyouthinktheRomanpontiffcaneveragainswaythedestiniesofEurope?

  IcanhardlysayIbelieveit。yetIseethepossibilityofsuchanopeningiftherightmanweretoarise。ButIfearhewillnotarise。orifheshould,theConclavewillstiflehim。Yetthereisbutonealternative:eitherEuropemustoncemorejoininacrusadewithapopeatthehead,oritmusthoisttheredflag。Thereisnootherissue。

  Heavenpreserveusfromboth!AndIthinkweshallbepreservedfromthePopebytherottennessoftheChurch。fromthedrapeaurougebytheindignationandhorrorofallhonestmen。YouseehowtheProvisionalGovernmenthasresistedtheinsaneattemptofthefanaticstomaketheredflagacceptedasthenationalbanner?

  Yes。anditistheonethingwhichdashesmypleasureinthenewrevolution。ItistheoneactofweaknesswhichtheGovernmenthasexhibited。aconcessionwhichwillbefatalunlessitbehappilysetasidebytheenergeticpartyofaction。

  Anactofweakness?sayratheranactofstrength。Aconcession?

  sayrathertherepudiationofanarchy,theassertionoflawandjustice。

  Notabit。Itwasconcessiontothefearsofthetimid,andtothevanityoftheFrenchpeople。ThetricolorisaFrenchflag——

  notthebannerofhumanity。ItisbecausethetricolorhasbeenidentifiedwiththevictoriesofFrancethatitappealstothevanityofthevainestofpeople。Theyforgetthatitistheflagofarevolutionwhichfailed,andofanempirewhichwasoneperpetualoutragetohumanity。Whereastheredisnew。itisthesymbolofanenergetic,thorough-goingcreed。Ifitcarriesterrorwithit,somuchthebetter。Thetyrantsandthetimidshouldbemadetotremble。

  Ihadnoideayouweresobloodthirsty,saidI,laughingathisvehemence。

  Iamnotbloodthirstyatall。Iamonlylogicalandconsistent。

  Thereisamassofsophistrycurrentintheworldwhichsickensme。

  PeopletalkofRobespierreandSt。Just,twoofthemostvirtuousmenthateverlived——andofDominicandTorquemada,twoofthemostsingle-minded——asiftheywerecruelandbloodthirsty,whereastheywereonlyconvinced。

  Isitfromloveofparadoxthatyoudefendthesetigers?

  Tigers,again——howthosebeastsarecalumniated!

  Hesaidthiswithaseriousnesswhichwasirresistiblycomic。I

  shoutedwithlaughter。buthecontinuedgravely:

  YouthinkIamjoking。Butletmeaskyouwhyyouconsiderthetigermorebloodthirstythanyourself?Hespringsuponhisfood——

  youbuyyoursfromthebutcher。Hecannotlivewithoutanimalfood:itisaprimalnecessity,andheobeystheordainedinstinct。

  Youcanliveonvegetables。yetyouslaughterbeastsofthefieldandbirdsoftheairorbuythemwhenslaughtered,andconsideryourselfamodelofvirtue。Thetigeronlykillshisfoodorhisenemies。younotonlykillboth,butyoukilloneanimaltomakegravyforanother!ThetigerislessbloodthirstythantheChristian!

  Idon’tknowhowmuchofthattiradeismeanttobeserious。buttowaivethequestionofthetiger’smorality,doyoureally——I

  willnotsaysympathize,——butjustifyRobespierre,Dominic,St。

  Just,andtherestofthefanaticswhohavewadedtotheirendsthroughblood。

  HewhowillstheEND,willstheMEANS。

  Adevil’smaxim。

  Butatruth。Whatthefoolishworldshrinksatasbloodthirstinessandcrueltyisveryoftenmereforceandconstancyofintellect。Itisnotthatfanaticsthirstforblood——farfromit,——buttheythirstforthetriumphoftheircause。Whateverobstacleliesontheirpathmustberemoved。ifatorrentofbloodistheonlythingthatwillsweepitaway——thetorrentmustsweep。

  Andsweepwithitallthesentimentsofpity,mercy,charity,love?

  No。thesesentimentsmaygiveasadnesstothenecessity。theymakethedeedasacrifice,buttheycannotpreventthesoulfromseeingtheaimtowhichittends。

  Thisisdetestabledoctrine!Itisthesophismwhichhasdestroyedfamilies,devastatedcities,andretardedthemoralprogressoftheworldmorethananythingelse。Nosingleactofinjusticeiseverdoneonthisearthbutittendstoperpetuatethereignofiniquity。Bythefeelingsitcallsforthitkeepsupthenativesavageryoftheheart。Itbreedsinjustice,partlybyhardeningthemindsofthosewhoassent,andpartlybyexcitingthepassionofrevengeinthosewhoresist。

  Youarewrong。Thegreatdrag-chainonthecarofprogressisthefalteringinconsistencyofman。Weaknessismorecruelthansternness。Sentimentismoredestructivethanlogic。

  ThearrivalofSchwanthalerwastimely,formyindignationwasrising。Thesculptorreceiveduswithgreatcordiality,andinthepleasureofthesubsequenthourIgotovertosomeextenttheirritationBourgonef’stalkhadexcited。

  ThenextdayIleftMunichfortheTyrol。MypartingwithBourgonefwasmanydegreeslessfriendlythanitwouldhavebeenaweekbefore。Ihadnowishtoseehimagain,andthereforegavehimnoaddressorinvitationincaseheshouldcometoEngland。AsIrolledawayintheMalleposte,mybusythoughtsreviewedallthedetailsofouracquaintance,andthefartherIwascarriedfromhispresence,themoreobtrusivebecamethesuspicionswhichconnectedhimwiththemurderofLieschenLehfeldt。How,oruponwhatmotive,wasindeedanuttermystery。HehadnotmentionedthenameofLehfeldt。HehadnotmentionedhavingbeforebeenatNuremberg。

  AtHeidelbergthetragedyoccurred——orwasHeidelbergonlyamask?

