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  Baggs,ifamanandwomanaccepteachotherashusbandandwife,beforeonewitness,itisalawfulmarriage;andthatkindofweddingis,asyouseeplainlyenough,theonlysaferefugeforabridegroominmysituation。IfyouconsenttocomewithustoScotland,andserveaswitnesstothemarriage,IshallbedelightedtoacknowledgemysenseofyourkindnessintheeloquentlanguageoftheBankofEngland,asexpressedtotheworldingeneralonthesurfaceofafive-poundnote。”

  IcautiouslysnatchedawaythebrandybottleasIspoke,andwasinthedrawing-roomwithitinaninstant。AsIsuppose,Mrs。

  Baggstriedtofollowme,forIheardthedoorrattle,asifshehadgotoutofherchair,andsuddenlyslippedbackintoitagain。Ifeltcertainofherdecidingtohelpus,ifshewasonlysoberenoughtoreflectonwhatIhadsaidtoher。ThejourneytoScotlandwasatedious,andperhapsadangerous,undertaking。ButIhadnootheralternativetochoose。

  Inthoseuncivilizeddays,theMarriageActhadnotbeenpassed,andtherewasnoconvenienthymenealregistrarinEnglandtochangeavagabondrunawaycoupleintoarespectablemanandwifeatamoment\'snotice。ThetroubleandexpenseoftakingMrs。

  Baggswithus,Iencountered,ofcourse,solelyoutofregardforAlicia\'snaturalprejudices。Shehadledpreciselythatkindoflifewhichmakesanywomanbutabadonemorbidlysensitiveonthesubjectofsmallproprieties。Ifshehadbeenagirlwitharecognizedpositioninsociety,Ishouldhaveproposedtohertorunawaywithmealone。Asitwas,theverydefenselessnessofhersituationgaveher,inmyopinion,therighttoexpectfrommeeventheabsurdestsacrificestothenarrowestconventionalities。Mrs。Baggswasnotquitesosoberinherhabits,perhaps,asmatronsingeneralareexpectedtobe;but,formyparticularpurpose,thiswasonlyaslightblemish;ittakessolittle,afterall,torepresenttheabstractprincipleofproprietyintheshort-sightedeyeoftheworld。

  AsIreachedthedrawing-roomdoor,Ilookedatmywatch。

  Nineo\'clock!andnothingdoneyettofacilitateourescapingfromCrickgellytotheregionsofcivilizedlifethenextmorning。Iwaspleasedtohear,whenIknockedatthedoor,thatAlicia\'svoicesoundedfirmerasshetoldmetocomein。ShewasmoreconfusedthanastonishedorfrightenedwhenIsatdownbyheronthesofa,andrepeatedtheprincipaltopicsofmyconversionwithMrs。Baggs。

  \"Now,myownlove,\"Isaid,inconclusion——suitingmygestures,itisunnecessarytosay,tothetendernessofmylanguage——\"thereisnottheleastdoubtthatMrs。Baggswillendbyagreeingtomyproposals。Nothingremains,therefore,butforyoutogivemetheanswernow,whichIhavebeenwaitingforeversincethatlastdaywhenwemetbytheriverside。Ididnotknowthenwhatthemotivewasforyoursilenceanddistress。Iknownow,andIloveyoubetterafterthatknowledgethanIdidbeforeit。”

  Herheaddroppedintoitsformerpositiononmybosom,andshemurmuredafewwords,buttoofaintlyformetohearthem。

  \"Youknewmoreaboutyourfather,then,thanIdid?\"Iwhispered。

  \"Lessthanyouhavetoldmesince,\"sheinterposedquickly,withoutraisingherface。

  \"Enoughtoconvinceyouthathewasbreakingthelaws,\"I

  suggested;\"and,tomakeyou,ashisdaughter,shrinkfromsaying\'yes\'tomewhenwesattogetherontheriverbank?\"

  Shedidnotanswer。Oneofherarms,whichwashangingovermyshoulder,stoleroundmyneck,andclaspeditgently。

  \"Sincethattime,\"Iwenton,\"yourfatherhascompromisedme。I

  aminsomedanger,notmuch,fromthelaw。Ihavenoprospectsthatarenotofthemostdoubtfulkind;andIhavenoexcuseforaskingyoutosharethem,exceptthatIhavefallenintomypresentmisfortunethroughtryingtodiscovertheobstaclethatkeptusapart。Ifthereisanyprotectionintheworldthatyoucanturnto,lessdoubtfulthanmine,IsupposeIoughttosaynomore,andleavethehouse。Butifthereshouldbenone,surelyI

  amnotsoveryselfishinaskingyoutotakeyourchancewithme?

  IhonestlybelievethatIshallhavelittledifficulty,withordinarycaution,inescapingfrompursuit,andfindingasafehomesomewheretobeginlifeinagainwithnewinterests。Willyoushareitwithme,Alicia?Icantrynofreshpersuasions——I

  havenoright,perhaps,inmypresentsituationtohaveaddressedsomanytoyoualready。”

  Herotherarmstoleroundmyneck;shelaidhercheekagainstmine,andwhispered——

  \"Bekindtome,Frank——Ihavenobodyintheworldwholovesmebutyou!\"

  Ifelthertearsonmyface;myowneyesmoistenedasItriedtoanswerher。Wesatforsomeminutesinperfectsilence——withoutmoving,withoutathoughtbeyondthemoment。Therisingofthewind,andthesplashingoftherainoutsidewerethefirstsoundsthatstirredmeintoactionagain。

  Isummonedmyresolution,rosefromthesofa,andinafewhastywordstoldAliciawhatIproposedforthenextday,andmentionedthehouratwhichIwouldcomeinthemorning。AsIhadanticipated,sheseemedrelievedandreassuredattheprospectevenofsuchslightsanctionandencouragement,onthepartofanotherwoman,aswouldbeimpliedbythecompanionshipofMrs。

