May18,1907。
Thetwoweeksthathavepassedhavebeenbusy,andmay,astimegoeson,proveeventful。IreallythinktheyhaveplacedmeinadifferentpositionwiththeBlueMountaineers——certainlysofarasthoseinthispartofthecountryareconcerned。Theyarenolongersuspiciousofme——whichismuch;thoughtheyhavenotyetreceivedmeintotheirconfidence。Isupposethiswillcomeintime,butImustnottrytohustlethem。Alreadytheyarewilling,sofarasIcansee,tousemetotheirownends。Theyacceptedthesignallingideaveryreadily,andarequitewillingtodrillasmuchasIlike。Thiscanbe(andIthinkis,initsway)apleasuretothem。Theyarebornsoldiers,everymanofthem;andpracticetogetherisonlyarealizationoftheirownwishesandafurtherdevelopmentoftheirpowers。IthinkIcanunderstandthetrendoftheirthoughts,andwhatideasofpublicpolicyliebehindthem。Inallthatwehaveattemptedtogetherasyettheyarethemselvesinabsolutepower。ItrestswiththemtocarryoutanyideasImaysuggest,sotheydonotfearanyassumptionofpowerorgovernanceonmypart。Thus,solongastheykeepsecretfrommeboththeirideasofhighpolicyandtheirimmediateintentions,Iampowerlesstodothemill,andIMAYbeofserviceshouldoccasionarise。Well,alltold,thisismuch。
Alreadytheyacceptmeasanindividual,notmerelyoneofthemass。
Iamprettysurethattheyaresatisfiedofmypersonalbonafides。
Itispolicyandnotmistrustthathedgesmein。Well,policyisamatteroftime。Theyareasplendidpeople,butiftheyknewalittlemorethantheydotheywouldunderstandthatthewisestofallpoliciesistrust——whenitcanbegiven。Imustholdmyselfincheck,andneverbebetrayedintoaharshthoughttowardsthem。Poorsouls!withathousandyearsbehindthemofTurkishaggression,strenuouslyattemptedbybothforceandfraud,nowondertheyaresuspicious。Likewiseeveryothernationwithwhomtheyhaveevercomeincontact——exceptone,myown——hasdeceivedorbetrayedthem。