Lyingthere,wide—eyedandmotionless,shestoodoutsideinthoughtandlookedatthehouse——assheusedtolookatitwithhim,beforetheyweremarried。Then,ithadrousedeveryblessedhopeanddreamofweddedjoy——itseemedacasketofuncountedtreasures。Now,inthisdrearymood,itseemednotonlyamereworkshop,butoneofalientasks,continuous,impossible,likethosesetfortheImprisonedPrincessbybadfairiesintheoldtales。Inthoughtsheenteredthewell—proportioneddoor——theGateofHappiness——andamustysmellgreetedher——shehadforgottentothrowoutthoseflowers!Sheturnedtotheparlor——no,thepianokeysweregritty,onehadtocleanthemtwiceadaytokeepthatroomasshelikedit。
Fromroomtoroomsheflitted,inhermind,tryingtorecalltheexquisitethingstheymeanttoherwhenshehadplannedthem;andeachonenowopenedglaringandblank,asaplacetoworkin——andtheworkundone。
\"IfIwereanablerwoman!\"shebreathed。Andthenhercommonsenseandcommonhonestymadeherreplytoherself:\"Iamableenough——inmyownwork!Nobodycandoeverything。Idon’tbelieveEdgar’ddoitanybetterthanIdo。——Hedon’thaveto!——andthensuchawaveofbitternessrushedoverherthatshewasafraid,andreachedoutonehandtotouchthecrib——theothertoherhusband。
Heawakenedinstantly。\"Whatisit,Dear?\"heasked。\"Tootiredtosleep,youpoordarling?Butyoudolovemealittle,don’tyou?\"
\"O_yes_!\"sheanswered。\"Ido。Of_course_Ido!I’mjusttired,I