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  Leightonopenedthedoor。Theysawalittleroom,bluewithtobacco—smoke。Flankingthefireweredeepsettleshidingallbutthelegsofthemenwholoungedinthem。Betweenthesettlesstoodatable,coveredwithmugsandglasses。Thescenewaspicturesque——fairerthanthecutglasspalacesofthetown。

  \"Ohyes,he’sthere,\"hecalled,andafteramoment’shesitationcameout。

  \"Wouldhecome?\"

  \"No。Ishouldn’tsayso,\"repliedLeighton,withafurtiveglance。HeknewthatRickiewasamilksop。\"Firstnight,youknow,sir,amongoldfriends。\"

  \"Yes,Iknow,\"saidRickie。\"Buthemightlikeaturndownthevillage。Itlooksstuffyinsidethere,andpoorfunprobablytowatchothersdrinking。\"

  Leightonshutthedoor。

  \"Whatwasthathecalledafteryou?\"

  \"Oh,nothing。Amanwhenhe’sdrunk——hesaystheworsthe’severheard。Atleast,sotheysay。\"

  \"Amanwhenhe’sdrunk?\"

  \"Yes,Sir。\"

  \"ButStephenisn’tdrinking?\"

  \"No,no。\"

  \"Hecouldn’tbe。Ifhebrokeapromise——Idon’tpretendhe’sasaint。Idon’twanthimone。Butitisn’tinhimtobreakapromise。\"

  \"Yes,sir;Iunderstand。\"

  \"Inthetrainhepromisedmenottodrink——nothingtheatrical:

  justapromiseforthesefewdays。\"

  \"No,sir。\"

  \"’No,sir,’\"stampedRickie。\"’Yes!no!yes!’Can’tyouspeakout?Ishedrunkorisn’the?\"

  Leighton,justlyexasperated,cried,\"Hecan’tstand,andI’vetoldyousoagainandagain。\"

  \"Stephen!\"shoutedRickie,dartingupthesteps。Heatandthesmellofbeerawaitedhim,andhespokemorefuriouslythanhehadintended。\"Isthereanyoneherewho’ssober?\"hecried。Thelandlordlookedoverthebarangrily,andaskedhimwhathemeant。Hepointedtothedeepsettles。\"Insidetherehe’sdrunk。

  Tellhimhe’sbrokenhisword,andIwillnotgowithhimtotheRings。\"

  \"Verywell。Youwon’tgowithhimtotheRings,\"saidthelandlord,steppingforwardandslammingthedoorinhisface。

  Intheroomhewasonlyangry,butoutinthecoolairherememberedthatStephenwasalawtohimself。Hehadchosentobreakhisword,andwouldbreakitagain。Nothingelseboundhim。

  Toyieldtotemptationisnotfatalformostofus。Butitwastheendofeverythingforahero。

  \"He’ssuddenlyruined!\"hecried,notyetrememberinghimself。

  Foralittlehestoodbytheelm—tree,clutchingtheridgesofitsbark。Evensowouldhewrestletomorrow,andStephen,imperturbable,reply,\"Mybodyismyown。\"Orworsestill,hemightwrestlewithapliantStephenwhopromisedhimgliblyagain。Whileheprayedforamiracletoconverthisbrother,itstruckhimthathemustprayforhimself。Forhe,too,wasruined。

  \"Why,what’sthematter?\"askedLeighton。\"Stephen’sonlybeingwithfriends。Mr。Elliot,sir,don’tbreakdown。Nothing’shappenedbad。Noone’sdiedyet,orevenhurtthemselves。\"Everkind,hetookholdofRickie’sarm,and,pityingsuchanervousfellow,setoutwithhimforhome。TheshouldersofOrionrosebehindthemoverthetopmostboughsoftheelm。Fromthebridgethewholeconstellationwasvisible,andRickiesaid,\"MayGodreceivemeandpardonmefortrustingtheearth。\"

  \"But,Mr。Elliot,whathaveyoudonethat’swrong?\"

  \"Gonebankrupt,Leighton,forthesecondtime。Pretendedagainthatpeoplewerereal。MayGodhavemercyonme!\"

  Leightondroppedhisarm。Thoughhedidnotunderstand,achillofdisgustpassedoverhim,andhesaid,\"IwillgobacktoTheAntelope。IwillhelpthemputStephentobed。\"

