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  Iwentafewyardsdowntheslopeofgrassmingledwithmoss,andstretchedmyselfuponitweary。Alittlefartherdownstoodatinytreefullofrosiestapplesnobiggerthansmallcherries,itstopclosetomyhand;Ipulledandateoneofthem。Findingitdelicious,Iwasintheactoftakinganother,whenasuddenshoutingofchildren,mingledwithlaughterclearandsweetasthemusicofabrook,startledmewithdelight。

  \"Helikesourapples!Helikesourapples!He\'sagoodgiant!

  He\'sagoodgiant!\"criedmanylittlevoices。

  \"He\'sagiant!\"objectedone。

  \"HeISratherbig,\"assentedanother,\"butlittlenessisn\'teverything!Itwon\'tkeepyoufromgrowingbigandstupidexceptyoutakecare!\"

  Iroseonmyelbowandstared。Aboveandaboutandbelowmestoodamultitudeofchildren,apparentlyofallages,somejustabletorunalone,andsomeabouttwelveorthirteen。Threeorfourseemedolder。Theystoodinasmallknot,alittleapart,andwerelessexcitedthantherest。Themanywerechatteringingroups,declaimingandcontradicting,likeacrowdofgrownpeopleinacity,onlywithgreatermerriment,bettermanners,andmoresense。

  Igatheredthat,bytheapproachofmyhandtoasecondapple,theyknewthatIlikedthefirst;buthowfromthattheyarguedmegood,Ididnotsee,norwonderedthatoneofthematleastshouldsuggestcaution。Ididnotopenmymouth,forIwasafraidoffrighteningthem,andsureIshouldlearnmorebylisteningthanbyaskingquestions。ForIunderstoodnearlyalltheysaid——atwhichIwasnotsurprised:tounderstandisnotmorewonderfulthantolove。

  Therecameamovementandslightdispersionamongthem,andpresentlyasweet,innocent—looking,lovinglyroguishlittlefellowhandedmeahugegreenapple。Silencefellonthenoisythrong;allwaitedexpectant。

  \"Eat,goodgiant,\"hesaid。

  Isatup,tooktheapple,smiledthanks,andwouldhaveeaten;butthemomentIbitintoit,Iflungitfaraway。

  Againroseashoutofdelight;theyflungthemselvesuponme,soasnearlytosmotherme;theykissedmyfaceandhands;theylaidholdofmylegs;theyclamberedaboutmyarmsandshoulders,embracingmyheadandneck。Icametothegroundatlast,overwhelmedwiththelovelylittlegoblins。

  \"Good,goodgiant!\"theycried。\"Weknewyouwouldcome!Ohyoudear,good,stronggiant!\"

  Thebabbleoftheirtalksprangupafresh,andeverthejubilantshoutwouldriseanewfromhundredsofclearlittlethroats。

  Againcameasuddensilence。Thosearoundmedrewback;thoseatopofmegotoffandbegantryingtosetmeonmyfeet。Upontheirsweetfaces,concernhadtakentheplaceofmerriment。

  \"Getup,goodgiant!\"saidalittlegirl。\"Makehaste!muchhaste!

  Hesawyouthrowhisappleaway!\"

  Beforesheended,Iwasonmyfeet。Shestoodpointinguptheslope。Onthebrowofitwasaclownish,bad—lookingfellow,afewinchestallerthanmyself。Helookedhostile,butIsawnoreasontofearhim,forhehadnoweapon,andmylittlefriendshadvanishedeveryone。

  Hebegantodescend,andI,inthehopeofbetterfootingandposition,togoup。Hegrowledlikeabeastasheturnedtowardme。

  Reachingamorelevelspot,Istoodandwaitedforhim。Ashecamenear,heheldouthishand。Iwouldhavetakenitinfriendlyfashion,buthedrewitback,threatenedablow,andhelditoutagain。ThenIunderstoodhimtoclaimtheappleIhadflungaway,whereuponImadeagrimaceofdislikeandagestureofrejection。

