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  suggestedshehadbetterdosoatonce,andthentherewouldbenofurthertroubleeitherwithrememberingorforgetting。Shecomplied,onconditionthatIwouldnotthinkofreading,orbotheringwiththebooksnow;forshewantedtoshowmethegardens,andtakeawalkintheparkwithme,beforeitbecametoohotforenjoyment;which,indeed,wasnearlythecasealready。

  OfcourseIreadilyassented;andwetookourwalkaccordingly。

  Aswewerestrollinginthepark,talkingofwhatmycompanionhadseenandheardduringhertravellingexperience,agentlemanonhorsebackrodeupandpassedus。Asheturned,inpassing,andstaredmefullintheface,Ihadagoodopportunityofseeingwhathewaslike。Hewastall,thin,andwasted,withaslightstoopintheshoulders,apaleface,butsomewhatblotchy,anddisagreeablyredabouttheeyelids,plainfeatures,andageneralappearanceoflanguorandflatness,relievedbyasinisterexpressioninthemouthandthedull,soullesseyes。

  \'Idetestthatman!\'whisperedLadyAshby,withbitteremphasis,asheslowlytrottedby。

  \'Whoisit?\'Iasked,unwillingtosupposethatsheshouldsospeakofherhusband。

  \'SirThomasAshby,\'shereplied,withdrearycomposure。

  \'AnddoyouDETESThim,MissMurray?\'saidI,forIwastoomuchshockedtorememberhernameatthemoment。

  \'Yes,Ido,MissGrey,anddespisehimtoo;andifyouknewhimyouwouldnotblameme。\'

  \'Butyouknewwhathewasbeforeyoumarriedhim。\'

  \'No;Ionlythoughtso:Ididnothalfknowhimreally。

  Iknowyouwarnedmeagainstit,andIwishIhadlistenedtoyou:butit\'stoolatetoregretthatnow。Andbesides,mammaoughttohaveknownbetterthaneitherofus,andsheneversaidanythingagainstit-quitethecontrary。AndthenIthoughtheadoredme,andwouldletmehavemyownway:hedidpretendtodosoatfirst,butnowhedoesnotcareabitaboutme。YetIshouldnotcareforthat:hemightdoashepleased,ifImightonlybefreetoamusemyselfandtostayinLondon,orhaveafewfriendsdownhere:

  butHEWILLdoashepleases,andImustbeaprisonerandaslave。

  ThemomenthesawIcouldenjoymyselfwithouthim,andthatothersknewmyvaluebetterthanhimself,theselfishwretchbegantoaccusemeofcoquetryandextravagance;andtoabuseHarryMeltham,whoseshoeshewasnotworthytoclean。Andthenhemustneedshavemedowninthecountry,toleadthelifeofanun,lestI

  shoulddishonourhimorbringhimtoruin;asifhehadnotbeententimesworseeveryway,withhisbetting-book,andhisgaming-

  table,andhisopera-girls,andhisLadyThisandMrs。That-yes,andhisbottlesofwine,andglassesofbrandy-and-watertoo!

  Oh,IwouldgivetenthousandworldstobeMssMurrayagain!ItisTOO

  badtofeellife,health,andbeautywastingaway,unfeltandunenjoyed,forsuchabruteasthat!\'exclaimedshe,fairlyburstingintotearsinthebitternessofhervexation。

  Ofcourse,Ipitiedherexceedingly;aswellforherfalseideaofhappinessanddisregardofduty,asforthewretchedpartnerwithwhomherfatewaslinked。IsaidwhatIcouldtocomforther,andofferedsuchcounselsasIthoughtshemostrequired:advisingher,first,bygentlereasoning,bykindness,example,andpersuasion,totrytoameliorateherhusband;andthen,whenshehaddoneallshecould,ifshestillfoundhimincorrigible,toendeavourtoabstractherselffromhim-towrapherselfupinherownintegrity,andtroubleherselfaslittleabouthimaspossible。

  IexhortedhertoseekconsolationindoingherdutytoGodandman,toputhertrustinHeaven,andsolaceherselfwiththecareandnurtureofherlittledaughter;assuringhershewouldbeamplyrewardedbywitnessingitsprogressinstrengthandwisdom,andreceivingitsgenuineaffection。

