theyembracedeachother。Itwasasjoyfultobeforgivenpastunworthinessesastoforgivethem。Foramomenttheyrealizedvastpossibilitiesofgood。
Theolderpeoplerecoveredquickly。Intheveryheightoftheiremotiontheyknewittobeunmanlyorunladylike。MissLavishcalculatedthat,eveniftheyhadcontinued,theywouldnothavebeencaughtintheaccident。Mr。Eagermumbledatemperateprayer。Butthedrivers,throughmilesofdarksqualidroad,pouredouttheirsoulstothedryadsandthesaints,andLucypouredoutherstohercousin。
\"Charlotte,dearCharlotte,kissme。Kissmeagain。Onlyyoucanunderstandme。Youwarnedmetobecareful。AndI——IthoughtI
wasdeveloping。”
\"Donotcry,dearest。Takeyourtime。”
\"Ihavebeenobstinateandsilly——worsethanyouknow,farworse。
Oncebytheriver——Oh,butheisn\'tkilled——hewouldn\'tbekilled,wouldhe?\"
Thethoughtdisturbedherrepentance。Asamatteroffact,thestormwasworstalongtheroad;butshehadbeenneardanger,andsoshethoughtitmustbeneartoeveryone。
\"Itrustnot。Onewouldalwaysprayagainstthat。”
\"Heisreally——Ithinkhewastakenbysurprise,justasIwasbefore。ButthistimeI\'mnottoblame;Iwantyoutobelievethat。Isimplyslippedintothoseviolets。No,Iwanttobereallytruthful。Iamalittletoblame。Ihadsillythoughts。
Thesky,youknow,wasgold,andthegroundallblue,andforamomenthelookedlikesomeoneinabook。”
\"Inabook?\"
\"Heroes——gods——thenonsenseofschoolgirls。”
\"Andthen?\"
\"But,Charlotte,youknowwhathappenedthen。”
MissBartlettwassilent。Indeed,shehadlittlemoretolearn。
Withacertainamountofinsightshedrewheryoungcousinaffectionatelytoher。AllthewaybackLucy\'sbodywasshakenbydeepsighs,whichnothingcouldrepress。
\"Iwanttobetruthful,\"shewhispered。\"Itissohardtobeabsolutelytruthful。”
\"Don\'tbetroubled,dearest。Waittillyouarecalmer。Wewilltalkitoverbeforebed-timeinmyroom。”
Sotheyre-enteredthecitywithhandsclasped。Itwasashocktothegirltofindhowfaremotionhadebbedinothers。Thestormhadceased,andMr。Emersonwaseasierabouthisson。Mr。Beebehadregainedgoodhumour,andMr。EagerwasalreadysnubbingMissLavish。Charlottealoneshewassureof——Charlotte,whoseexteriorconcealedsomuchinsightandlove。
Theluxuryofself-exposurekeptheralmosthappythroughthelongevening。Shethoughtnotsomuchofwhathadhappenedasofhowsheshoulddescribeit。Allhersensations,herspasmsofcourage,hermomentsofunreasonablejoy,hermysteriousdiscontent,shouldbecarefullylaidbeforehercousin。Andtogetherindivineconfidencetheywoulddisentangleandinterpretthemall。
\"Atlast,\"thoughtshe,\"Ishallunderstandmyself。Ishan\'tagainbetroubledbythingsthatcomeoutofnothing,andmeanI
don\'tknowwhat。”
MissAlanaskedhertoplay。Sherefusedvehemently。Musicseemedtohertheemploymentofachild。Shesatclosetohercousin,who,withcommendablepatience,waslisteningtoalongstoryaboutlostluggage。Whenitwasovershecappeditbyastoryofherown。Lucybecameratherhystericalwiththedelay。Invainshetriedtocheck,oratalleventstoaccelerate,thetale。ItwasnottillalatehourthatMissBartletthadrecoveredherluggageandcouldsayinherusualtoneofgentlereproach:
\"Well,dear,IatalleventsamreadyforBedfordshire。Comeintomyroom,andIwillgiveagoodbrushtoyourhair。”
Withsomesolemnitythedoorwasshut,andacanechairplacedforthegirl。ThenMissBartlettsaid\"Sowhatistobedone?\"
Shewasunpreparedforthequestion。Ithadnotoccurredtoherthatshewouldhavetodoanything。Adetailedexhibitionofheremotionswasallthatshehadcountedupon。
\"Whatistobedone?Apoint,dearest,whichyoualonecansettle。”
Therainwasstreamingdowntheblackwindows,andthegreatroomfeltdampandchilly,OnecandleburnttremblingonthechestofdrawersclosetoMissBartlett\'stoque,whichcastmonstrousandfantasticshadowsonthebolteddoor。Atramroaredbyinthedark,andLucyfeltunaccountablysad,thoughshehadlongsincedriedhereyes。Sheliftedthemtotheceiling,wherethegriffinsandbassoonswerecolourlessandvague,theveryghostsofjoy。
\"Ithasbeenrainingfornearlyfourhours,\"shesaidatlast。
MissBartlettignoredtheremark。
\"Howdoyouproposetosilencehim?\"
\"Thedriver?\"
\"Mydeargirl,no;Mr。GeorgeEmerson。”
Lucybegantopaceupanddowntheroom。
\"Idon\'tunderstand,\"shesaidatlast。
Sheunderstoodverywell,butshenolongerwishedtobeabsolutelytruthful。
\"Howareyougoingtostophimtalkingaboutit?\"
\"Ihaveafeelingthattalkisathinghewillneverdo。”
\"I,too,intendtojudgehimcharitably。ButunfortunatelyIhavemetthetypebefore。Theyseldomkeeptheirexploitstothemselves。”
\"Exploits?\"criedLucy,wincingunderthehorribleplural。
\"Mypoordear,didyousupposethatthiswashisfirst?Comehereandlistentome。Iamonlygatheringitfromhisownremarks。DoyourememberthatdayatlunchwhenhearguedwithMissAlanthatlikingonepersonisanextrareasonforlikinganother?\"
