EachmanbornintotheworldisbornlikeSheltoninthisbook——togoajourney,andforthemostpartheisbornonthehighroad。Atfirsthesitsthereinthedust,withhislittlechubbyhandsreachingatnothing,andhislittlesolemneyesstaringintospace。
Assoonashecantoddle,hemoves,bythequeerinstinctwecalltheloveoflife,straightalongthisroad,lookingneithertotherightnorleft,sopleasedishetowalk。Andheischarmedwitheverything——withtheniceflatroad,allbroadandwhite,withhisownfeet,andwiththeprospecthecanseeoneitherhand。Thesunshines,andhefindstheroadalittlehotanddusty;therainfalls,andhesplashesthroughthemuddypuddles。Itmakesnomatter——allispleasant;hisfatherswentthiswaybeforehim;theymadethisroadforhimtotread,and,whentheybredhim,passedintohisfibretheloveofdoingthingsastheythemselveshaddonethem。Sohewalksonandon,restingcomfortablyatnightsundertheroofsthathavebeenraisedtoshelterhim,bythosewhowentbefore。
Suddenlyoneday,withoutintendingto,henoticesapathoropeninginthehedge,leadingtorightorleft,andhestands,lookingattheundiscovered。Afterthathestopsatalltheopeningsinthehedge;
oneday,withabeatingheart,hetriesone。
Andthisiswherethefunbegins。
Outoftenofhimthattrythenarrowpath,nineofhimcomebacktothebroadroad,and,whentheypassthenextgapinthehedge,theysay:\"No,no,myfriend,Ifoundyoupleasantforawhile,butafterthat-ah!afterthat!Thewaymyfatherswentisgoodenoughforme,anditisobviouslytheproperone;fornineofmecameback,andthatpoorsillytenth——Ireallypityhim!\"
Andwhenhecomestothenextinn,andsnugglesinhiswell-warmed,bed,hethinksofthewildwasteofheatherwherehemighthavehadtospendthenightalonebeneaththestars;nordoesit,Ithink,occurtohimthatthebroadroadhetreadsalldaywasonceatracklessheathitself。
Butthepoorsillytenthisfaringon。Itisawindynightthatheistravellingthroughawindynight,withallthingsnewaround,andnothingtohelphimbuthiscourage。Ninetimesoutoftenthatcouragefails,andhegoesdownintothebog。Hehasseentheundiscovered,and——likeFerrandinthisbook——theundiscoveredhasengulfedhim;hisspirit,tougherthanthespiritoftheninethatburnedbacktosleepininns,wasyetnottoughenough。Thetenthtimehewinsacross,andonthetraceshehasleftothersfollowslowly,cautiously——anewroadisopenedtomankind!Atruesayinggoes:Whateveris,isright!Andifallmenfromtheworld\'sbeginninghadsaidthat,theworldwouldneverhavebegun——atall。
Noteventheprotoplasmicjellycouldhavecommenceditsjourney;。
therewouldhavebeennomotiveforcetomakeitstart。
Andso,thatothersayinghadtobedevisedbeforetheworldcouldsetupbusiness:Whateveris,iswrong!ButsincetheCosmicSpiritfoundthatmattersmovedtoofastifthosethatfelt\"Allthingsthatare,arewrong\"equalledinnumberthosethatfelt\"Allthingsthatare,areright,\"Itsolemnlydevisedpolygamyall,beitsaid,inaspiritualwayofspeaking;andtoeachmalespiritcrowing\"Allthingsthatare,arewrong\"Itdecreedninefemalespiritsclucking\"Allthingsthatare,areright。\"TheCosmicSpirit,whowasverymuchanartist,knewitswork,andhadpreviouslydevisedaqualitycalledcourage,anddivideditinthree,namingthepartsspiritual,moral,physical。Toallthemale-birdspirits,buttonofemalespiritually,notcorporeallyspeaking,Itgavecouragethatwasspiritual;tonearlyall,bothmaleandfemale,Itgavecouragethatwasphysical;toverymanyhen-birdspiritsItgavemoralcouragetoo。But,becauseItknewthatifallthemale-birdspiritswerecomplete,theproportionofmaletofemale——onetoten——wouldbetoogreat,andcauseupheavals,Itsoarrangedthatonlyoneintenmale-