  BaggsonthejourneytoScotland。

  ThenextandlastdifficultyIhadtoencounterwasnecessarilyconnectedwithherfather。Hehadneverbeenveryaffectionate;

  andhewasnow,foraughtsheorIknewtothecontrary,partedfromherforever。Still,theinstinctiverecognitionofhispositionmadehershrink,atthelastmoment,whenshespokeofhim,andthoughtoftheseriousnatureofherengagementwithme。

  Aftersomevainarguingandremonstrating,Icontrivedtoquietherscruples,bypromisingthatanaddressshouldbeleftatCrickgelly,towhichanysecondletterthatmightarrivefromthedoctorcouldbeforwarded。WhenIsawthatthisprospectofbeingabletocommunicatewithhim,ifhewroteorwishedtoseeher,hadsufficientlycomposedhermind,Ileftthedrawing-room。ItwasvitallyimportantthatIshouldgetbacktotheinnandmakethenecessaryarrangementsforourdeparturethenextmorning,beforetheprimitivepeopleoftheplacehadretiredtobed。

  AsIpassedthebackparlordooronmywayout,IheardthevoiceofMrs。Baggsraisedindignantly。Thewords\"bottle!\"\"audacity!\"

  and\"nerves!\"reachedmyeardisjointedly。Icalledout\"Good-by!

  tillto-morrow;\"heardaresponsivegroanofdisgust;thenopenedthefrontdoor,andplungedoutintothedarkandrainynight。

  ItmighthavebeenthedroppingofwaterfromthecottageroofswhileIpassedthroughthevillage,orthegroundlessalarmofmyownsuspiciousfancy,butIthoughtIwasbeingfollowedasI

  walkedbacktotheinn。TwoorthreetimesIturnedroundabruptly。Iftwentymenhadbeenatmyheels,itwastoodarktoseethem。Iwentontotheinn。

  Thepeopletherewerenotgonetobed;andIsentforthelandlordtoconsultwithhimaboutaconveyance。Perhapsitwasmysuspiciousfancyagain;butIthoughthismannerwasaltered。

  Heseemedhalfdistrustful,halfafraidofme,whenIaskedhimiftherehadbeenanysigns,duringmyabsence,ofthosetwogentlemen,forwhomIhadalreadyinquiredonarrivingathisdoorthatevening。Hegaveananswerinthenegative,lookingawayfrommewhilehespoke。

  Thinkingitadvisable,onthewhole,nottolethimseethatI

  noticedachangeinhim,Iproceededatoncetothequestionoftheconveyance,andwastoldthatIcouldhirethelandlord\'slightcart,inwhichhewasaccustomedtodrivetothemarkettown。Iappointedanhourforstartingthenextday,andretiredatoncetomybedroom。Theremythoughtswereenough。IwasanxiousaboutScrewandtheBowStreetrunner。IwasuncertainaboutthestrangerwhohadcalledatNumberTwo,ZionPlace。I

  wasindoubtevenaboutthelandlordoftheinn。NeverdidIknowwhatrealsufferingfromsuspensewas,untilthatnight,Whatevermyapprehensionsmighthavebeen,theywerenoneofthemrealizedthenextmorning。

  NobodyfollowedmeonmywaytoZionPlace,andnostrangerhadcalledtherebeforemeasecondtime,whenImadeinquiriesonenteringthehouse。IfoundAliciablushing,andMrs。Baggsimpenetrablywrappedupindignifiedsulkiness。AfterinformingmewithaloftylookthatsheintendedtogotoScotlandwithus,andtotakemyfive-poundnote——partlyunderprotest,andpartlyoutofexcessiveaffectionforAlicia——sheretiredtopackup。

  Thetimeconsumedinperformingthisprocess,andthefurtherdelayoccasionedbypayingsmalloutstandingdebtstotradespeople,andsettlingwiththeownerofthehouse,detainedustillnearlynoonbeforewewerereadytogetintothelandlord\'scart。

  Ilookedbehindmeanxiouslyatstarting,andoftenafterwardontheroad;butneversawanythingtoexcitemysuspicions。Insettlingmatterswiththelandlordovernight,Ihadarrangedthatweshouldbedriventothenearesttownatwhichapost-chaisecouldbeobtained。Myresourceswerejustaslikelytoholdoutagainsttheexpensesofposting,wherepublicconveyancescouldnotbeobtained,asagainsttheexpenseofwaitingprivatelyathotels,untiltherightcoachesmightstart。

  Accordingtomycalculations,mymoneywouldlasttillwegottoScotland。Afterthat,Ihadmywatch,rings,shirtpin,andMr。

  Batterbury,tohelpinreplenishingmypurse。Anxious,therefore,asIwasaboutotherthings,moneymatters,foronceinaway,didnotcausemethesmallestuneasiness。

  CHAPTERXV。

  WEpostedfive-and-thirtymiles,thenstoppedforacoupleofhourstorest,andwaitforanightcoachrunningnorthward。

  Ongettingintothisvehiclewewerefortunateenoughtofindthefourthinsideplacenotoccupied。Mrs。Baggsshowedhersenseofthefreedomfromrestraintthusobtainedbytyingahugeredcomforterroundherheadlikeaturban,andimmediatelyfallingfastasleep。ThisgaveAliciaandmefulllibertytotalkaswepleased。Ourconversationwasforthemostpartofthatparticularkindwhichisnotofthesmallestimportancetoanythirdpersoninthewholeworld。Oneportionofit,however,wasanexceptiontothisgeneralrule。Ithadaverypositiveinfluenceonmyfortunes,anditis,therefore,Ihope,ofsufficientimportancetobearbeingcommunicatedtothereader。

  Wehadchangedhorsesforthefourthtime,hadseatedourselvescomfortablyinourplaces,andhadheardMrs。Baggsresumethekindredoccupationsofsleepingandsnoring,whenAliciawhisperedtome:

  \"Imusthavenosecrets,now,fromyou——mustI,Frank?\"

