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  IHAVEattainedmyideal:Iamaroadmender,somesaystonebreaker。Bothtitlesarecorrect,buttheoneismorepregnantthantheother。AlldayIsitbytheroadsideonastretchofgrassunderahighhedgeofsaplingsandatangleoftraveller\'sjoy,woodbine,sweetbrier,andlateroses。Oppositemeisawhitegate,seldomused,ifonemayjudgefromthetrailofhoneysucklegrowingtranquillyalongit:IknownowthatwheneverandwhereverIdiemysoulwillpassoutthroughthiswhitegate;

  andthen,thankGod,Ishallnothaveneedtoundothattrail。

  Inouryouthwediscussedouridealsfreely:Iwonderhowmanybesidemyselfhaveattained,orwouldunderstandmyattaining。

  Afterall,whatdoweaskoflife,hereorindeedhereafter,butleavetoserve,tolive,tocommunewithourfellowmenandwithourselves;andfromthelapofearthtolookupintothefaceofGod?AllthesegiftsaremineasIsitbythewindingwhiteroadandservethefootstepsofmyfellows。Thereisnoroominmylifeforavariceoranxiety;Iwhoserveatthealtarliveofthealtar:

  Ilacknothingbuthavenothingover;andwhenthewinteroflifecomesIshalljointhecompanyofwearyoldmenwhositonthesunnysideoftheworkhousewallandwaitforthetendermerciesofGod。

  Justnowitisthesummerofthings;thereislifeandmusiceverywhere-inthestonesthemselves,andIliveto-daybeatingouttherhythmicalhammer-songofTheRing。Thereisrealphysicaljoyintheriseandswingofthearm,inthejarofafairstroke,thesplitandscatterofthequartz:Iamlearningtobeambidextrous,forwhyshouldEsausellhisbirthrightwhenthereisenoughforboth?Thentherest-hourcomes,bringingtheluxuriousacheoftiredbutnotwearylimbs;andIlieoutstretchedandrenewmystrength,sometimeswithmyfacedeep-nestledinthecoolgreengrass,sometimesonmybacklookingupintotheblueskywhichnowisemanwouldwishtofathom。

  Thebirdshavenofearofme;amInotalsoofthebrownbrethreninmysoberfustianlivery?Theysharemymeals-atleastthelittledun-coatedFranciscansdo;theblackbirdsandthrushescarenotawhitforsuchsimplefoodascrumbs,butwithlegswellapartandclawstensewithpurchasetheydisinterpoorbrotherworm,havingfirstmockedhimwithsoundofrain。Therobinthatlivesbythegateregardsmyheapofstonesassubjecttohisspecialinspection。Hesitsatopandpractisesthetrillofhissummersonguntilitshrillsaboveandthroughthemetallicclangofmystrokes;andwhenIpausehecockshistail,withahumoroustwinkleofhisroundeyewhichmeans-\"What!shirking,bigbrother?\"-andIfall,ashamed,tomymendingofroads。

  Theotherday,asIlaywithmyfaceinthegrass,Iheardagentlerustle,andraisedmyheadtofindahedge-snakewatchingmefearless,unwinking。Istretchedoutmyhand,pickeditupunresisting,andputitinmycoatlikethehusbandmanofold。Washesoill-rewarded,Iwonder,withthekissthatrevealssecrets?

  MysnakesleptinpeacewhileIhammeredawaywithanoddquickeningofheartasIthoughthowtome,astoMelampus,hadcomethemessenger-hadcome,buttoearsdeafenedbycenturiesofmisrule,blindness,andoppression;sothat,withallmylonging,I

  amshutoutofthewondrousworldwherewalkedMelampusandtheSaint。Tomethereisnosuggestionofevilinthelittlesilentcreatures,harmless,ordeadlyonlywiththeDeathwhichisLife。

  Thebeastswhoturnuponus,asarulemaulandtearunreflectingly;withthesnakethereistheswift,silentstrike,thetiny,tinywound,thensleepandaforgetting。

  Mybrownfriend,withitsmessageunspoken,slidawayintothegrassatsundowntotellitstaleinunstoppedears;andI,mytaskdone,wenthomeacrossthefieldstothesolitarycottagewhereI

  lodge。Itisoldanddecrepit-tworooms,withaquasi-atticoverthemreachedbyaladderfromthekitchenandreachedonlybyme。

