Shelthorpe，9SawstonParkRoad，SawstonDearAnsell，ButI’minlove——adetailyou’veforgotten。Ican’tlistentoEnglishEssays。ThewretchedAgnesmaybean\"emissaryofNature，\"butIonlygrinnedwhenIreadit。Imaybeextraordinarilycivilized，butIdon’tfeelso;I’minlove，andI’vefoundawomantoloveme，andImeantohavethehundredotherthingsaswell。Shewantsmetohavethem——friendsandwork，andspiritualfreedom，andeverything。Youandyourbooksmissthis，becauseyourbooksaretoosedate。Readpoetry——notonlyShelley。UnderstandBeatrice，andClaraMiddleton，andBrunhildeinthefirstsceneofGotterdammerung。UnderstandGoethewhenhesays\"theeternalfeminineleadsuson，\"anddon’twriteanotherEnglishEssay。——Yourseveraffectionately，R。E
CambridgeDearRickie:
WhatamItosay？\"UnderstandXanthippe，andMrs。Bennet，andElsainthequestionsceneofLohengrin\"？\"UnderstandEuripideswhenhesaystheeternalfeminineleadsusaprettydance\"？I
shallsaynothingofthesort。TheallusionsinthisEnglishEssayshallnotbeliterary。MypersonalobjectionstoMissPembrokeareasfollows:——
（1）Sheisnotserious。
（2）Sheisnottruthful。
Shelthorpe，9SawstonParkRoadSawstonMyDearStewart，Youcouldn’tknow。Ididn’tknowforamoment。Butthisletterofyoursisthemostwonderfulthingthathaseverhappenedtomeyet——morewonderful（Idon’texaggerate）thanthemomentwhenAgnespromisedtomarryme。Ialwaysknewyoulikedme，butI
neverknewhowmuchuntilthisletter。UptonowIthinkwehavebeentoomuchlikethestrongheroesinbookswhofeelsomuchandsaysolittle，andfeelallthemoreforsayingsolittle。
Nowthat’soverandweshallneverbethatkindofanassagain。
We’vehit——byaccident——uponsomethingpermanent。You’vewrittentome，\"Ihatethewomanwhowillbeyourwife，\"andIwriteback，\"Hateher。Can’tIloveyouboth？\"Shewillnevercomebetweenus，Stewart（Shewouldn’twishto，butthat’sbytheway），becauseourfriendshiphasnowpassedbeyondintervention。
Nothirdpersoncouldbreakit。Wecouldn’tourselves，Ifancy。
Wemayquarrelandarguetilloneofusdies，butthethingisregistered。Ionlywish，dearman，youcouldbehappier。Forme，it’sasifalightwassuddenlyheldbehindtheworld。
R。E。
Shelthorpe，9SawstonParkRoad，SawstonDearMrs。Lewin，——
Thetimegoesflying，butIamgettingtolearnmywonderfulboy。
Wespeakagreatdealabouthiswork。Hehasjustfinishedacuriousthingcalled\"Nemi\"——aboutaRomanshipthatisactuallysunkinsomelake。Icannotthinkhowhedescribesthethings，whenhehasneverseenthem。If，asIhope，hegoestoItalynextyear，heshouldturnoutsomethingreallygood。Meanwhilewearehuntingforapublisher。Herbertbelievesthatacollectionofshortstoriesishardtogetpublished。Itis，afterall，bettertowriteonelongone。
Butyoumustnotthinkweonlytalkbooks。Whatwesayonothertopicscannotsoeasilyberepeated！Oh，MrsLewin，heisadear，anddearerthanevernowthatwehavehimatSawston。Herbert，inaquietway，hasbeenmakinginquiriesaboutthoseCambridgefriendsofhis。Nothingagainstthem，buttheyseemtobeterriblyeccentric。Noneofthemaregoodatgames，andtheyspendalltheirsparetimethinkinganddiscussing。Theydiscusswhatoneknowsandwhatoneneverwillknowandwhatonehadmuchbetternotknow。Herbertsaysitisbecausetheyhavenotgotenoughtodo。——Everyourgratefulandaffectionatefriend，AgnesPembrokeShelthorpe，9SawstonParkRoadSawstonDearMr。Silt，——
Thankyouforthecongratulations，whichIhavehandedovertothedelightedRickie。