  ItoccurredtomethathehadfirstascertainedthatIhadneverbeenatHeidelbergbeforeheplacedthesceneofhisstorythere。

  Thoughtssuchasthesetormentedme。Imagine,then,thehorrorwithwhichIheard,soonaftermyarrivalatSalzburg,thatamurderhadbeencommittedatGrosshesslohe——oneoftheprettyenvironsofMunichmuchresortedtobyholidayfolk——correspondinginallessentialfeatureswiththemurderatNuremberg!Inbothcasesthevictimwasyoungandpretty。Inbothcasesshewasfoundquietlylyingontheground,stabbedtotheheart,withoutanyothertracesofviolence。Inbothcasesshewasabetrothedbride,andthemotiveoftheunknownassassinamystery。

  Suchacorrespondenceintheessentialfeaturesinevitablysuggestedanappallingmysteryofunityinthesecrimes,——eitherasthecrimesofoneman,committedundersomeimpulseofmotivelessmalignityandthirstforinnocentblood——orastheequallyappallingeffectofIMITATIONactingcontagiouslyuponacriminalimagination。ofwhichcontagiontherehavebeen,unfortunately,toomanyexamples——horriblecrimespromptingcertainweakandfeverishimaginations,bytheveryhorrortheyinspire,firsttodwellon,andfinallytorealizetheirimitations。

  Itwasthislatterhypothesiswhichfoundgeneralacceptance。

  Indeeditwastheonlyonewhichresteduponanygroundofexperience。Thedisastrousinfluenceofimitation,especiallyunderthefascinationofhorror,waswellknown。Theideaofanydiabolicalmalicemovingonemantopassfromcitytocity,andtherequietlysingleouthisvictims——bothofthem,bytheveryhypothesis,unrelatedtohim,bothofthemattheepochoftheirlives,whenThebosom’slordsitslightlyonitsthrone,

  whenthepeaceoftheheartisassured,andthefutureisradiantlybeckoningtothem,——thatanymanshouldchoosesuchvictimsforsuchcrimeswastoopreposterousanidealongtobeentertained。

  Unlessthemanweremad,theideawasinconceivable。andevenamonomaniacmustbetrayhimselfinsuchacourse,becausehewouldnecessarilyconceivehimselftobeaccomplishingsomesupremeactofjustice。

  ItwasthusIargued。andindeedIshouldmuchhavepreferredtobelievethatonemaniacwereinvolved,ratherthanthecontagionofcrime,——sinceonemaniacmustinevitablybesoondetected。whereastherewerenoassignablelimitstothecontagionofimitation。AndthisitwaswhichsoprofoundlyagitatedGermansociety。Ineveryfamilyinwhichtherehappenedtobeabride,vaguetremorscouldnotbeallayed。andtheabsolutepowerlessnesswhichresultedfromtheutteruncertaintyastothequarterinwhichthisdreadedphantommightnextappear,justifiedandintensifiedthosetremors。

  Againstsuchanapparitiontherewasnoconceivablesafeguard。

  Fromacitystrickenwiththeplague,fromadistrictsostricken,flightispossible,andtherearetheresourcesofmedicalaid。

  Butfromamoralplaguelikethis,whatescapewaspossible?

  Sopassionateandprofoundbecametheterror,thatIbegantosharetheopinionwhichIheardexpressed,regrettingthewidespreadpublicityofthemodernpress,since,withmanyundeniablebenefits,itcarriedalsothefatalcurseofdistributingthroughhouseholds,andkeepingconstantlyundertheexcitementofdiscussion,imagesofcrimeandhorrorwhichwouldtendtoperpetuateandextendtheexcessesofindividualpassion。Themeredwellinglongonsuchatopicasthiswasfraughtwithevil。

  ThisandmoreIhearddiscussedasIhurriedbacktoMunich。ToMunich?Yes。thitherIwaspostingwithallspeed。Notashadowofdoubtnowremainedinmymind。Iknewtheassassin,andwasresolvedtotrackandconvicthim。DonotsupposethatTHIStimeI

  wasledawaybythevagrantactivityofmyconstructiveimagination。Ihadsomethinglikepositiveproof。NosoonerhadI

  learnedthatthemurderhadbeencommittedatGrosshesslohe,thanmythoughtsatoncecarriedmetoanowmemorablevisitIhadmadethereincompanywithBourgonefandtwoyoungBavarians。Atthehotelwherewedined,wewerewaitedonbythenieceofthelandlord,agirlofremarkablebeauty,whonaturallyexcitedtheattentionoffouryoungmen,andfurnishedthemwithatopicofconversation。OneoftheBavarianshadtoldusthatshewouldonedaybeperhapsoneofthewealthiestwomeninthecountry,forshewasengagedtobemarriedtoayoungfarmerwhohadrecentlyfoundhimself,byarapidsuccessionofdeaths,soleheirtoagreatbrewer,whosewealthwasknowntobeenormous。

