Chapter1
OnemayaswellbeginwithHelen\'sletterstohersister。HowardsEnd,Tuesday。DearestMeg,Itisn\'tgoingtobewhatweexpected。
Itisoldandlittle,andaltogetherdelightful——redbrick。Wecanscarcelypackinasitis,andthedearknowswhatwillhappenwhenPaulyoungersonarrivestomorrow。Fromhallyougorightorleftintodining-roomordrawing-room。Hallitselfispracticallyaroom。
Youopenanotherdoorinit,andtherearethestairsgoingupinasortoftunneltothefirst-floor。Threebedroomsinarowthere,andthreeatticsinarowabove。Thatisn\'tallthehousereally,butit\'sallthatonenotices——ninewindowsasyoulookupfromthefrontgarden。
Thenthere\'saverybigwych-elm——totheleftasyoulookup——leaningalittleoverthehouse,andstandingontheboundarybetweenthegardenandmeadow。Iquitelovethattreealready。
Alsoordinaryelms,oaks——nonastierthanordinaryoaks——pear-trees,apple-trees,andavine。Nosilverbirches,though。However,Imustgetontomyhostandhostess。Ionlywantedtoshowthatitisn\'ttheleastwhatweexpected。Whydidwesettlethattheirhousewouldbeallgablesandwiggles,andtheirgardenallgamboge-colouredpaths?
Ibelievesimplybecauseweassociatethemwithexpensivehotels——Mrs。
Wilcoxtrailinginbeautifuldressesdownlongcorridors,Mr。Wilcoxbullyingporters,etc。Wefemalesarethatunjust。
IshallbebackSaturday;willletyouknowtrainlater。TheyareasangryasIamthatyoudidnotcometoo;
reallyTibbyistootiresome,hestartsanewmortaldiseaseeverymonth。
HowcouldhehavegothayfeverinLondon?andevenifhecould,itseemshardthatyoushouldgiveupavisittohearaschoolboysneeze。
TellhimthatCharlesWilcoxthesonwhoisherehashayfevertoo,buthe\'sbrave,andgetsquitecrosswhenweinquireafterit。MenliketheWilcoxeswoulddoTibbyapowerofgood。Butyouwon\'tagree,andI\'dbetterchangethesubject。
ThislongletterisbecauseI\'mwritingbeforebreakfast。Oh,thebeautifulvineleaves!Thehouseiscoveredwithavine。Ilookedoutearlier,andMrs。Wilcoxwasalreadyinthegarden。Sheevidentlylovesit。Nowondershesometimeslookstired。Shewaswatchingthelargeredpoppiescomeout。
Thenshewalkedoffthelawntothemeadow,whosecornertotherightI
canjustsee。Trail,trail,wentherlongdressoverthesoppinggrass,andshecamebackwithherhandsfullofthehaythatwascutyesterday——I
supposeforrabbitsorsomething,asshekeptonsmellingit。Theairhereisdelicious。LateronIheardthenoiseofcroquetballs,andlookedoutagain,anditwasCharlesWilcoxpractising;theyarekeenonallgames。Presentlyhestartedsneezingandhadtostop。
ThenIhearmoreclicketing,anditisMr。Wilcoxpractising,andthen,\'a-tissue,a-tissue\':hehastostoptoo。ThenEviecomesout,anddoessomecalisthenicexercisesonamachinethatistackedontoagreengage-tree——theyputeverythingtouse——andthenshesays\'a-tissue,\'andinshegoes。
AndfinallyMrs。Wilcoxreappears,trail,trail,stillsmellinghayandlookingattheflowers。Iinflictallthisonyoubecauseonceyousaidthatlifeissometimeslifeandsometimesonlyadrama,andonemustlearntodistinguisht\'otherfromwhich,anduptonowIhavealwaysputthatdownas\'Meg\'sclevernonsense。\'Butthismorning,itreallydoesseemnotlifebutaplay,anditdidamusemeenormouslytowatchtheW\'s。
NowMrs。Wilcoxhascomein。
Iamgoingtowear[omission]。LastnightMrs。Wilcoxworean[omission],andEvie[omission]。Soitisn\'texactlyago-as-you-pleaseplace,andifyoushutyoureyesitstillseemsthewigglyhotelthatweexpected。Notifyouopenthem。
Thedog-rosesaretoosweet。Thereisagreathedgeofthemoverthelawn——magnificentlytall,sothattheyfalldowningarlands,andniceandthinatthebottom,sothatyoucanseeducksthroughitandacow。
Thesebelongtothefarm,whichistheonlyhousenearus。Theregoesthebreakfastgong。Muchlove。ModifiedlovetoTibby。
LovetoAuntJuley;howgoodofhertocomeandkeepyoucompany,butwhatabore。Burnthis。WillwriteagainThursday。HelenHowardsEnd,Friday。DearestMeg,Iamhavingaglorioustime。Ilikethemall。Mrs。Wilcox,ifquieterthaninGermany,issweeterthanever,andIneversawanythinglikehersteadyunselfishness,andthebestofitisthattheothersdonottakeadvantageofher。Theyaretheveryhappiest,jolliestfamilythatyoucanimagine。Idoreallyfeelthatwearemakingfriends。Thefunofitisthattheythinkmeanoodle,andsayso——atleastMr。Wilcoxdoes——andwhenthathappens,andonedoesn\'tmind,it\'saprettysuretest,isn\'tit?Hesaysthemosthorridthingsaboutwomen\'ssuffragesonicely,andwhenIsaidIbelievedinequalityhejustfoldedhisarmsandgavemesuchasettingdownasI\'veneverhad。Meg,shallweeverlearntotalkless?
Ineverfeltsoashamedofmyselfinmylife。Icouldn\'tpointtoatimewhenmenhadbeenequal,noreventoatimewhenthewishtobeequalhadmadethemhappierinotherways。Icouldn\'tsayaword。
Ihadjustpickedupthenotionthatequalityisgoodfromsomebook——probablyfrompoetry,oryou。Anyhow,it\'sbeenknockedintopieces,and,likeallpeoplewhoarereallystrong,Mr。Wilcoxdiditwithouthurtingme。Ontheotherhand,Ilaughatthemforcatchinghayfever。
Welivelikefighting-cocks,andCharlestakesusouteverydayinthemotor——atombwithtreesinit,ahermit\'shouse,awonderfulroadthatwasmadebytheKingsofMercia——tennis——acricketmatch——bridge——andatnightwesqueezeupinthislovelyhouse。Thewholeclan\'sherenow——it\'slikearabbitwarren。Evieisadear。TheywantmetostopoverSunday——Isupposeitwon\'tmatterifIdo。Marvellousweatherandtheview\'smarvellous——viewswestwardtothehighground。Thankyouforyourletter。Burnthis。YouraffectionateHelenHowardsEnd,Sunday。Dearest,dearestMeg,——Idonotknowwhatyouwillsay:PaulandIareinlove——theyoungersonwhoonlycamehereWednesday。Chapter2Margaretglancedathersister\'snoteandpusheditoverthebreakfast-tabletoheraunt。Therewasamoment\'shush,andthentheflood-gatesopened。
“Icantellyounothing,AuntJuley。Iknownomorethanyoudo。Wemet——weonlymetthefatherandmotherabroadlastspring。IknowsolittlethatIdidn\'tevenknowtheirson\'sname。It\'sallso——“Shewavedherhandandlaughedalittle。
“Inthatcaseitisfartoosudden。“
“Whoknows,AuntJuley,whoknows?“
“But,Margaretdear,Imeanwemustn\'tbeunpracticalnowthatwe\'vecometofacts。Itistoosudden,surely。“
“Whoknows!“
“ButMargaretdear——“
“I\'llgoforherotherletters,“saidMargaret。
“No,Iwon\'t,I\'llfinishmybreakfast。Infact,Ihaven\'tthem。
WemettheWilcoxesonanawfulexpeditionthatwemadefromHeidelbergtoSpeyer。HelenandIhadgotitintoourheadsthattherewasagrandoldcathedralatSpeyer——theArchbishopofSpeyerwasoneofthesevenelectors——youknow——\'Speyer,Maintz,andKö;ln。\'ThosethreeseesoncecommandedtheRhineValleyandgotitthenameofPriestStreet。“
“Istillfeelquiteuneasyaboutthisbusiness,Margaret。“