（ThecongratulationswerereallyaddressedtoAgnes——asocialblunderwhichMr。Pembrokedeftlycorrects。）
IamsorrythattherumorreachedyouthatIwasnotpleased。
Anythingpleasesmethatpromisesmysister’shappiness，andI
haveknownyourcousinnearlyaslongasyouhave。Itwillbeaverylongengagement，forhemustmakehiswayfirst。Thedearboyisnotnearlyaswealthyashesupposed;havingnotastes，andhardlyanyexpenses，heusedtotalkasifhewereamillionaire。Hemustatleastdoublehisincomebeforehecandreamofmoreintimateties。Thishasbeenabitterpill，butI
amgladtosaythattheyhaveaccepteditbravely。
HopingthatyouandMrs。SiltwillprofitbyyourweekatMargate。—Iremain，yoursverysincerely，HerbertPembrokeCadover，Wilts。
Dear{MissPembroke，{Agnes—
Ihearthatyouaregoingtomarrymynephew。Ihavenoideawhatheislike，andwonderwhetheryouwouldbringhimthatImayfindout。Isn’tSeptemberratheranicemonth？YoumighthavetogotoStoneHenge，butwiththatexceptionwouldbeleftunmolested。Idohopeyouwillmanagethevisit。WemetonceatMrs。Lewin’s，andIhaveaveryclearrecollectionofyou。——
Believeme，yourssincerely，EmilyFailingX
Theraintiltedalittlefromthesouth—west。Forthemostpartitfellfromagreycloudsilently，butnowandthenthetiltincreased，andakindofsighpassedoverthecountryasthedropslashedthewalls，trees，shepherds，andothermotionlessobjectsthatstoodintheirslantingcareer。Attimesthecloudwoulddescendandvisiblyembracetheearth，towhichithadonlysentmessages;andtheearthitselfwouldbringforthclouds——cloudsofawhiterbreed——whichformedinshallowvalleysandfollowedthecoursesofthestreams。Itseemedthebeginningoflife。AgainGodsaid，\"Shallwedividethewatersfromthelandornot？Wasnotthefirmamentlabourandglorysufficient？\"Atalleventsitwasthebeginningoflifepastoral，behindwhichimaginationcannottravel。
Yetcomplicatedpeopleweregettingwet——notonlytheshepherds。
Forinstance，thepiano—tunerwassopping。Sowasthevicar’swife。SowerethelieutenantandthepeevishdamselsinhisBattlestoncar。Gallantry，charity，andartpursuedtheirvariousmissions，perspiringandmuddy，whileoutontheslopesbeyondthemstoodtheeternalmanandtheeternaldog，guardingeternalsheepuntiltheworldisvegetarian。
Insideanarbour——whichfacedeast，andthusavoidedthebadweather——theresatacomplicatedpersonwhowasdry。Shelookedatthedrenchedworldwithapleasedexpression，andwouldsmilewhenacloudwouldlaydownonthevillage，orwhentherainsighedlouderthanusualagainsthersolidshelter。Ink，paperclips，andfoolscappaperwereonthetablebeforeher，andshecouldalsoreachanumbrella，awaterproof，awalking—stick，andanelectricbell。Heragewasbetweenelderlyandold，andherforeheadwaswrinkledwithanexpressionofslightbutperpetualpain。Butthelinesroundhermouthindicatedthatshehadlaughedagreatdealduringherlife，justasthecleantightskinroundhereyesperhapsindicatedthatshehadnotoftencried。Shewasdressedinbrownsilk。Abrownsilkshawllaymostbecominglyoverherbeautifulhair。
Afterlongthoughtshewroteonthepaperinfrontofher，\"ThesubjectofthismemoirfirstsawthelightatWolverhamptononMaythe14th，1842。\"Shelaiddownherpenandsaid\"Ugh！\"A
