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  Butthehasteningeveningwilldecide。Woulditwerecome!

  AndyetIshudderatitsnearapproach。Aninterviewthatmustthusterminate,issurelytobewishedforbyme;andyetitisnotwithoutitsterrors。Wouldtoheavenitwerecomeandgone!

  Ifeelnoreluctance,myfriendstobethusexplicit。Timewas,whentheseemotionswouldbehiddenwithimmeasurablesolicitude,fromeveryhumaneye。Alas!theseairyandfleetingimpulsesofshamearegone。Myscrupleswerepreposterousandcriminal。Theyarebredinallhearts,byaperverseandviciouseducation,andtheywouldstillhavemaintainedtheirplaceinmyheart,hadnotmyportionbeensetinmisery。Myerrorshavetaughtmethusmuchwisdom;thatthosesentimentswhichweoughtnottodisclose,itiscriminaltoharbour。

  Itwasproposedtobegintherehearsalatfouro\'clock;I

  countedtheminutesastheypassed;theirflightwasatoncetoorapidandtooslow;mysensationswereofanexcruciatingkind;

  Icouldtastenofood,norapplytoanytask,norenjoyamoment\'srepose:whenthehourarrived,Ihastenedtomybrother\'s。

  Pleyelwasnotthere。Hehadnotyetcome。Onordinaryoccasions,hewaseminentforpunctuality。Hehadtestifiedgreateagernesstoshareinthepleasuresofthisrehearsal。Hewastodividethetaskwithmybrother,and,intaskslikethese,healwaysengagedwithpeculiarzeal。Hiselocutionwaslesssweetthansonorous;and,therefore,betteradaptedthanthemellifluencesofhisfriend,totheoutrageousvehemenceofthisdrama。

  Whatcoulddetainhim?Perhapshelingeredthroughforgetfulness。Yetthiswasincredible。Neverhadhismemorybeenknowntofailuponevenmoretrivialoccasions。Notlessimpossiblewasit,thattheschemehadlostitsattractions,andthathestaid,becausehiscomingwouldaffordhimnogratification。Butwhyshouldweexpecthimtoadheretotheminute?

  Anhalfhourelapsed,butPleyelwasstillatadistance。

  Perhapshehadmisunderstoodthehourwhichhadbeenproposed。

  Perhapshehadconceivedthatto-morrow,andnotto-day,hadbeenselectedforthispurpose:butno。Areviewofprecedingcircumstancesdemonstratedthatsuchmisapprehensionwasimpossible;forhehadhimselfproposedthisday,andthishour。

  Thisday,hisattentionwouldnototherwisebeoccupied;butto-morrow,anindispensibleengagementwasforeseen,bywhichallhistimewouldbeengrossed:hisdetention,therefore,mustbeowingtosomeunforeseenandextraordinaryevent。Ourconjectureswerevague,tumultuous,andsometimesfearful。Hissicknessandhisdeathmightpossiblyhavedetainedhim。

  Torturedwithsuspense,wesatgazingateachother,andatthepathwhichledfromtheroad。Everyhorsemanthatpassedwas,foramoment,imaginedtobehim。Hoursucceededhour,andthesun,graduallydeclining,atlength,disappeared。Everysignalofhiscomingprovedfallacious,andourhopeswereatlengthdismissed。Hisabsenceaffectedmyfriendsinnoinsupportabledegree。Theyshouldbeobliged,theysaid,todeferthisundertakingtillthemorrow;and,perhaps,theirimpatientcuriositywouldcompelthemtodispenseentirelywithhispresence。Nodoubt,someharmlessoccurrencehaddivertedhimfromhispurpose;andtheytrustedthattheyshouldreceiveasatisfactoryaccountofhiminthemorning。

  Itmaybesupposedthatthisdisappointmentaffectedmeinaverydifferentmanner。Iturnedasidemyheadtoconcealmytears。Ifledintosolitude,togiveventtomyreproaches,withoutinterruptionorrestraint。Myheartwasreadytoburstwithindignationandgrief。Pleyelwasnottheonlyobjectofmykeenbutunjustupbraiding。DeeplydidIexecratemyownfolly。ThusfallenintoruinswasthegayfabricwhichIhadreared!Thushadmygoldenvisionmeltedintoair!