“Thetraincrossedbyabridgeofboats,andatfirstsightitlookedquitefine。Butoh,infiveminuteswehadseenthewholething。Thecathedralhadbeenruined,absolutelyruined,byrestoration;notaninchleftoftheoriginalstructure。Wewastedawholeday,andcameacrosstheWilcoxesaswewereeatingoursandwichesinthepublicgardens。Theytoo,poorthings,hadbeentakenin——theywereactuallystoppingatSpeyer——andtheyratherlikedHeleninsistingthattheymustflywithustoHeidelberg。Asamatteroffact,theydidcomeonnextday。Wealltooksomedrivestogether。TheyknewuswellenoughtoaskHelentocomeandseethem——atleast,Iwasaskedtoo,butTibby\'sillnesspreventedme,solastMondayshewentalone。
That\'sall。YouknowasmuchasIdonow。It\'sayoungmanouttheunknown。ShewastohavecomebackSaturday,butputofftillMonday,perhapsonaccountof——Idon\'tknow。
Shebrokeoff,andlistenedtothesoundsofaLondonmorning。TheirhousewasinWickhamPlace,andfairlyquiet,foraloftypromontoryofbuildingsseparateditfromthemainthoroughfare。
Onehadthesenseofabackwater,orratherofanestuary,whosewatersflowedinfromtheinvisiblesea,andebbedintoaprofoundsilencewhilethewaveswithoutwerestillbeating。Thoughthepromontoryconsistedofflats——expensive,withcavernousentrancehalls,fullofconciergesandpalms——itfulfilleditspurpose,andgainedfortheolderhousesoppositeacertainmeasureofpeace。These,too,wouldbesweptawayintime,andanotherpromontorywouldriseupontheirsite,ashumanitypileditselfhigherandhigherontheprecioussoilofLondon。
Mrs。Munthadherownmethodofinterpretinghernieces。ShedecidedthatMargaretwasalittlehysterical,andwastryingtogaintimebyatorrentoftalk。Feelingverydiplomatic,shelamentedthefateofSpeyer,anddeclaredthatnever,nevershouldshebesomisguidedastovisitit,andaddedofherownaccordthattheprinciplesofrestorationwereillunderstoodinGermany。“TheGermans,“
shesaid,“aretoothorough,andthisisallverywellsometimes,butatothertimesitdoesnotdo。“
“Exactly,“saidMargaret;“Germansaretoothorough。“
Andhereyesbegantoshine。
“OfcourseIregardyouSchlegelsasEnglish,“saidMrs。Munthastily——“Englishtothebackbone。“
Margaretleanedforwardandstrokedherhand。
“Andthatremindsme——Helen\'sletter——“
“Oh,yes,AuntJuley,IamthinkingallrightaboutHelen\'sletter。Iknow——Imustgodownandseeher。Iamthinkingaboutherallright。Iammeaningtogodown“
“Butgowithsomeplan,“saidMrs。Munt,admittingintoherkindlyvoiceanoteofexasperation。“Margaret,ifImayinterfere,don\'tbetakenbysurprise。WhatdoyouthinkoftheWilcoxes?
Aretheyoursort?Aretheylikelypeople?CouldtheyappreciateHelen,whoistomymindaveryspecialsortofperson?DotheycareaboutLiteratureandArt?Thatismostimportantwhenyoucometothinkofit。LiteratureandArt。Mostimportant。Howoldwouldthesonbe?Shesays\'youngerson。\'Wouldhebeinapositiontomarry?IshelikelytomakeHelenhappy?Didyougather——“
“Igatherednothing。“
Theybegantotalkatonce。
“Theninthatcase——“
“InthatcaseIcanmakenoplans,don\'tyousee。“
“Onthecontrary——“
“Ihateplans。Ihatelinesofaction。
Helenisn\'tababy。“
“Theninthatcase,mydear,whygodown?“
Margaretwassilent。Ifherauntcouldnotseewhyshemustgodown,shewasnotgoingtotellher。Shewasnotgoingtosay“Ilovemydearsister;Imustbenearheratthiscrisisofherlife。“Theaffectionsaremorereticentthanthepassions,andtheirexpressionmoresubtle。Ifsheherselfshouldeverfallinlovewithaman,she,likeHelen,wouldproclaimitfromthehouse-tops,butassheonlylovedasistersheusedthevoicelesslanguageofsympathy。
“Iconsideryouoddgirls,“continuedMrs。Munt,“andverywonderfulgirls,andinmanywaysfarolderthanyouryears。
But——youwon\'tbeoffended?——franklyIfeelyouarenotuptothisbusiness。
Itrequiresanolderperson。Dear,IhavenothingtocallmebacktoSwanage。“Shespreadoutherplumparms。“Iamallatyourdisposal。
LetmegodowntothishousewhosenameIforgetinsteadofyou。“
“AuntJuley“——shejumpedupandkissedher——“Imust,mustgotoHowardsEndmyself。Youdon\'texactlyunderstand,thoughIcanneverthankyouproperlyforoffering。“
“Idounderstand,“retortedMrs。Munt,withimmenseconfidence。“Igodowninnospiritofinterference,buttomakeinquiries。Inquiriesarenecessary。Now,Iamgoingtoberude。
Youwouldsaythewrongthing;toacertaintyyouwould。InyouranxietyforHelen\'shappinessyouwouldoffendthewholeoftheseWilcoxesbyaskingoneofyourimpetuousquestions——notthatonemindsoffendingthem。“
“Ishallasknoquestions。IhaveitinHelen\'swritingthatsheandamanareinlove。Thereisnoquestiontoaskaslongasshekeepstothat。Alltherestisn\'tworthastraw。
Alongengagementifyoulike,butinquiries,questions,plans,linesofaction——no,AuntJuley,no。“
Awayshehurried,notbeautiful,notsupremelybrilliant,butfilledwithsomethingthattooktheplaceofbothqualities——somethingbestdescribedasaprofoundvivacity,acontinualandsincereresponsetoallthatsheencounteredinherpaththroughlife。
“IfHelenhadwrittenthesametomeaboutashop-assistantorapennilessclerk——“
“DearMargaret,docomeintothelibraryandshutthedoor。Yourgoodmaidsaredustingthebanisters。“
“——orifshehadwantedtomarrythemanwhocallsforCarterPaterson,Ishouldhavesaidthesame。“Then,withoneofthoseturnsthatconvincedherauntthatshewasnotmadreallyandconvincedobserversofanothertypethatshewasnotabarrentheorist,sheadded:
“ThoughinthecaseofCarterPatersonIshouldwantittobeaverylongengagementindeed,Imustsay。“
“Ishouldthinkso,“saidMrs。Munt;“and,indeed,Icanscarcelyfollowyou。Now,justimagineifyousaidanythingofthatsorttotheWilcoxes。Iunderstandit,butmostgoodpeoplewouldthinkyoumad。ImaginehowdisconcertingforHelen!Whatiswantedisapersonwhowillgoslowly,slowlyinthisbusiness,andseehowthingsareandwheretheyarelikelytoleadto。“
Margaretwasdownonthis。
“Butyouimpliedjustnowthattheengagementmustbebrokenoff。“
“Ithinkprobablyitmust;butslowly。“
“Canyoubreakanengagementoffslowly?“
Hereyeslitup。“What\'sanengagementmadeof,doyousuppose?
Ithinkit\'smadeofsomehardstuff,thatmaysnap,butcan\'tbreak。
Itisdifferenttotheothertiesoflife。Theystretchorbend。
Theyadmitofdegree。They\'redifferent。“
“Exactlyso。Butwon\'tyouletmejustrundowntoHowardsHouse,andsaveyouallthediscomfort?Iwillreallynotinterfere,butIdosothoroughlyunderstandthekindofthingyouSchlegelswantthatonequietlookroundwillbeenoughforme。“
Margaretagainthankedher,againkissedher,andthenranupstairstoseeherbrother。
Hewasnotsowell。
Thehayfeverhadworriedhimagooddealallnight。
Hisheadached,hiseyeswerewet,hismucousmembrane,heinformedher,wasinamostunsatisfactorycondition。TheonlythingthatmadelifeworthlivingwasthethoughtofWalterSavageLandor,fromwhoseImaginaryConversationsshehadpromisedtoreadatfrequentintervalsduringtheday。
Itwasratherdifficult。SomethingmustbedoneaboutHelen。Shemustbeassuredthatitisnotacriminaloffencetoloveatfirstsight。Atelegramtothiseffectwouldbecoldandcryptic,apersonalvisitseemedeachmomentmoreimpossible。Nowthedoctorarrived,andsaidthatTibbywasquitebad。MightitreallybebesttoacceptAuntJuley\'skindoffer,andtosendherdowntoHowardsEndwithanote?
