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  MadanaAlas,thoudaughterofmortals!IstolefromthedivineStorehousethefragrantwineofheaven,filledwithitoneearthlynighttothebrim,andplaceditinthyhandtodrink——

  yetstillIhearthiscryofanguish!

  Chitra[bitterly]

  Whodrankit?Therarestcompletionoflife’sdesire,thefirstunionoflovewasprofferedtome,butwaswrestedfrommygrasp?

  Thisborrowedbeauty,thisfalsehoodthatenwrapsme,willslipfrommetakingwithittheonlymonumentofthatsweetunion,asthepetalsfallfromanoverblownflower;andthewomanashamedofhernakedpovertywillsitweepingdayandnight。LordLove,thiscursedappearancecompanionsmelikeademonrobbingmeofalltheprizesoflove——allthekissesforwhichmyheartisathirst。

  MadanaAlas,howvainthysinglenighthadbeen!Thebarqueofjoycameinsight,butthewaveswouldnotletittouchtheshore。

  ChitraHeavencamesoclosetomyhandthatIforgotforamomentthatithadnotreachedme。ButwhenIwokeinthemorningfrommydreamIfoundthatmybodyhadbecomemyownrival。Itismyhatefultasktodeckhereveryday,tosendhertomybelovedandseehercaressedbyhim。Ogod,takebackthyboon!

  MadanaButifItakeitfromyouhowcanyoustandbeforeyourlover?

  Tosnatchawaythecupfromhislipswhenhehasscarcelydrainedhisfirstdraughtofpleasure,wouldnotthatbecruel?Withwhatresentfulangerhemustregardtheethen?

  ChitraThatwouldbebetterfarthanthis。Iwillrevealmytrueselftohim,anoblerthingthanthisdisguise。Ifherejectsit,ifhespurnsmeandbreaksmyheart,Iwillbeareventhatinsilence。

  VasantaListentomyadvice。Whenwiththeadventofautumnthefloweringseasonisoverthencomesthetriumphoffruitage。A

  timewillcomeofitselfwhentheheat—cloyedbloomofthebodywilldroopandArjunawillgladlyaccepttheabidingfruitfultruthinthee。Ochild,gobacktothymadfestival。

  SCENEIV

  ChitraWHYdoyouwatchmelikethat,mywarrior?

  ArjunaIwatchhowyouweavethatgarland。Skillandgrace,thetwinbrotherandsister,aredancingplayfullyonyourfingertips。I

  amwatchingandthinking。

  ChitraWhatareyouthinking,sir?

  ArjunaIamthinkingthatyou,withthissamelightnessoftouchandsweetness,areweavingmydaysofexileintoanimmortalwreath,tocrownmewhenIreturnhome。

  ChitraHome!Butthisloveisnotforahome!

  ArjunaNotforahome?

  ChitraNo。Nevertalkofthat。Taketoyourhomewhatisabidingandstrong。Leavethelittlewildflowerwhereitwasborn;leaveitbeautifullytodieattheday’sendamongallfadingblossomsanddecayingleaves。Donottakeittoyourpalacehalltoflingitonthestonyfloorwhichknowsnopityforthingsthatfadeandareforgotten。

  ArjunaIsoursthatkindoflove?

  ChitraYes,noother!Whyregretit?Thatwhichwasmeantforidledaysshouldneveroutlivethem。Joyturnsintopainwhenthedoorbywhichitshoulddepartisshutagainstit。Takeitandkeepitaslongasitlasts。Letnotthesatietyofyoureveningclaimmorethanthedesireofyourmorningcouldearn……Thedayisdone。Putthisgarlandon。Iamtired。Takemeinyourarms,mylove。Letallvainbickeringsofdiscontentdieawayatthesweetmeetingofourlips。

  ArjunaHush!Listen,mybeloved,thesoundofprayerbellsfromthedistantvillagetemplestealsupontheeveningairacrossthesilenttrees!

  SCENEV

  VasantaICANNOTkeeppacewiththee,myfriend!Iamtired。Itisahardtasktokeepalivethefirethouhastkindled。Sleepovertakesme,thefandropsfrommyhand,andcoldashescovertheglowofthefire。Istartupagainfrommyslumberandwithallmymightrescuethewearyflame。Butthiscangoonnolonger。

  MadanaIknow,thouartasfickleasachild。Everrestlessisthyplayinheavenandonearth。Thingsthatthoufordaysbuildestupwithendlessdetailthoudostshatterinamomentwithoutregret。

  Butthisworkofoursisnearlyfinished。Pleasure—wingeddaysflyfast,andtheyear,almostatitsend,swoonsinrapturousbliss。

  SCENEVI

  ArjunaIWOKEinthemorningandfoundthatmydreamshaddistilledagem。Ihavenocaskettoincloseit,noking’scrownwhereontofixit,nochainfromwhichtohangit,andyethavenotthehearttothrowitaway。MyKshatriya’srightarm,idlyoccupiedinholdingit,forgetsitsduties。

  EnterCHITRA。

  ChitraTellmeyourthoughts,sir!