  \"Youmusthaveanythingyoulike,doanythingyoulike,andsayanythingyoulike。Youmustneveraskleave——butonlygrantit!\"

  \"Shallyoualwaystellmethat,Frank?\"

  Ididnotanswerinwords,buttheconversationsufferedamomentaryinterruption。Ofwhatnature,susceptiblepeoplewilleasilyimagine。Asforthehard-heartedIdon\'twriteforthem。

  \"Mysecretneednotalarmyou,\"Aliciawenton,intonesthatbegantosoundrathersadly;\"itisonlyaboutatinypasteboardboxthatIcancarryinthebosomofmydress。Butithasgotthreediamondsinit,Frank,andonebeautifulruby。Didyouevergivemecreditforhavingsomuchthatwasvaluableaboutme?——shallIgiveityoutokeepforme?\"

  IremembereddirectlyOldFile\'sstoryofMrs。Dulcifer\'selopement,andofthejewelsshehadtakenwithher。Itwaseasytoguess,afterwhatIhadheard,thatthepoorwomanhadsecretlypreservedsomeofherlittlepropertyforthebenefitofherchild。

  \"Ihavenopresentneedofmoney,darling,\"Ianswered;\"keeptheboxinitspresentenviableposition。”Istoppedthere,sayingnothingofthethoughtthatwasreallyuppermostinmymind。Ifanyunforeseenaccidentplacedmewithinthegripofthelaw,I

  shouldnotnowhavethedoubletrialtoendureofleavingmywifeforaprison,andleavingherhelpless。

  Morningdawnedandfoundusstillawake。Thesunrose,Mrs。Baggsleftoffsnoring,andwearrivedatthelaststagebeforethecoachstopped。

  Igotouttoseeaboutsometeaformytravelingcompanions,andlookedupattheoutsidepassengers。Oneofthemseatedinthedickeylookeddownatme。Hewasacountrymaninasmock-frock,withagreenpatchoveroneofhiseyes。Somethingintheexpressionofhisuncoveredeyemademepause——reflect——turnawayuneasily——andthenlookagainathimfurtively。Asuddenshudderranthroughmefromtoptotoe;myheartsank;andmyheadbegantofeelgiddy。ThecountrymaninthedickeywasnootherthantheBowStreetrunnerindisguise。

  Ikeptawayfromthecoachtillthefreshhorseswereonthepointofstarting,forIwasafraidtoletAliciaseemyface,aftermakingthatfataldiscovery。ShenoticedhowpaleIwaswhenIgotin。ImadethebestexcuseIcould;andgentlyinsistedonhertryingtosleepalittleafterbeingawakeallnight。Shelaybackinhercorner;andMrs。Baggs,comfortedwithamorningdraminhertea,fellasleepagain。Ihadthusanhour\'sleisurebeforemetothinkwhatIshoulddonext。

  Screwwasnotincompanywiththerunnerthistime。Hemusthavemanagedtoidentifymesomewhere,andtheofficerdoubtlessknewmypersonalappearancewellenoughnowtofollowandmakesureofmewithouthelp。ThatIwasthemanwhomhewastrackingcouldnotbedoubted:hisdisguiseandhispositiononthetopofthecoachproveditonlytooplainly。

  Butwhyhadhenotseizedmeatonce?Probablybecausehehadsomeulteriorpurposetoserve,whichwouldhavebeenthwartedbymyimmediateapprehension。WhatthatpurposewasIdidmybesttofathom,and,asIthought,succeededintheattempt。WhatIwastodowhenthecoachstoppedwasamoredifficultpointtosettle。Togivetherunnertheslip,withtwowomentotakecareof,wassimplyimpossible。Totreathim,asIhadtreatedScrewatthered-brickhouse,wasequallyoutofthequestion,forhewascertaintogivemenochanceofcatchinghimalone。Tokeephiminignoranceoftherealobjectofmyjourney,andtherebytodelayhisdiscoveringhimselfandattemptingtomakemeaprisoner,seemedtheonlyplanonthesafetyofwhichIcouldplacethesmallestreliance。IfIhadeverhadanyideaoffollowingtheexampleofotherrunawaylovers,andgoingtoGretnaGreen,Ishouldnowhaveabandonedit。AllroadsinthatdirectionwouldbetraywhatthepurposeofmyjourneywasifI

  tookthem。SomelargetowninScotlandwouldbethesafestdestinationthatIcouldpubliclyadvertisemyselfasboundfor。

  WhynotboldlysaythatIwasgoingwiththetwoladiestoEdinburgh?

  SuchwastheplanofactionwhichInowadopted。

  TogiveanyideaofthedistractedconditionofmymindatthetimewhenIwasformingit,issimplyimpossible。AsfordoubtingwhetherIoughttomarryatallunderthesedangerouscircumstances,ImustfranklyownthatIwastooselfishlyandviolentlyinlovetolookthequestionfairlyinthefaceatfirst。WhenIsubsequentlyforcedmyselftoconsiderit,themostdistinctprojectIcouldframeforovercomingalldifficultywas,tomarrymyselfthephraseisstrictlydescriptiveoftheScotchceremonyatthefirstinnwecameto,overtheBorder;tohireachaise,ortakeplacesinapublicconveyancetoEdinburgh,asablind;toletAliciaandMrs。Baggsoccupythoseplaces;toremainbehindmyself;andtotrusttomyaudacityandcunning,whenleftalone,togivetherunnertheslip。Writingofitnow,incoolblood,thisseemsaswildandhopelessaplanaseverwasimagined。But,intheconfusedanddistractedstateofallmyfacultiesatthatperiod,itseemedquiteeasytoexecute,andnotintheleastdoubtfulastoanyoneofitsprobableresults。