CertainlyMargaretwasimpulsive。Shedidswingrapidlyfromonedecisiontoanother。Runningdownstairsintothelibrary,shecried——“Yes,Ihavechangedmymind;Idowishthatyouwouldgo。“
TherewasatrainfromKing\'sCrossateleven。
Athalf-pasttenTibby,withrareself-effacement,fellasleep,andMargaretwasabletodriveheraunttothestation。
“Youwillremember,AuntJuley,nottobedrawnintodiscussingtheengagement。GivemylettertoHelen,andsaywhateveryoufeelyourself,butdokeepclearoftherelatives。Wehavescarcelygottheirnamesstraightyet,andbesides,thatsortofthingissouncivilizedandwrong。
“Souncivilized?“queriedMrs。Munt,fearingthatshewaslosingthepointofsomebrilliantremark。
“Oh,Iusedanaffectedword。IonlymeantwouldyoupleaseonlytalkthethingoverwithHelen。“
“OnlywithHelen。“
“Because——“Butitwasnomomenttoexpoundthepersonalnatureoflove。EvenMargaretshrankfromit,andcontentedherselfwithstrokinghergoodaunt\'shand,andwithmeditating,halfsensiblyandhalfpoetically,onthejourneythatwasabouttobeginfromKing\'sCross。
Likemanyotherswhohavelivedlonginagreatcapital,shehadstrongfeelingsaboutthevariousrailwaytermini。
Theyareourgatestothegloriousandtheunknown。Throughthemwepassoutintoadventureandsunshine,tothemalas!wereturn。
InPaddingtonallCornwallislatentandtheremoterwest;downtheinclinesofLiverpoolStreetliefenlandsandtheillimitableBroads;ScotlandisthroughthepylonsofEuston;WessexbehindthepoisedchaosofWaterloo。
Italiansrealizethis,asisnatural;thoseofthemwhoaresounfortunateastoserveaswaitersinBerlincalltheAnhaltBahnhoftheStazioned\'Italia,becausebyittheymustreturntotheirhomes。AndheisachillyLondonerwhodoesnotendowhisstationswithsomepersonality,andextendtothem,howevershyly,theemotionsoffearandlove。
ToMargaret——Ihopethatitwillnotsetthereaderagainsther——thestationofKing\'sCrosshadalwayssuggestedInfinity。
Itsverysituation——withdrawnalittlebehindthefacilesplendoursofSt。Pancras——impliedacommentonthematerialismoflife。Thosetwogreatarches,colourless,indifferent,shoulderingbetweenthemanunlovelyclock,werefitportalsforsomeeternaladventure,whoseissuemightbeprosperous,butwouldcertainlynotbeexpressedintheordinarylanguageofprosperity。Ifyouthinkthisridiculous,rememberthatitisnotMargaretwhoistellingyouaboutit;andletmehastentoaddthattheywereinplentyoftimeforthetrain;thatMrs。Munt,thoughshetookasecond-classticket,wasputbytheguardintoafirstonlytwosecondsonthetrain,onesmokingandtheotherbabies——onecannotbeexpectedtotravelwithbabies;andthatMargaret,onherreturntoWickhamPlace,wasconfrontedwiththefollowingtelegram:Allover。WishIhadneverwritten。Tellnoone——HelenButAuntJuleywasgone——goneirrevocably,andnopoweronearthcouldstopher。Chapter3MostcomplacentlydidMrs。Muntrehearsehermission。Hernieceswereindependentyoungwomen,anditwasnotoftenthatshewasabletohelpthem。Emily\'sdaughtershadneverbeenquitelikeothergirls。
TheyhadbeenleftmotherlesswhenTibbywasborn,whenHelenwasfiveandMargaretherselfbutthirteen。ItwasbeforethepassingoftheDeceasedWife\'sSisterBill,soMrs。MuntcouldwithoutimproprietyoffertogoandkeephouseatWickhamPlace。Butherbrother-in-law,whowaspeculiarandaGerman,hadreferredthequestiontoMargaret,whowiththecrudityofyouthhadanswered,“No,theycouldmanagemuchbetteralone。“
FiveyearslaterMr。Schlegelhaddiedtoo,andMrs。Munthadrepeatedheroffer。Margaret,crudenolonger,hadbeengratefulandextremelynice,butthesubstanceofheranswerhadbeenthesame。“Imustnotinterfereathirdtime,“thoughtMrs。Munt。However,ofcourseshedid。Shelearnt,toherhorror,thatMargaret,nowofage,wastakinghermoneyoutoftheoldsafeinvestmentsandputtingitintoForeignThings,whichalwayssmash。Silencewouldhavebeencriminal。
HerownfortunewasinvestedinHomeRails,andmostardentlydidshebegherniecetoimitateher。“Thenweshouldbetogether,dear。“Margaret,outofpoliteness,investedafewhundredsintheNottinghamandDerbyRailway,andthoughtheForeignThingsdidadmirablyandtheNottinghamandDerbydeclinedwiththesteadydignityofwhichonlyHomeRailsarecapable,Mrs。Muntneverceasedtorejoice,andtosay,“Ididmanagethat,atallevents。WhenthesmashcomespoorMargaretwillhaveanest-eggtofallbackupon。“ThisyearHelencameofage,andexactlythesamethinghappenedinHelen\'scase;shealsowouldshifthermoneyoutofConsols,butshe,too,almostwithoutbeingpressed,consecratedafractionofittotheNottinghamandDerbyRailway。Sofarsogood,butinsocialmatterstheiraunthadaccomplishednothing。Soonerorlaterthegirlswouldenterontheprocessknownasthrowingthemselvesaway,andiftheyhaddelayedhitherto,itwasonlythattheymightthrowthemselvesmorevehementlyinthefuture。TheysawtoomanypeopleatWickhamPlace——unshavenmusicians,anactresseven,Germancousinsoneknowswhatforeignersare,acquaintancespickedupatContinentalhotelsoneknowswhattheyaretoo。Itwasinteresting,anddownatSwanagenooneappreciatedculturemorethanMrs。Munt;butitwasdangerous,anddisasterwasboundtocome。Howrightshewas,andhowluckytobeonthespotwhenthedisastercame!