  \'ButIcan\'tdevotemyselfentirelytoachild,\'saidshe;\'itmaydie-whichisnotatallimprobable。\'

  \'But,withcare,manyadelicateinfanthasbecomeastrongmanorwoman。\'

  \'ButitmaygrowsointolerablylikeitsfatherthatIshallhateit。\'

  \'Thatisnotlikely;itisalittlegirl,andstronglyresemblesitsmother。\'

  \'Nomatter;Ishouldlikeitbetterifitwereaboy-onlythatitsfatherwillleaveitnoinheritancethathecanpossiblysquanderaway。WhatpleasurecanIhaveinseeingagirlgrowuptoeclipseme,andenjoythosepleasuresthatIamforeverdebarredfrom?ButsupposingIcouldbesogenerousastotakedelightinthis,stillitisONLYachild;andIcan\'tcentreallmyhopesinachild:thatisonlyonedegreebetterthandevotingoneselftoadog。Andasforallthewisdomandgoodnessyouhavebeentryingtoinstilintome-thatisallveryrightandproper,Idaresay,andifIweresometwentyyearsolder,Imightfructifybyit:butpeoplemustenjoythemselveswhentheyareyoung;andifotherswon\'tletthem-why,theymusthatethemforit!\'

  \'Thebestwaytoenjoyyourselfistodowhatisrightandhatenobody。TheendofReligionisnottoteachushowtodie,buthowtolive;andtheearlieryoubecomewiseandgood,themoreofhappinessyousecure。Andnow,LadyAshby,Ihaveonemorepieceofadvicetoofferyou,whichis,thatyouwillnotmakeanenemyofyourmother-in-law。Don\'tgetintothewayofholdingheratarms\'length,andregardingherwithjealousdistrust。Ineversawher,butIhaveheardgoodaswellasevilrespectingher;andI

  imaginethat,thoughcoldandhaughtyinhergeneraldemeanour,andevenexactinginherrequirements,shehasstrongaffectionsforthosewhocanreachthem;and,thoughsoblindlyattachedtoherson,sheisnotwithoutgoodprinciples,orincapableofhearingreason。Ifyouwouldbutconciliateheralittle,andadoptafriendly,openmanner-andevenconfideyourgrievancestoher-

  realgrievances,suchasyouhavearighttocomplainof-itismyfirmbeliefthatshewould,intime,becomeyourfaithfulfriend,andacomfortandsupporttoyou,insteadoftheincubusyoudescribeher。\'ButIfearmyadvicehadlittleeffectupontheunfortunateyounglady;and,findingIcouldrendermyselfsolittleserviceable,myresidenceatAshbyParkbecamedoublypainful。Butstill,Imuststayoutthatdayandthefollowingone,asIhadpromisedtodoso:though,resistingallentreatiesandinducementstoprolongmyvisitfurther,Iinsistedupondepartingthenextmorning;affirmingthatmymotherwouldbelonelywithoutme,andthatsheimpatientlyexpectedmyreturn。

  Nevertheless,itwaswithaheavyheartthatIbadeadieutopoorLadyAshby,andleftherinherprincelyhome。Itwasnoslightadditionalproofofherunhappiness,thatsheshouldsoclingtotheconsolationofmypresence,andearnestlydesirethecompanyofonewhosegeneraltastesandideasweresolittlecongenialtoherown-whomshehadcompletelyforgotteninherhourofprosperity,andwhosepresencewouldberatheranuisancethanapleasure,ifshecouldbuthavehalfherheart\'sdesire。

  chapter24

  CHAPTERXXIV-THESANDS

  OURschoolwasnotsituatedintheheartofthetown:onenteringA-fromthenorth-westthereisarowofrespectable-lookinghouses,oneachsideofthebroad,whiteroad,withnarrowslipsofgarden-groundbeforethem,Venetianblindstothewindows,andaflightofstepsleadingtoeachtrim,brass-handleddoor。InoneofthelargestofthesehabitationsdweltmymotherandI,withsuchyoungladiesasourfriendsandthepublicchosetocommittoourcharge。Consequently,wewereaconsiderabledistancefromthesea,anddividedfromitbyalabyrinthofstreetsandhouses。