  Heansweredwithahowlofragethatseemedtosay,\"Doyoudaretellmemyapplewasnotfittoeat?\"

  \"Onebadapplemaygrowonthebesttree,\"Isaid。

  WhetherheperceivedmymeaningIcannottell,buthemadeastridenearer,andIstoodonmyguard。Hedelayedhisassault,however,untilasecondgiant,muchlikehim,whohadbeenstealingupbehindme,wascloseenough,whenherusheduponme。Imethimwithagoodblowintheface,buttheotherstruckmeonthebackofthehead,andbetweenthemIwassoonoverpowered。

  Theydraggedmeintothewoodabovethevalley,wheretheirtribelived——inwretchedhuts,builtoffallenbranchesandafewstones。

  Intooneofthesetheypushedme,therethrewmeontheground,andkickedme。Awomanwaspresent,wholookedonwithindifference。

  ImayherementionthatduringmycaptivityIhardlylearnedtodistinguishthewomenfromthemen,theydifferedsolittle。OftenIwonderedwhetherIhadnotcomeuponasortoffungoidpeople,withjustenoughmindtogivethemmotionandtheexpressionsofangerandgreed。Theirfood,whichconsistedoftubers,bulbs,andfruits,wastomeinexpressiblydisagreeable,butnothingoffendedthemsomuchastoshowdisliketoit。IwascuffedbythewomenandkickedbythemenbecauseIwouldnotswallowit。

  Ilayonthefloorthatnighthardlyabletomove,butIsleptagooddeal,andwokealittlerefreshed。Inthemorningtheydraggedmetothevalley,andtyingmyfeet,withalongrope,toatree,putaflatstonewithasaw—likeedgeinmylefthand。Ishiftedittotheright;theykickedme,andputitagainintheleft;gavemetounderstandthatIwastoscrapethebarkoffeverybranchthathadnofruitonit;kickedmeoncemore,andleftme。

  IsetaboutthedrearyworkinthehopethatbysatisfyingthemI

  shouldbeleftverymuchtomyself——tomakemyobservationsandchoosemytimeforescape。Happilyoneofthedwarf—treesgrewclosebyme,andeveryotherminuteIpluckedandateasmallfruit,whichwonderfullyrefreshedandstrengthenedme。

  CHAPTERXIII

  THELITTLEONES

  Ihadbeenatworkbutafewmoments,whenIheardsmallvoicesnearme,andpresentlytheLittleOnes,asIsoonfoundtheycalledthemselves,camecreepingoutfromamongthetinytreesthatlikebrushwoodfilledthespacesbetweenthebigones。Inaminutetherewerescoresandscoresaboutme。Imadesignsthatthegiantshadbutjustleftme,andwerenotfaroff;buttheylaughed,andtoldmethewindwasquiteclean。

  \"Theyaretooblindtoseeus,\"theysaid,andlaughedlikeamultitudeofsheep—bells。

  \"Doyoulikethatropeaboutyourankles?\"askedone。

  \"IwantthemtothinkIcannottakeitoff,\"Ireplied。

  \"Theycanscarcelyseetheirownfeet!\"herejoined。\"Walkwithshortstepsandtheywillthinktheropeisallright。\"

  Ashespoke,hedancedwithmerriment。

  Oneofthebiggergirlsgotdownonherkneestountietheclumsyknot。Ismiled,thinkingthoseprettyfingerscoulddonothingwithit,butinamomentitwasloose。

  Theythenmademesitdown,andfedmewithdeliciouslittlefruits;

  afterwhichthesmallerofthembegantoplaywithmeinthewildestfashion,sothatitwasimpossibleformetoresumemywork。Whenthefirstgrewtired,otherstooktheirplaces,andthiswentonuntilthesunwassetting,andheavystepswereheardapproaching。

  Thelittlepeoplestartedfromme,andImadehastetoputtheroperoundmyankles。

  \"Wemusthaveacare,\"saidthegirlwhohadfreedme;\"acrushofoneoftheirhorridstumpyfeetmightkillaverylittleone!\"

  \"Cantheynotperceiveyouatallthen?\"