Thetrainspednorthward,underinnumerabletunnels。
Itwasonlyanhour\'sjourney,butMrs。Munthadtoraiseandlowerthewindowagainandagain。ShepassedthroughtheSouthWelwynTunnel,sawlightforamoment,andenteredtheNorthWelwynTunnel,oftragicfame。Shetraversedtheimmenseviaduct,whosearchesspanuntroubledmeadowsandthedreamyflowofTewinWater。Sheskirtedtheparksofpoliticians。AttimestheGreatNorthRoadaccompaniedher,moresuggestiveofinfinitythananyrailway,awakening,afteranapofahundredyears,tosuchlifeasisconferredbythestenchofmotor-cars,andtosuchcultureasisimpliedbytheadvertisementsofantibiliouspills。
Tohistory,totragedy,tothepast,tothefuture,Mrs。Muntremainedequallyindifferent;hersbuttoconcentrateontheendofherjourney,andtorescuepoorHelenfromthisdreadfulmess。
ThestationforHowardsEndwasatHilton,oneofthelargevillagesthatarestrungsofrequentlyalongtheNorthRoad,andthatowetheirsizetothetrafficofcoachingandpre-coachingdays。
BeingnearLondon,ithadnotsharedintheruraldecay,anditslongHighStreethadbuddedoutrightandleftintoresidentialestates。ForaboutamileaseriesoftiledandslatedhousespassedbeforeMrs。Munt\'sinattentiveeyes,aseriesbrokenatonepointbysixDanishtumulithatstoodshouldertoshoulderalongthehighroad,tombsofsoldiers。
Beyondthesetumulihabitationsthickened,andthetraincametoastandstillinatanglethatwasalmostatown。
Thestation,likethescenery,likeHelen\'sletters,struckanindeterminatenote。Intowhichcountrywillitlead,EnglandorSuburbia?Itwasnew,ithadislandplatformsandasubway,andthesuperficialcomfortexactedbybusinessmen。Butitheldhintsoflocallife,personalintercourse,asevenMrs。Muntwastodiscover。
“Iwantahouse,“sheconfidedtotheticketboy。
“ItsnameisHowardsLodge。Doyouknowwhereitis?“
“Mr。Wilcox!“theboycalled。
Ayoungmaninfrontofthemturnedround。
“She\'swantingHowardsEnd。“
Therewasnothingforitbuttogoforward,thoughMrs。Muntwastoomuchagitatedeventostareatthestranger。Butrememberingthatthereweretwobrothers,shehadthesensetosaytohim,“Excusemeasking,butareyoutheyoungerMr。Wilcoxortheelder?“
“Theyounger。CanIdoanythingforyou?“
“Oh,well“——shecontrolledherselfwithdifficulty。
“Really。Areyou?I——“Shemovedawayfromtheticketboyandloweredhervoice。“IamMissSchlegelsaunt。Ioughttointroducemyself,oughtn\'tI?MynameisMrs。Munt。“
Shewasconsciousthatheraisedhiscapandsaidquitecoolly,“Oh,rather;MissSchlegelisstoppingwithus。Didyouwanttoseeher?“
“Possibly——“
“I\'llcallyouacab。No;waitamo——“Hethought。“Ourmotor\'shere。I\'llrunyouupinit。“
“Thatisverykind——“
“Notatall,ifyou\'lljustwaittilltheybringoutaparcelfromtheoffice。Thisway。“
“Mynieceisnotwithyoubyanychance?“
“No;Icameoverwithmyfather。Hehasgoneonnorthinyourtrain。You\'llseeMissSchlegelatlunch。
You\'recominguptolunch,Ihope?“
“Ishouldliketocomeup,“saidMrs。Munt,notcommittingherselftonourishmentuntilshehadstudiedHelen\'sloveralittlemore。Heseemedagentleman,buthadsorattledherroundthatherpowersofobservationwerenumbed。Sheglancedathimstealthily。
Toafeminineeyetherewasnothingamissinthesharpdepressionsatthecornersofhismouth,norintheratherbox-likeconstructionofhisforehead。
Hewasdark,clean-shavenandseemedaccustomedtocommand。
“Infrontorbehind?Whichdoyouprefer?
Itmaybewindyinfront。“
“InfrontifImay;thenwecantalk。“
“Butexcusemeonemoment——Ican\'tthinkwhatthey\'redoingwiththatparcel。“Hestrodeintothebooking-officeandcalledwithanewvoice:“Hi!hi,youthere!Areyougoingtokeepmewaitingallday?ParcelforWilcox,HowardsEnd。Justlooksharp!“
Emerging,hesaidinquietertones:“Thisstation\'sabominablyorganized;
ifIhadmyway,thewholelotof\'emshouldgetthesack。MayI
helpyouin?“
“Thisisverygoodofyou,“saidMrs。Munt,asshesettledherselfintoaluxuriouscavernofredleather,andsufferedherpersontobepaddedwithrugsandshawls。Shewasmorecivilthanshehadintended,butreallythisyoungmanwasverykind。Moreover,shewasalittleafraidofhim:hisself-possessionwasextraordinary。
“Verygoodindeed,“sherepeated,adding:“ItisjustwhatIshouldhavewished。“
“Verygoodofyoutosayso,“hereplied,withaslightlookofsurprise,which,likemostslightlooks,escapedMrs。Munt\'sattention。“Iwasjusttoolingmyfatherovertocatchthedowntrain。“
“Yousee,weheardfromHelenthismorning。“
YoungWilcoxwaspouringinpetrol,startinghisengine,andperformingotheractionswithwhichthisstoryhasnoconcern。
Thegreatcarbegantorock,andtheformofMrs。Munt,tryingtoexplainthings,sprangagreeablyupanddownamongtheredcushions。“Thematerwillbeverygladtoseeyou,“hemumbled。“Hi!Isay。
ParcelforHowardsEnd。Bringitout。Hi!“
Abeardedporteremergedwiththeparcelinonehandandanentrybookintheother。Withthegatheringwhirofthemotortheseejaculationsmingled:“Sign,mustI?Whythe——shouldIsignafterallthisbother?Notevengotapencilonyou?
RemembernexttimeIreportyoutothestation-master。Mytime\'sofvalue,thoughyoursmayn\'tbe。Here“——herebeingatip。
“Extremelysorry,Mrs。Munt。“
“Notatall,Mr。Wilcox。“
“Anddoyouobjecttogoingthroughthevillage?
Itisratheralongerspin,butIhaveoneortwocommissions。“
“Ishouldlovegoingthroughthevillage。
NaturallyIamveryanxioustotalkthingsoverwithyou。“
Asshesaidthisshefeltashamed,forshewasdisobeyingMargaret\'sinstructions。Onlydisobeyingthemintheletter,surely。
Margarethadonlywarnedheragainstdiscussingtheincidentwithoutsiders。
Surelyitwasnot“uncivilizedorwrong“todiscussitwiththeyoungmanhimself,sincechancehadthrownthemtogether。
Areticentfellow,hemadenoreply。Mountingbyherside,heputonglovesandspectacles,andofftheydrove,thebeardedporter——lifeisamysteriousbusiness——lookingafterthemwithadmiration。
Thewindwasintheirfacesdownthestationroad,blowingthedustintoMrs。Munt\'seyes。ButassoonastheyturnedintotheGreatNorthRoadsheopenedfire。“Youcanwellimagine,“
shesaid,“thatthenewswasagreatshocktous。“
“Whatnews?“
“Mr。Wilcox,“shesaidfrankly。“Margarethastoldmeeverything——everything。IhaveseenHelen\'sletter。“
Hecouldnotlookherintheface,ashiseyeswerefixedonhiswork;hewastravellingasquicklyashedareddowntheHighStreet。Butheinclinedhisheadinherdirection,andsaid,“Ibegyourpardon;Ididn\'tcatch。“
“AboutHelen。Helen,ofcourse。Helenisaveryexceptionalperson——Iamsureyouwillletmesaythis,feelingtowardsherasyoudo——indeed,alltheSchlegelsareexceptional。
Icomeinnospiritofinterference,butitwasagreatshock。“
Theydrewupoppositeadraper\'s。Withoutreplying,heturnedroundinhisseat,andcontemplatedthecloudofdustthattheyhadraisedintheirpassagethroughthevillage。Itwassettlingagain,butnotallintotheroadfromwhichhehadtakenit。
Someofithadpercolatedthroughtheopenwindows,somehadwhitenedtherosesandgooseberriesofthewaysidegardens,whileacertainproportionhadenteredthelungsofthevillagers。“Iwonderwhenthey\'lllearnwisdomandtartheroads,“washiscomment。Thenamanranoutofthedraper\'switharollofoilcloth,andofftheywentagain。