  Itisfurnishedwiththeluxuriesoflife,atrucklebed,table,chair,andhugeearthenwarepanwhichIfillfromtheice-coldwellatthebackofthecottage。MorningandnightIservewiththeGibeonites,theircursemyblessing,asnodoubtitwastheirswhentheirheartswerepurgedbyservice。MorningandnightIsenddownthemoss-grownbucketwithitsurgentmessagefromadryanddustyworld;thechaintightensthroughmyhandastheliquidtreasurerespondstothemessenger,andthenwithcreakandjangle-thewelcomeoflabouringearth-thebucketslowlynearsthetopanddispersesthetreasureinthewaitingvessels。TheGibeoniteswereservantsinthehouseofGod,ministersofthesacramentofserviceevenastheHighPriesthimself;andI,sharingtheirhighofficeofservitude,thankGodthatthegroundwasaccursedformysake,forsurelythatcursewasthewombofallunbornblessing。

  TheoldwidowwithwhomIlodgehasbeendeafforthelasttwentyyears。Shespeaksinthestrainedhighvoicewhichprotestsagainstherowninfirmity,andhereyeshavethepatheticlookofthosewhosearchinsilence。Formanyyearsshelivedalonewithherson,wholabouredonthefarmtwomilesaway。Hemethisdeathrescuingacarthorsefromitsburningstable;andthefarmergavethecottagerentfreeandaweeklyhalf-crownforlifetothepooroldwomanwhosedearestterrorwastheworkhouse。Withmyshillingaweekrent,andsharingofsupplies,weliveinthelinesofcomfort。Ofdeathshehasnofears,forinthelongchestinthekitchenlieawebofcoarsewhitelinen,twopenniescoveredwiththesametokeepdowntiredeyelids,decentwhitestockings,andawhitecottonsun-bonnet-adecorousdeath-suittruly-andenoughmoneyinthelittlebagforself-respectingburial。Thefarmerburiedhisservanthandsomely-goodman,heknewtheloveofreticentgrieffora\'kind\'burial-andonedayHarry\'smotheristoliebesidehiminthelittlechurchyardwhichhasbeenacornfield,andmaysomedaybeoneagain。

  CHAPTERII

  ONSundaysmyfeettakeeverthesameway。Firstmytempleservice,andthenfivemilestrampoverthetender,dewyfields,withtheirineffableearthysmell,untilIreachthelittlechurchatthefootofthegrey-greendown。Here,everySunday,ayoungpriestfromaneighbouringvillagesaysMassforthetinyhamlet,whereallareveryoldorveryyoung-fortheheydayoflifehasnopartunderthelongshadowofthehills,butisawayatseaorinservice。ThereisabeautifulseemlinessintheextremeyouthofthepriestwhoservestheseagedchildrenofGod。Hebendstocommunicatethemwiththereverenttendernessofason,andreadswiththecarefulintonationoffar-seeinglove。Totheoldpeopleheisthesonoftheiroldage,God-senttoguidetheirtotteringfootstepsalongthehighwayoffoolishwayfarers;andhe,withhisyouthandstrength,wishesnobettertask。Serviceended,wegreeteachotherfriendly-formenshouldnotbestrangeintheacreofGod;andIpassthroughthelittlehamletandoutanduponthegreydownbeyond。Here,atthelastgate,Ipauseforbreakfast;

  andthenupandonwithquickeningpulse,andevergreenmemoryofthewearywar-wornGreekswhobrokeranktogreetthegreatblueMother-waythatledtohome。Istandonthesummithatless,thewindinmyhair,thesmackofsaltonmycheek,allroundmerollingstretchesofcloud-shadoweddown,nosoundbuttheshrillmournofthepeewitandthegatheringofthesea。

  Thehourspass,theshadowslengthen,thesheep-bellsclang;andI

  lieinmynicheunderthestuntedhawthornwatchingthetoandfroofthesea,andAEolusshepherdinghiswhitesheepacrosstheblue。