robinhoppedinandshewelcomedhim。Asparrowfollowedandshestampedherfoot。Shewatchedsomethickwhitewaterwhichwasslidinglikeasnakedownthegutterofthegravelpath。Ithadjustappeared。Itmusthaveescapedfromahollowinthechalkupbehind。Theearthcouldabsorbnolonger。Theladydidnotthinkofallthis，forshehatedquestionsofwhenceandwherefore，andthewaysoftheearth（\"ourdullstepmother\"）boredherunspeakably。Butthewater，justthesnakeofwater，wasamusing，andsheflunghergoloshatittodamitup。Thenshewrotefeverishly，\"Thesubjectofthismemoirfirstsawthelightinthemiddleofthenight。Itwastwentytoeleven。Hispawasaparson，buthewasnothispa’sson，andneverwenttoheaven。\"
Therewasthesoundofatrain，andpresentlywhitesmokeappeared，risinglaboriouslythroughtheheavyair。Itdistractedher，andforaboutaquarterofanhourshesatperfectlystill，doingnothing。Atlastshepushedthespoiltpaperaside，tookafreshpiece，andwasbeginningtowrite，\"OnMaythe14th，1842，\"whentherewasacrunchonthegravel，andafuriousvoicesaid，\"IamsorryforFleaThompson。\"
\"IdaresayIamsorryforhimtoo，\"saidthelady;hervoicewaslanguidandpleasant。\"Whoishe？\"
\"Flea’saliar，andthenexttimewemeethe’llbeafootball。\"
Offslippedasoddenulster。Hehungitupangrilyuponapeg:
thearbourprovidedseveral。
\"Butwhoishe，andwhyhashethatdisastrousname？\"
\"Flea？Fleance。AlltheThompsonsarenamedoutofShakespeare。
HegrazestheRings。\"
\"Ah，Isee。Apetlamb。\"
\"Lamb！Shepherd！\"
\"OneofmyShepherds？\"
\"ThelasttimeIgowithhissheep。Butnotthelasttuneheseesme。Iamsorryforhim。Hedodgedmetoday，\"
\"Doyoumeantosay\"——shebecameanimated——\"thatyouhavebeenoutinthewetkeepingthesheepofFleaThompson？\"
\"Ihadto。\"Heblewonhisfingersandtookoffhiscap。Watertrickledoverhisunshavencheeks。Hishairwassowetthatitseemedworkeduponhisscalpinbronze。
\"Getaway，baddog！\"screamedthelady，forhehadgivenhimselfashakeandspatteredherdresswithwater。Hewasapowerfulboyoftwenty，admirablymuscular，butrathertoobroadforhisheight。Peoplecalledhim\"Podge\"untiltheyweredissuaded。Thentheycalledhim\"Stephen\"or\"Mr。Wonham。\"Thenhesaid，\"YoucancallmePodgeifyoulike。\"
\"AsforFlea——！\"hebegantempestuously。Hesatdownbyher，andwithmuchheavybreathingtoldthestory，——\"FleahasagirlatWintersbridge，andIhadtogowithhissheepwhilehewenttoseeher。Twohours。Weagreed。Halfanhourtogo，anhourtokisshisgirl，andhalfanhourback——andhehadmybike。Fourhours！FourhoursandsevenminutesIwasontheRings，withafoolofadog，andsheepdoingalltheyknewtogettheturnips。\"
\"Myfarmisamysterytome，\"saidthelady，strokingherfingers。
\"Somedayyoumustreallytakemetoseeit。ItmustbelikeaGilbertandSullivanopera，withachorusofagitatedemployers。
HowisitthatIhaveescaped？WhyhaveIneverbeensummonedtomilkthecows，orflaythepigs，ordrivetheyoungbullockstothepasture？\"
Helookedatherwithastonishinglyblueeyes——theonlydrythingshehadabouthim。Hecouldnotseeintoher:shewouldhavepuzzledanolderandcleverman。Hemayhaveseenroundher。
\"Athingofbeautyyouarenot。ButIsometimesthinkyouareajoyforever。\"
\"Ibegyourpardon？\"
\"Oh，youunderstandrightenough，\"sheexclaimedirritably，andthensmiled，forhewasconceited，anddidnotlikebeingtoldthathewasnotathingofbeauty。\"Largeandsteadyfeet，\"shecontinued，\"havethisdisadvantage——youcanknockdownaman，butyouwillneverknockdownawoman。\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean。I’mnotlikely——\"
\"Oh，nevermind——never，nevermind。Iwasbeingfunny。Irepent。
Tellmeaboutthesheep。Whydidyougowiththem？\"
\"Ididtellyou。Ihadto。\"
\"Butwhy？\"
\"Hehadtoseehisgirl。\"