  Buttheseawasmydelight;andIwouldoftengladlypiercethetowntoobtainthepleasureofawalkbesideit,whetherwiththepupils,oralonewithmymotherduringthevacations。Itwasdelightfultomeatalltimesandseasons,butespeciallyinthewildcommotionofaroughsea-breeze,andinthebrilliantfreshnessofasummermorning。

  IawokeearlyonthethirdmorningaftermyreturnfromAshbyPark-thesunwasshiningthroughtheblind,andIthoughthowpleasantitwouldbetopassthroughthequiettownandtakeasolitaryrambleonthesandswhilehalftheworldwasinbed。Iwasnotlonginformingtheresolution,norslowtoactuponit。OfcourseIwouldnotdisturbmymother,soIstolenoiselesslydownstairs,andquietlyunfastenedthedoor。Iwasdressedandout,whenthechurchclockstruckaquartertosix。Therewasafeelingoffreshnessandvigourintheverystreets;andwhenIgotfreeofthetown,whenmyfootwasonthesandsandmyfacetowardsthebroad,brightbay,nolanguagecandescribetheeffectofthedeep,clearazureoftheskyandocean,thebrightmorningsunshineonthesemicircularbarrierofcraggycliffssurmountedbygreenswellinghills,andonthesmooth,widesands,andthelowrocksoutatsea-looking,withtheirclothingofweedsandmoss,likelittlegrass-grownislands-andaboveall,onthebrilliant,sparklingwaves。Andthen,theunspeakablepurity-andfreshnessoftheair!Therewasjustenoughheattoenhancethevalueofthebreeze,andjustenoughwindtokeepthewholeseainmotion,tomakethewavescomeboundingtotheshore,foamingandsparkling,asifwildwithglee。Nothingelsewasstirring-nolivingcreaturewasvisiblebesidesmyself。Myfootstepswerethefirsttopressthefirm,unbrokensands;-nothingbeforehadtrampledthemsincelastnight\'sflowingtidehadobliteratedthedeepestmarksofyesterday,andleftthemfairandeven,exceptwherethesubsidingwaterhadleftbehinditthetracesofdimpledpoolsandlittlerunningstreams。

  Refreshed,delighted,invigorated,Iwalkedalong,forgettingallmycares,feelingasifIhadwingstomyfeet,andcouldgoatleastfortymileswithoutfatigue,andexperiencingasenseofexhilarationtowhichIhadbeenanentirestrangersincethedaysofearlyyouth。Abouthalf-pastsix,however,thegroomsbegantocomedowntoairtheirmasters\'horses-firstone,andthenanother,tillthereweresomedozenhorsesandfiveorsixriders:

  butthatneednottroubleme,fortheywouldnotcomeasfarasthelowrockswhichIwasnowapproaching。WhenIhadreachedthese,andwalkedoverthemoist,slipperysea-weedattheriskofflounderingintooneofthenumerouspoolsofclear,saltwaterthatlaybetweenthem,toalittlemossypromontorywiththeseasplashingroundit,Ilookedbackagaintoseewhonextwasstirring。Still,therewereonlytheearlygroomswiththeirhorses,andonegentlemanwithalittledarkspeckofadogrunningbeforehim,andonewater-cartcomingoutofthetowntogetwaterforthebaths。Inanotherminuteortwo,thedistantbathingmachineswouldbegintomove,andthentheelderlygentlemenofregularhabitsandsoberquakerladieswouldbecomingtotaketheirsalutarymorningwalks。Buthoweverinterestingsuchascenemightbe,Icouldnotwaittowitnessit,forthesunandtheseasodazzledmyeyesinthatdirection,thatIcouldbutaffordoneglance;andthenIturnedagaintodelightmyselfwiththesightandthesoundofthesea,dashingagainstmypromontory-withnoprodigiousforce,fortheswellwasbrokenbythetangledsea-weedandtheunseenrocksbeneath;otherwiseIshouldsoonhavebeendelugedwithspray。Butthetidewascomingin;thewaterwasrising;thegulfsandlakeswerefilling;thestraitswerewidening:itwastimetoseeksomesaferfooting;soIwalked,skipped,andstumbledbacktothesmooth,widesands,andresolvedtoproceedtoacertainboldprojectioninthecliffs,andthenreturn。