  Ilovetheseawithitsimpenetrablefathoms,itswashandundertow,andraspofshinglesuckedanew。IloveitforitssecretdeadintheCavernsofPeace,ofwhichaccountmustbegivenwhenthebooksareopenedandearthandheavenhavefledaway。Yetinmylovethereisaparadox,forasIwatchtherestless,ineffectivewavesIthinkofthemeasureless,reflectivedepthsofthestillandsilentSeaofGlass,ofthedead,smallandgreat,richorpoor,withtheworkswhichfollowthem,andoftheVoiceasthevoiceofmanywaters,whenthemultitudeofonemindrendsheavenwithalleluia:andIliesostillthatIalmostfeelthekissofWhitePeaceonmymouth。Laterstill,whentheflareofthesinkingsunhasdiedawayandthestarsriseoutofaveilofpurplecloud,Itakemywayhome,downtheslopes,throughthehamlet,andacrossmilesofsleepingfields;overwhichnighthasthrownhershiftingwebofmist-hometothelittleattic,thedeep,coolwell,thekindlywrinkledfacewithitslisteningeyes-

  peaceinmyheartandthankfulnessfortherhythmoftheroad。

  Mondaybringsthejoyofwork,secondonlytotheSabbathofrest,andIsettletomyheapbythewhitegate。SoonIhearthedistantstampofhorsehoofs,heraldingthegrindandrollofthewheelswhichreachesmelater-aheavyflour-waggonwithateamoffourgreatgentlehorses,gaywithbrasstrappingsandscarletear-caps。

  Onthetopofthecraftilypiledsacksliesthewhite-cladwaggoner,apinkinhismouthwhichhemumblesmeditatively,andthereinsloopedovertheinactivewhip-whyshouldhedriveawillingteamthatknowsthejourneyandrespondsasstrenuouslytoacheerychirrupastothewell-directedlash?Wegreetandpassthetimeofday,andashemountstherisehecallsbackawarningofcomingrain。Iamalreadywhitewithdustashewithflour,sacramentaldust,theoutwardandvisiblesignofthestirandbeatoftheheartoflabouringlife。

  Nexttopassdowntheroadisananxiousruffledhen,herspeckledbreastastirwithmaternaltroubles。Shewalksdelicately,liftingherfeethighandglancingfurtivelyfromsidetosidewithcomblowdressed。Thesightofman,theheartlessegg-collector,fromwhosehauntsshehasfled,wringsfromherastartledcluck,andshemakesforthewhitegate,climbsthrough,anddisappears。I

  knowherfeelingstoowelltointrude。Manytimesalreadyhasshehiddenherself,amassedfourorfiveprecioustreasures,broodingoverthemwithanxioushope;andthen,afterabriefdesertiontoseekthenecessaryfood,shehasreturnedtofindhereffortsatconcealmentvain,hertreasuresgone。Atlast,withthecourageofdespairshehasresolvedtobravetheterrorsoftheunknownandseekahauntbeyondthetyrannyofman。Iwillwatchoverherfromafar,andwhenhermother-hopeisfulfilledIwillmarshalherandherbroodbacktothefarmwhereshebelongs;forwhatendIcarenottothink,itisofthemysterywhichliesattheheartofthings;andweareallGod\'sbeasts,saysStAugustine。

  Hereismystone-song,aparaphraseoftheTreasureMotif。

  [Musicscorewhichcannotbereproduced。ItisF#dottedcrotchet,F#quaver,F#quaver,F#dottedcrotchet,Dcrotchet,Ecrotchet。

  Thisbaristhenrepeatedoncemore。]

  WhatawonderfulworkWagnerhasdoneforhumanityintranslatingthetoiloflifeintothereadablescriptofmusic!Forthosewhoseekthetaleofotherworldshismagicissilent;butearth-

  travailunderhiswandbecomesinstinctwithrhythmicsongtoanaccompanimentoftheelements,andtheblareandcrashofthebottomlesspititself。ThePilgrim\'sMarchisthesadsoundoffootsoremen;theSanGraalthetremulousyearningofservitudeforricher,deeperbondage。Theyellow,thirstyflameslickupthewillingsacrifice,thewaterwailsthesecretoftheriverandthesea;thebirdsandbeasts,theshepherdwithhispipe,theundergroundlifeinrocksandcaverns,allcrytheirmessagetothisnineteenth-centurytoiling,labouringworld-andtomeasI

  mendmyroad。

  TwotrampscomeandflingthemselvesbymeasIeatmynoondaymeal。Theone,red-eyed,furtive,liesonhissidewithrestless,clutchinghandsthattearandtwistandtorturethelivinggrass,whilehislipsmutterincoherently。Theothersitsstooped,bare-

  footed,legswideapart,hisfacegrey,almostasgreyashisstubblybeard;anditisnotlongsinceDeathlookedhimintheeyes。Hetellsmequerulouslyofatwohundredmilestrampsinceearlyspring,ofsearchforwork,casualjobswithmorekicksthanhalfpence,andabriefbutblissfulsojourninahospitalbed,fromwhichhewasdismissedwithsentencepasseduponhim。Forhimself,heisdeterminedtodieontheroadunderahedge,whereamancanseeandbreathe。Hisanxietyisallforhisfellow;HEhassaidhewill\"doforaman\";hewantsto\"swing,\"togetoutofhis\"dog\'slife。\"Iwatchhimashelies,thisIshmaelandwould-beLamech。