  ArjunaMymindisbusywiththoughtsofhuntingtoday。See,howtherainpoursintorrentsandfiercelybeatsuponthehillside。Thedarkshadowofthecloudshangsheavilyovertheforest,andtheswollenstream,likerecklessyouth,overleapsallbarrierswithmockinglaughter。OnsuchrainydayswefivebrotherswouldgototheChitrakaforesttochasewildbeasts。Thoseweregladtimes。Ourheartsdancedtothedrumbeatofrumblingclouds。Thewoodsresoundedwiththescreamsofpeacocks。Timiddeercouldnothearourapproachingstepsforthepatterofrainandthenoiseofwaterfalls;theleopardswouldleavetheirtracksonthewetearth,betrayingtheirlairs。Oursportover,wedaredeachothertoswimacrossturbulentstreamsonourwaybackhome。Therestlessspiritisonme。Ilongtogohunting。

  ChitraFirstrundownthequarryyouarenowfollowing。Areyouquitecertainthattheenchanteddeeryoupursuemustneedsbecaught?

  No,notyet。Likeadreamthewildcreatureeludesyouwhenitseemsmostnearlyyours。Lookhowthewindischasedbythemadrainthatdischargesathousandarrowsafterit。Yetitgoesfreeandunconquered。Oursportislikethat,mylove!Yougivechasetothefleet—footedspiritofbeauty,aimingathereverydartyouhaveinyourhands。Yetthismagicdeerrunseverfreeanduntouched。

  ArjunaMylove,haveyounohomewherekindheartsarewaitingforyourreturn?Ahomewhichyouoncemadesweetwithyourgentleserviceandwhoselightwentoutwhenyouleftitforthiswilderness?

  ChitraWhythesequestions?Arethehoursofunthinkingpleasureover?

  DoyounotknowthatIamnomorethanwhatyouseebeforeyou?

  Formethereisnovistabeyond。ThedewthathangsonthetipofaKinsukapetalhasneithernamenordestination。Itoffersnoanswertoanyquestion。Shewhomyouloveislikethatperfectbeadofdew。

  ArjunaHasshenotiewiththeworld?Canshebemerelylikeafragmentofheavendroppedontheearththroughthecarelessnessofawantongod?

  ChitraYes。

  ArjunaAh,thatiswhyIalwaysseemabouttoloseyou。Myheartisunsatisfied,mymindknowsnopeace。Comeclosertome,unattainableone!Surrenderyourselftothebondsofnameandhomeandparentage。Letmyheartfeelyouonallsidesandlivewithyouinthepeacefulsecurityoflove。

  ChitraWhythisvainefforttocatchandkeepthetintsoftheclouds,thedanceofthewaves,thesmelloftheflowers?

  ArjunaMistressmine,donothopetopacifylovewithairynothings。

  Givemesomethingtoclasp,somethingthatcanlastlongerthanpleasure,thatcanendureeventhroughsuffering。

  ChitraHeromine,theyearisnotyetfull,andyouaretiredalready!

  NowIknowthatitisHeaven’sblessingthathasmadetheflower’stermoflifeshort。Couldthisbodyofminehavedroopedanddiedwiththeflowersoflastspringitsurelywouldhavediedwithhonour。Yet,itsdaysarenumbered,mylove。

  Spareitnot,pressitdryofhoney,forfearyourbeggar’sheartcomebacktoitagainandagainwithunsateddesire,likeathirstybeewhensummerblossomsliedeadinthedust。

  SCENEVII

  MadanaTONIGHTisthylastnight。

  VasantaThelovelinessofyourbodywillreturntomorrowtotheinexhaustiblestoresofthespring。TheruddytintofthylipsfreedfromthememoryofArjuna’skisses,willbudanewasapairoffreshasokaleaves,andthesoft,whiteglowofthyskinwillbebornagaininahundredfragrantjasmineflowers。

  ChitraOgods,grantmethismyprayer!Tonight,initslasthourletmybeautyflashitsbrightest,likethefinalflickerofadyingflame。

  MadanaThoushalthavethywish。

  SCENEVIII

  VillagersWHOwillprotectusnow?

  ArjunaWhy,bywhatdangerareyouthreatened?

  VillagersTherobbersarepouringfromthenorthernhillslikeamountainfloodtodevastateourvillage。

  ArjunaHaveyouinthiskingdomnowarden?

