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  HepitiedMelburyforhisalmostchildishenthusiasm,andsawthattheagingmanmusthavesufferedacutelytobeweakenedtothisunreasoningdesire。

  Winterbornewasfartoomagnanimoustoharboranycynicalconjecturethatthetimber-merchant,inhisintenseaffectionforGrace,wascourtinghimnowbecausethatyounglady,whendisunited,wouldbeleftinananomalousposition,toescapewhichabadhusbandwasbetterthannone。HefeltquitesurethathisoldfriendwassimplyontenterhooksofanxietytorepairthealmostirreparableerrorofdividingtwowhomNaturehadstriventojointogetherinearlierdays,andthatinhisardortodothishewasobliviousofformalities。Thecautioussupervisionofhispastyearshadoverleapeditselfatlast。hence,Winterborneperceivedthat,inthisnewbeginning,thenecessarycarenottocompromiseGracebytooearlyadvancesmustbeexercisedbyhimself。

  PerhapsWinterbornewasnotquitesoardentasheretofore。Thereisnosuchthingasastationarylove:menareeitherlovingmoreorlovingless。ButGileshimselfrecognizednodeclineinhissenseofherdearness。IftheflamedidindeedburnlowernowthanwhenhehadfetchedherfromShertonatherlastreturnfromschool,themarvelwassmall。Hehadbeenlaboringeversincehisrejectionandhermarriagetoreducehisformerpassiontoadocilefriendship,outofpureregardtoitsexpediency;andtheirseparationmayhavehelpedhimtoapartialsuccess。

  Aweekandmorepassed,andtherewasnofurthernewsofMelbury。

  Buttheeffectoftheintelligencehehadalreadytransmittedupontheelastic-nerveddaughterofthewoodshadbeenmuchwhattheoldsurgeonJoneshadsurmised。Ithadsoothedherperturbedspiritbetterthanalltheopiatesinthepharmacopoeia。Shehadsleptunbrokenlyawholenightandaday。The“newlaw“wastoheramysterious,beneficent,godlikeentity,latelydescendeduponearth,thatwouldmakeherassheoncehadbeenwithouttroubleorannoyance。Herpositionfrettedher,itsabstractfeaturesrousinganaversionwhichwasevengreaterthanheraversiontothepersonalityofhimwhohadcausedit。Itwasmortifying,productiveofslights,undignified。Himshecouldforget;hercircumstancesshehadalwayswithher。

  ShesawnothingofWinterborneduringthedaysofherrecovery;

  andperhapsonthataccountherfancywoveabouthimamoreromantictissuethanitcouldhavedoneifhehadstoodbeforeherwithallthespecksandflawsinseparablefromcorporeity。Heroseuponhermemoryasthefruit-godandthewood-godinalternation;sometimesleafy,andsmearedwithgreenlichen,asshehadseenhimamongthesappyboughsoftheplantations;

  sometimescider-stained,andwithapple-pipsinthehairofhisarms,asshehadmethimonhisreturnfromcider-makinginWhiteHartVale,withhisvatsandpressesbesidehim。Inhersecretheartshealmostapproximatedtoherfather’senthusiasminwishingtoshowGilesonceforallhowshestillregardedhim。

  Thequestionwhetherthefuturewouldindeedbringthemtogetherforlifewasastandingwonderwithher。Sheknewthatitcouldnotwithanyproprietydosojustyet。Butreverentlybelievinginherfather’ssoundjudgmentandknowledge,asgoodgirlsarewonttodo,sherememberedwhathehadwrittenabouthergivingahinttoWinterbornelestthereshouldberiskindelay,andherfeelingswerenotaversetosuchastep,sofarasitcouldbedonewithoutdangeratthisearlystageoftheproceedings。

  Frombeingafrailphantomofherformerequableselfshereturnedinboundstoaconditionofpassablephilosophy。Shebloomedagaininthefaceinthecourseofafewdays,andwaswellenoughtogoaboutasusual。OnedayMrs。MelburyproposedthatforachangesheshouldbedriveninthegigtoShertonmarket,whitherMelbury’smanwasgoingonothererrands。GracehadnobusinesswhateverinSherton;butitcrossedhermindthatWinterbornewouldprobablybethere,andthismadethethoughtofsuchadriveinteresting。

  Onthewayshesawnothingofhim;butwhenthehorsewaswalkingslowlythroughtheobstructionsofSheepStreet,shediscernedtheyoungmanonthepavement。Shethoughtofthattimewhenhehadbeenstandingunderhisapple-treeonherreturnfromschool,andofthetenderopportunitythenmissedthroughherfastidiousness。

  Herheartroseinherthroat。Sheabjuredallsuchfastidiousnessnow。Nordidsheforgetthelastoccasiononwhichshehadbeheldhiminthattown,makingciderinthecourt-yardoftheEarlofWessexHotel,whileshewasfiguringasafineladyinthebalconyabove。

  Gracedirectedthemantosetherdownthereinthemidst,andimmediatelywentuptoherlover。Gileshadnotbeforeobservedher,andhiseyesnowsuppressedlylookedhispleasure,withouttheembarrassmentthathadformerlymarkedhimatsuchmeetings。

  Whenafewwordshadbeenspoken,shesaid,archly,“Ihavenothingtodo。Perhapsyouaredeeplyengaged?”