\"Yes,\"saidLucy,whomatthetimetheargumenthadpleased。
\"Well,Iamnoprude。Thereisnoneedtocallhimawickedyoungman,butobviouslyheisthoroughlyunrefined。Letusputitdowntohisdeplorableantecedentsandeducation,ifyouwish。Butwearenofartheronwithourquestion。Whatdoyouproposetodo?\"
AnidearushedacrossLucy\'sbrain,which,hadshethoughtofitsoonerandmadeitpartofher,mighthaveprovedvictorious。
\"Iproposetospeaktohim,\"saidshe。
MissBartlettutteredacryofgenuinealarm。
\"Yousee,Charlotte,yourkindness——Ishallneverforgetit。
But——asyousaid——itismyaffair。Mineandhis。”
\"AndyouaregoingtoIMPLOREhim,toBEGhimtokeepsilence?\"
\"Certainlynot。Therewouldbenodifficulty。Whateveryouaskhimheanswers,yesorno;thenitisover。Ihavebeenfrightenedofhim。ButnowIamnotonelittlebit。”
\"Butwefearhimforyou,dear。Youaresoyoungandinexperienced,youhavelivedamongsuchnicepeople,thatyoucannotrealizewhatmencanbe——howtheycantakeabrutalpleasureininsultingawomanwhomhersexdoesnotprotectandrallyround。Thisafternoon,forexample,ifIhadnotarrived,whatwouldhavehappened?\"
\"Ican\'tthink,\"saidLucygravely。
SomethinginhervoicemadeMissBartlettrepeatherquestion,intoningitmorevigorously。
\"WhatwouldhavehappenedifIhadn\'tarrived?\"
\"Ican\'tthink,\"saidLucyagain。
\"Whenheinsultedyou,howwouldyouhavereplied?\"
\"Ihadn\'ttimetothink。Youcame。”
\"Yes,butwon\'tyoutellmenowwhatyouwouldhavedone?\"
\"Ishouldhave——\"Shecheckedherself,andbrokethesentenceoff。Shewentuptothedrippingwindowandstrainedhereyesintothedarkness。Shecouldnotthinkwhatshewouldhavedone。
\"Comeawayfromthewindow,dear,\"saidMissBartlett。\"Youwillbeseenfromtheroad。”
Lucyobeyed。Shewasinhercousin\'spower。Shecouldnotmodulateoutthekeyofself-abasementinwhichshehadstarted。
NeitherofthemreferredagaintohersuggestionthatsheshouldspeaktoGeorgeandsettlethematter,whateveritwas,withhim。
MissBartlettbecameplaintive。
\"Oh,forarealman!Weareonlytwowomen,youandI。Mr。Beebeishopeless。ThereisMr。Eager,butyoudonottrusthim。Oh,foryourbrother!Heisyoung,butIknowthathissister\'sinsultwouldrouseinhimaverylion。ThankGod,chivalryisnotyetdead。Therearestillleftsomemenwhocanreverencewoman。”
Asshespoke,shepulledoffherrings,ofwhichsheworeseveral,andrangedthemuponthepincushion。Thensheblewintoherglovesandsaid:
\"Itwillbeapushtocatchthemorningtrain,butwemusttry。”
\"Whattrain?\"
\"ThetraintoRome。”Shelookedatherglovescritically。
Thegirlreceivedtheannouncementaseasilyasithadbeengiven。
\"WhendoesthetraintoRomego?\"
\"Ateight。”
\"SignoraBertoliniwouldbeupset。”
\"Wemustfacethat,\"saidMissBartlett,notlikingtosaythatshehadgivennoticealready。
\"Shewillmakeuspayforawholeweek\'spension。”
\"Iexpectshewill。However,weshallbemuchmorecomfortableattheVyses\'hotel。Isn\'tafternoonteagiventherefornothing?\"
\"Yes,buttheypayextraforwine。”Afterthisremarksheremainedmotionlessandsilent。TohertiredeyesCharlottethrobbedandswelledlikeaghostlyfigureinadream。
Theybegantosorttheirclothesforpacking,fortherewasnotimetolose,iftheyweretocatchthetraintoRome。Lucy,whenadmonished,begantomovetoandfrobetweentherooms,moreconsciousofthediscomfortsofpackingbycandlelightthanofasubtlerill。Charlotte,whowaspracticalwithoutability,kneltbythesideofanemptytrunk,vainlyendeavouringtopaveitwithbooksofvaryingthicknessandsize。Shegavetwoorthreesighs,forthestoopingposturehurtherback,and,forallherdiplomacy,shefeltthatshewasgrowingold。Thegirlheardherassheenteredtheroom,andwasseizedwithoneofthoseemotionalimpulsestowhichshecouldneverattributeacause。
Sheonlyfeltthatthecandlewouldburnbetter,thepackinggoeasier,theworldbehappier,ifshecouldgiveandreceivesomehumanlove。Theimpulsehadcomebeforeto-day,butneversostrongly。Shekneltdownbyhercousin\'ssideandtookherinherarms。
MissBartlettreturnedtheembracewithtendernessandwarmth。
Butshewasnotastupidwoman,andsheknewperfectlywellthatLucydidnotloveher,butneededhertolove。Foritwasinominoustonesthatshesaid,afteralongpause:
\"DearestLucy,howwillyoueverforgiveme?\"
Lucywasonherguardatonce,knowingbybitterexperiencewhatforgivingMissBartlettmeant。Heremotionrelaxed,shemodifiedherembracealittle,andshesaid:
\"Charlottedear,whatdoyoumean?AsifIhaveanythingtoforgive!\"
\"Youhaveagreatdeal,andIhaveaverygreatdealtoforgivemyself,too。IknowwellhowmuchIvexyouateveryturn。”
\"Butno——\"
MissBartlettassumedherfavouriterole,thatoftheprematurelyagedmartyr。
