Why,Iamproudtorememberthathehasbeentomeasabrother,andI
lovehimasasister,andIloveyoudoublybecausehehashonouredyouwithhislove。’’Come,that’snotcomplimentary!’saidCynthia,laughing,butnotill—pleasedtohearherlover’spraises,andevenwillingtodepreciatehimalittleinordertohearmore。’He’swellenough,Idaresay,andagreatdealtoolearnedandcleverforastupidgirllikeme;butevenyoumustacknowledgeheisveryplainandawkward;andIlikeprettythingsandprettypeople。’’Cynthia,Iwon’ttalktoyouabouthim。Youknowyoudon’tmeanwhatyouaresaying,andyouonlysayitoutofcontradiction,becauseIpraisehim。Heshan’tberundownbyyou,eveninjoke。’’Well,then,wewon’ttalkofhimatall。Iwassosurprisedwhenhebegantospeak—so——’andCynthialookedverylovely,blushinganddimplingupassherememberedhiswordsandlooks。Suddenlysherecalledherselftothepresenttime,andhereyecaughtontheleaffullofblackberries—thebroadgreenleaf,sofreshandcrispwhenMollyhadgathereditanhourorsoago,butnowsoftandflabby,anddying。Mollysawit,too,andfeltastrangekindofsympatheticpityforthepoorinanimateleaf。’Oh!whatblackberries!you’vegatheredthemforme,Iknow!’saidCynthia,sittingdownandbeginningtofeedherselfdaintily,touchingthemlightlywiththeendsofhertaperfingers,anddroppingeachripeberryintoheropenmouth。Whenshehadeatenabouthalfshestoppedsuddenlyshort。’HowIshouldliketohavegoneasfarasPariswithhim,’sheexclaimed。
’Isupposeitwouldnothavebeenproper;buthowpleasantitwouldhavebeen。IrememberatBoulogne’(anotherblackberry)’howIusedtoenvytheEnglishwhoweregoingtoParis;itseemedtomethenasifnobodystoppedatBoulogne,butdull,stupidschool—girls。’’Whenwillhebethere?’askedMolly。’OnWednesday,hesaid。I’mtowritetohimthere;atanyrateheisgoingtowritetome。’Mollywentabouttheadjustmentofherdressinaquiet,business—likemanner,notspeakingmuch;Cynthia,althoughsittingstill,seemedveryrestless。Oh!howmuchMollywishedthatshewouldgo。’Perhaps,afterall,’saidCynthia,afterapauseofapparentmeditation,’weshallneverbemarried。’’Whydoyousaythat?’saidMolly,almostbitterly。’Youhavenothingtomakeyouthinkso。Iwonderhowyoucanbeartothinkyouwon’t,evenforamoment。’’Oh!’saidCynthia;’youmustnotgoandtakemeaugrandsé;rieux。
IdaresayIdon’tmeanwhatIsay,butyouseeeverythingseemsadreamatpresent。Still,Ithinkthechancesareequal—thechancesforandagainstourmarriage,Imean。Twoyears!it’salongtime;hemaychangehismind,orImay;orsomeoneelsemayturnup,andsayI’mengagedtohim:whatshouldyouthinkofthat,Molly?I’mputtingsuchagloomythingasdeathquiteononeside,yousee;yetintwoyearshowmuchmayhappen。’’Don’ttalkso,Cynthia,pleasedon’t,’saidMolly,piteously。’Onewouldthinkyoudidnotcareforhim,andhecaressomuchforyou!’’Why,didIsayIdidnotcareforhim!Iwasonlycalculatingchances。
IamsureIhopenothingwillhappentopreventthemarriage。Only,youknowitmay,andIthoughtIwastakingastepinwisdom,inlookingforwardtoalltheevilsthatmightbefall。IamsureallthewisepeopleIhaveeverknownthoughtitavirtuetohavegloomyprognosticsofthefuture。