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  CHAPTERXLII

  WHATCANYOUGIVEINRETURN?

  Inspiteofthefamilytroubles,thesewerehappydaysforBeatrice。Itsoseldomhappensthatyoungladiesontheeveoftheirmarriagehavetheirhusbandslivingnearthem。Thishappinesswashers,andMrOrielmadethemostofit。ShewasconstantlybeingcoaxeddowntotheparsonagebyPatience,inorderthatshemightgiveheropinion,inprivate,onsomedomesticarrangement,somepieceoffurniture,orsomenewcarpet;butthisprivacywasalwaysinvaded。WhatMrOriel\'sparishionersdidinthesehalcyondays,Iwillnotask。Hismorningservices,however,hadbeenaltogethergivenup,andhehadprovidedhimselfwithaveryexcellentcurate。

  ButonegriefdidweighheavilyonBeatrice。ShecontinuallyheardhermothersaythingswhichmadeherfeelthatitwouldbemorethaneverimpossiblethatMaryshouldbeatherwedding;andyetshehadpromisedherbrothertoaskher。Frankhadalsorepeatedhisthreat,thatifMarywerenotpresent,hewouldabsenthimself。

  Beatricedidwhatmostgirlsdoinsuchacase;whatallwoulddowhoareworthanything;sheaskedherlover\'sadvice。

  \'Oh!butFrankcan\'tbeinearnest,\'saidthelover。\'Ofcoursehe\'llbeatourwedding。\'

  \'Youdon\'tknowhim,Caleb。Heissochangedthatnoonehardlywouldknowhim。Youcan\'tconceivehowmuchinearnestheis,howdeterminedandresolute。Andthen,IshouldliketohaveMarysomuchifmammawouldlethercome。\'

  \'AskLadyArabella,\'saidCaleb。

  \'Well,IsupposeImustdothat;butIknowwhatshe\'llsay,andFrankwillneverbelievethatIhavedonemybest。\'MrOrielcomfortedherwithsuchlittlewhisperedconsolationsashewasabletoafford,andthenshewentawayonhererrandtohermother。

  Shewasindeedsurprisedatthemannerinwhichherprayerwasreceived。

  Shecouldhardlyfalterforthherpetition;butwhenshehaddoneso,LadyArabellaansweredinthiswise:-

  \'Wellmydear,Ihavenoobjection,nonetheleast;thatis,ofcourse,ifMaryisdisposedtobehaveherselfproperly。\'

  \'Oh,mamma!ofcourseshewill,\'saidBeatrice;\'shealwaysdidandalwaysdoes。\'

  \'Ihopeshewill,mylove。But,Beatrice,whenIsaythatIshallbegladtoseeher,ofcourseImeanundercertainconditions。IneverdislikedMaryThorne,andifshewouldonlyletFrankunderstandthatshewillnotlistentohismadproposals,IshouldbedelightedtoseeheratGreshamsburyjustassheusedtobe。\'

  Beatricecouldsaynothinginanswertothis;butshefeltverysurethatMary,letherintentionbewhatitmight,wouldnotundertaketomakeFrankunderstandanythingatanybody\'sbidding。

  \'IwilltellyouwhatIwilldo,mydear,\'continuedLadyArabella;\'I

  willcallonMarymyself。\'

  \'What!atDrThorne\'shouse?\'

  \'Yes;whynot?IhavebeenatDrThorne\'shousebeforenow。\'AndLadyArabellacouldnotbutthinkofherlastvisitthither,andthestrongfeelingshehad,asshecameout,thatshewouldneveragainenterthosedoors。Shewas,however,preparedtodoanythingonbehalfofherrebelliousson。

  \'Oh,yes!Iknowthat,mamma。\'

  \'Iwillcalluponher,andIcanpossiblymanageit,Iwillaskhermyselftomakeoneofyourparty。Ifso,youcangotoherafterwardsandmakeyourownarrangements。Justwriteheranote,mydear,andsaythatIwillcallto-morrowattwelve。ItmightflusterherifIweretogowithoutnotice。\'

  Beatricedidasshewasbid,butwithapresentimentthatnogoodwouldcomeofit。ThenotewascertainlyunnecessaryforthepurposeassignedbyLadyArabella,asMarywasnotgiventobeflusteredbysuchoccurrences;but,perhaps,itwasaswellasthatitwaswritten,asitenabledhertomakeuphermindsteadilyastowhatinformationshouldbegiven,andwhatshouldnotbegiventohercomingvisitor。

  Onthenextmorning,attheappointedhour,LadyArabellawalkeddowntothedoctor\'shouse。Sheneverwalkedaboutthevillagewithoutmakingsomelittledisturbanceamongtheinhabitants。Withthesquire,himself,theywerequitefamiliar,andhecouldappearandreappearwithoutcreatinganysensation;butherladyshiphadnotmadeherselfequallycommoninmen\'ssight。Therefore,whenshewentthroughalltheGreshamsburyintenminutes,andbeforeshehadleftthehouse,MrsUmblebyandMissGushinghadquitesettledbetweenthemwhatwastheexactcauseoftheverysingularevent。

  Thedoctor,whenhehadheardwhatwasgoingtohappen,carefullykeptoutoftheway:Mary,therefore,hadthepleasureofreceivingLadyArabellaalone。Nothingcouldexceedherladyship\'saffability。Marythoughtthatitperhapsmighthavesavouredlessofcondescension;butthenonthissubject,Marywasprobablyprejudiced。LadyArabellasmiledandsimpered,andaskedafterthedoctor,andthecat,andJanet,andsaideverythingthatcouldbedesiredbyanyonelessunreasonablethanMaryThorne。

  \'Andnow,Mary,I\'lltellyouwhyIhavecalled。\'Marybowedherheadslightly,asmuchtosay,thatshewouldbegladtoreceiveanyinformationthatLadyArabellacouldgiveheronthatsubject。\'OfcourseyouknowthatBeatriceisgoingtobemarriedveryshortly。\'

  Maryacknowledgedthatshehadheardsomuch。

  \'Yes:wethinkitwillbeinSeptember——earlyinSeptember——andthatiscomingverysoonnow。Thepoorgirlisanxiousthatyoushouldbeatherwedding。\'Maryturnedslightlyred;butshemerelysaid,andthatsomewhattoocoldly,thatshewasmuchindebtedtoBeatriceforherkindness。

  \'Icanassureyou,Mary,thatsheisveryfondofyou,asmuchasever;

  andso,indeed,amI,andallofusareso。YouknowthatMrGreshamwasalwaysyourfriend。\'

  \'Yes,healwayswas,andIamgratefultoMrGresham,\'answeredMary。ItwaswellforLadyArabellathatshehadhertemperundercommand,forhadshespokenhermindouttherewouldhavebeenverylittlechanceleftforreconciliationbetweenherandMary。

  \'Yes,indeedhewas;andIthinkwealldidwhatlittlewecouldtomakeyouwelcomeatGreshamsbury,Mary,tillthoseunpleasantoccurrencestookplace。\'

  \'Whatoccurrences,LadyArabella?\'

  \'AndBeatriceissoveryanxiousonthispoint,\'saidherladyship,ignoringforthemomentMary\'squestion。\'Youtwohavebeensomuchtogether,thatshefeelsshecannotbequitehappyifyouarenotnearherwhensheisbeingmarried。\'

  \'DearBeatrice!\'saidMary,warmedforthemomenttoanexpressionofgenuinefeeling。

  \'Shecametomeyesterday,beggingthatIwouldwaiveanyobjectionI

  mighthavetoyourbeingthere。Ihavemadehernoansweryet。WhatanswerdoyouthinkIoughttomakeher?\'

  Marywasastoundedatthisquestion,andhesitatedinherreply。\'WhatanswerdoyouthinkIoughttomakeher?\'shesaid。

  \'Yes,Mary。WhatanswertoyouthinkIoughttogive?Iwishtoaskyouthequestion,asyouarethepersonthemostconcerned。\'

  Maryconsideredforawhile,thendidgiveheropiniononthematterinafirmvoice。\'IthinkyoushouldtellBeatrice,thatasyoucannotatpresentreceivemecordiallyinyourhouse,itwillbebetterthatyoushouldnotbecalledupontoreceivemeatall。\'

  ThiswascertainlynotthesortofanswerthatLadyArabellaexpected,andshewasnowsomewhatastoundedinherturn。\'But,Mary,\'shesaid,\'IshouldbedelightedtoreceiveyoucordiallyifIcoulddoso。\'

  \'Butitseemsyoucannot,LadyArabella;andsotheremustbeanendofit。\'

  \'On,butIdonotknowthat:\'andshesmiledhersweetestsmile。\'Idonotknowthat。Iwanttoputanendtoallthisill-feeling,ifIcan。

  Italldependsupononething,youknow。\'

  \'Doesit,LadyArabella?\'

  \'Yes,upononething。Youwon\'tbeangryifIaskyouanotherquestion——eh,Mary?\'

  \'No;atleastIdon\'tthinkIwill。\'

