Ireadthescientificandscepticalliteratureofmytime——allofit，atleast，thatIcouldfindwritteninEnglishandlyingabout；
andIreadnothingelse；ImeanIreadnothingelseonanyothernoteofphilosophy。ThepennydreadfulswhichIalsoreadwereindeedinahealthyandheroictraditionofChristianity；
butIdidnotknowthisatthetime。IneverreadalineofChristianapologetics。IreadaslittleasIcanofthemnow。
ItwasHuxleyandHerbertSpencerandBradlaughwhobroughtmebacktoorthodoxtheology。Theysowedinmymindmyfirstwilddoubtsofdoubt。OurgrandmotherswerequiterightwhentheysaidthatTomPaineandthefree-thinkersunsettledthemind。Theydo。
Theyunsettledminehorribly。Therationalistmademequestionwhetherreasonwasofanyusewhatever；andwhenIhadfinishedHerbertSpencerIhadgotasfarasdoubting（forthefirsttime）