derivedfromtheseexploits;yetImeditatednothing。Myviewswereboundedtothepassingmoment,andcommonlysuggestedbythemomentaryexigence。
\"Imustnotconcealanything。Yourprinciplesteachyoutoabhoravoluptuoustemper;but,withwhateverreluctance,I
acknowledgethistempertobemine。YouimagineyourservantJudithtobeinnocentaswellasbeautiful;butyoutookherfromafamilywherehypocrisy,aswellaslicentiousness,waswroughtintoasystem。Myattentionwascaptivatedbyhercharms,andherprincipleswereeasilyseentobeflexible。
\"Deemmenotcapableoftheiniquityofseduction。Yourservantisnotdestituteoffeminineandvirtuousqualities;butshewastaughtthatthebestuseofhercharmsconsistsinthesaleofthem。MynocturnalvisitstoMettingenwerenowpromptedbyadoubleview,andmycorrespondencewithyourservantgaveme,atalltimes,accesstoyourhouse。
\"Thesecondnightafterourinterview,sobriefandsolittleforeseenbyeitherofus,somedaemonofmischiefseizedme。
Accordingtomycompanion\'sreport,yourperfectionswerelittlelessthandivine。Heruncouthbutcopiousnarrativesconvertedyouintoanobjectofworship。Shechieflydweltuponyourcourage,becausesheherselfwasdeficientinthatquality。Youheldapparitionsandgoblinsincontempt。Youtooknoprecautionsagainstrobbers。Youwerejustastranquilandsecureinthislonelydwelling,asifyouwereinthemidstofacrowd。
\"Henceavagueprojectoccurredtome,toputthiscouragetothetest。Awomancapableofrecollectionindanger,ofwardingoffgroundlesspanics,ofdiscerningthetruemodeofproceeding,andprofitingbyherbestresources,isaprodigy。
Iwasdesirousofascertainingwhetheryouweresuchanone。
\"Myexpedientwasobviousandsimple:Iwastocounterfeitamurderousdialogue;butthiswastobesoconductedthatanother,andnotyourself,shouldappeartobetheobject。I
wasnotawareofthepossibilitythatyoushouldappropriatethesemenacestoyourself。Hadyoubeenstillandlistened,youwouldhaveheardthestrugglesandprayersofthevictim,whowouldlikewisehaveappearedtobeshutupinthecloset,andwhosevoicewouldhavebeenJudith\'s。Thisscenewouldhavebeenanappealtoyourcompassion;andtheproofofcowardiceorcouragewhichIexpectedfromyou,wouldhavebeenyourremaininginactiveinyourbed,oryourenteringtheclosetwithaviewtoassistthesufferer。SomeinstanceswhichJudithrelatedofyourfearlessnessandpromptitudemademeadoptthelattersuppositionwithsomedegreeofconfidence。
\"Bythegirl\'sdirectionIfoundaladder,andmountedtoyourclosetwindow。Thisisscarcelylargeenoughtoadmitthehead,butitansweredmypurposetoowell。
\"Icannotexpressmyconfusionandsurprizeatyourabruptandprecipitateflight。Ihastilyremovedtheladder;and,aftersomepause,curiosityanddoubtsofyoursafetyinducedmetofollowyou。Ifoundyoustretchedontheturfbeforeyourbrother\'sdoor,withoutsenseormotion。Ifeltthedeepestregretatthisunlooked-forconsequenceofmyscheme。Iknewnotwhattodotoprocureyourelief。Theideaofawakeningthefamilynaturallypresenteditself。Thisemergencywascritical,andtherewasnotimetodeliberate。Itwasasuddenthoughtthatoccurred。Iputmylipstothekey-hole,andsoundedanalarmwhicheffectuallyrousedthesleepers。Myorganswerenaturallyforcible,andhadbeenimprovedbylongandassiduousexercise。
\"LongandbitterlydidIrepentofmyscheme。Iwassomewhatconsoledbyreflectingthatmypurposehadnotbeenevil,andrenewedmyfruitlessvowsnevertoattemptsuchdangerousexperiments。ForsometimeIadhered,withlaudableforbearance,tothisresolution。
\"Mylifehasbeenalifeofhardshipandexposure。InthesummerIprefertomakemybedofthesmoothturf,or,atmost,theshelterofasummer-housesuffices。InallmyramblesI
neverfoundaspotinwhichsomanypicturesquebeautiesandruraldelightswereassembledasatMettingen。Nocornerofyourlittledomainunitesfragranceandsecrecyinsoperfectadegreeastherecessinthebank。Theodourofitsleaves,thecoolnessofitsshade,andthemusicofitswater-fall,hadearlyattractedmyattention。Heremysadnesswasconvertedintopeacefulmelancholy——heremyslumbersweresound,andmypleasuresenhanced。
\"Asmostfreefrominterruption,IchosethisasthesceneofmymidnightinterviewswithJudith。Oneevening,asthesundeclined,Iwasseatedhere,whenIwasalarmedbyyourapproach。ItwaswithdifficultythatIeffectedmyescapeunnoticedbyyou。
\"Atthecustomaryhour,Ireturnedtoyourhabitation,andwasmadeacquaintedbyJudith,withyourunusualabsence。I