  AtthismomentSophieenteredbringingwine,andIsawBourgonefslowlyturnhiseyesuponherwithalookwhichthenwasmysterioustome,butwhichnowspoketooplainlyitsdreadfulmeaning。

  Whatisthereinalook,youwillsay?Perhapsnothing。oritmaybeeverything。Tomyunsuspecting,unenlightenedperception,Bourgonef’sgazewassimplythemelancholyandhalf-curiousgazewhichsuchamanmightbesupposedtocastuponayoungwomanwhohadbeenmadethetopicofaninterestingdiscourse。Buttomymind,enlightenedastohischaracter,andinstructedastohispeculiarfeelingsarisingfromhisownstory,thegazewaschargedwithhorror。Itmarkedavictim。Thewholesuccessionofeventsrosebeforemeinvividdistinctness。theseparatedetailsofsuspiciongatheredintounity。

  GreataswasBourgonef’scommandoverhisfeatures,hecouldnotconcealuneasinessaswellassurpriseatmyappearanceatthetabled’hoteinMunich。Ishookhandswithhim,puttingonasfriendlyamaskasIcould,andrepliedtohisquestionaboutmysuddenreturnbyattributingittounexpectedintelligencereceivedatSalzburg。

  Nothingserious,Ihope?

  Well,I’mafraiditwillproveveryserious,Isaid。Butweshallsee。MeanwhilemyvisittotheTyrolmustbegivenuporpostponed。

  Doyouremainhere,then?

  Idon’tknowwhatmymovementswillbe。

  ThusIhadpreparedhimforanyreserveorstrangenessinmymanner。andIhadconcealedfromhimthecourseofmymovements。

  foratwhatevercost,Iwasresolvedtofollowhimandbringhimtojustice。

  Buthow?EvidenceIhadnonethatcouldsatisfyanyoneelse,howeverconvincingitmightbetomyownmind。NordidthereseemanyevidenceforthcomingfromGrosshesslohe。Sophie’sbodyhadbeenfoundintheafternoonlyingasifasleepinoneoftheby-

  pathsofthewood。Nomarksofastruggle。notracesofthemurderer。Heraffiancedlover,whowasatAugsburg,onhearingofherfate,hurriedtoGrosshesslohe,butcouldthrownolightonthemurder,couldgivenohintastoapossiblemotiveforthedeed。

  Butthisentireabsenceofevidence,orevengroundofsuspicion,onlymadeMYcasethestronger。ItwasthemotivelessmalignityofthedeedwhichfasteneditonBourgonef。orrather,itwastheabsenceofanyknownmotiveelsewherewhichassuredmethatIhaddetectedthemotiveinhim。

  ShouldIcommunicatemyconvictiontothepolice?ItwaspossiblethatImightimpressthemwithatleastsufficientsuspiciontowarranthisexamination——andinthatcasethetruthmightbeelicited。foramongthemanybarbaritiesandiniquitiesofthecriminalprocedureinContinentalStateswhichoftenpressheavilyontheinnocent,thereisthiscompensatingadvantage,thatthepressureontheguiltyistenfoldheavier。Iftheinnocentareoftenunjustlypunished——imprisonedandmaltreatedbeforetheirinnocencecanbeestablished——theguiltyseldomescape。InEnglandwegivethecriminalnotonlyeverychanceofescape,butmanyadvantages。Theloveoffair-playiscarriedtoexcess。Itseemsattimesasifthewholearrangementsofourprocedurewereestablishedwithaviewtogivingacriminalnotonlythebenefitofeverydoubt,butofeveryloopholethroughwhichhecanslip。

  Insteadofthis,theContinentalproceduregoesontheprincipleofclosingupeveryloophole,andofinventingendlesstrapsintowhichtheaccusedmayfall。Wewarntheaccusednottosayanythingthatmaybeprejudicialtohim。Theyentanglehimincontradictionsandconfessionswhichdisclosehisguilt。

  Knowingthis,Ithoughtitverylikelythat,howeverartfulBourgonefmightbe,asevereexaminationmightextortfromhimsufficientconfirmationofmysuspiciontowarrantfurtherprocedure。ButknowingalsothatTHISresortwasopentomewhenallothershadfailed,Iresolvedtowaitandwatch。

  IX

  FINALE

  Twodayspassed,andnothingoccurred。Mywatchingseemedhopeless,andIresolvedtotrytheeffectofadisguisedinterrogatory。Itmighthelptoconfirmmyalreadysettledconviction,ifitdidnotelicitanynewevidence。

  SeatedinBourgonef’sroom,intheoldplace,eachwithacigar,andchattingasofoldonpublicaffairs,Igraduallyapproachedthesubjectoftherecentmurder。

  Isitnotstrange,Isaid,thatboththesecrimesshouldhavehappenedwhilewewerecasuallystayinginbothplaces?