  \"Theymightseesomethingmove;andifthechildrenwereinaheaponthetopofyou,astheywereamomentago,itwouldbeterrible;

  fortheyhateeverylivethingbutthemselves。——Notthattheyaremuchaliveeither!\"

  Shewhistledlikeabird。Thenextinstantnotoneofthemwastobeseenorheard,andthegirlherselfhaddisappeared。

  Itwasmymaster,asdoubtlesshecountedhimself,cometotakemehome。Hefreedmyankles,anddraggedmetothedoorofhishut;

  therehethrewmeontheground,againtiedmyfeet,gavemeakick,andleftme。

  NowImightatoncehavemademyescape;butatlengthIhadfriends,andcouldnotthinkofleavingthem。Theyweresocharming,sofullofwinsomeways,thatImustseemoreofthem!Imustknowthembetter!\"To—morrow,\"Isaidtomyselfwithdelight,\"Ishallseethemagain!\"ButfromthemomenttherewassilenceinthehutsuntilIfellasleep,Iheardthemwhisperingallaboutme,andknewthatIwaslovinglywatchedbyamultitude。Afterthat,Ithinktheyhardlyeverleftmequitealone。

  Ididnotcometoknowthegiantsatall,andIbelievetherewasscarcelyanythinginthemtoknow。Theyneverbecameintheleastfriendly,buttheyweremuchtoostupidtoinventcruelties。OftenIavoidedabadkickbycatchingthefootandgivingitsownerafall,uponwhichhenever,onthatoccasion,renewedhisattempt。

  Butthelittlepeoplewereconstantlydoingandsayingthingsthatpleased,oftenthingsthatsurprisedme。EverydayIgrewmoreloathtoleavethem。WhileIwasatwork,theywouldkeepcomingandgoing,amusinganddelightingme,andtakingallthemisery,andmuchofthewearinessoutofmymonotonoustoil。VerysoonIlovedthemmorethanIcantell。Theydidnotknowmuch,buttheywereverywise,andseemedcapableoflearninganything。Ihadnobedsavethebareground,butalmostasoftenasIwoke,itwasinanestofchildren——

  oneorotheroftheminmyarms,thoughwhichIseldomcouldtelluntilthelightcame,fortheyorderedthesuccessionamongthemselves。Whenonecreptintomybosom,unconsciouslyIclaspedhimthere,andtherestlayclosearoundme,thesmallernearer。ItishardlynecessarytosaythatIdidnotsuffermuchfromthenightlycold!Thefirstthingtheydidinthemorning,andthelastbeforesunset,wastobringthegoodgiantplentytoeat。

  OnemorningIwassurprisedonwakingtofindmyselfalone。AsI

  cametomysenses,however,Iheardsubduedsoundsofapproach,andpresentlythegirlalreadymentioned,thetallestandgravestofthecommunity,andregardedbyallastheirmother,appearedfromthewood,followedbythemultitudeinjubilationmanifest——butsilentlesttheyshouldrousethesleepinggiantatwhosedoorI

  lay。Shecarriedaboy—babyinherarms:hithertoagirl—baby,apparentlyaboutayearold,hadbeentheyoungest。Threeofthebiggergirlswerehernurses,buttheysharedtheirtreasurewithalltherest。AmongtheLittleOnes,dollswereunknown;thebiggerhadthesmaller,andthesmallerthestillless,totendandplaywith。

  Lonacametomeandlaidtheinfantinmyarms。Thebabyopenedhiseyesandlookedatme,closedthemagain,andfellasleep。

  \"Helovesyoualready!\"saidthegirl。

  \"Wheredidyoufindhim?\"Iasked。

  \"Inthewood,ofcourse,\"sheanswered,hereyesbeamingwithdelight,\"——wherewealwaysfindthem。Isn\'theabeauty?We\'vebeenoutallnightlookingforhim。Sometimesitisnoteasytofind!\"