  \'IsthereanytruthinwhatwehearaboutyourbeingengagedtoFrank?\'

  Marymadenoimmediateanswertothis;butsatquitesilent,lookingatLadyArabellaintheface;notbutthatshehadmadeuphermindastowhatanswershewouldgive,buttheexactwordsfailedheratthemoment。

  \'Ofcourseyoumusthaveheardofsucharumour。\'

  \'Oh,yes,Ihaveheardofit。\'

  \'Yes,andyouhavenoticedit,andImustsayveryproperly。WhenyouwenttoBoxallHill,andbeforethatwithMissOriel\'stoheraunt\'s,I

  thoughtyoubehavedextremelywell。\'Maryfeltherselfglowwithindignation,andbegantopreparethewordsthatshouldbesharpanddecisive。\'But,nevertheless,peopletalk;andFrank,whoisstillquiteaboy\'Mary\'sindignationwasnotsoftenedbythisallusiontoFrank\'sfolly,\'seemstohavegotsomenonsenseinhishead。Igrievetosayit,butIfeelmyselfinjusticeboundtodoso,thatinthismatterhehasnotactedaswellasyouhavedone。Now,therefore,Imerelyaskyouwhetherthereisanytruthinthereport。Ifyoutellmethatthereisnone,Ishallbequitecontented。\'

  \'Butitisaltogethertrue,LadyArabella;Iamengagedtohim。\'

  \'Engagedtobemarriedtohim?\'

  \'Yes;engagedtobemarriedtohim。\'

  Whatwastosayordonow?Nothingcouldbemoreplain,moredecided,orlessembarrassedwithdoubtthanMary\'sdeclaration。Andasshemadeitshelookedhervisitorfullintheface,blushingindeed,forhercheekswerenowsuffusedaswellasherforehead;butboldly,and,asitwere,withdefiance。

  \'Andyoutellmethattomyface,MissThorne?\'

  \'Andwhynot?Didyounotaskmethequestion;andwouldyouhavemyansweryouwithafalsehood?Iamengagedtohim。Asyouwouldputthequestiontome,whatothercouldImake?Thetruthis,Iamengagedtohim。\'

  ThedecisiveabruptnesswithwhichMarydeclaredherowniniquityalmosttookawayherladyship\'sbreath。Shehadcertainlybelievedthattheywereengaged,andhadhardlyhopedthatMarywoulddenyit;butshehadnotexpectedthatthecrimewouldbeacknowledged,or,atanyrate,ifacknowledged,thattheconfessionwouldbemadewithoutsomeshowofshame。OnthisLadyArabellacouldhaveworked;buttherewasnosuchexpression,norwastheretheslightesthesitation。\'IamengagedtoFrankGresham,\'andhavingsosaid,Marylookedathervisitorfullintheface。

  \'ThenitisindeedimpossiblethatyoushouldbereceivedatGreshamsbury。\'

  \'Atpresent,quiteso,nodoubt:insayingso,LadyArabella,youonlyrepeattheanswerImadetoyourfirstquestion。IcannowgotoGreshamsburyonlyinonelight:thatofMrGresham\'saccepteddaughter-in-law。\'

  \'Andthatisperfectlyoutofthequestion;altogetheroutofthequestion,nowandforever。\'

  \'Iwillnotdisputewithyouaboutthat;but,asIsaidbefore,mybeingatBeatrice\'sweddingisnottobethoughtof。\'

  LadyArabellasatforawhilesilent,thatshemightmeditate,ifpossible,calmlyastowhatlineofargumentshehadnowbettertake。Itwouldbefoolishinher,shethought,toreturnhome,havingmerelyexpressedheranger。ShehadnowanopportunityoftalkingtoMarywhichmightnotagainoccur:thedifficultywasindecidinginwhatspecialwaysheshouldusetheopportunity。Shouldshethreaten,orshouldsheentreat?Todoherjustice,itshouldbestated,thatshedidactuallybelievethatthemarriagewasallbutimpossible;shedidnotthinkthatitwouldtakeplace。Buttheengagementmightbetheruinofherson\'sprospects,seeinghowhehadbeforehimanimperative,oneimmediateduty——thatofmarryingmoney。

  Havingconsideredallthisaswellasherhurrywouldallowher,shedeterminedfirsttoreason,thentoentreat,andlastly,ifnecessary,tothreaten。

  \'Iamastonished!youcannotbesurprisedatthat,MissThorne:Iamastonishedathearingsosingularconfessionmade。\'

  \'Doyouthinkmyconfessionsingular,orisitthefactofmybeingengagedtoyourson?\'

  \'Wewillpassoverthatforthepresent。Butdoletmeaskyou,doyouthinkitpossible,Isaypossible,thatyouandFrankshouldbemarried?\'

  \'Oh,certainly;quitepossible。\'

  \'Ofcourseyouknowthathehasnotashillingintheworld。\'

  \'NorhaveI,LadyArabella。\'

  \'Norwillhehavewerehetodoanythingsoutterlyhostiletohisfather\'swishes。Theproperty,asyouareaware,isaltogetheratMrGresham\'sdisposal。\'

  \'Iamawareofnothingabouttheproperty,andcansaynothingaboutitexceptthis,thatithasnotbeen,andwillnotbeinquiredafterbymeinthismatter。IfImarryFrankGresham,itwillnotbefortheproperty。Iamsorrytomakesuchanapparentboast,butyouforcemetodoit。\'

  \'Onwhatthenareyoutolive?Youaretoooldforloveinacottage,I

  suppose?\'

  \'Notatalltooold;Frank,youknowis“stillquiteaboy“。\'

  Impudenthussy!forward,ill-conditionedsaucyminx!suchweretheepithetswhichrosetoLadyArabella\'smind;butshepolitelysuppressedthem。

  \'MissThorne,thissubjectisofcoursetomeveryserious;veryill-adaptedforjesting。Ilookuponsuchamarriageasabsolutelyimpossible。\'

  \'Idonotknowwhatyoumeanbyimpossible,LadyArabella。\'

  \'Imean,inthefirstplace,thatyoutwocouldnotgetyourselvesmarried。\'

  \'Oh,yes;MrOrielwouldmanagethatforus。Wearehisparishioners,andhewouldbeboundtodoit。\'

  \'Ibegyourpardon;Ibelievethatunderallthecircumstancesitwouldbeillegal。\'

  Marysmiled;butshesaidnothing。\'Youmaylaugh,MissThorne,butI

  thinkyouwillfindthatIamright。Therearestilllawstopreventsuchfearfuldistressaswouldbebroughtaboutbysuchamarriage。\'

  \'IhopethatnothingIshalldowillbringdistressonthefamily。\'

  \'Ah,butitwould;don\'tyouknowthatitwould?Thinkofit,MissThorne。ThinkofFrank\'sstate,andofhisfather\'sstate。Youknowenoughofthat,Iamsure,tobewellawarethatFrankisnotinaconditiontomarrywithoutmoney。ThinkofthepositionwhichMrGresham\'sonlysonshouldholdinthecounty;thinkoftheoldname,andthepridewehaveinit;youhavelivedamongusenoughtounderstandallthis;thinkofthesethings,andthensaywhetheritispossiblethatsuchamarriageshouldtakeplacewithoutfamilydistressofthedeepestkind。ThinkofMrGresham;ifyoutrulylovemyson,youcouldnotwishtobringonhimallthismiseryandruin。\'

  Marynowwastouched,fortherewastruthinwhatLadyArabellasaid。

  Butshehadnopowerofgoingback;hertrothwasplighted,andnothinganyhumanbeingcouldsayshouldtakeherfromit。Ifhe,indeed,chosetorepent,thatwouldbeanotherthing。

  \'LadyArabella,\'shesaid,\'Ihavenothingtosayinfavourofthisengagement,exceptthathewishesit。\'

  \'Andisthisareason,Mary?\'

  \'Tomeitis;notonlyareason,butalaw。Ihavegivenhimmypromise。\'

  \'Andyouwillkeepyourpromiseeventohisownruin?\'

  \'Ihopenot。Ourengagement,unlessheshallchoosetobreakitoff,mustnecessarilybealongone;butthetimewillcome——\'

  \'What!whenMrGreshamisdead?\'

  \'Beforethat,Ihope。\'

  \'Thereisnoprobabilityofit。Andbecauseheisheadstrong,you,whohavealwayshadcreditforsomuchsense,willholdhimtothismadengagement?\'

  \'No,LadyArabella;Iwillnotholdhimtoanythingtowhichhedoesnotwishtobeheld。Nothingthatyoucansayshallmoveme:nothingthatanybodycansayshallinducemetobreakmypromisetohim。Butawordfromhimselfwilldoit。Onelookwillbesufficient。Lethimgivemetounderstand,inanyway,thathisloveformeisinjurioustohim——thathehaslearnttothinkso——andthenIwillrenouncemypartinthisengagementasquicklyasyoucouldwishit。\'

  Therewasmuchinthispromise,butstillnotsomuchasLadyArabellawishedtoget。Mary,sheknew,wasobstinate,yetreasonable;Frank,shethought,wasbothobstinateandunreasonable。ItmightbepossibletoworkonMary\'sreason,butquiteimpossibletotouchFrank\'sirrationality。Soshepersevered——foolishly。