  Onreachingthetownatwhichthecoachstopped,wefoundourselvesobligedtohireanotherchaiseforashortdistance,inordertogettothestarting-pointofasecondcoach。Againwetookinsideplaces,andagain,atthefirststageswhenIgotdowntolookattheoutsidepassengers,therewasthecountrymanwiththegreenshadeoverhiseye。Whateverconveyancewetraveledbyonournorthwardroad,weneverescapedhim。Heneverattemptedtospeaktome,neverseemedtonoticeme,andneverlostsightofme。Onandonwewent,overroadsthatseemedinterminable,andstillthedreadfulswordofjusticehungalways,byitssinglehair,overmyhead。Myhaggardface,myfeverishhands,myconfusedmanner,myinexpressibleimpatience,allbeliedtheexcuseswithwhichIdesperatelycontinuedtowardoffAlicia\'sgrowingfears,andMrs。Baggs\'sindignantsuspicions。\"Oh!Frank,somethinghashappened!ForGod\'ssake,tellmewhat!\"——\"Mr。Softly,Icanseethroughadealboardasfarasmostpeople。Youarefollowingthedoctor\'swickedexample,andshowingawantofconfidenceinme。”TheseweretheremonstrancesofAliciaandthehousekeeper。

  AtlastwegotoutofEngland,andIwasstillafreeman。Thechaisewewerepostingagainbroughtusintoadirtytown,anddrewupatthedoorofashabbyinn。Ashock-headedgirlreceivedus。

  \"AreweinScotland?\"Iasked。

  \"Mon!whar\'elseshouldyebe?\"Theaccentrelievedmeofalldoubt。

  \"Aprivateroom——somethingtoeat,readyinanhour\'stime——chaiseafterwardtothenearestplacefromwhichacoachrunstoEdinburgh。”Givingtheseordersrapidly,Ifollowedthegirlwithmytravelingcompanionsintoastuffylittleroom。Assoonasourattendanthadleftus,Ilockedthedoor,putthekeyinmypocket,andtookAliciabythehand。

  \"Now,Mrs。Baggs,\"saidI,\"bearwitness——\"

  \"You\'renotgoingtomarryhernow!\"interposedMrs。Baggs,indignantly。\"Bearwitness,indeed!Iwon\'tbearwitnesstillI\'vetakenoffmybonnet,andputmyhairtidy!\"

  \"Theceremonywon\'ttakeaminute,\"Ianswered;\"andI\'llgiveyouyourfive-poundnoteandopenthedoorthemomentit\'sover。

  Bearwitness,\"Iwenton,drowningMrs。Baggs\'sexpostulationswiththeall-importantmarriage-words,\"thatItakethiswoman,AliciaDulciferformylawfulweddedwife。”

  \"Insicknessandinhealth,inpovertyandwealth,\"brokeinMrs。

  Baggs,determiningtorepresenttheclergymanaswellastobethewitness。

  \"Alicia,dear,\"Isaid,interruptinginmyturn,\"repeatmywords。Say\'Itakethisman,FrancisSoftly,formylawfulweddedhusband。\'\"

  Sherepeatedthesentence,withherfaceverypale,withherdearhandcoldandtremblinginmine。

  \"Forbetterforworse,\"continuedtheindomitableMrs。Baggs。

  \"LittleenoughoftheBetter,I\'mafraid,andLordknowshowmuchoftheWorse。”

  Istoppedheragainwiththepromisedfive-poundnote,andopenedtheroomdoor。\"Now,ma\'am,\"Isaid,\"gotoyourroom;takeoffyourbonnet,andputyourhairastidyasyouplease。”

  Mrs。Baggsraisedhereyesandhandstoheaven,exclaimed\"Disgraceful!\"andflouncedoutoftheroominapassion。SuchwasmyScotchmarriage——aslawfulaceremony,remember,asthefinestfamilyweddingatthelargestparishchurchinallEngland。

  Anhourpassed;andIhadnotyetsummonedthecruelcouragetocommunicatemyrealsituationtoAlicia。Theentryoftheshock-headedservant-girltolaythecloth,followedbyMrs。

  Baggs,whowasneveroutofthewaywhereeatinganddrinkingappearedinprospect,helpedmetorousemyself。Iresolvedtogooutforafewminutestoreconnoiter,andmakemyselfacquaintedwithanyfacilitiesforflightorhidingwhichthesituationofthehousemightpresent。NodoubttheBowStreetrunnerwaslurkingsomewhere;buthemust,asamatterofcourse,haveheard,orinformedhimself,oftheordersIhadgivenrelatingtoourconveyanceontoEdinburgh;and,inthatcase,Iwasstillnomoreindangerofhisavowinghimselfandcapturingme,thanI

  hadbeenatanypreviousperiodofourjourney。

  \"Iamgoingoutforamoment,love,toseeaboutthechaise,\"I

  saidtoAlicia。Shesuddenlylookedupatmewithananxioussearchingexpression。Wasmyfacebetrayinganythingofmyrealpurpose?Ihurriedtothedoorbeforeshecouldaskmeasinglequestion。

  Thefrontoftheinnstoodnearlyinthemiddleoftheprincipalstreetofthetown。Nochanceofgivinganyonetheslipinthatdirection;andnosign,either,oftheBowStreetrunner。I

  saunteredround,withthemostunconcernedmannerIcouldassume,tothebackofthehouse,bytheinnyard。Adoorinonepartofitstoodhalf-open。Insidewasabitofkitchen-garden,boundedbyapaling;beyondthatsomebacksofdetachedhouses;beyondthem,again,aplotofweedyground,afewwretchedcottages,andtheopen,heatherymoor。Goodenoughforrunningaway,butterriblybadforhiding。

  Ireturneddisconsolatelytotheinn。Walkingalongthepassagetowardthestaircase,Isuddenlyheardfootstepsbehindme——turnedround,andsawtheBowStreetrunnerclothedagaininhisordinarycostume,andaccompaniedbytwostrangemen

  standingbetweenmeandthedoor。

  \"SorrytostopyoufromgoingtoEdinburgh,Mr。Softly,\"hesaid。

  \"Butyou\'rewantedbackatBarkingham。I\'vejustfoundoutwhatyouhavebeentravelingallthewaytoScotlandfor;andItakeyouprisoner,asoneofthecoininggang。Takeiteasy,sir。I\'vegothelp,yousee;andyoucan\'tthrottlethreemen,whateveryoumayhavedoneatBarkinghamwithone。”