  Presently,Iheardasnufflingsoundbehindmeandthenadogcamefriskingandwrigglingtomyfeet。ItwasmyownSnap-thelittledark,wire-hairedterrier!WhenIspokehisname,heleaptupinmyfaceandyelledforjoy。Almostasmuchdelightedashimself,I

  caughtthelittlecreatureinmyarms,andkissedhimrepeatedly。

  Buthowcamehetobethere?Hecouldnothavedroppedfromthesky,orcomeallthatwayalone:itmustbeeitherhismaster,therat-catcher,orsomebodyelsethathadbroughthim;so,repressingmyextravagantcaresses,andendeavouringtorepresshislikewise,Ilookedround,andbeheld-Mr。Weston!

  \'Yourdogremembersyouwell,MissGrey,\'saidhe,warmlygraspingthehandIofferedhimwithoutclearlyknowingwhatIwasabout。

  \'Youriseearly。\'

  \'Notoftensoearlyasthis,\'Ireplied,withamazingcomposure,consideringallthecircumstancesofthecase。

  \'Howfardoyoupurposetoextendyourwalk?\'

  \'Iwasthinkingofreturning-itmustbealmosttime,Ithink。\'

  Heconsultedhiswatch-agoldonenow-andtoldmeitwasonlyfiveminutespastseven。

  \'But,doubtless,youhavehadalongenoughwalk,\'saidhe,turningtowardsthetown,towhichInowproceededleisurelytoretracemysteps;andhewalkedbesideme。

  \'Inwhatpartofthetowndoyoulive?\'askedhe。\'Inevercoulddiscover。\'

  Nevercoulddiscover?Hadheendeavouredtodosothen?

  Itoldhimtheplaceofourabode。Heaskedhowweprosperedinouraffairs。Itoldhimweweredoingverywell-thatwehadhadaconsiderableadditiontoourpupilsaftertheChristmasvacation,andexpectedastillfurtherincreaseatthecloseofthis。

  \'Youmustbeanaccomplishedinstructor,\'heobserved。

  \'No,itismymother,\'Ireplied;\'shemanagesthingssowell,andissoactive,andclever,andkind。\'

  \'Ishouldliketoknowyourmother。Willyouintroducemetohersometime,ifIcall?\'

  \'Yes,willingly。\'

  \'Andwillyouallowmetheprivilegeofanoldfriend,oflookinginuponyounowandthen?\'

  \'Yes,if-Isupposeso。\'

  Thiswasaveryfoolishanswer,butthetruthwas,IconsideredthatIhadnorighttoinviteanyonetomymother\'shousewithoutherknowledge;andifIhadsaid,\'Yes,ifmymotherdoesnotobject,\'itwouldappearasifbyhisquestionIunderstoodmorethanwasexpected;so,SUPPOSINGshewouldnot,Iadded,\'Isupposeso:\'butofcourseIshouldhavesaidsomethingmoresensibleandmorepolite,ifIhadhadmywitsaboutme。Wecontinuedourwalkforaminuteinsilence;which,however,wasshortlyrelievednosmallrelieftomebyMr。Westoncommentinguponthebrightnessofthemorningandthebeautyofthebay,andthenupontheadvantagesA-possessedovermanyotherfashionableplacesofresort。

  \'Youdon\'taskwhatbringsmetoA-\'saidhe。\'Youcan\'tsupposeI\'mrichenoughtocomeformyownpleasure。\'

  \'IheardyouhadleftHorton。\'

  \'Youdidn\'thear,then,thatIhadgotthelivingofF-?\'

  F-wasavillageabouttwomilesdistantfromA。

  \'No,\'saidI;\'welivesocompletelyoutoftheworld,evenhere,thatnewsseldomreachesmethroughanyquarter;exceptthroughthemediumofthe-GAZETTE。ButIhopeyoulikeyournewparish;

  andthatImaycongratulateyouontheacquisition?\'