halfsuspectedthetruecause,andfeltuneasinessatthedangertherewasthatIshouldbedeprivedofmyretreat;or,atleast,interruptedinthepossessionofit。Thegirl,likewise,informedme,thatamongyourothersingularities,itwasnotuncommonforyoutoleaveyourbed,andwalkforthforthesakeofnight-airsandstarlightcontemplations。
\"Idesiredtopreventthisinconvenience。Ifoundyoueasilyswayedbyfear。Iwasinfluenced,inmychoiceofmeans,bythefacilityandcertaintyofthattowhichIhadbeenaccustomed。
AllthatIforsawwas,that,infuture,thisspotwouldbecautiouslyshunnedbyyou。
\"Ienteredtherecesswiththeutmostcaution,anddiscovered,byyourbreathings,inwhatconditionyouwere。Theunexpectedinterpretationwhichyouplaceduponmyformerproceeding,suggestedmyconductonthepresentoccasion。Themodeinwhichheavenissaidbythepoet,tointerfereforthepreventionofcrimes,**wassomewhatanalogoustomyprovince,andneverfailedtooccurtomeatseasonslikethis。Itwasrequisitetobreakyourslumbers,andforthisendIutteredthepowerfulmonosyllable,\"hold!hold!\"Mypurposewasnotprescribedbyduty,yetsurelyitwasfarfrombeingatrociousandinexpiable。Toeffectit,Iutteredwhatwasfalse,butitwaswellsuitedtomypurpose。Nothinglesswasintendedthantoinjureyou。Nay,theevilresultingfrommyformeract,waspartlyremovedbyassuringyouthatinallplacesbutthisyouweresafe。
*BILOQUIUM,orventrilocution。Soundisvariedaccordingtothevariationsofdirectionanddistance。Theartoftheventriloquistconsistsinmodifyinghisvoiceaccordingtoallthesevariations,withoutchanginghisplace。SeetheworkoftheAbbedelaChappelle,inwhichareaccuratelyrecordedtheperformancesofoneoftheseartists,andsomeingenious,thoughunsatisfactoryspeculationsaregivenonthemeansbywhichtheeffectsareproduced。Thispoweris,perhaps,givenbynature,butisdoubtlessimprovable,ifnotacquirable,byart。Itmay,possibly,consistinanunusualflexibilityorexertionofthebottomofthetongueandtheuvula。Thatspeechisproduciblebythesealonemustbegranted,sinceanatomistsmentiontwoinstancesofpersonsspeakingwithoutatongue。Inonecase,theorganwasoriginallywanting,butitsplacewassuppliedbyasmalltubercle,andtheuvulawasperfect。Intheother,thetonguewasdestroyedbydisease,butprobablyasmallpartofitremained。
Thispowerisdifficulttoexplain,butthefactisundeniable。Experienceshewsthatthehumanvoicecanimitatethevoiceofallmenandofallinferioranimals。Thesoundofmusicalinstruments,andevennoisesfromthecontactofinanimatesubstances,havebeenaccuratelyimitated。Themimicryofanimalsisnotorious;andDr。BurneyMusicalTravelsmentionsonewhoimitatedafluteandviolin,soastodeceiveevenhisears。
**——Peepsthroughtheblanketofthedark,andcriesHold!
Hold!——SHAKESPEARE。
ChapterXXIII
\"Mymoralswillappeartoyoufarfromrigid,yetmyconductwillfallshortofyoursuspicions。Iamnowtoconfessactionslessexcusable,andyetsurelytheywillnotentitlemetothenameofadesperateorsordidcriminal。
\"Yourhousewasrendered,byyourfrequentandlongabsences,easilyaccessibletomycuriosity。MymeetingwithPleyelwasthepreludetodirectintercoursewithyou。Ihadseenmuchoftheworld,butyourcharacterexhibitedaspecimenofhumanpowersthatwaswhollynewtome。Myintercoursewithyourservantfurnishedmewithcuriousdetailsofyourdomesticmanagement。Iwasofadifferentsex:Iwasnotyourhusband;
Iwasnotevenyourfriend;yetmyknowledgeofyouwasofthatkind,whichconjugalintimaciescangive,and,insomerespects,moreaccurate。Theobservationofyourdomesticwasguidedbyme。
\"YouwillnotbesurprizedthatIshouldsometimesprofitbyyourabsence,andadventuretoexaminewithmyowneyes,theinteriorofyourchamber。Uprightandsincere,youusednowatchfulness,andpractisednoprecautions。Iscrutinizedeverything,andpriedeverywhere。Yourclosetwasusuallylocked,butitwasoncemyfortunetofindthekeyonabureau。I
openedandfoundnewscopeformycuriosityinyourbooks。Oneofthesewasmanuscript,andwrittenincharacterswhichessentiallyagreedwithashort-handsystemwhichIhadlearnedfromaJesuitmissionary。
\"Icannotjustifymyconduct,yetmyonlycrimewascuriosity。Iperusedthisvolumewitheagerness。Theintellectwhichitunveiled,wasbrighterthanmylimitedandfeebleorganscouldbear。Iwasnaturallyinquisitiveastoyourideasrespectingmydeportment,andthemysteriesthathadlatelyoccurred。
\"Youknowwhatyouhavewritten。Youknowthatinthisvolumethekeytoyourinmostsoulwascontained。IfIhadbeenaprofoundandmalignantimpostor,whatplenteousmaterialswerethusfurnishedmeofstratagemsandplots!
