Speakinggenerally,thereisnoviceofthiskindmorecontemptiblethananother;foreachisbutaresultandoutwardsignofasoultragicallyship—wrecked。Inthemajorityofcases,cheappleasureisresortedtobywayofanodyne。Thepleasure—seekersetsforthuponlifewithhighanddifficultambitions;hemeanttobenoblygoodandnoblyhappy,thoughataslittlepainsaspossibletohimself;anditisbecauseallhasfailedinhiscelestialenterprisethatyounowbeholdhimrollinginthegarbage。Hencethecomparativesuccessoftheteetotalpledge;becausetoamanwhohadnothingitsetsatleastanegativeaiminlife。Somewhatasprisonersbeguiletheirdaysbytamingaspider,thereformeddrunkardmakesaninterestoutofabstainingfromintoxicatingdrinks,andmayliveforthatnegation。Thereissomething,atleast,NOTTOBEDONEeachday;andacoldtriumphawaitshimeveryevening。
Wehadoneonboardwithus,whomIhavealreadyreferredtounderthenameMackay,whoseemedtomenotonlyagoodinstanceofthisfailureinlifeofwhichwehavebeenspeaking,butagoodtypeoftheintelligencewhichheresurroundedme。PhysicallyhewasasmallScotsman,standingalittlebackasthoughhewerealreadycarryingtheelementsofacorporation,andhislookssomewhatmarredbythesmallnessofhiseyes。Mentally,hewasendowedabovetheaverage。
Therewerebutfewsubjectsonwhichhecouldnotconversewithunderstandingandadashofwit;deliveringhimselfslowlyandwithgustolikeamanwhoenjoyedhisownsententiousness。Hewasadry,quick,pertinentdebater,speakingwithasmallvoice,andswingingonhisheelstolaunchandemphasiseanargument。Whenhebeganadiscussion,hecouldnotbeartoleaveitoff,butwouldpickthesubjecttothebone,withoutoncerelinquishingapoint。Anengineerbytrade,Mackaybelievedintheunlimitedperfectibilityofallmachinesexceptthehumanmachine。Thelatterhegaveupwithridiculeforacompoundofcarrionandperversegases。HehadanappetitefordisconnectedfactswhichIcanonlycomparetothesavagetasteforbeads。Whatiscalledinformationwasindeedapassionwiththeman,andhenotonlydelightedtoreceiveit,butcouldpayyoubackinkind。
Withallthesecapabilities,herewasMackay,alreadynolongeryoung,onhiswaytoanewcountry,withnoprospects,nomoney,andbutlittlehope。Hewasalmosttediousinthecynicaldisclosuresofhisdespair。’Theshipmaygodownforme,’hewouldsay,’noworto—morrow。Ihavenothingtoloseandnothingtohope。’Andagain:
’Iamsickofthewholedamnedperformance。’Hewas,likethekindlittleman,alreadyquoted,anotherso—calledvictimofthebottle。