Forinstance-agentlemanwhereshelivedwouldgiveheradollartohireapoormantoclearthenew-fallensnowfromthestepsandside-walks。Shewouldariseearly,andperformthelaborherself,puttingthemoneyintoherownpocket。Apoormanwouldcomealong,sayingsheoughttohavelethimhavethejob;hewaspoor,andneededthepayforhisfamily。Shewouldhardenherheartagainsthim,andanswer-’Iampoortoo,andIneeditformine。’But,inherretrospection,shethoughtofallthemiseryshemighthavebeenaddingto,inherselfishgrasping,andittroubledherconsciencesorely;andthisinsensibilitytotheclaimsofhumanbrotherhood,andthewantsofthedestituteandwretchedpoor,shenowsaw,assheneverhaddonebefore,tobeunfeeling,selfishandwicked。ThesereflectionsandconvictionsgaverisetoasuddenrevulsionoffeelingintheheartofIsabella,andshebegantolookuponmoneyandpropertywithgreatindifference,ifnotcontempt-beingatthattimeunable,probably,todiscernanydifferencebetweenamiserlygraspingatandhoardingofmoneyandmeans,andatrueuseofthegoodthingsofthislifeforone’sowncomfort,andthereliefofsuchasshemightbeenabledtobefriendandassist。Onethingshewassureof-thattheprecepts,’Dountoothersasyewouldthatothersshoulddountoyou,’’Loveyourneighborasyourself,’andsoforth,weremaximsthathadbeenbutlittlethoughtofbyherself,orpractisedbythoseabouther。
Hernextdecisionwas,thatshemustleavethecity;itwasnoplaceforher;yea,shefeltcalledinspirittoleaveit,andtotraveleastandlecture。Shehadneverbeenfurthereastthanthecity,neitherhadsheanyfriendsthereofwhomshehadparticularreasontoexpectanything;yettoheritwasplainthathermissionlayintheeast,andthatshewouldfindfriendsthere。Shedeterminedonleaving;butthesedeterminationsandconvictionsshekeptcloselockedinherownbreast,knowingthatifherchildrenandfriendswereawareofit,theywouldmakesuchanadoaboutitaswouldrenderitveryunpleasant,ifnotdistressingtoallparties。Havingmadewhatpreparationsforleavingshedeemednecessary,-whichwas,toputupafewarticlesofclothinginapillow-case,allelsebeingdeemedanunnecessaryincumbrance,-aboutanhourbeforesheleft,sheinformedMrs。Whiting,thewomanofthehousewhereshewasstopping,thathernamewasnolongerIsabella,butSOJOURNER;andthatshewasgoingeast。Andtoherinquiry,’Whatareyougoingeastfor?’heranswerwas,’TheSpiritcallsmethere,andImustgo。’
Sheleftthecityonthemorningofthe1stofJune,1843,crossingovertoBrooklyn,L。I。;andtakingtherisingsunforheronlycompassandguide,she’rememberedLot’swife,’andhopingtoavoidherfate,sheresolvednottolookbacktillshefeltsurethewickedcityfromwhichshewasfleeingwaslefttoofarbehindtobevisibleinthedistance;andwhenshefirstventuredtolookback,shecouldjustdiscernthebluecloudofsmokethathungoverit,andshethankedtheLordthatshewasthusfarremovedfromwhatseemedtoherasecondSodom。
Shewasnowfairlystartedonherpilgrimage;herbundleinonehand,andalittlebasketofprovisionsintheother,andtwoYorkshillingsinherpurse-herheartstronginthefaiththathertrueworklaybeforeher,andthattheLordwasherdirector;andshedoubtednothewouldprovideforandprotecther,andthatitwouldbeverycensurableinhertoburdenherselfwithanythingmorethanamoderatesupplyforherthenpresentneeds。Hermissionwasnotmerelytotraveleast,butto’lecture,’asshedesignatedit;’testifyingofthehopethatwasinher’-exhortingthepeopletoembraceJesus,andrefrainfromsin,thenatureandoriginofwhichsheexplainedtotheminaccordancewithherownmostcuriousandoriginalviews。Throughherlife,andallitschequeredchanges,shehaseverclungfasttoherfirstpermanentimpressionsonreligioussubjects。
Wherevernightovertookher,thereshesoughtforlodgings-free,ifshemight-ifnot,shepaid;atatavern,ifshechancedtobeatone-ifnot,ataprivatedwelling;withtherich,iftheywouldreceiveher-ifnot,withthepoor。