\"Thecoincidenceofyourdreaminthesummer-housewithmyexclamation,wastrulywonderful。Thevoicewhichwarnedyoutoforbearwas,doubtless,mine;butmixedbyacommonprocessofthefancy,withthetrainofvisionaryincidents。
\"Isawinastrongerlightthanever,thedangerousnessofthatinstrumentwhichIemployed,andrenewedmyresolutionstoabstainfromtheuseofitinfuture;butIwasdestinedperpetuallytoviolatemyresolutions。Bysomeperversefate,Iwasledintocircumstancesinwhichtheexertionofmypowerswasthesoleorthebestmeansofescape。
\"Onthatmemorablenightonwhichourlastinterviewtookplace,IcameasusualtoMettingen。Iwasapprizedofyourengagementatyourbrother\'s,fromwhichyoudidnotexpecttoreturntilllate。Someincidentsuggestedthedesignofvisitingyourchamber。AmongyourbookswhichIhadnotexamined,mightbesomethingtendingtoillustrateyourcharacter,orthehistoryofyourfamily。Someintimationhadbeendroppedbyyouindiscourse,respectingaperformanceofyourfather,inwhichsomeimportanttransactioninhislifewasrecorded。
\"Iwasdesirousofseeingthisbook;andsuchwasmyhabitualattachmenttomystery,thatIpreferredtheclandestineperusalofit。Suchwerethemotivesthatinducedmetomakethisattempt。Judithhaddisappeared,andfindingthehouseunoccupied,Isuppliedmyselfwithalight,andproceededtoyourchamber。
\"Ifounditeasy,onexperiment,tolockandunlockyourclosetdoorwithouttheaidofakey。Ishutmyselfinthisrecess,andwasbusilyexploringyourshelves,whenIheardsomeoneentertheroombelow。Iwasatalosswhoitcouldbe,whetheryouoryourservant。Doubtful,however,asIwas,I
conceiveditprudenttoextinguishthelight。Scarcelywasthisdone,whensomeoneenteredthechamber。Thefootstepswereeasilydistinguishedtobeyours。
\"Mysituationwasnowfullofdangerandperplexity。Forsometime,Icherishedthehopethatyouwouldleavetheroomsolongastoaffordmeanopportunityofescaping。Asthehourspassed,thishopegraduallydesertedme。Itwasplainthatyouhadretiredforthenight。
\"Iknewnothowsoonyoumightfindoccasiontoenterthecloset。Iwasalivetoallthehorrorsofdetection,andruminatedwithoutceasing,onthebehaviourwhichitwouldbeproper,incaseofdetection,toadopt。Iwasunabletodiscoveranyconsistentmethodofaccountingformybeingthusimmured。
\"ItoccurredtomethatImightwithdrawyoufromyourchamberforafewminutes,bycounterfeitingavoicefromwithout。Somemessagefromyourbrothermightbedelivered,requiringyourpresenceathishouse。IwasdeterredfromthisschemebyreflectingontheresolutionIhadformed,andonthepossibleevilsthatmightresultfromit。Besides,itwasnotimprobablethatyouwouldspeedilyretiretobed,andthen,bytheexerciseofsufficientcaution,Imighthopetoescapeunobserved。
\"MeanwhileIlistenedwiththedeepestanxietytoeverymotionfromwithout。Idiscoverednothingwhichbetokenedpreparationforsleep。InsteadofthisIhearddeep-drawnsighs,andoccasionallyanhalf-expressedandmournfulejaculation。HenceIinferredthatyouwereunhappy。ThetruestateofyourmindwithregardtoPleyelyourownpenhaddisclosed;butIsupposedyoutobeframedofsuchmaterials,that,thoughamomentarysadnessmightaffectyou,youwereimpregnabletoanypermanentandheartfeltgrief。Inquietudeformyownsafetywas,foramoment,suspendedbysympathywithyourdistress。
\"TotheformerconsiderationIwasquicklyrecalledbyamotionofyourswhichindicatedIknewnotwhat。Ifosteredthepersuasionthatyouwouldnowretiretobed;butpresentlyyouapproachedthecloset,anddetectionseemedtobeinevitable。
Youputyourhanduponthelock。Ihadformednoplantoextricatemyselffromthedilemmainwhichtheopeningofthedoorwouldinvolveme。Ifeltanirreconcilableaversiontodetection。Thussituated,Iinvoluntarilyseizedthedoorwitharesolutiontoresistyoureffortstoopenit。
\"Suddenlyyourecededfromthedoor。Thisdeportmentwasinexplicable,butthereliefitaffordedmewasquicklygone。
Youreturned,andIoncemorewasthrownintoperplexity。Theexpedientthatsuggesteditselfwasprecipitateandinartificial。
IexertedmyorgansandcalleduponyouTOHOLD。
\"Thatyoushouldpersistinspiteofthisadmonition,wasasubjectofastonishment。Iagainresistedyourefforts;forthefirstexpedienthavingfailed,Iknewnotwhatothertoresortto。Inthisstate,howwasmyastonishmentincreasedwhenI
heardyourexclamations!
\"Itwasnowplainthatyouknewmetobewithin。Furtherresistancewasunavailinganduseless。Thedooropened,andI
shrunkbackward。SeldomhaveIfeltdeepermortification,andmorepainfulperplexity。IdidnotconsiderthatthetruthwouldbelessinjuriousthananyliewhichIcouldhastilyframe。ConsciousasIwasofacertaindegreeofguilt,I
conceivedthatyouwouldformthemostodioussuspicions。Thetruthwouldbeimperfect,unlessIwerelikewisetoexplainthemysteriousadmonitionwhichhadbeengiven;butthatexplanationwasoftoogreatmoment,andinvolvedtooextensiveconsequencestomakemesuddenlyresolvetogiveit。
\"Iwasawarethatthisdiscoverywouldassociateitselfinyourmind,withthedialogueformerlyheardinthiscloset。