\"Butwhy？\"
Hiseyesshotpastheragain。Itwassoobviousthatthemanhadtoseehisgirl。Fortwohoursthough——notforfourhourssevenminutes。
\"Didyouhaveanylunch？\"
\"Idon’tholdwithregularmeals。\"
\"Didyouhaveabook？\"
\"Idon’tholdwithbooksintheopen。Noneoftheoldermenread。\"
\"Didyoucommunewithyourself，ordon’tyouholdwiththat？\"
\"OhLord，don’taskme！\"
\"Youdistressme。YourobthePastoralofitslingeringromance。
IstherenopoetryandnothoughtinEngland？Istherenoone，inallthesedowns，whowarbleswitheagerthoughttheDoriclay？\"
\"Chapssingtothemselvesattimes，ifyoumeanthat。\"
\"IdreamofArcady。Iopenmyeyes。Wiltshire。OfAmaryllis:FleaThompson’sgirl。Ofthepensiveshepherd，twitchinghismantleblue:youinanulster。Aren’tyousorryforme？\"
\"MayIputinapipe？\"
\"Byallmeansputapipein。Inreturn，tellmeofwhatyouwerethinkingforthefourhoursandthesevenminutes。\"
Helaughedshyly。\"Youdoaskamansuchquestions。\"
\"Didyousimplywastethetime？\"
\"Isupposeso。\"
\"IthoughtthatColonelRobertIngersollsaysyoumustbestrenuous。\"
Atthesoundofthisnamehewhiskedopenalittlecupboard，anddeclaring，\"Ihaven’tamomenttospare，\"tookoutofitapileof\"Clarion\"andotherreprints，adornedastotheircoverswithbaldorbeardedapostlesofhumanity。Selectingabaldone，hebeganatoncetoread，occasionallyexclaiming，\"That’sgotthem，\"\"That’sknockedGenesis，\"withsimilarejaculationsofanaspiringmind。Sheglancedatthepile。Reran，minusthestyle。
Darwin，minusthemodesty。AcomiceditionofthebookofJob，by\"Excelsior，\"Pittsburgh，Pa。\"TheBeginningofLife，\"withdiagrams。\"AngelorApe？\"byMrs。JuliaP。Chunk。Shewasamused，andwonderedidlywhatwaspassingwithinhisnarrowbutnotuninterestingbrain。Didhesupposethathewasgoingto\"findout\"？Shehadtriedonceherself，buthadsincesubsidedintoasprightlyorthodoxy。Whydidn’thereadpoetry，insteadofwastinghistimebetweenbooksliketheseandcountrylikethat？
Thecloudparted，andtheincreaseoflightmadeherlookup。
Overthevalleyshesawagravesullendown，andonitsflanksalittlebrownsmudge——hersheep，togetherwithhershepherd，FleanceThompson，returnedtohisdutiesatlast。Atrickleofwatercamethroughthearbourroof。Sheshriekedindismay。
\"That’sallright，\"saidhercompanion，movingherchair，butstillkeepinghisplaceinhisbook。
Shedriedupthespotonthemanuscript。Thenshewrote:\"AnthonyEustaceFailing，thesubjectofthismemoir，wasbornatWolverhampton。\"Butshewrotenomore。Shewasfidgety。Anotherdropfellfromtheroof。Likewiseanearwig。Shewishedshehadnotbeensoplayfulinflinginghergoloshintothepath。Theboywhowasoverthrowingreligionbreathedsomewhatheavilyashedidso。Anotherearwig。Shetouchedtheelectricbell。
\"I’mgoingin，\"sheobserved。\"It’sfartoowet。\"Againthecloudpartedandcausedhertoadd，\"Weren’tyouratherkindtoFlea？\"
Buthewasdeepinthebook。Hereadlikeapoorperson，withlipsapartandafingerthatfollowedtheprint。Attimeshescratchedhisear，orranhistonguealongastragglingblondemoustache。Hisfacehadafterallacertainbeauty:atalleventsthecolouringwasregal——asteadycrimsonfromthroattoforehead:thesunandthewindshadworkedonhimdailyeversincehewasborn。\"Thefaceofastrongman，\"thoughtthelady。
\"Lethimthankhisstarsheisn’tasilentstrongman，orI’dturnhimintothegutter。\"SuddenlyitstruckherthathewaslikeanIrishterrier。Heworriedinfinityasifitwasabone。