  HowfondlydidIdreamthatPleyelwasalover!Ifhewere,wouldhehavesufferedanyobstacletohinderhiscoming?Blindandinfatuatedman!Iexclaimed。Thousportestwithhappiness。

  Thegoodthatisofferedthee,thouhasttheinsolenceandfollytorefuse。Well,Iwillhenceforthintrustmyfelicitytonoone\'skeepingbutmyown。

  Thefirstagoniesofthisdisappointmentwouldnotallowmetobereasonableorjust。EverygroundonwhichIhadbuiltthepersuasionthatPleyelwasnotunimpressedinmyfavor,appearedtovanish。ItseemedasifIhadbeenmisledintothisopinion,bythemostpalpableillusions。

  Imadesometriflingexcuse,andreturned,muchearlierthanIexpected,tomyownhouse。Iretiredearlytomychamber,withoutdesigningtosleep。Iplacedmyselfatawindow,andgavethereinstoreflection。

  Thehatefulanddegradingimpulseswhichhadlatelycontrouledmewere,insomedegree,removed。Newdejectionsucceeded,butwasnowproducedbycontemplatingmylatebehaviour。Surelythatpassionisworthytobeabhorredwhichobscuresourunderstanding,andurgesustothecommissionofinjustice。WhatrighthadItoexpecthisattendance?HadI

  notdemeanedmyselflikeoneindifferenttohishappiness,andashavingbestowedmyregardsuponanother?HisabsencemightbepromptedbythelovewhichIconsideredhisabsenceasaproofthathewanted。Hecamenotbecausethesightofme,thespectacleofmycoldnessoraversion,contributedtohisdespair。WhyshouldIprolong,byhypocrisyorsilence,hismiseryaswellasmyown?Whynotdealwithhimexplicitly,andassurehimofthetruth?

  Youwillhardlybelievethat,inobediencetothissuggestion,Iroseforthepurposeoforderingalight,thatI

  mightinstantlymakethisconfessioninaletter。Asecondthoughtshewedmetherashnessofthisscheme,andIwonderedbywhatinfirmityofmindIcouldbebetrayedintoamomentaryapprobationofit。Isawwiththeutmostclearnessthataconfessionlikethatwouldbethemostremedilessandunpardonableoutrageuponthedignityofmysex,andutterlyunworthyofthatpassionwhichcontrouledme。

  Iresumedmyseatandmymusing。ToaccountfortheabsenceofPleyelbecameoncemorethescopeofmyconjectures。Howmanyincidentsmightoccurtoraiseaninsuperableimpedimentinhisway?WhenIwasachild,aschemeofpleasure,inwhichheandhissisterwereparties,hadbeen,inlikemanner,frustratedbyhisabsence;buthisabsence,inthatinstance,hadbeenoccasionedbyhisfallingfromaboatintotheriver,inconsequenceofwhichhehadrunthemostimminenthazardofbeingdrowned。Herewasaseconddisappointmentenduredbythesamepersons,andproducedbyhisfailure。Mightitnotoriginateinthesamecause?HadhenotdesignedtocrosstheriverthatmorningtomakesomenecessarypurchasesinJersey?

  Hehadpreconcertedtoreturntohisownhousetodinner;but,perhaps,somedisasterhadbefallenhim。Experiencehadtaughtmetheinsecurityofacanoe,andthatwastheonlykindofboatwhichPleyelused:Iwas,likewise,actuatedbyanhereditarydreadofwater。Thesecircumstancescombinedtobestowconsiderableplausibilityonthisconjecture;buttheconsternationwithwhichIbegantobeseizedwasallayedbyreflecting,thatifthisdisasterhadhappenedmybrotherwouldhavereceivedthespeediestinformationofit。Theconsolationwhichthisideaimpartedwasravishedfrommebyanewthought。

  Thisdisastermighthavehappened,andhisfamilynotbeapprizedofit。Thefirstintelligenceofhisfatemaybecommunicatedbythelividcorpsewhichthetidemaycast,manydayshence,upontheshore。

  ThuswasIdistressedbyoppositeconjectures:thuswasI

  tormentedbyphantomsofmyowncreation。Itwasnotalwaysthus。Icanascertainthedatewhenmymindbecamethevictimofthisimbecility;perhapsitwascoevalwiththeinroadofafatalpassion;apassionthatwillneverrankmeinthenumberofitseulogists;itwasalonesufficienttotheexterminationofmypeace:itwasitselfaplenteoussourceofcalamity,andneedednottheconcurrenceofotherevilstotakeawaytheattractionsofexistence,anddigformeanuntimelygrave。