  \"Do。Iwillwaitforyouhere。\"Thenheleantagainsttheparapetandprayedpassionately,forheknewthattheconventionswouldclaimhimsoon。Godwasbeyondthem,butah,howfarbeyond,andtobereachedafterwhatdegradation!Attheendofthischildishdetourhiswifeawaitedhim,notlesssurelybecauseshewasonlyhiswifeinname。Hewastooweak。Booksandfriendswerenotenough。Littlebylittleshewouldclaimhimandcorrupthimandmakehimwhathehadbeen;andthewomanhelovedwoulddieout,indrunkenness,indebauchery,andherstrengthwouldbedissipatedbyaman,herbeautydefiledinaman。Shewouldnotcontinue。Thatmysticroseandthefaceitilluminedmeantnothing。Thestream——hewasaboveitnow——meantnothing,thoughitburstfromthepureturfandranforevertothesea。Thebather,theshouldersofOrion—theyallmeantnothing,andweregoingnowhere。Thewholeaffairwasaridiculousdream。

  Leightonreturned,saying,\"Haven’tyouseenStephen?Theysayhefollowedus:hecanstillwalk:Itoldyouhewasn’tsobad。\"

  \"Idon’tthinkhepassedme。Oughtonetolook?\"HewanderedalittlealongtheRomanroad。Againnothingmattered。Atthelevel—crossingheleantonthegatetowatchaslowgoodstrainpass。Intheglareoftheenginehesawthathisbrotherhadcomethisway,perhapsthroughsomesoddenmemoryoftheRings,andnowlaydrunkovertherails。Wearilyhedidaman’sduty。Therewastimetoraisehimupandpushhimintosafety。Itisalsoaman’sdutytosavehisownlife,andthereforehetried。Thetrainwentoverhisknees。HediedupinCadover,whispering,\"Youhavebeenright,\"toMrs。Failing。

  ShewroteofhimtoMrs。Lewinafterwardsas\"onewhohasfailedinallheundertook;oneofthethousandswhosedustreturnstothedust,accomplishingnothingintheinterval。AgnesandI

  buriedhimtothesoundofourcrackedbell,andpretendedthathehadoncebeenalive。Theother,whowasalwayshonest,keptaway。\"

  XXXV

  >Fromthewindowtheylookedoverasobervalley,whosesideswerenottooslopingtobeploughed,andwhosetrendwasfollowedbyagrass—growntrack。ItwaslateonSundayafternoon,andthevalleywasdesertedexceptforonelabourer,whowascoastingslowlydownwardonarosybicycle。Theairwasveryquiet。Ajayscreamedupinthewoodsbehind,butthering—doves,whoroostearly,werealreadysilent。Sincethewindowopenedwestward,theroomwasfloodedwithlight,andStephen,findingithot,wasworkinginhisshirtsleeves。

  \"Youguaranteethey’llsell?\"heasked,withapenbetweenhisteeth。Hewastidyingupapileofmanuscripts。

  \"Iguaranteethattheworldwillbethegainer,\"saidMr。

  Pembroke,nowaclergyman,whosatbesidehimatthetablewithanexpressionofrefineddisapprovalonhisface。

  \"I’dgottheideathatthelongstoryhaditspoints,butthattheseshorterthingsdidn’t——what’stheword?\"

  \"’Convince’isprobablythewordyouwant。Butthattypeofcriticismisquiteathingofthepast。HaveyouseentheillustratedAmericanedition?\"

  \"Idon’tremember。\"

  \"MightIsendyouacopy?Ithinkyououghttopossessone。\"

  \"Thankyou。\"Hiseyewandered。Thebicyclehaddisappearedintosometrees,andthither,throughacloudlesssky,thesunwasalsodescending。

  \"Isallquiteplain?\"saidMr。Pembroke。\"Submitthesetenstoriestothemagazines,andmakeyourowntermswiththeeditors。Then——Ihaveyourwordforit——youwilljoinforceswithme;andthefourstoriesinmypossession,togetherwithyours,shouldmakeupavolume,whichwemightwellcall’PanPipes。’\"

  \"Areyousure`PanPipes’haven’tbeenusedupalready?\"

  Mr。Pembrokeclenchedhisteeth。Hehadbeenbearingwiththissortofthingfornearlyanhour。\"Ifthatisthecase,wecanselectanother。Atitleiseasytocomeby。Butthatistheideaitmustsuggest。Thestories,asIhavetwiceexplainedtoyou,allcentreroundaNaturetheme。Pan,beingthegodof——\"

  \"Iknowthat,\"saidStephenimpatiently。

  \"——Beingthegodof——\"