  \"Howdoyouknowwhenthereisonetofind?\"Iasked。

  \"Icannottell,\"shereplied。\"Everyonemakeshastetotelltheother,butweneverfindoutwhotoldfirst。SometimesIthinkonemusthavesaiditasleep,andanotherheardithalf—awake。Whenthereisababyinthewood,noonecanstoptoaskquestions;andwhenwehavefoundit,thenitistoolate。\"

  \"Domoreboyorgirlbabiescometothewood?\"

  \"Theydon\'tcometothewood;wegotothewoodandfindthem。\"

  \"Aretheremoreboysorgirlsofyounow?\"

  Ihadfoundthattoaskpreciselythesamequestiontwice,madethemknittheirbrows。

  \"Idonotknow,\"sheanswered。

  \"Youcancountthem,surely!\"

  \"Weneverdothat。Weshouldn\'tliketobecounted。\"

  \"Why?\"

  \"Itwouldn\'tbesmooth。Wewouldrathernotknow。\"

  \"Wheredothebabiescomefromfirst?\"

  \"Fromthewood——always。Thereisnootherplacetheycancomefrom。\"

  Sheknewwheretheycamefromlast,andthoughtnothingelsewastobeknownabouttheiradvent。

  \"Howoftendoyoufindone?\"

  \"Suchahappythingtakesallthegladwe\'vegot,andweforgetthelasttime。Youtooaregladtohavehim——areyounot,goodgiant?\"

  \"Yes,indeed,Iam!\"Ianswered。\"Buthowdoyoufeedhim?\"

  \"Iwillshowyou,\"sherejoined,andwentaway——toreturndirectlywithtwoorthreeripelittleplums。Sheputonetothebaby\'slips。

  \"Hewouldopenhismouthifhewereawake,\"shesaid,andtookhiminherarms。

  Shesqueezedadroptothesurface,andagainheldthefruittothebaby\'slips。Withoutwakinghebeganatoncetosuckit,andshewentonslowlysqueezinguntilnothingbutskinandstonewereleft。

  \"There!\"shecried,inatoneofgentletriumph。\"Abig—appleworlditwouldbewithnothingforthebabies!Wewouldn\'tstopinit——

  wouldwe,darling?Wewouldleaveittothebadgiants!\"

  \"Butwhatifyouletthestoneintothebaby\'smouthwhenyouwerefeedinghim?\"Isaid。

  \"Nomotherwoulddothat,\"shereplied。\"Ishouldn\'tbefittohaveababy!\"

  Ithoughtwhatalovelywomanshewouldgrow。Butwhatbecameofthemwhentheygrewup?Wheredidtheygo?Thatbroughtmeagaintothequestion——wheredidtheycomefromfirst?

  \"Willyoutellmewhereyoulivedbefore?\"Isaid。

  \"Here,\"shereplied。

  \"HaveyouNEVERlivedanywhereelse?\"Iventured。

  \"Never。Weallcamefromthewood。Somethinkwedroppedoutofthetrees。\"

  \"Howisittherearesomanyofyouquitelittle?\"

  \"Idon\'tunderstand。Somearelessandsomearebigger。Iamverybig。\"

  \"Babywillgrowbigger,won\'the?\"

  \"Ofcoursehewill!\"

  \"Andwillyougrowbigger?\"

  \"Idon\'tthinkso。Ihopenot。Iamthebiggest。Itfrightensmesometimes。\"

  \"Whyshoulditfrightenyou?\"

  Shegavemenoanswer。

  \"Howoldareyou?\"Iresumed。

  \"Idonotknowwhatyoumean。Wearealljustthat。\"

  \"Howbigwillthebabygrow?\"

  \"Icannottell。——Some,\"sheadded,withatroubleinhervoice,\"begintogrowafterwethinktheyhavestopped。——Thatisafrightfulthing。Wedon\'ttalkaboutit!\"

  \"Whatmakesitfrightful?\"

  Shewassilentforamoment,thenanswered,\"Wefeartheymaybebeginningtogrowgiants。\"

  \"Whyshouldyoufearthat?\"

  \"Becauseitissoterrible。——Idon\'twanttotalkaboutit!\"