“Margaretcouldnotcomeherself,onaccountofpoorTibby,soIamheretorepresentherandtohaveagoodtalk。“
“I\'msorrytobesodense,“saidtheyoungman,againdrawingupoutsideashop。“ButIstillhaven\'tquiteunderstood。“
“Helen,Mr。Wilcox——mynieceandyou。“
Hepusheduphisgogglesandgazedather,absolutelybewildered。Horrorsmotehertotheheart,forevenshebegantosuspectthattheywereatcross-purposes,andthatshehadcommencedhermissionbysomehideousblunder。
“MissSchlegelandmyself。“heasked,compressinghislips。
“Itrusttherehasbeennomisunderstanding,“quaveredMrs。Munt。“Herlettercertainlyreadthatway。“
“Whatway?“
“Thatyouandshe——“Shepaused,thendroopedhereyelids。
“IthinkIcatchyourmeaning,“hesaidstickily。
“Whatanextraordinarymistake!“
“Thenyoudidn\'ttheleast——“shestammered,gettingblood-redintheface,andwishingshehadneverbeenborn。
“Scarcely,asIamalreadyengagedtoanotherlady。“
Therewasamoment\'ssilence,andthenhecaughthisbreathandexplodedwith,“Oh,goodGod!Don\'ttellmeit\'ssomesillinessofPaul\'s。“
“ButyouarePaul。“
“I\'mnot。“
“Thenwhydidyousaysoatthestation?“
“Isaidnothingofthesort。“
“Ibegyourpardon,youdid。“
“Ibegyourpardon,Ididnot。MynameisCharles。“
“Younger“maymeansonasopposedtofather,orsecondbrotherasopposedtofirst。Thereismuchtobesaidforeitherview,andlaterontheysaidit。Buttheyhadotherquestionsbeforethemnow。
“DoyoumeantotellmethatPaul——“
Butshedidnotlikehisvoice。Hesoundedasifhewastalkingtoaporter,and,certainthathehaddeceivedheratthestation,shetoogrewangry。
“DoyoumeantotellmethatPaulandyourniece——“
Mrs。Munt——suchishumannature——determinedthatshewouldchampionthelovers。Shewasnotgoingtobebulliedbyasevereyoungman。“Yes,theycareforoneanotherverymuchindeed,“
shesaid。“Idaresaytheywilltellyouaboutitby-and-by。
Weheardthismorning。“
AndCharlesclenchedhisfistandcried,“Theidiot,theidiot,thelittlefool!“
Mrs。Munttriedtodivestherselfofherrugs。
“Ifthatisyourattitude,Mr。Wilcox,Iprefertowalk。“
“Ibegyouwilldonosuchthing。I\'lltakeyouupthismomenttothehouse。Letmetellyouthething\'simpossible,andmustbestopped。“
Mrs。Muntdidnotoftenlosehertemper,andwhenshediditwasonlytoprotectthosewhomsheloved。Onthisoccasionsheblazedout。“Iquiteagree,sir。Thethingisimpossible,andIwillcomeupandstopit。Mynieceisaveryexceptionalperson,andIamnotinclinedtositstillwhileshethrowsherselfawayonthosewhowillnotappreciateher。“
Charlesworkedhisjaws。
“ConsideringshehasonlyknownyourbrothersinceWednesday,andonlymetyourfatherandmotheratastrayhotel——“
“Couldyoupossiblyloweryourvoice?Theshopmanwilloverhear。“
“Espritdeclasse“——ifonemaycointhephrase——wasstronginMrs。Munt。Shesatquiveringwhileamemberofthelowerordersdepositedametalfunnel,asaucepan,andagardensquirtbesidetherollofoilcloth。
“Rightbehind?“
“Yes,sir。“Andthelowerordersvanishedinacloudofdust。
“Iwarnyou:Paulhasn\'tapenny;it\'suseless。“
“Noneedtowarnus,Mr。Wilcox,Iassureyou。
Thewarningisalltheotherway。Myniecehasbeenveryfoolish,andIshallgiveheragoodscoldingandtakeherbacktoLondonwithme。“
“HehastomakehiswayoutinNigeria。Hecouldn\'tthinkofmarryingforyearsandwhenhedoesitmustbeawomanwhocanstandtheclimate,andisinotherways——Whyhasn\'thetoldus?
Ofcoursehe\'sashamed。Heknowshe\'sbeenafool。Andsohehas——adamnedfool。“
Shegrewfurious。
“WhereasMissSchlegelhaslostnotimeinpublishingthenews。“
“IfIwereaman,Mr。Wilcox,forthatlastremarkI\'dboxyourears。You\'renotfittocleanmyniece\'sboots,tositinthesameroomwithher,andyoudare——youactuallydare——Ideclinetoarguewithsuchaperson。“
“AllIknowis,she\'sspreadthethingandhehasn\'t,andmyfather\'sawayandI——“
“AndallthatIknowis——“
“MightIfinishmysentence,please?“
“No。“
Charlesclenchedhisteethandsentthemotorswervingalloverthelane。
Shescreamed。
SotheyplayedthegameofCappingFamilies,aroundofwhichisalwaysplayedwhenlovewouldunitetwomembersofourrace。
Buttheyplayeditwithunusualvigour,statinginsomanywordsthatSchlegelswerebetterthanWilcoxes,WilcoxesbetterthanSchlegels。Theyflungdecencyaside。Themanwasyoung,thewomandeeplystirred;inbothaveinofcoarsenesswaslatent。Theirquarrelwasnomoresurprisingthanaremostquarrels——inevitableatthetime,incredibleafterwards。
Butitwasmorethanusuallyfutile。Afewminutes,andtheywereenlightened。ThemotordrewupatHowardsEnd,andHelen,lookingverypale,ranouttomeetheraunt。
“AuntJuley,IhavejusthadatelegramfromMargaret;
I——Imeanttostopyourcoming。Itisn\'t——it\'sover。“
TheclimaxwastoomuchforMrs。Munt。Sheburstintotears。
“AuntJuleydear,don\'t。Don\'tletthemknowI\'vebeensosilly。Itwasn\'tanything。Dobearupformysake。“
“Paul,“criedCharlesWilcox,pullinghisglovesoff。
“Don\'tletthemknow。Theyarenevertoknow。“
“Oh,mydarlingHelen——“
“Paul!Paul!“
Averyyoungmancameoutofthehouse。
“Paul,isthereanytruthinthis?“
“Ididn\'t——Idon\'t——“
“Yesorno,man;plainquestion,plainanswer。
Didordidn\'tMissSchlegel——“
“Charlesdear,“saidavoicefromthegarden。
“Charles,dearCharles,onedoesn\'taskplainquestions。Therearen\'tsuchthings。“
Theywereallsilent。ItwasMrs。Wilcox。
SheapproachedjustasHelen\'sletterhaddescribedher,trailingnoiselesslyoverthelawn,andtherewasactuallyawispofhayinherhands。Sheseemedtobelongnottotheyoungpeopleandtheirmotor,buttothehouse,andtothetreethatovershadowedit。
Oneknewthatsheworshippedthepast,andthattheinstinctivewisdomthepastcanalonebestowhaddescendeduponher——thatwisdomtowhichwegivetheclumsynameofaristocracy。Highbornshemightnotbe。
Butassuredlyshecaredaboutherancestors,andletthemhelpher。
WhenshesawCharlesangry,Paulfrightened,andMrs。Muntintears,sheheardherancestorssay,“Separatethosehumanbeingswhowillhurteachothermost。Therestcanwait。“Soshedidnotaskquestions。
Stilllessdidshepretendthatnothinghadhappened,asacompetentsocietyhostesswouldhavedone。Shesaid,“MissSchlegel,wouldyoutakeyourauntuptoyourroomortomyroom,whicheveryouthinkbest。
Paul,dofindEvie,andtellherlunchforsix,butI\'mnotsurewhetherweshallallbedownstairsforit。“Andwhentheyhadobeyedher,sheturnedtoherelderson,whostillstoodinthethrobbingstinkingcar,andsmiledathimwithtenderness,andwithoutaword,turnedawayfromhimtowardsherflowers。
“Mother,“hecalled,“areyouawarethatPaulhasbeenplayingthefoolagain?“
“It\'sallright,dear。Theyhavebrokenofftheengagement。“
“Engagement——!“
“Theydonotloveanylonger,ifyoupreferitputthatway,“saidMrs。Wilcox,stoopingdowntosmellarose。Chapter4HelenandherauntreturnedtoWickhamPlaceinastateofcollapse,andforalittletimeMargarethadthreeinvalidsonherhands。Mrs。