  Hehandcuffedmeashespoke。Resistancewashopeless。Icouldonlymakeanappealtohismercy,onAlicia\'saccount。

  \"Givemetenminutes,\"Isaid,\"tobreakwhathashappenedtomywife。Wewereonlymarriedanhourago。Ifsheknowsthissuddenly,itmaybethedeathofher。”

  \"You\'veledmeanicedanceonawrongscent,\"answeredtherunner,sulkily。\"ButIneverwasahardmanwherewomenareconcerned。Goupstairs,andleavethedooropen,sothatIcanseeinthroughitifIlike。Holdyourhatoveryourwrists,ifyoudon\'twanthertoseethehandcuffs。”

  Iascendedthefirstflightofstairs,andmyheartgaveasuddenboundasifitwouldburst。Istopped,speechlessandhelpless,atthesightofAlicia,standingaloneonthelanding。Myfirstlookatherfacetoldmeshehadheardallthathadpassedinthepassage。ShepassionatelystruckthehatwithwhichIhadbeentryingtohidethehandcuffsoutofmyfingers,andclaspedmeinherarmswithsuchsuddenanddesperateenergythatsheabsolutelyhurtme。

  \"Iwasafraidofsomething,Frank,\"shewhispered。\"Ifollowedyoualittleway。Istoppedhere;Ihaveheardeverything。Don\'tletusbeparted!Iamstrongerthanyouthinkme。Iwon\'tbefrightened。Iwon\'tcry。Iwon\'ttroubleanybody,ifthatmanwillonlytakemewithyou!\"

  Itisbestformysake,ifnotforthereader\'s,tohurryoverthescenethatfollowed。

  Itendedwithaslittleadditionalwretchednessascouldbeexpected。Therunnerwasresoluteaboutkeepingmehandcuffed,andtakingmeback,withoutamoment\'sunnecessarywasteoftimetoBarkingham;butherelentedonotherpoints。

  Wherehewasobligedtoorderaprivateconveyance,therewasnoobjectiontoAliciaandMrs。Baggsfollowingit。Wherewegotintoacoach,therewasnoharmintheirhiringtwoinsideplaces。Igavemywatch,rings,andlastguineatoAlicia,enjoiningher,onnoaccount,toletherboxofjewelsseethelightuntilwecouldgetproperadviceonthebestmeansofturningthemtoaccount。Shelistenedtotheseandotherdirectionswithacalmnessthatastonishedme。

  \"Youshan\'tsay,mydear,thatyourwifehashelpedtomakeyouuneasybysomuchasawordoralook,\"shewhisperedtomeaswelefttheinn。

  Andshekeptthehardpromiseimpliedinthatoneshortsentencethroughoutthejourney。OnceonlydidIseeherloseherself-possession。Atstartingonourwaysouth,Mrs。Baggs——takingthesameincomprehensiblepersonaloffenseatmymisfortunewhichshehadpreviouslytakenatthedoctor\'s——upbraidedmewithmywantofconfidenceinher,anddeclaredthatitwasthemaincauseofallmypresenttrouble。Aliciaturnedonherasshewasutteringthewords,withalookandawarningthatsilencedherinaninstant:

  \"Ifyousayanothersyllablethatisn\'tkindtohim,youshallfindyourwaybackbyyourself!\"

  Thewordsmaynotseemofmuchimportancetoothers;butI

  thought,asIoverheardthem,thattheyjustifiedeverysacrificeIhadmadeformywife\'ssake。

  CHAPTERXVI。

  ONourwaybackIreceivedfromtherunnersomeexplanationofhisapparentlyunaccountableproceedingsinreferencetomyself。

  Tobeginatthebeginning,itturnedoutthatthefirstactoftheofficers,ontheirreleasefromtheworkroominthered-brickhouse,wastoinstituteacarefulsearchforpapersinthedoctor\'sstudyandbedroom。Amongtheotherdocumentsthathehadnothadtimetodestroy,wasalettertohimfromAlicia,whichtheytookfromoneofthepocketsofhisdressing-gown。Finding,fromthereportofthemenwhohadfollowedthegig,thathehaddistancedallpursuit,andhavingthereforenodirectclewtohiswhereabout,theyhadbeenobligedtohuntafterhiminvariousdirections,onpurespeculation。Alicia\'slettertoherfathergavetheaddressofthehouseatCrickgelly;andtothistherunnerrepaired,onthechanceofinterceptingordiscoveringanycommunicationswhichthedoctormightmaketohisdaughter,Screwbeingtakenwiththeofficertoidentifytheyounglady。Afterleavingthelastcoach,theypostedtowithinamileofCrickgelly,andthenwalkedintothevillage,inordertoexcitenospecialattention,shouldthedoctorbelurkingintheneighborhood。TherunnerhadtriedineffectuallytogainadmissionasavisitoratZionPlace。Afterhavingthedoorshutonhim,heandScrewhadwatchedthehouseandvillage,andhadseenmeapproachNumberTwo。Theirsuspicionsweredirectlyexcited。

  Thusfar,Screwhadnotrecognized,norevenobservedme;butheimmediatelyidentifiedmebymyvoice,whileIwasparleyingwiththestupidservantatthedoor。Therunner,hearingwhoIwas,reasonablyenoughconcludedthatImustbetherecognizedmediumofcommunicationbetweenthedoctorandhisdaughter,especiallywhenhefoundthatIwasadmitted,instantlyaftercalling,pasttheservant,tosomeoneinsidethehouse。