Gnashinghisteeth，hetriedtocarrytheeternalsubtletiesbyviolence。Asamanheoftenboredher，forhewasalwayssayinganddoingthesamethings。Butasaphilosopherhereallywasajoyforever，aninexhaustiblebuffoon。Takingupherpen，shebegantocaricaturehim。Shedrewarabbit—warrenwhererabbitswereatplayinfourdimensions。Beforeshehadintroducedtheprincipalfigure，shewasinterruptedbythefootman。Hehadcomeupfromthehousetoanswerthebell。Onseeingherheutteredarespectfulcry。
\"Madam！Areyouhere？Iamverysorry。Ilookedforyoueverywhere。Mr。ElliotandMissPembrokearrivednearlyanhourago。\"
\"Ohdear，ohdear！\"exclaimedMrs。Failing。\"Takethesepapers。
Where’stheumbrella？Mr。Stephenwillholditoverme。Youhurrybackandapologize。Aretheyhappy？\"
\"MissPembrokeinquiredafteryou，madam。\"
\"Havetheyhadtea？\"
\"Yes，madam。\"
\"Leighton！\"
\"Yes，sir。\"
\"Ibelieveyouknewshewashereallthetime。Youdidn’twanttowetyourprettyskin。\"
\"Youmustnotcallme’she’totheservants，\"saidMrs。Failingastheywalkedaway，shelimpingwithastick，heholdingagreatumbrellaoverher。\"Iwillnothaveit。\"Thenmorepleasantly，\"Anddon’ttellhimhelies。Wealllie。Iknewquitewelltheywerecomingbythefour—sixtrain。Isawitpass。\"
\"Thatremindsme。AnotherchildrunoverattheRomancrossing。
Whish——bang——dead。\"
\"Ohmyfoot！Ohmyfoot，myfoot！\"saidMrs。Failing，andpausedtotakebreath。
\"Bad？\"heaskedcallously。
Leighton，withbowedhead，passedthemwiththemanuscriptanddisappearedamongthelaurels。Thetwingeofpain，whichhadbeenslight，passedaway，andtheyproceeded，descendingagreenairlesscorridorwhichopenedintothegraveldrive。
\"Isn’titodd，\"saidMrs。Failing，\"thattheGreeksshouldbeenthusiasticaboutlaurels——thatApolloshouldpursueanyonewhocouldpossiblyturnintosuchafrightfulplant？WhatdoyoumakeofRickie？\"
\"Oh，Idon’tknow。\"
\"ShallIlendyouhisstorytoread？\"
Hemadenoreply。
\"Don’tyouthink，Stephen，thatapersoninyourprecariouspositionoughttobeciviltomyrelatives？\"
\"Sorry，Mrs。Failing。Imeanttobecivil。Ionlyhadn’t——
anythingtosay。\"
Shealaughed。\"Areyouadearboy？Isometimeswonder;orareyouabrute？\"
Againhehadnothingtosay。Thenshelaughedmoremischievously，andsaid——
\"Howcanyoubeeither，whenyouareaphilosopher？Wouldyoumindtellingme——Iamsoanxioustolearn——whathappenstopeoplewhentheydie？\"
\"Don’taskME。\"Heknewbybitterexperiencethatshewasmakingfunofhim。
\"Oh，butIdoaskyou。Thosepaperbooksofyoursaresoup—to—date。Forinstance，whathashappenedtothechildyousaywaskilledontheline？\"
Therainincreased。Thedropspatteredhardontheleaves，andoutsidethecorridormenandwomenwerestruggling，howeverstupidly，withthefactsoflife。Insideittheywrangled。Sheteasedtheboy，andlaughedathistheories，andprovedthatnomancanbeanagnosticwhohasasenseofhumour。Suddenlyshestopped，notthroughanyskillofhis，butbecauseshehadrememberedsomewordsofBacon:\"Thetrueatheistishewhosehandsarecauterizedbyholythings。\"Shethoughtofherdistantyouth。Theworldwasnotsohumorousthen，butithadbeenmoreimportant。Foramomentsherespectedhercompanion，anddeterminedtovexhimnomore。
Theylefttheshelterofthelaurels，crossedthebroaddrive，andwereinsidethehouseatlast。Shehadgotquitewet，fortheweatherwouldnotletherplaythesimplelifewithimpunity。Asforhim，heseemedapieceofthewet。
\"Lookhere，\"shecried，ashehurrieduptohisattic，\"don’tshave！\"