Thencewouldyoursuspicionsbeaggravated,andtoescapefromthesesuspicionswouldbeimpossible。Butthemeretruthwouldbesufficientlyopprobrious,anddeprivemeforeverofyourgoodopinion。
\"ThuswasIrendereddesperate,andmymindrapidlypassedtothecontemplationoftheusethatmightbemadeofpreviousevents。Somegoodgeniuswouldappeartoyoutohaveinterposedtosaveyoufrominjuryintendedbyme。Why,Isaid,sinceI
mustsinkinheropinion,shouldInotcherishthisbelief?Whynotpersonateanenemy,andpretendthatcelestialinterferencehasfrustratedmyschemes?Imustfly,butletmeleavewonderandfearbehindme。Elucidationofthemysterywillalwaysbepracticable。Ishalldonoinjury,butmerelytalkofevilthatwasdesigned,butisnowpast。
\"ThusIextenuatedmyconducttomyself,butIscarcelyexpectthatthiswillbetoyouasufficientexplicationofthescenethatfollowed。ThosehabitswhichIhaveimbibed,therootedpassionwhichpossessesmeforscatteringaroundmeamazementandfear,youenjoynoopportunitiesofknowing。Thatamanshouldwantonlyimputetohimselfthemostflagitiousdesigns,willhardlybecredited,eventhoughyoureflectthatmyreputationwasalready,bymyownfolly,irretrievablyruined;andthatitwasalwaysinmypowertocommunicatethetruth,andrectifythemistake。
\"Ileftyoutoponderonthisscene。Mymindwasfullofrapidandincongruousideas。Compunction,self-upbraiding,hopelesness,satisfactionattheviewofthoseeffectslikelytoflowfrommynewscheme,misgivingsastothebeneficialresultofthisschemetookpossessionofmymind,andseemedtostruggleforthemastery。
\"Ihadgonetoofartorecede。Ihadpaintedmyselftoyouasanassassinandravisher,withheldfromguiltonlybyavoicefromheaven。Ihadthusrevertedintothepathoferror,andnow,havinggonethusfar,myprogressseemedtobeirrevocable。
Isaidtomyself,Imustleavetheseprecinctsforever。MyactshaveblastedmyfameintheeyesoftheWielands。Forthesakeofcreatingamysteriousdread,Ihavemademyselfavillain。Imaycompletethismysteriousplanbysomenewimposture,butIcannotaggravatemysupposedguilt。
\"Myresolutionwasformed,andIwasswiftlyruminatingonthemeansforexecutingit,whenPleyelappearedinsight。Thisincidentdecidedmyconduct。ItwasplainthatPleyelwasadevotedlover,buthewas,atthesametime,amanofcoldresolvesandexquisitesagacity。TodeceivehimwouldbethesweetesttriumphIhadeverenjoyed。Thedeceptionwouldbemomentary,butitwouldlikewisebecomplete。Thathisdelusionwouldsosoonberectified,wasarecommendationtomyscheme,forIesteemedhimtoomuchtodesiretoentailuponhimlastingagonies。
\"Ihadnotimetoreflectfurther,forheproceeded,withaquickstep,towardsthehouse。Iwashurriedonwardinvoluntarilyandbyamechanicalimpulse。Ifollowedhimashepassedtherecessinthebank,andshrowdingmyselfinthatspot,IcounterfeitedsoundswhichIknewwouldarresthissteps。
\"Hestopped,turned,listened,approached,andoverheardadialoguewhosepurposewastovanquishhisbeliefinapointwherehisbeliefwasmostdifficulttovanquish。Iexertedallmypowerstoimitateyourvoice,yourgeneralsentiments,andyourlanguage。Beingmaster,bymeansofyourjournal,ofyourpersonalhistoryandmostsecretthoughts,myeffortswerethemoresuccessful。WhenIreviewedthetenorofthisdialogue,I
cannotbelievebutthatPleyelwasdeluded。WhenIthinkofyourcharacter,andoftheinferenceswhichthisdialoguewasintendedtosuggest,itseemsincrediblethatthisdelusionshouldbeproduced。
\"Isparednotmyself。Icalledmyselfmurderer,thief,guiltyofinnumerableperjuriesandmisdeeds:thatyouhaddebasedyourselftothelevelofsuchanone,noevidence,methought,wouldsufficetoconvincehimwhoknewyousothoroughlyasPleyel;andyettheimpostureamountedtoproofwhichthemostjealousscrutinywouldfindtobeunexceptionable。
\"Helefthisstationprecipitatelyandresumedhiswaytothehouse。Isawthatthedetectionofhiserrorwouldbeinstantaneous,since,nothavinggonetobed,animmediateinterviewwouldtakeplacebetweenyou。Atfirstthiscircumstancewasconsideredwithregret;butastimeopenedmyeyestothepossibleconsequencesofthisscene,Iregardeditwithpleasure。
\"Inashorttimetheinfatuationwhichhadledmethusfarbegantosubside。Theremembranceofformerreasoningsandtransactionswasrenewed。HowoftenIhadrepentedthiskindofexertion;howmanyevilswereproducedbyitwhichIhadnotforeseen;whatoccasionsforthebitterestremorseithadadministered,nowpassedthroughmymind。Theblackcatalogueofstratagemswasnowincreased。Ihadinspiredyouwiththemostvehementterrors:Ihadfilledyourmindwithfaithinshadowsandconfidenceindreams:IhaddepravedtheimaginationofPleyel:Ihadexhibitedyoutohisunderstandingasdevotedtobrutalgratificationsandconsummateinhypocrisy。
Theevidencewhichaccompaniedthisdelusionwouldbeirresistibletoonewhosepassionhadpervertedhisjudgment,whosejealousywithregardtomehadalreadybeenexcited,andwho,therefore,wouldnotfailtooverratetheforceofthisevidence。Whatfatalactofdespairorofvengeancemightnotthiserrorproduce?