\"Ah,butyes!IfeelthatourtourtogetherishardlythesuccessIhadhoped。Imighthaveknownitwouldnotdo。Youwantsomeoneyoungerandstrongerandmoreinsympathywithyou。Iamtoouninterestingandold-fashioned——onlyfittopackandunpackyourthings。”
\"Please——\"
\"Myonlyconsolationwasthatyoufoundpeoplemoretoyourtaste,andwereoftenabletoleavemeathome。Ihadmyownpoorideasofwhataladyoughttodo,butIhopeIdidnotinflictthemonyoumorethanwasnecessary。Youhadyourownwayabouttheserooms,atallevents。”
\"Youmustn\'tsaythesethings,\"saidLucysoftly。
ShestillclungtothehopethatsheandCharlottelovedeachother,heartandsoul。Theycontinuedtopackinsilence。
\"Ihavebeenafailure,\"saidMissBartlett,asshestruggledwiththestrapsofLucy\'strunkinsteadofstrappingherown。
\"Failedtomakeyouhappy;failedinmydutytoyourmother。Shehasbeensogeneroustome;Ishallneverfaceheragainafterthisdisaster。”
\"Butmotherwillunderstand。Itisnotyourfault,thistrouble,anditisn\'tadisastereither。”
\"Itismyfault,itisadisaster。Shewillneverforgiveme,andrightly。Furinstance,whatrighthadItomakefriendswithMissLavish?\"
\"Everyright。”
\"WhenIwashereforyoursake?IfIhavevexedyouitisequallytruethatIhaveneglectedyou。YourmotherwillseethisasclearlyasIdo,whenyoutellher。”
Lucy,fromacowardlywishtoimprovethesituation,said:
\"Whyneedmotherhearofit?\"
\"Butyoutellhereverything?\"
\"IsupposeIdogenerally。”
\"Idarenotbreakyourconfidence。Thereissomethingsacredinit。Unlessyoufeelthatitisathingyoucouldnottellher。”
Thegirlwouldnotbedegradedtothis。
\"NaturallyIshouldhavetoldher。Butincasesheshouldblameyouinanyway,IpromiseIwillnot,Iamverywillingnotto。I
willneverspeakofiteithertoherortoanyone。”
Herpromisebroughtthelong-drawninterviewtoasuddenclose。
MissBartlettpeckedhersmartlyonbothcheeks,wishedhergood-night,andsenthertoherownroom。
Foramomenttheoriginaltroublewasinthebackground。Georgewouldseemtohavebehavedlikeacadthroughout;perhapsthatwastheviewwhichonewouldtakeeventually。Atpresentsheneitheracquittednorcondemnedhim;shedidnotpassjudgment。
Atthemomentwhenshewasabouttojudgehimhercousin\'svoicehadintervened,and,eversince,itwasMissBartlettwhohaddominated;MissBartlettwho,evennow,couldbeheardsighingintoacrackinthepartitionwall;MissBartlett,whohadreallybeenneitherpliablenorhumblenorinconsistent。Shehadworkedlikeagreatartist;foratime——indeed,foryears——shehadbeenmeaningless,butattheendtherewaspresentedtothegirlthecompletepictureofacheerless,lovelessworldinwhichtheyoungrushtodestructionuntiltheylearnbetter——ashamefacedworldofprecautionsandbarrierswhichmayavertevil,butwhichdonotseemtobringgood,ifwemayjudgefromthosewhohaveusedthemmost。
Lucywassufferingfromthemostgrievouswrongwhichthisworldhasyetdiscovered:diplomaticadvantagehadbeentakenofhersincerity,ofhercravingforsympathyandlove。Suchawrongisnoteasilyforgotten。Neveragaindidsheexposeherselfwithoutdueconsiderationandprecautionagainstrebuff。Andsuchawrongmayreactdisastrouslyuponthesoul。
Thedoor-bellrang,andshestartedtotheshutters。Beforeshereachedthemshehesitated,turned,andblewoutthecandle。Thusitwasthat,thoughshesawsomeonestandinginthewetbelow,he,thoughhelookedup,didnotseeher。
Toreachhisroomhehadtogobyhers。Shewasstilldressed。Itstruckherthatshemightslipintothepassageandjustsaythatshewouldbegonebeforehewasup,andthattheirextraordinaryintercoursewasover。
Whethershewouldhavedaredtodothiswasneverproved。AtthecriticalmomentMissBartlettopenedherowndoor,andhervoicesaid:
\"Iwishonewordwithyouinthedrawing-room,Mr。Emerson,please。”
Soontheirfootstepsreturned,andMissBartlettsaid:
\"Good-night,Mr。Emerson。”
Hisheavy,tiredbreathingwastheonlyreply;thechaperonhaddoneherwork。
Lucycriedaloud:\"Itisn\'ttrue。Itcan\'tallbetrue。Iwantnottobemuddled。Iwanttogrowolderquickly。”
MissBartletttappedonthewall。
\"Gotobedatonce,dear。Youneedalltherestyoucanget。”
InthemorningtheyleftforRome。
PartTwoChapterVIII:MedievalThedrawing-roomcurtainsatWindyCornerhadbeenpulledtomeet,forthecarpetwasnewanddeservedprotectionfromtheAugustsun。Theywereheavycurtains,reachingalmosttotheground,andthelightthatfilteredthroughthemwassubduedandvaried。Apoet——nonewaspresent——mighthavequoted,\"Lifelikeadomeofmanycolouredglass,\"ormighthavecomparedthecurtainstosluice-gates,loweredagainsttheintolerabletidesofheaven。Withoutwaspouredaseaofradiance;within,theglory,thoughvisible,wastemperedtothecapacitiesofman。