birdspiritsshouldhaveallthreekindsofcourage;sothattheothernine,havingspiritualcourage,butlackingeitherinmoralorinphysical,shouldfailintheirextensionsofthepoultry-run。Andhavingstartedthemupontheselines,itleftthemtogetalongasbesttheymight。
Thus,inthesubdivisionofthepoultry-runthatwecallEngland,theproportionoftheotherstothecompletemale-birdspirit,who,ofcourse,isnotinfrequentlyawoman,isninety-ninetoone;andwitheveryIslandPharisee,whenheorshestartsoutinlife,theinterestingquestionoughttobe,\"AmIthatone?\"Ninetyverysoonfindoutthattheyarenot,and,havingfounditout,lestothersshoulddiscover,theysaytheyare。Nineoftheotherten,blindedbytheirspiritualcourage,arehardertoconvince;butonebyonetheysink,stillproclaimingtheirvirility。ThehundredthPhariseealonesitsouttheplay。
Now,thejourneyofthisyoungmanShelton,whoissurelynotthehundredthPharisee,isbutaraggedefforttopresenttheworkingofthetruth\"Allthingsthatare,arewrong,\"uponthetruth\"Allthingsthatare,areright。\"
TheInstitutionsofthiscountry,liketheInstitutionsofallothercountries,arebuthalf-truths;theyaretheworkingdailyclothingofthenation;nomorethebody\'spermanentdressthanisababy\'sfrock。Slowlybutsurelytheywearout,orareoutgrown;andintheirfashiontheyarealwaysthirtyyearsatleastbehindthefashionsofthosespiritswhoareconcernedwithwhatshalltaketheirplace。Theconditionsthatdictateoureducation,thedistributionofourproperty,ourmarriagelaws,amusements,worship,prisons,andallotherthings,changeimperceptiblyfromhourtohour;themouldscontainingthem,beinginelastic,donotchange,butholdontothepointofbursting,andthenarehastily,oftenclumsily,enlarged。Theninetydesiringpeaceandcomfortfortheirspirit,theninetyofthewell-warmedbeds,willhaveitthatthefashionsneednotchange,thatmoralityisfixed,thatallisorderedandimmutable,thateveryonewillalwaysmarry,play,andworshipinthewaythattheythemselvesaremarrying,playing,worshipping。
Theyhavenospeculation,andtheyhatewithadeephatredthosewhospeculatewiththought。Thisisthefunctiontheyweremadefor。
Theyarethedough,andtheydislikethatyeastystuffoflifewhichcomesandworksaboutinthem。TheYeastyStuff——theotherten——chafedbyallthingsthatare,desirouseverofnewformsandmoulds,hateintheirturnthecomfortableninety。Eachpartyhasinventedfortheotherthehardestnamesthatitcanthinkof:
Philistines,Bourgeois,Mrs。Grundy,Rebels,Anarchists,andNe\'er-do-weels。Sowegoon!Andso,aseachofusisborntogohisjourney,hefindshimselfintimerangedononesideorontheother,andjoinsthechorusesofname-slingers。
Butnowandthen——ah!veryseldom——wefindourselvessonearthatthingwhichhasnobreadth,themiddleline,thatwecanwatchthemboth,andpositivelysmiletoseethefun。
Whenthisbookwaspublishedfirst,manyofitscriticsfoundthatSheltonwastheonlyPharisee,andamostunsatisfactoryyoungman——
andso,nodoubt,heis。Belongingtothecomfortableninety,theyfelt,infact,theneedofslingingnamesatonewhoobviouslywasoftheten。Othersofitscritics,belongingtotheten,wieldedtheirepithetsuponAntonia,andtheserriedranksbehindher,andcalledthemPharisees;asdullasditch-water——andso,Ifear,theyare。
Oneofthegreatestcharmsofauthorshipistheprivilegeitgivestheauthorofstudyingthesecretspringsofmanyunseenpersons,ofanalysinghumannaturethroughthecriticismthathisworkevokes——
criticismwellingoutoftheinstinctivelikingsoraversions,outoftheveryfibreofthehumanbeingwhodeliversit;criticismthatoftenseemstoleapoutagainstthecritic\'swill,startledlikeafawnfromsomedeepbed,ofsympathyorofantipathy。Andso,allauthorslovetobeabused——asanymancansee。