  Thestateofmymindnaturallyintroducedatrainofreflectionsuponthedangersandcareswhichinevitablybesetanhumanbeing。BynoviolenttransitionwasIledtoponderontheturbulentlifeandmysteriousendofmyfather。I

  cherished,withtheutmostveneration,thememoryofthisman,andeveryreliqueconnectedwithhisfatewaspreservedwiththemostscrupulouscare。Amongthesewastobenumberedamanuscript,containingmemoirsofhisownlife。Thenarrativewasbynomeansrecommendedbyitseloquence;butneitherdidallitsvalueflowfrommyrelationshiptotheauthor。Itsstilehadanunaffectedandpicturesquesimplicity。Thegreatvarietyandcircumstantialdisplayoftheincidents,togetherwiththeirintrinsicimportance,asdescriptiveofhumanmannersandpassions,madeitthemostusefulbookinmycollection。Itwaslate;butbeingsensibleofnoinclinationtosleep,I

  resolvedtobetakemyselftotheperusalofit。

  Todothisitwasrequisitetoprocurealight。Thegirlhadlongsinceretiredtoherchamber:itwasthereforepropertowaituponmyself。Alamp,andthemeansoflightingit,wereonlytobefoundinthekitchen。ThitherIresolvedforthwithtorepair;butthelightwasofusemerelytoenablemetoreadthebook。Iknewtheshelfandthespotwhereitstood。

  WhetherItookdownthebook,orpreparedthelampinthefirstplace,appearedtobeamatterofnomoment。Thelatterwaspreferred,and,leavingmyseat,Iapproachedtheclosetinwhich,asImentionedformerly,mybooksandpapersweredeposited。

  Suddenlytheremembranceofwhathadlatelypassedinthisclosetoccurred。Whethermidnightwasapproaching,orhadpassed,Iknewnot。Iwas,asthen,alone,anddefenceless。

  Thewindwasinthatdirectioninwhich,aidedbythedeathlikereposeofnature,itbroughttomethemurmurofthewater-fall。

  Thiswasmingledwiththatsolemnandenchantingsound,whichabreezeproducesamongtheleavesofpines。Thewordsofthatmysteriousdialogue,theirfearfulimport,andthewildexcesstowhichIwastransportedbymyterrors,filledmyimaginationanew。Mystepsfaultered,andIstoodamomenttorecovermyself。

  Iprevailedonmyselfatlengthtomovetowardsthecloset。

  Itouchedthelock,butmyfingerswerepowerless;Iwasvisitedafreshbyunconquerableapprehensions。Asortofbeliefdartedintomymind,thatsomebeingwasconcealedwithin,whosepurposeswereevil。Ibegantocontendwiththosefears,whenitoccurredtomethatImight,withoutimpropriety,goforalamppreviouslytoopeningthecloset。Irecededafewsteps;

  butbeforeIreachedmychamberdoormythoughtstookanewdirection。Motionseemedtoproduceamechanicalinfluenceuponme。Iwasashamedofmyweakness。Besides,whataidcouldbeaffordedmebyalamp?

  Myfearshadpicturedtothemselvesnopreciseobject。Itwouldbedifficulttodepict,inwords,theingredientsandhuesofthatphantomwhichhauntedme。Anhandinvisibleandofpreternaturalstrength,liftedbyhumanpassions,andselectingmylifeforitsaim,werepartsofthisterrificimage。Allplaceswerealikeaccessibletothisfoe,orifhisempirewererestrictedbylocalbounds,thoseboundswereutterlyinscrutablebyme。ButhadInotbeentoldbysomeoneinleaguewiththisenemy,thateveryplacebuttherecessinthebankwasexemptfromdanger?

  Ireturnedtothecloset,andoncemoreputmyhanduponthelock。O!maymyearslosetheirsensibility,eretheybeagainassailedbyashrieksoterrible!Notmerelymyunderstandingwassubduedbythesound:itactedonmynerveslikeanedgeofsteel。Itappearedtocutasunderthefibresofmybrain,andrackeveryjointwithagony。

  Thecry,loudandpiercingasitwas,wasneverthelesshuman。

  Noarticulationwasevermoredistinct。Thebreathwhichaccompanieditdidnotfanmyhair,yetdideverycircumstancecombinetopersuademethatthelipswhichutteredittouchedmyveryshoulder。

  \"Hold!Hold!\"werethewordsofthistremendousprohibition,inwhosetonethewholesoulseemedtobewrappedup,andeveryenergyconvertedintoeagernessandterror。

  Shuddering,Idashedmyselfagainstthewall,andbythesameinvoluntaryimpulse,turnedmyfacebackwardtoexaminethemysteriousmonitor。Themoon-lightstreamedintoeachwindow,andeverycorneroftheroomwasconspicuous,andyetIbeheldnothing!