  Perhapswearethecriminals,hereplied,laughing。Ishiveredslightlyatthisaudacity。Helaughedashespoke,buttherewasahard,metallic,andalmostdefianttoneinhisvoicewhichexasperatedme。

  Perhapsweare,Ianswered,quietly。Helookedfullatme。butI

  wasprepared,andmyfacetoldnothing。Iadded,asinexplanation,Thecrimebeingapparentlycontagious,wemayhavebroughttheinfectionfromNuremberg。

  Doyoubelieveinthathypothesisofimitation?

  Idon’tknowwhattobelieve。Doyoubelieveintherebeingonlyonemurderer?Itseemssuchapreposterousidea。Wemustsupposehim,atanyrate,tobeamaniac。

  Notnecessarily。Indeedthereseemstohavebeentoomuchartfulcontrivanceinbothaffairs,notonlyintheselectionofthevictims,butintheexecutionoftheschemes。Cunningasmaniacsoftenaretheyarestillmaniacs,andbetraythemselves。

  Ifnotamaniac,saidI,hopingtopiquehim,hemustbeamanofstupendousandpitiablevanity,——perhapsoneofyourconstant-

  mindedfriends,whomyourefusetocallbloodthirsty。

  Constant-minded,perhaps。butwhypitiablyvain?

  Why?Becauseonlyadiseasedatrocityofimagination,stimulatinganatureessentiallybaseandweakinitsdesiretomakeitselfconspicuous,wouldorcouldsuggestsuchthings。Thesillyyouthwho’firedtheEphesiandome,’thevainidiotwhosetfiretoYorkMinster,themiserableFrenchmenwhohavecommittedmurderandsuicidewithaviewofmakingtheirexitstrikingfromaworldinwhichtheirappearancehadbeencontemptible,wouldallsinkintoinsignificancebesidethetoweringinfamyofbasenesswhich——forthemereloveofproducinganeffectonthemindsofmen,andthusdrawingtheirattentionuponhim,whichotherwisewouldneverhavemarkedhimatall——couldschemeandexecutecrimessohorribleandinexcusable。Incommoncharitytohumannature,letussupposethewretchismad。becauseotherwisehismiserablevanitywouldbetooloathsome。Ispokewithwarmthandbitterness,whichincreasedasIperceivedhimwincingunderthedegradationofmycontempt。

  IfhismotiveWEREvanity,hesaid,nodoubtitwouldbehorrible。butmayitnothavebeenrevenge?

  Revenge!Iexclaimed。what!oninnocentwomen?

  Youassumetheirinnocence。

  GoodGod!doyouknowanythingtothecontrary?

  NotI。Butasweareconjecturing,Imayaswellconjectureittohavebeenthedesiretoproduceastartlingeffect。

  Howdoyoujustifyyourconjecture?

  Simplyenough。Wehavetosupposeamotive。letussayitwasrevenge,andseewhetherthatwillfurnishaclue。

  Butitcan’t。Thetwovictimswerewhollyunconnectedwitheachotherbyanyintermediateacquaintances,consequentlytherecanhavebeennocommonwrongorcommonenmityinexistencetofurnishfoodforvengeance。

  Thatmaybeso。itmayalsobethattheavengermadethemvicariousvictims。

  Howso?

  Itishumannature。Didyoueverobserveathwartedchildstrikinginitsangertheunoffendingnurse,destroyingitstoystodischargeitswrath?Didyoueverseeaschoolboy,unabletowreakhisangeronthebiggerboywhohasjuststruckhim,turnagainstthenearestsmallerboyandbeathim?Didyoueverknowaschoolmaster,angeredbyoneoftheboy’sparents,venthispent-upspleenupontheunoffendingclass?Didyoueverseeasubalternpunishedbecauseanofficerhadbeenreprimanded?Thesearefamiliarexamplesofvicariousvengeance。Whenthesoulisstungtofury,itmustsolaceitselfbythedischargeofthatfury——itmustrelieveitspainbythesightofpaininothers。Wearesoconstituted。Weneedsympathyaboveallthings。Injoywecannotbeartoseeothersindistress。indistressweseethejoyofotherswithdismalenvywhichsharpensourpain。Thatishumannature。

  And,Iexclaimed,carriedawaybymyindignation,yousupposethatthesightofthesetwohappygirls,beamingwiththequietjoyofbrides,wastorturetosomemiserablewretchwhohadlosthisbride。

  Ihadgonetoofar。Hiseyeslookedintomine。Ireadinhisthathedivinedthewholedriftofmysuspicion——theallusionmadetohimself。Thereoftenpassesintoalookmorethanwordscanventuretoexpress。Inthatlookhereadthathewasdiscovered,andIreadthathehadrecognizedit。Withperfectcalmness,butwithametallicringinhisvoicewhichwasliketheclashofswords,hesaid:

  IdidnotsaythatIsupposedthis。butaswewereonthewidefieldofconjecture——utterlywithoutevidenceonewayortheother,havingnoclueeithertothemanorhismotives——Idrewfromthegeneralprinciplesofhumannatureaconclusionwhichwasjustasplausible——orabsurdifyoulike——astheconclusionthatthemotivemusthavebeenvanity。

  Asyousay,weareutterlywithoutevidence,andconjecturedriftsaimlesslyfromonethingtoanother。Afterall,themostplausibleexplanationisthatofacontagionofimitation。

  Isaidthisinordertocovermypreviousimprudence。Hewasnotdeceived——thoughforafewmomentsIfanciedhewas——butreplied:

  Iamnotpersuadedofthateither。Thewholethingisamystery,andIshallstayheresometimeinthehopeofseeingitclearedup。Meanwhile,forasubjectofconjecture,letmeshowyousomethingonwhichyouringenuitymayprofitablybeemployed。

  Heroseandpassedintohisbedroom。Iheardhimunlockingandrummagingthedrawers,andwassilentlyreproachingmyselfformywantofcautioninhavingspokenasIhaddone,thoughitwasnowbeyondalldoubtthathewasthemurderer,andthathismotivehadbeenrightlyguessed。butwiththisself-reproachtherewasmingledaself-gratulationatthewayIhadgotoutofthedifficulty,asI

  fancied。

  Hereturned,andashesatdownInoticedthatthelowerpartofhissurtoutwasopen。Healwaysworealongfroggedandbraidedcoatreachingtotheknees——asInowknow,forthepurposeofconcealingthearmwhichhungashesaid,witheredathisside。

  Thetwolastfasteningswerenowundone。

  Heheldinhishandatinychainmadeofverydelicatewire。Thishegaveme,saying:

  Nowwhatwouldyouconjecturethattobe?

  Haditcomeintomyhandswithoutanyremark,Ishouldhavesaiditwassimplyaveryexquisitebitofironwork。butyourquestionpointstosomethingmoreoutoftheway。

  ItISiron-work,hesaid。

  CouldIbedeceived?Athirdfasteningofhissurtoutwasundone!

  Ihadseenbuttwoamomentago。

  AndwhatamItoconjecture?Iasked。

  Wherethatironcamefrom?ItwasNOTfromamine。Ilookedatitagain,andexamineditattentively。Onraisingmyeyesininquiry——fortunatelywithanexpressionofsurprise,sincewhatmetmyeyeswouldhavestartledacoolerman——Isawthefourthfasteningundone!

  Youlooksurprised,hecontinued,andwillbemoresurprisedwhenItellyouthattheironinyourhandsoncefloatedinthecirculationofaman。Itismadefromhumanblood。

  Humanblood!Imurmured。

  Hewentonexpoundingthephysiologicalwondersoftheblood,——howitcarried,dissolvedinitscurrents,aproportionofironandearths。howthisironwasextractedbychemistsandexhibitedasacuriosity。andhowthischainhadbeenmanufacturedfromsuchextracts。Iheardeveryword,butmythoughtswerehurryingtoandfrointheagitationofasuprememoment。Thattherewasadaggerunderneaththatcoat——thatinafewmomentsitwouldflashforth——

  thatadeath-strugglewasathand,——Iknewwell。Mysafetydependedonpresenceofmind。Thatincalculablerapiditywithwhich,incriticalmoments,themindsurveysalltheopeningsandresourcesofanemergency,hadassuredmethattherewasnoweaponwithinreach——thatbeforeIcouldgiveanalarmthetigerwouldbeatmythroat,andthatmyonlychancewastokeepmyeyesfixeduponhim,readytospringonhimthemomentthenextfasteningwasundone,andbeforehecouldusehisarm。

  Atlasttheideaoccurredtome,thatas,withawildbeast,safetyliesinattackinghimjustbeforeheattacksyou,sowiththisbeastmybestchancewasaudacity。Lookingsteadilyintohisface,Isaidslowly:

  Andyouwouldliketohavesuchachainmadefrommyblood。I

  roseasIspoke。Heremainedsitting,butwasevidentlytakenaback。

  Whatdoyoumean?hesaid。

  Imean,saidI,sternly,thatyourcoatisunfastened,andthatifanotherfasteningisloosenedinmypresence,Ifellyoutotheearth。

  You’reafool!heexclaimed。

  Imovedtowardsthedoor,keepingmyeyefixeduponhimashesatpaleandglaringatme。

  YOUareafool,Isaid——andworse,ifyoustir。

  Atthismoment,Iknownotbywhatsense,asifIhadeyesatthebackofmyhead,Iwasawareofsomeonemovingbehindme,yetI

  darednotlookaside。Suddenlytwomightyfoldsofdarknessseemedtoenvelopmelikearms。Apowerfulscentascendedmynostrils。

  Therewasaringinginmyears,abeatingatmyheart。Darknesscameon,deeperanddeeper,likehugewaves。Iseemedgrowingtogiganticstature。Thewavesrolledonfasterandfaster。Theringingbecamearoaring。Thebeatingbecameathrobbing。Lightsflashedacrossthedarkness。Formsmovedbeforeme。Oncamethewaveshurryinglikeatide,andIsankdeeperanddeeperintothismightyseaofdarkness。Thenallwassilent。Consciousnesswasstill……

  HowlongIremainedunconscious,Icannottell。Butitmusthavebeensomeconsiderabletime。Whenconsciousnessoncemorebegantodawnwithinme,Ifoundmyselflyingonabedsurroundedbyagroupofeager,watchingfaces,andbecameawareofaconfusedmurmurofwhisperinggoingonaroundme。ErLebtheliveswerethewordswhichgreetedmyopeningeyes——wordswhichIrecognizedascomingfrommylandlord。