  \'MissThorne——that,is,Mary,forIstillwishtobethoughtyourfriend——\'

  \'Iwilltellyouthetruth,LadyArabella:forsomeconsiderabletimepastIhavenotthoughtyouso。\'

  \'Thenyouhavewrongedme。ButIwillgoonwithwhatIwassaying。Youquiteacknowledgethatthisisafoolishaffair?\'

  \'Iacknowledgenosuchthing。\'

  \'Somethingverymuchlikeit。Youhavenotawordtosayinitsdefence。\'

  \'Nottoyou:Idonotchoosetobeputonmydefencebyyou。\'

  \'Idon\'tknowwhohasmoreright;however,youpromisethatifFrankwishesit,youwillreleasehimfromhisengagement。\'

  \'Releasehim!Itisforhimtoreleaseme,thatis,ifhewishesit。\'

  \'Verywell;atanyrate,yougivehimpermissiontodoso。Butwillitnotbemorehonourableforyoutobegin?\'

  \'No;Ithinknot。\'

  \'Ah,butitwould。Ifhe,inhisposition,shouldbethefirsttospeak,thefirsttosuggestthatthisaffairbetweenyouisafoolishone,whatwouldpeoplesay?\'

  \'Theywouldsaythetruth。\'

  \'Andwhatwouldyouyourselfsay?\'

  \'Nothing。\'

  \'Whatwouldhethinkhimself?\'

  \'Ah,thatIdonotknow。Itisaccordingasthatmaybe,thathewillorwillnotactatyourbidding。\'

  \'Exactly;andbecauseyouknowhimtobehigh-minded,becauseyouthinkthathe,havingsomuchtogive,willnotbreakhiswordtoyou——toyouwhohavenothingtogiveinreturn——itis,therefore,thatyousaythatthefirststepmustbetakenbyhim。Itthatnoble?\'

  ThenMaryrosefromherseat,foritwasnolongerpossibleforhertospeakwhatitwasinhertosay,sittingthereleisurelyonhersofa。

  LadyArabella\'sworshipofmoneyhadnothithertobeensobroughtforwardintheconversationastogiveherunpardonableoffence;butnowshefeltthatshecouldnolongerrestrainherindignation。\'Toyouwhohavenothingtogiveinreturn!\'Hadshenotgivenallthatshepossessed?Hadshenotemptiedhisstoreintoherlap?thatheartofhers,beatingwithsuchgenuinelife,capableofsuchperfectlove,throbbingwithsograndapride;hadshenotgiventhat?Andwasitnotthat,betweenhimandher,morethantwentyGreshamsburys,noblerthananypedigree?\'Toyouwhohavenothingtogive,\'indeed!Thistoherwhowassoreadytogiveeverything!

  \'LadyArabella,\'shesaid,\'Ithinkthatyoudonotunderstandme,andthatitisnotlikelythatyoushould。Ifso,ourfurthertalkingwillbeworsethanuseless。Ihavetakennoaccountofwhatwillbegivenbetweenyoursonandmeinyoursenseofthewordgiving。Buthehasprofessedto——toloveme\'——asshespoke,shestilllookedonthelady\'sface,buthereyelashesscreenedhereyes,andhercolourwasalittleheightened——\'andIhaveacknowledgedthatIalsolovehim,andsoweareengaged。Tomemypromiseissacred。Iwillnotbethreatenedintobreakingit。If,however,heshallwishtochangehismind,hecandoso。Iwillnotupbraidhim;willnot,ifIcanhelpit,thinkharshlyofhim。Somuchyoumaytellhimifitsuitsyou;butIwillnotlistentoyourcalculationsastohowmuchorhowlittleeachofusmayhavetogivetotheother。\'

  Shewasstillstandingwhenshefinishedspeaking,andsoshecontinuedtostand。HereyeswerefixedonLadyArabella,andherpositionseemedtosaythatsufficientwordshadbeenspoken,andthatitwastimethatherladyshipshouldgo;andsoLadyArabellafeltit。Graduallyshealsorose;slowly,buttacitly,sheacknowledgedthatshewasinthepresenceofaspiritsuperiortoherown;andsoshetookherleave。

  \'Verywell,\'shesaid,inatonethatwasintendedtobegrandiloquent,butwhichfailedgrievously;\'Iwilltellhimthathehasyourpermissiontothinkasecondtimeonthismatter。Idonotdoubtthathewilldoso。\'Marywouldnotcondescendtoanswer,butcurtsiedlowashervisitorlefttheroom。Andsotheinterviewwasover。

  Theinterviewwasover,andMarywasalone。SheremainedstandingaslongassheheardthefootstepsofFrank\'smotheronthestairs;notimmediatelythinkingofwhathadpassed,butstillbuoyingherselfupwithherhotindignation,asthoughherworkwithLadyArabellawasnotyetfinished;butwhenthefootfallwasnolongerheard,andthesoundoftheclosingdoortoldherthatshewasintruthalone,shesankbackinherseat,and,coveringherfacewithherhands,burstintobittertears。

  Allthatdoctrineaboutmoneywashorribletoher;thatinsolentpretence,thatshehadcaughtatFrankbecauseofhisworldlyposition,madeherallbutferocious;butLadyArabellahadnotthelessspokenmuchthatwastrue。ShedidthinkofthepositionwhichtheheirofGreshamsburyshouldholdinthecounty,andofthefactthatsuchamarriagewouldmarthatpositionsovitally;shedidthinkoftheoldname,andtheoldGreshampride;shedidthinkofthesquireandhisdeepdistress:itwastruethatshehadlivedamongthemlongenoughtounderstandthesethings,andtoknowthatitwasnotpossiblethatthismarriageshouldtakeplacewithoutdeepfamilysorrow。

  Andthensheaskedherselfwhether,inconsentingtoacceptFrank\'shand,shehadadequatelyconsideredthis;andshewasforcedtoacknowledgethatshehadnotconsideredit。ShehadridiculedLadyArabellaforsayingthatFrankwasstillaboy;butwasitnottruethathisofferhadbeenmadewithaboy\'senergy,ratherthanaman\'sforethought?Ifso,ifshehadbeenwrongtoaccedetothatofferwhenmade,wouldshenotbedoublywrongtoholdhimtoitnowthatshesawhiserror?

  ItwasdoubtlesstruethatFrankhimselfcouldnotbethefirsttodrawback。Whatwouldpeoplesayofhim?Shecouldnowcalmlyaskherselfthequestionthathadsoangeredher,whenaskedbyLadyArabella。Ifhecouldnotdoit,andif,nevertheless,itbehovedthemtobreakoffthismatch,bywhomwasittobedoneifnotbyher?WasnotLadyArabellarightthroughout,rightinherconclusions,thoughsofoullywronginhermannerofdrawingthem?

  Andthenshedidthinkforonemomentofherself。\'Youwhohavenothingtogiveinreturn!\'SuchhadbeenLadyArabella\'smainaccusationagainsther。Wasitinfacttruethatshehadnothingtogive?Hermaidenlove,herfemininepride,herverylife,andspirit,andbeing——werethesethingsnothing?Weretheytobeweighedagainstpoundssterlingperannum?and,whensoweighed,weretheyevertokickthebeamlikefeathers?Allthesethingshadbeennothingtoherwhen,withoutreflection,governedwhollybytheimpulseofthemoment,shehadfirstallowedhisdaringhandtolieforaninstantinherown。Shehadthoughtnothingofthesethingswhenthatothersuitorcame,richerfarthanFrank,tolovewhomitwasimpossibletoherasitwasnottolovehim。

  Herlovehadbeenpurefromallsuchthoughts;shewasconsciousthatiteverwouldbepurefromthem。LadyArabellawasunabletocomprehendthis,and,therefore,wasLadyArabellasoutterlydistastefultoher。

  Frankhadonceheldherclosetohiswarmbreast;andherverysoulhadthrilledwithjoytofeelthathesolovedher,——withajoywhichshehardlydaredtoacknowledge。Atthatmoment,hermaidenlyeffortshadbeenmadetopushhimoff,butherhearthadgrowntohis。Shehadacknowledgedhimtobemasterofherspirit;herbosom\'slord;themanwhomshehadbeenborntoworship;thehumanbeingtowhomitwasforhertolinkherdestiny。Frank\'sacreshadbeenofnoaccount;norhadhiswantofacres。Godhadbroughtthemtwotogetherthattheyshouldloveeachother;thatconvictionhadsatisfiedher,andshehadmadeitadutytoherselfthatshewouldlovehimwithherverysoul。Andnowshewascalledupontowrenchherselfasunderfromhimbecauseshehadnothingtogiveinreturn!