  Theintervalwastoobrieftobeartificiallymeasured,betweentheutteranceofthesewords,andmyscrutinydirectedtothequarterwhencetheycame。Yetifahumanbeinghadbeenthere,couldhefailtohavebeenvisible?Whichofmysenseswasthepreyofafatalillusion?Theshockwhichthesoundproducedwasstillfeltineverypartofmyframe。Thesound,therefore,couldnotbutbeagenuinecommotion。ButthatIhadheardit,wasnotmoretruethanthatthebeingwhouttereditwasstationedatmyrightear;yetmyattendantwasinvisible。

  Icannotdescribethestateofmythoughtsatthatmoment。

  Surprizehadmasteredmyfaculties。Myframeshook,andthevitalcurrentwascongealed。Iwasconsciousonlytothevehemenceofmysensations。Thisconditioncouldnotbelasting。Likeatide,whichsuddenlymountstoanoverwhelmingheight,andthengraduallysubsides,myconfusionslowlygaveplacetoorder,andmytumultstoacalm。Iwasabletodeliberateandmove。Iresumedmyfeet,andadvancedintothemidstoftheroom。Upward,andbehind,andoneachside,I

  threwpenetratingglances。Iwasnotsatisfiedwithoneexamination。Hethathithertorefusedtobeseen,mightchangehispurpose,andonthenextsurveybeclearlydistinguishable。

  Solitudeimposesleastrestraintuponthefancy。Darkislessfertileofimagesthanthefeeblelustreofthemoon。I

  wasalone,andthewallswerechequeredbyshadowyforms。Asthemoonpassedbehindacloudandemerged,theseshadowsseemedtobeendowedwithlife,andtomove。Theapartmentwasopentothebreeze,andthecurtainwasoccasionallyblownfromitsordinaryposition。Thismotionwasnotunaccompaniedwithsound。Ifailednottosnatchalook,andtolistenwhenthismotionandthissoundoccurred。Mybeliefthatmymonitorwaspostednear,wasstrong,andinstantlyconvertedtheseappearancestotokensofhispresence,andyetIcoulddiscernnothing。

  Whenmythoughtswereatlengthpermittedtoreverttothepast,thefirstideathatoccurredwastheresemblancebetweenthewordsofthevoicewhichIhadjustheard,andthosewhichhadterminatedmydreaminthesummer-house。Therearemeansbywhichweareabletodistinguishasubstancefromashadow,arealityfromthephantomofadream。Thepit,mybrotherbeckoningmeforward,theseizureofmyarm,andthevoicebehind,weresurelyimaginary。Thattheseincidentswerefashionedinmysleep,issupportedbythesameindubitableevidencethatcompelsmetobelievemyselfawakeatpresent;yetthewordsandthevoicewerethesame。Then,bysomeinexplicablecontrivance,Iwasawareofthedanger,whilemyactionsandsensationswerethoseofonewhollyunacquaintedwithit。Now,wasitnotequallytruethatmyactionsandpersuasionswereatwar?Hadnotthebelief,thatevillurkedinthecloset,gainedadmittance,andhadnotmyactionsbetokenedanunwarrantablesecurity?Toobviatetheeffectsofmyinfatuation,thesamemeanshadbeenused。

  Inmydream,hethattemptedmetomydestruction,wasmybrother。Deathwasambushedinmypath。FromwhatevilwasI

  nowrescued?Whatministerorimplementofillwasshutupinthisrecess?WhowasitwhosesuffocatinggraspIwastofeel,shouldIdaretoenterit?Whatmonstrousconceptionisthis?

  mybrother!

  No;protection,andnotinjuryishisprovince。Strangeandterriblechimera!Yetitwouldnotbesuddenlydismissed。Itwassurelynovulgaragencythatgavethisformtomyfears。Hetowhomallpartsoftimeareequallypresent,whomnocontingencyapproaches,wastheauthorofthatspellwhichnowseizeduponme。Lifewasdeartome。Noconsiderationwaspresentthatenjoinedmetorelinquishit。Sacreddutycombinedwitheveryspontaneoussentimenttoendeartomemybeing。

  ShouldInotshudderwhenmybeingwasendangered?ButwhatemotionshouldpossessmewhenthearmliftedaginstmewasWieland\'s?

  Ideasexistinourmindsthatcanbeaccountedforbynoestablishedlaws。WhydidIdreamthatmybrotherwasmyfoe?

  Whybutbecauseanomenofmyfatewasordainedtobecommunicated?Yetwhatsalutaryenddiditserve?Diditarmmewithcautiontoelude,orfortitudetobeartheevilstowhichIwasreserved?Mypresentthoughtswere,nodoubt,indebtedfortheirhuetothesimilitudeexistingbetweentheseincidentsandthoseofmydream。Surelyitwasphrenzythatdictatedmydeed。Thataruffianwashiddeninthecloset,wasanidea,thegenuinetendencyofwhichwastourgemetoflight。

  Suchhadbeentheeffectformerlyproduced。Hadmymindbeensimplyoccupiedwiththisthoughtatpresent,nodoubt,thesameimpulsewouldhavebeenexperienced;butnowitwasmybrotherwhomIwasirresistablypersuadedtoregardasthecontriverofthatillofwhichIhadbeenforewarned。Thispersuasiondidnotextenuatemyfearsormydanger。WhythendidIagainapproachtheclosetandwithdrawthebolt?Myresolutionwasinstantlyconceived,andexecutedwithoutfaultering。