  Ihadhadaverynarrowescape。AnothermomentandIshouldnothavelivedtotellthetale。ThedaggerthathadalreadyimmolatedtwoofBourgonef’sobjectsofvengeancewouldhavebeeninmybreast。Asitwas,attheverymomentwhentheterribleIvanhadthrownhisarmsaroundmeandwasstiflingmewithchloroform,oneoftheservantsofthehotel,alarmedorattractedbycuriosityatthesoundofhighwordswithintheroom,hadventuredtoopenthedoortoseewhatwasgoingon。Thealarmhadbeengiven,andBourgonefhadbeenarrestedandhandedovertothepolice。Ivan,however,haddisappeared。norwerethepoliceeverabletofindhim。Thismatteredcomparativelylittle。Ivanwithouthismasterwasnomoreredoubtablethananyothernoxiousanimal。Asanaccomplice,asaninstrumenttoexecutethewillofamanlikeBourgonef,hewasadangertosociety。Thedirectingintelligencewithdrawn,hesanktothelevelofthebrute。Iwasnotuneasy,therefore,athishavingescaped。Sufficientformethattherealcriminal,themindthathadconceivedanddirectedthosefearfulmurders,wasatlastinthehandsofjustice。IfeltthatmytaskhadbeenfullyaccomplishedwhenBourgonef’sheadfellonthescaffold。

  TheClosedCabinetI

  ItwaswithalittlealarmandagooddealofpleasurableexcitementthatIlookedforwardtomyfirstgrown-upvisittoMervynGrange。Ihadbeenthereseveraltimesasachild,butneversinceIwastwelveyearsold,andnowIwasovereighteen。

  WewereallofusveryproudofourcousinstheMervyns:itisnoteverybodythatcanclaimkinshipwithafamilywhoareinfullandadmittedpossessionofasecret,acurse,andamysteriouscabinet,inadditiontotheusualsurplusageofhorrorssuppliedinsuchcasesbypopularimagination。SomedeclaredthataMervynofthedaysofHenryVIIIhadbeencursedbyaninjuredabbotfromthefootofthegallows。OthersaffirmedthatadissipatedMervynoftheGeorgianerawasstillplayingcardsforhissoulinsomeremoteregionoftheGrange。Therewerestoriesofwhiteladiesandblackimps,ofbloodstainedpassagesandmagicstones。We,proudofourmoreintimateacquaintancewiththefamily,naturallygavenocredencetothesewildinventions。TheMervyns,indeed,followedtheacceptedprecedentinsuchcases,andgreatlydislikedanyreferencetothereputedmysterybeingmadeintheirpresence。

  withtheinevitableresultthattherewasnosubjectsopertinaciouslydiscussedbytheirfriendsintheirabsence。Myfather’ssisterhadmarriedthelateBaronet,SirHenryMervyn,andwealwaysfeltthatsheoughttohavebeenthemeansofimpartingtousaverycompleteknowledgeofthefamilysecret。Butinthisconnectionsheundoubtedlyfailedofherduty。Weknewthattherehadbeenaterribletragedyinthefamilysometwoorthreehundredyearsago——thatapeculiarlywickedownerofMervyn,whoflourishedinthelatterpartofthesixteenthcentury,hadbeenmurderedbyhiswifewhosubsequentlycommittedsuicide。Weknewthatthemysteriouscursehadsomeconnectionwiththiscrime,butwhatthecurseexactlywaswehadneverbeenabletodiscover。Thehistoryofthefamilysincethattimehadindeedinonesensebeenfullofmisfortune。Notineverysense。Acoalminehadbeendiscoveredinonepartoftheestate,andapopulouscityhadgrownoverthecornerofanotherpart。andtheMervynsofto-day,inspiteoftheusualpercentageofextravagantheirsandpoliticalmistakes,werethreetimesasrichastheirancestorshadbeen。Butstilltheirstorywasfullofbloodshedandshame,oftalesofduelsandsuicides,brokenheartsandbrokenhonor。Onlythesecalamitiesseemedtohavelittleornorelationtoeachother,andwhattheprecisecursewasthatwassupposedtoconnectoraccountforthemwecouldnotlearn。Whenshefirstmarried,myauntwastoldnothingaboutit。Lateroninlife,whenmyfatheraskedherforthestory,shebeggedhimtotalkuponapleasantersubject。andbeingunluckilyamanofmuchcourtesyandlittlecuriosity,hecompliedwithherrequest。This,however,wastheonlypartoftheghostlytraditionsofherhusband’shomeuponwhichshewassoreticent。Thehauntedchamber,forinstance——which,ofcourse,existedattheGrange——shetreatedwiththegreatestcontempt。

  Variousfriendsandrelationshadsleptinitatdifferenttimes,andnoapproachtoanykindofauthenticatedghost-story,evenofthemosttrivialdescription,hadtheybeenabletosupply。Itsonlyclaimtorespect,indeed,wasthatitcontainedthefamousMervyncabinet,afascinatingpuzzleofwhichIwillspeaklater,butwhichcertainlyhadnothinghauntingorhorribleaboutitsappearance。