  “I?Notabit。Mybusinessnowatthebestoftimesissmall,I

  amsorrytosay。”

  “Well,then,IamgoingintotheAbbey。Comealongwithme。”

  Thepropositionhadsuggesteditselfasaquickescapefrompublicity,formanyeyeswereregardingher。Shehadhopedthatsufficienttimehadelapsedfortheextinctionofcuriosity;butitwasquiteotherwise。Thepeoplelookedatherwithtenderinterestasthedesertedgirl-wife——withoutobtrusiveness,andwithoutvulgarity;butshewasillpreparedforscrutinyinanyshape。

  TheywalkedabouttheAbbeyaisles,andpresentlysatdown。Notasoulwasinthebuildingsavethemselves。Sheregardedastainedwindow,withherheadsideways,andtentativelyaskedhimifherememberedthelasttimetheywereinthattownalone。

  Heremembereditperfectly,andremarked,“Youwereaproudmissthen,andasdaintyasyouwerehigh。Perhapsyouarenow?”

  Graceslowlyshookherhead。“Afflictionhastakenallthatoutofme。”sheanswered,impressively。“PerhapsIamtoofartheotherwaynow。”Astherewassomethinglurkinginthisthatshecouldnotexplain,sheadded,soquicklyasnottoallowhimtimetothinkofit,“Hasmyfatherwrittentoyouatall?”

  “Yes。”saidWinterborne。

  Sheglancedponderinglyupathim。“Notaboutme?”

  “Yes。”

  Hismouthwaslinedwithcharacterywhichtoldherthathehadbeenbiddentotakethehintastothefuturewhichshehadbeenbiddentogive。TheunexpecteddiscoverysentascarletpulsationthroughGraceforthemoment。However,itwasonlyGileswhostoodthere,ofwhomshehadnofear;andherself-possessionreturned。

  “HesaidIwastosoundyouwithaviewto——whatyouwillunderstand,ifyoucareto。”continuedWinterborne,inalowvoice。Havingbeenputonthistrackbyherself,hewasnotdisposedtoabandonitinahurry。

  Theyhadbeenchildrentogether,andtherewasbetweenthemthatfamiliarityastopersonalaffairswhichonlysuchacquaintanceshipcangive。“Youknow,Giles。”sheanswered,speakinginaverypracticaltone,“thatthatisallverywell;

  butIaminaveryanomalouspositionatpresent,andIcannotsayanythingtothepointaboutsuchthingsasthose。”

  “No?”hesaid,withastrayairasregardedthesubject。Hewaslookingatherwithacuriousconsciousnessofdiscovery。Hehadnotbeenimaginingthattheirrenewedintercoursewouldshowhertohimthus。Forthefirsttimeherealizedanunexpectednessinher,which,afterall,shouldnothavebeenunexpected。ShebeforehimwasnotthegirlGraceMelburywhomheusedtoknow。

  Ofcourse,hemighteasilyhaveprefiguredasmuch;butithadneveroccurredtohim。Shewasawomanwhohadbeenmarried;shehadmovedon;andwithouthavinglosthergirlishmodesty,shehadlosthergirlishshyness。Theinevitablechange,thoughknowntohim,hadnotbeenheeded;anditstruckhimintoamomentaryfixity。ThetruthwasthathehadnevercomeintoclosecomradeshipwithhersinceherengagementtoFitzpiers,withthebriefexceptionoftheeveningencounteronRubdownHill,whenshemethimwithhisciderapparatus;andthatinterviewhadbeenoftoocursoryakindforinsight。

  Winterbornehadadvanced,too。Hecouldcriticiseher。TimeshadbeenwhentocriticiseasingletraitinGraceMelburywouldhavelainasfarbeyondhispowersastocriticiseadeity。Thisthingwassure:itwasanewwomaninmanywayswhomhehadcomeouttosee;acreatureofmoreideas,moredignity,and,aboveall,moreassurance,thantheoriginalGracehadbeencapableof。Hecouldnotatfirstdecidewhetherhewerepleasedordispleasedatthis。