  \"Allright。Let’sgetfurrard。I’velearntthat。\"

  Itwasyearssincetheschoolmasterhadbeeninterrupted,andhecouldnotstandit。\"Verywell,\"hesaid。\"Ibowtoyoursuperiorknowledgeoftheclassics。Letusproceed。\"

  \"Ohyestheintroduction。Theremustbeone。Itwastheintroductionwithallthosewrongdetailsthatsoldtheotherbook。\"

  \"Youoverwhelmme。Ineverpennedthememoirwiththatintention。\"

  \"Ifyouwon’tdoone,Mrs。Keynesmust!\"

  \"Mysisterleadsabusylife。Icouldnotaskher。Iwilldoitmyselfsinceyouinsist。\"

  \"Andthebinding?\"

  \"Thebinding,\"saidMr。Pembrokecoldly,\"mustreallybelefttothediscretionofthepublisher。Wecannotbeconcernedwithsuchdetails。Ourtaskispurelyliterary。\"Hisattentionwandered。Hebegantofidget,andfinallybentdownandlookedunderthetable。\"Whathavewehere?\"heasked。

  Stephenlookedalso,andforamomenttheysmiledateachotherovertheprostratefigureofachild,whowascuddlingMr。

  Pembroke’sboots。\"She’saftertheblacking,\"heexplained。\"Ifweleftherthere,she’dlickthembrown。\"

  \"Indeed。Isthatsoverysafe?\"

  \"Itneverdidmeanyharm。Comeup!Yourtongue’sdirty。\"

  \"CanI——\"Shewasunderstoodtoaskwhethershecouldcleanhertongueonalollie。

  \"No,no!\"saidMr。Pembroke。\"Lollipopsdon’tcleanlittlegirls’

  tongues。\"

  \"Yes,theydo,\"heretorted。\"Butshewon’tgetone。\"Heliftedheronhisknee,andraspedhertonguewithhishandkerchief。

  \"Dearlittlething,\"saidthevisitorperfunctorily。Thechildbegantosquall,andkickedherfatherinthestomach。

  Stephenregardedherquietly。\"Youtriedtohurtme,\"hesaid。

  \"Hurtingdoesn’tcount。Tryingtohurtcounts。Goandcleanyourtongueyourself。Getoffmyknee。\"Tearsofanothersortcameintohereyes,butsheobeyedhim。\"How’sthegreatBertie?\"heasked。

  \"Thankyou。Mynephewisperfectlywell。Howcameyoutohearofhisexistence?\"

  \"ThroughtheSilts,ofcourse。Itisn’tfivemilestoCadover。\"

  Mr。Pembrokeraisedhiseyesmournfully。\"IcannotconceivehowthepoorSiltsgooninthatgreathouse。Whateversheintended,itcouldnothavebeenthat。Thehouse,thefarm,themoney,——

  everythingdowntothepersonalarticlesthatbelongtoMr。

  Failing,andshouldhaverevertedtohisfamily!\"

  \"It’slegal。Interstatesuccession。\"

  \"Idonotdisputeit。Butitisalessontoonetomakeawill。

  Mrs。Keynesandmyselfwereelectrified。\"

  \"They’lldothere。Theyofferedmetheagency,but——\"Helookeddownthecultivatedslopes。Hismannersweregrowingrough,forhesawfewgentlemennow,andhewaseitherincoherentorelsealarminglydirect。\"However,ifLawrieSilt’saCockneylikehisfather,andifmynextisaboyandlikeme——\"Ashybeautifullookcameintohiseyes,andpassedunnoticed。\"They’lldo,\"herepeated。\"TheyturnedoutWilbrahamandbuiltnewcottages,andbridgedtherailway,andmadeothernecessaryalterations。\"Therewasamoment’ssilence。

  Mr。Pembroketookouthiswatch。\"IwonderifImighthavethetrap?Imustn’tmissmytrain,mustI?Itisgoodofyoutohavegrantedmeaninterview。Itisallquiteplain?\"

  \"Yes。\"

  \"Acaseofhalfandhalf—divisionofprofits。\"

  \"Halfandhalf?\"saidtheyoungfarmerslowly。\"Whatdoyoutakemefor?Halfandhalf,whenIprovidetenofthestoriesandyouonlyfour?\"

  \"I——I——\"stammeredMr。Pembroke。

  \"Iconsideryoudidmeoverthelongstory,andI’mdamnedifyoudomeovertheshortones!\"