  Ignorance,hunger,terror,theexhaustionofpastgenerations,havedonetheirwork。Themanismad,andwouldkillhisfellowman。

  Presentlywepart,andthetwogo,doggedandfootsore,downtheroadwhichistoleadthemintothegreatsilence。

  CHAPTERIII

  YESTERDAYwasadayofencounters。

  First,earlyinthemorning,ayounggirlcamedowntheroadonabicycle。Herdressguardwasloose,andshestoppedtoaskforapieceofstring。WhenIhadtieditforhershelookedatme,atmyworndustyclothesandburntface;andthenshetookaNiphetosrosefromherbeltandlaiditshylyinmydirtydisfiguredpalm。

  Ibaredmyhead,andstoodhatinhandlookingafterherassherodeawayupthehill。ThenItookmytreasureandputitinanestofcooldewygrassunderthehedge。ECCEANCILLADOMINI。

  Mynextvisitorwasafellow-workeronhiswaytoajobatthecross-roads。Hestoodgazingmeditativelyatmyheapofstones。

  \"Owlong\'aveyerbinatthisjobthaty\'ereinsuchahurry?\"

  Istayedmyhammertoanswer-\"Fourmonths。\"

  \"Seenbetterdays?\"

  \"Never,\"Isaidemphatically,andpunctuatedtheremarkwithastonesplitneatlyinfour。

  Themansurveyedmeinsilenceforamoment;thenhesaidslowly,\"Meantersayyerlikecrackin\'theseblamedstonestofill\'olessomeotherfool\'smade?\"

  Inodded。

  \"Well,thatbeatseverything。Now,I\'AVEseenbetterdays;workedinabigbreweryovernearMaidstone-atownthat,andsomethingdoing;andnow,\'ereIam,\'ammeringme\'eartoutontheseblastedstonesforabito\'breadandapipeo\'baccyonceaweek-itain\'tgoodenough。\"Hepulledablackenedclayfromhispocketandbeganslowlyfillingitwithranktobacco;thenhelititcarefullybehindhisbatteredhat,putthespentmatchbackinhispocket,rosetohisfeet,hitchedhisbraces,and,withasilentnodtome,wentontohisjob。

  Whydowegivethesetiredchildren,whosemindsmoveslowly,whoseeyesareholdenthattheycannotreadtheBook,whoseheartsarefullofsoreresentmentagainsttheyknownotwhat,suchworkasthistodo-hammeringtheirheartsoutforabitofbread?Allthepathosofunreasoninglabourringsinthesefewwords。Wefitthecollaronunwillingnecks;andwhentheirserviceisoverwebidthemgooutfree;butwebreakthegoodMosaiclawandsendthemawayempty。Whatwonderthereissolittlewillingservice,sofewearsreadytobethrustthroughagainstthemaster\'sdoor。

  Theswiftstrideofcivilisationisleavingbehindindividualeffort,andturningmanintotheDaemonofamachine。Toandfroinfrontofthelongloom,liftingaleverateitherend,paceshewhooncewithpainstakingintelligencedrovetheshuttle。THENhetastedthejoyofcompletedwork,thatwhichhiseyehadlookedupon,andhishandshadhandled;nowhisworkisaslittlefinishedasthewebofPenelope。Oncethereapergraspedthegoldencornstems,andwithdexteroussweepofsicklesetfreethetreasureoftheearth。Oncethecreaturesofthefieldwereknowntohim,andhiseyecaughttheflareofscarletandblueasthefrailpoppiesandsturdycorn-cockleslaiddowntheirbeautyathisfeet;nowhesitssereneonJuggernaut\'scar,itsguidingDaemon,andthefieldissilenttohim。