  Well,shewouldwrenchherselfasunder,asfarassuchwrenchingmightbedonecompatiblywithhersolemnpromise。ItmightberightthatFrankshouldhaveanopportunityofferedhim,sothathemightescapefromhispositionwithoutdisgrace。Shewouldendeavourtogivehimthisopportunity。So,withonedeepsigh,shearose,tookherselfpen,ink,andpaper,andsatherselfdownagainsothatthewrenchingmightbegin。

  Andthen,foramoment,shethoughtofheruncle。Whyhadhenotspokentoherofallthis?Whyhadhenotwarnedher?Hewhohadeverbeensogoodtoher,whyhadhenowfailedhersogrievously?Shehadtoldhimeverything,hadhadnosecretfromhim;buthehadneveransweredheraword。\'Healsomusthaveknown\'shesaidtoherself,piteously,\'healsomusthaveknownthatIcouldgivenothinginreturn。\'Suchaccusation,however,availedhernotatall,soshesatdownandslowlywroteherletter。

  \'DearestFrank,\'shebegan。Shehadfirstwritten\'dearMrGresham\';

  butherheartrevoltedagainstsuchuselesscoldness。Shewasnotgoingtopretendshedidnotlovehim。

  \'DEARESTFRANK,\'Yourmotherhasbeenheretalkingtomeaboutourengagement。

  Idonotgenerallyagreewithheraboutsuchmatters;butshehassaidsomethingsto-daywhichIcannotbutacknowledgetobetrue。Shesays,thatourmarriagewouldbedistressingtoyourfather,injurioustoallyourfamily,andruinoustoyourself。Ifthisbeso,howcanI,wholoveyou,wishforsuchamarriage?

  \'Iremembermypromise,andhavekeptit。Iwouldnotyieldtoyourmotherwhenshedesiredmetodisclaimourengagement。

  ButIdothinkitwillbemoreprudentifyouwillconsenttoforgetallthathaspassedbetweenus——not,perhaps,toforgetit;thatmaynotbepossibleforus——buttoletitpassbyasthoughithadneverbeen。Ifso,ifyouthinkso,dearFrank,donothaveanyscruplesonmyaccount。Whatwillbebestforyou,mustbebestforme。Thinkwhatareflectionitwouldeverbetome,tohavebeentheruinofonethatIlovesowell。

  \'LetmehavebutonewordtosaythatIamreleasedfrommypromise,andIwilltellmyunclethatthematterbetweenusisover。Itwillbepainfulforusatfirst;thoseoccasionalmeetingswhichmusttakeplacewilldistressus,butthatwillwearoff。Weshallalwaysthinkwellofeachother,andwhyshouldwenotbefriends?This,doubtless,cannotbedonewithoutinwardwounds;butsuchwoundsareinGod\'shands,andHecancurethem。

  \'Iknowyourfirstfeelingswillbeonreadingthisletter;

  butdonotansweritinobediencetosuchfeelings。Thinkoverit,thinkofyourfather,andallyouowehim,ofyouroldname,youroldfamily,andwhattheworldexpectsofyou。\'

  Marywasforcedtoputherhandtohereyes,tosavethepaperfromherfallingtears,asshefoundherselfthusrepeating,nearlywordforword,theargumentsthathadbeenusedbyLadyArabella。\'Thinkofthesethingscoolly,ifyoucan,but,atanyrate,withoutpassion:andthenletmehaveonewordinanswer。Onewordwillsuffice。

  \'Ihavebuttoaddthis:donotallowyourselftothinkthatmyheartwilleverreproachyou。ItcannotreproachyoufordoingthatwhichImyselfsuggest。\'Mary\'slogicinthiswasveryfalse;butshewasnotherselfawareofit。\'Iwillneverreproachyoueitherinwordorthought;andasforallothers,itseemstomethattheworldagreesthatwehavehithertobeenwrong。Theworld,Ihope,willbesatisfiedwhenwehaveobeyedit。

  \'Goblessyou,dearestFrank!Ishallnevercallyousoagain;butitwouldbeapretencewereItowriteotherwiseinthisletter。Thinkofthis,andthenletmehaveoneline。

  \'Youraffectionatefriend,MARYTHORNE\'

  \'PS——OfcourseIcannotbeatdearBeatrice\'smarriage;butwhentheycomebacktotheparsonage,Ishallseeher。Iamsuretheywillbothbehappy,becausetheyaresogood。IneedhardlysaythatIshallthinkofthemontheirweddingday。\'

  Whenshefinishedtheletter,sheaddresseditplainly,inherownsomewhatboldhandwriting,toFrancisN。Gresham,Jun。,Esq。,andthentookitherselftothelittlevillagepost-office。Thereshouldbenothingunderhandabouthercorrespondence:alltheGreshamsburyworldshouldknowofit——thatworldofwhichshehadspokeninherletter——ifthatworldsopleased。Havingputherpennylabelonit,shehandedit,withanopenbrowandanunembarrassedface,tothebaker\'swife,whowasHerMajesty\'spostmistressatGreshamsbury;and,havingsofinishedherwork,shereturnedtoseethetablepreparedforheruncle\'sdinner。

  \'Iwillsaynothingtohim,\'shesaidtoherself,\'tillIgettheanswer。Hewillnottalktomeaboutit,sowhyshouldItroublehim?\'

  CHAPTERXLIII

  THERACEOFSCATCHERDBECOMESEXTINCT

  Itwillnotbeimagined,atanyratebyfemininereaders,thatMary\'sletterwaswrittenoffatonce,withoutalterationsandchanges,orthenecessityforafaircopy。Lettersfromoneyoungladytoanotheraredoubtlesswritteninthismanner,andevenwiththemitmightsometimesbebetterifmorepatiencehadbeentaken;butwithMary\'sfirstlettertoherlover——herfirstlove-letter,iflove-letteritcanbecalled-muchmorecarewasused。Itwascopiedandre-copied,andwhenshereturnedfrompostingit,itwasreadandre-read。

  \'Itisverycold,\'shesaidtoherself;\'hewillthinkIhavenoheart,thatIhaveneverlovedhim!\'Andthensheallbutresolvedtorundowntothebaker\'swife,andgetbackherletter,thatshemightalterit。

  \'Butitwillbebetterso,\'shesaidagain。\'IfItouchedhisfeelingsnow,hewouldneverbringhimselftoleaveme。ItisrightthatIshouldbecoldwithhim。IshouldbefalsetomyselfifItriedtomovehislove——I,whohavenothingtogivehiminreturnforit。\'Andsoshemadenofurthervisittothepost-office,andtheletterwentonitsway。

  Wewillnowfollowitsfortunesforashortwhile,andexplainhowitwasthatMaryreceivednoanswerforaweek;aweek,itmaywellbeimagined,ofterriblesuspensetoher。Whenshetookittothepost-office,shedoubtlessthoughtthatthebaker\'swifehadnothingtodobuttosendituptothehouseatGreshamsbury,andthatFrankwouldreceiveitthatevening,or,atlatest,earlyonthefollowingmorning。

  Butthiswasbynomeansso。TheepistlewaspostedonaFridayafternoon,anditbehovedthebaker\'swifetosenditintoSilverbridge——Silverbridgebeingthepost-town——sothatalldueformalities,asorderedbytheQueen\'sGovernment,mighttherebeperfected。Now,unfortunatelythepost-boyhadtakenhisdeparturebeforeMaryreachedtheshop,anditwasnot,therefore,dispatchedtillSaturday。SundaywasalwaysadiesnonwiththeGreshamsburyMercury,and,consequently,Frank\'sletterwasnotdeliveredatthehousetillMondaymorning;atwhichtimeMaryhadfortwolongdaysbeenwaitingwithwearyheartfortheexpectedanswer。

  NowFrankhadonthatmorninggoneuptoLondonbytheearlytrain,withhisfuturebrother-in-law,MrOriel。Inordertoaccomplishthis,theyhadleftGreshamsburyforBarchesterexactlyasthepostboywasleavingSilverbridgeforGreshamsbury。

  \'Ishouldliketowaitformyletters,\'MrOrielhadsaid,whenthejourneywasbeingdiscussed。

  \'Nonsense,\'Frankhadanswered。\'Whoevergotaletterthatwasworthwaitingfor?\'andsoMarywasdoomedtoaweekofmisery。

  Whenthepost-bagarrivedatthehouseonMondaymorningitwasopenedasusualbythesquirehimselfatthebreakfast-table。\'HereisaletterforFrank,\'saidhe,\'postedinthevillage。Youhadbettersendittohim:\'andhethrewtheletteracrosstoBeatrice。

  \'It\'sfromMary,\'saidBeatrice,outloud,takingtheletterupandexaminingtheaddress。Andhavingsaidso,sherepentedwhatshehaddone,asshelookedfirstatherfatherandthenathermother。

  Acloudcameoverthesquire\'sbrowasforaminutehewentonturningoverthelettersandnewspapers。\'Oh,fromMaryThorne,isit?\'hesaid。

  \'Well,youhadbettersendittohim。\'

  \'Franksaidthatifanyletterscametheyweretobekept,\'saidhissisterSophy。\'Hetoldmesoparticularly。Idon\'tthinkhelikeshavingletterssenttohim。\'