Inthelittlematterofthetitleofthisbook,weareallPharisees,whetheroftheninetyortheten,andwecertainlydoliveuponanIsland。
JOHNGALSWORTHY。
January1,1908
PARTI
THETOWN
CHAPTERI
SOCIETY
Aquiet,well-dressedmannamedShelton,withabrownfaceandashort,fairbeard,stoodbythebookstallatDoverStation。HewasabouttojourneyuptoLondon,andhadplacedhisbaginthecornerofathird-classcarriage。
Afterhislongtravel,theflat-vowelledvoiceofthebookstallclerkofferingthelatestnovelsoundedpleasant——pleasanttheindependentanswersofabeardedguard,andthestodgyfarewellsayingsofamanandwife。Thelimberporterstrundlingtheirbarrows,thegreynessofthestationandthegoodstolidhumourclingingtothepeople,air,andvoices,allbroughttohimthesenseofhome。MeanwhilehewaveredbetweenpurchasingabookcalledMarketHayborough,whichhehadreadandwould,certainlyenjoyasecondtime,andCarlyle\'sFrenchRevolution,whichhehadnotreadandwasdoubtfulofenjoying;hefeltthatheoughttobuythelatter,buthedidnotrelishgivinguptheformer。Whilehehesitatedthus,hiscarriagewasbeginningtofillup;so,quicklybuyingboth,hetookupapositionfromwhichhecoulddefendhisrights。\"Nothing,\"hethought,\"showspeopleupliketravelling。\"
Thecarriagewasalmostfull,and,puttinghisbag,upintherack,hetookhisseat。Atthemomentofstartingyetanotherpassenger,agirlwithapaleface,scrambledin。
\"Iwasafooltogothird,\"thoughtShelton,takinginhisneighboursfrombehindhisjournal。
Theywereseven。Agrizzledrusticsatinthefarcorner;hisemptypipe,bowldownwards,juttedlikeahandlefromhisface,allblearedwiththesmearofnothingnessthatgrowsonthosewhopasstheirlivesinthecurrentofhardfacts。Nexttohim,aruddy,heavy-
shoulderedmanwasdiscussingwithagrey-haired,hatchet-visagedpersontheconditionoftheirgardens;andSheltonwatchedtheireyestillitoccurredtohimhowcuriousalookwasinthem——awatchfulfriendliness,anallieddistrust——andthattheirvoices,cheerful,evenjovial,seemedtobecautiousallthetime。Hisglancestrayedoff,andalmostreboundedfromthesemi-Roman,slightlycross,andwhollyself-complacentfaceofastoutladyinablack-and-whitecostume,whowasreadingtheStrandMagazine,whileherother,sleek,plumphand,freedfromitsblackglove,andornamentedwithathickwatch-bracelet,restedonherlap。Ayounger,bright-cheeked,andself-consciousfemalewassittingnexther,lookingatthepalegirlwhohadjustgotin。
\"There\'ssomethingaboutthatgirl,\"thoughtShelton,\"theydon\'tlike。\"Herbrowneyescertainlylookedfrightened,herclotheswereofaforeigncut。Suddenlyhemettheglanceofanotherpairofeyes;theseeyes,prominentandblue,staredwithasortofsubtlerogueryfromaboveathin,lopsidednose,andwereatonceaverted。
TheygaveSheltontheimpressionthathewasbeingjudged,andmocked,enticed,initiated。Hisowngazedidnotfall;thissanguineface,withitstwo-daygrowthofreddishbeard,longnose,fulllips,andirony,puzzledhim。\"Acynicalface!\"hethought,andthen,\"butsensitive!\"andthen,\"toocynical,\"again。
Theyoungmanwhoowneditsatwithhislegspartedattheknees,hisdustytrouser-endsandbootsslantingbackbeneaththeseat,hisyellowfinger-tipscrispedasifrollingcigarettes。Astrangeairofdetachmentwasaboutthatyouthful,shabbyfigure,andnotascrapofluggagefilledtherackabovehishead。
Thefrightenedgirlwassittingnextthispaganpersonality;itwaspossiblythelackoffashioninhislooksthatcaused,hertoselecthimforherconfidence。
\"Monsieur,\"sheasked,\"doyouspeakFrench?\"
\"Perfectly。\"
\"Thencanyoutellmewheretheytakethetickets?