  \'Iexpecttolikemyparishbetterayearortwohence,whenIhaveworkedcertainreformsIhavesetmyheartupon-or,atleast,progressedsomestepstowardssuchanachievement。Butyoumaycongratulatemenow;forIfinditveryagreeabletoHAVEaparishalltomyself,withnobodytointerferewithme-tothwartmyplansorcripplemyexertions:andbesides,Ihavearespectablehouseinaratherpleasantneighbourhood,andthreehundredpoundsayear;and,infact,Ihavenothingbutsolitudetocomplainof,andnothingbutacompaniontowishfor。\'

  Helookedatmeasheconcluded:andtheflashofhisdarkeyesseemedtosetmyfaceonfire;greatlytomyowndiscomfiture,fortoevinceconfusionatsuchajuncturewasintolerable。Imadeaneffort,therefore,toremedytheevil,anddisclaimallpersonalapplicationoftheremarkbyahasty,ill-expressedreply,totheeffectthat,ifhewaitedtillhewaswellknownintheneighbourhood,hemighthavenumerousopportunitiesforsupplyinghiswantamongtheresidentsofF-anditsvicinity,orthevisitorsofA-,ifherequiredsoampleachoice:notconsideringthecomplimentimpliedbysuchanassertion,tillhisanswermademeawareofit。

  \'Iamnotsopresumptuousastobelievethat,\'saidhe,\'thoughyoutellitme;butifitwereso,Iamratherparticularinmynotionsofacompanionforlife,andperhapsImightnotfindonetosuitmeamongtheladiesyoumention。\'

  \'Ifyourequireperfection,youneverwill。\'

  \'Idonot-Ihavenorighttorequireit,asbeingsofarfromperfectmyself。\'

  Heretheconversationwasinterruptedbyawater-cartlumberingpastus,forwewerenowcometothebusypartofthesands;and,forthenexteightortenminutes,betweencartsandhorses,andasses,andmen,therewaslittleroomforsocialintercourse,tillwehadturnedourbacksuponthesea,andbeguntoascendtheprecipitousroadleadingintothetown。Heremycompanionofferedmehisarm,whichIaccepted,thoughnotwiththeintentionofusingitasasupport。

  \'Youdon\'toftencomeontothesands,Ithink,\'saidhe,\'forI

  havewalkedtheremanytimes,bothmorningandevening,sinceI

  came,andneverseenyoutillnow;andseveraltimes,inpassingthroughthetown,too,Ihavelookedaboutforyourschool-butI

  didnotthinkofthe-Road;andonceortwiceImadeinquiries,butwithoutobtainingtherequisiteinformation。\'

  Whenwehadsurmountedtheacclivity,Iwasabouttowithdrawmyarmfromhis,butbyaslighttighteningoftheelbowwastacitlyinformedthatsuchwasnothiswill,andaccordinglydesisted。

  Discoursingondifferentsubjects,weenteredthetown,andpassedthroughseveralstreets。Isawthathewasgoingoutofhiswaytoaccompanyme,notwithstandingthelongwalkthatwasyetbeforehim;and,fearingthathemightbeinconveniencinghimselffrommotivesofpoliteness,Iobserved-\'IfearIamtakingyououtofyourway,Mr。Weston-IbelievetheroadtoF-liesquiteinanotherdirection。\'

  \'I\'llleaveyouattheendofthenextstreet,\'saidhe。

  \'Andwhenwillyoucometoseemamma?\'

  \'To-morrow-Godwilling。\'

  Theendofthenextstreetwasnearlytheconclusionofmyjourney。

  Hestoppedthere,however,bidmegood-morning,andcalledSnap,whoseemedalittledoubtfulwhethertofollowhisoldmistressorhisnewmaster,buttrottedawayuponbeingsummonedbythelatter。

  \'Iwon\'toffertorestorehimtoyou,MissGrey,\'saidMr。Weston,smiling,\'becauseIlikehim。\'

  \'Oh,Idon\'twanthim,\'repliedI,\'nowthathehasagoodmaster;

  I\'mquitesatisfied。\'

  \'YoutakeitforgrantedthatIamagoodone,then?\'