  LeavingScrewonthewatch,hewenttotheinn,discoveredhimselfprivatelytothelandlord,andmadesureinmorewaysthanone,asIconjecturedofknowingwhen,andinwhatdirection,IshouldleaveCrickgelly。OnfindingthatIwastoleaveitthenextmorning,withAliciaandMrs。Baggs,heimmediatelysuspectedthatIwaschargedwiththedutyoftakingthedaughterto,ornear,theplacechosenforthefather\'sretreat;andhadthereforeabstainedfrominterferingprematurelywithmymovements。Knowingwhitherwewereboundinthecart,hehadriddenafterus,welloutofsight,withhiscountryman\'sdisguisereadyforuseinthesaddle-bags——Screw,incaseofanymistakesormystifications,beingleftbehindonthewatchatCrickgelly。

  ThepossibilitythatImightberunningawaywithAliciahadsuggesteditselftohim;buthedismisseditasimprobable,firstwhenhesawthatMrs。Baggsaccompaniedus,andagain,when,onnearingScotland,hefoundthatwedidnottaketheroadtoGretnaGreen。Heacknowledged,inconclusion,thatheshouldhavefollowedustoEdinburgh,oreventotheContinentitself,onthechanceofourleadinghimtothedoctor\'sretreat,butfortheservantgirlattheinn,whohadlistenedoutsidethedoorwhileourbriefmarriageceremonywasproceeding,andfromwhom,withgreattroubleanddelay,hehadextractedalltheinformationherequired。Afurtherlossofhalfanhour\'stimehadoccurredwhilehewasgettingthenecessaryhelptoassisthim,intheeventofmyresisting,ortryingtogivehimtheslip,inmakingmeaprisoner。Thesesmallfactsaccountedforthehour\'srespitewehadenjoyedattheinn,andterminatedtherunner\'snarrativeofhisownproceedings。

  OnarrivingatourdestinationIwas,ofcourse,immediatelytakentothejail。

  Alicia,bymyadvice,engagedamodestlodginginasuburbofBarkingham。Inthedaysofthered-brickhouse,shehadseldombeenseeninthetown,andshewasnotatallknownbysightinthesuburb。Wearrangedthatshewastovisitmeasoftenastheauthoritieswouldlether。Shehadnocompanion,andwantednone。

  Mrs。Baggs,whohadneverforgiventherebukeadministeredtoheratthestarting-pointofourjourney,leftusatthecloseofit。

  Herleave-takingwasdignifiedandpathetic。ShekindlyinformedAliciathatshewishedherwell,thoughshecouldnotconscientiouslylookuponherasalawfulmarriedwoman;andshebeggedmeincaseIgotoff,thenexttimeImetwitharespectablepersonwhowaskindtome,toprofitbyrememberingmypasterrors,andtotreatmynextbenefactresswithmoreconfidencethanIhadtreatedher。

  MyfirstbusinessintheprisonwastowritetoMr。Batterbury。

  Ihadamagnificenteasetopresenttohim,thistime。AlthoughI

  believedmyself,andhadsucceededinpersuadingAlicia,thatI

  wassureofbeingrecommendedtomercy,itwasnotthelessthefactthatIwaschargedwithanoffensestillpunishablebydeath,inthethenbarbarousstateofthelaw。IdelicatelystatedjustenoughofmycasetomakeonethingcleartothemindofMr。Batterbury。Myaffectionatesister\'sinterestinthecontingentreversionwasnowunlessLadyMalkinshawperverselyandsuddenlyexpiredactuallythreatenedbytheGallows!

  Whilecalmlyawaitingtheanswer,IwasbynomeanswithoutsubjectstooccupymyattentionwhenAliciawasnotattheprison。Therewasmyfellow-workman——Mill——thefirstmemberofoursocietybetrayedbyScrewtocomparenoteswith;andtherewasacertainprisonerwhohadbeentransported,andwhohadsomeveryimportantandinterestingparticularstocommunicate,relativetolifeanditschancesinourfelon-settlementsattheAntipodes。Italkedagreatdealwiththisman;forIfeltthathisexperiencemightbeofthegreatestpossiblebenefittome。

  Mr。Batterbury\'sanswerwasspeedy,short,andpunctual。Ihadshatteredhisnervoussystemforever,hewrote,buthadonlystimulatedhisdevotiontomyfamily,andhisChristianreadinesstolookpityinglyonmytransgressions。Hehadengagedtheleaderofthecircuittodefendme;andhewouldhavecometoseeme,butforMrs。Batterbury;whohadimploredhimnottoexposehimselftoagitation。OfLadyMalkinshawthelettersaidnothing;

  butIafterwarddiscoveredthatshewasthenatCheltenham,drinkingthewatersandplayingwhistintherudesthealthandspirits。

  Itisaboldthingtosay,butnothingwilleverpersuademethatSocietyhasnotasneakingkindnessforaRogue。

  Forexample,myfatherneverhadhalftheattentionshowntohiminhisownhouse,whichwasshowntomeinmyprison。IhaveseenHighSheriffsinthegreatworld,whommyfatherwenttosee,givehimtwofingers——theHighSheriffofBarkinghamshirecametoseeme,andshookhandscordially。Nobodyeverwantedmyfather\'sautograph——dozensofpeopleaskedformine。Nobodyeverputmyfather\'sportraitinthefrontispieceofamagazine,ordescribedhispersonalappearanceandmannerswithanxiouselaboration,inthelargetypeofagreatnewspaper——Ienjoyedboththosehonors。

  Threeofficialindividualspolitelybeggedmetobesureandmakecomplaintsifmypositionwasnotperfectlycomfortable。Noofficialindividualevertroubledhisheadwhethermyfatherwascomfortableornot。Whenthedayofmytrialcame,thecourtwasthrongedbymylovelycountrywomen,whostooduppantinginthecrowdandcrushingtheirbeautifuldresses,ratherthanmissthepleasureofseeingthedearRogueinthedock。Whenmyfatheroncestoodonthelecturer\'srostrum,anddeliveredhisexcellentdiscourse,called\"MedicalHintstoMaidsandMothersonTightLacingandTeething,\"thebencheswereleftemptybytheungratefulwomenofEngland,whowerenotintheslightestdegreeanxioustofeasttheireyesonthesightofalearnedadviserandrespectableman。Ifthesefactsledtooneinevitableconclusion,itisnotmyfault。WeRoguesarethespoiledchildrenofSociety。WemaynotbeopenlyacknowledgedasPets,butweallknow,bypleasantexperience,thatwearetreatedlikethem。