  \'Youhadbettersendthatone,\'saidthesquire。

  \'MrOrielistohaveallhislettersaddressedtoLong\'sHotel,BondStreet,andthisonecanverywellbesentwiththem,\'saidBeatrice,whoknewallaboutit,andintendedherselftomakefreeuseoftheaddress。

  \'Yes,youhadbettersendit,\'saidthesquire;andthennothingfurtherwassaidatthetable。ButLadyArabella,thoughshesaidnothing,hadnotfailedtomarkwhathadpassed。Hadsheaskedfortheletterbeforethesquire,hewouldprobablyhavetakenpossessionofithimself;butassoonasshewasalonewithBeatrice,shediddemandit,\'IshallbewritingtoFrankhimself,\'shesaid,\'andwillsendittohim。\'Andso,Beatrice,withaheavyheart,gaveitup。

  TheletterlaybeforeLadyArabella\'seyesallthatday,andmanyawistfulglancewascastatit。Sheturneditoverandover,andmuchdesiredtoknowitscontents;butshedidnotdaretobreakthesealofherson\'sletter。Allthatdayitlayuponherdesk,andallthenext,forshecouldhardlybringherselftopartwithit;butontheWednesdayitwassent——sentwiththeselinesfromherself:-

  \'Dearest,dearestFrank,IsendyoualetterwhichhascomebythepostfromMaryThorne。Idonotknowwhatitmaycontain;butbeforeyoucorrespondwithher,pray,praythinkofwhatIsaidtoyou。Formysake,foryourfather\'s,foryourown,praythinkofit。\'

  Thatwasall,butitwasenoughtomakeherwordtoBeatricetrue。ShedidsendittoFrankenclosedinaletterfromherself。WemustreserveforthenextchapterwhathadtakenplacebetweenFrankandhismother;

  but,forthepresent,wewillreturntothedoctor\'shouse。

  Marysaidnotawordtohimabouttheletter;but,keepingsilentonthesubject,shefeltwretchedlyestrangedfromhim。\'Isanythingthematter,Mary?\'hesaidtoherontheSundayafternoon。

  \'No,uncle,\'sheanswered,turningawayherheadtohidehertears。

  \'Ah,butthereissomething;whatisit,dearest?\'

  \'Nothing——thatis,nothingthatonecantalkabout。\'

  \'WhatMary!Beunhappyandnottotalkaboutittome?That\'ssomethingnew,isitnot?\'

  \'Onehaspresentimentssometimes,andisunhappywithoutknowingwhy。

  Besides,youknow——\'

  \'Iknow!WhatdoIknow?DoIknowanythingthatwillmakemypethappier?\'andhetookherintohisarmsandtheysattogetheronthesofa。Hertearswerenowfallingfast,andshenolongermadeanefforttohidethem。\'Speaktome,Mary;thisissomethingmorethanapresentiment。Whatisit?\'

  \'Oh,uncle——\'

  \'Come,love,speaktome;tellmewhyyouaregrieving。\'

  \'Oh,uncle,whyhaveyounotspokentome?Whyhaveyounottoldmewhattodo?Whyhaveyounotadvisedme?Whyareyoualwayssosilent?\'

  \'Silentaboutwhat?\'

  \'Youknow,uncle;silentabouthim;silentaboutFrank。\'

  Why,indeed?Whatwashetosaytothis?Itwastruethathehadnevercounselledher;nevershownherwhatcoursesheshouldtake;hadneverevenspoketoheraboutherlover。Anditwasequallytruethathewasnotnowpreparedtodoso,eveninanswertosuchanappealasthis。Hehadahope,astronghope,morethanahope,thatMary\'slovewouldyetbehappy;buthecouldnotexpressorexplainhishope;norcouldheevenacknowledgetohimselfawishthatwouldseemtobebasedonthedeathofhimtowhoselifehewasbound,ifpossible,topreserve。

  \'Mylove,\'hesaid,\'itisamatterinwhichyoumustjudgeforyourself。DidIdoubtyourconduct,Ishouldinterfere;butIdonot。\'

  \'Conduct!Isconducteverything?Onemayconductoneselfexcellently,andyetbreakone\'sheart。\'

  Thiswastoomuchforthedoctor;hissternnessandfirmnessinstantlydesertedhim。\'Mary,\'hesaid,\'Iwilldoanythingthatyouwouldhaveme。Ifyouwishit,Iwillmakearrangementsforleavingthisplaceatonce。\'

  \'Oh,no,\'shesaid,plaintively。

  \'Whenyoutellmeofabrokenheart,youalmostbreakmyown。Cometome,darling;donotleavemeso。IwillsayallthatIcansay。Ihavethought,dostillthink,thatcircumstanceswilladmitofyourmarriagewithFrankifyoubothloveeachother,andcanbothbepatient。\'

  \'Youthinkso,\'saidshe,unconsciouslyslidingherhandintohis,asthoughtothankhimbyitspressureforthecomforthewasgivingher。

  \'Idothinksonowmorethanever。ButIonlythinkso;Ihavebeenunabletoassureyou。There,darling,Imustnotsaymore;onlythatI

  cannotbeartoseeyougrieving,Iwouldnothavesaidthis:\'andthenhelefther,andnothingmorewasspokenonthesubject。

  Ifyoucanbepatient!Why,apatienceoftenyearswouldbeasnothingtoher。Couldshebutlivewiththeknowledgethatshewasfirstinhisestimation,dearestinhisheart;coulditbealsograntedtohertofeelthatshewasregardedashisequal,shecouldbepatientforever。

  Whatmoredidshewantthantoknowandfeelthis?Patient,indeed!

  Butwhatcouldthesecircumstancesbetowhichherunclehadalluded?\'I

  dothinkthatcircumstanceswilladmitofyourmarriage。\'Suchwashisopinion,andshehadneverknownhimtobewrong。Circumstances!Whatcircumstances?DidheperhapsmeanthatMrGresham\'saffairswerenotsobadastheyhadbeenthoughttobe?Ifso,thatalonewouldhardlyalterthematter,forwhatcouldshegiveinreturn?\'Iwouldgivehimtheworldforonewordoflove,\'shesaidtoherself,\'andneverthinkthathewasmydebtor。Ah!howbeggarlytheheartmustbethatspeculatesonsuchgiftsasthose!\'

  Buttherewasheruncle\'sopinion:hestillthoughtthattheymightbemarried。Oh,whyhadshesentherletter?andwhyhadshemadeitsocold?Withsuchaletterasthatbeforehim,Frankcouldnotdootherthanconsenttoherproposal。Andthen,whydidhenotatleastanswerit?

  OntheSundayafternoontherearrivedatGreshamsburyamanandahorsefromBoxallHill,bearingaletterfromLadyScatcherdtoDrThorne,earnestlyrequestingthedoctor\'simmediateattendance。\'IfeareverythingisoverwithpoorLouis,\'wrotetheunhappymother。\'Ithasbeendreadful。Docometome;Ihavenootherfriend,andIamnearlywornthroughwithit。Themanfromthecity\'——shemeantDrFillgrave——\'comeseveryday,andIdaresayheisallverywell,buthehasneverdonemuchgood。Hehasnothadspiritenoughtokeepthebottlefromhim;anditwasthat,andthatonly,thatmostbehovedtobedone。Idoubtyouwon\'tfindhiminthisworldwhenyougethere。\'

  DrThornestartedimmediately。EventhoughhemighthavetomeetDrFillgrave,hecouldnothesitate,forhewentnotasadoctortothedyingman,butasthetrusteeunderSirRoger\'swill。Moreover,asLadyScatcherdhadsaid,hewasonlyherfriend,andhecouldnotdesertheratsuchamomentforanarmyofFillgraves。HetoldMaryheshouldnotreturnthatnight;andtakingwithhimasmallsaddle-bag,hestartedatonceforBoxallHill。

  Asherodetothehalldoor,DrFillgravewasgettingintohiscarriage。

  Theyhadnevermetsoastospeaktoeachothersincethatmemorableday,whentheyhadtheirfamouspassageofarmsinthehallofthatveryhousebeforewhichtheybothnowstood。But,atthepresentmoment,neitherofthemwasdisposedtorenewthefight。

  \'Whatnewsofyourpatient,Fillgrave?\'saidourdoctor,stillseatedonhissweatinghorse,andputtinghishandlightlytohishat。

  DrFillgravecouldnotrefrainfromonemomentofsuperciliousdisdain:

  hegaveonelittlechucktohishead,onelittletwisttohisneck,onelittlesqueezetohislips,andthenthemanwithinhimovercamethedoctor。\'SirLouisisnomore,\'hesaid。

  \'God\'swillbedone!\'saidDrThorne。

  \'Hisdeathisarelease;forhislastdayshavebeenveryfrightful。

  Yourcoming,DrThorne,willbeacomforttoLadyScatcherd。\'AndthenDrFillgrave,thinkingthateventhepresentcircumstancesrequirednofurthercondescension,ensconcedhimselfinthecarriage。