\"Withregardtomyself,Ihadactedwithaphrenzythatsurpassedbelief。Ihadwarredagainstmypeaceandmyfame:
Ihadbanishedmyselffromthefellowshipofvigorousandpureminds:Iwasself-expelledfromascenewhichthemunificenceofnaturehadadornedwithunrivalledbeauties,andfromhauntsinwhichallthemusesandhumanitieshadtakenrefuge。
\"Iwasthustornbyconflictingfearsandtumultuousregrets。
Thenightpassedawayinthisstateofconfusion;andnextmorninginthegazetteleftatmyobscurelodging,Ireadadescriptionandanofferofrewardfortheapprehensionofmyperson。IwassaidtohaveescapedfromanIrishprison,inwhichIwasconfinedasanoffenderconvictedofenormousandcomplicatedcrimes。
\"Thiswastheworkofanenemy,who,byfalsehoodandstratagem,hadprocuredmycondemnation。Iwas,indeed,aprisoner,butescaped,bytheexertionofmypowers,thefatetowhichIwasdoomed,butwhichIdidnotdeserve。Ihadhopedthatthemaliceofmyfoewasexhausted;butInowperceivedthatmyprecautionshadbeenwise,forthattheinterventionofanoceanwasinsufficientformysecurity。
\"Letmenotdwellonthesensationswhichthisdiscoveryproduced。IneednottellbywhatstepsIwasinducedtoseekaninterviewwithyou,forthepurposeofdisclosingthetruth,andrepairing,asfaraspossible,theeffectsofmymisconduct。
Itwasunavoidablethatthisgazettewouldfallintoyourhands,andthatitwouldtendtoconfirmeveryerroneousimpression。
\"Havinggainedthisinterview,Ipurposedtoseeksomeretreatinthewilderness,inaccessibletoyourinquiryandtothemaliceofmyfoe,whereImighthenceforthemploymyselfincomposingafaithfulnarrativeofmyactions。Idesigneditasmyvindicationfromtheaspersionsthathadrestedonmycharacter,andasalessontomankindontheevilsofcredulityontheonehand,andofimpostureontheother。
\"Iwroteyouabillet,whichwasleftatthehouseofyourfriend,andwhichIknewwould,bysomemeans,speedilycometoyourhands。Ientertainedafainthopethatmyinvitationwouldbecompliedwith。Iknewnotwhatuseyouwouldmakeoftheopportunitywhichthisproposalaffordedyouofprocuringtheseizureofmyperson;butthisfateIwasdeterminedtoavoid,andIhadnodoubtbutduecircumspection,andtheexerciseofthefacultywhichIpossessed,wouldenablemetoavoidit。
\"Ilurked,throughtheday,intheneighbourhoodofMettingen:Iapproachedyourhabitationattheappointedhour:
Ientereditinsilence,byatrap-doorwhichledintothecellar。Thishadformerlybeenboltedontheinside,butJudithhad,atanearlyperiodinourintercourse,removedthisimpediment。Iascendedtothefirstfloor,butmetwithnoone,noranythingthatindicatedthepresenceofanhumanbeing。
\"Icreptsoftlyupstairs,andatlengthperceivedyourchamberdoortobeopened,andalighttobewithin。Itwasofmomenttodiscoverbywhomthislightwasaccompanied。Iwassensibleoftheinconvenienciestowhichmybeingdiscoveredatyourchamberdoorbyanyonewithinwouldsubjectme;I
thereforecalledoutinmyownvoice,butsomodifiedthatitshouldappeartoascendfromthecourtbelow,\'Whoisinthechamber?IsitMissWieland?\"
\"Noanswerwasreturnedtothissummons。Ilistened,butnomotioncouldbeheard。AfterapauseIrepeatedmycall,butnolessineffectually。
\"Inowapproachednearerthedoor,andadventuredtolookin。
Alightstoodonthetable,butnothinghumanwasdiscernible。
Ienteredcautiously,butallwassolitudeandstillness。
\"Iknewnotwhattoconclude。Ifthehousewereinhabited,mycallwouldhavebeennoticed;yetsomesuspicioninsinuateditselfthatsilencewasstudiouslykeptbypersonswhointendedtosurprizeme。Myapproachhadbeenwary,andthesilencethatensuedmycallhadlikewiseprecededit;acircumstancethattendedtodissipatemyfears。
\"AtlengthitoccurredtomethatJudithmightpossiblybeinherownroom。Iturnedmystepsthither;butshewasnottobefound。Ipassedintootherrooms,andwassoonconvincedthatthehousewastotallydeserted。Ireturnedtoyourchamber,agitatedbyvainsurmisesandoppositeconjectures。Theappointedhourhadpassed,andIdismissedthehopeofaninterview。
\"InthisstateofthingsIdeterminedtoleaveafewlinesonyourtoilet,andprosecutemyjourneytothemountains。
ScarcelyhadItakenthepenwhenIlaiditaside,uncertaininwhatmannertoaddressyou。Irosefromthetableandwalkedacrossthefloor。Aglancethrownuponthebedacquaintedmewithaspectacletowhichmyconceptionsofhorrorhadnotyetreached。
\"Inthemidstofshudderingandtrepidation,thesignalofyourpresenceinthecourtbelowrecalledmetomyself。Thedeedwasnewlydone:Ionlywasinthehouse:whathadlatelyhappenedjustifiedanysuspicions,howeverenormous。Itwasplainthatthiscatastrophewasunknowntoyou:Ithoughtuponthewildcommotionwhichthediscoverywouldawakeninyourbreast:Ifoundtheconfusionofmyownthoughtsunconquerable,andperceivedthattheendforwhichIsoughtaninterviewwasnotnowtobeaccomplished。
\"Inthisstateofthingsitwaslikewiseexpedienttoconcealmybeingwithin。Iputoutthelightandhurrieddownstairs。
Tomyunspeakablesurprize,notwithstandingeverymotivetofear,youlightedacandleandproceededtoyourchamber。
\"Iretiredtothatroombelowfromwhichadoorleadsintothecellar。Thisdoorconcealedmefromyourviewasyoupassed。Ithoughtuponthespectaclewhichwasabouttopresentitself。Inanexigencesoabruptandsolittleforeseen,Iwasagainsubjectedtotheempireofmechanicalandhabitualimpulses。Idreadedtheeffectswhichthisshockingexhibition,burstingonyourunpreparedsenses,mightproduce。
\"Thusactuated,Isteptswiftlytothedoor,andthrustingmyheadforward,oncemorepronouncedthemysteriousinterdiction。
Atthatmoment,bysomeuntowardfate,youreyeswerecastback,andyousawmeintheveryactofutterance。IfledthroughthedarksomeavenueatwhichIentered,coveredwiththeshameofthisdetection。
\"Withdiligence,stimulatedbyathousandineffableemotions,Ipursuedmyintendedjourney。Ihaveabrotherwhosefarmissituatedinthebosomofafertiledesert,nearthesourcesoftheLeheigh,andthitherInowrepaired。
ChapterXXIV
\"DeeplydidIruminateontheoccurrencesthathadjustpassed。Nothingexcitedmywondersomuchasthemeansbywhichyoudiscoveredmybeinginthecloset。Thisdiscoveryappearedtobemadeatthemomentwhenyouattemptedtoopenit。Howcouldyouhaveotherwiseremainedsolonginthechamberapparentlyfearlessandtranquil?Andyet,havingmadethisdiscovery,howcouldyoupersistindraggingmeforth:persistindefianceofaninterdictionsoemphaticalandsolemn?