  Aswiththewebandthegrainsowiththewoodandstoneinthetreasure-houseofourneeds。ThegroundwasaccursedFOROURSAKE

  thatinthesweatofourbrowwemighteatbread。Nowthemanyliveinthebrain-sweatofthefew;anditmustbeso,foraslittleasgreatKingCnutcouldstaytheseauntilithadreachedtheappointedplace,solittlecanweraiseabarriertothewaveofprogress,andsay,\"Thusfarandnofurthershaltthoucome。\"

  Whatthen?Thisatleast;ifweliveinanageofmechanismletusseetoitthatwearearaceofintelligentmechanics;andifmanistobetheDaemonofamachinelethimknowthesettingoftheknives,theriseofthepiston,thepartthateachwheelandrodplaysintheeconomyofthewhole,thepartthathehimselfplays,co-operatingwithit。Then,whenhehaslivedandservedintelligently,letusgivehimofourflocksandofourfloorthathemaylearntorestinthelengtheningshadowsuntilheiscalledtohisworkabove。

  SoIsat,hammeringoutmythoughts,andwiththemtheconvictionthatstonebreakingshouldbeallottedtominorpoetsorvagrantchildrenofnaturelikemyself,nevertosuchtiredfolkasmypoormateatthecross-roadsandhisfellows。

  Atnoon,whenIstoppedformymeal,thesunwasbakingthehardwhiteroadinapitilessglare。Severalwaggonsandcartspassed,thehorsessweatingandstraining,withdrooping,fly-tormentedears。Themenforthemostpartnoddedslumberouslyontheshaft,seekingthelittleshelterthecartafforded;butoneshuffledinthewhitedust,withanoccasionalchirrupandfriendlypressureonthetiredhorse\'sneck。

  Thenanoldwomanandasmallchildappearedinsight,bothwithenormoussun-bonnetsandcarryingbaskets。Astheycameupwithmethewomanstoppedandsweptherfacewithherhand,whilethechild,depositingthebasketinthedustwithgreatcare,wipedherlittlestickyfingersonherpinafore。Thentheshadyhedgebeckonedthemandtheycameandsatdownnearme。Thewomanlookedaboutseventy,tall,angular,dauntless,goodforanothertenyearsofhardwork。Thelittlemaid-heronlygrandchild,shetoldme-

  wasjustfour,herfatherawaysoldiering,andthemotherdiedinchildbed,soforfouryearsthechildhadknownnootherguardianorplaymatethantheoldwoman。Shewasnottheleastshy,buthadthestrangeself-possessionwhichcomesfromassociatingwithonewhohastravelledfaronlife\'sjourney。

  \"Icouldn\'tleaveheraloneinthehouse,\"saidhergrandmother,\"andshewouldn\'tleavethekittenforfearitshouldbelonesome\"-

  withahumorous,tenderglanceatthechild-\"butit\'salongtrampintheheatforthelittleone,andwe\'veanothermiletogo。\"

  \"Willyouletherbideheretillyoucomeback?\"Isaid。\"She\'llbeallrightbyme。\"

  Theoldladyhesitated。

  \"Will\'eestaybyhim,dearie?\"shesaid。

  Thesmallchildnodded,drewfromherminiaturepocketapieceofsweetstuff,extractedfromthebasketasmallblackcat,andsettledinfortheafternoon。Hergrandmotherrose,tookherbasket,and,withanodand\"Thank\'eekindly,mister,\"wentoffdowntheroad。

  Iwentbacktomyworkalittledepressed-whyhadInotwhitehair?-forafewminuteshadshownmethatIwasnotoldenoughforthechilddespitemyfortyyears。Shewasquitehappywiththelittleblackcat,whichlayinthesmalllapblinkingitsyelloweyesatthesun;andpresentlyanoldmancameby,lameandbent,withgnarledtwistedhands,leaningheavilyonhisstick。

  Hegreetedmeinahigh,pipingvoice,limpedacrosstothechild,andsatdown。\"Yourlittlemaid,mister?\"hesaid。

  Iexplained。

  \"Ah,\"hesaid,\"I\'veleftalittledarlin\'likethisat\'ome。It\'s\'ardonusoldfolkswhenwe\'reonetoomany;butthelittlemouthsmustbefilled,andmyson,\'esaid\'edidn\'tseetheycouldkeepmeonthearf-crown,withanotherchildontheway;soI\'mtrampingtoN-,totheHouse;butit\'sa\'ardpinch,leavin\'thelittleones。\"

  Ilookedathim-atypicalcountryman,withwhitehair,mildblueeyes,andarosy,childish,unwrinkledface。

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