  \"Hush!ifyouplease,hush!——ifonlyforyourlittlegirl’ssake。\"

  Heliftedaclericalpalm。

  \"Youdidme,\"hisvoicedrove,\"andallthethirty—nineArticleswon’tstopmesayingso。Thatlongstorywasmeanttobemine。I

  gotitwritten。You’vedonemeoutofeverypennyitfetched。

  It’sdedicatedtome——flatout——andyouevencrossedoutthededicationandtidiedmeoutoftheintroduction。Listentome,Pembroke。You’vedonepeopleallyourlife——Ithinkwithoutknowingit,butthatwon’tcomfortus。Awretcheddevilatyourschooloncewrotetome,andhe’dbeendone。Shamfood,shamreligion,shamstraighttalks——andwhenhebrokedown,yousaiditwastheworldinminiature。\"Hesnatchedathimroughly。\"ButI’llshowyoutheworld。\"Hetwistedhimroundlikeababy,andthroughtheopendoortheysawonlythequietvalley,butinitarivuletthatwouldintimebringitswaterstothesea。\"Lookevenatthat——andupbehindwherethePlainbeginsandyougetonthesolidchalk——thinkofusridingsomenightwhenyou’reorderingyourhotbottle——that’stheworld,andthere’snominiatureworld。There’soneworld,Pembroke,andyoucan’ttidymenoutofit。Theyansweryoubackdoyouhear?——theyanswerbackifyoudothem。Ifyoutellamanthiswaythatfoursheepequalten,heanswersbackyou’realiar。\"

  Mr。Pembrokewasspeechless,and——suchishumannature——hechieflyresentedtheallusiontothehotbottle;anunmanlyluxuryinwhichheneverindulged;contentinghimselfwithnightsocks。\"Enough——

  thereisnowitnesspresent——asyouhavedoubtlessobserved。\"Buttherewas。Foralittlevoicecried,\"Oh,mummy,they’refighting——

  suchfun——\"andfeetwentpatteringupthestairs。\"Enough。Youtalkof’doing,’butwhataboutthemoneyoutofwhichyou’did’mysister?Whataboutthispicture\"——hepointedtoafadedphotographofStockholm——\"whichyoucausedtobefilchedfromthewallsofmyhouse?Whatabout——enough!Letusconcludethisdishearteningscene。Youobjecttomyterms。Nameyours。Ishallacceptthem。

  Itisfutiletoreasonwithonewhoistheworsefordrink。\"

  Stephenwasquietatonce。\"Steadyon!\"hesaidgently。\"Steadyoninthatdirection。Takeone—thirdforyourfourstoriesandtheintroduction,andIwillkeeptwo—thirdsformyself。\"Thenhewenttoharnessthehorse,whileMr。Pembroke,watchinghisbroadback,desiredtoburyaknifeinit。Thedesirepassed,partlybecauseitwasunclerical,partlybecausehehadnoknife,andpartlybecausehesoonblurredoverwhathadhappened。Tohimallcriticismwas\"rudeness\":heneverheededit,forheneverneededit:hewasneverwrong。Allhislifehehadorderedlittlehumanbeingsabout,andnowhewasequallymagisterialtobigones:Stephenwasafifth—formloutwhom,owingtosomeflawintheregulations,hecouldnotsenduptotheheadmastertobecaned。

  Thisattitudemakesfortranquillity。Beforelonghefeltmerelyaninjuredmartyr。Hisbraincleared。Hestooddeepinthoughtbeforetheonlyotherpicturethatthebareroomboasted——theDemeterofCnidus。Outsidethesunwassinking,anditslastraysfellupontheimmortalfeaturesandtheshatteredknees。Sweet—

  peasofferedtheirfragrance,andwithitthereenteredthosemoremysteriousscentsthatcomefromnooneflowerorclodofearth,butfromthewholebosomofevening。

  Hetriednottobecynical。Butinhishearthecouldnotregretthattragedy,alreadyhalf—forgotten,conventionalized,indistinct。Ofcoursedeathisaterriblething。Yetdeathismercifulwhenitweedsoutafailure。Ifwelookdeepenough,itisallforthebest。Hestaredatthepictureandnodded。