\"Butyoursister\'sdeathwasaneventdetestableandominous。
Shehadbeenthevictimofthemostdreadfulspeciesofassassination。How,inastatelikeyours,themurderousintentioncouldbegenerated,waswhollyinconceivable。
\"IdidnotrelinquishmydesignofconfessingtoyouthepartwhichIhadsustainedinyourfamily,butIwaswillingtodeferittillthetaskwhichIhadsetmyselfwasfinished。Thatbeingdone,Iresumedtheresolution。Themotivestoincitemetothiscontinuallyacquiredforce。ThemoreIrevolvedtheeventshappeningatMettingen,themoreinsupportableandominousmyterrorsbecame。Mywakinghoursandmysleepwerevexedbydismalpresagesandfrightfulintimations。
\"Catharinewasdeadbyviolence。Surelymymalignantstarshadnotmademethecauseofherdeath;yethadInotrashlysetinmotionamachine,overwhoseprogressIhadnocontroul,andwhichexperiencehadshewnmewasinfiniteinpower?Everydaymightaddtothecatalogueofhorrorsofwhichthiswasthesource,andaseasonabledisclosureofthetruthmightpreventnumberlessills。
\"Fraughtwiththisconception,Ihaveturnedmystepshither。
Ifindyourbrother\'shousedesolate:thefurnitureremoved,andthewallsstainedwithdamps。Yourownisinthesamesituation。Yourchamberisdismantledanddark,andyouexhibitanimageofincurablegrief,andofrapiddecay。
\"Ihaveutteredthetruth。Thisistheextentofmyoffences。YoutellmeanhorridtaleofWielandbeingledtothedestructionofhiswifeandchildren,bysomemysteriousagent。Youchargemewiththeguiltofthisagency;butI
repeatthattheamountofmyguilthasbeentrulystated。TheperpetratorofCatharine\'sdeathwasunknowntometillnow;
nay,itisstillunknowntome。\"
Atthatmoment,theclosingofadoorinthekitchenwasdistinctlyheardbyus。Carwinstartedandpaused。\"Thereissomeonecoming。Imustnotbefoundherebymyenemies,andneednot,sincemypurposeisanswered。\"
Ihaddrunkin,withthemostvehementattention,everywordthathehaduttered。Ihadnobreathtointerrupthistalebyinterrogationsorcomments。Thepowerthathespokeofwashithertounknowntome:itsexistencewasincredible;itwassusceptibleofnodirectproof。
HeownsthathiswerethevoiceandfacewhichIheardandsaw。Heattemptstogiveanhumanexplanationofthesephantasms;butitisenoughthatheownshimselftobetheagent;histaleisalie,andhisnaturedevilish。Ashedeceivedme,helikewisedeceivedmybrother,andnowdoI
beholdtheauthorofallourcalamities!
Suchweremythoughtswhenhispauseallowedmetothink。I
shouldhavebadhimbegoneifthesilencehadnotbeeninterrupted;butnowIfearednomoreformyself;andthemilkinessofmynaturewascurdledintohatredandrancour。
Someonewasnear,andthisenemyofGodandmanmightpossiblybebroughttojustice。Ireflectednotthatthepreternaturalpowerwhichhehadhithertoexerted,wouldavailtorescuehimfromanytoilsinwhichhisfeetmightbeentangled。Meanwhile,looks,andnotwordsofmenaceandabhorrence,wereallthatI
couldbestow。
Hedidnotdepart。Heseemeddubious,whether,bypassingoutofthehouse,orbyremainingsomewhatlongerwherehewas,heshouldmostendangerhissafety。Hisconfusionincreasedwhenstepsofonebarefootwerehearduponthestairs。Hethrewanxiousglancessometimesatthecloset,sometimesatthewindow,andsometimesatthechamberdoor,yethewasdetainedbysomeinexplicablefascination。Hestoodasifrootedtothespot。
Astome,mysoulwasburstingwithdetestationandrevenge。
Ihadnoroomforsurmisesandfearsrespectinghimthatapproached。Itwasdoubtlessahumanbeing,andwouldbefriendmesofarastoaidmeinarrestingthisoffender。
Thestrangerquicklyenteredtheroom。MyeyesandtheeyesofCarwinwere,atthesamemoment,darteduponhim。Asecondglancewasnotneededtoinformuswhohewas。Hislocksweretangled,andfellconfusedlyoverhisforeheadandears。Hisshirtwasofcoarsestuff,andopenattheneckandbreast。Hiscoatwasonceofbrightandfinetexture,butnowtornandtarnishedwithdust。Hisfeet,hislegs,andhisarmswerebare。Hisfeaturesweretheseatofawildandtranquilsolemnity,buthiseyesbespokeinquietudeandcuriosity。
Headvancedwithfirmstep,andlookingasinsearchofsomeone。Hesawmeandstopped。Hebenthissightonthefloor,andclenchinghishands,appearedsuddenlyabsorbedinmeditation。SuchwerethefigureanddeportmentofWieland!
Such,inhisfallenstate,weretheaspectandguiseofmybrother!
Carwindidnotfailtorecognizethevisitant。Careforhisownsafetywasapparentlyswallowedupintheamazementwhichthisspectacleproduced。Hisstationwasconspicuous,andhecouldnothaveescapedtherovingglancesofWieland;yetthelatterseemedtotallyunconsciousofhispresence。
GriefatthissceneofruinandblastwasatfirsttheonlysentimentofwhichIwasconscious。Afearfulstillnessensued。
AtlengthWieland,liftinghishands,whichwerelockedineachother,tohisbreast,exclaimed,\"Father!Ithankthee。Thisisthyguidance。Hitherthouhastledme,thatImightperformthywill:yetletmenoterr:letmehearagainthymessenger!\"
Hestoodforaminuteasiflistening;butrecoveringfromhisattitude,hecontinued——\"Itisnotneeded。Dastardlywretch!thuseternallyquestioningthebehestsofthyMaker!