  Themanandthedogdeparted,andIreturnedhome,fullofgratitudetoheavenforsomuchbliss,andprayingthatmyhopesmightnotagainbecrushed。

  chapter25

  CHAPTERXXV-CONCLUSION

  \'WELL,Agnes,youmustnottakesuchlongwalksagainbeforebreakfast,\'saidmymother,observingthatIdrankanextracupofcoffeeandatenothing-pleadingtheheatoftheweather,andthefatigueofmylongwalkasanexcuse。Icertainlydidfeelfeverishandtiredtoo。

  \'Youalwaysdothingsbyextremes:now,ifyouhadtakenaSHORT

  walkeverymorning,andwouldcontinuetodoso,itwoulddoyougood。\'

  \'Well,mamma,Iwill。\'

  \'Butthisisworsethanlyinginbedorbendingoveryourbooks:

  youhavequiteputyourselfintoafever。\'

  \'Iwon\'tdoitagain,\'saidI。

  IwasrackingmybrainswiththinkinghowtotellheraboutMr。

  Weston,forshemustknowhewascomingto-morrow。However,I

  waitedtillthebreakfastthingswereremoved,andIwasmorecalmandcool;andthen,havingsatdowntomydrawing,Ibegan-\'Imetanoldfriendonthesandsto-day,mamma。\'

  \'Anoldfriend!Whocoulditbe?\'

  \'Twooldfriends,indeed。Onewasadog;\'andthenIremindedherofSnap,whosehistoryIhadrecountedbefore,andrelatedtheincidentofhissuddenappearanceandremarkablerecognition;\'andtheother,\'continuedI,\'wasMr。Weston,thecurateofHorton。\'

  \'Mr。Weston!Ineverheardofhimbefore。\'

  \'Yes,youhave:I\'vementionedhimseveraltimes,Ibelieve:

  butyoudon\'tremember。\'

  \'I\'veheardyouspeakofMr。Hatfield。\'

  \'Mr。Hatfieldwastherector,andMr。Westonthecurate:IusedtomentionhimsometimesincontradistinctiontoMr。Hatfield,asbeingamoreefficientclergyman。However,hewasonthesandsthismorningwiththedog-hehadboughtit,Isuppose,fromtherat-catcher;andheknewmeaswellasitdid-probablythroughitsmeans:andIhadalittleconversationwithhim,inthecourseofwhich,asheaskedaboutourschool,Iwasledtosaysomethingaboutyou,andyourgoodmanagement;andhesaidheshouldliketoknowyou,andaskedifIwouldintroducehimtoyou,ifheshouldtakethelibertyofcallingto-morrow;soIsaidIwould。WasI

  right?\'

  \'Ofcourse。Whatkindofamanishe?\'

  \'AveryRESPECTABLEman,Ithink:butyouwillseehimto-morrow。

  HeisthenewvicarofF-,andashehasonlybeenthereafewweeks,Isupposehehasmadenofriendsyet,andwantsalittlesociety。\'

  Themorrowcame。WhatafeverofanxietyandexpectationIwasinfrombreakfasttillnoon-atwhichtimehemadehisappearance!

  Havingintroducedhimtomymother,Itookmyworktothewindow,andsatdowntoawaittheresultoftheinterview。Theygotonextremelywelltogether-greatlytomysatisfaction,forIhadfeltveryanxiousaboutwhatmymotherwouldthinkofhim。Hedidnotstaylongthattime:butwhenherosetotakeleave,shesaidsheshouldbehappytoseehim,wheneverhemightfinditconvenienttocallagain;andwhenhewasgone,Iwasgratifiedbyhearinghersay,-\'Well!Ithinkhe\'saverysensibleman。

  Butwhydidyousitbackthere,Agnes,\'sheadded,\'andtalksolittle?\'

  \'Becauseyoutalkedsowell,mamma,Ithoughtyourequirednoassistancefromme:and,besides,hewasyourvisitor,notmine。\'