\"Theyoungmanshookhishead。
\"No,\"saidhe,\"Iamaforeigner。\"
Thegirlsighed。
\"Butwhatisthematter,ma\'moiselle?\"
Thegirldidnotreply,twistingherhandsonanoldbaginherlap。
Silencehadstolenonthecarriage——asilencesuchasstealsonanimalsatthefirstapproachofdanger;alleyeswereturnedtowardsthefiguresoftheforeigners。
\"Yes,\"brokeoutthered-facedman,\"hewasabitsquiffythatevening——oldTom。\"
\"Ah!\"repliedhisneighbour,\"hewouldbe。\"
Somethingseemedtohavedestroyedtheirlookofmutualdistrust。
Theplump,sleekhandoftheladywiththeRomannosecurvedconvulsively;andthismovementcorrespondedtothefeelingagitatingShelton\'sheart。Itwasalmostasifhandandheartfearedtobeaskedforsomething。
\"Monsieur,\"saidthegirl,withatrembleinhervoice,\"Iamveryunhappy;canyoutellmewhattodo?Ihadnomoneyforaticket。\"
Theforeignyouth\'sfaceflickered。
\"Yes?\"hesaid;\"thatmighthappentoanyone,ofcourse。\"
\"Whatwilltheydotome?\"sighedthegirl。
\"Don\'tlosecourage,ma\'moiselle。\"Theyoungmanslidhiseyesfromlefttoright,andrestedthemonShelton。\"AlthoughIdon\'tasyetseeyourwayout。\"
\"Oh,monsieur!\"sighedthegirl,and,thoughitwasclearthatnonebutSheltonunderstoodwhattheyweresaying,therewasachillyfeelinginthecarriage。
\"IwishIcouldassistyou,\"saidtheforeignyouth;\"unfortunately——
\"heshruggedhisshoulders,andagainhiseyesreturnedtoShelton。
Thelatterthrusthishandintohispocket。
\"CanIbeofanyuse?\"heaskedinEnglish。
\"Certainly,sir;youcouldrenderthisyoungladythegreatestpossibleservicebylendingherthemoneyforaticket。\"
Sheltonproducedasovereign,whichtheyoungmantook。Passingit。
tothegirl,hesaid:
\"Athousandthanks——\'voilaunebelleaction\'!\"
ThemisgivingswhichattendoncasualcharitycrowdedupinShelton\'smind;hewasashamedofhavingthemandofnothavingthem,andhestolecovertlooksatthisyoungforeigner,whowasnowtalkingtothegirlinalanguagethathedidnotunderstand。Thoughvagabondinessence,thefellow\'sfaceshowedsubtlespirit,afortitudeandironynotfounduponthefaceofnormalman,andinturningfromittotheotherpassengersSheltonwasconsciousofrevolt,contempt,andquestioning,thathecouldnotdefine。Leaningbackwithhalf-
closedeyes,hetriedtodiagnosethisnewsensation。Hefounditdisconcertingthatthefacesandbehaviourofhisneighbourslackedanythinghecouldgraspandsecretlyabuse。Theycontinuedtoconversewithadmirableandslightlyconsciousphlegm,yetheknew,aswellasifeachonehadwhisperedtohimprivately,thatthisshadyincidenthadshakenthem。Somethingunsettlingtotheirnotionsofpropriety-somethingdangerousanddestructiveofcomplacency——hadoccurred,andthiswasunforgivable。Eachhadadifferentway,humorousorphilosophic,contemptuous,sour,orsly,ofshowingthisresentment。ButbyaflashofinsightSheltonsawthatatthebottomoftheirmindsandofhisownthefeelingwasthesame。Becausehesharedintheirresentmenthewasenragedwiththemandwithhimself。Helookedattheplump,sleekhandofthewomanwiththeRomannose。Theinsulationandcomplacencyofitspaleskin,thepassiverighteousnessaboutitscurve,theprimseparationfromtheothersofthefatlittlefinger,hadacquiredawhollyunaccountableimportance。Itembodiedtheverdictofhisfellow-
passengers,theverdictofSociety;forheknewthat,whetherornorepugnanttothewell-bredmind,eachassemblageofeightpersons,eveninathird-classcarriage,containsthekernelofSociety。