  Thedoorwasformedoflightmaterials。Thelock,ofsimplestructure,easilyforewentitshold。Itopenedintotheroom,andcommonlymoveduponitshinges,afterbeingunfastened,withoutanyeffortofmine。Thiseffort,however,wasbestoweduponthepresentoccasion。Itwasmypurposetoopenitwithquickness,buttheexertionwhichImadewasineffectual。Itrefusedtoopen。

  Atanothertime,thiscircumstancewouldnothavelookedwithafaceofmystery。Ishouldhavesupposedsomecasualobstruction,andrepeatedmyeffortstosurmountit。Butnowmymindwasaccessibletonoconjecturebutone。Thedoorwashinderedfromopeningbyhumanforce。Surely,herewasnewcauseforaffright。Thiswasconfirmationpropertodecidemyconduct。Nowwasallgroundofhesitationtakenaway。WhatcouldbesupposedbutthatIdesertedthechamberandthehouse?

  thatIatleastendeavourednolongertowithdrawthedoor?

  HaveInotsaidthatmyactionsweredictatedbyphrenzy?Myreasonhadforborne,foratime,tosuggestortoswaymyresolves。Ireiteratedmyendeavours。Iexertedallmyforcetoovercometheobstacle,butinvain。Thestrengththatwasexertedtokeepitshut,wassuperiortomine。

  Acasualobservermight,perhaps,applaudtheaudaciousnessofthisconduct。Whence,butfromanhabitualdefianceofdanger,couldmyperseverancearise?Ihavealreadyassigned,asdistinctlyasIamable,thecauseofit。Thefranticconceptionthatmybrotherwaswithin,thattheresistancemadetomydesignwasexertedbyhim,hadrooteditselfinmymind。

  Youwillcomprehendtheheightofthisinfatuation,whenItellyou,that,findingallmyexertionsvain,Ibetookmyselftoexclamations。SurelyIwasutterlybereftofunderstanding。

  NowhadIarrivedatthecrisisofmyfate。\"O!hindernotthedoortoopen,\"Iexclaimed,inatonethathadlessoffearthanofgriefinit。\"Iknowyouwell。Comeforth,butharmmenot。Ibeseechyoucomeforth。\"

  Ihadtakenmyhandfromthelock,andremovedtoasmalldistancefromthedoor。Ihadscarcelyutteredthesewords,whenthedoorswunguponitshinges,anddisplayedtomyviewtheinteriorofthecloset。Whoeverwaswithin,wasshroudedindarkness。Afewsecondspassedwithoutinterruptionofthesilence。Iknewnotwhattoexpectortofear。Myeyeswouldnotstrayfromtherecess。Presently,adeepsighwasheard。

  Thequarterfromwhichitcameheightenedtheeagernessofmygaze。Someoneapproachedfromthefartherend。Iquicklyperceivedtheoutlinesofahumanfigure。Itsstepswereirresoluteandslow。Irecoiledasitadvanced。

  Bycomingatlengthwithinthevergeoftheroom,hisformwasclearlydistinguishable。Ihadprefiguredtomyselfaverydifferentpersonage。ThefacethatpresenteditselfwasthelastthatIshoulddesiretomeetatanhour,andinaplacelikethis。Mywonderwasstifledbymyfears。Assassinshadlurkedinthisrecess。Somedivinevoicewarnedmeofdanger,thatatthismomentawaitedme。Ihadspurnedtheintimation,andchallengedmyadversary。

  IrecalledthemysteriouscountenanceanddubiouscharacterofCarwin。Whatmotivebutatrociousonescouldguidehisstepshither?Iwasalone。Myhabitsuitedthehour,andtheplace,andthewarmthoftheseason。Allsuccourwasremote。Hehadplacedhimselfbetweenmeandthedoor。Myframeshookwiththevehemenceofmyapprehensions。

  YetIwasnotwhollylosttomyself:Ivigilantlymarkedhisdemeanour。Hislooksweregrave,butnotwithoutperturbation。

  Whatspeciesofinquietudeitbetrayed,thelightwasnotstrongenoughtoenablemetodiscover。Hestoodstill;buthiseyeswanderedfromoneobjecttoanother。Whenthesepowerfulorganswerefixeduponme,Ishrunkintomyself。Atlength,hebrokesilence。Earnestness,andnotembarrassment,wasinhistone。

  Headvancedclosetomewhilehespoke。

  \"Whatvoicewasthatwhichlatelyaddressedyou?\"

  Hepausedforananswer;butobservingmytrepidation,heresumed,withundiminishedsolemnity:\"Benotterrified。