  \'Hislastdayshavebeenverydreadful!Ah,me,poorfellow!DrFillgrave,beforeyougo,allowmetosaythis:Iamquiteawarethatwhenhefellintoyourhands,nomedicalskillintheworldcouldsavehim。\'

  DrFillgravebowedlowfromthecarriage,andafterthisunwontedexchangeofcourtesies,thetwodoctorsparted,nottomeetagain——atanyrate,inthepagesofthisnovel。OfDrFillgrave,letitnowbesaid,thatheisnowregardedasoneofthecelebritiesofBarchester。

  LadyScatcherdwasfoundsittingaloneinherlittleroomontheground-floor。EvenHannahwasnotwithher,forHannahwasnowoccupiedupstairs。Whenthedoctorenteredtheroom,whichhedidunannounced,hefoundherseatedonachair,withherbackagainstoneofthepresses,herhandsclaspedtogetheroverherknees,gazingintovacancy。Shedidnoteverhearhimorseehimasheapproached,andhishandhadlightlytouchedhershoulderbeforesheknewthatshewasnotalone。Then,shelookedupathimwithafacesofullofsorrow,sowornwithsuffering,thathisownheartwasrackedtoseeher。

  \'It\'sallover,myfriend,\'saidhe。\'Itisbetterso;muchbetterso。\'

  Sheseemedatfirsthardlytounderstandhim,butstillregardinghimwiththatwanface,shookherheadslowlyandsadly。OnemighthavethoughtthatshewastwentyyearsolderthanwhenDrThornelastsawher。

  Hedrewachairtoherside,andsittingbyher,tookherhandinhis。

  \'Itisbetterso,LadyScatcherd;betterso,\'herepeated。\'Thepoorlad\'sdoomhadbeenspoken,anditiswellforhim,andforyou,thatitshouldbeover。\'

  \'Theyarebothgonenow,\'saidshe,speakingverylow;\'bothgonenow。

  Oh,doctor!Tobeleftalonehere,allalone!\'

  Hesaidsomefewwordstryingtocomforther;butwhocancomfortawidowbereavedofherchild?Whocanconsoleaheartthathaslostallitpossessed?SirRogerhadnotbeentoheratenderhusband;butstillhehadbeenthehusbandofherlove。SirLouishadnotbeentoheranaffectionateson;butstillhehadbeenherchild,heronlychild。Nowtheywerebothgone。Whocanwonderthattheworldshouldbeablanktoher?

  Stillthedoctorspokesoothingwords,andstillheheldherhand。Heknewthathiswordscouldnotconsoleher;butthesoundsofhiskindnessatsuchdesolatemomentsare,tosuchmindsashers,somealleviationofgrief。Shehardlyansweredhim,butsattherestaringoutbeforeher,leavingherhandpassivelytohim,andswayingherheadbackwardsandforwardsasthoughhergriefweretooheavytobeborne。

  Atlast,hereyeresteduponanarticlewhichstooduponthetable,andshestartedupimpetuouslyfromherchair。Shedidthissosuddenly,thatthedoctor\'shandfellbesidehimbeforeheknewthatshehadrisen。Thetablewascoveredwithallthoseimplementswhichbecomesofrequentaboutahousewhensevereillnessisaninhabitantthere。Therewerelittleboxesandapothecaries\'bottles,cupsandsaucersstandingseparate,andbowls,inwhichmesseshavebeenpreparedwiththehopeofsuitingasickman\'sfailingappetite。Therewasasmallsaucepanstandingonaplate,acuriouslyshapedglassutensilleftbythedoctor,andsundrypiecesofflannel,whichhadbeenusedinrubbingthesufferer\'slimbs。Butinthemiddleofthedebrisstoodoneblankbottle,withheaderect,unsuitedtothecompanionshipinwhichitwasfound。

  \'There,\'shesaid,risingup,andseizingitinamannerthatwouldhavebeenridiculoushaditnotbeensotrulytragic。\'There,thathasrobbedmeofeverything——offatherandson;thathasswallowedthemboth——murderedthemboth!Oh,doctor!thatsuchathingasthatshouldevercausesuchbittersorrow!Ihavehateditalways,butnow——Oh,woeisme!wearyme!\'Andthensheletthebottledropfromherhandasthoughitweretooheavyforher。

  \'Thiscomesofbarro-niting,\'shecontinued。\'Iftheyhadlethimalone,hewouldhavebeenherenow,andsowouldtheotherone。Whydidtheydoit?whydidtheydoit?Ah,doctor!peoplesuchasusshouldnevermeddlewiththemaboveus。Seewhathascomeofit;seewhathascomeofit!\'

  Thedoctorcouldnotremainwithherlong,asitwasnecessarythatheshouldtakeuponhimselfthedirectionofthehousehold,andgiveordersforthefuneral。Firstofall,hehadtoundergothesaddutyofseeingthecorpseofthedeceasedbaronet。This,atanyrate,maybesparedtomyreaders。Itwasfoundtobenecessarythattheinternmentshouldbemadeveryquickly,asthebodywasnearlydestroyedbyalcohol。Havingdoneallthis,andsentbackhishorsetoGreshamsbury,withdirectionsthatclothesforajourneymightbesenttohim,andanoticethatheshouldnotbehomeforsomedays,heagainreturnedtoLadyScatcherd。

  Ofcoursehecouldnotbutthinkmuchoftheimmensepropertywhichwasnow,forashorttime,altogetherinhisownhands。HisresolutionwassoonmadetogoatoncetoLondonandconsultthebestlawyerhecouldfind——orthebestdozenlawyersshouldsuchbenecessary——astothevalidityofMary\'sclaims。ThismustbedonebeforehesaidawordtoherortoanyoftheGreshamfamily;butitmustbedoneinstantly,sothatallsuspensemightbeatanendassoonaspossible。Hemust,ofcourse,remainwithLadyScatcherdtillthefuneralshouldbeover;butwhenthatofficeshouldbecomplete,hewouldstartinstantlyforLondon。

  InresolvingtotellnooneastoMary\'sfortunetillafterhehadfortifiedhimselfwithlegalwarranty,hemadeoneexception。HethoughtitrationalthatheshouldexplaintoLadyScatcherdwhowasnowtheheirunderherhusband\'swill;andhewasmoreinclinedtodoso,fromfeelingthatthenewswouldprobablybegratifyingtoher。Withthisview,hehadonceortwiceendeavouredtoinducehertotalkabouttheproperty,butshehadbeenunwillingtodoso。Sheseemedtodislikeallallusionstoit,anditwasnotuntilshehadincidentallymentionedthefactthatshewouldhavetolookforahome,thathewasabletofixhertothesubject。Thiswasontheeveningbeforethefuneral;ontheafternoonofwhichdayheintendedtoproceedtoLondon。

  \'Itmayprobablybearrangedthatyoumaycontinuetolivehere,\'saidthedoctor。

  \'Idon\'twishitatall,\'saidshe,rathersharply。\'Idon\'twishtohaveanyarrangementsmade。Iwouldnotbeindebtedtoanyofthemforanything。Oh,dear!ifmoneycouldmakeitallright,Ishouldhaveenoughofthat。\'

  \'Indebtedtowhom,LadyScatcherd?WhodoyouthinkwillbetheownerofBoxallHill?\'

  \'Indeed,then,DrThorne,Idon\'tmuchcare:unlessitbeyourself,itwon\'tbeanyfriendofmine,oranyoneIshallcaretomakeafriendof。Itisn\'tsoeasyforanoldwomanlikemetomakenewfriends。\'

  \'Well,itcertainlywon\'tbelongtome。\'

  \'Iwishitdid,withallmyheart。Buteventhen,Iwouldnotlivehere。Ihavehadtoomanytroublesheretowishtoseemore。\'

  \'Thatshallbeasyoulike,LadyScatcherd;butyouwillbesurprisedtohearthattheplacewill——atleastIthinkitwill——belongtoafriendofyours:toonetowhomyouhavebeenverykind。\'

  \'Andwhoishe,doctor?Won\'titgotosomeofthoseAmericans?IamsureIneverdidanythingkindtothem;though,indeed,IdidlovepoorMaryScatcherd。Butthat\'syearsuponyearsago,andsheisdead,andgonenow。Well,IbegrudgenothingtoMary\'schildren。AsIhavenoneofmyown,itisrightthattheyshouldhavethemoney。Ithasnotmademehappy;Ihopeitmaydothem。\'

  \'Thepropertywill,Ithink,gotoMaryScatcherd\'seldestchild。ItisshewhomyouhaveknownasMaryThorne。\'

  \'Doctor!\'AndthenLadyScatcherd,asshemadetheexclamation,putbothherhandsdowntoholdherchair,asthoughshefearedtheweightofhersurprisewouldtoppleheroffherseat。

  \'Yes;MaryThorne——myMary——towhomyouhavebeensogood,wholovesyousowell;she,Ibelieve,willbeSirRoger\'sheiress。AnditwassothatSirRogerintendedonhisdeathbed,intheeventofpoorLouis\'slifebeingcutshort。Ifthisbeso,willyoubeashamedtostayhereastheguestofMaryThorne?Shehasnotbeenashamedtobeyourguest。\'