Twopleasantpeoplesatintheroom。One——aboyofnineteen——wasstudyingasmallmanualofanatomy,andpeeringoccasionallyatabonewhichlayuponthepiano。Fromtimetotimehebouncedinhischairandpuffedandgroaned,forthedaywashotandtheprintsmall,andthehumanframefearfullymade;andhismother,whowaswritingaletter,didcontinuallyreadouttohimwhatshehadwritten。Andcontinuallydidsherisefromherseatandpartthecurtainssothatarivuletoflightfellacrossthecarpet,andmaketheremarkthattheywerestillthere。
\"Wherearen\'tthey?\"saidtheboy,whowasFreddy,Lucy\'sbrother。\"ItellyouI\'mgettingfairlysick。”
\"Forgoodness\'sakegooutofmydrawing-room,then?\"criedMrs。
Honeychurch,whohopedtocureherchildrenofslangbytakingitliterally。
Freddydidnotmoveorreply。
\"Ithinkthingsarecomingtoahead,\"sheobserved,ratherwantingherson\'sopiniononthesituationifshecouldobtainitwithoutunduesupplication。
\"Timetheydid。”
\"IamgladthatCecilisaskingherthisoncemore。”
\"It\'shisthirdgo,isn\'tit?\"
\"FreddyIdocallthewayyoutalkunkind。”
\"Ididn\'tmeantobeunkind。”Thenheadded:\"ButIdothinkLucymighthavegotthisoffherchestinItaly。Idon\'tknowhowgirlsmanagethings,butshecan\'thavesaid\'No\'properlybefore,orshewouldn\'thavetosayitagainnow。Overthewholething——Ican\'texplain——Idofeelsouncomfortable。”
\"Doyouindeed,dear?Howinteresting!\"
\"Ifeel——nevermind。”
Hereturnedtohiswork。
\"JustlistentowhatIhavewrittentoMrs。Vyse。Isaid:\'DearMrs。Vyse。\'\"
\"Yes,mother,youtoldme。Ajollygoodletter。”
\"Isaid:\'DearMrs。Vyse,Cecilhasjustaskedmypermissionaboutit,andIshouldbedelighted,ifLucywishesit。But——\'\"
Shestoppedreading,\"IwasratheramusedatCecilaskingmypermissionatall。Hehasalwaysgoneinforunconventionality,andparentsnowhere,andsoforth。Whenitcomestothepoint,hecan\'tgetonwithoutme。”
\"Norme。”
\"You?\"
Freddynodded。
\"Whatdoyoumean?\"
\"Heaskedmeformypermissionalso。”
Sheexclaimed:\"Howveryoddofhim!\"
\"Whyso?\"askedthesonandheir。\"Whyshouldn\'tmypermissionbeasked?\"
\"WhatdoyouknowaboutLucyorgirlsoranything?Whateverdidyousay?\"
\"IsaidtoCecil,\'Takeherorleaveher;it\'snobusinessofmine!\'\"
\"Whatahelpfulanswer!\"Butherownanswer,thoughmorenormalinitswording,hadbeentothesameeffect。
\"Thebotheristhis,\"beganFreddy。
Thenhetookuphisworkagain,tooshytosaywhatthebotherwas。Mrs。Honeychurchwentbacktothewindow。
\"Freddy,youmustcome。Theretheystillare!\"
\"Idon\'tseeyououghttogopeepinglikethat。”
\"Peepinglikethat!Can\'tIlookoutofmyownwindow?\"
Butshereturnedtothewriting-table,observing,asshepassedherson,\"Stillpage322?\"Freddysnorted,andturnedovertwoleaves。Forabriefspacetheyweresilent。Closeby,beyondthecurtains,thegentlemurmurofalongconversationhadneverceased。
\"Thebotheristhis:IhaveputmyfootinitwithCecilmostawfully。”Hegaveanervousgulp。\"Notcontentwith\'permission\',whichIdidgive——thatistosay,Isaid,\'Idon\'tmind\'——well,notcontentwiththat,hewantedtoknowwhetherIwasn\'toffmyheadwithjoy。Hepracticallyputitlikethis:Wasn\'titasplendidthingforLucyandforWindyCornergenerallyifhemarriedher?Andhewouldhaveananswer——hesaiditwouldstrengthenhishand。”
\"Ihopeyougaveacarefulanswer,dear。”
\"Ianswered\'No\'\"saidtheboy,grindinghisteeth。\"There!Flyintoastew!Ican\'thelpit——hadtosayit。Ihadtosayno。Heoughtnevertohaveaskedme。”
\"Ridiculouschild!\"criedhismother。\"Youthinkyou\'resoholyandtruthful,butreallyit\'sonlyabominableconceit。DoyousupposethatamanlikeCecilwouldtaketheslightestnoticeofanythingyousay?Ihopeheboxedyourears。Howdareyousayno?\"
\"Oh,dokeepquiet,mother!IhadtosaynowhenIcouldn\'tsayyes。ItriedtolaughasifIdidn\'tmeanwhatIsaid,and,asCecillaughedtoo,andwentaway,itmaybeallright。ButIfeelmyfoot\'sinit。Oh,dokeepquiet,though,andletamandosomework。”
\"No,\"saidMrs。Honeychurch,withtheairofonewhohasconsideredthesubject,\"Ishallnotkeepquiet。YouknowallthathaspassedbetweentheminRome;youknowwhyheisdownhere,andyetyoudeliberatelyinsulthim,andtrytoturnhimoutofmyhouse。”
\"Notabit!\"hepleaded。\"IonlyletoutIdidn\'tlikehim。I
don\'thatehim,butIdon\'tlikehim。WhatImindisthathe\'lltellLucy。”
Heglancedatthecurtainsdismally。
\"Well,Ilikehim,\"saidMrs。Honeychurch。\"Iknowhismother;
he\'sgood,he\'sclever,he\'srich,he\'swellconnected——Oh,youneedn\'tkickthepiano!He\'swellconnected——I\'llsayitagainifyoulike:he\'swellconnected。”Shepaused,asifrehearsinghereulogy,butherfaceremaineddissatisfied。Sheadded:\"Andhehasbeautifulmanners。”
\"Ilikedhimtilljustnow。Isupposeit\'shavinghimspoilingLucy\'sfirstweekathome;andit\'salsosomethingthatMr。Beebesaid,notknowing。”
\"Mr。Beebe?\"saidhismother,tryingtoconcealherinterest。\"I