  ShepressedthebabytoherbosomwithsuchananxiouslookthatI

  darednotfurtherquestionher。

  BeforelongIbegantoperceiveintwoorthreeofthesmallerchildrensometracesofgreedandselfishness,andnotedthatthebiggergirlscastontheseanotinfrequentglanceofanxiety。

  Noneofthemputahandtomywork:theywoulddonothingforthegiants!Buttheyneverrelaxedtheirlovingministrationstome。

  Theywouldsingtome,oneafteranother,forhours;climbthetreetoreachmymouthandpopfruitintoitwiththeirdaintylittlefingers;andtheykeptconstantwatchagainsttheapproachofagiant。

  Sometimestheywouldsitandtellmestories——mostlyverychildish,andoftenseemingtomeanhardlyanything。Nowandthentheywouldcallageneralassemblytoamuseme。Ononesuchoccasionamoodylittlefellowsangmeastrangecrooningsong,witharefrainsopatheticthat,althoughunintelligibletome,itcausedthetearstorundownmyface。Thisphenomenonmadethosewhosawitregardmewithmuchperplexity。ThenfirstIbethoughtmyselfthatIhadnotonce,inthatworld,lookedonwater,fallingorlyingorrunning。Plentytherehadbeeninsomelongvanishedage——thatwasplainenough——buttheLittleOneshadneverseenanybeforetheysawmytears!Theyhad,nevertheless,itseemed,somedim,instinctiveperceptionoftheirorigin;foraverysmallchildwentuptothesinger,shookhisclenchedpudinhisface,andsaidsomethinglikethis:\"\'Ouskeezezejuiceoutofzegoodgiant\'sseeberries!Badgiant!\"

  \"Howisit,\"IsaidonedaytoLona,asshesatwiththebabyinherarmsatthefootofmytree,\"thatIneverseeanychildrenamongthegiants?\"

  Shestaredalittle,asiflookinginvainforsomesenseinthequestion,thenreplied,\"Theyaregiants;therearenolittleones。\"

  \"Havetheyneveranychildren?\"Iasked。

  \"No;thereareneveranyinthewoodforthem。Theydonotlovethem。Iftheysawours,theywouldstampthem。\"

  \"Istherealwaysthesamenumberofthegiantsthen?Ithought,beforeIhadtimetoknowbetter,thattheywereyourfathersandmothers。\"

  Sheburstintothemerriestlaughter,andsaid,\"No,goodgiant;WEareTHEIRfirsters。\"

  Butasshesaidit,themerrimentdiedoutofher,andshelookedscared。

  Istoppedworking,andgazedather,bewildered。

  \"HowCANthatbe?\"Iexclaimed。

  \"Idonotsay;Idonotunderstand,\"sheanswered。\"Butwewerehereandtheynot。Theygofromus。Iamsorry,butwecannothelpit。THEYcouldhavehelpedit。\"

  \"Howlonghaveyoubeenhere?\"Iasked,moreandmorepuzzled——inthehopeofsomeside—lightonthematter。

  \"Always,Ithink,\"shereplied。\"Ithinksomebodymadeusalways。\"

  Iturnedtomyscraping。

  ShesawIdidnotunderstand。

  \"Thegiantswerenotmadealways,\"sheresumed。\"IfaLittleOnedoesn\'tcare,hegrowsgreedy,andthenlazy,andthenbig,andthenstupid,andthenbad。Thedullcreaturesdon\'tknowthattheycomefromus。Veryfewofthembelieveweareanywhere。TheysayNONSENSE!——LookatlittleBlunty:heiseatingoneoftheirapples!