  Whoeverhewas,hehastdoneyouanimportantservice。Ineednotaskyouifitwerethevoiceofacompanion。Thatsoundwasbeyondthecompassofhumanorgans。Theknowledgethatenabledhimtotellyouwhowasinthecloset,wasobtainedbyincomprehensiblemeans。

  \"YouknewthatCarwinwasthere。Wereyounotapprizedofhisintents?Thesamepowercouldimparttheoneaswellastheother。Yet,knowingthese,youpersisted。Audaciousgirl!but,perhaps,youconfidedinhisguardianship。Yourconfidencewasjust。Withsuccourlikethisathandyoumaysafelydefyme。

  \"Heismyeternalfoe;thebafflerofmybestconcertedschemes。Twicehaveyoubeensavedbyhisaccursedinterposition。ButforhimIshouldlongerenowhaveborneawaythespoilsofyourhonor。\"

  Helookedatmewithgreaterstedfastnessthanbefore。I

  becameeverymomentmoreanxiousformysafety。ItwaswithdifficultyIstammeredoutanentreatythathewouldinstantlydepart,orsuffermetodoso。Hepaidnoregardtomyrequest,butproceededinamoreimpassionedmanner。

  \"Whatisityoufear?HaveInottoldyou,youaresafe?

  Hasnotoneinwhomyoumorereasonablyplacetrustassuredyouofit?EvenifIexecutemypurpose,whatinjuryisdone?Yourprejudiceswillcallitbythatname,butitmeritsitnot。

  \"Iwasimpelledbyasentimentthatdoesyouhonor;asentiment,thatwouldsanctifymydeed;but,whateveritbe,youaresafe。Bethischimerastillworshipped;Iwilldonothingtopolluteit。\"Therehestopped。

  Theaccentsandgesturesofthismanleftmedrainedofallcourage。Surely,onnootheroccasionshouldIhavebeenthuspusillanimous。MystateIregardedasahopelessone。Iwaswhollyatthemercyofthisbeing。WhicheverwayIturnedmyeyes,IsawnoavenuebywhichImightescape。Theresourcesofmypersonalstrength,myingenuity,andmyeloquence,I

  estimatedatnothing。Thedignityofvirtue,andtheforceoftruth,Ihadbeenaccustomedtocelebrate;andhadfrequentlyvauntedoftheconquestswhichIshouldmakewiththeirassistance。

  Iusedtosupposethatcertainevilscouldneverbefallabeinginpossessionofasoundmind;thattruevirtuesuppliesuswithenergywhichvicecanneverresist;thatitwasalwaysinourpowertoobstruct,byhisowndeath,thedesignsofanenemywhoaimedatlessthanourlife。Howwasitthatasentimentlikedespairhadnowinvadedme,andthatItrustedtotheprotectionofchance,ortothepityofmypersecutor?

  Hiswordsimpartedsomenotionoftheinjurywhichhehadmeditated。Hetalkedofobstaclesthathadriseninhisway。

  Hehadrelinquishedhisdesign。Thesesourcessuppliedmewithslenderconsolation。Therewasnosecuritybutinhisabsence。

  WhenIlookedatmyself,whenIreflectedonthehourandtheplace,Iwasoverpoweredbyhorroranddejection。

  Hewassilent,museful,andinattentivetomysituation,yetmadenomotiontodepart。Iwassilentinmyturn。WhatcouldIsay?Iwasconfidentthatreasoninthiscontestwouldbeimpotent。Imustowemysafetytohisownsuggestions。

  Whateverpurposebroughthimhither,hehadchangedit。Whythendidheremain?Hisresolutionsmightfluctuate,andthepauseofafewminutesrestoretohimhisfirstresolutions。

  Yetwasnotthisthemanwhomwehadtreatedwithunweariedkindness?Whosesocietywasendearedtousbyhisintellectualelevationandaccomplishments?Whohadathousandtimesexpatiatedontheusefulnessandbeautyofvirtue?Whyshouldsuchaonebedreaded?IfIcouldhaveforgottenthecircumstancesinwhichourinterviewhadtakenplace,Imighthavetreatedhiswordsasjests。Presently,heresumed:

  \"Fearmenot:thespacethatseversusissmall,andallvisiblesuccourisdistant。Youbelieveyourselfcompletelyinmypower;thatyoustanduponthebrinkofruin。Suchareyourgroundlessfears。Icannotliftafingertohurtyou。Easieritwouldbetostopthemooninhercoursethantoinjureyou。

  Thepowerthatprotectsyouwouldcrumblemysinews,andreducemetoaheapofashesinamoment,ifIweretoharbourathoughthostiletoyoursafety。

  \"Thusareappearancesatlengthsolved。LittledidIexpectthattheyoriginatedhence。Whataportionisassignedtoyou?