  Myuncle’sfamilyconsistedofthreesons。Theeldest,George,thepresentbaronet,wasnowinhisthirties,married,andwithchildrenofhisown。Thesecond,Jack,wastheblack-sheepofthefamily。HehadbeenintheGuards,but,aboutfiveyearsback,hadgotintosomeverydisgracefulscrape,andhadbeenobligedtoleavethecountry。Thesorrowandtheshameofthishadkilledhisunhappymother,andherhusbandhadnotlongafterwardsfollowedhertothegrave。Alan,theyoungestson,probablybecausehewasthenearesttousinage,hadbeenourspecialfavoriteinearlieryears。GeorgewasgrownupbeforeIhadwellleftthenursery,andhishot,quicktemperhadalwayskeptusyoungsterssomewhatinaweofhim。JackwasfouryearsolderthanAlan,and,besides,hisprofessionhad,inaway,cuthisboyhoodshort。Whenmyuncleandauntwereabroad,astheyfrequentlywereformonthstogetheronaccountofherhealth,itwasAlan,chiefly,whohadtospendhisholidayswithus,bothasschool-boyandasundergraduate。Andabrighter,sweeter-temperedcomrade,oronepossessedofmorediversifiedtalentsfortheinventionofgamesorthetellingofstories,itwouldhavebeendifficulttofind。

  ForfiveyearstogethernowourancientcustomofanannualvisittoMervynhadbeenbroken。Firsttherehadbeentheseclusionofmourningformyaunt,andayearlaterformyuncle。thenGeorgeandhiswife,Lucy,——shewasaconnectionofourownonourmother’sside,andveryintimatewithusall,——hadbeenawayfornearlytwoyearsonavoyageroundtheworld。andsincethensicknessinourownfamilyhadkeptusinourturnagooddealabroad。SothatIhadnotseenmycousinssinceallthecalamitieswhichhadbefallenthemintheinterval,andasIsteamednorthwardsIwonderedagooddealastothechangesIshouldfind。

  IwastohavecomeoutthatyearinLondon,butill-healthhadpreventedme。andasasortofconsolationLucyhadkindlyaskedmetospendafortnightatMervyn,andbepresentatashooting-party,whichwastoassemblethereinthefirstweekofOctober。

  Ihadstartedearly,andtherewasstillanhouroftheshortautumndayleftwhenIdescendedatthelittlewaysidestation,fromwhichasix-miledrivebroughtmetotheGrange。AdrearydriveIfoundit——theround,gray,treelessoutlineofthefellsstretchingaroundmeoneverysidebeneaththeleaden,changelesssky。ThenighthadnearlyfallenaswedrovealongthenarrowvalleyinwhichtheGrangestood:itwastoodarktoseetheautumntintsofthewoodswhichclothedandbrighteneditssides,almosttoodarktodistinguishtheoldtower,——DameAlice’stowerasitwascalled,——whichstoodsomehalfamilefartheronatitshead。

  ButthelightshonebrightlyfromtheGrangewindows,andallfeelingofdrearinessdepartedasIdroveuptothedoor。Leavingmaidandboxestotheirfate,Iranupthestepsintotheold,well-rememberedhall,andwasinformedbythedignifiedman-servantthatherladyshipandtheteawereawaitingmeinthemorning-room。

  IfoundthattherewasnobodystayinginthehouseexceptAlan,whowasfinishingthelongvacationthere:hehadbeencalledtotheBaracoupleofyearsbefore。Theguestswerenottoarriveforanotherweek,sothatIhadplentyofopportunityintheintervaltomakeupforlosttimewithmycousins。Ibeganmyobservationsthateveningaswesatdowntodinner,acozypartyoffour。Lucywasquiteunchanged——pretty,foolish,andgentleasever。Georgeshowedthefullfiveyears’increaseofage,andseemedtohaveacquiredasomewhatpainfulcontrolofhistemper。Insteadoftheoldpetulantoutbursts,therewasattimesanairofnervous,irritableself-restraint,whichIfoundthelesspleasantofthetwo。ButitwasinAlanthatthemoststrikingalterationappeared。IfeltitthemomentIshookhandswithhim,andtheimpressiondeepenedthateveningwitheveryhour。Itoldmyselfthatitwasonlythenaturaldifferencebetweenboyandman,betweentwentyandtwenty-five,butIdon’tthinkthatIbelievedit。Superficiallythechangewasnotgreat。Theslight-built,gracefulfigure。thedeepgrayeyes,toosmallforbeauty。theclear-cutfeatures,thedelicate,sensitivelips,closeshavennow,astheyhadbeenhairlessthen,——allwereasIrememberedthem。

  Butthefacewaspalerandthinnerthanithadbeen,andtherewerelinesroundtheeyesandatthecornersofthemouthwhichwerenomorenaturaltotwenty-fivethantheywouldhavebeentotwenty。

  Theoldcharmindeed——thesweetfriendlinessofmanner,whichwashisownpeculiarpossession——wasstillthere。Hetalkedandlaughedalmostasmuchasformerly,butthetalkwasmanufacturedforourentertainment,andthelaughtercamefromhisheadandnotfromhisheart。Anditwaswhenhewastakingnopartintheconversationthatthechangeshowedmost。Thentheface,onwhichintheoldtimeeverypassingemotionhadexpresseditselfinaconstant,livingcurrent,becamecoldandimpassive——withoutinterest,andwithoutdesire。ItwasatsuchtimesthatIknewmostcertainlythatherewassomethingwhichhadbeenlivingandwasdead。Wasitonlyhisboyhood?ThisquestionIwasunabletoanswer。