  ButLadyScatcherdwasnowtoomuchinterestedinthegeneraltenorofthenewswhichshehadheardtocaremuchaboutthehousewhichshewastoinhabitinfuture。MaryThorne,theheiressofBoxallHill!MaryThorne,thestilllivingchildofthatpoorcreaturewhohadsonearlydiedwhentheywereallafflictedwiththeirearlygrief!Well;therewasconsolation,therewascomfortinthis。Therewerebutthreepeopleleftintheworldthatshecouldlove:herfoster-child,FrankGresham——MaryThorne,andthedoctor。IfthemoneywenttoMary,itwouldofcoursegotoFrank,forshenowknewthattheylovedeachother;andifitwenttothem,wouldnotthedoctorhavehissharealso;

  suchshareashemightwant?Couldshehavegovernedthematter,shewouldhavegivenalltoFrank;andnowitwouldbeaswellbestowed。

  Yes;therewasconsolationinthis。Theybothsatupmorethanhalfthenighttalkingoverit,andgivingandreceivingexplanations。Ifonlythecounciloflawyerswouldnotbeadverse!Thatwasnowthepointofsuspense。

  Thedoctor,beforehelefther,badeherholdherpeace,andsaynothingofMary\'sfortunetoanyonetillherrightshavebeenabsolutelyacknowledged。\'Itwillbenothingnottohaveit,\'saidthedoctor;\'butitwouldbeverybadtohearitwashers,andthentoloseit。\'

  Onthenextmorning,DrThornedepositedtheremainsofSirLouisinthevaultpreparedforthefamilyintheparishchurch。Helaidthesonwhereafewmonthsagohehadlaidthefather,——andsothetitleofScatcherdbecameextinct。Theirraceofhonourhadnotbeenlong。

  Afterthefuneral,thedoctorhurrieduptoLondon,andtherewewillleavehim。

  CHAPTERXLIV

  SATURDAYEVENINGANDSUNDAYMORNING

  WemustnowgobackalittleanddescribehowFrankhadbeensentoffonspecialbusinesstoLondon。ThehouseholdatGreshamsburywasatthistimeinbutadolefulstate。Itseemedtobepervaded,fromthesquiredowntothescullery-maid,withafeelingthatthingswerenotgoingwell;andmenandwomen,inspiteofBeatrice\'scomingmarriage,weregrim-visaged,anddolorous。MrMortimerGazebee,rejectedthoughhehadbeen,still,wentandcame,talkingmuchtothesquire,muchalsotoherladyship,astotheill-doingswhichwereinthecourseofprojectionbySirLouis;andFrankwentaboutthehousewithcloudedbrow,asthoughfinallyresolvedtoneglecthisonegreatduty。

  PoorBeatricewasrobbedofhalfherjoy;overandoveragainherbrotheraskedherwhethershehadyetseenMary,andshewasobligedasoftentoanswerthatshehadnot。Indeed,shedidnotdaretovisitherfriend,foritwashardlypossiblethattheyshouldsympathizewitheachother。Marywas,tosaytheleast,stubborninherpride;andBeatrice,thoughshecouldforgiveherfriendforlovingherbrother,couldnotforgivetheobstinacywithwhichMarypersistedinacoursewhich,asBeatricethought,sheherselfknewtobewrong。

  AndthenMrGazebeecamedownfromtown,withanintimationthatitbehovedthesquirehimselftogoupthathemightseecertainlearnedpundits,andbebadgeredinhisownpersonatvariousdingy,dismalchambersinLincoln\'sInnFields,theTemple,andGray\'sInnLane。Itwasaninvitationexactlyofthatsortwhichagoodmanyyearsagowasgiventoacertainduck。

  \'Willyou,willyou——willyou,willyou——comeandbekilled?\'AlthoughMrGazebeeurgedthematterwithsucheloquence,thesquireremainedsteadytohisobjection,andswamobstinatelyabouthisGreshamsburypondinanydirectionsavethatwhichseemedtoleadtowardsLondon。

  ThisoccurredontheveryeveningofthatFridaywhichhadwitnessedtheLadyArabella\'slastvisittoDrThorne\'shouse。Thequestionofthesquire\'snecessaryjourneytothegreatfountainsofjusticewas,ofcourse,discussedbetweenLadyArabellaandMrGazebee;anditoccurredtotheformer,fullasshewasofFrank\'siniquityandofMary\'sobstinacy,thatifFrankweresentupinlieuofhisfather,itwouldseparatethematleastforawhile。IfshecouldonlygetFrankawaywithoutseeinghislove,shemightyetsoworkuponhim,bymeansofthemessagewhichMaryhadsent,astopostpone,ifnotbreakoff,thishatefulmatch。Itwasinconceivablethatayouthoftwenty-three,andsuchayouthasFrank,shouldbeobstinatelyconstanttoagirlpossessedofnogreatbeauty——soarguedLadyArabellatoherself——andwhohadneitherwealth,birth,norfashiontorecommendher。

  Andthisitwasatlastsettled——thesquirebeingawillingpartnertotheagreement——thatFrankshouldgoupandbebadgeredinlieuofhisfather。Athisageitwaspossibletomakeathingdesirable,ifnotnecessary——onaccountoftheimportanceconveyed——tositdayafterdayinthechambersofMessrsSlow&Bideawhile,andhearmustylawtalk,andfingerdustylawparchments。ThesquirehadmademanyvisitstoMessrsSlow&Bideawhile,andheknewbetter。Frankhadnothithertobeenthereonhisownbottom,andthushefelleasilyintothetrap。

  MrOrielwasalsogoingtoLondon,andthiswasanotherreasonforsendingFrank。MrOrielhadbusinessofgreatimportance,whichitwasquitenecessarythatheshouldexecutebeforehismarriage。Howmuchofthisbusinessconsistedingoingtohistailor,buyingawedding-ring,andpurchasingsomeothermorecostlypresentforBeatrice,weneednothereinquire。ButMrOrielwasquiteonLadyArabella\'ssidewithreferencetothismadengagement,andasFrankandhewerenowfastfriends,somegoodmightbedoneinthatway。\'Ifweallcautionhimagainstit,hecanhardlywithstandusall!\'saidLadyArabellatoherself。

  ThematterwasbroachedtoFrankontheSaturdayevening,andsettledbetweenthemallonthesamenight。Nothing,ofcourse,wasatthatmomentsaidaboutMary;butLadyArabellawastoofullofthesubjecttolethimgotoLondonwithouttellinghimthatMarywasreadytorecedeifonlyhewouldallowhertodoso。Abouteleveno\'clock,Frankwassittinginhisownroom,comingoverthedifficultiesofthesituation——thinkingofhisfather\'stroubles,hisownposition——whenhewasrousedfromhisreveriebyaslighttapatthedoor。

  \'Comein,\'hesaidsomewhatloudly。Hethoughtitwasoneofhissisters,whowereapttovisithimatallhoursandforallmannerofreasons;andhe,thoughhewasusuallygentletothem,wasnotatpresentexactlyinahumourtobedisturbed。

  Thedoorgentlyopened,andhesawhismotherstandinghesitatinginthepassage。

  \'CanIcomein,Frank?\'saidshe。

  \'Oh,yes,mother;byallmeans:\'andthen,withsomesurprisemarkedinhiscountenance,hepreparedaseatforher。SuchavisitasthisfromLadyArabellawasveryunusual;somuchso,thathehadprobablynotseenherinhisownroomsincethedaywhenhefirstleftschool。Hehadnothing,however,tobeashamedof;nothingtoconcealunlessitwereanopenletterfromMissDunstablewhichhehadinhishandwhensheentered,andwhichhesomewhathurriedlythrustintohispocket。

  \'Iwantedtosayafewwordstoyou,Frank,beforeyoustartforLondonaboutthisbusiness。\'Franksignifiedbyagesture,thathewasquitereadytolistentoher。

  \'Iamsogladtoseeyourfatherputtingthematterintoyourhands。Youareyoungerthanheis;andthen——Idon\'tknowwhy,butsomehowyourfatherhasneverbeenagoodmanofbusiness——everythinghasgonewrongwithhim。\'

  \'Oh,mother!donotsayanythingagainsthim。\'

  \'No,Frank,Iwillnot;Idonotwishit。Thingshavebeenunfortunate,certainly。Ahme!IlittlethoughtwhenImarried——butIdon\'tmeantocomplain——Ihaveexcellentchildren,andIoughttobethankfulforthat。\'

  Frankbegantofearthatnogoodwouldbecomingwhenhismotherspokeinthatstrain。\'IwilldothebestIcan,\'saidhe,\'upintown。I

  can\'thelpthinkingmyselfthatMrGazebeemighthavedoneaswell,but——\'

  \'Oh,dearno;bynomeans。Insuchcasestheprincipalmustshowhimself。Besides,itisrightyoushouldknowhowmattersstand。Whoissomuchinterestedinitasyouare?PoorFrank!IdosooftenfeelforyouwhenIthinkhowthepropertyhasdwindled。\'