  Afterthat,heoftencalleduponus-severaltimesinthecourseofaweek。Hegenerallyaddressedmostofhisconversationtomymother:andnowonder,forshecouldconverse。Ialmostenviedtheunfettered,vigorousfluencyofherdiscourse,andthestrongsenseevincedbyeverythingshesaid-andyet,Ididnot;for,thoughIoccasionallyregrettedmyowndeficienciesforhissake,itgavemeverygreatpleasuretositandhearthetwobeingsI

  lovedandhonouredaboveeveryoneelseintheworld,discoursingtogethersoamicably,sowisely,andsowell。Iwasnotalwayssilent,however;norwasIatallneglected。IwasquiteasmuchnoticedasIwouldwishtobe:therewasnolackofkindwordsandkinderlooks,noendofdelicateattentions,toofineandsubtletobegraspedbywords,andthereforeindescribable-butdeeplyfeltatheart。

  Ceremonywasquicklydroppedbetweenus:Mr。Westoncameasanexpectedguest,welcomeatalltimes,andneverderangingtheeconomyofourhouseholdaffairs。Heevencalledme\'Agnes:\'thenamehadbeentimidlyspokenatfirst,but,findingitgavenooffenceinanyquarter,heseemedgreatlytopreferthatappellationto\'MissGrey;\'andsodidI。Howtediousandgloomywerethosedaysinwhichhedidnotcome!Andyetnotmiserable;

  forIhadstilltheremembranceofthelastvisitandthehopeofthenexttocheerme。Butwhentwoorthreedayspassedwithoutmyseeinghim,Icertainlyfeltveryanxious-absurdly,unreasonablyso;for,ofcourse,hehadhisownbusinessandtheaffairsofhisparishtoattendto。AndIdreadedthecloseoftheholidays,whenMYbusinessalsowouldbegin,andIshouldbesometimesunabletoseehim,andsometimes-whenmymotherwasintheschoolroom-

  obligedtobewithhimalone:apositionIdidnotatalldesire,inthehouse;thoughtomeethimoutofdoors,andwalkbesidehim,hadprovedbynomeansdisagreeable。

  Oneevening,however,inthelastweekofthevacation,hearrived-unexpectedly:foraheavyandprotractedthunder-showerduringtheafternoonhadalmostdestroyedmyhopesofseeinghimthatday;

  butnowthestormwasover,andthesunwasshiningbrightly。

  \'Abeautifulevening,Mrs。Grey!\'saidhe,asheentered。\'Agnes,Iwantyoutotakeawalkwithmeto-\'henamedacertainpartofthecoast-aboldhillonthelandside,andtowardstheseaasteepprecipice,fromthesummitofwhichagloriousviewistobehad。\'Therainhaslaidthedust,andcooledandclearedtheair,andtheprospectwillbemagnificent。Willyoucome?\'

  \'CanIgo,mamma?\'

  \'Yes;tobesure。\'

  Iwenttogetready,andwasdownagaininafewminutes;though,ofcourse,ItookalittlemorepainswithmyattirethanifIhadmerelybeengoingoutonsomeshoppingexpeditionalone。Thethunder-showerhadcertainlyhadamostbeneficialeffectupontheweather,andtheeveningwasmostdelightful。Mr。Westonwouldhavemetotakehisarm;hesaidlittleduringourpassagethroughthecrowdedstreets,butwalkedveryfast,andappearedgraveandabstracted。Iwonderedwhatwasthematter,andfeltanindefinitedreadthatsomethingunpleasantwasonhismind;andvaguesurmises,concerningwhatitmightbe,troubledmenotalittle,andmademegraveandsilentenough。Butthesefantasiesvanisheduponreachingthequietoutskirtsofthetown;forassoonaswecamewithinsightofthevenerableoldchurch,andthe-hill,withthedeepbluebeyondit,Ifoundmycompanionwascheerfulenough。

  \'I\'mafraidI\'vebeenwalkingtoofastforyou,Agnes,\'saidhe:

  \'inmyimpatiencetoberidofthetown,Iforgottoconsultyourconvenience;butnowwe\'llwalkasslowlyasyouplease。Isee,bythoselightcloudsinthewest,therewillbeabrilliantsunset,andweshallbeintimetowitnessitseffectuponthesea,atthemostmoderaterateofprogression。\'

  Whenwehadgotabouthalf-wayupthehill,wefellintosilenceagain;which,asusual,hewasthefirsttobreak。