  Scannedbytheeyesofthisintelligence,yourpathwillbewithoutpitstoswallow,orsnarestoentangleyou。Environedbythearmsofthisprotection,allartificeswillbefrustrated,andallmalicerepelled。\"

  Heresucceededanewpause。Iwasstillobservantofeverygestureandlook。Thetranquilsolemnitythathadlatelypossessedhiscountenancegavewaytoanewexpression。Allnowwastrepidationandanxiety。

  \"Imustbegone,\"saidheinafalteringaccent。\"WhydoI

  lingerhere?Iwillnotaskyourforgiveness。Iseethatyourterrorsareinvincible。Yourpardonwillbeextortedbyfear,andnotdictatedbycompassion。Imustflyfromyouforever。

  Hethatcouldplotagainstyourhonor,mustexpectfromyouandyourfriendspersecutionanddeath。Imustdoommyselftoendlessexile。\"

  Sayingthis,hehastilylefttheroom。Ilistenedwhilehedescendedthestairs,and,unboltingtheouterdoor,wentforth。

  Ididnotfollowhimwithmyeyes,asthemoon-lightwouldhaveenabledmetodo。Relievedbyhisabsence,andexhaustedbytheconflictofmyfears,Ithrewmyselfonachair,andresignedmyselftothosebewilderingideaswhichincidentslikethesecouldnotfailtoproduce。

  ChapterX

  Ordercouldnotreadilybeintroducedintomythoughts。Thevoicestillrunginmyears。EveryaccentthatwasutteredbyCarwinwasfreshinmyremembrance。Hisunwelcomeapproach,therecognitionofhisperson,hishastydeparture,producedacompleximpressiononmymindwhichnowordscandelineate。I

  strovetogiveaslowermotiontomythoughts,andtoregulateaconfusionwhichbecamepainful;butmyeffortswerenugatory。

  Icoveredmyeyeswithmyhand,andsat,Iknownothowlong,withoutpowertoarrangeoruttermyconceptions。

  Ihadremainedforhours,asIbelieved,inabsolutesolitude。Nothoughtofpersonaldangerhadmolestedmytranquillity。Ihadmadenopreparationfordefence。Whatwasitthatsuggestedthedesignofperusingmyfather\'smanuscript?

  If,insteadofthis,Ihadretiredtobed,andtosleep,towhatfatemightInothavebeenreserved?Theruffian,whomustalmosthavesuppressedhisbreathingtoscreenhimselffromdiscovery,wouldhavenoticedthissignal,andIshouldhaveawakenedonlytoperishwithaffright,andtoabhormyself。

  CouldIhaveremainedunconsciousofmydanger?CouldIhavetranquillysleptinthemidstofsodeadlyasnare?

  Andwhowashethatthreatenedtodestroyme?Bywhatmeanscouldhehidehimselfinthiscloset?Surelyheisgiftedwithsupernaturalpower。SuchistheenemyofwhoseattemptsIwasforewarned。DailyIhadseenhimandconversedwithhim。

  Nothingcouldbediscernedthroughtheimpenetrableveilofhisduplicity。Whenbusiedinconjectures,astotheauthoroftheevilthatwasthreatened,myminddidnotlight,foramoment,uponhisimage。Yethashenotavowedhimselfmyenemy?Whyshouldhebehereifhehadnotmeditatedevil?

  Heconfessesthatthishasbeenhissecondattempt。Whatwasthesceneofhisformerconspiracy?Wasitnothewhosewhispersbetrayedhim?AmIdeceived;orwastherenotafaintresemblancebetweenthevoiceofthismanandthatwhichtalkedofgraspingmythroat,andextinguishingmylifeinamoment?

  Thenhehadacolleagueinhiscrime;nowheisalone。Thendeathwasthescopeofhisthoughts;nowaninjuryunspeakablymoredreadful。HowthankfulshouldIbetothepowerthathasinterposedtosaveme!

  Thatpowerisinvisible。Itissubjecttothecognizanceofoneofmysenses。Whatarethemeansthatwillinformmeofwhatnatureitis?Hehassethimselftocounterworkthemachinationsofthisman,whohadmenaceddestructiontoallthatisdeartome,andwhosecunninghadsurmountedeveryhumanimpediment。Therewasnonetorescuemefromhisgrasp。Myrashnessevenhastenedthecompletionofhisscheme,andprecludedhimfromthebenefitsofdeliberation。Ihadrobbedhimofthepowertorepentandforbear。HadIbeenapprizedofthedanger,Ishouldhaveregardedmyconductasthemeansofrenderingmyescapefromitimpossible。Such,likewise,seemtohavebeenthefearsofmyinvisibleprotector。Elsewhythatstartlingintreatytorefrainfromopeningthecloset?BywhatinexplicableinfatuationwasIcompelledtoproceed?