Butbeinginlove,andrecentlyengaged,Sheltonhadarighttobeimmunefromdiscontentofanykind,andherevertedtohismentalimageofthecool,fairface,quickmovements,andthebrilliantsmilethatnowinhisprobationaryexilehauntedhisimagination;hetookouthisfiancee\'slastletter,butthevoiceoftheyoungforeigneraddressinghiminrapidFrenchcausedhimtoputitbackabruptly。
\"Fromwhatshetellsme,sir,\"hesaid,bendingforwardtobeoutofhearingofthegirl,\"hersisanunhappycase。Ishouldhavebeenonlytoogladtohelpher,but,asyousee\"——andhemadeagesturebywhichSheltonobservedthathehadpartedfromhiswaistcoat——\"IamnotRothschild。ShehasbeenabandonedbythemanwhobroughtherovertoDoverunderpromiseofmarriage。Look\"——andbyasubtleflickerofhiseyeshemarkedhowthetwoladieshadedgedawayfromtheFrenchgirl\"theytakegoodcarenottolettheirgarmentstouchher。Theyarevirtuouswomen。Howfineathingisvirtue,sir!andfinertoknowyouhaveit,especiallywhenyouareneverlikelytobetempted。\"
Sheltonwasunabletorepressasmile;andwhenhesmiledhisfacegrewsoft。
\"Haven\'tyouobserved,\"wentontheyouthfulforeigner,\"thatthosewhobytemperamentandcircumstanceareworstfittedtopronouncejudgmentareusuallythefirsttojudge?ThejudgmentsofSocietyarealwayschildish,seeingthatit\'scomposedforthemostpartofindividualswhohaveneversmeltthefire。Andlookatthis:theywhohavemoneyruntoogreatariskofpartingwithitiftheydon\'taccusethepennilessofbeingroguesandimbeciles。\"
Sheltonwasstartled,andnotonlybyanoutburstofphilosophyfromanutterstrangerinpoorclothes,butatthissingularwordingofhisownprivatethoughts。Stiflinghissenseoftheunusualforthequeerattractionthisyoungmaninspired,hesaid:
\"Isupposeyou\'reastrangeroverhere?\"
\"I\'vebeeninEnglandsevenmonths,butnotyetinLondon,\"repliedtheother。\"Icountondoingsomegoodthere——itistime!\"Abitterandpatheticsmileshowedforasecondonhislips。\"Itwon\'tbemyfaultifIfail。YouareEnglish,Sir?\"
Sheltonnodded。
\"Forgivemyasking;yourvoicelackssomethingI\'venearlyalwaysnoticedintheEnglishakindof——\'commentcelas\'appelle\'——
cocksureness,comingfromyournation\'sgreatestquality。\"
\"Andwhatisthat?\"askedSheltonwithasmile。
\"Complacency,\"repliedtheyouthfulforeigner。
\"Complacency!\"repeatedShelton;\"doyoucallthatagreatquality?\"
\"Ishouldrathersay,monsieur,agreatdefectinwhatisalwaysagreatpeople。Youarecertainlythemosthighly-civilisednationontheearth;yousufferalittlefromthefact。IfIwereanEnglishpreachermydesirewouldbetopricktheheartofyourcomplacency。\"
Shelton,leaningback,consideredthisimpertinentsuggestion。
\"Hum!\"hesaidatlast,\"you\'dbeunpopular;Idon\'tknowthatwe\'reanycockierthanothernations。\"
Theyoungforeignermadeasignasthoughconfirmingthisopinion。
\"Ineffect,\"saidhe,\"itisasufficientlywidespreaddisease。Lookatthesepeoplehere\"——andwitharapidglancehepointedtotheinmatesofthecarnage,——\"veryaveragepersons!Whathavetheydonetowarranttheirmakingavirtuousnoseatthosewhodonotwalkastheydo?Thatoldrustic,perhaps,isdifferent——heneverthinksatall——butlookatthosetwooccupiedwiththeirstupiditiesaboutthepriceofhops,theprospectsofpotatoes,whatGeorgeisdoing,athousandthingsallofthatsort——lookattheirfaces;Icomeofthebourgeoisiemyself——havetheyevershownproofofanyqualitythatgivesthemtherighttopatthemselvesupontheback?Nofear!