don\'tseehowMr。Beebecomesin。”
\"YouknowMr。Beebe\'sfunnyway,whenyouneverquiteknowwhathemeans。Hesaid:\'Mr。Vyseisanidealbachelor。\'Iwasverycute,Iaskedhimwhathemeant。Hesaid\'Oh,he\'slikeme——
betterdetached。\'Icouldn\'tmakehimsayanymore,butitsetmethinking。SinceCecilhascomeafterLucyhehasn\'tbeensopleasant,atleast——Ican\'texplain。”
\"Younevercan,dear。ButIcan。YouarejealousofCecilbecausehemaystopLucyknittingyousilkties。”
Theexplanationseemedplausible,andFreddytriedtoacceptit。
Butatthebackofhisbraintherelurkedadimmistrust。Cecilpraisedonetoomuchforbeingathletic。Wasthatit?Cecilmadeonetalkinone\'sownway。Thistiredone。Wasthatit?AndCecilwasthekindoffellowwhowouldneverwearanotherfellow\'scap。
Unawareofhisownprofundity,Freddycheckedhimself。Hemustbejealous,orhewouldnotdislikeamanforsuchfoolishreasons。
\"Willthisdo?\"calledhismother。\"\'DearMrs。Vyse,——Cecilhasjustaskedmypermissionaboutit,andIshouldbedelightedifLucywishesit。\'ThenIputinatthetop,\'andIhavetoldLucyso。\'Imustwritetheletteroutagain——\'andIhavetoldLucyso。
ButLucyseemsveryuncertain,andinthesedaysyoungpeoplemustdecideforthemselves。\'IsaidthatbecauseIdidn\'twantMrs。Vysetothinkusold-fashioned。Shegoesinforlecturesandimprovinghermind,andallthetimeathicklayerofflueunderthebeds,andthemaid\'sdirtythumb-markswhereyouturnontheelectriclight。Shekeepsthatflatabominably——\"
\"SupposeLucymarriesCecil,wouldsheliveinaflat,orinthecountry?\"
\"Don\'tinterruptsofoolishly。WherewasI?Ohyes——\'Youngpeoplemustdecideforthemselves。IknowthatLucylikesyourson,becauseshetellsmeeverything,andshewrotetomefromRomewhenheaskedherfirst。\'No,I\'llcrossthatlastbitout——itlookspatronizing。I\'llstopat\'becauseshetellsmeeverything。\'OrshallIcrossthatout,too?\"
\"Crossitout,too,\"saidFreddy。
Mrs。Honeychurchleftitin。
\"Thenthewholethingruns:\'DearMrs。Vyse——Cecilhasjustaskedmypermissionaboutit,andIshouldbedelightedifLucywishesit,andIhavetoldLucyso。ButLucyseemsveryuncertain,andinthesedaysyoungpeoplemustdecideforthemselves。IknowthatLucylikesyourson,becauseshetellsmeeverything。ButIdonotknow——\'\"
\"Lookout!\"criedFreddy。
Thecurtainsparted。
Cecil\'sfirstmovementwasoneofirritation。Hecouldn\'tbeartheHoneychurchhabitofsittinginthedarktosavethefurniture。Instinctivelyhegivethecurtainsatwitch,andsentthemswingingdowntheirpoles。Lightentered。Therewasrevealedaterrace,suchasisownedbymanyvillaswithtreeseachsideofit,andonitalittlerusticseat,andtwoflower-beds。Butitwastransfiguredbytheviewbeyond,forWindyCornerwasbuiltontherangethatoverlookstheSussexWeald。Lucy,whowasinthelittleseat,seemedontheedgeofagreenmagiccarpetwhichhoveredintheairabovethetremulousworld。
Cecilentered。
Appearingthuslateinthestory,Cecilmustbeatoncedescribed。Hewasmedieval。LikeaGothicstatue。Tallandrefined,withshouldersthatseemedbracedsquarebyaneffortofthewill,andaheadthatwastiltedalittlehigherthantheusuallevelofvision,heresembledthosefastidioussaintswhoguardtheportalsofaFrenchcathedral。Welleducated,wellendowed,andnotdeficientphysically,heremainedinthegripofacertaindevilwhomthemodernworldknowsasself-consciousness,andwhomthemedieval,withdimmervision,worshippedasasceticism。
AGothicstatueimpliescelibacy,justasaGreekstatueimpliesfruition,andperhapsthiswaswhatMr。Beebemeant。AndFreddy,whoignoredhistoryandart,perhapsmeantthesamewhenhefailedtoimagineCecilwearinganotherfellow\'scap。
Mrs。Honeychurchleftherletteronthewritingtableandmovedtowardsheryoungacquaintance。
\"Oh,Cecil!\"sheexclaimed——\"oh,Cecil,dotellme!\"
\"Ipromessisposi,\"saidhe。
Theystaredathimanxiously。
\"Shehasacceptedme,\"hesaid,andthesoundofthethinginEnglishmadehimflushandsmilewithpleasure,andlookmorehuman。
\"Iamsoglad,\"saidMrs。Honeychurch,whileFreddyprofferedahandthatwasyellowwithchemicals。TheywishedthattheyalsoknewItalian,forourphrasesofapprovalandofamazementaresoconnectedwithlittleoccasionsthatwefeartousethemongreatones。Weareobligedtobecomevaguelypoetic,ortotakerefugeinScripturalreminiscences。
\"Welcomeasoneofthefamily!\"saidMrs。Honeychurch,wavingherhandatthefurniture。\"Thisisindeedajoyousday!IfeelsurethatyouwillmakeourdearLucyhappy。”
\"Ihopeso,\"repliedtheyoungman,shiftinghiseyestotheceiling。
\"Wemothers——\"simperedMrs。Honeychurch,andthenrealizedthatshewasaffected,sentimental,bombastic——allthethingsshehatedmost。WhycouldshenotbeFreddy,whostoodstiffinthemiddleoftheroom;lookingverycrossandalmosthandsome?