  Thetrialwasdeeplyaffecting。Mydefense——orrathermybarrister\'s——wasthesimpletruth。Itwasimpossibletooverthrowthefactsagainstus;sowehonestlyownedthatIgotintothescrapethroughloveforAlicia。Mycounselturnedthistothebestpossiblesentimentalaccount。Hecried;theladiescried;

  thejurycried;thejudgecried;andMr。Batterbury,whohaddesperatelycometoseethetrial,andknowtheworst,sobbedwithsuchprominentvehemence,thatIbelievehim,tothisday,tohavegreatlyinfluencedtheverdict。Iwasstronglyrecommendedtomercyandgotoffwithfourteenyears\'

  transportation。TheunfortunateMill,whowastriedafterme,withameredry-eyedbarristertodefendhim,washanged。

  POSTSCRIPT。

  WITHtherecordofmysentenceoftransportation,mylifeasaRogueends,andmyexistenceasarespectablemanbegins。Iamsorrytosayanythingwhichmaydisturbpopulardelusionsonthesubjectofpoeticaljustice,butthisisstrictlythetruth。

  Myfirstanxietywasaboutmywife\'sfuture。

  Mr。Batterburygavemenochanceofaskinghisadviceafterthetrial。Themomentsentencehadbeenpronounced,heallowedhimselftobehelpedoutofcourtinamelancholystateofprostration,andthenextmorningheleftforLondon。Isuspecthewasafraidtofaceme,andnervouslyimpatient,besides,totellAnnabellathathehadsavedthelegacyagainbyanotheralarmingsacrifice。Myfatherandmother,towhomIhadwrittenonthesubjectofAlicia,werenomoretobedependedonthanMr。

  Batterbury。Myfather,inansweringmyletter,toldmethatheconscientiouslybelievedhehaddoneenoughinforgivingmeforthrowingawayanexcellenteducation,anddisgracingarespectablename。Headdedthathehadnotallowedmyletterformymothertoreachher,outofpityingregardforherbrokenhealthandspirits;andheendedbytellingmewhatwasperhapsverytruethatthewifeofsuchasonasIhadbeen,hadnoclaimuponherfather-in-law\'sprotectionandhelp。Therewasanend,then,ofanyhopeoffindingresourcesforAliciaamongthemembersofmyownfamily。

  Thenextthingwastodiscoverameansofprovidingforherwithoutassistance。Ihadformedaprojectforthis,aftermeditatingovermyconversationswiththereturnedtransportinBarkinghamjail,andIhadtakenareliableopiniononthechancesofsuccessfullyexecutingmydesignfromthesolicitorwhohadpreparedmydefense。

  Aliciaherselfwassoearnestlyinfavorofassistinginmyexperiment,thatshedeclaredshewouldpreferdeathtoitsabandonment。Accordingly,thenecessarypreliminarieswerearranged;and,whenweparted,itwassomemitigationofourgrieftoknowthattherewasatimeappointedformeetingagain。

  Aliciawastolodgewithadistantrelativeofhermother\'sinasuburbofLondon;wastoconcertmeasureswiththisrelativeonthebestmethodofturningherjewelsintomoney;andwastofollowherconvicthusbandtotheAntipodes,underafeignedname,insixmonths\'time。

  Ifmyfamilyhadnotabandonedme,Ineednothavethuslefthertohelpherself。Asitwas,Ihadnochoice。Oneconsolationsupportedmeatparting——shewasinnodangerofpersecutionfromherfather。AsecondletterfromhimhadarrivedatCrickgelly,andhadbeenforwardedtotheaddressIhadleftforit。ItwasdatedHamburg,andbrieflytoldhertoremainatCrickgelly,andexpectfreshinstructions,explanations,andasupplyofmoney,assoonashehadsettledtheimportantbusinessmatterswhichhadtakenhimabroad。Hisdaughteransweredtheletter,tellinghimofhermarriage,andgivinghimanaddressatapost-officetowriteto,ifhechosetoreplytohercommunication。Therethematterrested。

  WhatwasItodoonmyside?Nothingbutestablishareputationformildbehavior。Ibegantomanufactureacharacterformyselfforthefirstdaysofourvoyageoutintheconvict-ship;andI

  landedatthepenalsettlementwiththereputationofbeingthemeekestandmostbiddableoffeloniousmankind。

  Afterashortprobationaryexperienceofsuchlowconvictemploymentsaslime-burningandroad-mending,Iwasadvancedtooccupationsmoreinharmonywithmyeducation。WhateverIdid,I

  neverneglectedthefirstgreatobligationofmakingmyselfagreeableandamusingtoeverybody。Mysocialreputationasagoodfellowbegantostandashighatoneendoftheworldaseveritstoodattheother。ThemonthspassedmorequicklythanI

  haddaredtohope。Theexpirationofmyfirstyearoftransportationwasapproaching,andalreadypleasanthintsofmybeingsoonassignedtoprivateservicebegantoreachmyears。

  ThiswasthefirstofthemanyendsIwasnowworkingfor;andthenextpleasantrealizationofmyhopesthatIhadtoexpect,wasthearrivalofAlicia。

  Shecame,amonthlaterthanIhadanticipated;safeandblooming,withfivehundredpoundsastheproduceofherjewels,andwiththeoldCrickgellyaliaschangedfromMisstoMrs。