  Yetmyconductwaswise。Carwin,unabletocomprehendmyfolly,ascribedmybehaviourtomyknowledge。Heconceivedhimselfpreviouslydetected,andsuchdetectionbeingpossibletoflowonlyfromMYheavenlyfriend,andHISenemy,hisfearsacquiredadditionalstrength。

  Heisapprizedofthenatureandintentionsofthisbeing。

  Perhapsheisahumanagent。Yet,onthatsuppositionhisatchievementsareincredible。WhyshouldIbeselectedastheobjectofhiscare;or,ifameremortal,shouldInotrecognizesomeone,whom,benefitsimpartedandreceivedhadpromptedtoloveme?Whatwerethelimitsanddurationofhisguardianship?

  Wasthegeniusofmybirthentrustedbydivinebenignitywiththisprovince?ArehumanfacultiesadequatetoreceivestrongerproofsoftheexistenceofunfetteredandbeneficentintelligencesthanIhavereceived?

  Butwhowasthisman\'scoadjutor?ThevoicethatacknowledgedanallianceintreacherywithCarwinwarnedmetoavoidthesummer-house。Heassuredmethatthereonlymysafetywasendangered。Hisassurance,asitnowappears,wasfallacious。Wastherenotdeceitinhisadmonition?Washiscompactreallyannulled?Somepurposewas,perhaps,tobeaccomplishedbypreventingmyfuturevisitstothatspot。WhywasIenjoinedsilencetoothers,onthesubjectofthisadmonition,unlessitwereforsomeunauthorizedandguiltypurpose?

  Noonebutmyselfwasaccustomedtovisitit。Backward,itwashiddenfromdistantviewbytherock,andinfront,itwasscreenedfromallexamination,bycreepingplants,andthebranchesofcedars。Whatrecesscouldbemorepropitioustosecrecy?Thespiritwhichhaunteditformerlywaspureandrapturous。Itwasafanesacredtothememoryofinfantiledays,andtoblissfulimaginationsofthefuture!Whatagloomyreversehadsucceededsincetheominousarrivalofthisstranger!Now,perhaps,itisthesceneofhismeditations。

  Purposesfraughtwithhorror,thatshunthelight,andcontemplatethepollutionofinnocence,arehereengendered,andfostered,andrearedtomaturity。

  Suchweretheideasthat,duringthenight,weretumultuouslyrevolvedbyme。IreviewedeveryconversationinwhichCarwinhadborneapart。Istudiedtodiscoverthetrueinferencesdeduciblefromhisdeportmentandwordswithregardtohisformeradventuresandactualviews。IponderedonthecommentswhichhemadeontherelationwhichIhadgivenoftheclosetdialogue。Nonewideassuggestedthemselvesinthecourseofthisreview。Myexpectationhad,fromthefirst,beendisappointedonthesmalldegreeofsurprizewhichthisnarrativeexcitedinhim。Heneverexplicitlydeclaredhisopinionastothenatureofthosevoices,ordecidedwhethertheywererealorvisionary。Herecommendednomeasuresofcautionorprevention。

  Butwhatmeasureswerenowtobetaken?Wasthedangerwhichthreatenedmeatanend?HadInothingmoretofear?Iwaslonely,andwithoutmeansofdefence。Icouldnotcalculatethemotivesandregulatethefootstepsofthisperson。Whatcertaintywasthere,thathewouldnotre-assumehispurposes,andswiftlyreturntotheexecutionofthem?

  Thisideacoveredmeoncemorewithdismay。HowdeeplydidIregretthesolitudeinwhichIwasplaced,andhowardentlydidIdesirethereturnofday!Butneitheroftheseinconvenienciesweresusceptibleofremedy。Atfirst,itoccurredtometosummonmyservant,andmakeherspendthenightinmychamber;buttheinefficacyofthisexpedienttoenhancemysafetywaseasilyseen。OnceIresolvedtoleavethehouse,andretiretomybrother\'s,butwasdeterredbyreflectingontheunseasonablenessofthehour,onthealarmwhichmyarrival,andtheaccountwhichIshouldbeobligedtogive,mightoccasion,andonthedangertowhichImightexposemyselfinthewaythither。Ibegan,likewise,toconsiderCarwin\'sreturntomolestmeasexceedinglyimprobable。Hehadrelinquished,ofhisownaccord,hisdesign,anddepartedwithoutcompulsion。

  \"Surely,\"saidI,\"thereisomnipotenceinthecausethatchangedtheviewsofamanlikeCarwin。Thedivinitythatshieldedmefromhisattemptswilltakesuitablecareofmyfuturesafety。Thustoyieldtomyfearsistodeservethattheyshouldbereal。\"

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