Inthemeantime,affairshadbeengoingquietlyatMercyFarm。
Lilla,ofcourse,feltlonelyintheabsenceofhercousin,buttheeventenoroflifewentonforherasforothers。Afterthefirstshockofpartingwasover,thingswentbacktotheiraccustomedroutine。Inonerespect,however,therewasamarkeddifference。
Solongashomeconditionshadremainedunchanged,Lillawascontenttoputambitionfarfromher,andtosettledowntothelifewhichhadbeenhersaslongasshecouldremember。ButMimi’smarriagesetherthinking;naturally,shecametotheconclusionthatshetoomighthaveamate。Therewasnotforhermuchchoice——therewaslittlemovementinthematrimonialdirectionatthefarmhouse。ShedidnotapproveofthepersonalityofEdgarCaswall,andhisstrugglewithMimihadfrightenedher;buthewasunmistakablyanexcellentPARTI,muchbetterthanshecouldhaveanyrighttoexpect。Thisweighsmuchwithawoman,andmoreparticularlyoneofherclass。So,onthewhole,shewascontenttoletthingstaketheircourse,andtoabidebytheissue。
Astimewenton,shehadreasontobelievethatthingsdidnotpointtohappiness。Shecouldnotshuthereyestocertaindisturbingfacts,amongstwhichweretheexistenceofLadyArabellaandhergrowingintimacywithEdgarCaswall;aswellashisowncoldandhaughtynature,solittleinaccordwiththeardourwhichisthefoundationofayoungmaid’sdreamsofhappiness。Howthingswould,ofnecessity,alterifsheweretomarry,shewasafraidtothink。
Alltold,theprospectwasnothappyforher,andshehadasecretlongingthatsomethingmightoccurtoupsettheorderofthingsasatpresentarranged。