  Hewillbethenext!Oh!oh!hewillsoonbebigandbadandugly,andnotknowit!\"

  Thechildstoodbyhimselfalittlewayoff,eatinganapplenearlyasbigashishead。Ihadoftenthoughthedidnotlooksogoodastherest;nowhelookeddisgusting。

  \"Iwilltakethehorridthingfromhim!\"Icried。

  \"Itisnouse,\"sheansweredsadly。\"Wehavedoneallwecan,anditistoolate!Wewereafraidhewasgrowing,forhewouldnotbelieveanythingtoldhim;butwhenherefusedtosharehisberries,andsaidhehadgatheredthemforhimself,thenweknewit!Heisaglutton,andthereisnohopeofhim。——Itmakesmesicktoseehimeat!\"

  \"Couldnotsomeoftheboyswatchhim,andnotlethimtouchthepoisonousthings?\"

  \"Hemayhavethemifhewill:itisallone——toeattheapples,andtobeaboythatwouldeatthemifhecould。No;hemustgotothegiants!Hebelongstothem。Youcanseehowmuchbiggerheisthanwhenfirstyoucame!Heisbiggersinceyesterday。\"

  \"Heisaslikethathideousgreenlumpinhishandasboycouldlook!\"

  \"Itsuitswhatheismakinghimself。\"

  \"Hisheadanditmightchangeplaces!\"

  \"Perhapstheydo!\"

  \"Doeshewanttobeagiant?\"

  \"Hehatesthegiants,butheismakinghimselfoneallthesame:helikestheirapples!Ohbaby,baby,hewasjustsuchadarlingasyouwhenwefoundhim!\"

  \"Hewillbeverymiserablewhenhefindshimselfagiant!\"

  \"Oh,no;hewilllikeitwellenough!Thatistheworstofit。\"

  \"WillhehatetheLittleOnes?\"

  \"Hewillbeliketherest;hewillnotrememberus——mostlikelywillnotbelievethereareLittleOnes。Hewillnotcare;hewilleathisapples。\"

  \"Dotellmehowitwillcomeabout。Iunderstandyourworldsolittle!Icomefromaworldwhereeverythingisdifferent。\"

  \"IdonotknowaboutWORLD。Whatisit?Whatmorebutawordinyourbeautifulbigmouth?——Thatmakesitsomething!\"

  \"Nevermindabouttheword;tellmewhatnextwillhappentoBlunty。\"

  \"Hewillwakeonemorningandfindhimselfagiant——notlikeyou,goodgiant,butlikeanyotherbadgiant。Youwillhardlyknowhim,butIwilltellyouwhich。Hewillthinkhehasbeenagiantalways,andwillnotknowyou,oranyofus。Thegiantshavelostthemselves,Peonysays,andthatiswhytheyneversmile。Iwonderwhethertheyarenotgladbecausetheyarebad,orbadbecausetheyarenotglad。

  Buttheycan\'tbegladwhentheyhavenobabies!IwonderwhatBAD

  means,goodgiant!\"

  \"IwishIknewnomoreaboutitthanyou!\"Ireturned。\"ButItrytobegood,andmeantokeepontrying。\"

  \"SodoI——andthatishowIknowyouaregood。\"

  Alongpausefollowed。

  \"Thenyoudonotknowwherethebabiescomefromintothewood?\"I

  said,makingoneattemptmore。

  \"Thereisnothingtoknowthere,\"sheanswered。\"Theyareinthewood;theygrowthere。\"

  \"Thenhowisityouneverfindonebeforeitisquitegrown?\"I

  asked。

  Sheknittedherbrowsandwassilentamoment:

  \"They\'renottheretillthey\'refinished,\"shesaid。

  \"Itisapitythelittlesilliescan\'tspeaktillthey\'veforgotteneverythingtheyhadtotell!\"Iremarked。

  \"LittleTolma,thelastbeforethisbaby,lookedasifshehadsomethingtotell,whenIfoundherunderabeech—tree,suckingherthumb,butshehadn\'t。Sheonlylookedupatme——oh,sosweetly!