  Still,inspiteofall,thatweekwasoneofthehappiestinmylife。Thebrotherswerebothmenofenoughabilityandcultivationtobepleasanttalkers,andLucycouldperformadequatelythepartofconversationalaccompanist,which,sociallyspeaking,isallthatisrequiredofawoman。Themealsandeveningspassedquicklyandagreeably。themorningsIspentinunendinggossipswithLucy,oringameswiththechildren,twobrightboysoffiveandsixyearsold。Buttheafternoonswerethebestpartoftheday。

  Georgewasathoroughsquireinallhistastesandhabits,andeveryafternoonhiswifedutifullyaccompaniedhimroundfarmsandcoverts,inspectingnewbuildings,trudgingalonghalf-maderoads,ormarkingunoffendingtreesfordestruction。ThenAlanandI

  wouldridebythehourtogetherovermoorandmeadowland,oftenpickingourwayhomewardsdowntheglen-sidelongaftertheautumneveningshadclosedin。DuringtheseridesIhadglimpsesmanyatimeintodepthsinAlan’snatureofwhichIdoubtwhetherintheolddayshehadhimselfbeenaware。Tomecertainlytheywereasarevelation。Aprevailingsadness,occasionallyapainfultoneofbitterness,characterizedthesemoreseriousmoodsofhis,butIdonotthinkthat,attheendofthatweek,Iwould,ifIcould,havechangedtheman,whomIwaslearningtorevereandtopity,forthelight-heartedplaymatewhomIfeltwaslosttomeforever。

  II

  Theonlyfeatureofthefamilylifewhichjarredonmewastheattitudeofthetwobrotherstowardsthechildren。Ididnotnoticethismuchatfirst,andatalltimesitwasathingtobefeltratherthantobeseen。Georgehimselfneverseemedquiteateasewiththem。Theboyswerestrongandwellgrown,healthyinmindandbody。andonewouldhavethoughtthattheexistenceoftwosuchrepresentativestocarryonhisnameandinherithisfortunewouldhavebeentheverycrownofprideandhappinesstotheirfather。Butitwasnotso。Lucyindeedwasdevotedtothem,andinallpracticalmattersnoonecouldhavebeenkindertothemthanwasGeorge。Theywerefreeofthewholehouse,andeveryindulgencethatmoneycouldbuyforthemtheyhad。Ineverheardhimgivethemaharshword。Buttherewassomethingwrong。A

  constraintintheirpresence,areliefintheirabsence,anevidentdislikeofdiscussingthemandtheiraffairs,atotalwantofthatenjoymentofloveandpossessionwhichinsuchacaseonemighthaveexpectedtofind。Alan’sstateofmindwasevenmoremarked。

  NeverdidIhearhimwillinglyaddresshisnephews,orinanywayalludetotheirexistence。Ishouldhavesaidthathesimplyignoredit,butfortheheavygloomwhichalwaysoverspreadhisspiritsintheircompany,andfortheglanceswhichhewouldnowandagaincastintheirdirection——glancesfullofsomehiddenpainfulemotion,thoughofwhatnatureitwouldhavebeenhardtodefine。Indeed,Alan’sattitudetowardsherchildrenIsoonfoundtobetheonlysourceoffrictionbetweenLucyandthisotherwisemuch-lovedmemberofherhusband’sfamily。Iaskedheronedaywhytheboysneverappearedatluncheon。

  Oh,theycomewhenAlanisaway,sheanswered。buttheyseemtoannoyhimsomuchthatGeorgethinksitisbettertokeepthemoutofsightwhenheishere。Itisverytiresome。IknowthatitisthefashiontosaythatGeorgehasgotthetemperofthefamily。

  butIassureyouthatAlan’snervousmoodsandfanciesaremuchmoredifficulttolivewith。

  Thatwasonthemorning——aFridayitwas——ofthelastdaywhichweweretospendalone。Theguestsweretoarrivesoonaftertea。andIthinkthatwiththeknowledgeoftheirapproachAlanandI

  prolongedourridethatafternoonbeyonditsusuallimits。Wewereonourwayhome,anditwasalreadydusk,whenaturnofthepathbroughtusfacetofacewiththeoldruinedtower,ofwhichIhavealreadyspokenasstandingattheheadofthevalley。IhadnotbeencloseuptoityetduringthisvisitatMervyn。Ithadbeenaveryfavoritehauntofoursaschildren,andpartlyonthataccount,partlyperhapsinordertodeferthedreadedcloseofourridetothelastpossiblemoment,Iproposedaninspectionofit。

  Theonlyportionoftheoldbuildingleftstandinginanykindofentiretywastworooms,oneabovetheother。Thetowerroom,levelwiththebottomofthemoat,wasdarkanddamp,anditwastheupperone,reachedbyalittleoutsidestaircase,whichhadbeenourrendezvousofold。Alanshowednodispositiontoenter,andsaidthathewouldstayoutsideandholdmyhorse,soIdismountedandranupalone。

  Theroomseemedinnowaychanged。Amerestoneshell,litteredwithfragmentsofwoodandmortar。TherewastheroughwoodenblockonwhichAlanusedtositwhilehefirstfrighteneduswithbogey-stories,andthencalmedourexcitednervesbyrapidsalliesofwildnonsense。Therewastheplankfrombehindwhich,erectedasabarrieracrossthedoorway,hewoulddefendthecastleagainstourunitedassault,peltinguswithfir-conesandsodsofearth。

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