weakinresolution!waywardinfaith!\"
Headvancedtome,and,afteranotherpause,resumed:\"Poorgirl!adismalfatehassetitsmarkuponthee。Thylifeisdemandedasasacrifice。Preparetheetodie。Makenotmyofficedifficultbyfruitlessopposition。Thyprayersmightsubduestones;butnonebuthewhoenjoinedmypurposecanshakeit。\"
Thesewordswereasufficientexplicationofthescene。Thenatureofhisphrenzy,asdescribedbymyuncle,wasremembered。
Iwhohadsoughtdeath,wasnowthrilledwithhorrorbecauseitwasnear。Deathinthisform,deathfromthehandofabrother,wasthoughtuponwithundescribablerepugnance。
Inastatethusverginguponmadness,myeyeglanceduponCarwin。Hisastonishmentappearedtohavestruckhimmotionlessanddumb。Mylifewasindanger,andmybrother\'shandwasabouttobeembruedinmyblood。IfirmlybelievedthatCarwin\'swastheinstigation。Icouldrescuemefromthisabhorredfate;Icoulddissipatethistremendousillusion;I
couldsavemybrotherfromtheperpetrationofnewhorrors,bypointingoutthedevilwhoseducedhim;tohesitateamomentwastoperish。Thesethoughtsgavestrengthtomylimbs,andenergytomyaccents:Istartedonmyfeet。
\"Obrother!spareme,sparethyself:Thereisthybetrayer。
Hecounterfeitedthevoiceandfaceofanangel,forthepurposeofdestroyingtheeandme。Hehasthismomentconfessedit。Heisabletospeakwhereheisnot。Heisleaguedwithhell,butwillnotavowit;yetheconfessesthattheagencywashis。\"
Mybrotherturnedslowlyhiseyes,andfixedthemuponCarwin。Everyjointintheframeofthelattertrembled。Hiscomplexionwaspalerthanaghost\'s。HiseyedarednotmeetthatofWieland,butwanderedwithanairofdistractionfromonespacetoanother。
\"Man,\"saidmybrother,inavoicetotallyunlikethatwhichhehadusedtome,\"whatartthou?Thechargehasbeenmade。
Answerit。Thevisage——thevoice——atthebottomofthesestairs——atthehourofeleven——Towhomdidtheybelong?Tothee?\"
TwicedidCarwinattempttospeak,buthiswordsdiedawayuponhislips。Mybrotherresumedinatoneofgreatervehemence——
\"Thoufalterest;falteringisominous;sayyesorno:onewordwillsuffice;butbewareoffalsehood。Wasitastratagemofhelltooverthrowmyfamily?Wastthoutheagent?\"
Inowsawthatthewrathwhichhadbeenpreparedformewastobeheapeduponanother。ThetalethatIheardfromhim,andhispresenttrepidations,wereabundanttestimoniesofhisguilt。ButwhatifWielandshouldbeundeceived!Whatifheshallfindhisactstohaveproceedednotfromanheavenlyprompter,butfromhumantreachery!Willnothisragemountintowhirlwind?Willnothetarelimbfromlimbthisdevotedwretch?
InstinctivelyIrecoiledfromthisimage,butitgaveplacetoanother。Carwinmaybeinnocent,buttheimpetuosityofhisjudgemaymisconstruehisanswersintoaconfessionofguilt。
Wielandknowsnotthatmysteriousvoicesandappearanceswerelikewisewitnessedbyme。Carwinmaybeignorantofthosewhichmisledmybrother。Thusmayhisanswersunwarilybetrayhimselftoruin。
Suchmightbetheconsequencesofmyfranticprecipitation,andthese,itwasnecessary,ifpossible,toprevent。I
attemptedtospeak,butWieland,turningsuddenlyuponme,commandedsilence,inatonefuriousandterrible。Mylipsclosed,andmytonguerefuseditsoffice。
\"Whatartthou?\"heresumed,addressinghimselftoCarwin。
\"Answerme;whoseform——whosevoice——wasitthycontrivance?
Answerme。\"
Theanswerwasnowgiven,butconfusedlyandscarcelyarticulated。\"Imeantnothing——Iintendednoill——ifI
understand——ifIdonotmistakeyou——itistootrue——Ididappear——intheentry——didspeak。Thecontrivancewasmine,but——\"
Thesewordswerenosooneruttered,thanmybrotherceasedtowearthesameaspect。Hiseyesweredowncast:hewasmotionless:hisrespirationbecamehoarse,likethatofamanintheagoniesofdeath。Carwinseemedunabletosaymore。Hemighthaveeasilyescaped,butthethoughtwhichoccupiedhimrelatedtowhatwashorridandunintelligibleinthisscene,andnottohisowndanger。
PresentlythefacultiesofWieland,which,foratime,werechainedup,wereseizedwithrestlessnessandtrembling。Hebrokesilence。Thestoutestheartwouldhavebeenappalledbythetoneinwhichhespoke。HeaddressedhimselftoCarwin。
\"Whyartthouhere?Whodetainsthee?Goandlearnbetter。
Iwillmeetthee,butitmustbeatthebarofthyMaker。ThereshallIbearwitnessagainstthee。\"
PerceivingthatCarwindidnotobey,hecontinued;\"Dostthouwishmetocompletethecataloguebythydeath?Thylifeisaworthlessthing。Temptmenomore。Iambutaman,andthypresencemayawakenafurywhichmayspurnmycontroul。
Begone!\"
Carwin,irresolute,strivinginvainforutterance,hiscomplexionpallidasdeath,hiskneesbeatingoneagainstanother,slowlyobeyedthemandateandwithdrew。
ChapterXXV
AfewwordsmoreandIlayasidethepenforever。YetwhyshouldInotrelinquishitnow?AllthatIhavesaidispreparatorytothisscene,andmyfingers,tremulousandcoldasmyheart,refuseanyfurtherexertion。Thismustnotbe。Letmylastenergiessupportmeinthefinishingofthistask。ThenwillIlaydownmyheadinthelapofdeath。Hushedwillbeallmymurmursinthesleepofthegrave。
Everysentimenthasperishedinmybosom。Evenfriendshipisextinct。Yourloveformehaspromptedmetothistask;butI
wouldnothavecompliedifithadnotbeenaluxurythustofeastuponmywoes。Ihavejustlycalculateduponmyremnantofstrength。WhenIlaydownthepenthetaperoflifewillexpire:myexistencewillterminatewithmytale。
NowthatIwasleftalonewithWieland,theperilsofmysituationpresentedthemselvestomymind。Thatthisparoxysmshouldterminateinhavockandrageitwasreasonabletopredict。Thefirstsuggestionofmyfearshadbeendisprovedbymyexperience。Carwinhadacknowledgedhisoffences,andyethadescaped。ThevengeancewhichIhadharbouredhadnotbeenadmittedbyWieland,andyettheevilswhichIhadendured,comparedwiththoseinflictedonmybrother,wereasnothing。
Ithirstedforhisblood,andwastormentedwithaninsatiableappetiteforhisdestruction;yetmybrotherwasunmoved,andhaddismissedhiminsafety。Surelythouwastmorethanman,whileIamsunkbelowthebeasts。
DidIplacearightconstructionontheconductofWieland?