  SHEwillnevergobadandgrowbig!Whentheybegintogrowbigtheycarefornothingbutbigness;andwhentheycannotgrowanybigger,theytrytogrowfatter。Thebadgiantsareveryproudofbeingfat。\"

  \"Sotheyareinmyworld,\"Isaid;\"onlytheydonotsayFATthere,theysayRICH。\"

  \"Inoneoftheirhouses,\"continuedLona,\"sitsthebiggestandfattestofthem——soproudthatnobodycanseehim;andthegiantsgotohishouseatcertaintimes,andcallouttohim,andtellhimhowfatheis,andbeghimtomakethemstrongtoeatmoreandgrowfatlikehim。\"

  TherumouratlengthreachedmyearsthatBluntyhadvanished。I

  sawafewgravefacesamongthebiggerones,buthedidnotseemtobemuchmissed。

  ThenextmorningLonacametomeandwhispered,\"Look!lookthere——bythatquince—tree:thatisthegiantthatwasBlunty!——Wouldyouhaveknownhim?\"

  \"Never,\"Ianswered。\"——Butnowyoutellme,IcouldfancyitmightbeBluntystaringthroughafog!HeDOESlookstupid!\"

  \"Heisforevereatingthoseapplesnow!\"shesaid。\"ThatiswhatcomesofLittleOnesthatWON\'Tbelittle!\"

  \"Theycallitgrowing—upinmyworld!\"Isaidtomyself。\"Ifonlyshewouldteachmetogrowtheotherway,andbecomeaLittleOne!——ShallIeverbeabletolaughlikethem?\"

  Ihadhadthechance,andhadflungitfromme!BluntyandIwerealike!Hedidnotknowhisloss,andIhadtobetaughtmine!

  CHAPTERXIV

  ACRISIS

  ForatimeIhadnodesiresavetospendmylifewiththeLittleOnes。Butsoonotherthoughtsandfeelingsbegantoinfluenceme。

  FirstawokethevaguesensethatIoughttobedoingsomething;thatIwasnotmeantforthefatteningofboors!ThenitcametomethatIwasinamarvellousworld,ofwhichitwasassuredlymybusinesstodiscoverthewaysandlaws;andthat,ifIwoulddoanythinginreturnforthechildren\'sgoodness,Imustlearnmoreaboutthemthantheycouldtellme,andtothatendmustbefree。Surely,I

  thought,nosuppressionoftheirgrowthcanbeessentialtotheirlovelinessandtruthandpurity!Notinanyworldcouldthepossibilityexistofsuchadiscordbetweenconstitutionanditsnaturaloutcome!Lifeandlawcannotbesoatvariancethatperfectionmustbegainedbythwartingdevelopment!ButthegrowthoftheLittleOnesWASarrested!somethinginterferedwithit:

  whatwasit?Lonaseemedtheeldestofthem,yetnotmorethanfifteen,andhadbeenlonginchargeofamultitude,insemblanceandmostlyinbehaviourmerestchildren,whoregardedherastheirmother!Weretheygrowingatall?Idoubtedit。Oftimetheyhadscarcelytheidea;oftheirownagetheyknewnothing!Lonaherselfthoughtshehadlivedalways!Fullofwisdomandemptyofknowledge,shewasatoncetheirLoveandtheirLaw!Butwhatseemedtomeherignorancemightintruthbemyownlackofinsight!Heroneanxietyplainlywas,thatherLittleOnesshouldnotgrow,andchangeintobadgiants!Their\"goodgiant\"wasboundtodohisbestforthem:withoutmoreknowledgeoftheirnature,andsomeknowledgeoftheirhistory,hecoulddonothing,andmustthereforeleavethem!Theywouldonlybeastheywerebefore;theyhadinnowaybecomedependentonme;theywerestillmyprotectors,Iwasnottheirs;mypresencebutbroughtthemmoreindangeroftheiridioticneighbours!Ilongedtoteachthemmanythings:ImustfirstunderstandmoreofthoseIwouldteach!Knowledgenodoubtmadebadpeopleworse,butitmustmakegoodpeoplebetter!Iwasconvincedtheywouldlearnmathematics;andmighttheynotbetaughttowritedownthedaintymelodiestheymurmuredandforgot?

  Theconclusionwas,thatImustriseandcontinuemytravels,inthehopeofcominguponsomeelucidationofthefortunesanddestinyofthebewitchinglittlecreatures。

  Mydesign,however,wouldnotsosoonhavepassedintoaction,butforwhatnowoccurred。

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