  Butuponthewholethenoveltyattractedhim。

  Shewassosweetandsensitivethatshefearedhissilencebetokenedsomethinginhisbrainofthenatureofanenemytoher。

  “Whatareyouthinkingofthatmakesthoselinescomeinyourforehead?”sheasked。“Ididnotmeantooffendyoubyspeakingofthetimebeingprematureasyet。”

  Touchedbythegenuineloving-kindnesswhichhadlainatthefoundationofthesewords,andmuchmoved,Winterborneturnedhisfaceaside,ashetookherbythehand。Hewasgrievedthathehadcriticisedher。

  “Youareverygood,dearGrace。”hesaid,inalowvoice。“Youarebetter,muchbetter,thanyouusedtobe。”

  “How?”

  Hecouldnotverywelltellherhow,andsaid,withanevasivesmile,“Youareprettier;“whichwasnotwhathereallyhadmeant。

  Hethenremainedstillholdingherrighthandinhisownright,sothattheyfacedinoppositeways;andashedidnotletgo,sheventureduponatenderremonstrance。

  “Ithinkwehavegoneasfarasweoughttogoatpresent——andfarenoughtosatisfymypoorfatherthatwearethesameasever。

  Yousee,Giles,mycaseisnotsettledyet,andif——Oh,supposeI

  NEVERgetfree!——thereshouldbeanyhitchorinformality!”

  Shedrewacatchingbreath,andturnedpale。Thedialoguehadbeenaffectionatecomedyuptothispoint。Thegloomyatmosphereofthepast,andthestillgloomyhorizonofthepresent,hadbeenfortheintervalforgotten。Nowthewholeenvironmentcameback,theduebalanceofshadeamongthelightwasrestored。

  “Itissuretobeallright,Itrust?”sheresumed,inuneasyaccents。“Whatdidmyfathersaythesolicitorhadtoldhim?”

  “Oh——thatallissureenough。Thecaseissoclear——nothingcouldbeclearer。Butthelegalpartisnotyetquitedoneandfinished,asisnatural。”

  “Ohno——ofcoursenot。”shesaid,sunkinmeekthought。“ButfathersaiditwasALMOST——didhenot?Doyouknowanythingaboutthenewlawthatmakesthesethingssoeasy?”

  “Nothing——exceptthegeneralfactthatitenablesill-assortedhusbandsandwivestopartinawaytheycouldnotformerlydowithoutanActofParliament。”

  “Haveyoutosignapaper,orswearanything?Isitsomethinglikethat?”

  “Yes,Ibelieveso。”

  “Howlonghasitbeenintroduced?”

  “Aboutsixmonthsorayear,thelawyersaid,Ithink。”

  TohearthesetwopoorArcadianinnocentstalkofimperiallawwouldhavemadeahumanepersonweepwhoshouldhaveknownwhatadangerousstructuretheywerebuildingupontheirsupposedknowledge。Theyremainedinthought,likechildreninthepresenceoftheincomprehensible。

  “Giles。”shesaid,atlast,“itmakesmequitewearywhenIthinkhowseriousmysituationis,orhasbeen。Shallwenotgooutfromherenow,asitmayseemratherfastofme——ourbeingsolongtogether,Imean——ifanybodyweretoseeus?Iamalmostsure。”

  sheadded,uncertainly,“thatIoughtnottoletyouholdmyhandyet,knowingthatthedocuments——orwhateveritmaybe——havenotbeensigned;sothatI——amstillasmarriedasever——oralmost。

  Mydearfatherhasforgottenhimself。NotthatIfeelmorallyboundtoanyoneelse,afterwhathastakenplace——nowomanofspiritcould——now,too,thatseveralmonthshavepassed。ButI

  wishtokeeptheproprietiesaswellasIcan。”

  “Yes,yes。Still,yourfatherremindsusthatlifeisshort。I

  myselffeelthatitis;thatiswhyIwishedtounderstandyouinthisthatwehavebegun。Attimes,dearGrace,sincereceivingyourfather’sletter,Iamasuneasyandfearfulasachildatwhathesaid。Ifoneofusweretodiebeforetheformalsigningandsealingthatistoreleaseyouhavebeendone——ifweshoulddropoutoftheworldandneverhavemadethemostofthislittle,short,butrealopportunity,IshouldthinktomyselfasIsunkdowndying,’WouldtomyGodthatIhadspokenoutmywholeheart——

  givenheronepoorlittlekisswhenIhadthechancetogiveit!

  ButIneverdid,althoughshehadpromisedtobeminesomeday;

  andnowInevercan。’That’swhatIshouldthink。”

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