Thetimeshetooktomeetmylastremarkisnaturallynotrepresentedbythisprolongedglanceofmineattheamountofsuggestionthatjustthenhappenedtoreachmefromtheotherquarter。ItatalleventsdulycameoutbetweenusthatMrs。ServerwasthepersonIdidhaveonmymind;
andIrememberthatithadseemedtomeattheendofaminutetomattercomparativelylittlebywhichofus,afterall,shewasfirstdesignated。
Thereisperhapsanoddity——whichImustsetdowntomyemotionofthemoment——inmynotnowbeingabletosay。IshouldhavebeenhugelystartledifthesightofGilbertLonghadappearedtomakemycompanionsuddenlythinkofher;andreminiscenceofthatshockisnotoneofthoseIhavefoundmyselfstoringup。Whatdoesabidewithmeisthememoryofhow,afteralittle,myapprehensions,ofvariouskinds,dropped——mostofallunderthedeepeningconvictionthatLadyJohnwasnotawhitlessagreeablysuperficialthanIcouldevenattheworsthavedesired。Thepointestablishedformewasthat,whereasshepassedwithherselfandsomanyothersastakingineverything,shehadtakeninnothingwhateverthatitwastomypurposesheshouldnottake。Vast,truly,wastheworldofobservation,thatwecouldbothgleaninitsoactivelywithoutcrossingeachother’ssteps。Therewestoodclosetogether,yet——savefortheaccidentofafinaldash,asIshallnote——wereatoppositeendsofthefield。
It’samatterastowhichthetruthsoundspriggish,butIcan’thelpitif——yes,positively——itaffectedmeashopelesslyvulgartohavemadeanyinductionatallaboutourcompanionsBUTthoseIhaverecorded,insuchdetail,onbehalfofmyownenergy。Itwasbetterverilynottohavetouchedthem——whichwasthecaseofeveryoneelse——thantohavetakenthemup,withknowinggestures,onlytodosolittlewiththem。ThatIfelttheinterestofMayServer,thatMayServerfelttheinterestofpoorBriss,andthatmyfeelingincongruouslypresenteditselfasputtingup,philosophically,withtheinconvenienceofthelady’s——thesewere,infine,circumstancestowhichsheclearlyattachedideastoocommonplaceformetojudgeitusefultogatherthemin。Shereadallthings,LadyJohn,heavenknows,inthelightoftheuniversalpossibilityofa\"relation\";butmostoftherelationsthatshehaduphersleevecouldthrustthemselvesintomytheoryonlytofindthemselves,thenextminute,eliminated。Theywereofaliensubstance——insolubleinthewhole。GilbertLonghadforhernoconnection,inmydeepersense,withMrs。Server,norMrs。ServerwithGilbertLong,northehusbandwiththewife,northewifewiththehusband,norIwitheithermemberofeitherpair,noranyonewithanything,noranythingwithanyone。ShewasthusexactlywhereIwantedhertobe,for,frankly,Ibecameconscious,atthisclimaxofmyconclusion,thatIalittlewantedhertobewhereshebaddistinctlyendedbybetrayingtomethatherproperinspirationhadplacedher。IfIhavejustsaidthatmyapprehensions,ofvariouskinds,hadfinallyandcompletelysubsided,amoreexactstatementwouldperhapshavebeenthatfromthemomentoureyesmetovertheshowofourcoupleonthesofa,thequestionofanyothercalculablethingthanTHAThintofarelationhadsimplyknownitselfsuperseded。
Reducedtoitsplainestterms,thissketchofanimprovedacquaintancebetweenourcomradeswasdesignedtomakeLadyJohnthink。Itwasdesignedtomakemedonoless,butwethought,inevitably,ondifferentlines。