\"Isay,Lucy!\"calledCecil,forconversationseemedtoflag。
Lucyrosefromtheseat。Shemovedacrossthelawnandsmiledinatthem,justasifshewasgoingtoaskthemtoplaytennis。
Thenshesawherbrother\'sface。Herlipsparted,andshetookhiminherarms。Hesaid,\"Steadyon!\"
\"Notakissforme?\"askedhermother。
Lucykissedheralso。
\"WouldyoutakethemintothegardenandtellMrs。Honeychurchallaboutit?\"Cecilsuggested。\"AndI\'dstophereandtellmymother。”
\"WegowithLucy?\"saidFreddy,asiftakingorders。
\"Yes,yougowithLucy。”
Theypassedintothesunlight。Cecilwatchedthemcrosstheterrace,anddescendoutofsightbythesteps。Theywoulddescend——heknewtheirways——pasttheshrubbery,andpastthetennis-lawnandthedahlia-bed,untiltheyreachedthekitchengarden,andthere,inthepresenceofthepotatoesandthepeas,thegreateventwouldbediscussed。
Smilingindulgently,helitacigarette,andrehearsedtheeventsthathadledtosuchahappyconclusion。
HehadknownLucyforseveralyears,butonlyasacommonplacegirlwhohappenedtobemusical。HecouldstillrememberhisdepressionthatafternoonatRome,whensheandherterriblecousinfellonhimoutoftheblue,anddemandedtobetakentoSt。Peter\'s。Thatdayshehadseemedatypicaltourist——shrill,crude,andgauntwithtravel。ButItalyworkedsomemarvelinher。Itgaveherlight,and——whichheheldmoreprecious——itgavehershadow。Soonhedetectedinherawonderfulreticence。ShewaslikeawomanofLeonardodaVinci\'s,whomwelovenotsomuchforherselfasforthethingsthatshewillnottellus,Thethingsareassuredlynotofthislife;nowomanofLeonardo\'scouldhaveanythingsovulgarasa\"story。”Shediddevelopmostwonderfullydaybyday。
Soithappenedthatfrompatronizingcivilityhehadslowlypassedifnottopassion,atleasttoaprofounduneasiness。
AlreadyatRomehehadhintedtoherthattheymightbesuitableforeachother。Ithadtouchedhimgreatlythatshehadnotbrokenawayatthesuggestion。Herrefusalhadbeenclearandgentle;afterit——asthehorridphrasewent——shehadbeenexactlythesametohimasbefore。Threemonthslater,onthemarginofItaly,amongtheflower-cladAlps,hehadaskedheragaininbald,traditionallanguage。SheremindedhimofaLeonardomorethanever;hersunburntfeatureswereshadowedbyfantasticrock;
athiswordsshehadturnedandstoodbetweenhimandthelightwithimmeasurableplainsbehindher。Hewalkedhomewithherunashamed,feelingnotatalllikearejectedsuitor。Thethingsthatreallymatteredwereunshaken。
Sonowhehadaskedheroncemore,and,clearandgentleasever,shehadacceptedhim,givingnocoyreasonsforherdelay,butsimplysayingthatshelovedhimandwoulddoherbesttomakehimhappy。Hismother,too,wouldbepleased;shehadcounselledthestep;hemustwriteheralongaccount。
Glancingathishand,incaseanyofFreddy\'schemicalshadcomeoffonit,hemovedtothewritingtable。Therehesaw\"DearMrs。
Vyse,\"followedbymanyerasures。Herecoiledwithoutreadinganymore,andafteralittlehesitationsatdownelsewhere,andpencilledanoteonhisknee。
Thenhelitanothercigarette,whichdidnotseemquiteasdivineasthefirst,andconsideredwhatmightbedonetomakeWindyCornerdrawing-roommoredistinctive。Withthatoutlookitshouldhavebeenasuccessfulroom,butthetrailofTottenhamCourtRoadwasuponit;hecouldalmostvisualizethemotor-vansofMessrs。ShoolbredandMessrs。Maplearrivingatthedooranddepositingthischair,thosevarnishedbook-cases,thatwriting-table。ThetablerecalledMrs。Honeychurch\'sletter。Hedidnotwanttoreadthatletter——histemptationsneverlayinthatdirection;butheworriedaboutitnonetheless。Itwashisownfaultthatshewasdiscussinghimwithhismother;hehadwantedhersupportinhisthirdattempttowinLucy;hewantedtofeelthatothers,nomatterwhotheywere,agreedwithhim,andsohehadaskedtheirpermission。Mrs。Honeychurchhadbeencivil,butobtuseinessentials,whileasforFreddy——\"Heisonlyaboy,\"hereflected。\"Irepresentallthathedespises。Whyshouldhewantmeforabrother-in-law?\"
TheHoneychurcheswereaworthyfamily,buthebegantorealizethatLucywasofanotherclay;andperhaps——hedidnotputitverydefinitely——heoughttointroduceherintomorecongenialcirclesassoonaspossible。
\"Mr。Beebe!\"saidthemaid,andthenewrectorofSummerStreetwasshownin;hehadatoncestartedonfriendlyrelations,owingtoLucy\'spraiseofhiminherlettersfromFlorence。
Cecilgreetedhimrathercritically。
\"I\'vecomefortea,Mr。Vyse。DoyousupposethatIshallgetit?\"
\"Ishouldsayso。Foodisthethingonedoesgethere——Don\'tsitinthatchair;youngHoneychurchhasleftaboneinit。”
\"Pfui!\"
\"Iknow,\"saidCecil。\"Iknow。Ican\'tthinkwhyMrs。Honeychurchallowsit。”
ForCecilconsideredtheboneandtheMaples\'furnitureseparately;hedidnotrealizethat,takentogether,theykindledtheroomintothelifethathedesired。
\"I\'vecomeforteaandforgossip。Isn\'tthisnews?\"
\"News?Idon\'tunderstandyou,\"saidCecil。\"News?\"
