Iwanttomakeyourhomeaplaceofrestandcomforttoyou;andIdosowishtocherishyoursweetMolly,asIhopetodo,whenIcometobehermother。Ican’ttakevirtuetomyselfwhichdoesn’tbelongtome。IfI
havetospeakformyself,Ishallsay,\"Goodpeople,findaschoolforyourdaughtersbyMichaelmas,—forafterthattimeImustgoandmakethehappinessofothers。\"Ican’tbeartothinkofyourlongridesinNovember—cominghomewetatnightwithnoonetotakecareofyou。Oh!ifyouleaveittome,Ishalladvisetheparentstotaketheirdaughtersawayfromthecareofonewhoseheartwillbeabsent。ThoughIcouldn’tconsenttoanytimebeforeMichaelmas—thatwouldn’tbefairorright,andI’msureyouwouldn’turgeme—youaretoogood。’’Well,ifyouthinkthattheywillconsiderwehaveacteduprightlybythem,letitbeMichaelmaswithallmyheart。WhatdoesLadyCumnorsay?’’Oh!ItoldherIwasafraidyouwouldn’tlikewaiting,becauseofyourdifficultieswithyourservants,andbecauseofMolly—itwouldbesodesirabletoenteronthenewrelationshipwithherassoonaspossible。’’Tobesure;soitwould。Poorchild!I’mafraidtheintelligenceofmyengagementhasratherstartledher。’’Cynthiawillfeelitdeeply,too,’saidMrsKirkpatrick,unwillingtoletherdaughterbebehindMrGibson’sinsensibilityandaffection。’Wewillhaveherovertothewedding!SheandMollyshallbebridesmaids,’
saidMrGibson,intheunguardedwarmthofhisheart。ThisplandidnotquitesuitMrsKirkpatrick;butshethoughtitbestnottoopposeit,untilshehadapresentableexcusetogive,andperhapsalsosomereasonwouldnaturallyariseoutoffuturecircumstances;soatthistimesheonlysmiled,andsoftlypressedthehandsheheldinhers。ItisaquestionwhetherMrsKirkpatrickorMollywishedthemostforthedaytobeoverwhichtheyweretospendtogetherattheTowers。MrsKirkpatrickwasratherwearyofgirlsasaclass。Allthetrialsofherlifewereconnectedwithgirlsinsomeway。Shewasveryyoungwhenshefirstbecameagoverness,andhadbeenworstedinherstruggleswithherpupils,inthefirstplacesheeverwentto。Hereleganceofappearanceandmanner,andheraccomplishments,morethanhercharacterandacquirements,hadrendereditmoreeasyforherthanformosttoobtaingood’situations;’andshehadbeenabsolutelypettedinsome;butstillshewasconstantlyencounteringnaughtyorstubborn,orover—conscientious,orsevere—judging,orcuriousandobservantgirls。
Andagain,beforeCynthiawasborn,shehadlongedforaboy,thinkingitpossiblethatifsomethreeorfourinterveningrelationsdied,hemightcometobeabaronet;andinsteadofason,loandbeholditwasadaughter!
Nevertheless,withallherdisliketogirlsintheabstractas’theplaguesofherlife’(andheraversionwasnotdiminishedbythefactofherhavingkeptaschoolfor’youngladies’atAshcombe),shereallymeanttobeaskindasshecouldbetohernewstep—daughter,whomsherememberedprincipallyasablack—haired,sleepychild,inwhoseeyesshehadreadadmirationofherself。MrsKirkpatrickacceptedMrGibsonprincipallybecauseshewastiredofthestruggleofearningherownlivelihood;butshelikedhimpersonally—nay,sheevenlovedhiminhertorpidway,andsheintendedtobegoodtohisdaughter,thoughshefeltasifitwouldhavebeeneasierforhertohavebeengoodtohisson。Mollywasbracingherselfupinherwaytoo。’IwillbelikeHarriet。I