Hewasdelightedwiththepermission。
\"IhaveanideathatMissPembrokeisofthetypethatpretendstobeunconventionalandreallyisn’t。Iwanttoseehowshetakesit。Don’tshave。\"
Inthedrawing—roomshecouldheartheguestsconversinginthesubduedtonesofthosewhohavenotbeenwelcomed。HavingchangedherdressandglancedatthepoemsofMilton，shewenttothem，withupliftedhandsofapologyandhorror。
\"ButImusthavetea，\"sheannounced，whentheyhadassuredherthattheyunderstood。\"OtherwiseIshallstartbybeingcross。
Agnes，stopme。Givemetea。\"
Agnes，lookingpleased，movedtothetableandservedherhostess。Rickiefollowedwithapagodaofsandwichesandlittlecakes。
\"Ifeeltwenty—sevenyearsyounger。Rickie，youaresolikeyourfather。Ifeelitistwenty—sevenyearsago，andthatheisbringingyourmothertoseemeforthefirsttime。Itiscurious——almostterrible——toseehistoryrepeatingitself。\"
Theremarkwasnottactful。
\"Irememberthatvisitwell，\"shecontinuedthoughtfully，\"I
supposeitwasawonderfulvisit，thoughwenoneofusknewitatthetime。Weallfellinlovewithyourmother。Iwishshewouldhavefalleninlovewithus。Shecouldn’tbearme，couldshe？\"
\"Ineverheardhersayso，AuntEmily。\"
\"No;shewouldn’t。Iamsureyourfathersaidso，though。Mydearboy，don’tlooksoshocked。YourfatherandIhatedeachother。
Hesaidso，Isaidso，Isayso;saysotoo。Thenweshallstartfair。——Justacocoanutcake。——Agnes，don’tyouagreethatit’salwaysbesttospeakout？\"
\"Oh，rather，Mrs。Failing。ButI’mshockinglystraightforward。\"
\"SoamI，\"saidthelady。\"Iliketogetdowntothebedrock。——
Hullo！Slippers？Slippersinthedrawingroom？\"
Ayoungmanhadcomeinsilently。Agnesobservedwithafeelingofregretthathehadnotshaved。Rickie，afteramoment’shesitation，rememberedwhoitwas，andshookhandswithhim。
You’vegrownsinceIsawyoulast。\"
Heshowedhisteethamiably。
\"Howlongwasthat？\"askedMrs。Failing。
\"Threeyears，wasn’tit？CameoverfromtheAnsells——friends。\"
\"Howdisgraceful，Rickie！Whydon’tyoucomeandseemeoftener？\"
Hecouldnotretortthatsheneveraskedhim。
\"Agneswillmakeyoucome。Oh，letmeintroduceMr。Wonham——MissPembroke。\"
\"Iamdeputyhostess，\"saidAgnes。\"MayIgiveyousometea？\"
\"Thankyou，butIhavehadalittlebeer。\"
\"Itisoneoftheshepherds，\"saidMrs。Failing，inlowtones。
Agnessmiledratherwildly。Mrs。LewinhadwarnedherthatCadoverwasanextraordinaryplace，andthatonemustneverbeastonishedatanything。Ashepherdinthedrawing—room！Noharm。
Stilloneoughttoknowwhetheritwasashepherdornot。Atalleventshewasingentleman’sclothing。Shewasanxiousnottostartwithablunder，andthereforedidnottalktotheyoungfellow，buttriedtogatherwhathewasfromthedemeanourofRickie。
\"Iamsure，Mrs。Failing，thatyouneednottalkof’making’
peoplecometoCadover。Therewillbenodifficulty，Ishouldsay。\"
\"Thankyou，mydear。Doyouknowwhooncesaidthoseexactwordstome？\"
\"Who？\"
\"Rickie’smother。\"
\"Didshereally？\"
\"Mysister—in—lawwasadear。YouwillhaveheardRickie’spraises，butnowyoumusthearmine。Ineverknewawomanwhowassounselfishandyethadsuchcapacitiesforlife。\"
\"Doesonegenerallyexcludetheother？\"askedRickie。
\"Unselfishpeople，asarule，aredeathlydull。Theyhavenocolour。Theythinkofotherpeoplebecauseitiseasier。Theygivemoneybecausetheyaretoostupidortooidletospenditproperlyonthemselves。Thatwasthebeautyofyourmother——
shegaveaway，butshealsospentonherself，ortriedto。\"