Muntsoonrecovered。Shepossessedtoaremarkabledegreethepowerofdistortingthepast,andbeforemanydayswereovershehadforgottenthepartplayedbyherownimprudenceinthecatastrophe。Evenatthecrisisshehadcried,“Thankgoodness,poorMargaretissavedthis!“
whichduringthejourneytoLondonevolvedinto,“Ithadtobegonethroughbysomeone,“whichinitsturnripenedintothepermanentformof“TheonetimeIreallydidhelpEmily\'sgirlswasovertheWilcoxbusiness。“
ButHelenwasamoreseriouspatient。Newideashadburstuponherlikeathunderclap,andbythemandbyherreverberationsshehadbeenstunned。
Thetruthwasthatshehadfalleninlove,notwithanindividual,butwithafamily。
BeforePaularrivedshehad,asitwere,beentunedupintohiskey。TheenergyoftheWilcoxeshadfascinatedher,hadcreatednewimagesofbeautyinherresponsivemind。Tobealldaywiththemintheopenair,tosleepatnightundertheirroof,hadseemedthesupremejoyoflife,andhadledtothatabandonmentofpersonalitythatisapossiblepreludetolove。ShehadlikedgivingintoMr。
Wilcox,orEvie,orCharles;shehadlikedbeingtoldthathernotionsoflifewereshelteredoracademic;thatEqualitywasnonsense,VotesforWomennonsense,Socialismnonsense,ArtandLiterature,exceptwhenconducivetostrengtheningthecharacter,nonsense。OnebyonetheSchlegelfeticheshadbeenoverthrown,and,thoughprofessingtodefendthem,shehadrejoiced。WhenMr。Wilcoxsaidthatonesoundmanofbusinessdidmoregoodtotheworldthanadozenofyoursocialreformers,shehadswallowedthecuriousassertionwithoutagasp,andhadleantbackluxuriouslyamongthecushionsofhismotor-car。WhenCharlessaid,“Whybesopolitetoservants?theydon\'tunderstandit,“shehadnotgiventheSchlegelretortof,“Iftheydon\'tunderstandit,Ido。“No;shehadvowedtobelesspolitetoservantsinthefuture。“Iamswathedincant,“shethought,“anditisgoodformetobestrippedofit。“AndallthatshethoughtordidorbreathedwasaquietpreparationforPaul。
Paulwasinevitable。Charleswastakenupwithanothergirl,Mr。
Wilcoxwassoold,Eviesoyoung,Mrs。Wilcoxsodifferent。RoundtheabsentbrothershebegantothrowthehaloofRomance,toirradiatehimwithallthesplendourofthosehappydays,tofeelthatinhimsheshoulddrawnearesttotherobustideal。Heandshewereaboutthesameage,Eviesaid。MostpeoplethoughtPaulhandsomerthanhisbrother。Hewascertainlyabettershot,thoughnotsogoodatgolf。
AndwhenPaulappeared,flushedwiththetriumphofgettingthroughanexamination,andreadytoflirtwithanyprettygirl,Helenmethimhalfway,ormorethanhalfway,andturnedtowardshimontheSundayevening。
HehadbeentalkingofhisapproachingexileinNigeria,andheshouldhavecontinuedtotalkofit,andallowedtheirguesttorecover。Buttheheaveofherbosomflatteredhim。
Passionwaspossible,andhebecamepassionate。Deepdowninhimsomethingwhispered,“Thisgirlwouldletyoukissher;youmightnothavesuchachanceagain。“
Thatwas“howithappened,“or,rather,howHelendescribedittohersister,usingwordsevenmoreunsympatheticthanmyown。Butthepoetryofthatkiss,thewonderofit,themagicthattherewasinlifeforhoursafterit——whocandescribethat?ItissoeasyforanEnglishmantosneeratthesechancecollisionsofhumanbeings。Totheinsularcynicandtheinsularmoralisttheyofferanequalopportunity。Itissoeasytotalkof“passingemotion,“
andhowtoforgethowvividtheemotionwasereitpassed。Ourimpulsetosneer,toforget,isatrootagoodone。Werecognizethatemotionisnotenough,andthatmenandwomenarepersonalitiescapableofsustainedrelations,notmereopportunitiesforanelectricaldischarge。Yetweratetheimpulsetoohighly。Wedonotadmitthatbycollisionsofthistrivialsortthedoorsofheavenmaybeshakenopen。ToHelen,atallevents,herlifewastobringnothingmoreintensethantheembraceofthisboywhoplayednopartinit。Hehaddrawnheroutofthehouse,wheretherewasdangerofsurpriseandlight;hehadledherbyapathheknew,untiltheystoodunderthecolumnofthevastwych-elm。
Amaninthedarkness,hehadwhispered“Iloveyou“whenshewasdesiringlove。Intimehisslenderpersonalityfaded,thescenethathehadevokedendured。Inallthevariableyearsthatfollowedsheneversawthelikeofitagain。
“Iunderstand,“saidMargaret——“atleast,Iunderstandasmuchaseverisunderstoodofthesethings。TellmenowwhathappenedontheMondaymorning。“
“Itwasoveratonce。“
“How,Helen?“
“IwasstillhappywhileIdressed,butasIcamedownstairsIgotnervous,andwhenIwentintothedining-roomIknewitwasnogood。TherewasEvie——Ican\'texplain——managingthetea-urn,andMr。WilcoxreadingtheTimes。“
“WasPaulthere?“
“Yes;andCharleswastalkingtohimaboutStocksandShares,andhelookedfrightened。“
Byslightindicationsthesisterscouldconveymuchtoeachother。Margaretsawhorrorlatentinthescene,andHelen\'snextremarkdidnotsurpriseher。
“Somehow,whenthatkindofmanlooksfrighteneditistooawful。Itisallrightforustobefrightened,orformenofanothersort——father,forinstance;butformenlikethat!
WhenIsawalltheotherssoplacid,andPaulmadwithterrorincaseI
saidthewrongthing,IfeltforamomentthatthewholeWilcoxfamilywasafraud,justawallofnewspapersandmotor-carsandgolf-clubs,andthatifitfellIshouldfindnothingbehinditbutpanicandemptiness。
“
“Idon\'tthinkthat。TheWilcoxesstruckmeasbeinggenuinepeople,particularlythewife。“
“No,Idon\'treallythinkthat。ButPaulwassobroad-shouldered;allkindsofextraordinarythingsmadeitworse,andIknewthatitwouldneverdo——never。Isaidtohimafterbreakfast,whentheotherswerepractisingstrokes,\'Weratherlostourheads,\'andhelookedbetteratonce,thoughfrightfullyashamed。Hebeganaspeechabouthavingnomoneytomarryon,butithurthimtomakeit,andI——stoppedhim。Thenhesaid,\'Imustbegyourpardonoverthis,MissSchlegel;Ican\'tthinkwhatcameovermelastnight。\'AndIsaid,\'Norwhatoverme;nevermind。\'Andthenweparted——atleast,untilIrememberedthatIhadwrittenstraightofftotellyouthenightbefore,andthatfrightenedhimagain。Iaskedhimtosendatelegramforme,forheknewyouwouldbecomingorsomething;andhetriedtogetholdofthemotor,butCharlesandMr。Wilcoxwantedittogotothestation;andCharlesofferedtosendthetelegramforme,andthenIhadtosaythatthetelegramwasofnoconsequence,forPaulsaidCharlesmightreadit,andthoughIwroteitoutseveraltimes,healwayssaidpeoplewouldsuspectsomething。
Hetookithimselfatlast,pretendingthathemustwalkdowntogetcartridges,and,whatwithonethingandtheother,itwasnothandedinatthePostOfficeuntiltoolate。Itwasthemostterriblemorning。Pauldislikedmemoreandmore,andEvietalkedcricketaveragestillInearlyscreamed。IcannotthinkhowIstoodheralltheotherdays。
AtlastCharlesandhisfatherstartedforthestation,andthencameyourtelegramwarningmethatAuntJuleywascomingbythattrain,andPaul——oh,ratherhorrible——saidthatIhadmuddledit。ButMrs。Wilcoxknew。“
“Knewwhat?“
“Everything;thoughweneitherofustoldheraword,andhadknownallalong,Ithink。“
“Oh,shemusthaveoverheardyou。“
“Isupposeso,butitseemedwonderful。WhenCharlesandAuntJuleydroveup,callingeachothernames,Mrs。Wilcoxsteppedinfromthegardenandmadeeverythinglessterrible。Ugh!