  Giles,topreventanysuspicionsoftheconnectionbetweenus。

  HerstoryconcoctedbymebeforeIleftEnglandwas,thatshewasawidowlady,whohadcometosettleinAustralia,andmakethemostofherlittlepropertyintheNewWorld。OneofthefirstthingsMrs。Gileswantedwasnecessarilyatrustworthyservant,andshehadtomakeherchoiceofoneamongtheconvictsofgoodcharacter,tobeassignedtoprivateservice。Beingoneofthathonorablebodymyselfatthetime,itisneedlesstosaythatI

  wasthefortunatemanonwhomMrs。Giles\'schoicefell。ThefirstsituationIgotinAustraliawasasservanttomyownwife。

  Aliciamadeaveryindulgentmistress。

  Ifshehadbeenmischievouslyinclined,shemight,byapplicationtoamagistrate,havehadmefloggedorsettoworkinchainsontheroads,wheneverIbecameidleorinsubordinate,whichhappenedoccasionally。Butinsteadofcomplaining,thekindcreaturekissedandmademuchofherfootmanbystealth,afterhisday\'swork。Sheallowedhimnofemalefollowers,andonlyemployedonewoman-servantoccasionally,whowasbotholdandugly。ThenameofthefootmanwasDearinprivate,andFrancisincompany;andwhenthewidowedmistress,upstairs,refusedeligibleoffersofmarriagewhichwasprettyoften,thefavoreddomesticinthekitchenwasalwaysinformedofit,andasked,withthesweetesthumility,ifheapprovedoftheproceeding。

  Nottodwellonthisanomalousperiodofmyexistence,letmesaybrieflythatmynewpositionwithmywifewasofthegreatestadvantageinenablingmetodirectinsecrettheprofitableusestowhichherlittlefortunewasput。

  Webeganinthiswaywithanexcellentspeculationincattle——buyingthemforshillingsandsellingthemforpounds。

  Withtheprofitsthusobtained,wenexttriedourhandsathouses——firstbuyinginasmallway,thenboldlybuilding,andlettingagainandsellingtogreatadvantage。Whilethesespeculationswereinprogress,mybehaviorinmywife\'sservicewassoexemplary,andshegavemesoexcellentacharacterwhentheusualofficialinquirieswereinstituted,thatIsoongotthenextprivilegeaccordedtopersonsinmysituation——aticket-of-leave。BythetimethishadbeenagainexchangedforaconditionalpardonwhichallowedmetogoaboutwhereIpleasedinAustralia,andtotradeinmyownnamelikeanyunconvictedmerchantourhouse-propertyhadincreasedenormously,ourlandhadbeensoldforpublicbuildings,andwehadsharesinthefamousEmancipist\'sBank,whichproducedquitealittleincomeofthemselves。

  Therewasnownoneedtokeepthemaskonanylonger。

  IwentthroughthesuperfluousceremonyofasecondmarriagewithAlicia;tookstoresinthecity;builtavillainthecountry;

  andhereIamatthispresentmomentofwriting,aconvictaristocrat——aprosperous,wealthy,highlyrespectablemercantileman,withtwoyearsofmysentenceoftransportationstilltoexpire。Ihaveabaroucheandtwobayhorses,acoachmanandpageinneatliveries,threecharmingchildren,andaFrenchgoverness,aboudoirandlady\'s-maidformywife。Sheisashandsomeasever,butgettingalittlefat。SoamI,asaworthyfriendremarkedwhenIrecentlyappearedholdingtheplate,atourlastcharitysermon。

  WhatwouldmysurvivingrelativesandassociatesinEnglandsay,iftheycouldseemenow?Ihaveheardofthematdifferenttimesandthroughvariouschannels。LadyMalkinshaw,afterlivingtothevergeofahundred,andsurvivingallsortsofaccidents,diedquietlyoneafternoon,inherchair,withanemptydishbeforeher,andwithoutgivingtheslightestnoticetoanybody。

  Mr。Batterbury,havingsacrificedsomuchtohiswife\'sreversion,profitednothingbyitsfallinginatlast。Hisquarrelswithmyamiablesister——whichtooktheirrisefromhisinterestedcharitiestowardme——endedinproducingaseparation。

  And,farfromsavinganythingbyAnnabella\'sinheritanceofherpin-money,hehadapositivelosstoputupwith,intheshapeofsomehundredsextractedyearlyfromhisincome,asalimonytohisuncongenialwife。Heissaidtomakeuseofshockinglanguagewhenevermynameismentioned,andtowishthathehadbeencarriedoffbytheyellowfeverbeforeheeverseteyesontheSoftlyfamily。

  Myfatherhasretiredfrompractice。Heandmymotherhavegonetoliveinthecountry,nearthemansionoftheonlymarquiswithwhommyfatherwasactuallyandpersonallyacquaintedinhisprofessionaldays。Themarquisaskshimtodinneronceayear,andleavesacardformymotherbeforehereturnstotownfortheseason。AportraitofLadyMalkinshawhangsinthedining-room。

  Inthisway,myparentsareendingtheirdayscontentedly。IcanhonestlysaythatIamgladtohearit。

  DoctorDulcifer,whenIlastheardofhim,waseditinganewspaperinAmerica。OldFile,whosharedhisflight,stillshareshisfortunes,beingpublisherofhisnewspaper。YoungFileresumedcoiningoperationsinLondon;and,havingbravedhisfateasecondtime,threadedhisway,induecourse,uptothestepsofthescaffold。Screwcarriesontheprofitabletradeofinformer,inLondon。ThedismaldisappearanceofMillIhavealreadyrecorded。

  Somuchonthesubjectofmyrelativesandassociates。Onthesubjectofmyself,Imightstillwriteonatconsiderablelength。

  Butwhilethelibeloustitleof\"AROGUE\'SLIFE\"staresmeinthefaceatthetopofthepage,howcanI,asarichandreputableman,beexpectedtocommunicateanyfurtherautobiographicalparticulars,inthisplace,toadiscerningpublicofreaders?

  No,no,myfriends!Iamnolongerinteresting——Iamonlyrespectablelikeyourselves。Itistimetosay\"Good-by。”

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