Outsidepotatoestheyknownothing,andwhattheydonotunderstandtheydreadandtheydespise——therearemillionsofthatbreed。
\'VoilalaSociete\'!Thesolequalitythesepeoplehaveshowntheyhaveiscowardice。IwaseducatedbytheJesuits,\"heconcluded;\"ithasgivenmeawayofthinking。\"
UnderordinarycircumstancesSheltonwouldhavemurmuredinawell-
bredvoice,\"Ah!quiteso,\"andtakenrefugeinthecolumnsoftheDailyTelegraph。Inplaceofthis,forsomereasonthathedidnotunderstand,helookedattheyoungforeigner,andasked,\"Whydoyousayallthistome?\"
Thetramp——forbyhisbootshecouldhardlyhavebeenbetter——
hesitated。
\"Whenyou\'vetravelledlikeme,\"hesaid,asifresolvedtospeakthetruth,\"youacquireaninstinctinchoosingtowhomandhowyouspeak。Itisnecessitythatmakesthelaw;ifyouwanttoliveyoumustlearnallthatsortofthingtomakefaceagainstlife。\"
Shelton,whohimselfpossessedacertainsubtlety,couldnotbutobservethecomplimentarynatureofthesewords。Itwaslikesaying\"I\'mnotafraidofyoumisunderstandingme,andthinkingmearascaljustbecauseIstudyhumannature。\"
\"Butistherenothingtobedoneforthatpoorgirl?\"
Hisnewacquaintanceshruggedhisshoulders。
\"Abrokenjug,\"saidhe;\"——you\'llnevermendher。She\'sgoingtoacousininLondontoseeifshecangethelp;you\'vegivenherthemeansofgettingthere——it\'sallthatyoucando。Oneknowstoowellwhat\'llbecomeofher。\"
Sheltonsaidgravely,\"Oh!that\'shorrible!Couldn\'tshebeinducedtogobackhome?I
shouldbeglad——\"
Theforeignvagrantshookhishead。
\"Monchermonsieur,\"hesaid,\"youevidentlyhavenotyethadoccasiontoknowwhatthe\'family\'islike。\'Thefamily\'doesnotlikedamagedgoods;itwillhavenothingtosaytosonswhosehandshavedippedintothetillordaughtersnolongertobemarried。Whatthedevilwouldtheydowithher?Betterputastoneaboutherneckandletherdrownatonce。AlltheworldisChristian,butChristianandgoodSamaritanarenotquitethesame。\"
Sheltonlookedatthegirl,whowassittingmotionless,withherhandscrossedonherbag,andarevoltagainsttheunfairwaysoflifearosewithinhim。
\"Yes,\"saidtheyoungforeigner,asifreadingallhisthoughts,\"what\'scalledvirtueisnearlyalwaysonlyluck。\"Herolledhiseyesasthoughtosay:\"Ah!La,Conventions?Havethembyallmeans——butdon\'tlooklikepeacocksbecauseyouarepreservingthem;itisbutcowardiceandluck,myfriends——butcowardiceandluck!\"
\"Lookhere,\"saidShelton,\"I\'llgivehermyaddress,andifshewantstogobacktoherfamilyshecanwritetome。\"
\"She\'llnevergoback;shewon\'thavethecourage。\"
Sheltoncaughtthecringingglanceofthegirl\'seyes;inthedroopofherliptherewassomethingsensuous,andtheconvictionthattheyoungman\'swordsweretruecameoverhim。
\"Ihadbetternotgivethemmyprivateaddress,\"hethought,glancingatthefacesopposite;andhewrotedownthefollowing:\"RichardParamorShelton,c/oParamorandHerring,Lincoln\'sInnFields。\"
\"You\'reverygood,sir。MynameisLouisFerrand;noaddressatpresent。I\'llmakeherunderstand;she\'shalfstupefiedjustnow。\"
Sheltonreturnedtotheperusalofhispaper,toodisturbedtoread;
theyoungvagrant\'swordskeptsoundinginhisears。Heraisedhiseyes。TheplumphandoftheladywiththeRomannosestillrestedonherlap;ithadbeenrecasedinitsblackglovewithlargewhitestitching。Herfrowninggazewasfixedonhimsuspiciously,asifhehadoutragedhersenseofdecency。
\"Hedidn\'tgetanythingfromme,\"saidthevoiceofthered-facedman,endingatalkontax-gatherers。Thetrainwhistledloudly,andSheltonrevertedtohispaper。Thistimehecrossedhislegs,determinedtoenjoythelatestmurder;oncemorehefoundhimselflookingatthevagrant\'slong-nosed,mockingface。\"Thatfellow,\"hethought,\"hasseenandfelttentimesasmuchasI,althoughhemustbetenyearsyounger。\"