butithasbeenadisgustingbusiness。Tothinkthat——“Shesighed。
“Tothinkthatbecauseyouandayoungmanmeetforamoment,theremustbeallthesetelegramsandanger,“suppliedMargaret。
Helennodded。
“I\'veoftenthoughtaboutit,Helen。It\'soneofthemostinterestingthingsintheworld。ThetruthisthatthereisagreatouterlifethatyouandIhavenevertouched——alifeinwhichtelegramsandangercount。Personalrelations,thatwethinksupreme,arenotsupremethere。Therelovemeansmarriagesettlements,death,deathduties。SofarI\'mclear。Butheremydifficulty。
Thisouterlife,thoughobviouslyhorrid,oftenseemstherealone——there\'sgritinit。Itdoesbreedcharacter。Dopersonalrelationsleadtosloppinessintheend?“
“Oh,Meg,that\'swhatIfelt,onlynotsoclearly,whentheWilcoxesweresocompetent,andseemedtohavetheirhandsonalltheropes。“
“Don\'tyoufeelitnow?“
“IrememberPaulatbreakfast,“saidHelenquietly。
“Ishallneverforgethim。Hehadnothingtofallbackupon。
Iknowthatpersonalrelationsarethereallife,foreverandever。
“Amen!“
SotheWilcoxepisodefellintothebackground,leavingbehinditmemoriesofsweetnessandhorrorthatmingled,andthesisterspursuedthelifethatHelenhadcommended。Theytalkedtoeachotherandtootherpeople,theyfilledthetallthinhouseatWickhamPlacewiththosewhomtheylikedorcouldbefriend。Theyevenattendedpublicmeetings。Intheirownfashiontheycareddeeplyaboutpolitics,thoughnotaspoliticianswouldhaveuscare;theydesiredthatpubliclifeshouldmirrorwhateverisgoodinthelifewithin。Temperance,tolerance,andsexualequalitywereintelligiblecriestothem;whereastheydidnotfollowourForwardPolicyinThibetwiththekeenattentionthatitmerits,andwouldattimesdismissthewholeBritishEmpirewithapuzzled,ifreverent,sigh。Notoutofthemaretheshowsofhistoryerected:theworldwouldbeagrey,bloodlessplacewereitentirelycomposedofMissSchlegels。Buttheworldbeingwhatitis,perhapstheyshineoutinitlikestars。
Awordontheirorigin。Theywerenot“Englishtothebackbone,“astheiraunthadpiouslyasserted。But,ontheotherband,theywerenot“Germansofthedreadfulsort。“TheirfatherhadbelongedtoatypethatwasmoreprominentinGermanyfiftyyearsagothannow。HewasnottheaggressiveGerman,sodeartotheEnglishjournalist,northedomesticGerman,sodeartotheEnglishwit。
IfoneclassedhimatallitwouldbeasthecountrymanofHegelandKant,astheidealist,inclinedtobedreamy,whoseImperialismwastheImperialismoftheair。Notthathislifehadbeeninactive。HehadfoughtlikeblazesagainstDenmark,Austria,France。Buthehadfoughtwithoutvisualizingtheresultsofvictory。AhintofthetruthbrokeonhimafterSedan,whenhesawthedyedmoustachesofNapoleongoinggrey;
anotherwhenheenteredParis,andsawthesmashedwindowsoftheTuileries。
Peacecame——itwasallveryimmense,onehadturnedintoanEmpire——butheknewthatsomequalityhadvanishedforwhichnotallAlsace-Lorrainecouldcompensatehim。GermanyacommercialPower,GermanyanavalPower,GermanywithcolonieshereandaForwardPolicythere,andlegitimateaspirationsintheotherplace,mightappealtoothers,andbefitlyservedbythem;forhisownpart,heabstainedfromthefruitsofvictory,andnaturalizedhimselfinEngland。Themoreearnestmembersofhisfamilyneverforgavehim,andknewthathischildren,thoughscarcelyEnglishofthedreadfulsort,wouldneverbeGermantothebackbone。HehadobtainedworkinoneofourprovincialUniversities,andtheremarriedPoorEmilyorDieEnglä;nderinasthecasemaybe,andasshehadmoney,theyproceededtoLondon,andcametoknowagoodmanypeople。
Buthisgazewasalwaysfixedbeyondthesea。ItwashishopethatthecloudsofmaterialismobscuringtheFatherlandwouldpartintime,andthemildintellectuallightre-emerge。“DoyouimplythatweGermansarestupid,UncleErnst?“exclaimedahaughtyandmagnificentnephew。
UncleErnstreplied,“Tomymind。Youusetheintellect,butyounolongercareaboutit。ThatIcallstupidity。“Asthehaughtynephewdidnotfollow,hecontinued,“Youonlycareaboutthe\'thingsthatyoucanuse,andthereforearrangetheminthefollowingorder:Money,supremelyuseful;intellect,ratheruseful;imagination,ofnouseatall。
No“——fortheotherhadprotested——“yourPan-GermanismisnomoreimaginativethanisourImperialismoverhere。Itistheviceofavulgarmindtobethrilledbybigness,tothinkthatathousandsquaremilesareathousandtimesmorewonderfulthanonesquaremile,andthatamillionsquaremilesarealmostthesameasheaven。Thatisnotimagination。
No,itkillsit。Whentheirpoetsoverheretrytocelebratebignesstheyaredeadatonce,andnaturally。Yourpoetstooaredying,yourphilosophers,yourmusicians,towhomEuropehaslistenedfortwohundredyears。Gone。Gonewiththelittlecourtsthatnurturedthem——gonewithEsterhazandWeimar。What?What\'sthat?YourUniversities?
Oh,yes,youhavelearnedmen,whocollectmorefactsthandothelearnedmenofEngland。Theycollectfacts,andfacts,andempiresoffacts。
Butwhichofthemwillrekindlethelightwithin?“
ToallthisMargaretlistened,sittingonthehaughtynephew\'sknee。
Itwasauniqueeducationforthelittlegirls。
ThehaughtynephewwouldbeatWickhamPlaceoneday,bringingwithhimanevenhaughtierwife,bothconvincedthatGermanywasappointedbyGodtogoverntheworld。AuntJuleywouldcomethenextday,convincedthatGreatBritainhadbeenappointedtothesamepostbythesameauthority。
Wereboththeseloud-voicedpartiesright?Ononeoccasiontheyhadmet,andMargaretwithclaspedhandshadimploredthemtoarguethesubjectoutinherpresence。Whereattheyblushed,andbegantotalkabouttheweather。“Papa“shecried——shewasamostoffensivechild——“whywilltheynotdiscussthismostclearquestion?“Herfather,surveyingthepartiesgrimly,repliedthathedidnotknow。Puttingherheadononeside,Margaretthenremarked,“Tomeoneoftwothingsisveryclear;
eitherGoddoesnotknowhisownmindaboutEnglandandGermany,orelsethesedonotknowthemindofGod。“Ahatefullittlegirl,butatthirteenshehadgraspedadilemmathatmostpeopletravelthroughlifewithoutperceiving。Herbraindartedupanddown;itgrewpliantandstrong。
Herconclusionwas,thatanyhumanbeingliesnearertotheunseenthananyorganization,andfromthisshenevervaried。
Helenadvancedalongthesamelines,thoughwithamoreirresponsibletread。Incharactersheresembledhersister,butshewaspretty,andsoapttohaveamoreamusingtime。Peoplegatheredroundhermorereadily,especiallywhentheywerenewacquaintances,andshedidenjoyalittlehomageverymuch。WhentheirfatherdiedandtheyruledaloneatWickhamPlace,sheoftenabsorbedthewholeofthecompany,whileMargaret——bothweretremendoustalkers——fellflat。
Neithersisterbotheredaboutthis。Helenneverapologizedafterwards,Margaretdidnotfeeltheslightestrancour。Butlookshavetheirinfluenceuponcharacter。Thesisterswerealikeaslittlegirls,butatthetimeoftheWilcoxepisodetheirmethodswerebeginningtodiverge;
theyoungerwasratherapttoenticepeople,and,inenticingthem,tobeherselfenticed;theelderwentstraightahead,andacceptedanoccasionalfailureaspartofthegame。