  Stephen,whohadmethisvisitoratthestation,hadintendedtodrivehimbackthere。Butaftertheirspurtoftemperhesenthimwiththeboy。Heremainedinthedoorway,gladthathewasgoingtomakemoney,gladthathehadbeenangry;whiletheglowoftheclearskydeepened,andthesilencewasperfected,andthescentsofthenightgrewstronger。Oldvagranciesawoke,andheresolvedthat,dearlyashelovedhishouse,hewouldnotenteritagaintilldawn。\"Goodnight!\"hecalled,andthenthechildcamerunning,andhewhispered,\"Quick,then!Bringmearug。\"

  \"Good—night,\"herepeated,andapleasantvoicecalledthroughanupperwindow,\"Whygood—night?\"Hedidnotansweruntilthechildwaswrappedupinhisarms。

  \"Itistimethatshelearnttosleepout,\"hecried。\"Ifyouwantme,we’reoutonthehillside,whereIusedtobe。\"

  Thevoiceprotested,sayingthisandthat。

  \"Stewart’sinthehouse,\"saidtheman,\"anditcannotmatter,andIamgoinganyway。\"

  \"Stephen,Iwishyouwouldn’t。Iwishyouwouldn’ttakeher。

  Promiseyouwon’tsayfoolishthingstoher。Don’t——Iwishyou’dcomeupforaminute——\"

  Thechild,whosefacewaslaidagainsthis,feltthemusclesinitharden。

  \"Don’ttellherfoolishthingsaboutyourself——thingsthataren’tanylongertrue。Don’tworryherwitholddeaddreadfulness。Topleaseme——don’t。\"

  \"JusttonightIwon’t,then。\"

  \"Stevie,dear,pleasememore——don’ttakeherwithyou。\"

  Atthishelaughedimpertinently。\"IsupposeI’mbeingkeptinline,\"shecalled,and,thoughhecouldnotseeher,shestretchedherarmstowardshim。Foratimehestoodmotionless,underherwindow,musingonhishappytangiblelife。Thenhisbreathquickened,andhewonderedwhyhewashere,andwhyheshouldholdawarmchildinhisarms。\"It’stimewewerestarting,\"hewhispered,andshowedthesky,whoseorangewasalreadyfadingintogreen。\"Wisheverythinggoodnight。\"

  \"Good—night,dearmummy,\"shesaidsleepily。\"Goodnight,dearhouse。Good—night,youpictures——longpicture——stonelady。Iseeyouthroughthewindow——yourfacesarepink。\"

  Thetwilightdescended。Herestedhislipsonherhair,andcarriedher,withoutspeaking,untilhereachedtheopendown。Hehadoftensleptherehimself,alone,andonhiswedding—night,andheknewthattheturfwasdry,andthatifyoulaidyourfacetoityouwouldsmellthethyme。Foramomenttheeartharousedher,andshebegantochatter。\"Myprayers——\"shesaidanxiously。

  Hegaveheronehand,andshewasasleepbeforeherfingershadnestledinitspalm。Theirtouchmadehimpensive,andagainhemarvelledwhyhe,theaccident,washere。Hewasaliveandhadcreatedlife。Bywhoseauthority?Thoughhecouldnotphraseit,hebelievedthatheguidedthefutureofourrace,andthat,centuryaftercentury,histhoughtsandhispassionswouldtriumphinEngland。Thedeadwhohadevokedhim,theunbornwhomhewouldevokehegovernedthepathsbetweenthem。Bywhoseauthority?

  OutinthewestlayCadoverandthefieldsofhisearlieryouth,andoverthemdescendedthecrescentmoon。Hiseyesfollowedherdecline,andagainstherfinalradiancehesaw,orthoughthesaw,theoutlineoftheRings。Hehadalwaysbeengrateful,aspeoplewhounderstoodhimknew。Butthiseveninghisgratitudeseemedagiftofsmallaccount。Theearwasdeaf,andwhatthanksofhiscouldreachit?Thebodywasdust,andinwhatecstasyofhiscoulditshare?Thespirithadfled,inagonyandloneliness,nevertoknowthatitbequeathedhimsalvation。

  Hefilledhispipe,andthensatpressingtheunlittobaccowithhisthumb。\"WhatamItodo?\"hethought。\"Canhenoticethethingshegaveme?Aparsonwouldknow。Butwhat’samanlikemetodo,whoworksallhislifeoutofdoors?\"Ashewondered,thesilenceofthenightwasbroken。ThewhistleofMr。Pembroke’straincamefaintly,andaluridspotpassedovertheland——

  passed,andthesilencereturned。Onethingremainedthatamanofhissortmightdo。Hebentdownreverentlyandsalutedthechild;towhomhehadgiventhenameoftheirmother。

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