\"Olove,love,love!
Loveislikeadizziness,ItwinnaletabodyGangaboothisbusiness。\"
Iwaswretchedawayfromher,andonlylesswretchedinherpresence。Thespecialcauseofmywoewasthis:IwassimplyalittleboytoMissGlentworth。Iknewit。Ibewailedit。Igroundmyteethandweptinsecretoverthefact。IfIhadbeenaughtelseinhereyeswouldshehavesmoothedmyhairsocarelessly,sendinganelectricshockthroughmywholesystem?
Wouldshehavewalkedwithme,handinhand,forhoursintheoldgarden,andoncewhenIlayonthesofa,myheadachingwithloveandmortification,wouldshehavestoopeddownandkissedmeifIhadn’tbeenalittleboy?HowIdespisedlittleboys!HowIhatedoneparticularlittleboy—toolittletobeloved!
Ismileoverthisverygrimlyevennow。Mysorrowwasgenuineandbitter。Itisagreatmistakeonthepartofelderlypeople,maleandfemale,totellachildthatheisseeinghishappiestdays。Don’tyoubelieveawordofit,mylittlefriend。Theburdensofchildhoodareashardtobearasthecrossesthatweighusdownlaterinlife,whilethehappinessesofchildhoodaretamecomparedwiththoseofourmatureryears。Andevenifthiswerenotso,itisrankcrueltytothrowshadowsovertheyoungheartbycroaking,\"Bemerry,forto—morrowyoudie!\"