Heturnedfordistractiontothelandscape,withitsAprilclouds,trimhedgerows,homelycoverts。Butstrangeideaswouldcome,andhewasdiscontentedwithhimself;theconversationhehadhad,thepersonalityofthisyoungforeigner,disturbedhim。Itwasallasthoughhehadmadeastartinsomefreshjourneythroughthefieldsofthought。
CHAPTERII
ANTONIA
FiveyearsbeforethejourneyjustdescribedSheltonhadstoodoneafternoononthebargeofhisoldcollegeattheendofthesummerraces。Hehadbeen\"down\"fromOxfordforsomeyears,buttheseOlympiancontestsstillattractedhim。
Theboatswerepassing,andintheusualrushtothebargesidehisarmcameincontactwithasoftyoungshoulder。Hesawclosetohimayounggirlwithfairhairknottedinaribbon,whosefacewaseagerwithexcitement。Thepointedchin,longneck,thefluffyhair,quickgestures,andthecalmstrenuousnessofhergrey-blueeyes,impressedhimvividly。
\"Oh,wemustbumpthem!\"heheardhersigh。
\"Doyouknowmypeople,Shelton?\"saidavoicebehindhisback;andhewasgrantedatouchfromthegirl\'sshy,impatienthand,thewarmerfingersofaladywithkindlyeyesresemblingahare\'s,thedryhand-claspofagentlemanwithathin,archednose,andaquizzicalbrownface。
\"AreyoutheMr。Sheltonwhousedtoplaythe\'bones\'atEton?\"saidthelady。\"Oh;wesooftenheardofyoufromBernard!Hewasyourfag,wasn\'the?Howdistressin\'itistoseethesepoorboysintheboats!\"
\"Mother,theylikeit!\"criedthegirl。
\"Antoniaoughttoberowing,herself,\"saidherfather,whosenamewasDennant。
Sheltonwentbackwiththemtotheirhotel,walkingbesideAntoniathroughtheChristchurchmeadows,tellingherdetailsofhiscollegelife。Hedinedwiththemthatevening,and,whenheleft,hadafeelinglikethatproducedbyafirstglassofchampagne。
TheDennantslivedatHolmOaks,withinsixmilesofOxford,andtwodayslaterhedroveoverandpaidacall。AmidsttheavocationsofreadingfortheBar,ofcricket,racing,shooting,itbutrequiredawhiffofsomefreshscent——hay,honeysuckle,clover——tobringAntonia\'sfacebeforehim,withitsuncertaincolouranditsfrank,distanteyes。Buttwoyearspassedbeforeheagainsawher。Then,ataninvitationfromBernardDennant,heplayedcricketfortheManorofHolmOaksagainstaneighbouringhouse;intheeveningtherewasdancingohthelawn。Thefairhairwasnowturnedup,buttheeyeswerequiteunchanged。Theirstepswenttogether,andthey。
outlastedeveryothercoupleontheslipperygrass。Thence,perhaps,sprangherrespectforhim;hewaswiry,alittletallerthanherself,andseemedtotalkofthingsthatinterestedher。Hefoundoutshewasseventeen,andshefoundoutthathewastwenty-nine。
ThefollowingtwoyearsSheltonwenttoHolmOakswheneverhewasasked;tohimthiswasaperiodofenchantedgames,ofcub-hunting,theatricals,anddistantsoundsofpractisedmusic,andduringitAntonia\'seyesgrewmorefriendlyandmorecurious,andhisownmoreshy,andschooled,morefurtiveandmoreardent。Thencamehisfather\'sdeath,avoyageroundtheworld,andthatpeculiarhourofmixedsensationswhen,oneMarchmorning,abandoninghissteameratMarseilles,hetooktrainforHyeres。
HefoundheratoneofthoseexclusivehostelriesamongstthepineswherethebestEnglishgo,incommonwithAmericans,Russianprincesses,andJewishfamilies;hewouldnothavebeenshockedtofindherelsewhere,buthewouldhavebeensurprised。Hissunburntfaceandthenewbeard,onwhichhesetsomeundefinedvalue,apologeticallydisplayed,werescannedbythoseblueeyeswithrapidglances,atoncemorefriendlyandlessfriendly。\"Ah!\"theyseemedtosay,\"hereyouare;howgladIam!But——whatnow?\"