Mr。Beebe,whosenewswasofaverydifferentnature,prattledforward。
\"ImetSirHarryOtwayasIcameup;IhaveeveryreasontohopethatIamfirstinthefield。HehasboughtCissieandAlbertfromMr。Flack!\"
\"Hasheindeed?\"saidCecil,tryingtorecoverhimself。Intowhatagrotesquemistakehadhefallen!Wasitlikelythataclergymanandagentlemanwouldrefertohisengagementinamannersoflippant?Buthisstiffnessremained,and,thoughheaskedwhoCissieandAlbertmightbe,hestillthoughtMr。Beeberatherabounder。
\"Unpardonablequestion!TohavestoppedaweekatWindyCornerandnottohavemetCissieandAlbert,thesemi-detachedvillasthathavebeenrunupoppositethechurch!I\'llsetMrs。
Honeychurchafteryou。”
\"I\'mshockinglystupidoverlocalaffairs,\"saidtheyoungmanlanguidly。\"Ican\'tevenrememberthedifferencebetweenaParishCouncilandaLocalGovernmentBoard。Perhapsthereisnodifference,orperhapsthosearen\'ttherightnames。Ionlygointothecountrytoseemyfriendsandtoenjoythescenery。Itisveryremissofme。ItalyandLondonaretheonlyplaceswhereIdon\'tfeeltoexistonsufferance。”
Mr。Beebe,distressedatthisheavyreceptionofCissieandAlbert,determinedtoshiftthesubject。
\"Letmesee,Mr。Vyse——Iforget——whatisyourprofession?\"
\"Ihavenoprofession,\"saidCecil。\"Itisanotherexampleofmydecadence。Myattitudequiteanindefensibleone——isthatsolongasIamnotroubletoanyoneIhavearighttodoasIlike。
IknowIoughttobegettingmoneyoutofpeople,ordevotingmyselftothingsIdon\'tcareastrawabout,butsomehow,I\'venotbeenabletobegin。”
\"Youareveryfortunate,\"saidMr。Beebe。\"Itisawonderfulopportunity,thepossessionofleisure。”
Hisvoicewasratherparochial,buthedidnotquiteseehiswaytoansweringnaturally。Hefelt,asallwhohaveregularoccupationmustfeel,thatothersshouldhaveitalso。
\"Iamgladthatyouapprove。Idaren\'tfacethehealthyperson——
forexample,FreddyHoneychurch。”
\"Oh,Freddy\'sagoodsort,isn\'the?\"
\"Admirable。ThesortwhohasmadeEnglandwhatsheis。”
Cecilwonderedathimself。Why,onthisdayofallothers,washesohopelesslycontrary?HetriedtogetrightbyinquiringeffusivelyafterMr。Beebe\'smother,anoldladyforwhomhehadnoparticularregard。Thenheflatteredtheclergyman,praisedhisliberal-mindedness,hisenlightenedattitudetowardsphilosophyandscience。
\"Wherearetheothers?\"saidMr。Beebeatlast,\"Iinsistonextractingteabeforeeveningservice。”
\"IsupposeAnnenevertoldthemyouwerehere。Inthishouseoneissocoachedintheservantsthedayonearrives。ThefaultofAnneisthatshebegsyourpardonwhenshehearsyouperfectly,andkicksthechair-legswithherfeet。ThefaultsofMary——
IforgetthefaultsofMary,buttheyareverygrave。Shallwelookinthegarden?\"
\"IknowthefaultsofMary。Sheleavesthedust-pansstandingonthestairs。”
\"ThefaultofEuphemiaisthatshewillnot,simplywillnot,chopthesuetsufficientlysmall。”
Theybothlaughed,andthingsbegantogobetter。
\"ThefaultsofFreddy——\"Cecilcontinued。
\"Ah,hehastoomany。NoonebuthismothercanrememberthefaultsofFreddy。TrythefaultsofMissHoneychurch;theyarenotinnumerable。”
\"Shehasnone,\"saidtheyoungman,withgravesincerity。
\"Iquiteagree。Atpresentshehasnone。”
\"Atpresent?\"
\"I\'mnotcynical。I\'monlythinkingofmypettheoryaboutMissHoneychurch。Doesitseemreasonablethatsheshouldplaysowonderfully,andlivesoquietly?Isuspectthatonedayshewillbewonderfulinboth。Thewater-tightcompartmentsinherwillbreakdown,andmusicandlifewillmingle。Thenweshallhaveherheroicallygood,heroicallybad——tooheroic,perhaps,tobegoodorbad。”
Cecilfoundhiscompanioninteresting。
\"Andatpresentyouthinkhernotwonderfulasfaraslifegoes?\"
\"Well,ImustsayI\'veonlyseenheratTunbridgeWells,whereshewasnotwonderful,andatFlorence。SinceIcametoSummerStreetshehasbeenaway。Yousawher,didn\'tyou,atRomeandintheAlps。Oh,Iforgot;ofcourse,youknewherbefore。No,shewasn\'twonderfulinFlorenceeither,butIkeptonexpectingthatshewouldbe。”
\"Inwhatway?\"
Conversationhadbecomeagreeabletothem,andtheywerepacingupanddowntheterrace。
\"Icouldaseasilytellyouwhattuneshe\'llplaynext。Therewassimplythesensethatshehadfoundwings,andmeanttousethem。
IcanshowyouabeautifulpictureinmyItaliandiary:MissHoneychurchasakite,MissBartlettholdingthestring。Picturenumbertwo:thestringbreaks。”
Thesketchwasinhisdiary,butithadbeenmadeafterwards,whenheviewedthingsartistically。Atthetimehehadgivensurreptitioustugstothestringhimself。
\"Butthestringneverbroke?\"
\"No。Imightn\'thaveseenMissHoneychurchrise,butIshouldcertainlyhaveheardMissBartlettfall。”
\"Ithasbrokennow,\"saidtheyoungmaninlow,vibratingtones。
Immediatelyherealizedthatofalltheconceited,ludicrous,contemptiblewaysofannouncinganengagementthiswastheworst。
Hecursedhisloveofmetaphor;hadhesuggestedthathewasastarandthatLucywassoaringuptoreachhim?