  VillagersPrincessChitrawastheterrorofallevildoers。Whileshewasinthishappylandwefearednaturaldeaths,buthadnootherfears。Nowshehasgoneonapilgrimage,andnoneknowswheretofindher。

  ArjunaIsthewardenofthiscountryawoman?

  VillagersYes,sheisourfatherandmotherinone。

  [Exeunt。

  EnterCHITRA。

  ChitraWhyareyousittingallalone?

  ArjunaIamtryingtoimaginewhatkindofwomanPrincessChitramaybe。

  Ihearsomanystoriesofherfromallsortsofmen。

  ChitraAh,butsheisnotbeautiful。Shehasnosuchlovelyeyesasmine,darkasdeath。Shecanpierceanytargetshewill,butnotourhero’sheart。

  ArjunaTheysaythatinvaloursheisaman,andawomanintenderness。

  ChitraThat,indeed,ishergreatestmisfortune。Whenawomanismerelyawoman;whenshewindsherselfroundandroundmen’sheartswithhersmilesandsobsandservicesandcaressingendearments;thensheishappy。Ofwhatusetoherarelearningandgreatachievements?CouldyouhaveseenheronlyyesterdayinthecourtoftheLordShiva’stemplebytheforestpath,youwouldhavepassedbywithoutdeigningtolookather。Buthaveyougrownsowearyofwoman’sbeautythatyouseekinherforaman’sstrength?

  Withgreenleaveswetfromthesprayofthefoamingwaterfall,I

  havemadeournoondaybedinacaverndarkasnight。Therethecoolofthesoftgreenmossesthickontheblackanddrippingstone,kissesyoureyestosleep。Letmeguideyouthither。

  ArjunaNottoday,beloved。

  ChitraWhynottoday?

  ArjunaIhaveheardthatahordeofrobbershasnearedtheplains。

  NeedsmustIgoandpreparemyweaponstoprotectthefrightenedvillagers。

  ChitraYouneedhavenofearforthem。Beforeshestartedonherpilgrimage,PrincessChitrahadsetstrongguardsatallthefrontierpasses。

  ArjunaYetpermitmeforashortwhiletosetaboutaKshatriya’swork。

  WithnewglorywillIennoblethisidlearm,andmakeofitapillowmoreworthyofyourhead。

  ChitraWhatifIrefusetoletyougo,ifIkeepyouentwinedinmyarms?Wouldyourudelysnatchyourselffreeandleaveme?Gothen!Butyoumustknowthattheliana,oncebrokenintwo,neverjoinsagain。Go,ifyourthirstisquenched。But,ifnot,thenrememberthatthegoddessofpleasureisfickle,andwaitsfornoman。Sitforawhile,mylord!Tellmewhatuneasythoughtsteaseyou。Whooccupiedyourmindtoday?IsitChitra?

  ArjunaYes,itisChitra。Iwonderinfulfilmentofwhatvowshehasgoneonherpilgrimage。Ofwhatcouldshestandinneed?

  ChitraHerneeds?Why,whathassheeverhad,theunfortunatecreature?

  Herveryqualitiesareasprisonwalls,shuttingherwoman’sheartinabarecell。Sheisobscured,sheisunfulfilled。Herwomanlylovemustcontentitselfdressedinrags;beautyisdeniedher。Sheislikethespiritofacheerlessmorning,sittinguponthestonymountainpeak,allherlightblottedoutbydarkclouds。Donotaskmeofherlife。Itwillneversoundsweettoman’sear。

  ArjunaIameagertolearnallabouther。Iamlikeatravellercometoastrangecityatmidnight。Domesandtowersandgarden—treeslookvagueandshadowy,andthedullmoanoftheseacomesfitfullythroughthesilenceofsleep。Wistfullyhewaitsforthemorningtorevealtohimallthestrangewonders。Oh,tellmeherstory。

  ChitraWhatmoreistheretotell?

  ArjunaIseemtoseeher,inmymind’seye,ridingonawhitehorse,proudlyholdingthereinsinherlefthand,andinherrightabow,andliketheGoddessofVictorydispensinggladhopeallroundher。Likeawatchfullionesssheprotectsthelitteratherdugswithafiercelove。Woman’sarms,thoughadornedwithnaughtbutunfetteredstrength,arebeautiful!Myheartisrestless,fairone,likeaserpentrevivingfromhislongwinter’ssleep。Come,letusbothraceonswifthorsessidebyside,liketwinorbsoflightsweepingthroughspace。Outfromthisslumbrousprisonofgreengloom,thisdank,densecoverofperfumedintoxication,chokingbreath。