  \'Praydonotmindme,mother。Whyshouldyoutalkofitasmymatterwhilemyfatherisnotyetforty-five?Hislife,sotospeak,isasgoodasmine。Icandoverywellwithoutit;allIwantistobeallowedtosettletosomething。\'

  \'Youmeanaprofession。\'

  \'Yes;somethingofthatsort。\'

  \'Theyareallsoslow,dearFrank。You,whospeakFrenchsowell——I

  shouldthinkmybrothermightgetyouinasanattachetosomeembassy。\'

  \'Thatwouldn\'tsuitmeatall,\'saidFrank。

  \'Well,we\'lltalkaboutthatsomeothertime。ButIcameaboutsomethingelse,andIdohopeyouwillhearme。\'

  Frank\'sbrowagaingrewblack,forheknewthathismotherwasabouttosaysomethingwhichitwouldbedisagreeableforhimtohear。

  \'IwaswithMary,yesterday。\'

  \'Well,mother?\'

  \'Don\'tbeangrywithme,Frank;youcan\'tbutknowthatthefateofanonlysonmustbeasubjectofanxietytoamother。\'Ah!howsingularlyalteredwasLadyArabella\'stonesincefirstshehadtakenuponherselftodiscussthemarriageprospectsofherson!Thenhowautocratichadshebeenasshewenthimaway,biddinghim,withfullcommand,tothrowhimselfintothegoldenembracesofMissDunstable!Butnow,howhumble,asshecamesuppliantlytohisroom,cravingthatshemighthaveleavetowhisperintohisearamother\'sanxiousfears!Frankhadlaughedathersternbehests,thoughhehadhalfobeyedthem;buthewastouchedtotheheartbyherhumility。

  Hedrewhischairnearertoher,andtookherbythehand。Butshe,disengaginghers,partedthehairfromoffhisforehead,andkissedhisbrow。\'Oh,Frank,\'shesaid,\'Ihavebeensoproudofyou,amstillsoproudofyou。ItwillsendmetomygraveifIseeyousinkbelowyourproperposition。Notthatitwillbeyourfault。Iamsureitwillnotbeyourfault。Onlycircumstancedasyouare,youshouldbedoubly,trebly,careful。Ifyourfatherhadnot——\'

  \'Donotspeakagainstmyfather。\'

  \'No,Frank;Iwillnot——no,Iwillnot;notanotherword。Andnow,Frank——\'

  BeforewegoonwemustsayonewordfurtherastoLadyArabella\'scharacter。Itwillprobablybesaidthatshewasaconsummatehypocrite;

  butatthepresentmomentshewasnothypocritical。Shedidloveherson;wasanxious——very,veryanxiousforhim;wasproudofhim,andalmostadmiredtheobstinacywhichsovexedherinmostsoul。Nogriefwouldbetohersogreatasthatofseeinghimsinkbelowwhatsheconceivedtobehisposition。Shewasasgenuinelymotherly,inwishingthatheshouldmarrymoney,asanotherwomanmightbeinwishingtoseehersonabishop;orastheSpartanmatron,whopreferredthatheroffspringshouldreturnonhisshield,tohearingthathehadcomebackwholeinlimbbuttaintedinhonour。WhenFrankspokeofaprofession,sheinstantlythoughtofwhatLorddeCourcymightdoforhim。Ifhewouldnotmarrymoney,hemight,atanyrate,beattacheatanembassy。

  Aprofession——hardwork,asadoctor,orasanengineer——would,accordingtoherideas,degradehim;causehimtosinkbelowhisproperposition;buttodangleataforeigncourt,tomakesmalltalkateveningpartiesofaladyambassadress,andoccasionally,perhaps,towritedemi-officialnotescontainingdemi-officialtittle-tattle;thiswouldbeinproperaccordancewiththehighhonourofaGreshamofGreshamsbury。

  WemaynotadmirethedirectiontakenbyLadyArabella\'senergyonbehalfofherson,butthatenergywasnothypocritical。

  \'Andnow,Frank——\'Shelookedwistfullyintohisfaceassheaddressedhim,asthoughhalfafraidtogoon,andbeggingthathewouldreceivewithcomplaisancewhatevershefoundherselfforcedtosay。

  \'Well,mother?\'

  \'IwaswithMaryyesterday。\'

  \'Yes,yes;whatthen?Iknowwhatyourfeelingsarewithregardtoher。\'

  \'No,Frank;youwrongme。Ihavenofeelingsagainsther——none,indeed;

  nonebutthis:thatsheisnotfittobeyourwife。\'

  \'Ithinkherfit。\'

  \'Ah,yes;buthowfit?Thinkofyourposition,Frank,andwhatmeansyouhaveofkeepingher。Thinkofwhatyouare。Yourfather\'sonlyson;

  theheirtoGreshamsbury。IfGreshamsburybeeveragainmorethananame,itisyouthatmustredeemit。OfallmenlivingyouaretheleastabletomarryagirllikeMaryThorne。\'

  \'Mother,Iwillnotsellmyselfforwhatyoucallmyposition。\'

  \'Whoasksyou?Idonotaskyou;nobodyasksyou。Idonotwantyoutomarryanyone。Ididthinkonce——butletthatpass。Youarenowtwenty-three。Intenyears\'timeyouwillstillbeayoungman。Ionlyaskyoutowait。Ifyoumarrynow,thatis,marrysuchagirlasMaryThorne——\'

  \'Suchagirl!WhereshallIfindanother?\'

  \'Imeanasregardsmoney,Frank;youknowImeanthat;howareyoutolive?Whereareyoutogo?Andthen,herbirth。Oh,Frank,Frank!\'

  \'Birth!Ihatesuchpretence。Whatwas——butIwon\'ttalkaboutit。

  Mother,Itellyoumywordispledged,andonnoaccountwillIbeinducedtobreakit。\'

  \'Ah,that\'sjustit;that\'sjustthepoint。Now,Frank,listentome。

  Praylistentomepatientlyforoneminute。\'

  Frankpromisedthathewouldlistenpatiently;buthelookedanythingbutpatientashesaidso。

  \'IhaveseenMary,asitwascertainlymydutytodo。Youcannotbeangrywithmeforthat。\'

  \'WhosaidthatIwasangry,mother?\'

  \'Well,Ihaveseenher,andImustown,thatthoughshewasnotdisposedtobecourteoustome,personally,shesaidmuchthatmarkedherexcellentgoodsense。Butthegistofitwasthis;thatasshehadmadeyouapromise,nothingshouldturnherfromthatpromisebutyourpermission。\'

  \'Anddoyouthink——\'

  \'Waitamoment,Frank,andlistentome。Sheconfessedthatthismarriagewasonewhichwouldnecessarilybringdistressonallyourfamily;thatitwasonewhichwouldprobablyberuinoustoyourself;

  thatitwasamatchwhichcouldnotbeapprovedof:shedid,indeed;sheconfessedallthat。“Ihavenothing“,shesaid——thosewereherownwords——“Ihavenothingtosayinfavourofthisengagement,exceptthathewishesit。“Thatiswhatshethinksofitherself。“Hiswishesarenotareason;butalaw,“shesaid——\'

  \'And,mother,wouldyouhavemedesertsuchagirlasthat?\'

  \'Itisnotdeserting,Frank:itwouldnotbedeserting:youwouldbedoingthatwhichsheherselfapprovesof。Shefeelstheimproprietyofgoingon;butshecannotdrawbackbecauseofherpromisetoyou。Shethinksthatshecannotdoit,eventhoughshewishesit。\'

  \'Wishesit!Oh,mother!\'

  \'Idobelieveshedoes,becauseshehassensetofeelthetruthofallthatyourfriendssay。Oh,Frank,Iwillgoonmykneestoyouifyouwilllistentome。\'

  \'Oh,mother!mother!mother!\'

  \'Youshouldthinktwice,Frank,beforeyourefusetheonlyrequestyourmotherevermadeyou。AndwhydoIaskyou?whydoIcometoyouthus?

  Isitformyownsake?Oh,myboy!mydarlingboy!willyouloseeverythinginlife,becauseyoulovethechildwithwhomyouplayedwithasachild?\'

  \'Whosefaultisitthatweweretogetheraschildren?Sheisnowmorethanachild。Ilookonheralreadyasmywife。\'

  \'Butsheisnotyourwife,Frank;andsheknowsthatsheoughtnottobe。Itisonlybecauseyouholdhertoitthatsheconsentstoit。\'

  \'Doyoumeantosaythatshedoesnotloveme?\'

  LadyArabellawouldprobablyhavesaidthis,also,hadshedared;butshefeltthatindoingso,shewouldbegoingtoofar。ItwasuselessforhertosayanythingthatwouldbeutterlycontradictedbyanappealtoMaryherself。

  \'No,Frank;Idonotmeantosaythatyoudonotloveher。WhatIdomeanisthis:thatitisnotbecominginyoutogiveupeverything——notonlyyourself,butallyourfamily——forsuchaloveasthis;andthatshe,Maryherselfacknowledgesthis。Everyoneisofthesameopinion。

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