\"Broken?Whatdoyoumean?\"
\"Imeant,\"saidCecilstiffly,\"thatsheisgoingtomarryme。”
Theclergymanwasconsciousofsomebitterdisappointmentwhichhecouldnotkeepoutofhisvoice。
\"Iamsorry;Imustapologize。Ihadnoideayouwereintimatewithher,orIshouldneverhavetalkedinthisflippant,superficialway。Mr。Vyse,yououghttohavestoppedme。”AnddownthegardenhesawLucyherself;yes,hewasdisappointed。
Cecil,whonaturallypreferredcongratulationstoapologies,drewdownhismouthatthecorners。Wasthisthereceptionhisactionwouldgetfromtheworld?Ofcourse,hedespisedtheworldasawhole;everythoughtfulmanshould;itisalmostatestofrefinement。Buthewassensitivetothesuccessiveparticlesofitwhichheencountered。
Occasionallyhecouldbequitecrude。
\"IamsorryIhavegivenyouashock,\"hesaiddryly。\"IfearthatLucy\'schoicedoesnotmeetwithyourapproval。”
\"Notthat。Butyououghttohavestoppedme。IknowMissHoneychurchonlyalittleastimegoes。PerhapsIoughtn\'ttohavediscussedhersofreelywithanyone;certainlynotwithyou。”
\"Youareconsciousofhavingsaidsomethingindiscreet?\"
Mr。Beebepulledhimselftogether。Really,Mr。Vysehadtheartofplacingoneinthemosttiresomepositions。Hewasdriventousetheprerogativesofhisprofession。
\"No,Ihavesaidnothingindiscreet。IforesawatFlorencethatherquiet,uneventfulchildhoodmustend,andithasended。I
realizeddimlyenoughthatshemighttakesomemomentousstep。
Shehastakenit。Shehaslearnt——youwillletmetalkfreely,asIhavebegunfreely——shehaslearntwhatitistolove:thegreatestlesson,somepeoplewilltellyou,thatourearthlylifeprovides。”Itwasnowtimeforhimtowavehishatattheapproachingtrio。Hedidnotomittodoso。\"Shehaslearntthroughyou,\"andifhisvoicewasstillclerical,itwasnowalsosincere;\"letitbeyourcarethatherknowledgeisprofitabletoher。”
\"Grazietante!\"saidCecil,whodidnotlikeparsons。
\"Haveyouheard?\"shoutedMrs。Honeychurchasshetoileduptheslopinggarden。\"Oh,Mr。Beebe,haveyouheardthenews?\"
Freddy,nowfullofgeniality,whistledtheweddingmarch。Youthseldomcriticizestheaccomplishedfact。
\"IndeedIhave!\"hecried。HelookedatLucy。Inherpresencehecouldnotacttheparsonanylonger——atalleventsnotwithoutapology。\"Mrs。Honeychurch,I\'mgoingtodowhatIamalwayssupposedtodo,butgenerallyI\'mtooshy。Iwanttoinvokeeverykindofblessingonthem,graveandgay,greatandsmall。
Iwantthemalltheirlivestobesupremelygoodandsupremelyhappyashusbandandwife,asfatherandmother。AndnowIwantmytea。”
\"Youonlyaskedforitjustintime,\"theladyretorted。\"HowdareyoubeseriousatWindyCorner?\"
Hetookhistonefromher。Therewasnomoreheavybeneficence,nomoreattemptstodignifythesituationwithpoetryortheScriptures。Noneofthemdaredorwasabletobeseriousanymore。
Anengagementissopotentathingthatsoonerorlateritreducesallwhospeakofittothisstateofcheerfulawe。Awayfromit,inthesolitudeoftheirrooms,Mr。Beebe,andevenFreddy,mightagainbecritical。Butinitspresenceandinthepresenceofeachothertheyweresincerelyhilarious。Ithasastrangepower,foritcompelsnotonlythelips,buttheveryheart。Thechiefparalleltocompareonegreatthingwithanother——isthepoweroverusofatempleofsomealiencreed。
Standingoutside,wederideoropposeit,oratthemostfeelsentimental。Inside,thoughthesaintsandgodsarenotours,webecometruebelievers,incaseanytruebelievershouldbepresent。
Soitwasthatafterthegropingsandthemisgivingsoftheafternoontheypulledthemselvestogetherandsettleddowntoaverypleasanttea-party。Iftheywerehypocritestheydidnotknowit,andtheirhypocrisyhadeverychanceofsettingandofbecomingtrue。Anne,puttingdowneachplateasifitwereaweddingpresent,stimulatedthemgreatly。Theycouldnotlagbehindthatsmileofherswhichshegavethemereshekickedthedrawing-roomdoor。Mr。Beebechirruped。Freddywasathiswittiest,referringtoCecilasthe\"Fiasco\"——familyhonouredpunonfiance。Mrs。Honeychurch,amusingandportly,promisedwellasamother-in-law。AsforLucyandCecil,forwhomthetemplehadbeenbuilt,theyalsojoinedinthemerryritual,butwaited,asearnestworshippersshould,forthedisclosureofsomeholiershrineofjoy。
ChapterIX:LucyAsaWorkofArtAfewdaysaftertheengagementwasannouncedMrs。HoneychurchmadeLucyandherFiascocometoalittlegarden-partyintheneighbourhood,fornaturallyshewantedtoshowpeoplethatherdaughterwasmarryingapresentableman。
Cecilwasmorethanpresentable;helookeddistinguished,anditwasverypleasanttoseehisslimfigurekeepingstepwithLucy,andhislong,fairfacerespondingwhenLucyspoketohim。PeoplecongratulatedMrs。Honeychurch,whichis,Ibelieve,asocialblunder,butitpleasedher,andsheintroducedCecilratherindiscriminatelytosomestuffydowagers。
Atteaamisfortunetookplace:acupofcoffeewasupsetoverLucy\'sfiguredsilk,andthoughLucyfeignedindifference,hermotherfeignednothingofthesortbutdraggedherindoorstohavethefrocktreatedbyasympatheticmaid。Theyweregonesometime,andCecilwasleftwiththedowagers。Whentheyreturnedhewasnotaspleasantashehadbeen。
\"Doyougotomuchofthissortofthing?\"heaskedwhentheyweredrivinghome。
\"Oh,nowandthen,\"saidLucy,whohadratherenjoyedherself。
\"Isittypicalofcountrysociety?\"
\"Isupposeso。Mother,woulditbe?\"
\"Plentyofsociety,\"saidMrs。Honeychurch,whowastryingtorememberthehangofoneofthedresses。
Seeingthatherthoughtswereelsewhere,CecilbenttowardsLucyandsaid:
\"Tomeitseemedperfectlyappalling,disastrous,portentous。”
\"Iamsosorrythatyouwerestranded。”
\"Notthat,butthecongratulations。Itissodisgusting,thewayanengagementisregardedaspublicproperty——akindofwasteplacewhereeveryoutsidermayshoothisvulgarsentiment。Allthoseoldwomensmirking!\"
\"Onehastogothroughit,Isuppose。Theywon\'tnoticeussomuchnexttime。”
\"Butmypointisthattheirwholeattitudeiswrong。Anengagement——horridwordinthefirstplace——isaprivatematter,andshouldbetreatedassuch。”