Wastheerrorthatmisledhimsoeasilyrectified?Wereviewssovividandfaithsostrenuousthusliabletofadingandtochange?Wastherenotreasontodoubttheaccuracyofmyperceptions?Withimageslikethesewasmymindthronged,tillthedeportmentofmybrothercalledawaymyattention。
Isawhislipsmoveandhiseyescastuptoheaven。Thenwouldhelistenandlookback,asifinexpectationofsomeone\'sappearance。Thriceherepeatedthesegesticulationsandthisinaudibleprayer。Eachtimethemistofconfusionanddoubtseemedtogrowdarkerandtosettleonhisunderstanding。
Iguessedatthemeaningofthesetokens。ThewordsofCarwinhadshakenhisbelief,andhewasemployedinsummoningthemessengerwhohadformerlycommunedwithhim,toattestthevalueofthosenewdoubts。Invainthesummonswasrepeated,forhiseyemetnothingbutvacancy,andnotasoundsalutedhisear。
Hewalkedtothebed,gazedwitheagernessatthepillowwhichhadsustainedtheheadofthebreathlessCatharine,andthenreturnedtotheplacewhereIsat。Ihadnopowertoliftmyeyestohisface:Iwasdubiousofhispurpose:thispurposemightaimatmylife。
Alas!nothingbutsubjectiontodanger,andexposuretotemptation,canshowuswhatweare。BythistestwasInowtried,andfoundtobecowardlyandrash。Mencandeliberatelyuntiethethreadoflife,andofthisIhaddeemedmyselfcapable;yetnowthatIstooduponthebrinkoffate,thattheknifeofthesacrificerwasaimedatmyheart,Ishudderedandbetookmyselftoanymeansofescape,howevermonstrous。
CanIbeartothink——canIenduretorelatetheoutragewhichmyheartmeditated?Whereweremymeansofsafety?Resistancewasvain。NoteventheenergyofdespaircouldsetmeonalevelwiththatstrengthwhichhisterrificprompterhadbestoweduponWieland。Terrorenablesustoperformincrediblefeats;butterrorwasnotthenthestateofmymind:wherethenweremyhopesofrescue?
Methinksitistoomuch。Istandaside,asitwere,frommyself;Iestimatemyowndeservings;ahatred,immortalandinexorable,ismydue。Ilistentomyownpleas,andfindthememptyandfalse:yes,Iacknowledgethatmyguiltsurpassesthatofallmankind:Iconfessthatthecursesofaworld,andthefrownsofadeity,areinadequatetomydemerits。Isthereathingintheworldworthyofinfiniteabhorrence?ItisI。
WhatshallIsay!Iwasmenaced,asIthought,withdeath,and,toeludethisevil,myhandwasreadytoinflictdeathuponthemenacer。Invisitingmyhouse,IhadmadeprovisionagainstthemachinationsofCarwin。Inafoldofmydressanopenpenknifewasconcealed。ThisInowseizedanddrewforth。Itlurkedoutofview:butInowseethatmystateofmindwouldhaverenderedthedeedinevitableifmybrotherhadliftedhishand。Thisinstrumentofmypreservationwouldhavebeenplungedintohisheart。
O,insupportableremembrance!hidetheefrommyviewforatime;hideitfrommethatmyheartwasblackenoughtomeditatethestabbingofabrother!abrotherthussupremeinmisery;
thustoweringinvirtue!
Hewasprobablyunconsciousofmydesign,butpresentlydrewback。Thisintervalwassufficienttorestoremetomyself。
Themadness,theiniquityofthatactwhichIhadpurposedrusheduponmyapprehension。ForamomentIwasbreathlesswithagony。AtthenextmomentIrecoveredmystrength,andthrewtheknifewithviolenceonthefloor。
Thesoundawokemybrotherfromhisreverie。Hegazedalternatelyatmeandattheweapon。Withamovementequallysolemnhestoopedandtookitup。Heplacedthebladeindifferentpositions,scrutinizingitaccurately,andmaintaining,atthesametime,aprofoundsilence。
Againhelookedatme,butallthatvehemenceandloftinessofspiritwhichhadsolatelycharacterizedhisfeatures,wereflown。Fallenmuscles,aforeheadcontractedintofolds,eyesdimwithunbiddendrops,andaruefulnessofaspectwhichnowordscandescribe,werenowvisible。
Hislookstouchedintoenergythesamesympathiesinme,andIpouredforthafloodoftears。Thispassionwasquicklycheckedbyfear,whichhadnow,nolonger,myown,buthissafetyfortheirobject。Iwatchedhisdeportmentinsilence。
Atlengthhespoke:
\"Sister,\"saidhe,inanaccentmournfulandmild,\"Ihaveactedpoorlymypartinthisworld。Whatthinkestthou?ShallInotdobetterinthenext?\"
Icouldmakenoanswer。Themildnessofhistoneastonishedandencouragedme。Icontinuedtoregardhimwithwistfulandanxiouslooks。
\"Ithink,\"resumedhe,\"Iwilltry。Mywifeandmybabeshavegonebefore。Happywretches!Ihavesentyoutorepose,andoughtnottolingerbehind。\"
Thesewordshadameaningsufficientlyintelligible。I