LittleneedbepremisedaboutTibby。Hewasnowanintelligentmanofsixteen,butdyspepticanddifficile。Chapter5ItwillbegenerallyadmittedthatBeethoven\'sFifthSymphonyisthemostsublimenoisethathaseverpenetratedintotheearofman。Allsortsandconditionsaresatisfiedbyit。WhetheryouarelikeMrs。Munt,andtapsurreptitiouslywhenthetunescome——ofcourse,notsoastodisturbtheothers——;orlikeHelen,whocanseeheroesandshipwrecksinthemusic\'sflood;orlikeMargaret,whocanonlyseethemusic;orlikeTibby,whoisprofoundlyversedincounterpoint,andholdsthefullscoreopenonhisknee;orliketheircousin,Frä;uleinMosebach,whoremembersallthetimethatBeethovenis“echtDeutsch“;orlikeFrä;uleinMosebach\'syoungman,whocanremembernothingbutFrä;uleinMosebach:inanycase,thepassionofyourlifebecomesmorevivid,andyouareboundtoadmitthatsuchanoiseischeapattwoshillings。Itischeap,evenifyouhearitintheQueen\'sHall,dreariestmusic-roominLondon,thoughnotasdrearyastheFreeTradeHall,Manchester;andevenifyousitontheextremeleftofthathall,sothatthebrassbumpsatyoubeforetherestoftheorchestraarrives,itisstillcheap。
“WhoisMargarettalkingto?“saidMrs。Munt,attheconclusionofthefirstmovement。ShewasagaininLondononavisittoWickhamPlace。
Helenlookeddownthelonglineoftheirparty,andsaidthatshedidnotknow。
“Woulditbesomeyoungmanorotherwhomshetakesaninterestin?“
“Iexpectso,“Helenreplied。Musicenwrappedher,andshecouldnotenterintothedistinctionthatdividesyoungmenwhomonetakesaninterestinfromyoungmenwhomoneknows。
“Yougirlsaresowonderfulinalwayshaving——Ohdear!onemustn\'ttalk。“
FortheAndantehadbegun——verybeautiful,butbearingafamilylikenesstoalltheotherbeautifulAndantesthatBeethovenhadwritten,and,toHelen\'smind,ratherdisconnectingtheheroesandshipwrecksofthefirstmovementfromtheheroesandgoblinsofthethird。Sheheardthetunethroughonce,andthenherattentionwandered,andshegazedattheaudience,ortheorgan,orthearchitecture。MuchdidshecensuretheattenuatedCupidswhoencircletheceilingoftheQueen\'sHall,incliningeachtoeachwithvapidgesture,andcladinsallowpantaloons,onwhichtheOctobersunlightstruck。“HowawfultomarryamanlikethoseCupids!“thoughtHelen。HereBeethovenstarteddecoratinghistune,sosheheardhimthroughoncemore,andthenshesmiledathercousinFrieda。ButFrieda,listeningtoClassicalMusic,couldnotrespond。
HerrLiesecke,too,lookedasifwildhorsescouldnotmakehiminattentive;
therewerelinesacrosshisforehead,hislipswereparted,hispince-nezatrightanglestohisnose,andhehadlaidathick,whitehandoneitherknee。AndnexttoherwasAuntJuley,soBritish,andwantingtotap。Howinterestingthatrowofpeoplewas!Whatdiverseinfluenceshadgonetothemaking!HereBeethoven,afterhummingandhawingwithgreatsweetness,said“Heigho,“andtheAndantecametoanend。
Applause,andaroundof“wunderschö;ning“and“prachtvolleying“fromtheGermancontingent。Margaretstartedtalkingtohernewyoungman;Helensaidtoheraunt:“Nowcomesthewonderfulmovement:firstofallthegoblins,andthenatrioofelephantsdancing;“andTibbyimploredthecompanygenerallytolookoutforthetransitionalpassageonthedrum。
“Onthewhat,dear?“
“Onthedrum,AuntJuley。“
“No;lookoutforthepartwhereyouthinkyouhavedonewiththegoblinsandtheycomeback,“breathedHelen,asthemusicstartedwithagoblinwalkingquietlyovertheuniverse,fromendtoend。
Othersfollowedhim。Theywerenotaggressivecreatures;itwasthatthatmadethemsoterribletoHelen。Theymerelyobservedinpassingthattherewasnosuchthingassplendourorheroismintheworld。
Aftertheinterludeofelephantsdancing,theyreturnedandmadetheobservationforthesecondtime。Helencouldnotcontradictthem,for,onceatallevents,shehadfeltthesame,andhadseenthereliablewallsofyouthcollapse。Panicandemptiness!Panicandemptiness!Thegoblinswereright。
Herbrotherraisedhisfinger:itwasthetransitionalpassageonthedrum。
For,asifthingsweregoingtoofar,Beethoventookholdofthegoblinsandmadethemdowhathewanted。Heappearedinperson。Hegavethemalittlepush,andtheybegantowalkinmajorkeyinsteadofinaminor,andthen——heblewwithhismouthandtheywerescattered!Gustsofsplendour,godsanddemigodscontendingwithvastswords,colourandfragrancebroadcastonthefieldofbattle,magnificentvictory,magnificentdeath!Oh,itallburstbeforethegirl,andsheevenstretchedoutherglovedhandsasifitwastangible。
Anyfatewastitanic;anycontestdesirable;conquerorandconqueredwouldalikebeapplaudedbytheangelsoftheutmoststars。
Andthegoblins——theyhadnotreallybeenthereatall?Theywereonlythephantomsofcowardiceandunbelief?
Onehealthyhumanimpulsewoulddispelthem?MenliketheWilcoxes,orPresidentRoosevelt,wouldsayyes。Beethovenknewbetter。
Thegoblinsreallyhadbeenthere。Theymightreturn——andtheydid。
Itwasasifthesplendouroflifemightboilover——andwastetosteamandfroth。Initsdissolutiononeheardtheterrible,ominousnote,andagoblin,withincreasedmalignity,walkedquietlyovertheuniversefromendtoend。Panicandemptiness!Panicandemptiness!
Eventheflamingrampartsoftheworldmightfall。
Beethovenchosetomakeallrightintheend。
Hebuilttherampartsup。Heblewwithhismouthforthesecondtime,andagainthegoblinswerescattered。Hebroughtbackthegustsofsplendour,theheroism,theyouth,themagnificenceoflifeandofdeath,and,amidvastroaringsofasuperhumanjoy,heledhisFifthSymphonytoitsconclusion。
Butthegoblinswerethere。Theycouldreturn。Hehadsaidsobravely,andthatiswhyonecantrustBeethovenwhenhesaysotherthings。
Helenpushedherwayoutduringtheapplause。
Shedesiredtobealone。Themusicsummeduptoherallthathadhappenedorcouldhappeninhercareer。Shereaditasatangiblestatement,whichcouldneverbesuperseded。Thenotesmeantthisandthattoher,andtheycouldhavenoothermeaning,andlifecouldhavenoothermeaning。Shepushedrightoutofthebuilding,andwalkedslowlydowntheoutsidestaircase,breathingtheautumnalair,andthenshestrolledhome。
“Margaret,“calledMrs。Munt,“isHelenallright?“
“Ohyes。“
“Sheisalwaysgoingawayinthemiddleofaprogramme,“
saidTibby。
“Themusichasevidentlymovedherdeeply,“saidFrä;uleinMosebach。
“Excuseme,“saidMargaret\'syoungman,whohadforsometimebeenpreparingasentence,“butthatladyhas,quiteinadvertently,takenmyumbrella。“
“Oh,goodgraciousme!——Iamsosorry。Tibby,runafterHelen。“
“IshallmisstheFourSeriousSongsifIdo。“
“Tibbylove,youmustgo。“
“Itisn\'tofanyconsequence,“saidtheyoungman,intruthalittleuneasyabouthisumbrella。
“Butofcourseitis。Tibby!Tibby!“
Tibbyrosetohisfeet,andwilfullycaughthispersononthebacksofthechairs。Bythetimehehadtippeduptheseatandhadfoundhishat,andhaddepositedhisfullscoreinsafety,itwas“toolate“togoafterHelen。TheFourSeriousSongshadbegun,andonecouldnotmoveduringtheirperformance。
“Mysisterissocareless,“whisperedMargaret。
“Notatall,“repliedtheyoungman;buthisvoicewasdeadandcold。
“Ifyouwouldgivemeyouraddress——“
“Oh,notatall,notatall;“andhewrappedhisgreatcoatoverhisknees。