  \'Myhouseisdesolateyet,MissGrey,\'hesmilinglyobserved,\'andIamacquaintednowwithalltheladiesinmyparish,andseveralinthistowntoo;andmanyothersIknowbysightandbyreport;

  butnotoneofthemwillsuitmeforacompanion;infact,thereisonlyonepersonintheworldthatwill:andthatisyourself;

  andIwanttoknowyourdecision?\'

  \'Areyouinearnest,Mr。Weston?\'

  \'Inearnest!HowcouldyouthinkIshouldjestonsuchasubject?\'

  Helaidhishandonmine,thatrestedonhisarm:hemusthavefeltittremble-butitwasnogreatmatternow。

  \'IhopeIhavenotbeentooprecipitate,\'hesaid,inaserioustone。\'Youmusthaveknownthatitwasnotmywaytoflatterandtalksoftnonsense,oreventospeaktheadmirationthatIfelt;

  andthatasinglewordorglanceofminemeantmorethanthehoniedphrasesandferventprotestationsofmostothermen。\'

  Isaidsomethingaboutnotlikingtoleavemymother,anddoingnothingwithoutherconsent。

  \'IsettledeverythingwithMrs。Grey,whileyouwereputtingonyourbonnet,\'repliedhe。\'ShesaidImighthaveherconsent,ifI

  couldobtainyours;andIaskedher,incaseIshouldbesohappy,tocomeandlivewithus-forIwassureyouwouldlikeitbetter。

  Butsherefused,sayingshecouldnowaffordtoemployanassistant,andwouldcontinuetheschooltillshecouldpurchaseanannuitysufficienttomaintainherincomfortablelodgings;and,meantime,shewouldspendhervacationsalternatelywithusandyoursister,andshouldbequitecontentedifyouwerehappy。

  AndsonowIhaveoverruledyourobjectionsonheraccount。Haveyouanyother?\'

  \'No-none。\'

  \'Youlovemethen?\'saidbe,ferventlypressingmyhand。

  \'Yes。\'

  HereIpause。MyDiary,fromwhichIhavecompiledthesepages,goesbutlittlefurther。Icouldgoonforyears,butIwillcontentmyselfwithadding,thatIshallneverforgetthatglorioussummerevening,andalwaysrememberwithdelightthatsteephill,andtheedgeoftheprecipicewherewestoodtogether,watchingthesplendidsunsetmirroredintherestlessworldofwatersatourfeet-withheartsfilledwithgratitudetoheaven,andhappiness,andlove-almosttoofullforspeech。

  Afewweeksafterthat,whenmymotherhadsuppliedherselfwithanassistant,IbecamethewifeofEdwardWeston;andneverhavefoundcausetorepentit,andamcertainthatInevershall。Wehavehadtrials,andweknowthatwemusthavethemagain;butwebearthemwelltogether,andendeavourtofortifyourselvesandeachotheragainstthefinalseparation-thatgreatestofallafflictionstothesurvivor。But,ifwekeepinmindthegloriousheavenbeyond,wherebothmaymeetagain,andsinandsorrowareunknown,surelythattoomaybeborne;and,meantime,weendeavourtolivetothegloryofHimwhohasscatteredsomanyblessingsinourpath。

  Edward,byhisstrenuousexertions,hasworkedsurprisingreformsinhisparish,andisesteemedandlovedbyitsinhabitants-ashedeserves;forwhateverhisfaultsmaybeasamanandnooneisentirelywithout,Idefyanybodytoblamehimasapastor,ahusband,orafather。

  Ourchildren,Edward,Agnes,andlittleMary,promisewell;theireducation,forthetimebeing,ischieflycommittedtome;andtheyshallwantnogoodthingthatamother\'scarecangive。Ourmodestincomeisamplysufficientforourrequirements:andbypractisingtheeconomywelearntinhardertimes,andneverattemptingtoimitateourricherneighbours,wemanagenotonlytoenjoycomfortandcontentmentourselves,buttohaveeveryyearsomethingtolaybyforourchildren,andsomethingtogivetothosewhoneedit。

  AndnowIthinkIhavesaidsufficient。

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