  ChitraArjuna,tellmetrue,if,nowatonce,bysomemagicIcouldshakemyselffreefromthisvoluptuoussoftness,thistimidbloomofbeautyshrinkingfromtherudeandhealthytouchoftheworld,andflingitfrommybodylikeborrowedclothes,wouldyoubeabletobearit?IfIstandupstraightandstrongwiththestrengthofadaringheartspurningthewilesandartsoftwiningweakness,ifIholdmyheadhighlikeatallyoungmountainfir,nolongertrailinginthedustlikealiana,shallIthenappealtoman’seye?No,no,youcouldnotendureit。ItisbetterthatIshouldkeepspreadaboutmeallthedaintyplaythingsoffugitiveyouth,andwaitforyouinpatience。Whenitpleasesyoutoreturn,Iwillsmilinglypouroutforyouthewineofpleasureinthecupofthisbeauteousbody。Whenyouaretiredandsatiatedwiththiswine,youcangotoworkorplay;andwhenIgrowoldIwillaccepthumblyandgratefullywhatevercornerisleftforme。Woulditpleaseyourheroicsouliftheplaymateofthenightaspiredtobethehelpmeetoftheday,iftheleftarmlearnttosharetheburdenoftheproudrightarm?

  ArjunaIneverseemtoknowyouaright。Youseemtomelikeagoddesshiddenwithinagoldenimage。Icannottouchyou,Icannotpayyoumyduesinreturnforyourpricelessgifts。Thusmyloveisincomplete。Sometimesintheenigmaticdepthofyoursadlook,inyourplayfulwordsmockingattheirownmeaning,Igainglimpsesofabeingtryingtorendasunderthelanguorousgraceofherbody,toemergeinachastefireofpainthroughavaporousveilofsmiles。IllusionisthefirstappearanceofTruth。Sheadvancestowardsherloverindisguise。Butatimecomeswhenshethrowsoffherornamentsandveilsandstandsclothedinnakeddignity。Igropeforthatultimateyou,thatbaresimplicityoftruth。

  Whythesetears,mylove?Whycoveryourfacewithyourhands?

  HaveIpainedyou,mydarling?ForgetwhatIsaid。Iwillbecontentwiththepresent。Leteachseparatemomentofbeautycometomelikeabirdofmysteryfromitsunseennestinthedarkbearingamessageofmusic。Letmeforeversitwithmyhopeonthebrinkofitsrealization,andthusendmydays。

  SCENEIX

  CHITRAandARJUNA

  Chitra[cloaked]

  Mylord,hasthecupbeendrainedtothelastdrop?Isthis,indeed,theend?No,whenallisdonesomethingstillremains,andthatismylastsacrificeatyourfeet。

  Ibroughtfromthegardenofheavenflowersofincomparablebeautywithwhichtoworshipyou,godofmyheart。Iftheritesareover,iftheflowershavefaded,letmethrowthemoutofthetemple[unveilinginheroriginalmaleattire]。Now,lookatyourworshipperwithgraciouseyes。

  IamnotbeautifullyperfectastheflowerswithwhichI

  worshipped。Ihavemanyflawsandblemishes。Iamatravellerinthegreatworld—path,mygarmentsaredirty,andmyfeetarebleedingwiththorns。WhereshouldIachieveflower—beauty,theunsulliedlovelinessofamoment’slife?ThegiftthatIproudlybringyouistheheartofawoman。Herehaveallpainsandjoysgathered,thehopesandfearsandshamesofadaughterofthedust;herelovespringsupstrugglingtowardimmortallife。Hereinliesanimperfectionwhichyetisnobleandgrand。Iftheflower—serviceisfinished,mymaster,acceptthisasyourservantforthedaystocome!

  IamChitra,theking’sdaughter。PerhapsyouwillrememberthedaywhenawomancametoyouinthetempleofShiva,herbodyloadedwithornamentsandfinery。Thatshamelesswomancametocourtyouasthoughshewereaman。Yourejectedher;youdidwell。Mylord,Iamthatwoman。Shewasmydisguise。ThenbytheboonofgodsIobtainedforayearthemostradiantformthatamortaleverwore,andweariedmyhero’sheartwiththeburdenofthatdeceit。MostsurelyIamnotthatwoman。

  IamChitra。Nogoddesstobeworshipped,noryettheobjectofcommonpitytobebrushedasidelikeamothwithindifference。Ifyoudeigntokeepmebyyoursideinthepathofdangeranddaring,ifyouallowmetosharethegreatdutiesofyourlife,thenyouwillknowmytrueself。Ifyourbabe,whomIamnourishinginmywombbebornason,IshallmyselfteachhimtobeasecondArjuna,andsendhimtoyouwhenthetimecomes,andthenatlastyouwilltrulyknowme。TodayIcanonlyofferyouChitra,thedaughterofaking。

  ArjunaBeloved,mylifeisfull。

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